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I got my cat yesterday so she's been hiding ever since she got here
I've never felt closer to schrödinger. There both is a cat in my apartment and there also isn't
#i already love her so much#and i cant wait for her to trust me and cuddle#but I'm constantly forgetting that shes even here cause i cant see her#its like having a pet with no benefits
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can you pls write head cannons for dating cam Cameron ( tsitp ) if not it’s fine, thank you so much lovely xx 🩷
cam cameron hcs
i genuinely think cam would be the best boyfriend in the show
he’d def bring you flowers for no reason, just because he wants to make you happy
even though cam doesn’t drink, if you drink too much he would take care of you no matter what
he doesn’t need drugs or alcohol to be the life of the party
karaoke king 👑
he would 100% love to go to the deb ball with you. i feel like he’d get nervous and like freeze when he sees you in a beautiful dress and hair
whenever you two have heart to heart convos, he listens so intently and just takes in every word. he fs loves when people listen to him and his history because he feels trusted
he texts you right at midnight on your birthday
falls asleep first at sleepovers though and wakes up super early
if he threw a party he’d be right behind everyone picking up their trash (emma from h2o vibes)
he would love taylor swift with no shame
his favorite album is red or evermore
was def a 1d stan and freaks out when there’s reunion rumors
he thinks movie nights are the best and always lets you pick the movie
very random but i feel like he’d love going to baseball games like the red sox (same)
has screen time reminders
whenever he cuddles with you he loves to wrap his arms around you and lay his head on your chest
if you work in a cafe or a little shop somewhere he always comes to visit
literally if you forget your lunch he will make another one for you
makes a mean dessert for gatherings
people watcher!! he’s an observer fr
ik he helps his mom do chores and treats her like royalty (as he should 🙌)
he would take his gf to see the barbie movie if it means something to her and bring flowers and candy for them (if my boyfriend ever did this for me i’d marry him)
he loves swimming with you in the pool and his favorite thing to do it make a whirlpool
he would literally spend hours on it if he could
i feel like he has a color coordinated closet
had a crush on jeremiah (jam supremacy)
he loves holding your hand whenever he can
on the boardwalk he just swings your hands and doesn’t let go
he’s always kind to everyone, even if they’re not to him
he’s so passionate and loves talking about his interests
if he’s away on an internship or something he tries to contact you in any way he can, and when he comes back he wants to spend as long as he can with you
i love cam cameron and you should too!!
i’ve never done head cannons before, but i hope these are alright <3 i cant wait to write more fics for him
#the summer i turned pretty s2#the summer i turned pretty#the summer i turned pretty fic#cam cameron#cam cameron headcannons#cam cameron x reader#conrad fisher#jeremiah fisher#belly conklin#steven conklin#team cam cameron#team belly#team jeremiah#team conrad#tsitp taylor#tsitp#tsitp s2#tsitp fanfic#tsitp fic#tsitp headcannons#tsitp skye
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Ok so to warm my heart a little from the coldness of knowing I will have to wait 2 years to see dear Rhaenyra again I have started watching Game of Thrones,I was not very fond of it when it came out however now I am older and just desiring to binge watch anything to get myself to sleep and I have a few thoughts I need to get out of my head or maybe opinions,it might me a little over the top since of course I am a lesbian drama queen and I live to complain,im only in season 3 almost ending the season...
I fucking hate that kid bran,he takes soooo much screen time just to retell dreams and look like that snarky kid that throws random stuff on the ground in Walmart with a stupid look on his face (I really Wish Jamie would have killed his ass)
Melissandre is the most interesting character of the series,so witty and cruel in the best way,I was shocked when she killed that king with her baby demon and absolutely smitten,I love cruel women.
Jon Snow is the most boring character I have EVER witnessed in the story of television and trust me I've been there since Xena Warrior Princess graced the screens,just no goals,no path,no big dick or small dick energy,no energy AT ALL,just a big fat ugly Hero complex that I just can't stand because the actor has the same expression everytime no matter what happens,even having a boner with a cute girl cuddling his dick he is 😐 like gtfo of my face
Cersei is second to Melissandre in the scale of bad bitches,she is just so fucking resented and hot,everything she says sounds like wind chimes even if she is sending a child to his death,I cant help but want her to hate fuck me and call me a fagg0t and then tell me Im the worst fuck she's ever had and just use me again.
Dragons...Should I say more? I started the series of House of the Dragon because I just love dragons,and a particular scene is just edged in my mind like iron,Daenerys saving her little dragons from that sorcerers dungeon and their cute little faces watching her almost like trying to say "Momma! You're here! we missed you!" I think is the cutest scene ever.
Daenerys...She serving cunt,she ate and licked the plate,she served and left no crumbs,the director said cut and she heard CUNT and went with it, she caused a motherquake of 9.99 in the cunt scale,she's mother, and no other than the Mother of Dragons, I just love her,she is what Cleopatra VII was before hollywood found her and turned her into a makeup propaganda fashionista, a true strategist and conqueror.
Kal Drogo,I just mourned his death,he was so cute and murderous, i wept real tears for sweet Daenerys, I think the actor was really good and he needed more screen time, his scenes were charged with masculity and power,something we really lack these days in television.
Sansa, she is a beauty,the kind of beauty fantasy writers try to describe and there is just no way that human exists and then there is her...But she is so fucking traumatized and set aside just like every other woman in that universe,hell,even in life,I feel for her...And also wanna date her,i won't lie
Aria is a tough little woman,I think they really need to step up her action scenes because I think she serves well as a hope in the darkness kind of character however I do wish the actress was more prone to make a proper action sequence ala Eleven from Stranger Things,you can say what you want about miss Millie Bobby Brown but she is one of the few actresses willing to make many changes ln television for years to come with her characters.
Jamie Lannister is an interesting fighter and I wish it was possible to swap his fight scenes with Aria since i think it was proper giving the context,anyway he has good fighting sequences that I think were ment for someone else.
The sex scenes... This was a series HBO really set the bar high for nudity,there is so much nudity,sometimes unnecessary and cruel for the actresses involved and at the same time, is not surprising considering this series was made by two straight men,this always happens in the industry although these days is harder due to the constant intimacy coordination, but yeah in those times I can't imagine how unerving it was for actresses to bare it all for a couple of coins in a popular series.
