#and displays like this give me even more
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25K posts out of spite.
Imagine what it'll be like when OFMD is saved and we're posting out of love.
Manifesting, babes. Manifesting. šÆļø
#emynn.op#ofmd#fuck zaslav#IT IS JUNE THE THIRD LET ME HAVE THIS#I'm not clowning but I have hope#and displays like this give me even more#love you all I hope your June the third was excellent
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There is currently a rather large discussion ongoing about the RW fandom behavior, drama, etc. I am not going to talk about the specifics of whats happened for a number of reasons. But what I do want to say is that if at any point you've harassed people over it, whether that be through anon asks or public posts- you did nothing but damage the ability for people to correctly process what is happening. You contributed nothing but harm to an already delicate situation. It does not matter what "side" you were on and I will not tolerate further interaction with me or my work if I found out you did such. If you let your personal hate for anyone boil over into threats, wishes for long term harm and petty comments meant to contribute nothing but slander or mental distress for the individuals involved who were already distressed (or acting irrationally) you did nothing but make it harder for people to process their emotions, thoughts and behaviors constructively. Regardless of who you think was in the right, who fucked up, whatever. It doesn't matter if they deserved it, or earned it, or if its an eye for an eye. Its difficult enough as it is to think clearly when presented with any kind of stressful situation and heckling people does nothing but make it worse and harder for them to explain themself in any capacity. I don't want you anywhere near me if you think that is an acceptable way to act.
#Please do not ask for me details- I am not involved#I am not the person to ask.#I very intentionally stay out of wider fandom circles because i want to keep enjoying things i like (lol)#But i have seen some absolutely vile behavior both openly and on alts or anon#even from the 'anti harassment' side because of course they also just want a justified target#to hurt or slander but this time under the guise of 'well they did it first!'#Its a pathetic display on all sides in terms of behavior long before for you even try picking a part who fucked up and where#and its not surprising that many artists have felt uncomfortable with it long before it boiled over into this. It would have been a problem#even if there had never been an actual incident because people were simply behaving in uncomfortable and offputting ways in regards to how#they treated creators here. fandom has a problem in general with that but it was particularly public and open#Anyway Im not leaving the fandom or anything im comfortably on the fringes of it for a reason and dont intend on digging in any further.#But this issue has been cooking for months for frankly and with this its gotten even more openly hostile. And yes- even those#'anti harassment' types are very happy to harass when they have their own reason for it. so im not giving them an inch#But beyond that and this particular incident people have just been way too comfortable being cruel openly#and letting their personal dislike of things bleed into how they act.#Also one more thing: If an artist deletes or leaves and takes their art with them the bear minimum of respect is to honor that choice#save what you want when its there and keep it but if they want their work gone than god respect that dont set up entire archives#for shit people choose to wipe. If they delete it that should be honored no matter how you feel about it#t.extpost
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Not even being dramatic when I say this is the 2nd worst gymnastics scandal after Sydney 2000. The FIG should be ASHAMED of themselves for their handling of this Olympics
#olympics#now everyone has to deal with the fallout that will happen once the ioc officially requests for jordan to give her medal back#i have had a lot of changing opinions about this floor final and this is what i now think#the judges did make a mistake about accepting Jordan's inquiry. but they haven't answered when the 1 minute starts#do they start a timer as soon as the scores are displayed#does the coach have to go to the judging area within the one minute? or does a form have to be filled out and a fee have to be paid?#transparency would be GREAT#they bumped ana's score from 13.7 to 13.766 and nobody has explained where the .066 came from#also sabrina got a 0.1 oob deduction but people have reviewed her routine and she never stepped oob#because her coach didn't inquire about this she doesn't have a chance at the bronze even though it should have gone to her to begin with#just a disaster all around#and also multiple gymnasts have gotten screwed by the judging + the judges haven't been consistently applying deductions#suni went out of bounds on vault at aa finals and didn't get a penalty#heard people talk about gymnasts going overtime at the bb finals without a penalty but simone got a .3 deduction for not saluting#but she actually did salute#one gymnast got a .3 deduction when it should have been a .1 deduction and that took her out of aa finals even though she should be there#no accountability from the FIG who caused this but the athletes are having to suffer from their mistakes#and i doubt anyone is gonna lose their job or be punished by this#and don't get me started on the amount of racism that is also at play with all of this#I'm sooooooo upset and the more developments that come out the more i think FIG should be dismantled#it's nof right to play with people's mental health like this
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Top 5 bg3 npcs that arenāt companions?
