#and i KNOW...... that if i just manage to do it once then ill be able to go back by myself. and not be freaked out
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midnite-c6 Ā· 2 days ago
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After reading ur patient!namgyu fanfic I was just wondering if you could pretty please w a cherry on top write a fic about Seowan !! Doesnt have to be doctor x patient, I just need more fics w my beloved Seowan šŸ”„šŸ”„ have a great day/noon/night!
i haven't seen any fics about seo-wan, it makes me so sad, but here's oneDJFH also, i added squid game tags because i want more nam-gyu lovers to see roh jaewon's character in daily dose of sunshine!! FIRST NON SQUIDGAME FIC .. my fav schizo TT.
kim seo-wan x reader !! <3 warnings: fluff , angst ?! , mentions of mental illness </3
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恤ā ļ½”ā ā˜† he's your study buddy!! both of you couldn't pass the exams the first time and you guys bonded over that. the two of you would sit next to each other when the professors lecturing about a lesson, since you both share the interest of being determined in passing the exams this year, there wouldn't be alot of talking during a lecture, but afterwards he's actually quite talkative!
he would also share his notes, giving you a bunch of sticky notes, all of them would have silly random doodles and small comments about how "you can do it!"
you manage to even hang out with him after classes ..which still includes studying, but you told him he needs to let lose, even for a little while. eating noodles in those small shops on the sidewalk, visiting libraries, and if you feel like your falling behind in studies, he would share the other side of his headset, making you listen to the lecture he found on youtube.
a new store would open up right next to the university, because the lessons were tiring and obsessing over the tests is unhealthy, the two of you decide to explore. it was actually a computer-shop.
since then, it's been you and seo-wan's new hobby, to play videogames for hours after lectures, how you were practically his pocket healer, how you two can't play alone without the other right by their side.
this newly-shared interest has gotten you two alot closer, you'd even ask him out, gratefully, the feelings are mutual, kim seo-wan is a simple man. now there'd be long sessions of kissing inside his small apartment, cosplaying, the two of you didn't have alot of money, but this was enough.
video games became a part of your life, one to escape reality. but unfortunately, this hit a little bit harder for kim seo-wan. you'd notice how he wouldn't take the time to study anymore. of course, as the concerned lover you are, you would remind him all the time, but he just wouldn't budge.
his parents were nice, they'd always treat you like you were family, even cooking dinner or lunch for you whenever you come over. since you haven't seen seo-wan in awhile, you'd ask them, only to find out your boyfriend has been sent to a psychiatric unit.
you would visit him everyday, telling him about your day, and asking about his. his day was filled with thinking of you, playing ping-pong with the other patients, and this fantasy world he lives in. but whenever you were too busy to visit, he'd be extra depressed inside the hospital and says he has ran out of mana. </3
you were always intrigued whenever he would tell you about his visions. his stories contain that you were truly his 'mediator', and that you're there in his life to save him. "this is very unprofessional, oh my dear.. mediator, but i'm inlove with you, for you make me look forward to explore even the darkest caves or the highest mountains." he'd take your hand to place a soft kiss on-top. he had forgotten your previous relationship before, atleast he still loves you in the new world he's living in.
you'd end up taking the test without him, but you'd never talk about it in the hospital, you know he needs more time.
in the end, you two agree upon each other to fight the fire dragon together, whatever the future may hold. because, as he confidentally says: "once i've saved up enough mana and leveled up all my armor, i choose you to come with me. you're the only one i can trust in defeating the fire dragon. i will protect you with all my life, my dear mediator!"
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i'm sobbing just thinking about this bye ā˜¹ļøā˜¹ļøā˜¹ļø was gonna do nsfw parts too as i usually do but like i was too up in my feelings LMAOFHBRK trust im gonna post sum nsfw story next šŸ¤žšŸ»
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hannahssimblr Ā· 2 days ago
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Astrid,Ā 
Hope you got my postcard from Phuket, and that the Bangkok one shows up, eventually. Maybe it is actually lost, like maybe Iā€™m doing something wrong at the post office. Itā€™s fine if they all go into the abyss. I am writing just to write, because it feels romantic or whatever. You probably hate the idea of this. I could just text you. I texted you forty-five minutes ago. Still miss you.Ā 
Weā€™re in Phi Phi now. Islands, very beautiful. I bet you already know about them, but Iā€™d never heard about this place before I came here. The landscape is kind of mental, like giants made it. Weird to look at. We went out on a little boat yesterday to see the sights. Jonas jumped off and swam, and I did not. My tattoo is still healing. Stupid fucking thing. I waved over a boat of girls and told them Jonas was saying he fancied them, and then he got annoyed with me, because he wasnā€™t saying that, and he was embarrassed. I think he should learn to talk to women without wanting to die, and he says I think about women too much, that Iā€™m too invested and I should think about something else. History, philosophy, whatever. Why would I when there are women like you on the earth?
