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ââ GAMEBOY, BANGCHAN
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âĄÂ â ó Źó Ź fratboy!bangchan x f!reader there's no smut in this one just a sliiiight mention of it, this is just drama and angst because this chapter will tell a lot about their future relationship! contains mentions of anxiety too.
⥠synopsis â Bangchan is the campus playboyâcharming, cocky, and infuriatingly irresistible. One reckless, drunken night leads to a secret you swore you'd never have. Now, hating him is harder than keeping him your dirty little secret.
[5.5k words ]âĄâ i can't believe that so many people like gameboy, like, that's crazy! thanks for everyone's support. to those who ask to be added to the taglist, it warms my heart. if you want to talk about the story or anything else, i'm open to questions and conversation! don't forget to listen to the playlist and those who just got here PLEASE READ THE PREVIOUS CHAPTERS!!!! that said, have a good read.
âĄâ THE PLAYLIST.
⥠[part one] ⥠[part two] ⥠[part three]
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You're scared of heights, that's vertigo You wanted lights, go see a show You ran away, that's touch and go You're scared of love, well, aren't we all?
What was supposed to be a one-time thing turned into two days, then three, then four. Before you even realized it, seeing him had become part of your routine, like breathingânatural, inevitable, and far too easy to justify.
Today, though, your mind was anywhere but on him. Mrs. Baek had scheduled a meeting, nothing more, nothing less. You and Hyunjin were goofing around, hands clasped as you twirled like a chaotic, offbeat version of Jack and Rose at a third-rate ballroom. Seungmin doubled over laughing, because of course he did. That was just your dynamicâridiculous by nature, friends for life.
Then, everything stopped. A chorus of surprised gasps cut through the room, followed by an eruption of chatter that made your spinning halt. Confused, you glanced around, searching for the source of the commotionâuntil you saw her. Mrs. Baek stood at the front, and next to herâŠ
No. Absolutely not.
Your stomach flipped as your eyes landed on him. Standing there with his head tilted slightly downward, one hand gripping the opposite armâridiculously muscular, by the wayâBangchan looked unfairly good in a black T-shirt that was doing the bare minimum to cover anything.
Your gaze flickered to Hyunjin, then to Seungmin, silently demanding an explanation, but before either of them could speak, Mrs. Baekâs voice cut through the haze of your disbelief.
ââŠwhich is why we now have a new student to take care of the sound design. Welcome, Bangchan.â
And thenâanger.
The girls whispered like theyâd just witnessed the famous idol in the world. Bangchan basked in the attention, grinning at them, then at the guys. And then, of course, his eyes found you. One brow lifted, pure challenge.
No. Fucking. Way.
âSound design? Since when?â you werenât really expecting an answer, but Hyunjin, ever the dependable sidekick, squeezed your shoulder and offered a half-smile.
âItâs kinda his and Jisungâs thing,â he said, arms crossed as he observed Bangchan effortlessly charm his way through the group. âJisungâs drowning in work this semester, so I guess thatâs why.â
Oh, how nice. How convenient. You couldnât care less. It was one thing sneaking around with him in secret. It was another for him to invade your space. Your special space. And worseâacting like he belonged there.
As soon as the group began to break apart, you made your exit, feet moving fast. The last thing you needed wasâ
âRunning away already?â
You stopped dead, fingers tightening around the strap of your bag. Spinning on your heel, you found Bangchan standing there, arms crossed, smirking like he had all the time in the world.
âI donât think thatâs any of your business,â you shot back.
âOuch.â he clutched his chest, faking a wince. âYou look angry.â
âOh, do I?â your voice dripped with sarcasm. âThatâs because I am.â
Lucky for him, the corridor was emptyâjust the theater crew lingering in the distance.
âWhat the fuck do you think youâre doing?â you demanded.
âGonna need you to be more specific.â
You inhaled sharply. âSeriously? Sound design? You donât even like theater.â
He took a step closer, brows furrowing.
âHow would you know? Weâre not friends.â the way he said it was offâsomething about his tone made your stomach twist. But you ignored it. âAnd if you actually bothered to find out, youâd know that, shockingly, I do this for real.â
You hated being proven wrong. But you especially hated being proven wrong by Bangchan.
âLook,â you sighed, arms crossing. âI donât know what your game is, okay? But just⊠donât mess things up. I like them the way they are.â
Bangchan nodded, slow and deliberate. But something flickered in his eyesâsomething unreadable. His stomach clenched, and he didnât like the reason why. Because the way you said it, like having him here without sex was some kind of inconvenience, left a bitter taste in his mouth.
âDonât flatter yourself.â his voice dropped an octave, sharp and cold. He met your gaze head-on, not an ounce of warmth left. âThe world doesnât revolve around you.â
And just like a punch to the gut left hanging in the air, he was gone. No rush, no glance backâjust the weight of his words lingering between you.
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Things were a mess, and you needed to get a grip. Studying, focusingâdoing something that wasnât theater or⊠well, him. The last few days had blurred together, your attention split in ways you werenât used to. And you hated it.
The library was too quiet, the kind of silence that crawled under your skin. Three art history books sat open in front of you, mocking your lack of focus. It was ridiculous. How the hell had you let some guy scramble your brain like this? That wasnât you. It had never been you.
Frustration boiled over, and before you knew it, you snapped one of the books shut, the sharp thud cutting through the silence.
âJesus. What did the book ever do to you?â
The voice came from behind you, smooth and amused. You barely looked up before Mingyuâs face came into view. It hit you thenâhow distracted youâd been at the fundraiser. Otherwise, you definitely would have noticed him before. That annoyingly charming, white-knight smile. Tanned skin. Muscles for days.
He grinned, leaning over your table, arms flexing just enough to be intentional.
âSorry. My head's a mess.â
Mingyu nodded, taking in your exasperated, borderline fried expression. âYeah, you look like it,â he said with a knowing half-smile, sliding into the empty chair across from you like he belonged there. No permission needed.
You sighed, gesturing vaguely at the books. âJust trying to focus.â
His smirk deepened. âRight. Because nothing says laser focus like slamming a textbook shut like it just insulted your mother.â
You huffed, but the corner of your mouth twitched.
âWell, since youâre clearly on the verge of a breakdown, I have an idea.â He leaned back, stretching in a way that was both casual and strategic. âA coffee. On me.â
You opened your mouth to answer, but your phone vibrated against the table, barely visible beneath the stack of books. A quick glance at the screen. One new message.
Bangchan: my dorm. 30 min.
Your pulse jumped. Short. Direct. No room for misinterpretation.
âEverything okay?â Mingyuâs voice pulled you back, his eyes scanning your face.
âYeah, yeah.â you laughed, maybe too lightly. âJust⊠distracted. Coffee sounds good.â
His grin widened. âPerfect. Letâs go.â
âJust let me put this backâŠâ you grabbed one of the books, heading for the shelf when your phone buzzed again.
Bangchan: ignoring me?
You exhaled, fingers hovering over the screen.
You: I can't. I have plans.
A pause. Thenâ
Bangchan: ok.
You pressed your forehead against the bookshelf, inhaling deeply, willing away the strange tightness in your stomach. It was ridiculous. It was just a text.
When you returned, Mingyu was still at the table, casually texting someone. He looked up as you approached, grinning. âEverything good?â
âYeah.â you nodded, forcing a smile.
He was nice enough to grab your bag and help carry your notebooks, the easy charm of someone who had probably been effortlessly handsome his whole life. The cafĂ© wasnât farâjust a short walk from campusâbut the crowd made it feel like the busiest spot in town.
Mingyu picked a table near the entrance, the air thick with the smell of espresso and fresh pastries. Strawberry sponge cake. Cinnamon rolls. Chocolate mousse cupcakes. The kind of place that made you want to abandon all responsibilities and drown yourself in sugar.
And yet, as you sat down, all you could think about was the ok.
Mingyu ordered coffee for you both but went the extra mile, adding a slice of strawberry shortcake to share.
âThank you. You didnât have to do that.â you smiled, wrapping your hands around your cup, already feeling the caffeine seep into your system like a lifeline.
He shrugged. âI wanted to. You looked like you needed something sweet.â
You caught the double meaning but let it slide. He was being nice, and you werenât in the mood to overanalyze. âRight. So⊠football?â Smooth. Real smooth.
Mingyu didnât seem to mind. âGoing well. Weâre set for the next game, and if we keep this up, the next university sponsorship should be ours.â
âThatâs great, Mingyu.â
âYeah, but I heard drama class was saved. Good news, huh?â
âGreat news. Weâve got enough for now.â you took a bite of cake, letting the sugar melt on your tongue. Mingyu watched you, a smirk tugging at his lips.
âIâm happy for you. Getting the basketball team to sell brownies half-naked mustâve been a real passion project.â
You laughed. âIt was, but that wasnât me. That was Bangchan.â
It felt strange, saying his name out loud. Different when he wasnât there.
Mingyu frowned, arms crossing over the table.
âBangchan did that?â his brows knitted together, skepticism lacing his tone.
You shrugged, taking another bite of cake. âThatâs what I heard. Why? You guys friends?â the idea alone made your stomach twist in an oddly unpleasant way.
âNo. Not even close.â he laughed, shaking his head as if the thought was ridiculous. âJust curious.â
âWell, instead of wasting brain cells on him, you should try this.â you pushed the plate slightly toward him. âItâs actually amazing.â
Mingyu picked up a fork, took a bite, and let out an appreciative groan. You grinned, clapping your hands as if you had just won a bet, then promptly stole another piece for yourself.
Being with him was easyâeffortless, even. A surprising friendship you hadn't expected but didnât mind one bit.
Back at the dorm, Eunji and Sohee were curled up on the couch, sharing a bucket of popcorn while a movie played on the laptop. Your casual entrance was met with two pairs of curious eyes locking onto you like detectives sniffing out a case.
âWhere have you been?â Eunji narrowed her eyes, her fingers pausing mid-popcorn grab.
âWhy?â you laughed, kicking off your shoes.
âYouâve been acting weird,â she accused, tilting her head. âAlways busy, barely around.â
âSorry, I... I've just been very busy. The theater is eating me up. And there's the exams...â
Sohee smirked. âWhy do you smell like coffee?â
âWhat?â you instinctively sniffed your shirt, the rich aroma of espresso lingering faintly.
Eunji gasped, scandalized. âYou totally went out with someone!â
Sohee just shook her head knowingly, already seeing through you. âLiar.â
âAlright, fine! I got coffee with Mingyu. Happy now?â
As soon as the words left your mouth, Soheeâs eyes gleamed with mischief. âMingyu from the soccer team?â
Eunji, on the other hand, nearly leaped off the couch. âGirl, you rocked it! I knew you had game, but Mingyu? That man is fine.â
You groaned, already regretting your life choices. âIt wasnât a thing, okay? Weâre friends. We had coffee. Thatâs it.â
Eunji scoffed, dramatic as ever. âHoney, nothing with Mingyu is just coffee. That man doesnât do casual.â she clasped her hands together like she was already planning your wedding.
You sighed, exasperated. âMake her stop.â you turned to Sohee, your last hope.Â
But Sohee just smirked. âI mean⊠sheâs not wrong.â
You sighed, rubbing your temples. âOh my God.â
âLook, youâve been drowning in rehearsals and exams. Maybe this is a good thing,â Sohee added, ever the voice of reason.
A good thing. That uneasy feeling crawled up your spine again.
Because the problem wasnât Mingyu.
Because you had met someone. Someone who already occupied every corner of your mind. Someone who texted you with demands instead of invitations. Someone who kissed like it was the only language he spoke.
And that someone sure as hell wasnât Mingyu.
âAlright, Iâm done.â you grabbed your things and stood up. âIâm taking a shower. Goodnight.â
Before they could say another word, you ducked into your room, shutting the door behind you.
Now, if only you could shut off your thoughts just as easily.
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It was lunchtime, and the table was buzzing with chatter. It had been nearly two days since youâd heard from Bangchan. Odd, right? The silence felt almost intentional. No texts, no glances that said too much.
You were sharing a basket of French fries with Hyunjin when suddenly, that topic came up. Jisung was DJing at another party this weekend, and everyone was planning to go. Of course, Eunjiâbless her heart and big mouthâdecided now was the time to bring up the perfect subject.
âYou should invite Mingyu, now that youâre going out and all.â
You nearly choked on a fry, coughing like youâd just inhaled a cloud of smoke. Hyunjin slapped your back, but you could feel all eyes on you as the table went silent, then turned to look in your direction.
Bangchan, seated across from you, slouched in his chair like he didnât care. But you knew better. The tension radiating from him was like a ticking time bomb.
âYouâre seeing Mingyu?â Hyunjinâs voice dripped with mock disbelief. âHow am I your best friend, and this is news to me?â
Great. Just great. The whole table was waiting for an answer, and suddenly, everything felt like it was about to spiral out of control.
âGoing out with Mingyu? Really?â Changbin raised an eyebrow, clearly entertained. âI thought you had better taste, bro.â
âFor fuckâs sake, Iâm not dating anyone!â you shot back, finally managing to catch your breath after the shock of the conversation.
âSure, sure. But you two went out the other day, didnât you?â Eunji grinned, clearly enjoying every second of it.
You felt it before you saw it: Bangchanâs eyes, burning into the side of your head. His silence wasnât just a void, it was a warning, sharp and heavy. You shouldâve felt guiltyâafter all, you had brushed him aside for Mingyu.
âBut weâre not together,â you quickly clarified, hoping to quell whatever storm was brewing behind his eyes. âAnd heâs practically at every party anyway. Itâs not like heâs not going to show up.â
Eunji wasnât buying it. âStill should invite him, though.â
Hyunjin tossed an arm around your shoulders, all casual but still sorta protective. âAlright, stop messing with my girl,â he said, voice light but you could tell he wasnât having it.
You muttered a quick âthank you,â relieved when the focus shifted away from you. Your thoughts drifted as you nibbled on the end of your fry, mind half on your food, half on the tension buzzing at the table.Â
Bangchan, though, wasn't as distracted. He sat there, twisting his tongue inside his cheek, fighting off the surge of frustration coiling in his gut. The thought of you with Mingyu? It hit him like a wrecking ball. Not just because you had ditched him for the guy, but Mingyu.
He could hardly keep his anger in check. Only his closest friends knew the history between the two of themâand no one, especially not you, would ever guess how deep that hatred ran.
He couldnât stand it any longer. Without a word, he stood, breaking the rhythm of the conversation.
âLeaving already?â Changbin asked, raising an eyebrow. Lunch still had half an hour left, but Bangchan didnât seem to care.
âYeah, gotta handle something,â he muttered, his voice sharp enough to make everyone shut up for a second.
The group barely noticed his departure. You certainly didnât. After all, it wasnât like anything was out of the ordinary. Right?
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The days were flying by, and with every one that passed, the auditions loomed closer. The lineup was finally setâeach student would perform next Friday, the day before Jisungâs party. No pressure or anything. Your nerves were on high alert, and anxiety was practically gnawing at your bones.
And then there was Bangchan. Or rather, the lack of him. You hadnât heard a word from him in days. During the rare times you actually sat with the guys for lunch, his seat was just... empty. And you pretended not to care, stealing quick glances and keeping your mouth shut.
Most of your free time was spent holed up in the library, pretending to study, or locked in your room, trying to convince yourself that, yes, you could totally make it through the semester without crumbling under stress. Mingyu had texted you a few times, but youâd dodged his messages so hard that even you felt guilty about it.
Not that he seemed to care. The guy was persistent. He still wanted to take you out, get to know you, charm his way into... whatever he was aiming for. Just today, heâd invited you to join him and the soccer team at some bar near campus. Apparently, they were celebrating a big winânot that you had a single clue who they even played against.
You needed to get out. Desperately. But showing up solo to a team hangout? That was a level of confidence even you didnât have. So, naturally, you did what any sane person wouldâyou called your emergency contact.
Hyunjin picked up before the second ring.
âWell, well, look who finally decided to return from the dead,â he drawled.
âYeah, yeah. Roast me later. Right now, I need a favor.â
âHm. Depends.â
âThereâll be drinks,â you baited, already knowing his answer.
He sighed dramatically. âFine. But if I go, you have to give me the full rundown on whatever mess youâve got going on with Mingyu.â
You exhaled sharply, tilting your head back like the universe was punishing you. âUgh. Deal.â
Satisfied, you threw on a black fitâstrappy top, skirt, boots, plus a long-sleeved cardigan for balanceâand grabbed your phone to text Hyunjin.
And thatâs when you saw him.
Bangchan.
Walking toward his dorm, jacket slung over his shoulder, bag in one hand. The second he spotted you, it was like his brain hit a hard reset. Blue screen. No thoughts, just you.
You, on the other hand? You justâŠfroze. Phone still hovering mid-air like you were trying to signal the mothership.
He looked good, annoyingly soâtired, sure, but with that effortlessly undone look that made you want to fix things that werenât even broken. And judging by the way his jaw tightened ever so slightly, he wasnât exactly thrilled to see you looking this good either.
You could practically hear the battle happening in his head. Logic telling him to keep walking. Instinct screaming at him to drag you somewhere private and remind you exactly why you shouldnât be ignoring him.
But no. Neither of you moved. Just standing there, locked in some ridiculous silent standoff from across the way.
That is, until a hand brushed against yours.
âTook you long enough,â Hyunjin teased, but his voice trailed off the second he noticed who had stolen your attention. His steps slowed, eyes flicking between you and Bangchan like heâd just walked into the middle of a soap opera.
You bit back a smirk, shoving down the weird twist in your stomach. âShall we?â
Hyunjin hesitated, still piecing things together. Then, with a last glance at Bangchanâwho looked like he was about two seconds away from saying something heâd regretâhe sighed.
âYeah,â he muttered, brows still furrowed. âLetâs go.â
The moment you step into the bar, Mingyu zeroes in on you like a man on a missionâhalf-drunk, half-thrilled, and entirely shameless about how his gaze drags over you. He grins, tells you how gorgeous you look, and hands you a shot of soju like itâs a requirement for entry.
Hyunjin, of course, fits right in immediately, the social butterfly that he is. Meanwhile, you start to relax, the initial nerves fading as the drinks flow and the unfamiliar space becomes less intimidating. Mingyuâs friends are niceâtoo nice. The kind of nice that feels like they're sizing you up, like youâre some kind of prize waiting to be claimed. Mingyuâs prize.
The room is loud, buzzing with alcohol-fueled laughter and drunken debates, but your thoughts are fixated on something else. Someone else. And damn it, Mingyu is right there, flashing that easy smile, brushing his fingers against yours like itâs an accident every single time. Complimenting you in ways that should make your stomach flip.
But all you can think about is the guy who hasnât spoken to you in days. The one who supposedly doesnât want you anymore.
Brilliant. Absolutely brilliant.
With a frustrated sigh, you push back your chair and stand. Youâre not even tipsy, but everything suddenly feels too hot, too suffocating.
âI need water,â you mutter, more to yourself than anyone else, and head for the bar before you do something stupid.
Mingyu appeared at your side, leaning against the bar like he had all the time in the world.
"All good?"
You forced a smile, gripping the cool glass of water like it could ground you. "Yeah. Just needed something cold."
"Glad you came," he said, smirking slightly as he looked down at you.
Heâs the one you should want, the one who actually wants you.
Your gaze flickered to his lips. A bad idea waiting to happen.
Mingyu caught the hesitation, eyes darkening as he glanced between your lips and your eyes. You barely had time to register what was happening before your hands found his shoulders, his lips pressing against yours.
The guys erupted in cheers, their drunken approval ringing out across the bar.
And after that, a blur of stolen kisses, too much soju, and voices too loud to ignore.
The night air was crisp against your flushed skin as you and Hyunjin walked back toward campus. The distant hum of the city buzzed in your ears, the alcohol still warm in your veins, though the high of the night had started to fade. Your heels clicked against the pavement, and Hyunjin, ever the gentleman, walked just a step closer in case you stumbled.
âYou good?â he asked, nudging you lightly with his elbow.
You hummed a response, not trusting yourself to say anything else. Your mind was a tangled mess of soju, Mingyuâs lips, and something deeperâsomething you werenât ready to admit.
Hyunjin let the silence settle for a moment before he spoke again. âIf I ask you something, will you be honest with me?â
You sighed, already bracing yourself. Here it comes. âIf itâs about Mingyu, Iââ
âItâs not.â he cut you off, tone softer than before. âItâs about Bangchan.â
Your stomach twisted.
You stopped walking, your breath caught somewhere between your lungs and your throat. Your hands fidgeted, grasping for somethingâanythingâto ground you. âWhy would you ask that?â you muttered, trying to play it off, but even you could hear the slight tremble in your voice.
Hyunjin tilted his head, studying you. âI figured it all out.â
A sharp inhale stung your chest, and before you could even think of a response, it hit you. The overwhelming, suffocating weight of everything youâd been trying to bury. The frustration, the confusion, the way he made you feel like you were something and nothing all at once.
âOh, shit,â Hyunjin muttered, eyes widening as the tears spilled over. âCome here.â
He pulled you into his chest, letting you press your face into his shoulder. You clung to his jacket, shaking as silent sobs wracked through you. Half-drunk, half-heartbroken, you let yourself break in the only safe place you had at that momentâHyunjinâs arms.
âI donâtâ I donât know what the hell Iâm doing,â you mumbled against the fabric of his hoodie, voice barely above a whisper.
Hyunjin sighed, rubbing soothing circles on your back. âItâs okay. Just breathe.â
But it wasnât okay. None of it was.
After a few minutes, he gently pulled away and wordlessly handed you a bottle of water heâd bought from a vending machine nearby. You took it with shaky hands, gulping down the cool liquid as if it could wash away the lump in your throat.
As you wiped your eyes, Hyunjin leaned against the streetlamp, watching you carefully. âTalk to me. Whatâs going on with you and Bangchan?â
You let out a bitter laugh, shaking your head. âI wish I knew.â
He raised an eyebrow, waiting.
With a deep, shaky breath, you finally let it spill. âIt started as something casual. No expectations.â your fingers tightened around the water bottle. âBut then he started pulling away. And I donât know if itâs because he got bored, or if I did something wrong, or if this was always the plan. I donât even know if I want more, but the fact that Iâm this messed up over it?â you scoffed, blinking back fresh tears. âThat has to mean something, right?â
Hyunjin exhaled, his gaze thoughtful. âDamn.â
You let out a wet laugh. âThatâs all you got?â
âI mean, what do you want me to say? That doesnât sound casual to me.â
Your stomach twisted. You knew that. You knew that. But hearing it out loud made it real in a way you werenât ready for.
You swallowed hard, voice small. âI got myself into this mess. I was the one who asked him to keep it a secret.â
Hyunjin frowned, his posture shifting. âWhy?â
âBecause I was scared,â you admitted, the words raw in your throat. âScared of what people would say. Scared of the judgment. You know how it isâgirls get torn apart for way less. And I worked too hard, cared too much to be reduced to just that girl whoâs hooking up with Bangchan.â you laughed bitterly, shaking your head. âAnd now? Now I donât even know how to deal with it. Because I was supposed to hate him, Hyunjin.â
Hyunjin was quiet for a moment, his usual teasing gone. When he finally spoke, his voice was steady. âYou donât have to figure it all out tonight. But you also donât have to go through this alone.â
Your throat tightened. âI feel like an idiot.â
âYouâre not an idiot.â he bumped his shoulder against yours. âYouâre just in deep.â
You exhaled shakily, leaning into his warmth as you both started walking again.
âLook, I donât have the answers. But I do know youâre not crazy for feeling this way.â he squeezed your shoulder. âAnd if heâs too much of an idiot to see what he has, then maybe you should let him be the one losing sleep over it.â
You sniffled, managing a weak smile. âYouâre my soulmate, Hyun.â
âDamn right I am,â he said, flashing you a grin. âNow drink your water before you pass out, drama queen.â
You laughedâactually laughedâand for the first time that night, the weight on your chest felt just a little bit lighter.
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The day had finally arrived. Showtime. No matter how many times youâd done this, stepping on stage always felt like a first-time, heart-in-your-throat kind of thing.
Up in the audience, Seungmin, Hyunjin, and Sohee were posted a few rows above Mrs. Baek, waiting for you to do your thing. No pressure.
Backstage was quietâeerily so. You sat there, taking slow, deep breaths, wiping your sweaty palms against your thighs like a seasoned pro in pre-show anxiety management. You were next. Three minutes. One shot. No room for mediocrity.
Youâd chosen a song that wasnât just sentimentalâit was a statement. A vocal rollercoaster that climbed from deep, rich lows to a falsetto so clean it could cut glass. If you were going to go down, at least youâd do it swinging.
Reaching into your bag for your water bottle, you were mid-sip when movement in the distance caught your attention.
And just like that, reality glitched. Bangchan.
It was almost ridiculous how unreal he looked, like a mirage conjured from some fever dream. You hadnât seen him in days, and yet here he was, strolling in like he hadnât been living rent-free in your mind this whole damn time.
Laptop in hand, fingers flying across the keyboard, looking every bit the sound tech genius he was. You hadnât expected him to actually show up for this gig, butâoh, lookâthere he was, punching buttons like he was defusing a bomb.
Then, he saw you. And something shifted.
His fingers stilled, tightening around the laptop.
The air was heavy. The tension was palpable. Whatever was going on between you two didnât need wordsâit was written in every sharp breath, every stolen glance.
And just like that, your pre-show jitters had a new contender.
"Hi," you muttered, shifting uncomfortably.
Bangchan gave you a small, polite smileâtoo polite. Something about it felt off. The usual spark in his eyes? Gone. And that was all it took for reality to sink in.
So thatâs it, huh?
The game was over. You had your answer. He was done, and honestly? You couldnât even be madâbecause werenât you just as much to blame?
Mrs. Baekâs voice cut through the buzzing in your head, thanking the student who had just finished performing. Youâre next.
You turned away from Bangchan, unscrewed your water bottle, and took a long sip, willing yourself to focus. Breathe. Lock in. Youâve got this.
Then it happened. A warm touch on your waistâhis touch.
Your body betrayed you instantly, heat rippling through your skin like a live wire. It had been days, and yet, all it took was thisâa single touchâto remind you how much youâd missed him.
You spun around, frowning, swallowing hard as your gaze locked onto his.
Bangchan didnât back down. If anything, he doubled down.
His arm lifted, caging you in the small space between you and the backstage wall, pulling your bodies so close it was downright insane. His head tilted slightly, studying you, reading every little reaction like he already knew the ending to this story.
Without warning, Bangchan crashed his lips onto yours, his free hand gripping your waist like he had no plans of letting go. His palm slid up your back, fingers teasing under the hem of your shirt, branding heat into your skin.
You barely had time to process before his tongue was in your mouth, claiming, demandingâlike he was making up for every second of distance between you.
A sound slipped past your lipsâa mix between a sigh and a moan, involuntary, unstoppable.
God, you hated how easily he unraveled you. And worse? You loved it too.
Your fingers curled into the fabric of his sweatshirt, yanking him closerâlike you needed him just a little closer, just a little longer. Your lips moved in sync, deepening the moment, drowning out everything else.
Thenâ
Mrs. Baekâs voice rang through the backstage, shouting your name.
Then reality crashed back in.
But instead of nerves clawing at your stomach, instead of the suffocating pressure youâd felt moments ago, there was something lighterâsomething electric. Like a field of wildflowers blooming where anxiety used to sit.
You pulled back, panting, heart racing, but this time? You were smiling. Bangchan, just as breathless, leaned in, his lips brushing the shell of your ear.
"Break a leg," he murmured.
And just like that, you knew you would.
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Can you write something about taking care of Omar Marmoush's curls? Like he isn't happy with it and his girl is buying everything to make him pop
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You sat cross-legged on the couch, scrolling through your phone while Omar paced back and forth in front of you, running his fingers through his hair in frustration. His dark curls were slightly frizzy, flattened in some areas, and puffed up in others. It wasnât that they looked badâhe never looked badâbut you could tell he wasnât happy with them.
âI swear, my hair just hates me,â he muttered, dropping onto the couch beside you. âSome days it looks alright, and then others⊠this.â He gestured vaguely at his head.
You tilted your head, reaching out to run your fingers through the strands. âItâs not that bad, baby.â
He huffed. âItâs bad. I look like a damn broccoli.â
You giggled, but when you saw the way he slumped back, rubbing his face tiredly, your amusement softened into something more affectionate. Heâd been complaining about his hair for weeks now, always fussing with it before games, after showers, every time he passed a mirror.
âOkay,â you said, locking your phone and setting it aside. âEnough complaining. Iâm fixing this.â
His brows pulled together. âFixing?â
You stood up and stretched. âYes. Clearly, whatever youâre doing isnât working. So Iâm stepping in.â
He gave you a skeptical look. âYou know how to take care of curls?â
âNo,â you admitted, âbut Iâve been doing research.â
His lips twitched. âResearch?â
âYes, Omar,â you said, rolling your eyes. âIâve been reading about curl types, porosity, hydration, protein-moisture balanceâall of it.â You gestured toward the hallway. âAnd I may or may not have bought a few things.â
He groaned. âHow much?â
You bit your lip. ââŠA reasonable amount.â
âWhich means you went crazy.â
You grinned. âJust trust me, okay? I promise Iâll make your curls pop.â
He exhaled through his nose, shaking his head in mock exasperation. âFine. Go ahead, hair doctor.â
You clapped your hands together. âGreat! First, weâre washing your hair properly.â
He leaned forward, resting his forearms on his knees. âYou say that like I donât already wash it properly.â
âYou donât.â You patted his cheek. âCome on, to the bathroom.â
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Ten minutes later, Omar sat on a stool in the bathroom, his hair soaked and his legs spread lazily apart. You stood behind him, rolling up your sleeves as you grabbed the sulfate-free shampoo youâd bought.
âOkay, head down,â you instructed.
