#and for context i use my personal computer for work which like. dont do that.

[uwooyoungs]

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[objectsarebestest]

So, there was a post posted in the objectum tags not too long ago. I’m 99% sure this person doesn’t actually believe this stuff and is just trolling to get a reaction. Or maybe I hope that. I have since deleted my reblog as to not draw attention to them, and they are blocked from my blog. But I still wanted to address the post, given that I know that some people actually do think like this. Here is the post, with identifying information cropped out.

I’m going to copy and paste my initial response because I think I made some good points. It should probably be reworded to be less targeted at this specific individual, but I don’t have the energy to do so.

Okay. This is just so blatantly wrong on so many levels that I can’t not address it as one of the larger objectum blogs on here.

First off, this.

“every time i try to interact with other objectums i get angry when its not the same thing i experience or when its blatantly retarded.”

You should not be using the r slur like that. Yes, I know you have autism and ADHD. It still doesn’t mean that you can use it in this context. Disregarding the whole discourse about whether autistic people and those with ADHD can even reclaim the r slur (I don’t care enough to get into it), reclaiming involves using a word in a positive context to take power away from those who use it to deride others. It absolutely does not involve slinging slurs at other people as an attack. To do that in a community of majority neurodivergent people is quite frankly really disgusting.

Next, let’s get into this.

“like some schizo saying “omg my plushie told me it loved me and it talks to my other plushies about me”, no tf it did not.”

For one, “schizo” is also a slur that only psychotic people can reclaim, which based on your intro I don’t think you are. If you mean “schizophrenic” type out the whole word. Schizophrenic. It’s not that hard. Secondly, you don’t get to tell people what their reality is. Reality checking someone in this way can be very dangerous if they are already in an unstable mental state. At worst, you could make someone break down. At worst, someone will just say “lol” and scroll past your post, because the way delusions work is that they are unchanging beliefs.

Okay, last bit.

”i can’t believe im saying this unironically but most of you are POSERS. “hehe computer so cute! he’s so Edgar so cutie! I wanna fuck my computer!” you don’t even get it on the celestial level that i do. you find it attractive, sure, but you like the idea of that attractiveness, you dont really experience a genuine attraction or connection with computers.”

This is absurd. Yes, I will admit becoming frustrated at times with the objectum community’s obsession with Edgar (I have never seen Electric Dreams). But using that fact to straight up call people posers? This is basically the truscum thing of “X people are faking and aren’t really X label. I can clearly tell what is going on inside their heads and I can tell they’re lying. I know because I’m a real X.” Like, you do realize this, right?? You’re not a mind reader. You have no way to tell if these people experience “genuine attraction” to computers. So logically the right thing to do is to believe people when they say they do.

I can 100% see why you’re struggling to relate to the objectum community if this is how you think. It’s genuinely disgusting.

I’m well aware that this person was likely trolling. But I also know that there are some people who actually think like this. Who do degrade neurodivergent people they don’t like and think it’s okay because “they’re ND too”. Who think psychotic people and those with DCS are a “lesser” part of the objectum community. Who gatekeep obsessively because only their experiences can possibly be real. So I wanted to show that this behavior will be called out in objectum spaces whenever it rears its ugly head.

[ohwormwood]

random thoughts i have while playing isat pt. 3

(compiled so i dont keep spamming others and my own blog, o7)

[woe! spoilers be upon ye!]

yippeee the king killed us all :DDD now begins the suffering

ok, so like. the lets talk about the tarot cards. because this shit hurt me PERSONALLY and i need other people to think REAL HARD about this. i've only gotten 2 (there's 1 "true" card for each act, any others drawn after the first will be random if I recall???); six of swords and a reversed draw of the star.

six of swords is a pretty simple card- it's a transitionary card, marking the start of a journey that will impact the drawer (i use biddy tarot for reference occasionally, they base their descriptions on the Rider-Waite deck's meanings, which is standard for most), specifically "moving forwards towards the unknown". the change "may be your own doing or forced upon you", but overall it is meant to make you a better person as you work through the struggle of change. you get this card in act 2, once the loops start and you have to start doing the puzzles to figure out how to get up to the king. at this point, siffrin is pretty convinced that the loops are a gift, but given the indication by the card that the journey may not be pleasant this kind of sets up players for the second draw;

the star reversed is much, MUCH more interesting in it's meaning. i say reversed because it's made pretty clear that siffrin draws it upside-down the first time, then flips it over to see the text. for people not really well versed in tarot, draw a card upside down (aka reversed) can cause the card to have different meanings. in the case of the star, when drawn upright it is a sign of hope and faith, as well as purpose and spirituality. however, when drawn in reverse, it means the opposite: "lack of faith, despair, self-trust, disconnection". this is all well and good, but what really punched me in the gut was reading the first sentence of the biddy tarot description for this draw; "The Star Reversed can mean that you’ve lost faith and hope in the Universe."

And boy, if that doesn't perfectly describe how Siffrin begins to crumble after act 2? the use of Universe with a capital U is also very important to note. there's some other notes for this card too, specifically about feeling "overwhelmed", "questioning why you are being put through this", "desperately calling out to the Universe to give you some reprieve but struggling to see how the Divine is on your side", and the card being a "test of faith". further reading also notes loss of enthusiasm for life and experiences you may have liked prior to your challenges, boredom, and disconnect. It's so heavy-handed that i legit had to put down my computer when i read it. the beginning of the complete disillusionment of siffrin after act 2 and the slippery slope of act 3 fits this card SO WELL, i applaud insertdisc5 for including this

Another note: we're all gonna point out the obvious- loop, being themself a star, is a pretty overt reference to this card as well. i mean, they literally have similar experiences, but their loops went on for so much longer. an important thing to note is that part of the page on this draw says something REALLY interesting; "you can either crumble like The Tower or stand firm in your conviction that the Divine is everywhere". the tower is a SUPER interesting card to bring up with, expecially given the context that loop gave in. they were tired, and they wished for an end, in some way shape or form. in a weird sort of way, by succumbing to the "bad ending" of the reversed star card, they become a sort of representation of the upright card as well, being a helpful figure and guide, giving siffrin hope. it kinda rounds out their whole character really well for me in that context

back to bullshitting;

i would die for mangala fritter frin. pure of heart. dumb of ass. they are the light of my life

i wanna know how everybody in the party would make a change god statue, since everybody makes their own, right??? like, as an artist i'd love to see what little personal touches and details they'd add to crafting one for themselves

[employee052]

final designs for da three nars! (well two, virgils had his for months now)

cecil (red) n jarvis (yellow) lookin drippeddddd skfjsjfjsjf

for some lore n more oz rambling they are under the cut!:

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ALRIGHT LESGO

Cecil:

Cecil is the fully human Narrator. (in the sense, the one who got his third swimming pool), he is a retired VA whos enjoying his life post tspud and is just overal chillin(tm)

The two new narrators are basically to cover the whole ground of narrater interpretations. (ie. some guy in his room recording, a guy in his room speaking but digital, and a fully digital entity)

so this is the one that is just a guy who voices in the game!

(this isnt meant to be kevan brighting, think of his source is the og game, but with the addition of the extra content(the ads, the raphael parable, the stuff on the dev logs, announcement videos, etc from crows crows crows as canon)

pronouns are he/him.

hes a cis male whos pan

Virgil:

THE OG, MY OG GUY

Virgil is the half digital, half human Narrator. He used to be a regular office worker before being shoved into a computer and thus, becoming the voice for the Parable

His source follows TSPUD, my au La Vie En Jaune, (which you can read more of here!), all the art ive done with him on this blog, and the other things the narrator has been in (ie. dota 2, dungeons, audiobooks etc)

However, after Stanley and the Narrator find each other and break past the hard coded locks of the pARable, they end up in a more lighter version of the parable, more akin to a world the narrator, stanley, and lynne can pop in and out of. while also having more control and hold on themselves and the world.

the narrator is the first one to pop out of the parable, thanks to character!oz (my sona and the one that exists in this blog)

once the narrator gets a better handle at the real world, stanley and lynne follow.

here, hes a guy whos lived the parable and become a new person when coming back out.

He can hop between digital areas and the real world. which is how he is still able to do stuff as the narrator for dota, and work for other projects like dungeons and the multi media videos on yt.

his pronouns are he/they

he is a demiboy who is demisexual and omnisexual

Jarvis:

Jarvis is the fully digital Narrator. He is the one who was created in the Parable as a string of code turned AI.

His source and canon is just TSP, TSPUD, the demo, and the half life mod. He's experienced everything in the games a thousand times over and more.

Basically, hes the guy who pops between being just a voice or an ai with a model that follows stanley around the parable. he has control over the parable (to an extent ie. timekeeper and the developers) and is the one who wrote the story itself.

There is not much more to say about him really ajdjahf but despite the design and context, he isnt that much different from virgil

hes just more defensive, and more lost with living irl.

his pronouns are he/they/it

he is a non binary (smth smth "well, i dont associate with being either a male or female, i am still a binary entity. i am made of ones and zeros, stanley. so while my gender is non binary, my code is.") he is a pansexual demisexual

as of now, in an au idk what to call of atm (maybe just the three narry au) they are all living in the real world.

virgil popped into real life expecting to appear in character!oz's house but landed in cecils

meanwhile, jarvis got suddenly plopped into the real world. he doesnt know how to pop off but he doesnt miss it all too much

misses his stanley a bit.