At night, instead of going out and drinking, we go to bed early, in our bunks, him on the top, me below like always, and he tells me all this shit about the Suez canal, or what the Falklands war was all about, since I was stupid enough to ask a follow up question once. Then I fall asleep to escape the boredom. We get up at six and do activities, then. Lots of walking. My body hurts.Ā 
Jonas finally tried those scorpions he was banging on about, and now heā€™s sick, btw. Food poisoning. I donā€™t really know how to take care of him, except coming back to the hostel every few hours, making sure he has water. Until heā€™s better, I guess Iā€™m just wandering around on my own. Luckily, itā€™s nice to look at. Maybe today Iā€™ll swim with my arm out of the water.Ā Running out of space. Love and miss you can't wait to see you.
xxx Jude.Ā 
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I snap open the lid of a bottle of water and carry it into the hostel room. It smells bad there, but Iā€™ve stopped saying it, because it makes Jonas look like heā€™s about to cry. Heā€™s curled up on his bunk, a complexion like curdled yoghurt, as a chink of morning light spills through the blinds and over his shivering body. Mostly naked. Too hot, then too cold, then sipping water, then throwing it up. I hover in the doorway.Ā 
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ā€œIā€™ve water,ā€ I say, and he just stares. Resigned, half-dead, maybe. ā€œShould you go to hospital or something, do you think?ā€
ā€œNo, I feel slightly better.ā€
ā€œOh, okay. Do you want the water, or?ā€
ā€œYes. Bring it to me.ā€
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I approach him like a leper, not sure why, as Iā€™m fully aware heā€™s not contagious, but itā€™s been ten days since Iā€™ve thrown up, and Iā€™d like to maintain my healthy aura. He regards me with bleary eyes as I back away. ā€œIt is good you are an artist and not a nurse.ā€
ā€œYeah, I donā€™t know. Iā€™m not so good with illness.ā€
ā€œEven though you are always ill.ā€ A tentative sip from the bottle. ā€œYou went out this morning?ā€
ā€œTo the post office.ā€
ā€œAnother postcard to Astrid.ā€
ā€œYes.ā€
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I can tell he wants to laugh but lacks strength, managing only a feeble wheeze. ā€œIs she missing you as much as you are missing her?ā€
ā€œNo, I donā€™t think so. Sheā€™s much better at distance.ā€
ā€œSheā€™s an independent person.ā€
ā€œYeah.ā€
ā€œTell me what she is doing today.ā€
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ā€œItā€™s Wednesday, so probably going to reformer pilates. Then sheā€™s supposed to meet a friend from university for lunch. After that, I donā€™t know. Something spontaneous and thrilling, probably.ā€
ā€œAnd you?ā€
ā€œWhat about me?ā€
He manages a watery smile. ā€œYouā€™ll be doing nothing again today? Missing her?ā€
ā€œI was thinking I might wade into the sea, actually. Keep walking out until I disappear, wailing after Astrid like the pathetic little freak I am.ā€
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ā€œItā€™s Wednesday?ā€
ā€œYes, Wednesday.ā€
ā€œI signed up for something today.ā€
ā€œWell, I donā€™t think youā€™ll be going, by the cut of you.ā€
ā€œNo,ā€ giving up on the water for now, he rolls onto his back, watching insects congregate around the plastic light fixture. ā€œYou could go in my place. Itā€™s aā€¦ meditation thing.ā€
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I pull a face. ā€œMeditation? That thing where you sit cross-legged and go like ā€˜omā€™?ā€ I demonstrate, but feel bad for making him laugh. Apparently a bit painful for him.Ā 
ā€œYes,ā€ he says. ā€œKind of. You might find value in it.ā€
ā€œIs that the kind of guy you think I am? With like, dirty feet and harem pants?ā€
ā€œSince I am the one who signed up, is it the kind of person you think I am?ā€
ā€œNot far off.ā€
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ā€œWell, meditation has many benefits. Itā€™s not just for the dirty-feet-squad. Itā€™s good for people who suffer with various mental health concerns, and people who have racing thoughts they cannot stop and such things. Maybe it will inspire you to stop thinking about womenā€™s breasts.ā€
I scoff. ā€œWhy would I do a thing like that?ā€
ā€œSo you can think of more productive things that will inform you, and grow your mind rather than rotting it away.ā€
ā€œLike the Falklands war, for instance.ā€
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ā€œYes, like the Falklands war,ā€ he says, suddenly animated. ā€œThank you for saying that. Or the targeting of Libyan migrant workers on suspicion of being mercenaries byā€”ā€
I take a brisk and decisive step out of the room. ā€œWell! Glad youā€™re feeling better, Jonas. See you later. Keep drinking that water, et cetera.ā€ I swing the door shut and amble away, down the hostel hallway and back to the beach, rearing for another day of nothing, bored senseless by the edge of a lonely ocean.