Enough with my ramblings,I declare myself a fan of game of thrones only for Daenerys and her cute little dragons 💖
#daenerys stormborn#game of thrones#thoughts#dragons#ramblings#sansa stark#cersei lannister#jamie lannister#jon snow#melissandre#the red witch
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He’s gonna have to up his game if he wants to keep her coming back. Not Hoon posting those thirst traps 💀 Like yes my man that is a good start but something tells me that when she lets him hit again the aftercare will be 👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼 But also passive aggressive and regular aggressive because it’s them—
*gently cuddles*
“Hold still Snowflake. You’re gonna take this aftercare because I don’t want to listen to any whining about it later. So relax right the hell now and feel soothed! You’re so annoying. Don’t look directly at me while I tenderly wipe you down. It’s weird. Wear my hoodie and eat this snack I prepared but don’t enjoy it. Also drink this water. I put it in my least favorite water bottle.”
Honestly I cannot WAIT to see what situation she puts herself in to get this whole thing to happen “naturally” without losing face. When I tell you I am on the EDGE of my SEAT. The last several chapters have been especially fire. You have a GIFT for writing enemies to lovers. So many people can’t get it right but you are NAILING it. Trust me. I have read so much. I’m an expert opinion. Wishing you a wonderful day, lovely!
If I were Hoon I would just post a bicep pic with TXT’s “Comin Back for More”
He knows she’s hooked. It’s only a matter of time. (Also TUMBLR I’m 💀)
bestie what have you done this is..oh my god nah y'all are trying to make me skip every plot i have in store and just skip to this particular part already bc now i cant stop thinking about it STOP THIS MADNESS 🤕🤕🤕💔 im so excited to get to these parts and so grateful and happy to know you guys are too, thank you so much for this baby i love you and your sexy brain 🥺🥺🥺💗💕🫧
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MK S/I Interactions.
Cw: mentions of bad parents. Suggestive (sex jokes)
>Ask to tag.
>Only mutuals allowed to reblog.
Liu kang: your Beauty never ceases to bring me to my knees.
Me: Even before the reset?
Liu Kang: If theres one constant that I cannot control,its how breath taking you are.
♡
Me:should I adopt the name Kalon?
Liu Kang: Whatever you choose to do,im sure you'll have no issue bringing even more Beauty to the name.
♡
Me:Hate to break pretty things
Liu Kang: Next to you I become frail as porcelain. But I dont mind falling to pieces at your feet.
♡
Me:Was Kalon loved?
Liu Kang: She was just as loved as you are. I dont Belive that there wasnt a timeline where anyone who met you didnt love you.
♡
Liu Kang: I can only imagine this Will stoke your competitive Fire.
Me:dont worry,ill kiss it better when you lose.
♡
Tomas: I dont want to hurt you
Me: Hah!. I can take it,pretty boy.
♡
Tomas: whoever loses pays for our Next date.
Me:today your Wallet is going up in smoke,dear.
♡
Me: well if it isnt the prettiest ninja ive ever did see
Tomas: oh psh...[face red]. Uhm...hi.
♡
Tomas: can we cuddle after this?
Me: all day long, smokey.
♡
Tomas:have I ever told you that I love you?
Me: every day. But I love you too,tommy.
♡
Scorpion: Fields are often times razed to ashes to make space for New crops.
Me:then maybe I wont mind if I get burnt.
♡
Scorpion: you make art out of your gift
Me:And seeing you fight is like staring at a fashion runway.
♡
Me: have I told you I like bugs?
Scorpion: [chuckle] so thats why you like me
♡
Scorpion: Will you aid me in building a New clan?
Me: with anything you need,Artistics included.
Scorpion: my dear,I trust no-one else but you in regards to our image.
♡
Scorpion: I promise you I only have eyes for you.
Me: Harumi is a beautiful woman
Scorpion: And my Friend. As much as I am fond of her,she cant compete with you against your fierceness and your Beauty.
♡
Scorpion: do you still love Bi-Han?
Me: much to my grief,yes. But know that my loyalty Will always be with you and Tomas.
♡
Kenshi: Sooo when are you free?
Me: How about right now?
♡
Kenshi: My eyes are not the prettiest now..
Me: bygone Beauty remains the same even if you can no longer behold it, kenshi.
♡
Kenshi: ive always felt my tattoos to be a source of shame
Me:Theyre art,just Like the rest of you is.
♡
Kenshi: I wish to calm your mind,your thoughts are a whirlwind...
Me:if theres somebody who can soothe me,its you.
♡
Kenshi: often times love is blind
Me: [long snort,audible smile] AWFUL!
♡
Jhonny: Youre coming on as my art director.
Me: I really did make it up into the world.
♡
Jhonny: with your skills, this movie series is going to be breath taking!
Me:You dont know how much that means to me.
♡
Jhonny: Theres my favorite nerdy film student!
Me: theres my favorite airhead director!
♡
Jhonny: How about a Poison ivy cosplay for cage-con,Rooty?
Me: Only if youre my Harley Quinn.
♡
Jhonny: you are a work of art!
Me: what are you waiting to pin me to your wall,then?
♡
Raiden: Lightning always looks for the ground. In that same way,youre the only one that can soothe me
Me: thats adorable,but you can say you just want a hug.
♡
Raiden: when I met you,I really felt what thunder was. My heart wouldnt stop beating.
Me: I hope I didnt bust your eardrums,then.
♡
Raiden: Madame Bo has taken a liking to you
Me: we're going to be such a chaotic duo.
♡
Me: ive got sunshine in my pocket,but I wouldnt mind a little storm.
Raiden: [loving eyeroll] cheeesy!
♡
Raiden: would you like to walk through the gardens after this?
Me: I would love to,honey.
♡
Raiden: just when I needed some sunshine
Me: what has your mood all stormy? What can i do to help?
♡
Syzoth: Do you love all animals?
Me: Specially reptiles.
♡
Syzoth: I feel this odd pull towards you...couldnt it be your powers?
Me:whatever it is, come to me.
Syzoth: [smiles] yes ma'am..
♡
Syzoth: Would you still love me in my reptile form?