oh great question thank you :)c going to refrain from answering with all pets/animals as well cause thatās all it would be š oh and disclaimer that iāve only played a little of act 3 as a tav and up to the start of act 2 as a durge so im sure im missing some great ones that are developed in the later game (ā:
mattis (completely coincidentally exactly the same person my character was as a child)(like i had decided on that backstory before even meeting him and when a cheerful scamming tiefling orphan showed up i was >:0000)(the rogue-specific dialog rly supported a 'recognition of the self in the other [derogatory]' interaction too which was so perfect)
dame aylin (i mean obviously aylin if you're free thursday night etc)(but also she's so interesting to me)(larger than life and sort of outside time very distinctly Different as a demigod and a target bc of it)(so full of love but also a harsh and violent form of 'good' i feel like you don't get to see much in female characters)
barcus wroot (wulbren turn on your location i just want to talk)
auntie ethel (there's little i love more than a hag)(and she gave me a piece of her scalp to eat so i feel we have a connection)
enver gortash (i haven't fully seen his story yet)(but he deserves mention bc i had such a strong reaction to meeting him)(which was that i literally could not wait to kill him i immediately hated him so much lmao)(but now im doing a durge run and im š to meet him again bc i have a feeling it will be a very different reaction)
#talkin#bg3#i think after the coronation you're supposed to go up and talk to gortash more? from what ive seen in spoilers#and he tells you he'll leave you alone if you go after orin?#but i hated him so much that it didn't occur to me at all to talk to him even tho it gives you a quest marker#i was like 'well i'm not ready to fight him yet' and just#left the fucking building#and went into town#gortash inviting them to his coronation in a big grandstanding display of power and then waiting in his office to seal the deal#and growing increasingly impatient until some poor guard as to come in and be like :\#queue#asks
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get it Kim has a lot to unpack do you get it
it's imperfect I'll never polish it just take it as it is I should have put aerostatics not airplanes...
#I don't know how the hell to draw kim#PLEASE gib me feedback#pretend the dialogue is better this is all I can do lol. but you get the gist of it#aaa give me constructive criticism. the other post about kim secretly being a loser made me think about what his apartment would look like#and this popped in my head I had to draw it#is this in character?#there's no eyebrow battle because in my head this happens some time in the future where kim opens up a little more easily#at this point he trust him with his secrets more (but not completely. harry's not touching the blue box today)#but it's a mixture of ''maybe if I tell x he will stop asking for more'' and real trust#but like do you see that happen#it's a secret because he doesn't want other people to learn that insisting can work#like I said in the tags of the other post I think he never lets anyone in to the point of avoiding calling the plumber even if the sink#has been broken for months#addition: fuck I should have putted more machines in there. I couldn't think of anything else other than radio controlled airplane#and a sewing machine. he must have more stuff like the camera.#he'd have some dangerous thing to warm the room#and nerd stuff. I'm not sure if he'd display it or keep it boxed somewhere#disco elysium#that's a convertible couch-bed if you can't tell. half covered with the Pile#pointless microblogging#it's so hard to draw them right they look different in every official thing#believe me I have tried#idk how to put more of the skills here :/#I have achieved peak kimharry brainrot I can't go back
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So, I met my nurse today and she said I'm finally getting scheduled for the ADHD testing on Dec 18thāafter all these years. Albeit she said that it may not change a thing, but it's good to test it anyway.
I also had a discussion with my teacher today about my problems and we went through some stuff, and I might feel a little bit more enlightened about some things, which will hopefully help me.
Still. I'm having trouble with planning some stuff at my workplace because the staff there simply doesn't have time, and my instructor is also a very busy person (plus she's fussy and impatient and a little upset/disappointed with me which is not making it any easier for me), so that is still giving me a lot of stress right now.
So, I don't know. On the other hand, one teacher says I'm doing a good job and that I shouldn't quit. Then again, this particular school and their style of teaching simply might not be the thing for me and I expressed that concern today as well. I need help getting through with some stuff and nobody has time for me, so it's obviously not good.
I also need to find another place to train soon and that workplace would have to be something where I wouldn't have to manage 15 things at the same time and well. Finding that could be a challenge, too.
But. I suppose we're going somewhere.
#personal#last week i cried twice after a workday#and my nurse also mentioned today that i still have a learning disability which will definitely make things harder for me#but also that there's nothing that can be done about it so... great#so i mentioned this to my teacher and she wrote it down but#basically there are only two choices for me now#either i pass this training somehow and plan my displays at my current workplace so well that i never have to do this again#or i will only complete my training for this period and then find another workplace and do my displays there#i can't postpone them much later apparently or so i understood. so they are not giving a lot of choices there really#and we did talk about me considering another school as well#where i can spend more time in the classroom actually learning things and less time working and trying to study at the same time#because this clearly isn't working for me. i can't do two things at the same time. not well at least. and i want to do well#but i tried applying for that kind of school in this field last summer. i didn't get in & i was 8th in line#i would've gotten in working with kids instead. but that school was further away and i probably would've found it even more stressful#than what i'm doing now#so i don't know. this is so fucking stressful for me honestly#like i like what i'm doing but i also really hate what i'm doing because this also requires stuff from me that i am simply not good at#and i'd have to put extra energy into it but i don't have much energy in me right now tbh#ugh
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no promises anymoooooreeeee i'll appear online when i appear online š every time i say "ooh i think life is almost done being overwhelming!" it. becomes even more overwhelming in the dumbest ways. all i can manage rn when i'm not stressing myself into a shut-down state is staring at the wall while listening to youtube essays + mindlessly crocheting.
i might queue up ppls art and fics w/o commentary in the tags... i want other ppl to see what all of my cool friends have made, but i genuinely can't think right now with this monstrous brain fog. i'm really sorry, just. yeah. maybe i'll think of some way to make it up later!!! once the dust has settled!!!! but until then i wuv u and miss u. smiles.
[venting in tags including familial manipulation and ableism. i. didn't mean to write all of that, thiss was originally going to be a main blog post but. aaaaaAAAAAA!!!!!
also no need for replies or anything, i'd turn them off for just the one post if i could kjsndkn, i just needed to get things out and go eep jsjndsfdn ok bye bye bye bye!!!!]
