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ah weāve reached the āreports of hamas sexual violence are made up and islamophobicā stage of the discourse, which is almost funny from the same people who say that any and all criticism of israel is unjustly tarred as antisemitic.
#anyways. thereās evidence out there but you will never unsee it#and i am not sharing those videos#follow reporters and read articles and spare yourself the trauma#rape#obviously donāt be islamophobic#hamas posts on telegram if you need proof
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Been seein some rather cold takes about Daisy latelyā¦
Iāve seen some people say that she has no personality outside of fanon, but thatās just not true. There is a very very common misconception among the fandom (at least that Iāve noticed) that if a character doesnāt appear in a āmainlineā game, then they have no personality. But Iād argue that the spinoffs actually offer waaaaay more in terms of looking into character personalities. And no, Iām not talking about the RPGs ala M&L and Paper Mario as those are obviously full of personality (and Daisy isnāt in those). Iām talking about the Party, Kart, Tennis, and other sports games.
Yes, Daisy hasnāt appeared in any mainline game since her debut, but sheās been in nearly every sports game and her traits, stats, abilities, victory/loss animations, and various other tiny details add up to her personality. The fact that sheās nearly always yelling or just speaking really loud in general (noticeably more than any other character), the fact that she constantly feels a need to say her name and make herself known, how she loves flowers and considers even a small patch of flowers worth protecting, how sheās easily bored by tasks that donāt excite her and isnāt so reliable for them. She tends to jump around a lot, and spin and dance around when sheās excited! Sheās apparently a rather fast runner and that is considered her specialty! These are all traits that are displayed in the spinoffs, and thereās probably soooo many more that I just canāt remember right now.
Now, I do think her tomboyish nature is probably fanon, as I donāt really remember seeing anything to show that she acts that way in the games. I think people probably think sheās tomboyish due to how loud and energetic she is. But hey, thereās plenty of fanon for just about any character from any fandom out there. And whatās so wrong with that? Isnāt the whole point of making fanworks to expand on the framework already provided by canon? If we want to stick to whatās actually ācanonā then nearly everything the fandom has created would have to be tossed, because there really isnāt much to work with. Fanworks and fandoms thrive on what fans can create based on the canon work, not just sticking to it perfectly.
Itās fine if you think the āfanonā Daisy outshines the ācanonā Daisy and you dislike that. But to say that she has no personality aside from fanon interpretations just tells me that you have a very narrow idea of what counts as ācanonā in an already rather simplistic world. The Mario games are very simple and straightforward without much consistent lore that actually makes sense cohesively, but the characters are what keep everything tied together despite that. The characters are nearly always consistent, and that includes Daisy. Even when the setting is completely different and some random new villain shows up with some random new power source to steal or species to torment, our same well-known lovable characters will be the center of the story and thatās what makes it fun!
#devin speaks#super mario bros#princess daisy#i mightve gotten a bit too personal with my views of canon vs fanon but i still think it needs to be said#people who argue over what is considered canon in a video game series are so funny to me#especially a series like mario that has expanded soooo far from its original premise#its different than a show or movie since most shows will finish their main story before delving into spinoffs#most of the mainline games are literally just bowser kidnapped the princess and mario has to save her#very few of them offer any insight to personality of anyone#that isnāt to say theres none at all but i still think the party kart and sports games offer waaay more#of course everyone is entitled to their own opinions and if you dislike daisy or think shes boring then whatever you do you#i am simply sharing my opinion as well :)#sorry time to be salty real quick#literally the entirety of waluigis personality comes from the spin offs but no one talks about him???#he is literally in the same boat as daisy but i never see anyone saying they dislike him for his āfanon personalityā#really makes you think#people rag on peach for āhaving no personalityā too but hers shines through the spinoffs as well#and even the rpgs!! shes actually in those and has multiple voicelines and cutscenes and people *still* say she has no personality!#i know this is about daisy but gosh mario ladies in general are treated rather poorly unless theyre eye candy#im glad rosie debuted in a mainline game with a clearly given backstory spoon fed to the player so she doesnt get this treatment lol
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why is gif making becoming a lost art in fandom spaces
