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Ahhhh I am so here for all of your WIPs, and now I must know more about “Rebecca Stark the Wolf King” if you want to talk about it!
WIP Ask Game
(The main file in this is called 'Robb Stark Now Has a Vagina' just FYI)
There's so many files in my folder that have been languishing for YEARS that I've deleted out so many, and saved a few that I feel very partial to!
So Rebecca Stark was my genderbent Robb Stark AU from.... a decade ago? (yeah this is 2013). She was marrying one of the Royces, Robert Baratheon was being a little weird. I had Kristen Stewart a'la Snow White as the face claim because it fit SO WELL and I made some amazing photoshop art for it (and my first time giffing! and I still have those on my desktop).
Here's a snippet behind the cut!
Father had ventured in his slightly awkward way he had whenever he was forced to remember that his oldest, his ‘Bex’, was in fact a woman. He had simply asked what she had thought of Prince Joffrey.
Rebecca did not care for falsehoods but she understood dangerous grounds. So she had answered carefully that she couldn’t actually say whether or not she cared for him as she didn’t know him.
“There you are.”
She glanced up to see her mother coming toward her and she spared her a smile. “Are you sisters taken-- Rebecca! Why isn’t he outside?”
Grey Wind looked up at Catelyn curiously, a whine in the back of his throat and Rebecca shrugged. “It felt safer with him.”
“Safer? That wolf needs to get outside, Rebecca. I told you.”
Rebecca sucked in her lower lip and thought of how in the torchlight the lines on her mother’s face look deeper and more abundant. There is the slightest wisp of silver at her crown and how queenly her mother looks compared to Cersei Lannister. “It’s not like we’re hosting Lord Bolton and his flayed banners.” She wanted to tell her the truth -- that the King makes her uncomfortable. That the Queen’s eyes pierced her back every time she walked past and there’s nothing she could do about it except hide and it isn’t an option.
Her mother’s hand was warm as it slid across her shoulders, her arm a gentle and comforting weight as Catelyn led them into Rebecca’s bedroom, sitting her down at the dressing table. Rebecca looked at their reflections as she watched her mother reach for the comb to work on binding back her thick, dark hair. The sensation of her mother’s nails against her scalp soothed her and Grew Wind pads to the fireplace and curls up on the rug behind them.
Sometimes if Rebecca looked hard enough she could see the similarities in them. The reddish hue to her dark locks had faded over time but their eyes are the same pale green. The same nose, the same Tully jaw. Rebecca remembered sitting in front of the mirror as a child trying to mimic her mother’s stern looks in a way to get her siblings to listen to her.
“Smile more, Rebecca. A lady should always smile.”
Most of Catelyn’s lines were from her warm smiles. The dimples in her cheeks were evidence of that, the little wrinkles in the corners of her eyes and yet that is where her Stark rears it’s head again. Stern dourness that makes the Stark so sullen.
Queen Cersei looks dour, she thought. Starks look reticent. Serious. Regla rulers of the North.
Frigid Starks, Theon’s teasing voice filters. Ice Queen.
#oc: rebecca stark#thank you for the ask!#much like project ironwolf#I have no idea how these would work out since we don't know how ASOIAF ends#and frankly I'm just so tired#also there's just so much
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Learning to celebrate the little wins!
#fersona#While I don't have the capacity to do Hourly Comics Day#I did journal my day hour-by-hour and the sheer difference in my self-care and routines is *staggering*.#Honestly both Feb 1 2024 and 2025 were rough days...but this year I had a far better outlook on it all.#The funny part is that when I drew this a few days ago I actually *was* celebrating not crying.#Might have still cried on Feb 1st. A meagre 4 times. But I also had lot of good moments!#January is a very hard month for me and frankly I've been in a fugue state for most of it.#Drawing helped me pull through these last 2 years but this year I've been finding myself so upset at how I can't seem to focus anymore.#So updates and posts have been slow. I'm just slow. I'm tired and burnt out from work and grieving.#But you know what? The days I do manage to post; I'm never shamed for how long it took. You're all just as excited and kind.#I'm coming home and eating better and sleeping more and spending time with loved ones.#This is all to say; you can be a lot happier when you realize that life can be taken a little slower.#I'm more grateful that words can possibly convey.#If you related to the mindset of constantly feeling like you've 'failed' the day; please know you have done more than you realize.#I'm struggling with it everyday! I'm in the trenches with you!#Life is too short and painful to not celebrate what you *do* accomplish! It's hard work but it is worth it!#Bit by bit...we will learn to live. *Really* live. And enjoy it!
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The thing no one ever considers while writing up character analyses about Merlin is that. he must have been sooooooo sleepy.
#I see everyone talking about the nuances when you look at Merlin through [x] lens#BUT WHAT ABOUT THE SLEEPY LENS#WE CAN��T KEEP SLEEPING ON THE SLEEPY LENS#(can u tell I'm exhausted)#see this reads as if I'm joking but I'm actually being SO serious. I think the lack of rest was a significant factor in Merlin's conduct#IF he got a solid 8 hours of sleep + 2 hours minimum JUST to himself everyday uninterrupted... I just know things would turn out different#like it isn't even asking for much. decent sleep + a frankly sad amount of down-time. and yet. I know he didn't get that w those 3 jobs#ugh#he must have been TIRED do you hear me#even applies to morgana she looked tired tbh. those prophetic dreams probably weren't great for restfulness. sad what she did but#she did seem sleepy#okay ignore this I am going through it. extrinsic intrinsic coagulation pathways have gotten to me if u know what I mean#actually wait no if anyone sees this don't ignore it#HE MUST HAVE BEEN SO SLEEPY and everyone must understand. SLEEPy.#I hope I do not wake up and reread this and wonder why I posted this. but like I feel like I am the correctest person on planet earth rn#I've been thinking abt merlin's nap deprived state for years now tbh#merlin#bbc merlin
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Goodbye Krakoa. Stay dead bitch. No more mutant islands.
