#and help those who need to say smth important to the living

[bat-the-misfit]

just looked into the spiritism tag on tumblr and i'm shocked people actually believe it's all ouija and séances and witchy stuff

[cosmicjoke]

Hi idk if you've answered smth similar before but who do you think among 104th was closest or maybe most impacted by levi ? I would go for jean or armin but would love to hear your thoughts.

Ps : I love you and your analysis posts keep doing them ❤never give clowns the time of day

Hi there!

I have answered similar questions to this, haha. Jean is the character that comes to mind first when I think of who Levi had the biggest impact on. I actually fairly recently wrote a post about the relationship between Levi and Jean, and specifically, Levi's influence on Jean, which you can read here:

I think Levi had a significant impact on pretty much everyone, though. Armin, for sure. I think Armin actually understands Levi better than any of the other members of the 104th, because I think each of them are actually really similar, particularly in regards to the way both of them values life and sees life as innately valuable, without needing any, great purpose to make it so. There's also the fact that, out of everyone, Armin understood early on the kind of selfishness inherent in clinging to a sense of moral righteousness at the expense of others. This idea of maintaining our "moral purity" by refusing to get our hands dirty, and how, ultimately, that can cause more harm than good. Armin suffers from deep insecurity and a sense of self-loathing, so he refuses to call himself a good person, but I think he, as well as Levi, are both objectively good people, and part of that goodness is manifest in the way neither of them prioritizes their ability to call themselves good people over actually helping people, i.e. actually being good people. Even if it means having to live with blood on their hands and the pain of that, the way that can eat away at their sense of self-identity, they're both willing to do it without hesitation so long as it means no one else has to.

I also think Levi has a huge impact on Mikasa. Mikasa started out being pretty single minded and self-interested. Her entire reason for joining the SC was because she wanted to be with Eren, and her desire for that was the main motivator behind a lot of her actions early on. But as the story progresses, Mikasa gradually learns to start letting that motivation go, and starts genuinely caring about and fighting for others, until by the end, she gives up on her dream of being with Eren completely, by taking his life for the sake of humanity. I think Mikasa learned a lot of her selflessness from Levi, who's entire character is largely defined by selflessness. Levi never does anything for himself. Everything he does has always been for the benefit of others, fighting to save lives, to prove his fellow comrades sacrifices weren't in vain, fighting for the dreams of others, lending his strength to those dreams, rather than having or fighting for any dream of his own. That's been true of Levi since "No Regrets". I think Levi letting Erwin go sort of set the blueprint for Mikasa later doing the same with Eren. Not that Levi's relationship with Erwin was the same as Mikasa's with Eren, but Erwin was a very important person to Levi, for reasons I've spoken about at length, and he let Erwin go for Erwin's sake. People always say this decision was selfish, but it was actually the exact opposite. Levi lost someone that he relied on to guide him. It was a completely selfless sacrifice, one born out of compassion, made to end the suffering of a fellow human being. That's a lot like Mikasa letting go of Eren. She lost the person she loved and dreamed of spending her life with, and she chose to lose him to save what remained of humanity.

Anyway, thank you for your kind words and I hope my answer was what you were looking for!

[noitsbecky127]

rebecca watches ds9: rivals

ah we’re in quark’s bar. what chaos will the ferengi get up to this episode

we don’t know either of these characters. wonder how they’ll be important

odo’s gonna find out i guess

the investing is gonna go badly for this lady

this man is NOT gonna help her

get his ass odo (idk what he’s guilty of but still)

oh hey he’s an el-aurian! like guinan!

where IS odo from?

i love how guinan’s general role in the narrative has become a trait of the species

is miles gonna play tennis?

hi julian! what in god’s name are you wearing!

i can only assume garak made him that

bro won a tennis game against a vulcan??? guess brute strength doesn’t do much in tennis. i think. i know nothing about tennis

wtf is he doing. he’s so insane. i love him

miles definitely isn’t gonna leave things there

el-auriqn guy whose name i already forgot is not having a good time in his cell

live footage of me at a hotel with my dad

that thing is gonna cause problems

is that a luck machine???

oh shit earlier he said smth about not being lucky enough to die. his prize now is death and this dude will get his hands on the luck machine and cause all sorts of trouble

time for miles to sulk to keiko about getting his ass kicked

bashir’s neurodivergent ass absolutely is not looking down on him

yeah he was just trying to have fun

why is he still wearing that fuckass outfit though

and why is he stealing everyone’s salt

how old IS o’brien anyway?

i love julian saying “that’s too young to die” with the utmost seriousness. he is legitimately concerned here lmao

ok it wasn’t salt it was some kind of sauce. guess it needs restocking

after all that, he doesn’t even eat the sandwich

prosecco! that’s from earth!

alright now we’re gonna get unlucky quark

so you just press the button and it makes you either lucky or unlucky? that’s absurd

what is he plotting now

if julian wins, miles is mad. if julian throws the game, miles is mad. if julian refused to play, i’m guessing miles would be mad. guess the only thing he wants is proper victory

a second bar. that’s the last thing this station needs

quark: crime is only ok when i do it >:(

et tu, rom?

can’t wait for the luck machine to backfire on him

oh god how many luck machines are there now. this is gonna cause so many problems

ok i’m guessing jadzia went to the bar and used the luck machine. who else did i wonder

is julian gonna change out of that thing before going to the infirmary

quark is bad at this whole listening thing

kira would not go to the bar. nor would she use the luck machine. maybe it’s just starting to radiate good and bad luck around?

yeah all those luck machines in one place would probably have some side effects

quark what are you doing

why are this many people interested in watching these two play tennis

i’m shocked quark is donating anything. guess he knew that was the only way to get them to do it

poor rom’s trying to traumadump lmao

and THERE it is. the luck machine has backfired on him. get hoisted by your own petard idiot

they’ll both regret this i think

miles put your shirt on

keiko is just ready for all this to be over so she can have her husband back

win or lose you still have a beautiful wife

god what was the costuming department thinking when they made julian’s tennis outfit. he’s neurodivergent not colorblind

how many pushups is he gonna do. he seems to be doing an unreasonable amount. but then again i have no idea what an unreasonable amount is bc i can’t even do one

i do not trust that drink

julian do NOT drink that

oh thank god he’s being smart

“it’s an anesthetic, QUAHK”

why would quark want him to drink an anesthetic though? where’s the entertainment in one of the competitors collapsing?

oh wait the bets. maybe more people bet against miles so there’s more profit in him winning. idk how sports betting works

oh i was right! guess whatever i know is correct

get his ass julian

the luck machines are affecting the laws of physics???

the luck machines broke julian’s racket. time to pause the game ig

i love how he stares at the handle like it personally offended him

glad rom’s going back where he belongs

GET HIS ASS O’BRIEN

looks like the luck machines have decided this game

at least the bajoran orphans will have lots of blankets

maybe the replicator fucked them up somehow

or wait, is it because they’re bigger? somehow? guess the area of effect is bigger or whatever

when in doubt, phaser it

get fucked my guy

oh she was scamming. of course she was scamming. i really should have figured that out

wonder who has the original machine now

[bamfwizard]

WHOO BOY DO I HAVE SMTH TO SAY ABOUT THE COFFEE THEORY (GO2 SPOILERS lol)

I am a believer in the Coffee Theory. Do I hate Azi? Couldn’t if I was at gunpoint. Do I blame him? Absolutely not. Do I think he’s brainwashed and totally out of control? Nope. Do I think he still is conscious and making decisions based on religious trauma and his heavenly conscience? Yup.

Now, there’s two things I think will happen, and I’m just gonna call em the Basic Path and the Raine Path, and I’ll explain why.