#seeing so many people fundamentally misunderstand what a gif is lately#they have no idea the effort that goes in to making good quality gifs either#people who think that a video clip is the same as a gif š¤”#mind you this is twitter fandom im talking about#and like i get that twitter isn't the platform for gif sharing (reason number 123432 why it's subpar as a fandom site)#but to think that making a gif is somehow 'stealing' someone's video footage is asinine#and that's not even broaching the subject of the legalities of fan recorded footage#(recording concert footage is thisclose to infringing your fave artists' copyright btw)#(like in all seriousness it is just as much of a legal gray area as all other fandom produced / transformative works)#(so if ur gonna try and have a go at gifmakers u should probably stop and think about the consequences that might have for ur own content)#anyway#i really shouldn't let a few uninformed people get to me like this#but the way one small part of my fave fandom has been acting the past 2 days is REALLY grating on me#i dont want to stop creating for a fandom just bc of the entitled attitudes of a few people#but i am not interested in dealing with this ****#also it absolutely does not support your faves to bash / drive out other creators in the fandom#fa;lksjdfalkjsdnf#rant over ig#im trying to be the bigger person and just not engage since it's all petty and indirect actions that dont require a response anyway#i like this fandom bc it's mostly chill and easygoing so I do NOT want to make waves or kill those vibes#and i have ALWAYS been supportive and appreciative of other creators#but now im feeling less interested in engaging with certain creators#so ig that's the course we take for now
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i think itis funny in the past when i would list my interests as if i post abt them i donot post abt the shit im into rly Mainly bc im not rly Into Into anything anymore i occasionally watch or read or play something but i dont do fandom stuff rly much.... just sometimes i get brainworms
#do i still list my interests somewhere i dont knowwww#i just stopped rly being into fandom a few years ago combination depression antipathy + bad experiences in fandom spaces#but idk. me listing my interests didnt rly accomplish anything for anyone bc it was just like anddd just so you know i was crazy abt this#video game for a rly long time it probably wont ever come up again but it might maybe one day. yk. ig its just sharing info Which is one#supposes the point of all of this but idk#its not that im cagey abt my interests except that one which i cant talk abt publically bc its a triple a game and im embarassed abt it. no#anything bad im just embarrassed . its not anything any of my oomfies have ever posted abt either so its just for me. and lamp . and when#the third game comes out i might post very very very vaguely abt it ......... possibly.#but ya its like. idk i think you guys have to find out abt my plague tale obsession on your own through lived experience. aka just me seein#like the word king and randomly collapsing to the floor and going KING HUGO ššššš oh god hugo guys oh god . please play plague tale#i wish i had finished that tw thing i started making but then i got too focused on the color palette and making it look nice and i stopped.#umm tw child death animal death The plague some gorey stuff theres some cult things in the second game ummm. yeah ..... its rly special to#me tho i love those games PLAY PLAGUE TALE!!! and if u need more indepth tws ill give them to you even if i have to replay both games to#refresh my memory... lamp wont play plaguetale with me (not their speed) so im all alone </3 but i miss it i might replay soon... i wish i#was in like discord servers so i could play it on call w ppl or something <- is in discord servers but is shy and Also i feel like playing#game on call is like a level like 2 friendship thing and i cant even do level 1 friendship things like i feel i need to at least be talking#regularly in a server b4 i like try to do Calls in the server esp for plague tale bc its like a 1p game so wed need a rapport to like have#shit to talk abt and etc ..... i could just infodump abt the game but again i feel doing that to like strangers/oomfies would b weird. ik i#come on here and talk abt whatever i want but its like you guys dont Have to read this and its not like a server where Yeah im not talking#to one person but im still like Oh well ive sent a message and its in the channel and everybody just has to look at it and whatever.#but on here i post i nobody cares and it just gets pushed down and its Fine bc its not like anybody has to feel obliged to respond#which is fine. you know.. i just hate being like a nuisance i hate . idk how to phrase. imposing myself on others ig.. which is dumb bc the#i turn around and whine abt how i have no friends and its like Maybe that is bc you donot talk to anyone bc yr scared they will be annoyed#with you and you dont leave the house and have no interests to bond with ppl and etc. but basically the difference is ive written all this#and you guys can just not read it or you can just read it and ignore it and its different. even tho i am like addressing you and i do have#like. weird parasocial thing with My followers or whatever where i talk directly to you YES YOU! reading this. IDKK im rambling so much i#dont know what im talking abt anymore. i proooooobably need to go to sleep im hungry tho but im not but i am. but i think my sleep is getti#off schedule again i had trouble sleeping yesterday too... ugh
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https://www.instagram.com/reel/DBLvBNvu3IV/?igsh=d3Zodzc3cHNtcno3
This link. This right here. Made me smile. So hopefully it will make you too (How can you not smile at Russell Crowe / Maximus though!)