Can we stop making ethnostates now like can we stop doing that in comics. Can we not keep saying "minorities are safe nowhere but in their own country that doesn't let certain people and also they might not even be safe because Evil People might get jealous and kill them". Ultimately this era has done nothing to explore why ethnostates are bad in any real way. It has done nothing to actually explore how being complicit in the creation of an ethnostate is a Bad Thing. We had some events but we didn't explore anything because we were too scared of making some of our faves look bad. I just actually hate the statements this era has ended up saying and I hate the fact that heroic characters are mourning over the loss of an ethnostate founded by eugenicists. These politics are ugly. And worse yet I see people mourning the loss of the fictional ethnostate like have we all lost our minds.
#brieuc.txt#further rant below#krakoa#xmen#negativity#i suppose.....#I'm tired so apologies if this isnt articulated#I just really feel frustrated with everything in this era#And I hope it stays gone frankly#this was simply too ambitious a project to be shared by that many creatives#this is something that needs to be written by one person I think and its been proven by how messy this wrapping up is#my feelings towards the clear 90s nostalgia are complex and generally negative but fuck dude. I'm glad the ethnostate is gone#because having heroic characters be sympathetic and loyal to an ethnostate is bad. It's fucking bad.
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hey, random person on the internet, maybe don't do this?
#shoot from the hip#sorry if this is a little too serious :(#but it really is something that annoys me#like I just don't get how people find this funny#am I just taking things too seriously? probably#is it just a small edit that doesn't warrant a whole post to be made about it? again probably#is it a good use of my time and energy to get mad at the person for making the edit? absolutely not#but frankly I don't care#between this and that one “racism” edit on luke's page I'm getting tired of humouring these people's malicious edits#I was able to revert the edit almost immediately so it didn't *really* matter#but it's more so the fact that someone did this to begin with that really bothers me#this fandom is incredible and I'm in no way accusing anyone on here of doing this#honestly I just need a place to vent about my frustration#anyways rant over#(man I hate being serious like this lol praying to god that serious junyu never appears on this blog again)
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"proship dni" this, "comship dni" that, "neutral dni" unfortunately the people you don't like are still human and deserve comfort. my fucking god shut the hell up you're just as annoying as they are and protest WAY too much about it. go unlearn your purity morality shit
#i dont even KNOW what comship means man#but im so tired of reading every instance of this under the sun with every post about selfshipping#like you realize a good CHUNK of the selfshipping community is going to BE them because they're already otherwise normally ostracized from#their communities for other reasons including being neurodivergent.#they deserve comfort too good lord shut the fuck up with the holier-than-thou “i'm better than you” attitude you're really fucking not and#frankly i'm more suspicious of people like you having something to hide about what they like and dislike#i'm neither pro nor anti nor neutral i'm just a human fucking being that stopped giving a shit about stuff that truly does not matter and#won't affect me in the long run. i'm an adult with more serious things to worry about.#it's like seeing the damn “dni” banners everywhere You Are Annoying.#also it's not like i like anything particularly 'heinous' anyways or pedophilic and i shouldn't need to clarify this but apparently i do!#i'm just sick of this purity culture bullshit i REALLY am#whether u want to hear this or not it is queerphobic and ableist. do u understand? cool.#proship#comship#f/o#selfship#selfshipping
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elliotte said that if anyone was going to be traded yesterday it would've been petey and the SABRES are very interested lol... lmao even
#canucks lb#i am not moved but i am a little on edge and frankly i think that's a vile thing to be after hearing anything that loser says#i'm just a girl standing in front of a hockey team's front office asking them to love her bald blonde gf....#get jt OFF my team already i can't keep fighting in rumored trade wars for the blondes. i'm so tired of this grandpa#i CANNOT FOLLOW HER THERE PLEASE PLEAK PLEASE
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Augh
#fancy is really struggling#and the babies are lovely and just FASCINATING in how they developed around but not shaped by humans and i so very deeply enjoy them#but they are also a little ungovernable due to their age and general lack of caring about rules and they are bothersome and rowdy#and it is obviously so so hard on her and my heart is breaking because im afraid we wont be able to get her through this#and i will have to give the babies up#and...not have another cat#just one#i would be crushed#and added to all of that is that the babies are taking their time learning to be pets and that is fine and wonderful actually#but...i need surgery on at least one ankle and i won't be able to keep up with them if things haven't sorted themselves out by then#and they haven't become more manageable and fancy hasn't adjusted#so we are asking about meds for poor fancy and hoping that works#but she's really having a hard time guys and i am fighting so hard to cope in a household where i spend most of my time alone#with two animals who don't love me yet or interact with me like pets (i'm a source of three things: food and snuggles on demand and NO STOP#and one who is sad and not herself#and frankly it's terrible that i can't fix this#and i am trying not to lose my shit but this wasn't supposed to be so hard#and im afraid i may lose five cats and not three#and im already barely holding on#i don't know what to do and neither does my boyfriend#i don't want to turn around and have to tell you guys we can't keep the babies#i feel like i am failing at something i am supposed to be GOOD AT#i don't want to be in a house so empty#i can't live like that#having the babies is lovely#they're so alive and the boys were so sick by the end and the stress of the constant anxiety and grief as they faded away was crushing#even before they died#it's been so good to have them running about#i don't want to LOSE that#im so tired of LOSING things
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to be quite honest. shipping with CANON (not headcanoned) exclusively gay/lesbian characters as someone of the gender they are explicitly not attracted to is a form of erasure and lowkey homophobic. 'just make them bi' is a bad take. bi people are amazing and valid but not everyone is bisexual??? 'theyre not real' is a bad take bc representation matters and i feel like that doesnt really need to be said. obviously the character isnt real and isnt offended but gay/lesbian selfshippers can see how much you dont gaf abt their identities. gay people exist in real life too!!! homophobia is still so acceptable in fandom spaces and its kinda wild.