He leaned over the sink, and you worked the shampoo into his scalp, using your fingertips to massage in slow, firm circles. He let out a deep sigh, muscles loosening under your touch.
âDamn,â he murmured. âThat actually feels good.â
âSee?â You smiled, continuing the massage. âYour scalp needs love too.â
Once you rinsed out the shampoo, you moved on to conditioner, coating his curls generously. You grabbed the wide-tooth comb and began detangling from the ends up.
âOw.â He flinched.
âDonât be dramatic,â you teased, raking your fingers through his hair after the comb. âYou just need patience.â
He made a face but didnât protest further, letting you work through the tangles. Once his curls were detangled and soaking in the conditioner, you let it sit while you explained your plan.
âSo, I bought a curl cream, leave-in conditioner, and an oil to seal in moisture. Oh, and a microfiber towel because regular towels make your hair frizzy.â
He glanced up at you with a smirk. âYouâre really taking this seriously.â
âOf course I am. I want my man to have healthy curls.â
He reached up, curling his wet fingers around your wrist and pulling you down slightly so your faces were closer. âYouâre cute when you get all serious about me.â
Your cheeks warmed, but you kept your composure. âIâm always serious about you.â
He grinned. âI know.â
You rolled your eyes playfully before rinsing out the conditioner. Once his hair was damp but not dripping, you raked your fingers through his curls with the leave-in conditioner and curl cream, scrunching them gently. You noticed the way his curls were already forming better, the frizz reducing as the product absorbed.
Finally, you took the oil, rubbing it between your palms before applying it to the ends of his curls. Once everything was set, you handed him the microfiber towel.
âNo rubbing,â you warned. âJust scrunch gently.â
He did as you said, then sat up, looking at his reflection in the mirror. He touched his curls experimentally, his fingers trailing through them before looking at you.
âDamn. This actually looks good.â
You smirked. âTold you. Just wait until it air-dries fully.â
He turned on the stool, gripping your waist and pulling you between his legs. âThank youâ
You wrapped your arms around his shoulders. âAlways.â
He kissed your stomach through your shirt before leaning back with a grin. âSo, do I have to do all this every time now?â
You laughed. âYes, unless you want me doing it for you forever.â
His hands slid down to your hips. âThat doesnât sound so bad.â
You shook your head, smiling. âOmar, youâre impossible.â
âBut you love me.â
You kissed the top of his head. âI do.â
And as his curls dried into perfect, defined coils, he decided that maybeâjust maybeâthis whole hair care thing wasnât so bad after all.
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Heellooo this is my first time writing anything or posting anything on tumblr, I hope you like it đ all notes are accepted and wanted!!
I decided to write this as the PlayStation network servers were down so I couldnât get the jjk wave 2 skins đ
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Warnings: Includes smut, language, little bit of Mei slander, Gojoâs a jock basically, both you and Nanami are switches, reader is a BRAT, cum licking
Tags?: smut, cum licking, little bit of hand necklace, P in V, fingering [let me know if I should add more!]
ââŠanyways, as I was saying the community response to such servers being down has drasticallyâŠâ
The sounds of the tall man infront of you slowly drowns out as you start to tune out of what he was saying. This tall, attractive man was explaining some big shot important men project that you truly did not care to listen into.
His tall stature in a devilishly dark blue suit, to match his blue eyes, leans in closer as he continues explaining. This guy had to be the one your boyfriend always complained of. The big boss with white hair whom never took the time out of his day to talk to his male employees, yet always somehow ended up in âpersonalâ meetings with his assistants.
As his voice begins meshing into the background of the party, you began to steal a moment to truly look around the room. You were in a huge ballroom, one of those incredibly expensive sky high places right dab in the middle of New York City.
The walls and ceiling were covered in lights, like fireflies littering every space possible. Large crowds of people in black tie attire, from women in sparkly silk dresses to men in black suits.
You yourself were quite dressed up, stunting a beautiful floor length red dress with a slit that meets right at your thigh. Youâve always been told red was your color, from red hair in highschool, to the red lipstick you always wore on special occasions.
An incredibly stupid event if anyone were to truly ask you, but you were only here to be accompany to your wonderful boyfriend. Though, you had lost track of him hours ago.
*ahemn* âI apologize, youâve caught me in a talkative mood! Now, why again did you say you were here?â The tall man says, snapping you back into the present.
âOh yes right, Iâm here supporting my boyfriend.â You say admittedly trying to seem as though you were listening the whole time.
âAh yes, I mean of course a woman of your beauty would not be here alone.â He grins, trying to steal a compliment your way.
âThank you, but speaking of which I better go find himâ you always hated these kinds of guys, always giving just too much attention to the women to try to get into their pants. You knew exactly this guys game.
âYou can always come back if you donât find himâ he winks âItâs Satoru by the way, in case you forgot itâ
Had you already forgotten his name? The conversation had started just moments before yet it felt like a century of listening to this guy go on and on about economy.
You didnât even pay him the kindness of responding as you walk away. It felt about time to find the one you came with anyway, you had arrived together but got torn apart about halfway through the party.
Checking your phone, the time was now about 7:30 pm. You werenât sure what time the party would end but wanted it to end sooner than later.
Walking away from the tall man known as âSatoruâ, you walk up the stairs of the ballroom. This place was huge, only a company of incredibly high regard could afford a place like this. The first floor was cluttered with black tall tables all around a bar placed right in the center. Bartenders working quickly to fulfill the orders of the businessmen and women surrounding them. With huge floor to ceiling windows, anyone could see anything from the inside. As well as from the outside. You wondered how many people in there apartments might be watching, envious of the people who call themselves the âhigher upsâ.
As this thought ponders in your mind you make your way up the first couple of steps, not interested in going completely upstairs. Up there would only house a long hallway leading those who dared to the bathrooms of the establishment.
Darting your eyes around you try to find your partner in the crowds of people. Making eye contact with some of them. Another tall dark haired man pulled back into a bun stylishly wearing a black tuxedo, talking to another woman with a beauty mark stunting a dress similar, but shorter than yours in white. A trio of a pink haired man wearing a matching pink suit, a dark haired man wearing an all black suit, and a woman sporting a flattering long purple dress.
None of these people are the one you want to see, youâve actually almost began to worry.
âIf you keep standing there like a lost puppy dog people will begin to notice, you know.â A deep voice breaks your train of thought.
Below you is a handsome man with blonde hair, and unlike anyone else there, dressed in a tan suit sticking out like a sore thumb. You most definitely didnât notice him, to occupied observing your far surroundings to notice the man approaching.
âIf all begin to notice though, then hopefully the one Iâm looking for will find meâ you say, stepping down a couple of steps to meet the manâs gaze.
âWell, whatever bastard left you alone might not deserve being back in your grace.â his eyes began to trace your body. The soft curls framing your face, the one stray on your left side cutely fraying upward away from the rest. The curls lead down to the heart line of your dress, seductive red hugging your body in all the right places, only complimented by the tease of the slit in your dress.
You drop down a stair, getting closer and forcing his eyes to follow yours down. âMaybe if he begs enough Iâll forgive him.â
The blonde man shamelessly rocked his eyes between your breasts, lips, and eyes. You couldnât help but repay the favor by snaking your eyes down his figure. His tan suit fit perfectly, complimented by his blue undershirt hugging his muscles. Every fiber of his clothing knowing exactly what to do to make him irresistible.
You drop down the rest of the stairs to meet his side, turning yourself to face him and his shoulder. Perching up on your tip toes, guiding your hands up his arm to meet his shoulder. Whispering in his ear, âIf I didnât know youâd get fired for it, Iâd fuck you in front of everyone in here. Nanami.â
You see the blood rush to his face and his ears, the tell all sign of his approval. Turning his face towards you a little he responds, âI donât think Iâd care if I got fired for it.â Darting his eyes between yours and your lips.
You giggle, god you loved this game. An unspoken game created by you, if you remembered correctly. An honest mistake really, at a work event of your own you didnât recognize his voice from behind you and treated him very absentmindedly as a coworker, not your lover. Neither of you would realize the arousal it would cause until later that night.
Taking yourself off his shoulder you shove him a little, forcing him to face you at the bottom of the stairs. âWhere did you run off too anyways?â
Letting out a groan he responds, âUgh god, I got stuck talking with my fucking co-lead on the project at work, Higurumaâ
âAwh, poor babyâ you tut, playfully jutting out your bottom lip. âYou could not have possibly had it worse than I did, I got stuck with your boss Satoru.â
At that, his shoulders tensed a bit. You knew he didnât like him, but not that much. âLove Iâm sorry, I shouldnât have let us get separated like that. Especially seeing as Iâm the only one you know hereâ he says, closing the distance between you two more, he places his hands on your forearms running his hands down to meet yours. Playfully picking them up and placing a kiss on them.
âOh you sick love fool, I was fine anyways. Possibly couldâve won me a one way ticket to pound town if I didnât have my eyes out for someone else.â You say pulling one of your hands away from his, leaving the one left to lead him closer to the windows. No one else was really around you two, everyone else preferring to gather around the bar, aside from the small groups of those talking.
Nanami groans at your last comment, âIn that case, Iâd gladly get fired for fucking you right in front of him.â Lightly squeezing your still held hands before dropping it, repositioning it around your waist as you stare into the city.
âOh now that sounds like a planâ you laugh hitting his pec with your hand and leaving it there turning a little to him.
God he was so beautiful in this light. The amount of alcohol you had to consume to put up with Satoru began to finally hit you, feeling the tension between you slightly thicker than usual. His blonde hair was perfectly combed back, the same professional hairdo youâd see him stroll out the door with every morning. His tan suit, making it impossible for you to focus any time he spoke. âLeaving nothing up to the imaginationâ would not be an accurate statement, cause you indeed did know what was underneath. Yet you couldnât help yourself imagine and linger on the ideas-
âOh my god! Is that Kento! Just my favorite sexy businessman I wanted to see tonight.â That comment made both you and Nanami turn around. Behind you stood a white haired women, hair tied back into a braid. Now, if you thought your dress was revealing it would be nothing compared to her cut out dark purple dress. Revealing the most amount of underboob that made you wonder how the dress was staying up on her.
âMei. I believe everyone in the office talked about being here tonight.â Nanami retorts, the tiniest bit of annoyance that only youâd catch. The kind of annoyance he gets when a child asks stupid questions.
You believe youve heard him talk about her before, the woman who loves to refer to herself as his âwork wifeâ though heâd make sure you knew he felt otherwise.
Turning yourselves more, you stood infront of her with Nanamiâs arm still around your waist. Your arms crossed over one another just simply observing the situation unfolding around you.
âOh, Iâm sorry miss I didnât see you standing there. You must be a friend? Iâm Mei Mei, Kentoâs work wife as everyone around the office calls me!â She reaches out her hand to shake yours, completely ignoring your closed off posture to pull your hand out and shake. The way she uses his first name makes your skin crawl. Heâs told you before the only one who is allowed to use his first name is you, especially while riding him.
âActually Mei, I believe youâre the only one who calls yourself that. Besides, this is my actual, and only, wife.â Nanami responds giving your waist a little squeeze and rubbing it way with his hand. Your heart flutters a little, out of excitement of him referring to you as such, but also out of a little disappointment in that you were in-fact not his wife.
If only you could have taken a picture of the face Mei made once processing the words he had said. Completely falling, and plastering a slight grimace she pulled her hand back off of yours letting both her hands prop on her hips.
âOh, hah. Thatâs funny heâs never mentioned you before. Anyway, I better go. I believe I hear Satoru calling my name.â Mei says point blank, bashfully ignoring the obvious lie she had just retorted.
Turning on her heels Mei walks away with an awful sway in her hips, trying to make both her braid and her ass swish more than plausible.
You and Nanami share a glance before laughing with one another. âGod she really is awful, I thought you were being dramaticâ you say.
âAbsolutely not, I donât think the best author in the world could convey how heinous her company is.â Turning to make you face him he cups his hand onto your face, keeping his other on your waist. He plants a gentle kiss on your forehead, rubbing his thumb along your cheek as he does. âNo matter what she says, you are the only woman I love.â
He always knew the slight anxiety placed in the back of your head at all times, not your fault really. You thought it just came with having the most beautiful boyfriend in the entire world. âI liked that you called me that.â You say pushing your face into his hand.
âWhat, my love?â
âWife.â
Nanamiâs lips crease into a grin, keeping his hand on your face, he closes the distance between you two and kisses you. His classic gentle kiss, just simply placing his onto yours. âI think this party is about over, care for an after party with me?â
You playfully push yourself away from his touch backing up a little, âEw youâre so romantic I hate it.â
âSure you do.â He responds with a boyish grin.
You lead the way as he follows you out toward the parking garage. Though, it took longer than youâd hope. Continuing to get stopped, Nanami would have to exchange a few âNice to see youâ âSee you at the officeâ âDonât drink too muchâ, between every other person he saw. But you couldnât complain, you always enjoyed seeing him in his element. Even if he didnât like the people he worked with, he was always such a sweetheart. Watching his face light up to make sure the person knew they were listened to, and seen by him. You couldnât help but feel your heart swell a little knowing he was in-fact yours.
Finally arriving to the parking garage Nanami unlocks and opens the passenger side door to allow you room to hop up. Unexpectedly, before you could turn, Nanami grabs the back of your neck planting another kiss on you. This one, unlike the other, was deeper and more sensual. In this kiss, he would move his lips in between yours, embracing you in a deeper French kiss. He couldnât help his other hand to place on your exposed thigh, gripping tightly as to not let you move away from the kiss.
Your hand finds his on your thigh, placing it there before moving up his arm to repay his strong grip. Nanamiâs thumb gently taps your jawline, asking for, or possibly demanding you to open your lips to him. You canât help but obey as he slips his tongue into your mouth. At that, you let out a groan behind his tongue arching your back to meet his touch all over you.
As unexpectedly as it happened, it stopped. Nanami pulled back from you breathlessly gasping a little before smiling at you without a word, pushing your legs forward before shutting the door.
God was he a tease. But so were you.
Nanami walks to the driver side and hops in, starting the car and beginning the drive home. He knew exactly what he had done to you, and you couldnât help but repay the favor.
The car full to the brim with tension, the only thing breaking the silence was the radio. Though, you couldnât focus on the radio, rather focusing on the heat rising in between your legs. You loved this Nanami. The striking, slightly demanding Nanami. Using what was his. And most nights you loved getting used by him, praising words ringing through your ears as he pushed you up and down his length. But tonight felt different. Possibly the large amount of alcohol you had, or possibly the irritating Mei egging you on.
The drive home was probably only 20 minutes, but without traffic and the tension of what happened, Nanami could make it home in 12. So you had to do this quick.
As Nanami was distracted turning a right on red you knew heâd have to look your way, even if only for a moment. Knowing this, you began to touch yourself. Slowly at first, simply drawing a finger from your collar bone down to your breasts. Opening your palm you glide your hand over your clothed boobs, slightly massaging your nipples through the fabric.
You absolutely got off knowing Nanami was watching you, but to make sure you glanced his way. Seeing him eyeing you down while trying, painfully, to watch the road.
From there, you glide your hand over your stomach to the rising heat in your legs. You hadnât even touched yourself fully and you could feel your breath hitch. Laying your head back into the head rest, letting your back arch a bit into your touch, you take your hand up the slit in your dress to finally make some contact with yourself even if through fabric.
Nanami groaned and tried to reach his hand over. He tried to grab your wrist to stop you, but you had the upper hand of well, another hand. Pushing him away you turn your head to face him. Making direct eye contact, you finally begin to rub yourself through your underwear.
The car jerks as Nanami tries to throw off your balance and get your hand off of you, but unsuccessfully. You should arrive home in about, 6 minutes. With such little time to work Nanami up, you had to go faster.
Opening your legs wider, you lift a leg up resting it on the car door. Your fingers push aside your soaked fabric and finally lay way to your cunt. At this point, your breath is quick and pained. So much arousal flowing through you knowing and seeing Nanamiâs discomfort at watching you pleasure yourself.
Arching your back to allow better access, you roll your fingers between your folds, already incredibly wet from the entire night. Brought on even worse by the alcohol you consumed.
From your peripheral, you could see the car approaching a yellow light, then turning red.
Fuck.
As soon as the car stopped Nanami turns completely to you keeping his eyes locked on yours, pulling your hand away from its place. âFucking slut, you couldnât wait until we got home.â Roughly grabbing your jawline planting a kiss onto your lips.
His hand locked your wrist midair while his other forced your face into a kiss. Only a couple more minutes you thought.
Breaking away from the kiss to speak you say, âCause my husband left me alone with my thoughts. What did you think would happen to a girl left all alone in a room full of attractive men? Especially high off alcohol.â
Nanamiâs hand is holding your face, unable to hide the dissatisfaction in his face and voice. âThatâs too bad really, cause I couldnât keep my eyes off you all night. Watching you look for me, while pushing away any guy who came up to you.â Tightening the grip on his other hand, holding the hand you used to pleasure yourself moments ago, he tuts âI even had to run off to the bathroom a couple times to rub one out at the thought of you so obsessed with me, and only me.â His eyes darkening as he responded.
At that, you couldnât help but push your thighs closer together to feel even the slightest bit friction. He knew his dirty talk was only pushing you worse and worse toward dissatisfaction. Even letting out a small grin at your thighs pushing together more.
Your eyelids grew closer together as you questioned, âSo you get to touch yourself to the thought of me, but I canât do it in return?â
âWhy would I let you do that when I can do it myself.â
*BEEP*
Pulling you both out of your thoughts you snap forward, leaving the contact of eachother at the sound of a car behind you. You were simply sitting at a green light. Nanami focuses back in the best he can, you would be home in only a couple minutes. But god he might crash if he doesnât focus. The uncomfortable tent in his pants being the only thing in his mind right now. So painfully tight, and the way he was sitting pushed pressure on his tip harshly.
âYou really are such a hypocrite, Nanami.â He was distracted for only a moment, but looking back to you the sight he saw couldâve made him crash right then.
Your legs had resumed their spots, pushed apart, with your hands back between your legs. Finally feeling the friction you had so desperately wanted, rubbing and pinching one hand around your clit. The other hand, dipped your ring and middle finger into your cunt. Keeping your eyes completely locked onto Nanamiâs, now unable to focus on the road, you let out a pornagraphic moan leaning your head back further into the head rest.
The displeasure plastered on Nanamiâs face only spurred you on more, but sure, you needed more. You needed to feel his cock plowing through your folds to meet the spots you canât reach with your fingers. But you knew at this sight before him, he would not hold back later.
Still pleasing yourself, you began to move your fingers quicker inside your pussy, trying desperately to hit your g-spot. Rubbing faster and faster on your clit, you can feel the heat tightening in your core.
Nanamiâs eyes forced themselves away from yours, making sure that youâd both at least get home in one piece. As for later, heâd make sure you didnât end up in one piece.
Furrowing your brows at Nanamiâs composure, your sounds began flowing over the radio. The lewd noise of your pussy getting wetter and wetter as the time passed, and your moans getting louder in annoyance of loosing his gaze.
Youâd not looked at the road for awhile, until you felt the car harshly turn into the driveway. Nanami took that turn purposefully to hard, and to fast, to push you off your balance. Which he had successfully done, as the fingers inside of you slipped out, instead trying to catch yourself on the car door.
Trying to gain any composure you had, you let both your hands leave between your thighs. Nanami quickly parked and tried grabbing you. But before he could catch you, you hopped out of the car and sprinted toward the door.
Giggling to yourself you fumbled with the key that you had in your shoe, to pull out and open the door. Hearing the car completely shut off and large feet hit the concrete. Shutting the door painfully hard Nanami tries to stride over quickly. âDonât you fucking dare-â trying to grab you, again unsuccessful.
You had opened the door just in time to push yourself inside and shut the door on Nanami, locking it. You knew he had a key, and would only gain you a couple moments. But a couple moments nonetheless to hide.
Inside, the doorway opened to a large living room and kitchen situated parallel to eachother. The beautiful home both you and Nanami worked hard to build together. But not the time to relish in that, you quicken your pace to the end of the hall to the stairs, quickly running up them as you hear Nanami finally open the door. Slower, though, than he chose to open the car door.
Getting up the stairs you rush to the end of another hall, opening the door, meet with your lovely bedroom. Just a moment of thought as you stand in the doorway, pondering on where to hide.
âI got you.â Nanami retorts right in your ear before capturing your figure in his arms, forcing you to let out a breath as his arms wrap around your waist and pick you up.
Letting out a laugh you let yourself slump into his figure still positioned in the door way, âAwh man you shouldâve given me more time to hide.â
âTsk tsk tsk, no can do my love. Not after that.â Nanami walks you both over to your bed placing you face down against the sheets. Slowly, painfully so, he guides his hands from your waist, to your hands, placing them above you. You couldnât help but turn your face a little to see his eyes, dark with lust and focus.
Placing a sweet kiss on your shoulder he moves his hands to meet your zipper, finally exposing your skin.
âMy god youâre so beautiful. If only you werenât such a brat to me.â Following after your zipper he places kisses down your spine, stopping at your lower back.
âOh but Nanami, really? You got to touch yourself all night to me and I canât do it for what.. 12 minutes?â You say, voice dripping in seduction.
Nanami guides the straps of your dress off with your arms, gently placing them back in their spot above your head. âActually, no, you cannot do that my love.â After freeing your arms from your dress he guides the rest of the fabric off your body, exposing your matching lace strapless bra and panties. âFuck.â He says placing himself on top of you, face flush with your ear and at such an angle to rub his bludge against you. âYou feel that? Thatâs what your little show did to me. We both know your small fingers canât reach the places that my dick could. Fuck even my fingers could reach further.â
Placing his hands at your waist he keeps you still as he rubs his tent up and down your ass. âYou in that fucking tight red dress. Flirting your doe eyes at Satoru. Fuck. You knew I was watching, didnât you? You got off knowing I was fuming seeing you even enjoy his company at all.â His hips began to dip down further, harder, into your cheek.
âMaybe I did.â You let out a deep groan at the heavy pressure of his body weight on you, unable to move. âMaybe I got off on knowing that, but I still didnât get to touch myself. Asshole.â
Groaning at your defiance, Nanamiâs hands on your waist tighten as he flips you over to face him. âIâll make you come so hard around my fingers youâll never even think about touching yourself alone.â his eyes dark with anger, or possibly, arousal?
Face to face with Nanami now, you flutter your eyelashes, making yourself seem more innocent or fearful than Nanami knew you were. âDid your hand satisfy you enough? Is that why youâre so mad now?â You tut out pushing back on his dirty talk. âDid fucking your fist not feel as good as my hands around it? Flicking your slit just the way I know you like it? Or were you too busy thinking about my mouth going up and down the veins in your dick-â
Forcing you to stop your talking Nanami kisses you hard into the bed. Letting out a groan, signaling that your words were having just the effect you wanted on him. You remember that youâre free to move your hands, finding their place in his under cut. Both your hands surround his head pulling him impossibly closer to you.
His hands begin to wander up your torso and rubs your breasts through your bra. You rewarded his touch with a small moan, arching your back into his touch.
Suddenly he completely stands, completely off of you standing straight. âTsk you slut. You love this donât you. Love driving me crazy. Love this dirty talk.â Making direct eye contact with you he finally freed his skin from underneath his suit. Completely losing his suit jacket and button up, his beautiful chest was out for you to look at. God, it was like he was chiseled out of marble the way his biceps flexed to guide his hands to his belt. His abs flexing at the knowledge of what would happen next.
Nanami being completely off of you gave you some room to move back, choosing to slide all the way to the headboard of the bed. Resting your back against it, you watched Nanami undress beside the bed.
As his pants fell his boxers finally had enough room to free his bulge a little. Not enough to cause any satisfaction though. Studying his body in the same state of undress as you, âYou know. From how hard your dick is right now Iâd say youâre getting off from this too. Kento.â
Oh how he loved when you used his first name. No one was allowed to use it but you of course, and he all but hated Mei Mei for using it ever. Choosing to finally let his erect shaft free, Nanami pulls his boxers completely off to meet his pants on the floor.
His dick was so hard that it stood perfectly up, seemingly laying against his navel. The tiniest bit of precum was leaking from its tip, painting his shaft a glossy shiny film that continued to travel down to its base.
While laying against the headboard, you spread your legs wider for Nanami to see the same sight between your legs. Practically dripping onto the bed already, your lace panties barely held any liquid back from your cunt. You placed your hand over your clothed center, needing to feel some friction.
Nanami crossed the distance between you, propping himself in front of you on his heels. âNow. Isnât that what got you into this situation, my love?â Gripping your wrist away from yourself, similar to how he had done in the car. Pulling your arm up to him, he threw it around his shoulder and wrapped his arms around your waist embracing you in a kiss. This one was a sweet one, almost apologetic to what he knew he was going to do to you. He lightly grips your waist as your other hand meets yours around his neck.
You couldnât help but try to lift up one of your legs, to at the very least, get some friction on his dick. Still passionately kissing, your leg slides up his thigh and to his side. One leg still planted on the bed, you rub your heated core against his dick, feeling the veins run slightly against your clit.
âF-Fuck⊠NanamiâŠ.â your breath quickening by the second.
âWhat my love?â He asks, pulling away. âPlease? Do you want to ask me so nicely to finally fuck you?â
You felt his shoulders slightly relax at his own words. Surging the moment, you take your hands from around his neck and push him, hard.
Letting his back hit the bed he lets out a laugh, positioning his legs from under him to lay flat.
âAs if Iâd ever beg you.â Raising yourself up onto his lower abdomen, you begin to lean forward and backward, rubbing your clothed pussy against his abs. His hands find your hips, in a way, helping you rub yourself against him. You throw your head back in pleasure.
âOh love. We both know you have. If you werenât so drunk right now youâd be begging me to fuck you so hard you wouldnât be able to walk tomorrow.â He huffs, his own breath beginning to quicken at the thoughts racing through his head. You rocked your hips against his abs, making him wet with your own juices.
âFuck.â You mutter out, feeling the desperation grow in your stomach. As you place your hands on his pecs, you glance downward to meet his eyes. His eyes locked onto yours, admiring you using him. âIt doesnât matter if Iâm drunk Kento, you love being used.â Your pussy started clenching at nothing but your own words. âMy own little fuck toy I get to use.â
He grips your hips tighter, and rolls his head back a little, bucking his hips upward to try and grab some friction. He lets out a groan before grabbing the sides of your panties and ripping them.
âGod I need to feel you. Please.â Nanami says, pulling the now ripped panties from between your legs and tossing them off the bed. Nothing between you and his abs now, your clit finally gets direct contact with the curves and valleys of his abs.
Needing to feel more stimulation than his abs, you move yourself further down to his erect dick. Placing your folds around his members you move up and down, pussy fucking him.
âLike this Nanami? You like that?â You say, slowing your hips down. Feeling his tip rub against your clit, stealing a moan from your lips. Nanamiâs head leans back at the sensation, groaning at your stunt. He couldnât help but feel annoyed at your defiance, he guessed he didnât really clarify what he meant by âfeelingâ you.
âS-stop. Youâre not cumming like that.â Nanami lifts himself up to meet you face to face, gripping your waist tight as he raises you up.
Nanami wraps an arm around you holding you up. Pressing your chest to him, you guide your hands up his chest and his neck, resting your hands in his under cut. As you pepper kisses over his face, he uses his other hand to guide his dick to your entrance. âYouâre so wetâ he groans looking up to meet your eyes, simply rubbing his tip through your folds.
Your breath is incredibly fast now, feeling so needy but pushing through the want to beg him to fuck you. âCause ah- you keep teasing me.â You breathily respond.
âTell me what you wantâ Nanami says, still staring longingly into your eyes. Your fingers in his undercut swirl around in circles as your thumbs caress under his ears. He abruptly stops moving his tip around you, waiting for a response.
âI wantâŠâ your breath getting caught in your throat âI want you to fuck me, make me cum around your dick and-â Nanami starts moving his tip again circling around your clit making it harder to focus on your words, âshit- ah.â Breaking the eye contact you force your eyes shut leaning your head back and arching into his touch, moving your hips around to steal more pleasure from his movements, âcum inside of me, and then lick it all out of me.â you slightly groan at the last part of your thought, it was something you couldnât keep your mind off of the entire night.
âMmmhm, look at meâ Nanami says, unable to grip your jaw to make you seeing as his hands were preoccupied. You couldnât help but obey as you look back into his eyes, he clicks his tongue. âTsk. What?â
Still grinding against his tip, unable to move downward to force him inside because of his tip, you respond âPlease. Ah- Ken. Please.â
âGood girl.â He says, embracing you in a kiss, before pushing you down onto his dick. Taking a gasp from you, you kiss him back before moaning into his mouth at the sensation. Finally some relief from a tension built up all night, you feel his dick push through any resistance in your walls. He stops halfway onto his dick to give you a second to adjust. âDoesnât matter how many times I fuck this pussy, youâre always so tight for meâ Nanami coos, snaking his hand that was on his base up your body, unclipping your bra with one hand to pull of your arms. Unable to protest, your still pushed into his body by his arm, being forced to adjust to his size as he moves your arms to get your bra off.
One of your hands is still in his hair as the other slides down to his shoulder, pushing it. You werenât trying to escape his grasp, or maybe you possibly were, you just needed something to grab to release the pleasant pain shooting through you. You could feel every vein of his cock pulsing through you, teasing you without any movement other than the blood rushing into his dick.
Your breasts now free for him, one of his hands finds one of them to cup into his hand and massage as his mouth finds the other. As his hand openly squeezes your breast, his mouth assaults the other planting wet hot kisses into your nipple. âFu- yeah yeah I like that, Ken.â Finally adjusted to his length you push yourself all the way down his dick, your core making contact with his base.