OH. MY GOODNESS. How absolutely adorable!!!
Iāve seen screenshots from that video but Iāve never seen the actual clip! Iām assuming itās from one of the bts documentaries. Heās so goofy and adorable and lovely ahhhhhhhhhhh
Thank you so much for sharing this post!! I absolutely love it. Itās so sweet of you to think of me when you saw it! š„°š„°š„°
#russell crowe as steve irwin is something i didnāt now i needed#his goofy narrating voice iām dying šš#iām obsessed with how russell always seems to be goofing around on set of gladiator#he seemed to have so much fun making it#i love him being super unserious around literal tigers that could kill him#heās just like heheheehehehehe BEAST#but for real how is he so hot#like russell turn it off for one second i am begging you#those ARMS#the man is BUILT#but paired with the silly faces itās somehow even hotter š#thank you again for sharing! :)#my asks#russell crowe#gladiator#videos
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Not only is my therapist hella supportive of my weird ass goal in therapy to learn shapeshifting (in whatever ways are feesable but especially in dreams) and is cool with all the negative thoughts being a monster comes with (daydreaming about hurting and eating people as a monster doesnāt make me a bad person), but they are roping in a literal shaman to help me out. Thatās only part of the reason why, Iām also plagued with sleep hallucinations that are distressing (these are unaffected by my antipsychotics directly as it isnāt psychosis so Iām not gonna request med changes). That is probably the more pressing matter for them but I will be sure to tie it back to my desperate need to be a monster. I need to figure out how to satisfy this need for my mental wellbeing. I want it so bad I have literally offered my soul to entities I perceive as real and evil, hell I do it completely unprompted at times. The fact that I believe it is real and do potentially dangerous things is alarming to me when awake and have my wits about me. Itās essentially like I am drunk and wandering up to random people with a weird request. Some have gently told me they canāt do that, some are rude and tell me horrible things about me and why I donāt deserve to be happy.
Part of this is being billed to my insurance company, which is funny to me, do have to pay the shaman but my therapist is so cool they are not charging me for their time even though it is over the hour limit. They are helping me out because they care/worry about me and it is very nice to feel supported.
#Iām actually not the most spiritual person but am willing to do anything to feel correct#pretty much any attempt at woo leads back to wanting to be a monster#otherkin#monsterkin#therian#my psychiatrist knows I have weird dreams and hallucinations but has no clue what they are and how to treat that#I will let her know they have been increasing#she hurt my feelings by once saying I had a delusion so Iām not sharing anything further than that#it does not matter if I am delusional because a) I refuse to try any other antipsychotic#for fear of side effects#and b) if Iām delusional then believing in a cure hard enough will make it work#placebo effect or mind over matter or whatever#I literally do not care all I know is other people are successful at doing what I want to do#text post#wearing a fursuit helps actually but those are my characters not me#Iām not at a point where I can comfortably commission someone else to do it for me#I do not actually linger too much on the gore aspect#Iād like to I think I ought to really think of the implications of what I want to do#but also obviously I will not literally physically be a monster so donāt plan on hurting anyone#sometimes I look at gore deliberately and am like hmmm#whatās this suppose to be doing this ought to be titillating me#however simulated gore in movies and art is DEF my thing#love to see a monster brutalizing a person#but looking at a bear attack victim with the same injuries Iām like hmmmm ok#I want to tear people limb from limb and eat them#but looking at a real person eaten and torn limb from limb is like ehhh to me#hearing about videos or pictures of people INTENTIONALLY hurt and tortured upsets me canāt do that#I donāt want to hurt people in the people way#just a predator way#itās not cannibalism fantasies btw not cannibalism if you are not human
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there is this tiktok that i have saved from last week when there were only like 4 gas stations open here and every time i remember it i just. the video was filmed literally right behind my apartment. i drive that road almost DAILY. i can literally see those signs FROM MY BED. that's MY HOME.
