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It's kinda crazy when you think about how Ming Yi is basically the less ghastly version of He Xuan. And he was there by Shi Qingxuan's side for centuries, and yet Shi Wudu never found out. He never recognized him.
Imagine being in He Xuan's shoes - like this guy pretty much ruined his life and is indirectly responsible for the deaths of everybody who was dear to him. Shi Wudu rarely descends. But on the eve of Hanlu, he went down to check if he really died or not. He Xuan remembered his face. It probably haunted him during his times at Mt Tonglu, but when he finally meets this person, there is nothing on his face, no shock or horror.
He forgot him, forgot the face of the boy whose life he ruined.
He never bothered to remember. As if he never had a life.
It kind of reminds me of this scene from a manga called Yona of the Dawn. The protagonist is a princess who's on the run. She had lived a sheltered life and was trying her best to adjust to her new life. One day, she had to hunt a fawn for food, and one of her friends asked her if she would be okay with watching it, and she replied that she isn't. It's still hard for her. But she said that in the palace, thousands of animals were slaughtered every day to feed the royal family, and she never paid attention to it. But now, if she averts her eyes, it would be like refusing to acknowledge that the poor creature had a life.
Shi Wudu ruined his life for the sake of his brother, but let alone remorse, he even forgot what he looked like. He was there by his brother's side for centuries, and yet it never struck him, not until the moment his survival was on the line. If he was guilty, would it have changed anything? Would it bring He Xuan's family and the life he lost back? No, but at least it would ensure that his life meant something, anything.
And even after he recognizes him, his first reaction still is not guilt, not remorse. But a question, "You're alive?", perhaps an indirect way of saying, 'did I make a mistake that day?' Or 'did I fail to clear such an important evidence of my crime?'
The person whose life and afterlife is a consequence of his crime, the first thing he says to him is that.
"Noble people really are forgetful'', and He Xuan really meant it. He experienced it himself. For centuries.
#i hope this doesn't sound like a hate post#i love shi wudu#and i love he xuan too#which is why i feel surprised when people hate him for taking his revenge#would YOU spare a person who wronged you and had the audacity to forget how you even looked like? if yes then you're great#but majority wouldn't#it feels nasty from his point of view#shi wudu's response to 'have you no remorse?' is cool and everything#but if u think about it in this regard#if shi wudu was actually remorseful#if he was actually guilty#if he looked at him carefully that day#if he remembered his face#perhaps the tragedy with Shi Qingxuan wouldn't have happened#maybe the black water arc would've proceeded differently#some things could've been averted#the world has a way of getting back at you regardless of who you are#he xuan#shi wudu#black water sinking ships#black water arc#heaven official's blessing#tgcf#tian guan ci fu#my rambles
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Don't you push me. You said you would always look at me. ...You asked for it yourself.
KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 09
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#nat chen#chen bowen#userspring#uservid#userspicy#userrain#pdribs#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH. the remorse...the guilt...the self-hatred...#ai di really decided he was never going to see chen yi again after this knowing what he did was unforgiveable#and believing chen yi will never ever love him. will hate him after this. and he thinks he deserves that#but ai di loves and will always love chen yi so much.....you can feel it...you can tell...#you can see the way he MISSES HIM WHILE STILL BEING RIGHT THERE NEXT TO HIM#actually that was the entire scene. ai di missing chen yi and longing for him so strongly even while being with him and holding him.#even while touching him and loving him and chen yi touching him back. even with chen yi aware and *loving* him back it cant be real.#ai di doesn't know...bc to him chen yi wasn't actually there. the real chen yi would never- COULD never- love him and would never do this#no matter how much ai di wants it to be real in his head none of it is. but he loves this version of chen yi too. ai di loves all of him.#AND THATS WHAT MAKES IT HURT SO MUCH. bc NONE of this was out of anger or jealousy. it was only love. and pain.#and when chen yi wakes up without him he will remember it and feel all of it and struggle with his own guilt.
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. . .this reply is just. . .I'm sorry, but it's not it. Yes, they are both at fault, but the blame is NOT equal between the two of them. And, frankly, I'm tired of a young female character who is trying to learn and do better and BE better (yes, I'm talking about Eloise) getting constantly smacked down by an echo chamber fandom. Was it wrong of her to rip up her room? Yeah! But. . .uh. . .prioritizing Penelope's privacy in holding a secret that has deeply hurt people over the privacy of EVERYONE ELSE in the entire ton is just. . .hmmmmmm
the Queen was after Eloise because *checks notes* Penelope endangered everyone she knew by goading and undermining the Queen. So. . .the Queen was after Eloise. . .BECAUSE of Penelope.
