#and because of that forget something or SOMEONE

[averygayplant]

In addition to this, casual reminder that you don't actually owe anything to people entering your inbox and specifically singling you out to reblog or support or donate. In fact, it's odd they're doing that sort of outreach on Tumblr of all places and reeks of something fishy, because Tumblr really isn't the best place to get any time sensitive message anywhere.

As someone who fell into the cycle of bad news and realized, "Oh, wait, this is making my quality of life worse", it's important empathize and sympathize with the suffering of others to not let those in privilege forget it-- but not to the point where you can't even get on the internet without a squelching feeling in your gut and a 20 pound weight of guilt following you around until you answer some cries for help in the middle of your own crisis.

No matter what a post on tumblr tries to tell you, your moral and ethical stances will never be determined by what you reblog and what you scroll past. Don’t let manipulation tactics force you into doing anything you don’t want to do.

[venusbyline]

Overwhelmed ࿐ྂ Kinktober. 31, oct.

(late post)

— pairing: Spencer Reid x girlfriend!reader

— type: smut, dark, Kinktober (Criminal Minds Edition)

— kink: knife play + CNC

— summary: Spencer's mockery caused a sudden agony in your brain, your insides churning as your body writhed against the knife again. All of that seemed too much. Maybe it was because of the exhaustion of lying motionless in the chair, maybe it was because the ropes were too tight, maybe it was also because Spencer was starting to rub the knife too hard.

— tags/warnings: kinktober 31st day, female!reader, boyfriend!Reid, post-prison!Reid, DEAD DOVE: DO NOT EAT, knife play, consensual non-consent (CNC), kidnapping roleplay, rape roleplay, safeword use, dry humping, dry sex, aftercare, rope bondage, dumbification, curse words, crying, subspace, bittersweet ending, rough sex, spit, choking, asphyxiation, sadism, slight dark content, mild angst, mild fluff, soft!Reid, dom!Reid, sub!reader. no use of y/n. english is not my first language.

— tagging list: @thatredlipped-classic @purplehaze206 @ehedrick012110 @hotchsmutrecs @slutcakes00 @emma-e-a @helo1281917

"Oh, what a naughty girl you are. Did you really think you could get away from me so easily?"

Spencer's words echoed through the room and you whimpered immediately, your panties stuffed into your mouth as a way to muffle the sounds you had been making since Spencer caught you over hours ago, your body cold from the loneliness inside the empty room, the only other thing there being the chair beneath you, your hands and legs tied by a rope whose material was good enough to keep you still even after you tried to squirm when he approached.

"Don't be so hard on me, princess." Spencer teased, chuckling as he walked over until he knelt in front of you, his large hand caressing your cheek. "It could have been worse, couldn't it? When I kidnapped you, I could have been more... Rough." His voice sounded so sweet it turned your stomach and you closed your eyes. Oh, you perfectly remembered about the kidnapping. You were leaving work and all you least expected while you were walking in the parking lot was that you would feel someone grabbing and immobilizing you from behind, the alcohol rag in your nostrils making it difficult for you to escape, until you finally passed out.

Spencer played with your cheek, caressing the skin like you were a doll. A living doll. God, you could even picture him turning you into something like that if you could not escape. "You're so beautiful. Your boyfriend must be such a lucky guy to have you all to himself... A little doll for him to have fun with every night." You opened your eyes when you heard the sentence, your pupils dilating after assimilating what he meant, and it took you a few seconds to react, returning to scream against the fabric of your panties. Spencer ignored the muffled sounds and let his hand trail down your neck, his fingertips brushing your jugular. "I'd like to have you as my doll. What do you think about that, princess?"

You stared at him with the best look of disgust you could muster, hearing Spencer's soft chuckle before he scoffed. "Poor little thing, I almost forget that you can't talk like that." He continued stroking your neck, but his free hand went to your mouth, removing your panties and smirking at the sight of you choking on the sudden intake of air through your mouth, your lungs burning more with each cough. "Better now?" Despite the mean voice, you noticed how Spencer was checking you out, waiting for a verbal response.

After continuing to cough for a while, you managed to mumble. "F-fuck you. You fucking and sick psycho."

Spencer's facial expression was almost comical, his brown eyes wide and his lips parted, trying to think of something clever to say. However, even the genius man with his extremely high and above average IQ was not prepared for your very angry tone and your swearing.

You take advantage of his momentary distraction to spit in his face, and that was what makes him snap out of his trance. Spencer growled, wiping the trail of saliva on his face with the cotton fabric of your panties and looked at you with fire in his eyes. The hand that was playing with your neck closed around it, your eyes widening as you feel the air being denied to you for the second time.

"Fucking slut. I was really trying to be nice to you." Spencer growled again. "Is this how you treat your little boyfriend? Spitting in his face like a wild badass? I don't think so..." Spencer's jaw clenched and he released your throat then. He considered shoving the panties in your face again, until he found a better use for the fabric, stuffing it inside his pocket.

You barely had time to register what was happening. One moment, you were coughing, your throat sore from the asphyxiation, and the next, you were a mess of moans and low screams, rubbing yourself against something hard that you were not sure what it was until you looked down.

Your pussy was simply rubbing against the tip of the handle of Spencer's knife, something he was keeping in his pants pocket along with the leather glove he nimbly put on when you were still struggling to breathe. He took advantage of the strength of the glove's fabric to hold the blade and stimulate your swollen clit with the wooden handle, your legs tied to the chair making your thighs press together, also making the friction more intense for you and more fun for Spencer to watch. "Poor little thing..."

Spencer's mockery caused a sudden agony in your brain, your insides churning as your body writhed against the knife again. All of that seemed too much. Maybe it was because of the exhaustion of lying motionless in the chair, maybe it was because the ropes were too tight, maybe it was also because Spencer was starting to rub the knife too hard.

You could not tell what was happening to your body and inside your mind, but you suddenly snapped. "STOP IT, PLEASE!" You cried out, trying in vain to stop your clit from continuing to pulse against the knife held by Spencer.

Spencer froze when he heard your voice, so fragile and painful. These words normally would not be enough to completely stop the roleplay. They were words always said during the roles. However, Spencer was not an idiot. He knew his girlfriend like the back of his own hand and knew something was wrong. Your scream sounded much more broken than most other times.

"Color?" Spencer asked, moving the knife away from your field of vision, still keeping it in his hand. "Baby, what's the color right now?"

You closed your eyes and took a deep breath when your clit stopped being so abused, tears flowing as you tried to think about your color system. Did you just want a brief break so the two of you could continue after you breathing for a few more moments? Did you want to stop the roles completely? Could you hold on a little longer? Were you too exhausted? Was Spencer mad at you? "Red. Or yellow. Or red... I don't know, Spencie. Please... I just wanna stop it." Your sob broke Spencer's heart, your tears being like salt in the wound. He did not take long to throw the knife on the floor, whispering an apology when you were startled by the sound of the blade hitting the floor.

"It's okay, baby. You're fine. We're fine. It's over. Now it's just me. Your Spencie, your boyfriend." Spencer muttered as he undid the tight knots he had made to immobilize your arms and legs. "You were so good to me, baby. You're always good. I'm so proud of you..."

You shook your head, tears still streaming down your face. You did not feel good enough for Spencer at that moment. Even though it was just your brain playing tricks on you, you could not help but feel useless. Why could not you hold on just a little longer? Both of you always played like that when Spencer was feeling bad about the prison memories. It was a way to help him fight the traumas he had acquired and his slightly dark side that had awakened. You did not know if it was actually a healthy sexual thing to do, but Spencer refused to talk about that part with the therapist.

Anyway, Spencer had your consent. It was something the two of you had already talked about and debated about his boundaries and yours. Sometimes the roleplay had a brief script to be followed and everything varied depending on the needs of both of you. In that week, you and Spencer had decided to go again for something more like an obsessive stalker and a taken girl. Spencer really had a thing for that kink, and you mentally wondered if he pictured your fake boyfriend in the roleplay as the past version of himself.

It was not anything you had not already done. It was always the controversial "consensual non-consent" roleplay. Spencer always gave his all to act perfectly, warning you in advance the day before that something like this would happen that night. You could blame it on tiredness from work, because you had actually forgotten about it when Spencer "kidnapped" you, even though you had followed his commands throughout the afternoon about parking your car away from the security cameras so no one would think he was really kidnapping you. He definitely did not need more time in prison for another mistake by the authorities.

"I-I'm so sorry..." You managed to mumble a few minutes later, the only words in your mind since Spencer untied you, picked you up and ran a warm bath for you.

"There's nothing to worry about, baby." Spencer said, running the sponge gently over your skin, taking extra care with your wrists, which were quite red and bruised due the ropes. "I overdid it this time. I left you waiting too long alone in the room and—"

You interrupted him when you realized he was blaming himself. "Stop it, Spencer. You did everything like we always do. I could have taken more... I just... I felt overwhelmed this time. It all felt like too much. I had too much stress at work and I even forgot a little about what would happen today." Your eyes opened to look at him, noticing that he also had a few tears in those beautiful and big sad eyes.

"I'm so, so sorry. I should have noticed." You shook your head again and Spencer sighed at your stubbornness, taking your wrist gently and placing a few soft kisses on your raw skin. "I'll make it up to you, I promise, baby."

