#and for the record i didnt sleep ^_^ im so fucking tired

[weaselishmcdiesel]

JADKSHFDFH HIIII MAEEEEEEEE DONT BE SO CUTE COME HERE AND GET SOME EEPIES dropping you directly on liv <3 wakes them up <3 HEHE

[sugared-violets]

also here's another problem. my body straight up doesn't register hunger 99% of the time. most of the time i eat anyway because i know i have to but sometimes when i'm sad i forget or just don't want to and it just doesn't effect me at all. the only thing i've eaten today was a slice of birthday cake at noon and i feel fine. and like i know that can happen to you sometimes if you consistently aren't eating enough but i AM i swear to god, 99 days out of 100 i eat 3 good meals and a lil snack! my appetite should be normal! but noooo i have to sit here in bed convincing myself to get up and make dinner and my stomach isn't even HELPING

[the-acid-pear]

I'm sooo frustrated with my dad atm. I'm exhausted in general as previously mentioned but my dad's refusal to solve anything which directly affects me because I depend on him. Like I'm fucking disabled that's the thing and the more I'll stay the same if I'm not given the tools and help and etc I need.

[mydearesthrry]

texts between y/n and h — a saga

eeeek first piece of work for aidt uni!!!! so excited <3 HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!

ranges from years 2012-2014, part two coming soooon !!!

2012

harry styles: Hiiii. :P

y/n: uh oh

y/n: what now

harry styles: Whaaaaat? I didnt even say anything yet!

y/n: sure but i dont like ur tone of hiiiii

y/n: u seem like ur up to no good

harry styles: What do you mean. :[

harry styles: I had good news!!!

y/n: alright bug, hit me

harry styles: I’m having a short break from tour in a little!!!! :D

y/n: bubs omg!!!!!!!!!! im so excited eeeek!!!!!!!!

y/n: we can hang out right??? im in the middle of recording the new album so u can come to the studiooooooooo

harry styles: Yessss! That’s what I was thinkinggggg. I’m so tired, I can’t wait to sleep.

y/n: i know bub, just hold out a little bit longer and you can sleep alllll you want.

harry styles: Will u cuddle me???? Lol! :P

y/n: of course. now go, u have a show soon. ily text me when ur off <3 <3 <3

harry styles: Yes ma’am. Wish me luck! :D

——

y/n: pssssttttt

harry styles: Oh hiiiiii. Whats up???

y/n: is everyone down there asleep?

harry styles: Umm, yes? Why bug?

y/n: im hungry

y/n: i want a pb&j

harry styles: Ah. Okayyyyyy give me a sec. :D

y/n: huh

y/n: harry what

y/n: oh god where did u go

y/n: HARRY WHAT WAS THAT BANGING NOISE

y/n: omfg u absolute idiot

y/n: im coming downstairs u better not be bleeding im serious

——

2013

y/n: hi

harry: hi, whats up?

y/n: ummmmmmmmm

harry: y/n…

y/n: i didnt do anything bad!!

y/n: i just accidentally ate nialls last avocado

y/n: can we go to the store and buy some so it doesnt look like i did

harry: sure, lovie.

harry: be ready in 10?

y/n: yes. ur the best i love youuuuuuu

harry: i know you do.

y/n: if he finds out can i blame it on u :)))))

harry: you will anyway

——

y/n: HARRY

harry: what???????

y/n: i miss u

y/n: im bored and im tired of singing

y/n: my poor voice hurts :(

harry: are you at the studio?

y/n: yeah :((

harry: okay, give me a sec and ill be there shortly. any food you want?

y/n: maccies? :D

harry: alright. hang in there lovie, be there soon.

y/n: kk <3333

———

2014

y/n: h :(

harry: hi

harry: whats wrong lovie

y/n: i have a fever :((((((

harry: oh nooooooo!!!!

harry: want me to come over and being remedies?

y/n: please? i cant fuckin move

harry: alright drama queen, give me 30, okay?

y/n: okay :))))

y/n: love youuuuuuu

harry: love you tooooo. :D

——

harry: hmmm

y/n: what

harry: i dont think im gonna cut my hair

y/n: FUCK

y/n: OHHHHHHHHH MY GOD

y/n: I PRAYED FOR DAYS LIKE THIS

harry: ???

y/n: LONG HAIR HARRY?!???????

y/n: ARE U REALLY LEAVING UR HAIR

y/n: u know everyone already calls u prince

y/n: bc it looks like u have prince hair

harry: i wont cut it, unless you want me to??

y/n: DONT

y/n: EVER LET SCISSORS NEAR UR HAIR

harry: noted, the princess does not want my hair cut! :P

y/n: <3 <3 <3

[harmonygoldenn]

Getting my Dream Life before I turn 16 🍀💝.

Ok so I listened to my affirmation tape overnight for the first time and I woke up at 5:55am (Feb15) and still let my affirmation tape play out for 2 more hours, I listen to it throughout the day (still listening to it.)

Im also doing Sammys 10 minute method.

I started the 10 minute method Feburary 12, 2023. I affirm for 10 minutes or more outloud 3 times a day, but today I affirmed 1 extra time💝.

Movement I think?:

February 15, 2023.

I remember I saved a bunch of tarot reading tiktoks and quotes from like 1-2 years ago and and I now resonate with them.

Waking up at 5:55am.

Seeing 333 4 times today, literally look up rn and it was 4:44pm, looked up and saw 5:55pm.

Owls.

Feb 16,2023

I had a dream that someone in my family got movement and results from a fairy subliminal 😭(I remember I used to listen to this one fairy sub every night and got dreams and movement but stopped a long time ago.) and they were really happy about it

Saw 333

Feb 18,2023

Literally saw 555 rn

Sorry guys i took a break i was sad.

But i started listening to my affirmation tapes again on march 7.

So now im on day 5 of listening to affirmations overnight.

The first night of listening to my affirmation tape a girl in my dream was talking about my manifestation.

So ive been having dreams of hearing my actual affirmation tape *2 affirmations* in my dream like the actual recording.

Having random vivid dreams.

Having dreams of living my dream life .

Like literally on day 4s dream I had a dream I was at a pool party or something I had my naturaly long beautiful hair, my dream body, and felt happy and my friend in the dream was chasing me with a water hose or something, and it was getting me wet omg 😭 and I was like STOOPPP😭🤪, and when she stopped i was walking over to somewhere and flipped my hair over to one side and i woke up. It just felt like i had everything i desire when i dreamt that.

Day 5 today rn i didnt listen overnight but im listening to it rn for 1 hour to make up for not listening to it overnight.

Keep on seeing 1111, 1122, 1222 these past 5 days mainly 1111.

March 26, 2022

Heard my affirmation tape in my dream.

May 7

Sorry guys but ive still been saying my affirmations ever since and thinking as if but ive been doubting my desire and getting sad, but even tho i was sad im not giving up because i want it that bad im tired of giving up. Im still persisting in my manifestation and I listened to my affirmation tape last night and its still playing in my headphones right now and im thinking as if right now.