#its really one of those 'you think it could never happen to you' things#and in my defense it SHOULD have never happened to me bc there shouldn't ever BE hurricanes here#but like#there are so many videos out there now that I've seen and am just like yeah. i know where that is. i drive down that road often.#ive been there. i live there.#and its terrifying cus as big as my city is is only famous for like 2 things so it is never like. ANYWHERE.#and now I've seen it all over.#anyway im not sharing the tiktok for obvious reasons but. yeah.#really of you search for any videos of the gas lines in ga in the last week you'll basically see what I'm talking about anyway#im sorry i will shut up about it at some point but we're STILL dealing with it here so. i need to vent occasionally.#and my family is also dealing with it still so i can only vent to then so much.#one of my sisters JUST got power back and the other 2 haven't yet and its been more than a week now.#i was VERY FUCKING LUCKY to have gotten mine back on Monday#shh ac
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one of the reasons why TNP is one of my favorite IFs is because the cast is trans AND Hunter can be trans too and it will be acknowledged. when it was revealed in the story that Lea and Marry are trans too I was so happy!! there are barely any trans characters in IFs and VNs, even less of them are genderlocked/always trans no matter the chosen gender.
thank you! i always found it very transparent when a game only allows the mc to be nb (very few of them have actual options for binary trans people - it's too hard to do more than just code "they/them" pronouns and be vague i guess) and in my opinion that's way more immersion breaking, because that's not how the real world works. you will see trans people, every day, at like.. target or whatever. and this isn't even just about trans people but also diversity in general.
obviously when it comes to trans characters, this is an attitude that has changed a lot very fast over the past few years, so looking back at older games i don't necessarily expect there to be trans options, nor do i expect everyone to be out here writing complex "transgender" narratives, either. most people that accuse us of that are just bad faith actors. in my experience, people are just looking for basic acknowledgement; they want to see people like them existing and going on fun adventures, too. that's what i want, and that's why me, a trans author, likes to write about trans people being trans in the genre that i like - but rarely get to see myself in.
i also think when it comes to fantasy or scifi, how boring do you have to be to allow for fantastical world-building but draw the line at societal expectations? and if you want to really be specific about world-building, then why would a gender binary exist in a world where there was never a colonial power enforcing it? why do you want sexism, racism, and homophobia to exist so bad? why does it upset you so much when it doesn't?
#obviously there are stories where those things are an important part of the narrative and im not saying it's automatically bad#to write abt societal bigotry#(i have to say that or people will misinterpret me)#but i do think it says a lot when ppl insist that those things HAVE to exist#or else it's not 'accurate'#or else it's 'breaking your immersion'#like idk how to tell you this but trans people ARE real. like for real in real life#if you can't comprehend that... i think that's a you problem#and you should go read something else lmfao#also this isn't even about representation (a word i am really starting to dislike)#it's literally just... how can you not comprehend or empathize with people that may not be exactly like you?#why does it upset you so much to see other stories being told?#i should share a writing advice video i watched recently where a writer talks abt how empathy is a huge part of writing#she's right!! and it's a huge part of reading too#ask#anonymous
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also uh im kind of not thinking about it much because its insane. but if everything goes right (and i mean a considerable amount of things that probably wont go as planned) but if they DO... i will have a major surgery in like two weeks
#vertical sleeve gastrectomy to be exact insert nerd emoji here#i might document a lot of whats going on with it and even take some videos honestly#not to share here other than some oversharing text posts about probably constipation LMAO#but like no one shares whats it like to be mentally ill and go thru vsg and like the process and not many people as young as me get it#feels weird calling myself young on the chronically 13 year old website#but anyone that does post about it posts for like a year and then falls off the face of the earth#genuinely there are so many youtubers that start talking about this stuff#then you find their channel three years deserted and its like man.#i sure hope this means you found better ways to spend your time#and like okay time to get sappy and corny as hell in the notes so go ahead and skip this part idk who even reads my notes hello#but basically everyones that gets this shit is like you gotta find your why#and most of them have kids or like a husband or plans to travel the world or do better at their job#and none of those things really apply to me#i kind of have the perfect storm for being fat#i dont do anything work wise that encourages any kind of movement#im chronically afraid of planes and i cant afford that shit anyways rn#also not very good at romance LOL and never want kids and my entire family is also fat barring my brother#thats not to absolve myself of any of the blame for this shit either like i know i put myself in this situation#i just think like wow my life is pretty much perfect for staying fat but i DONT WANT THAT#I want the highlight of my week to be more than eating takeout man#i want to live life instead of meal to meal to something better#idk what yet maybe jewelery piece to jewelery piece#i could do some serious kandi making while im down for the count#but i dunno man my therapist tells me that in order to feel like a person and not get tired of life i have to do people things and#participate in life yknow?#and its hard to do things like go to the gym talk to people explore fashion styles when i have this overloomingness of being fat#so i guess that could be my why? like i want to experience more of life#i want to be able to walk in a mall and look at all the stores. i want to walk in a mall period. cause it fucking hurts the way i am now#thats all to say the actual āwhyā that i have is Goddamn it i want to be able to jump from a swing#and not break my fucking ankles
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Warning, Certified Internet Boomer Moment Imminent!