Me: babe,I'd still love you even if you were a worm!
♡
Syzoth: your warmth makes me happy
Me: like a gecko under sunlight!
♡
Me: [dragon tail wagging]I'd tease you because your tail is wagging, but im in no better spot.
Syzoth: Heh, I find that adorable.
♡
Bi-Han: my love...I am so sorry
Me: there is an exception for better late than never,Bi-Han. And its you.
♡
Bi-Han: I never meant to kill the fields of your flowers with my winter,my love.
Me: pretty little things Wilt away...
(Reference for the song "Pretty little things" by the crane wives)
♡
Bi-Han: there isnt a day where I dont miss you,my bed feels so cold without you.
Me:youve condemned yourself to eternal winter,Now suffer.
♡
Bi-Han: be honest,do you still love me?
Me: I do,but ive long since seldomed the habit of not doing whats best for me.
♡
Bi-Han: When Will be the day I can bask in your light once again?
Me:when you repent for your crimes and betrayal.
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Me: the way you treated tomas was disgusting. My siblings and I arent full blooded and I still adore them. As a fellow older sibling,im dissappointed in you
Bi-Han: [gaze lowers,under his breath] your Dissapointment Hurts me more than any heartbreak.
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Kung Lao: youre as beautiful and fierce as mother nature
Me:where do you think she learnt it from?
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Kung Lao: [Teasing] youre always so grounded! Live a little.
Me: [teasing] and youve always got your head full of air!
♡
Me:is that a lawnmower on your head?
Kung Lao: thats not funny!
♡
Kung lao: shes Beauty,theyre Grace
Me: shes gonna punch you in the face.
♡
Kung Lao: Dinner at Madame Bo's?
Me: Whoever loses foots the Bill.
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Kung Lao: you warned me about Suchinko, and still you didnt say "I told you so" when the everything happened.
Me: I bit it back for the sake of your morale.
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Kitana: No hard feelings,Kalon.
Me: [Laughs] raiden has already shown me hes got eyes only for me. Youre good,Princess.
♡
Kitana: If im not mistaken, Punk is often anti-monarchy.
Me: Luckily for Outworld,Mileena is doing an excellent job as Empress.
♡
Kitana: An earthrealmer and an Outworld princess? Scandalous!
Me: c'mon,live a little. I know the perfect spot for a date
♡
Me:You blow me away,Princess.
Kitana: and my love for you has bloomed into a beautiful garden.
♡
Kitana: you've met Outworld,but ive never met Argentina.
Me: oh,you'll love it.
♡
Mileena: I find myself in need of your expertise in plants. The gardens in the Palace look...dull
Me:count me in,empress.
♡
Mileena: I am so,so sorry for blinding Kenshi.
Me: he holds no ill Will,and so do I.
♡
Mileena: [endeared]Syzoth is distracted,i believe hes always thinking about you.
Me: seems I took root within his mind,apologies.
♡
Shang Tsung: is there a timeline where we can be together?
Me: if you abandon your evil ways,it could be this one.
♡
Shang Tsung: I love you,that fact is not a deceit.
Me:Actions speak louder than words.
♡
Shang Tsung: just this once,lets sneak off together.
Me:if you win this fight,we Will.
♡
Shang Tsung: Ah,the owner of my heart. My beautiful lotus, you bless me with your presence.
Me: hah, flirt.
♡
Me:youre so lucky youre pretty...
Shang Tsung: [with a smile] considering myself lucky.
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Sindel: your powers are most peculiar,how do they work?
Me: honestly? No clue.
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Sindel: I was sure you were going to kill Jhonny during your stay at the Palace.
Me:as Someone who was raised right,that boy lacks manners.
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Sindel:out of all the champions,you and Liu Kang are most alike. Respectful,well mannered...
Me: so the guys did that bad of an impression huh?
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Me: you dare touch a single hair on Bi-Han's head ...
Havik: he came to us willingly.
♡
Me: you are disturbing to see
Havik: this is the fault of your beloved scorpion.
♡
Me: listen here,you parasite,you dare feed on tomas again and ill rip off your teeth one by one.
Nitara: feisty...
♡
Me:rat with wings...
Nitara: houseplant..
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[Mirror]
"In your timeline do you also have shit parents?"
"Ive yet to find one where we dont"
♡
"Do you have a cat in your timeline?"
"I have a poodle,actually"
♡
"Oookkay,this is going to change my self worth"
"I dont like this either"
♡
"Are we always destined to be pariahs?"
"Love always finds us, I promise"
♡
(If using the shang Tsung timeline! Cosmetic)
"Im glad that at least in one of the timelines,he And I can be together"
"Its complicated, but we manage"
"All those scars..."
"Shang Tsung didnt inflict them on me,theyre all battle scars. He doesnt dare hurt me".
♡
Kabal: sooo should I worry about any of the guys youve met in China?
Me:Youre my most special one,Kabal.
♡
Kabal: I always thought you'd fist fight god if you met him.
Me: sadly for me,god's hot.
♡
Kabal: home didnt feel the same without you. Ive missed you
Me:im home how,im not leaving any time soon.
♡
Me:erron told me you were unconsolable in my absence.
Kabal: [flustered]that yeeeyee Snitch...
♡
Kabal: youre working with Cage in his New movie?!
Me: isnt that fun?!
Kabal: I want front row seats. If the movies are a bust its his fault,im a firm believer in that!
♡
Kabal: sooo are you taking me to the opening gala?
Me: get yourself a suit,Youre coming with me. Oh! And It better have plants in the theme!
#mk s/i#tomas tag#kenshi tag#jhonny c tag#bi-han tag pending#liu kang tag pending#crush f/o: mileena#crush f/o: kitana#shang tsung tag#syzoth tag pending#kuai liang tag pending#kabal#cw suggestive#tw suggestive
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RUBY! Omg the last chapter! Was it really over 4k words? I felt like I read it in 3mins flat. So good. The angst and pining is as usual just chefs kiss :-*. And the way you are having Astarion deal with his trauma is fairly realistic for him. He doesn't trust people and doesn't understand where his limits are, because they have always been trampled by others. And he's probably thinking - I've done this before, why cant i now? And ya know, he's impulsive, he just wants what he wants, when he wants it and doesn't understand why he can't get there faster (he's almost 300 years old, I'd be pissed too lol). Trusting the person he's with is key, being shown that he can say no, that he can do things without committing to a 2 hour seduction fuckfest and relaxing with mild touching can be very gratifying.
