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lorelei has the ability to feel/see someone's innermost self, their very being, sometimes even their thoughts and desires, through touch. this is mostly because their a mushroom, its part of their innate ability to create ''hive minds'' (like mother mushroom, kind of) and connect with other beings. they can do this with about any living thing, which is why they tend to wear very modest clothing. it does require a fair amount of focus but even a simple handshake can at least give them a sense of intention.
when they officially met fern it was in the middle of him trying to detach himself from finn, and define himself as fern. he didn't originally know about lorelei's power, as they tend to try and keep such a thing to themself, and otherwise are less publicly known then their older siblings. its at a party the mushroom kingdom threw celebrating the birth of the newest princess that they meet and spend a bit of the night together.
of course Fern is Strange. being half demon half pure hero is a very mixed message, along with all of the inner turmoil was.. an interesting (2nd?) impression.
i cant think of much of in between here. i know for a moment in the confusion, fern thinks this is another rejection- he'd just made a fool of himself in front of royalty- now they thing hes an idiot, yada yada yada. lorelei on the other hand is embarrassed they got caught up in the confusing little mess that is Fern the Human, completely without his permission or knowledge. big no no, y'kno?
within their powers, fern can see an opportunity to learn more about who he is, a way to get help piece together who he is now.
fern and lorelei agree to meet a couple days after the party, so that lorelei can work their magic and tell fern what they see.
"you can start by relaxing," Lorelei peaked an eye open, a comforting smile tugging on their cheeks. Fern relaxes his shoulders, releasing the tension in his jaw. he mutters an apology as the prince closes his eyes again and seems to focus more. their hands tighten their grip on his own. "You are... struggling to except yourself. Mourning a life you can't get back," they trailed off. their words are halting as they read more into who Fern is, trying to piece together the stranger's history. "There are two sides of you, struggling to work together. This feels like a demon." Lorelei opens their eyes. "-do you know anything of your parents? or- the circumstance of your creation?" Fern glances to the distance. he can't pick out if their gaze is accusatory, or just confused. The prince had been kind to him so far, and he came to them for answers. "its a long story. The grass wizard made me because of a pun, but I'm also from the Finn Sword... I don't really get it either." "So.. you come from both of them. There is a demon here, a curse. it is.. violent, parasitic in nature." Fern's grip tightened in the prince's hold. "But there is a force of good, too. the heart of a hero. loyal and true, pure. and.. angry. You want to be good. You want your life back. You are frustrated with what you've lost, and frustrated that you can't " the prince paused. "You tell the story of a very complicated creation, I hope you know."
as their friendship grows, Lorelei goes deeper into trying to figure out Fern's existence. they call it a personal project, and say it is good for Fern to know the nature of his creation and what it means for who he is. acknowledging and accepting the different parts of himself are the first steps to building his new identity, and building a life as himself. he struggles, with getting used to who he is, with dealing with his bouts of anger and other such amplified emotions, with the idea that he can never go back to the life he remembers. he mourns himself and his friends. Lorelei tries to find food he could eat (fertilizers, various soils, and other such plant food) but it never is the same as his memory. his relationship with his Grass Demon almost improves, but he struggles to find harmony within himself.
L: There's a duality to this. differing relationships between your mind and body. do you see yourself as only Finn, with the Grass Demon as a different entity, or are you a product of both? F: what does that mean? L: You see yourself as your memories, as Finn. This is default because you are human and you see yourself as your conscious. But that doesn't mean your mind is all you are. Finn makes up your head, but the Grass Demon makes up your body, so are you only your brain or do you see yourself as all of your parts in a culmination? F: I don't know, what do you see me as? L: Thats not up to me to decide. It's for you to figure out, to define who you are. To define Fern. L: I feel like most of the answer is in that vault of yours, and I encourage you to try and look through it. F: The vault is where all the stuff I can't handle goes. Looking through it would like, defeat the purpose of the vault. L: I guess I dont get it because I dont have a vault. if I really can't handle something i shove it in a closet... F: How do you get anything done that way? I'd have to board it up. L: keeps away the clutter. I don't know how you get anything done with everything in an inaccessible vault.
#i have a lot of feelings about these two#i want to keep it roughly canon compliant#eventually Lorelei also goes to Prismo#and brings Fern with them#''for closure' if not answers. He is where your brother is' and the reason you got turned into a sword. maybe he has insight''#im not sure how that visit goes quite yet though#sorry this is long and dialogue heavy i tried to draw what i could but tbh it was a lot#so i shortened a lot of it lol#this was fun though. good way to get my thoughts out#anyway its 4 am i gotta go to bed#art#prince lorelei#the amount of shit i had to go and look up for this was stupid#both abt lorelei and abt adventure time lore#who knows if this will end up in main tags idec at this point#adventure time oc#long post
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kinda old fern n finn n jake art i've never posted for some reason? :P get robloxed idiot
#i actually know the reason lol. i wanted to draw a buncha these and post them all at once#BUT I GIVE UP. these r so old especially the top one and if i make more the difference will be much more noticeable me thinks#not like i've improved. i barelyyy draw anymore even tho I WANNA DRAW. I LIKE IT. WHY CANT I JUST. DRAW.#i wanna practice more and draw more and get better but i cant bring myself to do ittttt im so mad#adventure time#fern the human#finn the human#jake the dog#fern mertens#finn mertens#roblox screenshots#my silly art#shitpost
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you already know what iâm referencing with this image.
maybe i should hit you with mahmmers
#spacie splains#DONT MAKE ME THINK ABOUT THIS BRO IM REVELING IN A VICTPORY OVER MONNIE RIGHT NOW#YOU'LL MAKE ME SICK#I WAS ABLE TA KEEP THE THOUGHTS TA JUST THE THREE HOURS THIS MORNING. DONT BRING THEM BACK#FERN. FERN YOU DICK.
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Do you ever just Cry
#i thought too hard about them and made myself cry#Frieren has literally never loved a person like she loves Fern. and Fern has no idea#Frieren bends over backwards for Fern. she has willingly outgrown herself to be a better parent#she's not great at this parenting thing but she's doing her darnedest#and just...#over the 28 episodes you can see Fern go from 'i don't know if she likes me at all' to just loving her wholeheartedly#and feeling secure in Frieren's love for her#and you can see Frieren going from 'this child is inscrutable and inconvenient for me' to 'i am brimming with pride'#Fern is on the cusp of not needing Frieren anymore#soon she will be independent in her own right and gain the wisdom that age brings to humans#I'm fascinated by this relationship#by the love and trust and understanding that's developed between them#it's SO well written#sometimes it feels like the romance is the only relationship any show spends time developing#but tbh the relationship between Fern and Frieren is the one I'm most invested in in this story#Frieren became a parent and it changed her#Frieren
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Ngl I'm kind of dillydallying around my own SDV fixation and i'd KILL to see what your brain is doing to this game like i for one would eat up dat stuff UP . . .