May 26 2023

OMG I LISTENED TO INDIGO DETRY SELF CONCEPT MANIFESTING OVERNIGHT FOR 1 NIGHT AND I LITERALLY HAD A DREAM ABOUT PEOPLE MANIFESTING AND FAMILIAR PEOPLE THAT I KNOW MANIFESTED DREAM LIFE AND JUST DREAM ABOUT MANIFESTATION IM SO HAPPY LIKE IN MY DREAM EVERY ONE KNEW HOW TO FUCKING MANIFEST LIKE WHAT😭 i shouldve listened to it when she first posted it.

June 27,2023

Yall omg i just woke up im so happy and i had a dream about my manifestation so basically i had alot of dreams in one and i had a dream where my affirmation tape was repeating back to me and even with the meditation music in the back and i had a vivid dream that I literally already had everything that i desire🥹😭🩷🦄💎 after all this time.. and i woke up happy asf

UPDATING WHEN I GET MOVEMENT AND MY DESIRE…

[fictionfixations]

Take It Back Now Y'all | Batman Fic | Tim Drake-centric (Fic Rec)

Take It Back Now Y'all (150566 words) by TimTheToaster Chapters: 33/33 Fandom: Red Robin (Comics), Batman - All Media Types Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Characters: Tim Drake, Original Characters, Harvey Dent, Jason Todd, Dick Grayson, Bruce Wayne, Leslie Thompkins, Waylon Jones, Oswald Cobblepot Additional Tags: Time Travel, to call this a fix-it is disingenuous but it is in the spirit, the OCs are kind of filler but also not if that makes sense, more tags as the situation develops, i'm just gonna slide in the, Slow Burn, tag because this is going to be a long build-up to Something, Canon-Typical Violence, but more like Tim's normal than Bruce's, Just So We're Clear, BAMF Tim Drake, Tim Drake-centric, Implied/Referenced Underage Prostitution, Unreliable Narrator Series: Part 1 of How to Scratch a Record

Summary:

There was absolutely no way this sunshine was from Gotham in April. Not possible. Which meant, Tim was no longer in Gotham, in April. (In which Tim finds himself in the past, and tries to do the right thing. It's more complicated than he'd like.)

my Notes: tim time travels go brrr alvin draper LMFAOOOO (but i also grew to love it ??) but also holy fucking shit im still sobbing i was bingeing this fic and im SO happy i didnt continue reading it in one session yesterday because i was tired as fuck BECAUSE ID BE CRYING myself to sleep????? IM STILL NOT OVER IT

but it sstill a cool fic and id recommend giving it a try if you're into that kind of thing

[justinefrischmanngf]

did not do any real cantonese practice but did watch the first half of in the mood for love so it’s fine actually . also i asked if they could record this weeks lesson bc im working and now i feel so fucking guilty that i didnt think of this when my sister had a thing on and i didnt go to it bc of this stupid class but WHATEVER i took her out to do stuff the other day and she had a good time so maybe i’m a decent sister . im so tired i have to start going to sleep when im tired rather than just Staying Up !!!!! idk how im supposed to survive working and studying and being in a new city on my own next year but we will see. on that note goodnight

[twildflower]

watching build fighters oh my fucking god i love my boys so much

fucnin yapping again guys i think i might have adhd

why the hell do i keep saying guys. i nedd hep i need to be killed

i miss them so much theyre so silly i am sooooooo ajhdgfshfga this is so much nostalgia im aghgfhgsgkjfhakfhajkhdsjh and just episode one too i cant think how hype id get watching finale itll be so fucking awesome I LOVEEEE BUILD FIGHTER my fav gundam show.... mercury is second i guess i only watched mercury and i think its iron blood or whatever its called in eng im not even sure if its gundam lol but anyway i love sei and reiji theyre actually sooo damn <3333 i think they were the first two guys i ship together bc theyre actually so gay even tho reiji has a gf or whatever its like one of the first pieces of media i consumed and didnt just like whichever main ship the plot has... yea iirc. i think theres mainly only jp twinkle n shugo chara before build fighters but then i went back to main ship in pokemon xy and macross delta lmao... shits awesome tho i think im cool and like whatever i like i love sei so much hes so adorable and reiji is so cool and theyre blue and red theyre so made for each other like ahhghdgfsjgfhsgfisgfjgfjdghsuifguiwdg i think i mightve gave myself way too much adraline its fuckin 430 am and i wanted to cut my hair a bit tmr agh damn. i guess i could stay up the night and binge....hehe....... was watching horizons too i love horizons a lot i really dont mind ash not being protag anymore but the fact that they ended with him looking like a fuckin ugly ass idiot that looks even worse than gen 1 ash tho..... i have beef with only that fact bc like fuck you man i hate whoever the fuck made that artstyle after xyz with a passion i think tney deserve to go to hell. the fact that its a downgrade from gen1 is crazy. i dont hate that artsyle but i hate the way ash is drawn in that artysle like most other people look okay but the past travel companions and ash look fucking shit and i think theyre doing it on purpose and i fucking HATE THEM

ermm back to gunpla hehe its 6 am im so tired im gonna sleep em anyway i love them soso much damn id so build a gunpla of their moedel in the episdoe.... yknow my dad used to record the edpisodes when they played on tv and idk was it a bug or there wasnt enough space anymore so he deleted all the episodes excepgt the las one or maybe seocnd last im not sure but anyway we kept rewatching it every now and then and go feral over how awesone it was it was the best endin episode i wached when i was a kid like shugo chara i didnt watch or they didnt play till like season 2/3 i think the wedding dress end and all that shit was crazy but the only other thing i watched was jewelpet and it was like not as crazy as this one i like it alot but build fighters was a lot more visually and emotionallly stunning lollll

i think if i had to choose a best ending for all the stuff i watched itd still be xyz tbh that shit was stunning and so. urgh. my heart. i get. so much agsjhahlf. its just so good. peaked tbh. then itd probably be build fighters tbh like idk man. delta was like. cool. very cool. but like. idk. build fighters either is more nostalgic or whatever it just appeals to me more than macross. it would be third tho. i think it is. then itd be shugo and then twinkle. these are like. the main stuff i have really core memorty w lmao. yeh i uess this is it. gn im so eepy

last edit lol i didnt remember the uhhh handsome guy being just a guy that also liked gunpla a lot at the start lmaooo i just remember him being a bad guy turned good at the end w everyone to help destory the crystal........aghhhh i loveeeeee build fighters sm.....

oh yeah i guess i did watch brs too. black rock would like. hm. be at the bottom tho bc..idk. i dont have too fond memory and i like my stuff better i have my prioritys lmaooo.. hm. yeah now i really dont rmb anything i just remembered brs bc the blacckkk rockkkk shooooterrrrr is just ringing in my head its such a good song owo

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[happiiest]

🙌

[sapphirewolf100]

Alright that’s it I’m blowing my top rn

[yoongis-black-grilfriend]

Drama pt. 2

If you haven't done so yet, click here to read part 1

Warnings: Violence & Cursing

Summary: You and Jack are dating but your relationship isn't public and someone from his past starts drama between the two of you.