Please don't let people rush your development. I come from the Stucky fandom, where SA trauma and healing are a huuuge part of most narratives. These things take time. I think the people that are being fussy are just not used to having to wait for the 'pay off' and are expecting instant gratification. Please don't give it to them lol. There are plenty of fics they can read with more immediate spicy bits as the fandom is rapidly growing, so they'll be fine lol.
As for the heat/pining. Holy shit. I know they are both so fragile and are walking around on eggshells, but god damn is there a need for physical touch and healing, and I can't wait to see how you explore that. Just cuddling and mild touching can be so powerful (not to mention hot). I hate that it's currently with Ava. I don't hate her, I want to, though. I mostly just want her to be very pissed off. I still maintain she's his accountant, and they are trying to cripple BGs economy, but she's just semi nude all the time.😝 but also, fuck Ava. But preferably not by Astarion.
Which brings me back to the people trying to rush the sex...do they not see the potential for all the comfy sex that could come later? All the kinky shit that might be, between two people that want and trust eachother?
Long story short, love the new chapter. Thanks for reading my novel of an ask. Gotta go check out all the other places and sing your praises there too. Omg, 500 messages on the discord thread, jesus. I have to catch up!
I love how thorough your feedback is 🩷 thank you so much, friend!
Tomorrow's chapter will be more chill (in a way) and I'm hoping to address some of your points here 👀👀👀👀👀
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i’m having lone wolf brain rot and thinking about how soft hobi will be bonding with his omega ❤️ how blushy and proud she’ll be whenever he compliments how well she does things around the house or approves of her nests ❤️ or when he has a pup and how he’ll teach her how to care for it while never putting the expectation on her that she has to have a pup too! omg and how yoongi will feel when mc smells like pack!!! he’ll be so happy 🥹 how all the alphas will prove to her that they’re gentle and will never ever try to use their power over her negatively!!!!
how relieved hobi and yoongi will be when she decides to quit her job and let alpha provide for her while she takes care of the home with hobi 🥹
also thinking of namjoon and his love for small things and how he would MELT seeing mc yoongi and jimin cuddled together!!!! tiny pack being tiny and safe and in love and he’d want to curl around her to help yoongi protect!! like that doesn’t really match what we’ve seen of his character so far but i can see him being so soft over how tiny she is once they start getting comfortable with each other!!
i also think she’ll help teach jin how to be a better pack alpha, like she’s still so intimidated by him and he’s not comfortable with her :( but he’ll learn how to be more gentle and how to ask instead of demand 🤭 and this in turn will help him be a better dad for his pups!! and i think once he gains her trust he’ll feel so so genuinely proud because he’ll know that he actually worked hard to earn it instead of how, naturally everyone else’s love and respect came, or how his privilege led him to believe he deserved it immediately just because that’s how he was raised.
i don’t know what you have in store for this pack but i can’t wait to find out ❤️
😵💫 wow you made me even more in love with them anon 🥺
I brain rot about mc and hobi a lot. Like hobi is so glad to finally have someone to do the things with him. Tae tries to help but some things are just omega things and its different. And sometimes he'll be like, let's take a break from the chores and take a nap and its just an excuse to make a lil nest with her on the couch and cuddle. And the first day that Yoongi is sleeping after a night shift and comes down and sees them all bundled up he's kinda jealous and very endeared. Mc will be SO protective over Hobi when he's pregnant and will also be so so sweet with the new pup 🥺
And Namjoon. Ugh Namjoon doesnt really like the idea of her much rn but once she's been around the house a while and he scent is everywhere and he cant get close to Jimin bc he's always with her, he'll just get pouty. And if jimin tells him she's scared of him he'll try extra hard to be gentle around her so that she's not afraid and so maybe eventually she'll let him get close 🥺
Oof and i absolutely adore the idea of Jin learning to be a proper alpha because it's what she deserves and demands without even knowing it. Bc she just wont accept him at all if he doesnt act right. And then he'll finally get yoongi back completely too 🤧
This pack has my whole damn heart. Thank you for the brain rot material
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08 03 2023
my (very comfortably platonic) FP has been talking about breaking up with her girlfriend and my BPD-ass brain can't help but start imagining a future where we're romantic with each other now that there's a little tiny sliver of a chance of it happening.
and honestly im pissed about it. i don't want to think about it. i mean, the idea feels nice, of course it does, she's one of my FPs and any chance at having a closer relationship with a FP is going to be welcomed with open arms. but the sane, stable, recovery-focused part of me is satisfied with what we have, i like being just her best friend. its predictable, comfortable, and safe.
i cant help it though, it feels intrusive. and i want it to stop, tbfh, considering we're going to be living together soon. i cant spend any time with her without those kinds of thoughts coming up at some point, especially when we're cuddling or something. yk, normal close platonic relationship shit.
what makes this even more complicated is that we have dated before. it was a long time ago, like, 7 years ago at this point, sometimes we both forget that it even happened, but its still a part of our history. we loved each other. and the only reason it didn't work out was because i was a child and had undiagnosed BPD symptoms starting to emerge.
we're stable now though, we know how to keep our relationship stable because we both work equally hard, and we both want to work equally hard, we've had our shitty past and now that we've both grown, she has the understanding that it's going to be harder than other friendships because of my disorder and she still works as hard as i do because we both care that much and it. works.
which is why i cant let it go, i cant help but think about whether or not we could try again. whether or not it would work this time. but she's the only fully stable relationship i have in my life, why would i risk it just to prove a hypothesis
idk, maybe because i'm dumb and need attention and love and validation?
im fighting with myself at this point. and i really just need to shutup and pretend that im not curious about what it would be like, and pretend like i don't and haven't always had feelings for her. it will go away eventually right? i hope so. i feel like im betraying her trust sometimes. i cant help but fall helplessly in love with any available person who gives me the slightest bit of validation though, its not necessarily either of our faults.