At that, both of you gasp and moan at finally being completely connected. Nanamiâs hand and mouth leave your breasts, his hand rather taking place around your neck, gently holding you and making your face meet his. âYou like that, slut? Like being full to the brim with my dick?â With his arm around your waist, he had complete control of your movements. He started moving you slowly up and down his shaft, taking it agonizing slow, making you feel every pump and twitch of his dick.
Your walls clenched around him, feeling satisfied with your position, moaning and closing your eyes. His hand around your neck meant you couldnât lean back, but you pushed your head back breathing at the feeling of his dick. âYeah. Ah- I like that Ken. F-fuck, make me come Kento.â
At your permission, Nanami starts pushing you up and down his length faster, moving his hips up off the bed to meet your hips everytime you came down. He moves his hand off your neck to wiggle down between the two of you, planting soft circles around your clit.
The overstimulation of both his dick and his hands made your body shiver and convulse in satisfaction. Feeling the familiar sensation in your stomach as he moved you up and down. You throw your arms over his shoulders to plant your face in his neck, biting and kissing at his collarbone before licking your tongue up his neck to his ear. âYeah ah- youâre making me feel so good Ken,â you coo, feeling his dick twitch at your voice. His head is slightly leaned back, pushing against your head as he listens âYou wanna make me come around your dick? Let me milk you over and over again?â
Nanamiâs pace quickens as he listens to your praises and approval, his fingers start digging into your side as his hand pushes harder against your clit as well. Gaining a moan from you, placed directly into his ear.
âFuck, youâre gonna make me cum before you doâ he says, in an almost whinny tone. His pace starts faltering the tiniest amount as he feels his balls tighten, a clear signal of his soon release.
Still places praises in his ear, you pick up his faltering pace yourself. Quickening it even more as you feel the coil in your stomach tightening as well. âYeah? Yeah Iâd like you to come, I wanna feel your cum fill me up. I wanna milk your dick Kento.â Groaning against your words Nanami rubs faster and faster on your clit, feeling your walls tightening around him the same time his shaft begins to twitch.
Nanami moans and finally releases into you, shooting spurts of hot cum directly into your cunt. He bites down into your neck as he keeps cumming, feeling you squeeze him. The overwhelming feeling of his hand stimulating your clit and his dick pouring his white liquids into you, you also release with a moan.
Nanamiâs firm grasp only tightens as he slowly grinds you through both of your highs, your nails dig into his back leaving crescent shapes all over his upper back. Both your orgasms come down slowly, as you place yourself at his base.
You both breathe heavily, trying to regain your strength after an intense orgasm. Nanamiâs head lifts from the valley of your neck to look at you. Moving his hand from between the two of you, he tucks your hair behind your ear and traces his thumb along your jawline. Stopping at your chin, he holds your face before placing a gentle kiss on your lips.
Returning his kiss you both slowly make out, as he leans you back against the bed. Your head hits the pillows softly as his kiss lead to the corner of your mouth, down your neck and into your collar bone. Placing gentle kisses he sucks slightly on your collar bone as he pulls out of you. You groan at the loss of feeling him, feeling a bit of cum leaking out of you.
Nanamiâs kisses trace down to your boobs as he gropes as massages them again, sucking on one nipple before moving to the other, showing them equal love. Your back arches as your head digs deeper into your pillow.
Sighing, Nanami grabs your hips and he kisses down your stomach, to your navel and stopping. He hooks his arms under your legs as he throws them over his shoulders.
You look down to make eye contact with him as he moves further down, closer and closer to your pussy. Your hand snakes down your body to rest in his hair, that is completely disheveled. Only made worse by your hand now in it, grasping down on his scalp.
Nanami looks at you as he sticks his tongue out and licks, from the very bottom of your hole to your clit. Collecting all of the juices that mightâve spilled from you. Gasping, your eyes close at the sensation, still incredibly sensitive from the orgasm.
âTsk. Watch me love.â Nanami says, pulling back from between your thighs. âWatch me as I lick my cum out of you.â Your eyes open reluctantly to meet his, a boyish grin plastered across his face at your obedience.
âGood girl, just like that.â It takes everything in you to not close your eyes and rear your head back, to simply revel in the pleasure. But Nanamiâs intense gazes makes you unable to look away. His grin disappears between your thighs, as he gets closer and closer, breathing on your cunt. âFuck, you look like you could cum again.â
âNanami, please.â You whine out, angry with his teasing. He feels himself grow hard at your whines, deciding to finally give into what you wanted most. He lays his tongue flat against your pussy to lick all the way up again, before cupping his tongue into your hole. He tongue fucks you, as you feel him swallow every ounce of cum leaking from you.
The overwhelming sensation starts sending you toward an edge again, gripping him tighter you begin to ride his face. He gladly allows you to use him, muttering through your folds âFuck, you needy slut. Want to come around my fingers?â He asks, gently placing his thumb to your hole as his tongue wraps around your clit.
Your hips buck at the feeling, your arousal prominent and building as every second passes. Enough time since your orgasm you feel the familiar coil begin to tighten in your womb.
Nanami slips his index and middle finger through your folds, pumping in and out as your walls clench around his fingers. His tongue still assaults your clit as you gasp âUgh, yeah yeah like that.â Your head falls back to the bed the same time your back arches into his touch.
He turns his hand inside of you, changing the position of his fingers to hook upward in you searching for, and finding, your g-spot. At the feeling of it hit at the same time he sucks harshly on your clit, you gasp out a pornographic moan, incredibly close to release.
âYeah, my love, ride my face.â He says before quickening his pace, tongue circling faster and fingers digging and pushing.
His nasty words send you over the edge, finishing all over his fingers. Your walls pulse and squeeze as his fingers slow, and halt inside of you, his tongue still pleasing you through your orgasm.
As you fall from your high, you open your eyes to pear down as Nanami pulls his fingers out of you and raises on his elbows to meet your gaze. Slowly, he places his fingers in his mouth, going impossibly deep to take all of his digits. You see as his tongue nastily and suggestively push through his middle and index finger, drawing them from his mouth. He lets out a groan as he tastes and swallows your juices.
âShit, I love feeling you cum around my fingers.â He says, placing a kiss against your stomach. âI love feeling you clench around them, sucking on them like your life depends on it.â Placing more kisses up your stomach, between your breasts, up your neck and finally resting himself on top of you to look at you. Your hands find the sides of his face as he says, âI just love everything about you.â
Your breath returns to a normal as your hands rest on the sides of his face, âOh, donât I know it.â You kiss his lips.
âMarry me?â
He pulls away a little to stare into your eyes lovingly. âWhat?â You question, stunned by the sudden comment
âWill you marry me?â
Nanamiâs eyes flicker between both of yours searching for an answer that your lips could not give him.
âHmph, Iâll think about it.â
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hate when you're reminded of something stressful right before bed and it's stuck on ur mind. like i can't do anything about that right now please let me sleep
#I still owe $6k to my shit stain of a university but I'm trying to get my housing charge waived because of all the bs#and health code violations ive dealt with#I'm abt to threaten a lawsuit for sure#mold issues that never get dealt with#maintenance requests that are never completed#lack of AC in 90 degree weather#paper thin walls that make it impossible to block out the sound of ur neighbors#and my first semester my neighbors had their tv up against the shared wall and played their tv all day and all night#had to play yt videos at night to block it out but if i woke up at 2 am i wouldnt be able to go to bed bc of the soubd#sound#so id have to queue up another video#over and over again#and despite my calls to the RA on duty nothing was ever done#also for some reason i heard every loud noise from every apartment in the vicinity directly above me#despite me living on the highest floor. like i genuinely thought ppl were hanging out on the ceiling#but bc of my autism and the nonstop onslaught of noises i genuinely was losing my mind#and i began to hate going back to my apartment#i talked to someone and she was like well u live in the apartment u have to pay for it!#like girl these apartments are forsaken by g*d#if he were real#nothing works. stains everywhere. residue on the floor and counter tops that wont scrub off. broken lights#my sink cabinet was like. stained brown and orange lmfao like it looked disgusting idk#constant water dmg bc these complexes were built in the 60s and not updated since#and theyre incredibly expensive despite living in a sketchy town in indiana#awful#college is a scam#ugh
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âi would never lie to you.â
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{toge inumaki x f!reader}
summary: inumakiâs always coming home to you from missions coughing up mass amounts of blood and completely overdoing it while fighting curses with his cursed speech technique. and no matter how many times you tell him to be careful, he just doesnât, arguing with him, giving him the cold shoulder, and completely unaware of the reason behind why he fights so hard when heâs out thereâ that reason being of course⊠because of you.
warnings: angst, fluff, cursing, toge and reader have a lil argument but itâs more the aftermath, slight sexual mention but itâs literally once and nothing LOL, no smut!, toge thinks heâs not doing enough SNIFFF, angst with comfort, toge is DEVOTED to you, aged up characters, pet names, afab!reader.
word count: 2.3k
authors note: short n sweet one!! wanted to give you guys a break from my MLA format essays i always make yâall read LMFAOOO!! this one is SHO SOFT AHHHH :] i hope this keeps you guys fed in the meantime while i write the next one! i love you and i love you all ALWAYS MWAAHH <33
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toge inumaki hates it when you donât talk to him.
as if he doesnât do that enough already, toge absolutely despises when you both get into arguments or heated discussions and you turn a cold shoulder to himâ needing space to unwind and prevent yourself from lashing out even more, to let the situation simmer down.
he understands it. believe him he doesâ youâre upset and angry and you need time to cool off⊠but toge is stubborn and needy and just doesnât care, needing you and only you, him going absolutely crazy at the silence in your shared apartment that he was starting to hear random ringing in his ear drums.
so as he sat on the couch, eyes unblinking as they stared off into the darkness of the living room as the sun had already began to set, you upstairs locked awayâ he wanted nothing more than to open his mouth and let his cursed speech force you to come downstairs and talk to him.
but he didnât, though the thought was definitely tempting, as toge vowed the day that he laid eyes on you to never ever use his cursed technique on you, even if it was harmless, an oath he wanted to carry with him until his very death bed and until he was six feet under.
his ears perked up then at the quiet sounds of the upstairs room door knob twisting and clicking open, soft padded footsteps making their way down the hall and closer to where he was, feet sticking against the cold tiles of the kitchen floor.
at the sight of you with your hair a little disheveled, your eyes so red and puffy, and an arm wrapped around yourself as you rummaged through the fridge looking for fuck knows what and not sparing a single glance at himâ toge felt like a fifty pound gutting weight was resting on his chest and crushing his heart.
you had both argued about something you always seemed to circle back to almost every week. but this time, you were sick and tired and fed up, seeing as toge was never going to try and understand the situation at hand through your worried eyes.
every time toge was out for a mission, you would spend your days anxiously throwing yourself over the couch or trying to keep yourself busy with random activities like baking or scrapbooking (which you deemed later meaningless), all within the sole purpose of trying to get your mind off of your boyfriend and the recklessness he always seemed to pull while on missions, regardless of how much you begged and pleaded with him to be more careful and aware of his health.
toge inumaki had such a powerful and lethal cursed technique that frightened and astonished you all at the same time, a conflicting feeling to have when he had to leave you in the middle of the night or during the early hours of the morning to run around and fight curses⊠but always coming home to you warm and loving and safe.
but not right now.
not when toge had literally come home this morning with not even two steps in the door and he was already on his knees, coughing up strings and loads of crimson blood, it pooling on the floor as he had used his cursed speech to the highest degree today and had you a crying mess thinking he was dying.
and he always did that. always. today was just the worst of them all, him without a fault coming home with excruciating pain in his bruised and clawed up throat, the cough syrup medicine he usually downed like water having absolutely no effect anymore as you scrambled around every time trying to find a solution, toge brushing off your distressed and frightened rambling as if his health wasnât a big deal, and as if how much it affected you wasnât a big deal either.
upon you closing the fridge, toge slowly stood from the couch and carefully walked over to you, his throat still in pieces but his mind lurching and guilty over how upset you were at him.
he slowly raised a gentle hand and placed it on your shoulder, you shaking your head somberly in responseâ your back to him.
âi donât wanna talk right now toge iâm sorryâŠâ you mumbled, rubbing over your tired sore eyes.
he squeezed your shoulder, insisting.
but you only shook your head again.
toge huffed and placed both hands on your shoulders this time, physically turning you around to face himâ his eyes soft and his eyebrows pinched together in pure concern for you.
you peeked up reluctantly, but the sight of his face and the events from earlier flashing through your mind only made your bottom lip wobble and the bottom of your palms shoot up to dig into your eyes, more stinging tears flooding in and slipping through the corners of your closed lids.
his heart fucking broke.
âwhy donât you care toge?â you hiccuped. âi worry myself sick every time you leave for a mission andâ and thatâs fine because itâs what you do but you never take care of yourself!â
he gently pried your shaking hands away from your eyes and wiped your tears softly with his thumbs, caressing your cheeks afterâ wishing so badly, more than anything in this fucking world, to just be able to speak to you like a normal human being instead of resorting to words scrambled on a piece of paper or text messages on a screen.
he gently placed a little timid peck to your nose before releasing your face and fumbling around in his pockets for his phone, tapping it awake once he retrieved it and opening his notes app to write out a sentence.
he flipped and faced the screen towards you, the brightness making you squint a bit.
âi do care i swear. i just always forget when iâm in the middle of it and iâm sorry baby.â
âso you keep forgetting after what feels like the fifteenth time iâve told you?â you wiped more tears from your cheeks. âhowâ how do you think it makes me feel when you come home and youâre coughing up blood all over your clothes and the furniture huh? all over me?â
he sighed softly through his nose and went to type again, but you continued.
âi get scared toge that one day youâll push yourself way too far and then you just wonât come home. you scare me when you cough up so much blood like that!ââ
toge tugged you in then with his unoccupied hand and wrapped his arms around you, pushing your head in and stuffing your face against his chestâ the scent of his freshly washed t-shirt filling your nose as you cried softly.
fuck he felt like such a douche.
he typed for a moment behind your head, a pit in his stomach that only grew in size the longer he heard your little sniffles.
toge pulled back a bit, his arms still keeping you in place but just enough so that he could lower his phone and show you his message.
âplease please donât cry. iâm really sorry okay i really am and honest to god this wonât happen again.â
you nodded meekly and he flipped his phone back, quickly typing again and showing you once he finished.
âi feel like you think i donât care but thatâs not true at all. part of the reason why i try so hard when i work is because the more curses i fuck up the safer youâll be when youâre out there without me.â
you laughed a bit at his wording, and he beamed at that, typing.
âi love you pretty girl. and im sorry i always get blood everywhere.â
âoh i donât care about the mess baby, i care about youu,â you whined lightly and wrapped your arms around his torso, pulling him in tight.
âand i love you too, a lot⊠like an embarrassing amount that strips away my dignity.â
he chuckled boyishly and pressed a tender kiss to the top of your head, his body stuttering slightly as a single thought grazed his mindâ the same thought thatâs been in the crevices of his brain since he asked you to be his.
you felt his tension and pulled back.
âwhat?â
toge bit the inside of his cheek and looked down at you, his weight shifting as he contemplated telling you something he didnât want to burden or upset you with, the pad of his thumb softly rubbing over your chubby cheek.
you quirked an eyebrow. âwhat? are you cheating on me?â
he burst out laughing and shook his head, kissing your forehead before dropping his hand from your cheek and pulling out his phone again.
he typed for a minute then showed you.
âme not being able to speak to you like a normal boyfriend should or respond to you whenever makes me freaking useless. so i push myself out there to keep you safe because thatâs literally the least i can do for you, since i canât even do the bare minimum.â
you gasped softly. âtoge huh? this isââ
he shook his head once more and you stopped as he typed again.
âi always try to make you laugh with the things that i do or whenever i text you because iâm afraid that one day youâll get tired of me not being able to talk to you and youâll leave. which is also something i would never blame you for and understand.â
your heart squeezed in the worst excruciatingly way possible, completely baffled and mortified to the fact that toge was thinking about things like this and wholeheartedly believing it without you noticing or him saying anything to you about it.
he typed again.
âthatâs why i cosplay as gojo when i leave for missions and come back a dumbass with blood in my mouth. thatâs why i forget when you tell me to be careful because the need to be something for you is way fucking greater.â
âtogeee!â you sobbed, bursting out crying like a little baby as you were moved and haunted by his words simultaneously, your arms engulfing him as he desperately shot his hands out and quickly wiped your tears again, shaking his head frantically as if pleading with you not to cry.
âhow could you ever believe that?â you nudged him away and hiccuped, your eyes serious. âwhy havenât you told me about this? everything you just said is literally propaganda.â
he chuckled, but you could tell he wasnât convinced.
âtoge, why do you think iâve been with you for so long? do you think iâm just dicking around?â
âdicking around on my dick?â
you swatted his phone away. âno! not right now.â
you both shared a small giggle, twinkling eyes looking at each other.
âif i felt like you werenât doing even the bare minimum, i wouldâve been gone before you had the chance to put this ring onââ
his gaze drifted down to the black shiny heart promise ring on your ring finger that you held up for him, and he smiled softly.
âbaby what you do for me everyday is above and beyond the bare minimum. iâm happy. iâm so happy to be with you that you not doing enough has never crossed my mind and it never will.â
you slid your arms around his neck and pulled him down a little, gently. âiâve never cared about your ability to speak. i fell in love with you, who you are, and the fact that i did without you having to iterate words to me? olympic sport.â
toge rolled his eyes playfully at your comment, and you stood on your tippy toes and kissed the tip of his pretty nose then. âall men do when they talk is lie anywaysâŠâ you tilted your head. âbut i know youâll never lie to me.â
ânever.â he mouthed silently.
he bundled you up in his arms and lifted you like you were nothing, him carefully leaning in and pressing his lips to yours as if you were a fragile little thingâ kissing you so devotedly, warmly, his forehead resting against yours once he pulled apart after greedily getting his daily fix of you.
âi know your job as a jujutsu sorcerer pays the bills and comes with you putting yourself in difficult situations⊠and my job doesnât even compare, but please donât overdo it for my sake. i want you to come home, okay?â
you know itâs selfish⊠he should be saving lives no matter the cost.
but he was your man. was it so bad to just want to keep him for the rest of your days? to get the chance to grow old with him, and buy a little quiet house on the country side like you always joked about in the late hours of the night with him? drinking cool glasses of lemonade on the porch?
âplease donât always be the hero.â you whispered guiltily. âbut if you must⊠just keep me in mind while you do it.â
youâre always on his mind. he hopes you know that.
toge breathed softly through his nose and smoothly set you back down, the pads of your feet making contact with the icy tile flooring as his hands dragged up from around your waist to the sides of your head, him pushing a hard kiss to your cheek as if to seal your request.
âdo you promise?â you mumbled.
he pulled back and held his little pinky out for you, and you giggled, linking yours with his firmly.
âyou canât go back on it okay? you used your pinky itâs legally binding!â you warned, a silly smile on your face. âdonât lie to me and break it.â
toge grinned and leaned towards you as he bent down a bitâ your gaze locking with his as he looked at you at eye level with his hands on his knees, him mouthing his next words, slowly.
words that made your cheeks buzz a cutesy pink, words that he took seriously, and words that tied you to him and the little house by the countryside he wanted so badly with you, as those words solidified how much he truly truly loved youâ him hoping you always knew.
âi would never lie to you.â he mouthed.
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The Albatross
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summary: Originally an unlikely match, you give birth to Aegonâs first child and his entire world changes.
pairing: Aegon x Strong!Reader
word count: 767
warnings: Description of pain & childbirth, brief mention of blood, guilt.
note: âAlbatrossâ is used metaphorically as a psychological burden dealing with shame or guilt! (and shout out to Taylor Swift)
Aegon wanted to hate you. He wanted to hate your hair and your eyes. Your thick eyelashes, the freckles that dusted your cheeks, the way your nose scrunched when you laughed. Despite wanting to hate you in your entirety, he found himself physically incapable of doing so. As a young boy he refused to admit it, even going so far as to tease you for your features â but he thought you were beautiful. If anything, you couldâve resembled his mother more than a Targaryen.
It wasnât your features that were wrong, but who you inherited them from; you and your brotherâs served as living, breathing reminders of Rhaenyraâs infidelity.
Alicent Hightower had been sure to remind him and his siblings that you and your brothers were a product of their older sister's infidelity. An embarrassment to the family. An insult to the crown, to the realm. Abominations. Bastards.
Screams of pain shook the walls of the Red Keep.
âI canât do this anymore, Aegon! Please make it stop, it hurts!â you rasped, clawing at the blood-soaked bedsheets. It had been almost 24 hours since your labors had begun. To everyone's surprise, Aegon had yet to leave your side.
âWeâre almost there, my love. Youâre doing a great job,â your husband encouraged as he placed a chaste kiss to your sweat-drenched forehead, which you only returned with a death glare.
âI cannot take it anymore! Just get it out! Cut it out if you have to!â
One of your handmaids tried to dab at your forehead with a cloth, but you gripped her hand forcefully.
Aegon gave her a sympathetic look as he got her out of your grasp, locking his fingers with yours.
âYou know we canât do that, my love. I will not risk losing you.â
You winced as your midwife slid a finger around the base of your opening. All day long you had been violated against your will. Childbirth was not only painful, but humiliating. For Aegonâs sake, you silently prayed the babe was a boy. You werenât sure if you would be willing to go through this again.
âI can feel the head, your grace. Just a few more big pushes for me and the babe will be here.â
You groaned loudly, your teeth grinding together as another contraction wracked your frame. Pain radiated down your spine and into your groin. You felt like you were being ripped apart at the seams. Being eaten by Sunfyre seemed to be a more pleasant fate than this.
âYou hear that? Youâre almost done. Youâre doing so good.â
You squeezed onto Aegonâs hand as hard as you could, pushing with all the strength in your body. The harder you pushed, the sooner it would be over. You needed it to be over. With a final push, your vision began to blur and your mind went blank.
Before you knew it, loud cries pulled you back to Earth, and cooâs from your handmaidens filled the room. You laid back with a sigh of relief.
Finally.
The handmaids quickly handed the babe to Aegon so you could get cleaned up.
âA girl,â she stated proudly, âand she looks just like you, my queen.â
âLike me?â You shot up.
âLay back your grace, you need to relax,â she scolded you.
Throughout your pregnancy there was a fear in the back of your mind, that if the babe inherited your features that Aegon would be disappointed. Turns out, you couldnât have been more wrong.
âYes,â he chuckled, tears swelling in his eyes, âlike you. She is absolutely beautiful.â
He placed the baby in your arms, smiling down at the two of you.
A wave of guilt had crashed over Aegon at the sight of his newborn daughter. As well as your initial reaction to her looks. Thinking about the torment you endured for those same features in a world full of violet eyes and snow-white hair. How could he have been so cruel to you for something so fickle?
He couldnât help but think about Ser Harwin Strong. And the fact that he probably shared the same thoughts as him the first time he laid eyes on you as a babe. This baby was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen and the thought of anyone making her believe anything else made his blood boil. He would simply not allow it. Anyone who even dare whisper a word regarding your daughters features would lose their tongue for it.
Although the responsibility of sitting the Iron Throne loomed heavy over Aegonâs head it wasnât until this very moment that he had true reason to be motivated to rule: his new family
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warnings âș face claims. Part 3. Bottom male reader. Brief use of the word âpussyâ
plot âș you start to date Mingi, learning how much he has wanted you for years while reevaluating your relationship with Yohan
kinks âș feminization, friction play, size differences, Noona kink, calls reader âgirlâ, praise kink
Words to know âș maknae (ë§ëŽ) â youngest. Hyung (í) â a term a younger male will call an older male. Jagiya/Jagi (ìêž°ìŒ) â âsweetie/baby.â Noona (ëë) â a term a younger male will call an older female.
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Four years ago
âI heard you.â
Yohan glanced over at you, staring at your back. It was the day of the groupâs first performance. The other members were to the other side of the dressing room, doing vocal exercises. You were fixing your tie. Everyone was dressed in school uniforms.
âHeard what?â Yohan asked, tilting his head. He never talked to you unless necessary. While every other member seemed to just fall at your feetâhe wanted nothing to do with you.
It took a minute before you turned and looked at him. His eyes widen at the sight. You were on the verge of tears but somehow you were able to glare at him.
You walked over to him, âI heard you say that I mustâve slept with the CEO to get my position in the group.â Your voice was quiet. âI heard you say that Minnie probably hates me because I âreplacedâ him.â
âMinnie?â Yohan whispered, raising an eyebrow.
âLet me tell you something, Park Yohan.â You leaned over, your breath brushing against his ear. âYou donât have to like me but I wonât take disrespect and I wonât let you tear this group down because youâre upset Iâm a better leader than you.
âBesides, a real leader wouldnât let his feelings get in the way of the groupâs performance.â With that, you pulled away, not even sparing him another glance. You moved to where Gaeul was standing and motioned for her to help you fix your tie.
Yohan just stood there, staring at you in shock.
What the fuck?
He couldnât even think about anything elseâmainly on just what else could you have possibly heard.
But he didnât get to think for long when it was Miracleâs time to perform. The group got on stage and Yohan felt weirdly uncomfortable. Almost all of the members looked at you for guidanceâthey didnât even spare him a glance.
As each member got into position, Yohan glanced over at you. Your eyes were soft and resembled a doe. He took note that you didnât even pay any attention to the people in the crowd but the members, giving each of them a wide smile.
You glanced at him and immediately your softness was gone. You simply nodded at him and fixed your head mic, making sure it was straight.
The metronome in the earpiece ticked before the song burst into the quiet scene. Everything was going well for the most part. While the crowd wasnât too excited as it was the debut stageâa few people were getting interested.
Every members mic was on but you were certainly the highlight, managing to sing non stop, even singing your ad-libs.
As Yohan moved about stage, he heard the sound of fabric tearing. He didnât even need to touch his legs to know his pants had ripped. Fucking cheap stakes! The pants were already tight on him, of course they ripped.
He continued dancing while subtly checking where the damage was done. His inner thigh⊠which was fine until he could tell it spread to the area of his crotch.
For fuck sakes. Yohan debated running off stage so he didnât flash the audience as he got in a still position during your final chorus. As he mentally cursed himself while thinking of ways to subtly run back stage, you began tugging off your blazer.
You did it subtly enough that it looked as if it was apart of the performance. You didnât even skip a second as you wrapped your blazer around Yohanâs waist, covering the growing split.
Yohan felt himself stiffen as you rest your head on his shoulder, finishing your line before Kihyun took over for the high note. This part of the song had all of the members frozen beside Kihyun.
Yohan tried to calm himself down as you stayed pressed against him, sacrificing your original position of standing beside him. He didnât even know how you noticed his pants ripped. Everyone was so focused on completing the performance without a problem.
The rest of the song went fine, ending with each memberâs picked out ending fairy. Yohan couldnât even care too much, way too happy about not flashing anyone. Heâd have to complain to the stylist today.
As the crowd clapped, the members released their pose and began to bow, thanking the audience. Yohan was about to say something when the sound of a whimper caught his attention.
He looked to his right to see you bawling�
You took off your microphone as you covered your mouth to muffle your cries. Hyojin was almost immediately by your side, rubbing your back in comforting circles.
It didnât take long for Doha to join, patting your head. Kihyun took a moment before coming over. Mingi looked nervous as he covered your body from the crowdâs face, almost like a way of giving you modesty.
Yohan just staredâŠ.
His group were comforting you as if they knew you for years now.
What the fuck?
After the group helped you walk off stage and everyone got changed into their regular clothing, Yohan was ready to just go home. He just hated that would still have to see you.
Everyone lived in a shared apartment, two boys in one room each. They had only moved in a few days ago and he was unlucky enough to room with you.
When they reached the apartments, Yohan was confused to see Kihyun taking some boxes away from his room. He walked in to see you on your side of the room, rubbing at your face. You glanced up when you heard him and frowned.
âPark Yohan-Ssi.â You said, he didnât know how to feel with how respectful you were speaking to himâas if he was a coworker. âIâm switching rooms with DodoâDoha. It⊠makes sense.â
âMakes sense?â Yohan asked, tilting his head. âWhat do you mean?â
You almost looked nervous before shaking your head. âA..anyway, I wanted to apologize⊠it was rude of me to say such things to you today right before a performance. I made you perform terribly.â
Yohan could only stare at you.
ThisâŠ
How can someone be thisâŠ.
He didnât understand.
âIâll go nowâŠâ you whispered, leaving the room quickly. Yohan didnât even flinch.
Even if you had just apologizedâŠ
You werenât wrong.
He was fucking up the groupâs dynamic.
And it was all because he fucking hated you.
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After the 24 hrs performance, you had gained a wider audience than before. Gaeul had mentioned that there was a growth in female fans for you and she was certainly right. It was nice to see some fans that werenât just thirsting over you but this somehow pushed you into more of the NSFW sphere of Miras.
You had went back to visit Hanniesmira only to see that she had started talking about you more. She had recently reposted another post of you.
The most repost was of a short clip of you at the amusement park. You were showing off the makeup the lady had done.
â I wasnât familiar with your game, bottom (Name) enthusiastsâŠ
This account was of what looked to be a Kihyun biased Mira. You didnât know to feel about there being âbottom enthusiastsâ but it was nice to see people appreciating your looks. Lots of comments even just innocently saying that you look great feminine.
You scrolled through some other posts when you came across a video from your debut. It was of the group at a variety show and you were standing together as the host was talking about something.
â ??? Iâve never seen (Name) act like this before??
You didnât understand what the Mira couldâve meant when you clicked on the video. It started off small as nothing out of the ordinary happened, just you fixing your position to stand straight. But then the clip replayed, with it zoomed in to your shoulder as you stood beside Yohan. The footage was slowed to show how when Yohan brushed up against you, you practically froze and immediately moved away.
@hanniesmira
âł you didnât know? Are you a new Mira?