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By: Andrew Doyle
Published: Jan 21, 2025
Day one. Itā€™s already started. ā€˜Elon Musk appears to make back-to-back fascist salutes at inauguration rallyā€™ claims theĀ Guardian. ā€˜Elon Musk accused of giving ā€œNazi saluteā€ at Trump inauguration celebrationā€™ says theĀ Independent. The activist media are positively priapic with glee that Donald Trumpā€™s most powerful ally just publicly endorsed Hitler live at his inauguration. Except of course that didnā€™t happen. And we know it didnā€™t happen because we do not have cabbages for heads. Letā€™s just hypothetically suppose for one moment that MuskĀ isĀ a clandestine fascist, one so ingenious and Machiavellian that he has managed to inveigle his way into the White House and is now poised to initiate the Fourth Reich. Does any sentient human being suppose for one moment that such an evil genius would now accidentally reveal his scheme to millions of people live on television?
Nobody believes this, of course. Or if they do, they should be supervised at all times, especially around cutlery. That goes for Rex Huppke atĀ USA Today, who has published a piece entitled ā€˜Elon Muskā€™s ā€œodd-lookingā€ salute sure looked like a ā€œSieg heilā€ to meā€™. Perhaps it does. But I could have sworn that I saw the face of David Hasselhoff in my spinach frittata yesterday, and yet Iā€™m pretty sure thatā€™ll be the old pareidolia playing tricks on me again. If I were as literal-minded as Huppke, Iā€™d probably assume that The Hoff had actually found a way to invade my breakfast and call an exorcist or something.
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Within an hour of Huppkeā€™s article being posted online, the following note was appended: ā€˜This column was updated to add new informationā€™. God knows what defamatory nonsense that hit-piece contained before I got around to reading it. The media class still hasnā€™t quite grasped that falsely smearing someone as a Nazi is libellous, and that perhaps someone like Musk has the financial means to do something about it. (Also at the end of the article we have this little nugget: ā€˜FollowĀ USA TodayĀ columnist Rex Huppke on Blueskyā€™. That explains quite a lot.)
Iā€™m starting to think that avoiding libel should be included on the first day of any basic journalism course, given how often we see media outlets posting lies and then having to frantically apologise for it. And while theyā€™re at it, the course should probably also include a session on why male rapists, paedophiles and murderers shouldnā€™t be referred to as ā€˜sheā€™ and ā€˜herā€™. Just a thought.
While I would usually be prepared to concede that Huppke might just be as simple-minded as he seems, thereā€™s something about his article that suggests otherwise. If he genuinely believed that Musk was giving a Nazi salute, why did he have to misrepresent the story? Not once in his piece does Huppke mention the context for the admittedly ill-advised gesture. Musk said to the audience, ā€˜my heart goes out to youā€™, which is why he struck his heart and mimed throwing it out to the crowd. He then turned and did it again, and the meaning is perfectly clear when the clip is seen in its entirety:
Now look at the clip that was being shared online by Muskā€™s detractors.
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We have seen this kind of dishonesty so often, and it simply never works. The internet has certainly enabled the media to spread this misleadingly edited clip, but it also enables us to check its authenticity. And when people release that they have been lied to, the inevitable outcome is resentment. This is why throwing the word ā€˜Naziā€™ around as though it has no meaning other than ā€˜someone I vaguely dislikeā€™ is not an endearing or astute way to behave.
Naturally, Democratic politicians have been quick to exploit the situation as much as the press. Jerry Nadler, Representative for the 12th District of New York, jumped on to X to post his verdict:
ā€˜I never imagined we would see the day when what appears to be a Heil Hitler salute would be made behind the Presidential seal. This abhorrent gesture has no place in our society and belongs in the darkest chapters of human history. I urge all of my colleagues to unite in condemning this hateful gesture for what it is: antisemitism.ā€™
Thankfully, there have been some voices of reason. The Anti-Defamation League put out a sensible statement in an effort to subdue all the frenzied mutual masturbation of the Bluesky clan:
ā€˜It seems that Elon Musk made an awkward gesture in a moment of enthusiasm, not a Nazi salute, but again, we appreciate that people are on edge. In this moment, all sides should give one another a bit of grace, perhaps even the benefit of the doubt, and take a breath.ā€™
Musk and Trump have their political opponents; that much is obvious and all for the good. But given all the histrionic hogwash about ā€˜Nazisā€™ and ā€˜fascistsā€™ during the run-up to the last election, I was hoping they might have all grown up a little. As I say, itā€™s absolutely clear that this strategy is wholly ineffective. The public are capable of reading history books. They understand that Nazis generally donā€™t pay visits to Auschwitz to learn about the horrors of the Holocaust and lay wreaths at memorial services there, as Musk did last year. They also are unlikely to be seen dancing to ā€˜YMCAā€™ with the Village People.