In what way has Penelope helped out the Bridgertons w/ scandals instead of making them worse? I'm genuinely asking (it's been a bit since I watched) but as I recall, Daphne ended up in the Berbrook situation BECAUSE Penelope constantly said Daphne didn't deserve to be diamond. It was Violet who helped Daphne, not Penelope. In fact, every time Penelope writes about the Bridgertons, she exacerbates the situation: she does not 'fix' it. Nevermind the fact that such 'help' was unwanted and unsolicited. Penelope decided to do what she did without consent from any party involved. Can we agree that's messed up?
I can never stand this point. 'She tried to talk to Colin and Marina and they didn't listen'- no, they didn't give her an answer she wanted. Listen, I'm a hella Polin shipper (though the fandom's version of Polin makes that very difficult. Hallelujah for the book version) but we need to stop woobifying Penelope and acting like what she did was oh so altruistic. She told Colin that Marina loved someone else and he told her he'd be a hypocrite for holding that against her. (so he's a bad guy. . .how?) and Marina was in dire straits. Her situation was quite literally life or death. Her cousin coming to her and saying 'hey, don't marry him, he doesn't deserve to be tricked' is up against her mind with 'if you don't marry him, you and your baby will die'. Idk about you, but I know which I'd choose.
And yes! I also get what Penelope did, because if I found out my close friend was about to get tricked and potentially get their heart broken, yeah, I'd speak up! You know what I wouldn't do? Publish about it in Village Voice. Penelope could have gone to Violet or to Eloise, even to Anthony. It could have been handled quietly, Marina's safety could have been prioritized. But Penelope didn't care about Marina's safety, and let's not sit here and act as though she did what she did because she wanted Colin to have a happy life w/ any lovely woman- she did it BECAUSE she had feelings for him. If that weren't the case, she wouldn't freeze him out after he said he won't date her. Nevermind that it wasn't actually any of her business, and that they both gave her an answer but it was one she didn't want to hear. Penelope took matters into her own hands without their consent, but worse than that is. . .she's not even sorry. Even when Colin expressed guilt, saying he could have done more for Marina, all Penelope was thinking about was how to get him to 'not give up women'. That's messed up!!! How can I root for a character who throws a pregnant woman under a bus and then doesn't even APOLOGIZE?
Eloise didn't love LW? Maybe in S1 she did, but S2 very much challenged that waaaaay before she knew who LW was. Eloise was educating herself on feminist matters, meeting up with the laboring class and consuming texts that made her think. Is she perfect? Hahahaha, no. Do I think some of her feminist takes weren't it? Yeah. Did I find the scene where she, a privileged society woman in all her finery was talking down to Theo, a working class man, a lil hypocritical? Yeah. But Eloise makes up for that, she recognizes that she's speaking out of her bum, which is why she comes to Theo again and again for his insight after that first scene, recognizing that her privilege as a rich person superimposes that of her being a woman in such an instance. It wasn't realizing LW was Penelope that turned her off, it was that she realized that LW was shallow and misogynistic which. . .
SHE IS!!!! LW IS shallow and misogynistic. Come ON they threw in Mary Wollstonecraft's A Vindication on the Rights of Women. We're gonna act like Penelope writing about debutant number 4 getting a little too close to eligible bachelor 6 is anywhere close to that? It shouldn't be! Because Penelope is a 19 year old girl and she's making mistakes and she has a loooooot of internalized stuff to go through. But when it comes to accountability (forget blame, let's talk ACCOUNTABILITY), honestly, VERY little in the Polin fandom is actually put onto Penelope. I'm not talking outside of it, but this fandom in particular is an echo chamber.