Actually this one gets to skip the queue because we just had another anon push their luck about this. I WAS originally going to leave this in queue but now feels like a better time to nip this in the bud.
This is the LAST thing I'm saying about this topic because frankly it's the majority of what we've been getting recently and it's exhausting. All future asks about this topic WILL be deleted. AS STATED ABOVE. DO WHAT YOU WANT FOREVER. YOUR EXPERIENCE IS YOURS AND YOURS ALONE.
TAKING POTSHOTS AT EACH OTHER IS NOT A CONFESSION.
THAT'S CALLED BEING AN ASSHOLE.
k thanks bye
#No offense to this anon or any of the prevs but I'm just so fucking tired of this topic. and so are other mods. seriously. drop it. now.#signed an agender lesbian in real life that's main f/o is just some guy. trust me when i say we don't actually care that much. not that dee#other queer selfshippers: if you're bothered by someone minding their own business. please for the love of EVERYTHING just block them.#if they're actively going out of their way to bother you or ACTIVELY SAYING SOMETHING BIGOTED THEN YES THAT'S AN ISSUE#but if they're just. sitting there. they're fine. block and move on I IMPLORE. LIKE SERIOUSLY. COME ON NOW.#For all you fucking know this could be someone's gateway into figuring out their own identity. we talk constantly about the sexuality aspec#but the amount of people I've seen figure out their GENDER because they selfshipped with someone that 'wouldn't normally be into them' is#frankly not a number you can just ignore. like are we forgetting 'fujoshi' culture that a lot of trans people found themselves from???#Seriously. I'm at a loss for words and frankly just disappointed. Considering officially blacklisting this because this is NOT worth it.#*deep. can you TELL I'm fucking tired of this?#already had one person try to start shit about 'not REALLY being gay/lesbian' because of selfshipping with an opposite gender character#I am NOT tolerating that shit on this blog. NONE of us will.#genuinely if something possess you to try and place yourself as an authority on OTHER PEOPLE'S IDENTITIES. *TOUCH. GRASS.* I AM SO SERIOUS.#LITERALLY NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS. QUEER PEOPLE IRL: HEY MAN HOW'S IT GOING.#<< HEY BTW IF YOU SENT THAT AND/OR THE SECOND ASK ABOUT THAT COUNT YOUR LUCKY STARS WE'RE FAR MORE FORGIVING AND YOU'RE NOT IP BLOCKED YET.#Literally please grow up and learn from this. Talk to LITERALLY any other queer people outside of your bubble for fucks sake.#skips the queue#THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE POSTED LATER TODAY. CAN WE PLEASE GO MORE THAN 2 SECONDS?!
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the tl;dr of that 1500-word post is this:
the zodiac is fundamentally a timekeeping system, where the signs are defined as 12 equal divisions of the solar year, with the four cardinal signs (aries, cancer, libra, capricorn) defined as beginning at the equinox and solstice points; the names are mnemonic devices and have nothing to do with the physical constellation boundaries...
...therefore ophiuchus is not "the new thirteenth zodiac sign"...
...and the decision to tie the zodiac points to the equinoxes instead of to the position of the original reference stars was deliberate and not because ancient astronomers didn't know about axial precession.
in fact, vedic astrologers have been correcting for axial precession for centuries, because they use a space-based sidereal zodiac instead of the western time-based tropical zodiac; because the current sidereal position of the vernal equinox point, and thus the relative position of the sign boundaries, is in the constellation pisces, the same objective position of the sun (or any other planet) in a birth chart will have different names depending on what zodiac system you're using.
so if the mismatch between the tropical signs and the constellation boundaries really, really bothers you, maybe try looking into vedic? they've got two extra planets, too!
but criticizing the tropical zodiac for not correcting for axial precession is like criticizing a cat for being bad at barking.
#astrology#original#i promise i am done talking about this now i'm sorry that article just pisses me off so much#every couple of years someone finds out about axial precession and flips the fuck out i'm so tired of it#it betrays a fundamental misunderstanding of the entire system#which is frankly due to a fundamental failure in the way people talk about and teach astrology in general#both the mathematics behind the system#and the way people use it like fucking myers-briggs or harry potter houses#it's goddamn divination y'all it's not a fucking personality test#stop trying to reinvent eugenics and calling it queer culture! having a scorpio sun is not an ontological moral failing!
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Been thinking abt this a bit lately, and I haven't wholly committed, but if for no other reason than curiosity's sake, if I did some sort of like, romance hc / self ship focused "ask event" on my ship blog, would that be smth anyone's interested in?
#on one hand. it's just not smth im personally interested in at all. but on the other. I love to yap abt my guys and frankly ppl just don't#seem all that interested in them when it's not romantic#and that's not to complain per se. guess it just makes me a little sad since it's like the circles that I'm in don't really overlap with#many others in this fandom. I think a good middle ground would be doing an ask thing like this on my side blog for stuff more of this#nature. nature. And having it just be a temporary thing. I don't want ppl to associate me w/ selfship stuff bc it's not smth I care abt#much beyond enjoying talking abt my Various Guys in almost any capacity#<- trying so hard not to sound like a hater I love self shipping I think it's great I just don't do it and don't wanna be boxed into a#corner where ppl are asking me/making requests for this stuff exclusively bc that'd. Not be fun for me!#like...I'd like to entertain it a *little*. Just a little. Any only if it'd be fun for everyone yk?#rambling. ough.#I'm tired. if you couldn't tell. I'm super tired and it's almost 4am here#sunny with clouds#maybe delete later if the Shame gets me
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i really am trying very hard to get better at not caring what people think of me but ummm. being rejected by my peers does still hurt a little!