So once more for the hard of thinking in the media:Ā calling people Nazis doesnā€™t work anymore. Itā€™s not only unethical, it virtually guarantees that the very people you donā€™t want to be in power will win their elections. By all means, criticise Musk and Trump as much as you like. Those in powerĀ mustĀ be criticised; itā€™s essential for any functioning democracy. But lying about them and smearing them as fascists only lets the public know that youā€™re not to be trusted.
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It's all so fucking tedious.
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You don't hate legacy media enough. You think you do, but you don't.
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autism-autobot Ā· 22 hours ago
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Flower of a Poisonous Seed Part 21
Part 20:
The only thing written on the whiteboard in the Demon Bull King's study was the word "flowers" in Nezha's handwriting.
The Demon Bull Family, Nezha, and Li Jing were trying to come up with what they'd do for Wukong's 7,000th birthday.
It wasn't as easy as they'd hoped.
For one thing, Wukong still hadn't fully recovered from surgery, and it was unclear as to whether or not he would recover in time for his birthday activities. Another thing to consider was that Wukong would still be sick even if he did manage to recover from the surgery in time.
And even then, they still weren't sure what Wukong would like to do for his birthday.
RS: Why can't we just ask him?
PIF: Because we're his family, and we ought to do something nice for him. He's been such a joy in each of our lives, and we ought to show him we care.
RS: But doesn't Uncle already know how much we care about him?
Nezha: This is Wukong we're talking about.
RS: Fair point. But what even are we going to do? "Flowers" isn't much to go off of.
Jing: Why can't we just throw a gala in his name and call it a day?
Nezha: Because, Father, Wukong gets far too anxious in crowds for us to even consider throwing any sort of party for him.
PIF: Poor baby, he got so nervous when my husband and I took him out to eat a few months back.
DBK: My brother wouldn't let go of my fur the whole time we were there. He could barely even speak up enough to order himself a salad, he was so nervous.
Nezha: Public outings are off the table, so is there anything else any of you can think of. I can only think of things we can do around the house, and Demon Bull King can't even fit inside my place. Wukong specifically requested that he be involved.
RS: My only ideas involve cake.
Jing: What kind of cake?
RS: Flower themed cake, obviously.
DBK: What kind of flowers?
RS: Um... the... regular kind?
PIF: We're going to have to do better than that for Wukong.
Nezha: Agreed. In the meantime, we can consider the flavor of the cake. What would be the point of the cake if not to eat it?
DBK: Yes, but what flavor?
Jing: Peach, of course.
Everyone else: NO!
Jing: Why not? He loves peaches!
Nezha: That was before his illness caused him to vomit whenever he consumed one. Citric acid doesn't sit well with him.
Jing: Oh. That's unfortunate.
RS: I once offered him a peach without knowing, and my poor uncle cried so hard.
Jing: Okay, so nothing peach related. Is there any fruit he can consume that he does like?
Nezha: Coconuts, apples, watermelon, raspberries, blueberries, any type of berry really...
RS: Did you memorize all his favorite foods?
Nezha: *smiles and shrugs* I love him very much, is all.
Jing: *raises eyebrow*
Nezha: Ugh, we're still just friends, Father. You can love someone platonically, you know.
RS: Raspberry cake sounds lovely!
DBK: And coconut shavings would make a good topping.
PIF: What about the frosting? What flavor should that be?
Nezha: Chocolate, maybe?
DBK: We may have to come back to that one.
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Wukong wakes up in his recovery room to a certain dark-furred monkey sleeping with his head against his chest.
"I thought you were supposed to be monitoring me, silly."
Macaque had visited Wukong in the hospital soon after hearing about the surgery. Wukong never expected Macaque to be so worried about him.
It was during that time that they managed to catch up and come to be on better terms with each other.
Wukong being hospitalized gave them the opportunity to sit down and talk about subjects long overdue. Sorries, praises, and "I missed you"s were said by both monkeys.
They even talked about where to go from there.
"Caque, I don't want us to be an us again. I don't want to be an us with anyone for that matter. I'm done with that. I don't want to give myself away to anyone who isn't him. I'm sorry."
"It's okay, I get it. I... I just wish I appreciated you when I had you... and hadn't rejected you way back when. Maybe this *gestures to Wukong's bandages* wouldn't be happening if I didn't."
"Maybe it's a good thing you did."
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PIF: MACAQUE!!!!!!!!!
Mac: *jolts awake* AAAAAAAAH!!!!! What??? What is it???!!!!
PIF: YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE MONITORING WUKONG!!!!!!!!!!
Mac: AAAAAAAAH!!!! I'm sorry, I didn't mean to fall asleep!!!!
PIF: *raises fan to hit him*
Mac: *shadow teleports away*
Part 22:
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ninakoll Ā· 3 days ago
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For comics, what is your work process like? How do you get from idea to a finished comic?