I love the way this is phrased; genuinely đđ like im a force of nature tearing through any new interest like its made of wet tissue paper đ„đ„đ„
I thought about it some more and i will (eventually) make an sdv blog. Its going to be a mess having all my interests on one dashboard (im lazy and i dont want to sign in and out all the time for diff accounts lol) but i need sdv stuff in sight or ill explode. For now tho i will ramble about random hcs rattling around in my brain
- The valley is FULL of magic, but not alot of Magical Beings that utilize that magic. If the residents of pelican town knew more about magic, there would be alot more wizards than just. The Wizard.
- Everyone in pelican town has some kind of latent magic, or at the very least, an affinity or sensitivity to magic. I like to think that magic builds in very secluded corners of their world and the area including (and surrounding) pelican town is simply one of those places.
-(sorry, i am just obsessed with Places and Magic) I like the idea of your farmer being drawn to pelican town bc they have a bit of magic in them. The letter is just A Letter, but it is the desire to see this town that makes them leave their old life behind. I am obsessed w the idea that the magic in the farmer craves the valley bc it sees the valley as its home, and by extension, the farmer sees the valley as their home. The people of pelican town rarely leave bc the magic in them sees the valley as their home always. The biggest examples of this are Kent, Demetrius, Evelyn, Emily and Shane. The huge exceptions to this (still workin on it) are lewis and sebastian; lewis bc i see him as a normal, non-magical being trying to wrangle the weirdness of this town, and sebastian bc his feelings of isolation and not being understood propels him to crave the world outside of the valley. (That changes a bit if u befriend him/romance him)
-(shane is weird bc hes super depressed and lonely but his happiness comes from his new âragtag familyâ (his words) and his very Not Normal chickens. The animals of the valley love him bc he loves them and he becomes tied to the valley bc of it. Marnie has always loved the animals of the valley and some of the love they had for her definitely rubbed off onto shane, who very openly admits he loves the chickens đ)
-I wasnt very fond of the idea of purple=magic but i think that was bc i often saw it as a way to tie-in the wizard and abigail. I am still trying to get through the friendships for everyone but rn it doesnt feel like theres any connection between them (and caroline). But. I do like the idea of odd, unnatural colors coming through bc of magic. Alex and Pierre having normal brown hair; Haley and Sam being true blondes. BUT. Shane and Jas having purple-ish hair. Emily and Caroline have blue toned hair. Even vincent have pinkish hair đ„șđ (and dare i sayâŠ.sebastian with purple/black hair like shane đâŠmaybe he has more magic in him than hed like to believe). Abigail doesnt count bc from what ive seen, Caroline laments about her daughters dyed hair. âWhen she was younger it used to be chestnut brownïżœïżœ whichâŠawww she took after her dad lol.
- LAST THING. This is not an hc i am just mad about this. I cannot believe the game doesnt allow u to befriend Marlon. What the fuck. What the fuck !!! I love him!!! I want to be friends w the chill monster slayer! Im a monster slayer too!!! Let me give him gifts !!! Fuck ! đđđđ„đ„đ„đ„ Also. I know how to write old man yaoi. They shouldve let me do a romance path for willy, clint and marlon. And the wizard i guess but someone already did that. Linus doesnt count bc hes ascended the need for human romance; hes one w nature (read. aroace). And we (linus and willy and the farmer) already co-raise leo so that counts for something i think đ€
#answered#chattin#sdv#sorry that 80% of this was about the fucking Town#but i am obsessed w Places that Feel#Magic that Feels#wants and craves and breathes with emotion#you come to the valley bc the magic in you misses home#the valley calls for you bc she misses you#not just the magic but the person who has kept this magic safe and warm#the valley knows when to let go. but it also knows when to reach out and bring you back#everyones got little tethers on them. she wonders what everyone is up to#the farmer wants something beyond this desk and she gives a little tug#she hums along the tether to kent and its funny; she doesnt need to pull at all; he comes back as soon as hes able#sebastian wants to see whats out there; find his purpose; and she unravels the tether as much as he needs it to be#anyway hi. welcome to my destroyed whirlwind room of a brain#this doesnt scratch like. the wildlife of the valley. the magic in the farm and crops. the seasons#the moonlight jellies (and how u can see them in fern island sometimes)#lewis and his many many crimes (read. he is wack and i hate him)#the emily/shane friends w benefits agenda i have going on (and harvey/elliot ship that i love so dearly)#and the jodi/kent/caroline polycule u didnt think u needed until i said it just now#i have like. too many thots. its literally consuming brain. i fall asleep thinking of this fucking game#and the version of it that exists in my head rentfree LMAO
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I been gardenin
#you cant see bc im too lazy to retake the pic but#the lil mama (mother of millions) in the big pot has a handful of seedlings underneath it now!#they all appeared so fast so i decided to finally repurpose an old pot my grandma had some dead plants in#and moved them there bc. i expect them to grow big and fast so that should be wide enough#the inside had pictures of goldfish in it it was so pretty#and my sunflower seedlings came up real fast the one that had the shell on it is doing. Really really good#im hopin my other seeds come up but for now this is good :) my other plants are doin ok but the heat needs to let up#bc my white rabbit fern is gettin sunscorched on the bad days#ohhh and me n my girl are goin to a bonsai convention in Louisiana soon so im hopin to bring back one for the house#mag.txt
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hello!! I just wanna pop in and say I adore your art so much!! (Your art style is so amazing and I love your adventure time art))
I really love your adventure time-gravity falls au and I was wondering about the storyline of it? It seems so interesting and cool!
It does follow the main plot of the og series, with Finn and Fern having to live with Jake for the summer by their parents (Iâm still figuring out whether Minerva and Martin kne w Joshua and Margret or just Jake long enough for them to be comfortable sending their kids to Ooo)
Jake turns his parentsâ house into the mystery shack like Stan with his brotherâs, followed by Fern finding the enchiridion and the rest of the seriesâ events starting off afterwards
#ask#also the humans are still living on founders islands at the time#Jake probably visited there once to visit them#because he missed having family around#and ofc he brings gifts to the twins#because twelve year olds like swords#also Fern went by Pen before that incident#and Finn was born with one arm instead of losing it like in the show#also theyâre both 16 when they first go to Ooo#sorry for sounding repetitive btw
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was gardening for class today and found TWO (2) beetle grubs <33
video of one wiggling back into the dirt lol
if anyone can tell what kinda beetle this is gonna turn into id love to know :]
iâm pretty sure itâs a fig eater beetle but idk
#beetle#bug#cw bugs#beetle larva#i really wanted to bring at them home and have âem grow up into cool beetles#but i donât even know what species it is and donât have anything set up for them#(plus my mom has very explicitly told me no pet bugs while iâm living here lol)#so no beetles for fern today#but hopefully someday soon#also both grubs were returned to safe spots dw
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Genocide experts warn that India is about to genocide the Shompen people
Who are the Shompen?