@dohasflatass
âł man, it was a whole thing! Yhn and (Name) didnât interact with each other at all for the first six months
@hanniesmira
âł six months? Naaaah, they didnât get close until the groupâs second year ă
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@hyoojinie
âł dark times⊠now Yhn canât leave (Name) alone ă
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I wonder why they hated each other so much
Before you could read anymore, Mingi came into your room. You shut off your phone and placed it down. Youâd knew that it wasnât exactly a secret for the fan base that you and Yohan werenât chummy until the groupâs second year.
You had honestly believed youâd never get close to him at all. But after your family emergency back thenâYohan practically changed.
Deep down, you constantly wondered if he wouldâve still hated you if you didnât go through that whole accident. You were deep in thought as you stood up and got into the motion to get ready for a shower.
Mingi being in the room didnât even register until he suddenly spoke.
âWhy canât I tell anyone?â
You frowned, glancing over at Mingi who was now lying down on your bed. He was watching you get undressed. Even though you always tell him to look awayâhe doesnât exactly listen to you anymore.
It had literally only been two days and Mingi acts as if he is your husband.
âItâs not smart. Hannie obviously canât hear about it right now and itâs not fair to tell everyone but him.â You said, tugging off your boxers. âJust wait until after our album promotion⊠weâll get a six month break so hopefully thatâll be a great time for Hannie to handle the newsâif he really does like me.â
Mingi sighed. âYouâre so naive, Hyung⊠youâd think youâre the youngest.â
You glared at him. âJust because Iâm your boyfriend doesnât mean you can speak so lax with me.â
âWhy not?â Mingi smirked, his eyes glancing down at your bare lower half as you tugged off your shirt. âYouâre lucky I havenât showed you just how little honorifics mean to me. Iâd like it if youâd call me Hyung in bed.â
âMingi!â You whispered, eyes widen as you stared at him in shock. He was kinkier in ways you didnât think was possible. But then again, you were a virgin⊠maybe this wasnât that strange to be average adult.
âCan I take a shower with you?â
âAbsolutely not.â You stormed off to the bathroom.
After showering, you came back to see Mingi was still on your bed. He turned his phone off immediately and gave you a grin. You only rolled your eyes, pulling out some pajamas.
You draped the towel on your shoulders as you pulled up your boxers. âAh, I wanted to tell you something.â
âWhat?â
âI found a fan account of mines⊠Itsokokok. Itâs so nice to see that I do have a fan account.â You said, glancing over at Mingi. He looked weirdly happy, a wide grin on his lips.
âReally? Of course youâd have a fan account.â
You smiled. âI guess. But, I think I know who runs the account.â
Mingi immediately sat up. âWhaâHoâWho??â
You turned to fully face him, âWell I always knew the owner was a guy but it was weird how he talks about me. Itâs like he knows me so well⊠but he hardly even responds to comments.â You smiled, walking over to Mingi.
He stared up at you, his eyes wide. You didnât understand why he looked a bit nervous as you leaned down and kissed his nose.
âWho do you⊠think it is?â He asked.
âKim Pilseung.â
Mingi blinked before raising an eyebrow, âwho?â
âKim Pilseung! The guy I signed the album for, I even gave him my numberââ
ââexcuse me?â Mingi stood up at that confession but you carried on, slipping on your shirt.
âBut he hasnât called me yet. Maybe heâs just shy.â You slipped on your shirt. âBut it makes sense! Heâs been around for a whileâheâd know where to find pre debut videos of my past performances.â
âIâm still confused on why you gave a stranger your phone number.â
âI have two phones.â You said. âA work phone and a personal phone. I just gave him my work phone number.â
Mingi frowned. âWhat phone number do I have?â
âWork phone. Only my relatives have my personal phone number, I hardly use it because I donât want a sasaeng to get the number.â You walked over to your night stand and opened the drawer, pulling out a phone that looked considerably older. âMy personal! Iâve had it since I was in high school.â
You tossed it back inside, âitâs not like I use it often. Itâs quite old, I need to buy a new one.â
Mingi only shook his head. âAnyway, I just want to know who the fuck Kim Pilseung even is. What the hell was he talking about when he mentioned a performance you did with someone else.â
âDonât speak to me like that.â You said, sending him a swift glare. Mingi quickly straightened his posture as he apologized. âGood. Ah but Seungie was talking about the duo I was apart of. It was me and an old classmate of mines.â
âSeungie?â Mingi asked. âWait, you were in a duo with a classmate?â
âYea, cute right?â You giggled. âMhm. My classmate and I performed together until he debuted in his company. We couldnât perform together anymore after that. I almost gave up when that happened.â
You grabbed your (work) phone and pulled up your motherâs Instagram. It took a minute as you scrolled through the numerous photos she posted about you until you got to the first ever video she took.
It was another angle of the A.D.T.O.Y. Performance you did back in high school. This angle showed that you werenât alone on stage but there was another boy beside you.
The caption was a bit crazy, but your mother was just an eccentric woman.
â my baby performing!!! The voice of an angel, got it from me of course ă
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edit: Stop messaging me that song is inappropriate, heâs fully clothed!!! And yes, I know His friend is there too⊠I guess he sounds good too
âHis name is Hong Garam.â
âHe shares the same last name as you?â
You giggled, âyeah! Thatâs how we first started talking. Cute right?â
âWe find different things cute.â Mingi rolled his eyes. âIâve never heard of him, I guess he didnât make it in the business.â
âYouâre so childish. He has a stage name. He evenââ
âOkay, okay, I care more about this Kim Pilseung. You think heâs the owner of your fan account, why do you care?â
âI want to thank him⊠is that weird?â
âNo⊠I guess not, but honestlyâyou donât need to.â
You frowned, âwhy not?â
Mingi sighed as he rubbed the bridge of his nose. âI donât want to talk about another man right now, I was planning on having fun tonight.â
âFun?â
âNever mind. I wanna sleep, lay down.â He didnât even wait for you to respond as he pulled you to lay down on the bed. You didnât even fight it, allowing him to manhandle you into his arms as he cuddled you.
âMinnie⊠I need to turn off the lights.â
âNo.â
As he easily fell asleep, you couldnât help but think back to the day everything changed between you and Yohan.
Two years ago
You were standing by the bridge, glancing up the moon. It was cool, the April weather finally starting warm up as May was approaching. You had to miss the groupâs trip to the amusement park due to a family emergency and you were trying hard to not think about it.
It was silly. It was just an amusement park anywayâŠ
Your gaze was on the water beneath the bride as you stood up on your tippy toes to get a better look.
It was almost calming when you were suddenly tackled to the ground. A loud scream left your throat as you immediately tried to fight against your assailant when you came face to face with⊠Yohan?
You stared up at him with wide eyes before a frown pulled on your lips. âYohan-Ssi, what areâ?â
ââare you crazy?!â
You blinked. âCrazy?â
Yohan glared down at you as he gripped your wrists. âWere you seriously about to jump? I know everything seems terrible right now but you canât.. you canât just leave the others⊠theyâd be crushed.â
âBut I wasnâtââ
ââeven Iâd⊠I donât know what Iâd do if you were gone.â His voice had gone soft, his grip loosening. âThey canât.. no, we canât go on without you. I know Iâm such a dick and nothing I say can change that but please⊠let me make it up to you, no matter how many years it takes. Donât leave us, Hong (Name)⊠we can be your new familyâespecially after losingââ
ââPark Yohan, my family didnât die.â You said, interrupting him.
âHuh?â Yohan opened his eyes, they were surprisingly wet with tears. âBut the nurse said they died at the sceneâŠ?â
âThe car accident wasnât anything serious.â You shook your head. âI had to come for my mom so they can patch a cut she has on her forehead. Only the car got damaged.â You frowned. âThe nurse mustâve gotten me mixed up with someone else.â
âSo⊠your mom and brother didnât die in a car crush?â
âNo. I donât even have a brother.â You stared at him up, tilting your head. âBesides⊠thereâs a net attached to the bridge, itâd catch me if I really did want to jump.â
Yohan simply blinked. âSo⊠so IâŠâ
âYou cared enough to run after me?â You whispered, a slight grin on your lips. âYâknow, this wouldnât have happened if you visited when the other members came.â
âOh.â
âOh.â You laughed. âSo, is that it? Will you start ignoring me now?â
Yohan got off of you, staring down at you. He glanced over the bridgeâpossibly checking to see if you werenât lying before shaking his head.
âNo. I guess I just needed a push to be honest. I meant every word.â
It was your turn to stare at him in shock. Your lips parted as you tried to speak but only a gasp left you.
It was from that moment, that Park Yohan had realized how bad heâno, the groupâneeded you.
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Kim Pilseung still hadnât called youâyou were beginning to think maybe he didnât want to. But then again, he was shy when speaking to you. Perhaps he was just nervous.
You were in the dance studio with the other members after a long day of practicing. Mingi and Yohan looked to be acting normal so you were semi happy. Though there would be instances of Mingi would purposely touch your waist in ways heâd never done before.
Luckily Yohan didnât seem to be taking the bait, yetâŠ
âYou keep staring at your phone,â Kihyun suddenly said, wiping at the sweat on his neck. âWaiting for someone? Maybe that guy you visited all the time?â
Mingi immediately sat up from the floor, staring straight at you. âWhat guy? When was this?â
âWhen Hyung, Hyojin and I shared an apartment together,â Kihyun said, unknowing to the inner turmoil he was sending Mingi into. âHyung would leave at 10:00 pm sharp and come back with this guy. The guy was always overly dressedâhat and face mask. He wouldnât even speak, just dropped off a sleepy Hyung before leaving like the flash.â
Hyojin hummed. âI thought he was drugging Hyung but it seems Hyung just has a natural clock.â
You frowned, âthatâs a bit embarrassing.â By natural clock, it simply meant your body automatically shut down by midnight. No matter how hard you triedâyou would practically drop like a rock into slumber. You only managed to stay up to 12:30 am, once. Back in middle school no less.
âWho was he anyway? You stopped meeting with him right before we moved into double apartments?â Kihyun asked.
âAh. Hong Garam.â Only Mingi seemed bothered by this while the other members only stared at you in confusion.
âWho the fuck is that?â Doha asked.
âHyungâs old classmate,â Mingi answered, his face tense as his jaw tightened. Shit, youâd have explaining to do later.
âHeâs also Hong Hwan.â
That seemed to cause Hyojin to sit up. âHong Hwan?!â
Even Kihyun seemed shocked. âHong Hwan?! Iâve met Hong Hwan and I didnât even know!â He cursed to himself, shaking his head.
Mingi groaned, âwho is that?!â
âHong Hwan,â Doha answered. âA popular actor. Well he used to be an idol but heâs basically more of an actor nowadays. His group disbanded but he has solo songs.â
âDo you guys still talk?â Mingi asked. âYou havenât been leaving the dorm.â
You nodded. âHeâs busy with promotions for his latest drama. I can let you guys meet him when heâs free.â
âIâd love that, Hyung!â Kihyun immediately said, a grin on his lips.
The other members chimed in agreement while Mingi only huffed, shaking his head. You sighed. After a few minutes of brief conversation, Gaeul walked into the studio with a grin on her face.
âHey, Hey~! So tomorrow you guys will record content but itâll be different from normal!â She said, giggling in excitement. âItâll be a roleplayâlike a family type thing. Thereâll be two parents, three kids and the other is one of the characterâs boyfriend.â
âLike a drama?â Doha asked.
âYes yes. The whole plot is that the parents and younger brothers donât approve of their eldest daughterâs boyfriend because he looks like a gang member.â
âDaughter? So one of us has to play a girl?â You asked.
âTechnically two girls, as thereâs a mom. Anyway, we allowed Miras to pick all of your roles! We did a poll on Twitter. So first, the boyfriend will be played by Mingi!â
Mingi perked up at that, âreally?â
âYeah, yeah. Ah, the younger brothers will be played by Yohan and Doha. You can pretend to be any age you want.â She scrolled on her phone as she hummed slightly. âAnd now for the daughter, Hyojin will be the daughterâis that okay, Hyojin-Ah?â
Hyojin hummed. âIâm fine with it.â
âGreat. That leaves (Name) and Kihyun.â
You kinda mentally prepared to be the dadâit was obvious. Miras constantly called you Miracleâs dad! But you never thought theyâd vote Kihyun as the momâhe wasnât the type. Honestly you were shocked Doha wasnât the boyfriend as his whole assigned persona was a bad boy.
Maybe Miras wanted a little change as well.
âKihyun was voted as the dad and (Name) as the mom! The van will pick you guys up at noon tomorrow, be ready! Iâll see you guys later.â With that, she left.
You blinked. That was a surprise.
But a welcomed one at that.
The group all went home after that. You expected Mingi to immediately start questioning you about Hwan but he seemed to have forgotten all about it. He only sprawled out on the couch and began watching a random Thai drama. You gave him a quick kiss good night before leaving to your bedroom.
You pulled out your phone and began checking Twitter again, wanting to see the polls. It wasnât anything too crazyâno one seemed mad at the results. In fact a lot of Miras were excited to see Mingi as a âbad boy.â
A few giddy to see Hyojin as a girl.
As you scrolled you came across an older videoâit looked to be from the groupâs second year. The groups first ever festival performance. You remembered it was for a college festival.
The video looked to be off the ending. Each member was walking to their ending position. The song playing was âSweet Dreamsâ so each member got down to the ground and laid their head on the otherâs shoulder, pretending to fall asleep.
After the final verse, each member began to âwake upâ as they waved at the fans. But when it reached Kihyun, second to last, he didnât get to get up because your head was still resting on his shoulder. He reached over to tap your shoulder only to find out you were fast asleep.
He immediately began laughing and comfortingly patted your head as the other members turned around to see what was wrong.
You vaguely remembered why you had fallen asleepâit was midnight by the time the performance was over. It was a miracle you even managed to finish the performance when you remembered being sleepy the entire time.
A dip in your bed caught your attention as Mingi appeared beside you. He looked tired as he laid down, patting the spot beside him. You only rolled your eyes but laid down, immediately cuddling up in his arms.
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âI think I make a pretty girl.â
You glanced over to see Hyojin already fully dressed in his girl costume. Because his hair was already a bit long, the hair stylist only added extensions to make them reach his shoulders. His outfit wasnât too feminine by all means. A pink t-shirt and shorts.
He had on light makeupâone a teen girl would normally wear. You gave him grin.
âCute~ My daughter is cute.â You teased, giggling as Hyojin rolled his eyes. The others were already done for the most part, waiting out in the living room. Filming was taking place in a random house the company rented out.
You were almost finishedâthe hairstylist simply fixing your wig. Dressed in a more feminine outfitâyou wore a fluffy white sweater with a black pants that disguised itself as a flowing skirt.
The wig the hairstylist was putting on you was black that reached your back. It looked cheap but with the curls the stylist put it made it have more volume. Your makeup was minimal and hardly noticeable.
Hyojin hummed, joining you by the makeup stand. âYou look like you could be someoneâs mom.â He said, laughing when you glared at him through the mirror.
The both of you join the others where a staff member is clipping their mics to their clothing. Yohan was dressed in a soccer uniform while Doha still had on a school uniform with fake glasses.
Kihyun was dressed exactly like a dad. Rectangular glasses sat on the bridge of his nose while his hair was swiped back with gel. Heâs dressed in a polo shirt and black slacks.
But they didnât matter too much to youâyour members always looked good. No, who caught your eye was, of course, Choi Mingi.
His blonde hair was shaggy and purposefully messy, a bit of dark eyeliner that sharpened his fox like eyes. He wore a black leather jacket over a white t-shirt and black ripped jeans. He was fixing his clip on mic when he gazed over at you.
You watched as his eyes slowly widen with recognition as he took you in. You felt your cheeks burn as you wanted to look away but kept staring back at him. Did he think you looked good? Hopefully you looked good.
Filming started shortly after Gaeul reminded every one of the plotâyou were all free to improvise basically everything. You sat down on the couch near Kihyun, leaning against his shoulder. His arm slid underneath your back as his hand let itself rest at the slight curve of your waist.
Even if you didnât view Kihyun romantically, you couldnât help but blush a little.
The little roleplay went fine for the most part, you acted like the âmediating motherâ who didnât necessarily hate the boyfriend while the father and brothers hated him.
It was fun for the most part. Though throughout the roleplay, you could notice a strange tension rising between Yohan and Mingi. You began to watch them nervously as they faked argued. It was started to feel a bit too real with the words they were using.
âAnd how can you even be good for herâ?â Yohan started.
ââHey, Hey, you act like Iâm ten!â Hyojin interrupted.
âYeah, youâre so controlling,â Mingi chuckled. âWhat makes you the one who gets to choose for her?â
âBecauseâ!â
ââthis so annoying, sheâs not worth this hassle. what if I take your mom instead will you still be this angry? Sheâs hotter anyway.â
Everyone blinked as they stared at Mingi. It took a second before Kihyun realized he should act as he immediately stood up and began spouting some nonsense while you could only stare. You felt hot as you couldnât even come up with a line but only bury your face in your sweater.
Youâd kill him later.
Shooting ended not even twenty minutes later. None of the staff seemed to be mentioning the whole âsheâs hotterâ sentence. You wondered if they would just edit that out as you handed over the mic to a staff member. Each member looked ready to go home and eatâyou included.
You need to take your wig off however so you began walking to the hairstylist when a hand grabbed your sweater and tugged you away. You didnât even get a chance to scream before you were slammed into a storage closet.
It didnât take a genius to know who had dragged you here.
âMingiâcan you be a bit gentler next time?â You whispered, sighing softly.
âSorry, sorry.â Mingi gave you a cheeky grin before slowly guiding you rest your back against the wall. âBut you look too good right now⊠I want to kiss you.â
You blushed slightly. âYou look good too.â You shyly whispered, glancing up at him. Your hands slowly reached up and rest on his shoulders, gripping at his jacket before pulling him further down. Mingi didnât need to be told twice as he eagerly kissed you, his hands grasping your waist.
The kiss was intense, Mingi kissing you like he wanted to eat you. His fingers dug into the waistband of your pants before managing to tug them down. They pooled around your feet as your eyes widen in shock. You pulled away from the kiss and stared up at him in shock.
âIn.. in here?!â You whisper-yelled.
Mingi hummed, undeterred as he began pressing light kisses on your neck. âJust this once. I wonât ask for something like this again. Please, Noona?â
Your body shivered at the title, a strangled gasp leaving your throat as he teased the tip of your cock. Wait when did he pull down your underwear? Any part of you that didnât want to do this was pushed down at the immediate pleasure of him teasing your cock.
No way you can wait until you get home now.
âOkay⊠just this once.â You whispered.
Mingi immediately began unbuckling his jeans with speed you thought was impossible. He still kissed and nipped at your neckâstill careful to not leave any marks. You bit your bottom lip to muffle any moans as he gripped your thighs, lifting you up.
You wrapped your arms around his neck, nervous for how this would work. Wasnât he supposed to prep you? But he was quite big, how long was he supposed to prep you for?
As you tried to calm yourself down, you felt his cock rub against yours. He had pulled up your sweater to show off your stomach. You shuddered and glanced down to see him line his cock right on top of yours.
âWhatâs this..?â You whispered, gasping as he began to slowly rub against you. âI thought you⊠were gonna put it in.â
âIn here?â He asked, an incredulous expression on his face. âNo way, not for your first time. We can get off like this. Just let me lead, Noona.â You blushed again as you meekly nodded.
His hands slid up to your waist as he pressed his body fully against yours. Your cock was now firmly against hisâunable to slip away. Mingi pressed a soft kiss on your collarbone before pulling away just a bit to see your face.
âIâll make it quick⊠so they donât get suspicious.â He said, though you could tell that he wouldâve dragged this out if there wasnât the threat of getting caught. âDonât make a sound, I donât want anyone hearing you.â
It was slow at first. His hips bucked forward as your toes curled, his thicker cock dwarfed yours as they rubbed together. It burned a bit as there was no lube to make the friction smoother. Mingi seemed to notice this as he spit into his hand and rubbed it against both cocks. You tried not to be grossed out.
Sex was messy anyway.
He started out slow before speeding up. You almost wished he actually fucked you. This mustâve been how he usually fucks anyway. The tight grip on your waist as he slammed forward, your body shaking from the force.
The pre-cum leaking from your cock began to coat both cocks, allowing for an easier friction. Your voice was beginning to get louder as you buried your face into his neck, clawing at the jacket for some type of purchase.
âI bet youâre tight⊠so tight, Noona. Next time, I wanna fuck your pussy, can I? Can I, Noona?â He whispered, into your ear, chuckling when you only answered with a high pitched moan. âDo you like that? Calling your hole a pussy?â
His hips suddenly stilled as you cried in disappointment. âCâmon, Noona. Iâm doing all the work⊠you can answer my question. Do you like it?â
You whined before nodding your head.
âAh, ah, use your words. Youâre an adult.â
âSo meanâŠâ
âWhat was that, Noona? You want me to stop?â
âNo, no! IâŠâ you whined, your cock aching for release. âI like it.. please I wanna cum.â
âSee~â he cooed, âthat wasnât too hard. Youâre such a good girl, Noona.â
His nails dig into your skin as he slammed his hips up, your cocks rubbing together once more. Your moans immediately leave you as you feel yourself reach your peak. You cum not soon after, Mingiâs name leaving your lips in a pathetic whimper.
Mingi follows right after, biting down on your bare shoulder. Luckily the cum didnât reach the sweater. It coated both of your stomachs as he loosened his grip on you. You both breathed heavily as he glanced over at you.
âYou really are hotter.â He said, a slight smirk on his lips.
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After that whole storage closet incident, you and Mingi have finally felt a bit more comfortable sex wise. In short, you guys were humping each other practically every night. Which led tonight: you were sitting on his lap, wearing only your boxers with a t-shirt.
You had been watching him gaming when he suddenly asked for a reward for beating his high score. You refused at first since you had wanted to go to bed an hour ago but he had begged you to watch him play.
It only took one puppy dog pout before you conceded and allowed him to choose a reward.
Of course the reward was you grinding on top of him. Your ass was directly over his dick. You could tell he wasnât wearing any boxers underneath his sweatpants. It began to harden beneath your ass as you slowly grind on top of him.
âYouâre so sexy, Hyung. Iâm not sure if I can take this anymore,â Mingi groaned, reaching over to grasp your waist. You shivered.
âYou.. donât have to⊠Iâm ready.â
Mingi blinked. âReally..? I can..?â
Your hips stopped as you blushed slightly, nodding your head. âYeah⊠humping each other is fun but I wanna feel you.. i..inside me.â You thought youâd die of embarrassment.
But that almost seemed to send Mingi over the edge as he immediately flipped your positions to where you were laying on the couch. You stared up at him shock as he pulled down your boxers, your cock flopping free.
You couldnât help but feel excited at how eager he was. You shyly opened your legs wider so Mingi could have easy access. Just as he was about to kiss your stomach, your phone began ringing.
You immediately shot up, ignoring Mingiâs whines as you reached for your phone. People hardly called you so you always immediately checked. It took a second for the name to fully register but when it did, a grin pulled on your lips.
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Hong Garam.
Three years ago
Mingi was a bit camera shy when it came to variety shows. He hardly looked into the camera as he just let the other members talk until he was called upon. Because of that, his gaze was focused on the membersâmainly you, really.
So he noticed how you practically froze up when Yohan accidentally brushed against you. Heâd never seen you react like that before. If he wasnât on camera he wouldâve said something but he decided to do something less disruptive.
Because everyone was standing in a huddle than a line, it was easy for him to slip between Kihyun and Doha to get to you. He stopped thoughâwanting to make it seem like he was just shifting around. After a minute or so, he moved again, gently pushing you further to the right so he could fit between you and Yohan.
Yohan didnât seem to notice at all while you glanced over at Mingi, a confused look on your face. But Mingi didnât look at you, knowing that if he did he wouldâve fold immediately. He just stared at the hostâpretending he was paying attention the entire time.
If he did glance over at you, he wouldâve noticed the slight blush on your cheeks as you smiled to yourself.
The whole idea for a family drama thing was definitely from SKZ lmao. Leading heavily into feminization but Mingi has multiple kinks, just wait and see
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crawlinâ back to you
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cw: mommy kink, spanking, manipulation, hair pulling, toxic relationship, mentions of baby trapping, breeding kink, nasty sex
a/n: my first sevika fan fic :3
ââ©â§âËౚà§Ëââ©â§â ââ©â§âËౚà§Ëââ©â§â ââ©â§âËౚà§Ëââ©â§â â ââ©â§âËౚà§Ëâ â
she did it again. she promised you time and time again that she would change, but once more, you found yourself shakingâheart pounding, eyes welling up with tears. you didnât understand why she was like this. yes, she was an incredibly busy woman, but why couldnât she make time for you? it was a question you asked yourself daily. minutes turned into hours, hours into days, and eventually, days turned into two weeks since you last heard from her. this time, instead of blowing up her phone, you accepted it. you told yourself you would never again tolerate this kind of disrespect.
as the darkness of sleep began to take you, your ears picked up on⊠footsteps? âit canât be,â you muttered softly. you rose from your bed slowly, careful not to make any noise in case it wasnât who you thought it was. âsevika?â you called out into the dim apartment, your voice soft but loud enough for anyone nearby to hear.
âthe fuck you think youâre doing?â
her voice cut through the stillness, she was pissed. the sound of her boots grew louder as she walked toward your room. and then there she was, stepping into the soft glow of your bedside lamp, her muscular and tall figure looming and commanding. âyou think just because iâm gone for a bit, that means you get to fucking forget about me?â she growled.
before you could respond, sevika reached out, her calloused hand wrapping around your arm. her grip was firm, not painful, but it demanded your attention. âvikaââ you stammered. fourteen days of trying to block her out, trying to resist the thought of her touch, her love, her pamperingâall of it came rushing back at once, washing away every ounce of self respect you slowly built.
as you searched for the words to respond, anger began to rise within you. âi fucking hate you!â you blurted, your voice cracking. âwhy do you do this to me, sevika? w-why?â tears streamed down your face, your body trembling with frustration and heartbreak. you didnât understand why you still loved her so much when she treated you like this. you didnât understand why she had this unshakable hold on you, a grip no one else in your life had ever hold.
sevikaâs expression, once hardened with anger, softened as she listened to your shaky words. her anger melted into something gentler as the sound of your sobs pierced through her defenses. without a word, she leaned down and effortlessly scooped you into her arms, holding you close as you cried into her chest. she carried you to the bed and placed you down with care, her rough hand gently brushing your cheek, wiping away your tears.
she climbed onto the bed, her broad frame hovering over yours, her face inches away. propping herself up with her flesh-and-metal arm, she kept you in place, her presence impossible to ignore. âlook at me, doll,â she commanded, her voice firm but tender. you obeyed without question, your teary eyes locking onto hers.
âiâm sorry, baby doll,â she murmured. âyou know how i am, princess. but just âcause i was gone for a bit doesnât mean you gotta go making me hear from ran that youâre doing better without me.â her voice softened further as she leaned closer, her lips brushing against your forehead. âyâknow iâll never truly leave you, ma,â she cooed.
you turned your head away, tired of hearing the same excuses over and over again. you tried to sit up, but before you could lift your back off the bed, sevika pressed you down again. her grip on your side tightened, no longer as gentle as before.
âstay. and fucking listen to me,â she ordered, her voice leaving no room for argument.
your chest heaved with a shaky breath, your emotions still raw as you glared at her. âif youâre really sorry, prove it,â you spat, your voice trembling.
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âm-mommy please!!â you cried. the nasty wet sounds of skin slapping onto the each other filled the room. âfuck arch your back more for mommy babyâ she pressed her hand on your back, her mechanical hand on the side of your hips. the dark purple plastic cock hit every part of your inner walls so beautifully.
âfucking pussy so fucking good babyâ gonna give you all my fucking babies so youâre stuck with meâ
âmhm mommy, fuckkkkkkâ your pussy throbs at her words, fuck well there goes standing on business.
âlook at me baby, whoâs big cock is deeppp in you?â you look back to her, trying your hardest to keep your head up over your shoulder. just the sight of your low eyes and your body bent over like this just for her makes her go insane, mentally taking a photo of the sight beneath her.
âyou! sevika! you!â you moan only to be met with a smack on your ass.
ânuh uh baby, whatâs my name? say it right.â
ângh- you mommy!!! you!!â the woman chuckles before her pace moves faster.
âgood girlllllâ she cooed. you buried your face onto the pillow, muffling your moans which were now screams and filthy whines. sevika did not like this one bit. her hand gripped your hair into a makeshift pony and slowly pulled your face off the pillow in order to hear you better.
âdonât hide from me princess, take this fucking dick maâ
OOOOOOOUUUU LAWD
you look back at her once again, âmommy iâm gonna c-cummmm!!â your eyes locked onto her silver eyes, begging for her permission for you to come undone
âfuck baby me too, gonna knock my pretty girl up, cum on this fucking dick baby, dick that youâre always gonna cum on. nobody else making this pussy cum but meâ you feel your face getting hotter, tummy and pussy getting tingly as your orgasm washes over you. âtoo much mama!!â you whined as she fucked you through it.
âshitttt baby mommyâs cumming too!!â her hips stuttered as the strap grinds over her sensitive clit but her pace doesnât get any less slower. an orgasm sweeps over her body as yours did just a few minutes ago.
you both stay there for a few seconds, trying to catch some air and recover from that body shaking orgasm. she slowly removes the plastic toy covered in your cum from inside of you. âletâs get you cleaned upâ she announces, breaking the few seconds of silence in the room.
back to square one.