Look at me, you've swung so far in the other direction that you're firmly in la la land. Penelope has made horrible, life altering mistakes. Without Philip showing up out of the blue, Marina would be destitute, dead. If it weren't for Eloise's family, she would have likely been arrested or hung. This is not to mention the quiet moments of ruin she's orchestrated, on purpose or otherwise: the Modiste she ran out of business with a slut shaming comment to Cressida, the women she's unknowingly trapped by reporting on their dealings, the staff who will almost certainly be punished for 'letting the secret out of the household'. And, speaking of sexism, "Eloise is, most likely, the most privileged, hypocritical and self-centered character" . . .really? I don't know if I'd rank her above Anthony S1 (even Anthony S2, let's be real). Fife? Lord Cho? Maybe we're just talking women. How about Cressida? Even PENELOPE? (who has POWER as LW that other women don't, thus having more privilege than most women in the ton, as well)
I think there's too much excusing of Penelope's actions. I'm not trying to excuse Eloise's, it IS fucked up that she invaded Penelope's privacy, she needs to apologize. But also, Penelope has sooooo much she needs to apologize for, too. First, even. Her intentions are one thing, but the outcome is really what matters. Eloise betrayed Penelope's trust by ripping up her room, yes, but Penelope betrayed Eloise's trust by writing about her entire family behind her back, including her, lying to her face repeatedly, and holding onto the secret for YEARS whilst Eloise confided in her.
They're both at fault, but the idea that they've caused equal levels of harm is laughable at best
Still mad about Eloise thinking she had the right to tear up Penelope’s room the way she did, trying to act all tough like you didn’t just severely invaded someone’s privacy.
#whoops long post is long#look i'm not trying to be an asshole#i'm really not#one look at my ao3 lets you know that i have polin brainrot lol#so obvs i'm rooting for her hea#but like. . .rn she has a lot of work to do#a lot of apologizing#a lot of making amends#look at her rn#she threw away her friendship w/ colin because he said he wouldn't date her#which is sooooo incel-y#she threw away her friendship w/ Eloise because E found out about LW and was upset#she threw away her family- the first time she wrote about marina shows that much#who does she care about rn? who is in her corner? penelope has to GROW#how am i meant to root for a character who has done all she's done#and doesn't even feel remorse?#i don't care that she cried- what has she ACTUALLY done to apologize?#i LIKE Penelope messy#most good characters are#she's morally gray and is frankly rather fucked up rn#this is the prime time for a villain era and redemption arc#but the fandom is here screeching she's a victim and everything is a harm done unto her and not harms she commits against other people#makes her so boring#and the takes so flat
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... Really though, how WOULD the Hornsent view Morgott or Mohg? WOULD they revere them, for the aspects they bear - the horns, the tail, the wings - or would their hatred toward Marika be that strong that, even for the omen twins, they would still hold contempt?
#{{outofbloodboon}}#morgott the omen king#mohg lord of blood#Picturing Mohg in particular. Like... This place. This is his moment to shine!#A place of belonging!#But the Hornsent hold nothing but hatred toward him for Marika's blood still flows in his veins.#And you can just sort of see the heartache on his face.#Because even among the hornsent he's still despised.#... Yet he doesn't quite hold it against them. He knows their hatred toward Marika. He holds that same hatred for Marika.#And that hatred is only further flamed the more he learns.#And then he finds the shaman village and feels his emotions turn complicated.#... So this was where it all started?#He'd been holding onto this hope that... At some point Marika had felt remorse for locking himself and Morgott away.#Holding onto the hope that at one point Marika HAD loved them.#But seeing the shaman village. Learning what became of her people. And the answer becomes quite clear.#There was never any love...#But by that point in time Mohg is simply far too exhausted after everything to really hold any more hatred.#He won't ever forgive her. No. But...#...
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thinking about how akio sees his younger self in utena and wondering if there's any fondness there. doesn't change the horror of what he does to her obviously but i do wonder
#akio and utena#m#long ramble in the tags sorry:#the thing about akio is that he's so evil bit he's also so human#he has feelings. i just don't know what they are (if anything) toward his victims#he loves anthy at the very least i'm sure of that. even if he hates her too. just like she loves and hates him. the lines are blurry.#and i just. i have to wonder whether any of that extends to utena at all. we know anthy at times feels similarly about utena and dios#(and akio by extension.) the simultanious love and resentment. so it's not too unlikely i think.#like. even though he never had anything but bad intentions in getting close to her#i'm not sure it's possible to do everything he did and feel nothing#not that he has any meaningful amount of guilt or remorse for it. i don't think that.#and i obviously don't think he “loved” her in any of the ways she might have thought he did#but did he not care at all? did he not feel any kind of fondness or sympathy or just. idk. pity? for her?#whatever the case it wasn't enough to reconsider having her killed so you know. how much does that actually matter anyway#idk. i think about it a lot. how abusers are rarely entirely indifferent toward their victims#the role he's playing in her life is so fucked up but it IS a role he's playing and i wonder how much he you know... internalizes it?#how much does he believe the illusion of family that he invites her into? because akio DOES often buy into his own illusions.#(similarly i think it's possible that akio is fond of touga too. their mentor-protégé relationship is horrible and abusive#but that doesn't make it less real. you know? maybe real is the wrong word.)#when he talks in episode 25 about wanting utena and anthy closer that's obviously so he can continue to groom her#but is there something genuine there too? i don't know.#again. it obviously does not make anything he does better or even different. but it is interesting to think about to me.#on the other side of that coin does seeing his own past youth and naivete and desire to do good that he (maybe) once had#reflected back at him through her mean anything?#is there resentment there? that she is what he couldn't be? or more likely he just thinks that idealism is stupid.#either way it's something he wants to take from her. anyway ramble over.#i talk a lot about utena's feelings toward akio (familial vs romantic love and the way the two are intertwined in fucked up ways)#but not much the other way around. probably because utena is actually a sympathetic character whose feelings the show very clearly#wants you to analyze and think about.#which is... less true for akio i think. though he's still a complex character with complex motives. he's just harder to get a grasp on.