On the Basic Path, pretty much the entire Coffee Theory is true. The Metatron used a combination of miracles and/or almonds (which some speculate have the ability to brainwash) to control Aziraphale and manipulate him into betraying Crowley. I STRONGLY believe that Azi’s words and actions during the final scene were just a smidge to OOC. Not entirely OOC, but odd enough to suggest that he’s being influenced. He just acted too damn cold for someone who was so warm and excited to get away for a moment with Crowley, dance with him, party with him. He turned him away, straight up said “there’s nothing more to say” and let him go.

So I raise you: The Metatron wants Crowley. He’s likely willing to use Azi either as a bargaining force, or if needed, as bait. He’s seen them, and he knows that Crowley depends on Azi to live. He probably knows that sometime soon, Crowley will run back to Azi and apologize and try to mend things, despite his attempts to forget him. God knows what the Metatron could want with him, but as he had security clearance in Heaven and was important enough to be given the gift of creation, I think it’s fair to assume that Crowley was very, very powerful as an Angel. And whatever the Metatron wants won’t be good.

That brings me to the Raine Theory. Y’all TOH fans (I see you depressed gay weirdos) know what I’m about to propose. AZI IS FAKING IT. You can’t tell me with a straight face that him acting off doesn’t feel like Follies at the Coven Day Parade at least a little. So what if The Metatron DID miracle the coffee to be able to control him (maybe if he had miracled Azi directly it would have caused problems so he had to do it indirectly) but Azi used one of those miracle cancelling slips? He’s already demonstrated a great amount of skill in misdirection and even saved his own ass by swapping papers via magic. That last look that Azi has, the solemn and tearful look with his fingers pressed to his lips, screams “I wish I could have returned it”. He looks hopeful and determined in the elevator. He may be convinced that he’s saving Crowley, or that he’ll take down the Metatron with the help of inside forces. And Crowley is probably *sigh* going to intervene and try to help.

I don’t think it’s fair to outright dismiss the Coffee Theory, nor is it fair to outright dismiss Aziraphale’s actions as OOC, because they were heartfelt and followed his moral code. I just wanted to throw my opinion in the fray because I’m REALLY hoping for the Raine Theory to pull through because I can’t get enough of the faking-being-hypnotized trope

[correctproseka]

favourite sekai relationships (romantic and platonic), go!

Ohhh okay okay. I might forget some i really like but here we go

Romantic

Ichisaki. Well, polyneed as a whole but ichisaki MAINLY make me insane like their whole story and dynamic and cjsjckdjf Saki is ichika's hope and happiness and Ichika is the one who makes Saki be who she is, the one who will never leave her. They just make me insane and they're both each other's inspiration and cjsjckdjdj

Polyniigo. While my head mainly spins in Mafuyu ships (more specifically, mafuena and mizumafu), they're all so important for each other and each has something that will help in the recovery of another. They all complete each other, you cannot separate them. They're a found family as much as they are a ship, "these are the people who gets me, and makes me happy and who I CHOOSE to be with".

.. i love other ships but those mentioned are my main OTPS and the ones who mostly make me insane, shout out to polyvbs, anhane, minoharu and nenekasa tho

Platonic

A lot of the ones in here will also be able to be read as ships, and I will like it most times, but I also REALLY like them as bffs or adopted siblings or smth

So starting with the ones that CANT be seen as romantic

Tenmas (including Toya), I can not express myself how those sillies make my day, the Tenmas are the first people that Toya feels at home with, Tsukasa is the person that makes both laugh, Saki wants to make up for her time and spend time with her family. 10/10

Shinonomes. Sjcksuckshcishcusjvusivhisvjfuvufj th them i uave so many words abt the shinonomes that idk where to begin so-

Hinomoris. Shiho wanting independence, but Shizuku does it all for her, because she wanted to step in as an older sister for her parents but she NEVER HAD THE TIME TO BECAUSE SHES AN IDOL. Which created an even bigger gap for a while. They love each other but couldn't tell each other what's going on in their lives

Now the ones that are able to see it as romantic, no matter if i like it that way or not

Ichikasa. Look, for me, Tsukasa treats Ichika like a little sister, while he does that with everyone in Leo/need, one thing ichikasa only can bond over is seeing Saki in her worst state and making her smile, because Saki's smile is everything for both of them.

Shizukasa. As mentioned before, they can be bffs and look good doing so. They will cuddle and not care about what the idol fans will say. In some AUs that brew in my brain, they marry but they are just each others beard, still close though

Akian. While i love them as a ship too, i NEED to talk about how their dynamic is amazing, they will kick each other then get mad if someone raises the voice at the other, only them can bully each other tyvm. In times i prefer seeing them as a couple, in others i prefer seeing them as siblings, depends on my mood and the good thing about headcanons is that I can have both and they're not in the same universe at all

Minori, Kohane and Shiho. So. Silly. Come onnnnnn i dont have an essay prepared for them tho

Ruinene.. maybe i like childhood friend troupe maybe not... But as a couple, as bffs, or as siblings, those 2 be queens

Honakana. I also dont have an essay for them i just think its cute

Thats it. I definitely forgot about relationships i love in here LMAO

Also shout out to mikurin, kaimei, meiluka and kaimeiluka (len forever alone ig KFJSKFJ)

[blackstarchanx3new]

Creations AU, But I obnoxiously over explain it PT 10

Pages 271-300

Mike you're making your hatred obvious tone it down.

Also, oh.

Afton's got a blood issue??? X'D

What a trait for a serial killer...Hmmmm.

I didn't mention it before but since it's brought up here:

Afton is covered in scars. Yeah those things on his face aren't wrinkles they're scars.

Same with his hands and neck. Everywhere that's exposed to us is covered in scars. We can only imagine what's covered.

I drew him goofy here but I was also struggling to draw this scene hah.

We know William lives like, right next to Freddy's so it makes sense he'd go here to look for help lmfao.

Hah takes a depressed person to know one eh Mike?

Hah. William's sus of you uh oh.

Guess stalking people is an Afton family tradition.

William rolling his chair over to bump Mike's is smth I just find funny. And Rude.

Also that Ennard incident is brought up hah.

Mike says what I would have pointed out.

William's always watching.

HAH.

HE FOUND YOU OUT.

NOT THE THING YOU WERE WORRIED HE'D FIND OUT BUT HE FOUND YOU OUT.

Again: Takes one to know one. Afton and Mike got a lot in common in the spotting depressed suicidal people skill.

William just dumped a bunch of shit the audience didn't know.

What's more disturbing is he dug this shit up on Mike. Presumably because Mike's close with his son now.

So apparently EVERYONE knows now William assumes Mike is suicidal. That's...NICE of him to warn everyone? I guess. Wonder who "everyone" is...The robots? The workers? When were they informed? He didn't recognize Mike before the night he spent the night so presumably afterward he watched the cameras and looked into Mike's past.

Or he was doing a bit of trolling.

Also: Mike mentioned his mother. She's got dementia and attacked Mike. Makes sense why he's not living with her despite needing help with his living.

Conformation: Jeremy was Mike's husband, so he's living with Jeremy's sister.

Wonder what William feels knowing one of his murder victim's family members is here... We don't get much insight into that for now.

This little convo only furthers Mike's rage considering Afton is basically spitting right in his face by bringing up Jeremy at all.

Also William only cares because Michael is Mike's friend now.

Ouch. It isn't out of direct concern as we saw William act uncomfortable around Mike just because he had an illness.

William tries to deter Mike from dying here through, persuasion, Freddy's is a personal hell, which is a sentiment Cody also repeated funny enough.

William is very selfish lmfao.

Mike's stance is clear: He just wants to take Afton down with him.

Also. Hell of a question coming from you Afton considering you turned his husband into a ghost.

Why do you aaaaaask?