You wanted to say that he did not need to make up anything. That he had not done anything wrong. You had used the color system as you should. You had said your safeword like you were supposed to. You wanted to tell him that you loved him and that he did not need to feel guilty about that situation. There were so many things to be said, clarified and reflected on, but both of you knew that was not the time yet. Spencer could deal with your silence for a while longer. He would bathe you carefully as you relaxed in the bathtub. He would apply ointment to your bruises, and apply body oil to the rest of your skin. He would dry your hair and lay you down on your large and soft bed, only leaving the room for a few quick minutes to get you some tea. Then, Spencer would let you rest and sleep, until your body and mind returned to stability and the two of you could talk about everything that had happened.

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[saphiccarma]

Could do a agathaRio Vidal x goddess!reader *angst and death of a character*

R is basically the goddess of creation *her powers are like a counterpart for Rio meaning whenever she collects the souls of people that die, r creates new life and both usually never interfere with each other Job unlesss it absolutely necessary and is dating both. Rio and her are very close to each other because of their powers working together as one so it’s not surprising that Agatha falls for both and working together to create life using magic*

She may not have known about Agatha having a son, she can feel her anguish and pain and hates when both fight and Agatha being angry at both of them

During Rio and Agatha fighting each other, r makes the biggest sacrifice by trading her life to bring back Nicholas *she love them both and would anything to make them happy even giving up her powers for them but there a big penalty of using magic like this and falling in love while making sure she does her job with no distraction. she watches over them in spirit even sending a sign letting them know she ok but also tells Agatha that Billy needs her guidence*

Both Rio and Agatha feeling regret and guilt because of this and makes sure Nicholas never forget r and her heroic deed *r acts like a third mother to nicky*

- And if she grabs for your hand, and drags you along

Relationships: Agatha Harkeness x Rio Vidal x Reader

Summary: Even in Death, you found a way to watch over your family.

Warnings: Character death. Nothing else (lemme know if I missed anything)

A/N: Took me a hot minute, but this was really fun to write. Sorry if it strayed a bit from the original request, but I hope it's still satisfying!

Death and Life were often seen as counterparts, and on a surface level, they were. Death was associated with destruction and decay. Life was often thought of as creation and blossoming flowers. You and Rio were supposed to be exact opposites.

For the most part, you were. Rio was sarcastically playful and sharp, and you were blunt yet soft.

You created life. Whenever Rio stole, you gave. Whenever you breathed life into a new soul, Rio sucked someone clean of their life. It was a delicate balance that had to be maintained  

In the thousands of years (honestly you had lost track) that the two of you had worked together to create balance, you had grown close. A relationship had developed. One that was strictly meant to be had outside of your job. It was not meant to interfere with your duties.

But that promise that deal, became increasingly hard when a certain someone came along. Agatha Harkness.

A witch killer, a woman with chaos magic. At first you were cautious about interacting with her, instead choosing to hang back as Rio teased and flirted with your permission of course. It was amusing to watch Rio fumble slightly at Agatha's snappy remarks. Typically, she was the one on top in your relationship. Most metaphorically and literally. Then as time passed, you found out why Rio had fallen for Agatha.

She was just a young witch trying to survive in a world that was not meant for witches. Most witches would curl their lips at her, she was a coven less witch after all, but all you saw was the best parts about her. Her humor that never failed to make you laugh, the softness of her lips, her hands that trailed down your body gently - savoring every bit of it. What was meant to be something that never developed turned into something more.

Two divine beings, goddesses, had fallen in love with a mere witch. It was straight out of a fairy tale.

And when you mixed Death and Life with a mortal vessel, well, you got something interesting. You were given a child fated to die. At first, you hardly noticed the life brewing in Agatha's stomach. It was masked by a cloud of death. It was a child that was never meant to live.

But as her stomach grew in size and she became even harsher than usual, you realized something was up. Rio had known all along. She could feel the trail of death that followed Agatha around like a lost puppy, hovering over her stomach and waiting for the right moment. You tried not to let it hurt that neither of them told you.

You didn't find out until the child was born.

Sitting in the forest, playing with flowers, you gasped as you felt an anomaly enter the world. A creature that was born of Life and Death. Something that made your powers go wild and spring you into action. You teleported instantly, eyes widening at the sight before you.

Agatha was leaning up against a tree, her breath heavy and blood slowly dripping from between her legs, and her eyes were trained in front of her. Death stood there, dressed in an elegant green dress, and her lips pursed, and brows furrowed. She was apologetic.

You tilted your gaze towards the witch, eyes narrowing in on her. She was giving birth. She was with child.

"You are with child?" Your words were said slowly, offended that you were not told.

Eyes snapping towards you, Agatha exhaled sharply, tears pooling in her eyes, "Clearly," her tone was clipped and tight with pain, "Please, my love, let him live." It was a plea for life, begging Life herself to let Death's child live.

Your fingers twitched as you glanced at Rio, and with one look you knew that you could not save this child. Agatha must have noticed because she let out a near animalistic sound.

"If you do this, I will hate you both forever," she snarled, yet her eyes betrayed her harsh tone. They were filled with tears and desperation. She was pleading for her son to live. Your heart broke at her fragility, and you wanted nothing more than to give her what she wanted.

Rio sighed, "I cannot my love. She is unable to do it." She gestured towards you.

Pressing further into the tree, Agatha shook her head, "I won't let you."

Slowly, Rio tried to take a step forward, but a weak purple glow flickered in Agatha's hands. Your breathing quickened. Rio stopped when she noticed the magic, unwilling to hurt her girlfriend, but she had a job to do.

The gears turned in your head. Rio was only required to collect a soul. An eye for an eye. It didn't matter what soul really, as long as she met her quota for the day then her job would be fulfilled. And before you could stop yourself, you blurted,

"Take me," Both women snapped their heads towards you, "My life should be enough. He can live forever. Take me instead."

You could see Rio considering it, her mind mulling over the possibilities. You knew it was possible; it had to be. Agatha let out a cry of pain. You rushed towards her, steadying her before lowering her to the ground.

She gripped your arm tightly, "I don't- You can't-"

Emotions were at war inside her. On one hand, she didn't want to lose you, she couldn't. But on the other, Agatha wanted this child so much. She wanted to be better than her mother, she wanted to cherish him or her and love and care for her baby forever.

Wrapping your arms around her, savoring in her warmth, you placed a kiss on her forehead. Her fingernails were digging into your skin, hard enough to draw blood, but you hardly cared. Instead, you held her as she bit down on her own teeth.

Rio said nothing, her hands clenched at her sides as she watched the two of you. In that moment, she knew that there was nothing she could do that would stop you. It was better this way anyways. Being a goddess had its perks, so she suspected that you would still be able to visit in ghost form. (And if you weren't then she would take Agatha and the child to visit you.)

Agatha cried out as she pushed the child, clutching onto you tightly, a lifeline as pain flared through her. You held her tightly, willing to be her support and offered Rio a soft smile. Death had never hated her job more. You could feel the life leave the boy the minute he left his mother body, but at the same time, Rio took your soul. You didn't have to die for it to happen, but you felt yourself leaving.

"Can I see him?" You asked faintly, giving Rio a pleading glance. This situation was hitting her the hardest out of all of you, at least emotionally. She didn't want to take your soul. Even though she would still be able to see you, Rio didn't want to cause any more pain to Agatha.

She nodded, barely perceptible, and you offered her a dazzling smile. Your arm was burning Agatha's tight grip, but you hardly cared, instead tears welled in your eyes when Agatha released you and cradled a little boy. He was bloody and crying loudly, but he was perfect. Giving Agatha one last squeeze, you placed a kiss on top of her head, before bending down to press another to the boy's head.

"Goodbye my loves."

Agatha looked like she was going to cry, but instead she just clenched her jaw and held her child tightly. You stood and approached Rio. Death had her eyes shut, lips pursed tightly, and you cupped her face.

"It's alright," you whispered, her eyes fluttered open when you caressed her cheekbones, "I want this."

Rio swallowed thickly, but took a hold of your wrists, and then you were gone.

^_____________^

Nicholas was turning five today. Your ghostly form drifted towards the house, a soft smile on your face. You may be slightly transparent and could float and drift through things, but you could become physical enough to enter the mortal plane and interact with things. Slowly, you opened the door as quietly as possible and slipped inside. You could feel Rio already inside.

Apparently, you weren’t quiet enough, because footsteps came barreling towards you. A tiny body crashed into yours. Your form flickered slightly, not that Nicky noticed, but you crouched down, wrapping your arms around him.

"Mom!" he cried, burying his face into your shoulder. You laughed softly and placed a kiss to the top of his head.

"Hello, my little love," you cooed, "I brought you something." Nicky pulled away, bouncing on his toes excitedly. Even in death, your powers still worked. With a wiggle of your fingers, a plant appeared, potted already. It was a Venus fly trap, several plant mouths dangling open. "A Venus fly trap," you whispered.

Nicky blinked wide eyes, a smile curling at his lips. He looked so much like Rio. Delicately, as if afraid he would break it, Nicky told ahold of the plant. You laughed as he bolted off, shouting for his mama and mami.

"Bring it down," Agatha chastised gently. Despite her tone there was a soft glimmer of amusement in her eyes, and she placed a hand on Nicky's shoulder. He held the plant up to her face and Agatha pulled back slightly. "Very interesting."