The Shompen are an indigenous culture that lives in the Great Nicobar Island, which is nowadays owned by India. The Shompen and their ancestors are believed to have been living in this island for around 10,000 years. Like other tribes in the nearby islands, the Shompen are isolated from the rest of the world, as they chose to be left alone, with the exception of a few members who occasionally take part in exchanges with foreigners and go on quarantine before returning to their tribe. There are between 100 and 400 Shompen people, who are hunter-gatherers and nomadic agricultors and rely on their island's rainforest for survival.
Why is there risk of genocide?
India has announced a huge construction mega-project that will completely change the Great Nicobar Island to turn it into "the Hong Kong of India".
Nowadays, the island has 8,500 inhabitants, and over 95% of its surface is made up of national parks, protected forests and tribal reserve areas. Much of the island is covered by the Great Nicobar Biosphere Reserve, described by UNESCO as covering âunique and threatened tropical evergreen forest ecosystems. It is home to very rich ecosystems, including 650 species of angiosperms, ferns, gymnosperms, and bryophytes, among others. In terms of fauna, there are over 1800 species, some of which are endemic to this area. It has one of the best-preserved tropical rain forests in the world.â
The Indian project aims to destroy this natural environment to create an international shipping terminal with the capacity to handle 14.2 million TEUs (unit of cargo capacity), an international airport that will handle a peak hour traffic of 4,000 passengers and that will be used as a joint civilian-military airport under the control of the Indian Navy, a gas and solar power plant, a military base, an industrial park, and townships aimed at bringing in tourism, including commercial, industrial and residential zones as well as other tourism-related activities.
This project means the destruction of the island's pristine rainforests, as it involves cutting down over 852,000 trees and endangers the local fauna such as leatherback turtles, saltwater crocodiles, Nicobar crab-eating macaque and migratory birds. The erosion resulting from deforestation will be huge in this highly-seismic area. Experts also warn about the effects that this project will have on local flora and fauna as a result of pollution from the terminal project, coastal surface runoff, ballasts from ships, physical collisions with ships, coastal construction, oil spills, etc.
The indigenous people are not only affected because their environment and food source will be destroyed. On top of this, the demographic change will be a catastrophe for them. After the creation of this project, the Great Nicobar Island -which now has 8,500 inhabitants- will receive a population of 650,000 settlers. Remember that the Shompen and Nicobarese people who live on this island are isolated, which means they do not have an immune system that can resist outsider illnesses. Academics believe they could die of disease if they come in contact with outsiders (think of the arrival of Europeans to the Americas after Christopher Columbus and the way that common European illnesses were lethal for indigenous Americans with no immunization against them).
And on top of all of this, the project might destroy the environment and the indigenous people just to turn out to be useless and sooner or later be abandoned. The naturalist Uday Mondal explains that âafter all the destruction, the financial viability of the project remains questionable as all the construction material will have to be shipped to this remote island and it will have to compete with already well-established ports.â However, this project is important to India because they want to use the island as a military and commercial post to stop China's expansion in the region, since the Nicobar islands are located on one of the world's busiest sea routes.
Last year, 70 former government officials and ambassadors wrote to the Indian president saying the project would âvirtually destroy the unique ecology of this island and the habitat of vulnerable tribal groupsâ. India's response has been to say that the indigenous tribes will be relocated "if needed", but that doesn't solve the problem. As a spokesperson for human rights group Survival International said: âThe Shompen are nomadic and have clearly defined territories. Four of their semi-permanent settlements are set to be directly devastated by the project, along with their southern hunting and foraging territories. The Shompen will undoubtedly try to move away from the area destroyed, but there will be little space for them to go. To avoid a genocide, this deadly mega-project must be scrapped.â
On 7 February 2024, 39 scholars from 13 countries published an open letter to the Indian president warning that âIf the project goes ahead, even in a limited form, we believe it will be a death sentence for the Shompen, tantamount to the international crime of genocide.â
How to help
The NGO Survival International has launched this campaign:
From this site, you just need to add your name and email and you will send an email to India's Tribal Affairs Minister and to the companies currently vying to build the first stage of the project.
Share it with your friends and acquittances and on social media.
Sources:
Indiaâs plan for untouched Nicobar isles will be âdeath sentenceâ for isolated tribe, 7 Feb 2024. The Guardian.
âIt will destroy themâ: Indian mega-development could cause âgenocideâ and âecocideâ, says charity, 8 Feb 2024. Geographical.
Genocide experts call on India's government to scrap the Great Nicobar mega-project, Feb 2024. Survival International.
The container terminal that could sink the Great Nicobar Island, 20 July 2022. Mongabay.
[Maps] Environmental path cleared for Great Nicobar mega project, 10 Oct 2022. Mongabay.
#shompen#genocide#stop genocide#india#indigenous#indigenous peoples#indigenous rights#human rights#anthropology#stateless nations#end occupation#andaman and nicobar islands#nicobar islands#great nicobar#đŹ#asia#geopolitics#ecocide#sustainability
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Oriole took care of Fern after his top surgery
and by took care of I mean brought him like 10 breakfasts per day, then passed out in his chair because he was waking up too early and staying up too late to be with Fern
#drawing breakfast inspired me to eat breakfast...#I think everybody should have a cute little guy#who brings them endless breakfast during recovery...#art#illustration#ocs#novel stuff#trans#transgender#they are both boys#oriole just doesn't want surgery#lgbt#queer#oriole#fern
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After the end - Post-apocalypse Omegaverse AU
Summary - So the hunt begins.
Tags - Omegaverse (duh), alpha/beta/omega dynamics, non traditional dynamics, all of the 141 are alphas, you're an omega. Eventual smut, dub-con, knotting, mating press, polyamory, alphas love alphas. 141 x reader. Omega has a shotgun, I REPEAT, Omega has a shotgun. Mentions of violence.
Prologue Chapter 1
The others looked at Gaz like he had finally lost his marbles but only Soap was the one to speak up and say, "Ye've gone and lost yer mind."
Gaz shook his head and grabbed Soap's wrist, forcing him to kneel down and smell the old blood. He waited for his reaction and Soap sat back, his cold blue eyes wide.
"A 'mega out here? After all this time..." Soap looked to Price and Ghost who both exchanged looks. Price rolled his shoulders and Ghost seemed to relax just a little.
"Well, if there is one we should go and find them," Price finally said.
"And where would that be?" Soap asked but his eyes had already trailed over to the forest at the edge of the town. Large enough to hide a place for an omega to hide.
You triple checked the trap you just set, making sure the string was hidden and that it was ready to go off for the poor alpha's that made the mistake of coming onto your land. Your territory had been littered with traps for years though some had gone into disrepair due to your own negligence.
No matter, you thought as you layered more leaves on top to conceal the pit below, you're sure you'll get them with this.
Back when libraries hadn't been mere ruins with musty, rain ruined books you had developed a small fascination with the tactics and traps the Vietnam soldiers had left for the American ones. Nasty, down right awful traps but they drove America out of their country and you were intent to do the same to these alphas.
But even as you thought about the harm you would bring down upon them like a vengeful goddess, your inner omega had started to awaken more. She scratched and whined at the idea of there not only being one but four alphas near by. After years of nothing but your own fingers and the old dildo, your inner omega was desperate for something.