anyway bruh y'all have no idea how bad the baby fever is kicking my ass rn....
#me @ myself like BITCH NOT YET#IT'LL HAPPEN WHEN IT HAPPENS SO JUST STOP FUCKING YELLING AT ME#AHHHHHHHHHHH#anyway I am legit envious of people who don't want kids bcs I assume their brains don't do this to them#and it's always so much worse around the holidays bcs christmas kinda blows when you're an adult#and I'm so excited to get to go all in making halloween and christmas special for a kid#I just have so much love inside of me and I want to share it#christmas was always hit or miss growing up bcs we were really poor#so we got charity gifts a lot#and when you're a teenage girl those gifts SUCK ASS#but I had to sit there and be happy with all the spa kits and make up and shit even though I DID NOT WANT THOSE#while my siblings got really cool shit like video games and art supplies and stuff#and I am so ready to make sure my kid never ever has to go through that#fuck gender I will pay attention to their interests and make sure they get things they love!!!
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In my "Finding Cute, Funny & Weird Old Photos of Him" Era š
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#Now I know what you're thinking: 'Shouldn't she have already been through this era by now?!'#Probably; yeah!!#But I dunno...I just never thought to look for strange/unusual/weird/odd/memeable photos of Tom!!!#And it's not like I didn't know that he's actually a big weirdo!! I knew all along because OF COURSE I DID; how could I not?!#A part of me not looking more into his old photos until now is because of my obsession with his love for Rob Gronkowski#So I was all caught up in finding all of those photos that I neglected to look up iconic weird photos of Tom just being Tom#Tom taking notice of my comment on his YouTube video made me think more about these photos which is why I'm here on this topic now#And yes!! I am still planning to share with all of you what I said in that comment!!!#It's gonna be bit of a long post though becuase you already know that I have some additional commentary to make about it!! <3#Anyway...!!#Tom Brady#TB12#babe#love
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I want someone to love me quietly and loudly at the same time because Im an idiot
#mine#words#human#love#someone unashamed of loving me#someone free to love me and choose me#someone who loves me with every blink#a love radiating from them surrounding me like a blanket making sure i feel it because im an idiot#because im an idiot#clown#feelings#thoughts#love comes in many forms and i dont want this to be romantic only#my friends are loving me openly and casually w lil care packages and notes for me with videos they send me with āill sit w youās &āi listen#with āyour feelings are validā āyoure being hard to yourself so im being even softerā with āhey do you wanna play sthā#with āwanna body doubleā and āi rmb you like thisā āhave you eaten yetā ācan i give you a hugā#with āmy treat this timeā and ācan i come visit youā with āmissing youā and āwe share this part of lifeā#with āhey this reminded me of youā and āi dont need this but i thought you couldā with āwhat have you been up toā and#with ādo you wanna go there togetherā and āim getting [food/drink] you want some as well?ā#with āi can pretend to be your waifu and help with choresā and ālets cook togetherā with ālets go on a walk togetherā#with ātell me when youre homeā with ātake careā and āenjoy!ā with āhows your day beenā āhowd you sleepā#with ātell me about your dream last nightā āshow me your outfitā with āhow are youā and āi can explain it to you againā with āi'll waitā#with ānice to hear from you againā and āi try to understandā with āim glad a late answer is better than none from youā#with āyou cannot see your own effort but i canā with āhow can i help youā and ājust wanted to see/hear youā with āhey take this food w youā#with āi dont mind doing that for youā with āā |ā āµ|ā āāā |ā āµ|ā āwhen seeing each other on the streets#every lil whimsical every experience thought and feeling shared#im immensely loved and i hope those people know and feel how i see appreciate and love them back#i am loved already#my friends make sure that i do not accept any less love expression and im endlessly grateful for them#āi will try for youā āi'll try remind youā āi can wake you upā this all will get its own post one day
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*grabs harry styles by the collar of his sweater and starts spinning him around*
do not focus on the weird order and super weird anatomy just vibe with the idea<3