HELLOOOO OAAA omg this is a tough nut to crack as im a pretty chaotic writer in that way...... i think it depends whether i'm creating longform or shortform, i actually recently talked abt this elsewhere so i can bring an example based on the sylvanian discourse comic as shortform! long post with sketch pages and thumbnails etc ahead, ill put it under a cut! šŸ§”šŸ§”
usually i start by jotting down really loose ideas which i do in my native language; ill translate it for you but i sent myself a mad scientist-esque message that went like: "kohaku giggling at his phone, rinne asking what's so funny and kohaku tells them that love assigned them sylvanian families creatures, and shows them. niki's is obvious, everyone agrees. same with kohaku's, plus rinne does pleading face emoji at how cute it is. rinne's critter could get criticism on being uncool? google. himeru's reaction to his own is no way.. himeru is this one and shows a pic on his phone to which everyone is like ..:3 himeru we didn't know you'd thought about this already but himeru just demands everyone to agree with his choice more than aira's. aira later gets a text from kohaku that himeru didn't agree and aira is PISSED"
sdfsdfdklhs so this was my script, as you see the story changed a little while thumbnailing bc i figured out a funnier way to write it; + i cut the scene change for pacing reasons and constrained the ending into one panel with texts on a screen...! then i had to start finding the critters to assign them, i presented my assignments to friends to check if im accurate or out sailing:D:D mwah mwah thank you to my council of love
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next step was writing dialogue which i did while sketching the pages super loosely as little thumbnails, i like to get my layouts solidified when thumbnailing too and i usually do my cleanups straight on the scaled up thumbnails. when i write longform i usually thumbnail out more than 6 pages at once to see how the pages flow and write loose mad scientist type scripts chapter by chapter. i rly do miss working on longform comics šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ (my webcomic FLFR became abandoned bc i deleted my twitter years ago and realized later that my only way of accessing my webtoons account was thru twitter. customer support said its gone forever so šŸ‡«.)
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as you see in this example i rly like to have my text flow and kind of lead the reader's eye thru the action... i think all comic artists have different approaches to certain things but i like loose and dynamic paneling very much; it's so much fun to play around with!! i'm also so so pleased that people noticed in the comic how kohaku was becoming more and more excited and confident with every showing, it was a little difficult to figure out how to make a repetitive and essentially very boring action (someone holding up their phone) work in comic format without feeling copypasted or trite. more thumbnail examples from my sketchbook for the rinniki comic (i like that i wrote notes for myself on top of drawings, like "Ć¼ldine" to refer to the panel being a wide shot:DD wonderful overlap of storyboarding and comic work!!):
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overall i like writing comics since you can add endless details. what makes comics work for me is giving up on being a perfectionist or you will never finish a comic. one finished comic is better than the perfect comic in your head because you'll have the experience and free space in your head to write another comic, instead of the first one stewing in your mind. :D and so on!! be bold, don't be scared to draw ugly, and draw bad comics. and definitely write it with an audience in mind, except the audience is 50 versions of you and what you enjoy/like most!!
i started my first longform comic in high school and idk how but i managed to finish it, it's not a great comic, but i'm proud that it's done and it taught me a lot. same for FLFR which i hope i can rewrite/redraw some day since it's a story i still want to tell and the characters are rly near and dear to my heart, but i think i totally got burnt out from juggling work, comics and things going on in my life at the time :( surprisingly i also enjoyed working on a comic project where the client wrote the script and had character designs ready but mainly because the client's script writing style was similar to mine which at times was like "idk they fight and something funny happens here"
thank you for this ask!! everyone start drawing comics NOWW šŸ‘ŠšŸ’„
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riddlers-left-buttcheek Ā· 1 day ago
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Holy damn that's a lot of text, thank you so much for putting that amount of thought into this! šŸ™ˆ
On communication:
Yeah, I wanna start off with commissions for personal use, and eventually get into commercial ones. Email communication seems pretty good actually, then I can have everything more organized and not overlook requests. I'll definitely get back to you on website and portfolio tips (once I even have enough finished works to showcase) thanks for offering!
On Pricing:
Ooo some price examples would be amazing, and the nonrefundable deposit is also pretty smart.
I've worked at a logo design company in management for a while (never again lol). We handled things much differently there, my boss basically had his apprentice employees teach him how to run his company, it was all over the place. And we gave away 12 free logo examples to each client, which was absolutely absurd. And then he'd complain that we put in all this effort for nothing šŸ¤¦ā€ā™‚ļø
That's also why I'm asking for advice, even though I've worked in this branch before, but it was just chaos all the time. And the clients - my god. Felt like all the worst people in my country decided to have their logo made by us. The price was always too high for them (despite us being the cheapest logo design company in the area at the time), complained that the results didn't come in fast enough, some clients were on their 30th revision, and they almost always wanted to converse over the phone to yell at you for not doing your job right, often over speaker in their car while driving. That's pretty much the reason why I'm so unsure about most of the process, and a little bit intimidated, because that's what I had to deal with for 4 years šŸ«”
Oh artist union sounds cool! Thanks for the tip, I'll check if there's something like that in my country. About the contract: omg that would be so nice if you could send me the base version, thanks for offering! Riiight, licensing fees exist, I think we also charged 50 flat back then.
