#and how grusome those can look

[kaidatheghostdragon]

Good reveal au, where after learning phantom's identity and realizing the atrocities that the GIW have committed (or alternatively, ethical science au, where they find out the GIW plagarized them), the fenton parents decided to create the 'ultimate ghost-ending weapon' and sell it to the agents.

They go absolutely overboard, describing to the agents in meticulous detail how it evaporates any ghost it hits near-instantly and describing it quite ruthlessly in the blueprints, and soon the GIW have raplaced all their main weapons with the new gun.

Except it doesn't actually kill ghosts. It's the Fenton Bazooka. You know, the one that creates a portable portal to suck the ghost back into the ghost zone? What they actually did was retool it slightly to make it look more grusome than it actually is. They even added a beacon in Phantom's Keep, which all Fenton Bazookas will target when they open a portal, so the ghosts are always delivered to the keep.

From there, Phantom stationed an emergency medical team at the keep to treat the many injured and ragged ghosts that the GIW 'destroyed,' and to explain what just happened.

What they didn't anticipate was that now that the GIW have a mass-produced weapon that they believed would effectively eradicate ghosts, they would go on the offensive. They have a number of cities they've been monitoring but didn't want to get involved in without better tools.

One of those cities is Gotham.

And the Bats are ectocontaminated enough to register as ghosts.

Batman witnessed several of his children get evaporated by green energy weapons within mere moments of each other. He's absolutely gutted. Devastated. They didn’t even stand a chance.

He'll get his revenge, and it's frighteningly easy to track the weapon to private subcontractors. The Doctors Fenton, in Illinois. Their research calls for the genocide of all ghost kind, and apparently, that war started by killing his own children.

His children will not die in vain.

He gets to Amity Park and finds the Engineer's Nightmare of a building that is Fentonworks, but that night, before he can hack through the security and break in, one of the windows opens.

It's one of his kids that he had watched evaporate before his very eyes. They give him a silent signal of one of their identifying security codes and gesture for him to come inside.

Is it a trap? A prank in poor taste? Utterly genuine?

He goes through the window.

All of his dead kids are there, wearing borrowed pajamas and only their dominoes to conceal their identities. Daniel Fenton (son of the Fentons, this is his bedroom, has voiced a few arguments against his parent's views, but still an unknown) is among the crowd of teens and young adults, twirling on an office chair and obnoxiously sipping a capri sun.

"First thing you need to know, Bats," Daniel says after finishing his drink, "is that my parents are absolutely NOT genocidal ectophobic scumbags, and that is the reason why your kids are still alive."

[secretagentsociety]

loves makes people crazy

yandere dragon X madly in love reader

Here's another idea,a yandere dragon like all powerful and scary the villager is scared of him,the king is scared of him,the Wizards and pretty much everyone and their grandmother is scared of him but then there's you,you different breed of a human decides to see him for the first time and say "yes that's my hubby" and the rest is history

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• people often called you crazy, dilusional and others not so nice insults for being still not being married despite hitting the big 2 0 that and also rejecting the local lords and basically anyone who tries to court you

• now just because people say it doesn't mean you HAVE to follow it yk?oh but you did you played their little fantasy of you being crazy so perfectly people were honestly scared for your mental well being,why?you may ask

• well it's because when khum first arrived at the village (I say first but it's really his 100th time terrorising the village) you decide to whisper something that some people might have heard "he's perfect" you said eyes filled with hearts watching him scaring the sht out of the locals

• honestly you're staring so much he could feel you boring holes into his head,curious he looked around for whoever it is that dared to stare at him for so long and BAM! He saw you,at first he thought you're staring at him in contempt or anger maybe both but then you sigh lovingly and waved at him a fools smile placed upon your face

• he had to look around and points at himself just to made sure he even mouthed "m-me? you're talking to me?!" But you blowing him a kiss and winking made it pretty clear it was him,well let's say after that he couldn't help but think about you "what an odd human" he thought

• "oh my god haven't you heard?! The dragons visit has been so frequent lately our village can't keep affording the rebuilding cost!" One of the villagers said,you aren't paying attention but just hearing him coming back more and more made your heart flutter "I know it's a blessing" you sighed melting into the seat as you remembered the first time he talks to you

•well it happened,khum stood Infront of you folding his hand,what is his plans anyway?kidnapping a human all of a sudden,a weird one at that,"human,do you have a name?" He said

• "you can call me yours,and I'll call you mine" you said "how about the name....treasure?no too basic maybe clove?nah um.....oh darling?" he said tilting his head,khum never thought one day he'd witness a human visibly explode and faint but here we was

• it was a rocky start to the relationship,well...rocky as in everything was so perfect it's scary, here's the recap,on day five of your kidnappings you've opened up to how the villagers had been treating you(not that it's hard to make you open up,all he had to do was give you food and call you pet names while stroking your head and bam! you're dumping your entire trauma onto him) and oh boy was he not happy

• now despite everything he's still a classy dragon,he ofcourse had hoarse of treasure but he also had a pretty nice castle he may or may not seize from a royal you don't have to know that tho so moving on,and with a huge castle come servants and with those come soldiers who needs to maintain security,not that he needs any but you know he likes to have thing's completed and that including the castles needs

• now when his subordinates first saw you absolutely gushing on how cute he was they were absolutely shocked,because one he literally look like a demon ripping out people's heart and two this isn't some flower field it's a grusome battle scene yet you couldn't help but blush when his shirt got torn off,you even closed your eyes to savor the moment after a while

• khum really can't understand your fixation on him,is it like his love for you?but even then he acknowledges your weird behaviour but you literally looked at him as if he was a god,not that he minds,he gotta admit that day he kinda wore a shirt that's a couple of size down so when he does some movements that needs intents flexibility his shirt would rip off in some cool cinematic style,it worked,it worked too well

• so apparently his stamina had their limits he'd come to know it last Night after the battle,oh but the details won't be necessary,oh but don't be fooled if he were to actually try you'd be the one to pass out

• now is he dilusional?nope he knows full well that it's not healthy but does he care?nope he's a powerful dragon,are you dilusional?maybe?...idk...probably....yes?.... Well he is cute so I'll give you that

• he is possesive, but it's really hard to show possesive when the person he loved won't look at other people,you will talk to people normally but once he entered your line of sight the other people can forget ever having a conversation with you

• now for the big question does this technically make you a yandere? maybe..yes.

•i feel the need to say he is 100% taller than you, I'm sorry but it's just the rules 乁⁠(⁠ ⁠•⁠_⁠•⁠ ⁠)⁠ㄏ

• yes he has two pp lets move on now

• he had a way of marking you so other beasts knows to back the fuck off it's called biting,the first night you ever discover the chamber of secrets together(wink wink nudge nudge)he bit down on your neck,it leaves a pretty little flower mark that's imbued with his power it's very very very tiny teeny I cannot stress enough how tiny it is so it's safe

• now if you EVER even say someone else is cute then oh boi oh my,now I have established that he is jealous have I?,no?well too bad because he is,and his jealousy doesn't play nice,he will rip out the heart and torture the person over and over and over each time reviving them again and again and put a curse of Resurrection on them only to leave them in a forest of ravaging beasts that has lost their minds to be feasted upon and tortured until he sees them having suffered enough. ಠ⁠︵⁠ಠ Moral of the story? don't just don't say anyone is cute (yes not even babies) (he won't like k.o them but he will like curse them or sum sht )

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on that note good night people

[thevampirearchive]

There’s something I've been meaning to say but I haven't had the words till now. There is something that deeply upsets me about witnessing stories where villains, who are literal killers, fall in love and somehow become good or act outside of what is expected from them. I love love, love is beautfiul, it is powerful and it can truly change a lot. But to sit, and write a killer suddenly go "actually, this one can stay because I am in love for the first time" is such a weird concept to me. Is this happening because as a sociaty we're trying to convince ourselves that deeply disturbed people can be cured by the power of love? That if they just find the right person, they would stop the masacer? or at least no longer feel the need to kill how they were or at least let their person live? And I am not mad at the love, I do belive anyone can fall deeply in love, but my issue is with how it ends. I want to witness the unthinkable — I want to see is exactly what we expect but hoped won't happen, happening. A gut wrenching truth that stays true to who we have been witnessing, despite the "I can change them" dance. And perhaps people hate this idea because they want to belive that anyone can change if only they meet the right one, or that we can change the monsters in our lives with affection, but trust most likly is that they cannot be changed. And I can understand that to some this is then seen as an illusion. "oh then this was never true love", why can the two not exist? Do we not hurt those we love? Maybe not kill them, but someone elses hurt could feel like a small death to me, and vice versa.

Examples, so that you are not confused as to what I am reffering too;

Killing Eve; I stopped watching when Villanelle was shown shooting Eve. It felt true to her character, even if it hurt. She is a killer, we knew that and so did Eve. Regardless of her love, that was what was always going to happen so why were we given additional seaons of this fanatsy of a declawed Villanelle?

Hannibal; It should have ended with the death of Will, and possibly Hannibal consuming him. Didn't Hannibal say that the consumption of Will would somehow join them in a deeper way?Something so disturbing that only could make sense to a serial killing-cannibal. And I would have watched with wide eyes, and gone to sleep staring at the ceiling.

Interveiw With The Vampire; Louis' death in the hand of a Lestat would have made sense, and despite his dramatics, Lestat would have not committed suicide but instead burried himself in deep regret untill he was too numb to his own feelings that he could return to the world of the living. He would have never forgotten Louis, nor what he did, but he would have moved on beause Lestat is not a good person. He's deeply disturbed and Louis knew this. I don't even aknoclege that beatdown episode because Lestat may be a killer, but he's a drama queen first and formost. Louis' death would have been poetic, beautiful and grusom like a greek tragedy without an audiance.

Bonus - Twilight; I could not end without adding my own favorite, and despite this path never being teased to the audiance the same way the other's were, I would have loved the book simply ending because Edward did as he said he would - drained Bella like a Caprisun on a hot summer day. Because what is love agaisnt animalistic urgase (I understand why it is much hotter that he is simply so retsrained and devoted that he resists her, but I'd pay good money for an AU)

At the end of it all, I think want I want is for sociaty to get over the idea that a good woman, love or any form of kindness can change who some people are. Love can do many things - look at crimes of passion! And to some extend I belive that these villain's love were true, possibly not the way we imagine them - which is less so "I love you too" and more so, "wow, finally someone I can manipulate and obsess over. Someone who I can mold, someone who is alone in the world like me" only to realize that is not true.

So why do we make love into what it isnt? Even when the scene is set for us to be shown the truth, writers and the audiance always make the plot lean towards whatever fits so that we can have that "happy ending".

Honorable mentions;

God should have killed Lucifer, I know the bible and christianity is not technically fiction for all, but the idea that he is forgivin but lets the biggest meanness HE CREATED terrorize everybody is evil. Take him out or let somebody else do it homie.

[realcube]

YOU GOT: KEIJI AKAASHI

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ matchup for @veggiesoupdumpling

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ if you would like a matchup, read this!

'i'm a leo!'

𓆩♡𓆪 i'm pretty sure akaashi is a sagittarius

𓆩♡𓆪 which means you are both fire signs :D

𓆩♡𓆪 which usually indicates a very passionate romance

𓆩♡𓆪 anyway here's a quote from some ppl who know a lot more about zodiac than me:

𓆩♡𓆪 'Together, they form a dynamic and fun-loving couple who can make all other signs envious of the greatness of the Leo and Sagittarius love compatibility. With both signs' elements being fire, they might experience the occasional impatience and intolerance of each other's grandeur. But, they will also exhibit endurance.'

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'i'm a big fan of reading, especially when it comes to psychological thrillers like the secret history and classics like jane eyre.'