Hehehe.

Pff. Afton sure is a character alright.

Your mind tricks won't work on Mike Mr. Afton.

He's such a smug bitch about it.

But this does bring up a lot: WHY THE FUCK CAN HE DO THAT???

I'm sure this isn't important-

He really had to fuck with Mike first before showing THAT off.

Because Afton's a cheeky bastard.

Also backstory: Afton's gift made him an outcast. Hmmm...

DAMN MIKE OKAY EXCALATION MUCH???

Just a reminder he's still carrying that knife around. To kill Afton with.

And if you're wondering what EXACTLY he's waiting for: Confromation.

He's judge jury and executioner in this situation.

Mike's waiting until he's fully convinced it's Afton. As we've seen he has SOME reasons to think there's more things going on here.

CHICA! :D

Excalibur face because Soul Eater's influence has to show itself in all my work lmfao.

OH.

OH MY.

in the script Mike's expression direction was literally just this emoji:

😳

Freddy switches immediately upon seeing Mike lmfao. He's STILL salty about him slamming the door. XD

Also- HAHAHAHHAHAHHA Freddy and Bonnie are fuck buddies-

Freddy has zero patience for Mike.

The oddly specific threat of "Or I will kick you like a football" is just funny to me. Like why a football specifically Freddy??? XD

Mike pivots and decides talking to Freddy for now is a good idea.

Quick thinking from our boy.

Freddy no-

He just has to rub in that him and Bonnie are doing shit.

Apparently Freddy thinks this place is "Boring" which is amusing to think about like...He's literally the most interesting thing in this place in his narcissistic head. I love Freddy.

Yes this is a refence to Freddy hiding in the lady's restroom in FNAF 1.

Freddy is possessed by a woman. And he's AWARE of that.

He's still alright being called "Freddy" and "He/Him" so you can take that however you want.

If you want a label for what Creation's Freddy's gender identity is: The closest I can like, describe would be nonbinary/genderfluid.

I've been brainstorming the backstory for the character who possesses him...And I'm not entirely sure if she was APOSED to being a male animatronic.

Any pronouns work for Freddy is what I'm getting at.

I mostly call his ghost by She/Her but call Freddy himself He/Him. Because Freddy isn't a 1 to 1 with the person he was before he became an animatronic as are MOST of the animatronics.

But the notion ALL the animatronics are some kind of trans metaphor can get REAL MESSY considering a lot of them were...FORCED into this. So let's not go there is what I'm trying to say that was NOT the intent with them.

This metaphor would really only work for like MAYBE 2 characters in Creations and not be PROBLEMATIC to say the least..

Freddy being one of them since again: I think the woman who possesses him WANTED to be Freddy because he's the star. XD

Also there's a cannon trans character in this comic that has no metaphors attached soooo...Idk.

Gender and sex and sexual orientation are touched on a LOT in this comic cause: Holy shit when you half hazardly shove random souls together into suits gender don't always binary lmfao. Also I relate to not having a strict "Girl" or "Boy" vibe and I write what's relatable to me.

SO: If you wanna view Freddy as trans you're perfectly fine to do so. Freddy's case is WEIRD so I'm really open to whatever you want with him. If you relate to Freddy in a trans way I'm not gonna take that from you. X'D He's very gender.

Anyway going away from Freddy's gender for a second:

There's a hanging corpse in the men's bathroom. Spooky.

Freddy describes it in detail so I don't have too lmfao disturbing.

I do have a comic idea for showing how it ended up there...but I'll refuse giving spoilers for now. It'd be the "Into the pit comic" for future reference.

Freddy got traumatized from using the men's bathroom. Poor dude.

Obligatory "Mike is a freak" joke. X'D Poor Mike.

The funniest thing: Unlike Cody Freddy wasn't THERE for that convo...Meaning Bonnie has told Freddy in private he thinks Mike's a freak lmfao.

Casual shit talking your bud oof.

There's 3 bathrooms lol.

My favorite genders.

Chica, Bonnie and MANGLE-

Freddy's a wuss and it's funny.

"I don't think he can get you if he's dead..."

MIKE YOU OF ALL FUCKING PEOPLE KNOW HOW STUPID YOU SOUND RN.

Poor Freddy.

Mike can't see shit though which interesting.

Mike isn't exactly spiritually inclined it seems. Which just makes Cody's fuckery even funnier.

Page limits prevent the rest of this scene so Creations will return.

[clarabowmp3]

What TTPD songs helped you with your frustation, stress and need to let off steam? any particular songs?

HAHAHHA some of the ones I’m currently crazy about are the more angsty/intense ones (wild thing to say abt ttpd which is like chock full of those kinds of songs I know lol):

(Tl;dr - I feel like she makes some pretty controversial/extreme production choices in these songs which make them very raw esp if u strip away the surrounding context of like what she’s singing abt irl)

1. How did it end - it’s a very grief stricken song, her tone is almost casually emotionally vacant for most of it which makes the swells of emotion like at the bridge or chorus even more impactful and her diction is quite cutthroat imo like she goes RIGHT for the jugular and smth abt the song just feels so sincere like she isn’t baiting u to feel sorry for her)

2. The prophecy - let it once be me. what more can I say (literally started tearing up and crying by the time I got to the second chorus when I first listened to the song my sister was sooo concerned and I know so many ppl criticise her for the ‘don’t want money’ line and arguably rightfully so but it’s also just sooo applicable to me??? Like I will throw any meaningful kind of connection in the ditch if it means putting myself first or ‘winning’ in some way, be it academically or otherwise, all while the loneliness gnaws away at me like I GET it like to me its a song that only rlly hits home for those with some kind of self-sabotaging tendencies? god knows im riddled with those)

3. Chloe et al - yes there’s a few fluffy lyrics here and there like girl what are you singing about 🤨🤨 but again she was SICK for yet another song balancing on the fine line between being so bitter about someone leaving but also smarting from the ache they left behind (if you want to tear my world apart…..say you love me) and the wistfulness what ifs??? Will I always wonder???? UGHHHH

4. The Bolter - LITERALLY ME I’m not even exaggerating 1) I nearly drowned when I was 3 it was a whole thing 2) I’ve always been closer to my father 3) I’ve had substantial issues making friends like i was very unlikeable when I was younger (and sometimes still) but it wasn’t my fault!!! 4) because of those issues my knee jerk reaction is to put myself first usually even if it would be selfish 5) my friendships always usually tapered off when we would reach some kind of conflict and I would stand my ground and suddenly they wouldn’t rlly want to be around me or hey I wasn’t as fun as I seemed 6) as lonely as it was part of why I started to get comfortable with these kinds of friendships ending was that past a certain age compressing yourself into something more pleasant just gets too exhausting like it rlly DID feel like breathing as I was leaving 7) and all of this was so difficult to get through but the thing is you DO get through it, as impossible as it seems at the time, and you’re so much better off at the end of it (like falling through ice and coming out alive)

5. Who’s afraid of little old me - this was actually more applicable/relatable to me like 2 years ago but when it comes on you best believe I revert back to my bitter 16 year old self mad about having the shittiest classmates like if you dislike me fine but at least have a good REASON for it or let it be TRUE at least godddd (I didn’t have the best reputation at the time, some ppl thought I was stuck up or a bitch so like whatever, isn’t that what they all say) (also this was after I graduated from secondary school and I was hoping for a clean break like that I’d left all that mess behind but NO and I was just sick and tired of it all like fine villainise me what everrrr)