#goddd my family finds it sooooooo funny that i can't do basic tasks! it's soooo funny that i can't even think of a horror movie to watch#on halloween bc i genuinely can't remember a single one right now. it's soooo funny that i can't take cardboard boxes or#old furniture out of my room without help bc i've physically and mentally and emotionally burnt out for Months.#and me not being able to move shit out after two (2) days makes me a hoarder somehow. and ofc hoarding is a moral failing#and my mom has to give me a stern talking-to about hoarding things... that were. again. in my room for 2 days....#[tbc it isnt a moral failing no matter the reason. life is hard and things happen and it can be hard to get rid of things for Reasons.]#nevermind them making constant snide remarks about me using ugly 'mismatched' desk / storage furniture. bc it was free / cheap? no income??#AND!!!!! i have a couple of new diagnoses. which doesn't change much day to day but it does make my family making fun of me#even more dumbfounding. like. this explains a lot of really scary unexplained symptoms that constantly leave me#housebound for weeks but uhhh haha hehe hoho??? so silly so funny that i'm barely conscious for multiple weeks???#and you can see that i'm getting worse but that makes it funnier??? hmm!!!#also nevermind that i've told them the exact reason why i've been like this (read: them) but that ALSO makes it funnier somehow.#but i also can't say shit bc they're doing something ~nice~ for me (out of convenience + after almost a decade of 'don't get comfortable'#and 'don't decorate this room bc it isn't yours' and 'you need to be ready to move out by x date'#only for the date to arrive and them to pull the 'i never said that. and if i did say it i didn't mean it like that.#and if i did mean it like that i don't anymore.' card. + any big renovations are things they wanted anyway. hmmmm!!#and how i have to do all of the phys labor alone bc if i ask for help i get made fun of!!! and yelled at that i'm doing things Wrong#(hint: i'm following instructions to the letter but. my family knows better than those silly things!! ^^ ))#jfc i sure did rant. uh. yeah. things. are really weird and uncomfy and i feel thankful that i finally can have my own things on display#outside of closets and bins again after a decade?? but i'm also waiting for the other shoe to drop / them to tell me i owe them in#some way??? bc that's how it works. 'i'm doing a nice thing you didn't even ask me for so now you have to do whatever i tell you to.'#meanwhile i can't even maladaptive daydream my way through it bc my brain is soup right now. can't remember basic things abt#my interests bc i've been on negative battery / spoons for a couple of months straight and it's only getting worse.#OKAY TLDR i'm not in a state to do anything until everything irl gets settled. and i'm trying So Hard to get it all over with but there's#only so much i can do in a day before i completely shut down. i didn't even get into the insurance stuff i've been fighting too ughhhh.#so if i show up on here in short spurts -- hi! bye! hi!! i wuv and care u!!! hope youre well mwah mwah!!!!!!! i'll post what i can and then#disappear when i need to recharge. it is what it is. i need to try to sleep now... uh if this post disappears when i wake up.... yeah......#š [ my posts. ]#š [ my thoughts. ]#vent -
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2023 go bye bye
#999 spoilers#art summary#art summery 2023#my art#shoutout to all my monster high drawings that are still in the oven#I haven't posted them anywhere but! my friends made them pins and I've sold them on cons throughout the year :3#I only started drawing them as a request from a boothmate actually and they're such fun designs to draw!!!#I went to a lot of local conventions to participate in the artist's alley and made so many friends that way it was wonderful#I think the next thing I'll reblog will be the game I worked on!#found out the nda doesn't cover me simply saying 'hey I worked on this thing coming out in a few months!'#so I made artist and cosplayer friends selling my art on the beach and I got my first proper job#....then I proceeded to give me a shoulder inflammation because my setup was terrible and it had to catch up to me eventually#but! already managed to get a new tablet and desk for myself!! it's even a screen tablet so there'll be a learning curve but I'm excited#I'm hoping this display will make things easier I always had trouble sketching on digital#and I am more carefully taking breaks now also because turns out relying on hiperfocus is bad for you? never knew#I was going through some stuff in the middle of the year there though I had so many vent drawings of akane from may to october qwq#not featured here are the tons of utena and umineko wips I have accumulated those were my favorite new media I got to experience for sure#in fact I'm watching the adolescence movie rn!! what in tarnation is this last act lol whatever! go Anthy go!!! floor it queen#also not featured the tons of oc stuff I made :D I'm glad I feel like I can start properly working on them soon ^^#but yeah that's that I felt like writing a whole diary entry in these tags and you read it and that's what tumblrs all about ā”ā„ļø
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remember when we joked about natlan being the pokemon nation. remember when it was all fun and lighthearted. cause like. man.
