#and get prescribed this

[bleakbluejay]

i want to note that the past couple weeks i've been trying out an anti-depressant that is perhaps not currently prescribed to me, but i've never taken anti-depressants before. and they've really helped me. like really. i feel human again, for the most part, and my dark thoughts are almost nil. the side-effects are negligible- just some nausea in the morning, lower appetite (and along with it, the awareness of appetite, when i normally experience introception), and i need assistance (weed, melatonin) to sleep.

tomorrow i take the last one, which sucks. but now i know there's promise for me. that medicine does help. that i can feel okay. so i want to make this post to remind myself of that, for when i'm out and the dark thoughts come back. i can be okay.

[icantdothistodaybruh]

some silly doodles to take my mind off of things🕊

ref

[mirage-daily]

Mirage getting prescribed anxiety medication

day 106

based on this

[themostimportantnight]

THIS MOVIE WAS QUITE FUN, HUZZAH (opinions and doodles under the cut!!!!)

I really like how Anxiety was portrayed as someone who had a purpose beyond just wanting Riley to be on-edge 24/7; it got me riled up (tee-hee) seeing her justify her actions as keeping Riley safe by over-analyzing everything, because that ***is***, at the end of the day, what anxiety does in the back of your head (even if it hurts, and makes you feel even more unsafe, and doesn't help at all, and sucks major balls, and is uncool). I like how she felt separate from Fear (and how he appreciated her efforts), and seemed -- for the most part!!!! -- composed in doing what she did, because anxiety in real life justifies itself to you, like it knows what it's doing. WHAT A FUN CHARACTER, I WANT TO STRANGLE HER. Also, when Joy started contemplating if adults just feel less of her as they grow up, I went ">:O" because I was 11 when the first movie came out and am now 20, and have many more problems now than I did back then (BUT I THINK MY LIFE IS MORE FULFILLING NOW, SOOOOOOOO)

DOODLE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!

[homoqueerjewhobbit]

I'm allowed to make this joke, but I love that Jewish death rituals are like:

"Pfeh, for what should I spend $12,000 on a big fekakte box they see only for five minutes before they cover it with dirt?"

"Don't waste my good suit what might fit my nephew Lev if the bum should ever even try to get a real job!"

"Embalming? Don't mind me, I'll rot in the dark."

[tinystepsforward]

my (very european) weed doctor has somehow settled on "normaldiverse" as the antonym to "neurodiverse" and i'm obsessed

[cromulentreader]

Yes, Jude, after 600 pages of you going Cardan, Cardan, Cardan, it may be possible that you are indeed infatuated.

[onioneyez]

Thinking about the GO kiss (of course) and how that strange versatility of the pairing in general extends also to this. The fandom’s grief is so universal because each person sees in it exactly what will hurt them the most.

To this aromantic, Crowley’s desperate gesture looks like: “is this what you want? Will this make us real to you? If I show you I love you in the right way, the human way, will I finally matter enough for you to stay with me?”

[watermelinoe]

i don't want to be called a queer

[wickjump]

will never understand how people get genuinely angry over people’s views on fictional skeletons (primarily on aspects that don’t matter). cause like. that’s basically just someone’s oc. that oc’s creator has drawn that oc doing what you’re upset other people are drawing them doing. you are defending someone’s oc from something that does not matter. i can bet you a billion bucks if you went to the creator of your blorbo they would not get mad at whatever you’re upset about. they’d go “such is life” and go smoke a cigarette or something. depending on who you’re thinking about there’s a chance they’ve literally said before that they really don’t care. and neither should you

[flowersintheimpala69]

headcanon (not rlly cuz it’s not canonically plausible at all but shh) that Sam got prescribed medication for his depression at Stanford then when he starts road tripping with dean he keeps it secret cuz he LOVES dean but he’s also slightly embarrassed and worried Dean would judge him. Until one day Dean finds the medication in Sam’s duffel bag when he’s looking for Advil or smth and at first he’s sorta dosent understand and he asks Sam about it and Sam goes all quiet and avoiding dean’s eyes says “they’re for my depression” and Dean just dosent get it cuz what do you mean you’re depressed you seem fine to me you seemed okay when you were a kid everyone gets sad sometimes why do you need medication and it’s not coming from a place of hate but dean grew up under John ‘Toxic Masculinity” Winchester and isn’t depression a girl thing?

And he doesn’t really get it but doesn’t rib Sam too much about it cuz it seems like a sore spot so they don’t talk about it at all in their Winchester-esque way until suddenly out of the blue about 3 months later Sam’s acting irritable and won’t eat and yo-yos between not sleeping and sleeping the whole day and dean has to practically fight tooth and nail to get Sam to get up and shower and brush his teeth or hair and function like a normal person.

And eventually it becomes too much and dean finally asks Sam what’s wrong and Sam just stares at him with that blank look and then quietly and meekly admits, “my meds ran out and I can’t get a refill.”

And dean feel so bad cause he gave Sam such a hard time about the meds and if this is what sam’s like without the meds then maybe he really does need them.

And dean hates that cuz he’s Sam’s big brother he should be able to protect Sam from this but he can’t and it eats him up inside.