On payment:
Damn, I didn't know about the friends/family thing on PayPal :o
About taxes, where I live you're allowed to make up to 800ā‚¬, past that you have to tax it. But yeah, I'll worry about that when I get there, but it's still good to know about this stuff beforehand.
On Slots / Time
Yea, since I work slower in general, I'll probably calculate more time in, additionally to the time I think I need. Damn, I'm also chronically ill, which is also one of my concerns. The biggest issue are my chronic migraine that trigger really easily, so sometimes I'll be bedridden for a week. But I can probably let my clients know beforehand, I'm sure they'll understand, like with personal projects, right? Leaving some buffer reminds me, now that you say it, we used to do that at the logo design company as well, always telling clients it would take 2-3 weeks, when we actually had the first concepts in 1 week. And then the clients would be happy, sometimes, that they receive the designs sooner. Totally forgot about that, thanks for reminding me!
On Changes:
Omg thanks for the link! That's a really interesting way to go about commissions :o
On Scams:
You're riiiiight, hadn't thought of a form! That'll actually help a lot, then I don't have to do research on them and check if they're legit or not.
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Thank you SO MUCH for all this advice, I'll study it thoroughly šŸ™ˆšŸ’•āœØ
It's so cool to also get insight into the business side of things. I will absolutely take this seriously, since I eventually want to be an artist full-time, because I really can't see myself anywhere else with my illnesses and disability.
I'll definitely visit your website and slide into your DMs for all the examples and stuff you offered, maybe also ask some more questions if anything comes up, if that's OK with you.
Again, thank you so much, it's so kind of you to take the time to write such a detailed reply, it helped me a lot! šŸ¤—šŸ©·
Commission Advice? (pls help)
Hey heyy
I wanna start doing commissions, but I've never done it before, and have no idea where to start. So I thought I'd make this post and ask any artist, that would like to share how they go about commissions, for advice.
I've summed up some of the questions that came to mind below the cut. I would want to take requests outside of Tumblr as well, just fyi. I'm well aware that most of what I ask depends on the individual artist and their works, and that there won't be a single formula to follow - I'd just like to gain a bit of perspective and see how different people go about these things, so that I can get an idea for myself.
Any helpful links to other posts or websites on this topic are much appreciated šŸ’š
Replies to this in DMs are fine too ā˜ŗļø
Questions below ā¬‡ļø
Communication?
Do you text with the client entirely through Tumblr (etc.) DMs, or do you use a different platform (like Discord, WhatsApp)?
Pricing?
My biggest issue is how much to charge for an art piece. I know it depends on multiple factors, like what type of drawing it is, is it lineart only, is it in colour, etc. Then there's also taxes. I've looked at a couple artists, but the prices vary so widely, and I have no idea where to put myself on that spectrum. I also have a huge problem knowing my worth, which definitely doesn't help.
Payment?
Which payment method do you use? My first thought was PayPal, I also read that many people use Stripe (that I never heard of before my research). And when do you ask for the transaction to be made? I've seen 50% upfront, the other 50% once it's done a lot. Some say to not give the customer the finished piece until you've received 100% of the money.
Slots?
How do you decide on how many you have available? Do have a fixed number or just take requests until you think you can't take any more?
Time?
How long does it take you to finish a request? Again, I know it depends on many many things. A couple examples would already help a lot.
Updates? Previews?
Do you give the client in-between updates on your progress? Do you send a preview before sending the finished piece? I've read that, before sending the final file, you should always have the images in low quality and with a watermark over it.
Changes?
If the client is dissatisfied with the final piece, do you allow changes? If yes, how many, where do you draw the line? Do you charge extra? Also, what do you do if the client doesn't like the entire thing?
Licensing
I absolutely suck at this, my brain just doesn't want to comprehend legal language. So most I've read on this, I still don't fully understand, but probably because I've never put it to practice. Is there a specific type of licensing you use? What do you tell your client on what they can do, but more importantly, can't do, with the art you create for them?
Final files?
In which file format do you send the finished art piece to the client? I was thinking pdf, maybe jpg and png? Also, how do you send it? In DMs? Per email?
Scams?
Also one of the more important questions for me, since I get paranoid about these things easily (and turn out to be right most of the time). Any advice on scams? I've read Instagram is filled with them, and to best avoid requests over Insta alltogether. Any experiences you've had, anything I should definitely look out for?
Any other advice?
Anything at all. I'm probably definitely overthinking this and it's most likely really not that complicated, but I'm a very anxious, insecure and paranoid person. šŸ™ˆ So I'll take any and all advice I can get.
Thank you šŸ¤—šŸ’š
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puppppppppy Ā· 10 months ago
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id fumble him so bad
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seiwas Ā· 3 months ago
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sellllllll it's meeeeee. hehehehehehehehehhehe
so for ur writing exercises.... deku + light? please? pretty please?