Yet, there was also confliction.
Yes, the deep seeded desire to be bred by four burly alphas was there but also a certain feral aspect bubbled closer to the surface. This is our land, your omega hissed, ours and they've entered it. We smelt them. They haven't left. She pushed you to make more traps, set deadlier ones.
An agreement had been made, or a compromise. Get the alpha's off your land and if one of them survived, keep him. What the next step would be, neither you or your omega had thought about that. Or if all of them survived.
A twig snapped to your left and it yanked you from your thoughts immediately. You hastily covered the trap further before you scrambled up a near by tree and waited. You fought to scratch at the dried mud caked onto your scent glands. It was damn near stifling. Worse then the stuffing in your nose.
You waited, heart pounding in your chest as you kept listening for more signs. Nothing. You let yourself breathe again and slide down from the tree you had perched in. Then you heard them, eight feet tramped down snow and broke twigs under their weight.
They were so loud.
You turned your head just in time to see a hat above a fern and a peak of something black behind it. Your hand found your shotgun with practiced ease and you stepped back and over your trap for more protection. Then they emerged from the bushes.
May the strongest alpha win
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Trial and Error (4)
Pairing:Â Azriel x Reader
Summary: Based on the request: "Azriel with single mom reader? I feel like being a single mom in ACOTAR would be tricky as hell⊠reader comes from autumn court and flees to night court because she got pregnant out of marriage? đŻ the shame"
Word count:Â 2.5k
Warnings: Illness, Azriel's pov đ
a/n:Â Someone sedate me at this point. Also I'm posting this earlier than planned because I am susceptible to peer pressure
Read part one | part two | part three | part five
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Azriel sat at the table for breakfast, his attention occupied by the window to his right. A plate of eggs, bacon, and toasted bread sat forgotten and untouched before him. To be honest, Azriel was unsure of how it even came to be in front of him.Â
Cassian was saying something, the rest of the table humoring him with sleepy mumbles and raised brows. He was always so lively in the mornings, a sentiment not shared by the rest of the inner circle.Â
Azriel was typically one of the more responsive people, but his shadow was late today. It had been a few weeks of sending one out to check on you every night, and this one was late. The rest of them swarmed around his feet in anticipation.Â
âAz?â Morâs voice had him breaking his stare from the window. âWhat are you looking at? Youâve been checked out all breakfast.âÂ
Azriel cleared his throat and readjusted in his seat. âNothing. Just distracted.âÂ
She snorted. âThatâs an understatement. Youâre been distracted for weeks now. Whatâs been going on with you?âÂ
âNothing,â Azriel repeated. He picked up his fork despite his stomach protesting, the nerves twisting it to the point of unease.Â
âHate to concur, Az, but you have been rather absent. I think this is the first time youâve had a meal with us this week,â Rhysand chimed in.Â
From beside him, Feyre shot her mate a look.Â
Azriel, feeling eyes on him, glanced to his left to find Cassian leering at him with narrowed eyes. His brother leaned his head back and hooked his arm over the back of his chair, analyzing Azriel amidst his lax posture.Â
Azriel rolled his eyes. âWhat?âÂ
With his tongue pressed into his cheek, Cassian let out a disbelieving huff. âYouâre seeing someone,â he concluded. âWho is she? Why havenât you said anything?âÂ
âIâm not seeing anyone. Why would you come to that conclusion?âÂ
âYou answered that way too quickly to be believable.âÂ
âAzriel, are you seeing someone? There wouldnât be anything wrong with that,â came Morâs soft toneâtrying to play the opposite side of the coin.Â
âNo, IââÂ
âHe is. I know he is.â Cassian, with his assured pestering. âAnd donât think I donât notice how Rhys is being silent here. And Feyre. The only two people in the room that can read minds.âÂ
âThat doesnât mean anything,â Feyre defended.Â
âYeah!â Nyx yelled, quick to defend his mother. âNothing!âÂ
But Nyxâs interference only made Cassian turn his attention to the small child and knock his head to the side.Â
âNyxââ Cassian began. In response, Nyx shoved a fork full of eggs into his mouth. âAzrielâs been taking you to school an awful lot, hasnât he?âÂ
âMmhmm,â Nyx nodded.Â
âAnd heâs been going to all of your school events?â
Nyx nodded again, this time with a mouthful of juice.Â
âDoes Azriel talk to anyone when heâs at your school?âÂ
âHe talks to Ms. Fern.âÂ
Cassian let out a barking laugh and turned back to Azriel with a wide grin. âMs. Fern? Okay, Az, if thatâs what does it for you. You should bring her to the house.âÂ
Although he felt an immense pride for Nyx keeping his secret (because Nyx had seen him talking to you countless times) a strange, hot anger licked at the bond hanging loose in his chest.Â
He wasnât seeing Ms. Fern. The reasonable part of his mind told him that it was better this way, you would feel safer, but the unreasonable side wanted to knock Cassian across the room.
You were so much better than Ms. Fern. The teacher didnât âdo it for himâ and never would. It was insulting to you.Â
Azriel ground his teeth. He knew this reaction was more borne from the fact his shadow hadnât returned and the worry he was feeling was paralyzing, but reasoning with himself did nothing.Â
âI will not beââÂ
Sick, sad, help.Â
A whisper at his ear made Azriel rein in his words.Â
Alone, alone, alone.Â
Azriel snapped his head to the side to find his missing shadow whisking down to join the rest, the hoard of them now rising to leave. To get to you, he realized. He had toâÂ
âWhat is it?â Rhysand asked.Â
Azriel could feel his talons scratch along the barrier of his mind, but there was no time to let Rhysand hear what heâd heard. In one fluid motion, Azriel was up from the table and out of the house, his wings spread wide behind him as he flew to the outskirts of Velaris where you resided.Â
One of the first things he would suggest after he got you to trust him was for you to move.Â
Heâd already reinforced your locks and checked your neighbors, but you were still so far and that side of Velaris wasnât the best.Â
Heâd ask you to move into the House of Wind, but he knew thatâd be pushing it. Obviously.Â
His back ached as he pressed his wings further, desperate to make it to you. He flung his body one way and then the other to dodge buildings as he went, flying low to save time. Luckily, the streets were barren this early.Â
But it wasnât early enough for your shop to be closed, an all too alarming fact when faced with the âclosedâ sign on the front door. He yanked on the knob anyways, but the door wouldnât budge.Â
He cursed himself for ensuring their stability.Â
He started knocking nextâsoft at first and then with a blistering urgency. He knocked and knocked and was moments away from flying up to your window and possibly scaring you off for good when the door wrenched open.
You looked beyond disheveled, bone-tired, and frankly gaunt as you stared up at him with an incredulous gaze. Your gaze softened a fraction when you saw it was Azriel beating down your door, but a tinge of irritation remained hazing your eyes.Â
âAzriel, weâre closed forââÂ
âAre you okay?â he rushed out.