Oh wow.

After the night you had calmed yourself down and tried not to ruin Jack’s album release party this girl took it upon herself to post pictures of shit Jack bought her and let everybody know that they messed with each other? 

This had really pissed you off because she was disrespecting your relationship to the max. It's also the fact that she POSTED him. People didn't even know that you existed let alone the fact that you two were dating. Her posting this made it look like he was out here fucking and sucking and you were not okay with this. 

Your phone ringing had taken you out of your thinking but when you looked at your phone it was off indicating no one was trying to call you. It was Jack's phone and he was still sleeping noticing it wasn't going to stop ringing he turned to you. “Who is that?” you roll your eyes ``Why don't you answer and find out? Its your fucking phone.” Confused by your sudden attitude, he sat up and answered his phone. 

“What's up?...... You're not being serious….. What the hell?….. Why did you even think it was okay inviting her last night… I don’t really give a fuck if it was her friends fault you sould have made sure she wasnt going to come and do not werid shit now look what im going through… Yeah whatever man”  Listening to the conversation it sounded like he was just caught up on what Katie posted. 

He turned to you and sighed “I don't really know what to say but just know in going to fix all of this'' You wanted to applaud  him for his words you really did but you were so tired of being nice to these girls that thought they could just come up to you and threaten your relationship with Jack just because it wasn't public. She had taken it too far and now you are going to take it a step further. 

“Don't even worry about it. I'm not trippin.” Jack raised his eyebrows ``Your not?” “No this is what comes with the industry right?” He shook his head in shame “No its not and I dont want this to become a regular thing” you scoot closer to him and grab his face in your hands. “Baby dont worry about it im okay lets just let this blow over okay?” He nodded his head along with you and gave him a peck to his lips. 

“Now I know your going to be busy today so worry about that and i’ll make sure to have iur show on by the time you get home” He nodded agreeing with you again and gave you a kiss “Okay Princess i’ll try to make it quick.” 

You shook you head “Take all of the time you need.” After the little talk you guys had Jack had gotten up and left because he had a couple interviews he had to get ready for. You had gotten dressed and put on some pink shorts with a matching cropped tang top with some white shoes. You had out your knottless braides in a pony tail and had made your way to your friends house. 

When you get there you saw that she had simuklar attire on as she made her way to your car. Annie put her seatbelt on and turned to you “You ready to kick some ass” you laugh as you start driving to your destination “You already know I am!” 

Finally you guys had made it walking out of the car you guys walk into the house some party was being held in (you didnt care whos ouse this was you came here for one thing) and as soon as you walked in you spotted Ms. Katie and wasted no time walking up to her. 

You had no words to say to her as you grabbed her hair and started throwing punches to her face. People had started recording and and trying to get close but Annie made sure no one got to close and she also made sure no one jumped in. Katie was weak she as trying to fight back she had no upper hand and you were on a mission. You get down to the ground as you throw a few kicks to her face before you decided you were done with her. 

“NEXXT TIME YOU DECIDE YOU WANT TO CLAIM MY MAN MAKE SURE YOU HAVE THE HANDS TO BACK IT UP BITCH!!” You said with a petty laugh and walked out with your friend. It felt good to finally take up for yourself because you had a lot of pent up anger from this happening time and time again you hoped that this would be a lesson to the girls that kept trying you. 

You didnt get home until late. Annie and you had went out to eat and then after you guys had been talking about what had been going on in yalls lives. Opening the door you had expected to see it empty but you were completely wrong. 

Jack was sitting on the couch and he looked PISSED. He turned to you with a glare in his eye. “You must get off to embrassing me huh?” 

You were done for.

Let me know how this is. Please send in request!

[imthebadguyyy]

A/N - based off of this sinful photograph

Suggested listening - Wildside by Normani and Kiss It Better by Rihanna

Wildside

Pairing - Lewis Hamilton x Reader (fem!littlemix!reader)

Fandom - F1

Summary - You've been on tour for a while, and you miss your loverboy. But when he surprises you on tour, its bound to get spicy.

Warnings - smut (not well written)

The snap of hips. The soft groans and moans. The sound of pants. The sound of Rihanna's 'Kiss It Better' blaring through the walls. The bed knocking against the wall as Lewis's hands squeezed your hips, the intensity of the thrust pushing the bed against the wall. The high pitched moan that left your mouth as you reached your high, eyes closing as stars exploded behind your eyelids, as your boyfriend came right after you, your walls clenching as he came. Even after reaching your high, you didn't want to open your eyes, far too consumed in the earth shattering pleasure that was coursing through your veins, until a soft hand reached to pull your chin up, soft brown eyes looking into your own, clouded with lust and euphoria.

Pulling your mouth into his in a heated kiss, Lewis moved his hand to rest on your bare stomach, squeezing your tummy softly as he deepened the kiss. Pulling away he let his head droop onto your bare chest. "That was.." he began, far too blissed out to think of an adjective. "Godly" you said, chest rising and falling rapidly, trying to come to terms with the intensity of your orgasm. Laughing he leaned back up to kiss your nose, before standing up and walking to the bathroom. You heard the tap running, and the sound of the dustbin opening and closing. You closed your eyes again, the aftershocks still coursing through your body.

Opening them again slowly, you saw Lewis walk towards you, towel in hand, and a lazy smile on his face. He gently cleaned your thighs, finishing with kisses on both of them. He reached up and wiped your torso, which was gleaming with a thin layer of sweat, before running the towel over your nose, cheeks, eyes and mouth. He dropped the towel in the clothes hamper near the bathroom door, pulling on his boxer shorts and and pulling out one of his t shirts from the cupboard. "What about the clothes on the floor" you piped up, finally beginning to wake up from your post pleasure state. "When did it get so messy?" He said, spotting 5 different clothing items in 5 different corners of the room. "When you decided to run your hand up my dress in a restraunt" you replied, throwing him a fake glare.

"You liked it" was his cocky reply, smirk spreading over his face as you flushed and ran a hand through your hair. "I did not" you lied, watching as he raised his eyebrows. "Oh really ? Thats not what you were saying 5 minutes ago- oh wait, you weren't saying anything at all. You were too busy moaning my name to say anything else-" "OKAY fine I loved it. Now shut up and bring your fine ass back for cuddles"

*-*-*

That was a month ago. Now you've been away for nearly one and half months, away with the girls on the LM5 tour. You loved touring, it was the best part of being a singer, getting to see the music you girls made together come to life on a stage in front of thousands and thousands of screaming fans. It was a thrill like no other. The only problem was that you were away from home. Distance was never an issue for the two of you, after all, he was a Formula 1 driver. It was very rare that he was home, except during the breaks and the gaps till race weekend, but ever since you two had started dating, he tried to be with you whenever you could. Sometimes, your shows would be in places where the races were too, and then he'd definitely turn up. But it was a difficult thing to do all the time, and some nights on tour were spent pulling all nighters as you talked to each other on the phone, till one of you eventually fell asleep.