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Poor little meow meow literally moments before he commits multiple atrocities~ <3 uwu
SPOILERS: he sacrifices Shak and then opens the coffer with all the Dread magic and unleashes hell on earth
#Daniel Spellbound#Jayce Chinda#Shakila Chinda#I should post more screenshots but also wanted to post my edited ones... that I need to finish#I feel like people think I woobify him in my AU version and in general but want everyone to know#I think he's awful in the show for the most part but the issue is that his character was too inconsistent for me to make a solid judgement#on if it was him or the Dread the whole time bc he flip flops a lot and it often doesn't make sense even from an evil plan perspective...#Did he sacrifice Shak anyway and be manipulative to do it? Yes#Did it feel totally in character for him to do so with hardly any remorse? Not... really?#My point is: I think he can be a shitty person and still actually care for his sister despite this. I wish they made it clearer which it wa
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Okay, apparently shutting the fuck up was never an option but the way no one likes to look at the marina situation and go "wow what the fuck is wrong with portia"? Crazy.
Like she immediately didn't like her, not because of anything she'd done, but because she took attention from her daughters no matter how bright she dressed them.
It didn’t matter that the main reason is that, honestly all 3 of her daughters are painfully awkward, and in ones case literally 17. It didn’t matter that Marina was only there at her fathers instance, or that theoretically through having someone thats clearly popular in her home she could have used it as a jump off mark to match her daughters, she was seen as her big hurdle to marrying them off. Marinas immediately othered, to the point that when shes being dressed the maids helping put on her shoes is enough to piss Portia off. She immediately puts Marina in the same ring as her daughters, fight for my attention and maybe maybe it'll be positive. But Marina doesn't do that because she doesn't want to even be there.
And then they find out she's pregnant and shes othered even more. She immediately tries to send her back, and when she's not allowed to do that shes locked away and the other girls aren't even allowed to talk to her. She literally tries to freeze her out, like Marina has any say in being there in the first place, before lying to her about her being abandoned by George.
She makes no attempt to find out if George has family, she doesn't care enough to try even though that would have been a way to get rid of her "problem". She tries to push Marina onto a man old enough to be her grandfather and slaps her across the fucking face when she tries to stand up for herself.
Theres no concern for her safety, for the babys safety, just getting her out of her house as fast as fucking possible, and I'm meant to be surprised that when Colin saves Marina from her elderly suitor she turns her attention to him?
Like the nicest guy, who everyone likes, who's attractive, who isn't multiple decades older than her and most importantly not going to literally assault her? Yeah not a big shocker. Should she have lied to him? No, but she wouldn't have had to or felt the need to if she wasn't in the most hostile fucking house. Even Penelope, who she likes, why does everyone forget that she fucking likes Penelope and viewed her as a friend, becomes aggressive towards her. Shes cornered, shes scared, and all of this could have been avoided if Portia was a slightly better person and said "hey soilder boys not written back, you're gonna have this kid, does he have any family?" instead of setting this entire mess in motion.