6. Smallest man who ever lived - fell out with like my main best friend when I was 15 the year we had this super important national exam (which i got a perfect score for in the end heheh) and with how we left things it’s like I don’t even want to be friends with her again but I get so mad sometimes cuz that year was supposed to be my PRIME I was supposed to be thriving and having the time of my life shining and it felt like all the ways she/the fight brought me down was like rust on my sparkling summer and even tho I know every story has 2 sides, I just feel contempt for how cowardly she acted/how she twisted the narrative to come out looking more favourably (it comes and goes, I’m not always fuming abt it lmao but yk healing isn’t linear and all that)

7. Loml - linked to that same fight with my best friend ^^ I felt rlly betrayed (shit talked me under the table, a con man sells a fool a get live quick scheme like she KNEW I had attachment issues and used it against me ugh) esp with how vulnerable I was with her and at the end of it all I just felt so fucking embarrassed/humiliated by how affected/paralysed I was by the whole friendship/ by a second-rate person like her and the thing is I rlly believed we were in it for the long run, and now all I have is this graveyard of memories. she rlly was the loml

8. I can do it with a broken heart - so yes blah blah blah I had so much teenage angst and I STILL came out on top, got perfect scores for not one but TWO national exams, scholarships, offers from top unis both local and overseas, awards etc and I did it ALL while I was so miserable! So many afternoons I would get weird looks for like crying while studying in the study areas in my school like I was breaking down pretty frequently but I pushed through and climbed my way up from the bottom (they said babe you gotta fake it till you make it AND I DIDDD). And also when I was excelling so well it’s like it didn’t matter what all that happened, like yeah I was affected by it but woops look at me now! Too busy winning at life to be crying over all that!

9. So long london - again, about that fight we had, but more of in hindsight. I’m still mad about it, but not livid ig? It’s just I was her friend for so long (relatively speaking), I tried to fix the friendship for so long, I missed her for so long, I’ve been carrying the emotional wreckage for SO. LONG. and yea at the end of the day I hope she finds/has found a better friend, and we had a glimmer of happiness together, but I’m not the one

In comparison here are songs I vibe to but don’t feel such a visceral reaction to:

1. Peter

2. Mbobhft - I like the ‘once I fix me he’s gonna miss me’ line cuz after I parted ways with my best friend a part of me was still like maybe if I mould myself into smth more cool/appealing she’ll regret having done all that 😭😭 16 year old me was a messss but yk what are you gonna do (so now I like it ironically, if that makes sense?)

3. Down bad - fuck it I was in love so fuck YOU if I can’t have US enough said

[prettyboykatsuki-moved]

ari other than obviously trusting & communicating with your partner do you have any nuggets of info to look out for or thoughts specifically wrt subspace and/or aftercare in bdsm—receiving or giving?

no pressure. im doing my actual due dilligence research its just some of these sites n sources sound hella clinical and robotic and ur an actual living breathing approachable sex-positive person in comparison so i thought to ask.

hello!! i want to start by saying im deeply underqualified for such an ask. i do play and have some experience but it is minimal imo given the fact i have 1. a long term partner and 2. have had like 3-4 subs in my life to play w otherwise + im very young. im not a professional so take my words as anecdotal / personal

but on an individual level im told im a good partner so here my person to person advice / things i do for aftercare to check in on people im having sex with

the cop-out answer is that every person is different and learning to gauge your partners needs is a matter of practice and patience. not everyone needs the same thing and that's alright. it's also something u should talk about before a scene!!!

this is a given but worth mentioning but the first step is always stopping any stimulation. turning off toys, untying your partner, taking out gags - things of that nature. changing the sensation slowly is important imo. after that check on any injury and see what level of care it needs. attend to these physical, immediate needs first.

now that that is taken care of this is my more personal thing

for me usually, there's a ten minute period of me simply talking my partner down from subspace. sometimes that's praise, sometimes it's idle talk and that depends on the person. but slowly letting someone down, assuring them that they're okay and you're with them. it's more about grounding really? the intensity of a scene can be jarring even it doesn't seem that way so for me this is like... a requirement. this includes some physical touch depending on who im with!! but i usually save that for the end. like post shower and shit

sensation check-ins come after. im a sadomasochist so in a lot of cases there is a fair amount of pain involved. i like to sit my partner down on the bed and sort of run my clean hands on an injury. i don't ask for pain scale on one to ten. i prefer to ask if they still feel mobile, if the pressure i put on the area is dull or sharp, how numb they are etc. this is smth you get better at slowly and u adjust to accordingly. if there's any injuries, i take note of them and care for them in the shower

basic hydration and sustenance. this one is important to me personally for a lot of reasons but you'll see it basically in every single bdsm aftercare advice things. normally i help my partner get down a bottle of gatorade and give them a protein bar. if someone is my established partner i basically always cook for them after we have like. sex sex djksdk but you don't always have to do all that lol. just make sure those basic needs are met for BOTH OF YOU!!!!! something light is fine just no empty stomachs it will lowk make u loopy and irritable

showering / cleaning up together!! wiping them down a warm towel, getting in the shower together stuff like that. i like having a little fun skincare routine if it was a super intense scene. but i think the act of helping your partner w that is always really nice and helps establish intimacy. i normally tend to wounds and such here.

as the domme aftercare for me is usually a lot of physical touch and being told my partner enjoyed what i did to them. it's also necessary for me to be able to dote on them in some way. it's hard to explain but being able to service my partner in an intimate nonsexual way is suuuuper necessary so i don't drop. i also love to be kissed.... some soft making out yk

it seems counterintuitive but it makes me a little anxious to not be able to do those things. helping w basic care and things like that are really important to me and someone letting me do that for me is also very important to me. i also like being able to stim afterwards w a chewy and zone out while my partners hangs out in my arms and we have like parallel play time.

i have different routines w every person ive ever been with but these are some of the more basic universals. again everyone is different. how intensive aftercare depends on how intensive a scene but i normally hit these four every time, just more or less in depth depending. i hope this helps you in some way!!!

[myfuturesodd]

mk so i had this FREAKY dream about Webster(spidersona) and Miguel. but the thing is Webster and Miles are pretty similar in comparison since Webster is just me.. and im similar to Miles,, so... yeah!! so im thinking.. how about i take this as an opportunity to right a freaky ass fic or smth based off that? well ur opinion doesn't matter bc HERE WE GO!!! In 1st person bc it's the only way I can write. :')

— — — woah, the mans a vamp?! — — —

I had always wanted to be apart of the Spider-Society, I always loved the idea of being.. "official" and that place was my one-way ticket to that. Being an "official Spider-Man".. what a dream! I was on my way to Miguel's office-like place and honestly the walk wasn't so bad, I had already gotten my own watch.. well wristband; this way I wouldn't glitch out and die or.. something like that! Once I got there he was lowering himself down on a platform of some sort but he didn't say a word, it was pure silence the entire time.. I had to break it, I had to say SOMETHING.

"So..how's it going big guy? You're awfully quiet," I started, he didn't have anything to say he was just tapping on some holograms doing some lame junk that I couldn't care for so I continued talking "I was thinking... I could be apart of the Spider-Society! I'm pretty helpful in my universe and I think I could be preeeettttyy useful here too!" I don't remember what I said after but I just couldn't stop blabbing at the mouth and I'm sure he said something but I couldnt hear him over how excited I was, I was so lost in my own words I hadn't heard a single word he said to me. He talks to low anyway so..not my fault! However, I guess that made him think I was ignoring him.. which didn't make him the happiest of people. Before I knew it he lunged at me and was pressing me against a wall, he arm pressing against my throat.

"COULD YOU STOP TALKING? YOU'RE VOICE IS SO SICKENING TO LISTEN TO. YOU KNOW THAT RIGHT?" his fangs retracted which honestly scared me, but IM SPIDERMAN. I'd be okay and bounce back up again, those dumb fangs couldn't possibly do a numher on me. Either way.. he couldn't hurt someone who's important, right?