Rio stood behind her, a small smile curling at her lips as she met your eyes, "Of course, you have to outdo me every time."

You raised a brow.

"Mami forgot," he said bluntly, yet you didn't believe that for one second. Rio would never forget. She shrugged cryptically and hid a large smile into Agatha's neck.

Turns out, you found out several hours later that Rio got Nicky a goat. Suffice to say, Agatha was not happy, but Nicholas certainly was - based on his excited screams and overjoyed clapping.

^_______________^

Squirming relentlessly, Nicky screamed as Rio dangled him over the water by his ankles. It was a lake day with the four of you. Agatha and you lounged on the shore, with you curling into her side, and Agatha rolling her eyes at Rio's antics. Your form had been flickering in and out of the mortal plane that day, but you still chose to hang out regardless. Being the girlfriend of death may have allowed you to break some rules, but that didn't mean the laws of nature had to like it. You weren't supposed to be here.

"Should I drop him?" Rio hollered. She stood over a small cliff, just about a yard above the water.

Nicky shook his head, "No!"

She ignored him. You laughed softly, sitting up slightly from your spot next to Agatha. The woman pouted when you extracted yourself from her grip, but sat up with you, her arm wrapping around your shoulders.

"I don't know," You gave a hum of consideration, "He didn't give me a hug when I showed up."

With Nicholas getting older, him now being eleven years, he began acting moodier. Like he didn't care. You knew that he still did, but it still hurt a little. Nicky stared at you, betrayed at your words, and let out a scream as Rio dropped him. Blowing you a kiss, Rio jumped in after him.

You giggled and pressed a kiss onto Agatha's cheek. The two of them emerged seconds later, Nicky propped up on Rio's shoulders and her arms digging into his sides as she tickled her. He was screaming, squirming in her grip, and trying to fight Rio off.

"Mom!" He called for help, "Mama!"

Agatha rolled her eyes, but reluctantly stood, offering you a hand. You took it with a soft smile and waded into the water. Rio and your son were back under, presumably wrestling, and you could see ripples on the surface.

You shrieked as something touched your ankle, sending Agatha a withering glare when she smothered a cackle. Then, you were being yanked under the water, fully submerged. Arms were wrapped around you, and you were grateful you didn't need to breath to survive, because water would have flooded your lungs.

Seconds later, you were dragged up, Agatha's arms hoisting you up. She was cackling relentlessly and her head was thrown back. You gave her a side eye, shoving at her harshly, and she fell into the water.

"Hey!" She spluttered as she emerged, her hair clinging to her face. As she began to come over to you, ready to take revenge, she disappeared beneath the water. You burst out laughing.

Something tickled your ankle again, and you floated above the water, a triumphant smirk on your face. Nicky popped above the water, a pout on his face.

"Not fair!"

While he was busy whining at you, Agatha and Rio had emerged in the distance, their lips connecting the moment they noticed Nicky was distracted. You scoffed, pouting a little, but kept Nicky's attention.

"Fairly fair," you smirked down at him and kicked your foot, water splashing in his face.

He spluttered, wiping his hair out of his eyes, and glaring at you. With one sudden movement, you were yanked back under. Nicky had his arms wrapped around your ankles, before moving up to your waist, and you wrapped your arms around him return. Kicking both of you to the surface, you showered his face in kisses, ignoring his protests.

This was your baby boy, and you would do anything to keep him safe.

^_____________^

Despite being hundreds of years old, Nicholas still acted like a moody teenager. You floated beside him, your form only visible to him and Agatha. A boy stood in front of Agatha, going on a fake tirad about how much he read about her. You rolled your eyes. Leaning down so that you were right next to Nicky's ear and he flinched.

"He's fake," you whispered, tilting your head as you studied him. He walked around with an air of death, much similar to Nicky and Rio, although not as strong. His death was covered up by a sigil and some other powerful magic. "And supposed to be dead."

While you didn't appreciated people being fake to your wife, you still felt a pull towards him. He was special, you knew that much, but there was something else. You couldn't quite place your finger on it. During her many years of being alive, Agatha did many cons, mostly to grow her own power, but you think Westview was one of the unnecessary ones. And as you stared at the kid longer, you realized who he was.

Billy Maximoff. He had a familiar air around him. Yet he was supposed to be dead.

Oh Rio would be so pissed.

You hovered over to Agatha and sat on the arm of her chair. She gave you a side-eye and you could tell she was pissed. After Wanda, you may or may not have let her stay under the spell, but it’s not like you could do much to help her anyways. You didn't have a physical form.

"You need to help him."

Agatha rolled her eyes, not that Billy noticed, but she cut him off.

"I'll help you."

Nicholas raised both of his brows, casting you a confused look, and you shrugged with a small smirk.

Oh Rio was going to be so mad at you.

[jajanvm-imbi]

The fact that Stolas was allowed to get away with ALL of the shit he did to Blitz by lying about what he did is honestly a little upsetting.

If Stolas confessed what ACTUALLY happened, if he confessed that he allowed Blitz to use Grimoire for sexual favors, I would maybe have more respect for him.

But he LIED. He spout out this "Mastermind" bullshit and was able to get away with abusing someone of a lower class for his sexual pleasure.

Clarification because people are being stupid:

Wasn't the whole point of Ozzie's and Ozzie/Fizz supposed to be that the idea of Demon Royalty having any sort of intimate relationship was seen as scandalous?

I'm not saying the court would have cared if Stolas abusing an Imp would have gotten him in trouble, but the fact that Stolas slept with an Imp at all would have at least caused some scandal, and Stolas could have faced societal consequences for sleeping with an Imp (in addition for letting an Imp use the Grimoire).

But that detail has been relatively inconsistent throughout the whole series, especially with Bee and Tex.

And it doesn't even matter if Stolas faced legal consequences for sleeping with an Imp, if he just admit what he did was wrong in front of Blitz, taking responsibility IN PUBLIC for his actions would have been better for their supposed "relationship"

It could have shown Blitz that Stolas DID care about him. If this was well written, it could have easily contrasted with what happened in Ozzie's. Stolas hiding his face, ashamed of being seen with Blitz in public, resulting in Blitz feeling rejected, to then Stolas telling all of the most important people in Hell that they DID have a sexual relationship, but he called it off because it didn't feel right anymore.

Like I genuinely don't understand how this is so difficult to understand. What was the point of Stolas lying about having this grand Master plan or whatever if he could have just told the truth and the outcome would have been the same???

But noooooo, we can't do something that makes SENSE in this series in order to have meaningful development, nah we gotta add random shit for no reason!!!

Stolas would have been stripped of his power anyway AND faced the consequences of what he did to Blitz AND it would have developed their relationship in a way that feels MEANINGFUL.

For some strange reason it's like the writers consistently forget things they did in PREVIOUS EPISODES

It would have been so much more impactful if Stolas just told the TRUTH!!!

Stolas faced consequences, but not for his abuse towards Blitz, he only faced the consequences for Blitz's use of the Grimoire.

And we're meant to see it as this big huge heroic romantic gesture towards Blitz????

I'm getting so sick if this shit. I'm getting so sick of Vivziepop REFUSING to actually make Stolas face the consequences for what he did to Blitz. I think she still believes he didn't actually do anything wrong.

And stripping away Stolas's title and power is just a way to try to get people to stop throwing the fact that there is a MASSIVE power in balance in Biltz and Stolas's relationship in her face.

"He's not a prince anymore! They're equals now! They can be together!!" I can hear them say.

Doesn't change the fact that when Stolas WAS a prince, he did in fact ABUSE Blitz

It WAS an abuse of power. Stolas coerced Blitz into a transactional sexual relationship by only giving him access to the Grimoire if Blitz slept with him.

I am going to make the same argument others have made because they are absolutely correct:

If Blitz was a WOMAN, yall would be losing your SHIT over how manipulative and abusive that is.

Just because Blitz said he didn't mind doing it doesn't mean it wasn't an abuse of power.

Edit: I didn't even use the main tags this time???? Where are all of yall Stolas defenders coming from?? I used the critical tags EXCLUSIVELY it's like yall are LOOKING for people to fight with

[randomdragonfires]

in your car, i'm a star (and i'm burnin' through you)

Modern!Aemond Targaryen x Girlfriend!Reader Oneshot

A/N | Yes, I'm still alive. Please take... whatever this is. I started spitballing and two hours later, this happened. Not my best work, lots of plot holes - but hey, at least I remember how to write lol. This was just to get my inspiration back, somewhat. Now I'll go back into hiding.

WARNINGS | NONE. Just a tinge of angst if you squint and complicated family dynamics. Hurt/Comfort drabble, really.

SUMMARY | She knows him, she loves that she does. But does she know him, truly?

WORD COUNT | 2.6k

Inspired by Love Song, by Lana Del Rey.

She knows him—or at least, she thought she did.

She knows him in the way his lip twitches just so, that subtle gesture standing in for a smile. She knows him from the lazy trails his fingers leave on the fogged-up shower glass, the only trace of his presence after he’s gone. She knows the way he walks—calm, feline, serene; as though he owns the room.

She knows his quiet confidence, the understated arrogance. She notices the rhythmic drumming of his fingers against the table as he studies his laptop, sleeves haphazardly rolled up, veins faintly visible beneath his skin. She recognizes how his face stays controlled, concentrated, yet always seems at peace.