#rainy talks#firm believer that Portia is a shit person who set this whole mess in motion#for all the “marinas still a bad person!! look at how she lashed out at pen! at how easily she manipulated colin” girlies#shut up maybe?? pen lashedout first and longer#and i genuinely believe if Penelope had said she had feelings for colin or marina had noticed earlier she wouldn't have pursued him#because she saw pen as a /friend/ but pen doesn't tell her and she doesn't find out until its too late to turn back#and i already said how lying to colin wasn't great but if you saw things in shades of grey you'd understand why shes doing it#its not a black and white situation#“marina shows no remorse though! she doesn't feel guilty ”#man she almost died trying to abort her kids just t still have them she has other stuff going on#how about we talk about her seeing this sad guy and going “dude you've gotta move on so many people love you”#and then hinting at pens feelings for him#clearly trying to still be a friend to pen by nudging him towards her even after everything#apparently I'm in my hating portia Featherington era between this and my rant in the tags of the last one#bridgerton#marina thompson#portia featherington
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Wauuhhhhh... ok but the bittersweetness of a joker redemption arc... bruce knows he's trying and he loves him for trying but he can't forgive him for what he did... no matter how hard joker tries he can't undo the past... it's so... I love you but I can't forgive you I know that you're trying and I wish that it was enough... I love you and I love what you've become but I still hate you for what you did... no matter how hard he commits to his recovery he can't bring back the people he killed and maimed and the lives he ruined... he can't un-inflict the trauma... he can't reverse the past and make it so Jason never died and Barbara never got shot even if he desperately wants to... but at the same time he's trying SO hard...
#PAIN PAIN. AGONY PAIN#IM JUST SYAING.#I NEED MORE FICS WITH AN ELEMENT OF THIS#LIKE. the whole I love you and I hate you and I can't forgive you but I wish that I could vibe#joker allowing himself to feel remorse and just getting so overwhelmed by all of it#joker trying to make up for what he did in the past#especially to the batkids#and trying to earn their trust and love#because even if he doesn't give a shit about them he knows that bats does#batjokes#CAN YOU SEE MY VISION
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"Death is just an escape" is one recurring thesis in LoH that I love so much. There is no hell for you to go to. This life is all the chance you will ever get to be guilty. There is no atonement in serving literal dirt time in blissful unconsciousness, forever.
#lord of heroes#loh#and: it is not without challenge. mind you. even within the story#solphi disagrees for one#for her death means she doesn't get to do anything else - which is the worst fate for her as the naturalist she is#(& probably also because she considers herself without remorse and therefore won't feel guilty for the life sentence to be effective? 🤔)#the latter is just my own thought
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Howard Carter bonding with Barnes but not as much with Zolf and Wilde because "he is not Sasha" and it shouldn't matter but it does (and they are at first mean about it as well) is a headcannon that can be so special.
#rqg#rusty quill gaming#howard carter#carter tried once it not go well#carter remembering Oscar flirted with him and doing it for atraction yes but also just for a sense of normalcy#except Wilde just looks at him and sees 'not sasha (but not not!sasha that's an important distintion)'#sees the woman that could've been his friend the woman he sent to die#and he just feels guilty and remorse and anger#and carter who is used to being treated badly to feeling inadequate has no idea why half of his teamates don't like him#why the guy that called him into the team doesn't like him#but it has to be on him right? everyone else doesn't like him either#it also makes barnes who knew sasha but not in such complex levels being carter best friend even more important#and i like to think before the hamid and azu came back it they sort off solved it though they never talked about it#also points for Hamid feeling the same and pointedly ignoring him at first#and for azu to not#yes she put her feet in his mouth to shut him up but it was not because he wasn't sasha#they had a bad first meeting before is all#and azu is open to try again
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Let's be honest, and I say this with full offense, Lucerys Velaryon is the Archduke Franz Ferdinand of the Dance of the Dragons. He is meant to be a sacrificial lamb to kick off the entire war proper. If we had gotten a full season of development with him like we did with the younger cast in Game of Thrones, I guarantee more people would've felt something. The only reason I personally feel bad is from a baseline level of empathy, because he was a child who was placed in an unwinnable situation due to his mom being completely irresponsible with him and his brothers.
However…
The comparison between Lucerys and Aemond is no contest. Love him or hate him, Aemond has an actual personality and goals when we first meet him. There's enough dimension in Aemond as a child to showcase the potential for sympathy between him and Jace at the funeral, a scene they didn't need to put in, but they did, which emphasizes his own innocence. Even before he breaks bad fully in S1E10, he's still far more compelling to watch due to the number of scenes allocated to him and his dynamic with other people.