𓆩♡𓆪 omg i think akaashi is probably a very big reader too

𓆩♡𓆪 i mean, he does become a manga editor post timeskip soo

𓆩♡𓆪 he would really enjoy discussing those sorts of stories with you

𓆩♡𓆪 and i can imagine that being the EXACT sort of literature he reads too??

𓆩♡𓆪 like classics and horror.. and maybe mystery or fantasy too?? but horror n classics are probs his bread n butter

𓆩♡𓆪 yeah i don't really imagine akaashi being a self-help kinda guy or someone who is into those action mangas

𓆩♡𓆪 OMG y'all defo had a meet-cute in the library/bookstore where you reached for the some book

𓆩♡𓆪 and it's so funny bc you were probably both reaching for the same psych horror book and are blushing and stuttering messes and can't even look at each other because your hands almost touched

𓆩♡𓆪 literally being so cute and bashful meanwhile the book you were both reaching for is titled smth crazy like 'the graphic and grusome dismembering of gummy bears in the forest'

𓆩♡𓆪 yes that is how i imagine all psych horror book titled LMAO

𓆩♡𓆪 but yes , that is your meet-cute :3

𓆩♡𓆪 OR maybe you're reading your book at the store/library and akaashi notices bc it's one of his faves n approaches you

𓆩♡𓆪 or vice versa were you approach him

𓆩♡𓆪 although if you were the one to make the first move he'd literally be internally screaming and be sooo flustered

𓆩♡𓆪 just bc like your beauty has caught him off-guard

𓆩♡𓆪 however if he makes the first move at least he has had time to mentally prepare beforehand

𓆩♡𓆪 he is not well versed in the art of talking to baddies okay ?? 😞

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'my love language is acts of service, both from me and from my partner.'

𓆩♡𓆪 tbh this is soooo akaashi coded

𓆩♡𓆪 maybe bc he knows you have a similar taste in books to him, he'd take on the secondary love language of gift giving (like letting you borrow/keep some of the books he has or just buying you some that you've mentioned wanting or that he thinks you'd enjoy)

𓆩♡𓆪 as for words of affirmation, especially early on in the relationship, he probably struggles ot give you compliments in person beyond 'you look nice' because whenever he sees you he is just at a loss for words

𓆩♡𓆪 so to combat that , he would start writing cute messages and slipping them in the books you read

𓆩♡𓆪 he'd try to put then with your book mark but sometimes when he's feeling playful and mischievious he'll put them at a random page

𓆩♡𓆪 so you'll just be reading a book on the bus/before you go to bed then all of a sudden find a note from akaashi with the most eloquent , well-written and sincere compliment you've ever heard

𓆩♡𓆪 he really does have a way with words sometimes

𓆩♡𓆪 then you'll text him like 'omg akaashi you are the sweetest 🥺'

𓆩♡𓆪 however he put that note in your book like.. a week ago .. so he is just like 'i am???'

𓆩♡𓆪 as for acts of service, he's the type to carry your bags , even if you don't think they are too heavy

𓆩♡𓆪 always will drive you places if you need him too , obviously he has important work commitment n stuff but if he's free n able, he will drive you where ever you want to go in a heard beat even if you can drive yourself

𓆩♡𓆪 ESPECIALLY IF IT'S NIGHT

𓆩♡𓆪 bro forgets how to act normal as soon as the sun comes down

𓆩♡𓆪 like if y'all have gone on a date and it's finished at 8 and maybe the sun hasn't even fully gone down yet but it's in the middle of setting

𓆩♡𓆪 he will INSIST on walking you home , or walking you to your car

𓆩♡𓆪 and let's say this is the first date and you say you don't want him to walk you home bc you don't want him to know where you live, he will order you a taxi and wait with you until it arrives

𓆩♡𓆪 and insist you text him when you get home

𓆩♡𓆪 you may think of it as being overprotective, and maybe it's all the horror he's read getting to his head, but akaashi knows how unsafe it is at night time, especially for women and he'd be damned if anything happened to you

𓆩♡𓆪 so waiting with you and staying by your side is the least he can do in his eyes

𓆩♡𓆪 he doesn't even really see it as doing you a favour bc he's benefitting from it too?? like he gets to spend more time with you on the walk / car ride home so why not :)

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for @veggiesoupdumpling: hmm tbh akaashi is the first person i thought of for you ??? soulmate energy??? but if i had to say a different character, it would probably be ushijima

[antimattercontainment]

🩷🩵💔 - for the TMNT ask game!

Thanks for the ask! I'll be drawing from TMNT 2003 and Rise to answer these, as those are the two iterations that I know best. So! In no particular order:

🩷 - Top 3 moments that warm my heart:

TMNT 2003 S02E25: The Big Brawl (Part 3)

Donatello: "Don't even think about touching him!"

At this moment, Donny still suspects that Usagi was the one who poisoned Leo, so he's pretty prickly with our favorite rabbit samurai. I love this scene because it's a great example of Donny being protective of his family. Plus, there's just something about the turtle who's generally regarded as the weakest fighter of his family fiercely protecting the one who's regarded as the strongest.

See the rest under the cut vvv

Rise of the TMNT: S01E15a: Mind Meld

Raph: "Is it my skate-hawks idea? You see, they're hawks! That we strap to ourselves! And then--!"

Leo: "You say the word, I'm ready to go wrangle some hawks!"

This is obviously a silly little moment, but I love that Leo is just immediately ready to support Raph in his plan. Leo really was an excellent right hand man to Raph before he was thrown into leadership (and Raph was thrown out of it).

TMNT 2003 S01E03: Attack of the Mousers

Raph: "This is it! It's been fun, guys."

Mikey: "Even me, Raph?"

Raph: "Even you, Mikey. Especially you."

Raph and Mikey bicker all the time, but their love language for each other is razzing each other. When it comes down to the wire and it looks like they might not make it out alive, Raph is honest in the fact that he is so damn fond of his baby brother, no matter how much he drives Raph crazy.

🩵 - Top 3 moments that make me laugh:

TMNT 2003 S02E25: The Big Brawl (Part 3) (again)

Raph: "WILL! YOU! SHUT! YOUR! TRAP!?!"

Mikey: "Why? Does my talking bother you? Am I distracting you somehow? Making you lose focus? Messing up your concentration?"

What can I say? This episode has The Range. This is just before Mikey defeats Raph in the Battle Nexus, by irritating him badly enough that he gets sloppy. I love how Mikey weaponizes his goofball behavior like this. He is 1000% aware of what he's doing to Raph, and I love it. Especially since Raph went into this fight absolutely certain that he was going to beat Mikey.

Rise of the TMNT S02E02a: Man vs. Sewer

Mikey: "Someone could get really hurt on this."

Mikey: "LET'S SEE HOW FAR IT SWINGS!!!"

I mean... just look at it. It gets me every time 😂

TMNT 2003 S03E02: Space Invaders (Part 2)

Mikey: "So, do these work like Earth grenades?"

Mikey: *pulls the pin on one of the Triceraton's grenades and runs to cover just before he explodes*

There's just something inherently ridiculous about the comic relief character cracking a joke and then grusomely murdering an invading alien soldier. This Triceraton blows up off-screen, but just barely.

💔 - Top 3 moments that make me cry:

TMNT 2003 S04E14: The Ancient One

Leo: "I'm sorry. I did the best I could. I did. The best. I could! There WASN'T! ANY MORE! I COULD HAVE DONE!"

This moment--where Leo is unknowingly fighting a physical manifestation of his guilt--is the amazing resolution to Leo's season 4 PTSD arc. In the previous season's finale, the only way he could think of to keep the Shredder from leaving Earth and going to conquer the stars was to blow up his ship... with his whole family still on it. The Utroms saved them at the last second, but for 13 episodes, Leo has been struggling with the guilt of not being good enough to win at an acceptable cost. This scene is the first time we see him start to forgive himself for that--to recognize that he had done everything he could, and that the fact that there were forces outside of his control wasn't his fault.

Rise of the TMNT: The Movie

Yeah, yeah, obviously when the portal to the Prison Dimension closes, but I mean this exact second. When the camera pans from the New York side of the Technodrome explosion to the Prison Dimension side, the music suddenly gets all quiet. Gone is the gravitas of the deep low brass, and all that's left is a drawn out note by the strings. Yes, they've beaten the Krang, but that doesn't mean that they won. Not in a way that is worth the cost.

TMNT 2003 S03E21: Same as it Never Was

Donny: "My brothers... my poor brothers. This world... this future... it's a nightmare.

I couldn't make a list of top 3 TMNT moments that made me cry without "Same as it Never Was". The part immediately after Donny kills the Shredder always gets me. It should be a triumphant moment, but all of Donny's brothers are dead because of his plan. It isn't anything except solemn. I'm pretty sure SAINW was the original "bad timeline where everyone dies" of TMNT. And Sam Riegel's voice acting here adds so much to it.

[darklordofthesimp]

hello!! uhhHHH HERES TEH MASC!BIRDY DOODLES I BASED THE SCARS P MUCH ENTIRELY ON hopefully-a-decent-personS BIRDY ART REF BECAUSE THOSE LOOK AWESOME BUT KINDA MADE THEM MORE STYLIZED BECAUSE IDK HOW TO DRAW EM GRUSOME,, (I hope that's okay,, if not lmk) :'DD,, I wanna draw sunshine next because all of the fast n furious talk is giving me some really cool ideas I JUST GOTTA GO TRY ONCE I HAVE FREE TIME,,

I kinda just spaced out n drew this while watching something so it's kinda messy oop,, also can confirm this is the first drawing I've done this new year after not drawing for like a month lmfaooo your writing n asks are giving me so many ideas istg my mind is usually blank but brain go brrrrr rn I cant draw fast lmfao fighting for my life rn

NAH NAH NAH COS WHY IS MASC BIRDY SO FUCKING HOT?? WHY AM I SIMPING ON MASC BIRDY? WHY DO I WANT MASC BIRDY? HELP HELP HELP WHAT HAVE YOU DONE.

Do you think Birdy and König would be open to a third???

OI STOP IM FUCKING DYING AT THE LAST BIT WITH KONIG AND BIRDY AND HES JUST LIKE FUCK YOUUUUUUUU

[farnese0]

@lovetosstuff I find your comment pretty useless to the discourse as a whole, because all you do is shift the focus on other matters that have nothing to do with what we're talking about here.

- You can still have Guts feel rage and pain while conveying Casca's own feelings of pain and rage. Like what happens in Kaze to ki no Uta. Again, not making it ENTIRELY about Guts. He is a SA victim too, so his pain is completely understandable and realistic, but Casca is a victim as well and she doesn't get to say or feel a single thing about it. The focus is always Guts, thus she's used as a narrative tool to inflict pain, not a character.

- Graphic doesn't equate great storytelling. Being too graphic can cheapen a story sometimes, making it too much or even making you laugh by how edgy it is. You need balance to convey something, especially with gore and such. Take the anime "Another" and "Corpse Party" as an example (you can see a death compilation on YouTube for both) the death scenes try to be so realistic, grusome and detailed that they fail on doing what they're supposed to do, that is, make you scared and uneasy. Instead, you laugh at the overly realistic characters' expressions and over the top deaths. What's the difference between a non-con hentai and a rape scene drawn in a normal manga ? It's in how it's framed and drawn.

These are a rape scene from Shamo and one from Baki :

This is Casca's : (removed it because it got flagged)

My question is, why does it need to be this graphic ? (And these are not even the worst panels) Not to have a great impact. Guts rape fade to black too, we don't see his blushy, moaning, panting face and a realistic depiction of his body being raped, we don't have a close up of his ass, his sex or Donovan entering, yet it has an impact on the reader. Why does this specific one require "more graphic representation" ? Because, in the narrative, Casca is an object. The focus is on the sexual act, her body and there's an emphasis on the bodily fluids. It looks more like an hentai than a heart wrecking scene, like it is supposed to be. I'm sick of the "it needs to be realistic" bullshit, because you can be realistic in a respectful way, something that this scene, unlike the many others in Berserk, lack. Miura himself stated in an interview that he regretted even writing it.