#personal stuff#thorn plays genshin#i knowwwww even the first part was bleak with kachina Literally Fucking Dying but like. oh my god#i saw someone say ''wow they did a great job making an oppressive and bleak atmosphere with this quest''#and me before getting to This Point was like psh sure whatever i'm not seeing it.#I AM SEEING IT NOW. I GET IT NOW. christ.#REALLY great job displaying the absolute despair and desperation going on it is BLEAK.#in a good way. in a it's a good story kind of way. really using the medium making us Choose between who to go and defend#and showing more and more that it is a losing battle and you cannot save everybody. god#the repeated ''situation unknown'' in all of these descriptions. christ#finished the quest. MAN.#single complaint was why was mavuika giving her speech in the tavern. girl you have a whole stadium#but yeah man. Man.#chuychu. what if i exploded.#literally made me fucking weep. goddammit tragic siblings got me again#THE FUCKING SHATTERED MOON VISIBLE THROUGH THE FALSE SKY OPENING. CHRIST#like we've KNOWN the moon(s) were destroyed but like auuugh aUAUUGH.#OH I JUST REALIZED I WAS RIGHT ABOUT NATLAN HAVING TO DO WITH OTHER WORLDS. KIND OF.#IF YOU COUNT THE FUCKED UP SKY THEN IT'S A W FOR ME
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bitching abt my job again
tags contain frank mentions of transphobia and homophobia
#this happened like. i dont know. a month ago or something but i still keep playing it in my mind#for those unawares: theres been a fucking community outrage over the pride display at the library i work at#and have been working/volunteering at for 5 years#only it never went up. it never went up. bc the mayor came in as a quote unquote private citizen and demanded it taken down#despite the fact that patrons are required to fill out complaint sheets and even then it isnt ensured a display will be taken down#so obviously its a misuse of power that hes spinning into him being a concerned citizen#and i made a whole post bitching abt it and im doing so again (hi) bc i didnt like how our director responded to it#and yeah. so there was a board meeting after that right. well i set up for them as i usually do and let me tell you. that was the first#--time more than like 6 people came to spectate. it was insane.#and i guarantee that this months meeting wont have half as many people that fucking crammed themselves in there to complain abt gay ppl#bc of course they dont give a shit about the library#they just care about how scary the queers are#and yeah it was a shit show. i learned we have a far right organization in our town#and i was sat right in front of her husband the whole time#(standing actually. i was standing between him and my moms chair and he was sighing and grumbling the whole time bc he couldnt muster the#--balls to ask the 5 foot 2 fag in front of him to please move lol. small victories right)#when i say her i mean the leader of the freaks. idk. chairman? anyway she had a whole speech about how like queers are bad and cutting#the penises off little babies or whatever and she pulled up this passage from a book that was part of the display#its some book by the youtuber rowan ellis-- here and queer i think was the title. it was cataloged in our ya section and contained passages#talking about like having safe sex and what dildoes are and all that kind of shit. just really clinical descriptions imo. im not familiar w#--the youtuber really but im assuming they wrote it as informational bc shocker: teens be having sex. unsafe sex. especially queer teens#sourse: i was one of tgose#and...think for a moment. remember when you were a teen. youd rather fucking DIE than listen to your parents give you the sex talk#and chances are if youre gay your parents arent even going to know WHAT gay sex is (hugging without shirts on) so youre going to look#--elsewhere#bc if youre a hormonal fucking teen youre going to figure it out one way or another! especially if youre from (cough) a podunk shitwater#--town like mine that ran on abstinence by way of sex education#i think teens deserve to have access to that sort of information through trusted means. and i do mean het teens too#but no these fucking morons put on airs like everyones waiting till marriage--no! not my becky sue! as if they werent fucking around in#--holy shit i reached taglimit. i didnt ecen know there was one. hold on
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i hope this isn't like out of line for me to say but sometimes i get offended (<- very mildly not like actually offended) at the white tumblr user stereotypes like surely nobody could actually be that cringe we arent that bad and then i see people being exactly that cringe if not more so. so like okay.
#i dont want to separate myself from whiteness im not immune to blind spots or ignorance or even just plain being embarrassing#but jesus christ theres a difference between unavoidably hitting a blind spot or being ill equipped to talk abt smth due to privilege#and like. very shamelessly displaying your ignorance on a neon sign with no intent to improve.#avpost#this is only a little bit about last rb its mostly about the entire wave of discourse going on right now wrt rap#how are people still in 2024 like i dont listen to rap its all violent and misogynist.#literally fox news talking points a DECADE AGO how are people still this far behind i dont. GET IT?#and to be so proud and bold about it too.#let me give you guys some advice if you encounter a blind spot for you you ARE allowed to not tell anyone and just quietly learn more.#youre allowed to just make an effort to improve yourself and listen to people who dont have the same privileges.#you dont have to stand up and get loud about your own ignorances! nobody is forcing you to make a stupid comment!!
