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blissedoutphil · 6 years ago

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Dan the Personal Assistant

Dan has to submit an application video to be an assistant for a company President, Mr. Lester. But what happens when he accidentally sends a wrong video?

Happy 2019! May this year bring shorter hiatuses from me (and d&p too lmao)

I loved this prompt and I’m happy to finally be able to write it! Sorry you had to wait months for it :’’)

4037 words of dom!Phil, sub!Dan, humiliation, blowjob

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~Part 2~

Dan fiddled with the cufflink on his shirt. Nervous would be an understatement for how he was feeling at the moment. He absolutely cannot mess this up.

Sitting in the waiting area, Dan glanced over to see his competition. All the other applicants seemed way more suitable for the job. They looked poised, calm, confident. Ready to start the job immediately. Meanwhile his hair was still a curly mess, his cheap shirt crumpled. He wasn��t sure how he passed the first round of application if these people around him were what the company was looking for.

He’d arrived later than he was supposed to and missed his interview slot, so he was expected to be turned away immediately. But apparently the company President still wanted to meet him, so there he was, about to go for his first job interview in a year. He might finally be employed again. Properly employed, instead of working random odd jobs just to survive. He watched as the final applicant before him entered the room.

Dan gulped, running through common interview questions in his head. What are his strengths? Nothing. What are his weaknesses? Everything? Was his job submission video even good enough to be able to get into this round? He could barely remember what he said in the video. He must’ve bullshitted his way through it and now he has to go even further down the spiral of lies he’d created.

Hell, Dan could barely remember even submitting the video. All he knew was that he was drunk on the final day to submit it, and his phone reminder set off to yell at him to submit it while he was enjoying a lazy drunken jack off. Dan had quickly emailed his submission so he could go back to masturbating, but til this moment he hadn’t checked if his email was proper and formal enough. He didn’t care, he must’ve done it right since he was there now anyway.

He almost jumped out of his seat when the door opened. The applicant before him gave a polite nod, and he nodded back.

Get yourself together, damn it, Dan thought, If you can bullshit your way this far, you can certainly do it in there. He walked up to the door and knocked on it, mustering up as much confidence as he could.

He heard a faint Come in, and slowly opened the door to enter the room.

“Have a seat, Mr Howell,” The company President smiled at him.

“Th-thank you,” Dan stumbled and quickly sat down.

The boss didn’t look as intimidating as Dan had thought he would be. He wasn’t old, as he would expect an accountant with his own successful company to be. Perhaps in his mid-thirties, so just a little over ten years older than Dan. His smile was comforting, welcoming. And Dan couldn’t help but be transfixed by his striking blue eyes. Dan found himself relaxing into the seat.

“So Mr Howell, first of all, congrats on passing the first round,” Mr Lester spoke, leaning back in his chair a little, “I quite enjoyed your video. You made it entertaining, unlike most submissions.”

Dan smiled, thanking him again.

“But I do feel like I still don’t know you well enough from the video itself. So maybe we can start this off with, why do you want this job?”

Dan cleared his throat a little. He was sure that he’d explained this part in his video, and he hadn’t prepared answers that were different to his video.

“Well, I did mention in the video that I think I’m suitable to be your assistant because I am meticulous. I, uh,” Dan paused, trying to come up with more half truths and recall what he’d mentioned in his video.

Mr Lester looked at him intently throughout his explanation, running his eyes up and down his face as if trying to memorise every little freckle and blemish. If it wasn’t an interview, Dan would’ve thought that Mr Lester was perhaps checking him out a little.

“Interesting,” Mr Lester offered after Dan finished speaking, “You explained that in your video? I must have missed that part then.”

Dan mentally slapped himself. The boss certainly did not sound like he bought his explanation.

“Yes I would definitely need my admin assistant to be meticulous, it’s probably the most important trait that they need to have in an accounting firm. Some applicants try out for this job when they’re the complete opposite of that,” Mr Lester shook his head and chuckled.

Dan didn’t know how to respond to that so he just chuckled uncomfortably back.

“I mean, I’ve received wrong formats of the video submission. Wrong versions. Many applicants coming to me crying and apologizing and asking me to accept a newer version. There’s no room for such mistakes in this company!”

Dan agreed, although now he was starting to get intimidated. He was slowly accepting the fact that he wouldn’t get the job, and he’d totally be fine with it. He was admittedly a careless person who could risk causing this man problems with his accounts, and he did not need that kind of trouble in his life, no matter how badly he needed the money.

“One person,” Mr Lester chuckled, a mischievous glint in his eye, “even sent me a porn video of himself!”

“What?” Dan laughed, feeling horrified on behalf of that poor applicant.

Mr Lester held eye contact with him, making Dan feel small but somehow he couldn’t look away.

“I know right? I don’t know if he was aware of it at all, because he still hasn’t gotten back to me about it. Do you think those type of people are meticulous?”

Dan shook his head no, unsure where this interview was heading. Was there a need to talk about other applicants like this?

Mr Lester was silent, and Dan bit on his lip. Was he supposed to elaborate on his answer or something?

“Yeah no, I don’t think meticulous is a word to describe that kind of person,” Dan voiced it out in case the boss wanted to hear it instead of just seeing him shake his head.

“Then why did you call yourself meticulous?” Mr Lester’s voice dropped low, deep and intimidating.

But Dan didn’t understand his question. His confusion must have been clear on his face as Mr Lester looked slightly amused. The boss silently turned his computer screen to Dan’s direction.

Mr Lester looked on in amusement as the expression on the boy in front of him changed from confusion to horror in a matter of seconds. The colour drained from his face and his mouth fell open as he sat frozen in his seat.

On the computer screen was Dan having a threesome. A threesome that he had had the day before the video submission deadline. A threesome that he’d watched while jacking off drunk before being interrupted by his phone reminding him to submit his video.

“Oh, my favourite part’s coming,” Mr Lester said very casually.

Fuck. Dan wanted to die right there. This cannot be real. Perhaps if he pinched himself hard enough, he’d wake up from this nightmare. He wanted to leave immediately but his legs couldn’t even work.

Mr Lester’s favourite part of the video was apparently when Dan managed to ride two dicks at once. Dan in the video was moaning loud as he bounced on top of one man, another man flush against his back.

“I-I gotta-” Dan managed to utter as he shakily got up, tripping over his own feet at an attempt to rush out.

This cannot be happening. How had he managed to send that video instead? Dan wanted the ground to swallow him up.

“It’s a shame you gotta go because I was about to hire you!”

Dan froze for a second time. Was this man kidding? Wasn’t the humiliation enough already, now he gotta go even further in his convoluted way of teaching Dan a lesson on meticulousness?

“Was gonna give you a higher salary than the job you originally applied for, too.”

“What do you mean?” Dan asked softly, daring himself to turn back to the boss.

“Sit back down and allow me to explain.”

Dan sighed. He wasn’t sure if he was able to face the man - the company’s fucking President - who watched him take two dicks up his ass ever again. But at the same time, his rent was overdue and he really needed the money.

He slowly sat back down but avoided eye contact, looking at his lap instead of the boss.

“I never expected to receive something like your video submission, but I am actually impressed by it, so I’m offering you to be my assistant. Not for admin though. Personal assistant, if you know what I mean,” Mr Lester leaned forward, looking dead serious.

Dan couldn’t believe what he was hearing. Was he being offered a job as a personal whore? Did this man really think Dan had no dignity in him?

“Like your personal whore or something?” Dan couldn’t help but sound offended.

“Well it does sound bad if you put it like that,” Phil chuckled sheepishly, “Let’s stick to personal assistant, yeah? I can give you a 5 figure salary for it.”

With the mention of money, Dan realised that he really did have zero dignity left.

Mr Lester took hiring him very seriously. Dan was given a contract and 3 days to read it all and sign it. He’d actually already accepted the job immediately, but Mr Lester really wanted to make sure that Dan knew what he was getting into even though he was excited that Dan was willing to do it.

Phil’s personal assistant, Dan read the top of the contract. He wondered if he would be Phil’s first ever PA, or if Phil got tired of his last one and Dan was lucky enough to accidentally submit his porn. Or if he had more PAs that Dan would be having threesomes with one day.

Reading the contract gave Dan the realisation that Phil was one kinky man. He wasn’t complaining though, he loved most of the kinks listed, and for 10 grand, he was willing to try out anything. Phil being hot was an added bonus, and Dan was honestly worried about how his first thought upon reading the kinks was that he wouldn’t mind doing it for Phil even if he wasn’t getting paid.

Dan returned to the office the next day with the signed contract, even though Phil kept asking him to give a proper think if he really wanted to do it.

But Dan really did want to do it. If he’s good at anything at all, it was sex. He would definitely enjoy this job more than some boring admin job. And why would he turn down getting paid to do what he’s good at, plus with the most attractive man he’s ever met?

Phil was more than delighted when he was finally assured that Dan was serious about accepting the offer. He sent Dan home with some instructions to start his first day of work proper the next day.

Dan had to come in an hour earlier than everyone else in the office everyday, in case Phil wanted a quickie before starting his day. Dan wondered why a man as rich and handsome as Phil doesn’t have a partner. But he didn’t dwell on it, he’s lucky that Phil was single because if not he might not have this job.

For once, Dan actually arrived on time. He was to go straight to Phil’s room, and he’d been given the key. He locked himself in the room, not sure if the rest of the office was meant to know his presence. Was he going to be Phil’s little secret? Or was Phil going to share him with other bored colleagues? He felt a tingle of excitement thinking about it.

Dan walked around the room, taking in the sight of his new workplace which he didn’t get to do much of during his other visits. Phil’s desk was huge at one end of the room. The walls of the room were all glass, overlooking the city. Dan gulped as he looked at the view, remembering that exhibition kink was listed in his contract.

There were three little couches and a small coffee table in the centre of the room, and at the end of the room was a little pantry. There was even a connecting bathroom, which Dan was grateful for because he certainly did not want to have to leave the room and face other people in the office if he needed to pee.

Dan was standing in the mini pantry contemplating whether it was acceptable of him to make a coffee without permission on his first day of work when the door swung open.

He turned around in surprise, but relaxed when he saw Phil sauntering in.

“Good morning,” Dan said softly. He knew Phil was a nice man, but he can’t help still feeling a little intimidated by him.

“Good morning, Dan,” Phil smiled brightly at him, and Dan wondered how one can be so cheerful this early in the morning.

“Excited to start your new job?” Phil asked cheekily, smirking at Dan.

Dan blushed, but he couldn’t deny that he was excited, so he nodded shyly.

“Well then first things first, you need to be in proper attire. Your uniform, if you will,” Phil spoke as he busied himself to put away his bag and papers that he was carrying.

Dan looked on curiously, wondering what his uniform was. All blood rushed to his cheeks when Phil continued speaking.

“Strip.”

Dan looked at Phil wide eyed, he didn’t expect to be naked at all times. But the idea of it was very hot, and Dan gave a small nod before turning to head to the bathroom.

“Where are you going?” Phil asked, “Do it here.”

Dan’s cheeks were so warm he wondered if it was possible to blush this much. Phil was leaning against the desk, looking at him expectantly. Dan guessed that he should probably throw whatever little dignity he had left out of the glass wall, and he slowly started unbuttoning his shirt.

“Don’t worry, I won’t let anyone see you. Unless you want to. And except any unfortunate people spying into our window,” Phil chuckled, but his gaze was intense on Dan’s now naked top.

Dan awkwardly let his shirt fall to the floor, and his trousers followed suit. Lastly, he took off his underwear and awkwardly held it in front of his crotch. He glanced up shyly to see Phil smirking at him.

Phil walked up to him and took his underwear out of his hands.

“No need to hide anything,” Phil spoke as he circled Dan, observing his boy.

“Good to see that you’ve followed my instructions,” Phil commented, taking note of how well shaven his assistant’s body was.

When Phil seemed satisfied with what he saw, he went back to lean against his desk again.

“This is how I expect to see you every morning, understand?”

“Yes, Sir,” Dan replied, feeling like it was only appropriate to address his boss as such.

Phil smiled, seemingly approving of being called Sir. He instructed Dan to keep his clothes in a drawer under the coffee table, and Dan hurriedly did so before standing awkwardly in front of his boss again.

Phil was now sat behind his desk, and Dan felt so exposed and vulnerable. He would be lying if he said it wasn’t turning him on. He willed himself not to get a boner this early in his job, it’d be embarrassing.

“Well we’ve still got a bit of time before the office opens. How’s about you show me how qualified you are for this job?” Phil said suggestively, rolling his chair back a bit.

Dan walked over and knelt between Phil’s legs, already guessing where this was going. He stared up at Phil innocently, awaiting instructions.

“Good boy,” Phil breathed, and nodded to give Dan permission to continue.

Dan slowly unzipped Phil’s pants. He’d done this many times in his life, and judging from all his random hookups, he was good at it. But he suddenly felt too aware of all his actions, felt like he really needed to do his best. Perhaps it was because he was getting paid for it this time and he did not want Phil to think he’s wasting money on someone who can’t even give a proper blowjob.

He gently tucked Phil out of his underwear, licking his lips when he saw that Phil was already half hard. He looked back up at Phil for approval. He wanted nothing more than to suck on Phil immediately. Maybe he is a cockslut, and what about it? But he thought that it was only right to let Phil take the lead, so he waited.

Phil gently threaded his hand through Dan’s curls and slowly guided his head to his cock, encouraging him with a smile. He’d watched Dan’s video more times than he’d like to admit, and ever since he saw Dan giving the two other men blowjobs, he couldn’t wait to get that pretty mouth around his own cock.

Dan happily went down, suckling on the tip. He hummed when Phil stroked his hair, loving the gentle touches. He tentatively brought his hand up and slowly wrapped it around the length that wasn’t in his mouth. Encouraged by a breathy moan by Phil, he started to suck further down.

Dan began bobbing his head, hollowing his cheeks and licking the underside of Phil’s shaft. He held the base of Phil’s cock as he sucked. Dan had given plenty of blowjobs before, but he probably only ever encountered someone as big as Phil once or twice. He tried his best to go as far down as he could, but he couldn’t fit all of Phil in his mouth.