- "The same thing happens with Guts in the entire series" When. Literally, when does Guts get depicted like this during a rape. Point it out to me and I will shut up.

- The point about women wanting to be Casca make no sense whatsoever. Some women say those things. SO ? How is this my concern ? How does this make my point invalid ? How am I blowing things out of proportion when the scene is there and visible for everyone ? I'm not making things up. The scene is drawn that way. I'm not horny nor I want to condemn Miura. I'm making a normal criticism about a manga I love, because nothing is perfect and everything can always be improved. I'm not attacking anyone, and I don't understand why you're being so defensive.

- No, the same thing doesn't happen to Guts in any way, shape or form. Again, point to me a rape scene in which Guts body and reactions are portrayed like that and I will shut up. Also, why divert the discourse onto sexualization when I was talking specifically about depiction of rape ? As long as they're flashed out, I don't really care about characters being sexualized sometimes. But you need to draw a line between "appropriate" and "inappropriate" for the context. Guts nor Griffith where ever sexualized and objectified like that during a rape scene, Casca was. I would have the same criticism if Guts was depicted the same way as Casca during something like that, but he's not. He never was.

- I never said or implied objectifying a man to that degree is fine.

- I never said the author is a rapist

- I never said there are pages upon pages of just rape

- I don't lack context because Berserk is one of my favorite manga. I own the volumes, I've reread it multiple times both in English and Italian. Again, I'm criticizing something I love. Berserk isn't a Bible, Miura wasn't a prophet and his work isn't the flawless work of a God.

- I don't know why you're so fixated on male fanservice and fanservice in general/normal occasions when I never talked about it, but ok.

At this point you're making up an argument in your mind to project your anger for these random people onto me, when I never said more than half the things you responded to.

I cannot emphasize enough how much I hate the treatment Casca gets as a character after The Golden Age (I have some problems even with her characterization after she fell for Guts during that same arc, but those are minor complaints compared to the state of current Casca).

The first complaint would absolutely be the treatment of her situation as an SA survivor. I don't think her trauma is ever explored on a deeper note, nor her actual pain for the whole situation she got trapped in. The focus of her rape isn't on her, it's always on Guts' pain and Guts' feelings about it, backed up by actual interviews in which Miura stated he made the rape scene just for the eclipse to be more painful for Guts. The rape itself is drawn in a way that makes it extremely uncomfortable to witness, not for its brutality nor because you feel the pain she's feeling, but because it's drawn as if it was a non-con hentai, something that always disturbed me. How come the same person who put so much heart and genuine care into realistically depict Guts' trauma as a survivor could do something so distasteful ?

That event would curse her character into becoming a complete tool for the story and its male characters to use. During the eclipse her body serves as a mere object for Griffith to project his pain onto Guts, the same Guts that thinks about raping her as a way to get closer to Griffith. The same Guts that on a lot of occasions thinks about abandoning her to chase after Griffith, and that a lot of times treat her as an inconvenience. Even after getting her sanity back, she can do nothing but become a narrative tool to give Guts' a reason to chase after Griffith again.

During the Golden Age she was interesting, but she's always been "a girl in love", always pining for some guys. Griffith didn't want her so she got with Guts instead, to cure their mutual obsession with the man. I hope the manga doesn't end with Casca staying romantically involved with Guts, because to me their relationship never felt genuine. Casca in the narrative is something Guts use to delude himself into thinking he would ever be able to just let go of Griffith and forget all that happened.

In the current arc, after being kidnapped, she's getting dressed in fancy clothes, dreaming and sleeping, while Guts is more concerned about his sword than he is for her. I don't think she would ever recover from this character assassination, but I do hope she gets a bit of autonomy in the end.

[papergirllife]

Huang Renjun

Gumiho (fox spirit)! Renjun x human reader

warnings : bondage, overstimulation, cream pie, Renjun is a fox spirit so he’s 900 years old.

Rumours of gumihos lurking amongst human have resurfaced in Seoul, making the group of young looking men who are nearing their 900s angry. Renjun hasn’t had the chance to feed as much as his other friends, constantly getting rejected by people who think he isn’t sexy enough or downright ‘unfuckable’. What happens when he stumbles upon a beautiful girl who only has eyes for him in the nightclub? Nearly a hundred people but you only have eyes for him, Renjun finally has some luck tonight.

a/n : this is my last fic for kinktober, please look forward to Jeno and Haechan’s fics for my halloween event!

A fox spirit, gumiho, is popularised by the copious amount of dramas based in this folklore that in reality, is far from how dramas have depicted it.

Renjun likes his coffee black, bitter, two shots of espresso with a hint of cinnamon was his go to caffeine kick every morning as a famous artist in South Korea.

Renjun doesn’t go by his name, in this century, he chose to go by the name ‘yellow’, telling the media that he prefers being anonymous. Renjun has been roaming the earth for seven hundred years now, and would most probably be here until the humans completely destroy this world.

He scowls at the teenage girls in front of him, seeing another gumiho drama shown on their screen, it was troublesome to have dramas spinning lies about gumihos, whenever there was some grusome crime that was committed by some psychopath, people would assume it’s done by supernatural creatures, and one of the many creatures they’d guess is gumihos, which is the dumbest guess ever.

To the supernatural society, the most dangerous creatures are the sirens at sea, they were the ones who caused that massive shipwreck, solely because they were ‘depraved’ of men and had a fish shortage because of the humans, eating the women and keeping the men in cages, the gumihos had to save a portion of the men and wipe their memories, and some women who they were ‘saving’ for the next meal, Renjun never understood how scent and taste work with sirens.

For gumihos, they consume sexual energy, which is why they carry the least amount of threat towards human kind, gumihos needed humans, although they can be very annoying and most times down right brainless, gumihos needed humans to feed, and in return, humans had a good time, gumihos are infamous for being good in bed, with centuries of practice.

Finally receiving his coffee from the barista, he drives his car to a high rise building in Gangnam, his friend, also a gumiho, Chenle owns a business that he started up in China when the country had experienced its economic boom, which is why he’s so rich.

When he got there, he could see Chenle drinking red wine from his own brand. Jeno and Jaemin discussing something on the plush velvet couch, the latter talking animatedly with abrupt gestures while the other listens intently, but everyone ceases their actions when Renjun steps in.

“Renjun! Finally!” Chenle says, checking his apple watch for the time.

“You’re ten minutes later than usual, even Hyuck is here, but he’s flirting with one of my employees at the lobby, Mark or something, poor guy,” Chenle says with a shake of his head, laughing as he recalls the boy stuttering at Hyuck’s blatant flirting.

“Got held up by a bunch of teens, and guess what? There’s another gumiho drama, those humans always cook up old folklores, don’t they?” Renjun says in an annoyed tone as he plops onto the matching armchair.

“Don’t be so mad over it, at least they’re painting us as good guys, imagine if they started talking about those sirens as good guys, those bitches would be cackling in broken Beethoven,”Jaemin joked.

“Still, they make us seem like sappy romance puppies when we’re just in it for the sex,” Renjun said, cringing whenever he sees another ‘gumiho’ falling for a human.

“Why didn’t you teleport here if you were running late?” Jeno asked.

“Wanted to save energy, unlike you two, it’s hard to get laid when you’re on the smaller size, I try picking up girls and they say I’m too ‘tiny’ for them, like the sleaze they bought home would’ve been better than me in bed,” Renjun said, as his two friends tried not to laugh, but failed almost immediately, bursting out laughing.

Gumihos didn’t need to work out, working out would only increase your strength by a little bit, even if you get to Jeno’s size, the only reason his friends worked out is because it’s easier to get girls with their built, but to Renjun, if he bulked up like Hyuck did the past two years, he’d look stout with his height, so he’d rather not.

“Maybe you should change up your hair a bit, you have the personality, but the hair makes you look like Peter pan more than a girl’s next conquest look,” Hyuck says, strutting in with messy hair and disheveled clothing.

“Look who’s finally here, that was almost an hour since you came, how many rounds you even went?” Jeno asks.

“2, we both topped, best dicking I had since a long while, you hire the best people,” Hyuck said to Chenle.

“Just don’t drain him, I actually need my employees to work, not just for you to pick up easy food,” Chenle reminds him.

“Yeah, yeah, and about that hair,” Hyuck snapped his fingers before Renjun felt his hair change, Renjun takes a look at the mirror nearby, noting how Hyuck had gave him blonde streaks underneath the brown, his hair longer than usual.

“Not bad, but if I don’t get a girl at tonight’s party then I’m changing it back.”

Clubbing was feeding time for gumihos, they recognise some of their own kind doing the same, being in a close proximity was an excuse to touch people, which meant they could feed easily without having sex, it was the easiest way to feed, but this just gives you a small amount of energy, Renjun is hungry for someone’s high, which is what gives gumihos the most energy.

His two friends were already being latched onto by some girls, their nicely manicured nails digging into their bulging biceps, leading them to the dance floor while Hyuck stays with Renjun, saying he’s had enough from today to go on about at least a week if he wants to.

Renjun orders a gin, downing it in one go before tapping for another, alcohol is different for supernatural creatures, one glass wouldn’t give him the liquid courage he needs tonight. He was midway through his second drink when Hyuck gave him a nudge.

“Look at our seven o’clock,” Hyuck says, his chin jerking at said direction.

Renjun peeks from the brim of the glass, spotting a girl in a forest green dress with little ruffles at the hem. You looked like a fairy, or the way humans depicted them anyways, you weren’t four inches tall and shoving a help the environment form in everyone’s faces, so you’re definitely human, and if he’s not mistaken, you’re making your way here.

Renjun had spotted you with your friends that had disappeared with Jeno and Jaemin separately, and if Renjun guesses right, you’re going to make a move on Hyuck.

“Fuck, I said I wasn’t going to feed tonight, but for a snack like that? I won’t deny a treat for tonight,” Hyuck said, his tongue poking his cheek as he scans you from top to toe with hungry eyes.

“Can I buy you a drink?” you asked, but instead of directing it at Hyuck like the two of them had expected, you had directed the question at Renjun, your eyes solely interested in him.

“I’m the gentleman, I’ll do the honours,” Renjun said, flagging down the bartender.

“Martini, vodka,” you told the bartender before focusing on Renjun once more.

“You’re new here?”Renjun asked before taking a sip of his drink, no longer needing rush, he wants his head clear if he was to take you home.

“Just moved here from Incheon,” you said.

The both of you asked the basic ice breaking questions, inserting some flirting in between while Hyuck saunters off with a chick that was hitting on him hard, not wanting to be a thirdwheel to his best friend, he takes up the offer.

You dragged Renjun to the dance floor, hands looped around his neck as you brushed your body against him as you moved your body with him, Renjun, surprisingly was a very good dancer, keeping up with your hips, his delicate fingers moving dangerously higher, lightly tracing your lingerie through your thin dress as his other hand was going lower, at the dip pf your waist, right above your curves, driving you crazy.

“Why don’t we get out of here?” you said, your cherry coloured lips stretched into a mischievous smile as your eyes light up with a slight glint.

Renjun was more than willing, his hand grasping yours as he guides you out, getting the first full taste of your energy, very sweet with a hint of sour like lemon pie from Renjun’s favourite bakery, he couldn’t wait to eat you up.

Renjun had his lips locked with yours as he guides you into his expensive apartment blindly, cornering you at the back of his sofa as he bites onto your bottom lip, sucking onto it as he tastes a hint of watermelon, cherry coloured but tastes like watermelon, what in the world is wrong with modern day make up?

The strap of your dress slid down your left shoulder as you busied yourself by grinding onto Renjun, your dress pushed up as Renjun thrusted through layers of clothing, usually he wouldn’t do this, it seemed too premature to him, but you seem to enjoy his lips just as he enjoys yours, your tongue dipping into his mouth, fighting dominance, but quickly passed the reins over to Renjun, you loved fighting a losing battle for dominance, especially for pretty boys like the one worshipping you right now.