DO NOT REPOST & INSPO
#CARECA CARECA CARECA#i started at 12 am. its 2 am#its another one of those I NEED TO DO THIS OR ELSE#im starting to regret sharing this but at least look at the video and laugh at it:)#harry styles#harry styles fanart#tracksintheam#hlcreators#trackinghome#hljournal
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Process video for my most recent piece š
šµ: "Old Time Battles (Bard Version)" Baldur's Gate 3 OST
#def one of those āthis looks greatā -> āthis looks awfulā -> āthis looks greatā etc. drawings#so I thought I'd share lol#I am so so grateful it's resonating with so many of y'all š#also I finally figure out how to upload video directly to tumblr#so I may upload some of my backlog in the coming days :3#bg3#wyll ravengard#bg3 spoilers#gale dekarios#my timelapses
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I'm literally so normal about watching iDKHOW/Brobecks videos on the TV <3 (<- complete lies)
#dru speaks#like a video with an interesting backstory will come on and i'll just. mentally beg my family to ask me about it#like in my head i'll be going 'guys. come on. ask me about it this is so interesting there's a Tidbit of Trivia to be shared'#but you couldn't pay me to just. bring it up on my own. cause i'm self-conscious about talking about my interests XD#or there's a video i love and find really cool and i'll just be mentally willing them to watch it XD#like in my head 'look guys look at this one. dallon's doing A Thing š¤Æ he's so cool and cute and charming how are you guys not paying#attention???? look at him!!! this video is so cool ā¤ļø'#or if a video i specifically love is on and they TALK OVER IT a little bit of my soul dies#like i'm begging them in my head to stay SILENT cause this one is SO GOOD and i need to pay FULL ATTENTION TO IT#but yeah i'm normal about those bands. totally normal š#(also i love my family so so much and i'm not mad at them!! i know they're not as into it as i am. i just. wish they were XD kinda.#nah they're fine the way they are it's okay that they aren't paying 100% of their attention to dallon and his music. they've got other#stuff going on! and other interests! and i respect that š©·)#dru vents#sure i'll add that tag too why not
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the only irl friend I have that I feel comfortable actually talking about the things I enjoy with just insulted me for gushing about smth to her over snap last night and now I want to cry
#this is going in the tags bc itās stupid but itās making me sad so#the only irl friend I have that I actually felt comfortable sharing my interests with just made fun of me#for gushing to her about smth over snap last night#and Iām at work rn so I canāt even cry bc in a few minutes Iām back out on the floor#but just like. I think I have rsd (especially around my interests and then my intelligence but thatās not pertinent here)#so Iāve never really been super open about what things interest me bc when I get made fun of for it or those things get insulted#It really hurts#the only people Iāve really felt comfortable opening up to are like. Sid obv and then this one friend of mine#bc the two of us found out we shared some interests and started like. telling each other about other things we like#Iād tell her about my silly little tv shows and podcasts and sheād tell me about the movies and books she was into#and Iāve explained to her before how Iāve never really been comfortable enough to talk about that shit and how I appreciated her being kind#and not insulting me like other people have in the past#but today Iām sitting on break and watching the replies she sent me and one of them is just a clip in response to my video from last night#where she just goes āgirl I literally donāt careā (and this was not in a joking way like that was her response#and it was in a tone that implied āso shut up about itā)#and like I get it! I am often not interested in the things that people tell me about! but I try to be earnest and engaged#and I can understand loving smth and wanting to share it with others! and how it sucks when people are then mean about it!#like when she tells me about a teen drama romance book or sends me instagram reels of cake decorating I try to respond with enthusiasm!#bc while the content may not interest me I like hearing about the things she enjoys and Iām glad she feels open to telling me about stuff!#but now I donāt want to share shit with her anymore bc this has given me a huge spike in anxiety and I feel like shit#idk. itās stupid but it sucks#vent#ig
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