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something on my mind rn. as you all know iām a lesbian. applause from the audience. and sometimes it just gets to be like annoying when. well. so i have at least A friend whoās asked me several times over āso you donāt have Any attraction to men? like at all?ā and i know theyāre not being like malicious but you know. that answer has not changed since like seventh grade. and in the same vein it just feels aggravating when i have the nerve to say Oh i think she seems like a lesbian. thatās giving dyke. etc. and to be met with āumm well maybe she actually does like men.ā like. first of all in personal conversations if iām just saying shit chances are iām just going off of patterns from my own life or other lesbians i know. iām not here for Bi Erasure and i promise you in this context your attraction to men is not ever invalidated as much as my lack of it. esp in college with so many people talking about their dating/app experiences and etc itās 99.9999% of the time about men and i just Canāt participate in that conversation which is yk not the end of the world but a bit isolating and even if i do contribute anything it just feels likeā¦ a slight Stiffening like. and even just getting brushed off with Well yeah but youāre not even into guys. like real! i still have eyes though. and esp when my attraction isnāt being celebrated and engaged with in the way theirs is itās just really fucking lonely! and maybe thatās a gross inner voice of insecurity that iām projecting onto them but like you must get what i mean right. thereās still this odd air specifically around people who Do Not engage with men at all. and if i do make any kind of joke or comment abt someone maybe just Not being into guys iām made into the asshole whoās invalidating their experiences etc when like. iām just saying shit man idk. and itās like many of these people are bi and claim attraction to women but get so like uncomfortable actually talking about it. i donāt think iām the one with problems! i think thereās still some internalized shit there. you know. anyway all this to say as much as weāve had the conversation of invalidating bi attraction some of you need to think about not treating gay attraction as this secondary awkward weird elephant in the room. and on a more personal note on top of the Everything that was getting under my skin last night this was just a cherry on top where i was feeling sooā¦ misunderstood and invalidated lol even tho again i largely think those friends were being very supportive and kind to me. this is just one thing i was like. š
#esp cause the other one literally pulled the. well idk a man would have to be like Perfect but id still hook up with one. yeah it could be#any woman literally but you know men arenāt totally out of the picture if theyāre like. Actually the most attractive man ever and then#i could just pretend itās not a man#ā¦ and you want me to act like thatās not a dyke thing to say. like ok#i didnāt say that to her face btw she can figure that out herself. but you get what iām working with#itās so frustrating and truly. once again. just isolating. cause as long as people claim theyāre into men itās like they have this in for#so much bonding that i will never access cause i donāt give a fuck about men. so itās like yeah i get defensive#esp speaking about a situation in which someone behaved so egregiously homoerotically with me and displayed many signs of um. being gay#and then could just run off with her bf she didnāt even seem to be that attracted to. u can see where#as MUCH as itās not my goddamn business. when iām dragged into that it would absolutely get under my skin and of course iād say some stupid#shit about her needing to accept lesbianism into her heart. lol#because unfortch. yeah. That still came up as part of this. as much as iād like to just forget it and move on#she just somehow fucking comes up and now itās not even me obsessively talking abt it. itās like that situation just cannot leave me alone#for my peace of mind. itās been months. and thatās also sad and fucked for me cause itās like#as horrible as that was for my like self esteem and peace of mind. itās the fucking Only thing i had going for me in a long ass time#and since it just worked so well i latched onto it yk. and i have to trust as i get more confident and move on in the world#iāll attract better people and whatnot#but itās like personally extremely lonely and then just feels like an added stupid layer when. it just feels so invalidated in a way. idk#like no i did not have a relationship that i can technically mourn i just had a weird connection with someone who wouldnāt admit even the#slightest attraction even if it was glaringly obvious. it just preys on this stupid fucking loneliness i feel too. and i KNOW i donāt need#to constantly validate that and whatever and none of my friends actually think iām delusional#itās just that. i need to get a grip and not cling to it. like just accept it for what it is and go on. and when itās brought up at random#when iām already in a stupid sensitive spot itās hard. u know. and then also w these friends theyāre not used to hyperbole so when i say#shit like well i hope they die. theyāre like Omg! š and iām like oh my god i donāt mean that literally like. hello#this whole thing was not about film girl but of course she made a silly little guest appearance. in conversation#which is just embarrassing for me. you know.#pisses me off that she can move on and probably act like nothing even happened meanwhile i was over here sobbing like iād been through#a heartbreak. and iām remembered as like obsessive silly goofy crazy for it. and i was. but damn iāve taken accountability for it š#abby talks#long post
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#i hate that people who knew anything more than the most surface level about me would hate me for who i really am#i wish they weren't so nice to me and other people but i stg#literally admitting to my face that you refused someones business bc they *displayed* their pronouns#not even like being trans but saying that he as a cis man uses he/him#and acting like you are in any way kind or open minded or non-judgemental#i just want to not have to deal with thus#i wish that i didn't have to fucking think about this shit#im so fucking mad#and i wish that i could just give him books or send him people to make him understand how what he is doing is actively harming others#but i cant and i just seethe in silence#at least they gave us free food#i guess
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Staying out of tales of arise Anything bc I think I do want to experience this game organically bc those plot twists hit me like a fucking TRUCK.
I did look up an estimate for how long the game is tho. I'm at like 30 ish hours and if you focus on plot alone it's like some 40 hours. But I have been doing side quests lol so it probably isn't even 10 hours remaining.
A Little scared of how things will be after this point tho. The Vibes will definitely have changed. And oh God I just want to hold Alphen so tightly. He doesn't deserve this.
#speculation nation#tfw ur amnesia was a blessing but now you remember and suddenly you have to deal with Extreme Trauma#and he was already traumatized!!!! he was already traumatized and now hes even more traumatized!!!!!!#but let's be real this group is made entirely up of very traumatized people lol. such is the way of this world.#this game is so fucking brutal tho. like im used to tales games hitting much harder than you expect#but they went out of their WAY to make this one really fuck you up#im absolutely in love with this game. but WOW it is not for the faint of heart lmfao#which sure is something to say about a very anime looking game where you can go to the Owl World and the Owl King will give you outfits#and you can wear ridiculous accessories even during serious cutscenes (a tales game Classic)#and also you own a ranch.#i still cant wrap my head around that one hfkshfj like what do you MEAN i own a ranch?!?! and then i just Kill the animals?!?!?#like ya food meats but i thought raising chickens would give me eggs. me cooing at my grown chickens then going into the menu#and it's like 'your chickens have reached maturity! items received: Chicken Meat" and i was just like. 'O-oh.'#and then the chickens were GOOOONE but at least the cats and dogs stay around without me EATING them#i. prefer to not visit my ranch. i dont want to be reminded that all these animals are gonna die.#hfkshfjd and YEA ALL THIS alongside some stunning displays of moral ambiguity#& the utter horror and injustice of 300 years of subjugation#perfectly captured right down to the erasure of culture. these people having to look to ruins to get in touch with their culture#bc it was Taken from them.#just. it's a ridiculously over the top anime game just like any tales game but wow. wowowowwow#and im saying this after playing tales of xillia 2. aka still the only game that made me cry Twice.#arise is truly an astounding game. it's very definitely in the running for my favorite tales game.#we'll see how the ending goes lol but given everything ive seen so far. it is Likely to be just as stunning hdkshfj#raving about this game when i should be going to sleep. man . man. ..