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they beg to be taken back, SKZ.
featuring â stray kids members x gn!reader ( masterlist )
summary â a reaction of how the stray kids boys realize they canât live without you, and come to beg you for a second chance!
contents â angst, mentions of fights, possible reconciliation.
bang âą chan
bang chan had always been composed, the leader who held everyone together. but when you broke up with him, the cracks in his armor showed. he respected your decision and convinced himself that it was for the best, despite the emptiness growing unbearable.
he wasnât himself since and the people around him began to notice. the usual spark in his eyes dimmed, and the weight of your absence felt suffocating. he replayed the last argument over and over in his head, agonizing over what he couldâve done differently. but as much as he respected your decision, he couldnât shake the feeling that he needed to try, just one more time, to fight for what you both had.
it was late when he showed up at your doorstep, his hand hovering over the doorbell. when you answered, you were more than surprised to see him standing there, his shoulders slightly hunched as if he was carrying the weight of the world. his hair was disheveled, eyes rimmed red. he looked like he hadnât slept in days.
âchan? what are you doing here?â the nickname slipped from your lips almost too easily and you suppressed the urge to recoil. being around him â being his, was too easy. even with the two months apart, one look into his eyes was all it took for everything to come rushing back.
âi⊠i needed to see you,â he said, his voice trembling slightly and his australian accent slightly thicker, which was a sign of his nervousness. âi know you said that itâs over, but i canât accept it â not without trying to make things right.â
you felt something in your chest lurch, and for a few moments you were rendered speechless. a large part of you wanted to forget the fight and what lead up to it, but the smaller part of you kept reminding you of how alone he made you feel despite being together. âweâve already talked about this. you need to let me go. i... i donât want to go back to feeling the way i did.â
he shook his head, his eyes glassy with unshed tears. âi canât just let you go,â he admitted, his voice cracking. âi know i messed up. i wasnât there for you when you needed me most, i treated you like another responsibility, and i hate myself for it. but please, give me a chance to prove that i can do better. i canât lose you like this.â
âchanâŠâ you looked away, your heart breaking at the vulnerability in his voice. your own eyes blurred with tears and you tried to blink them away.
âi know iâm asking a lot,â he continued, taking a tentative step closer. his hands itched with the need to reach out for your waist; the feeling of your skin under his palms a muscle memory. âbut i love you. i love you more than anything, and i canât imagine my life without you in it. tell me what i need to do, and iâll do it. just⊠donât give up on us.â
his desperation was raw and unfiltered, and it was clear that heâd spent every waking moment thinking about this moment. whether you took him back or not, he was determined to fight for you until the very end.
felix âą
felix was a wreck after the breakup. the ever-present sunshine in his personality dimmed, replaced by a quiet sadness that the others noticed but didnât know how to fix. he replayed the moments leading up to your decision endlessly, wondering where he went wrong. no matter how hard he tried to respect your choice and acknowledge his mistakes, his heart refused to let it go.
one rainy evening, he found himself standing in the reception office of your workplace while soaked to the bone. he didnât care that the receptionist was eyeing him in annoyance for dripping on the floors, or that he looked homeless from his red-rimmed eyes and masked face. when you finally made your way down after a call from your superiors, you were shocked.
âfelix? what the hell?â you whisper-yelled, your voice laced with concern despite the shock as you grasped his arms to lead him to the bathrooms instead of the ac-blasting reception so he wouldnât get sick.
âi had to see you,â he said, his voice trembling. both from the cold and his overwhelming feelings. âi couldnât just⊠let it end like that.â
you sighed, grasping his freezing hands in yours and holding it under the hot air of the hand drier, not caring that you were in the menâs room. felix couldnât care less either as he momentarily basked in the feeling of your soft hands in his after so long. âi know i hurt you, and i hate myself for it. but i canât let you go without telling you how much you mean to me.â
âand you thought this was the smartest way to do it? by getting yourself sick?â you shook your head, trying to keep your emotions in check. he broke your heart, you tried to remind yourself to keep yourself steely. it didnât work.
âi know i made mistakes,â he continued, his voice breaking as he sniffled and you avoided his gaze and chalked it up to the cold. âi wasnât there for you the way i should have been. but you⊠youâre everything to me. youâre the reason i smile, the reason i wake up in the morning. please, tell me how to fix this.â
his vulnerability was heart-wrenching and you felt your own eyes blur through your silence. felix didnât look away from you the entire time, his eyes glistening with unshed tears. âiâll do anything, anything to make things right. just⊠donât walk away from me. from us.â
as the rain continued to pour outside, felix stood there, baring his soul to you. he wasnât just asking for forgiveness â he was offering every piece of himself, hoping it would be enough to convince you to take him back.
lee âą know
lee know was stubborn by nature, and after the breakup, he tried to convince himself he didnât need anyone. he put on a brave face around the others, burying himself in practice and work. taking on excess time to keep his mind off you worked for a while, but even then every time he went home to the empty silence of his apartment, your absence hit him like a freight train.
his members began to notice his stubbornness and attempt to dismiss your relationship, giving him the space he needed as they hoped heâd work through it. but it began to become clear he was taking the ostrichâs way out â burying his head in the sand and pretending everything was fine.
it took weeks for him to swallow his pride and realize he didnât want to deal with the emptiness anymore. the fight was so stupid and you were the love of his life, so why werenât you together right now?
he wasnât one to beg, but losing you was something he slowly realized he couldnât bear. and so one evening after heavy contemplation, he found himself standing outside your apartment door, clutching his phone in one hand and a small bouquet of your favorite flowers in the other.
when you opened the door, you paused and your eyes widened in surprise. your treacherous heart missed a beat and you attempted to school your expression to normal. âminho? what are you doing here?â
âi, uh, i needed to see you,â he said, his usual cool demeanor replaced with a hesitance you rarely saw.
your mind flashed with the hurtful words he threw at you during the argument and you crossed your arms, leaning against the doorframe. âi thought we agreed that separating was for the best.â
âmaybe i thought so at first,â he admitted, his voice soft but firm. âbut i donât think i can do this anymore. i canât pretend that iâm okay being without you because iâm not.â
âminhoâŠâ you started, looking away as you didnât know what to say.
âi know i donât say it enough,â he interrupted, his gaze dropping to the ground. âbut i love you. i loved you then, and i love you now. and i hate that i let you go without fighting for you. i hate that i was so stupid.â
âyou hurt me,â you said, a slight wobble in your voice that you attempted to mask with by clearing your throat softly. but the hurt in your eyes was hard to miss. âi canât just forget that.â
âi know,â he said, stepping closer. he put the flowers down on the floor by your feet as he took your hands in his, his palms warm. âand i donât expect you to. but i want to make it up to you. iâll do whatever it takes to earn your trust again. because i mean it when i say i wonât make the same mistakes again.â
he squeezed your palms softly, bringing your fingers up to his lips. âi know iâm not the best at showing how much you mean to me. but you do â more than anything. and if thereâs even the smallest part of you that still feels the same way, please⊠give me another chance.â
it wasnât easy for lee know to open up like this, but the thought of losing you for good outweighed his fear of vulnerability and hesitance. whether or not you decided to take him back, he was determined to show you just how much you meant to him.
hyun âą jin
hyunjin wasnât one to wear his heart on his sleeve, but the breakup managed to shatter the carefully built walls around his emotions. he threw himself into his art and practice, hoping it would drown out the ache in his chest. but no matter how many brushstrokes he painted or routines he perfected, nothing could fill the void youâd left behind.
while hoping to take a walk on evening , hyunjin mindlessly ended up walking into your favorite park, the place where youâd spent countless nights talking about dreams and fears. as usual, you were there sitting on the same bench youâd share, a book on your lap but your mind and gaze were elsewhere.
hyunjin stood there for a few moments, unable to look away until your wandering gaze settled on him. you paused, startled to see him there, his usually confident posture replaced by a tentative nervousness as he slowly walked to you.
âhyunjin?â you looked up at him, unsure if you should address him in public since your relationship was over. he was dressed in black, a mask covering the bottom half of his face, but you recognized him immediately.
he hesitated for aa moment before he sat down beside you, a small bittersweet smile tugging at his lips even though you couldnât see it. âi wasnât sure youâd be here,â he admitted.
âi didnât know youâd be here either,â you replied cautiously, fidgeting with your book in your lap. would you have come if you knew? maybe, maybe not.
he took a deep breath, his gaze locking onto you even though you wouldnât look back at him. âi just... i needed to see you. i canât keep pretending iâm okay with this when iâm not.â
âhyunjin, weâve already talked about thisâŠâ
âi know,â he interrupted, his voice heavy with emotion. âbut i canât let it end like this. i know i hurt you really bad, and i hate myself for it every day. i thought i was protecting you from this life and me, but all i did was push you away.â
your fingers softly tightened around the book, trying to calm yourself against the raw emotion in his voice. âitâs not that simple.â
âi know itâs not,â he said, scooting slightly closer. he couldnât take his eyes off you. you were so pretty. âbut i love you. iâve always loved you, even when i was too scared to show it. and if thereâs even a small part of you that still cares about me and what we had, then please⊠let me try to fix this.â
his voice broke as he added, âiâll spend the rest of my life making it up to you if i have to. just⊠donât give up on us. not yet.â
you finally looked up at him and your breath hitched at the proximity. the vulnerability in hyunjinâs eyes was almost too much for you to bear. he wasnât just asking for forgiveness â he was offering every piece of himself, hoping it would be enough to convince you to give him one last chance. he wouldnât lose you again.
i.n âą
jeongin had never experienced heartbreak like this before. the breakup ended up hitting him harder than he ever thought possible. he spent days replaying the fight you both had in his head, wondering how he couldâve done things differently. his hyungs tried their best to cheer him up, but their efforts only seemed to highlight the emptiness he felt without you.
you were his first relationship, his first kiss, his first love and the woman he thought heâd marry some day. heâd questioned his success as an idol, heâd question his talents â but the lifetime of your relationship was one thing he never had to question. so to have that one dream shattered was more than the average heartbreak. jeongin would probably never date again.
only nine days had passed since you left, and after those 200 hours, jeongin couldnât take it anymore. he knew your schedule in and out, and he knew exactly where youâd be on a weekend evening at 5.
he showed up at your favorite cafĂ©, the place where youâd spent countless afternoons together and took a seat at the very booth youâd always sit at, counting down the minutes to when youâll show up.
so when you walked in and spotted him sitting at your usual table, his nervous smile and the familiar warmth in his eyes caught you off guard.
âjeongin?â you asked cautiously as you approached, looking around the almost empty area. âwhat are you doing here?â
he stood up quickly, his hands fidgeting as he spoke, wanting to reach out to you. âhi. i⊠i wasnât sure if youâd come here today, but i had to take the chance.â
you hesitated, unsure of what to say. it had barely been over a week since your breakup. âwhat do you want?â
âi want to apologize,â he said earnestly, his voice quiet but steady. he had already made up his mind. âand to ask for another chance.â
âjeongin, we already talked about this,â you replied, shaking your head softly. the argument was still fresh in your mind and you didnât plan to give in anytime soon. yet one look into his puppy-like eyes was all it took. damn.
âi know that,â he said quickly, his words tumbling out in a rush. âbut i canât just let it end the way it did. i know i hurt you, and i know i wasnât the boyfriend you deserved, but i want to make it right. i need to make it right.â
you sighed, hesitantly sitting down across from him. âitâs not that easy.â
âi know itâs not,â jeongin said, his gaze earnest. he was not going to leave without you. âbut i love you. and iâll do whatever it takes to prove that to you. iâve been thinking about everything i did wrong, and i promise, iâll be better. just⊠donât shut me out completely. you donât have to take me back now, but know iâm not going to let this be the end of us.â
his voice softened as he added, âi know iâm asking for a lot, but please⊠let me show you how much you mean to me. even if it seems a little too late.â
you found yourself softening against your will. jeonginâs sincerity was palpable, and the quiet determination in his eyes made it clear that he wasnât giving up on you. whether or not you decided to take him back, he was willing to do whatever it took to make amends.
han âą
han had always been known for his bright energy, and the way he could light up a room with his laughter. but ever since the breakup, his spark was gone and it became glaringly obvious. the jokes came less frequently, and the music he created sounded hollow, even to him. he missed you, missed the comfort of your presence and the way you always seemed to understand him when no one else could.
his group members had tried to give him the time and space he needed, since your relationship was long-term and impactful. you had been by hanâs side since before stray kids, and the loss of your presence in his life was something all 7 of them combined couldnât match up to.
the moment han decided he couldnât stay away any longer, he abandoned the practice session and rushed straight to your place without even thinking it through. the journey was a blur and his body ran on instinct until he was standing outside your door.
his hands fidgeted with the hem of his hoodie as he rehearsed what he wanted to say for a few minutes before knocking once he was semi-confident of what to say and had plastered a small nervous smile on his lips.
when you opened the door, his smile faltered at the sight of you. âhey,â he said softly, his voice tinged with hesitance, looking over the sight of you in your pajamas.
âhan? what are you doing here?â you paused in shock, not expecting his presence out of all things.
âi⊠i couldnât stay away,â he admitted, his gaze dropping to the ground. he forgot what he planned to say. âi know i donât have any right to be here after what happened and what i said, but i needed to talk to you.â
you looked over his sweaty and disheveled appearance as if he ran here, and crossed your arms, looking away. âwe already talked, han. whatâs left to say?â
âa lot,â he said quickly, his voice trembling slightly â from being out of breath, or from the prospect of losing you, he wasnât sure. âi know i messed up real bad. i know i didnât always handle things the way i shouldâve, but i canât ââ he paused, swallowing hard. âi canât lose you.â
you sighed, trying to keep your composure. you knew his words were true. âyou realize that now? after all that was said and done?â
âi know what i said,â he said, stepping closer. âbut i need you to know how sorry i am. i didnât realize how much i was taking you for granted until you were gone. and now⊠now i feel like iâm missing a part of myself. you, and what we had, none of that can ever be replaced. you were the one, and i was so stupid for letting you go like that.â
âhanâŠâ
âiâm not asking you to forgive me right now,â he continued, his voice cracking. âbut i just want one chance to show you that i can be better. please, just give me that chance. i wonât screw up again.â
his vulnerability was raw and unguarded, and the tears welling up in his eyes mirrored the ache in your chest. his presence only made you realize what you were missing. han wasnât one to beg, but for you, heâd put his pride aside if it meant that he could win you back.
seung âą min
seungmin prided himself on his ability to stay composed, but the breakup had shaken him to his core. he replayed your last conversation over and over, analyzing every word, every tone, trying to figure out where heâd gone wrong. the silence in his life without you was deafening, and no amount of logic could convince his heart to move on.
he knew he had no right to approach you or ask for forgiveness after his neglect, but damn was it hard to get past your absence in his daily life. meals, practice and sleeping alone felt void â like a puzzle piece was missing, leaving the actions feeling inadequate.
it took him a month to realize he couldnât go on without you, weeks to decide how he was going to approach you, and another handful of days to work up the courage and find himself standing outside your door. his heart was pounding in his chest and his hands felt sweaty.
when you opened your front door, you were startled to see seungmin there, his usual calm demeanor replaced with an uncharacteristic hesitance and unease. âseungmin? what are you doing here?â
âiâŠâ he hesitated, his eyes dropping to the floor as he suddenly felt a wave of unpreparedness. âi needed to talk to you.â
you were surprised but crossed your arms and kept your expression guarded, equally as hesitant. âweâve already said everything that needed to be said. why now?â
âno,â he said firmly, meeting your gaze. a troubled look in his eyes. seungmin wasnât sure if he felt like crying, or throwing up. âi didnât say enough. i didnât fight for you the way i should have, and i canât let it end like this.â
âseungminâŠâ you frowned softly
âi know i made mistakes,â he interrupted, his voice steady but filled with emotion. âi know i wasnât always there for you the way i shouldâve been. but i love you. and i canât just let you walk away without trying to make things right.â
you sighed, looking away. âitâs not that simple. you hurt me.â
âi know,â he said, his voice softening. âand i hate myself for it. but i want to make it up to you. iâll do whatever it takes, no matter how long it takes. i just need you to give me a chance.â
when you didnât respond immediately, he took a deep breath, his hands trembling slightly. âiâm not asking you to forget everything. iâm just asking for the chance to prove that i can be betterâthat i can be the person you deserve.â
the quiet determination in his voice was unlike anything youâd heard from him before. it was clear that seungmin wasnât just asking for forgivenessâhe was willing to fight for you, no matter how long it took.
chang âą bin
changbin wasnât used to feeling helpless, but after the breakup, he felt like his world had been turned upside down. he threw himself into his music, trying to channel his emotions into lyrics, but even that didnât offer the relief he was hoping for. the studio felt empty without you. his group mates tried to cheer him up, but nothing could replace your touch, the sound of your laugh or the way youâd encourage him after a long day.
it didnât take long before he realized he couldnât let you go. your presence couldnât be replaced by practice or writing, and every heart wrenching feeling being poured into his file of unreleased songs. it had reached a point where he had gotten tired of the separation and ended up impulsively making his way to your apartment one evening.
changbinâs heart was pounding as he worked up the courage to knock, freezing in surprise when you suddenly opened the door in that purple shirt of yours that you always wore to grocery shop. he stared at you quietly for a few moments, watching how your expression shifted from surprise to guardedness.
âchangbin? what are you doing here?â you spoke softly, your gaze flickering around the hall to make sure no neighbor was out.
he hesitated, feeling extremely unprepared despite replaying the conversation in his mind the whole ride here, his hands clenched into fists at his sides. âi just needed to see you,â he said, his voice softer than youâd ever heard it.
âbin, weâve already talked about this,â you began the nickname slipping too easily, but he shook his head.
âno, i need you to listen,â he said, his voice firm but he had to clear his throat to stay composed. âi know i messed up. really bad. i know i didnât always handle things the way i shouldâve, but i canât lose you. i donât know how to be without you.â
you sighed, fidgeting slightly as you looked over his disheveled hair and troubled expression. he wouldnât meet your eyes either. âitâs not that simple, changbin. you canât just show up after what happened and expect everything to be okay.â
âi know that,â he said, his dark eyes pleading as he ran his palm over his face. he wasnât one to beg but if he left this without knowing you were his again, he didnât know what heâd do. âbut iâm willing to do whatever it takes to fix this. iâll change. iâll be better. just tell me what you need, and iâll make it happen.â
you looked away, trying to maintain your resolve, but his words slowly chipped away at your defenses. he was the best youâd ever had, until he wasnât. âwhy now, changbin? why couldnât you do this before and how am i supposed to believe youâve changed?â
âbecause i was scared,â he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper, looking up at you as he reached out to grasp your hands in his. âi was scared of failing you, or of not being enough. but i realized iâm more scared of losing you forever. i wouldnât be able to bear that.â
his voice trembled and he nearly found himself in tears, leaning his forehead against yours. âplease, give me another chance. let me prove that i can be the person you deserve.â
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The Weight of Choices
Pairing: Ex-husband!Bucky Barnes x Female Reader
Warnings: 18+ only. Smut. Unprotected sex, dirty talk. A little angst.
Summary: Torn between his instinct to protect his family and his desire to be a part of their lives, Bucky tries to deal with the reality of his ex-wife going on a date while he stays home caring for their son.
Word Count: About 8.9k.
He was late. If Y/n didnât know better, sheâd think he was doing it on purpose. Bucky had agreed to watch their son tonight so she could go on a date, the third one since their divorce two years ago. The last couple of times, sheâd managed to find a friend to babysit, but Saturday nights were always tough. So in the end, she had no choice but to come clean and ask Bucky.
She could still hear his voice from that awkward phone call, his tone edged with surprise when sheâd told him she had plans.
âA date?â he repeated, the edge of disbelief was hard to miss.
"Yeah," sheâd replied casually, but Buckyâs silence lingered longer than usual. He hated texting, so phone calls had become their norm, even for the smallest of things.
âWith who?â His attempt to sound nonchalant fell flat, the tension was evident, threading through every word.
âChris,â she said, keeping her tone light, âYou know, the music teacher at the kindergarten where I work? Blonde, easy smile... we walked past him once when he was out with his dog, Dodger.â
Bucky scoffed, the bitterness in his voice was unmistakable. âI knew it. I knew he had a thing for you.â
She rolled her eyes, exasperated. âOh, please.â
âEvery time Iâd drop by the kindergarten, heâd just⊠linger. His eyes followed you the whole time like he couldnât look away. People donât stare like that unless theyâre thinking something. And the way heâd smile, all soft and attentive, he was trying too hard to be just a âfriendly co-worker.â His voice had dropped a notch, as his irritation crept in.
âAre you serious?â she shot back, incredulous. But Bucky wasnât done.
âHow longâs this been going on?â The question came out more like an accusation.
âItâs our first date. You know I only recently started dating again,â she replied, her patience wearing thin.
He paused, clearly unsatisfied. âSo what, heâs just been waiting for his chance, ready to pounce-â
âIâm going to stop you right there, James,â she interrupted firmly. âYouâre not entitled to know anything about my love life the moment you decided you wanted the divorce.â
There was an uncomfortable silence on the line. She could hear him breathing, and the tension stretched between them, until finally, he sighed.
âYouâre right,â he admitted. âIâm sorry, that was out of line. Iâll take care of Benjamin on Saturday night.â
The recall of the conversation was interrupted by Ben, who wanted to show her what he did with his Legos.
Bucky had been sitting in front of the house for half an hour now. Sometimes, like tonight, he regretted what heâd done, but deep down, he knew it had been necessary. After the terrifying incident when Hydra agents attempted to kidnap their son, hoping to test if any of the serumâs powers had been passed down genetically, he realized that his past would eventually catch up with them. He had to make sure they were safe, even if it meant tearing apart everything theyâd built.
He knew she wouldnât understand if he told her the truth. If he had laid out his fears and his guilt and spiraled into a self-deprecating parade like he always did, she would have fought him and convinced him to stay. So he waited.
He knew the only way to make her believe it, was to weave in just enough truth to his argument, so, slowly he began pulling away, setting the stage for what would be his ultimate break. Late nights, distant conversations, an almost non-existent sexual life and missed moments with their son, all led to this. He needed her to see that the life they had wasnât something he could carry anymore.
When the moment came, he didnât hesitate. He told her he felt suffocated by their life together. That the roles of husband and father were more than he could bear after everything he had been through. She didnât believe him at first, and he could see the determination in her eyes, the will to fight for what they had.
So, he played the card he knew would make her stop fighting him. He spoke of the years heâd spent as a puppet, how he had never truly known freedom, never had control over his life. He appreciated everything she had done for him, all the love and support she had given, but it wasnât enough. He needed air, space to figure out who he was beyond the roles he had been forced into. He made it sound like staying with her, staying in the family theyâd built, was just another form of captivity.
It crushed her. Bucky could see the moment her resistance faded. She believed him, not because she wanted to, but because he made it seem so real. So she stood there, heartbroken, but unable to argue against the logic heâd presented.
The first months after the divorce were hard on both parts. For her, that time was the hardest, filled with sleepless nights and the nagging feeling that Bucky had simply abandoned her, walked away from their life, their love, without a second thought. She wrestled with the confusion and the heartbreak, trying to piece together where things had gone wrong. For Bucky, it was a different kind of suffering. He bore the weight of his decision in silence, knowing he had walked away to protect them, but that didnât ease the sting of loneliness or the guilt that clawed at him.
Their lives moved on separately. They saw each other only in passing, and even that was rare. Bucky would pick up Benjamin directly from daycare once a week, dropping him off the next morning before heading back to his life, careful to avoid lingering long enough for awkward conversations. Sometimes he didnât make it at all, missing his time with his son when missions pulled him away. Immersing himself in his work was easier than facing what he had left behind, the family he still wanted but couldnât allow himself to have. Meanwhile, she did her best to create some normalcy for Benjamin, even as the space Bucky left behind echoed through their small home.
Even though their lives had drifted apart, Bucky never truly let go. He kept his distance, but never far enough to lose sight of them. Unbeknownst to her, he knew everything that went on in the household, the daily rhythms of their life, the way she struggled and adapted to her new normal without him. From the shadows, Bucky lurked unnoticed in the neighborhood, always keeping an eye on them. She never noticed, never had a clue that even when he was away on missions, he somehow knew when Benjamin caught a cold or when she had a rough day at work.
It was a secret vigil that gave him a twisted sense of comfort, knowing they were safe even if they no longer shared the same home. He would catch fleeting glimpses of her tucking their son into bed or hear his faint laughter playing in the yard. It was enough to remind him of what heâd lost, but not enough to bring him back to the life he believed he couldnât have.
That was why Bucky was caught off guard when she mentioned her date with that guy, the music teacher. He never saw that coming. He had always known the man had a soft spot for her, could see it in the way he acted whenever she was around, how he lingered a little longer during pick-ups at the kindergarten, helping to manage the children even if it wasnât his job, always with an excuse to retain her and talk. His body language was an open book. But back then, Bucky had dismissed him as harmless, barely giving him a second thought. To him, Chris had always been like a friendly Labrador: approachable, with no bite. A non-threat.
But now, that harmless Labrador had grown fangs. The guy wasnât just hanging around the edges anymore; he was stepping in, taking her to dinner, moving into a space Bucky had once occupied. And he had no choice but to suck it up and watch it happen, watch her walk out the door with him. He could handle the distance, the brief moments of tension when they had to interact, but this? The idea of Chris sitting across from her at a candlelit table, making her laugh, holding her gaze... it twisted his guts.
And God knows what else would happen after dinner. Would Chris try to kiss her goodnight? Would she let him? Or worse, would they end up back at his place? His mind ran wild with the possibility of them taking things further, crossing a line he never wanted to imagine. Would she let him touch her in ways Bucky used to, let him see sides of her only he had known? He knew he had no right to feel this way, but it didnât stop the thoughts from torturing him.
Eventually, he glanced at the clock and sighed, raking a hand through his hair. There was no point in torturing himself any further, he couldnât postpone the inevitable any longer.
Reaching the front porch, Bucky hesitated for a moment. He straightened his posture adjusting his clothes, then knocked on the door. As he waited, he shifted his weight from one foot to the other, trying to shake off the tension.
When the door finally swung open, for a split second, neither of them spoke. Her eyes widened just a little, her lips parting as she took him in. It had been a long time since sheâd seen him. His hair had grown back to shoulder length, a few strands falling loose across his forehead. A three-day stubble sharpened his jawline, in a way that made him look rugged and effortlessly handsome. And was he wearing that shirt? The red and black lumberjack one that used to drive her wild?
Bucky caught her reaction and hit him like a shot of adrenaline. When he exited the bathroom that night and picked what to wear, he told himself it was just practical, something comfortable to wear while watching and playing with Ben. The cologne? Just a habit. But deep down, a part of him knew the truth: he wanted her to notice, and that split-second when her eyes widened, scanning him from head to toe, told him everything. She noticed. She definitely noticed. And something about that felt like a victory, even though he wasnât supposed to be playing that game anymore.
He stared at her longer than necessary, his blue gaze drifting over the black dress she wore. New, he realized. It hugged her body in all the right places, accentuating her curves in a way that was impossible to ignore. The hemline? Too short for his liking. He clenched his jaw slightly, knowing full well Chris would be thrilled to see her like this.
Forcing himself to snap out of it, Bucky cleared his throat and broke the silence. âHey,â he said, low and calm, though the tension still simmered beneath the surface. âYou look... good.â He meant it, but the words tasted bitter.
"Thanks," she said, politely but distant, deliberately choosing not to compliment him back. She lingered for a moment, then added, âYouâre late.â
Bucky flinched inwardly at the remark, though he kept his expression neutral. "Traffic," he muttered, stepping inside as she moved aside to let him in. An awkward silence settled between them, the air thick with things left unsaid.
Her fingers toyed with the edge of her dress as she cleared her throat, trying to fill the silence. âBen is in the bathroom,â she said, casually, but there was a tension beneath it. âYou can wait for him in the living room.â
âRight,â Bucky replied, nodding stiffly. He walked past her and into the living room, the space feeling both familiar and foreign at the same time. He took a seat, trying to shake off the strange energy between them, but his mind kept wandering back to the fact that she was dressed for someone else.
A moment later, the doorbell rang, and she turned toward the sound, visibly relieved. She opened the door, and Bucky heard Chrisâs voice, a cheerful greeting that she surely responded to with a soft, warm smile. Bucky didnât need to see it, her tone was different with him, softer, more open.
âHey,â Chris said with bright tone, though there was a subtle shift when he paused. There was a beat of silence before he added, âYou look amazing.â
Bucky couldnât help it. Something pulled him from the couch, and before he knew it, he was standing in the hall, watching the interaction from a few feet away. His eyes narrowed as he observed Chris, sizing him up instinctively. Chris was taller than he remembered, clean-cut in a casual but neat button-down shirt, his easy smile faltering just a fraction when his eyes darted past her, catching sight of Bucky standing there.
Chrisâs brows furrowed, but he quickly masked his reaction, giving Bucky a curt nod. âUh, hey,â he greeted awkwardly, glancing between them.
It was her turn to narrow her eyes. Glancing back over her shoulder, she saw him. Bucky stood at the edge of the hallway, staring directly at Chris, his expression unreadable. His eyes locked onto the man without blinking. He wasnât moving, wasnât saying anything, just staring.
Inwardly, she rolled her eyes. Really? A display of male dominance, here and now? After everything heâd put her through, the mess heâd made of their lives, he suddenly decided he had the right to act territorial? What exactly did he think he was entitled to? The nerve of it sent a wave of irritation through her, tightening her grip on her coat.
But what frustrated her even more -what really troubled her- was that a part of her didnât mind. Beneath her annoyance, something stirred, deep and undeniable, lurking just beneath the surface. She hated to admit it, even to herself, but his presence still had a hold on her. Maybe it didnât bother her as much as she wanted to believe. Maybe, despite everything, there was still a part of her that reacted to him, to the way he watched her, the way he used to make her feel like the center of his world.
Before those feelings could rise any further, before she could let herself dwell on what they meant, she quickly turned back to Chris. She forced a bright smile, pushing away the conflicted thoughts swirling in her mind.