To compensate for the lack of deepthroating abilities, Dan fondled Phil’s balls and stroked the parts he couldn’t fit in his mouth. He started to worry that Phil might find him disappointing for not being able to suck all of him in. He even wondered if he was going to get fired.

But Phil was enjoying all of it, moaning every time Dan moved up and licked his slit before going back down.

“You’re really good at this, boy,” Phil complimented, and Dan almost keened at the praise.

All of Dan’s worries disappeared upon hearing his boss praise him, and feeling his hand tangle in his hair. Dan hummed gratefully. Phil could easily push his head down to force him to take all of him in, but he liked how instead of that, Phil was being really tender with him. Perhaps this job was going to be the easiest and most fun he’d ever have.

After a while, Dan went off of Phil completely for some air, lips smacking with a pop sound. He looked up at Phil with doe eyes as he stroked him. The sight of his boss staring down at him through half lidded eyes and panting through his slightly open mouth was perhaps the most beautiful sight Dan had ever seen.

Dan gave kitten licks to Phil’s tip, all the way down to his crotch and back up again before going to suck on him properly again. Phil was throbbing and heavy against Dan’s tongue, and he sucked harder to help Phil reach his orgasm faster.

Phil moaned at the sight below him. The boy’s a natural, he thought. He was so glad that Dan had accepted the job offer, and at the moment he felt like the luckiest person in the world to have come across Dan.

He felt his orgasm approaching, but resisted the urge to fuck into the boy’s mouth. He wanted to go slow on their first day, treat him gently. Once Dan got used to this new job, he’d then gradually go harder and push his limits.

So Phil just tugged on Dan’s hair lightly and muttered a warning that he was close. Dan hummed around him, the vibrations sending shivers down his spine.

Dan could taste the salty precum as he moved faster down Phil’s cock. He swallowed around him a couple of times, earning groans from Phil.

“Gonna come, boy,” Phil warned, voice gravelly.

That signalled Dan to suck harder as one hand massaged Phil’s balls while the other stroked the base of Phil’s cock.

With a tug of Dan’s hair and a loud moan, Phil came down Dan’s throat. Dan swallowed it all, breathing harshly through his nose. He continued sucking on Phil until he couldn’t feel any more cum spurt down his mouth.

Dan only got off of Phil when Phil’s grip on his hair loosened. A string of spit and cum connected Phil’s tip to his reddened bottom lip, and Phil chuckled fondly at the sight.

‘i’m so glad I hired you,” Phil slurred, and Dan smiled shyly.

Dan had gone hard from giving the blowjob, but he barely noticed his own need to come until now. He wasn’t sure if asking to return the favour was a good idea, or if he was even allowed to touch himself. His contract did state that he was only allowed to do things when given permission, so he just sat on his heels with his palms flat on his thighs.

“I promise I’ll try to do better next time, you’re just so. Big,” Dan admitted softly, cheeks turning pink.

“Oh I definitely expect you to get better with time, but don’t worry because I’ll make sure you’ll have enough practice,” Phil smirked, “but you did really good for your first time, you were more meticulous than I expected.”

Dan rolled his eyes fondly at Phil’s praise at the end.

“Well, I better get started on my work. That was a good start to the day,” Phil ruffled Dan’s hair as he spoke.

“Uh,” Dan tried to articulate his need to come by pointing to his own hard on.

Phil chuckled down at him, “You’re getting paid to get me off, not yourself.”

And just like that his intimidating boss was back, Dan thought, and he regretted even trying to ask him for help.

“No touching yourself, got it? I’ll decide when you’ve earned it.”

Dan gulped, “Yes, Sir.”

Phil laughed a little, “Aww don’t look so worried. You’ve definitely been good enough so far to earn yourself an orgasm, but I’m afraid I don’t have time to help you out right now. Perhaps during lunch.”

Dan hoped he’d be able to control himself that long. Perhaps this job wasn’t going to be as easy as he thought earlier.

“You’re free to do whatever in here when you’re not needed. Hide in the bathroom if someone’s about to enter, or not if you don’t care for other people seeing you naked.”

Dan ended up spending his time sitting on the rug near Phil’s desk and dozing off. He was still feeling a little conscious about being fully naked in front of his boss, so he mostly sat in front of the desk where Phil could barely see his crotch.

Phil was too busy to even make small talk, but Dan didn’t mind. He enjoyed the comfortable silence that was only broken by Phil typing on the keyboard.

His boner died down soon enough, but he spent lunch receiving the best handjob he’d ever gotten in his life. He was embarrassed to have came all over his boss’s hand, but Phil merely chuckled and called him cute.

“It’s alright, boy, there’s nothing to be embarrassed about. You’ll get used to all this soon enough,” Phil had reassured him.

The rest of the day went by fairly quickly and Dan only had to hide in the bathroom once. Before he knew it, it was time to get dressed and head home.

Dan was certain that he was going to enjoy his new job. He couldn’t wait for the next day already. He can’t believe his fuck up and not being meticulous enough actually paid off.

yes I know I still have incomplete fics from last year but what do yall think about turning this into a series too? lmao let me know if I should continue it!

EDIT: Here’s Part 2!

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alittledizzy · 6 years ago

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liminality rating: t word count: 1481 Summary: Phil's never been like everyone else. Notes/Warnings: For the @phandomficfests Halloween flash fest.

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Phil knows his mum loves him. She birthed him from her very own body and she's never let him want anything in his life. She fed him at the breast as an infant, she wiped away his tears when he cried. She held his hand when they went on long walks through the wild woods nearby.

His mum's such a lovely woman. It makes him ache sometimes how much he loves her, and how much she's always tried. She rings him once a week to talk, and she always listens like she means it.

It's not her fault... how he turned out.

"In grade three my classmates locked me out of the room," Phil says. "And my teacher pretended not to notice. I stood in the hall for four hours until a custodian came by. I think he'd have pretended not to see me as well if I hadn't started to cry."

"Cunt." Dan bites down on a biscuit, sending crumbs scattering down his shirt.

"She was nice," Phil says, voice distant. He doesn't know why he's telling Dan this. He doesn't know why he tells Dan anything. He's just addicted to the sound of his own voice when Dan's around. He's addicted to the way Dan listens and doesn't have to pretend he means it. "All the other students liked her."

"You were a kid. She was a cunt." Dan brushes off his black t-shirt, then puts the packet of biscuits on the nightstand so he can turn onto his side. His fringe falls into his eyes, and he reaches up to flick it away.

Phil grabs Dan's hand. He does that a lot. He reaches out, he touches.

Dan lets him. Always. Sometimes - often - Dan even touches first.

Phil presses Dan's hand to his cheek. "You're so warm," he says.

"You're so cold." Dan leans forward and presses his lips to Phil's forehead. The kiss feels even warmer than Dan's fingertips. It sends a flush all throughout Phil. "Fucking Voldemort."

Dan says names but he says them with love, says them as he wraps his arms around Phil and holds him in close enough for his warmth to seep right into Phil.

"What am I?" Phil asks.

The night outside is howling. Rain splatters violently against the window. It always seems to rain the worst right over where he sleeps.

He doesn't expect Dan to have any answers. Dan can't say why the temperature drops when Phil walks into the room. He can't explain why dogs cower and tuck their tails when he walks by. He can't give any reason for the way hope just seeps slowly but surely out of the eyes of everyone near to him.

He lived a very lonely life until Dan came along - this one person who seems immune to the darkness in Phil. There's nothing about Phil that puts Dan off. Sometimes Dan's even ridiculous enough to say that Phil's the one that saved his life.

Dan doesn't pretend like he doesn't know what Phil is talking about, though. He may not feel it firsthand, but he's seen what being near Phil too long does to people. There's a reason they don't do conventions like other youtubers, that they turn down every offer and appearance.

It drives their audience wild, the mystery. They keep expecting some kind of fantastic resolution. They'll be waiting forever, Phil knows. Dan always says he's just fine with it; anxiety and agoraphobia happen to be quite compatible with a mild touch of the evils.

(Growing up, Phil might have been traumatized at someone casually saying that word. With Dan, it feels like someone describing a shade of paint on the wall; a fact, and not even a particularly interesting one.)

"Dan," he says again, reminding Dan of the question, because sometimes he's masochistic like that. He needs Dan to look at him like he's slightly daft and adorable for it. He needs to leech off Dan's normality.

Dan doesn't say anything for a long time, then he simple says: "You're Phil."

Youtube has given Phil everything good in his life.

The camera doesn't capture whatever lurks inside of him that makes people feel so wrong, like he's so wrong. He speaks and the camera just captures the smile on his face and the words that he says.

He doesn't understand what it's like to feel liked until he starts to get comments on every single video. On twitter, people talk back to him and don't make polite excuses away. It's what he'd wanted his whole life, to get a glimpse of what this felt like. So he finds his people lit by the glow of a computer screen and forgets for a while how alone he is.

He's good at it, too. He's good at talking to people when they can concentrate on more than the racing of their own hearts when he speaks. His popularity has grown and grown over the years, first by himself and then with Dan.

Youtube gave him Dan, too. The persistent boy who wouldn't listen to Phil's declarations that it wouldn't work. He'd shown up in Manchester that October night, ringing Phil and saying if Phil didn't come pick him up he'd just have to sleep in the station and did Phil really want Dan's murder-stabbing-death on his conscience?

Phil will never forget the sense of loss he'd felt walking up to the station. He'll never forget the sheer disbelief when Dan threw himself at Phil in a way no one his whole twenty two years up to that point ever had.

He's not that young anymore, and neither is Dan. They share a life together, a very normal life when the doors to the world are closed. They order takeaway and bicker over socks on the floor and they film videos together and they're very, very successful.

Phil can almost forget what he is when he's with Dan. Once in a while he actually does, then he'll answer the door and the postman will drop a package, or he'll get the takeaway and the delivery boy will startle away without even waiting for a tip.

It's not that he does anything. People just look at him and they want to run away. They don't know why any more than he does.

He wonders if they have nightmares at night. Sometimes he gets maudlin and asks Dan.

Dan usually tells him shut up and throws a game controller at him. They're working on their coping mechanisms.

"I'm so glad you've got him," Phil's mum says, after asking about Dan. "Lovely lad, that Dan."

It's the one thing she says that Phil knows she really, really means.

She wants him to be loved, wholly and completely, even if she can't be the one to do it herself.

He looks across the room at where Dan is sitting, VR headset on and hands flailing wildly holding phallic shaped controllers. He smiles at the sight, ridiculous as it is. "Yeah," Phil agrees. "I'm glad I've got him, too."

“Who?” Dan asks, once Phil’s hung up the phone. "Me. Better have been me."

“You were listening in,” Phil accuses.

He doesn’t really mind.

“Sure was,” Dan agrees. “Now tell me all the nice things you said about me.”

Phil smiles. They’ve got things to do. Emails to respond to. Videos to be filmed. Edits to be made.

He gets to his feet and crosses the room. Dan’s got the headset off before Phil even occupies the space beside him. He wraps Phl up like it’s nothing at all, tactile and warm and smelling so nice. “I love you a lot,” Phil says.

He knows what love is. He feels it. He’s always felt it, even if people couldn’t feel it back.

“Of course you do,” Dan says. “And I love you too.”

Even if most people couldn’t feel it back.

He leaves Dan naked in their bed, bathed in moonlight.

He likes it on the balcony at night. He puts on a sweater with sleeves that are too long and tucks his knees up against his body. He feels small out here, but the city makes sounds and it makes him feel like a part of something.

Dan will wake up eventually. He’ll come to check on Phil, and maybe join him for a while. Then he’ll pull Phil back inside and he’ll make them something warm to drink and Phil can play the whole scenario out in his head.

He hugs his knees to his chest even harder. He’s gotten used to this, feeling light and heavy at the same time. Stories like his aren’t meant to end well, he thinks. In the books and the movies they never do.

But he hears Dan’s footsteps growing closer and he smiles into the darkness. He’ll write his own happy ending, and he’ll not do it alone.

#phan #phanfic

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adorkablephil · 6 years ago

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Fic: Phil’s Fantasy Comes True

Title: Phil’s Fantasy Comes True Rating: E for Extremely Explicit Word Count: 7,643 Author’s Note: Thank you to @agingphangirl for the beta! Without her eagle eye, many typos would have made it through, including one that would have had Phil bursting into song in the middle of hot raunchy sex, which would have been rather embarrassing for both him and me. Also, this fic was written for the @phandomficfests BINGO Fest (and it’s not too late to sign up if you want to play! Sign ups last through 9/23/18). This fic satisfied three of the squares on my bingo board all at once: “size kink,” “object penetration,” and “marathon sex.” Warning: This fic has some pretty serious kink: mostly size kink, pain kink, and a heck of a lot of play with dildos. Also a very very slight hint of bestiality if you’re sensitive about dildos in the shape of non-human penises. You’ve been warned. And, if you’re curious, yes: the toy described in this fic does, in fact, exist. Google it and lose your innocence forever. Lastly: If you would like to “Like” this fic, but you’re embarrassed to admit that you enjoy something this pervy, you can also find it on AO3 here, where you can give kudos anonymously. ;)

Phil’s Fantasy Comes True

That first push into Dan’s body was always the best part, all that tight, wet heat. They always had to use a lot of lube to make sure Dan didn’t get hurt.

“You like that.” It wasn’t a question, but Dan groaned an inarticulate affirmative anyway. “You like how full you are when I’m inside you, how you stretch when I first push inside.”

“God yes,” Dan groaned into the pillow, his ass raised in the air in a desperate quest to get closer to Phil’s cock while his head pressed against the bed. They’d found this was the easiest position for them. Dan reached up and pressed his hands against the headboard to brace himself against Phil’s slow, careful thrust.

“Easy,” Phil breathed when he felt Dan push his hips upward, trying to move further onto Phil’s cock before Phil thought he was ready for that much stretch. Phil put his hands on Dans hips and held him in place, making sure the pace was slow enough. Sometimes Dan got so worked up that he didn’t know what was good for him.