When you finally ran out of air, you tapped at his shoulder lightly, the clouds in your eyes clearing up when Renjun stopped humping, muttering the word ‘bedroom’ to him before you felt his surprisingly strong arms around you, carrying you into his room, placing you down onto his bed, the soft sheets felt expensive under your skin.

You lick your lips as you clenched your thighs together aroused by the sight of Renjun unbuttoning his shirt, slowly revealing his smooth milky white skin and his semi toned stomach, just the right amount of masculinity and feminine embodied into his beautiful form.

Renjun smirks at your reaction, slowly prying open your legs to reveal your drenched panties, the innocent shade of baby pink now stained with your sinful arousal, prying off, the slick lathering bits of it on your skin, making your thighs glisten.

Renjun eyes your slicked core, the scent of your sweetness wafting through the air thanks to his heightened senses. Renjun takes off his pants with a quick tug, tired of hiding his true form with magic, revealing nine big and long fluffy tails, the fur was soft and white as it surrounds him like a vertical half halo.

“W-what are you?” you asked as your eyes were opened wide, still transfixed on the nine tails that seem to have a mind of its own, moving about very individualistically behind Renjun.

“I’m a gumiho,” Renjun stated simply, “and I don’t eat humans, there’s nothing to be scared about,” Renjun said, his voice a gentle tone as his eyes carry nothing but sincerity, his tails coming up to you gently, one of them coming up to caress your ankle.

You weren’t one to believe in legends and folklore, but with those nine large fluffy tails behind him, there’s no way you can further deny the fact that supernatural creatures do exist, you might have made up an excuse to leave if it was someone else, but seeing Renjun bare must’ve had an effect on you, he was the most ethereal being you’ve ever laid eyes on, and you were quite a bit of a risk taker, so you nodded your head, staying put on his plush bed.

Renjun starts off slowly, kissing you once more, his hand on your cheek, tilting your head up to meet his soft lips once more, leaning down to capture your lips accurately, his tongue swiping at your bottom lip to seek permission for entrance.

You allow him, leaning back when you felt him guiding you down, his body hovering above yours, his length poking at your bare thigh through his boxers, Renjun breaks away to look ask for your consent to take off your dress, his hand below your neck where the zip lays, you got the sign, telling him to take it off before unclasping your bra for him, tired of the wire digging into your skin.

Renjun stopped his actions, eyes transfixed on your breasts that look so invitingly, your nipples perked up from the sudden drop of temperature.

“Can I?” Renjun asks, his hands hovering above your breasts, waiting. You smiled at how gentlemanly he was, hands clasping above his to lay them on your breasts, feeling a tingle of shock down your back when you felt him tweaking your nipples with the pads of his fingers, the rest of it enveloped perfectly in his palm, feeling your skin warming up under his touch, arching your chest up to allow him to feel you more. Renjun took this as a positive sign, removing his left hand to allow his lips to suck on your left blossom, sucking like a newborn seeking for milk, his tongue swirling around your nub before biting down gently. His other hand moves down your body, fingers tracing your skin as he travels southwards, stopping right above your core, extremely close to your clit.

“I want to see all of you,” you said in between breaths, curious to see him bare.

Renjun abided by your request, stepping away from you to quickly tug off his boxers, his cock slapping against his stomach, he was average in length, but girthy in size, you bite down on your lip as you watch him tug at the tip of his length, a bead of milky white arousal sliding down his length.

“I know I said I won’t eat you up, but I’d really like to eat you out,” Renjun said, his eyes zeroing on your core, your pink folds staring back at him invitingly.

“Come have a taste,” you said seductively, spreading your legs further apart to allow him easy access.

Renjun immediately delves in, his fingers parting your folds in search for your bundle of nerves, his finger searching for it desperately, when he found it, you mewled at his experimental flick, confirming Renjun’s search. Renjun instantly attaches his lips to your clit, sucking and licking your clit as he slips in a finger, you were so wet that he didn’t have any problems sliding in another, opening you up for his length, making his scissoring motions, he thrusts his fingers deeper, in search of your sweet spot.

You fisted the sheets at the start of his ministrations on your clit, breaths coming out ragged, but when he thrusted his fingers at that one angle that you’re all too familiar with from countless hours of touching yourself, his name comes out of your throat in a whimper, making Renjun’s pride swell, he takes pride in the way he pleasures others, always finding it important to care for his partners pleasure just as much as his own.

Renjun thrusts a few more times before pulling away, a whine falling from your lips, doe eyes blinking at him innocently, hoping he’d continue. Renjun chuckles at your reaction, leaving a feather light kiss on your forehead before his expression turns serious once more, holding his length in his hand, positioning himself at your entrance before slipping in carefully, pushing in inch by inch, your hand was digging into his arm that was conveniently holding onto your hip, throwing your head back, exposing your beautiful neck to Renjun, the feeling of being filled spreading throughout your whole body, the pleasure sending shocks throughout your body like ecstasy.

Renjun, being the gentle person he was, waited for you to adjust to his size, bidding his time by sucking on your neck, expertly nibbling the expanse of your whole neck until he hears a reaction from you, sucking on that one spot until a flower blooms, Renjun stares at it satisfyingly.

“You can move now,” you said, Renjun searches your eyes for confirmation when he heard you once more, “please, don’t hold back,” you said, clenching around his length experimentally, Renjun’s eyes immediately turned a shade of golden yellow, his hands grasped onto your hips as leverage before he slips out almost completely before slamming his whole length back into you, a mixture of a moan and a whimper falling from your swollen lips, Renjun lolls his head back at how tight you felt, taking in the feeling of your warm walls sucking him in before he decides to continue, setting a fast pace, pistoning his length inside you, his tails, now not under the control of their owner, starts wrapping themselves around you, some of his tails were responsible for holding your legs up, positioning you at a higher angle, an action you sure was Renjun’s decision, letting him thrust into you higher and to no one’s surprise, accurately at your sweet spot, the action sending your head in a spiral as you felt the coil in your stomach threatening to snap a few thrusts in, Renjun could feel you getting closer by how tight you were clenching onto him as if your nails digging into his flesh wasn’t a dead giveaway.

Renjun maneuvers his hand to your clit, rubbing at your bundle of nerves in harsh circles, stripping a scream of his name from your lungs as you felt the coil in your abdomen snap, your body convulsing in pleasure as you felt yourself cumming around Renjun’s throbbing length, your hold on him going slack just as your whole body does, solely being held up, or more accurately, being tied up by his fluffy white tails as you let Renjun help you ride out your high.

Renjun pulls out, his tails flipping you over so your back was facing him, his tails returning to your legs to hold your ass up for him, you wouldn’t admit this aloud, but being manhandled by his tails turns you on so much, you realised that Renjun hasn’t came, which is why he’s now slipping inside you again, thrusting into you at an inhuman pace as he chases his high.

“Can I choke you?” Renjun asks, his hips pausing momentarily to let you clear your clouded head.

You nodded immediately, tilting your head up for him to hold, what you didn’t expect was one of his fluffy tails wrapping around your neck, blocking half of your airways, turning you into nothing but mush, letting Renjun have his way with you.

Renjun felt you clenching around him involuntarily when he wrapped his tail around your neck, inwardly cooing at the fact that he had found himself a devil in the sheets, your angelic face was just a facade.

Renjun desperately picks up the pace, going as fast as he could, making your jaw slack at how good you feel, you could feel the sting of the overstimulation, but you were a slut for pain, no one has ever made you felt this good.

Renjun could feel himself nearing his high, he moves the tail that was wrapped around your neck, tilting your head gently to look at your tear streaked face, ego swelling at the fact that he had ruined you to this state, he looks into your tear stained eyes as he came, his orgasm had pushed you into another one, crying aloud as your body seizes up, your juices gushing as you felt yourself squirt around him, dripping onto his sheets as you felt Renjun rides out his high, biting onto your shoulder to muffle his moans as he finishes up.

When Renjun pulled out, his eyes are fixated by the way his cum flows out of you before he gets up to wet a towel in the bathroom to clean you up, watching you sleep soundly in his bed as he dreads what he needs to do next.

You woke up not knowing where you were until you see the hotel name on the nightstand’s welcome booklet, squinting your blurry eyes to see the words C.L Eternal Hotel, the most expensive hotel in Seoul, your hook up must’ve been rich if he took you here just to fuck and leave you.

Speaking of your hook up, you must’ve been wasted last night to not remember much of the sex and his face, every time you struggled to recall his face, you could just see a blanked out face with a beautiful body that your mind must’ve conjured up on its own to make you feel better about forgetting everything.

When you were about to get up and wash up in the large bathroom, the hotel phone rings.

“Ma’am, we have been informed to alert you that someone had paid for your buffet breakfast this morning, please head up to the highest floor for breakfast, it is available until this morning, 11 a.m.,” the staff informed.

“Oh, okay, thank you,” you said before placing the phone down. That’s when you noticed something on your wrist, a bracelet woven from what seemed like white fur, but it was most probably really smooth cotton, not the weirdest gift you’ve ever received from a hook up, the buffet breakfast was even more shocking, shrugging it off as you had gotten lucky and managed to pick up a rich guy, you quickly wash up, wanting to eat as much free food as you can.

“So that’s the girl you left part of your tail with?” Jaemin asks, spotting Renjun’s white fur on your wrist, surprised you haven’t taken it off.

“Yeah,” Renjun says as he watches you nibble on a piece of bacon as you waited for the chef to make your omelette, your eyes wide in awe, dressed in the beautiful dress that caught Renjun’s eye last night.

“What’s so special about her? Other than the fact that she chose you over me,” Hyuck teased, which made Jeno laugh aloud before quickly being shushed by Chenle.

“Quiet, Renjun wiped her clean of him, not of you two, she might remember you from the club,” Chenle warned.

“She likes what I like in bed, it’s been centuries since I found someone as compatible in bed, I put the band on her just to see if I could sleep with her again, nothing else,” Renjun said, brushing his little crush off.

“Provided that she still continues to wear it,” Jaemin reminds him.

“Yeah, if she does.”

[idgafabyou]

theres an art show my friend talked me into submitting a painting for and it is. halloween themed. but i cannot be scary do u have any ideas for what i should paint

I would pick a rotting theme, now idk how strict your art show is, if it has any guidelines etc. I will give you some random toughts/advice so don't take anything for granted. If your show is strict, a half rotten apple should be a safe choice. Its somewhat on theme and the color red is reminiscing of horror (to me). Now you could do more rotten foods. You could have a whole ass table full of rotting shit. You can even rot the table or any object you wish could rot. Now, if the show is not restricted I would just full on be doing rotting bodies. You could be basic with it, just do a body part, or you could be full on red string dismembered parts of-body-wrongfully connected. If any of those is the case, for the palette think swampy grayish tone, i would use pale green too for the base, pop of color is always welcomed but in objects that are out of place or you want to draw attention to. For that in this case I would use red. Maybe yellow. If there are not such objects I would make the painting as grusome as possible but in pale palette so it's not rough on the eyes as much. Maybe use colors that dont quite make sense but are not too far of a stretch for shadows or highlights because it will add to the wierdnes and creepiness. If you do this in portraits they get to be wierd asf, dead looking and thats what we want 👍

[indigobackfire]

May I ask you a question: why do you like Diego and Ismelda? I'm not their hater, just neutural on them, but I can't get why some people like them.

Oh that's okay, nice of you to ask (some people would just attack). (Please excuse the length and any misspellings).

For starters, I have a tendency to like unlikable characters, yes as simple as that. No, no characters like Merula who you're supposed to hate or be enemies with, but characters supposed to annoy or make the person interacting/reading roll their eyes. That's how I made some of my best friendships in school.