âWe should get going,â she said, pretending not to notice the tension still hanging in the air. She stepped closer to Chris, signaling it was time to leave, hoping to put some distance between her and the weight of Buckyâs gaze.
As the door clicked shut behind them, Bucky stood frozen in place for a moment, the tension that had gripped him not easing, even with their absence. The quiet of the house felt heavier now, pressing down on him. His chest tightened as he stared at the closed door, half-expecting her to walk back in. Of course, she didnât.
His hands clenched into fists at his sides as he replayed the scene in his head: her standing there, beautiful and confident, and Chris⊠that guy was so normal, so easygoing. Exactly what she deserved. Exactly what Bucky could never be. He raked a hand through his hair, frustration bubbling to the surface. What was he even doing? He had no right, he was the one who walked away. He was the one who made her believe she wasnât enough to keep him, that he wanted out. And now, here he was, silently raging because she was moving on, exactly like he supposedly wanted.
Stupid. That was the only word he could come up with to describe how he felt. Stupid for showing up looking the way he did, stupid for thinking that maybe, just maybe, he could still affect her. But what for? His job was to protect her and their son from the shadows, not to stand in the doorway, playing the part of some jealous lover. But God, it hurt more than he expected.
He crossed the living room, his steps heavy against the floor, and slumped into the couch. The house was eerily quiet, save for the faint sound of the TV in the background. Ben was still in the bathroom, probably playing with the liquid soap and making a mess, unaware of the tangled web of emotions his father was caught in.
The hours slipped by, though Bucky barely noticed at first. Benjamin was beyond excited to have his dad all to himself for the evening. They played, joked, and built elaborate lego fortresses, the boyâs laughter filling the house with a warmth Bucky hadnât realized he missed so much. For a little while, he was able to shove everything else to the back of his mind. Being a dad, just a dad, felt like a relief. But every now and then, his gaze would drift to the clock on the wall. He couldnât help it. As much as he tried to stay in the moment with his son, there was a lingering pull, a constant, nagging thought of where she was.
After heâd put Ben to bed, Buckyâs mind wandered back to the date. The image of her in that black dress haunted him, the way Chris had looked at her, the possibility of what might have happened after dinner. His thoughts spiraled, even though he knew it was none of his business anymore. He poured himself a scotch, the amber liquid swirling in his glass as he tried -and failed- to push the thoughts aside.
Eventually, the sound of the front door opening cut through the quiet. The familiar click of her shoes against the entryway tile echoed through the house, sharp and distinct. She was home.
Bucky didnât move. He stayed where he was, seated at the old teakwood table, nursing his scotch. The only light on in the house was the dim glow above the kitchen, so sheâd find him.
The sound of her footsteps grew closer, and he listened intently, his heart beating just a little faster despite his best efforts to keep calm.
She entered the kitchen, her steps a little less steady than usual, mumbling a soft âHiâ as she made her way inside. Bucky glanced up, immediately sensing that she was a little tipsy. She didnât meet his eyes, just plopped down in the chair next to him with a tired sigh. âGod, my feet are killing me,â she muttered, kicking off her heels and wincing.
For a while, the silence stretched between them, broken only by the distant hum of the fridge. She sighed absentmindedly, then reached for his glass of scotch, taking a sip without asking. He was taken aback by the casual intimacy of the gesture, but he said nothing, just watched her as she leaned back in her chair.
Before he could stop himself, the words slipped out. âWant me to rub your feet?â He froze. He couldnât believe heâd said it, half-expecting her to snap at him or give him one of her sharp retorts.
But instead, she surprised him. She looked over at him, her eyes tired but soft, and then shrugged. âYeah...â she said, a little more relaxed than he expected.
Bucky blinked, caught off guard by her response. His heart thudded against his ribcage as he moved toward her, kneeling down in front of her chair. His fingers hovered hesitantly over her ankle before gently wrapping around it, lifting her foot onto his knee.
As he began to knead his thumbs into her sore muscles, the tension that had been brewing in him all night seemed to ease, just a little. Her head lolled back against the chair, a soft sigh escaping her lips.
He couldnât believe he was doing this, touching her again in this way, after everything. He shouldnât, but she didnât seem to mind. If anything, she seemed to relax more as the seconds passed, letting her guard down in a way that felt dangerously familiar.
âSo... how was the date?â Buckyâs voice was quiet, almost too casual as he broke the silence.
Her eyes fluttered open at the question, and for a moment, he thought she might brush him off or remind him that it wasnât his business. But instead, she gave a small shrug, her tone indifferent. âIt was fine.â
Bucky frowned slightly, pressing his thumbs a little harder into the arch of her foot. He wasnât sure if it was frustration or something else pushing his hands. âFine?â he echoed, trying to keep his voice even.
âYeah,â she murmured, closing her eyes. Her voice was soft, almost distracted. âJust... fine.â
He wasnât satisfied with that. He couldnât help himself, he pressed, his tone still light but with a thread of tension beneath it. âOnly... fine?â
She sighed, her eyes still closed as if trying to keep the conversation from getting deeper. âWhat do you want me to say, Bucky?â Her voice wasnât sharp, but there was a subtle edge in her words. âThat it was amazing? That he swept me off my feet? Some dirty little details?â
Buckyâs fingers stilled for a moment, resting against her foot as he met her gaze. He didnât respond right away, unsure if he even wanted to hear the truth, whatever it might be. âI donât know,â he admitted, his voice a little more vulnerable than he intended.
âIt was just fine, nothing more, nothing lessâ
A silence settled between them, but he wasnât ready to let it drop. âAre you going to see each other again outside work?â he ventured, his hands slowly moving up her shin, his touch hesitant but growing bolder. The fact that she didnât push him away emboldened him further. âDid you enjoy yourself?â
Buckyâs hands continued their slow ascent, fingers brushing over her calf and then her knee, his touch firm but careful. When she didnât pull away, he felt his pulse quicken. The silence stretched between them, thick with the weight of things unsaid.
âIn a way,â she finally answered, her voice elusive, a touch distant. She shifted slightly in her chair, subtly parting her thighs as his hands wandered higher. The movement was small, but enough for him to catch it. His breath hitched, and his gaze flicked down to her legs before rising back up to her face, darkening with lust.
"Care to... elaborate?" he pressed again, his voice lower now, rougher. His fingers slid up to her inner thigh, lingering there with a possessive grip as if testing her reaction. Her legs instinctively spread wider beneath his touch, and that simple motion sent a rush of heat through him.
She shifted slightly, as if searching for the right words. "Heâs... nice," she finally said, a bit breathless under his touch. "Heâs thoughtful, considerate, makes me laughâŠâ Her lips twitched in a small smile, but it quickly faded as she looked down at his hand resting on her thigh. âHeâs... good.â
Buckyâs thumb paused, pressing a little harder, as he leaned in closer, his voice barely above a murmur. ââŠAnd?â
She sighed, her eyes opening again to meet his intense gaze. âAnd⊠heâs not you.â
His grip on her thigh tightened involuntarily, his breath catching in his throat. Heâd pushed her away, done everything he could to sever the ties between them, convinced himself it was for her protection. But now, hearing her admit that, it sent his head spinning.
âHeâs not you.â
The room seemed smaller, the air heavier, as the tension between them crackled like electricity. His hand inched higher, dangerously close to where he could feel the heat radiating off her body. Every instinct in him screamed to close the distance, to take what he wanted, to forget everything that had led them to this point. But he forced himself to stop, his gaze locking onto hers, searching her face for any sign that she would tell him to stop.
She didnât. Instead, she held his gaze, her breathing shallow as if waiting to see what he would do next.
Buckyâs grip tightened again. Fuck it. He leaned forward, pressing his face against her other inner thigh, his stubble grazing her skin as he inhaled her scent deeply, a growl rumbling in his chest. She tensed, feeling him nip gently at her sensitive flesh, and then a slow, deliberate lick followed, sending a shiver through her.
"Did he behave, or..." he paused, his tongue teasing the same spot before he looked up at her, his lips brushing her thigh as he continued, "...things got handsy?"
A gasp escaped her when she felt his mouth so dangerously close to where she wanted it most. Her head tilted back just slightly, her body betraying her as desire pooled in her belly. His eyes flicked up, meeting hers, their blue depths darkened with lust, and something more. His lips remained pressed against her skin, refusing to budge until he had his answer.
"You let him touch you?" His voice was a husky whisper, laced with jealousy.
She exhaled slowly, her breath shaky as the memory flickered through her mind. "Yes," she admitted, her voice low, reluctant. "But just briefly, when we kiâ"
Before she could finish, Buckyâs hand shifted, moving up to cup her mound, his fingers pressing firmly against the damp fabric of her underwear. Her words died in her throat, a sharp intake of breath replacing them as his touch ignited a fire that spread through her veins. His hand was deliberate, unapologetic in the way it claimed her, the heel of his palm pressing against her pussy as if he had every right to be there.
"And then?" His question hung in the air, but she couldnât find the words immediately.
Her lips parted as she finally spoke, barely above a whisper. "I wanted to feel something... but I didnât. I just didnât."
Her confession landed between them like a spark to dry wood, setting the tension ablaze. Buckyâs hand remained where it was, but his thumb stroked over the wet fabric, teasing her, testing her resolve as his gaze bore into hers. She had said what he needed to hear, what he craved to know, and now, there was no turning back.
Buckyâs thumb slid the fabric of her underwear aside, his fingers unhesitating as they slipped between her folds, finding her slick with need. He brushed upward, just barely grazing her clit, watching with dark, heavy-lidded eyes as she gasped at the contact. Her body arched involuntarily, but he didnât relent, keeping his movements slow and deliberate, teasing her just enough to drive her crazy but not enough to give her what she craved.
âAndâŠâ he murmured, rasping against the tension rising between them, âhow long did it take you to realize youâd had enough? That it wasnât going to work?â
His thumb circled lazily, making her hips shift forward, chasing the friction he barely offered. The question hung in the air, laced with his possessiveness, through every word. He didnât wait for an answer, his fingers delving deeper inside her, coating themselves in her arousal before they moved back up, brushing over her clit again, this time with more pressure.
"One kiss?" His lips curled in a half-smirk as he watched her face contort with pleasure. He dipped his fingers inside her again, slow, dragging them out just as leisurely. "Two?"
She trembled, unable to form a coherent response, the sensation of his touch overwhelming her senses after so long. Her breath hitched as his fingers increased their pace, every stroke purposeful, designed to unravel her. Bucky leaned upward, his lips brushing the shell of her ear as he murmured, âHow long, doll?â The way he said it, like a dare, made her heart race even faster.
Her head fell back, her body betraying any attempt at control as she whispered breathlessly, âOneâŠâ
A satisfied growl rumbled from him, his fingers rewarding her honesty with a firmer stroke, sending her spiraling closer to the edge.
It wasnât fair. He had cast her aside, almost without looking back, tearing her world apart with his cold departure. And now here she was, grinding her pussy against his fingers like some desperate, needy whore, begging for more. A part of her wanted to slap him, to shove him away and scream at him for every sleepless night she spent wondering why she wasnât enough, why he had thrown their life away so easily. She wanted to tell him how much she hated him for walking out on them.
But then, there was that traitorous side of her. The part that had never stopped hoping. The part that had always waited, held out some foolish, silent hope that heâd come back. That sheâd see that flicker of warmth in his eyes again, the one that told her she was his entire world. And it wasnât just her heart that longed for him, her body had missed him, too. She hated herself for it. For still thinking about him late at night when she touched herself, fingers slipping between her thighs as his name slipped from her lips in the darkness.
And that same traitorous side of her had ruined her date with Chris. Sheâd tried to be present, to laugh, to be charmed by his warm smile and thoughtful gestures. But all night, all she could think about was Bucky.
The way heâd looked at him, cold and assessing, as if he didnât belong there, his presence filling the hallway like he still had some claim to it, to her. What was he trying to prove, anyway? That he was still the man of the house?
She hated how, even while Chris was talking, her mind drifted back to the feeling of Buckyâs fingers tracing his stupid shirt, her memory filling in the rough, familiar feel of his hands on her skin. And she knew, even if she couldnât admit it aloud, that some part of her had wanted him to see her dressed up, to feel in some small way the longing and ache sheâd carried in his absence.
And maybe thatâs why sheâd felt nothing when Chris had leaned in for a kiss, why his gentle smile and soft touches had felt hollow. Even his laugh, light and kind, hadnât stirred her because it wasn't Buckyâs rough, rumbling chuckle or his stupidly confident grin. Bucky, in all his infuriating ways, still occupied every corner of her mind.
Her breath came in shallow gasps, her chest rising and falling rapidly as his fingers worked her closer to the edge. She wanted to be angry, to let that rage consume her, but every time she opened her mouth to say something hurtful, to lash out at him, her body betrayed her. Every roll of her hips against his hand, every needy whimper that slipped from her throat, reminded her of just how much she had missed this.
It wasnât fair. But she couldnât stop.
With a light pinch on her swollen clit, the tension snapped, and she came hard on his fingers. Her mouth fell open, a moan escaping as her body convulsed, riding the wave of pleasure that coursed through her. The world blurred around her as her climax took over, her hips grinding against his hand, chasing every last second of the release.
Tears pricked at the corners of her eyes, a mix of the overwhelming pleasure and the emotional storm swirling inside her. A few finally escaped, rolling silently down her cheeks, but before she could turn away, Bucky was there, his lips brushing them away with surprising tenderness. His breath ghosted over her skin as he whispered soft, comforting words she could barely make out, something about how beautiful she was, how good she had been for him, as if they hadnât been tangled up in all this pain and heartache.
His touch was almost reverent as he slowly withdrew his fingers, slick and glistening from her release. Their gazes met, and he didnât break eye contact as he brought those same fingers to his mouth, licking them clean with deliberate, agonizing slowness. He stood up in one fluid motion, effortlessly lifting her from the chair by the waist as if she weighed nothing, and in a swift, controlled movement, he placed her on top of the table, positioning himself between her legs.
Before she could even process it, his arms were around her, pulling her into a bear hug that was both tight and needy. His face buried itself in the crook of her neck, his breath warm against her skin as he inhaled deeply, taking her in.
He held her as if letting go was not an option, his grip firm yet strangely vulnerable. The way he clung to her felt like both a claim and an apology, urgent -almost broken- like he was holding onto her not just physically, but emotionally, too.
âTell me you donât want this, and Iâll leave,â he murmured against her skin, his voice rough and low, against her neck. He didnât dare look at her, not yet, because if he did, if he saw doubt or rejection in her eyes, it would break him.
The silence stretched between them, thick and heavy. Each second felt like an eternity. His breath was uneven, ragged, as he waited for her to say something, anything. Another moment passed, tension coiling tighter in his chest until he couldnât stand it anymore. He lifted his head, his gaze searching hers, bracing himself for the worst. But instead of the words that would send him away, he saw her eyes flicker downward to his lips. It was brief, a split-second decision, but it was enough.
So he leaned in, cautiously at first, like he was testing the waters after years of distance. His lips brushed against hers softly, almost hesitant, as if afraid this fragile moment would break apart. But the second she responded, it was like a dam broke. His hands cradled her face, deepening the kiss with desperation. It was messy, all-consuming, there was no gentleness, no tenderness. This was not the careful, delicate dance of two people testing the waters. This was hunger, a ravenous need to reclaim what had been lost. His lips moved down to her jaw, her neck, leaving a trail of open-mouthed kisses, and she moaned softly, her fingers tightening in his hair as he sucked on the sensitive skin below her ear.
His hands gripped her waist, strong and possessive, pulling her closer until her body was flush against his. The need to feel her, to claim her, was overwhelming. It was like two years of silence, longing, and frustration had ignited in an instant, everything that had been pushed down now surging forward, unstoppable.
âIâll ask you again, babydoll. Are you sure you want this?â Buckyâs voice was thick with restraint, the tension in his muscles barely contained as he hovered over her, his breath hot against her neck. He was giving her one last chance to stop this, to pull away, even though every fiber of his being was screaming for her. But instead of words, her answer was a quiet, deliberate motion. Her hand slid between them, deftly unbuttoning his jeans, her fingers brushing against the outline of his erection.
A low growl escaped him, and his hand shot down to catch her wrist, halting her movements. His gaze met hers, dark and intense, his chest heaving with barely restrained desire. âI need you to say it,â he murmured, voice rough, on the edge of control.
âYes,â she whispered.
That was all he needed.
Without hesitation, he pulled his shirt over his head in one swift motion, not bothering with the buttons, his muscles flexing as the fabric slid off. The moment his skin was free, he didnât give himself time to think. His eyes locked on hers as he grabbed the neckline of her dress. With a sharp tug, the fabric tore easily under his grip, the sound of it ripping filling the air. The dress fell to her waist, exposing her bare breasts to his gaze.
âHey! It was brand new, you know?â she protested.
âI noticed,â he replied, his fingers grazing the tattered edge of her dress. âBut you didnât buy it to wear it for me, did you?â His voice dropped, thick with jealousy as he alluded to her date with Chris. He dipped his head, his lips hovering just above her exposed skin, his breath warm against her chest. âI donât want it on youâ. He latched his lips onto her nipple, his tongue swirling with a hungry need, while his vibranium fingers pinched and teased her other breast. His breath was hot against her chest as he whispered between kisses, âYou have no idea how much Iâve missed this... missed you.â His words came out rough, full of longing that he couldnât hold back any longer. âEvery night... thinking about touching you again. Tasting you. Making you come over my cock.â
Her body responded, arching into him. She bit her lip, trying to stifle a moan, afraid that maybe Ben could hear her, but it slipped out anyway.
His hands moved to her thighs, gripping them firmly as he let out a low growl. âI thought about this, over and over... how youâd feel under me, how youâd sound when I made you scream my name again.â His voice was thick, hoarse, as he tugged at her dress, tearing the fabric completely until it was nothing but rags on the floor. He didnât stop there, his thumbs slipping under the waistband of her flimsy panties. With a swift tug, the seams gave way, tearing effortlessly in his hands. He brought the soaked cloth to his nose, inhaling deeply, groaning as if the scent alone was enough to drive him insane. âGod, Iâve missed this,â he muttered, his eyes never leaving hers. He flicked his tongue against the ruined cloth, savoring the taste with a low, hungry growl.
Without warning, he tossed the panties aside. His hands moved quickly, unbuttoning what remained of his jeans and kicking off his shoes before sliding the denim and underwear down in one fluid motion. They hit the floor with a soft thud as he stepped toward her. âTell me how much you missed me,â he demanded softly.
She stared at him, drinking him in. He looked leaner, his body sculpted in sharp lines of muscle. Heâd lost weight, surely by going mission after mission mixed with his poor eating habits. He was never good at taking care of himself. She almost missed the small paunch he used to have these last years, the one he hated, but sheâd loved to bite. There was something comforting about that softness, but now he was the embodiment of raw strength.
Her gaze drifted lower, lingering on the sight of his cock, standing at full attention. She swallowed. Apparently, her memories failed to measure up to reality. He was big, sure, sheâd always known that, but this big? Her core tightened with need, clenching in raw anticipation.
"I missed you,â she breathed, her voice barely a whisper, laced with longing as her eyes lifted to meet his. âSo much⊠you have no idea. God, youâve ruined me.â
Her words shattered whatever restraint he had left. Heâd imagined, countless times, that if this moment ever came, heâd take his time, savor her, and make it last. But now, faced with her beneath him, so close and so ready, patience was a luxury he no longer possessed.
Without a second thought, he gripped her thighs and spread her wide on the table, lining himself up as he dragged the head of his cock along her entrance, coating himself in her slick heat. In a swift, desperate thrust, he drove into her, hard and deep, filling her completely as a ragged groan escaped his lips.
She cried out, her body responding immediately, arching into him as he slammed into her again. His hands gripped her hips with bruising force, and his own moved in a relentless rhythm, every thrust driving him deeper. He couldnât stop. Her moans spurred him on, her words circling in his head like a drug.
âRuined you, huh?â His breath was ragged as he pulled almost all the way out, teasing her with the loss, before slamming back in. âLet me remind you how much.â With a raw hunger that had been bottled up far too long, Bucky's thrusts became brutal, each one driving her back along the table, her nails scraping against the wood as he took her over and over. The grip on her hips was iron-hard, pinning her down so she could do nothing but take everything he gave her. He leaned in close, his breath hot against her ear. âThink anyone else could ever do this?â he murmured, his voice dark and rough, each word punctuated by a powerful thrust. His lips ghosted along her jaw, and he pushed her to answer, knowing the effect he was having on her. âTell me,â he demanded softly âCould anyone else make you feel like this?â He wanted her to say it, to make her admit that no one else would ever satisfy her the way he could.
She whimpered, clutching at his shoulders as he pounded into her, her nails digging into his skin as he pushed her higher and higher. âNo⊠no one else.â Her words were broken, barely audible over her moans, but it was all he needed to hear.
âThatâs rightâ he murmured against her lips, his voice low and rough, âNo one else gets to touch you like this,â he breathed, each word laced with raw possession as he thrust deeper. âOnly me,â he rasped. âOnly I get to make you feel this way.â
He growled, one hand leaving her hip to slide between them, his fingers pressing down on her clit in quick, merciless circles. âThis is mine,â he hissed, metal fingers working just enough to bring her close before pulling away, only to return just as she thought she couldnât take any more.
She cried out, her body writhing beneath him as he drove her to the edge. His pace never faltered, his hips grinding against hers with a relentless rhythm, and his grip on her only tightened as she arched off the table, his name spilling from her lips like a prayer.
"Say it," he demanded, his voice thick with lust and something darker, something possessive. His hands slid down the back of her thighs, pushing her legs up against her torso as he plunged deeper, she could barely breathe every time he bottomed out. The way he hit her, the pressure at her cervix, sent shockwaves of pleasure-pain coursing through her, each one making her mewl helplessly. Her thighs shook against his chest, her hands desperately clutching at his forearms, fingers digging into his skin.
He leaned in closer again, his face inches from hers, his lips brushing her ears as he growled, âTell me youâre mine.â
"Iâm yours⊠fuck, Bucky!" she complied, her voice breaking between her panting breaths.
"Again," he ordered, his hips slamming into hers, the table creaking under the force of his movements. He could feel her walls clenching around him, so tight, so wet, he almost lost control then and there.
âIâm yours,â she whimpered again, her voice shaky, breathless.
âChris will be so disappointed to hear thatâ he growled. âLetâs make sure you stay ruined, just in case.â He was relentless now, fucking her hard, deep, his body pressing hers further into the table as he pushed her thighs harder against her body giving him even better access, hitting that sensitive spot that left her gasping, his grip and the relentless pace leaving no room for anything but the sensation of him filling her completely, over and over.
She whimpered in response, too overwhelmed to speak, her entire body tensing as the pleasure became almost unbearable. His thumb moved between them again pressing against her clit, rubbing circles that sent sparks of heat shooting through her. She gasped, her eyes squeezing shut as her orgasm built rapidly, her body teetering on the edge.
âMilk my cock.â he ordered, his voice harsh, primal. His words pushed her over the edge and then she was gone, her body shivering violently as she clenched around him, her thighs tightening around him as her hands fisted in his hair, pulling him closer. The sound of his name fell from her lips, half-whisper, half-cry as the climax gripped her, intense and all-consuming, leaving her a trembling, breathless mess.
âIâm gonna fill you up,â he growled through gritted teeth, his hips snapping into hers with bruising force. âAnd then some more,â he rasped, his voice thick with raw need. âYou wonât even be able to keep it all in, babydoll.â
With a final thrust, Buckyâs head fell back, a deep groan rumbling from his chest as he reached his climax. His body trembled, muscles tensing as he spilled himself inside her, a heated wave of release filling her completely. He held her there, his cock kept pulsing until his release overflowed, warm and thick, beginning to trickle down, pooling beneath them.
Still buried inside her, Bucky loosened his grip on her thighs, hands sliding down to cradle her waist as he leaned forward, his forehead resting gently against her shoulder. He nuzzled into the curve of her neck, breathing in her scent, grounding himself as the heat of their union slowly ebbed, replaced by a quiet intimacy that neither of them seemed prepared for.
After a moment, he gently eased himself away, untangling their bodies but letting his hands linger at her hips, as though afraid to lose the connection. He took a step back, his gaze dropping for a moment before lifting to meet hers, hoping sheâd break the silence but she didnât look at him, her teeth worrying her bottom lip.
Buckyâs chest tightened, a familiar pang surfacing as he watched her withdraw inward, her mind elsewhere despite the intimacy theyâd just shared. Finally, she spoke, her voice low, tentative. âSo⊠what now, Bucky?â
He took a deep breath, searching for the right words. âI donât⊠I didnât plan for this to happen,â he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper as he forced himself to hold her gaze. âI know I shouldnât have done this. Not afterâŠâ He hesitated, but the truth slipped out anyway. âNot after what I put you through.â
Her eyes narrowed, suspicion clouding her expression, old wounds resurfacing. âThen why did you put me through this, Bucky?â she asked, her voice soft but laced with pain. âYou said you couldnât do this. That you needed space, that we were holding you back.â Her words hung heavy in the air, each one a quiet accusation tinged with vulnerability. âAnd now, youâre here, acting likeâŠâ Her voice dropped to a whisper. ââŠacting like you never left.â
He hesitated, knowing this was his chance to finally tell her the truth or let her keep believing the lie heâd used to protect them. He rubbed a hand over his face, then lowered it, meeting her gaze with raw honesty. âI didnât leave because I didnât want you,â he murmured, his voice trembling. âI left because I was afraid that my past... everything I tried to bury might come back to hurt you. Hurt him.â His voice softened. âI thought if you believed I didnât want this life, it would keep you safe.â
He glanced down, his hand twitching at his side before he looked up again, his voice hushed but resolute. "But⊠I want to come back,â he admitted, the words raw, like theyâd been buried deep for too long. âTo the house. To you, and Benjamin.â
A chill lingered in the air, and she wrapped her arms around herself, gaze flicking over their scattered clothes still strewn across the kitchen floor. She looked away, her shoulders tense as she rubbed her temples. "So, whatâs changed, Bucky? The risks are still there, the same threats, the same fears..."
Buckyâs gaze didnât waver, his hand reaching out as though to touch her, but he stopped short, fingers brushing the edge of the table instead. "Whatâs different is me. Iâve had time to face what I couldnât before. Stepping aside didnât keep you safer; it just kept me away. I donât want Ben growing up with a dad who keeps him and his mom at armâs length. Almost a stranger.â His voice softened, the vulnerability seeping through. âBeing apart from you doesnât make things better. I miss you, doll. I miss us.â
âYou canât just leave and come back like nothing happened, Bucky.â Her voice was softer this time, almost breaking. âI wanted you here⊠every day, every night. Not just for me, but for Benjamin.â Her voice trembled with raw vulnerability.
He took a step closer, his hand hovering near hers, unsure if sheâd pull away. âI know, and I hate that I ever thought leaving was the answer.â His tone was low, his gaze steady on her.
She looked down, her throat bobbing as she swallowed, emotions tightening her expression. âIf you come back, I need to know youâre here to stay,â she whispered, the words more for herself than for him. âBecause I donât think I can go through this again⊠and I wonât let him either.â Her voice cracked on the last word, her hands gripping the table harder as if to keep herself grounded.
Her words shattered the last remnants of his restraint. Without another thought, Bucky dropped to his knees in front of her, the hard tile digging into him as he pressed his forehead against her thigh. She sucked in a breath, her hand instinctively moving to his hair, fingers trembling as they brushed against him. He could feel her hesitation, the walls sheâd built so carefully to guard herself from the ache heâd left behind.
âSay yes,â he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper, thick with the vulnerability he could no longer hide. âSay yes, doll. I know I donât deserve it.â His hands gripped her hips, anchoring him as if she were the only thing keeping him steady. âBut I swear,â His voice cracked, raw and pleading. âI swear, Iâll never walk away again. Not from you, not from Benjamin.â
She looked down, a mix of shock and pain written on her face as she saw him there, broken, open, begging her for something sheâd once offered so freely. Her hand gently settled on his cheek, and he leaned into the warmth of her touch, feeling the softness of her fingers against the rough stubble of his jaw. The ache in her eyes nearly undid him, but he stayed there, his forehead still pressed to her thigh, his breath heavy, waiting.
Her eyes searched his, and slowly, her resolve began to waver, the smallest flicker of trust finding its way back into her gaze. "Then prove it," she whispered, barely trusting herself as her hand lingered against his cheek, the warmth of her palm seeping into him. "Show me youâre here to stay."
After her words hung in the air, a fragile silence between them, Buckyâs gaze dropped. He swallowed, his hand reaching for something inside the scattered clothes on the floor.
From his back pocket, he drew out a small, well-worn leather charm, a little star-shaped pendant, its edges smoothened from years of handling. She recognized it immediately. It was something sheâd passed on to him when he left for his first mission after they married, a symbol she hoped would keep him safe. She thought it had been lost long ago, like so many pieces of them.
He held it out to her, and the look on his face was raw, vulnerable in a way she hadnât seen since the early days. âI never stopped carrying this,â he murmured, his voice rough and thick. âEven when I tried to convince myself I was doing the right thing by staying away. I couldnât let go of youâŠof us. I kept it close, hoping⊠hoping someday I could come back and give it back to you. I know it doesnât make up for the time I lost, butâŠâ His voice faltered, the sincerity there unmistakable.
She stared at the pendant, her hand shaking slightly as she reached out, fingers grazing the familiar leather. All the memories it held, the late-night goodbyes, the whispered promises, the hope sheâd once tied to it, all of it rushed back, filling the space between them.
She looked down at him, seeing in his eyes the weight of the years, the regrets, but also the glimmer of the man sheâd fallen in love with.