"Hey man, I didn't mean to hurt your feelings I just thought maybe I could help-" He didn't like the fact I kept mentioning helping him, I could tell by the way he was just.. LOOKING at me. Like he wanted to kill me.

"Look kid, I don't need your help. I don't need any of the spider-people here but I can't wipe them all out because people all across the multiverse would drop like flies. Trust me, if I could I would've done it a while ago." Honestly I thought he was playing the role of a tough guy so I wanted to lighten the mood.

"Come onnn, why so sour? You and me could be a team! Check this out; Miguel O'Hairy-Legs and his amazingly charming side-kick, Webster! I could be like your kid, it'd-" He lifted me up into the air for just a moment and slammed me down onto the ground. I think I felt the floor break underneath me. I let out a groan and looked up at him.

"You aren't MY kid. You're just a random kid who just so happened to get some fucking powers, and you'll NEVER be anything more than that. A KID IN A SPIDER COSTUME. A FANBOY PLAYING DRESS-UP." I could see the spit coming out of his mouth, it was disgusting but it was all I could focus on with the amount of pain that was flowing through me from when he slammed me down. "Look, you're gonna go back home and live your life. And you won't be seeing anyone again, no Hobie. No Gwen. Not even Miles. You got it?"

"psh, who's gonna stop me? You're too busy cooped up in your office doing your lame work. You're just like a dad but.. without a k-" I think that's what really got to him, well, I know that's what got to him since before I could even finish my sentence I felt a sharp pain in my neck. My eyes widened as I lifted my hand up slowly but I felt a grip tighten around my wrist and lower it down with force. Miguel wasn't infront of me anymore.. he was to my side, biting down on my neck. The room was quiet like before, the silence that was so unbarable to sit through returned it also seemed to be dimming around me as I tried to push him off me but it didn't matter at that point, my entire body weakened and then everything just went black.

BOOM THE END 😱😱

[fawnstarmoss]

Hm idk how 2 put it unto words but theres smth abt everyone in usa needing 2 b diagnosed medically w something, capitalism generally just grinding down n making everyone feel bad n crazy, leftist infighting abt gender n sexuality labels n who is allowed 2 say or experience what like these r all connected 2 me . I think trying 2 make the entirety of human experience fit into specific categories tht we ourselves have made up, thus Cant include the broad scope of humans living all over the globe bc nobody can have Allll of those perspectives so yr Going 2 automatically be excluding someone bc they havent yet been considered so a label for them and ppl like then has not been made . I think having tried 2 do that is ultimatly harmful 2 us . I think its important 2 have pride in yrself n who u R in yr soul than what sexuality or gender u define yrself as.. Of course where we r @ rn is situational as fuck n crazy so its only natural n i jus think u gotta have fun wit it idk um rambling and now im bored of this post . Labels n categories r helpful when necessary , But when labelling n categorizing yrself is constantly enforced, it becomes walls tht seperate us frm reachng out 4 e/o in my Opinion.

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[little-cereal-draws]

Ok I’m going to reblog this again but add smth this time

I think Bal should be in this au but as a ghost. But like one of those ambiguous ghosts where it’s not clear if he’s real or if he’s a figment of ambrosius’ imagination as he slowly gets consumed by grief, love, and the need for revenge (like macbeth, hamlet, or the end of Sitting Bull's History Lesson for my western fans lol).

The first time ambrosius sees him, it’s pretty close to the original accident. Bals just standing there sadly, slightly behind an important live person (like the director or queen) delivering the news of his death, saying nothing. Ambrosius is so shocked/moved that he swears revenge. Surely that’s why Ballister still around right? He wants revenge on the person who caused his untimely death.

Ambrosius gets frustrated with how slow and useless the Institute's investigation is, so he leaves. He gets darker and more violent, teaming up w nimona to do very… questionable things. People die. Nimonas loving it. (I figured she would be closer to her comic version.) They find evidence, interrogate (read: torture) people, and do anything else they need to uncover who killed Ballister. That’s the main plot, them being evil and badass, but Bal does make a few more appearances.

Sometimes he whispers encouraging things while ambrosius goes way too far when fighting someone. But the thing is that what he says sounds very close to general compliments he would give ambrosius while alive like, “my brave sir knight.” So it’s hard to tell if he’s really there encouraging him or if he’s a memory ambrosius is using to push himself as he probably violates the Geneva convention.

Or maybe the main plot starts to get a bit sidetracked (Nimona wants to do more than avenge Ballister. She probably didn't even know him so why is she helping ambrosius? she's got her own motives and is slowly dragging ambrosius away from his mission. If the director still killed Ballister here, maybe she's trying to get him to dismantle the whole institute instead of just kill only her). After they get back from a side mission and Nimona leaves, ambrosius sees Bal's ghost standing in his empty room. He looks disappointed and betrayed. Ambrosius asks him if he's upset that he's taking a slight break form avenging him but Bal doesn't answer. As the "conversation" goes on, he never answers anything ambrosius says, just keeps looking at him sadly. Essentially arguing with the wall, ambrosius talks himself into thinking that Nimona is purposely misleading/distracting him so stall his mission. He gets progressively more upset until he's screaming and/or crying. Bal never says a word and just fades away. Whether Bal was there and was actually upset with ambrosius or ambrosius is just feeling guilty that his mission isn't going as quickly as he wanted is up to interpretation. But this all leads ambrosius to be meaner/more dismissive to nimona. He shuts down her ideas very quickly and yells a lot more. Maybe here they have a falling out that may or may not include physically fighting each other.

I have no idea how the main plot would end bc I'm focusing more on ambrosius' personal arc here but ambrosius does end up avenging Ballister. But it's bloody and difficult and so many more people die than necessary. Maybe ambrosius himself gets pretty seriously wounded. (idk if Nimona would help him. she might have abandoned him at this point depending on how bad the previously mentioned fight was.) But anyway, ambrosius is sitting there, losing a lot of blood, next to the body of the person who killed Bal. Bal appears again and they finally have a full conversation. Balister says he's disappointed in ambrosius and disgusted by all the things he's done. ambrosius gets really upset because at this point he's given up everything to succeed in this mission. This fight climaxes with ambrosius yelling, "THIS IS WHAT YOU WANTED!" Balister responds with, "No, this is what you wanted." Then he fades away, leaving ambrosius alone with the corpse of the person he's been relentlessly hunting for months. He realizes how consumed he's been by his quest for revenge and how none of this will bring Bal back and even if it could, Bal wouldn't want to be with him after the things he's done. He cries. The story ends here and it's unclear if ambrosious dies from his wounds or not.

Anyway... I didn't mean to outline a whole fic, I just wanted to talk abt Bal being a ghost lol It's very important that no one else is ever there when he appears to ambrosius, that every situation he does appear in is a high emotion one so ambrosious is woozy/not thinking straight, and that everything he says is very vague until the final conversation. I think ambiguous ghosts are the coolest things lol

"It is with great sadness that we confirm that our beloved knight, Sir Ballister Boldheart has sadly been killed in tonight's horrific accident at Glorodome. The Institute has begun the investigation..." Ballister is dead. Gloreth's golden descendant seeks vengeance with the help of an expected ally.

[hotshitno2]

MAJOR ONK SPOILERS CAUSE IM BORED

I find it kinda interesting how different the twins are when it comes to communicating tbh

Ruby, for one is extremely talented at it. From what we’ve seen, she seems to manage to get along with anyone she likes or doesn’t like. Meiya could be an example.

The funny thing is, it’s the exact opposite for Aqua. Even we, THE READERS only know what’s he trying to do of saying half the time. With mengo constantly hiding his face when he’s saying smth meaningful or wtv.