actually, yk what, i think i could probably talk to her about it and it would be ok. especially since i dont have the intention of acting on it. we'd be able to work something out. it'd probably be better than trying to hide it, and im sure she'd understand given the nature of my disorder. fuck im actually so lucky that i have this sort of friendship with her that im 98% confident that me having romantic feelings for her, and me sharing these with her, wouldn't impact our friendship in any way. i dont know many people that could claim that of their friends.
ill probably wait until everything with her gf blows over first though. itd probably be better just to make sure she's not stressed ab anything else rn
- andrew
#tumblr diary#dear diary#vent#vent posting#bpd#borderline#actually borderline#borderline personality disorder#bpd fp#bpd favorite person#favorite person#im not mentally stable#mental illness#actually mentally ill
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@skystrikeflame this warmed my heart thanks
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FIRST IMAGE: [IMAGE ID: A four-panel comic. In the first panel, a person says "your weird pets cant love you back". In the second panel, someone else responds, "i dont love things to receive a reward". In the third panel, the first person just stares. In the final panel, they make an angered expression. END ID.]
SECOND IMAGE: [IMAGE ID: A screenshot of tumblr tags that read: "who cares if my rabbit loves me like a himan would. i love her ans she clearly cares for me. she gets excited when i call her name. and she runs up to me and waits for me to get down on the floor with her so she can come over and give me bunny kisses and climb on my back. who cared if my guinea pigs don't love me like a human would. they hear me call their names and come running because they know meas the Person Who Gives Them Food and they rely on me. they trust me so much they climb into my hands to get picked up. they climb up on my shoulder to get hugs and shove their little heads up under my chin to cuddle. who cares if they don't love like a human. they trust me they know i take care of them they like me. my rabbit knows how to communicate with us in her own way and so do the pigs. i have genuinely cried over how much these little animals trust me. they trust me so much they run to me when they get scared. i stay up super late when one of them has a problem just to make sure they're okay. i've given them medicine for illnesses and i care for them so much. but yeah who cares about 'weird pets' bc they 'don't love you back'." END ID.]
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Yurrrp Im losing it.
On top of my relationship issues that are fucking me up real good, work is killing me but doesn't pay well because its physically impossible for me to do fulltime hours without a car. Im late on rent and my saving grace, my tax returns, is having issues with the finnish irs. Mother fuckers arent giving me the one benefit i get from work and Im losing my mind over the paper war with them. While most everyone at my work place got it with 0 issues despite being in the same situation.
Everything is just going to shit, Im probably really fucking depressed over all of this, but also if I now go get help for my depression it'll put all my trans thingies on hold.. Not that I have proper contacts yet I'm self medicating right now and Im waiting for the hospital to respond so I can get the diagnosis, which is like 3-5 more talks with a doctor.
Staying at home also gives me huge fucking anxiety, its a mess, and my roommate (longer time ex partner) while they are a beautiful person and I care for them, aint helping and they just cause me more stress over monetary things and the house being disgusting.
And like I said at the start, about my relationship issues, I still am single, but with my latest ex: whom I consider still my best friend, I am also losing my mind.
Our relationship has changed, but every thing we do has stayed the same despite we talking about how its not going to. We still sleep next to each other, cuddle up for movies and she gives me kisses. She asked me if I ever would move to her hometown. She told me she wants to preferrably get a poly lesbian girlfriend so she doesnt have to give this up (although she will if it comes to that). We see each other 5 days a week and talk on discord the other 2. Everything she gives me is still sending me huge vibes about how she might still love me, but she is vocally clear that she is a lesbian and cant see us being together. But also says things like she doesnt feel like she can move on from us. When she is the one who cut it off. We've even had sex, more intense than what we did when we were dating, despite her saying she has no interest in me and its just a case of trust and still being able to take the pleasure from it why we can do it.
So it still feels like I'm in a relationship with the one who I really really love for the longest time, but she can't give the one thing that matters which would be truly love me back. Im just so fucking lost and should just cut it off and move on but I really dont want to lose her be it the physical/romantic parts, or my best friend.
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sometimes i miss the feeling of your skin on mine. your long arms snaking around me, holding me in your warmth. your peaceful blue-green eyes and they way your lips shaped every time you called me ‘honey.’ sometimes i miss our night time drives with star filled skies. the way we talked about our future and all of our plans. sometimes i miss screaming at the top of our lungs to some dumb song we both felt nostalgia over. sometimes i missed drifting around in your car, the adrenaline is something i still crave to this day. but sometimes, i remember how those eyes used to pierce right through me, how your lips looked as you smirked when i fell to the floor. sometimes i remember how your arms trapped me in your grasp, leaving blue galaxies scattered across my skin - ruining every beautiful glimpse into our future that i once had. sometimes i remember you purposely sliding all over the road while we were in an argument because you knew it would frighten me. sometimes i remember how much it cost me to be loved by you. sometimes, it cost me an entire day of waiting. waiting for your message, for you to come home, and then wait for you to even greet me. sometimes it cost me my privacy, you scavenged through what once was our room to separate our belongings because you needed space. sometimes, it cost me not feeling safe or comfortable in my own home. a home that we were once so excited to share. and sometimes, it cost me my trust. i remember that i can never trust you again. that the love we once shared was now somewhere buried underneath that house. hidden under your lies, your abuse, your rage, was a 19 year old girl begging for you to love her the way you did in the beginning. im not sure what made you flip that switch. what made you go from a kind and gentle man to a human i would cross the street to avoid. its crazy to me how after you escape an abuser, suddenly you begin hearing stories of the ones before you. stories that people kept from you, in hopes that maybe they had ‘changed.’ and suddenly you feel like you cant trust anyone anymore. because you realize that none of it was real. no kiss, no hug, no cuddle, no ‘i love you’ was ever meant to last. you were just…. next. and no one prepares you to be next.