This is where you and I are going to disagree just a bit, because Lucerys does do something in S1E07 and S1E08. He gouges out the eye of a family member and petulantly whines that he “didn’t do anything!” when confronted with the possibility of getting in trouble for it, then years later has the nerve and complete lack of sense to giggle at the person he permanently maimed only hours after his legitimacy was publicly called into question (again) and resulted in a murder. The narrative (perhaps unintentionally) glosses over these moments in favor of portraying him as good, whereas if you read between the lines, you can see that as being an oversimplification. The problem is that because S1 was truncated, secondary characters like Lucerys don’t receive screentime dedicated to portraying anything other than a single personality trait. Unfortunately, because of his role in the text and the way it was adapted for television, there was never a chance that Lucerys would be interesting.
I don't even have anything to add, this is just objectively correct.
#personal#answered#anonymous#and yeah lucerys refusing to take any responsibility or even show a hint of remorse for what he did is so galling to me#i could never care about him after that#like first of all you were in the wrong in the fight period#aemond did nothing wrong he claimed a free dragon who let him bond with her#i get why rhaena and baela were acting irrationally upset their mother died and they're young#grief makes you act weird#jace and luke had absolutely no reason to act the way they did#like it's not your fight and also again aemond literally did nothing wrong#but because he made a nasty comment after already being yelled at for doing nothing wrong y'all decide to gang up on him#with your cousins#and then this little idiot decides to take a whole knife to someone's face and refuses to ever feel bad#luke could have KILLED aemond#aemond could have DIED#not just from the immediate wound but also any issues that arose during a really long and arduous healing process#it's why fics with luke where he feels bad or contrite don't work for me#because he literally doesn't???#he doesn't care at all#he doesn't care he almost killed a person for no reason and left them with lifelong issues as a result of his fuck up#out here kicking his feet and giggling over maiming another human being#again vhagar eating him was too easy#he should have gotten his eye poked out first anyway#literally only feel kinda bad for rhaenyra cuz i'm neutral leaning positive towards rhaenyra and losing a child hurts#luke himself can rot i feel nothing
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They should invent a buying things you want that is not so so so stressful
#anyone else get buyer's remorse before they even buy the thing?#i have a couple hours before preorders close for this zine I've been eyeing and I still can't decide#like I WANT it but spending money always makes me feel sick#doesn't help that I really want the cute little charms and stuff which (naturally) cost extra#and it's for a good cause too!!!!! why can't I get over myself!!!!!#personal
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why are they laughing at him as he gets straight up killed??? he doesn't deserve this! he's a sweet kid at heart! he literally just needs one (1) real friend!!
#jack facts#willow and xander and tara all got that exact type of chance and you could argue the same is true for cordelia and anya!#and why don't we just not even start in on angel#like jonathan went from attempted suicide to so grateful for one moment of attention he created a whole award to give about it#to IN ONE YEAR becoming so powerful a witch he seamlessly altered the perception of the entire population of the world#without any adverse effects to himself and only the one (1) flaw that is inherent to the spell he used#to all but instantly giving up that power when he realized it posed danger (that he understood) to people#to feeling genuine remorse for doing that even tho he needed it explained to him why they were so upset#and making every apparent effort to learn that with humility and offer whatever wisdom he could in return#to... this.#like why tf didn't anybody say hey man are you doing alright after being suicidal?#hey man the spell you did was wrong but that doesn't mean you can't do magic anymore why don't we meet up sometimes and study together#or better yet he could have mcfuckin joined the coven god damn#like they went from witch being a relatively gender neutral combo of innate talent and learned skill in early seasons#to now we're supposed to forget the boy willow and amy did spells with in hs + the fact that giles himself was in an all male coven#and even believe that only Special Girls like willow and tara can do any significant amount of real magic at all#why on earth is willow the biggest witch of ever and started out floating pencils and then having a whole plotline#about learning to use her power ethically and control herself and practice temperance and etc#AND anya gets to be a good guy even though she has to be taught about ethics and consent and compassion and all that too#but jonathan's thing is being soul crushingly lonely and having no self esteem but being incredibly sweet once given the time of day#and is instead relegated to two bit loser villain?#why because he's the Actually Uncool type of unpopular instead of the Too Smart And Nice To Be Popular type of unpopular?#makes me sick he literally just needs a friend. just one genuine friend who cares about him personally. that's all.#and it's not like they're doing a ''this is what happens to vulnerable kids when no one cares about them!'' thing which would be different#no they're just like lol he's unpopular like our protags but he's also short with a nasally voice! which means he's bad!#once again i swearrrrr i'm not doing armchair psych on a creator based on the content of their work#please i swearrrrrrrrrrrr i'm not doing that i prommy i know it doesn't work that wayyy i knowwwww#don't worry about ittt i'm so totally definitely not doing that at allllll#anyway
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Warning- this is a very petty post, but I think I'm entitled to at least one petty, pissed-off reaction every time I finish a classic novel that hit harder than I expected so take this as my quota for the year.