Dan moaned and begged, “More. Please, Phil! I want more!”

“Not yet,” Phil soothed him. “You’ve got to be patient.”

“I don’t want to be patient,” Dan snapped. “I want you in me now!”

Phil slid just a little further inside, making Dan arch his back with a little cry of pleasure. “You know I’m too big for that. I don’t want to hurt you.”

“I want it to hurt,” Dan groaned into the pillow. “I want it to hurt just right.” His breath was coming in ragged gasps. “I want to feel your big cock filling me up so much that I ache around you.”

Phil leaned pushed further in, almost all the way now, and this time he was the one letting out a sound of wordless pleasure. “God … you’re so tight! You feel so good around me, Dan.”

“Yes!” Dan cried, arching his body even further so that the top of his head pushed into the pillow and his back was an arc of desperation. “Say my name again, say my name as you fill me up with that huge cock of yours. Say my name as you bottom out inside me. I want to feel you all the way inside!”

Phil made that last slight movement—not quite a slide because there was too much resistance for that, Dan was too tight for that—but that last push that had his hips flush against Dan’s ass as he groaned Dan’s name. Feeling Phil’s pubic hair against his sensitive skin, Dan moaned and wiggled his ass, just a bit, just enough to feel how full he was.

They’d been working on this for months, getting Dan stretched out enough that he could fit Phil all the way inside him. Before that, they’d always had Dan top, or Phil had pushed only a little ways inside Dan’s desperate little hole. At the start, even just the head of Phil’s cock had been enough to stretch Dan in ways that made him writhe in pleasure as he begged for more, even though they both knew he couldn’t take any more, not without hurting himself.

Phil knew Dan had a pain kink, but he didn’t want to actually injure his lover. And if Dan tried to move things along too quickly, he could tear, and neither of them wanted that.

But right now, Dan’s hole was thoroughly lubed and stretched and he felt like heaven around Phil’s cock. Phil waited a moment, just savoring that tight heat, and then he very slowly began to slide back out, getting all the way to the point where only the head of his cock still rested inside before he pushed back into Dan, a little bit faster this time. Still slow, but not quite as slow as the first gentle attempt to let Dan adjust to his size. Just the tiniest bit faster, feeling the friction of Dan’s walls all along the length of his cock. Dan wriggled, trying to move things along, but Phil felt responsible for making sure this was safe for him.

“Jesus Christ, Phil,” Dan begged. “More! Faster! Harder! I want it to hurt! You know how I like it! Give it to me now!”

And Dan’s words finally broke Phil’s control and he thrust into Dan’s body with one hard move, making Dan’s entire body quiver with pleasure. “Yeah,” Dan breathed. “Like that. Again!”

Phil pulled almost all the way out, then shoved all the way into Dan’s body, reveling in the tightness and in the noises Dan was making. “Fuck me,” Dan groaned. “Fuck! Harder! I love how big your cock is inside me!”

Phil set up a steady, hard rhythm now, and he felt himself moving toward a complete loss of control, enough that he said something he normally wouldn’t, something he’d been fantasizing about but had never wanted to suggest, never wanted to pressure Dan. “You like how big my cock is?” he asked Dan as he panted, slamming in and out of Dan’s hole now. “You want something bigger than my cock?”

Dan groaned and nodded against the pillow. His body was soaked with sweat. “Yes! Yes! Anything! Bigger! More!”

“You want me to shove something inside you so big that you’ll feel like it’s splitting you apart?” Phil asked, all inhibitions gone as he approached orgasm. “Something so much bigger than my cock that you’ll barely believe it?” He leaned his head back, imagining Dan riding the toy he’d been fantasizing about, thrusting into that tight hole and imagining it stretched around something bigger than Dan had probably even seen before. The image in his mind was nearly enough to push him over the edge, and he gasped out, “Yeah, gonna fill you up like you’ve never thought possible. Gonna make it hurt so good! Jesus, Dan!” And he felt Dan’s body spasming around him, heard Dan’s deep groans as he came without even having his cock touched, and the sounds and images spurred Phil’s own orgasm as he thrust hard and fast into Dan’s quaking body, filling him with his spunk.

Phil continued thrusting slowly as his body calmed from the extreme high he’d reached. Dan’s hole seemed to be grasping at him, not wanting him to leave, and so they stayed joined, Phil still moving in a lazy way until finally his muscles relaxed and they fell apart, both panting on the sheets.

“Jesus, Phil,” Dan breathed, gazing into his eyes. “That was the hottest thing ever.”

“Yeah?” Phil asked, uncertain if he hadn’t crossed some lines when he’d gotten close to orgasm.

“The things you were saying to me.” Dan closed his eyes, and his expression was pure bliss. Phil thought with a little thrill that maybe he hadn’t gone too far after all.

“Yeah?” Phil asked again. He’d been sure his fantasy was just that: only a fantasy. Not something he would ever actually suggest. “You know I wouldn’t hold you to anything you said at a moment like that, not when you’re that worked up. We both know how it works: you say things during sex that you don’t necessarily actually mean. It’s just … sex talk.”

Dan opened his eyes again and looked at Phil, then licked his lips in what Phil recognized as a nervous gesture. “You talked about filling me up with something bigger. Something so big I’d barely believe it. Do you … do you actually want that? Or was that just … sex talk?”

“Do you actually want that?” Phil asked hesitantly.

Dan closed his eyes again and arched his neck, mouth falling open a little, his lips so wet and soft and wanting. He looked at Phil again and breathed, “Yeah. I really really want that. I want something in me so thick it hurts.”

“I don’t want to really hurt you,” Phil insisted.

Dan shook his head. “I trust you. I know you’ll take care of me so I don’t get hurt except in a good way. The way you know I like. I want to feel that incredible ache of something so big inside me that I can feel it in my whole body. Like the way you feel inside me, but even … even more.” He blushed prettily, so prettily that Phil wanted to kiss him, so he did, lips lingering, tongue dipping out to taste the sweetness of Dan’s mouth.

He pulled away just far enough so that Dan would feel his breath between their moist lips. “I’ve been fantasizing about that,” he admitted.

Dan pulled his head away and looked at Phil with eyes wide. “Really? You … you want that, too?”

“I saw a video of this guy … and he was using this huge dildo … and I thought about putting that into you, about watching you take it and beg for more.”

Dan’s pupils were dilated to the point where Phil could barely see the brown of his irises. “Please?” Dan breathed.

“We can … we can try it,” Phil suggested. “But we would have to work up to it. It’s … it’s really big.”

Dan’s breath sped up. “How big?”

Phil blushed and looked away, turning onto his back so he wasn’t looking directly at Dan anymore. “It was a dildo modeled after a horse’s cock,” he admitted with embarrassment. “It was … it was really thick, and really long.”

Dan got onto his hands and knees and crawled over Phil’s body to look him in the face again. “I want that,” he begged. “I want you to stretch me, as long as it takes, and get me ready so I can take that huge horse’s cock up my ass.” He grinned wickedly. “Does that convince you that I’m on board with this plan?”

Phil stared up into Dan’s face and nodded. “I never wanted to ask,” he admitted.

“Why not?” Dan asked, frowning. “You know I like how big you are, and you know I don’t mind a bit of pain. This sounds perfect.” He leaned down to rub his dick lightly along Phil’s sated body. “Can you feel how I’m getting hard again just thinking about it?”

Phil licked his lips. “I’ll … I’ll order what we need. Like, different sizes of dildos to work you up to it.”

“Do it now,” Dan insisted, climbing off the bed to fetch Phil’s laptop.

Phil laughed. “I think we can both shower and get a bit cleaned up first. It doesn’t have to be done right this second.”

Dan handed Phil the laptop and then lay back on the bed and started slowly jacking his hardening cock. “I want to lay here, with my ass still stretched and full of your come, jacking myself off, while you place the order.” He smiled at Phil. “Is that too kinky for you?”

Phil laughed. “If me wanting to fuck you with a horse dildo isn’t too kinky, then no, I think I can manage this.” He rolled over onto his belly and placed the laptop on the clean pillow they hadn’t used during sex. “I think maybe … the horse dildo … and maybe just one other big one to work you up to it.” He glanced at Dan, who was lying there with his dick fully hard in his moving hand now. “You’re already used to me, and I’m pretty big.”

“Braggart,” Dan teased. Then he added, “I love how big you are. This is going to be amazing.”

******

It took a week for the discreetly-wrapped package to arrive in the post. Dan was the one to bring up the packages that morning, and he could barely contain his excitement, even though this particular package had such an obscurely abbreviated return address that he couldn’t be sure it was what he hoped.

“Phil!” he called. “There’s a package for you! And I think I know what it is!”

Phil shuffled into the lounge still wearing his glasses and pajamas, still half-asleep. The post always came too early. “What is it?” he asked.

“Open it up so we can see!” Dan insisted excitedly.

“Oh,” Phil caught on and woke up a bit more. “You think it’s…”

“Yeah,” Dan agreed. “Open it! Let’s see! And if it is … we can go back to bed.”

Phil chuckled. “Right away? Right now?”

“If it is what I think it is, then definitely yes,” Dan replied.

They opened up the package together and found just what Dan had been hoping for inside. Two plastic-wrapped dildos in different colors. The larger one was black with some sort of white swirling spots. Dan assumed it was supposed to look like a horse’s coat. It was shaped oddly, with a sort of flat top instead of the usual conical shape of a dildo’s head. Dan assumed that, too, was some sort of mimicry of a horse. The other dildo was the usual shape in a rather garish shade of blue. The blue one seemed to be about mid-way between the size of Phil’s hard cock and the strange black horse dildo. So Dan unwrapped the blue one and looked eagerly at Phil.

Phil shook his head in amusement. “Can we at least both brush our teeth first?”

******

Phil always started with jacking Dan off, sometimes sucking him for a while, before he started stretching him. It helped relax his muscles, not to mention helping to set the mood. This time, after he’d sucked Dan off for several minutes, he raised himself up on an elbow, still stroking Dan’s cock with his other hand, and looked him in the eyes. “You’re sure you want to try this? It’s going to be bigger than me, so it might hurt a bit.”

“It always hurts a bit,” Dan replied, thrusting up into Phil’s hand. “I’m hoping it’ll hurt a little more. I want to feel it inside me, Phil. Don’t make me wait.”

Phil nodded and lubed up his fingers to start stretching Dan carefully first. “I don’t need that,” Dan insisted. “I’m too worked up already. Just … lube up the toy and start to press it in. I’ll let you know if you need to stop.”

“No,” Phil replied. “That’s too fast. We’re going to work up from where we already are, which means we start with my cock before any of the toys.”

Dan put his hands on either side of Phil’s face and gazed into his eyes. “You know I don’t want this all the time, right? Most of the time, I want it to be just us. I love your cock, and I want it in me all the time. This is just for … once in a while. For play.”

Phil turned his head to kiss Dan’s hand. “I know. But you can’t have my cock in you all the time, because sometimes we have to go to Tesco or have meetings at Google, stuff like that. People might complain.”

Dan rolled his eyes. “You know what I mean.”

Phil leaned down to kiss him. “Yes, I know what you mean. This is just play for sometimes. It doesn’t replace what we usually do … just … push things once in a while when you feel like doing something different.”

Dan said, “Phil?”

“Yeah?”

“Today I feel like doing something different.”

Phil chuckled. “Yeah, I got that impression. But let me get you ready. I know you’re always in a rush, but let me make sure you’re physically ready, okay?”

Dan sighed and said, “Okay, fine. I guess it’s okay with me if you put your fingers and your dick in my ass.” Then they both chuckled. Before Dan had even finished laughing, Phil slid two fingers inside him, cutting Dan’s breath off into a gasp. “Yeah,” Dan breathed, “like that.” Phil smiled at him and knelt between Dan’s legs so that he had his other hand free to stroke Dan’s hard cock while he readied him to eventually take the blue dildo. He added a third finger fairly quickly, because Dan’s body was used to taking Phil’s cock fairly often now, so his muscles had relaxed quite a bit over time.

“I want to make you come first,” Phil whispered. “Get you all nice and loose.”

“But aren’t you going to fuck me first?” Dan asked, confused.

“I’m going to make you come first,” Phil explained, “and then I’m going to fuck you until you come again, and then I think you’ll be relaxed enough to try the new dildo.”

Dan’s breathing was fast when he asked, “When do you get to come?”

Phil grinned. “Oh, I’m going to wait for the grand finale. After I’ve made you come a third time with the new dildo, I’ll fuck your mouth, all exhausted and open and wet for me. How does that sound?”

“Utterly fantastic,” Dan replied, feeling the saliva already gather in his mouth at the thought.

Phil’s hands continued to stroke him, one on his cock and one in his ass, until Dan was gasping with pleasure. “I’m going to come,” he panted.

“Here comes the first one,” Phil whispered against his lips, and then Dan threw back his head as the orgasm hit him. Before he’d even caught his breath, Phil was pushing his legs up and sliding his cock into Dan’s ass, slow and careful as always, but Dan was so loose from the recency of his orgasm that Phil met less resistance than usual. “Just like I thought,” Phil murmured, kissing Dan’s neck, then sucking until he left a mark. “You’re all soft and ready for me.” Dan nodded wordlessly, lost in sensation.

Phil still made sure to make his penetration slow and careful, but Dan was more open to him than usual. He would have to try this trick again in the future—giving Dan an orgasm and then immediately sliding inside—but he knew Dan enjoyed the pressure of the stretch. Just, this time, that would come later, with the new dildo.