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for me the majority of high school was okay, but the last year was a huge mess. sorry you went through that babe, you don't deserve to feel lonely ever :(
I love brownies and everything that involves chocolate! I've never made them but then again i don't cook or bake much because i don't trust myself with it 😭 but i don't remember the last time i had brownies and now i really want them 🤌
i kept beeping at the security gate and they took me aside and pat me down 😭 felt like a criminal for real but then again at least i finally got touched intimately? 😭
I CANT WAIT FOR RAY'S SUFFERING
YOU HAVE A KITTEN?? OFNFBDJSBSIS I AM THE BIGGEST CAT PERSON IN THE WORLD I LOVE YOUR KITTEN ALREADY. WHATS ITS NAME?? HOW DOES IT LOOK LIKE?? PLEASE GIVE IT A PET FROM ME CAN I BE ITS AUNT
im okay, thank you!! i got back from vacation, so i rested a bit. and i bought myself that red lipstick we talked about!
oh no :( high school isn’t a nice place at all, i’m sorry you went through that, i hope you’re having a better time in college though :')
LMAO you’re like my sister, she hates baking and cooking and doesn’t trust herself with it either 😭 the few times she tried baking, it was a disaster! but you just gotta try it🤭 and go get yourself a brownie asap 😌
LMFAO BESTIE ‘at least i finally got touched intimately’ I CANT
AND YES!!! I GOT ONE A FEW WEEKS BACK! She’s a grey british shorthair!!! her name is Stevie 🥹 I always wanted a black cat and name it Eddie but I saw her and I had to have her! I couldn’t call her Eddie but I could call her Steve 😌 she’s such a cute little thing, she’s kinda crazy though 😭 YOU CAN BE HER AUNT YES & SHE LOVES CUDDLES SHES SO ADORABLE
How was your vacation? AND OMG! I’m so glad you bought it!🥺 I love red lipstick, I bet it looks amazing on you!!!
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.Rwby Catchup”: V7 E13
Things Neo can conceal/disguise with illusions: Weapons, Armor, Clothes, entire planes (admittedly hard) Things she cant: The relic. Old Lady starts to go Ice-supersayian. Cinder generics into the scene as always. Renora only just got together and they’re already having their first couple-fight. Oscar abandons crew, because thats going to be smart. Supersayian Oldlady has dementia, Oscar and James about to duke it out for the spear? “I wouldn’t trust me either”. And Jimmy shot the kid. I’ll be honest the whole “turn to the dark side” arc didnt really work for me. Not because i dont believe his dark side, but because i was never really sold on his “light” in the first place. Cant fall from grace when you are introduced without it i fear. (i mean i guess there were a few glimpses. But its more like he’s introduced as a fallen champion then that we get to see the champion fall if that makes sense) Cinders arm just got shattered, thats good? Is it going to stick? No, because it regenerates. I’ll be honest, Cinder still has too much going on in the design, Flaming eyes, Eyepatch, Amputated Monsterprosthesis, little brooch-like thing on her chest, earrings. Like one or two of these things are fine in a design but put it all together and her entire “deal’ gets cluttered. Why are penny’s maiden-flameeyes green? Speaking of Green, Ozpins glowy forcefield/whatever his semblance is is back. Which begs the question: Do all of Ozpins Souls share 1 semblance or is this an a MHA One For All sort of deal? Qrow and Robin are off to prison again while Ozpin talks about fear and the montage implies cinder is afraid of failure. Which is might be the first time we have been given anything resembling a motive for the character. (we are 7 seasons in and our OG Main Villain is only now getting motivations beyond “im evil”) Salem got a backstory before Cinder did is what im saying. Winter’s still on the side of the Fasc, but at least she still cares for Weiss. Penny joins team goodguy (which is good, cause i never bought her on James’ side to begin with) Penny has 2 hands so she can cuddle Ruby and Weiss simultaniously. No Ozpin, i dont understand why Cinder does the things she does, it would be absolutely lovely if she got to have a personality beyond “generic looming threat” please. Wait Watts is still alive? I was under the impression James had executed that motherfucker when he held him by his throat over the arena pit that had been spouting lavaflames earlier that fightscene, and that them dramatically cutting away from his threat to “do whatever it takes to eliminate salem” was meant to imply an extralegal and brutal execution. while Watts’s “I hope you do” was a dignified set of last words before aforementioned extralegal execution. Congrats Watts, you live because the writers didnt have the balls. Pinochio just became the most important person in the arc, and a giant whale shows up. What a suprise. Salem get down from there, you’ll catch a cold. ------------ Final thoughts on S7: It’s basic foundational premise was not sold to me, but it managed to somewhat salvage itself half-way through. I rank it a B-tier season and it’s lucky to have that. The newly introduced villains (ACEOPS) werent really sold to me that well, and Clovers fall-from-grace/death didnt touch me emotionally. (though it sold me on Qrow being sold on it). Nonetheless i did like his character the most of the ops and their dynamic with Qrow was sort of weird, going from “possible loveinterest” to “Dickish Rival” at strange times. I hear that a lot of the FNDM shipped them? I never saw it but i could see where others might. (Also in hindsight: What was the point of using the Tournament in V3 to introduce 3 atlas characters with FNKI and Ciel when 2 are nothing but cameos I know from V9 that the absence of the latter is relegated to a joke).
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As he sat across from her, she looks up at him and kept the sad expression on her face. She knew this was alot to take in but it didnt help she was still fearful of him at the end of the day. She knew if he wanted to, he could kill her in an instant and not care. It made her scared.
"Its okay really! This is alot to take its just...I never seen you upset or scared before." She wasnt gonna admit shes seen him broken after some hunts. Another place and time. "Im used to your playful nature and you cuddling me after rough times. The way you would just whisper little sweet things to me as if it was the last time I would see you." She rambles, moving a curl from her face, smiling a bit as he shook her hand and pat it.
"Thank you! Dean is also a name I wouldnt call you, it should be 'dad' but thats weird in my human form. Imagine hearing us in a store and I just yell 'hey dad i need some juice!' from across the way." She snickers, joining in a bit on the jokes. It may have been in poor taste but shes still getting used to talking after just meowing for so long.
As he asks if she was scared, she scrunches her nose and shakes her head. "Scared wouldnt be the right word. Exausting is better to use. Imagine not being able to communicate with a person unless you use one word. You cant think, you cant talk, you cant speak your mind, you are just there. You have to rely on someone elses kindness if you arent a scavenger, spoiler alert Im not and after awhile you just become complacent. Just used to it. And you just have to sit and wait until your mind begins to catch up with you and realize 'hey im not just a cat!' then poof. You see me now." She made a jazz hands motion to lighten up such a sad explanation of being a neko.