She treasures the small things—the jam jar he loosens for her when he knows he’ll be gone before she wakes; he knows she can’t open it herself. She loves the way she seeks his warmth even in sleep, instinctively curling toward him like a moth to flame.

She notices the thoughtful details—the way he sets her mug next to the kettle before he leaves for work, her favorite tea bag already waiting inside. How he leaves his book open to the page she stopped at, knowing she’ll steal it from his nightstand. How he never forgets to replace the batteries in the remote, even though she wouldn’t notice until they were completely dead.

She loves how he adjusts her seatbelt when she forgets, his fingers brushing hers in a wordless reminder. How he orders her fries because he knows she’ll inevitably steal his no matter what. The way he folds her blanket at the end of the couch, even though he pretends it annoys him when she leaves it there.

Or how he always picks up her jacket when she tosses it carelessly over a chair, hanging it up with a faint shake of his head. How he coils her phone charger neatly, even when she leaves it everywhere, and always makes sure to charge her headphones before long trips because she never remembers.

She loves Aemond for who he is. She sees him, appreciates him, loves him, knows him—

Or at least, she thought she did.

He should never have brought her here.

He’s known for some time now—perhaps too long—that this was a mistake. Things are too easy with her, too peaceful, and he’s grown dangerously accustomed to it. The quiet has become a refuge, and he’s taken it for granted, blind to its fragility until now.

He sees how she’s changed him. How the razor-sharp edge he’s carried for so long has dulled in her presence, as if she’s gently worn him down, one quiet moment at a time. The way his heart still jerks when someone taps his shoulder, but her touch—the warm, steady weight of her palm—grounds him instantly. He loves how the bed feels when she’s in it, her warmth a quiet anchor that tethers him to something real. He loves the little hearts she draws on the shower glass when she’s up before him. Does she know it matters? Something so small, so effortlessly delicate, yet it lingers with him long after she’s gone.

He loves the sight of her sprawled on his couch, lying on her stomach with her calves kicked up, grinning at him like his world is hers to brighten. He loves the mess she leaves behind—her makeup scattered across his vanity, evidence of her presence. The second toothbrush in the holder, now a permanent fixture, though the thought of it being gone fills him with a dread he can’t quite name.

Her touch steadies him. Her voice slows him. Her presence halts the chaos of his world, if only for a brief moment, long enough for him to feel like he’s actually a part of it.

And now, she will leave. She’s seen him for what he truly is—the cracks beneath the surface, the brokenness he’s kept hidden for so long. She will leave.

She won’t be wrong to go. He wouldn’t stay either.

Going back home for Christmas is never something he looks forward to.

There are parts of it he likes, of course. He likes seeing his mother’s face light up when she greets him, the warmth in her smile wrapping around him like a blanket. He likes how Helaena beams at the thought of all her brothers being under the same roof again, her joy so pure and contagious it makes the house feel alive. He enjoys watching Criston ruffle Daeron’s hair as the younger one hunches over his notebook, too focused to care about the disruption. He loves watching Aegon embarrass himself with whatever woman he’s brought along for the season, loud and brash as always. Though he’d never admit it aloud—never—he sees himself in Aegon’s ridiculous gestures now that he has her. Aegon’s clumsy declarations of affection mirror his own, though his are quieter, subtler.

They’re all the same.

They’re all part of the same heart.

He likes who he is here, among the people who love him, who see him as something more than the jagged edges he keeps hidden from the world. He loves them back, fiercely, completely, in a way he rarely allows himself to feel.

This time, he brings her. Watching his mother embrace her with the same warmth she gave him fills him with something he can’t name. It’s as if his mother is returning a silent promise: Protect my son’s heart, and I will protect yours.

Criston’s approving smile lingers just behind them, and somehow, that quiet nod means more to him than any meeting with Viserys ever could. Helaena and Daeron whisk her away to explore the grounds, their easy chatter drawing her into their world effortlessly. Even Aegon, beer in hand, sides up to him with a mumbled, “She seems nice.” It’s as close as Aegon will ever get to openly welcoming someone into the family. In that, the brothers have always been guarded - just in visibly different ways.

He likes this part of Christmas.

But then, his father arrives. And with him, his golden daughter and her brood—a procession that feels more like a parade of veiled insults and subtle power plays.

In that moment, he wishes he’d kept her safe, whisked her away back to their flat, hidden her from the storm brewing on the horizon. Before Luke exposes him for who he truly is.

It happens before he even realizes it.

The thread, stretched taut for hours under the weight of veiled insults and sharp-edged jabs, finally snaps. Perhaps it was always inevitable—a breaking point years in the making, woven into the fabric of that night long ago, the night that changed everything.

He hates that she’s part of this charade, this grotesque tradition where both branches of the family pretend they are whole. The sickly-sweet veneer of unity grates at him, and watching her navigate it with grace only makes it worse. She listens to Daemon with a polite smile, nodding at his barbed remarks as though they’re harmless. It churns his stomach, the way she must endure this ugliness with a dignity he doesn’t think he could ever match.

He doesn’t know what Luke says. He doesn’t catch the exact words or the smirk that accompanies them.

It doesn’t matter.

He hears the snigger, feels the sting of the unspoken, and the weight of years-old memories crashes down on him like a wave. The next thing he knows, he’s let go of her hand, the warmth of her touch gone as he rises from his chair.

The room blurs, but his target is clear. Jace is on the ground before he even registers the punch that put him there. Off to the side, he sees Aegon slam Luke into the table, their mother’s expensive centerpiece shattering under the force. Aegon doesn’t hesitate, doesn’t hold back—because once, long ago, he left Aemond to fight alone. The price for that mistake was written across Aemond’s face, a reminder neither of them could ever forget.

For a moment, the room is chaos. The cacophony of shouting and crashing fades into a dull roar as Daemon strides in, yanking them apart with a scowl that could burn through steel. Rhaenyra mutters something about being thankful their father has already gone to bed, sparing him the spectacle. Alicent clutches Criston’s hand tightly—an odd development, one that might have piqued Aemond’s curiosity in any other situation. Criston, ever composed, smirks faintly at the boys he helped raise - finally fighting side by side.

But none of it matters. None of it reaches him.

The loudest noise is the deafening silence of her presence. She stands frozen, her gaze locked on the floor, her hands clenched at her sides. For the first time since he met her a year ago, she refuses to meet his eyes.

Shame curls in his chest, threatening to consume him whole.

Hours later, as the dust settles, his mother pleads with him to stay the night. He shakes his head. He can’t. Staying here feels wrong, like prolonging the damage he’s already caused. He needs her back at the flat, where the world feels small and safe again, where her warmth in his arms drowns out the chaos his family always brings.

If, that is, the fragile peace he’s built isn’t already beyond repair.

When she wakes, his side of the bed is empty. The sheets are cold—he’s been gone for a while.

She pads through the flat, barefoot and quiet, her home now as much as his, even if she’s never said it out loud. The absence of him unsettles her, as does the memory of the man she saw last night. It wasn’t the Aemond she knew. It wasn’t the man she's come to love.

The Aemond she knows is gentle, deliberate. Even last night, after the chaos, he was careful as he tucked her into bed, his hand brushing through her hair with quiet apologies whispered between the spaces of her breath. His voice was soft, steady, soothing—enough to almost make her forget why they’d left Dragonstone earlier than planned.

Almost.

He rarely speaks of the other half of his family, and now, she understands why. Daemon’s sharp tongue had been enough to make her wince in a ten-minute conversation; the indifference his father showed in the face of his nephews' presence was stunning. She can only imagine the weight of years spent enduring that venom.

Perhaps Aemond keeps his silence not out of indifference, but out of necessity—to keep the anger locked away, to remain the man she fell in love with.

She tries calling him, but he doesn’t pick up. The unanswered ring unsettles her more than his absence.

Sighing, she heads to the kitchen. She begins to prepare breakfast, the motions familiar and grounding. Pancakes, eggs, sausages—things he likes. The onions sizzle in one pan while the eggs cook in another, the sounds filling the silence he left behind. She tries calling again, balancing the phone between her shoulder and ear as she chops, but the call goes unanswered once more.

She knows why. He’s ashamed. She’s always suspected there’s more anger in him than he lets her see. She’s wished, in quiet moments, that he’d let her see it—not to judge him, but to show him that it wouldn’t change how much she loves him.

The food is ready long before he returns, so she eats alone, the stillness pressing against her. On the coffee table sits the watch she’d bought for him, still in its elegant box. She hasn’t had the chance to give it to him yet.

After clearing the dishes, she leaves them in the sink, knowing the housemaid will handle them later. She moves to the sofa, hugging her knees to her chest as she waits.

And then, finally, the sound of keys in the door. The soft creak as it opens. Footsteps. He’s home.

And he brought coffee.

She stands as he enters, the sight of him both a relief and a quiet ache. She takes the cups from his hands, her fingers brushing his briefly. He still won’t meet her eyes. Placing the cups on the table, she takes his hand in hers, leading him to the sofa.

When he sits, she moves to straddle him, her knees on either side of him. She holds him close, until she is all he sees, all he feels, all he can think about.