He was able to bottom out inside Dan more quickly than usual, and he stroked in and out a few times, watching Dan’s face for signs of pain. He didn’t see any, only signs of pleasure, so he knew his plan was working. He began to speed his thrusts, stroking Dan’s cock until it was back to full hardness. He made sure to swirl his palm against the head of Dan’s cock, the way he knew drove him crazy, and Dan began a steady moaning, thrusting into Phil’s hand and then back onto his dick as if unsure which direction brought him the most pleasure. Phil hitched Dan’s legs up a little further onto his shoulders and fucked him hard and fast, no longer stroking his cock but just bracing himself above Dan so that he could angle himself to hit Dan’s prostate. When Dan threw his head back with his jaw clenched, Phil knew he’d found the right spot, so he tried to hit it again and again with each thrust until Dan was moaning, “It’s too much! Too much!” And then suddenly Dan was arching off the bed so strongly that he actually lifted Phil with him. “Oh my god!” Dan cried as he came. “Oh my god!” Phil continued thrusting into him, more gently now, until Dan seemed to have come down from his high and suddenly all his muscles collapsed and he lay on the bed like a rag doll, his legs sliding down from Phil’s shoulders to lie akimbo on the sheets.

“Turn over,” Phil whispered into his ear, but Dan merely shook his head.

“I don’t have any bones or muscles left in my body,” Dan complained hazily.

“Do you want the blue dildo?” Phil asked with amusement in his voice, knowing what the answer would be.

Dan rolled onto his front, then raised his ass high in the air, leaving his sweaty face pressed against the pillow, hands pressed lightly against the headboard as if in preparation for what was to come. “Please,” he whimpered weakly. Phil slathered the blue dildo thoroughly with lube before pressing it lightly against Dan’s hole. The muscles parted readily, allowing the head to slide in with no resistance at all. When he finally met some slight resistance, where Dan’s muscles had not yet been loosened by Phil’s cock, he pushed very gently. “Yessss,” Dan hissed. “God … more.” Dan’s upper body lay utterly relaxed on the bed, but his thighs trembled as he held his ass up insistently for Phil’s attention.

Phil slid the blue dildo further into Dan’s body, which yielded more easily than he had expected. Apparently, his plan had worked. When Dan’s muscles suddenly tightened, though, Phil stopped pushing forward and backed off a bit, knowing he’d reached Dan’s current limit. They’d gone through this process many times before Dan had eventually been able to take Phil’s cock. Phil rocked the dildo gently in and out, pressing slightly further each time, until Dan’s muscles relaxed again. From that point on, Phil only moved forward in these small, rocking motions, pushing further and further into Dan like the tide coming in, like waves lapping higher and higher onto the sand in slow increments.

“Oh my god, yes,” Dan moaned, adjusting his knees beneath him so that he could raise his ass even higher in the air. “Give it to me. It doesn’t even hurt … I just want more. More more more … please!”

So Phil pressed forward a little more firmly and Dan’s head jerked suddenly on the pillow as he panted and sweat coated his back. Phil stroked one butt cheek soothingly, then pressed the dildo forward a bit more, listening to the guttural sounds Dan was making. He stroked his free hand up along Dan’s sweaty back, feeling the muscles tight there. “Too much?” he asked quietly. But Dan shook his head against the pillow.

“God no!” Dan replied. “Keep going! I want it all the way in me! Go faster!”

“Does it hurt now?” Phil asked with some concern.

“It hurts so good,” Dan replied, still gasping. “I want it to hurt more. Not bad. Just … you know what I like. I want that kind of hurt. Make me not want to sit down for a week.”

Phil laughed lightly, glad that Dan could still joke. It meant he wasn’t really in pain, nothing bad enough to cause injury. Just the kind of pain Dan liked. And he wanted more of it, so Phil obliged him. He slowly pushed the blue dildo further into Dan’s ass, feeling resistance but no tightening of the muscles to indicate that Dan needed him to stop. The resistance was growing, though, because Dan wasn’t used to accommodating something this thick. Phil pushed harder—extremely slowly, but harder, so that the dildo pushed further and further into Dan’s body. Dan wiggled his ass slightly, trying to help push the dildo further into him. “Please,” he was panting over and over again in a voice so breathy Phil could barely hear it. “Please please please.”

When Phil had gotten the dildo as far into Dan’s ass as it would go, he murmured, “It’s all the way in. Do you want me to slide it in and out?”

In answer, Dan braced his hands against the headboard and moaned something that sounded like a yes. Phil could read his body language well enough to know what he wanted. Phil began slowly sliding the dildo in and out of Dan’s body. Every push in was careful and gentle, but as Dan’s muscles began to relax further, Phil found he had to be less and less gentle. Soon, he was thrusting the dildo in and out of Dan’s ass at a vigorous pace, and Dan was grunting with every push forward. Occasionally a semi-intelligible word appeared. “Yes.” Or “god.” Or “please.” Or “more.”

When Phil reached his free hand around to grasp Dan’s dick, he hadn’t even had a chance to make a single stroke before Dan screamed and arched and shuddered, coming harder than Phil had ever seen him before. It seemed to go on for minutes, but time sort of lost all meaning, and then Dan collapsed, twitching, on the bed, making small moaning sounds. He seemed to be saying something, so Phil leaned closer to hear Dan begging, “Get the other one. I can take it. I want it.”

Phil stroked Dan’s sweat-soaked hair and kissed his cheek. “Not today, sweetheart. You’ll need to rest up from this. But eventually. I promise I’ll give it to you when you’re ready.”

“Ready now,” Dan slurred, but Phil knew Dan didn’t know the limits of his own body. His hole would be sore for days after this. And they would probably need to do this another few times before he was ready for the larger dildo, the one Phil had fantasized about seeing disappear into him over and over again.

At the thought, Phil realized he couldn’t wait any longer. He rolled Dan’s completely slack body over onto his back and straddled his chest. “Do you still want me to fuck your mouth?” Phil asked. He knew Dan would probably agree to anything right now, but they had discussed this in advance. He just preferred one last permission before taking his own pleasure.

Dan licked his lips and opened his mouth, pressing weak hands against Phil’s buttocks to pull him closer. When Phil moved up and let the tip of his cock press against Dan’s bottom lip, Dan let his hands fall to the sides and slid his tongue out to light touch Phil’s sensitive skin. He pressed a kiss to Phil’s tip and then let his mouth fall slightly open.

Phil had little control at this point, having held himself back throughout nearly three hours of play. He slid his cock into Dan’s wet, soft mouth and threw back his head at the feeling. He was as hard as he’d ever been, and he had to hold his dick down with one hand to guide it into Dan’s ready mouth. He slid his cock in and out slowly a few times, enjoying the feeling of pushing past the soft pressure of Dan’s open lips, but then he couldn’t hold back anymore and began thrusting in earnest. He knew how much Dan could take—they’d been lovers for years and knew each other’s limits and preferences—so he knew that Dan could control his gag reflex when more alert, but probably couldn’t deal with such deep penetration when he was this dazed and unaware. So Phil kept his thrusts relatively shallow, enjoying the occasional lazy stroke of Dan’s tongue, the occasional bit of suction. But then Dan seemed to rouse slightly, just enough to begin sucking more strongly on Phil’s moving cock, and it was enough. After hours of holding himself back, it was more than enough, and Phil shouted as he came into Dan’s willing mouth, noticing that Dan weakly tried to swallow as much as he could in his utterly exhausted state, but that a significant amount of come still flowed out of his mouth and onto his cheeks and chin.

Phil gently wiped Dan’s face with a corner of the sheet, since his own hands were covered in lube. At the same time, he wiped off his slippery hands, noting that he should definitely throw the sheets in the washing machine when they got up for breakfast (lunch?) so that the bedding would be clean and dry enough to use tonight.

And then he stopped thinking at all as he dropped down to lie by Dan’s side on the bed. His breath was gradually slowing, but that had still been the hottest thing he’d ever seen. He couldn’t wait until they could use the larger dildo, though he knew they would need to work up to that. It really was a huge thing, larger around than his fist or forearm. He felt a shiver run through his body at the idea of shoving that monster in and out of Dan’s stretched asshole, at the sounds of mingled pleasure and pain he expected to hear while he did so. Dan would love it—he knew Dan would. They just had to work him up to that point.

******

Despite Dan’s nearly constant begging, they worked with the blue dildo several times before Phil was willing to try the horse one. For one thing, the shape of the horse dildo was such that it couldn’t be eased gently into Dan’s entrance. The top was not tapered but wide, and so the initial entrance would be a shock. He would have to relax Dan extremely well before they could even try it. He hadn’t been willing until tonight, but now they had wet and dry towels beside the bed, copious amounts of lube, older sheets on the bed, and plenty of time … and Phil was willing to try.

“Don’t make me come so many times this time,” Dan begged, but Phil was adamant.

“We have to make sure you’re as relaxed as possible, and the best way to do that is to make you come.”

“Only twice, then? Just … before the blue dildo and then with the blue dildo? Then I’ll be all loose and you can slide the new one in right away.” Dan gazed at him pleadingly.

Phil kissed him softly. “Okay. We’ll try it. But if it hurts too much, you have to tell me. Because if you let yourself get injured, then we won’t try it again. You have to promise to tell me if it hurts in a bad way, like you might tear. Promise?”

Dan nodded. “We’ll try. If it’s too much, I promise. We’ll be safe.” Apparently, the threat of not trying again was enough to make him desperate to cooperate.

After Phil had given Dan his first orgasm, they worked up to the blue dildo, as they’d done quite a few times now, and Dan took it fairly easily. Not without pain, but without his muscles tightening up like they had the first time, and without presenting as much resistance. Phil could push the dildo into Dan’s ass with a firm pressure without worrying about damage. The first push was always slow and careful, and Dan’s muscles always resisted at first, but they also always relaxed slowly as the dildo was pushed in and pulled out several times.

Now that it wasn’t as difficult, Dan preferred to kneel on his hands and knees so that he could hang his head down and watch Phil’s hand on the dildo as it appeared and disappeared. Phil told him he might have to put his lower body on the bed this first time with the horse dildo, to make it easier, since they’d found that the least painful, easiest position for them when they first experimented with anal sex.

As the blue dildo slid in and out of Dan’s body, Phil reminded himself that this dildo was larger than his own dick, that Dan had at first not been able to take either, and now he could take both fairly comfortably. Again, not without pain, but without any pain he didn’t enjoy. He couldn’t wait until Dan could take the horse dildo the same way. The thought sent another thrilled shiver of anticipation through him.

“I’m ready,” Dan panted impatiently. “Make me come so we can try the other dildo.”

Phil stroked Dan’s ass cheek and said gently. “Not yet. Not yet. Don’t you like watching my hand on the dildo?”

Dan nodded.

Phil explained, “You won’t be able to do that with the horse dildo. Not this first time. You’ll need to put your upper body on the bed so your ass is high in the air for me, so that I don’t hurt you too much. So if you want to keep watching, let’s do this for a while more.”

“I don’t need to watch. I just want to come. I want that huge dildo. I want it in my ass. You know you want it, too. You’ve been fantasizing about if for ages—you told me so. Don’t you want to shove it in me and watch me take it?”

Phil knew Dan was just trying to work him up so that he’d move more quickly, and it was definitely working. So maybe it was time to make Dan come so they could both get closer to what they wanted. He slowed the pace of his thrusts with the blue dildo, then carefully reached around to grasp Dan’s cock. “You won’t be able to watch the horse cock this time,” he apologized, but then he started to rapidly speed the rhythm of both his hands. “But maybe next time we can do it in front of a mirror so you can see everything.” At the thought, Dan came suddenly with a wail.

Not waiting for Dan to recover, Phil pushed Dan’s head down onto the pillow, raising his hips at the same time, and then reached for the horse cock dildo they’d left by the side of the bed, already covered with lube. He coated it with a bit more lube, just to be sure, and then did what he and Dan had discussed in advance: he pressed the head of the giant dildo against Dan’s hole and began to press.

Dan grunted in discomfort but didn’t struggle. He’d known this would be uncomfortable, but they both knew it would be worth it. They’d talked about it extensively beforehand. They’d even read up about it on the Internet. Phil pressed a bit harder, and he felt Dan’s emotional struggle. His muscles were relaxed by the two orgasms he’d had in fairly rapid succession—his asshole was stretched fairly well by the blue dildo—but this was an entirely different challenge. He was trying to stay physically relaxed while his brain told him to flee from imminent pain.

Phil massaged the cheek of Dan’s ass with his free hand, pushed hard, harder, harder … and suddenly the top of the dildo popped inside the tight ring of Dan’s asshole. Dan cried out in pain and grabbed tightly onto both sides of the pillow under his head. “Oh Jesus,” Dan breathed, and Phil could hear tears in the sound.

“Should I stop? Pull it out?” Phil asked urgently.

“Don’t you fucking dare!” Dan growled. “Just … give me a minute.” His breathing was slow and hard, as if he was trying to control himself. Every muscle in his back was visible and his legs quivered.

“You have to relax,” Phil reminded him softly, stroking his free hand along Dan’s straining back. “Think of how much you want this. Think about getting to watch yourself in the mirror, watching me fucking you with this giant dildo, watching me make you take it.”

Dan heaved a deep breath and relaxed noticeably. “Yeah,” he said, his voice husky. “I want that.” He grasped both sides of the pillow tightly with his hands and said, “A little deeper now.”

“Are you sure?” Phil asked. “Remember our deal.”

“I’ll stop you if it hurts too much, but I want this. You know I want it. And I want it to hurt. But I’ll tell you if it’s too much.”

Phil nodded, though he knew Dan wouldn’t be able to see him, and pushed the huge dildo a bit further into Dan’s ass. It was tough going. He hadn’t realized how much of a leap it would be between the blue dildo and this one, but this clearly challenged what was even physically possible for Dan, at least right now. Maybe they should have worked up to it more slowly. Maybe they’d been hasty. Maybe Dan was really going to get hurt.

“More,” Dan’s voice rumbled from where his head lay pressed against the pillow. “Please. More.”

Phil pushed again, feeling considerable resistance and hearing Dan grunt in pain. But Dan was asking for this, and Phil trusted him to keep their deal. Which meant the pain Dan currently felt was pain he wanted, pain he enjoyed, and that thought let Phil relax a bit. He looked at Dan’s asshole, stretched tight around the girth of the black-and-white dildo, and it was everything he had imagined.