#i was in my calculus class today and i was in a group with four people and like.#i could REALLY feel them not wanting to talk to me or kind of look at me much either#and also the first day of class our professor was making us do icebreakers (horrible) and i ended up being the only member of one group#just like. by chance. i guess nobody else in the class has the same birthday month as i do#and our professor was like ok do you want to go with the october group then?#and someone from the october group loudly went NO!!#and i am. unsure of how much he was joking!#idk idk idk i already feel like kind of a little freak everywhere i go#so sometimes being reminded that other people ALSO think i'm a little freak (not affectionate) is a little. achey#anyways i think i handled the october rejection pretty well i made a joke out of it but. ouchies#god. i have been awake since 6:45 this morning. i am very tired. and frankly i would very much like a hug or something!
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The thing is "forced diversity" only became a real thing after people online got called out for only ever having like white ocs or just Never making women [ESPECIALLY TRANS WOMEN] and now sometimes I see a character lineup and its like Oh I can like actively see the diversity checklist you were crossing off in your head specifically to try and get tumblr woke points because you are being so fucking Weird about this. Like in an effort to be like LOOK LOOK AT HOW DIVERSE MY CAST IS I AM ADVERTISING THIS BY JUST TELLING YOU ABOUT HOW DIVERSE EVERYONE IS YOU DON'T NEED TO KNOW GENRE OR THEMES they make it so clear that making characters of color or women or disabled characters etc has to be a Conscious Choice instead of just. Something that comes naturally because that reflects our real world.
#Sorry I started thinking about that fuck ass paranormal park or whatever show#Makes a character who is a fat trans man. Makes his last name FUCKING GUTTMAN.#and again like. The complete performativeness of Woke Anachronisms#Like sorry man. If you make Sir Arthur and his knights do a pronoun circle thats stupid#The fact of the matter is a lot of the terms we use to describe things are new!#Like you don't have to have a character state every minute detail of themselves to be good rep#And frankly as someone who doesn't tend to bring things up unless its relevant like#I want more rep for people like me pleaaaaaase#There are so many of us that don't feel the need to be open with Strangers abt gender/sexuality/abled status/culture#like. It just isn't other peoples business!#I need to log off before I go on a tangent about how much I also fucking hate pronoun circles#I have to do them so much in college. Please. Please I'm so tired of how weird people are#If someone wants to know they can Ask Me stop making me choose between#Outting myself to the whole damn room or misgendering myself if the vibes aren't right#ANYWAYS. Bed time yaaaay ^w^#chittering
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i know my body is doing its best but christ alive.
#keeping it fun and funky fresh#personal#i need a chronic illness tag#i've been doing frankly a lot better in the past week+ bc we got an upstairs window ac#and we've been keeping the house air conditioned bc even tho it gets cool overnight it is incredibly humid all the time (70-90%)#and the ac units take the humidity out from indoors as well as keeping things a consistent cool temp for me#but today i painted so i aired out the house all day. and. it was a mistake.#i feel fucking miserable. i could not get comfortable At All All Day.#also like. i haven't talked about this but i've gained quite a bit of weight in the last 2 years & especially the last 6 months#(being completely sedentary d/t chronic fatigue will do that to ya)#and so a lot of my clothes fit weird and feel bad and i haven't replaced them yet bc i still don't rly know how to shop#for clothing for trans women. especially bc a lot of those clothes are thrift store finds that Happen(ed) to feel good on me#and today i happened to be wearing underwear that i didn't realize were among the no-longer-comfy and the waistband would not stop rolling#and then it'd get pinched between my stomach & my lower abdomen and chafe horribly especially w/ how sweaty & sticky i was#it was just awful. it was just awful. i finally turned the ac back on even tho it's only 70° outside#bc i couldn't stand being in the (currently) 80% humidity anymore#and grayson helped me take a sponge bath after i broke down crying#and now i feel a little better but i'm just. tired. i'm tired & all of this is getting worse & my doctor doesn't seem to give a shit#heat intolerance
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ok so. when i& say im& non/antizionist & free palestine im& saying:
palestine deserves to be free & liberated.
the occupation of the west bank & the siege of gaza is wrong. that shouldn't be controversial.
i& see myself& & my& native ancestors & what they went through in palestinians; our& solidarity with the palestinians is natural.
as a native person, palestinians have been there for us for a Very long time even while they were (& still are) under brutal occupation & any native who knows the history between turtle island & palestine will stand with palestinians, this is common sense.
i& was literally the only person in my& extremely rural area to raise awareness of the issue while also condemning antisemitism & islamophobia because newsflash: you can support palestinians without being antisemitic & you can protect jews without being islamophobic because more often than not arabs muslims & palestinians are the scapegoats for antisemitisim when in my& experience the vast majority of the time, muslims arabs & palestinians weren't the ones being antisemitic, it was actually nonpalestinian nonmuslim nonromani goyische leftists (mostly white goyische leftists but not exclusive, because i've& definitely seen it happen with other races too, i've& seen it from black goyim, chinese goyim & even native goyim, but more often than not it's mostly white leftist goyim who's doing this shit & making it worse).
fascists & authoritarians need to go & be tried for crimes against humanity.