Her lips find his forehead first, soft and lingering, as her arms wrap tightly around his torso. She holds on as though she’s anchoring him, her fingers clutching the fabric of his shirt. Slowly, she maps her way downward, each kiss deliberate, each touch an offering. His eyelids, his cheeks, his nose—she doesn’t stop until she finds his lips.

He smells of sweat, faint and earthy, and she remembers the perfectly placed shoes near the door. He’s been on a run, she realizes.

He’s been running, in more ways than one.

Her kisses shift, deeper now, but still tender. He responds slowly at first, his hands tentative on her hips before they find her back, pulling her closer. For a while, the world shrinks to just them—soft breaths, soft lips, soft touches. The tension in his shoulders begins to melt, his hand slipping up to cradle her neck as if grounding himself in her presence.

When the weight of the moment settles, he leans back, lying down with her beside him. She shifts to rest her head against his chest, her fingers idly tracing patterns over his t-shirt. His arm curls around her, holding her against him, as his lips press to the top of her head.

“I’m sorry,” he murmurs, his voice low and rough, tinged with regret.

She lifts her head to look at him, her eyes soft, her voice softer still. “It’s alright. You’re so good to me…”

His expression shifts, something flickering in his steely, forever cautious gaze. She knows there’s more, an explanation forming behind his eyes.

But it can wait.

Right now, all she wants is for him to feel what she does. To know what she’s always known.

He’s home.

Moments pass, and he calms down again. Later, he murmurs.

“You should drink your coffee before it gets cold.”

She laughs, the sound light and easy, as she moves off him to pick up her cup. It’s a holiday drink—spiced, sweet, just how she likes it. He knows her well enough to bring her favorite, even when he’s apologizing for ruining the holidays this year. But as she takes a sip, she realizes all is not lost.

“I got you something,” she says, setting her cup down and reaching for the small box she left on the table.

Wordlessly, he takes it, his fingers brushing hers as he sits up beside her. She cups her coffee again, letting its warmth seep into her palms as she watches him open the gift.

The watch gleams under the soft morning light, the craftsmanship striking. He notices the details immediately, running his thumb over the smooth edge of the dial.

“Valyrian steel,” he says, his tone flat yet certain. It’s not a question—of course, he’d recognize his preferred metal. He always does. That’s who he is: the kind of man with a preferred metal, precise and particular in ways that often amuse her.

“I had it sourced from someone in imports,” she begins, her words spilling quickly, almost bashful. “The permits are hard to procure, and it took months—”

He stops her mid-sentence, pulling her into a hug. It’s sudden and firm, his arms wrapping around her in a way that leaves no room for misinterpretation.

“Don't leave,” he murmurs into her hair, his voice carrying an honesty that makes her chest tighten.

She smiles against his shoulder, her hands resting lightly on his back.

"I'm not going anywhere."

She knows him, and he loves that she does. And it truly is that simple.

[jjenthusee]

Home Date

Pairing: Jason Todd x Reader

Summary: A sudden injury leads to Jason facing a glimmer of his past, but it unintentionally leads to the people who care for him most realizing they didn’t have to worry at all. That you were there for him.

Warnings: injury, but not very descriptive

Word Count: 1.2k

“Jay, it hurts so bad.” You exhaled, squeezing your eyes to get yourself to focus.

“I know, Sweetheart, but we have to move you. I need someone to take a look at ya.” Jason gently cusped your face, rubbing at the edges of your jaw. “Please. We can reschedule the date.”

He kneeled in front of you, his hair long enough to touch the top of his eyelids as he looked up to you.

You winced as you leaned forward, trying to minimize the pain by pressing a hand onto Jason’s shoulder. The smallest movement shot pain up your leg.

Jason grabbed onto your forearm, pressing into your skin to remind you he was there.

“I don’t know what happened. I heard a ‘pop’ and now I can’t move my leg without it hurting.” You were shaking at trying to hold yourself steady, standing at an awkward position. “I can’t move—Jay, I don’t know what to do.”

You gripped his shoulder harder and fear looked into Jason’s eyes as he watched you panic.

Jason looked up at your wincing face, calculating all the routes he could take and what his next steps could be before he felt his face calm and his grip on you strengthened.

With a calm acceptance, he spoke.

“I’m taking you to the manor.” Jason kissed your temple. He wasn’t willing to take any chances.

With painful steps and many breaks leaning into Jason’s weight did you make it into a car to drive off to the one place Jason had been avoiding.

He didn’t like the drive, how it reminded him of so many things, but you were a priority and he was scared shitless at facing something he wasn’t ready for.

It was like flashes in Jason mind.

Knocking on the door, the confused face from Alfred before he saw the person Jason was clutching so desperately. How Jason didn’t want to look around because the chill on his skin was enough of a reminder.

While at the manor, Jason paced back and forth into the cold, sterile building, holding his breath as he tried to think of all the possibilities.

Does he need to grab anything on his way back? Did you eat before this? How long would he be in the manor? Should he pick you up some clothes?

“—Jason.” Bruce’s husk voice filled the hallway.

Jason’s pacing immediately stopped. Like his body ingrained the commanding voice from his Robin days more than his mind.

He had buried the memories as far down as he could, but once an animal learns a trick, can he ever forget it?

“Alfred said you can come back in.” Bruce held the door open, waiting.

Jason had been chased out earlier, constantly overlooking and trying to get verbal confirmation that you were okay. The pestering had Alfred giving him a stern look that had Bruce ushering him outside.

It was awkward.

The long thirty minutes had Jason’s skin crawling. He held his posture straighter, hoping the extra height over Bruce would somehow ease his mind that he was tougher, stronger than the young boy who once walked these halls.

“We’ll make sure everything is fine—“

“That’s why I’m here.” Jason sternly interrupted Bruce’s attempt at comfort as he held a glare, feeling his hands tense the longer he was separated from you.

He had to make it obvious that that was the only reason why he crawled back, the reason for all the blocking and erasing of his presence at every moment.

Silence.

It was always lingering in the manor and Jason hated every second of it.

Until he heard the sound of your voice, faint and coming from the open door Bruce still held.

Jason quickly forgot all his hatred and awkwardness when he walked up to your side. Trying to make sure you were still there, physically.

With one hand resting on your head, rubbing and feeling the warmth of your skin did Jason finally breathe. He could feel his body release some of the strain.

Alfred gave the run down, what to avoid, how to proceed if the pain gets worse. But all it came down to was some rest and monitoring.

Jason took mental notes of everything. Creating a plan in his head took all his attention to even notice the subtle looks from Bruce and Alfred at the sudden appearance of the stubborn, angry son.

The looks of wonder at watching the changes of Jason in real time, how tender yet protective he was of you. How he was willing to suddenly appear when he verbally reminded everyone how much he hated being there.

You grabbed Jason’s hand.

“Breathe, Jay. We can go home.” You whispered, enough to catch his attention.

Despite the recovering pain, you could only worry for the man losing his mind but trying his hardest to keep it together for your sake.

With a soft gaze and the feel of sweat on your brow, Jason knelt to make his face level with yours.

You felt the brush of his breathe on your cheek. In that moment, you were happy he was listening to your words.

With a small smile, you rubbed his hair, clearly messy from him grabbing at it constantly, but you tried to make your own protective cave with your body and arms to cradle Jason’s head. Giving him the space to breathe and calm his mind in his madness that he tried to still.

You tiredly glanced at your two audience, they saw how trusting Jason was of you and how you showed your own calm determination to protect the broken man in your arms.

Maybe it was the drowsiness or your own blurry glare, but you could have sworn that the older broody man, strangely an aged copy of Jason, had a subtle smile before he walked away, disappearing into the darkness.

After the medication kicked in, you don’t remember how you got home, but the realization of a new change of clean clothes and the smell of food was enough to know you were safe again, that Jason was safe.

He always knew you so well that in the next blink of your eyes, he appeared at your side of the bed.

He was always good at that, knowing you more than yourself.

In a small kiss on your cheek, Jason rubbed his face onto yours, basking in the physical touch.

“I made food. I want you to at least take a couple bites.” Jason softly spoke.

You felt his hair tickle your head and you couldn’t help but smile.

“It smells great.” You rubbed back.

“It might hurt, but I’ll help you walk to the couch.” He suggested.

You groaned at the thought of moving, the memories of the pain coming back.

“We can watch movies, watch the sunset, and maybe take a nap?” Jason tried to coax, grabbing your hand to kiss your fingertips.

“Fine, but I get to pick the movie.” You mindlessly watched Jason kiss each of your fingers.

In slow motions, you were making your way to the living room as Jason tried to make it as painless as possible.

It wasn’t the planned date you expected, but home dates with Jason were always your favorites.

[peachesofteal]

I try to be really kind on this platform, and I am so grateful for all the love and support I receive here, but when someone writes to me to tell me it’s been too long since I updated something, my last update wasn’t long enough word count wise, or they don’t agree with the choices I’ve made when telling the story-

You do it then. You fucking hop on here and crank out a fic the length of a book, and then start another one, but make sure your updates don’t take too long because then you’ll be letting readers down and by the way, make sure you hit the word count quota, and don’t forget, the story you’re writing needs to accommodate everyone’s opinions on every piece of plot and dialogue. Have fun!