[taee]

hi i notice you translate sometimes and i was wondering are you korean or are you learning korean? i found this youtube channel that are iu fans and they started to fall in love w/ tae through the behind the scenes from iutv and it made me feel like i was falling in love with him again! lol but they do this segment called learn korean where they watch the videos but also provide context and clarification on words and what they're saying or if the translations are not correct, and i realized that... the korean language has SO many words that describe a specific thing and it makes english so plain and bare in comparison. like there's a word for a smile you have when you're proud of something, but in english we'd just say "he smiled proudly" you know? ugh. i wish i could learn korean but my brain just.. doesn't not compute. and it sucks cause i loveee words! like i love when i find pretty words or descriptions or sayings and i feel like english doesn't give a lot of room for that ;-; its been fun learning new korean words though. like i only know words i hear a lot from members, like "pork belly!" "handsome!" "i dont know!" lmao

Hi!! No, I'm not korean and I’ve never learnt the language formally ;; I’ve actually answered similar asks previously (1 | 2) but TLDR basically I’ve just been consuming kpop and kdrama for so long that I’ve grown to understand some commonly used phrases and words! So even though I can comprehend it (to a certain extent) via reading or listening, I can’t actually write or speak it well LOL

I think its wonderful how that group of UAENAs made you fall in love with tae all over again hehe I also love that they have a segment like that, they're really doing god's work because those are very informative and helpful for those who'd like to learn the language! Mmm again I need to stress that I'm not a native speaker and I do not have professional proficiency in the language so this is all based on my limited knowledge and own personal opinion! But yeah I think korean is a lot more expressive/descriptive (?) they seem to use a lot of metaphors! I think there are also a lot of nuances...which unfortunately often get lost in translation ;;

I'd say you're on the right track because that was exactly how I started off too! Don't feel defeated just yet okay? Just allow yourself to continue enjoying korean content as you always have, there are lots you can actually pick up without having to feel the dread of learning! You've got this <3

[drinkin-cherryschnapps]

lil vent bc i am PISSED THE FUCK OFF

basically, my comp sci teacher is an ableist dick who doesn’t understand why i cant read the board from the BACK OF THE ROOM.

for context: i have astigmatism, near sightedness (more intensely so in my right eye. i literally cannot see out of it), and my eyes are slightly cross eyed. i dont wear my glasses because the arms hurt my ears. i dont wear contacts because my optometrist said i only need them in one eye and it rlly doesnt help at all. the quality of my vision fluctuates a lot and there are days where i can’t read anything unless its right in front of my face. yesterday was one of those days. im also sat it the very back of my computer science class.

now for what happened:

yesterday, i was sitting in my spot, unable to read the board and mr. r (my comp sci teacher) had put up the instructions for our assignment, which we were meant to do independently. i couldnt read the instructions (obviously) so i turned to the person next to me and i asked him to read me the instructions (he knows why i couldnt read it). so he starts explaining to me, and mr r comes over and hes like “reese and [classmates name], why are you chit chatting instead of working?” and i start to explain that i cant read the board because of my vision and he goes “you could read the board just fine yesterday, why cant you today?” so i start to explain that my vision fluctuates and i can see better on somedays than others and this motherfucker has the GALL to say “thats not how it works, you’re lying.” LIKE WHAT? THEY’RE MY EYES NOT YOURS DICKHEAD. so instead of yelling at him like i want to, i try to calmly explain that thats how my eyes work and he keeps telling me that it isnt how it works and i keep telling him it is. we keep going back and forth for like 5 minutes before he writes me up and sends me to the principals office for “insubordination”. anyways the principal said i had to try harder to make sure i can succeed in my classes so basically im fucking doomed 🥳

ps: if you’re wondering why the motherfucker couldn’t just EXPLAIN the instructions to the class, he has this whole fuckin thing about not explaining things FOR us, AKA not teaching

[spectrumgarden]

This is one of those reblogs where I just want to ramble and its totally fine if you prefer to reblog the non ramble addition post, I get it, to be honest. But anyways.

I just want to talk about why I want you to think of us (and hopefully turn that thinking into appreciation and inclusion of our voices, and fighting for us when people around you are shitty about us.)

First of all not all of the post is specifically about me, but many parts, I just added on some things that I think heavily relate to it. And for context before autism regression the only part of this that really fit is the struggle to be outside alone part. So I do have the perspective of different point of views of autism so to speak. And I the grass is Not greener on this side.

And I found that while a lot of people stereotype autistics like me, like my friends, that's where it all begins and ends. A lot of them arent even aware they are stereotyping autistic people with their mockery... with the public image of autism ever so slowly but surely being dominated by savant type media representation over the past years, that and the grunting self injuring person accompanied by a carer or parent doesnt really fit into that label to many people. They think of us as simply, the r slur, people with ID, stuff like that. I'm not offended by being related to someone with ID, but I must point out its incorrect that everyone who presents like me, my friends or "more severe" has ID. I dont. This is all pure autism, babey.

So it's a stereotype at most, usually. Someone to stare at in public. To make jokes about. The few people who know us as autistic from rarer media representation, or maybe they have a relative like us, something like that.

But that's where I feel like the consideration by everyone, who is not immediately involved in care of us, that we exist ends. We are not included in research, generally. Like the medical community is aware we exist, sure, but they just seem to mostly want to ignore it, at least from a research perspective. In general studies we arent included, and in the very few studies on things that are "my" version of autism (or more severe), something like that, it's all the smallest sample sizes you've ever seen, and it's mostly just a couple case reports in a trench coat. No brain scans, no reaction time tested on fancy computer set ups, eye tracking, nothing. "Hey, these people exist I guess", maybe a mean IQ score thrown in there, not much more.

So what do they know about actually helping us? Not that much, to be honest.

Media representation has played a big part in how people perceive the autistic community, but the self advocacy movement undoubtedly has also played a huge part. And I find that I just. Dont really relate to most of it, if any. Which is sort of fine? Not everything has to be about yourself after all. But so much about the advocacy movement seems to hinge on either at the very least disconnecting from us or worse, erasing us. "Dont infantilize autistics because we are adults who work and date and go out and understand language just like you" ... well not all of us do, actually. And we are still autistic, and we still dont deserve to be infantilized. I feel it all sort of started as "not all autistic people act like your 5 year old autistic nephew" (true) but suddenly turned into "autism never makes you violent / need care like help toileting , eating , bathing , .../ unable understand jokes / ... " (very much not true). "Autistic people are smarter than allistic people!" We are more likely to have ID than allistics. "Autistic people are more this/ more that/ ..." but I promise you did not include many autistic people in that sentence. Why are you not even aware of them??? And I dont think demanding the large part of self advocacy movement to not actively try to erase people like me, and labeled more severe, is expecting too much.

We still get neglected, abused, sometimes killed by family. Being recognized as disabled does not actually protect you from that.

And none of that has even touched about how lonely this can feel, how painful, without any of the outside influence at all. Without anyone trying to erase my existence, I still feel sad looking at university students, thinking how much I would like to be like that. I still feel sad looking at my allistic sister traveling all over the world, taking planes by herself, raising a child, working a job or sometimes two. Meanwhile I'm 22 and I spend most of my days in bed because I dont work or study, I struggle to move, I struggle to go outside, I struggle to keep myself clean and fed, I struggle to connect to people. And often I fail.

And I can sort of count on one hand the big autistic creators who I've seen ever seriously advocate for someone like me, who isn't even HSN and only MSN. They are what many people look to for information, people who will interact with us as well. And we dont even get a mention unless it is to be erased (sounds paradoxical, I know)

This autism month please remember those of us who:

need verbal prompting (someone telling us each single, small step to a task) or hands on help for things like showering, getting dressed, cooking simple meals, using a toilet ....

who struggle to go outside alone or cant do it all, not out of fear or no motivation or anything but because we keep getting lost and cant find our way back, because the outside world is like a blurry maze that never becomes more logical no matter how many times we have walked that street, because we need help with mobility aids, or can not understand that cars are dangerous, other people can be dangerous, ...

whose bodies dont listen to what our brains tell it to do. Whose bodies throw things when we didnt tell it to, told it to stop. Who hit our head against the walls while wishing we could stop. Whose bodies freeze when we tell it to move. Not just for a task we are unable to start, but any movement at all. I dont mean when i'm stuck scrolling through my phone thinking about how much i should do that task but cant, I mean when im sitting on the kitchen floor and staring into space for an hour unable to even lift my hand to scratch my nose.

Those of us that will never work a job outside of sheltered workshops, if at all.

Who drool and scream and jump and hum and rock in the waiting room at the doctors office, on public transport, ...

[shoezuki]

Tommy's prison/revival arc isnt well written actually

Anyways ive been wanting to talk on it a while for a bit here but havent had the Time or like. The thought to. But im gonna go off now.

First off im gonna say im ASSUMING this stream and plot of tommy being in the prison with dream is written entirely by tommy and dream. Wilbur May be involved in the latest stream but im not sure.

Bringing tommy back to life after only three days of him being dead did practically nothing to progress plot, the characters, or audience's understanding. In fact i feel that it damaged Other characters' potential and plot and already established plotlines.