Aqua’s even worse when it comes to people he cares about. With the exception to Ai and Ruby, we barely ever hear his opinions on any other character much less talk with them properly ( I’m mostly talking about Kana lmao )

So I’m actually kind of wondering why the twins are so different when it comes to communicating, and I think the main thing is their reincarnations.

It mostly started around when Ai became their mother. Ruby seemed to adjust fast, with her never really having parents in her life, she acknowledged Ai as her mother much quicker than Aqua. And seemed to hold on to that dream Ai told her about much more. I think this has to do with Gorou.

When Sarena was admitted into the hospital, her parents barely ever visited, as mentioned. But unlike Gorou, Sarena had an adult she could rely on. Though she interprets it as romantic love. I honestly think it was rly important that Gorou was there so show Sarena that some adults can be relied opon. And so even in her next life, she trusted Ai and Miyako and opened up to them. ( it’s also important to mention that she seems to ignore the sadder parts of her life, no doubt because of how she was living in her past life knowing she could die at any moment, so she definitely has suppressed some trauma like Aqua by pretending it’s not there to herself and others ) but having those people to open up to helped her be able to create and seek relationships easily.

Aqua, on the other hand. Probably never had an adult to rely on judging from his time as Gorou as well. He’s been shown to be shackled with guilt which takes the form of Gorou. I think it’s not just because he was a doctor and couldn’t save Ai. But because of what we learned about Gorou in this scene.

I think Aqua has had guilt problems long before he was even Aqua. And because of that started to close himself off. It’s mentioned his grandpa hated him, because he indirectly killed his birth mother and stud yknow. But when Miyako opened offered to adopt the twins, Aqua probably never saw her as someone to rely on. Because in his mind, he was an adult. Adding on the guilt from his past life and the fresh would that was Ai’s death. He probably didn’t think he could talk to her. Or anyone for that matter, cause he was an adult. ( like when they mentioned counciling )

That mentality continued when he talked about keeping Ruby away from his revenge. Kana, Miyako and the director as well. With the exception of Akane, he never really told anyone anything about himself. Even with Akane he never confessed any of his worried, she had to figure it out herself. Same for the director.

Aqua tends to just never talk about anything ever, which ironically has more people figure out his emotions than people did for ruby, who covers up her bad emotions with other stories or more happy ones.

I hope if either of the twins have an emotional confrontation, it’s with each other. We rarely ever see them in the same panel. BUT EVEN THEN you can still tell how well they know each other through chapter 93. Especially on Ruby’s side. So I’m hoping praying screaming for Aka to give some moments together soon.

God I need a life.

[tinyyoungblood]

hi!! adore your work love. could you maybe do smth where stark!reader has to get her wisdom teeth out but HATES the dentist so she brings her boyf peter and her dad w her?? and then when they get home the avengers are all waiting with like comical amounts of flowers and stuffed animals and then reader says some funny shiii and thor thinks she’s like dying lol. idk if that made sense but i’m getting my wisdom teeth out soon and i’m scared😭 thank u so so much love u babe

pairing: peter parker x stark!reader

a/n: tysm lovely :,) i rushed through this like my life depended on it, but i hope i’m not too late. either way, i hope you’re okay! it’s frightening but those bad boys gotta go because we don’t need that kind of energy in our lives. enjoy x

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

wisdom teeth? more like wisdoom

y/n has to get her wisdom teeth removed and it’s the singular most dreadful thing she’s ever had to do, which says a lot because her dad is tony richling stark

doing dreadful things she doesn’t want to do but still somehow end up doing just because she can is a personality trait at this point

no one really makes a big deal out of it since ~death~ is part of their job description, but y/n is terrified

and when a stark is terrified the only thing that will keep them one step from insanity is researching the hell out of it

that information will be info dumped into every conversation for the next few weeks leading up to the appointment

“y/n you need anything from the store?” "no thanks, did you know the side effects of getting your wisdom teeth out include ✨sudden death or blood clots✨ tho” “……..i have a coupon?”

the day of the appointment, peter comes along and literally doesn’t let go of y/n’s hand. he keeps touching her to let her know that he’s there and it’s so. adorable

he would rest his hand on her knee, gently stroke her back while holding her, or just play with her hair

happy drops them off and he’s too Cool™ for emotions but he knows y/n’s a wreck, so he just fist bumps her with a single nod and she almost breaks down bc it’s really affectionate

y/n is sitting in the dentist chair and genuinely nothing is happening yet, but she’s squeezing peter’s hand like it’s a sponge

peter might have a high pain tolerance but he’s in pain pain and he prays that his hand won’t just explode on him

the dentist notices how peter tries to keep it together and chuckles

“you okay there, son?” “yea it’s fine, had a better time when a building fell on me tho haha” “pardon?” “oh i mean i didn’t have a good time, i just had a better time”

because y/n is running Anxious Town™, the dentist gives her a sedative to help her relax 

plus, an injection of local anaesthetic to numb the tooth and surrounding area

she doesn’t feel anything and it’s GREAT

the procedure is quicker than expected and now the real fun begins

she tries to walk but she falls down so peter scoops her up bridal style and happy stays glued at her side

y/n doesn’t mind although she literally doesn’t recognise them and they’re practically strangers to her

but girly sees an opportunity and tries to flirt with peter bc why wouldn’t she

“you’re pretty” *blushes* “why thanks” “you should let your girlfriend know” “i should let her know i’m pretty?” “so you do have a gf? :(” “yea it’s you” “:)”

they stop for gas and peter goes in to get some water for y/n, and in her infinite wisdom, she decides it’s burger time

her mouth is completely numb and she’s practically leaving a trail of drool behind her, but she’d kill for a burger right now

so she wobbles around aimlessly for an hour on some random parking lot as if the ground might just magically open up like a rabbit hole and lead her to five guys

she’s going places. not back to the car. definitely not five guys. they’re closed. but places

peter finally finds her and he’s drenched from head to toe in sweat. he doEsn’T wAnt tO tALk abOut iT tho so she lets him take her to subway instead

normally, she would know that peter’s usual subway order is bread-lettuce-jalapeño

but in her drugged-up state, it had simply slipped her mind so now she’s staring at him like he’d just murdered someone right in front of her

“that- that’s your order?? no meat or anything just bread, lettuce, and a little spice?”

meanwhile at the compound, sam and steve are ordering everyone around bc they want to decorate this place before y/n gets home to surprise her

they take it very seriously too. they’ve watched like one HGTV show and said it’s our time

they finally get home and tony gives y/n a big hug, asking her what took so long

happy tells him that she was keen on getting burgers bc apparently someone has taught her that stressful times call for ~cheeseburgers~

he proceeds to look at tony with a pointed look

tony just shrugs and goes “she was a problem child. we don’t mention her dark past”

she’s swaying on the spot and keeps grinning like a fool and thor just stares at her weirdly before elbowing bruce and whispering loudly,

“what’s wrong with her? is she dying? should i start collecting leaves, i know this remedy—"

no one can tell if y/n is just happy to see the newly decorated home or if she’s just delighted to see everyone but then she goes around hugging the entire team

she doesn’t even acknowledge the sky-high pile of teddy bears and flowers everywhere bc she’s just squeezing everybody

y/n is so high, she just starts to spill all of her feelings about everyone and they’re already so overwhelmed by the hug chain they can’t take this too

“wanda i just want you to know that you’re like my big sister and you’re always taking care of me and i know you and vision are just going to make such good parents one day”

“bucky you absolute PRICK, you FIEND, you’re the best chess player ever and that’ll never change and i wouldn’t be good without you, i hate to say it but you deserve happiness even after you made me lose five times in a row yesterday”

“dad, you’re so strong and smart, even though we’re like never on the same page, you’re always along for the ride, i want to be like you when i grow up, i swear i’m gonna try to be as good to the avengers as you were to us” “aww- wait makes you think i'll be the first to die“

“nat you’re such a bitch about your protein shakes but you’re my best friend and i wouldn’t have it any other way, you can try out as many make up looks on me as you want”

“bruce, brucey, i would live with you in your lab for the rest of my days if i had to, whenever you ask me to hand you stuff i feel useful and important”

“laura’s way out of your league clint i have no idea how the fuck you got her but don’t lose her and i want to be your next child’s godmother”

“steve…we’re your family now. we’re always gonna be your family now. okay?”