[hhughes]

♡ 𝆬 𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐄𝐑 𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄

𝓹airing , jack hughes x bsf!reader

fourth of july is usually one of jack’s favourite holidays , but this year he can’t help but wish he was anywhere but their annual lake house party . . . (wc ; 4.1K)

꒰ 𝓷ote , not a big fan of the ending but this has been stuck in the drafts for a while so it needs to go <33 . . . ꒱

there were many times over the years that Jack has known Trevor where he’s been grateful to have him as a friend. that one time where Luke got stranded with a flat tire and Trevor went to help his little brother out when Jack couldn’t. or another time when Jack accidentally ran over someone’s mailbox but Trevor took the fall for it because he knew Jack’s parents would be way madder than his own. people could say what they wanted about Trevor. that he was too cocky, too loud, just too much to handle in general, but he’s also a great friend, a loyal friend, his best friend. which is why the sight before jack’s eyes baffled him so much.

they were having their annual July 4th party at the lake house. the deck outside by the lake was filled with people waiting for the fireworks show to start, some faces he recognized but most he didn’t. normally he wouldn’t mind the amount of strangers in his house, knowing most of them were friends of friends of friends of his own friends but right now he just found the crowd annoying as he tried to keep his eyes on you and trevor on the makeshift dance floor. a small part of him was amused by the horrendous way trevor was moving his feet, but most of his attention was drawn to trevor’s hand on your back. a hand that kept wandering a little lower and lower each song. a hand that jack has imagined slashing off a hundred different ways in the span of the last ten minutes alone.

you and jack have been friends since high school. jack hadn’t really admitted it to himself all these years but he’s always had a little thing for you. maybe it should’ve been obvious by the butterflies swarming his stomach every time you pay him a slither of attention. or the way he’s always going out of his way to do things that will get your attention. perhaps deep down jack was aware of the feelings he had for you, but there’s always been something holding him back. the fact that you two lived in different states, or the new boyfriend that appears every few months once you realise the old one wasn’t good enough for you. or the fact that you’ve never shown even a little interest in jack past a platonic friendship and jack was scared or ruining that and losing you in the process.

jack’s never been this bothered by a guy flirting with you before. perhaps because deep down he knew it wasn’t gonna last. but the sight of his best friend twirling you around while whispering things in your ear that makes you laugh, more than jack’s seen you laugh in a while, leaves his stomach in knots. jack’s sure if he untangled those knots he would discover long ropes of fear. fear that trevor’s flirtations were out of genuine interest and not just drunken friendliness. fear that the way you snuggled into trevor was out of affection and not just the fact that alcohol makes you drowsy.

“might wanna loosen your grip on that glass Jacky. drunk lucy that’s passed out on our couch already broke two and we’re gonna run out soon at this rate,” quinn jokes, lips forming a tight line when he follows jack’s line of sight and sees trevor tugging you off the dance floor and gently pushes you onto a deck chair.

jack drags his eyes away from you to glance at his drink, loosens his grip and looks at his older brother. he momentarily forgets about the sight he saw moments earlier that made him so upset, overwhelmed by the fact that him and quinn were at the same place. it always takes jack a few weeks to adjust from seeing quinn once every few months to seeing him daily. and just when he gets used to it, they have to go their separate ways again.

“it’s not like we can’t afford it,” jack teases, and a commotion on the other side of the deck catches jack’s attention and he turns his head in time to see his younger brother miss a step on the deck and land on his ass.

“you gonna go fix that?” jack asks quinn, trying to keep the laughter out of his tone as luke tries and fails to get up a few time. having obviously had one too many.

“nah, I'll let him learn the hard way,” quinn replies but jack knows he’ll go check on their little brother in the next ten minutes. quinn was a bit of a mother hen and he was just gonna punish himself by not checking up on luke.

“you gonna go fix that?” quinn asks in return, gesturing to where trevor was tucking strands of hair behind your ears.

“nothing to fix,” jack says, downing the rest of his drink.

“I’ve got a prefect execution plan for zegras. it’s all planned out already. I just need a reason,” quinn says and jack can’t help but let out a soft cackle at the serious expression on his brother’s face. anyone who didn’t know quinn well enough would think he was dead serious.

“do you?” jack asks softly, just to be sure.

“no. but I can come up with one if you need me to,” quinn responds, knocking his shoulder into jack’s gently and jack sends him a grateful smile in return. I can if you need me to. if that didn’t sum up his brother perfectly, jack didn’t know what could. Jack’s always been jealous of quinn’s selflessness. He crushes his red solo cup, along with the guilt building up in his chest that he was sitting here brooding instead of spending quality time with his family like he should be

“Nah, I don’t have plans to kill my best friend any time soon. But if I do in the future I’ll make sure to call you,” jack says and quinn sends him a smile

“Even when he’s flirting with the girl you’ve been in love with for ages?” quinn asks, finishing the last of his own drink

“I’m not in love with her,” jack argues weakly, the words sounding false even to his own ears.

“are you making it a habit to lie to me lately? first about the orange juice this morning and now about-“

“I told you it wasn’t me who drank the last orange juice. I swear to God. I’m telling you, it was luke!” jack stresses and quinn lets an amused chuckle slip past his lips. thoroughly amused that his little brother was getting this worked up about it.

“okay okay,” quinn defends when his brother continues to glare at him but his laughter fades when jack suddenly stands up from the deck chair

“where you going?” quinn asks

“anywhere but here. I can’t stand to watch any more of that happen tonight,” jack mumbles, referring to you and trevor giggling a few metres away

“you can’t just leave. this is your house and your party. you’re a host,” quinn argues

“so are you. and it’s not like you’re going anywhere so…” jack shrugs

“what if I had plans to slip away too?” quinn asks

“with a lady friend?” jack inquires, wiggling his eyebrows teasingly and quinn sends him a deadpan look

“no. to my bed. by myself. I’m exhausted,” quinn admits and jack lets out a booming laugh

“you old fuck, it’s not even 1 A.M yet,” jack teases and quinn just shakes his head, a playful smile tugging at his lips.

jack squeezes his older brother’s arm as he passes and makes his way through the crowded deck, pushing past people and mumbling a few apologies.

the sight of you and trevor together put him in a sour mood that even joking around with quinn couldn’t get him out of so he avoided all the people that were trying to rope him into their conversations as he passes. he lets out a sigh of relief once he made it through the back door and into the house, taking his time to cool off and get his mix of emotions together.

plopping down on the couch, his thoughts immediately go back to the sight he saw of you and trevor together not even ten minutes ago. jack silently cursed at himself, realising that not being able to see what the two of you were doing was almost worse than having to see it. because now jack didn’t know if it was escalating or not. if trevor’s hand has moved from your waist to your lower back, or maybe even lower. if his little whispers in your ear have transformed to words mumbled against your neck.

jack found it hard to swallow past the ball of bitter emotions lodged in his throat. it just wasn't fair. if anyone should’ve been flirting with you, it should’ve been him. if anyone should’ve had their hands all over you, it should’ve been his. because quinn’s right, jack has been absolutely in love with you since highschool and he’s tried to keep those emotions at bay, one obstacle or another always standing in his way, preventing him from making a move. and the one summer you were finally free, trevor swoops in before jack even has a chance to try and do something.

jack ran a hand over his face, desperately trying to get the image of trevor making you laugh out of his head but it continued to taunt him instead. he was sure it would be embedded into his mind for the next few nights as he tried to get some rest. he was so deep in thought he didn’t even notice the shuffling of feet in the hallway.

one moment he was consumed by his thoughts and next thing he knows you were standing in front of him, calling his name softly. your hair was messy, strands falling down your face and your cheeks flushed, no doubt due to the alcohol. or trevor’s sweet nothings whispered in your ear jack things bitterly.

“hey” he mumbles quietly, fiddling with the empty solo cup in his hand and trying desperately not to let the bitter emotions bubbling in his chest show on his face.

“you’re hiding in your own house now?” you asked and there was a slight teasing tone to your voice as you took a few steps closer to the couch, but not sitting down.

jack forced himself to look up at you, biting his lip and taking note of the way the fabric of your dress hugged your body.

“wasn’t hiding. just — not in a mood for a party I guess” he replies and he silently curses himself when he hears the slight edge in his tone. his annoyance from earlier hadn’t faded, even when you were standing directly in front of him, looking beautiful and so unaware of how you made him feel. and jack was never good at hiding how he was feeling, except when it came to his feelings for you apparently. but he was sure his jealousy and annoyance was all over his face. an open book for you to read, examine and judge.

it took everything in him not to reach out and touch you, brush back a strand of hair that was clinging to your forehead. to do something to keep your attention solely on him and not leave to wander back to the party. to trevor.

but he kept his hands firmly placed on the couch. trying to maintain the little bit of self-preservation he had.

“yeah I noticed” you say, a slight frown pulling at the corners of your mouth. jack always loved the fourth of july party. it was one of his favourite summer events.

“surprised you did honestly. trevor’s been keeping you occupied” jack mumbles, the words slipping past his lips before he could stop them.

you don’t say anything for a second, letting his words settle, trying to figure out what they mean. what you want them to mean.

“yeah he’s had way too much to drink. you know how he is. talks your ear off on a regular day but once he’s got a few drinks in him, the guy just won’t shut up” you shrug with a little laugh, hoping to lighten the mood a bit as you take a seat next to him.

a small smile tugs at the corner of jack's mouth. trevor’s ability to never shut up is one of the things people don’t like about him, but it’s always been one of the things that jack’s found particularly endearing about his friend.