But you knew when you started dating him, this wouldn't exactly be a regular relationship. The two of you were doing your dream jobs, and they were both extraordinary. And you were willing to put in the work you had to put in to make the relationship work, and you did. Yet here you were in Madrid, feeling heartbroken and desperately wanting your boyfriend by your side. It had been a rough couple of weeks, you were jet lagged and tired, and although this was the second leg of the tour, and you had had a break, it was tiring. It was hard going to bed every night alone, when all you wanted was to cuddle your boyfriend.

Little did you know, Lewis was feeling the same. In fact he had missed you so much, he had told Angela and his publicist to cancel all events for a week, while he flew out to Madrid to see you. He had missed you, he had missed you more than he could put into words. But he also wanted to surprise you. Pulling out his phone, he scrolled down to Leigh Anne's contact, and sent her a text.

Lewis, Leigh Anne

Hey. Is Y/N asleep ?

Hey! No, she's in an outfit fitting.

Okay that's good. I need your help with something.

Sure how can I help ?

I want to surprise her by coming to see you guys in Madrid.

Oh thats wonderful ! She's been a little down in the dumps. I think she misses you.

I miss her too.

Let me know when, and I'll send a car to pick you up.

I'll be there on Saturday. Landing at 3:15 and I should be at the hotel by 4:30. Then I can get ready and surprise her at the show.

Okay done. I'll send the car around 5:30,so you can rest for a bit. You should be here by 6. The show's at 6:15.

Thank you! Can't wait : )

I'm so happy youre coming to see her ! I'll let the girls know.

*-*-*

As soon as he had finished texting, Lewis decided to start packing, the prospect of seeing you again sending a buzz of happiness running along his veins. God, he had missed you a lot. He turned to Roscoe, the dog sitting by his feet, looking up at his dad with his head cocked to one side. "I'm going to go see Mumma, Roscoe" he explained, smiling as the doggo barked in response. He wouldn't be able to take him to Madrid, he'd have to leave him with a dog sitter, but he couldn't feel too bad about it, since he had had Roscoe with him even when you were gone. And besides, Roscoe enjoyed the dog creche. He couldn't wait for Saturday.

Later in the evening, he sat down with a glass of wine, while the ringtone of your FaceTime rang through the empty house. After a few more seconds of ringing, the call was picked up, your tired face coming into view. "Hi darling" he said, noticing the tiredness in your eyes, and how much you were struggling to keep them open. "Hi bubs. Did you finish eating?" You asked, rubbing your eyes. "No, I've ordered soup" (did anyone get the reference ;) "Oh okay" was the reply. "What about you? What time is it?" "Its 9:20 AM" you replied, gently rubbing your eyes again, forcing yourself to stay awake.

"9:20? Thats pretty late baby. Why are you still sleepy?" "We were recording till 4 AM, so Im functioning on like 5 hours sleep right now" "Oh damn. Go back to sleep then baby" "Can't, rehearsal" was you reply, making him furrow his eyebrows. "Okay I guess. But don't tire yourself out" "I won't" "I love you" he said, smiling at you. "I love you"

*-*-*-*

The Madrid show was always a fun one. The fans were loud and you loved it. They were one of the best crowds you girls ever played for, and the show had its own adrenaline and excitement. But it was difficult to give a 100% when you were tired, but you really tried, you did. During Power, you hit highnotes you didnt think you could, during Woman Like Me you danced like there was no tomorrow. During Wasabi, you brought your sass level up to a 1000. It was during Bounce Back that you caught sight of a very familiar face in the audience. Unable to actually grasp if you had actually seen Lewis, you turned to Jade, who was on your side, and looked back at the crowd and back to her, asking for confirmation.

The smirk she gave you was answer enough. After that, focusing on giving an excellent performance increased tenfold. Every swirl of your hips, every flip of your hair, every wink you threw at the audience, it was all five times sexier. In the crowd, your boyfriend was well aware of what you were doing, and it was fair to say that you were succeeding at it. He could feel an uncomfortable sensation around his pants region, as his cock twitched uncomfortably in his pants. He couldn't wait till the show was over, and you two could have a show of your own.

*-*-*

"That was amazing darling!" Lewis said, spotting the 5 of you in your dressing room. "Oh look its Mr. Loverboy!" Perrie said, cackling as you rolled your eyes at her, before running up to your lover and jumping into his arms. "Hiya Bub! I missed you!" "I missed you too love. That's why I surprised you. I couldn't stand another day without you at home" he said, wrapping his arms around your waist to keep you stable as you jumped into his arms. A chorus of "awws" echoed throughout the room, as the girls watched your cute little interaction. What wasn't cute however was the comment Lewis made in your ear, hiding his face in your ear so that the girls couldn't see. "I can't wait to get back to the hotel. I saw the performance you were putting on for me baby. You have no idea how hard I got, how uncomfortable I was standing in front of so many people when all I really wanted to do was fuck you"

You could feel your mouth become dry, and your heartbeat quicken, and you could feel the area between your thighs become wet. You tightened your grip around him, letting your crotch rub against his very softly. "I think it's time to go" you mumbled against his ear. "Okay girls, as lovely as it was to see you, I think it's time we go back to the hotel. I'm pretty worn out from travelling as well" "Yeah I'm pretty tired too" you replied, faking a large yawn. "Alright then, we'll see you guys tomorrow!" Leigh Anne said, leaning forward to give you a hug. After you finished hugging all the girls, the two of you made your way to the car, eagerly waiting to get back home.

The car ride home was tense. The tension was apparent in the air, reverberating through the air, choking you in a way you revelled in. The air was thick with tension, and it was suffocating you in the best way possible. It was almost too much to take. When the hotel came into sight, you practically leapt out of the car, and rushed to the door, an equally ruffled Lewis beside you. But he was not going to give in to you so easily. He enjoyed seeing you flustered. And he was not a person that gave someone what they wanted when they asked for it,no. He was going to have you desperate for it. Smirking to himself, he made his way to the reception, grabbing you by the waist as he went.

Throwing him a confused look you followed, slightly frustrated. "Hello sir, how can I help you?" the man at the reception asked, eyes going slightly wide as he recognized the two of you. "Hi! I just wanted to ask, till what time is your pool and spa open?" He asked, sliding his hand down to the back of your dress. "The pool closes at 10 pm sir, and the spa at 9 pm. We open the pool at 7 am and the spa at 11pm"he replied, struggling to maintain his professionalism as he spoke to one of the best drivers in Formula 1. "Alright thank you. And what time does breakfast start?" Lewis asked, hand pressing down on your ass, ever so discreetly. "Breakfast is from 6-10 am sir" "Thank you so much"

Next to him, you were fuming. Of course he was going to ask questions to which he already knew the answers to. A painful throb between your legs made you let out a small whimper, and the man at the reception looked at you with concern in his eyes. "Ma'am are you alright?" He asked, eyeing your stiff posture and tense state. "Yes, just tired, thank you" you replied, a little stiffly, but it was hard to concentrate when Lewis's promise of fucking you senseless kept replaying in your mind. "Alright then, good night" Lewis said, biting back a smirk at your flustered state. He knew getting you all riled up would lead to some seriously earth shattering sex, and he couldn't wait. But first, he definitely wanted to tease you, to push you over the edge, just a little more.