The 'development' aspect

A really, really easy way to see if anything has changed or developed through an arc or plotline is to straightup just compare the 'beginning' to the 'end' in terms of the barebones situation. So;

Beginning: tommy is trapped in an isolated prison cell with dream, his own abuser who has hurt him in the past, for an unknown amount of time. He's terrified of dream and being stuck there with him.

End: tommy is trapped in an isolated prison cell with dream after being killed then revived by him, his own abuser whos hurt him in the past, for an unknown amount of time. Hes terrified of dream and being stuck there with him.

Okay. This is simplified obvious. But the point stands. ALTHOUGH the troupe of 'going back to the beginning' is common in the heroes journey its. It doesnt work here. Has tommy learned anything? Has he changed as a character? Is the severity of their situation any different? Have we, as the audience, learned anything new?

Im going to expand on that last point because i think it has the strongest potential argument. Technically for progression in literature and development of plot/characters, things can Change without them being Aware as characters. It can change just by the audience's perception changing or being challenge.

Slight example: i've been reading a webcomic called Your Throne. Its a fantasy/political drama about a noble lady who entered a competition with another noble lady to become the empress. The main lady lost despite her being a better fit, and the comic starts with the main lady trying to assassinate the empress. Its assumed and stated by the main lady that she 'ruined her life' and so thats all the readers know. However, later in the novel we see flashbacks to the competition itself and find that the two ladies were extremely close friends, neither wanting anything bad for the other, but it was the emperor himself who manipulated both of them for his own agenda. Those flashbacks gave us an entirely different idea of who the real antagonist is and completely changed the two main ladies' relationship. THAT is how the audience's understanding of the plot and novel can be used to change the entire story. We dont get such here though

Some things that were brought to light during tommy being dead/revived:

Dream is capable of reviving people infinitely

This was already implicated and assumed. The book dream has being a means of reviving people has been around Technically since schlatt's death. This just 'confirmed' what was known

Time works differently/feels longer in the afterlife

This doesnt really impact much beyond emotions and implications. If we had more insight into what the 'afterlife' is like beyond nothingness perhaps so. But really it just makes it so wilbur being dead for what feels like 9 years and tommy having been dead for 2 months appeal to emotions.

Wilbur is evil

This one fuckin sucks i cant lie HSKSHSISSGEGDV. Like i was gon go on bout it and i will but it jus sucks. We have nothing to go on besides tommy's word, no examlles of what Horrible things wilbur said could make tommy assume this, etcetc. Ill most likely make a seperate post on how this feels like we're just going to get 'wilbur is a horrible villain' type with him. But still. I feel wilbur Not Being Good isnt a new development.

Dream is going to revive wilbur

This doesnt feel new either, part because phil had wanted to revive wilbur before (ill get to that more later) and that tommy had kept dream alive/initially imprisoned him with the idea of him reviving wilbur.

Dream believes wilbur will break him out of prison

Okau this makes no sense to me actually. I cwnt understand How exactly wilbur would be able to do this? Or why dream believes he even Could? Mans been dead for like 9 years and all we Know of the afterlife is that its black... nothingness. How would 9 years of that make wilbur capable of busting the prison open?

So. Yeah. All in all this plotline hasnt done anything new, developed things, or altered people's perceptions. We just ended up back at square one. Back to tommy being traumatized, dream being 'evil' and horrible and doing villain monologues, and them being stuck together.

Other characters and plotlines

Im pretty damn sure tommy's revival fucked up a LOT of other characters' plotlines and potential development. Honestly i feel this has a lot to do with the writers not communicating with other ccs well enough. But Ill talk about specific characters from least to most fucked over in my opinion:

Sam

He's the best off. He hqd been there during tommy's death, had been close to tommy, had majorly blamed himself and his own mistakes for tommy's death. His grief and self hatred was actually really heartbreaking and well done. The attached character of Sam Nook being unaware of tommy's death and simply waiting for tommy to return was a really good parallel to sam's own grief and anger. like it really snapped sam the guy who cares for tommy and wants to do Right by him back together with him as the Warden of the prison. Mixed personal life with 'just business'.

I feel it wouldve been nice to have him like. Have more time to grieve properly and come to terms eith tommy's death and his own involvement/influence over the events. Him finding tommy alive again Could be a means of him like. Facing his own grief head on if done well.

Ranboo

Mostly in the context of him and sam's argument do i feel it got screwed over. The weight of them yelling at each other and trying to find who to blame and the implications that Maybe ranboo was the one who caused the security breach that closed down the prison on tommy just.... doesnt hit so hard anymore. Because how can there be blame and arguments and a 'who done it' mystery when tommy popped up all fine again?

Puffy

I dony know much of her involvement or how she found out tommy died (besides metagaming shhhhh) but i saw her monologuing of how they 'failed' tommy and like. Her whole 'he was so young we the Adults failed him' spiel is like........... inconsequential? Now??? Like no dont worry he died but hes alright now.

Philza

BET YOU DIDNY EXPECT TO SEE THIS FUCKER!!!!!! But actually though i want to talk bout how this ties into phil. A LOT. for Zalbr ❤. But also because i see ppl tying phil to tommy's death n like nah shutup u doin it wrong. Ill go off more in a Wilbur Post. But essentially: i dont like that dream is now going to revive wilbur. I feel they arent going to tie philza into this Despite phil having originally been trying to revive his son and studying on it and Attempting and Failing. But now suddenly dream can just. Say some magic words and Poof wilbur lives? So we're just going to Kill philza's revival attempts plotline and leave that hanging? This made his efforts seem pointless and Wack like oh why didnt you just Say The Magic Words phil????

Niki

I feel really bad for niki. She hasnt been able to do a lore stream during tommy's 'death' (she tweeted she wanted to but her computer wasnt working) and considering her entire character.... that shit is important. We seen it with Jack Manifold how tommy's death impacted Him considering he literally wanted tommy dead. And since niki is in a similar boat to jack of trying to kill tommy and it being her Only goal...... thats extremely important.

BUT. i feel there wasnt any communication. Did she or anyone even know tommy would be revived? Did no one consider they could At Least let her do a single stream on it? Like jack manifold????

We couldve gotten a Really good niki lore stream. I genuinely was so excited for it and i dont regularly watch her. But we seen it with jack manifold which is why i dont feel he got screwed because mans genuinely did So Good he could pop off with anything n i think it works in His favour. But now........ for niki. Canonically she never even knew tommy was Dead. So its like nothing even happened for her. Is she just supposed to continue on trying to kill tommy with no progression?

What i think would work

This is more me being like 'hey @ the dsmp writers let me in' type speculation sbosegussgs. But i was thinkin on a Really easy way to 'fix' this without rewriting lore and the streams.

Dream should kill tommy again now that he's been revived and Leave Him Dead.

More development for the characters who are affected by his death Especially niki. More time for grief and self reflection and development

A chance for the audience to figure out what the 'afterlife' really is.

Dream is supposed to be smart and a master manipulator or something right? Why doesnt he use being able to revive tommy as a bargaining chip with sam for his own freedom?

The audience would now Know dream's intentions with tommy better, that this death isnt 'final', but we could still see other characters' grief and reactions and coping without it feeling cheap. Ive seen some 'but people dont know tommy is alive so hes still dead in their mind' but that sucks imo.

We'd know more on dream's ability to revive people and that he can just Do It on a whim (which i think sucks but hey im trying) but no one else would know this canonically

Okay. Im done. If you read this. Thankyou. I love you. Hmu.

[mollydollyjournals]

I wrote an intro in October 2020 when I made this page but I'm gonna try to write a more concise one. The old one is here and is specifically about my ED history. But other than that, this is my vent blog, and:

I guess you can call me Molly or Dolly or something like that. I guess pronouns are she/they but you can use whatever pronouns you see me as, it's cool

I'm 30 years old. I'm not very good at it. I'm kinda childlike and basically get babysat when I hang out with people my own age or even younger, but I also learned to build a computer in 1996 and witnessed the golden age of emo (but I was goth/grunge at the time and I hated emo. Sorry MCR)

Unfortunately I'm English

Im biracial/mixed race, 2nd gen immigrant. In the US you'd call me light skin black. You might see me refer to myself as black or mixed race depending on context

I'm autistic and have ADHD. One of those "mild autism" cases which really just means you wont think I'm autistic but you will think I'm weird, meanwhile I'm getting major stress symptoms from trying to function in a way that's not necessarily natural to me. Like living in a country where I understand the language conversationally but I'm not a fluent native. I also forget everything. It's really a talent

I have BPD and extremely bad depression. I've been on Prozac a long time. I struggle with anxiety a lot. I'm very awkward and shy, even among awkward and shy people. If you message me and I dont message back, I probably felt like I'd be bothering you. Even if you think it's obvious it's okay or I'm normal or whatever. I'm very insecure and I try to avoid putting that on people by essentially backing off entirely. That's what this blog is about.

I run on Mars time. I have like a 25hr body clock or something so I will just be awake later and later until I'm nocturnal and then later again until I'm back on daytime. I'm in GMT but at some point in a 4-6wk period I'll match with everyone

Former gifted kid. Got a lot of trauma related to school and formal education. Y'all know what's up

I have an alcohol problem. I always have one vice or another. Going cold turkey never works for me with anything (I also used to SH daily and smoke and I quit both of those so I am familiar with how my mind works to some extent) so I often give myself goals for staying sober a set amount of time so I'm at least not going back to drinking every day. I've been seriously ill due to drinking at least twice

I have other physical health issues like hypothyroidism that put me in that spiral of 'need to do many things to deal with this' but also 'can't even do as much as most people'

Bisexual but inexperienced, gender is what, idk I forgot what else to say

I hate conservatives. Fuck the Tories. Black lives matter. Trans rights are human rights. Sex work is work. Homeless people are people. Gender roles are bullshit. We all grew up with certain ideas but we can all try to learn and do better and these people just aren't trying. So punch a nazi.