"yeah, I suppose it is part of his charm. well, at least to some people" he says with a wry smile. despite the envious feelings bubbling in his stomach, he couldn’t deny that you and trevor would be good together. trevor was genuinely a good guy, he might look unserious most of the time, but jack’s seen first hand how his best friend can flip and become dead serious about the things he wanted to commit to. hockey being one of them.

“you guys would look good together” he says, having a hard time forcing the words out past the lump in his throat. he wasn’t used to feeling like this. and he wasn’t even sure what this was. jealousy? envy? insecurity? all of the above?

“me and trevor?” you ask, voice tinged with amusement

jack can feel his stomach twisting into knots as you ask the question. he tries to keep his expression neutral, but he knows he's failing miserably. he can feel his heart racing in his chest as he nods in response.

"yeah... I mean, you two seem to get along really well" he says, trying to sound casual but failing miserably.

he's aware of how pathetic he sounds. he feels like a jealous boyfriend, even though he's not even your boyfriend. he wants to tell you that he doesn't want you to date trevor. that he doesn't want you dating anyone. that he wants you all to himself. but he keeps his mouth shut, knowing that it's not his place to make demands like that

“well yeah but that’s because I only see him two to three months of the year. I think if I saw him any more than that I would smother him while he slept” you say, laughing softly at the idea

“you’re the second person threatening to kill him tonight” jack says dryly

“really? I bet you there’s gonna be a third” you say and he laughs softly. your heart speeds up at the sight of his grin, and you reach out to trace the laughing lines on his cheek.

“there he is. was wondering where my happy guy went” you say softly, cheeks heating up when you realize how close the two of you have gotten, your hand still cupping his cheek.

“what’s wrong jack? tell me, maybe I can fix it for you” you ask pouting slightly, and jack leans into your hand, soaking up the warmth

“nothing” he reassures softly but you know that’s a lie

“you lying to me now hughes? first about the orange juice this morning—“

“jesus not you too! i’m telling you it was luke!” he insists and you can’t help the giggle that escapes you at his serious face, that only transforms to a slight pout when he realizes you’re laughing at him.

“whatever” he mumbles, crossing his arms over his chest and you smile at the sight, leaning a bit closer and putting both hands on his arms

“but seriously what’s wrong? do you miss hockey already?” you ask, knowing jack felt a little restless without the routine hockey provides him with the other three seasons of the year.

“no. not yet at least. i’m perfectly happy having some time off and just spending it at the lake house with you and my brothers” jack says and your heart swells when you see the genuinity behind his words.

“me too. besides this might be the last summer we have like this. since I graduated from university, i’m about to get a big girl job and will probably be working during summers starting next year” you pout and jack immediately frowns, not having considered what your time coming to an end at UMICH meant until now.

“don’t say that” he whines resting his head against your shoulder, and you laugh softly, running your hands through his messy hair.

“I know,” you pout slightly, the reality setting in for you too that you and jack probably won’t see each other as often anymore once this summer is over.

“you uh— gonna stay in Michigan?” he asks, fidgeting with his bracelets

“not sure yet to be honest. I like the idea of staying close to home but I also like the idea of going somewhere new,” you say and jack has a moment of panic, not knowing what he’ll do if you decide to move out of Michigan. He’ll barely see you then.

“maybe I’ll move to the west coast. see how I like that,” you think out loud and jack immediately pulls away from you, your words enough to make him stand up and pace around anxiously.

“the west coast? you can’t move to the west coast!” he insists

you look at him surprised by his reaction. you hadn't expected him to be this upset by the idea of you leaving Michigan.

"but why not?" you ask, wondering why he's so adamantly against the idea

jack continues to pace, running a hand through his hair anxiously

"there's a lot of reasons why not! it's so far. we wouldn't get to see each other. and what about hockey? the devils play in the eastern conference!"

you can't help but smile at his reaction, secretly loving how worked up he's getting over the small topic.

"it's not that far, and we could still keep in touch. we can call or facetime each other whenever we want to" you try to reason, but jack doesn't seem convinced, still looking rather distressed about the idea of you moving away

“face time?” he spits the words, as if just the existence of them utterly disgust him

jack freezes in his pacing, turning to look at you with a deadpan expression

"yeah, facetime. you know the little app on your phone that allows you to call someone and see them at the same time" you say mockingly

his face transforms from one of frustration to one of annoyance, his eyes narrowing

"very funny,” he responds sarcastically. he wasn’t in the mood for jokes. this night has gone from extremely bad to excruciating.

he never thought he was the dramatic type, but the idea of you leaving for the west coast was enough to send him into a panic. you being so far away from him would drive him completely crazy. he couldn't stand the idea of only being able to see you once or twice a year. not to mention that you’d be closer to trevor than you would be to him.

“absolutely not. you’re not a west coast girl. you belong here” he says, you belong with me, is what he means.

“I was considering Carolina too” you say casually, laughing at jack’s mocking groan

“now you’re just trying to piss me off” he says, plopping down on the couch next to you again.

the two of you sit in silence for a few minutes, both contemplating what your lives are gonna look like a year from now.

“you should move to jersey” he blurts out, and the two of you simultaneously turn your heads, eyes connecting in a long stare.

“what would I do in Jersey?” you ask, biting your lip before the words ‘except you’ can slip out

he shrugs, just looking at you for a moment before letting out a big breath and turning towards you completely, taking one of your hands in his.

“it could be summer all the time” he states simply, as if you should know exactly what that means.

you look at him dumbfounded for a moment before saying, “have you seen east coast winters?”

“I mean metaphorically,” he explains. “you’re summer” he shrugs, hand reaching up to cup your face gently.

“I don’t like summer because of the weather, or even the fact that it’s off season. I like summer because I get to come here and I get to see you. For at least two months straight I get to wake up every day and know I will see you that day. And that’s the best feeling”

“jack—“ you say softly, a bit choked up and he smiles, bringing his other hand up to cup your other cheek, both hands now holding your face gently as he stares into your eyes.

“I’m already mad at myself for letting us be friends this long without admitting my feelings to you. I’ll never forgive myself if I let you move to the west coast, or Carolina, or anywhere that's not right here next to me" he adds softly.

you can see the vulnerability behind his eyes as he stares at you, thumbs stroking your cheeks slowly.

he can feel his heart racing in his chest, his stomach twisting into knots as he waits for your response.

he looks at you, studying your face and seeing your expression change slightly at his words

"it's not that I'm trying to pressure you into anything, I mean if you don't feel the same way I get it. and I'll support you no matter what you choose to do" he says, the words tumbling out of his mouth faster than he can stop them. he can feel the anxiety building in the pit of his stomach, the thought of you rejecting him and moving away anyway making him nauseous.

“y-you have feelings for me?” you ask, still trying to come to terms with that part of his confession.

jack looks at you, slightly surprised that you didn't already know that. did you really not realise how he felt about you?

"yeah, you didn’t realize?" he responds, a small hint of disbelief in his voice

“no. I’m not really your usual type, if you haven’t noticed” you say softly, and jack loops his arms around your waist pulling you closer. not liking the way you said that. his face twists in a look of annoyance and he suddenly looks slightly insulted

"and what is my usual type then?" he asks, his voice coming out a bit harsher than he intended

“c'mon jack. every girl you’ve ever dated has been the exact opposite of me” you say

“it’s not like the guys you’ve dated have been anything like me either” jack argues softly and you shrug. fair enough.

“that’s why you were upset earlier? you thought trevor was flirting with me and you were jealous,” you say putting the pieces together and jack’s cheeks redden slightly as you catch on to what was happening.

“yeah. I wasn’t happy. I’ve been waiting two years if not longer for you to be single and the one summer you finally are, my best friend beats me to it,” jack mutters, hands tightening on your hips slightly, pulling you even closer so now you’re practically straddling his lap.

“you should’ve said something earlier,” you say, resting your forehead against his, hand running through the hair on the back of his neck.

he groans softly at your touch, the feeling of your hand running through his hair making his body tingle. he can’t stop the shiver that runs down his spine as you run your fingers through his hair, and he tilts his head back just slightly to give you more access.

“it was just never the right time. but I realized tonight that the right time is never gonna come and if I wait too long, I might lose out on having any opportunity at all” he mumbles, tracing your bottom lip softly

“then stop waiting, and kiss me already” you order, and jack doesn’t spare a second as he crashes his lips onto yours, not disconnecting them until the two of you absolutely need to breathe.

it’s all so much. your lips, your hands, the taste of you, the scent of you, your body pressed so close to his. he’s never felt this way before, wanting something so much. needing it. needing you.

he’s spent so long wanting this, imagining what it would be like to have you here in his lap, kissing him and letting him touch you, that it’s almost overwhelming.

“looks like we’re gonna have summer all the time now jacky” you mumble against his lips and he grins, utterly thrilled by the idea.

[valeriascoat]

His soul is yours

Mr. Scarletella x Reader

So, I really liked the headcanon that his soul/true body is in the umbrella. Don't take it seriously. Hope you enjoy!

Every new meet with you made the ghost ask the same question over and over again: why are you rejecting him?