Rockelle luckily wasnt without a home. In fact, she had a home with a puppy there. She knew her sister took over the care of it while she wasnt there. Her sister knew she messed up the spell and wanted to do a solid and take care of the pup while she wasnt there.
She looks up at him as he offers his home to her, giving her an additional place to stay now. "Things may not be the same but at least I can talk back to you instead of just meowing at you." She gently pats his back and hugs him, resting her head on his shoulder. "I was gonna ask if you wanted to stay with me! I have a home and a puppy, my sisters taking care of the upkeep. Im happy I meowed at you too that day, I have never been happier in such a long time." And with that, she kisses his cheek and smiles.
Dean welcomed her use of the jazz hands because, indeed, her explanation of nekos added to the mixed bag (mostly sadness) he now felt inside.
"Yeah, I guess it’d be nice to hear something else for a change,” Dean teased lightly. While he appreciated the pat, hug, and head on his shoulder, it wasn’t until Rockelle kissed his cheek—saying she was happy—never happier, in fact—that he reciprocated the hug.
Incidentally, his hand had brushed against her tail, and he instantly knew the feel of that fur. It was the same as the kitty’s. More than ever, he was truly convinced that Rockelle was his pet. Well, used to be.
“Now that we have all this straightened out, Rock, I want you to be able to trust in me like you used to… None a’ that crap about me hating witches,” he sighed, gulping tearfully as he thought back to the expression on her face from a moment before. She’d seen a killer when looking at him.
“You were very disappointed in me when I suggested that you’d hurt me, because you knew it was anything but the truth, right? That’s how it is for me, too… I-I loved that cat as much as I’ve loved anyone or anything…” Maybe more, he muttered, perhaps not even audible. Then he hugged Rockelle tighter, buried his face in her comparatively (to his own) tiny shoulder, finding the extra long pieces of fur behind her feline ear and wrapping his finger in it like he’d done so many times before when he was feeling down.
“I’d really like to see where you live, meet your family… your dog.” On that note, Winchester burst out in a giggle. The idea of a kitty having a pet puppy was too much!
The sad tears turned to happy ones and after catching his breath, Dean was able to wipe them away. She would need some things first if they were to set out soon.
“I know you’re not exactly dressed to hit the town, but how ‘bout you throw a jacket a’ mine over and I take ya’ shoppin’? I mean, there’s no sense in stickin’ aroun’ here when your sister’s out there probably worried sick about ya’…”
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Wait- what if bimbo reader was actually more of the cold and uptight type. Hyperfem and naive but has walls pushing people away. But by some miracle starts dating yandere!Eddie who burrows himself into her heart until she cant live without him, hes the only one she can trust. Makes her his little baby that only needs Daddy. Always has to hold hands with Eddie or be in his lap to feel safe. Basically bimbofication but reader was always a bimbo at heart, just pretended she wasnt to protect herself
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CW: bimbofication, daddy!eddie, ddlg dynamics, yandere!eddie babies reader, pacifer usage, fluff, crying, dark!eddie, little!reader, littlespace, eddie picks reader up/carries her
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you're a top student, but eddie can see past that. you're tired, and you need someone to take care of you because you're so busy takin' care of everyone else. he knows what you need, and even if it takes a little time to get your defenses down, he will succeed.
but !! but !! but!! imagine eddie just plants himself in your subconcious (and heart) so when your feeling upset or sad you just think of him and wanting him to comfort you <//33
he gives you a big hug in the morning before school, taking a deep breath in as he smells your scent, his heart fluttering in his chest.
he starts to do small things to baby you before you begin dating. like for example, trying to force you into your 'little mindset' so you can be open to him caring for you.
at first you were stubborn, "no, eddie i can do it myself!" you would huff, but eddie could hear that little whine in your voice. he knew he was getting somewhere.
he'll call you nicknames like, "baby" on a normal basis, but when he starts calling you "sweetheart, princess, 'my little___"" you begin to feel yourself slip.
even when you begin dating, your walls are still up.
but as you begin to slip further and further, he'll drive you away from your friends saying things to you like, "i'm the only one you can trust, sweetheart,,you don't have to be someone everyone else wants you to be around me." and "they don't understand you like i do, princess. you're my little baby an' you need me to take care of you.."
he can sense your walls starting to crumble but one specific night, everything changes.
you call him, crying.
"a-an' then, she jus' yelled at me! 'm so tired, eds," you whimper, and eddie can feel his heart break, but he also knows that right now is the perfect time.
"poor thing," he murmurs, and you can feel your mind get that familiar fuzziness, except now it's intense. "y'wanna come over, baby? we can watch a movie an' i'll take real good care of you.."
you sniffle, "y-yeah, da--eds, i--- 'm gonna go now, mk?" you slur, and eddie could hear it. he could practically taste the word that is sitting so heavily on your tongue, just begging to fall out.
"m'okay, sweetheart, be careful--i'll see you in a few.."
"m'kay, an' when i get there can we cuddle n' stuff?" he can tell your shy about it, probably fidgeting with the phone chord.
"'f course, princess. we can do anything you want."
you nod, although he can't see it. "m'kay eds, m'gonna go now, okay?"
eddie laughs softly, "yeah, princess, i'll see you soon."
you both say your goodbyes and hang up.
once you get to eddie's he embraces you tightly as you hiccup over sobs into his chest.
he kisses the top of your head before pulling your face back gently with his hands.
you feel so..tiny.
"let's getcha all nice n' cozy m'kay, sweet girl?"
you nod, sniffling as he swipes your tears with the pad of his thumbs gingerly.
he changes you into his Hellfire Club shirt, kissing your forehead once your head pops out of the material.
you giggle when he steals small kisses from you, brushing stray hairs away from your seraphic face.
the night progresses and eventually, he can tell your holding back on calling him what you really wanna call him.
"da--uhm, e-eds can you hold me, please?" your voice is unintentionally higher and whinier than it usually is, so he can tell your really fighting being fully submerged in your 'littlespace' mindset.
he's cradling your head, his body leaning on his bent arm on his bed, his hand cradling your face as he looks at you softly, making your body feel like mush.