I won't go in depth why I chose them to ship with my ocs (I encourage you to go through my shipping tags if you'd like) also because it's a whole other topic and I'll end up writing a bible here. I'll try as much as I can not use headcanons cause those will mean nothing to you, but I think is worth to say what I, Bee, think of them is not what my MC thinks of them and I would say she has a rocky start with these two as anyone.

First Ismelda.

I guess my liking if Ismelda gets a bit deeper than just liking a character I find nice, I actually see some of my school experiences on her. I wasn't emo doing grusome comments at all, but I was this outcast who thought of herself as this unappealing, unattractive, and uninteresting person who almost everyday wished she could be homeschooled because I just didn't have the patience to witness other people's bullshit. I wrote sad poetry for people just like her! I took 6 years in the same school to finally find a real friend because the others kept leaving me.

So in some points I can't help but sympathize with what she's going through. Being alone, seeing the only friend you have slip away to someone you can't possibly compete with - I was not an MC in school, I was Ismelda! -, being unattractive in a place where everyone looks at least cute, getting the side-eye for going against the grain. I have no sister, no negligent family, but as human I can empathize with her troubles.

Besides points I can sympathize with, I like some of her attitude of screw everyone and what everyone thinks, which is a perspective I sort of took after years of being laughed at. On the gruesomeness aspect, my last fandom, that I'm still in, is Hannibal, so I'm not unfamiliar to gruesome and cannibal jokes, characters being terrible to each other and we still shipping them and joking about them, and idk stabbing people? In media ofc xD

Also HER BARK IS MUCH HARSHER THAN HER BITE. People often comment negatively about her on the things she says, but it's obviously for shock value, when threat appears she's pissing her pants and it's not fooling anyone. It's hilarious to me like watching a lil baby puppy trying to seem threatening, sometimes we even place a finger on their mouth so they can bite us softly.

The 'haha I wish Voldemort was back' is her being at the same time an idiot, a product of her house (let's not forget at this period in time Slytherin is full of straight up DE kids with DE ideals), and unknowledgeable about what it all means. She hasn't been, as far as I know, directly affected by the 1st Wizarding War like Barnaby or Merula - those two literally had their stupid ass parents taken away.

I also like to watch JC try poorly to build her an arc. The placing of Crushed for example is off, happening after many dating SQs, but is there her arc begins - she has a stiff moral compass that gets a lil loose after that -, then we have the Sphinx club where she's way less hostile, the Quibbler SQ where they do all sorts of weird stuff to her but I wanna talk about it another time, and the Great Cook Off where she actually apologizes for overreacting. She's not a fully baked character, she's a caricature of the emo girl and I like to watch her development, and even when there's no visible development, I find humor.

I don't like everything she does or everything she says - but I don't even like Barnaby a 100% of the time - but I know it's fertile ground where a great character can grow.

As for Diego this might be shorter because I've known him for less time in the game.

Diego is extroverted, he's confident, and he's always eager to help. People's problem with him comes mostly from he's flashy, he has a grandiose sense of self, and that he s flirty. And none of those things are aspects I take trouble with.

I've said before, this talking in third person, calling himself 'great', 'the best' is a way of asserting himself to himself and others. And there's nothing wrong with that as there's nothing wrong with being a shy introvert. So far, he has placed himself high without ever placing someone down and he gives praise where praise is due.

As being flirty, which people really seem to hate and I really see no harm. Is not like he tried to kiss MC or said something inappropriate. I find it quite endearing actually. I'm gonna guess JC wanted to make him a Don Juan but landed on Johnny Bravo and I'm here having a laugh about it.

The 'omg he thinks he's the best but but MC never lost a duel to him' argument is so stupid to me, because the duels we do value nothing, if we lose a duel the game makes you pay to do another one as many times as we need. The value is in things known and said, Diego is literally a dueling instructor - probably placed as such by Flitwick. Unfortunately when we duel him is not like the game allows us to lose, is different from Penny's potion making, where she makes it while we sit and watch and even before we see her doing a potion, we're told she's the best at it and she's knows she is.

Diego has shown to be, besides his more prominent characteristics, to be thoughtful, always willing to help, and enthusiastic. He never shies away from the blame, he encourages others, and he's eager to listen to others. But like Ismelda he's really underdeveloped and underused.

One point to make would be his personality vibes with my MC's personality. She's an extrovert, she likes to think she's desired, she takes pride in the abilities she acquired along her curse breaking.

To conclude, do I think you should like them? It'd be nice for me to have someone to talk about them with, but it's not about what I want. You don't have to like them, all I ask from people is respected, specially on other people's content. I have characters I don't like in the game (I didn't max out Tulip on purpose, and Andre who was starting to grow on me had a big reset lately), so I won't try to force them down your throat, but you won't see me dragging them down.

Your ask was why I like them and if all said wasn't enough, the simple answer is they're both ridiculous and the make me laugh and smile. I'd like to have them as friends.

[popculturebuffet]

Ducktales Treasure of the Golden Suns Reviews: Wronguay in Ronguay (Paid for by Patreons)

Hello all you happy people and welcome back to the genesis of magillicutty   Ducktales with the second part of my months long look at Treasure of the Golden Suns, the mini series that kicked off the series. These reviews are a result of me hitting my first patreon stretch goal. I just did a LONGGG post outlining those here on tumblr so hit that up and help join my patreon so I can reach them and make some more moolah to help keep this my primary job. 

So speaking of that job we’re back to The Treasure of the Golden Suns and the first chapter, while not bad, was a tad disappointing, especially since I really liked it on first viewing. So will the second chapter fair just as bad or be a massive improvement? The only way to find out is under the cut. 

Previously on Ducktales: Donald shoved off with the navy leaving the boys with Scrooge, with both growing to care about one another... both out of nowhere

The boys ended up embroiled int he Beagle Boys theft of a wooden ship for a mysterious gentleman named El Capitan whose preferedd method of dealing with enterlopers.. was to use a chair like a lion tamer. After being falsely blamed for the theft, the boys ended up chasing the beagles to Scrooge’s candy factory, were vindicated and fought them off with Scrooge’s help , ending with the boys getting covered in choclate.  while El Capitan escaped vowing to find the gold. Now knowing the wooden ship was a map, the family prepared to set off

And that’s where we pick up. The reporter from last episode comments on the beagle bust and while the Beagles are hauled off, with Burger asking if they have any milk after eating his chocolate prison. Because his only  character trait is that...

The camera does linger on an impression the ship made in the chocolate... hmmmmmm.

Meanwhile we meet FLINTHEART GLOMGOLD. As I said with Catch as Cash Can, he’s not BAD, just not NEARLY as memorable as the triumphantly insane 2017 version. He’s sitll a good villian and we’ll see why soon, he just has the unenviable task of competiting with a far more iconic versoin made decades later whose far more my type of bad guy. El Captian calls him and offers to make him the richest duck in the world, which he naturally is happy to hear him out on. El Captian as a character i’ll get into more.. but for now let’s talk about his weird fucking voice. For some reason, Jim is doing a Dr. Claw impression, to the point I thought this was Frank Welker. I will grant it’s better than a horrible latinx sterotype, and given the grand kishke and a minor character in this very episode, they were NOT above those, but its’ still just.. weird. He just sounds like he’s possesed with about 80 or 90 demons for no explained reason. 

Back at the mansion, Scrooge and the Boys are both preparing to go after the treasure on the boat map: Scrooge is practicing vacuming it up using the pool and a sea safe vacum likely invented by Gyro, while the boys find the right coordinates to the treasure. Scrooge naturally.. is a bit of a dick about it, refusing to take them along despite them having found it, and saying they can stay with Duckworth. Duckworth’s response is about what you’d expect:

However before they can argue about this, there’s a bang at the door: It’s Flinty and here’s where the parts of this Glomgold I DO like, that do make him standout, if not as much sa his succesor shine: He plays scrooge, offering him 2 million for the Candy Factory. Naturally not realizing what Flinty’s getting out of the deal, Scrooge jumps at a quick and easy 2 million, since he knows it’ll cost MORE than that just to fix up the place. Flinty then proposes a contest: the two of them try to make as much money as possible from scratch in two days. No rules, no barriers, just whoever dosen’t have more money than the other by the end has to eat Flinty’s hat. Scrooge accepts.. but then realizes he has to eat crow and allow the boys along. With Scrooge sufficently blackmailed, the boys reveal where the treasure is: Ronguay, a made up south american county. Why they did so.. well just wait a second. And no it’s not just for the tile... but your close. 

No we find out why as they take the cheapest flight avaliable to Ronguay, only for the boys their going the Wrong way to Ronguay. 

Yeah I love a good pun but I draw the line at desinging an ENTIRE COUNTRY for a really obvious one. I have standards on this blog! Standards that include thirsting after Keith David , DBZA refrences up the whazoo and posting this gif of David Byrne at every given opportunity. 

Look my standards are weird, but their still standards. I draw the line at making a stupid pun when there’s a rich number of countries in South America. I’m not saying Carl Barks was ever against making up a country, he probably did, could be wrong, but more often than not he did his homework instead, as did his succesor Don Rosa. It feels lazy to just make up a country when you really don’t have to and could’ve just found one with a massive rainy season for your children’s cartoon. It’s not hard. I mean it’s harder than now: now I could just google “what south american countries have torrental rains”.. but it’s not like you guys could’n’t just go to a bookstore and buy a refrence book or a library and rent one. I mean if they ran out of time to do anyresearch fine, but even for the 1980′s it wasn’t that difficult to at least TRY. 

Regardless it turns out the pilot is a robot pilot.. who looks amazing but  as it’s a flintheart glomgold company joint is purposfuly tring to keep them off path. Look they didn’t have to unplug the poor guy. I know what he wants. 

So now on the right way to Ronguay our heroes lan only to find the locals all fleeing in terror of something. Scrooge heads in for suplies anyway and finds... a VERY racist sounding clerk. Seriously just to picture this.. picture say .. Michael Scott trying to do an mexican accent. You good and cringing? If not, adapt that to your doofus sitcom character or republican senator of choice There you go. You see my point. It’s not the WORST i’ve seen.. but only because I sat through the Rediculous 6 with my best friend, one of three, Cory, for a podcast we tried doing a year or two ago. I’ve seen Rob Schinder do  this for an entire movie. In 2015 no less. So my threshold for HORRIFCALLY offensive is vast and deep. But this is still garden variety racist and should not have been okay then or now. 

And it really SHOULD have the warning label on it. I’m fully in favor of the content warnings Disney started using, and it’s why I got so fucking annoyed during all the talk about it when it happend to the Muppet Show, ESPECIALLY when the republicans got a hold of it and accused them of “Canceling the muppets”. This is NOT fucking cancelation, this is a way to have the past there for posterity, while acknolding it sucked and was NEVER okay. It’s the best way to do this in my opinon, and it bothers me a LOT that a bunch of jagoffs coopted it and threw a hissy fit about Disney trying to do the right goddamn thing. And i’m also okay with leaving some media out. Disney + is a family platform. While keeping classic movies and shows on there with a proper warning is one thing, it’s another to not put song of the south or that episode of the muppets where the host later turned out ot be a pedophile on there. Some things just don’t have nearly enough worth to outpace the harm they can do. And it’s up to companies and consumers to figure out what fits where. 

Anyways our heroes find a llama for transport and that the map is seemingly a dead end to the desert. But Scrooge is determined to press on... and while he does El Capitan and Glomgold are following him, though the two clearly don’t agree on whose in charge, or if El Captian sounds like dr claw or not. They followed with their own copy of the map taken from the chocolate. 