“Do you like this gigantic horse cock in your ass?” he asked Dan, and Dan groaned into the pillow. “Tell me,” Phil demanded. “Do you like it? Does it hurt? Do you like it even though it hurts?”

Phil saw Dan’s ass muscles clench then relax again, and he was able to push the dildo in a bit further. “I like it because it hurts,” Dan admitted, sounding absolutely wrecked. “It hurts so good, you can’t even imagine. It’s the best thing I’ve ever felt. I want more.” Phil didn’t move immediately, and Dan begged, “Please, Phil, more!”

So Phil pushed on the dildo, and this time it slid more easily. Perhaps Dan’s begging had opened him up more. It slid in another inch or two, and Phil licked his lips watching the movement, watching that hole stretch and slide around the slick horse cock dildo. He pushed again, and Dan’s internal muscles fought the progression of the dildo, but the dildo won the battle, sliding deeper. Dan grunted again, and his whole body writhed. “That’s so…” he broke off into a moan. Phil pushed again, and the dildo slid in even further. “So fucking fantastic.” Dan’s entire body writhed again and he whined, “More. More more more!” Phil pushed the dildo further into Dan’s ass, not exactly ignoring the resistance but trusting that Dan would tell him if he went too far or too fast. Thus far, Dan seemed to be loving it. Phil kept pushing, and it seemed like the dildo went on for miles, because there was still more of it to thrust into Dan.

“How does it feel?” Phil asked, pulling the dildo out slightly and then pushing in again. Dan shivered, so Phil did it again.

“God, it’s so huge. It feels like it’s so far inside me it’s going to come out my throat, like it’s filling my entire body. How much more is there?” Dan’s voice was rough and husky, like an animal’s voice instead of a human’s.

“About two inches. Just two more inches,” Phil replied quickly.

“Do it,” Dan insisted. “Do it now. All of it.” He arched his back so that his ass stood up even higher, and Phil did as he said. “Ah!” Dan cried out. “Yes!” He tossed his head for a moment on the pillow, then rasped, “Is that all of it?”

Phil looked down at his hand holding the base of the dildo, which now rested against the outer edge of Dan’s hole. “That’s all of it.”

“Hold it still,” Dan grunted. “Let me … I want to try to fuck myself on it first.” So Phil held the dildo in place, and Dan moved his hips slightly back and forth while Phil watched the huge silicone toy slide in and out of Dan’s hole.

“Oh Jesus,” Phil breathed.

“You like it, too, don’t you?” Dan asked, and at first Phil just nodded, forgetting that Dan couldn’t see him.

Then he replied in a near whisper, “Yes. It’s … just like I imagined.”

“Except you wanted to shove it in and out of me, right?” Dan asked, his voice recovering some of its strength. “Well, that’s what I want you to do.”

“Are you sure?” Phil asked, eyeing his hand on the base of the dildo, the painfully stretched skin of Dan’s asshole.

“You’re fucking right I’m sure,” Dan growled. “Give it to me, Phil. Give it to me hard! I want it!”

Phil slowly pulled the huge thing out of Dan, almost all the way out until that flat head was just inside him, and then pushed it slowly back in. Dan groaned the entire time the dildo was sliding back into him—one long, drawn-out sound of pleasure and pain. “Again,” he demanded. “Again and again and again!”

Phil repeated the action, pulling the dildo almost entirely out of Dan’s body and then pushing it back in a little faster this time. Dan cried out, but it didn’t seem to be a bad thing, so Phil did it again, a little faster this time. And then again, a little faster. Dan’s body took it a little easier each time, but it was never completely smooth. His body always fought the intrusion, but that seemed to be part of what Dan enjoyed about it. Another few thrusts, speeding up, and Dan was sobbing. “God, it’s so huge,” he managed between sobs. “It’s so fucking huge inside me, like it’s dragging my whole body every time it moves.”

“Again?” Phil asked uncertainly.

“A few times,” Dan asked in a voice ruined by crying. “A few times, fast, while you jack my cock, and I’m going to come so hard my brains will explode.”

So Phil reached around and gingerly took hold of Dan’s cock, which felt so hard it was like marble, if marble was hot and throbbing in his hand. He didn’t squeeze, because he knew Dan didn’t want to come until the dildo was actively thrusting in and out of him, so Phil began thrusting the dildo as fast as he could, pushing past the resistance in Dan’s body, sliding out and thrusting strongly inside again, and he grasped Dan’s cock and stroked it in the same rhythm until Dan’s entire body seized, freezing the dildo inside him so that Phil couldn’t move it, and his cock throbbed in Phil’s hand, but no sound emitted from his choked throat. His entire body went entirely rigid for a long moment as his cock pumped out pulse after pulse of come, more than Phil would have thought possible, and then his muscles began to relax all at once.

Phil caught him quickly, not wanting Dan to collapse in a way that might hurt him, given the huge dildo shoved so far into his body. He gently helped Dan lie down on his side, practically unconscious, and then as slowly as possible, he removed the dildo. It took a long time, because he didn’t want to move too quickly and hurt Dan, but eventually the entire thing was free, and Phil dropped it onto one of the towels they’d left on the floor.

When he’d imagined this in his fantasies, he’d expected to be so worked up that he would be on the edge of orgasm after this performance, but instead he just felt extremely close to Dan, because they’d just shared something more intimate than he had expected it to be. He spooned up behind Dan, smoothing his soaking wet curls away from his sweaty forehead and whispered, “I love you.” Maybe next time he’d be desperate to come after that—hell, he almost certainly would! But this first time … this felt like such an intense experience that they’d been through together, and it had required such trust on both sides … all he felt was love and gratitude.

Dan stirred slowly and turned onto his side facing Phil with a lazy smile, his eyes still closed as if he were on the verge of sleep. “Thank you for fucking me with a giant horse cock,” Dan murmured with a lopsided grin, which made Phil laugh.

“You’re welcome,” Phil chuckled.

“I’ll give you the biggest orgasm ever to thank you once I’m able to move again,” Dan promised, his eyes still closed, body still limp.

“I’ll hold you to that,” Phil said, and then reached over to kiss Dan’s lips gently.

“And I love you, too, you know,” Dan said sleepily, obviously worn out by the evening’s activities.

“I know,” Phil told him, then did a minimum amount of clean-up, trying not to disturb Dan too much, before pulling the duvet up over both of them and pulling Dan close while he slept.

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Author’s Note: This is certainly the raunchiest, kinkiest thing I’ve ever written, and most of my other fic is rated G or Teen, so if you’re looking for more of this, you probably shouldn’t follow this blog just for that or you’ll be sadly disappointed.

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thomasvol6 · 6 years ago

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Do you remember? // Phanfiction

Word count: 2.7k

Warnings: slight swearing, fluff, very light smut

Summary: Dan and Phil have been married for 16 years and one night in bed they decide to re-live their favourite moments together

“Can you sleep?”

“Not really”

“Same”

Phil rolled over to face his husband. They had been married for 16 years now but his heart still did that ‘flippy-over thing’ every time he looked in Dan’s eyes, just like it did the first time they kissed, back in 2009 on the Manchester Eye.

“Do you remember our first kiss?” Phil asked softly, still staring fondly at his husband’s eyes

“Oh so that’s where we’re going?” Dan replied chuckling at Phil’s cheesiness. He sometimes had these moments where he just started being incredibly cheesy and romantic, he had always had them and Dan surely couldn’t complain because he loved them.

“I was just thinking at how far we’ve come…I mean, 20 years ago we were lying on our bed, nervous as hell to publish PINOF 10, and now we are married and we have a 15 years old son and a 5 years old daughter together…time flies” Phil said as he started playing with a curl from Dan’s hair.

“Shit we’re going to die like tomorrow”

“Oh c’mon don’t kill the atmosphere with your sad thoughts”

“You’re right, sorry…by the way yes, I do remember our first kiss as well as our last one”

“Our last o-“ Phil didn’t manage to end his question because Dan had moved slightly forward to give him a quick kiss and rest his head on Phil’s shoulder

“We had been walking around Manchester for hours and decided to go for one ride on the wheel and then go home. You payed for both our tickets even though I had insisted that I wanted to pay and the man at the ticket booth pulled the most annoyed face ever because I wouldn’t stop insisting, so you took my hand and dragged me in our cabin. It was cabin number 22 and we were the only people around as it was a monday evening. You kept staring at me and I was like ‘fuck it’ so I leaned in like I was going to rest my head on your shoulder, but then I kissed you and you seemed so shocked that I was afraid I’d hurt you. You re-arranged my fringe and put your hand on mine and we just stayed like that for the rest of the ride, smiling at each other. Wait- are you crying? Oh baby I’m sorry!” said Dan whilst passing his thumb of Phil’s cheeks to dry his tears.

“I…I just got a little emotional, you made me travel back in time there, you know?” said Phil almost apologising.

“Why don’t you make me travel a bit now?”

“Sure, where do you want to go?”

“Mmh…maybe our first time? Too much?”

“No, not at all. Close your eyes though, okay? So…it was a couple months since our first kiss and you were coming to stay at my house for a whole week! I couldn’t wait to spend all that time with you and I remember our last skype call, the night before you came here, where you were so happy you couldn’t calm down so you ended up not managing to sleep a minute that night, and when you arrived here you were really tired. My mom, bless her, had prepared the guests room for you, even though I had told her that we were together. I’m pretty sure she was just fine with it and it was my dad to be over-protective about the whole thing so he asked mom to set up the guests room, but anyways…Where was I? Oh yes, you were knackered so I asked you if you wanted to just lay on the sofa and watch a movie together. Being geniuses, we watched Wall-e, like the saddest movie ever, and ended up crying like two babies by the end of it. At that point it was about 4pm and we agreed that if we had a nap we would never be able to sleep during the night, so we decided to go grocery shopping and cook dinner, since my parents had gone to visit my aunt up in Scotland for the week. We went out without our coats and regretted it immediately but we were both too lazy to go back up to get them, so we decided to freeze our way to the store. I think we had seen this recipe on TV earlier and for some reason decided to bake a chicken and aubergines pie, so we bought what we needed and practically ran back home as it was really really cold outside, you know, december…

As soon as we arrived home we were so cold that we decided to snuggle on my bed for a while before cooking and so we did, but then you started to tease me putting your hand on my thigh and kissing me. When I realised what you were doing, I started to do the same. I started stroking your thigh going everytime a little bit higher and closer to your crotch, until you started complaining about the teasing. You were the one who had started!”

Dan let out a chuckle at the memory but didn’t open his eyes, he was in full immersion.

“So…the rest you know” Phil stopped himself from telling the whole story because he knew it would have gotten both him and Dan horny and it would have been a mood killer.

“Yeah I do. Did you like it?” said Dan still keeping his eyes closed but smiling from ear to ear

“Of course I did, you dingo! It wasn’t as nice as it is now, maybe, because neither of us were experienced almost at all and especially not with each other, but it was a great first time. I mean, I had only been with a girl before you and let me just say it’s definitely not the same thing!”

“I hadn’t been with anyone before you, actually” said Dan, only at this point opening his eyes to look at his husband’s reaction

“Yeah I know babe, it was so obvious that you lied about not being a virgin!” answered Phil surprising Dan

“What?? You knew? Oh that’s embarrassing!”

“It’s not embarrassing at all! I actually like the idea that I’m the only one who ever fucked you”

“Philip Michael Lester Howell, first of all, did you just say ‘fuck’? And second of all, we’re 50 years old. I think ‘fucked you’ isn’t the best of ways to describe our love making”

“I’ll tell you what, Daniel James Howell Lester, I say whatever the fluff I want!” said Phil not managing to keep a straight face and bursting in laughter. They both cuckled for a while until Phil said “Hey, I want to travel more! Tell me about our wedding pleeeease”

He closed his eyes waiting for Dan to start telling the story but he was surprised by a quick soft kiss, and his blood started to go to his shoulder again as his husband had moved his head onto his own pillow.

“Sooo, let’s go back to 2022, shall we? I remember being so nervous I actually threw up a couple of times the night before and I wanted to call you so bad but I decided to be strong and ended up suffering alone, until my brother came to look for me in the bathroom. He knocked and came in without waiting for any reply and as soon as he saw the mess I was he sat next to me on the floor and put his hand on my knee, like a silent ‘I’m here’. After a couple minutes of silence I said something like ‘I really love him’ or ‘I love him so much’ and Adrian hugged me saying ‘I know you do’. I didn’t sleep a minute that night and was about to text you a million times but I actually only did it once, to say goodnight to you. You replied IMMEDIATELY and I remember thinking that maybe you were in my same situation” Dan stopped to check if Phil was still awake

“I was in the exact same situation, just without the throwing up part, you know my stomach is made of iron!” Phil said keeping his eyes shut.

“Yeah, I know. Anyways, when my mom came to wake me up in the morning she was really excited to see that I was already up and getting prepared. She said she had made pancakes for me downstairs and that my suit had been ironed and was waiting for me in the laundry room. I ate my pancakes and put on the suit, then went to check if Adrian was ready. He was still in his pj’s but the ring boxes were ready and his suit had been ironed too so it was no big deal. As soon as I saw you walking towards me in the wedding garden I completely forgot of any worryings or preoccupations and my heart was filled in with just love. I can’t even remember what the guy who married us was saying because all I could think of was how could you possibly look even more beautiful than usual in that suit. Yet, you did. I still remember, though, my votes. ‘Phil, I promise I’ll always be by your side: when you decide to dress up as punks, when you want to have 3-hour-breakfasts and when you want to live the rest of our lives together. I promise I will do the laundry every saturday as we decided 10 years ago, that I will tell you when I finish the milk and that I’ll take Nuki out for walkies more often. I love you Phil, I’ve loved you since when, back in 2008, I would watch your videos to relax, I loved you when you asked me to move in your flat and I loved you even more when you told me that there was powerful wifi- I mean…when you said that you loved me too’ Jesus, I think I will remember that forever” Dan said with a smile on his face

“That was a wonderful speech, I can imagine you remember that I couldn’t contain my tears, too” replied Phil, him smiling too.