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heheh heheh hehe niku. this will be the death of me. me writing izuku for the first time šŸ„² i will only do this for you </3
contains: established relationship, spoilers for the end of the manga, aged up deku but sometime in between the final outcome (he doesn't get the h*** s*** from bakugo yet), mentions of sex and scars
deku + light
izuku only sleeps with the lights off.
it isn't uncommon; many people you know can't sleep with even just a sliver of light turned on somewhere in the room. but the difference with izuku, you learn, is not that he's unable to stand the lightā€•it's that he refuses to.
you quickly pick up on it the first few times he sleeps over.
he fidgets in bed, pretty badly, actually. the nightlight you sleep with glows a warm yellow, illuminating the side of your face and coating him in its afterglow. you chalk it up to nerves, how he pulls at his sleeves and adjusts his position constantly; he is, after all, one of the most anxious people you know.
and this relationshipā€•it's new. heck, even you feel a little jittery with his arm wrapped around you.
the rhythmic tapping on your hip only increases pace. you don't think he realizes it, so your hand gently reaches for his, intertwining your fingers as you turn around in his arms.
he's close, nearly touching you nose-to-nose; the proximity leaves you fuzzy, a little ticklish, so you giggle, a soft "oops," as the freckles dusting his face almost glisten under the warm light.
"hi," you whisper, meeting his eyes; they stare back at you wide in surprise, "can't sleep?"
he looks almost guilty at your question, as if youā€™ve caught him with the one thing he's been trying to keep from you.
"justā€”" his voice comes out louder than intended, prompting him to chuckle nervously as he readjusts his volume, "just winding down, sorry."
you inch closer, nuzzling his nose lightly, "it's okay."
"did i wake you?" he asks, cheeks flushing pink as his eyebrows furrow in immediate concern. his expression is something caught between stifling a grin and feeling sorry.
you shake your head against the pillow you share, strands of your hair tangling with his. "just winding down," you tease, watching as his gaze turns softer, eyelids drooping heavier.
sometimes, you think, izuku holds the world in his eyesā€•a deep, dark green, the color of life. most times, they look at you with wonderment, bright and alive; photos from inko tell you they're the eyes of his inner child.
on nights like this one, however, they hide a depth in them weighted by what you can only assume is time, and all that has happened to him in such a short span of it.
you try your best to understand what lies beneath them, knowing full well he'll never tell you outright what truly bothers him.
"is it the light?" you bring up, some time after laying in silence.
"hm?" he clarifies.
"do you have a hard time sleeping with the nightlight?"
his eyes widen briefly once more, as if shocked that you've caught him again. these split second reactions are ones you've learned to be attentive to when it comes to izuku.
"no," he tries to lie, but you know better as you turn to your nightstand and reach for its switch, "you don'tā€“"
"it was hurting my eyes," you quickly make up an excuse, tucking yourself closer under his chin as you cut off his attempt to deny it again.
finding out that the light was the problem was the easy partā€”
you'd begun to notice much earlier on that izuku was barely rested on the nights he'd spend at your place. it was only when your old nightlight broke that you began to notice him waking up much later than you did, groggily rousing from a deep sleep.
ā€”what was hard, was figuring out why.
at first, you suspected it was his scars.
"s-sorry, it's notā€”" he'd warned you, right as your hands gripped the hem of his shirt the first time you were about to have sex, "ā€”it's not nice."
you didn't care though; you still don't care, and you've made that abundantly clear to him since. you love izuku and all his partsā€•all the nicks and jaggedy pieces of skin that make up who he is.
when you eventually ask him about it, with a request that he be honest with you for once, he tells you that it is and it isn'tā€•the reason why he exclusively sleeps with the lights off, that is.
it's an odd, comforting relationship he has with his bodyā€”that he is simultaneously grateful and sorry for how its become a canvas, both painted and marred to symbolize japanā€™s historic last stand.
you find out the real reason when you catch him staring at his hands.
he does it often, when he thinks you aren't lookingā€”his fists bunched up in the same way he used to watch the power of one for all course through his fingertips; the same way he used to prepare them in battle.
thereā€™s a faraway look in his eyes that lingers, you noticeā€”a little wistful if anything.
ā€œdo you miss it?ā€ you finally ask. he gives you the same shocked look he does every time, as if heā€™s been caught with a secret heā€™s been trying to hide.
heā€™s learned a fair bit about you now, too, thoughā€”lying to you is futile when youā€™ve perfected reading his truth. he stares at his fists again as you take a seat beside him, moving to give you space. you rest your head on his shoulder gently, waiting.
ā€œsometimes,ā€ he admits, but you know itā€™s an understatement.