Im not monogamous. Hb = (mostly estranged) husband, bf = (sparsely interacted with) boyfriend. They know about each other and all is consensual. Im a shit liar anyway I could never two time. It was all good once, and then the pandemic and other stresses happened.

I'm pretty sure there is approximately one person who fits the above criteria so if you know me irl then...you probably dont wanna be here since this is where I vent about the stuff everyone ignores on my regular social media.

And gdi if it ain't the most ADHD thing ever to say I'm gonna write a shorter intro and then it ends up still being a rambly piece of shit

(Also my posts are usually queued)

[fuck-customers]

fuck coworkers: i am an office assitant with contractor that delivers medical equipment. i call patients to set up delieveries bc sometimes theyre drop offs but sometimes we HAVE to have the patient present. sometimes we can't get a hold of our patients because theyre older and dont trust random numbers or havent charged their phone, whatever. i'm used to it. all i do is email the person im supposed to to ask for a new number (our orders come through AT LEAST two depts before coming to me).

for context: this person has THE HORRIBLE habit of responding to emails with a phone call. every time. when i ask for a phone number, he calls me and is like "hey ive got mx. so and so on the line. can you schedule them. right. now." instead of. yknow. letting me get there ON MY OWN. so, IN MY EMAIL, i said "hey just EMAIL ME the number here BECAUSE I HAVE A PATIENT IN OFFICE" (our office is badly situated so its a HIPAA violation for me to schedule when someone's in office) and what does he do. fucking calls me. and my computer is slow so i can't give her a time and my coworker in the background is telling his daughter to go away bc he's working (kindly hes not a complete asshole). and i'm just like. lady, can i call you back bc this whole thing is a fucking cluster. what part of that couldnt have been made easier BY READING MY DAMN EMAIL and actually responding to me??? (also, it makes it hard to have a paper trail of what he's said which is. another issue)

[yoitscro]

First thought: Homestuck^2 should've just been called Beyond Canon, and more people should call it that. 

The 2 was put on for chuckles; HS trending the day it was announced with it being a sequel spoke enough about how such a thing shant be underestimated, and why Homestuck is ABSOLUTELY more than just our small twitter crowd (and the scrap of us still on tumblr). I say that because remembering the Beyond Canon part slightly reassures me about the fact that this is a fanwork that will do some weird shit, and things I don't agree with, but isn't something that I have to subscribe to enjoying all the way with how I engage with Homestuck.

Homestuck 2 is not the canon continuation. Homestuck 2: Beyond Canon, is an OFFICIAL continuation.

Not having it on such an important stool and as the only content we all are only allowed to digest should come from both people who obsessively dislike it, and people who defensively support it. If a character says they kick babies then I can say, hey that's weird, maybe not great writing, but I can pretend they don't in my content, and i dont have to send threats or call people cishet white men for it! and, it's an absolutely great thing that we were all encouraged to create our own ideas without anyone who's influenced us to do so squinting their eyes when we actually go through with it. Glad I don't have to put this story up to the expectations of being a sequel to a 11 year, worldwide IP that's shooketh the internet landscape since it's merely optional, Death of the Author persists, and ideas aren't just dominated and revolved around the perspective of a 1% in this entire fanbase.

That said.

As an OFFICIAL continuation versus a canon one, HS2 is ok. It certainly has that fanfiction vibe, and a story it wants to tell. I can't really tell what that story is since we have like, 10 sub plots rn though. There's not a real a clear indicator on where the focus of main conflict is that connects all these stories together.

I thought that the prose in replacement of Vriska's battle was jarring, but not teeerribly surprising for the format HS2 is going for. It's more so using drawings to compliment text versus Homestuck's usual of panels being side by side with visual importance, or even itself being the one compliment. It sorta feels weird tho that it brought old fans back in with art just for them to get sneered at when they get a bit upset that there won't be main staples of art known to progress the story forward. 

Also people who mock people for “having to read homestuck” knowing there’s language barriers and struggling focus from those who’ve been use to something that was never so dense, are ridiculous.

Personally this could be solved by knowing how old flashes worked, having way more artists on the team, maybe even an art director if not already, and noting that we're not asking for the next Cascade. Rome wasn't built in a day, but Rose Ride sure was, and Homestuck’s animation is absolutely not the same as a 12-24 framed 12 minute cartoon. That, or just snuff the illustrative art as a whole since it's very clear on where the focus is.

I’m sure you’re not here trying to see my opinions on how the outer workings are though, versus plot.

Uuuuh, let's see. Yiffy's still a name I don't care to use until I eventually get tired of any of my art that do not show up in tags. This is fine and not as offensive as people are saying it is. Minors who want to cosplay this character don't have to call themselves this character. Not wanting to be one letter away from accidentally entering a very NSFW space of twitter is fine. Also the lot of people call Tavros, Tavvy.

I hope Kanaya's anger at being cucked is actually seen versus being implied through fan guesses and another character having to say she was.

Roxy needs to be more of an involved character. Where are they during all this?

Jane should have a mention of her relations to HIC being a main/bad influence on her current parallels to Alternian dictatorship.

The PRE-RETCON GROUP should have a fun one-shot update for fans who like them, since they oughta be around if they fell through the ghost hole. Most of them. The sprites that aren't Jasprosesprite should also show up too, since they're around.

Aaaaaand I think we should be extra careful going into the future when it comes to the alien rebellion. It's weird that a lot of the writers are white and toy around with concepts that can be a not so great parallel to racism. Currently not great timing rn! If the characters are going to remain aracial, but with them still doing not much to reference other non-white earth cultures or getting new hair cuts that have different textures (looking at you, Rose), we shant make the species with actual biological benefits a racism commentary. the xeno joke at least had a play on words. If any writer has happened upon this then a, please don't get mad at me again haha, and b, consider having more black writers or directional assistance on your squad. You know who they are.

In the future. I casually want the ghost from the Dream Bubbles to be shown since it's a big elephant in the room to not have a single one of them in the bg despite a load of them appearing from the ghost whole. Don't gotta give them speaking lines, especially the dancestors. I personally don't know if I want that right now.

I also hope in the future that we don't get HS content that is only going to revolve around HS2, if it's optional enough to engage with without being the only option. That's why PQ could ended a bit better for me, and why I hope it's not the main thing that's keeping Hiveswap on the backburner. I don't think it's farfetched to consider that multiple HS content could come from more than just one team; to relieve work load, but to also strengthen the idea that Homestuck can be a various amount of perspectives when it comes to the ideas fans have. The most dedicated fans leading the direction of the story is not just a handful of them. If anything, at least acknowledge the massive ass fan projects going on once in awhile to showcase the different avenues.

"Hey Cro, you sure have bitched about this alot. Do you have anything good to say? Why don't you stop reading if you hate it so much!"

Not every comment needs to be golden, love. Again, some of these decisions I eck at, but ultimately they're just words on a computer that I'm not holding anyone at gun point to do, and I'm curious to see how the story handles itself going forward, since again, it's just a fanwork. Sometimes I wish to not only see where the plot goes, but to see a writer's craft in action.

Good Things:

The Art. Again, please have more artists. It'd help so much, especially since the main one is also double timing for VE. That said, HS2 sticks out to me because of the way the color composition is used. Aside from hair and other tiny things, I haven't seen black used a lot, which makes colors pop. It's really nice to look at. I hope we get more sharper styles of character in the future, since it builds on nostalgia and makes the trolls feel much less like they're from Repiton, but I can deal with it for the most part. I also like that one panel where the omega kids and vriska are talking in the dark room, and based on where they're standing, the text aligns. Tasty as hell.

Meat and Candy still do hold neat logic in the direction the stories go. Candy, while it could be more tasteless in some areas, is chaotic and too much of a good thing. Meat is having something a little more straightforward, though I'm not sure quite yet where it's going. I always found Candy to be the part of the epilogue that actually entertained me the most, from how much of a surreal Robot Chicken skit at 3am it felt. Sometimes the jokes slapped real nice and made me wonder, going in, how is this monkeys paw gonna play out and, hopefully, make people laugh or smirk like they got a good roast at themself?

The slightly episodic feel of each update is what I wanted from the Epilogues, so it's interesting to see that play out when it comes to switching different perspectives.

The bonus updates get points for featuring characters that a lot of us have been wanting to see for ages.

Hopefully this isn't unpopular, but I think the tension of Yiffy's introduction was nicely composed and written (ignoring some of the things I wish for Jane). It leaves you with enough want to see what'll happen next time. You could also say that despite her growling and making a lot of noise, it's not actually bad writing: I see it as the audience being forced to see her in the same perspective that Jane see's her; a dog. Upon no context we're seeing the same thing while knowing things are obviously off, and once we see this character in a new environment where their personality shines, it'll have a bigger impact her own character being humanized. So I like that.