i'm& diaspora neutral; while i& think the many jewish diasporas are important to jewish history, i& also don't think that "the diaspora was good for jews actually".
while we& consider eretz yisrael the physical land of israel as a sacred holy land for judaism, christianity & islam alike & we& think it's important for historical, cultural, spiritual & religious reasons, we& have no ties to medinat yisrael the modern state of israel. all the same, we& hold compassion for israelis & jews worldwide.
i'm& inherently against all forms of extremism & terrorism & those who conduct themselves like terrorists & any supporters including h.amas, h.ezbollah, h.outhis, i.sis, i.rgc, i.sraeli settlers who have no intentions on coexistence who attack civilian palestinians, netenyahu, putin, the kkk or nazis & anyone who supports them or tries to justify their actions "for a greater cause" regardless of who the victims are, who the perpetrators are, or the cause it's done in the name of, innocent human lives will always matter more to us& more than any ideology or cause because every human life holds immense value & civilians, especially children don't deserve to pay the price for their corrupt governments & one life lost is one too many because if you destroy a life you destroy an entire universe; apparently this is a controversial take to have; all dictators, regardless of race, ethnicity, nationality, skintone, faith or lack thereof & their supporters must fall.
i'm& highly critical of goyische/nonjewish leftist spaces, specifically western goyische antizionism from np goyim & kvetch about leftist antisemitism constantly specifically Because i'm& a leftist & do not tolerate antisemitism from goyim who share my& beliefs. i've& seen more antisemitism from leftists than rightwingers. everyone scoffed when jews said "hey criticizing israel is fine but please don't let it turn into antisemitism" bc we Knew this shit would happen & lo & behold look at what happens. people should care about freeing palestinians but a lot of people used the cause as an excuse to be antisemitic.
our fight for liberation must include all of us.
i'm& against all forms of imperialism, including western nations' desire to control west asia for their own imperial self interests, no matter who does it.
israel's foundation & its ongoing policies have contributed to massive suffering for palestinian people. there's no denying that. as a native jew i& disagree with How israel was founded & i& rationally oppose how it was founded knowing that the state was established where they did Knowing this would lead to dispossessing palestinians & that's why i& can never support political zionism knowing its history & what it's done now, even if i& understand that jews' vulnerability was being linked to being a permanently small minority & that many jews wanted to have one place where they're the governing majority & only through a jewish state could they avoid antisemitism, express their culture freely & practice their religion without hindrance so they'd never have to be exiled or murdered or persecuted again while Also understanding that from its early days zionism included elements of racism & major zionist organizations have implemented conscious, intentional racist policies & regardless of an individual zionist's intentions, zionism as a whole has had racist & oppressive results for the palestinian people i.e many israeli soldiers justify their actions against palestinians by saying "they're just following orders" & israel has a repeated ongoing record of human rights offenses (like many other countries around the world) & the fact it's Not a 1v1 situation like the americas & not to mention im&. against states in general as an anarchist.
at the same time i& Also understand that most jews see israel as a safe haven because antisemitism all across afroeurasia resulted in the deaths of millions of jews across the millennia since like basically the dawn of humanity originating in ancient egypt, jews have been murdered, raped, enslaved & killed in diaspora in virtually every country they've been a part of as a minority after many jews were forcibly removed & exiled from their homelands during the roman-jewish wars & throughout the centuries jews have returned to & maintained a presence in the land while other jews never left the region even before zionism & that's why so many jews are fiercely protective over the idea of having their own homeland & return to where they came from (& to be honest, they're not wrong for feeling that way, it's a historical precedent that's happened all across europe, asia & africa & later in the americas & oceania with the nazis, the kkk & other antisemitic groups & goyische/nonjewish complicity) before during & after the holocaust / shoah, some of which included jews who lived in MENA/SWANA region for centuries & that many jews do not feel safe in countries outside of israel due to the countries their families lived in for centuries became unsafe for them, whether it's the crusades, the spanish inquisition, the holocaust / shoah, the farhud, the expulsion of ethiopian jews, the expulsion of russian jews, etc. & most israelis are the children & grandchildren of refugees who came to the land to be free from persecution & literal genocide & to break their own cycle of displacement & oppression at the hands of empire after empire & the revival of jewish culture, identity & self determination in the land where jewishness originally formed & flourished & to be brutally honest & a lot of y'all don't wanna hear this but i'm& telling you what you Need to hear, not what you Want to hear: a lot of y'all nonpalestinian nonmuslim western goyim (obviously not all but a lot) are literally just proving jews' point from the way a lot of y'all behave or at the very least how silent the vast majority of y'all have been about this including the rampant rise of antisemitism this entire time.
at the exact same time, you have palestinians who've been living in palestine who have been living there forever & rightfully Do Not want to give up their homes & they Also have the right to be free from persecution, violence & occupation & to live in self determination & to live in peace & safety. does that sound fair? yes!
multiple truths can exist at the same time. you can fight for palestinian liberation & fight antisemitism at the same time. it's genuinely not that hard to understand. palestinian & jewish activists have been telling y'all this for AGES.
i& have very strong feelings against theodor herzl (he's. smth else. he literally was for the antiarmenian massacres & i shouldn't have to tell y'all why that's gross), the current israeli government & political zionism & the way a lot of big jewish institutions use the very real fear of persecution & eradication a lot of jews feel to push the idea that the only safe place is israel, for obvious reasons. but y'all need to understand that zionism wouldn't have been created if it wasn't for the rampant oftentimes violent antisemitism from almost every single country in the world.