Since the open house, Azriel had been more open with his vies to take care of you. If he were being honest, the intrinsic need to protect you and Melanie was overwhelming and he was barely scratching the surface of all he wanted to do, but you became guarded any time he got too intense. So, he walked you home and asked you about your family and he didnât care if he got a stonewall in response.Â
But right now, you did not look well.Â
Right now, there was no Melanie peaking behind your legs as you stood at the apothecary door.Â
So, right now, Azriel didnât have a mind to be subtle.Â
âWhere is Melanie? Are you hurt?â he asked before you could formulate a response.Â
He watched your knuckles pale as you gripped the door. You breathed in deeply. âMel has been sick all night. Iâm not sure what it is and Iâve been trying everything. Iâm about two seconds away from calling a healer butâŠâÂ
Azriel knew that tellâthe way your eyes shifted and your expression pinched.Â
More people.Â
Anytime you were confronted with introducing more people into Melanieâs life, you crumbled.Â
âLet me come see her,â Azriel requested, the tension leaking from his voice into a softer tone. Now that he knew the two of you werenât dying, there was some relief. Some.Â
You shook your head, pressing your lips into a firm line as you deflated. âI donât want to get you sick. I think I'm already a lost cause, but youâyou have important things to do.âÂ
If only you knew how important you were to him.Â
Azriel felt his fists clench at the defeated look in your eye. âIf youâre sick, you canât take care of her. Just let me come in. Let me help, y/n.â Â
âAzrielâŠâÂ
âPlease. Let me take care of you.â
He wanted to take the words back as soon as they left his mouth, afraid of you drawing back in fear, but they were already lingering in the space between you. Azriel decided you must have been truly exhausted because your only reply was a pained sigh followed by your door swinging open to let him in.Â
You didnât even send him a sidelong glance.Â
Azirelâs hand twitched as he followed you up the stairs to your apartment, the urge to press his fingers along your back stifling.Â
One step at a time, Azrielâyou were only just letting him into your house.Â
Any examination of your apartment abruptly halted as soon as his feet met the threshold of the sitting room. Melanie was lying on the couch looking worse for wear with a cloth along her forehead and a flush to her cheeks that did not sit well with the Shadowsinger. His chest caved in at the sight, a feeling that intensified when her small voice filled the space.Â
âMr. Azriel?â she croaked, attempting to lift her head. You rushed over to press her back down, running your fingers through her hair. âHeâs always at my house,â Melanie said, turning to look at you. âAlways.âÂ
You let out a breathy laugh as Melanie shut her eyes and began to softly snore against the arm of the loveseat. Azrielâs shadows rushed to the girl and brushed against her forehead and arms, offering the cool wind they provided.Â
In a few steps, Azriel took a knee beside you. He looked at you firstâat the way you hovered over your daughter with furrowed browsâand then let his gaze wash over Melanie. Against his better judgment, he wrapped his scarred fingers around her tiny hands.Â
No poison, his shadows reported, although he didnât expect it to be. She was feverish, hadnât eaten since last night, couldnât keep anything down; it was rare for fae to get so sick, and heâd be lying if he said it wasnât concerning.Â
Even more worrisome was the fever emanating from you. Azriel could feel the heat on his shoulder and he could tell you hadnât stopped to rest.Â
âI know a healer that can help. She wouldnât say anything to anyone,â Azriel said after a beat of silence.Â
You paused your fingers in Melanieâs hair. âDo you promise?âÂ
The sickness had worn you down, taking the fight and fear right out of you.Â
âI promise on everything. I wouldnât bring someone here that wasnât safe.âÂ
Azriel called Majda.Â
Majda arrived in a few minutes, much to your surprise. Azriel had gotten the door upon her knock, his eyes catching the way your knees shook as you went to stand.Â
Majda kneeled in front of the couch where you and Azriel once were, her healing magic lighting up the room. Behind her, Azriel stood with you and he watched.Â
He watched your worried brow and the way you picked at your fingers. He watched the flush on your face get worse and worse as your daughterâs illness gradually got you sicker. He watched the way you tracked each of Majdaâs movements, ready to jump in at a momentâs notice.Â
He watched your body shake as it held you up.Â
He watched his mate and saw how alone you were.Â
Azriel reached up and tucked a hair behind your pointed ear, using the ploy to feel for the temperature on your cheek. You turned to look up at him and he felt the way his expression strained.Â
âYou should let her look at you too,â he said, voice low and calm.
You shook your head. âIâm okay. Iâm fine.âÂ
âYou arenât.âÂ
You turned back to your daughter, looking on.Â
Azriel no longer cared for the farce heâd been putting on. He stepped closer and let his palm rest on the small of your back if only to support you from collapsing. He saw you glance at him from the corner of your eye, but you made no move to step away.Â
It took Majda 13 minutes to come to a conclusion. Azriel knew that because he had been counting.Â
âWell, first of all, she will be okay. As will you, as I see you may have the same illness,â the older healer spoke, rising from the ground with a grunt. âIt is most unusualâwhat ails you. Do you have Autumn's blood?âÂ
The fingers you had pressed to your mouth were abruptly dropped. You looked up to Azriel with panic in your eyes, a question clear in your expression.Â
He hadnât known where you were from, but he had guessed, and you were looking at him as if he knewâas if he knew and you wanted to know if it was safe for the healer to know as well.Â
Azriel nodded his head and ignored the bittersweet feeling in his chest.Â
He had wanted you to tell him when you were ready.Â
âYes,â you uttered, shaking your head much faster than you spoke. âWe both are. Is thatâdoes that have something to do with it?â
Majda offered you a thin smile. âYou have Autumn fever. Something to do with the fire that lingers in your blood. Sometimes it does not align with the other courts and your body revolts. It will pass in a few days as most. Uncomfortable bugger to be sure, but nothing that cannot be managed.âÂ
You sagged against Azriel in relief, the shadowsinger catching your weight as your knees buckled. He pulled you closer to his front but didnât feel complete until he guided you back to the couch and leaned over Melanie as she slept.Â
âSheâll be okay?â you asked.Â
Azriel thought the question was for Majda, but when he looked to his side you were staring directly at him, fear and fever in your gaze.Â
He lost his breath and captured your face in his hands. âSheâll be okay,â he assured. You were so hot against his skin. âYou will too. Iâll fix it.âÂ
Something righted in your expressionâsomething softened. For the first time since he entered your house, you let out a full breath and allowed your eyelids to drop. It was barely thirty seconds before your head fell as well, your forehead landing on Azrielâs collarbone. He trailed his hand up to rest against your hair and placed his other on Melanieâs knee as he stayed beside the couch.Â
âI hope you know what youâre doing, Shadowsinger,â Majda crooned. âThatâs a whole lot of responsibility. A lot of secrets.âÂ
Azriel tightened his hold on you. âDo you have herbs that would help? To lessen fever or pain?âÂ
Majda hummed. âI will leave a few.â A pause. The floorboards creaked as Majda went to make her exit. âHeed my words, Azriel.âÂ
âI know what Iâm doingâwhat Iâm getting myself into.â He dropped his nose to your temple, listening to your breath as you slept. His shadows continued their mission of cooling Melanieâs feverish skin.Â
âDo you?âÂ
Azriel considered the question, and no, he didnât know.Â
But he couldnât find it within himself to care.
part five
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needy ellie that loves your tits so much
she needs to fuck them?
ellie williams x fem! reader!
cw; +18 content! minors dni!!, dove fucking (r! receiving), oral sex (e! receiving), face fucking (r! receiving), praise kink, use of good girl, cursing, cum play, cum eating, nipple and tit play, beggingâŠ
sheâs kissing at them, tongue out as she laps at your nipples, long cold fingers groping at the fat of your tits in need, in hunger.