Your room was on the 16th floor, and as the two of you made your way into the elevator, he eyed you up and down, eyes lingering on the curve of your breasts. The minute the door shut, he pushed you against the wall, capturing your lips in a steamy kiss you'd be remembering the next day. His hands moved to your ass, squeezing hard, eliciting a moan from your lips. The moment your lips parted, he was pushing his tongue into yours, his other hand coming up to pull on your hair roughly, relishing in the gasp that left your lips. As suddenly as he started, he stopped, pulling back and standing almost nonchalantly against the wall.

Trying to wrap your head around what happened, you gripped the wall with your hand, feeling your legs grow weak to a point where you felt like you couldn't stand on your own. You could feel your wetness dripping, threatening to run down your thighs, as the throbbing became even more painfully exciting. You looked down at the floor, eyes closing as your frustration grew more and more by the second. Finally, with a little 'ding', the elevator stopped at the 16th floor. The moment the door opened you stepped out on wobbly legs, trying your best to walk properly. But of course, that wasn't going to happen. As you turned one long corridor, Lewis suddenly grabbed your waist, pushing you against the wall again, to reach down and suck on your neck. You let out a gasp, and tried to run your crotch against his, but the retaliated with a slap to your ass, smirking when a high pitched moan left your lips. Lifting you up against the wall, he mumbled against your ear "the key card" your clouded mind was unable to process the words, too consumed by slight relief you were getting. "Get the key card baby" he repeated. This time you noted it, reaching down to his pants pocket to pull out the key card. You couldn't resist running your hand over his cock, feeling how rock hard he was. The thought of him fucking you senseless returned, and you let out a groan.

Grabbing the card from your hand, he opened the door, propping you up against the door in your bedroom. His eyes were filled with a raw, animal desire, as he dropped the card on the floor and reached up to unzip your dress. He ripped the zipper down, your dress falling to the floor in a crumpled heap. He locked his eyes on your heaving chest, hand reaching up to grab your chin, pulling you in for a searing kiss. His hand slid up your torso, reaching behind to unhook the red lacy bra you were wearing, letting it drop to the floor as he took in the glorious sight in front of him. You waited, wanting him to just touch you, but he just stared, eyes looking into yours, clearly saying "beg for it"

You couldn't help the soft "please" that left your lips, too desperate for some sort of touch. "Please what?' Lewis said, tightening his grip on your waist. "Please" was all you could say again, nearly whimpering again at the rough look in his eyes. "Use your words baby. Now, please what?" "Please just touch me!" You finally gasped out, moaning loudly when he licked a stripe down your chest before taking your right tit into his mouth. His hand fondled the left one, running his thumb over your erect nipple, the rough pad of his thumb sending shockwaves of pleasure through your body. His mouth sucked on the skin of your tit, before moving down to bite down on your nipple. You gasped again, pain and pleasure coursing through your body as his tongue ran over your nipple over and over till it nearly felt raw. He switched his actions, moving his mouth to your left tit instead, letting his hand harshly fondle the other. He continued the same process of biting, licking and sucking, till he was satisfied with himself. "I fucking love this baby. Seeing you all wet and needy for me. So what do you want? My mouth? My fingers? My cock? Or does my baby want them all ?" He asked, watching as your pupils dilated and you let out a strangled moan.

You let your crotch rub against his thigh, gasping when the friction went straight to your core. "Look at you darling. I asked you what you what you wanted, and you picked my thighs? Well, I want to see you dripping. I want to see you cum on my fingers, my mouth, my thighs and especially on my cock. I'm going to make you cum over and over and over again till you can't even stand on your own fucking legs. I want your thighs to be shaking around my head. I want to see you moan and groan and scream my name so loud, by tomorrow everyone in this hotel will know my name, because you'll spend all night screaming it" you moaned again, his words going straight to your core."Please Lewis, God, just make me cum please!" The desperation of your cry was enough for him to carry you to the bed, dropping your body onto the soft mattress.

He pulled of shirt, unbuttoning every button so you could see him do it. He could see your eyes grow dark, as his compass tattoo came into sight. You had told him it was one of your favourites, and he had used it against you ever since you had told him that. Smirking at you, he climbed onto the bed, lying down between your legs. You pushed yourself up against the headboard, spreading your legs wide for him. His eyes grew dark, as your core came into his view, shimmering with your juices. A near animalistic growl left his mouth, the sound hitting your core. He moved so that he was situated right in front of your core. He let his eyes take in the sight of you in front of him, snapping back to reality when you let out a groan of frustration. Throwing you a devilishly reassuring smile, he inched neared and nearer, till his nose was nearly touching your clit. Then he just lay there. Not moving. You could feel your heartbeat hammering against your chest, chest heaving up and down, an alarming intense feeling growing in your tummy. Finally, when it became too much you let out a small scream of frustration "Oh for fucks sake Lewis please just fuck me!" Your outburst brought a smile to his face. "Oh I will. Just not yet" and with that, he ran a finger along your slit, before finally slipping it into you. You let out a moan, finally getting the friction you had been desperate for. His fingers circled your clit, thumb gently pressing down, before he removed it,only to slam it back down on your sensitive clit, earning a scream of pleasure from you.

He slipped a second finger into you, scissoring around your clit, as your desperate cries of "oh, oh baby! Fuck, fuck lewis-" were lost in the heat of the moment. He leaned his head down to your core, letting his tongue run along your slit too, before licking around it, collecting your wetness on his tongue, before letting it harshly circle your clit. You bucked up into his mouth, feeling his tongue wrap around your clit. He sucked the nub harshly, his fingers still moving in and out of you. "Oh God, Oh GOD, Lew-I- oh! Oh God!" Your broken moans were music to his ears as he sucked your clit into his mouth. You could feel a strange intensity growing in your stomach, feeling a lot stronger than your usual orgasm. The band in your tummy was threatening to snap, but you needed that something more to help it snap. That something more came when Lewis sucked your clit into his mouth, letting it rest in between his teeth, before flicking it with his tongue.

With a cry of "Oh fucking hell, Lew-" you camr gushing into his mouth, your juices coating his fingers and gushing onto his tongue, as he let you ride out your orgasm on his deadly skilled tongue. Well, he had got his wish. Your thighs were shaking around his head, as your body tried to come to terms with the intensity of the pleasure coursing through your body. Looking down, you saw him with his painfully hard cock, grinding down on the sheet, as he let out a moan at the relief the bedsheets gave him. Raising an eyebrow, you patted your thigh, signaling him to come over to you. "You loved on me so well bubs. But I can see how hard you are. Do you want to use me to get off?" You asked, watching the effect you had on him. All he could do was nod, as you sat up on your knees. "Stand up" you ordered, getting up from the bed as well.