He pushes Sam’s messy hair back gently, and tells him he’ll fix it he’ll make it better

And Sam looks at him with those sad brown eyes and whispers weakly and somewhat bitterly you can’t fix this, dean, it’s not a monster or ghost you can fight, it’s me— my brain is broken and you can’t fix that

Dean just smiles sadly and tenderly runs his hands through Sam’s hair I can try

So Dean decides they take a break from hunting for a while, and he brings Sam food that’s light on his stomach, reads up about depression, brushes Sam’s hair for him, gives Sam baths when he can’t bring himself to shower and tries to take him outside for fresh air.

Sam gets better, even slightly, but there are somethings that are even beyond dean’s ability. Eventually they start doing hunts again, and dean can tell Sam is still struggling and he can’t get out of bed most days but Dean just muscles through those days and is extra gentle with sam.

One day, dean comes back to the motel they’re staying at and Sam’s sitting on the bed reading and dean just wordlessly drop a small orange bottle onto Sam’s lap.

Sam looks up at dean and dean sheepishly explains that it’s the meds Sam used to take

How’d you get this? Sam asks, awed

Dean grins, it’s easier to fake a prescription then you think

Sam smiles—really smiles for what feels like for the first time in days

It’s not the same dosage and I’m not a doctor or anything but you’re supposed to be weened back onto them, right? I’m sorry—

Dean, Sam cuts him off, it’s great. Thank you.

And Sam has tough days. He always will, but it’s okay and they’re both okay.

[liminalweirdo]

Poll: Health and gender re medical malpractice

if you feel comfortable please share your choice as well as whether you have ever experienced medical malpractice

not to be that person but please consider reblogging this, my tumblr don't have a ton of traffic and i'm genuinely interested in the results.

[artzybumpkin]

Do you think A/llan's love for cheese is stronger? Or does he have aversion to them?

Honestly I feel like he'd be turned off of it for a long while. Actually ANYTHING with a strong aroma would probably be quick to turn his stomach.

Bless his heart, I imagine he can't really deal with any dairy products or anything super heavy for the first few months. Figure he'd have morning (and afternoon, evening, etc.) sickness something terrible💔

More often than not he can’t be in the same room with somebody eating. IMMEDIATELY he has to hightail it to whatever basin he can yack into

[crimeronan]

been thinking about the rabies condition in writing lately, which is a GREAT post about stakes and characterization. basically exploring how if there's a 100% chance a character is doomed, then they can and will do extremely dangerous/damaging/contraindicated things for the slimmest hope of survival. which is one of my Favorite narrative devices

but while we're using health metaphors, i've been thinking about another somewhat complicated means of introducing character stakes, which i'm tentatively calling 'the autoimmune condition' for reasons that are. obvious

the premise itself is simple: the character has Something that they need to survive. they either can't live without this thing or they will lose something vital about themselves if they lose this thing. there is no replacement or alternative for the thing. what's most important are that the consequences for losing it are Extreme, rabies-condition-style

in the real life allegory, this is the immune system. which is great for being alive!

then the problem is introduced when this thing starts killing the character.

the character still needs it to live.

so: there is a 100% chance that you will die if you destroy the thing killing you. if you impair it through other means, there is a 100% chance of consequences, though the severity of those consequences is up to the author. (these are medication side effects in the real life allegory.)

if you do everything you're supposed to then you'll PROBABLY survive, but you're gonna have to play lifelong tug-of-war to balance everything, and you are often going to have to choose between two shitty options. bc there is no alternative.

this is a counterpart to the rabies condition in terms of stakes; with this condition, your character has to make complicated and difficult decisions about what they're sacrificing for their future. it's not the immediate life-and-death stakes of rabies, it's a slow decay instead.

what side effect consequences are they willing to take on?? and what are they NOT willing to take on?? where do their priorities lie in terms of symptom management?? what other solutions are they looking for?? what are they willing to sacrifice??

and perhaps most importantly: what exactly do they need to lose before they'll Accept the side effects / sacrifices that used to terrify them?? how high do the stakes need to be??

at what point is this character going to look back at the choices they've made up to this point, and realize that they no longer recognize themselves??

[thecatspasta]

Ok but if you think about it anti self diagnosis stuff is so stupid sometimes

'Hey I have self dxed autism'

'You do not have autism bc a medical professional has not approved this and therefore you are not autistic'

Imagine if you applied that to smth like cancer and then that person later died of cancer. Hey if its not diagnosed then its not real and cant affect you so everyone who died of smth that they didnt get diagnosed obviously did not have that

You can see how thats stupid right?

[jeanmoreaue]

as a non-sports fan, i totally thought that the aftg in universe fans were so unrealistic and that nobody would care about sports players personal lives that much. until i met my boyfriend who is into sports and i can 100% confirm that not only is it realistic, but i think people would be even crazier.

what’s happening rn with Shohei Ohtani from the Dodgers and his best friend betraying him and stealing millions from him is such a good example. it’s all i hear about lol. not to make light of a bad situation in real life, but it’s very Kevin Day and Riko Moriyama coded and i think fans would’ve been reacting similarly in universe lol