white american/canadian/european/oceanian western leftists im& looking Directly at you. LOOK at me&. i'm& gorilla gripping your shoulders bc most of the antisemitism i& see comes from y'all. i'm& not gonna be nice about this. while this Does apply to western leftists in general, i'm& mostly talking to y'all bc most of the antisemitic nonsense comes from y'all. your white guilt on living on stolen indigenous land isn't solving anything. you siding with terrorist organizations who want to kill jews & also harassing muslims & arabs & palestinians aren't helping or liberating anyone. your white/western saviorism is literally killing people in west asia when you dogwhistle for war in countries that you've never been to all from the relative safety of your homes & will never have to feel & experience the consequences of your words & actions. centering yourselves & telling us that you know better than we do in these issues is literally the other side of the same coin as white supremacy. don't be a useful idiot. your blatant ignorance is hurting & killing people. you have opinions, we have experiences. you have literature, we have stories. you have work, we have nooses around our necks. our experiences, our stories, our futures, & our lives trumps your work. the REAL people in this war & on these lands are NOT your fantasy fulfilment of your violent revolutionary fantasies. i'm sorry that we know interferes with what you think but for the first time in history, goyische western leftists, but most especially goyische white western leftists, you need to fucking understand for once in your life that This Is Not About You.
FUCK christian "zionists" yall are weirdos.
i'm& inherently against kahanism. get that shit AWAY from me&.
as an indigenous native jew specifically i& have my& own reasons for being against political zionism as it's my& belief that it's done jews more harm than good in the long run & that zionism, like many other nationalisms, has hurt people, in this case especially palestinians & they have every right to talk about it & i& strongly believe in the concept of all my relations that's widely practiced among several nations of turtle island as well as tikkun olam / repairing the world. the violence is interconnected. our liberation is all interconnected. it's blatantly obvious that what's going on in the region isn't repairing the world at all. the israeli government is not only breaking international law but also jewish law & jewish ethics of warfare.
i& have a palestinian friend who is a descendant of nakba survivors & i& had a mentor figure who was affected by the maya genocide in guatemala who's family managed to escape & ended up being raised by the haudenosaunee in canada & a jewish-romani friend who's a descendant of holocaust / shoah survivors who also lost family members at srebrenica which israeli government officials played a role in, just as i& have a friend who has relatives living in israel & palestine fearful for their lives due to h.amas terrorism & being evacuated bc of h.ezbollah. every single one of my jewish friends have been harassed, one was even chased off their blog by leftists, received microaggressions from leftist goyim, & have been sent death threats & rape threats. clearly as you can tell i& have my& own personal reasons why i'm& critical & why i& want peace & safety & justice for all in the region.
the israeli hostages who were kidnapped & taken from their homes & families need to be freed & brought back home. that's not a political statement, it's a humanitarian one. if you see anything wrong with what i& just said you're an antisemite & a nazi hope this helps.
the thousands of wrongfully detained palestinian prisoners, many held without charge or trial, Also need to be brought home. this is Also not a political statement, it's a humanitarian one. if you see anything wrong with what i& just said you're antiarab & antipalestinian & most likely a kahanist hope this helps.
understand that both palestinian, jewish, muslim & israeli suffering is being exploited for political gain, locally & globally, with governments & extremist groups using the issue to push their own agendas, dehumanizing those on the ground & justifying their politics to stoke fear & division among the populace with jewish communities feeling unsafe, facing attacks & exclusion while palestinians, arabs & muslims are being harassed, marginalized & silenced with their pain & calls for justice being ignored or criminalized. islamist extremist propaganda is also another dangerous force, with groups claiming to support palestinians often pushing extremist ideologies that actually harm the very people they claim to defend (& many people in gaza & iran & yemen & others Have spoken up against them, & the ones who do are often tortured & killed & yet many western leftists don't seem to care), both far right & far left extremists thrive on the division & antisemitism forges the horseshoe theory, exploiting both antisemitism & islamophobia to spread fear & hate, attacking movements for equality & justice. since october 7th, i've& seen that instead of solidarity, there was polarization among many western leftist groups when i've& seen israelis & palestinians do more work in the region of palestine & israel working together than most leftists in the international community have for two years now, with some refusing to criticize the israeli government's brutal occupation & the committed war crimes hiding behind historical guilt while others minimize, dismiss & justify the suffering of jewish & israeli civilians denying the humanity of those traumatized & killed in hamas' attacks who're not culpable or responsible for the occupation to the point of atrocity denial even after it's been proven true & terrorism apologia. i've& also seen people conflating the civilians of gaza with hamas which is dehumanizing & blatantly false & victimblaming the civilians of palestine who literally cannot fight against hamas & also avoid the rain of explosions from the israeli military at the same time. (what i've& also noticed is that the vast majority of western leftists are never interested in any tragedy unless white people are either the oppressors or the victims so that they can continue their ideology wars against each other rather than investing in foreign conflicts with the legitimate intention to reconcile it.) polarization silences voices of nuance & intersectionality & it doesn't help anyone.
the innocent israeli hostages nor the civilians of gaza nor a random palestinian or jew or muslim living oceans away in the diaspora are Not your enemies. be normal.
we& stand with both the jewish & palestinian people & their diasporas.
we& acknowledge the palestinian human right of return for displaced palestinians & that jews, if they so choose, make aliyah & acknowledge that both jewish & palestinian indigeneity are interconnected & not at odds with each other & that governments do not equal their people & that both jews & palestinians have a right to coexist & thrive in peace, safety, security, freedom, solace & self determination on their ancestral homelands or anywhere else in the world that they choose to live in diaspora just as literally any other ethnic group do.
both antisemitism & islamophobia are astronomically on the rise. this is a fact.