"'s okay to call me whatcha wanna call me, sweetheart, i know you want to.." his voice is alluring and kind and gentle and you so badly want to give in but that pesky wall is still there; even if it is about a few inches high at this point.
you whine, your bottom lip trembling as he kisses it to calm you, "can you relax for me, bunny, hm? do as daddy says, he knows what's best for your little head.."
that's what does it.
"d-daddy, wanna cuddle lots tonight.."
your cheeks are red as he praises you softly with, "that's my good girl, my little baby.."
and from that night on, you felt so deeply connected to eddie that you would follow him around everywhere like a little lost puppy (one morning he woke up having to pee, and you felt him remove his arms slowly so then that resulted in you waking up as well. so, you grabbed your teddy bear with heavy, sleepy eyes, holding eddie's hand as you both walked to the bathroom.).
you're always sitting on his lap, and he buys you cute little onesies and pacies and toys to aid your little side.
one night your hair is in cute little pigtails, a pink pacifier in between your pouted lips, your cute little baby blue onesie on (not the ones with the long sleeves and long pants, the ones with the sort of underwear cut that buttons under the crotch and with the short sleeves).
you're playing with your pink bunny eddie got you when he came home one saturday afternoon. eddie's sitting across from you, legs spread open as he fidgets with a little doll he gifted you (this man is constantly spoiling you). he's looking and admiring your child-like happiness, watching you play with your toy as you sit on your haunches.
you crawl into his space, on all fours as your face is right in front of his.
"hi, princess," he coos, and you wrap your arms around his neck, his big hands going to your waist as you hug him. "lub you." you muffle, nuzzling your head into his neck.
he kisses your shoulder, "i love you too, sweet girl."
you let go of him and turn around, lying your head back on his chest, his left arm extended behind him and holding him up, your pink rabbit forgotten as you fidget with his rings.
you twiddle with his hand, rubbing your fingers gently over the calluses on his palm making eddie want to fucking cry.
oh and don't get me started on the fact that when you both are out with like Steve, Nancy, Robin, or something how you literally cling onto him like a koala.
you whimper into his neck when you want his attention on you. you're always sitting on his lap and holding his hand and it's now hard for you to even go to a class where he isn't apart of the roster of students in that period.
when you both come home from school, he takes a bath or shower with you when you mumble out a, "need daddy."
he makes you feel safe, calm, and happy.
he tells you that you don't need to think with your little brain, because daddy'll think for you.
he knows what's best for you and he loves you deeply.
#eddie munson#daddy!eddie#daddy!eddie munson#daddy!eddie munson x little!reader#bimbo!reader#mail 💌#eddie munsonxreader#dark!daddy!eddie munson#note: i didn't check for errors again
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dating jinx would include
gn! reader
warnings: angst, nsfw, paranoia, mental illness, breakdowns and possessive behavior
dating jinx would include......
she's playful
~how you met (i think im gonna start adding this from now on, maybe)~
met eachother a year before vi comes back at the last drop
jinx noticed you but didnt think much about you, until you sat next to her without fear and started asking her questions about her trinket she was working on
she smiled really bif and started info dumping on you about what they do and the variations
she goes home thinking about you and decides to look for you
it took a few days but she found you again and asked (begged) for a date
it was a surprise but a good one
you excepted and had a great time (leaving that up to your imagination)
soon she asked you to be her partner.
~general~
she's clingy
she's bouncy
she's high energy
she's so in love with you
she's overbearingly protective and jealous
she just loves you so much that she cant stand the thought of you talking to someone thats not her
what if they steal you away
you're the only one who calms and grounds her when things get loud
she would never hurt you
youre just so wonderful
so reassuring and she needs that dont you understand?!
never lets you leave alone, always there even if its trailing you in the shadows.
when she isnt causing mayhem in the undercity or in piltover she can be found cuddling you
getting much needed sleep in your arms
or begging to doodle on your skin
or wanting to build pillow forts and tell stories together
loves giving you gifts she either made or stole
or she wants you to sit bear her while she works but out of harms way so not too close
she loves being in your presence
she loves that you love being around her
you make her feel so secure
~angst~ (long bc i got carried away)
sometimes she gets overwhelming possessive of you
she just has such bad episodes sometimes and thoughts revolving around you
she doesnt mean to scare you but she needed to know you wont leave
she desperately clings to you sobbing at the mere thought you wouldnt love her anymore
she got worse when vi came back and she thought she was leaving her again when she saw that topsider
she had a single moment of clarity and sent you home to be away from her bc she couldn't trust herself rn, she was just so mad and she would never hurt you but shes never been this bad before
you didnt see her for weeks after that, but you saw the chaos she caused and her the whispers.
something was wrong.
jinx was at singed's "office"
why?
millions of questions swirled in your head
you decided to go see her
then you saw it, the council in piltovers being hit by a rocket out your window
where was jinx and what had happened to her.
you didnt have to ruminate on thise questions long as jinx finally slipped into your apartment
she seemed different
you backed away from her when you noticed her jerky movements,
then you saw it, her glowing pink eyes
shimmer
no
"what happened to you baby?"
"a whole lot, i cant wait to show you"
things were more or less the same but jinx now had immense strength and never really slept anymore
she wasnt really your jinx anymore
~NSFW~
jinx was an enthusiastic lover
she loved touching you and giggled wildly as she would
loved the sounds you made so much she often times causes you to be over stimulated
loves how you beg
loves telling you what to do too
"fuck me just like that toots"
very tops from the bottom
loves restraining you, it makes it more fun for her bc you can squirm away when she fucks you too hard and fast after you've just cum
loves when you do the same things to her
loves marking you all over especially your thighs, if she could she would make you wear the shortest shorts imaginable so everyone could see who you belonged to
loves when you do it to her too, loves feeling owned just as much as owing
be ready to experience a lot.
hope you enjoy and thank you for reading<3 wrote all this at once and after weeks of not writing anything. next time i post something it might be "Dating Brigid Tenenbaum" or "Dating Rebecca Chambers". <3
#fanfiction#gn!reader#arcane x reader#arcane#arcane jinx#arcane jinx x reader#jinx x reader#jinx headcanon#arcane fanfic
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