“Your turn again! I want…mmh…the day we finally took Noah home please” said Dan closing his eyes again and settling down

“Okay, soooo 2023. It was the 31st march when they called us from the hospital saying that Noah was arriving. I remember literally grabbing our wallets and keys and RUNNING downstairs like the building was on fire. You almost got killed by a taxi whilst trying to get him to stop, which ended up working, but still! Anyways, we got to the hospital in 10 minutes and ran through the corridors trying to find the room. When we finally found it, room 209, and walked in, we were immediately attacked by the nurses who quickly gave us gloves and and masks and went back to the bed where Lauren was. She seemed really happy to see us but also kind of terrified. Mmmh...I guess it's because a baby was about to exit her ladydoor"

“I cAN'T BELIEVE YOU SAID THAT” screamed Dan pushing himself up with his elbows. He didn't scare Phil, though. He was expecting a similar reaction.

“Shhhhh you're gonna wake Emily!” said Phil, now on his elbows too

“From here it's much easier to wake Noah, Emily is three rooms away!”

“Earlier, when I went to the loo, I checked if the kids were alright and Emily had crawled in Noah’s bed. She’s probably had another nightmare”

“Oh bless her. By the way, our 15 and 5 years old kids sleep together every now and then?? You realise that's parenting goals, yeah?”

“Well my brother and I used to do that every now and then too, but I guess it's because he's only a year and a half older than me"

“Exactly. Plus, 15 is a critical age! You know, he's starting to seriously grow and that kinda scares me"

“First of all, we’re freakishly tall so I don't think he's ever going to be taller than us. Second of all, he's only like 5’5. Third, I'm really scared too. What if he's going to meet someone on the internet and run away with them??”

“Oh you mean like I did? Yeah I hope that doesn't happen”

“You were 19, Dan”

“No, I was kidding” said Dan playing with his husband’s face “Now, can you resume the story telling?”

“Oh yeah right, so Lauren was screaming a lot and I don't know about you but she was holding my hand really tight, I thought it was going to explode!”

“Same"

“But finally, after about 5 minutes, Noah came out, screaming a lot too, and the nurses washed him before giving him to Lauren to breastfeed him. He was perfect, about 3.5 kilos and 50cm long. His big brown eyes stared at us for a bit before closing and then he slept for like 10 hours.

When, three days later, we finally brought him at home, we were both really emotional but his room was so cute! Do you remember it? We had put a tiny little wooden bed and painted the walls of pastel light blue. The floor was a very light green moquette and we had bought those huge Ikea plastic leaves so the whole room looked like a forest.

Being right next to our room, we could (and still can) hear everything he did so for the first couple of months it was really difficult for us to sleep, but then we got used to it and now I don't even notice it anymore to be honest. We were so happy when he arrived home and every free minute we would talk and sing to him our favourite songs, but the only song that managed to make him fall asleep was Interrupted By Fireworks. Do you remember how many times we played it at the stereo? I think probably more than ten thousand times...anyways, I think Noah’s love for books comes from the fact that we used to read to him constantly so hey, that's some good parenting right there!”

“It sure is!” said Dan “My turn, I'm telling Emily’s story.

We had decided, this time, to adopt, so after contacting the agency and signing all those papers and various meetings with various people, we only got to see a photo of Emily in june 2033! She was a week old, so it was the 27th, and she was sooo cute! She had very light blue eyes and very thin,almost white hair. I remember the nurse who was taking care of her telling us to make sure we thought her some Swedish so that she could learn about her origins. I think she knows it pretty well by now, doesn't she?”

“Definitely, plus both her and her brother love Knäckebröd so I think we've done a good job with that too” said Dan, satisfied.

“Yeah...Dan?”

Dan turned on his side to face Phil, as a silent ‘Yes?’

“I love our life. Thank you for giving me all this” said Phil, getting teary again

“Oh baby I love it too. I love our kids, I love our dog, I love our home and I love you, so much”

Phil kissed his husband then went back on his pillow

“Now I'm gonna go make us tea and check the kids, could you go lock the door please?” said Dan getting out of bed

“Sure” replied Phil, him also putting his feet on the floor and slowly standing up to not get dizzy

“I really needed this tea, you know?” said Phil stroking Dan's hand with his

“I think at this point I'm pretty good at reading your mind. Let's see...mmmh...right now you're thinking that you'd like to fuck me" said Dan moving his fingers on his head like he was actually reading Phil's mind

“Hey! You told me off like an hour ago for saying that!”

Dan chuckled and pulled the duvet to his chin, pulling a fake innocent face

“But you're right actually, you are pretty good at reading my mind"

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myficsknowwhatyoudidinthedark · 7 years ago

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Maxx Danziger x Reader “What Goes Around Comes Around

(SO this fic is for @luvdickgrayson and she/he requested a fic where the reader is a teacher. Im going to say she is a 3rd grade teacher so the kids are so young and cute and with have the same teacher all day everyday. So she/he wants a fic where it is Valentine’s day. I’m going to say that SIO is on tour and they decide to surprise the reader ,Who I will name Lara. Feel free to change that. So not only is he going to surprise her, but he also going to propose with the help of the students and the rest of SIO. I also think I want to add a little bonus a the end so I think I will do a whole youtube video about all she does for the students and all that fun stuff and to make it easier to come up with a last name she is Cody’s sister. SO yeah, I enjoy those videos and I hope you guys enjoy this fanfic! BYEEE!)

(Maxx’s POV)

So today is the day I finally do this. Dan is driving and Zach and Cody had set up a camera in the van (This will be when they traveled in the van instead of the bus). Then Cody hits the record button and begins talking. “Hey, whats up everybody. So today is Valentine’s day and we may or may not have lied to Maxx’s girlfriend and said we have tour dates all this week. Cause we purposely left a gap as we have been planning this for months. So Maxx would you like to explain further?” Cody says as he points the camera at me. I smile and nod.

“So my girlfriend Lara, who is Cody’s sister, is a school teacher. She is known to every parent and student as the best teacher they have ever met. She get’s the student breakfast every morning, lunch every afternoon and she always has snacks. She loves to teach these kids new things and makes sure that everybody understands. She stays late for kids who need extra help with classwork or homework and she always tries to make the class as fun as possible. That’s what makes her the greatest.” I say and the guys all ‘awww’

“So like Cody was saying, it is Valentine’s day and she is alone this year due to tour. OR SO SHE THOUGHT!” I yell and the guys all go ‘Dun Dun DUNNNN!’

“So the school wants to show how amazing of a teacher she is and to show everybody how much a teacher can change kids lives. But little does she know, WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND! So we called the school last week and asked if they could call Lara or Ms. Carson, out of the class and tell the students that this week they where going to have a nice celebration about there amazing teacher, and the kids apparently are very good with secrets as nobody slipped up. So we have the surprise factor that she isn’t going to get much teaching done, but also that her best friends and boyfriend are going to surprise her and she may get a ring on that finger after almost 4 years. SO YEAH LETS DO THIS!” I yell as i throw my hands up in the air.

“Maxx, quick question before we cut to the clips of you talking about her. Are You Nervous?” Cody asks as he points the camera at himself then back at me.

Zach chimes in (WITH A HAVENT YOU PEOPLE EVER HEARD OF! Im so not sorry for that) “WHAT KIND OF QUESTION IS THAT! OF COURSE HE’S NERVOUS!” And gets everyone to laugh.

“Oh no, Im absolutely terrified right now!” I reply as Cody just nods and turn the camera back to himself. Now we shall edit in the whole motage of them, So yeah. We’ll turn this back on when we get there.

(Nobody’s POV for the montage)

“Hi, This is Maxx from SIO. But, this part of this video isn’t about me. This is going to be about the most amazing woman besides my fam, that I have ever met. Her name is Lara Carson and she is Cody’s sister. Lara is such an amazing person. Her heart is always in the right place and she will do anything for her student or all of us in the band. She is always super calm in situations where all of us would freak out. She always has the most amazing advice. Oh, and did I mention how Amazingly Beautiful and smart she is. Like, the woman could speak one word and your in love and extremely inspired and confident.”

“Lara and I have been together for 4 years now and we have talked about getting married before. So now that I have finally built up the courage to ask, I decided to do it before I chicken out.” Maxx says as he laughs.

“This is the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. I am absolutely head over heels for her. She is like, the biggest nerd when it comes to shows, movies and video games, so she is like a female me. She is just so amazing, that it’s hard to describe how much I love her. But, I honestly mean every word I said. I just hope that she says yes.” He says as he chuckles lightly.

“I just can’t wait to ask her.” He says and then the video cuts back to the guys making a call in the van.

(Lara’s POV. This is the video the school is shooting into the surprise)

“So Ms. Carson, what is a class like for you. How do you ensure that they thrive and that nobody feels left out?” The cameraman says.

“Well, A class should be a fun but focused place. If your strict the kids will feel as though this place won’t be fun. It’s a place for kids. They are still young so the best way to help them learn is to make everything in to a game. They all just make it have so much life and energy” I say

“But some of the kids have families that are financially struggling.” I start as I begin to tear up. “There parents don’t always have the money for breakfast and lunch. So everyday, I wake up early and I go to a bagel store or the super market and I get them a healthy breakfast, and I pick up food for Lunch and I grab a ton of snacks to make sure that they aren’t hungry in my class. These kids just mean so much to me. I just want to help them have an amazing childhood ya know, Set them up for there futures, so one day I can look on the news and see one of my students making a difference.” I continue as I begin to cry.

“How do you inspire them to do what they want to do?”

“Well, that’s the easy part. You just tell them, that they can do it, as long as they work for it. A lot of my kids say that they want to be Musicians. So I will tell the kids stories about my amazing boyfriend and my best friends and brother. They are in a band. And they worked so hard to get where they are today. You just have to help them understand that they can do absolutely anything that they set there mind to. And when you say that, there whole face will light up. I just want them to be confident in there decisions. I tell them that if they are pushed down by negative people, you tune them out. You get right back up again, brush off the dirt and you try again and again until they can’t deny you.” I answer the question.

“Well, the kids seem to love you just as much, maybe even more than you love them, if that’s even possible. So the school set this up and a little surprise in your classroom. Why don’t we walk over.” The cameraman says. I get up and use a tissue i was handed to wipe away tears. We walk to my classroom followed by camera’s and such. When I get there, all the students and there parents are there and clap as I enter. I smile and see that people had brought in snack and decorations for the whole classroom. I cover my mouth and begin to tear up again. All the kids run over and begin and giant group hug.

“Oh my gosh. You guys are the best.” I say as we all break the hug and go to sit. “Wow. This is amazing.” I say to everybody when Brendon raises his hand (Im using band member names because thats easiest.)

“Yes Brendon?” I ask and he hold up an envelope and says “We all wrote you letters, so we are going to read them to you at the front of the class. I just smile and wave my hand so he runs up. I move my chair from the front to the side of the desks so everybody can see.

One by one everybody read there letter. There was a lot of crying and laughing and smiles. It just felt so amazing that these kids could think of all this amazing stuff to write about. Once Sarah reads her letter as she was the last kid, since we went in a circle and she sits in front of Brendon, her letter closes off saying, “We all hope you enjoyed our letters but we still have one last surprise for you. All of us feel that you will enjoy it.” She says and runs to her seat. I stand in front of the class confused when I hear the door open behind me.

(Maxx’s POV)

We had finished setting up all the decorations and snacks for the class and then say “Ok, so we let the crew know that we are done. We are going to head across the hall, you guys know the rest” Cody says with a smile. “Good job everybody. You all did an amazing job keeping this from my sister, who you all know as Ms. Carson.” He continues as we all wave at them and they say there series of goodbyes as we head across the hall to a deans office. She would be in the classroom and let us know when to go in.

After what felt like forever, we see her wave is outside and she opens the classroom door. Lara just has a huge smile on her face as she runs over to us and hugs us. The whole classroom claps. “Now Lara. Did you really think I would let the love of my life be alone on Valentine’s day?” I say as I get an individual hug and then a kiss. She just laughs and nods. “You told me you guys had tour dates all week. You lied to me!” She yells and everybody in the class laughs.

“Well, like she said, we do have a surprise for you.” I say as we turn to the board where the picture compilation was about to play with my message. (You guys know the message. I’ll paste it here again and put it in bold letter so you can skip over it if you want)

(Lara’s POV)

“I just can’t wait to ask her.” He says and then the video cuts.

I am crying at this point and turn around to Maxx on one knee hold a box in his hand. “Lara. Everything I said about you in that video is true. Including the part where I hope you say yes. So Lara Carson, Will you marry me?” He asks and I cry even harder.

“Of Course I will Maxx!” I say as I jump up and down and he put the ring on my finger. When he stands up, I envelop him in a huge hug and then we kiss. The whole class claps and Cody is crying and Zach and Dan are just there trying not to cry. All the students run up to us and make our hug and group hug. The rest of SIO joins in as well. “Best Valentine’s Day EVER!” I yell and eveybody laughs. The rest of the day was spent with Maxx and I sitting in the front of the room talking with the kids and parents and exchanging stories. All the kids where asking the boys about the band and what it was like. The boys would gladly tell stories and yell out and run around acting out the stories making the kids laugh.

Maxx and I just watch and they would occasionally have him join in. I think the kids really liked when Maxx would yell in most of his stories. They even enjoyed the short story of when Dan was deflating the balloon and while it was almost done deflating Maxx screamed with it and kept screaming in the back of the Van after it deflated. I think this will really help the kids understand that even when you work hard you can still have so much fun. And I think a lot more want to be musicians now.

________________________________________________________________ BONUS-

After Valentine’s day the school gets a week long break from school. The video we shot from the school was on the news and all over social media and everything. And the video SET IT OFF shot to go along with it was also everywhere. Right now though I was blind folded in a car with Maxx holding my hand, Dan driving and Cody and Zach just cracking jokes. So the usual, you know.