You walked over to the wall, letting your body rest against it. Somewhat confused, Lewis followed you, standing in the space between your legs. "I tried to get off using your thighs didn't I? I think you'll enjoy it as much as I did. So use me. Use my thigh. Get off" looking at you in pure shock, your boyfriend moved forward, groaning when you pushed your leg against his throbbing cock. He relished in the friction, slowly beginning to move against your leg, moaning when he began to rub against your leg. He began to hump your leg faster, as the pleasure began to build up in his body, before you reached your hand down to cup his length in your hands, moaning when you realized your fingers didn't quite meet. You ran your fingers along his length. You pumped him, letting your thumb circle his sensitive tip, eliciting a soft whine from him. You circled faster, moving down to your knees, and letting your tongue run up his shaft very softly. Above you, Lewis slammed his hands against the wall, groaning when you took him into your mouth.

But a part of him still wanted to cum inside when he was fucking you (in a condom, because wrap it before you tap it) so he pulled you back up, smirking when you whined. "I know baby, but I just really wanna fuck you now. Back on the bed please, unless you want me to take you here against this wall" practically running, you clambered onto the bed. You watched as Lewis pulled out a condom, ripping the packet open before climbing back on top of you. He let his hand rest on your hip, eyes temporarily losing some of the animalistic need that had been present in them. Leaning down, he connected your lips together in a kiss, a searing, intense kiss that took your breath away. "Ready love?" He asked, looking into your eyes, looking to see if there was even a slight hint that you didn't want this. But you did.

With a sudden jolt, he thrust himself into you, groaning when your warm walls clamped down on him. His hips thrust into you, starting off slow, letting you adjust to his massive length. "My sweet baby,taking me so well. Does it feel good?" You couldn't even respond, mouth agape, as his the pace of his thrusts increased. "Answer me" he said, suddenly stopping. Almost crying out at the loss of pleasure, you looked at him with desperation. "Yes yes, fuck it feels so good, please don't stop!" "Thats all you had to say baby" he said, before pushing in again, slowly. Then, he pulled back out. Looking at him in confusion, you gasped when he slammed back into you, a high pitched moan of "Lewis!" leaving your lips. He moved so that he had a better hold of your hips, rocking the both of you back and forth, the intensity of his thrusts was so much that the bed knocked back against the wall. What he wasn't expecting was for you to take his left thumb up to your mouth, running your tongue over it before sucking on it.

Moaning, he started thrusting into you even harder, shifting so that he was directly hitting your g spot. "Oh, God ! Oh fuck, Baby that feels so good please keep going keep-oh!" The cry that left your lips was so loud, you were sure Perrie in the room next to yours had heard you. "Fuck baby, you take me so well" Lewis said, as he nearly hammered your g spot. He was so, so damn close to cumming, and when you leant up and bit a sensitive spot on his neck, he came, gushing into the guard between you two, but he wanted you to cum to, so he reached down to pinch and rub your clit, still riding out his orgasm in you, moaning when you came with a scream. He winced when your core spasmed on his sensitive cock, and he pulled out slowly, before collapsing next to you. Panting, you curled up to him, letting your hand rest on his compass tattoo. "Okay that was Godlike" you said, earning a tired laugh from your lover.

"Yeah it really was. I missed you" he said, allowing you to nuzzle into his neck, leaning down to press a kiss to your forehead. "I missed you too" you replied, kissing the tattoo. "I love you too" As you lay there together, still revelling in the moment, your phone buzzed. Reaching over to check it, you saw your groupchat with the girls flooding with messages.

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Perrie ���🏻‍♀️ - Y/N, I'm filing a noise complaint. 🍆

Jade ✨ - Pez 😂 let them be. It's been a while for her.

Leigh 🦋- She really got some tonight huh? 😏

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️- LOL she did !! And it was obviously some goooood 'some' *wink wink*

Jade ✨- I could hear em too, and Im on the other end of the hall.

Leigh 🦋 - I know I did too! Must be some damn good sex. 😏

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - Go Y/N !!

Jade ✨ - Can't wait till she reads this.

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - Are they still going?!

Leigh 🦋 - No 😂 she's reading the messages. Y/N!! Yoohoo!

You - yes I'm here 🖕🏽

Jade ✨ - Did you have fun babe 😏

You - ..... yes

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - babe you can't really say no because we heard you

You- Im not saying I didn't have fun. But you guys need to calm down.

Leigh 🦋 - But its funnn

You - okay byeeee ❤

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - Going for a round 2 😏?

You - okay I said bye.

Leigh 🦋 - she is !!

Jade ✨ - Go babe !

You - I need to leave this group.

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - No we love you !! ❤

Leigh 🦋 - Yeah don't leave us ❤

Jade ✨- Don't leave meee ! ❤

You - Haha I'd never leave you girls ❤ now bye.

Jade ✨ - bye babe !

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - bye you sexy minx 😏

Leigh - bye hun 💙

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Smiling to yourself, you put your phone away, to see Lewis looking at you with a raised eyebrow. "Who was it?" "Just the girls" you said, cuddling back up to him. "What did they say?" Giggling, you looked up to him and kissed his neck. "They said they're going to file a noise complaint. And they asked me if we were going for a round two" "Were we really that loud?" He asked, looking at you in surprise. "Yeah, even Leigh heard us and she's at the end of the hall!" "Damn" Lewis said laughing. "Well," he said, looking at you again, with a cheeky look in his eye, "they were right about one thing" "And what is that?" You asked, smiling at him mischievously. "We are going for a round two"

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@maxverstappenx @grandestrategia (because you are worth it 🦋💙)

[mythiccheroacademia]

- “get your son/daughter”

𝕙𝕠𝕥 𝕘𝕚𝕣𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕥𝕤: 𝕚𝕟 𝕨𝕙𝕚𝕔𝕙 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕔𝕙𝕚𝕝𝕕 𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕘𝕖𝕥𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕪 𝕝𝕚𝕧𝕖 𝕚𝕟 𝕒 𝕓𝕝𝕒𝕔𝕜 𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕤𝕖𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕕

𝕗𝕖𝕞-𝕓𝕝𝕒𝕔𝕜!𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕖𝕣

𝕨𝕒𝕣𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤: 𝕔𝕦𝕣𝕤𝕚𝕟𝕘, 𝕞𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕠𝕗 𝕒𝕤𝕤 𝕓𝕖𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘

Bakugo Katsuki:

your son had been sent home for getting in a fight and you and bakugo were furious

although he was kind at heart, your kid had always been rough around the edges

but this was unacceptable

katsuki fixed a harsh glare on him, silently promising punishment

you on the other hand were going off

your son sunk further into the chair as he was scolded

as you went on about his recent bad behavior, he finally got fed up with your rant and groans,

“okay mom, I get it. can you just shut up about it already”

it’s like the jazz record stops

jeopardy music starts playing

you can literally feel how cold the air suddenly gets

your kid realizes what just came out of his mouth and looks to his dad as katsuki looks to you and then to his son and then back to you

he watches you watch him

there’s a moment of complete silence before your son screams as you literally lunge after him

youre fast but katsuki’s faster

he had years of hero training to thank

he catches you just before you reach across the chair and you just go ballistic

“DID I HEAR CORRECTLY!? DID YOU JUST TELL ME TO SHUT UP?? HUH!?”

even tho bakugo’s pissed, he tells your kid to apologize

bc he’s lowkey struggling to hold you back 💀

“DO YOU HAVE A FUCKING DEATH WISH, BRAT!? APOLOGIZE!!”