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incredibly annoying that iām on desk literally all day except for lunch when thereās two other people working during the same hours who are off desk All Day Long, like they canāt be on desk for an hour? theyāre not even doing programs!
#same thing is happening on thursday iām genuinely very annoyed#short staffed is one thing but the department is full why can i not get an hour to eat#45 minutes even. everyone else is off desk for at least two hours today!!!!!!#work tag#sorry it's like This Was How It Started. putting me on desk in a situation where i can't get any goddamn work done#and then giving me MORE work to do. bc they just asked me to be on social media committee#and it's like oh you want me to revamp our entire social media presence online AND do monthly online challenges AND rebuild our#foreign language section AND do like 10 new displays every single month AND be in charge of two different intra department displays?#and i don't even get like 20 minutes off desk to work on this? great. love that. this will definitely get done in a timely manner!#bc like i can't work in kids none of my stuff is down here? and it's busy or you're cleaning like 70% of the time!#urrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrg this better be just this week#or i'm gonna be like listen you need to give me more hours or you need to give me more off desk time or you need to give me less to do#i'm already on three different committees! this makes four!!! i need time to fucking plan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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WHUMPTOBER 2024: PROMPTS LIST
Welcome to Whumptober 2024 ā Seventh Time's a Charm!
Please make sure to read the Event Info and FAQ below carefully, as most of your questions will be answered there already. For everything else, you are welcome to come to our ask box or ask questions in our Discord server here.
This yearās AO3 Collection can be found here.
This year's playlist can be found here.
The 'Anatomy of a Whumptober Prompt' post can be found here.
And our 'Resources for Writing Sensitive Topics' post is here.
Weāre very excited to see the community come together for another year of Whumptober! Go wild with the prompts, and support your fellow creators - we wish you all the fun!
Best of luck and happy whumping,
Mods Vanne, Yenn, Kitty and Surro
(Text versions of the prompts, as well as event information, rules and FAQ are posted below the cut!)
Whumptober 2024 Prompt List
No. 1: RACE AGAINST THE CLOCK
Search Party | Panic Attack | "If only we could hold on.ā (Icysami x Renegaderr, Strangers.)
No. 2: TRUST ISSUES
Amusement Park | Role Reversal | āYou got away with the crime while the knife's in my back.ā (Charlotte Sands, Rollercoaster)
No. 3: SET UP FOR FAILURE
Fingerprints | Wrongfully Arrested | "I warned you."
No. 4: HALLUCINATIONS
Hypnosis | Sensory Deprivation | āYou're still alive in my head.ā (Billy Lockett, More)
No. 5: SUNBURN
Healing Salve | Heatstroke | "If my pain will stretch that far." (Lottery Winners, Burning House)
No. 6: NOT REALISING THEY'RE INJURED
Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms | Healed Wrong | "It's not my blood."
No. 7: ONLY FOR EMERGENCIES
Unconventional Weapon | Magic with a Cost | "It's us or them."
No. 8: SLEEP DEPRIVATION
Isolation Chamber | Forced to Stay Awake | "Leave the lights on." (Coldplay, Midnight)
No. 9: OBSESSION
Broken Window | Bruises | āFrame me up on the wall, just to keep me out of trouble.ā (Fall Out Boy, Irresistible)
No. 10: BLOW TO THE HEAD
Slurred Words | Passing Out from Pain | "I can't think straight."
No. 11: SEEING DOUBLE
Convenience Store | Loneliness | āLeave no trace behind, like you don't even exist.ā (Taylor Swift, Illicit Affairs)
No. 12: STARVATION
Underground Caverns | Cannibalism | "Just a little more."
No. 13: TEAM AS A FAMILY
Familial Curse | Multiple Whumpees | "Death will do us part." (Set It Off, Partner's In Crime)
No. 14: LEFT FOR DEAD
Hunting Gear | Blackmail | āBecause I want you to know what it feels like to be hauntedā (tiLLie, kooL aiD mAn)
No. 15: CHILDHOOD TRAUMA
Painful Hug | Moment of Clarity | "I did good, right?"
No. 16: NECROSIS
Swamp | Wound Cleaning | "No, I can't feel anything."
No. 17: NOWHERE ELSE TO GO
Ruined Map | Shipwrecked | "We had a good run."
No. 18: REVENGE
Unreliable Narrator | Loss of Identity | āI see what's mine and take it.ā (Panic! at the Disco, Emperor's New Clothes)
No. 19: BLOOD TRAIL
Abandoned Cabin | One Way Out | "Is there anybody alive out there?" (Bruce Springsteen, Radio Nowhere)
No. 20: EMOTIONAL ANGST
Shoulder to Cry On | Giving Permission to Die | "It's not your fault."