Also spoiler warning for a book that came out over a century ago but still, I didn't know the plot going in so don't want to ruin it for anyone else, if you haven't read it shut your eyes. (Also Local Tumblr User Going Wild Over Book Published a Hundred Years Ago That Everybody Else Already Read should probably be categorised as akey part of indigenous tumblr culture at this point).
Anyway I just finished the War of the Worlds and in between studying I've thinking about Themes and Motifs as you do, and idly looking for further analysis. I then accidentally ran into an article called 'A Quiet Place II Succeeds Where the War of the Worlds Failed' and:
Now I haven't seen any of the Quiet Place films, this is not a rant against them and of course everyone is entitled to their own opinions. But re: the ending of The War of the Worlds, I have to ask, did this guy somehow miss, uh, the entire point of the book or am I just utterly insane?
#You're right it's not very satisfying for humanity that the invaders are foiled by a bacteria and not human action! Maybe that's the point!#Maybe it's supposed to be FRIGHTENING and make you ask questions about what humans will do under extreme stress#Not be a morally uplifting tale about Humanity Heroically Defeating the Martians in a Glorious Hollywood Ending#Maybe it's MEANT to be unsatisfying because this is not a straightforward fairytale#I mean I've only read it once and don't know much about Wells' work so I might have misunderstood the point of the book too#But at places it is a very pessimistic view of the human condition and that's partly WHY IT'S SO POWERFUL#That doesn't mean there aren't moments of individual acts of heroism (the Thunderchild for example)#But the question is not just 'how will humanity beat the Martians and prove that we're still the masters of the universe'#Rather 'a) why is humanity so confident that it's ultimately in control of its own destiny#And b) here's lots of scenes of societal collapse and of people pushed to the brink and what would YOU do in those circumstances?#Would YOU feel remorse about silencing the curate even if it did lead to his death?#What if it rather than a foolish adult it had been a small child?#And even if they were weak did they DESERVE it? Yes it might have been necessary but should it be policy going forward?#Would you also be attracted briefly by the certainties that the artilleryman's (rather fascist) plan seems to offer so humanity survives?#But what sort of humanity would that be if it DID survive and is it worth it? The narrator feels he needs to justify the curate's death#The artilleryman would have probably never have thought it was anything OTHER than justifiable or indeed laudable#Under strain and stress would you start to turn against even your loved ones and become brutal?#Is that the only hope for human survival beyond complete surrender? And was the destruction of London maybe even 'cleansing'#In the eugenics sense or in the sense of a natural horror of dirt and germs?#And the vast exodus of six million people fleeing headlong in panic - we might not have seen that exact phenomenon#But didn't the twentieth century subsequently go on to show us unprecedented scale of slaughter and refugee movements and communal strife?#At the end of the day what really separates humanity from other animals? And what separates us from the Martians?#It's not an uncontroversial book- it was written over a hundred years ago for goodness sake and there are questions worth asking#about the way imperialism and arguments about eugenics and population control and all sorts of other dodgy areas operated on Wells' mind#But dear God I really don't think the problem with the book is that 'Humanity didn't save the day!'#Unsatisfying ending? Yes. A FAILURE? No not in my opinion- looks like it was exactly what Wells set out to do#Humanity didn't win the war of the worlds they had a narrow escape and though it might not be martians next time#Why wouldn't disaster return in the future? Sure we've studied their flying machines and even preserved a martian in a jar#But for all our science what have we ACTUALLY learned that will enable us to avert future human catastrophes? Ethically or socially?#Alright rant over- as usual my opinion is not universal nor necessarily well-informed this take just really got my goat
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btw my lucifer's intentions for tempting eve with the forbidden fruit were two-fold: he did wish to gift humanity knowledge, for he thought living in paradise was not worth the ignorance.. but he's also incredibly petty*, and he wanted to prove a point to The Lord, because he'd already begun waging war with lilith at his side at this point and he was feeling a lil bitchy about it.