true jewish liberation is the condition in which jews in every place in the world will live free from fear, free from threat of being targeted as jews & where our safety never depends on pleasing or remaining "useful" to any "side", be it powerful elites or peoples' movements, in which we will live without pressure from ourselves or others to blend in or assimilate, unashamed of our jewish looks, heritage, languages, rituals & distinctive behaviors & jewish culture will be nursed in all its diversity, jews will be capable of defending ourselves but will be defended & shown solidarity by groups around the world & jews who wish to will be able to participate in collective self-determination as a people and/or live in autonomous jewish spaces & it REQUIRES BOTH the commitment & action of both jews & goyim around the world & is incompatible with the oppression of any other group point blank period.
np goyim: don't think that just because you're a part of a marginalized community or that just because you're oppressed in a certain way that does not mean that gives you the right, the knowledge or the level of understanding to speak on jewish issues. you don't have to have a take on everything. bc a lot of the time it's very telling that a lot of y'all don't know what the fuck you're talking about when i& see some of the things you guys are saying when you're talking about jews. y'all use that shit as a shield & that needs to stop because at the end of the day you are goyim/nonjewish before anything else & y'all prove that with your very bold weird takes about jews bc you don't know what the fuck you're talking about. y'all will reverse shit yourself about listening to voices of poc (& i'm& a native jew so this applies to me&!) but when a jew tells you you're being antisemitic the vast majority of y'all will fucking jump through hoops & rings of fire rather than admit you're wrong & that you fucked up & apologize & do better. shutting the fuck up is free. the fight against antisemitism is inherently intersectional.
we don't have to agree on everything, but if we have the same values, then it really doesn't matter, & it shouldn't matter to you, either. the cycle of violence HAS to end. it HAS to be THE LAST TIME.
jews both historically & in the present due to jewish culture tend to be progressive & humanitarian in our values & have consistently fought for every single leftist movement you can think of without receiving support back from almost any other group besides black people & natives (civil rights, medicine, technology, entertainment, black lives matter was co-founded by a black jew, land back was founded by a native jew, the pride parade was literally created by the mother of pride, an antiwar polyamorous kinky queer bisexual jewish sex worker, hell, even the word decolonize was coined by moritz julius bonn in 1932 who was an ashkenazi jew so whenever you talk about decolonization you're using a term coined by a jewish person!) & yet most goyische leftists refuse to do the same for us, for the jewish community. you can't have it both ways. you can't have your cake & eat it too. you can't claim to be antiracist & then throw around antisemitic dogwhistles intentionally or not & then turn around & continue to follow & support blatantly antisemitic people just because you agree with them on other forms of activism (& that's the bare minimum like dante's inferno bare minimum btw) & be as silent as crickets when jews are Telling you that we're grieving & we need your help. that's not how it works. your activism is performative & meaningless if it doesn't include ALL marginalized communities, you can fight for more than one community & cause at the same time. i'll& never forget how very few goyim bothered to ask me if i& was okay & most of the support came from other jews & our& palestinian muslim friend. many jews feel betrayed. it's time to do your share. because jewish leftists have spent YEARS pleading & fighting in getting western goyische / nonjewish leftists to see where we're either ignored or brushed off, to make sure collective liberation not only includes jews, but it literally cannot be complete without addressing antisemitism because antiracism, decolonization & unlearning colonial ideas also means deconstructing your own antisemitism, allying & standing in solidarity with the jewish community & genuinely fighting for jewish liberation, too.
i'm& just gonna say this. as a native jew, i& know other native jews, black jews & many other multiracial jews who see your silence & the rising antisemitism & feel unsafe. this is not the exception. every single jew i& know fears this. i& fear this. i& often feel unsafe. y'all can't claim to give a fuck about all indigenous lives or all black lives or w/e when y'all don't stand up against antisemitism in your communities because it's fucking there. jews are human beings.
don't use our trauma for your narrative. don't talk about never again for every other group except for jews when y'all are the same people who say "punch nazis" & yet when jews actually need you to protect us & make us feel safe from people who have those beliefs, most of y'all are nowhere to be fucking found. or worse, y'all use the term nazi & the holocaust / shoah against us to try subdue us. people will even cheer on the deaths of jews. & don't you fucking dare tell me i'm wrong, i've fucking seen it. i see this everyday all the time. keep the holocaust/shoah out of your fucking mouth. you can't claim to be for human rights when you're silent about antisemitism. there's a good fucking reason why i'm wary.
we& believe in peace, ceasefire, de-escalation, humanitarianism, accountability, justice, reparations, end of terrorism & fundamentalist extremism & the hopes of saving as many lives as possible & we& reject all forms of dehumanization, racism, antisemitism, islamophobia, xenophobia, harassment of innocents, scapegoating & collective punishment, we& hold human rights to be universal & nonnegotiable, a value we& hold above every movement, ideology or cause, just as we've& been taught by our& elders, our& indigenous beliefs, studying jewish ethics & we& want liberation, safety, dignity & self determination & a homeland for everyone & we& haven't made an exception to this topic. it's really fucking weird that somehow that's a hot controversial take to have.
i'm& for whatever solution will allow all people with ties to the land to live there safely living in peace & security. free the levant.
everyone, palestinians, israelis, arabs, jews, muslims, christians, druze, every single human being living between the jordan river & the mediterranean sea deserves better.
indigenous solidarity + jewish-muslim solidarity forever & ever.
as leftists, our responsibility is not to defend states or extremist groups, but to stand with oppressed people, ALL oppressed people. you can't claim to fight for justice while turning a blind eye to violence that doesn't fit neatly into your ideological narrative. you don't get to cherrypick who's rights matter & who's doesn't.