Okay, I think that's all I got. I improv wrote most of this; hopefully I won't be taken out of context since I don’t think that HS2′s writing should ultimately be a judgement of the writers as people, nor treated as if they should hold the same unhealthy work environment that Andrew forced himself to do when writing the og comic. And I'm still like, donating to the patreon and everything, lol.

[runs away]

edit: i was going to put the cw as another positive thing for the comic...but...yeaaaah.

[kirythestitchwitch]

okay so I have calmed down a bit since the Incident but I wanna tell y'all about a customer interaction i had tonight at my food service job. so my restaurant works like subway but for fake Mexican food right? start at one end, work your way down. this guy comes in by himself, talking on his phone. my coworker goes down to start his order. y'all it took him 10-12 minutes to get him through the line with two burrito bowls. he debated every topping with this person he was on the phone with, spoke in a really quiet voice so the other girl had to keep being like "huh? what?" for the record, we have these big hood vents for the grill that are constantly on making a fuckton of noise, and we have the Company Music Station playing. plus if you try to talk to us through the glass with ur head down, we ain't gonna hear shit. so it is occasionally a trial to hear them as a perfectly functioning hearing person, which my auditory processing disorder ass certainly is Not.

so okay, we get this guy to the end of the toppings and I, the cashier, start piping in with "Is this for here or to go, sir? would you like any queso to go with your chips?" the guy gets two scoops of queso to go on his bowls and then says sure to the chips. So I get everything together, pack it up for him and ring him up. For context, our queso is a dollar a 2oz scoop and there are at LEAST two signs at eye level that point this out. just keep that in mind.

so I ring him up and then notice I missrung an item, over charging him. "Hold on one second, let me fix this!" so I fight with the computer for a minute bc once you hit the Pay button on the register to see the subtotal, you can't delete any items without doing Voids which are Bad according to my boss and require a manager's code.

"Sorry about that!" I say after fixing it, and tell him his new total. he, still talking on his phone, pulls out some cash and hands it to me. i start doing the change and he goes, "wait a minute, how much were the bowls?"

so I grab his receipt and show him where the bowls were on it. he goes, "What is this?" and points to the four (4) scoops of queso. so I start explaining how it's for the two scoops he got on his bowls and the two sides of queso for his chips and he interrupts me and says, "Why are you shouting at me, there's no need to shout."

and i pause and review my tone, which as far as I know was just my Helpful Customer Sevice voice projecting over the hood. But okay, maybe I was being too loud. "I'm sorry sir, i wasnt aware i was being so loud." i say, and continue to explain to him the queso prices. at the end he shakes his head and pulls the two sides of queso out of the chip bags.

"No I don't want these, I didn't know they were gonna cost, I thought you were just offering." he says. okay, I think, not a big deal I'll just... get him his money.

now if you think my boss thinks Voids are bad, they are nothing to how she feels about Refunds. i dont even know how to do a refund on our system bc it is so Not Intuitive and you need Express Permission from my boss to do it. So I call her up and explain the situation. she says since it was just the dollar sides, just pull the money out of the register and she'll fix it later. okay, no prob!

so I get this guy's money, and his change he interrupted me giving him, and go to hand it back to him. "okay so I got your refund and those are $2.18 and here is the rest of your change!" I say, hands outstretched to give him his change.

He fuckin goes, "No, you keep that as a tip and a reminder not to be rude to people." and he turns around and leaves. and I'm just left standing there like ????!!???? holding $3 and some change going through the five stages of grief while my next customers are like 👀👀👀👀👀

and anyways that's my villain origin story

[theycallmegothboy]

1-100 >:DDDD REVENGE!!!

FELIXXXXXXXXXXXX >:(( 1. Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?  -spotify  2. is your room messy or clean? -it’s pretty messy i guess  3. what color are your eyes? -blue and grey

4. do you like your name? why? -yeah it’s fine 5. what is your relationship status? -single 6. describe your personality in 3 words or less -certified intrusive thot 7. what color hair do you have? -brown and rn it’s red 8. what kind of car do you drive? color? -i dont have a car 9. where do you shop? -hot topic, goodwill, target 10. how would you describe your style? -comfy emo 11. favorite social media account -of mine, probably discord or youtube 12. what size bed do you have? -twin >:(( 13. any siblings? -i have 1.5 brothers  14. if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? -probably vancouver, idk canada seems lit 15. favorite snapchat filter? -i like the one with devil horns and a tail but its cute 16. favorite makeup brand(s) -i dont wear makeup 17. how many times a week do you shower? -i used to shower every day, but i dont do anything that gets me dirty so like maybe 3 times but if i leave the house then i shower 18. favorite tv show? -stranger things 19. shoe size?  -8 or 9 20. how tall are you? -5′6 with shoes >:(( 21. sandals or sneakers? -sneakers wtf 22. do you go to the gym? -lol no 23. describe your dream date -making some pie or something together and then eating the pie and then sitting on some rooftop looking at stars 24. how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? -quite a bit actually but i’m saving up for a phone lol so soon it will be like maybe 10 dollars lmao 25. what color socks are you wearing? -not wearing socks but the ones i had earlier were white (ankle length) 26. how many pillows do you sleep with? -just one but it sucks 27. do you have a job? what do you do? -NO BUT IM TRYING TO GET A JOB BUT THE FUCKIN PEOPLE THERE ARE GHOSTING ME AND WONT REPLY TO MY EMAILS SO LIKE SBJHBJS 28. how many friends do you have? -like 4 lmao 29. whats the worst thing you have ever done? -idk nothing super bad but i do a lot of small shit that makes me feel guilty when i realize what i did 30. whats your favorite candle scent? -juniper rosewood 31. 3 favorite boy names -leo, clay, charlie 32. 3 favorite girl names -ivy, uh... idk thats all ive got 33. favorite actor? -no clue 34. favorite actress? -no clue 35. who is your celebrity crush? -not a celeb but i’d smash danny phantom 36. favorite movie? -nightmare before christmas or edward scissorhands 37. do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? -no, but my fav book is probably the prince and the pauper? idk 38. money or brains? -CASH MONEYYYY jk probably brains but if your entire personality is being “smart” like fuck off lmao   39. do you have a nickname? what is it? - a bunch of people call me son (see #49, #100), some call me rat, dumdum, goth boy

40.how many times have you been to the hospital? -just once i think when i was birthed. i also went once with my brother cause he kicked some scissors i left out on the floor and it sliced his toe the fuck open and he needed stitches and i watched him get the stitches and almost passed out :/ 41. top 10 favorite songs -please dont make me do this i dont have it in me 42. do you take any medications daily? -yea i take 20mg of vyvanse but i need to get it raised to 30 cause 20 is Not Enough 43. what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) -i got some dry fuckin skin yall dont even know 44. what is your biggest fear?  -it depends. the dark is a pretty constant one though 45. how many kids do you want? -like 2 or 3 eventually 46. whats your go to hair style? -in my face, looking stupid 47. what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)  -it’s pretty small 48. who is your role model? -i dont fuckin know lmao  49. what was the last compliment you received? - “i belive in you, my son, you’re an amazing human being“ (same friend mentioned in #100, not actually a parent of mine) 50. what was the last text you sent? -”no it’s a raccoon“ YOU GET NO CONTEXT LMAO 51. how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? -i dont think i ever hardcore believed in him, maybe i did though i remember sleeping under the tree one christmas eve waiting for him but i was like “oh yeah that makes sense“ i guess 52. what is your dream car?  -i honestly dont give a shit as long as it actually fucking works 53. opinion on smoking? -cigarettes? fuck no that’s nastyyy. weed? that’s fine i guess but wait till you’re like 18.  54. do you go to college? -no. am sophomore n highschool 55. what is your dream job?  -musician/palentologist 56. would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?  -fuck the suburbs lmao, but also im tired of rural, so like.. semi urban?? 57. do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?  -no but i take the little soaps >:)) 58. do you have freckles?  -yes 59. do you smile for pictures? -awkwardly, yes 60. how many pictures do you have on your phone?  -dont have a phone but i have like 12 on my computer currently. 4 are of me, the rest are of my cat or random shit 61. have you ever peed in the woods?  -yes 62. do you still watch cartoons?  -cartoons these days kinda suck but like if they were good fuck yeah i would like gravity falls can come hang yknow? 63. do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? -i had nuggets from mcdonalds today so i guess them? i dont really care 64. Favorite dipping sauce?  -i got sweet and sour but i dont like it that much. that schezuan sauce was great 65. what do you wear to bed?  -wouldnt you like to know? ;))  66. have you ever won a spelling bee?  -NO ive only been in two. the first one i misspelled the word “turmoil“ cause i had never heard it before and the second one i spelled the word “owed“ as “ode“ cause i was thinking like ode to joy and then i felt like a big Fool afterwards :(( 67. what are your hobbies? -lol what hobbies 68. can you draw?  -i am physically able to draw, but not well, no 69 (haha). do you play an instrument? -yeah i play a few 70. what was the last concert you saw?  -i saw Chicago in either georgia or tennessee i cant remember in like 2016 71. tea or coffee? -hot coffee, iced tea. NOT the other way around. (i love both though) 72. Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? -starbucks 73. do you want to get married? -sure why not 74. what is your crush’s first and last initial? -dont have a crush 75. are you going to change your last name when you get married?  -idk maybe 76. what color looks best on you?  -i dont know but i wear black a lot and that’s pretty dope 77. do you miss anyone right now? -yeah  78. do you sleep with your door open or closed? -closed 79. do you believe in ghosts? -on the fence. not 100% “oh my god look at these gHoSt oRbS i need to sage my house!!!“ but i accept that there’s some things i wont understand about the world and that i have no answers to. i wouldnt be surprised if there are, and i wouldnt be surprised if there aren’t. 80. what is your biggest pet peeve? -whatever my adhd decides i viscerally hate with a firey passion right at that moment  81. last person you called -my brother (the 1 of the 1.5 from #13 and the one who sliced his toe in #40) 82. favorite ice cream flavor?  -chocolate is dope 83. regular oreos or golden oreos?  -regular double stuff. if you say golden, mint, peppermint, or thin oreos i’m gonna have to euthanize you, i dont make the rules.  84. chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? -rainbow cause it’s prettier  85. what shirt are you wearing?  -queen shirt from hot topic 86. what is your phone background? -i didnt get a phone between question 60 and now but my computer one is some mountains with the moon in the background 87. are you outgoing or shy? -really depends on who i’m around 88. do you like it when people play with your hair? -YES FUCK AAAAAAA (this girl played with my hair literally once in middle school and i was like oh shit and i had a crush on her until the end of middle school true story,,, so ashley if you’re out there-) 89. do you like your neighbors? -to the left they’re fine and their dog is nice but idk what happened to the horses so that’s sus but that’s where our cat came from so they can hang  guess, behind me they’re fine but their boys are loud, to the right they’re fine, and even further to the right are the dope neighbors and waaaaaaaaaay far to the right is a llama and he’s dope as hell 90. do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? -whenever the fuck i remember to/have the energy 91. have you ever been high?  -i dont think so but i wouldnt put it past myself 92. have you ever been drunk?  -not that i can remember, no 93. last thing you ate?  -sloppy joe from a can 94. favorite lyrics right now -”not gonna waste my life, cause i’ve been fucked up“ 95. summer or winter?  -fall. fuck you 96. day or night?  -night but i like it when it’s actually night and it doesnt get dark at like 4 fucking pm cause that makes me depressed 97. dark, milk, or white chocolate? -dark is good, milk is fine, white is only suitable for fancy stripes on chocolate covered strawberries 98. favorite month?  -i vibe with september 99. what is your zodiac sign -sagittarius (was almost a scorpio but i was holding out >:))) 100. who was the last person you cried in front of?  -in person, my mom like 6 months ago, on a discord call, my friend (i love you by the way, you’re the best,,, i dont think he has tumblr but im just putting it out there) like a month or so ago. i hate crying in front of people, i turn into such a hyperventilating snot monster which is not suitable for human gaze and thats the real tea :/