No. 21: BODY HORROR
Body Horror | Tattoo Gun | Spirit Possession | āLet the bedsheet soak up the tears.ā (Apparat feat. Soap & Skin, Goodbye)
No. 22: BLEEDING THROUGH BANDAGES
Tourniquet | Reopening Wounds | "Oh that's not good."
No. 23: FORCED CHOICE
Public Display | Broken Pedestal | "I'm doing this for you."
No. 24: RADIATION POISONING
Collapsed Building | Equipment Failure | āI never knew daylight could be so violent.ā (Florence + The Machine, No Light, No Light)
No. 25: SURGERY
Stitches | Being Monitored | "It's for your own good."
No. 26: NIGHTMARES
Breakfast Table | Parting Words of Regret | āI'm haunted by the lies that I have loved, the actions I have hated.ā (Poe, Haunted)
No. 27: VOICELESS
Laboratory | Muzzled | āI have no mouth and I must scream.ā
No. 28: DENIAL
CCTV | Exposure | "They caught me red handed."
No. 29: FATIGUE
Labyrinth | Burnout | "Who said you could rest?"
No. 30: RECOVERY
Hospital Bed | Holding Back Tears | "What have I done?"
No. 31: ASKING FOR HELP
Therapy | Making Amends | "I'm alive, I'm just not well." (Elliot Lee, Alive, Not Well.)
Alternatives List:
Body Swap
Communication Barrier
Finding Old Messages
Forgotten
Friendly Fire
Motion Sickness
No-Holds-Barred Beatdown
Regret
Secrets Revealed
Shivering
Survivor's Guilt
Time Loop
Used As Bait
Venom
Vermin
Event Info & Rules
WHUMPTOBERĀ is a month-long, prompt-based creation challenge (think: Inktober, but whumpier). There areĀ 31 official themesĀ this year - one for each day of the month - which can be used, skipped, or combined in any way youād like. They are meant to serve as inspiration without being taken literally (e.g. you donāt have to include the exact wording of prompts into your work). Feel free to run rampant on interpretation. For example, if the prompt is āflame", you could create something with reference to a candle/campfire, your character could have suffered a burn, or the flame could be a reference to an āold flameā - an old relationship. Itās truly down to you!
In total, there areĀ 4 prompts for each day. These are optional suggestions and can be used in conjunction with the theme, or as options/alternatives.Ā We want to give everyone as much creative freedom as possible, as well as increase event accessibility for folks with triggers and squicks. There is also a list of 15 alternative prompts that can be subbed in for any day, again to give participants as much creative freedom as possible.
Creators canĀ PRODUCEĀ work in any media they choose, including but not limited to: writing, visual artwork, photo/video/audio edits, paper crafts and elaborate recommendation lists (not just a list of links). Creators canĀ PARTICIPATEĀ as much or as little as they want (i.e. you donāt have to do ALL the prompts if you donāt want to) and prompts can be used in any order. They are also free to use even after the event ends.
When uploading Whumptober content to your blog, be sure to tag it with:
#whumptober2024 ā¦..(the event tag)
#no.1, #no.2, #no.3, ā¦..(theme number)
#bruises, #stabbing, ā¦..(the theme or specific prompt you chose)
#altprompt ā¦..(if you use an altprompt, tag the post with the number of the prompt you replace)
#fandom or #OC, ā¦..(ironman, original content, oc, etc.)
#medium ā¦..(gifs, fic, podcast, art, etc.)
#teeth, #etc ā¦..(trigger warnings & any additional tags. Keep in mind not to add ātwā in front but only use the word/trigger itself)
#nsfwhump ā¦..(only for nsfw content)
#your own tags go here
PLEASE BE DILIGENT WITH YOUR TAGGING. Only properly tagged posts are considered for archiving on the officialĀ @whumptober-archiveĀ blog. They must be tagged in the order above.Ā An elaborate post about our tagging system can be foundĀ [here]
Unfortunately, due to the sheer number of participants in recent years, we cannot guarantee your work will be archived. A random selection of properly tagged posts from all genres will be reblogged each day.
Whumpers who produce content for 31 total theme days are consideredĀ event completionistsĀ and will be tagged in a masterpost at the end of the month. A form will be published at the beginning of November asking you to tell us if you completed. This is based on trust and we will not check this.
Frequently Asked Questions
Please read this before you send an ask!
TIMELINE
July: Trope voting form released. Late August: Prompt list is released for at least four weeks of preparation time. Tropes cannot be posted earlier than August 25th because of Moderator obligations in real life. (But, you know, go ahead and start writing/drawing, and add the themes in later, if you want!) September: Do as much or as little on your works as you want. You can prepare everything in advance or let September go by with vibes and start working in October. Itās up to you. October 1st: Challenge begins! A storm of whump breaks upon us all! During this time, some posts will be reblogged to the whumptober archive blog. We open the yearly AO3 collection for posting (optional). November 1st: The challenge is officially over! Completionist form opens for those who want to be included in the hall-of-fame. Early November: We release completionist and participant badges, solicit feedback, and post a hall-of-fame list of completionists by the 10th.