As things progress the rain starts.. and our heroes find out via the JWG that this is what the citzens were all running from. They loose the llama, though are able to salvage some of their suplies it was carrying, and Scrooge nearly gives up to dispair. It’s a good, if sudden, character moment: Scrooge genuinely laments that he was worried one day he’d loose his step.. and stop being one step ahead of everyone. It shows some much needed vunerablity.. that beneath his boisterious and cantankerious usual personality he’s deathly afraid his age will eventualy mean he’ll have to stop..and having to stop adventuring and stop working and stop doing eveyrthing that makes him Scrooge McDuck is a fate worse than death. 

Thankfully he dosen’t as via a figure on the ship, Huey, Dewey or Louie figures out, in a REALLY amazing twist, that the desert itself was the ocean: the ship that has the treasure simply sailed here and hid it. So while our heroes reflect, Glomgold decides to take them out NOW while he has the chance over El Captian’s protests, as the good captain only cares about the gold. But Glomgold is right.. from a villianous point of view at least. leaving them alive is a waste.. granted he does so.. in a way that makes my brain cry out in pain and want to run. He lights a stick of dynamite. In a torrential rainstorm. 

I mean i’d expect 2017 Glomgold to try it and have it fail.. not to have the actually clever 87 version not only try something this stupid BUT HAVE IT WORK. THE FUSE LIGHTS. IT’S READY TO GO OFF. HE ONLY STOPS IT BECAUSE HIS MAP GETS EATEN AND THEY NEED SCROOGE’S IN TACT. JUST HOW DO YOU WHY DO YOU AUGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH-

Okay i’m.. i’m good now. So after that bit of nonsense and some taking my medication, our heroes take shelter in a cave. The grusome twosome try to sneak in while their asleep.. only to trigger the alarms the boys set up using their pots and pans, a “junior woodchuck alarm”. Clever little bastards. 

The tables quickly turn though as Thing one and Thing Two trap our heroes in the cave.. as i’ts flooding. Scrooge has them press on in hopes of finding a way out, and it rises further and furthe ran excenelty tense scene. But eventually our heroes manage to find somewhere safe in time: the shipwrecked boat with all the gold. Scrooge even puts on a nifty golden conquestador’s helmet. 

Naturally since we have minutes left in the episode the bad guys show up and have a gun... they never had before. 

Regardless our heroes are lowered into the lifeboat at gunpoint as the ship goes out to sea and i’ts revealed el captain worked on teh ship as he knows the full manifest.

However both villians personal flaws end up doing them in: Glomgold’s need to gloat means he gives Scrooge a golden coin as he mocks him about winning the bet... only for El Captain to fly into an insane rage demanding he swim out and get it despite just how LITTLE he really needs the coin. He and Glomgold struggle over the ships canon, both no longer needing the other and eventually fire off a ball that capsizes the ship. El Captian seemingly drowns while Glomgold is forced onto the life boat with the McDucks.. and finds out he lost as while he and Scrooge both lost the treasure the coin he tossed scrooge means Scrooge still has made more money. So Glomgold prepares to eat his hat and El Captian prepares for vengance and to get his gold back. 

Final Thoughts on Wronguay in Ronguay: The iffy bit with the store clerk aside.. this episdoe is easily the best 87 Episode i’ve seen.  It captures the spirit of barks perfectly with plenty of intresting twists that kept me engaged the whole time, some great jokes, and two great villians who are done in soley by their own greed and neurosusi> it’s really great stuff and what I expected more and remember more from the 87 Series: top notch adventure in the barks style but wiht it’s own unique touches. While the pilot was a bit rough due to all the ground it tried to cover, this episode, now having the basic formula of the series pretty much set, is allowed to just be a fun, daring adventure story that brilliantly builds off the last episode but can be wholly enjoyed on it’s own. Hopefully this momentum keeps because I don’t remember being the fondest of the next two episodes.. and given that content warning I think we’re in for a rough time next month. 

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[emberphantom]

Concept: Mac isn’t really in love with Dennis. He’s been faking the entire time as part of a bet/experiment as to whether or not he can make Dennis fall in love with him. As soon as Dennis confesses his feelings, the experiment will end and he’ll be debriefed. (Alternatively, everyone Dennis hasn’t known since school is actually an actor playing characters written by Dee and it’s all a Truman show situation to see how far they can push Dennis.)

I...wow. I totally think either scenario would COMPLETELY break Dennis. Dude is hanging by a very loose thread at all times to begin with but finding out most of everything in his life has been a complete lie? He'd snap. I mean look what happened in Broke Dee. That wasn't even supposed to be a prank on him and it fucked him up. 

Okay and let's talk about the first one because that's super fucked up but I'm kinda living for it? It's definitely a role reversal for Mac and Dennis. Tbh I cannot see current Mac doing something like this but young Mac (s1-5), I'd buy it. 

BUT there’s also no way Mac doesn’t fall in love with Dennis in the process and then feel guilty about the whole thing only to call it off once things get Too Real. 

And whoops my hand slipped and I wrote another mini fic: 

Him and Dee made the bet in high school because they thought it would be funny and Mac is all "Have you seen me? I could make any one fall in love with me." And Dee's all "Prove it." 

Charlie doesn't know the full extent of it because I think he'd probably let it slip to Dennis. 

So because of that, Mac has so be kind of subtle about it around the Gang. He turns it up a few notches when they're alone though. It takes forever. Like years. Because Dennis is stubborn and on a good day, has one (1) feeling.

Dennis graduates college, they get an apartment together. They buy the bar. Dee's wondering what the fuck is taking so long and Mac insists this is all part of his plan. 

The Gay Bar Scheme sets Mac's progress back a bit, and he swears Dee did it on purpose to try to mess everything up. Stupid bitch. 

It takes a while for Mac to get back on track. Dennis and Dee’s dad shows up one day out of the blue and actually sticks around. Mac starts banging Carmen. He sleeps with Dennis and and Dee’s mom which, he really thought would help move things along. It...did not. 

The turning point Mac needs comes in the most insane and unexpected way. They get held hostage by the McPoyle’s in their own goddamn bar. It’s absolutely batshit. 

There’s a real moment there where Mac thinks they’re not going to make it out alive. Mac tells Dennis he loves him, which Dee will argue later is against the rules of the bet, like watching Dennis’s sex tapes. Mac will tell her that there are no rules, that’s strictly for research purposes. He won’t tell her that, in that moment, he’d completely forgotten about the bet. 

Dennis never mentions it. Hell, he barely even acknowledged it when it happened. Mac starts to think God is punishing him for everything. He knows it’s wrong and kind of gay but..it’s a joke. And Mac’s pretty sure God can take a joke. He plans on explaining the whole thing to him when he gets up there anyway. He’s sure they’ll laugh about it. 

But Mac starts to notice something that makes him think God does have a sense of humor after all: Dennis starts touching him. Like. A lot. Like, more than he’s pretty sure he ever has.  

They’ve always been inseparable but now it feels...different. They hang out all the time and when they’re not physically together, they can’t go even an hour without texting one another. 

Mac starts to realize his evil plan is finally working. 

He sits back and let’s Dennis take the lead. Mac’s planted the seed and now he’s got to just wait for the flower to grow. 

He pretends not to notice when Dennis starts inching closer to him on the couch during movie night. He lets Dennis pretend to fall asleep on his shoulder. 

During Charlie’s musical, Mac starts to lay things on a little thicker. He acts like he doesn’t realize how this is all coming off--like it’s all just him playing the character. (The boner he popped on stage is irrelevant. His body was also in character.) 

Mac realizes he wants to kiss Dennis in the middle of a strangers living room in a house they’re trying to flip for a profit. Well--no wait. It’s Dennis who wants to kiss him, obviously. There’s no other explanation for it. You don’t just cup someone’s face like that, call them ‘baby boy’ like that if you don’t want to play tonsil hockey. 

They pretend to be a couple. “Partners in Real Estate and Partners in life.” “He’s my bottom.” Dennis won’t take his hands off him. Mac’s got him right where he wants him. 

That night, Dennis kisses him. 

(It’s about goddamn time.)

Mac doesn’t tell Dee. She doesn’t need to know. Not yet. He wins the bet when the words “I love you,” un-ironically come out of Dennis’s mouth. 

It’s surprising how much doesn’t change between them. Aside from where Mac sleeps, it’s really not that different. He’s just getting laid more and it...it’s fucking great. Mac thinks it’s probably because of all that adrenaline he gets knowing he’s winning the bet. 

Everything’s going great until Dee finally catches on. 

It’s a Tuesday. They just wanted a bowl for popcorn. They didn’t need Dee to stick her giant nose all up in their business. 

“It's funny 'cause I feel like you guys are two codependent losers who are so wrapped up in each other that it's hard for you to see how pathetic your lives are. It's like you're an old married couple.” 

They laugh at it. But, Mac can see the wheels turning in Dennis’s head. 

Dennis takes too long at the video store and that’s when shit hits the fan. Yeah Mac panicked but that’s only because he really REALLY wants to win this bet. And he can’t do that if Dennis is fucking some video store twink. 

They argue. Dennis wants to be left alone. Mac wants to know where this is coming from (he knows but he wants to hear Dennis say it.) 

“I’ve been thinking a lot about what Dee said and I do think maybe we are spending a little bit too much time together.” 

Son of a bitch. 

Mac leaves and Dennis let’s him go. On the way to Charlie’s, Mac calls Dee and tells her that’s cheating--she’s not allowed to interfere in the bet. They had a deal. She tells him she can do whatever the fuck she wants then hangs up because something about her stupid cat. Mac stopped listening. 

He’s at Charlie’s for a few hours when Dennis calls. He’s a Dee’s apparently and Mac’s heart sinks. She’s going to fuck everything up beyond repair. There’s no way he’s going to win the bet now...not because he actually really misses Dennis. 

Mac’s resigned himself to the fact it’s over. The bet, his relationship with Dennis. It’s done. Bye. See ya. But then Dee calls him, and she sounds pissed off and stressed the fuck out. She tell him to be at this restaurant at this time for a “date with a beautiful woman with giant breasts”. Well, Mac thinks, at least she knows how to apologize. 

He gets there early and sits down at the table by himself. He’s nervous, which is unlike him. He’s a badass, he never gets nervous. Mac tells himself it’s because he’s meeting a really hot chick, not because he’s not sure if he’s ready for this thing with Dennis to be over. He orders a rum and coke. Then another. Because alcohol solves everything. 

Dennis walks in with Dee and Mac has never been so close to committing murder. What the fuck is she trying to pull? 

Mac doesn’t have time to ask. She leaves in a hurry, muttering something about getting a bird. 

“She looks like a bird.” 

And...fuck. Mac missed Dennis so much. 

They make-up and make-out on the way home. They invite Charlie and Frank over to watch a movie and once the Grusome Twosome leaves and they’re finally alone again. 

It’s dark, it’s late and it’s quiet. Dennis joins Mac on the couch after he’s tossed some beer bottle into recycling. He’s looking at him like he’s seeing Mac for the first time and Mac feels his throat tighten. 

Dennis starts talking, and Mac starts to panic. He thought he’d be able to see this moment coming a mile away but he’s not prepared for this. Dennis is telling him how sorry he is for everything. How he let Dee get into his head. How stupid it was. 

How he realized the reason why he panicked so much was “Because I think I’m in l-” 

“Dennis.” Mac cuts him off as everything comes crashing down on him all at once.  His heart’s pounding in his chest, ready to burst through his chest at any moment. 

He should’ve called this off when he had the chance. Dee definitely gave him a few outs over the years but he said No. When he made that stupid bet all those years ago, so young and so high, he never thought it would end up like this. 

Mac didn’t think he’d be the one to end up falling in love with his best friend. 

But, if he let’s Dennis say it, then what? They become a real couple? They tell the Gang so Dee can lay everything all out on the table. Tell Dennis that everything was just a big joke--even though it stopped being one for Mac longer than he cared to admit. Mac could deny his part in the whole thing, but Dennis would believe him. 

So Mac has to let him off the hook now, by crushing his best friend’s heart into dust. 