“W-WAIT! I’M SORRY MA, I DIDNT MEAN—“

“I CANT BELIVE YOU JUST—KATSUKI, GET YOUR SON!! GET YOUR SON BEFORE I DO BECAUSE HE’LL END UP MISSING!”

“GOD DAMN IT S/N! WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT?!”

“IM SORRY”

it just such a mess from there on out lmao

Shinsou Hitoshi:

it was clear to hitoshi on this very day that your daughter held zero value for her own life

bc if she did

there was no way

absolutely no way she would’ve cursed at you

not in this christian household

“that’s so fucking annoying” your daughter muttered in response to you telling her she couldn’t go to a party tonight

it was quiet and supposed to be for her ears only but your daughter was never good at whispering

hitoshi froze with a sandwich halfway in his mouth

your daughter, processing her mistake, widened her eyes in horror

there was something about the way you blankly stared at your kid that made everyone in the room’s hair stand up

“did you just...cuss at me? me? in my own house?”

she starts to profusely apologize and wilts w each word bc you just stare and stare and stare

you hold your ear and lean in

“no, repeat to me what you just said bc I don’t think I heard you right”

(when they tell you to repeat, do not do it)

you take a step towards her and shinsou grabs your arm to keep you in place bc he wasn’t in the mood to see a homicide today 💀

“D/N, go to your room. you’re not going to the party,” he says and your daughter is thankful for a way out

“yes sir,” she she yelps before high tailing her butt outta there 😭

you turn to your husband w the straightest face

“you know that’s your daughter, right?”

“i know, babe” 🙄 (it’s not like you went 50/50 on her or anything)

“good. so you get her, or I do” you calmly say before going back to the dishes

shinsou only laughs

he loves your crazy ass

Kaminari Denki:

your three sons thought they were the fbi or some shit and could sneak back into the house undetected

so imagine their surprise when the chair turns to reveal you

arms crossed, bonnet on, robe secured, and belt in hand

“so where you three been at 2 am in the morning?”

they look at each other with wide eyes, bottom lips quivering to say something

“uhhh w-we went out to get something for dad!”

then another chair twists around to reveal kaminari

legs crossed, hair up, robe secured, and belt in hand

“is that so?” he asks, brows raised in surprise

that’s when they started shivering

the second oldest tries to cover them and says, “y-yeah! dad, didn’t you mention that D/N said she wanted that um uhhh toy last week?”

the final chair turns and reveals your youngest 8 yr old daughter

hands folded, scarf wrapped, robe secured, and belt in hand

she innocently tilts her head and chirps, “when did I say that?”

at this point, it was over for them and they knew it based on the dark looks on their parents’ face and the evil growing smirk that appears on their sister’s lips

they start throwing each other under the bus, talking over one another, and trying to explain why they were “forced” to leave the house even when they were told not to

you raise your hand, and there’s an immediate silence

“three things are gonna happen,” you say. “your sister is going to pick the belt, your father is going handle you three today, and I’m gonna go to bed bc I’m tired. but best believe when I wake up, youre asses are mine. do I make myself clear?”

your three boys want to cry as their sister conveniently picks the thickest one. “y-yes ma’am,” they sniffle

with a satisfied hum, you get up and take yourself and your daughter to bed who leaves with a taunting wave over her shoulder

denki waits for the sound of the bedroom door to close before looking at his three idiots w a tired sigh

him: “....you know I gotta beat your ass, right?”

them: “yeah :(“

you didn’t see much, but you and your daughter had a very peaceful sleep that night

[oldschoolimagineblog]

In love - Tommy Lee

Request: Hey! Love your writing!!! I was wondering if I could request a Tommy Lee imagine where Tommy has to take care of his sister's baby, and calls Y/n up for help at 4 AM in the morning. And he realises that he's in love with her once she starts handling the baby and cleaning up? (Sorry, had to ask again because I sent Headcanon instead of imagine!)

A/N: For the record, couldn´t find another Tommy gif so we get MGK! Tommy, and also, I didnt prove read this one, so Im delivering this raw. enjoy!!

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Tommy was worried, he had never taken care of a baby alone, he´d always had some help from his mom or sister, and it was now that he was thinking about all those times with them and all the information, they had given him about caring for a baby that it clicked in his head that they were training him for this very moment.

Lucy was his niece, and he was babysitting for two days while his sister and her baby daddy were out on a couples retreat to soak in some well deserved alone time, and their mom was out busy with excuses on why she couldn’t take care of Lucy, and not because she was actually busy or didn’t want to, but because this would give Tommy some real responsibility and ground him aside from playing music around town with his new formed band, Motley Crue.

Through the panic, he had done a good job so far, he had bathed her, dressed her, changed the diapers, fed her, yet something seemed to be not clicking because she would not get some sleep, and he was tired and hungry and was starting to feel hopeless and frustrated.

It was his very first night alone with the baby, and since 7pm he had been trying to get her to sleep, Athena has said that she was fast asleep due to her routine, but it was starting to feel like she lied, or maybe baby Lucy was missing her momma?

Regardless of the reason, Tommy had done it all, rocking her, giving her bottles, singing to her, reading to her, walking her around the house, changed her clothes, put blankets around her, he had laid down with her a few times, hoping company would do the trick but instead she´d try and play and he just wasn’t having it anymore.

It was 4am and the baby was also frustrated, crying, and throwing fits, and Tommy just had no choice but to call his mom.

But his plead for help was ignored, ¨Tommy all women go through this, you were worse than her, just start over and see if that helps¨.

And did he try to re do the whole routine, hoping to trick her into sleeping, but baby Lucy was just not having it, it was almost as if she was trying to let him know what he had to do but he just wouldn’t get it, and through the cries and frustration he picked up the phone and dialed his best friend’s number.

¨Hello? ¨ you answered the phone

¨Hi Y/N, is Tommy, I´m sorry I called and woke you up, is just that I don’t know what to do with this baby and I am going insane¨ he sighed out.

¨You need me to go over to your sisters? ¨ you said, closing your eyes in frustration, you were tired from a long week of work and just wanted to sleep in on your day off. ¨It´s 4am Tom, just put her to sleep maybe? ¨ you suggested.

¨Well fuck, that never crossed my mind, thanks Y/N¨ he rolled his eyes, and he re-adjusted baby Lucy on his hip.