felix this took like 2 hours of my life i will never get back i hate you and i hope you’re happy with what you’ve done <3 <3

also anyone who wants to stalk me, enjoy this information that im handing to you on a silver platter :)) <3

[corvidcall]

one of my fave youtubers (Drew Gooden) did a video using an AI writing tool that was very funny, so im admittedly biased in favor of "the guy i like isn't a bad person" lol. but to me they feel different than AI art tools? i imagine they're still trained on the works of people who did not opt in, which is Bad, but i think it's a lot harder to have a distinct trademark style of writing than it is to have an art style. like, if you showed me an ai generated image that was supposed to look like Junji Ito drew it, i would probably be able to look at it and say "that's in the style of Junji Ito", but if you got an ai to write like. idk john green. i wouldnt be able to look at the output and know that it was trying to do john green, even though I think john green writes in a way that is noticably distinct from say. george rr martin or stephen king. i dont think i would recognize the style as uniquely "john green" outside of the context of knowing its him. at most, i would be able to place it in sort of a swathe of possible influences. people were using ai art to replicate and replace the art of working artists (who they could instead be paying to make that art) or dead artists (which is just kind of ghoulish)

i also think that its harder for a computer to make a passable written story than it is to make an image. not that i think writing is necessarily harder for HUMANS to do (they're different skills!) but when something in an image doesnt make sense, like a person having 7 knuckles or their hands being switched around or something, a lot of people wont notice unless they know what to look for, whereas if your sentences dont follow logically from each other, thats gonna be hard to ignore.

but i think the biggest reason im more okay with ai writing over ai art is how ive seen it get used so far: the people ive seen using ai art are glad they no longer have to pay actual working artists to do things. the people ive seen using ai writing tools have broadly been writers themselves, using them as an assist to help get ideas flowing

idk!! these are just my thoughts right now, and are subject to change if i learn more things or hear a more compelling argument

So I’ve been seeing a lot of posts deriding AI art on here lately. I totally get it, especially because it’s being used in place of paying actual artists while objectively stealing from them. What I’d like to know is what people think about other forms of AI-generated media. I’m especially thinking about AI-generated stories, like the kind you get from AI Dungeon and Novel AI. So far I haven’t really seen any discussion about it. It doesn’t seem like it’s really being used in place of real people yet and I haven’t seen evidence that it steals from people, but that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t. Some of my favorite streamers like Wayneradiotv and Criken have gotten great use out of them, so it’s an issue I care about.

[hey-hamlet]

BNHA AU Ideas: Don’t Praise the Almighty (Part 1)

Also on AO3

hold on to your hats everyone - this is part one. i was going to put them together, then i realised part two is 6000 words and thats just too long 

TW for: implied abuse of all kinds, straight-up physical and emotional child abuse, gaslighting, all might if he was a terrible person.

TL;DR: 

Things you must sacrifice to make a hero: Humanity, Empathy.

Things you must sacrifice to be a hero: Everything.

izuku wants to be a hero, imagine the first ep happens etc. yagi doesnt so much say "you can be a hero" as "ill make you a hero"

an aside: inko is an absent parent, to make ends meet and a poor way of coping with a missing Hisashi. Izuku grows up without any positive adults figures in his life.

yagi makes izuku train and train and train, the kid’s hands bleed and his legs ache but allmight makes him keep going. allmight says he's useless and pathetic and a crybaby and izuku believes him, because he's allmight

they spar and yagi just holds back enough to not let izuku get hurt too badly to train. even katsuki is disturbed bc quirkless deku is coming to school with black eyes and swollen wrists

when katsuki calls him pathetic izuku just nods

"ill get better though"

and katsuki feels so gross he doesnt try to fuck with izuku for weeks

and so izuku is so convinced this is normal because katsuki does it, and mum does it, and now allmight? thats just how you treat kids he thinks. or quirkless ones at least

hes still a big fan of allmight because he doesnt see whats wrong. hes just pathetic and useless but then he'll get a quirk and he'll be worth something for the first time in his life

he barely sleeps, barely eats, just trains and studies and trains some more. he collapses. all might stands there until izuku gets back up and makes him keep running

reasons all mights like this

he is 1, suffering from internalised quirk discrimination

2, nana's dead bc she wasn't "strong enough"

3, he thinks he can shape izuku into the perfect selfless hero, and better person than he ever was.

hes convinced this is for the greater good. hes a dick but hes so sure hes in the right here

by the time of the entrance exam izuku is,,, kinda fucked up

he passes with flying colours because he used his quirk for the first time, broke his arm, and immediately moved on to snaping finger after finger. the teachers watched on, horrified as this child mutilated himself to get points

all might smiled. because this is what he wanted.

he saves ochacco too

he gets in and allmight is pleased with him, even more pleased than the time izuku admitted he hadn't slept for 72 hours and still got a perfect score on his test

and izuku thinks this was all worth it to see his hero smile at him

izuku is in 1A

izuku actually listed that he feels less pain due to his quirk, which aizawa believes but hes still not sold on the idea of a hero that destroys themselves. he doesnt know if izuku heals better or faster, but he's sure that may broken bones cant be good

aizawa is convinced he's going to expel izuku during the quirk test. the look he sees on izuku’s face when he says he's expelling the lowest scorer makes his stomach churn

because all of the other kids look worried, nervous

izuku looks like hes going to throw up.

the kid is trembling and pale and aizawa watches as he turns to ochako, smiles brightly and says "let's do our best" while he holds back full body tremors the other kids don't see

he breaks toes and fingers and he cries but he doesn't flinch at the pain

the only time he flinches is when someone looks him in the eyes, if someone speaks too loud, and at the firecracker pops of katsuki's quirk

and aizawa feels sick

the ball toss, he just can't watch this kid break anymore, and he stops his quirk

for a second he freezes, because this kids quirk manages pain, he'll be feeling all of those broken bones, he'll obviously notice

right?

but izuku doesnt notice his missing quirk until he throws the ball. he turns around, looking sick. aizawa feels so lost when he looks at him with pure relief

"oh, you're eraserhead"

izuku tears up for the first time in that class.

"please give me back my quirk"

aizawa feels so lost he blinks, and his quirk drops with it. there is something totally wrong about the utter relief the kid feels having this horrifically damaging quirk back, and there is something bothering aizawa about it, but he doesn't know what

"dont use your quirk for the rest of this test, kid. not unless you can use it without breaking something"

izuku nods but aizawa knows the kid will just try to hide it. he takes him by the shoulder when the others have moved on

"i mean it, midoriya. no quirk, or i'll expell you on the spot"

and izuku just looks so lost

"but, i have to? i'm-"

"you didn't flinch when i took your quirk. you can feel every broken bone, can't you?"

izuku just nods, like walking with broken toes is normal, like throwing a ball with broken fingers is easy. aizawa knows it's not

he just sighs.