now, i& don't know what it's going to take to break through y'all's skulls & for me& to literally beg y'all on my& FUCKING KNEES to REMEMBER to be human & have compassion for each other. genuinely if you want peace & safety for all these people, then goddamn it fucking STOP THE MADNESS & SPEAK FOR PEACE.
when i& say im& an antizionist i& am Not saying:
i'm& denying jewish history nor jewish indigeneity in the levant (this an undisputed fact btw, this isn't about i/p, it's a fucking fact & it's inherently racist & antisemitic & blatantly ahistorical to say otherwise, especially if you're not jewish; jewish traditions & holidays including our calendar & harvest festivals take place to the setting of our ancient stories literally revolve around land based traditions in eretz yisrael the physical land of israel i.e the story of moses & passover/pesach; it's really gross; you don't have to erase 2000+ years of jewish history, jewish heritage, jewish presence in the land or jewish indigeneity for palestinians to be liberated or for your group's story to matter; there's genetic historical cultural & archaeological evidence to prove it; both jews & palestinians are quite literally related; jews & palestinians are both indigenous to the land & erasing either group's indigeneity, history, trauma or oppression isn't helping anyone at all.).
zionism = hating palestinians (zionism is. a very broad thing that means different things depending on who you ask ranging from "the belief in the necessity of a modern nation state for jews in the jewish ancestral homeland" to "the belief that jews have a right to live in our ancestral homeland" to "one form of jewish nationalism, based on the philosophy that a jewish state or cultural center in some forms of zionism ought to exist, as a refuge for jews and/or to normalize jewish existence and that it should exist on or within the area of ancient israel" to far right variations of zionism that are actually harmful such as kahanism which means "all nonjews in the land are enemies to jews & it belongs to jews Only & anyone who isn't jewish don't get the same rights as jewish people & attacking palestinians arabs & muslims is good because they're our enemies" & almost every single jew i've& seen wants peace with palestinians; i'm& very tired of np goyim taking or co-opting jewish terms & jewish words & not understanding what it means bc so many of y'all are just lazy immature & quite frankly don't belong in this discussion. don't think that just because you used the word zionist instead of jew that you've avoided antisemitism, unfortunately this shortcut to make a distinction between jewish people & the israeli government's actions by targeting "zionists", not jews & "zionists", not judaism or jewish culture doesn't work, using the term "zionists" doesn't protect jews, it just makes antisemites who attack jewish people irl & online & people who attack jews in the streets & shoot at jewish schools & bomb synagogues call the people they're killing "zionists", instead, be specific on who, what or which injustice you're criticizing, You Are Not Immune To Antisemitism.).
i'm& somehow being an antizionist for goyische approval (that literally doesn't make sense my& dude. g-d forbid i& have my& own opinions. i'm& seeing & receiving antisemitism all across the political spectrum & it's exhausting. antizionist jews can clearly never fucking win apparently).
i'm& somehow a self hating jew or a fake jew for [checks notes] having a different opinion, y'know, what jews are Known to do.
jews don't deserve a homeland (EVERYONE does, i'm very tired of the rootless cosmopolitan canard where it basically means jews dont belong anywhere).
antisemitism is okay or justified under any circumstances (i'm& literally jewish, you can disagree or dislike sb without being a bigot towards them, common sense).
atrocity denial+terrorism apologia is somehow ok (its fucking not get a GRIP).
i'm& not critical of np goyim playing a role in escalating this in the international community (obviously this doesn't apply to everyone but it Has become a massive problem), np goyim, do something & call out antisemitism in your movements, stop being cowards & FUCKING SAY SOMETHING & stop being silent when we're being harassed, beat up, sexually assaulted & murdered in the streets & mobs are targeting jewish businesses & areas & deconstruct your antisemitism in your heads for the love of g-d y'all aren't children. y'all should be able to call out antisemitism in your movements without jews who're already exhausted telling you to do that, either act like a grown ass adult & stand behind the jewish community without having to say "but i don't support the israeli government" everytime you do when you hopefully wouldn't do that to any other goup or literally just shut the fuck up & don't say anything at all. just don't call yourself a human rights activist bc you don't fight for jews; you're showing us that you don't see jews as human beings.
israel's the only country in the world doing awful things (that just isn't true). what the israeli government is doing is horrific but it's by no means unique or the only evil going on in the world right now; this narrative gets used to justify global violence against jews.
ask us& about our& opinions on i/p if you're goyim/nonjewish just because we're& jewish (fucking don't. because quite frankly i'm& uncomfortable speaking with people who have no skin in the game about a solution in the region when it doesn't even affect you.). we're& pro-palestine & pro-jewish. that's your answer.
& quite frankly i've& had enough. if you are angry or defensive or wanting to unfollow me& or block me& or respond with righteous indignation after reading this, it may be because you are an antisemite, & are suffering from cognitive dissonance based on the fact that you believe that you are a good person with no bigoted beliefs. this is not a space which will ever strive to make antisemites feel good about themselves.
#arcana.vents#jewish.txt#do not reblog this without permission.#do not reblog unless you're a member of our& system.#tw; vent#i& am. very fucking angry#& quite frankly i'm& so tired of this. i'm& so tired of this.#if it doesn't apply to you it doesn't apply to you but more than likely at least one of the statements do. just. read through all of this.#any discourse will be blocked & im exploding people with my brain im& NOT fucking engaging.#quite frankly i& have every right to be angry & upset#tw; long post#i dont give a shit if its long im& not minimizing my& anger for anyone im& fucking done doing that. nobody gets to tonepolice me ON MY BLOG#i shouldn't have to leave 500000 disclaimers for y'all to give a shit#i shouldn't have to feel like no matter how pro palestinian i am that i could get literally hatecrimed for saying the ''wrong'' thing.
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