PARTICIPATION AND COMPLETION
Q: What counts as participation? Create or continue at least one work inspired by one of this yearās prompts. Q: What counts as completion? Creating work(s) inspired by at least one prompt from each day (or alts), for a total of 31 unique prompts. Q: Do I need to create 31 works? No. You can, if you want. Or you can create one work that you add to every day with a new prompt. Or several works that combine prompts. You can also update an existing work by adding new material with the current prompts. Q: Do I need to post my works somewhere to be a completionist or a participant? No. Q: How do you know I actually completed the challenge? Weāll take your word for it! Q: Do I have to finish my work(s) to be a completionist? No, you can post WIPs. And youāre not obligated to finish them in October, but if you want it to count towards being a completionist, you must have completed 31 prompts by the end of the month. So for example, if youāre writing a long fic and you fit 31 different prompts into the writing you did in October, itās okay if that fic isnāt finished by the time October ends, youāll still be a completionist. Q: Is co-writing/illustrating allowed? Yes, absolutely, and it would count towards being a completionist for both/all of you. Q: Is there a min/max limit on word count for written works? No. Q: Is there a min/max limit of quality for art? No. Q: Do I have to do something each day to be a completionist? No. You can skip days whenever you want, and as long as 31 daily prompts (or alts) are in your works done in October, you can be a completionist. For example, if you wrote a 1000-word ficlet that covers prompts in days 2, 3, and 17, you can check all three days off your list even though itās only one work. Q: Is this challenge just for fics? No! Artworks, GIFsets, headcannons, rec lists, poetry, moodboards, or any other creative work is encouraged. Q: Can I combine Whumptober with other creation challenges? Absolutely, as long as the other challenges allow it too.
PROMPTS
Q: How do the prompts work? There are FOUR prompts per day: a theme and three ideas. You can use one, two, three, or all four prompts for each day. If you donāt like any of the daily prompts, you can substitute one of the ALT prompts instead. Q: How strictly/literally should we interpret the prompts? As literally or as figuratively as you want. For example, if the theme is WATER, that could mean drowning, waterboarding, raining, swimming, take place underwater, be lost at sea, construct a metaphor about a characterās mood that changes like a flowing river, crying, or whatever else you can think of that fits that theme. Q: Can I combine prompts? Is there a limit on how many? No limit and combine as many as youād like. If you create a work that checks off multiple prompts, that work will count for a fill of multiple prompts. You need to address 31 different prompts to be an official completionist, but you donāt have to produce 31 separate works.
WORKS
Q: Whatās whump? Hurting a character, whether thatās physically, emotionally, intellectually, psychologically, or any other way you can think of. Comfort afterwards is optional. Angst is emotional whump, so it counts. Q: How do I know if itās whumpy enough? If your character is just mildly inconvenienced, it probably needs more whump. However, no participant has to prove whumpiness to the mods. Whatever you write is up to you. Q: What kind of characters can I create for? Anything. Generic āwhumpee,ā OC, PC, NPC, major characters, minor characters, or whatever you want. There are no limits. Q: Does it have to take place in a specific fandom? No, you can create works for your own worlds or for fandoms or for both. You can also create more generic or pan-fandom works. You can do cross-overs or use OCs, whatever you want. Q: Can I create AI-created works? We will not reblog or promote any works we know to be generative AI-created. Q: Is there anything weāre not allowed to write? As long as it contains whump and is based on our prompts, itās fine. Please courtesy tag your works if you post them so people who follow the #whumptober2024 tag can filter according to their preferences. Q: What about sex, minor characters, and potentially disturbing content? You can create whatever works are legal in your country and post them accordingly. Please courtesy tag anything you think might be objectionable if you post to Tumblr so people who follow the #whumptober2024 tag can filter according to their preferences.
POSTING
Q: Where can I post my work? Post where and how you want. You donāt even have to (cross)post it to Tumblr. Just keep in mind if itās not on Tumblr we will not be able to add it to the blog archive. There is an AO3 archive for Whumptober 2024, as well as the parent collection for works completed outside of the event. Q: Can I start posting early? You can, but this is an October event and wouldnāt it be more fun with everyone doing it at the same time? We wonāt be reblogging any work predating October 1st. Q: Can I post late? Yes. For the sake of our hardworking Post Fairies, only a dayās themes will be reblogged to @whumptober-archive each day of October. But you can post whenever. Some of us are still working on and posting Whumptober fics from years ago. Q: Do I have to use your tags? Only on Tumblr and only if you want us to reblog your work on @whumptober-archive. Q: How do I have my works reblogged to the archive? Properly tagged posts will be reblogged to @whumptober-archive. If you want the official archive blog to reblog you, post on Tumblr and tag correctly (see this FAQ link for more info on tagging). Please note not all posts will be reblogged each day. Q: Can we @ you? For questions and comments, of course. Weāll be getting a flood of notifications, so if you really want us to see something send an ask. Q: Can I cross post on other blogs? Yes, multiple platforms and blogs are perfectly acceptable, as long as they allow cross-posting (to us). You can also post different works to different accounts under different names, without posting them everywhere at once. If you post some works under your main and others under an alt blog, thatās fine for completionist purposes. Q: Can I upload/repost my Whumptober content to other social media platforms? Of course! Weāve created an AO3 Collection to archive any fics posted there, which can be found here. The blog is the official archive, so please respect the personal boundaries of any whumpers in your social circle (donāt out anyone as a participant who would prefer not to be outed).
Most importantly, have fun, create, and enjoy all the whump posted this October!
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