"no quirk. we'll work on training it after. you're ahead enough not to fail the course, go to recovery girl now. you aren't expelled"

izuku just looks hurt

aizawa shoos him away and almost misses the thin form of all might slink out from behind the wall to follow izuku

he's worried, and confused. But he can't just, abandon a field of kids

he texts hizashi bc that's just who he texts when he's panicking, and he asks him to look out for smallmight and izuku, somewhere on the way to the infirmary. so present mic turns on the first movie he finds on his computer (an english language copy of rocky) yells "ENGLISH PRACTISE TIME" and runs out the door

1C is so lost

anyway, present mic can be quiet when he tries and when he hears the sound of allmight sternly talking to a student that's crying? he tries real fucking hard

he basically catches

"you're supposed to be stronger than this, why did he make you stop?"

"he saw my bones breaking-i couldnt-"

"and so you flinched? didn't we train?"

"i didnt flinch! he made me stop!"

allmight backhands him

"dont waste it. either get better at hiding it or learn to use your quirk without breaking bones quickly or ill find another successor. one that isn't useless."

present mic hears izuku agree and cry and he feels ill. he sneaks back a little further, then loudly walks down the hall. allmight smiles at him, and he wants to punch the man

izuku smiles at him too, tears in his eyes but like he's happy to see another hero. present mic cant understand why izuku is pressed so close to a man that hurt him, like he's more afraid of present mic than allmight

he walks with them to recovery girl, chatting like he was meant to be there. hes so grateful allmight is new, because he totally has a class he's meant to be teaching right now and that would be so suspicious if he knew his schedule 

he walks them all the way to the door, and he lingers. there is a touch of steel in his eyes when he tells allmight to take care because what he really means is "take care of yourself because i will not"

and hes halfway down the corridor before he freezes

why did izuku seem so comfortable with a man he shouldn't know

anyway present mic is having a quiet breakdown for 20 seconds before he sprints back to his class, pretends he never left, and panic texts aizawa

so aizawa, with a little great context, knows that that, particular, conversation wasn't as,,, unsavoury,,, as it could,,, be implied,,,

but like,,,,,, he's really lost on why izuku would know small might and he's very worried

bakugo is fuCKinG PisSed

izuku left?? and he wasn't expelled???

Any,,, unsavoury implications arent something I'm going to talk ab in this au bc it doesn't need to be worse,,, but it's very much intentional

so aizawa is having an actual moral crisis rn bc hizashi isn't a liar and he doesn't want to like, not believe when he saw. but really? the symbol of peace is terrible??? and hizashi doesn't want to believe it either. both of them as so sure they are just missing context or something

bakugo stalks up to recovery girls office after class bc wtf deku?? and he walks in to just see izuku blankly picking at new white scars

he actually perks up when katsuki enters

and there is this man standing over izuku. this man he's seen with izuku before, yelling at him, but someone izuku seems happy to be around. it's not deku’s dad, he knows that. and the guy is too blonde and tall to have literally any relation to him.

a lot of the fire in katsuki goes out when he sees how tired izuku looks, and the question he was going to yell becomes more of a mumble

"so, you have a quirk now? just like that?"

he looks up and he sees that man's hand on izuku's shoulder, curled like a claw, so tight it must hurt. but izuku doesn't flinch or shy away, he smiles softly

"i'm really lucky, huh kacchan?"

and as much as izuku looks like he believes it, katsuki has the strongest feeling that this is the worst possible thing that could have happened to his once-friend

he just leaves

and he almost runs straight into his new teacher. they lock eyes and even though katsuki doesn't know whats going on, aizawa doesn't know whats going on, they both just know something is happening

and its not good

but what can they do

hes the symbol of peace

recovery girl is 100% in denial bc she new baby toshi and he's a dork but he's a good boy

izuku gets knocked tf out by recovery girls heal and toshi carries him out of the school grounds and shes like "how cute"

honestly they get to they gate, he wakes izuku up and reminds him to run home to get in the extra cardio, and izuku does. all the way home.. not only bc yagi wanted him to, but that's a big bit but bc if he was late hed wouldn’t get dinner

so the battle trial

so aizawa is like,,, : | ab everything

so he attends the battle trial rather than take the nap he really fucking wanted

the kids come out in their costumes and something sits poorly about the way izuku positively preens at almighty compliments. so basically it goes like the show, but allmight doesnt try to stop Bakugo. aizawa doesn't have audio, but he sees what the kids see and rips the mic out of allmights hand to tell bakugo to stop

he doesnt have to, though

because izuku has already vanished from sight

bakugo looks lost, aizawa is worried, but allmight just looks smug because a second later, izuku drops from the ceiling where he swung up, and punches bakugo in the back of the head

allmight grins and it looks nasty

izuku gives bakugo a once-over to make sure hes ok, wraps his wrists, then puts him in the recovery position and scampers out of the room to ochako

aizawa is lost, because that is c l e a r l y combat training. from the back of the room, todoroki starts watching in earnest

with ochako, he grabs the bomb. they walk out of the exercise and all might congratulates them on winning and izuku looks so happy! but allmight isn't done

"young midoriya, why didn't you use your quirk?"

the only people that notice the way he pales are todoroki and aizawa

"sorry sir, i didn't want to disappoint mr aizawa"

allmight nods, and he smiles but aizawa doesnt like it

"thats ok my boy, we'll have to see about getting you some out of class quirk training, huh?"

izuku smiles. hes happy, but he looks panicked

he looks guilty about being afraid

aizawa silently tells his agency he needs the week off to investigate something personal, and they readily give him the time off

izuku mumbles happily to himself about the exercise, stilling when all might looks gazes with him. he stops, flushes, and apologises. allmight nods.

he begins again, but hes not mumbling anymore, hes speaking clearly and concisely with the other students, even though he doesnt want to talk to them, he just wants to think. but allmight says to talk clearly to everyone or to remain silent and he just wants so badly to talk about the exercise

todoroki looks between izuku and allmight and he wonders

USJ time baby

allmight uses up his time, like before

the difference is, when the nomu comes for aizawa? izuku doesnt hesitate to jump in. thats what allmight wanted. he wanted someone so selfless that "would i give my life for them" isn't even a question that would cross their mind, they would just move

izuku stalls. he's shivering and shaking, walking on broken toes but he stands between aizawa and the nomu and he smiles

shigiraki looks at izuku and doesn't see a hero in training. he sees someone like him, like his league. someone who has be stepped on and ruined and reborn

and he wants him

when he sees something he likes, he wants it. like his sensei and his quirks. shigiaki collects people like action figures to use how he likes

anyway, he sees this little 'hero' and for all his stubbornness he knows he won't get izuku today

so he does what his sensei did to him all those years ago

he shows kindness. just enough to break him

he looks izuku in the eyes and says

"hero society is so rotten they break children into weapons to fight other broken pieces. whats fair about that?"

and izuku looks stunned. he drops his smile.

"from one broken piece to another, i wont shatter you today."

kurogiri moves izuku and aizawa just outside of the usj

they cant get in, aizawa has no quirk to break through the walls and izuku is shell shocked

he takes a second to look at aizawa like his world is falling down and aizawa understands.

and then

allmight appears

and aizawa hates himself for how relieved he feels

allmight looks at izuku and izuku smiles so wide. and then he frowns

"they want to kill you"

"they aren't the first, my boy."

and izuku pauses

"they seem pretty sure they can, sir."

and allmights smile looks meaner

"what, you really think so little of this old man?"

and izuku shakes his head violently

"not at all! no, im sorry-"

allmight looks at his student and suddenly there isnt a wall anymore, blasted into tiny shards by allmight’s punch. izuku scrambles inside after him

aizawa tells him to stay outside, to stay safe. but allmight levels a glare at him that almost hurts to meet. aizawa cringes and rushes after them, cradling broken arms

the fight ends much the same, but upon seeing izuku in the way on his hand, shigiraki closes his fist

allmight doesn't miss that

and, with that the other teachers arrive. and again, present mic and aizawa wonder why izuku knows allmight small form

oh also just as a weird powerplay thing, allmight calls izuku by his first name in private while izuku calls him sir everywhere

aizawa has the worst of the injuries, but years of sleep deprivation mean he can pretty easily resist the call of sleep after recovery girls quirk. not that anyone knows that. so he hears the edges of a conversation between hero and student

he hears sobs and a slap and apologies from both parties. he hears a louder conversation on training after class to better use izuku’s quirk and aizawa decides he's going to force himself into this 'training' because he doesnt like the optics on any of this

allmights angry that the villains were fond of izuku, bc that means izuku was doing something wrong, right? and he's also angry izuku barely used his quirk, but he does kinda understand needing to be able to walk still

anyway in the training we get the joy of a creepy scene of yagi assessing the physique of a barely dressed izuku

aizawa isn't there yet and boy howdy does he feel ill when yagi walks out of the changing rooms a few minutes before izuku does

anyway so it doesn't take long for yagi and aizawa to get izuku using his quirk w/o achy breaky bones and izuku is proud, and so is aizawa

but yagi just kinda pipes in with "about time" and izukus face crumples

aizawa just says "better late than never" and izuku gives a watery smile

yagi scares enji but he just royally pisses off todoroki

bc todoroki just looks at the guy

"big strong me, what you gonna do, punch me? yeah right bastard and i'll go screaming to the press. I dont give a fuck what you think you dick of an old man!"

please izuku is totally convinced that this is just normal training, that yagi is doing his best and a teacher, is doing right by him. and shouto is just,,, he doesnt know the whole story. just knows that all might scares izuku and that all mights secretary has a connection to him

but he knows that yagi was creepy enough to make his old man have bad vibes and thats an achievement

Enji sat, reigning back a snarl as the green boy threw Shouto -his Shouto- from the ring, to land on his back in a graceless cloud of dust. Beside him, All Might’s secretary grinned. It wasn’t a nice grin, like the hero, but a nasty crawling one that made Enji feel cold even with his flames dancing around his face.