“Alright! We are here.” Dan yells. Maxx picks me up carrying me into a warm building. The short walk ended with me on a soft couch. Maxx removes my blind fold and i’m in front of a large crowd on Ellen. The crowd the cheered and everyone got to talking.

“So, the video really touched our hearts. So Shutterfly has given us a few large checks. This one is for you. This is going to help you get all the snacks and food you get for your students. And this one is going to the parents the parents of those students. You said you wanted to help them live out there childhood as worry-free children so that’s what Shutterfly wanted to help make that come true with.” She says as I put my head in my hands and Maxx hugs me. I then get up and hug Ellen and continuously thank her for all she is doing to help them.

“Thank you all so much, We will be back after the break.” She says as we hug again and say out goodbyes. “Maxx! Oh my god! I can’t believe she did that for them. AHHH IM SO HAPPY!” I yell as I jump into his arms and hug him. He then carries me to wherever we are going. Man... This has been an amazing month so far.

WOW WOW WOW! I DID NOT EXPECT THIS LONG OF A STORY! THIS IS ALL IMPROVISED! ITS SO CRAZY! I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOYED IT! FEEL FREE TO SEND ME SOME REQUESTS BECAUSE I HAVE SO MANY MAXX STORIES PLANNED IN MY HEAD THAT I WANT TO WRITE!!! BYE GUYS!!! MUCH LOVE!

~Astral

#set it off #maxx danziger #cody carson #dan clermont #zach dewall

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crescendohowell · 7 years ago

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and when you start to feel the rush

Summary: dan’s never had sex with a boy and he wonders what it’s like. phil says that he can show him. (literally just 2009 first time porn with minimal plot)

Word Count: 5.9k

Warnings: smut (blowjob, butt sex ya know the whole deal), swearing

A/N: i literally haven’t written in almost two months but for some reason i felt possessed to write practically 6k words of porn in two days so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ who even knows at this point tbh (title from Heaven in Hiding by Halsey)

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Dan had never really been so sure about liking boys. Sure, he had identified as bisexual for a few years now and he liked the way that felt. It certainly seemed like a label that fit when he thought about all the cute boys he saw in movies and a couple that he had brief crushes on over the years. But more often than not it seemed like the other boys his age were too brash and loud. And yeah, most of the time he was like that, because after all, he was young too. They were all just trying to figure things out and they would probably calm down with age.

Nevertheless, this made Dan feel like he would never actually like a boy enough to want to date one. He wanted someone that he could have an emotional connection with too, not just something physical like all the boys he met at parties seemed to want.

It was no surprise really when he latched onto Phil’s youtube channel. He was older, perfectly so, and he was all the things that Dan thought were interesting about boys. He was creative and thoughtful, not to mention breathtakingly gorgeous, and Dan couldn’t stop spending all of his time watching Phil’s videos. He didn’t ever think that anything would come of it, but that didn’t mean he couldn’t hope.

Yet somehow, against all odds, him and Phil started talking. Dan wasn’t sure how he ever got that lucky, but somehow him and Phil started skyping multiple times a weeks, for hours on end, and Dan didn’t think that he would fall for Phil so much more, but every time they talked, he found endless new reasons to.

The only thing was now Dan felt like the one that was much too young. Instead of feeling like he was too old for the other person, Dan became painfully aware of how much more life experience Phil had than him in so many different ways. Christ, Dan even knew a couple other guys Phil’s age who had a child. If they were older the age gap would matter less, but now, as only an eighteen year old, Dan couldn’t help worrying about it. What would happen when Phil realised he didn’t want to be friends with a kid?

Of course Phil didn’t care about that. He had his own worries about people thinking that he was taking advantage of Dan when really all Phil cared about was getting to better know the person that he knew was meant to be his best friend. There was never actually any concern about Dan’s age from Phil himself because he so quickly knew that there was something different about Dan. Even when Dan did things that were a little immature, Phil didn’t mind because he remembered being young and clueless.

As they continued to talk, their friendship started to get a little more than friendly. Dan was thrilled by this development and even though he tried to push it as little as possible, Phil was very aware of how many feelings Dan had towards him. He thought it was endearing. Besides, Phil couldn’t help falling for Dan. Dan was the most beautiful boy he had ever seen, and Phil couldn’t wait until he was able to touch him in person.

Dan would remember the first conversation him and Phil had about sex for a long time. He had been curious about what Phil would have to say on the topic for a while. One of the best parts of their friendship was that Phil never censored himself around Dan, and Dan loved that he got to see the unedited version of Phil. He loved that Phil would trust him with anything.

In return, Dan felt comfortable enough to talk with Phil about whatever he could think of. He had had several conversations with friends in the past about sex, but that had been much more nervous and had been pretty restricted to straight sex. Dan was really curious what it would be like to actually hook up with another guy as he had never actually done anything with any of the guys he had flirted with.

“Is it different?” Dan asked Phil one night when they were talking over skype. “I mean obviously it is I guess. You have had sex with a boy, right?” They had talked about Phil’s past relationships a little but never this specifically.

“Yeah,” Phil smiled a little. It was moments like this when he felt so much older. Still, it was nice knowing that Dan felt okay with asking him this kind of stuff. “I mean, I don’t know if I can describe it, but it’s really good. I’ve only had sex with one guy, the one I dated a while back.” Dan nodded, Phil had mentioned him before. “And I was super nervous at first but there was really no need to be. As long as you’re comfortable with the person and can communicate it’s no different than it would have been with your girlfriend.”

Dan internally cringed a little at the mention of his girlfriend. They had only had sex a couple times and it had always been painfully awkward. It had gotten a little better but not really to the point where it was actually enjoyable. “What if it wasn’t so good with my girlfriend?” Dan asked, letting out a short laugh.

“You’ll get better at it.” Phil laughed a little too.

“Oh so it’s a problem with me?” Dan pretended to be insulted.

“Oh yeah, for sure,” Phil rolled his eyes.

“Maybe you’ll just have to be the one to show me how to really do things then,” Dan joked without really thinking.

“Maybe I will,” Phil answered completely seriously, sobering up as soon as Dan said that because it was impossible to not think of it seriously once Dan brought the idea up. Phil had been having dreams about Dan that were not so innocent for weeks now and he had tried to banish them from his thoughts as much as possible, but hearing Dan actually say those words made it difficult to stop his face from flushing a little bit.

Dan blushed too, he could feel his heart seize up a little at the possibility. He had liked Phil for so long, sometimes he forgot that things might actually happen in the future. The thought was almost too much to bear.

“Besides,” Phil decided to continue, because fuck it, they were already here and Dan had shared some of his thoughts, why shouldn’t Phil share some of his? “I’ve only topped before and I always wanted to try bottoming.”

“Fuck,” Dan couldn’t help but mutter under his breath because that too was a visual impossible to ignore. “Don’t know if I can be of much help with that one.” He couldn’t stop the insecurities that he would never be able to offer Phil as much as he wanted from creeping in.

“Mm, I think with a little instruction you could manage it.” Phil smirked. “Maybe after a demonstration or two.”

“Bloody hell, Phil,” Dan voice was shakier than he would have liked but he didn’t really have any control over that at this point. “We need to stop talking about this right now otherwise I’m gonna have to end this skype call early.”

“You brought it up,” Phil decided that he quite liked teasing Dan like this. “Besides, it’s not my fault you’re a honry teenager who can’t conrol yourself.”

“Oh really old man?” Dan tried to come up with something to say in response even though everything Phil seemed to say was only making the situation worse.

“Is that all you’ve got?” Phil questioned when Dan didn’t continue.

“You’ve made it really had to think,” Dan protested, falling back onto his pillows and staring at the ceiling because looking at Phil’s face wasn’t helping either. Even though he knew Phil would never admit it, Dan knew that Phil was at least a little worked up too. His eyes looked different even through the shitty webcam.

“You’ve gotta come visit,” Phil said, in a softer voice this time. It wasn’t just lust anymore, there was also a lot of longing. Phil wanted to meet Dan just as much as Dan wanted to meet Phil and he would have bought a ticket months ago if Dan didn’t keep protesting that his parents would kill him if Phil showed up.

“I know,” Dan replied, still staring up at the ceiling. “Soon.”

And that was enough to get them off the topic of sex and onto other things that they ended up talking about for another two hours. By the time that they finally hung up the skype call, Dan could feel his eyes drooping with tiredness. His movements felt slow as he reached to turn of the light and pulled the covers close around him. He told Phil everything but he hadn’t told Phil that the real reason he was scared for them to meet in person was because he hadn’t told his parents about Phil. He knew how they would react to him telling them about an internet friend, especially one that was so much older. He knew that he needed to get over that and tell them anyways, because if everything went to plan there was no way that Phil was going to be leaving his life anytime soon. Tomorrow, he promised himself. He would tell them tomorrow.

But tomorrow came and went, as it always did. It was easy to promise himself that at night but in the mornings, with his parents asking him if he had met any nice girls recently, it was always so much harder. In fact it took 36 more tomorrows until Dan finally brought Phil up.

After that it only took 10 more days before the train tickets were booked and a countdown began. Dan couldn’t believe it.

Their meeting at the train station was beyond words being able to describe. The whole thing passed in such a blur and Dan felt like he was going to pass out the entire time. The only part he could remember perfectly was the feeling of finally being in Phil’s arms when they hugged. Phil smelled like boy and raspberry and his body felt so solid against Dan’s. Dan had never thought that he would be so emotional about a hug, but he could barely stop himself from crying because after everything being so distant for so long, it was finally in reach. And that was the most beautiful feeling.

Dan had been a little worried that once they were in the same place they wouldn’t be able to keep the conversation going for some reason. He half thought that Phil would finally realise how boring of a person he was. It would be impossible to keep up the charade that he was actually interesting in real life, right?

But it turned out Dan had nothing to worry about as they talked just as easily as they had over skype. Instead of meeting Phil for the first time, it really felt like Dan was just seeing one of his best friends he hadn’t seen in a little while.

Their first kiss was at the top of the Manchester eye. Dan half wished that he had never kissed anyone before so that it could’ve been his first kiss ever. It was the kind of kiss that deserved a spot in the marked history of his life. So Dan decided that if it couldn’t be the first then it would just have to be penciled in as the best. He couldn’t stop smiling in the minutes following it and Phil told him that was adorable. So Dan leaned in and kissed him again.

On the way back to Phil’s apartment, Dan couldn’t help but think about sex. Because this was only their first date, actually technically this wasn’t anything at all, they hadn’t labelled it yet. But it seemed like a first date, and that was much too soon to do anything. But also they had been talking for so long and god, Dan was a horny teenager after all. Phil knew that too. Would it really be so bad if they were to do something more than a couple chaste kisses?

“Do you wanna make out some more?” Phil asked almost as soon as the door was closed.

“Thank god, I was hoping you would ask.” Dan practically melted.

That was how they ended up on Phil’s couch, Dan practically sitting in Phil’s lap. Their lips were stained red and cheeks a similar colour, as Dan tried his best to shift his body away from Phil’s so that Phil wouldn’t be able to feel how hard he was. But then Phil had to go and move and all of a sudden Dan’s dick was pressing on his thigh. Even through the layers of clothes, it was still enough sensation to make Dan let out a choked moan, and definitely enough for Phil to notice.

“A little excited?” Phil smiled as he stopped kissing Dan to talk.

“Fuck,” Dan squeezed his eyes shut as he tried not to move his hips at all, ignoring how easy it would be to just grind against Phil’s thigh.

“It’s okay,” Phil shifted again. “It’d be impossible not to be.” He lined their crotches up so that Dan could feel how hard he was too.

The shock of that was enough to get Dan to open his eyes again as he looked at Phil almost in disbelief, because he had done that. He was the reason that Phil was hard and the idea of that was so incredible. It felt weird having another guy’s dick pressed against his, but Dan found that it felt much less strange than he had been anticipating. “Can I?” Dan experimentally moved his hips so that he was grinding down on Phil.

“Shit,” Phil swore under his breath. “Yeah, that’s good.” He shifted again so that Dan could be at a better angle and oh god, Phil hadn’t felt this horny in a long time. And while dry humping probably would have been more than enough, Phil pulled back after only a few moments. “Wait,” he tried to catch his breath enough to talk. “I wanna touch you. Need more than this.”

Dan had been ready to protest when Phil moved away but suddenly he had never been more okay with anything in his life. Hearing Phil say that was almost enough to make him come on the spot. The want in his voice was the hottest thing Dan had ever heard. “Yeah, yeah,” Dan scrambled off Phil so that they could move to the bedroom. “Sounds like a good idea.”

“Yeah,” Phil smiled up at Dan, his eyes full of fondness for a moment. He had forgotten that this was the first time Dan would be with another guy and the slight bit of nerves showing through reminded Phil of what Dan must be feeling.

“Are you coming or what?” Dan sassed, as he offer a hand to pull Phil up.

Phil accepted it, standing up. “Yeah,” He paused to kiss Dan, long and deep. “Just admiring the view.”

It didn’t take long for them to make it to Phil’s bed. Jeans were shed along the way and the bottle of lube and the condom that Phil had made sure were in his bedside drawer beforehand were taken out.

Dan paused for a moment as he went to take off his shirt. He had always had a lot of issues with body image and even though lately they had been getting a little better he was always painfully aware of the pudge on his stomach and the stretch marks on his thighs.

“What?” Phil paused after shrugging off his own shirt when he saw how Dan had frozen.

“Nothing,” Dan forced himself to start moving again because god, if there was anything motivating in the world it would have to be Phil Lester shirtless. After seeing that all Dan could think about was how perfect Phil looked. Once they got the rest of their clothes off, Dan reached forward. He ran his hand over Phil’s chest, skimming his fingers over his nipples and watching as they hardened at his touch.

“Fuck. Feels good.” Phil sucked in a breath when Dan did that, his words coming out breathy.

“Wouldn’t have thought you’d be so sensitive there.” Dan loved feeling like he was able to make Phil lose control. Phil, who was always so grown up and measured in his actions (as compared to Dan anyways). He probably would have continued exploring this newfound weakness, seeing how far he could take it, had Phil not offered up something else.