“I think Dee was right,” Mac says finally. He can’t even look Dennis in the eye.  “I can’t--I don’t think we should do this anymore...” 

To drive the final nail into the coffin, he adds, “Plus, y’know I’m not even gay.” 

Dennis doesn’t say anything for a long time. Mac shrugs and tells him “Sorry.” Then he gets up and goes to his room, shutting the door behind him. 

He calls Dee to tell him the bet’s off. To his surprise, she let’s him off the hook. Tells him it was about time he admitted defeat after all these years. Mac calls her a bird and hangs up. That night he goes to sleep alone. 

The next day at the bar, Dennis unveils the D.E.N.N.I.S. System. It’s a low blow, but Mac deserves it. 

They don’t check in much anymore. On movie night, the stick to their corners of the couch. Dennis marries Maureen Ponderosa and Mac thinks that means he’s off the hook. 

Until they’re wasted and dancing and giggling back in their apartment and it feels like old times except Dennis’s wife is there. And he turns but then says to Mac, “I don’t love you Maureen. I...I never loved you.” 

And Mac thanks God he called off the bet. 

[yandere-romanticaa]

How about an angst scenario where the mc comes backs to the castle in a bloody, hurt and unconscious state from her weekly trip to the town. How would nobunaga react? Would he turn into a possessive yandere. I love to see a desperate nobunaga

I'm going to write headcanons about this since it was a bit easier. Hope you don't mind!

♡ Oda Nobunaga ♡

Well, Nobunaga already is a possessive yandere to begin with, but he does still somewhat value s/o's freedom.

All of that will crumble the moment his eyes land on his s/o though.

His darling had recently decided to take a trip to a nearby villiage in order to get some fabric, and due to some trouble in Azuchi, Nobunaga could not come with her. He regerts his decision to stay in Azuchi because s/o is beaten up pretty badly. She has a black eye, her arm got twisted and he heard from some other vassals that were with her that the bandit tried to kill her with a small knife. The first thing Nobunaga will do is just hug his s/o, and very tightly I might add. He doesn't care who sees him, he just needs to feel his darling in his arms. He needs to hear her breathe, he needs to feel her heartbeat, to confirm that she is there right with him. He'll bring in the best doctors and he'll make sure that they treat you well. Nobunaga might even try to lighten the mood with saying something like "You really are a lucky charm since you were able to survive such a grusome attack!".

In a way, I guess you could say that he is impressed with his s/o, but that does not mean that he isn't angry. Oh no, angry doesn't even begin to cover just how he feels. When he heard that some low life bandits attacked his s/o because they thought they could rob her and dispose of her so easily, Nobunaga wanted nothing more then to destroy everything around him. He wanted to find those idiots and put his sharp blade in between their skulls. He was more then ready to spill blood, but even though he was absolutely boiling on the inside, to the outside world he was able to put up a cool facade. Almost the entire castle staff (even the other warlords themselves) would have prefered it if Nobunaga just lashed out, because seeing him in such a state was ten times more frightening. To the regular person, there was no emotion on his face, but people who knew him even a little, saw right through his mask. His red eyes were like bitter and cold daggers, stabbing at anyone who was bold and stupid enough to look at them. No one deared to approach him, let alone tried to comfort him. Except maybe Hideyoshi, but even he knew that he should just leave his master alone...

He won't sleep or eat properly for the next couple of days, not until he's 100% sure that s/o is healed properly. He will never leave her side, and he will always keep her company. Nobunaga won't let her leave their shared futon for at least two weeks, but even that is too little for him. If s/o just accidentaly sneezes or God forbid, coughs, it's back to the infirmary. He can never be too sure, and he can't lose his precious lucky charm. He just... can't.

The thought of s/o leaving him all alone brings so much sorrow to Nobunaga. So much sorrow that it's unberable to even breathe. He is trying so hard to keep his cool, but in private he will break and he will confess it all. His bloody plans for the bandits, no detail was left behind. His endless worry for his s/o, and how he will always protect her no matter what. From that day and the next several months, s/o is just flat out forbidden to leave Nobunaga's side. You can't change his mind about this, so you better get used to having a hand around you at any time throught the day.

[mc-yuki-chan]

Yuki’s backstory!

They were an odd kid, truthfully. They liked to watch the flowers, look at the sky, look at how the bugs moved, and read. They never particularly cared for making friends with kids their age, it never seemed to pop up in their mind. Until they met Natsuo; a young boy who was charming and sweet and didn’t mind their quiet observations of the world. The two bonded quickly and almost immediately became inseparable. They grew up together; were in all the same clubs, shared most of their classes. They were like two peas in a pod, and Yuki never wanted to be anywhere else. Nastuo was charming, charismatic, funny, and outgoing; all the things Yuki was not. Natsuo made friends quickly, whereas Yuki was shy and withdrawn within themselves. Yuki really looked up to him. 

Yuki grew up in a once loving family! 

Their father was an only child, whereas their mother had a sister- one she never really talked about as Yuki was growing up. (They didn’t know they had an aunt until she reached out to them when they were in their final year of school) 

They grew up relatively lonely as an only child, only really feeling connected to their parents when they would make food together and purposefully making too much so they have to go and share it with the neighbors. Those are the really good memories that Yuki cherishes. 

Another large hurdle in Yuki’s life was their feelings for Natsuo. They had fallen deeply in love with their childhood friend, and couldn’t imagine their life apart. 

During this time they were dealing with three large issues; their parents growing disdain for each other, severe bullying, and their identity. While their parents were silently angry at each other all the time, and the tension in the home was so thick you could barely breathe. All throughout highschool, they were being intensely bullied, for reasons beyond their understanding. People would prank them, tease them, mock them, and even went as far as to try and push them out a window. Their uniforms got stolen, they got paint poured on them, and letters of grusome and horrible things always ended up in their locker. Hajoon Lee, Natsuo and Yuki's mutual friend, was the only one who stood up for them, defended them, and told people to leave them alone.

They also struggled with who they were. They didn’t feel as though male really fit them, nor did they feel that female really fit them. Neither of those identities really felt like.... them. It was like they were trying to force themselves into a neat little box that they couldn’t even see. It was weird, and felt wrong, and they couldn’t even begin to explain why. They struggled for years with trying to figure out exactly what they felt, and how they felt about it, and it took many deep dives into the gender and sexuality studies online for them to really come to the conclusion.They were nonbinary, feeling the most comfortable with They/Them pronouns, and enjoyed both masculine and feminine things but were neither of them at the same time. It was freeing, it was comforting. They felt seen. Their parents still argued in the background when they thought their child couldn’t hear. 

Then Natsuo developed a crush, and things seemed to change. Natsuo had less time for Yuki; they hung out less, Natsuo didn’t talk to them as much, and Natsuo didn’t explain why. They just... drifted apart. So, Yuki took it upon themselves to try and fix things- by being honest. They weren’t sure if this was going to fix the growing distance between them, but... 

Life always has it’s ups and downs. That’s how we know we’re alive. 

Yuki chose to confess in one of the most romantic ways they could think of; at the Wishing Star Festival. Natsuo and Yuki went every year together. Yuki had gotten a piece of paper and wrote their wish on it, and waited patiently for Natsuo to show up. He was two hours late. Yuki didn’t mind; he was probably busy at home! They knew that his mom sometimes liked to fuss. They walked around, and Natsuo didn’t grab a piece of paper to write his wish down. Yuki thought it was odd, but didn’t comment on it. No, they were too nervous to really make good small talk. It was clear something was on Yuki’s mind, but it seemed like Natsuo didn’t notice. Yuki didn’t notice that either. Yuki didn’t notice a lot of things that night. They found a secluded spot, Yuki tied their wish to the tree, and silently made their wish. Yuki paused a bit, and let the silence hang in the air, and swallowed down the butterflies in their throat. 

“I’ll tell you my wish, if you want. It’s really simple.” 

Natsuo laughed, it seemed a little awkward- like he had been zoning out and only just then realized he was out in public with someone. 

“Wouldn’t that defeat the whole purpose of making a wish?” 

“Hehe, yes, but I think I want to share it with you anyways.” 

Natsuo only huffed another laugh and shrugged. 

“Okay, what’s your wish?” 

Yuki smiled, and quietly confessed. “My wish was that we would be together forever, because I love you.” 

As you can probably assume, this did not end well.  

Natsuo quickly back peddled and quickly grew more and more uncomfortable- saying he wasn’t gay, he didn’t like Yuki that way, that it was weird for two men to like each other. This hurt Yuki, who then explained that they are nonbinary, and tried to explain what it meant and what that meant for them. Natsuo became angry, and started shouting- claiming Yuki was making all of this up so that they could get the girl he was crushing on. Yuki didn’t understand- they had met that girl once or twice, at max, why would they have feelings for her? Natsuo confessed he was late because he had been on a date with the girl, and she had been into him, but said that she didn’t like the way Yuki looked at him. And now he understood why, he had said, before ripping Yuki’s wish off the tree. Natsuo began screaming obscene and cruel things, things that deeply hurt Yuki to this day.

Yuki had gone home crying that night, and poured their heart out to their parents; the crush, their gender, the fight, everything. Their parents... took it better, but not well enough. They tried to console them by saying that it was a phase, and that once they found a nice girl and got married that they wouldn’t be “So obsessed with becoming a girl”. 

Yuki’s life shifted over night. 

Their parents began fighting more intensely, arguing about which one of them fucked up their kid more, who’s fault it was that they were like this, why they were so weird. 

At school, no one talked to them. People had been around them because they themself was always with Natsuo, but since the fight Natsuo hasn’t said a single word to them. The girl he had a crush on was now clearly dating him, if the shy looks and blushes were anything to go by. This shattered Yuki’s heart every time it happened. With the distance from their friends, the bullying continued to steadily get worse.

The only saving grace came in the form of their aunt, Ayane, who had moved to Korea to escape her homophobic family. She was a proud lesbian, and wasn’t afraid to be who she was- she was bold, and strong, and she had reached out to Yuki to try and rekindle a relationship between the two; she had always been incredibly hurt that she was never there to watch Yuki grow up. They began talking, and venting out all their feelings, and their aunt eagerly suggested they move in with her in Korea. They realized that this may be the best shot at life they could get. 

The final time that Yuki and Natsuo spoke was on graduation day, before they went home to pack their bags to move to Korea. It was awkward, and uncomfortable, but Natsuo said that he wishes them the best of luck in their life (still ignoring the use of their real pronouns) it was stiff, awkward, and he clearly looked like he didn't want to be there.  Yuki swallowed thickly and stiffly and formally thanked him, and didn’t begin to cry until they were already in their room.  

Maybe that’s why they downloaded a mysterious messaging app..? 

They moved to Korea a few years after their final year of school, and moved in with Ayane. It was really all good from there. 

There they met Oba-chan (Her name is Hinata, but she insisted that Yuki called her grandmother), and began working at her flower shop. Hinata quickly took them in, accepting them and their identity as if it wasn’t unusual or strange in the slightest; a sharp and drastic change to their previous life in Japan. It was so... good. They felt so safe here, it was great. They worked hard, learned quickly, and faster than anyone anticipated they rose to a high position in the shop- assisting Hinata with financial business and helping renovate the business into what it is today- the most popular stop for home grown flowers in Seoul. 

Eventually, Hinata grew too old to feel fit enough to run the store, so she left it to Yuki, who had shown incredible dedication and attention to detail, and they have been running it ever since. Shortly after getting ownership of the business, they were able to afford their own apartment and have been living on their own for a few months now. They regularly have family dinners at Hinata’s house with her friends and Ayane’s girlfriend and they cook massive meals that they can share with family and neighbors alike. 

With all these good things happening in their life, the sudden and intense loss of losing a pillar in the life was still incredibly jarring, and they still are incredibly lonely. They guarded their heart carefully after that heartbreak, they weren’t sure if they could handle that kind of rejection again- let alone any rejection while they were still so tender. It may have been almost 5 years, but it cut so deep that it still was healing. 