âperfect fucking tits.â sheâd mutter, her pupils wide. âlove your tits so much baby.â youâd tug at her hair, moaning at her touch and kisses. âwant to fuck them so badâŠâ she muttered against your skin, a bruise on the swell of your breast.
you sighed, your back arching and mind reeling at the thought of her fucking your chest. âdo it.â you breathed out, and her green fern eyes locked onto yours.
âyeah?â she inquired, her tongue drawing circles on your nipple, teasing you.
âyeah.â you whimpered. âfuck my tits, el.â she was quick to move then, taking off her tank top âleaving her beautiful and perky tits exposed to your hungry eyesâ and getting on her knees, her fingers breaching her briefs to pull them down her lean thighs and throwing them onto the floor of your bedroom. she straddled you, making her way up to your chest until her mound stood right in front of you, her slick folds making your mouth water.
âyou like it? like to see how wet youâve got me?â two of her fingers came in between her thighs to part her folds and give you a better view of the mess her cunt had become. you moaned, nodding.
âwant it on me, want you to come on me.â you bit down on your lip, arching your back in an attempt to bring her closer to your tits.
âyeah? you want me to cum on those pretty tits of yours baby? make a mess out of you?â you nodded.
âyes, pleaseâŠâ you sweetly begged, making her groan as her pussy pulsed.
ânow, how can i say no to you when you ask for it like that?â you sighed at the feeling of her slick smearing itself on your chest as she sat on it, with a grunt snapping her hips against your breasts, moaning as her clit caught against one of your nipples. âfuuuck baby.â she sighed as she started to slowly rock her hips against you, sweet wet smacks of her cunt against your skin filling the room and your ears.
your hands came up to her own chest, playing with her tits, knowing how sensitive they were. the auburn haired moaned, her hands coming up to yours, squeezing them. you whined at the sight, needy to taste her, to make her feel good.
âuse me.â you begged. she looked down at you. âplease, use me.â
âyou want me to use you, pretty?â you nodded, one of her hands coming down to your jaw, her thumb on your bottom lip. âthen why donât you open your mouth for me, hm? wanna ride your face for a little.â you were quick to pull out your tongue, showing it to her, eager for a taste. âlook at you, so fucking needyâŠâ she smirked, moving up slightly to take a seat on your mouth, moaning at the warmth, at the wetness⊠âgood girlâŠâ she breathily said, rocking her hips, fucking your face and mouth. âgood fucking girl, fuck.â she cursed, her free hand coming to your hair as the other incited you to massage her breast, what you happily did as you sucked on her clit.
you hummed against her pussy, slurping up her juices, your tongue sliding in between her folds just to then wrap your lips around her clit and suck. over and over again, making her whimper, moan, groan and shiver⊠anything you could get out of her youâd get.
youâd stare up into her eyes through your eyelashes, doe pretty eyes hungry to please her.
she hissed when she felt that warmth spreading on her lower stomach, getting away from your mouth, hearing you whine in response. âi wanna cum on your chest, baby. cream up your pretty little tits.â she hushed you, getting back to her previous seat in your breasts, crashing her clit against your skin and nipples. âshit. feels so good⊠gonna cum so hard on you, princess.â she moaned, her rhythm becoming sloppier, losing consistency. your other hand came to her free breast, tweaking the nipple, the stimulation finally making her reach her peak, making her moan, grunt and huff as she came all over your chest, her cum spreading all over your shiny skin. once she had came down from her high she got off of you to kiss you, deeply tasting herself from your mouth before her lips would trail her way down your neck to your slicked chest.
âwhat are you doing?â you moaned, your back arching as her lips sucked on your nipples, her tongue cleaning up her cum from your breasts. a smirk showed on her plush lips before she answered to your question.
âlicking you clean.â
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I thought of you yesterday because I saw fern growing on a tree (not a stump on the ground, an actual upright tree !!) and I didn't know it was possible ! Granted the tree was covered in moss, which might explain it, but still, how awesome !!! (in the Trossachs park, Scotland).
YES I LOVE THESE
This is polypody fern! Or Polypodium vulgare if you want to be formal. It loves loves LOVES misty and moist environments, so Scotland and Wales have shit tons of the stuff, especially into the rainforests. Fun thing: it's super adaptable in growth sites, so it can be either a lithophyte (growing on rocks) or an epiphyte (growing on trees). And it doesn't care where on the tree it is, either. It works with what it's got.
The rhizome is edible, and was traditionally used in nougat flavourings because of its bittersweet flavour - I remember reading somewhere that the compound that gives the sweetness is 500 times sweeter than pure sugar, if you can extract it. It's also a laxative though, so you win some you lose some (literally)
Such a cool plant though. You were right to bring this to me. I love them.
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Your First Impression of Your Person
Pile 1 - Pile 2 - Pile 3
Remember, this is a general reading and it may not resonate for everyone or completely. Tarot is a tool to help guide but you are responsible for your actions and life, you choose your path.
I was leaning more towards a romantic partner that you are going to end up with that will have a significant place in your life but take it as it resonates for you.
Tips!
|Pile 1
Tarot: Eight of Swords (horizontal), Death, The High Priestess, Seven of Pentacles, Ten of Cups (horizontal), Page of Cups, Four of Pentacles, The Star (reversed), The Fool
Oracle: The Ladybug and Sweet Pea (happiness), The Chipmunk and Laurel (success), The Otter and Cattail (peace)
This person is someone that your soul has been letting you know was coming with certain signs or messages. And this could be someone you wished for, but there is a strong sense that this person was just meant to come into your life. Itâs like you wished for this person and didnât know that they were gonna come in whether you wished for them or not. I believe fate and freewill coincide together and this is one of those grey areas.Â
Your person comes in either when a new chapter starts for you or this person comes in and triggers it. Whichever this new chapter is happening, there is a feeling of uncertainty and pessimistic caution - as if trust had been bruised. You almost feel like a wolf backed into a corner and someone is encroaching on your space and youâre trying to decide if they are safe or if you need to bite your way out of a situation. I donât know if the new chapter has left you feeling a little vulnerable or if you did your little spells (writing down your persons characteristics, a letter from their POV of you, or moodboards), but it took longer than you expected so you developed a resentment of some kind. Youâre skeptical of them. Itâs like a âoh, now you decide to show up when I donât want you anymore.â But you know that you still do but your own expectations have hurt you. Your person has done nothing to you.