#( better to reign in hell than serve in heaven ) * character study.#i really need to make a lore dump...#i still need to mssg all of u from that lore post i made a while back so we can plot and i can thrive <3#so grateful for all of u being here and supporting this blog even though i'm canon divergent as fuck.#lucifer is so near & dear to me. i've been writing him as a character for years and i'm trying to mould my version of him with HH lucifer.#he doesn't necessarily regret his action but he feels remorseful toward adam in pear & i's post-finale arc.. having stolen paradise from hi#hubris was & always will be his downfall 😔
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Took me a while to realize but I can see similarities in how Asuka seems to process grief and how Guts from Berserk also processed his grief after the Eclipse. They both get so overwhelmed by the wrong that happened to them (father's hospitalization vs the Eclipse and a lifetime of misery) their reaction isn't to seek comfort in others or help/protect their loved one who needs them after the tragedy, it's to go off and inflict their pain on others to self soothe, as if that'll release the feeling from their minds.
The difference is that Guts was called out for this by Rickert and Godo. He needed to snap out of wanting to prioritize ridding his own pain to remember Casca needed him, and that Casca even in the state she was in was all the good in his life who went through the same experience with him. Guts had to remember he loves Casca more than he wants to self destruct. Like Godo told him he was a sword called fear with cracks in it. He feared sitting with his pain and grief and seeing it on the person he loved after so much violation. He feared vulnerability.
Asuka doesn't do this reevaluatation and has no one to call her out for her self destructive coping canonically. She can't sit with anything bad or face looking at it on a loved one either. That's too bad and helpless of a feeling. She's just as much made of fear (primarily from any helplessness as much as violations of her inner ethics) which fuels her anger, but her one personal attachment to her father who needs her isn't enough to make her want to reevaluate what she does at all. Instead his tragedy is the permission she needs to self destruct and destroy in the process, not like Guts who always told himself everything was for Casca and the fallen Hawks, who always reminded himself of the pain to justify the bloodletting.
Unlike Guts I think she'd be stubborn even accepting to listen to someone pointing her behavior out. Though her anger toward Feng did start out carrying a reminder this vengeance is for Dad even if it kills her in 5, even in 5's branching narratives that excuse falls apart when she continues in the tournament for her own pleasure during her route. The moment vengeance is achieved critically injured Dad is out of her mind. Her behavior during 6 repeats this process, preferring to hurt herself and others rather than sit to process a shitty feeling over her and the world's situation. Like Guts in this state she pushes away anyone and everyone else including any comforts because the anger isn't resolved, the fear isn't resolved, the pain isn't resolved.
They're both used to everyone being against them and having to fight for survival until they found joy in it as a side effect. And because of that independence born from isolation when something like the tragedies that happened takes place they put resolving their pain not on sharing with others but into scorching the earth along with themselves.
I don't say this either to imply they're exactly alike or that they have enough similarities to make a true character comparison because they absolutely don't. There's also some stuff I'm leaving out simply because Guts is a far more complex character in ways where there's nothing from Asuka to compare against (I would say Kazuya is the closest, more fitting Tekken comparison for substituting Guts vs Asuka style notes). I just find it interesting that even across wildly different stories the outline for an angry, self destructive, terrified person who thinks self destruction makes them strong and puts them in control uses a lot of the same foundation. And the contrast in their depths really shows how far you can push the concept depending on what you want or need for the character.
#tekken#berserk#I've haven't slept in six hours#asuka kazama#do i still think she'd pull a fighting 100 men for their lover type situation- MAYBE tbh#you could give her one technically but you'd have to really stretch her denial of seeing her violent behavior as ever being wrong#and that risks losing the scope of the character and the stakes level she represents#like i don't think she surpresses her pain into an other self at all she's very clear she's just reactionary so the brooding guilt#you need to have a BoD doesn't really apply at all she's not remorseful and ruminating on fighting in that sense at all whereas Guts guilts#Asuka hits you and moves on with her day because that should teach you; Guts is a whole storm of emotions and moral pulls even when numb#BoD is more a Jin thing but i still prefer Guts and not bc he did it first im sorry Jin jfjdhss#*you could give Asuka a BoD- idk why that tag is missing after the 100 men comment#anyway bitches who embody the sin of wrath#Asuka is about the childish joy and childish impulse we feel hurting others versus Guts being a study on why we hurt ppl bc we hurt too#*BoD is beast of darkness of course#also obviously there are lines Asuka will NEVER cross even in anger that Guts had no problem violating as Black Swordsman#so how does Asuka process grief...SHE DOESN'T LOL#she'd rather kill herself or dismiss feeling hurt than so much as cry
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