ā€œi think about the vestiges a lot. i miss them the most, i think,ā€ he continues, clenching his fists tightly, ā€œi always try to reach out to them, but i guess it doesnā€™t work that way.ā€
ā€œiā€¦ i try to replicate the right conditions every night, butā€¦ā€ then he lets go, stretching his fingers out wide. the scars on the surface ripple through his skin, telling its own story.
you hum, acknowledging what he means. silence sits with the two of you as you take his hand in yours, slowly unfurling his fingers until his palm reveals itself to you. itā€™s rough to the touch, seasoned with hard work and all that heā€™s been through.
ā€œis that why you prefer the dark?ā€ you ask softly, after some time.
it's not often that you stay up later than izuku does. when you do though, you catch him shifting in bed, moving from side-to-side. you pretend you aren't awake, but you hear him mumble their names, dwindling in volume as he dozes off to sleep.
he stares at his palm for a moment before he admits quietly, "yeah." his brows furrow as if contemplating whether to say more, but he shakes his head, dark green strands swaying to the beat of his embarrassed chuckle, "nevermind, it's silly."
"it's not."
you intertwine your fingers, sandwiching his hand between yours. a slight sheen glosses over his eyes as he tilts his head up to look at you. he draws in a breath, before it spills over.
"it's..." he finds the words, and you squeeze his hand in comfort, "it's easier to believe it was all real when the lights are out, and that maybe it can happen again."
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sparklecarehospital Ā· 8 months ago
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Sometimes I wonder how I'm ever gonna be able to work on the other Spinch stories I have, I have so many ideas for things but only so much fixation power
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butchnavi Ā· 3 months ago
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you know as a neurodivergent person I only have two fucking requests of anyone I consider a friend: 1) do not cold shoulder or get aggressively angry with me for something you didn't bother to communicate you had a problem with and 2) do not fucking infantalize me and treat me like a naive fragile broken child who is a burden on everyone in my life. shouldn't be too hard right??? insane how many neurotypicals are fucking incapable of doing the bare fucking minimum
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skunkes Ā· 8 months ago
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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.
#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day#how they're already memories since moments pass so fast#everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever#and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed#it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily#so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day#ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been#the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief#and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately#id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again#like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night#one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys#i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i#hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day
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phagodyke Ā· 3 months ago
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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad šŸ˜
#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man#thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking#mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they#dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done#listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life#i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this#once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i#dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this#ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be#i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about#how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being#given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out#entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please#its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have#to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once#and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general#feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this#but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is#i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired#i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if#i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore#i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr#and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning#my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better#it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood#my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it#cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen#.vent#ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.
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eebie Ā· 3 months ago
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the underwater episode of bojack horseman makes me so SAD ..
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lime-exister Ā· 1 year ago
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Finished Rivulet's campaign the other day so here's a doodle of them!! I'll prolly end up finishing Saint or Gourmand next
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donnyclaws Ā· 1 year ago
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I was gonan make a post apologizing for lack of regular art but I feel like jts already clear im sporadic and in and out of it bc chronic pain and circumstances. So for now I'm gonna hibernate, get my health steady again, deal with money issues, and art will happen when it happens.
#i do feel kind of worn down by it. i wish patreon and commissions didn't feel so taxing even with accommodations ive made for myself#maybe it'll feel better in the future when less is going on but rn it#places this barrier of management in front of art that makes it less relieving to do#cause there's always a part of my brain reminding me it needs to serve a purpose and needs to pay off in some way#which isnā€™t a new feeling for artists obviously. maybe doing it all since hs js also why it's tiring. and patreon changjng the way it does#working part time now too. idk if maybe id like to step back from it#it's abnormal that i worked taht hard and it did help me get out from my parents and stay out. but im also tired ect#idw let people down by not being able to keep up with a self imposed expectation or#be irresponsible and remove sources of income for myself. redbubble inprnt and patreon all suck in ways that bother me hugely#i only really enjoy itch.io at the minute#not to say anything bad abt patrons or commission clients you've all been excessively kind and patient and understanding always#i wish i could make them better i feel like there's no way how it is at the minute is of value compared to my output as an older teen#but yknow. self imposed worry. im just worn out and id like to just make things without the management and the fretting and the#i havent made a comic post for patreon in ages or this or this i havent made a speedpaint or a song or#yadda yadda lmao#sorry for the impromptu ramble#this isnt to say id never do commissions or a store or anything again or i want to not make money off art#god knows i will need to be grinding out comms once im well again but ex#i feel like im getting less and less able to manage it and then putting out less and less#and hoping ill somehow get very healthy and active again one day and make it worth the wait yknow.#it's not a feeling i want my art to carry in me.#part of me and the parent in my brain is saying it'd be selfish to give up income but the rest is like#that's cruel. i want to feel good and healthy
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ryuseitai Ā· 5 months ago
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just rmbred today this old man regular customer said smtg like im 'moving up on [his] list' ok well. you are genuinely one o fmy least favorite customers. I DONT WANNA BE ON YOUR LIST
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