In fact, you decide to give them a singular cup with caution to see if they can fill it because you still want them. Youâre treading lightly and they realize this. They genuinely want to offer you ten full cups and you realize that quickly with how much they bring to the table. They do bring you a lot of happiness and peace, which their entrance into your life probably wasnât anything grand. Their peaceful stroll into your life probably made you skeptical as well as angry. âBut they are what you need(ed).â You probably expected something dramatic because of past people or situations and when you didnât get that from your person, it felt unsafe. You may have some doubts and think âthis wasnât what I wished for.â But it was, deep down it was. And your wishes were a success.
I think you will be very emotional after dropping the wall finally. I think they will do something that will show you that they love you early on and it will make your walls instantly fall. Thereâs a feeling of guilt for being so resentful and angry towards your person and you may not know how to forgive yourself. But just know, your person says that you have nothing to be sorry for. There could be a moment when you decide to tell them this and your tears will be dried by them.
|Pile 2
Tarot: The Hierophant, The Hanged Man, Nine of Pentacles, Nine of Swords, The Empress, Ace of Wands, The Lovers, Four of Wands, The Star
Oracle:Â The Eel and Iris (safety), The Boar and Pumpkin (confidence), The Snake and Fern (starting over), The Skunk and Magnolia (protection)
Before I pull the cards, I ended up shuffling face up for a moment. Your person may show you all their cards upfront so you know what they want, their boundaries, and their feelings towards you. There isnât any pussy-footing around feelings and playing games. They are too grown for that and they take love and relationships very seriously. I had to go back and pull an oracle card I say while resetting the deck and it was The Eel and Iris card which represents safety in this deck. There are two messages here. They will leave if they donât think you are safe. They are slimy in the way of being able to get away if you start to play with their heart, not that they are a player and wiggle in and out of your life. Absolutely not. And they offer you and your heart a lot of safety by presenting all their cards to you right away. They donât play games. If itâs important, Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls could hold significance. - Just from getting all these messages without pulling any cards, or just from this one oracle card, I have a very strong feeling about this message. They get to business in a very determined and sure-footed way. They are dependable.
Now that I pulled the cards, my top messages are correct. You will find their confidence very attractive because it doesnât come off in a cocky way. Their confidence comes off just in a sure and stable way. They made it very clear to you that they find you âabsolutely breathtakingâ as soon as they got to talk to you (and in the same moment, they ask you on a date and your NUMBER, not your social media.) I think they will also be very attractive and not someone you expect to be attracted to you. They are very successful -Â everything else in their life is in line but they donât have a lover. They are very picky so you should feel lucky they chose you. They are looking for commitment, something serious. For some this could be marriage but if you donât like that idea, make that clear right away because they will like how youâre sure of your wants. They will respect it, especially if you make it abundantly clear that you want something committed and long term outside of legal bindings.Â
There is a lot of sexual tension in this pile. And there is a very wealthy energy coming off the both of you, especially with how formal I felt writing this. It was like I was writing a contract.Â
I think that they will also let you know pretty early on that this could be a start over for them and they are giving love one more try before giving up. Maybe they couldâve given up before hand but you two got sexually involved and it led to them giving the both of you a shot. With them laying their cards on the table and you laying down yours, it creates a very stable foundation for the both of you to grow off of. This feels like a very mature energy, maybe 30s? There is a feeling of creating some sort of foundation for yourself, even it you could just be starting your foundation then.
|Pile 3
Tarot: Three of Swords, The Hierophant, Ace of Wands, Judgement, Knight of Wands, Queen of Cups, The Hermit, Nine of Cups, Temperance, Strength
Oracle: The Wolf and Rose Hip (guardianship), The Vulture and Asphodel (upheaval), The Sheep and Blackberry (devotion)
The Three of Swords instantly jumped out when I started shuffling. And before I started, the knight of cups was at the bottomâŠI believe your person wanted to bring your own heartbreak to light first and foremost. I donât believe this card is part of your impression of them. This feels like a combination of their opinion of you combined with what you think of them. Thereâs a deep feeling of heartbreak from you but I donât think youâve given up on love, you really just want to finally meet the person youâll spend your life with. The love of your life. This pile isnât for someone seeking something temporary.
Pile 3, your person is the love of your life. They truly love you and I think that is why they wanted me to talk about you first. They come in very protectively, a wolf guarding their sheep. Itâs not that youâre fragile but they have a good understanding that you are sensitive and a soft soul, which brings out their protective side. I think you welcome it because there is a feeling of instant safety you get from this person, like finally finding shelter to stand under while the rain clouds clear up. They instantly light up the passion you had for love again because they come in with the same passion, which isnât inherently sexual either. This passion comes from a place of safety and comfort from each other, itâs like finally experiencing a love that isnât so intense. Puppy loveâŠmaybe love that is usually experienced when youâre younger. There is a sense of them bringing back light-hearted fun, that love doesnât have to be so taxing on your soul (and it shouldnât be).Â
There is a message of, âyour patience will be rewarded.âÂ
They see you as an angel, pile 3. And they are merely your knight and they offer you so much devotion. I know this should be your first impression of them but I think you see this practically right away. âLight dawns on marble head.â They bring you out of the hermit phase and show you that they have all nine cups and you only need to bring your one cup so you can have the Ten of Cups together. They donât expect anything other than your presence, you just have to show up and give them love. Thatâs all they expect from you and I think that comes as a surprise to you because people had expected so much of you and stripped you of it all so you were left empty. It probably took you a long time to fill your own cup again. They bring new and wanted change even though it may come with some uncomfortability from your end.Â
Dividers: @inklore
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He likes occupying the same space as Tommy. It's - every time he looks across a room and sees him he just wants all the space between them to disappear. And - okay - yeah - Tommy has, like occupied space inside of Buck so there's - there's a little Pavlovian tic somewhere in the goo Tommy's smile can turn his brain into but also -
He likes the way it feels when they're side by side - naked or clothed - and Tommy arches his shoulder to smack it into Buck's. He likes the way his eyes dart, when they're breathing the same air and he's thinking about kissing Buck - which is a look he relishes now as much for the knowledge that he's about to be kissed as for the knowledge that he'd seen this look a half dozen times before they ever got to the kissing part. He likes the way Tommy occupies Buck's space - never overbearing but always close, close, close like if Buck asked they'd melt pieces of themselves and stick them together before everything cooled back down. He likes the way they can't quite hold hands without their arms brushing, and the way Tommy ducks his head when Buck exaggerates a flirty head tilt.
He likes a lot of things about Tommy.
He likes the way he grudgingly enters a gay bar because it's not really his scene and ends the night with a drag queens feather boa wrapped around his neck while he sings the Gaga parts of Shallow even if he gets a little pitchy.
He likes the way Tommy boops his nose, out of the blue while he's listening to Buck explain something that has no bearing on either one of them or the thing they're working towards together - still listening with rapt attention but also a little devastatingly charmed by Buck's rambles, of all things.