Taking a shaky breath, she spoke, her voice barely above a whisper. âThis⊠this was supposed to keep you safe, Bucky. Keep us safe.â
âAnd it did,â he replied softly, his hand covering hers over the charm. âIt kept you here.â He paused, his voice barely a murmur. âAnd maybe now⊠it can bring me back home.â
The last of her defenses wavered, and she felt herself letting go of the anger, the hurt, all the pieces that had kept them apart. âMaybe⊠maybe it was always meant to guide you back here,â she said softly, her eyes meeting his with a warmth he hadnât seen in years. âSo if youâre really here to stay⊠then welcome home, Bucky.â
Dividers by: @strangergraphics
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âCome to drug my girlfriend again?â
part 2
synopsis: Sylus hates Caleb, Caleb hates Sylus. Thatâs it, thatâs the fic.
content: sylus x afab!reader; use of Y/N; established relationship; caleb cameo; caleb acts like caleb; mentions of being drugged; general angst; mostly proofread
word count: ~3.4k
a/n: iâm a sylus girlie through and through but caleb intrigues the absolute shit out of me. including his perspective in this was very interesting and i hope i did his character justice. also, i feel that based on what sylus said in his main story, he knows that caleb is/has been alive and what heâs been up to, and caleb being involved with ever and knowing MCâs whereabouts in the N109 zone, know who sylus is. this fic operates under that assumption
The only person youâd told about your mission to Skyhaven was Sylus. And now, having returned from the harrowing journeyâafter being reunited with your childhood best friend Caleb, who you thought was deadâSylus was the only person you wanted to see.
Your boyfriend had been keeping tabs on you the best he could while you were gone, using his contacts in Skyhaven to relay information. But he had to be careful not to tip off anyone from the Farspace Fleet lest it ruin your cover, or worse, get you hurt. The second you texted him you were coming home, however, he stopped everything he was doing, hopped on his bike, and sped straight for your apartment.
Sylus was there when you walked through the door, hauling you into his arms and hugging you so tightly you could hardly breathe. It didnât phase you anymore to find him in your apartment, knowing he had no problem coming and going as he pleased.
âMiss me?â you teased, whispering in his ear.
He huffed. âNot in the least,â he said, hugging you tighter.
âSy, I love you, but I canât breathe.â
Finally his gripped loosened enough that you could breathe normally again. You pushed back, hands on his shoulders, and just admired his face after not having seen it for quite some time.
âEnjoying the view?â Sylus asked.
You smiled. âI always do.â You placed a chaste kiss on his lips. âI did miss you though.â
He smiled that soft smile reserved only for you, and you melted at the sight. âI missed you too.â
âI have a lot to tell you, but Iâd like to change first if you donât mind,â you said. âWait for me on the couch?â
âOf course, take your time, Iâm not going anywhere.â
Reluctantly, Sylus lowered you to the ground.
You quickly changed into more comfortable clothes and joined Sylus on the couch, where he pulled you into his lap, the need to hold you far too strong for him to ignore.
âSo,â he began, fingers brushing along your back, âwhere do you want to start?â
You sucked in a deep breath, the words weighing heavily on your tongue, as if saying them aloud will finally make the truth sink in. âUm, I donât know how else to say this so, it turns out Caleb is alive. Has been this whole time.â
Sylusâs expression remained neutral. âYou saw him while you were up there?â
You nodded. âHeâs the Farspace Fleetâs Colonel, and heâsâŠnot the same as I remember him.â
Sylus brushed a strand of hair out of your face, his fingers grazing your cheek. âTell me.â
You launched into your story, detailing everything that happened, from investigating the bombing site undercover to the first interview with Caleb, the switch in personality from Colonel to best friend, to staying with him in his home, visiting Mia in the hospital and running into Zayne, finding Kevi and the Aether Core in his possession.
Talking about the night you were supposed to retrieve Kevi and bring him to Zayne, you got a bit choked up. Having to voice what happened, what you had been in denial about but knew you needed to admit, was perhaps the most difficult of all.
âI wasnât feeling well that day,â you said, âand before I âwent to bed,â Caleb gave me some medicine to help.â You averted your gaze. âAll of a sudden, I was so exhausted I couldnât keep my eyes open, and I ended up falling asleep before I even realized it.â
Sylus tensed beneath you, the unspoken pieces slowly clicking into place.
âSyâŠI think Caleb⊠I think he may have drugged me.â
The betrayal was still raw, maybe more painful now that youâd said it aloud for the first time since it happened.
Abruptly, Sylus removed you from his lap, placing you gently onto the couch before rising and heading straight for the door.
Confused, and perhaps a little desperate, you grabbed his arm, stopping him in his tracks. âSylus, where are you going?â
Without turning to you he said with such lethal calm a shiver went down your spine, âIâm going to visit Skyhaven and have a chat with the Colonel.â
You snapped to your feet, wrapping both your arms around Sylusâs. âSy, please, you canât.â
He looked at you, fury blazing like an inferno in his red eyes. âHe drugged you, Y/N,â he snarled. âThat cannot go unpunished.â
While you greatly appreciated Sylusâs well-placed protectiveness, your feelings were still a jumbled mess when it came to Caleb. But you knew one thing, you didnât want him to get hurt, and you certainly didnât want Sylus to be the one hurting him.
You shook your head, voicing your thoughts aloud. âI donât want you to hurt him. I know what he did was wrong, and please believe when I say Iâm furious about it too, but heâs important to me, Sy. I thought he was dead and I just got him back, we both need to be a little more forgiving than usual, for my sake.â
Sylus was conflicted. The instinct to protect was near overwhelming, but truly the last thing he ever wanted to do was upset you. And killing hurting your beloved childhood best friend would do far more than just upset you.
So he tamped down his instincts and relaxed in your grip. âFine.â
You breathed a sigh of a relief. âThank you.â
âBut if I have the displeasure of meeting him, I will be saying something,â Sylus said, leaving no room for negotiation.
âOkay, I can live with that,â you agreed. You pulled him back down onto the couch. âI have more to tell you, will you sit and listen this time?â
He shot you a withering look. âYes, sweetie.â
So you finished your story, telling him about the strange man named Viper, how you found Caleb with the oddly-behaving Kevi and âthe Professor,â and your departure that felt like youâd left with more unfinished business than when youâd first arrived.
Sylus kept his word and sat, giving you his full attention despite the fact that his anger still simmered in his veins. He certainly shared your sentiment regarding unfinished business, this was not the first or last time he was going to hear about Caleb. He just hoped he wouldnât have to kill the Colonel should he cross that line with you, something he was wisely keeping to himself.
â
Itâd be two weeks since youâd returned from Skyhaven. Youâd spent a fair amount of it with Sylus, trying to make up for the time spent apart.
Caleb was always in the back of your mind, though, and the two of you had shared brief conversations over text during that time. You were still wrapping your head around the fact that Caleb was back in your life, albeit in a much different role than heâd once had.
You were eternally grateful to have Sylus by your side, he was the solid ground you so desperately needed to stand on right now, and he was more than happy to be that for you.
He was with you currently, the two of you settling in for a night-in at your apartment. Youâd ordered take-out and were patiently waiting for the food to be delivered so you could start the movie youâd carefully chosen.
Lounging on the couch with your head in Sylusâs lap, you scrolled mindlessly through your phone, flipping it to show him silly posts every now and then. The sense of comfort that overwhelmed you, having such an innocuous night with your boyfriend, was a welcome reprieve to the constant anxiety plaguing you these past two weeks.
The sound of your doorbell cut through the tranquil atmosphere.
You and Sylus locked eyes, the same look of confusion on both of your faces. It wasnât like the delivery person hadnât shown up at your door before, but it was certainly unusual considering your instructions said to leave the food in the lobby.
Sylus lightly patted the top of your head. âIâll get it.â
You lifted your upper body enough for Sylus to slide out from under you and promptly lay back down to resume your scrolling.
You listened as Sylus walked to, and opened your door, then felt rather than heard the pregnant pause before your boyfriend spoke.
âWell, if it isnât the Colonel of the Farspace Fleet. Come to drug my girlfriend again?â
A myriad of emotions flickered in Calebâs eyes. Surprise. Recognition. Fury. Regret. Guilt. But Caleb was well versed in handling difficult situations, and had no problem slipping on a mask of charisma, while inside he was positively seething.
You bolted for the door.
âY/N didnât mention having a boyfriend when she was in Skyhaven,â Caleb said cheerfully.
You skidded to a halt behind Sylus, panic icing your veins seeing your childhood best friend unexpectedly at your door, holding your bag of take-out in one hand, having a death-glare competition with your boyfriend.
âI didnât exactly have the time to mention it, Caleb,â you said, trying to cut through the thick tension in the air. âYou didnât tell me you were stopping by, or that you stole our dinner.â
Caleb shrugged. âI was in the area, figured Iâd drop in and see what you were up to.â His gaze flicked to Sylus before returning to you. âIf you wanted pork ribs you know you couldâve just asked me, right pip-squeak?â
Sylus went rigid at the pet name.
You held back a groan, instead politely asking, âWhy donât you come in so I can properly introduce you?â
Sylus hated that you said that.
Caleb loved that you did.
âSure, wouldnât want your dinner to get cold standinâ out in the hall all night,â Caleb said.
You pulled Sylus away from the door to allow Caleb entry. Having the two men, both broad and tall, taking up the entryway made this situation all the more suffocating.
You swiped the take-out from Calebâs hand, grabbed Sylusâs, and dragged him with you to the kitchen with Caleb following close behind.
Placing the bag on the counter, you whirled to face your childhood best friend, far more nervous than you shouldâve been to introduce your boyfriend for the first time. Neither of you had had significant others to introduce before, in fact you pretended to be Calebâs girlfriend in college so the girls would leave him alone. But since Caleb was gone, you could no longer interfere with each otherâs love livesâŠ
You cleared your throat. âCaleb, this is Skye, my boyfriend. Skye, this is Caleb, my best friend from childhood.â
Calebâs eyes darkened in a way that was still unfamiliar to you but not foreign, and a wolfish grin spread over his lips. âY/N,â he drawled, his voice dropping, âyou know you canât lie to me.â
You froze, Sylusâs fingers tightening around yours. âWhat are you talking about?â
Caleb looked languidly at Sylus. âYou know as well as I do his name isnât Skye.â The dark look vanished from his eyes as they settled on you, instead reflecting a deep concern. âCan we go talk, pip?â
âAbsolutely not,â Sylus snarled. âShe isnât going anywhere with you.â
You gave Caleb your back to face Sylus who was glaring menacingly at the Colonel. You reached up and cupped his cheek. âSy.â His gaze snapped to yours, softening slightly. âIâm going to go talk to him.â
He would never deny you anything, nor tell you what you could or couldnât do. You were your own person, who could make your own choices, even if he emphatically disagreed. He knew you could handle yourself, but this supposed childhood best friend had already drugged you once, and Sylus did not want to find out what else he was willing to do.
Sylusâs brow buckled. âSweetie, please. I donât trust him.â
Caleb scoffed.
You shot him a glare over your shoulder.
âI know you donât,â you said to Sylus, stroking his cheek, âbut I need you to trust me.â
He did, wholeheartedly.
With a resigned sigh, Sylus dipped his head, brushing his lips along your temple before whispering in your ear, âIâll be watching, just call for me if you need help.â
You turned your head and kissed his cheek. âI will, I promise.â
Squeezing his hand and flashing him your most reassuring smile, your attention shifted to Caleb, who stood there looking as murderous as Sylus had when heâd opened your apartment door.
âCaleb,â you snapped, breaking him out of his trance. âLetâs go.â
â
You and Caleb didnât go far, opting to sit off to the side on the steps leading into your apartment complex. Perched on the branch of a nearby tree was Mephisto, his ruby red eyes trained intently on you as Sylus watched from inside.
âOkay,â you said, âwhat did you want to talk about?â
Caleb angled his body toward you, grabbing your hands as if they were the most delicate things in the world. âY/N, what are you thinking?â he asked, that same concern from earlier bleeding into his voice. âYou know who he is, donât you?â
âOf course I do,â you said.
His gaze hardened slightly. âYou know and yet youâre still with him? The leader of Onychinus? Do you have any idea the things heâs done, the things heâs capable of?â
You snatched your hands away from him, your temper flaring. What right did he have to question you like this? He didnât get to come back into your life after almost a year of thinking he was gone forever and just tell you what to do.
âI am well aware of what Sylus has done and what he is capable of,â you nearly growled. âBut I know who he is at his core and in his heart. That is whatâs important to me, that is the man I fell in love with.â
Love. You were in love with this guy?
Calebâs face fell and a wave of guilt crashed over you.
You took his right hand in yours, saying much softer, âJust because someone does bad things doesnât mean theyâre a bad person. You of all people should understand that.â
âI was just trying to protect you,â Caleb whispered, the pain in his voice clear as he stared at your hands. âAll I want is to make sure youâre safe.â
âI know Caleb,â you murmured, trying to catch his gaze. âIâm safe with Sylus.â
Caleb shook his head, like he couldnât believe what he was hearing, because he couldnât believe it. He was the only one who could protect you and keep you safe. He was the only one you were supposed to love. How could he let another manâthe leader of Onychinus, no lessâcome into your life and take you from him? He knew he was gone for a year but he was back now, who else did you need but him?
But Caleb also knew that eliminating this new threat in the form of your current boyfriend wouldnât be as easy as he wanted it to. You clearly cared for this guyâloved him evenâso heâd have to continue playing the long game lest he ruin any chance he had left to be with you.
You sucked in a deep breath, then blew it out slowly. âLook Caleb, I want you in my life, youâre my best friend, but we need to have some boundaries, okay?â
âBoundaries?â Caleb echoed, his brows pinching. âSince when have we ever had boundaries?â
âSince now,â you responded firmly. âYou canât just show up at my door without saying anything. Iâm happy to have you over, but we have to plan it first.â
He nodded, a spark igniting in his eyes. He could do that. If it made you happy, then he would do it for you. âOkay, easy, done. Anythinâ else you got for me?â
You couldnât help the small smile lifting the corners of your lips. It was so much easier with him when he acted like his old self. You missed this Caleb.
âI need you to get along with Sylus, for my sake,â you said, squeezing his hand. âPut aside whatever pissing contest I know you two already have because I donât want my best friend and my boyfriend hating each otherâs guts.â
Calebâs expression didnât falter despite the rage he felt boiling in his blood. âThat goes both ways ya know,â he said with a rather disarming grin. âYouâll have to talk to your boyfriend about that too.â
It physically hurt Caleb to call Sylus that cursed word, but he had an award-worthy performance to put on if he ever hoped to replace the Onychinus leader as the only thing heâd ever wanted to be to you.
You rolled your eyes. âPlease donât start.â
He laughed, and though it sounded genuine, it was far more forced than he led on. âOkay, okay,â he conceded. âThat it?â
âYou sound like you want me to give you more boundaries.â
âYou can give me whatever you want, pip-squeak.â Preferably your undying devotion, but heâd work on that.
âCaleb,â you admonished but he merely grinned wider in response. With a sigh, you let go of his hand and pushed yourself to your feet. âIâm glad we had this talk.â
He rose as well, towering over you. âMe too,â he murmured. âIâm happy you want me to be in your life again.â
âI never wanted you to leave it,â you told him earnestly. âAnd as much as I hate to say this, you better go. My dinner is probably cold by now and I need to go talk to Sylus, alone.â
âDidnât mean to interrupt dinner,â Caleb quipped. âSeriously though, next time you want pork ribs, just call me, okay?â
You laughed. âAll right, all right.â You started pushing him down the steps. âNow go, go. Text me when youïżœïżœïżœre home so I know youâre safe.â
Calebâs chest tightened. Despite everything, you still wanted him safe, you still cared about him. He would cling to this like a lifeline.
âText me when you get upstairs so I know youâre safe,â he shot back, meaning to be playful but coming across more hostile than anything.
You frowned. âI told you already, Iâm safe with Sylus.â
He smiled to ease the tension and was relieved when it worked. âJust humor me, âkay?â
âWhatever.â You gave him one last shove. âDonât be a stranger, Caleb.â
âI wonât, pip-squeak, I promise.â
And he had every intention of keeping that promise and then some.
â
Sylus flung open the door before you could even reach for the handle, checking you over with a careful precision, making sure not a hair was out of place.
You patted his shoulders. âIâm okay, Sy, we just talked.â
âI donât like the way he speaks to you,â Sylus grumbled, not stopping his thorough inspection. âItâs like he thinks youâre his possession or something.â
âYou say all the time that I belong to you,â you teased.
He cut you a fierce glare. âThatâs different, I donât treat you as though youâre an object for me to claim. Youâre a person, Y/N.â
Maybe you were naive, but you didnât think Caleb thought of you in such a way. You werenât going to argue about it though. Your date night had been ruined enough, adding a fight into the mix would only further sour your mood and his.
âNo, you donât treat me like that,â you said, knowing he was looking for your reassurance, and you were more than happy to give it because it was the truth.
Sylus visibly relaxed. âYou look exhausted.â
âI am exhausted.â You pouted. âI just wanted to spend a quiet night in with you.â
He smoothed your hair as he tucked you close to his chest. âThe nightâs still young, we have plenty of time to do just that.â
âOur dinner is cold.â
âWe can heat it up.â
You wrapped your arms around his waist and peered up at him. âNothingâs going to change between us just because Calebâs back. We can talk more about it tomorrow, but I need you to know that.â
He nodded. âI know, sweetie, I wasnât worried.â
No, Sylus was not worried about you, he was however, incredibly suspicious of what Caleb had in store.
But that was a tomorrow problem, tonight he would give you the date you wanted with no more mention of your childhood best friend.
You nuzzled your face into his chest. âI love you, Sy.â
Sylus kissed the top of your head. âI love you, Y/N.â He drew back, bracing his hands on your hips. âShall we go warm our dinner?â
You smiled. âYes please.â
As you trailed behind your boyfriend to the kitchen, you quickly pulled out your phone, firing off a text to Caleb letting him know you were safe.
Still outside your apartment complex, Caleb stared at the notification on his own phone. He kissed the necklace clutched tightly in his hand as a sense of victory washed over him.
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TAGS: 18+, doggy style, toxic relationship, manipulation, strap-on, possessiveness, mommy kink, spanking, hair pulling, baby trapping mention, breeding kink, nasty lesbian sex
A/N: my first sevika fic :3, hope you enjoy!
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she did it again. she promised you time and time again that she would change, but once more, you found yourself shakingâheart pounding, eyes welling up with tears. you didnât understand why she was like this. yes, she was an incredibly busy woman, but why couldnât she make time for you? it was a question you asked yourself daily. minutes turned into hours, hours into days, and eventually, days turned into two weeks since you last heard from her. this time, instead of blowing up her phone, you accepted it. you told yourself you would never again tolerate this kind of disrespect.
as the darkness of sleep began to take you, your ears picked up on⊠footsteps? âit canât be,â you muttered softly. you rose from your bed slowly, careful not to make any noise in case it wasnât who you thought it was. âsevika?â you called out into the dim apartment, your voice soft but loud enough for anyone nearby to hear.
âthe fuck you think youâre doing?â
her voice cut through the stillness, she was pissed. the sound of her boots grew louder as she walked toward your room. and then there she was, stepping into the soft glow of your bedside lamp, her muscular and tall figure looming and commanding. âyou think just because iâm gone for a bit, that means you get to fucking forget about me?â she growled.
before you could respond, sevika reached out, her calloused hand wrapping around your arm. her grip was firm, not painful, but it demanded your attention. âvikaââ you stammered. fourteen days of trying to block her out, trying to resist the thought of her touch, her love, her pamperingâall of it came rushing back at once, washing away every ounce of self respect you slowly built.
as you searched for the words to respond, anger began to rise within you. âi fucking hate you!â you blurted, your voice cracking. âwhy do you do this to me, sevika? w-why?â tears streamed down your face, your body trembling with frustration and heartbreak. you didnât understand why you still loved her so much when she treated you like this. you didnât understand why she had this unshakable hold on you, a grip no one else in your life had ever hold.
sevikaâs expression, once hardened with anger, softened as she listened to your shaky words. her anger melted into something gentler as the sound of your sobs pierced through her defenses. without a word, she leaned down and effortlessly scooped you into her arms, holding you close as you cried into her chest. she carried you to the bed and placed you down with care, her rough hand gently brushing your cheek, wiping away your tears.
she climbed onto the bed, her broad frame hovering over yours, her face inches away. propping herself up with her flesh-and-metal arm, she kept you in place, her presence impossible to ignore. âlook at me, doll,â she commanded, her voice firm but tender. you obeyed without question, your teary eyes locking onto hers.
âiâm sorry, baby doll,â she murmured. âyou know how i am, princess. but just âcause i was gone for a bit doesnât mean you gotta go making me hear from ran that youâre doing better without me.â her voice softened further as she leaned closer, her lips brushing against your forehead. âyâknow iâll never truly leave you, ma,â she cooed.
you turned your head away, tired of hearing the same excuses over and over again. you tried to sit up, but before you could lift your back off the bed, sevika pressed you down again. her grip on your side tightened, no longer as gentle as before.
âstay. and fucking listen to me,â she ordered, her voice leaving no room for argument.
your chest heaved with a shaky breath, your eyes met hers. âif youâre really sorry, prove it,â
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âm-mommy please!!â you cried. the nasty wet sounds of skin slapping onto the each other filled the room. âfuck arch your back more for mommy babyâ she pressed her hand on your back, her mechanical hand on the side of your hips. the dark purple plastic cock hit every part of your inner walls so beautifully.
âfucking pussy so fucking good babyâ gonna give you all my fucking babies so youâre stuck with meâ
âmhm mommy, fuckkkkkkâ your pussy throbs at her words, fuck well there goes standing on business.
âlook at me baby, whoâs big cock is deeppp in you?â you look back to her, trying your hardest to keep your head up over your shoulder. just the sight of your low eyes and your body bent over like this just for her makes her go insane, mentally taking a photo of the sight beneath her.
âyou! sevika! you!â you moan only to be met with a smack on your ass.
ânuh uh baby, whatâs my name? say it right.â
ângh- you mommy!!! you!!â the woman chuckles before her pace moves faster.
âgood girlllllâ she cooed. you buried your face onto the pillow, muffling your moans which were now screams and filthy whines. sevika did not like this one bit. her hand gripped your hair into a makeshift pony and slowly pulled your face off the pillow in order to hear you better.
âdonât hide from me princess, take this fucking dick maâ
OOOOOOOUUUU LAWD
you look back at her once again, âmommy iâm gonna c-cummmm!!â your eyes locked onto her silver eyes, begging for her permission for you to come undone
âfuck baby me too, gonna knock my pretty girl up, cum on this fucking dick baby, dick that youâre always gonna cum on. nobody else making this pussy cum but meâ you feel your face getting hotter, tummy and pussy getting tingly as your orgasm washes over you. âtoo much mama!!â you whined as she fucked you through it.
âshitttt baby mommyâs cumming too!!â her hips stuttered as the strap grinds over her sensitive clit but her pace doesnât get any less slower. an orgasm sweeps over her body as yours did just a few minutes ago.
you both stay there for a few seconds, trying to catch some air and recover from that body shaking orgasm. she slowly removes the plastic toy covered in your cum from inside of you. âletâs get you cleaned upâ she announces, breaking the few seconds of silence in the room.
back to square one.
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Jungwon backstage smut
GIRLFRIEND EXCLUSIVE y.jw
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ăpairingă : idol!jungwon x girlfriend!reader
ăgenreă : smut
ăword countă : 1.2k
ăsynopsisă : jungwon catches you being desperate after the shows over
ăwarningsă : MINORS DNI!!! teasing, jungwon walks in on the reader masturbating, fingering, oral (f recieving), implication of sex
ăauthors noteă : thank you to who requested this and plan to make an extended version of this if enough people think i should! SUPPORT BY REBLOGGING
ătaglistă : @jakeflvrz
The Fate tour made Jungwon and his members travel all around the world. Of course he couldnât leave his girlfriend behind. I mean really, going on tour for months on end without seeing his girl would just be a nightmare. Flying first class, traveling the world, and experiencing different countries together were all things that were a plus to being with him.
Having to stand in the crowd acting as if you do not know each other during sound check, but him practically staring at you the majority of the time doesnât really make anyone suspicious since the people around usually think they he is looking at them instead.
But then when the show really starts, you are in his dressing room, helping him get changed and showering him with kisses, something nobody else will ever get to do. Seeing him all sweaty from the performances and changing between each outfits was a girlfriend exclusive viewing.
âWhat are you looking atâ he catches you ogling at him while he is putting on his jewelery. âYouâ you said confidently, keeping your eyes glued to his slim fingers and his neck.
âOh, thatâ he chuckles, shaking his head like a teacher reprimanding their student. âStop being silly, babe. You know very well that you could see my entire body right now.â
âMaybeâ you hummed teasingly, poking him on the ribs. Each bone in his body was carved perfectly to your liking, seeing him get dressed to perform in front of thousands on random people who will never know the true Jungwon made you sort of⊠jealous?
You slid you hand up his chest and began to slide his white jeweled jacket off of his shoulders. âBabeee, the count down is starting, I canât miss the begining of this next setâ he protested, trying to put the sleeve back on his shoulder.
âOkay⊠just know that I will be waiting ever so patiently for you to get backâ you teased while squeezing your tits together, enough to create even more visible cleavage in your dark red fitted shirt.
He blushes, biting his lips while you continue to stare into his captivating brown orbs, feeling the need to pull him into a sweet kiss until the last second before the song starts.
âGod I hate when you tease meâ he tried to complain, not knowing that you could see a tent growing in pants. You could hear the ticking getting louder in the dressing room, indicating that it was getting close to time for him to go. You pull him in for a quick kiss before the count down finally came to an end and he had to rush to make it to the stage on time.
âI love you babyâ he says while holding your hand until he got far got far enough apart that your hands couldnât reach. âI love you too darlingâ. By that point, he was almost too far away to hear what you said.
Seeing him leave without having any of the pressure between your thighs relieved was more than uncomfortable. You felt like a child being ripped away from their toy.
You slumped back into your chair in a more desperate mood than you were before. There was no way you could wait until Jungwon came back from the next set. You find your fingers wondering down your stomach, unbuttoning the jeans you wish he were taking off, and slide your hand into your sticky panties.
You let out a sigh of relief, massaging your clit gently as you imagined between your legs instead. Just thinking about Jungwonâs face when he returned after performing his last show left goosebumps on your skin. So sweaty and elegant, it turned you on even more. Heâd look so good with his mouth hanging open as you rode him slowly the times before, the images were engraved in your mind as if you were watching porn.
Even now, with your fingers wrapped inside your panties, you could imagine him there, and you aligning his tip at your enterance, before letting your weight down onto his length.
You pulled your pants down further, allowing you to remove your underwear as well. Now you were just left in a t-shirt in the middle of Wonâs dressing room. You slid your ring and middle finger into your gushing hole and kept a consistent pace on your clit wit the other hand.
The more your mind wondered, the closer you got to your orgasm without realizing. Your fingers were coated with your slick and your head was thrown back on the couch, eyes closed. It was an erotic sight for Jungwon to walk in on. Even when he walked, you didnât notice since you were lost in your own world of pleasure.
He bent down in front of you, trying to be quiet enough for you not to notice. He removes both of your hands that make you jump to immediately cover yourself. Your cheeks were glowing red with embarrassment.
âItâs already over!?â you screamed in shock. âShhhh baby just relaxâ he says calmly while rubbing your clit slowly. The words got choked up in your mouth as you allowed yourself to slowly melt into is fingers.
He spread your legs open further and inserted his tongue into the mixture. âReally couldnât wait until I got back, huh?â he teased. The sensation of his light touch made your mouth fall open, trying not to be too loud for the members in the neighboring dressing rooms to hear.
His hot breath hitting your wetness sent shivers up your spine as he continued to navigate your folds with his tongue. He inserted two fingers into your gushing hole keeping a slow pace to keep you on the edge as long as possible. He made sure to hit your spongy patch with each thrust. The more he pushed you over the edge, the more he found yourself gripping the couch to keep your balance, gasping in pleasure as you ride Jungwon through his fingers.
You gripped his hair as the coil in your stomach was about to snap. âFuck Wonnie, Iâm about to cumâ you pleaded while your hips were shaking under his touch.
âI wanna taste you, cum all over my tongue angelâ he growled, pressing a soft kiss against your inner thigh. Your walls squeezed his digits, pulsing in ecstasy. His tongue collected your juices and he swallowed them with pride. He smirked as he slipped his fingers out of your dripping pussy, taking them up to his mouth to get another taste.
âFuck, you taste so good sweetheartâ he praised while licking his fingers clean. The looks in his eyes spoke for themselves, he needed you bad. He began to get undressed and changed into his comfortable clothes as if nothing ever happened.
âCan we please go back to the hotel? I donât know how much longer I can waitâ he said. It wasnât like a question, it was more like a demand.
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Ok so I've been loving all if the stuff you've been putting out so far, it's literally so good!!! My request is how the lads would react to you falling down the stairs and I'm talking like a long stream of stairs (totally not bc I fell down the stairs today while watching sylus edits hehehe)
First of all, omg, I am so sorry but I giggled. I hope you're okay!
Here you go, anon. I hope this is what you had in mind! Do me a favor and ban yourself from watching Sylus edits near stairs!!
How the boys would react to you falling down the stairs
Characters: Xavier x Reader | Zayne x Reader | Rafayel x Reader | Sylus x Reader Warnings: Stairs are your biggest op.
(little bit of falling, little bit of fluff. Lots of love for anon)
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â Man would be mortified.
â He turned his back for two seconds, next thing he knows you're takin a tumble
â Would most likely ban you from being near stairs by yourself again
â âYou can take down wanderers, but lose a fight against stairs?âÂ
â Would let you lean on him for support the rest of the night (he knows it hurt)
The elevator to your shared apartment building had broken down. By the time the two of you had arrived home to find that out, it was 11pm, and far too late for maintenance to come out to fix it. You were stuck taking the stairs until maintenance arrived tomorrow morning.