¨Fine, fine, I´ll be there in like 20 minutes, hold up for me, yeah? ¨ you said.

¨Thanks, drive safe¨

And with that he hung up the phone. You were wide awake and proceeded to walk to your bathroom to wash your face, changing into leggings and a tee before walking out your place.

You were aware that Tommy had to babysit this weekend, his sister had stopped by right before she left for her getaway asking you to check up on him every now and then, and you had indeed done so.

You had stopped by on your lunch break to find the 9 month old and Tommy watching movies and eating snacks, everything was under control and when you spoke to him he was super confident in his baby skills.

Later on the day you called him to see how he was holding up and again, everything was fine, he was already prepping her for a bath while her bottle was being prepped for sleep time. But now it was almost 5am and the control and confidence he had over his baby skills seemed to have vanished.

You hadn’t knocked once before Tommy was already opening the door to let you in, and oh how you wished you could’ve taken a picture of him right then and there.

He looked like a frustrated housewife, he was wearing a dirty white tank top, boxers, a socks, messy hair, a pair of concerned and heavy eyes and a diapered baby on his hip.

Walking in, you pushed your hands out, silently asking him to hand Lucy over to you, which he quickly did.

And so you sat down on the living room couch, baby on your lap facing you.

¨Hi bubs¨ you caressed her face, ¨is so late already, did you know that? ¨ you smiled at her, ¨got us all awake and tired and concerned cause you won’t go night night all while you´re out here having the time of your life huh¨ Lucy giggled at your words, all while Tommy stared at you and sat next to you.

¨I´ve done it all, and I am not sure what I did or am doing wrong, she just won´t go to sleep and I haven’t eaten and I´m tired and-

¨Shhh, you´re rambling, let me deal with her and then I deal with you, yeah? ¨you offered him a soft smile, and he sighed, nodding his head.

He didn’t speak a word and just watched you deal with Lucy, hoping to learn, yet there was something that warmed his heart by watching you interact with the baby.

Changing her clothes, washing her face, and rocking her while giving her head and back scratched, speaking to her.

¨I know you´re tired baby, we are all tired, but we got this, I´m here, and Uncle Tommy is here¨ you whispered, all by rocking her.

You guys were in her nursery now, you were pacing around while Tommy sat in his sisters rocking chair, every now and then you´d turn and see him, checking up on him, to which he´d offer smiles.

Part of him was shocked on how the baby had grown quiet and held you tight in her arms, while she drifted to sleep, while the other part felt no longer frustrated, he felt whole; complete.

That bubble of silence as the light began to shine thought the curtains made him see things differently. The way you had agreed to show up and help him in his moment of panic and frustration,  seeing how you often looked over at him with nothing but worried and loving eyes filled his heart, and in his head he went to all the memories in which you had been there for him, in all the sad and happy memories, you had been there, supporting his every decision, cheering on him, and just being there with and for him.

Only for him to begin thinking of the possibility of possibility of you two as a couple, he already trusted you with his deepest secrets and insecurities, he came to you for advice, when he needed reassurance, you guys already had a deep connection that seemed to work well, and then seeing you being so maternal and loving with a baby in hands just melted his already soft heart and sent him through a loop of images of you two raising babies together. He was lost in his head and realized that he was in love with you, of course he was, and everyone knew that already.

¨Tommy¨ you snapped him back to reality, ¨I said Lucy is asleep, lets go get you some food and rest now¨, his eyes were locked in your and he just nodded, standing up and taking his hand in yours.

It was normal behavior for you guys to hold hands, so there was nothing for you to overthink about, but oh boy did his heart jump and shoot fireworks when you intertwined your fingers with his, leading the way to the kitchen.

¨What do you think of pancaked and scrambled eggs? It´s breakfast time anyways¨ you asked, already taking some eggs out the fridge.

¨Yeah, that sounds amazing right now¨

You both spoke through the whole time you were cooking and all through breakfast, and he had never been so present in all the years of your friendship, the warmth and glow in hear never faded, and the soft loving eyes didn’t go away either.

You joined him for a nap on the couch after setting up an alarm for 10am, he opened his arms as he laid on his back, and you laid on him, cuddling him as you usually did, head on his chest while you held him close, his arms wrapping around you.

¨Thank you for today¨ he whispered.

¨You´re good, I´ll be here every time you need me, and even when you don’t, I´ll be here too, you´re stuck with me¨

He smiled and kissed the top of your head, ¨that doesn’t sound too bad¨ he told you before closing his eyes, and drifting off-

[prettyboykatsuki]

cw ;; suicidal thoughts and ideation, hopeful post not a vent but just incase

for anyone who’s struggling, just wanted to give my insight

you know when i was in the period of my life where i was really actively suicidal and at the lowest points - i got sick of people telling me life was going to be worth living someday. 

and i know how that sounds - very unlike me. i think now people consider me this optimistic and bright person. when i tell people how fucked up my state of mind was, they’re really surprised. hell, im really surprised when i read diaries or notes of how i was feeling. i remember feeling like i was always mourning something i didnt know the name for. i remember being so fucking miserable and so sure the world was better off without me. i was cold and unforgiving and callous especially to myself

its taken me a lot of time to be where i am now. a lot of effort. the person i am currently is not because of therapy or medication. i have a closed off circle and back when i was really coming into myself - i didnt even have real friends. i think someday, i just got tired of living the way i had been. and i wanted, instead, to try holding onto hope for once. 

if you’re suicidal or at a point in your life where you genuinely believe in living is worthless - im not going to tell you it gets better or even easier. it does, i know that. but i know how little that might matter to you because right now life is pointless and meaningless and awful. 

i can’t tell you for sure how you’ll feel, but when you’re in it - don’t do anything to make yourself worse. dont listen to sad songs. don’t wallow. don’t depair. cry if you need to but no longer than that. im saying that when you think it’s all meaningless - do just one thing to live in spite. despite everything, just try living. 

life is difficult. i know how bad it can get. please believe me when i tell you that. 

but i also know that everything passes. everything. even the worst thing, the most unimaginable pain. it passes. and when that day comes - and you are still here, the only thing you can do is live. 

 struggling feels so much like drowning, but the water passes. even after a flood or a tsunami - the damage is there but the water will leave. i wont promise you anything at all, but next time it hurts so much that you scream in agony. or you sob to the point you choke. or you heave because of your own suffering - feel it. let it out. 

and then, hold onto any tiny hope. buy a new record. make dinner or order it. paint poorly. sleep outside in a tent and watch stars. it wont fix anything right away and you shouldn’t expect it to. 

but the only way to live, to have hope is to hold onto your contentment and let go of your pain. it will get better. life will be okay. but you have to loosen your grip on the certainty things will always be horrible. 

you have to try to live even harder than you’re trying to die. have hope. hold onto hope. it will save your life if everyday, you remember just one thing that makes you content. it will take time. 

building a will to live is creating an arsenal of hope. each sliver of contentment, joy, or happiness you have will build that will up.