“loki you’re not fooling anyone with your attitude, we all know you’re part of the family, you were just misunderstood and messed up bc of your dad–FUCK him by the way–but i realised everyone deserves as many chances as they need because of you”

“sam i would genuinely kill anyone who wronged you, even if they cut you in line at the grocery store, i would knife them no hesitation”

“thor, you poor golden retriever have been through so much, on my way here i made a wish on an eyelash for you bc you deserve better, your postcards always make my day, love you”

she mumbles something to peter that no one else can hear but he blushes and chokes back a sob

y/n orders hot soup and bucky brings it to her but before he even has time to react peter drops everything and ZOOMS across the room in .3 seconds

he barrels into bucky so hard they both go flying, but peter just smoothly rolls out of it and onto his feet like some kind of super ninja

“DUDE WHAT THE HELL” “😠 y/n is not supposed to drink hot liquids 😠”

all of this happens in mere seconds but sam has filmed it all and now slow mo clips go viral online of some mysterious kid knocking over the winter soldier

y/n’s a little in and out after that, but when she fully regains consciousness, she’s on a pile of blankets, surrounded by the team on the floor <3

* * *

let me know if this is actually comforting lmao stay hydrated pals

hc masterlist

[griffintail]

I’m surprised people think techno’s grief extends to pure violence. When it’s clear the news of his S/O death leaves him trembling on the floor, and letting out pained wails his first night alone. Leaving him delirious in denial as Philza has to keep watch to make sure he doesn’t kill himself trying to bring them back. And as the grief seeps in he is left to sleep through dreamless nights and live through thoughtless days. And at the end, acceptance isn’t voluntary, he’s too tired to do anything else. (Please write smth for this I can’t sleep this idea’s been eating at me for days)

I went a bit off script- I hope you still enjoy. :)

The Bolt

In-Game

Pairings: Technoblade x GN! Reader

Warnings: Death, Blood, Angst

Part 2

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        Techno blocked the axe coming for his face with his shield as he chugged his last regeneration potion.

        The last battle of L’Manberg was over and he needed to find (Y/N) and get home to safety. He gave a whistle that echoed across the battlefield before pushing Sapnap away from him. Booking it away, he went towards the meet-up spot Phil and (Y/N) had agreed with him.

        “Phil, I want you to have the totem.” Techno held it out to his friend.

        He saw Phil running from the wreckage the withers were causing as he could see the (H/C) head of hair weaving through the chaos. Techno lost his concentration as he stared at (Y/N), everything a dull roar as he smiled softly at their figure. Creating the scene of anarchy and chaos.

        “Wait, I’m your damn fiancé, why don’t I get it?” (Y/N) gave a dramatic huff as they put a hand on their chest.

        It was true, they both only had one life but…

        “Because, you and I, we never die blood goddess,” Techno smirked.

        “TECHNO!” They screamed.

        He had missed seeing the crossbow aiming at him because he had been looking at (Y/N)…

        He went to get his shield but he would be too slow…

        Then there was a cracking as an ender pearl shattered in front of him and in a cloud of purple sparks appeared (Y/N), who gasped as they caught the crossbow bolt in the stomach.

        “You’re such an idiot.” (Y/N) laughed. “Now! Let’s celebrate our freedom from the child by blowing up a nation!”

        Techno laughed as he enjoyed the sparkle in their eyes at the thought of the anarchy.

        “No, no, no!” Techno caught them as they fell, Jack quickly loading his crossbow again.

        He needed to go.

        Scooping them up, he bolted for where Phil was watching in wide-eyed shock. Phil managed to snap out of it though and covered Techno’s retreat as he tried to reassure (Y/N).

        “It’s ok, we’re going to get you home, alright? Come on, you’re going to need to keep your eyes open for me beautiful.”

        But (Y/N) winced before crying out as the crossbow bolt brought them pain. The voices were screaming in panic with them and Techno.

        WE NEED TO GO FASTER! WE’RE OUT OF HEALTH POTIONS! WHY DID THEY TAKE THE BOLT! PHIL, HELP TECHNO! GO GO GO GO!

        “I’m here mate!” Phil ran beside him now, taking off his jacket. “We got to keep pressure on it till we get to the potions. I sent a crow ahead to get one faster hopefully.”

        Phil kept pace as pressed the jacket around the bleeding wound, (Y/N) letting out another scream. Techno wanted to scream himself as he ground his teeth together to keep himself together.

        They had to cross the nether to get home!

        They had so far to go!

        That crow needed to get here yesterday!

        “T-Techno.” (Y/N) sputtered.

        “Quiet, keep your strength,” Techno demanded.

        “I-I-I…” They muttered before their eyes blinked closed.

        “We got to stop.” Phil panicked.

        “We don’t have any potions!” Techno also panicked.

        “We have to slow down the bleeding now!”

        The pair stopped as Techno put (Y/N) down as Phil tried to work as fast as he could being the experienced healer. He tried to stem the bleeding as best he could, he couldn’t take the bolt out though and it had to have hit something important because there was too much damn blood!

        Then a few minutes later…

        (Y/N)’s chest stopping moving…

        “No. No, no, no. Breath damn it!” Techno commanded, putting a hand on their shoulder.

        “Techno…” Phil said quietly, tears in his eyes.

        “Where’s your crow!?” Techno shouted. “We need a potion now!”

        “…It’s not going to help Techno.”

        “It has to! We—They’re not gone! They…they…”

        Techno put his forehead on theirs as tears gathered in his eyes.

        “Please…don’t leave me. I love you; I need you…”

        But (Y/N) had fallen and lost their last life…

        …

        Techno had carried (Y/N) all the way home to the tundra and he held them for a while before he finally let himself bury them. Then…

        He just sat there for hours, shaking.

        In the freezing cold.

        Next to the mound of dirt.

        “Techno, mate. You got to come in.” Phil muttered as he came out as night was starting to fall.

        “I don’t want to leave them,” Techno mumbled.

        The voices were quiet whispers as they talked about all the things they loved about (Y/N) and Techno just sat listening to them, ignoring as Phil protested.

        “They wouldn’t want you to die with them mate.” Phil finally broke through the voices.

        Techno huffed, tears falling behind his mask. “And they didn’t want to die either.”

        Phil sighed before just sitting next to his old friend.

        “What are you doing?” Techno looked at him.

        “You got to pass out eventually. Doubt all the adrenaline from the fight is helping.”

        It really wasn’t. Techno felt bone tired and his body wanted nothing more than for him to sleep but he wanted nothing more to sit here with…(Y/N). He was covered in the blood of his lover and those he harmed today. Maybe it was all karma everything he had done…

        It took another hour but finally, Techno’s body took control and he was out. Phil let out a long sigh before dragging the man into his own home. It was going to be a hard time for a while…

        …

        Phil thought Techno would be the same as the first night, that the other man would become unresponsive. His assumptions had been false though. In fact, it was worse.

        Techno didn’t eat or sleep properly, which Phil had expected, but what he didn’t expect was for Techno to practically go insane as he poured over hundreds of lore books, trying to figure out how to bring (Y/N) back.

        “Techno, mate, you need to take a break from this.”

        “No, I will get them back. If I can just figure this out…I can do it.”