Normally, this wouldn't be an issue. However, your day had been excruciatingly long, and the stairs were more of an obstacle and a hinderance than they should have been. Your body was sore, your legs felt like jelly, and you really hated stairs in general.
Xavier looked down at you, stifling a laugh at the exasperated expression on your face. "I could always just carry you," He offered, extending his hand.
Whether it was your pride or your stubbornness, you couldn't accept. "I'm fine," You insisted, although it sounded like you were reassuring yourself more than Xavier. "You're tired too. Go ahead, I'm right behind you," You would very quickly find out that your last statement aged like milk left out in the sun.
Xavier shot you one last skeptical glance before he turned and began walking up the stairs. You followed suit, doing a decent job until you stepped wrong and lost your balance. Your arms flailed, successfully grabbing on to nothing. The only audible indication that you were about to fall was the startled gasp that left your mouth, which caught Xavier's attention with just enough time left to helplessly watch you fall.
You stumbled backward, colliding with every single one of the 13 steps on your way down. Every single stair caused a painful shock and an even bigger dent to your ego.
Xavier was kneeling by your side in an instant.
"Are you okay?" He asked, his voice laced with concern. He helped you sit up, carefully eyeing you for any visible injuries. You were very sore, but luckily not seriously injured. At most, you'd likely be bruised in the morning.
You let out a huff of air, stifling a pained grunt in the process. "Well, that was embarrassing,"
Xavier stared at you, wide-eyed and looking like he was 3 seconds away from calling an ambulance.
"Xav. I'm alright," You insisted, twisting to lift yourself up.
Xavier intervened, quickly scooping you up before you could get to your feet.
"No," He said, shaking his head. "You're banned from stairs,"
With that, he began walking back up the stairs you'd just tumbled down. While you were nearly dying from the embarrassment, Xavier actually didn't mind carrying you. In fact, he'd rather carry you up and down every flight of stairs you encountered for the rest of your life if it meant he wouldn't witness another fall like that again.
Once you were safely at the top, he gently set you down outside of your apartment, making sure to keep hold of you in case you were unsteady on your feet.
"I can stand," You assured him. You were still heavily embarrassed, but ultimately thankful that he was so sweet.
He kept an arm on you until your door was unlocked.
"Is it too soon to say you should have accepted my offer the first time?"
You shot him a glare, although it lacked any real heat.
"I think I should stick around for the night, just in case you happen to encounter anymore stairs,"
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Professional Zayne mode engaged immediately
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Depending on how bad the fall was, you're getting a full body exam before you're even allowed off the floor
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and that's not it, either
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You think you might bruise? Cold Compress. 15 Minutes. Now.
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Man will be stressed for the rest of his life any time you're in the same vicinity as a single stair
Zayne had lost track of the amount of times he'd warned you to be slower coming down the stairs. Every single time you came down them, two at a time and at a speed that was less than acceptable, he'd get heart palpitations, convinced that this was the time you were going to fall.
It was coming, and he knew it. He warned you. You, however, tore through the house like a woman on a mission. You had a habit of learning the hard way, and you're simply too prideful to take his warnings seriously.
Until about 30 seconds ago.
You don't even remember what you were going to tell him. You'd been upstairs, he'd been downstairs. You raced down the stairs, coming in hot, and somehow miscalculated a step about halfway down.
That fall that Zayne had warned you about numerous times was finally a reality, and damn it was painful.
Zayne, from the kitchen, heard what sounded suspiciously like a body bouncing off the stairs and immediately stopped what he was doing to come check on you.
He rounded the corner, and there you were in all your glory: dazed, disoriented, and sore with a bloody lip serving as the cherry on top.
"Don't move," He said gently, kneeling at your side. With well trained eyes, he began looking you over. "Where does it hurt?"
"Everywhere," You groaned. It was true. 30 seconds ago you were having the time of your life, and now you felt like you'd been hit by a semi truck.
The next 10 minutes consisted of Zayne thoroughly checking every limb, asking you to answer various questions ("what day is it? What year is it? Time? Count backwards from 10. What comes after W?") and forcibly holding an icepack to your lip.
He ended up carrying you to the couch, gently laying you down so he could continue what he was doing while simultaneously babysitting you.
He did not hit you with an "I told you so,"
Not yet, anyway.
However, he'd be lying if he said he wasn't looking for a house that didn't have stairs.
â He'd hear it from the other room and think a tree fell on his studio or something
â "Is it storming? I swear I heard thunder,"
â He'd make sure you were okay, but he's definitely teasing you about it later
â "I'm looking for a new bodyguard. Mine can't even handle a staircase,"
â definitely makes a moment post later on
â ^ "thought it was storming earlier. turns out it was just (Y/N) getting in a fight with stairs and losing. 10/10 ambience though,"
â on a separate occasion, I can see you both falling at the same time and blaming each other for it
While Rafayel was occupied with his current project, boredom had gotten the best of you. You began exploring the studio, surprised to find a set of stairs that you hadn't noticed before. Upon further inspection, they lead to an attic.
Curiosity killed the cat, so they say. You couldn't help yourself.
Was Rafayel an attic man? What sorts of trinkets did he stash up there? The questions were burning too hot to go unanswered.
Unfortunately, it was mostly old paint supplies and boxes of random decorations that had been retired. You were left a little unsatisfied, but you had gotten an answer.
As you began to retreat, you realized the stairs felt a lot steeper than they did on the way up.
It didn't take long for you to lose your footing. The sounds that filled the air were a symphony of thuds and curses.
After laying on the ground for a few minutes, trying to recover, you opened your eyes to see Rafayel standing above you.
"You good?" He asked, kneeling down. "I kinda thought you died,"
"I'm not good, but I'm not dead."
He gently checked you over and then extended a hand to help you up.
"I think you should stay away from stairs," He drawled, leading you toward the couch. "and I also think you should sit here and recover from that,"
You plopped on the couch, too tired to protest.
Rafayel studied you for a moment longer, wanting to make sure you were truly alright before he began the teasing. It was his way of lightening the mood. "Are you sure you're alright?"
You reassured him that yes, you were alright. He sat next to you, casually tossing an arm around your shoulders.
"Good, because we need to talk about your Bodyguard skills. You need training or something. You just lost a fight to some stairs,"
⥠He was never worried about you around stairs before
⥠but he's absolutely having remodeling done within the next 24 hours now
⥠you are getting absolutely BABIED by this man the second he comes to your aid
⥠You're not even lifting a fork, sweetie
⥠You're getting tossed over his shoulder and carried like a sack of potatoes if stairs can't be avoided in the future
⥠You're not going to get hurt again if he can help it
At times, Sylus thought it was cute when you shut your brain off around him. He knew that it meant you felt safe, and it filled him with warmth whenever he stopped to think about it.
He'd place a tactical hand over the corner of the table when you bent down to pick something up, just in case you bumped your head again, you'd hit his hand instead of the corner.
He'd gently guide you when you weren't paying attention to where you were walking, too engrossed in your conversation to look for obstacles.
You really only did it when you two were at the base. Sylus didn't mind, though. In fact, it was almost endearing, the way you were comfortable enough to turn off your spatial awareness.
He couldn't always be around to steer you away from obstacles, though.
And you, unfortunately, had a habit of walking around while looking at your phone instead of where your feet were going.
You'd done it again today. But this time, it had caused a problem.
You were walking down the stairs to get a drink, completely fixated on a video you were watching, not a single worry in the world about the steps. Sylus had chided you for it before, but it had never been an issue....until now.
You stepped too far forward and immediately ate shit the rest of the way down the stairs. Your phone clattered to the floor, ending up several feet away. Mephisto witnessed the entire thing and had the nerve to squawk at you.
To add insult to injury, Sylus just so happened to be rounding the corner just in time to see your disheveled figure crumpled on the floor at the bottom of the stairs.
He was careful not to jostle you when he knelt down.
"Can you move?"
You wiggled your fingers, your toes. Flexed your wrist, rotated your arms. Despite the horrendous pain in your side, you could still move. You answered his question with a nod.
He picked you up as gently as he could, holding you princess style with both arms, being extra careful.
"Were you on your phone?" He asked, already eyeing the evidence on the floor. The screen was shattered, but the sound of the video you'd been watching was still coming through the speakers. He'd warned you about walking distracted before, but was usually there to be a hero. Not this time.
"Maybe,"
He refused to get more than three feet away from you for the next several hours, constantly offering to get you various things you may need. Water? He's on it. A snack? You bet. Heating pad? Consider it done.
If you had known that accidentally falling down the stairs would cause Sylus to get all soft and cradle you like you were made of glass for the next few hours, you'd have fallen on purpose a lot sooner.
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NOT A SECRET â paige bueckers
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pairing : paige bueckers x wnba!fem!reader
synopsis : the bliss of winning the wnba championship causes a big slip up that exposes your relationship to the world
warnings : explicit language, alcohol, cigars and sexual innuendos (if you donât like the new york liberty, you can replace it with your favourite team idc)
note : i havenât checked for typos that thoroughly so⊠my bad
word count : 2.6k
Whatâs better than succeeding in life in almost every aspect? Sharing that success with someone you love and that loves you back, unconditionally and wholly. Meeting Paige Madison Bueckers had undoubtedly been one of the best things that life had blessed you with, other than your flourishing career. The two of you had met in 2019, both playing for team USA. Later on you would meet again at UConn, playing and succeeding alongside each other for the past four years. It wasnât until barely a year ago, that the two of you decided to be brave enough to confess your love. But sadly, everything must end for a new chapter to begin, and here you were, living a two and a half hour drive from her to chase your dreams.
Luckily for you, Paige was the most dedicated and passionate girlfriend in the world, making it her mission to attend as many of your games during the playoff season as possible. Today was no different. It was her birthday, her special day, and here she was, supporting you. Hoping to celebrate you, rather than celebrating herself.
You were pacing around the open kitchen of yourâextremely overprizedâapartment, the nerves and anxiety eating at you like maggots, heart pounding in your throat and hands sweaty. This was by far, one of the most important games in your life so far, if not more important than the game against Iowa only six month ago.
âHow about you stop walking around in circles and câmere?â Paige spoke up from her spot on the malta-beige couch, arm slung over the back rest as her neck craned slightly to look back at you.
âI canât, I feel like Iâm about to throw up.â You spoke, your voice coming out almost like a choked whine, wiping your hands down on your sweatpants for the umpteenth time in the past hour.
You only had an hour left until you had to be ready and at the Barclays Center. Two and a half hours until the final game against the Minnesota Lynx began. You were a mess, and no one could blame you.
Sighing at your distressed state, the blonde lifted herself off of the couch, walking towards you with sympathetic eyes. She hated seeing you this way. It wasnât the first time, and definitely wouldnât be the last, but it never burdened her. If you needed to cling to her like a lifeline, she would be there. Every. Single. Time.
âOh, baby. Câmere.â Her arms opened wide once she was standing a mere foot away from you, wrapping you into a hug. So tight and warm, so comforting and safe that for a moment, it felt like all your worries vanished into thin air. The only thing that mattered was the intoxicating scent and the protective warmth of your girlfriend.
You buried your face into the crook of her neck, arms wrapping around her waist as you allowed yourself to breatheâreally breatheâfor the first time since you had woken up. âIâm just scared. What if I mess up? What if I disappoint everyone and then Iâll be the rookie that ruined everything.â You mumble into her neck, voice slightly muffled but she understood you perfectly.
âHey. Hey, look at me.â Paigeâs voice was firm, yet it didnât lack the tenderness and gentleness you so desperately needed. Her hands snaked up, pulling away from the hug just enough to be able to cup your face in them. âThatâs bullshit and you know it. Youâre on top of the league right now, if not the world. This is not going to ruin your career. It is not going to diminish everything you have achieved and youâre sure as hell not going to disappoint everyone.â
With her hands cradling your face, thumbs brushing against your cheeks and eyes looking deeply into yours, you couldnât help but tear up. Maybe it was the stress, maybe the nerves, or maybe it was the reassurance and praise that not only her words offered, but her entire presence in that moment.
âYouâre going to be great, just as youâve always been. How many times have you felt just like this and ended up wiping the floor with everyone?â
The way she was looking down at you almost had your knees crumbling, so gentle and sincere. âYou think so?â Your voice was quiet, barely above a whisper and if it had been any other situation, you wouldâve cringed at yourself.
âBaby, I know so.â Paige didnât have to say more than that. It was enough to boost your confidence from basement level, to the roof.
You didnât say much either, choosing to bask in the moment, hands snaking up to lay over hers that were still cupping your face, looking up at her with glassy eyes and a faint smile. In that moment, it was only appropriate for you to inch closer, placing a soft and short kiss on her pillow soft lips.
A smile crept up on the blonde as you pulled back again, âSo⊠How about âpre-game good luckâ head?â
âWell⊠Wait, No! Iâm still in distress.â
The arena buzzed with a low hum of anticipation as you stood at the edge of the court, taking in the packed stands, the flashing lights, and the sea of Liberty blue and green. Your heart was poundingâthough you'd had nerves all day, they'd sharpened now that the moment was upon you . You scanned the crowd, gaze catching Paige's in her seat near the front. Paige's steadying smile softened the sharp edges of Your anxiety, and you exhaled, focus narrowing. This was it. The moment you had been working your ass of for. It was now or never.
As the whistle blew, your nerves dissolved like mist, replaced by the razor focus of competition. Everything outside the court vanished, your only objective now to take down the Lynx and bring home a win for the team. But as the first quarter unfolded, it became clear this game wouldn't go as planned. Your team struggled to find their rhythm, their usual crisp passes and quick plays seeming off. Shots were bouncing off the rim, free throws missed their mark, and the Lynx defense was ruthless. Every time you managed to drive toward the basket, you felt hands clawing at your arms, hips bumping you hard off course. You fought to keep your form steady, but even your own three-pointersânormally a guaranteed lifelineâfell just short. Beside you, Sabrina was playing through visible pain, her movements cautious, hindered by her UCL injury.
Paige's chest tightened with each missed shot and lost point, her eyes tracking your every move. She could see your frustration mounting, shoulders tensing after every failed attempt, and every bit of her wanted to rush down there, to shield you from the weight of this game. Tell you that she believed in you more than anything.
By halftime, the Liberty had fallen behind by nearly double digits. You felt your stomach knot and churn as you walked back down the tunnel toward the locker room, breath shaky, mind racing over every failed shot, every error. Before you knew it, hot tears were spilling down your cheeks, stinging with the shame of coming up short. You barely noticed the footsteps trailing you until you heard Paige's voice calling out her name, a beacon of comfort piercing her distress.
You slowed and turned, and there was your girlfriend, just outside the locker room door, her eyes brimming with concern. A teasing voice broke the tensionâStewie, giving you a gentle nudge on the shoulder. "Hey, save some of those tears for the win, rook. You're not out of this yet."
Despite yourself, you let out a shaky laugh, and then you were in Paige's arms, face buried against her shoulder. You clung to her, breathing in the familiar scent and drawing strength from your girlfriend's embrace. "I'm playing like shit right now," you mumbled, voice thick with disappointment.
She tilted your chin up, meeting your eyes with steady determination. "Hey, look at me. You've been through worse than this. Most of these people today are here to watch you. You're gonna go back out there and you're gonna play your game. I know you. You're not done." Her words wrapped around you like armor, steadying your nerves. With a last kiss on the cheek, Paige whispered, "Go show them who you are, Ma."
Buoyed by the reassurance, you returned to the court for the second half with renewed fire only ten minutes later. Your team began to close the gap, each player digging deep as they fought to find their rhythm. Your shots began to connect, and your movements were sharper, cleaner, feeding off your team's newfound energy. You could feel Paige's eyes on you from the stands, grounding you with every step.
By the time the game went into overtime, your team had clawed their way to a slim four-point lead, the clock ticking down the final seconds. With a fierce determination, you seized her momentâgripping the ball just past half-court, you made the reckless decision in a split second. You set your stance and launched a deep three-pointer, watching as the ball arched high into the air. The arena fell silent, everyone holding their breath as it spun toward the basket.
And thenâswish. The ball dropped cleanly through the net, and the crowd erupted, an unstoppable wave of sound crashing over the court. Your teammates surged around you, pulling you into hugs and shouting in joy, their faces bright with triumph. You felt the overwhelming relief, the weight of victory sinking in as tears of happiness filled your eyes.
Amid the chaos, your gaze instinctively searched for Paige, who was already standing by her seat, pride radiating from her. Without thinking, you ran toward her, your heart full to bursting. When you reached Paige, your threw your arms around her, catching her in a fierce embrace. Before either of you registered what you were doing, you pressed a kiss to Paige's lips, the world melting away in that single moment. You were on cloud nine and nothing could bring you down, anytime soon.
Paige held you close, tears shimmering in her own eyes as she whispered, "I'm so proud of you, Baby. You fucking did it."
And for the first time in a long time, you felt the weight of every struggle, every doubt, lifted, replaced by the solid warmth of love, victory, and the freedom to embrace who you truly were.
But then it dawned on you. The sudden realization of what you had just done and your face dropped, heart pounding impossibly faster in your throat all while Paige continued to hold you close. "Oh my god... Oh. My. God." You could barely manage to find the words, the guilt of what you had just done so impulsively hitting you like a wave and throwing you off that thrown you had been sitting on just a mere minute ago.
"I'm so sorry. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck... Oh god, I fucked up. The whole world just saw that, what do we do?" It was clear as day that you were panicking, the fear of disappointing your girlfriend eating away at you.
Paige however, didn't seem to have lost that smile on her face, her bright eyes almost blinding with the sparkle that shimmered in them, all while gazing at you. "I don't care. We've talked about this before, I want the world to know."
"Really?" Your voice was barely above a whisper, not trusting yourself to keep it from cracking in that moment.
"Yes, really. I would be fucking insane if I had anything against the world knowing that I'm not only dating the most wonderful person alive, but also a champion."
Your frown quickly turned upside down into a small smile, heart searing with love and pride. Not only were you a winner tonight, but with her on your side, you'd be a winner for the rest of your life.
"Now go and celebrate, you deserve it." The blonde began to release you from her grip, a soft grin playing on her lips.
"Come with me." You suggested instantly, not wanting to be apart from her for even just a second, if you didn't have to. "I wanna show off my prettier trophy on her birthday."
Paige's grin melted into a smirk, the sparkle in her blue eyes suddenly clouded and you had to make sure that your own eyes weren't playing tricks on you. "Your trophy, huh? Oh, I'm gonna fuck you so good when we get back home, champ."
Back in the locker room, the team was in full championship mode. As you and Paige stepped in, you were instantly drenched with a spray of ice-cold champagne, your teammates laughing and cheering as they each took turns celebrating. The room was filled with a mix of joyous shouts, laughter, and the sticky-sweet smell of champagne spilling from bottles held high. You could feel the bubbles fizzing on your skin, jersey soaked through, but none of that matteredâthis was the taste of victory, and you drank it in like the best moment of your life.
Stewie grinned, grabbing a cigar and offering it to you with a proud nod. âHere you go, rook. Youâve earned it.â
You took it with a chuckle, feeling the weight of the cigar in your hand as you looked around at your ecstatic teammates. You didnât smoke often, but right now, it felt like the perfect way to mark the moment. As you lit up, you took a slow draw and exhaled, watching the smoke curl into the air, feeling an odd thrill in the movement. Around you, your teammates roared in laughter and cheered you on, playfully tousling your hair and congratulating you as you relaxed further into the moment.
Paige stood slightly apart from the chaos, watching you with an expression of open admiration. Paigeâs gaze lingered on you, catching every spark of joy in your eyes, every smile, and every bit of laughter that spilled from your lips. She let herself soak in the sight, wanting to imprint it on her memoryâthis perfect image of you, triumphant and glowing, a little champagne-drunk and flushed from the celebration. She didnât care about the sticky residue of the champagne on her own skin or the faint smell of smoke in the air; all she could focus on was you, looking impossibly beautiful.
As you took another drag, exhaling the smoke with an air of confidence that was as charming as it was unfamiliar, Paigeâs heart skipped a beat. There was something about the way you held herself tonight, bold and carefree, that sent a shiver down Paigeâs spine.
You caught Paigeâs eyes and, with a giggle, took a playful step toward her, the effects of the champagne clear in your soft, relaxed gaze. âAre you okay over there?â you teased, tilting your head with a grin, clearly catching on to Paigeâs stare.
Paigeâs lips curled into a smirk, her voice low as she leaned in, brushing a hand along your arm. âOh, Iâm doing great,â she murmured, her tone filled with a hint of mischief. âJust⊠canât wait to get you home.â
Your eyes sparkled with a playful challenge as you smirked right back, the faint scent of champagne and cigar smoke hanging in the air between them. âIâm all yours in an hour or so,â you whispered, leaning in close enough that only Paige could hear.
âLongest hour of my life,â Paige replied, her voice barely above a breath, her eyes gleaming with anticipation as they lingered on your smile.
The locker room buzzed around you, but in that moment, you both were in your own world, two people tangled in a look filled with promises for later, ready to savor every bit of this winâtogether.
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don't look in the mirror | S.R.
seeking comfort in those you hold close, except there's a right way and a wrong way to do it
who? spencer reid x fem!reader category: angst (i think?) w/ mature themes (18+ mdni) content warnings: seeking comfort in sex, avoidance, mental health issues, spencer has those info dumps on lock, shame, self deprecation, reader hates her job (me too), blood as a metaphor, crying word count: 1.85k a/n: this is such an important topic and i'm so thankful for you asking me to write this!!!! i know this is a premise i've seen before, so i tried to make mine different. (im actually really proud of how this one turned out)
âBaby,â Spencer whispered in your ear, turning his head to the side as you left small, slow kisses on the exposed skin of his neck.
You hummed but refused to detach your lips from his soft skin, tugging gently at his shirt so that you could make your way down to his collarbone. He smelled like sunshine and the jet, an admittedly odd combo that did nothing to stop your movements down the column of his throat. His neck vibrated with sound, but none of his words registered, it all went in one ear and out the other.
His hand gently settled on the small of your back and you took a deep breath before you began pulling at the knot of his tie, âY/N,â he muttered in a warning.
Your head snapped up at his tone, disappointed that you didnât find the same want in his eyes that you knew was blazing in your own irises. Synapses in your brain were firing at lightning speed, and your heart was beating so quickly that it was like it was trying to keep up. âI missed you,â you whispered to him, allowing your eyes to flitter across his face.
Spencer settled his hands on your hips, firmly grabbing them in exactly the way you wanted, but instead of pulling you closer to him, he stilled their rotation.
Your heart stuttered.
âWhat happened?â He asked you tentatively, using the pads of his thumbs to rub soothing circles on your hips, trying to keep you from moving while giving you comfort. Despite the way you were sitting in his lap, Spencer still felt worlds away from you â if he was on Earth, you were in a different galaxy.Â
Hesitantly, your lips parted, and you took a deep breath before shutting your mouth again, deciding you had nothing to say. While heâd been away, nothing significant had happened, everything in your life had trudged on exactly the way it always did. You went to work at the same job youâve had since you got out of college with a boss who most certainly had it out for you, and you came home to an empty apartment with your phone volume all the way up, waiting for your boyfriend to call you. You really were pathetic, but you didnât voice those concerns, instead, you answered, âNothing happened,â the half-truth easily slid from your mouth. âCanât I just have missed my boyfriend and want to spend quality time with him?â
Spencer hummed thoughtfully, tilting his head back as his hair moved with him, âStop, Y/N,â he said.
Without even realizing it, your hands had drifted down to his chest, and your hands were absentmindedly fiddling with the buttons of his shirt, âI didnâtâŠâ you started to say, but your words faltered when you noticed the way he was looking at you. You looked over your shoulder, making sure that the rest of the world was still there as you tried to climb off of Spencerâs lap. âLet me go,â you insisted, hating how small your voice sounded as you pushed against him to no avail.
âI canât let you go, not right now,â he told you, steadying his resolve as he watched you. You were staring at your hands like they were covered in blood, red-covered palms as you watched, horrified at the idea of them developing a mind of their own. It wasnât as if your hands had suddenly become sentient entities, your heart and your brain were working against each other, fighting a silent, internal war. âPick a spot for your hands, and just leave them there,â he whispered to you.
Your hands tremored as you settled them on either one of Spencerâs shoulders, âYou donât find me attractive anymore,â you mumbled, struggling to find the strength to enunciate your thoughts.
Spencer sighed, âWhy donât we take a minute, okay?â Delicately, he moved one hand from its station on your hip and moved it to cup your cheek, holding your face as if it were made of fine china. âWhat happened while I was gone, honey?â
His hand was wet on your face, or rather, your face was wet from tears that had started to trickle from your tear ducts. You furrowed your brows in frustration, âWhy do you assume that something happened? Nothing happened while you were gone, why canât you just let that be the answer?â
âBecause itâs not the answer,â he insisted, dropping his hand back to your hip, continuing to stop you from getting up and moving away from him.
You scoffed, âIs it not the answer, or is it just not the answer youâre looking for, Spencer?â
âItâs not the answer, and Iâm looking for the answer. You can tell me anything,â he urged, resuming his soothing movements over your hip.
As you watched his expression morph into a slight panic, you realized he was beginning to think something happened to you. With what he did for work, it was always in the back of his mind, you being in danger of being hurt by other people but what he rarely considered was the idea of you being a danger to yourself. âNothing happened, okay? Absolutely nothing happened to me while you were gone and everything in the world stayed exactly the fucking same. I went to work every day and I came home and sat around while I waited for you to call, I waited for you to come home and now you wonât even touch me.â
Your tears kept coming, leaving saline stains on his gray shirt as your head spun and his movements stopped. âWork was bad?â He asked softly, using his fingertips to wipe beneath your eyes. He knew about your issues at work, he had been encouraging you to leave the job for months, but you were convinced that a promotion was coming. âYou shouldn't have to be miserable every time you go to work.â
âNot everyone gets to be hand-picked for a top job at twenty-one. Some people have to work shitty jobs to make ends meet,â you snapped at him, nostrils flaring angrily.
He didnât answer right away, you became hyperaware of the pounding of your heart as you waited for his response. As you waited for him to kick you out. âI told you that Iâd support you if you wanted to go back to school. I meant it, Y/N,â he told you, brown eyes flooded with concern. âYou can leave your job and pursue your dream, thatâs all Iâve ever wanted for you, baby.â Spencer leaned back against the couch cushions, âI canât help you until you help yourself, love.â
Slouching your shoulders, you felt your eyes starting to line with tears again, âIt feels so unfair to have you shoulder more responsibility so that I can go back to school.â
âNo,â he said, âWhatâs not fair is you lying to me and then trying to avoid it with sex. I asked you how your week had been, and you either didnât care to answer me or you have such bad tunnel vision that you didnât even hear me.â He gently chided, giving you time to drown in the blatant concern in his eyes, âand whatâs worse is you never told me it was this bad.â
You averted your eyes, focusing your gaze on the chessboard behind him as you thought about your next move. In one fell swoop, he could checkmate you, completely catch you off guard, and tell you everything that you didnât want to hear. Alternatively, you could sacrifice yourself for his benefit, âI hate my job. My boss is making it impossible for me to make any positive stride, and thatâs on top of him being a misogynistic douche.â You flexed your hands where they remained on Spencerâs shoulders and sighed, âAnd yes, I miss you when youâre gone. Yes, I lied to you about it, but what would you do about it? Leave your big important job because your girlfriend is lonely?â
He craned his head to the side, silently encouraging you to make eye contact with him, âIâd hope that youâd feel comfortable enough to tell me how youâre feeling so that we could work something out â we can talk through this. Itâs a two-way street though, you have to talk to me. I can make an effort to call and text more if you promise me, youâll make an effort to communicate with me.â
Slowly, you started to nod, âI⊠I can do that, but you hate texting,â you reminded him, raising your eyebrows curiously.
âIâll get over it,â he reassured you, studying your features, âYouâre worth it,â he added.
Finally, you pulled your arms back, hugging them around yourself protectively, âIâm sorry,â you murmured, âI donât know why I am⊠the way that I am.â
Spencer took a deep breath before giving you a look that told you he had an inkling, âYouâre unhappy, with me or the world, it doesnât matter, but you think the solution to your displeasure comes in the form of an orgasm and thatâs just not the answer, honey.â
You hiccupped and wrapped your arms tighter around yourself like you could make yourself smaller, âI still donât know why though.â
âYouâre seeking the rush, not necessarily the act of sex itself, you want the dopamine and oxytocin rush that comes with an orgasm. Your brain convinces yourself that itâs what you need because when you get unhappy like this, all you can focus on is how to feel better and fast,â he spoke to you gently â he knew this wasnât what you wanted to hear, but it was what you needed to hear. âItâs brief, and itâs just for that moment, and your brain might even recall how your parasympathetic nervous system shuts down after you come, and your body gets tired. You get a rush of serotonin, and you relax enough to convince yourself that it'll be okay, but you need to find something more permanent. Iâll help you.â
Your arms fell limply at your sides, âDo you think Iâm broken?â
The small smile he gave you was enough of an answer, âNo, in fact, I know youâre not broken.â Tenderly, he reached out and unwound your arms from around your torso, âAnd since I know you wonât stop thinking about it, I do still find you attractive.â Spencer studied your face, âWhere do you want to start?â
âDo you want to help me draft a letter of resignation?â You offered, giving Spencer a shy smile.
He hummed in response, âYeah, in a bit.â Your boyfriend reached his hands out to you, now being the one who pulled you close, âCome here, darling.â
You leaned into him, resting your head on his shoulder and sighing as he wrapped his arms around your torso, âI missed you,â you mumbled, entirely deflating your lungs as you let yourself relax.
Spencer reached up, ruffling your hair with one hand and keeping another on the small of your back as he sighed with you, âI missed you too.â
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