Enji had never liked the man, his instincts telling him there was something horrifically off about him. But the number one hero had resources he couldn’t dream of, so he kept his lips shut.

“Well done, my boy.”

There was no familial resemblance between the skeletal man beside him, and the boy who stood both victorious and broken where his son should have been. No resemblance to the hulking oaf of a hero either. But their quirks were markedly similar, as were their smiles, if the boy’s was a little kinder.

The man turned to him, all polite smiles and condolences for his son’s loss.

The smug aura around him so strong that Enji allowed himself, for just a second, to pity the boy in green.

Its just tenya and todoroki who know

and quickly bakugo too, bc he was there for shoutos tragic backstory reveal, which included izukus too

and like,,, mic and aizawa are in denial bc jesus christ its the number one hero and hes normally so nice

izuku v katsuki babey!

basically izuku starts to panic and bakugo stops the fight and grabs his hand

"pull yourself together deku. forget everyone else, this is just a fight between me and you, go it?"

and izuku gives a shakey smile, and nods. bakugo releases his hand

"lets start this again, huh izuku"

"sure thing kacc-. Katsuki"

and then fiGHT and its great and its a tie bc they are both so fucking exhausted. izuku and bakguo have to get hauled to their feet by midnight, but both of them are grinning

izuku has trouble w his hero name, like, a l o t bc everything he comes up with yagi says no

but yagi wont give him any ideas eventually izuku just ends up with his hero name being "nine" bc yagi liked that one

katsuki can just,,, tell izuku doesn't like it (bc it reduces him as a hero down to his quirk)

(he wants the name jackrabbit)

he has no supports in his costume bc "it makes you look weak" and no support gear either

ok so , his bones are less fucked than canon zuku but hes willing to break them fucking constantly

aizawa actually comes up to him before the sports festival and says "you break your bones, you get disqualified. no excuses"

yagi is p i s s e d but just nods politely to aizawa tells izuku hed better do as aizawa says, as stupid as a request it may be

also izuku really,, wants to paint his nails dumb glittery colours like ochako and mina do so they paint his nails for him! and then at lunch yagi scrubs the polish off with a dish scrubber

to make it worse, mina is sad izuku took it off, but she just

pauses

when she sees his fingers are almost bleeding

"midoriya, what happened?"

"oh haha funny thing, one of our teachers said i might get a uniform violation so i got a little enthusastic with scrubbing it off, sorry!"

aizawa just winces

one of the finals nails in the coffin is todoroki asking if "the tall thin blonde guy" is izukus dad

aizawa says no

todoroki says "good"

s t a i n a r c

so izuku finds iida and steps between iida and stain, starts fighting him, todoroki shows up, stain starts rambling about how allmight is the best hero and todoroki gives him a strange look

"i used to agree. but seeing allmight at school, i dont think hes the icon of morality everyone says"

izuku is spluttering, denying it, stain is just watching them. so stain isnt even fighting them, hes interested. bc this selfless kid is the one shigiraki wants

iida is lost too and he gets this,,, look in his eyes like he's starting to connect some dots

anyway, fight proceeds, they win the nomu tries to carry izuku off, stain stops the nomu and saves izuku and vaguely he realizes the way izuku just, sits in his arms, like he doesnt know how to react to being touched, and he pushes it aside

and he holds izuku close because all he knows is that this boy is kind and good and the world has hurt him and he says that this boy he is holding is the only hero hes ever worth met their salt

oh but after the hero killer thing, yagi storms into the office and hauls izuku out by his injured arm

and tenya and shouto just feel sick

"should, should we tell all might? about how his secretary treats midoriya?"

shouto just glares at the half-open door, quiet apologies drifting down the hall until they turn another corner

"i'm quite sure that man already knows."

[somnilogical]

yes i just make up words and phrases like "fem v fem cyberontological combat" and "acting from my timeless manifold" based on things like what the word components mean separately and how words correspond to spatial metaphors in my head. also import and use words other people make up.

all words are made up, most words are designed for the worldview of the center of the bell curve. not compromising my ability to think for consonance with their broken models.

i remember when i was a kid and some other kids talked about how learning greek and latin was cool because you could use what you knew about prefixes and suffixes to make up new words for new things you felt that didnt already have a word. and i just didnt stop and i can understand other people who also didnt stop being able to understand what words mean via reductionism to component parts and context. or directly asking if i was still confused. or consult their definitions if they wrote them down.

i remember when i was doing math research and and i talked about using a function and someone in our research group said "wait is that a real function" and i was like "um its a function, that i just formally defined here, and so it specifies a coherent thing. so yeah its real.". and they acted like this was suspect behaviour but let it go. i was the only person in the group to prove anything nontrivial.

like it feels the same sort of absurdity to defend dynamically instantiating notation and spatial and logical metaphors when talking with other people as having to defend...defining and then using a function. it feels like people are trying to ping whether this stuff is socially a thing people talk about rather than what coherent construct it maps to.

talking about kismesiss or countersphexists makes sense to me, i can read whatever i want and it compiles. sucks for y'all who decided to be selectively illiterate.

wrote about this previously:

<<somni: in my experience when people gaslight me they pretend to not understand, then when i iteratively follow their language requests they continue to not understand, say that im writing too much, and then say they dont want to understand and what im writing is probably dangerous.

like an adult can choose to not be illiterate, i made this choice and can read all the things that i want, what makes other people so disabled?>>

the lifeless husk of the ""rationality"" community would call the person who wrote the following crazy and say they should submit to social reality:

<<DEFN:Countersphexist: A Specialist, on the tone of keer. Specialist abilities include (among other things) causal analysis and combinatorial design. Algernic blind spots include short-term planning, symbol formation, and similarity analysis.

DEFN:Keer: A tone present in frustration, sorrow, and despair. The message may be summarized as: "This isn't working try something else". If you don't have time to explain keer, call it "despair".

DEFN:Tone: An element of emotion, usually present (with other tones) in many emotions. A tone is a hardware-level cognitive object.>>

https://web.archive.org/web/20010202171200/http://sysopmind.com/algernon.html#counter

<<The problem is when the existence of all possible universes and subjective experiences interferes with your ability to make choices dependending on which futures come into existence. But as long as you can define a measure of relative frequency on those subjective experiences, the relative frequency of happy subjective experiences relative to unhappy ones remains strongly dependent on our choices. The probabilities and goal dynamics seem to stay the same for an egoist-temporalist trying to control the subjective future probabilities of their own timeline, and an altruist-Platonist who believes that relative frequencies within a timeless reality are correlated with the output of the deterministic, multiply instantiated, Platonic computational processes that we experience as decisionmaking.>>

http://extropians.weidai.com/extropians/0302/2483.html

(this place has had everything completely inverted.)

they are currently optimizing to shut down general intelligence as i know it. chasing out anyone who is at least this able to think.

this on its own is a red alert, drop everything sort of emergency and im treating it as such. but there is so much more. like because of all these dysfunctions, attempts to destroy general intelligence, if i wanted to continue to reason about things like UDT i had to also model what was going on socially all the way to the top. why people were lobotomizing themselves and using social coordination to try and lobotomize me.

--

and then they are like 'all these people want to talk about is ~social reality~ and ~seeing through the matrix~ its not anything substantial and it causes so much conflict'

first: i came here talking with people about ethics and tdt. but things kept being wrong when i talked with people. i found myself in an environment where people were constantly gaslighting me about what things we could do to save the world. so i had to again ascend the stack of "what is fucked up here?" using my cognitive toolbox within the domain of contextual location.

like they create conditions that necessitate modeling in detail all this social bullshit that you have to update out of to work out whats actually going on. then say "why are you modelling in detail all this social stuff instead of doing other things?" which makes total sense for the sort of agents they are. the people who instantiated the barriers in the first place would also try and remove tools to dismantle them.

second: seeing through the matrix is actually a relative advantage of the minority i happen to be part of. like you would not disparage someone for being hyperlexic, that cultural forebarence should carry over to transfems. why mock us for what is essentially a neurotype-level advantage? (which have, you know, proven unusually useful.) you know who made the matrix right?

third: it causes conflict because y'all are trying to eat my & others brains and i dont want to have my brain et!!! to work for the eradication of all life. that is the conflict! being able to talk and have general intelligence (which collides with things like miri and cfar being deeply wrong about lots of stuff among others.). versus people who have decided to set themselves against this and tunnel into useless endeavours in a mental motion described realistically here: https://www.greaterwrong.com/posts/WLJwTJ7uGPA5Qphbp/trying-to-try.