[theadorablespderman]

Please excuse the long post. But I want to write something for women about what I’ve learned, being a 21 year old women, about safety and the shit things women feel we need to do so we’re not attacked by shithead on a daily basis:

Two girls my age have been murdered 30 miles from where I live. The girl who was killed just recently was found and the suspect is in prison, he kidnapped her, killed her, and burned her body. And a girl 6 months ago was killed by a guy she dated for 2 weeks. It’s so scary being a woman and I live in a pretty safe area and it’s just heartbreaking. I’ve had some serious anxiety issues from this and I’m just scared to even meet any men or date or do anything because like this is what can happen. And these girls were smart, strong women and they’re just gone now and that’s terrifying.

Anyways guys I just haven’t been active on tumblr because this has been weighing heavy on my mind. Please women, practice safe dating, be aware of your surroundings, meet in public places, and don’t trust anyone alone until you’re sure you know them. It’s not our fault if we are murdered, it’s the killer, but unfortunately we have to try and minimize the dangers that come with being the sex we are (men get murdered too, I know this, but being a woman you’re raised in constant fear of what some men can and will do to you) I’m just saying women are born into this culture of being the weaker sex, the targeted sex, and dear lord my fellow women I wish we weren’t, so let’s fight back, let’s be safe, and that might not always work but know that I’m being you and so are millions of others. It’s so important to understand that we don’t need to seek protection. We can protect ourselves and police, neighbors, or family may not hear or heed our cries for help, for protection, for understanding but that is their wrong doing.

Idk guys.....I’m just feeling a lot of things and I want any young girl reading this...even if you’re not a girl, but I want to specifically let young women know:

1. You will never owe anyone anything you feel uncomfortable giving, or feel obligated to provide because the other party made you feel guilty, or lesser for not providing it (this includes your time, sex, conversation, money, or a smile)

2. Unfortunately, what we wear will be considered by some low life’s out there as invitations to take what you aren’t willing to give. You dress how you want to dress, but always be prepared to defend yourself. There are dangers to wearing certain clothing (but guess what, I still wear those items of clothing) but it is nieve to think that in the age we live in men (or possibly other women) will not in their fucked up brains think that’s still some fucked up invatation. Be prepared to slap those assholes, but don’t think they no longer exist because light has been shed of rape culture. Always always be prepared. No matter what your wearing, always know that someone is going to think you owe them something because of how you look (how much makeup you wear, what close you have one, damn it, what kind of music you listen to). They are awful people, but they exist so please be aware of that and do everything in your power to be vigilant of that. (I’m not wanting to victim blame any survivors. If you’ve been raped and have or haven’t done these things it is not your fault, you should never be blamed. It’s the asshole who violate you and no one else, but if there are ways we as a society can try and flush the assholes out before they can hurt anyone else, I want to try and make women aware of this. So please I love and support any survivors and would never dream of making you feel bad or lessor if you’ve been raped or abused. IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT)

3. That leads me to three. Like I said. If you are abused, attacked, raped, beaten, etc. IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT. People will ask “why didn’t you do this?” Or “you should’ve done this” and that’s what’s already going through your head to some degree. It’s no ones bussiness to know why you made the choices you did. No is fucking no and fighting or letting whatever happen happen it’s no different. You are a survivor, you are still worthy of everything the worth has to offer ( that is good) and you are not at fault. People who point the finger at you are victim blamers and not worth your time.

4. You should always be aware of your surroundings as women. I’m in college and while walking to your car or anywhere really, my college campus has made sure to post flyers around the school about safety practices. I’ve also read online some things convicted rapists look for in their prey. Often they will look for a women who seems to be alone, most likely who seems distracted, either by taking on the phone, with headphones in, or looking down at something while walking. what I did during my night classes I would keep one headphone in while walking the long walk out to my car in the dark, I’d keep my headphone in, stay on the sidewalk with street lamps and away from any bushes and I’d call my mom because she’s the person I trust most in the world and lives close by that may be a different person for you. Anyways I would have her on the phone and because my headphone was in it didn’t look like I was talking to anyone. It made me feel safer and I still was able to stay aware of my surroundings) I would either but a hood over my head if I had my hair in a bun which is basically every day, but that is something rapists look for. Buns. It’s easy to grab.

Additional safe practices while walking anywhere even during the day in sketchy areas or just when your alone and someone could attack you, I always walk with my keys between my knuckles so I could punch and injure or impale any attackers. I will always text or call my parents (may be someone else for you) to let them know I’m leaving and I’ll let them know once I’m in my car. I also carry pepper spray and I keep my head constantly on a swivel. Looking behind me, side to side, and if I’m going through any parking lots I stay away from large vans or trucks...basically any car I can’t clearly see into from a distance. If I have to go between cars to get into my own I will often do a quick look over the car, under the cars, and check to see if anyone is around. I then will put my phone in hand ready to press the emergency button and I’ll unlock my car because it’s old as hell and I don’t have a remote. I hop in the car and immediately lock it again.

Do not accept someone’s request for your help if it has to do with putting anything in their car or lurering you away from a public place. If you do wish to help, find a local security guard, campus police, or even just a group of friends to come with you. But law inforcement is better. If it’s a legitiment request for help the person should not begrudge you for being extra hands or requesting a security guard help them. Additionally if you feel uncomfortable and someone disabled requests your help getting into a car or anything call 911 or your local police station that a disable individual require help getting into their vehicle and you feel that the police would be more qualified.

Often attackers bank on peoples good nature and disguise their plans in a veil of trying to get you to help them with odd tasks. Should you stop helping and being a good person? No! But be safe and aware while you do it!

5. Get an if I go missing file together. This is something off of Crime Junkies Podcast (amazing go listen if you haven’t already). If I go missing folder may seem grusom and errie but I promise it’s will help. You put all your passwords, account info, for you bank, phone, social media, everything in the folder. Make sure to keep it up to date and file anything away that might come in handy if you go missing. Tell one or two trusted family members or friends about it and it’s location (any access codes or other info on how to get to it) and only tell the people you know you could trust. This way if god forbid something does happen to you. Instead of having to wait for warrants and all that jazz, family members and friends can look into your recent history to see if you have in fact dropped off the grid, if there has been any unusual activity etc, and then they can provide this info to the police who will be days ahead of the investiagtion without having to serve warents to phone, bank, and other companies who other wise would not be able to provide account details unless they have your password and information. Doing a If I Go Missing folder could possibly lead the police to your kidnapped, killer, or if you’re alive, even you. It’s so so so so smart to have!

6. If someone attack’s you, leave as much evidence behind as you possibly can. Spit everywhere, throw up, pee, poop, scratch their bodies, get their dna allother you and get your all over them. If your being raped and can pee or poop or vomit on the attacker that is a very good way to try and stop them, it’s unexpected and they won’t want to be covered in your waste or vomit. Another self defense tactic my dad had told me from the time I was a child (sad he had to tell a child this) but if you can play as though your into the whole sexual getting raped thing long enough to get your hands free, and if your in a position where you can see the attackers penis, reach down like youre gonna touch and participate and then my dads exact words “grab his dick and squeeze tight, yank that thing and don’t stop till your arms are over your head” they might throw up from the pain but you can then hopefully make an excapr and if you were able to really injure them the police should find the guy with the torn scrotum in a hospital or at the crime scene. There are things you can insert into your vagina, it looks like a weird condom almost and I’m sure there are multiple kinds but it’s an anti rape device that when inserted if you are raped the insert will act as though it’s a condom when they insert their penis into the vagina, the insert will allow the penis to enter, but when it’s pulled out the man will find his penis now has a barbed condom basically stuck to his penis that basically will shred it if he tries to take it off. Here’s a picture:

There are other amazing things out there but don’t let someon threaten you into leaving an area, or threaten you into having sex or anything. You always have a choice and even with a gun to your head it’s better to scream, not always, but most of the time this will scare the attacker and they will then start running. You could be killed still, but people will know what happened, there is most likely be witnesses, and there won’t be a search for the body.

Sorry I know this is so not my normal blog post and it’s not even fandom but I want everyone to feel like this is a place we can talk about how to be safe as a women. If anyone has ideas or things they do to help their safety pleas reblogg or just comment or just share with some one somewhere about our rights as women. I want to know what my fellow sisters do to stay safe, or if there are any questions.

I don’t pretend to know what it’s like as a victim. I was jumped by a man on a date when I thought he seemed like a nice guy, and I let him drive me over to my car in the dark. He put my seat down and was all over me in a second. Hands on my breasts and butt. I said no after unfreezing and I felt so so sick like I was nothing. But he did stop when I said no and I got out of the car and cried and sobbed. My dad held me for an hour when I got home because I knew I was a lucky one. So I’m not a victim, I was lucky because he could’ve easily raped me and he didn’t. So I don’t pretend to know what it’s like, but that pure gut wrenching, sickening terror I felt in that car for five minutes gave me a look what it must be like and I just want the women out there to know we can be safe and then even if we are or aren’t safe you never ask to be raped or killed or attacked. We all have awful stories but it’s important to voice “no” and to fight back. It’s important we she we are not to be trifled with.

Anyways. I’m sorry again for that taking long and thank you for letting me ramble. I feel my anxety has dropped a level. Stay safe out there!

[yeonjuins]

I DISAPPEARED I'M SO SORRY ;-; COVID (covid got me ARGH), anxiety and then my cat got sick >.< i hope you've been doing well!! 🌺

i changed icons again of course <33 it's now sadie sink who plays max on stranger things bc IM SO OBSESSED WITH THAT SHOW RN. the latest season has me IN A MESS rn holy—

wait that's so so cute!! my s/o and i have actually been the same recently, we're growing lots of crops! strawberries, cucumbers, kale, lettuce, chive, onions, garlic and a few others. <3 WHY ARE FLIES EVERYWHERE OH MY GOD, they fly through the smallest crack of a window but can't fly out an open door like get tf out of my home. i had a wasp in my home office earlier and i basically just ran through the house 🏃🏼‍♀️ 🏃🏼‍♀️ 🏃🏼‍♀️ DO NOT LIKE THEM ;-;

it's been hot here this week, so my water intake has increased a lot. been drinking more smoothies though <33 i cough so much in the morning, idk why.

SO I GOT MY PC AND WOW WOOOOW IT'S THE BEST PURCHASE I HAVE MADE. it's so quick <33 that's so sweet of him!! <3 i'm weird about mouses, i have a small mouse, i don't like normal sized ones IF THAT MAKES ANY SENSE TO YOU AT ALL HAHAHAH

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i'm so sorry this took me forever to get too ;; life's been quite the journey as of late and my jammed pack schedule has finally calmed down a little (":

WHAA IM SO SORRY U GOT COVID OMG i'm glad u feel better now though my love ;; and i hope your kitty is feeling more than better now as well ! <3

sadie sink so true <3 i don't watch stranger things but from the clips that i've seen she is lovely or even just her as an actor <3

GROWING CROPS OH MY GODD..... oh how i would love to go strawberry picking with my friends one day... we've talked about it before as well ;0 BUT YES that makes sense there'd be flies everywhere considering the fact it's ... a field ;; when my mom first began to bring her plants indoors since it was becoming winter, our house got infested with fruit flies and it was THE most annoying thing ever... a good tip is to leave a small bowl of just . dish soap . or a broken egg . and they'll usually just fly into it and be stuck there... a little grusome to look at but it does catch them ;; either that or buy those little sticky tabs that catch them too ! you usually put them directly in the soil so it collects it right away as well ;0

yes my love pls keep drinking water <3 hydration esp during high heat is super important

YAYAYYA IM GLAD UR PC IS GLORIOUS <3 having a good pc is such a !!!!!!!!! thing because you can just ! run everything u want to run without a care/worry in the world that it would crash (":