“You’ve never gotten a blowjob from a boy before, right?” Phil asked. He knew the answer but he just wanted to see Dan’s shock at his words.

And he wasn’t disappointed because Dan’s eyes widened a little at how direct the question was and all he could manage was a nod of the head confirming that no, he hadn’t.

“Well,” Phil began, as he started to trail lower, pressing kisses down Dan’s body from his neck to his stomach until he was so close that Dan thought he might pass out. “They’re even better then from girls.”

Dan could feel Phil’s breath on his dick and he knew that Phil was doing this to tease him.

“Because I know.” Phil pressed a kiss right at the base of Dan’s dick. “Exactly how it feels.” He licked a stripe up along Dan’s cock and Dan couldn’t help but moan.

“What the fuck,” Dan covered his eyes with his hand because this was the most intense thing he had ever felt and he felt like he might come before Phil even properly got his mouth on him.

Phil seemed to understand this because he pulled back for a moment, just to give Dan a second to calm down. “Let me know when you’re good.” He offered.

“Yeah, yeah,” Dan moved his hand and opened his eyes again. “I think-” He started but stopped mid sentence because Phil was jerking himself off and Dan hadn’t realised that was what he was doing but it was so hot. Dan had never thought that he would be one to think that a dick could be attractive but fuck, Phil’s cock in his hand was the hottest thing he had ever seen.

“Like what you see?” Phil couldn’t resist teasing, running his thumb over his slit just to make it even more intense. Really he had just been catching up to the point Dan was at, but if it made Dan this breathless, Phil wasn’t complaining.

“You’re unreal,” Was all Dan could muster in response and maybe it was supposed to sound like an insult, but Dan couldn’t really be bothered to work up enough of a sarcastic tone so instead it just sounded soft.

“I mean, I think we all know you’re the real beauty here,” Phil couldn’t resist complimenting Dan right before leaning forward again and taking all of Dan’s cock into his mouth so that any protesting would be impossible.

“Christ,” Dan moaned. Phil’s mouth was so hot and wet and yeah, Dan remembered blow jobs feeling good, but this was a whole other level.

Phil ran his tongue over Dan’s slit as he bobbed his head. He moved Dan’s hand so that it was tangled in his hair. Phil liked it the feeling of Dan holding him there.

Meanwhile, Dan was just trying to process what was happening because it was so much all he could really tell was that everything felt so good. He couldn’t tell if he was making any noises and he couldn’t be bothered to worry about if he was doing anything embarrassing. All he knew was he was holding on to Phil for dear life and he couldn’t even warn before he was about to come because it hit him all of a sudden, washing over his body in washes of a pleasure as he let out a choked shout, repeating Phil’s name as Phil worked him through it, swallowing around him without flinching.

“Fucking hell,” Dan breathed out softly as Phil moved back up so they could kiss again. Dan could taste himself on Phil’s lips and maybe that should have been gross but instead it felt incredibly hot and Dan couldn’t stop thinking about how it should have been impossible that he, out of all people, would end up with a boyfriend as hot as Phil. “That was amazing.” He wanted to make sure that Phil knew how good that had felt.

“I’m glad,” Phil smiled, a little amused at the fact that Dan had been so mind blown by a blow job and the fact that he had come almost instantly. Still, it wasn’t exactly the worst thing for his ego to know that it had been that good for Dan. Besides, it wasn’t like Phil hadn’t got anything out of it either, because all of Dan’s noises had been incredibly hot and Phil was more turned on now than he had been in a very long time. “Do you think that you could be up for a second round?” Phil was almost hesitant to ask - he didn’t want to rush things along - but Dan was young enough that Phil knew he would recover from his first orgasm within a couple minutes.

“God,” Dan hadn’t thought that’d be something that he wanted but as soon as Phil mentioned it, Dan could feel his dick begin to react again with interest.

“After you catch your breath of course.” Phil made sure that was clear. He had enough self control to be able to wait, after all some things got a lot easier to control with age.

“Yeah, sure,” Dan let his eyes flutter shut as he tried to regulate his breathing like Phil said. He could feel his heart fluttering, though he wasn’t sure if that was all because of the blow job.

Dan had actually been quite concerned about having sex with men at all only about a year ago. When he was first figuring out that he might be bisexual, he had been horrified by the idea of anything going near his ass, let alone someone putting their entire cock in their. He had thought that he would be the one to top if he did ever get with a boy and then maybe it would be okay.

But lying here with Phil, and after talking about it on skype, Dan found that he didn’t really want to top at all, certainly not right now at least. He liked the way that Phil had taken control of everything so far and he was certain that Phil would make things feel really good for him. Besides, Dan had got over the fear at least a little after some, let’s call it, self exploration. He had a pretty good idea of how this was going to work out and it actually it hardly seemed terrifying at all. Instead his heart was fluttering from excitement.

“Alright,” Dan broke the silence after a moment, “I’m good.” He opened up his eyes again and looked up at Phil, breaking out into a smile that showed both his dimples.

“You’re the cutest.” Phil couldn’t resist kissing each of Dan’s cheeks.

“No! I’m supposed to be sexy,” Dan pretended to be offended.

“Oh don’t worry sweetheart, you’re most definitely that too.” Phil replied without skipping a beat. He said that as he leaned over Dan to grab the bottle of lube off the bedside table.

While the sight of Phil’s arm muscles as he leaned over to grab the lube were enough to distract Dan for a second, they weren’t quite enough to completely stop a last minute swell of panic. “You’ll go slow, right?” Dan couldn’t stop a little bit of the fear from creeping into his voice as Phil opened the bottle and began to warm some of the lube up on his fingers.

“Of course,” Phil kissed Dan deeply to reassure him for a moment. “Just let me know if you want me to stop at anytime.”

“Alright.” Dan let out a shaky breath. He trusted Phil with his whole heart and so even though half of him wanted to run away, he knew that everything was going to be fine.

“You ready?” Phil asked as he moved so that he was inbetween Dan’s legs.

“Yeah,” Dan spread his legs further apart in response. It felt incredibly vulnerable to have Phil sitting there, seeing him like this, and Dan half wanted to close his legs out of embarrassment. But instead he willed himself to relax and focused on the undeniable anticipation that was building in his chest.

Phil started slowly with one finger. He used his other hand to stroke Dan’s dick, which was already most of the way back to being completely hard. Still, the stimulation there was a pleasant distraction from the feeling of intrusion that already felt so much more intense that Dan was expecting. It was just that Phil’s finger felt so different inside of him than Dan’s own had felt. It wasn’t worse or anything, it just made Dan desperately want more. Normally he would take his time with one finger before trying to add a second, but now Dan felt that he couldn’t wait.

“Another.” He voiced his opinion, unable to stay quiet. His voice already sounded like he was on the verge of begging with how much want there was in it.

Phil gave him a look of a amusement for a moment before slipping in a second finger. There was a bit of resistance at first, but Dan remembered to relax and in a moment Phil was able to move both fingers in and out with ease. His fingers weren’t quite as long as Dan’s and he seemed to be always just brushing against the spot that Dan knew would make him practically jump off the bed.

“Phil,” Dan moaned, trying to push his hips up to meet his fingers. “Deeper.”

“Not yet.” Phil removed his fingers completely and Dan was left clenching on nothing, desperately wanting something so that he could feel that full feeling that they hadn’t even reached yet.

“W-what?” Dan protested immediately. “What are you doing?” He needed Phil’s fingers back inside of him immediately, he had just been beginning to feel the pleasure getting more intense. Having Phil’s hand on his dick and and his other inside of him all at once was something that Dan hadn’t expected to feel so good.

“You’re getting too excited too fast.” Phil was just jerking Dan off agonizingly slowly now. It probably couldn’t even be called jerking off at this point giving how slow his hand was moving. He just didn’t want Dan to come again so soon. Phil’s cock was aching and he knew that if Dan came again now then he would have to settle for a hand job or a blow job. No, Phil was determined to make sure that Dan was both properly stretched and also not too excited that he wouldn’t be able to last.

“I promise I won’t come yet.” Dan caught onto what Phil was doing. He wasn’t sure if he would actually be able to stop himself from coming but damn it was worth saying if that was enough to get Phil to start again.

“Well if you promise,” Phil smirked before tracing his finger around Dan’s rim, the light pressure driving him crazy.

Dan let out a string of curse words. “Phil, please.” His voice broke slightly.

Luckily that seemed to be enough to finally get Phil to comply with what Dan wanted because suddenly Phil’s fingers were back in Dan, scissoring and going deeper than they had before.

“Oh god.” Dan moaned as Phil hit his prostate, making Dan see stars. “That feels so fucking amazing, please don’t stop.”

And this time Phil didn’t, instead adding another finger as he made sure that Dan was completely stretched. Phil knew that he wasn’t exactly small and the last thing he wanted was Dan getting hurt. He did take his hand off Dan’s cock though, making Dan’s hips jerk up into the air as they tried to find friction from something that wasn’t there.

“I bet I could make you come from just my fingers,” Phil said, his voice deeper than normal as he spoke. “Some other time we should try that.” Phil could see the way that Dan’s cock began to leak even more as he spoke. He could picture it now, Dan begging for release with his dick hard against his stomach and nothing he could do about it.

“Jesus.” Dan arched his back in pleasure as Phil’s words combined with what his fingers were still doing. “Just get inside me now otherwise I think I might combust.”

And for once Phil couldn’t even bother to tease back because that was exactly how he felt too. So he took out his fingers and Dan tried not to complain about the empty feeling they left.

Phil reached back over to the nightstand and grabbed a condom. After ripping open the wrapper and sliding it on, Phil gave his neglected cock a few stroke, sighing at how good it felt to finally touch himself. Dan just watched on with his mouth open in a little o because he thought this might be the most beautiful sight he had ever seen. He had never wanted to commit an image to his memory more in his entire life.

“Alright,” Phil moved Dan’s legs again so that he could fit between them. “You’re still good, right?”

“Oh god yes.” Any lingering fears that Dan had might have had were gone at this point and had been completely replaced by lust.

And so Phil finally began to sink slowly into Dan, his dick stretching Dan open even more than his fingers had and yeah it stung a little but Dan was instantly drunk on the feeling. Once Phil was fully inside him, holding still until Dan gave the okay, Dan was certain that he had never felt more complete. Sex had always been okay in the past, but this was so many infinitely times better. This was a type of connection and closeness that Dan had never felt with another person before. It was something he had never opened himself up enough to feel before.

“Dan?” Phil’s voice was suddenly concerned. “Are you okay? Oh my god you’re crying-” He started to pull out.

“No!” Dan instantly had his hands on Phil’s back holding him in place. “It just feels so good. So fucking good.” He could feel a couple tears running down his cheeks now but he didn’t try to wipe them away. “Please just move. I promise I’m okay. Really.”

“Okay.” Phil could tell from the look in Dan’s eyes that he was telling the truth otherwise he would have immediately stopped. But he understood so he began to thrust slowly, not able to stop himself from moaning at how incredible Dan’s tight walls felt around him. “Fuck. You’re so good Dan.”

Hearing Phil swear always made Dan’s blood run hot and the feeling of him beginning to move was perfect. It was everything that Dan had been aching for since they had started. Phil started to hit Dan’s spot after a couple thrusts, relentlessly creating a deep sort of pleasure that seemed to seap into all of Dan’s veins.

Dan couldn’t stop himself from reaching down to run his hand over his cock, the pressure so badly needed that it made him cry out. “I’m not going to last long.” He warned Phil. To be fair this was longer than he would have expected already.

“Me neither,” Phil admitted because truthfully it had been much too long and the feeling of being inside Dan was better than Phil remembered it ever being in the past. The tight warmth engulfed him so perfectly and Phil knew he was already close to being able to lose himself in all of it.

“Oh god,” Dan couldn’t stop the warm feeling in his stomach for any longer as he reached his second orgasm of the night. Everything just felt so fucking good. For once in his life Dan wasn’t over thinking anything. There was only pleasure.

Phil came after a few more thrusts. Dan was still clenching hard around him and the face that he had made when he came was the most beautiful thing Phil had ever seen. He knew that as long as he lived he would never forget the image of this. Of Dan looking so completely blissful and fucked as he looked back at Phil with his dark eyes. It was all because of him and that was more than enough to get Phil to come, his dick buried deep inside of Dan, as he moaned Dan’s name.

“I should probably move.” Phil finally said when he could begin to think again. Dan was just laying still, waiting for Phil to make the first move because out of the two of them, Phil had the much more intense orgasm, which made sense considering that he had waiting double the amount of time.

“Yeah,” Dan laughed a little despite the fact that Phil’s softening dick was still in his ass and that probably should have been uncomfortable than funny. Dan didn’t mind though. Had it been anyone else he would have cared, but not with Phil.

Phil pulled out of Dan as carefully as possible and kissed Dan once softly when Dan couldn’t help but grimace from the feeling. The kiss was long and gentle. Even though the words weren’t quite there yet it almost felt like a promise of love. At least that’s what Dan knew that he was putting into the kiss.

Next Phil went and got a damp washcloth so that he could wipe the both of them off. Showers sounded like way too much work and Phil insisted that Dan didn’t get up if he didn’t want to. Normally Dan would have said that he could do things himself, but with Phil it felt nice to be the one taken care of. Besides, Dan knew that sometimes he would be the one to do this for Phil.

The crawled under the covers, not bothering to put on any clothes. In the space of only an evening, Dan had gone from feeling like he could barely take his shirt off around Phil, to not caring at all. There was something about him that just made Dan feel comfortable in every way possible.

As Phil pulled Dan close, he pressed more kisses to Dan’s neck. He couldn’t believe that they were finally here. Neither of them could actually. And although in the morning the fears about them living so far away and the age gap and what other people would think about their relationship would come back, but for now those fears were far away from both of their minds. Instead everything was warm and comfortable. They had each other for tonight and that was enough.

#i've literally never written this much smut in my life why is this my comeback fic what's happening #phanfic #phanfiction #phan smut #2009 phan #realistic #mine

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