        “You can’t do it if you die too!”

        Phil went around these circles for hours, Techno sometimes striking low saying if he can figure it out, he could bring Wilbur back as well. Techno went full force into his work, the voices only encouraging his behavior as they threw out ideas to research. He had never listened to his voices more than now.

        Techno had been so invested in his work, he didn’t notice when Phil gave Ranboo to build on the land, mostly because Phil gave him one rule, leave Techno be. Phil knew Techno the best and was trying his damn best to knock Techno back.

        The blood god was pouring over notes for a hopeful experiment when Phil came in, food in hand as always.

        “It’s late Techno, eat and go to bed,” Phil told him.

        “After I’m done,” Techno muttered.

        “Techno.”

        “After. I’m done. Phil.” Techno gave him a dark glare before going back to his notes.

        Phil sighed, putting the food down on the table. “Tommy locked Dream in prison.”

        Techno frowned. That made him glance at Phil.

        “Why?”

        “Something about his discs as usual.” Phil crossed his arms, shrugging. “We got a notice on the radios that Dream lost two lives to Tommy.”

        “Huh,” Techno mumbled, looking at his work again. “Kid should have finished him…”

        Techno scribbled out a sentence. That wouldn’t make sense.

        “Probably, I don’t know why he didn’t. Ranboo might know though.” Phil smirked to himself, his tactic working a bit well in his favor.

        Techno’s interest was at least separating a bit from his research.

        “Who?” Techno pulled over one of his sheets.

        “The kid living outside the house.”

        “Heh?” Techno looked up fully at that.

        “He’s been here for weeks Techno; you’ve just been so caught up you haven’t noticed.” Phil pointed out now. “You need a break mate. You’re going…you’re going to kill yourself doing this.”

        Techno looked at the papers in his hand.

        “Techno, you need to fight another day. Come on.” (Y/N) tried to coax him away from preparing potions. “I’m tired.”

        He clenched the papers as the voices were scattered, none of them focused on one thing right now.

        “…Fine. I’ll at least talk to the kid.” Techno grumbled, getting up.

        “Take the food.” Phil grinned.

        Techno rolled his eyes, taking the bread but nothing else. He ate it as he left the house, his eyes not daring to travel to the beautiful flowers around the mound of dirt. Indeed, on his land, was a little house in the side of the hill. Huffing, he went over as the voices were skeptical, remembering one boy named Ranboo from L’Manberg and visiting Tommy.

        “I can’t believe the little brat!” (Y/N) screamed as they paced around the house. “We gave him shelter! I should him love! AND HE BETRAYS US!”

        Techno closed his eyes, his body shaking before trying to distract himself by knocking on the door.

        “Phil?” A voice called from the other side before they opened the door.

        The tall boy shrank seeing Technoblade at his door.

        “Uhhhhh…hi,” Ranboo muttered, looking anywhere but the pig masked man.

        Techno didn’t care really for pleasantries right now, so might as well get straight to the point.

        “Hi, heard you might know why they locked Dream away rather than just kill him,” Techno grunted.

        He hated the fact that Dream also had a favor over him. Would have been nicer for him if they had killed the smiley masked man.

        “Oh yeah…I was there…hang on,” Ranboo muttered, taking a book off his belt and flipping through. “He uh…Dream said he had a book that could bring back the dead.”

        Every. Single. Voice. Went silent.

        As Techno stared at the tall hybrid, who shifted nervously at the stare.

        “He did now?” Techno muttered.

        “Y-Yeah. He said he could bring Wilbur back for Tommy.”

        Techno didn’t care about the rest as his cape fluttered behind him as he took a determined march to the house to grab his things. If Dream wanted to cash in that favor, he owed him one more thing…

[lazaruspiss]

adding a cut bc hah. aha. im normal.

once upon a time i was talking in the DMs with a friend about betas in omegaverse sex trafficking/breeding rings (essentially being given to omegas as comfort objects) and i got a Very Specific mental image of a mutual noncon scenario, of a beta+omega+one to two alphas. my friend says "is this juicier if the beta wanted the omega. and now is bitter that some random alpha is fucking them better than the beta ever could. even when the omega is trying to beg for the beta. is that anything" and i knew in my heart of hearts i had to make this tim/dick. like the concept had me up the walls so fast.

THEN it got wayyyy longer. like several pages worth of DMs about a ra's/tim/dick plot. which is what im working on rn. current title is 'Nature's Order (As Told From Alpha To Beta)' which Will make sense i swear. i have an outline started and a few context-less lines already.

like i said my notes are literally pages and need to be whittled down but im gonna try and explain it without making an entire essay about a fic i havent even written yet.

SO. timmy. actually im just gonna copy paste this bit from my doc

I have something of a ‘main’ omegaverse AU in my mind, and in that one Tim unlearns his shitty thinking via dating Omega!Steph and having some eye opening heart to hearts. (and getting pegged also helped.) This fic is essentially one huge butterfly effect where Tim and Steph never meet and instead of Steph teaching him about omegas it��s… Ra’s. It goes about as well as you’d think it would.

But even before Ra's, Tim is a bit. hm. sexist in a way that people usually ignore bc he'll "grow out of it". and he's also just very quiet about it bc he sort of knows that it wouldn't go over well. it's important to me that at the start you can look at him and think that if he had just gotten a decent talking to then everything that happens after could have been avoided. bc u know. hurts more when you can look back and go this mightve been avoidable </3

Tim has a Dick obsession, who doesn't! but he has no clue how to approach it normally. Dick is, quite literally, the only omega Tim has hung out with on a regular basis. his parents were betas, bruce is an alpha, and this is pre young justice or a no young justice AU so his social circle is very limited. looking up advice for courting omegas just brings up alpha bro podcasts. (which tim dismisses not bc of the sexism, but bc hes not sure how it would transfer over if he tried it as a beta)

so tim sabotages Dick's medication for his heat and plans his confession for the time he thinks Dick's judgement will be the most impaired by omega hormones. as one does.

Ra's has Also been tracking Dick and his cycles as part of his whole heir thing. Probably because he and Talia got into a fight about her having a baby, or smth along those lines. So hes stealing the detective's omega son to use as a living incubator. as one does.

Ra's kidnaps the both of them, deciding to take Tim for the whole 'omega comfort object' bit i mentioned before.

over the course of the kidnapping it becomes clear that this is an omegaverse sexism kicked up to 11 type of environment. if Tim is a slave then Dick is toy. even narratively i wanna play into it, with perspectives switching from Dick to Tim as Dick loses more and more of his agency. Ra's very much exploits Tim's existing beliefs in order to fully convince him of the A>B>O hierarchy. Even when Ra's punishes Tim he does it in a way that still maintains that Tim is more deserving of basic respect than Dick. (or any other omega, but dick is kind of the main vessel for that)

Also Dick absolutely gets pregnant very early on into the kidnapping, in no small part due to Tim's past interference with his medication. whoops?

And I have way more written out. it gets even worse. it's so fun. it's also crazy long and i am so scared but i Do wanna write it!! just. augh. my doc for this story is already 6 pages total and its almost entirely just notes. anyways. sorry for the wall of text, heres one of the 3 lines i've actually written so far.

"Your alpha never did mate you, by the looks of it. From what Talia's said it seems he hasn't fucked you at all. Poor thing. The detective doesn't know what he's missing." It’s far from the first time someone has insinuated something less than appropriate about Dick and Bruce’s relationship, hell, it’s not even the first time Ra’s has implied it. But hearing it while drugged and tied up in such a violating position is enough to make Dick whimper as he fights against the beginnings of tears in his eyes and a sob in his throat.

dreamy sigh. you know the angst is gonna be fun when just writing the outline has your stomach in knots