He likes the way his nose scrunches up when he laughs, soft and genuine, the way when he's really feeling it the ears draw back too.
He likes the way he sounds, that first time (and every time after) Buck found his prostate and he whined like a fucking siren.
He likes the way his face softens even when he's tired, worn around the edges as Buck flings a sock into his laundry basket and tucks his head up under Tommy's chin.
He hates the way Tommy shuts down every time Buck tries to bring up the future.
And it's not like - it's not like Buck isn't aware they'd sort of speed run some milestones. House keys swapped with the sort of flippancy you'd expect out of two guys whose schedules rarely lined up. A drawer in Bucks's loft for the clothes Tommy always left behind, because for some reason he liked to fling them over the balcony instead of stuff them back in his overnight bag. A toothbrush at Tommy's a month and a half in, which wouldn't be all that strange except for he'd gone out of his way to buy the same electric one Buck had in his bathroom vanity. The pin to each others phones, swapped and repeated until it was muscle memory and three weeks ago Buck had grabbed the wrong phone but he'd seen the lock screen of the two of them from their hike in Fern Dell and he'd punched the code in like it was rote before he'd even been fully awake.
Tommy'd hit a wall, though, the first time Buck brought up his lease. And it wasn't - Buck isn't always the best about understanding the shit going on in his own head, but he actually hadn't been going any particular direction there, it'd just been something to fill the lull that had popped in his head and -
Of course, when Tommy froze the fuck up Buck decided to poke at it like a particularly nasty yellowing bruise.
Kids - not his own, just the nebulous idea of them. (Tommy shifted to a conversation about cars so smoothly it'd taken Buck half an hour to notice.)
Marriage - not his own thoughts about it, just that Bobby and Athena had an anniversary coming up and man didn't it suck that Maddie and Chim never got the wedding they wanted and he'd gone to one once in Montana and it'd been in a barn and they'd had candles in Mason jars for their centerpieces before that was the thing to do. (Tommy booped his nose and scrunched his face and held out a ladle of tomato sauce for Buck to try and - son of a bitch he'd known it needed more acid and that Buck would get distracted with recipe talk.)
Homes - the idea of them. Tommy's century old ranch style rental and how it fit him, Bobby and Athena's hunt for a new home, how quiet Eddie's always felt without Chris there, and Tommy had spent an hour listing off all the things he'd fixed up for his landlady and the rent she'd been stubbornly stuffing back through his mail slot every time she found out exactly how much the labor alone for a full copper repipe cost.
So it's.
He's just.
He hates that he's about to do this, here, with his ankle hooked by Tommy's toes under the table at Micelli's when they're supposed to be enjoying six months but he's been on edge for weeks now and he's - God he wants this to work but if Tommy doesn't want to talk future then are they just gonna spend their whole lives stumbling into the next milestone? He doesn't want -
"I had something I wanted to ask -," Tommy starts, right as Buck opens his big mouth and blurts, "I want kids and that's kind of a deal breaker for me."
Tommy blinks.
Buck blinks back.
Not much better than Hot Chicks, as far as Buck is concerned. But Tommy's mouth quirks at the corners, and he jiggles his toes against the back of Buck's ankle, and -
Tommy blows out a breath. "Oh thank God."
"What?"
So he's -
Buck's confused.
"You've been fishing for months now and I thought you were..." Tommy grimaces. When he leans forward to reach for Buck's hand, his arms are tense and his fingers are clumsy. "I thought we'd gone too fast and you were throwing us in reverse and stepping on the gas."
"What," Buck says again, and rewinds.
Kids: where he'd tried to drop the bomb that there was one out in the world who already had half his genetic code and then blazed along to talk about how Chris was his favorite person in the world and Maddie had struggled with Jee and the whole foster debacle made him terrified of all the stress involved in state sanctioned parenthood.
Marriage: where he'd made some dumb joke about how many marriages ended in divorce and then reminded Tommy how much he hated the fact that weddings cost like a third of a years salary, and then told a horrendous anecdote about the way Eddie had asked Buck to come by one night after Shannon only to find him keyed up out back, with the fire pit going and Shannon's things still tucked into their plastic bag on a stool right next to it.
Home: where he'd told Tommy the house in Hershey was like a prison and he'd never felt more himself than wandering the continent trying to find himself and how the loft was suffocatingly open and of the two places where he always felt welcome, one had burned down and the other had been missing an occupant for so long it had felt sad and oppressive.
Foot in mouth Buckley.
"I brought up my lease and you looked like you were trying to figure out if you could hurdle three tables in one leap to get to the door."
Tommy groans. It's. Buck wants to be annoyed by it but he's charmed as ever.
"That - I did do that."
"So. I'm just. Tommy, I..." Because he's given himself time to think about it, since then, and he really doesn't want to re-up his lease but he's also not sure where to go from here.
"It wasn't what you're thinking, though," Tommy says, and there's a wry tilt to his grin. "Irene wants to sell me the house," he continues, and - there's got to be a point, here.
"Okay."
He likes that house. The lived in feel, the easy walk to a little public market where Buck can always find something healthy and Tommy can always come home with a growler of some new craft beer, the avocado tree in the yard and the renovations Tommy has spent half a decade on.
"When you brought it up I'd just spent two weeks trying to convince myself it was too early to ask you if you wanted to sign up for a mortgage with me."
Six months. A redo of their first embarrassing date. The wine, instead of pitchers of beer. I had something I wanted to ask -
"I want to be married, someday," Buck says, and Tommy's thumb skitters over his wrist. "And - the kid thing. That's still a deal breaker."
Tommy nods. Maybe not a surprise, but - still. That feels important.
"I still don't understand equity," Buck says, and Tommy. Tommy laughs.
"I can teach you," he says, and Buck swallows. He wants to call the waitress over, ask for too many canolli because Tommy's sweet tooth is a tyrant and Buck is still mystified by how he manages to always be so trim despite the amount of sugar he consumes.
Buck narrows his eyes. "How long a mortgage?"
He has a settlement from the city that's just been sitting around, mocking Buck for years. It'd make a good dent even with LA real estate. Tommy smiles. "Oh, 30 years, for sure, but we could refinance at least a few times."
"That's - a long time."
"Housing bubble might pop soon, and then we'd just be stuck in it."
"It's good we both have dependable government jobs."
Tommy's eyes crinkle, but his face gets serious after a moment. "Evan."
"Ask me."
Maddie's gonna fucking flip, Buck thinks. Eddie is definitely gonna give him a side eye. Bobby - Bobby will get it, probably.
Tommy hums. "You wanna share the tiramisu?" His grin is just this side of teasing, and Buck knocks a knee into his in retaliation. His eyes go soft and warm. "You wanna buy a house with me, Buckley?"
#bucktommy#bucktommy fic#this isn't spec fic this is self-indulgent fluff LOOSELY inspired#by all the interviews and bts#this is mostly just me wanting a list of things buck likes about tommy
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