After all, it was you, you and the people killed by your hands, that were the first step, were your hint, your tacit admission of sympathy for him, attention. Every victim of your cruelty was a direct word, so why is it now impossible to get the most important word from you that he is waiting for — your name? Why, why do you always leave, hide, avoid him? Why?

He wants nothing more than to reciprocate you, but every time you slip away from him! It's like... you don't want this too.

The same question again. Why?

***

Scarletella questioningly tilts his head to the unpleasant creaking of his vertebrae. You're hiding from his sight again. Just as he was clearly aware of your presence, you are gone again. Your avoidance is disappointing.

Moving through the rooms, he does not find you and eventually stops briefly in a particularly wide corridor. He knows it. Ghosts, forever reaching out to other people's souls who dared to be on their territory, which they have long appropriated it for themselves. And now they are beginning to react to Scarletella's presence — their hands' shadows are becoming more noticeable. That's predictable, because he is not devoid of a soul, which they paid attention to. Typical of ghosts, he is imprisoned in a certain thing, in his case, in a red umbrella.

He squeezes it tighter. No creature of this place would touch him without being killed at the same moment. Moving to the other end of the corridor, he looked with disdain at the scattering silhouettes of outstretched hands. Eternally hungry for someone else's soul and flesh, they always want to cling to it, devour it.

Suddenly, something dawns on him. He repeats his thoughts, trying not to forget anything.

"...hungry for someone else's soul..."

Scarletella stared wide-eyed at the empty space in front of him and flexed his fingers around the handle of the umbrella. If he had been breathing, he would have let out a shuddering sigh at the idea.

His soul. No one touched her. This is not something that needs to be openly shown, given and trusted by someone.

Continuing, he realizes that he did not even think about the fact that one response from him and "gifts" is not enough.

You want more.

A surprisingly wide smile appears on the ghost's face, which from the outside could seem almost threatening. But not in this case.

***

Once again, when there is a meeting with him, you want to roll your eyes in advance and swing a crowbar at him, so that he would shut up with another nonsense that clogs your head.

However, this time he is silent. He doesn't even look at you, just fiddles with his fingers on the handle of an open umbrella.

It's starting to bother you. But this unfamiliar behavior arouses curiosity, which there is no need to keep silent.

— What you want?

It seems to awaken the ghost in red from the state you think he was in. With one movement, he closes the umbrella, but still does not look up. You notice that his lips are moving slightly, but it's like nothing is being said — not even in a whisper.

If you look away for a second in an attempt to remember a word in order to address him, you feel a rustle and a light coolness in front of you. Turning your head, you immediately stumble upon a figure standing at a distance of a bent arm from you, to which you gasp in surprise.

Scarletella looks at you with his unblinking eyes. His face is unreadable for emotions, but his whole being betrays some kind of excitement along with determination. He raises his hand in front of him, holding out an umbrella in it.

— It… your.

All his actions, along with the fact that he told you this in your language, literally leave you in a dumbfounded state. Not quite believing what's going on, you look at his hand and face several times.

– My? Why is this so?

You notice how his grip on the black handle has wavered. The ghost doesn't answer your question, just continues to stare with his dark gaze from under the scarlet strands.

You frown, shifting the crowbar to a more mobile hand if you have to use it, and hesitantly take the umbrella by the middle, without touching his hand.

And as soon as you squeezed it more confidently in your palm, Scarletella's expression instantly began to change from amazed to... happy? His fingers tremble slightly as he suddenly clutches the cloth on his chest, exactly where the heart should be.

What does it all mean?..

***

It seems that the moment your hands came into contact with his umbrella, he felt it on his skin in the clearest way. The warmth of your skin imprinted on his chest, making him gasp at the unfamiliar sensations. Did you... did you really just?..

He still can't believe it, convulsively squeezing the place that has become especially burning in his inanimate body. Was he right? Is that what you needed to have complete confidence in his feelings for you?

Scarletella is looking at you, trying to read your emotions and guess what you're thinking. But he doesn't understand. The uncertainty of his decision suddenly becomes almost alarming.

He doesn't doubt you, but why are you silent? He is literally in your hands, vulnerable in a way he has never been in front of anyone. So why don't you answer anything? Was he wrong?

What are you thinking about?

The whirlwind of his thoughts stops with the sound of falling metal. The ghost abruptly turns his head in the direction from which it came and sees… That this is your weapon. When he looks up at you, he also sees your relaxed palm, which smoothly approaches his face.

He feels the warmth on his cheek.

— You give love?

Your voice sounds incredibly gentle compared to the way you usually communicate with him. Scarletella reacts immediately, covering your palm with her own and coming closer. His own voice sounds almost broken, broken, as if he was breathing heavily from the thumping of his heart in his chest.

— I give love! I give love! – he squeezes your fingers a little, and with his other hand he gently squeezes your elbow, as if trying to hold on. — I give… me.

He hears you sigh. He sees your smile. He feels your warmth.

— Say. "I love you." I give love.

Scarletella freezes and remembers how it sounds, immediately trying to pronounce it.

– I... love you. Love you. I love you!

With each repetition of these words, his voice sounded more desperate. You seem to like it, judging by the smile that appeared on your lips and the stroking of his cheek.

However, changing the position of the umbrella in your hand, the way your palm slides over it, ending up on the handle and squeezing it, makes Scarletella fall almost exhausted to his knees in front of you, unable to withstand the impulse that swept through his body.

Such a reaction genuinely surprises you, but in no way scares you. Only a slight sigh indicates that it was unexpected.

Scarletella clearly feels how his body trembles when his soul is not in his power. How vulnerable he is, you just have to strain your fingers harder. And this only excites him more.

***

He looks up blearily, his face flushed and betrays everything he is experiencing right now. Your palm touches your cheek again, and he immediately clings to it, which involuntarily causes you to have a very strange mixture of emotions.

– Pretty, – you whisper, receiving a deeply loving dark look in response.

A smile blooms on your face.

You didn't expect this development of events, but you certainly don't want to give them up.

[flwrkid14]

Tim and Jason: Caught Between Healing and Fear

note: completely inspired by this amazing post! tysm to @timdrakewhump for letting me use it as inspo!! <33

Tim doesn’t flinch around Jason. Not exactly. It’s more of a stiffening, a tightening of his shoulders, a flicker in his eyes that he knows Jason catches. He hates it. Everyone else has moved on. Dick forgave. Bruce rebuilt. Even Damian, with all his sharp edges, has softened into something survivable. But Tim? He still expects a hit that doesn’t come, still hears the echo of fists in the dark.

And that? That’s on him, right? It has to be. Because if everyone else can move on, why can’t he?

They don’t talk about it. Not directly. The bats have always been good at side-stepping, at smoothing over the cracks with enough shared history to pretend the damage never happened. They act like everything’s fixed, like Jason is something fragile they have to keep close, hold together. They ignore the way Tim’s shoulders tense when Jason’s voice gets too loud, the way his hands shake when shadows fall just right. They brush off his excuses to leave the room or, worse, look at him like he’s the problem.

“Jason’s trying, Tim.” “He’s better now.” “Don’t hold onto the past.”

But Tim isn’t holding on. He’s bracing.

Every patrol with Jason is a test. Every sparring match, a gamble. Jason keeps it light—punches pulled, jabs softened with crooked smiles—but Tim knows what Jason’s hands are capable of. He remembers the brutality, the raw fury that doesn’t vanish just because it’s been filed down to something more manageable. He knows Jason’s trying. He knows Jason’s better. But there’s a thin line between better and safe, and Tim’s still learning how to balance on it.

When Jason starts spending more time at the manor, no one questions it. They welcome him with open arms, eager to fill the empty spaces his absence left. He’s part of the family, they say. He needs support, they insist. So Jason sits at the dinner table, helps out on patrol, lounges on the couch like he’s always belonged there. And Tim... Tim watches from the corner of the room, a shadow on the periphery, pretending he doesn’t notice the way everyone else orbits around Jason like he’s the sun.

They send Tim on solo missions now—so Jason can have space. They say it like it’s a good thing, like they’re doing Tim a favor. More responsibility, more autonomy. He should be grateful. And he is. Or he would be, if it didn’t feel like being exiled. The irony isn’t lost on him. They don’t want Jason to be alone, so Tim has to be.

The apartment is quieter than the manor, the kind of quiet that presses in too close. No hum of the Cave, no distant footsteps of someone always nearby. It’s fine. He’s used to it. He tells himself that every night, like a mantra. He likes the solitude. It’s familiar, comforting in a way that makes his chest ache. But sometimes, when the silence stretches too thin, he thinks about calling. Jason always picks up now. He’d probably offer to come over, bridge the gap that Tim never asked to be there.

But what would Tim say? Sorry I still see the blood on your knuckles? Sorry I can’t forget how it felt to be the replacement? Sorry you came back, and I thought it would fix things, but it didn’t?

He doesn’t call.

They’re terrified of losing Jason again. They hold him close, desperate, like he might slip through their fingers if they let go for even a second. Tim understands that. He really does. He remembers the hollow ache that filled the manor after Jason died, the way grief settled into the walls like a permanent stain. No one wants to go through that again. They’d do anything to keep Jason safe, to keep him here.

But no one asks what Tim gave up. What he’s still giving up.

Jason is here, but Tim feels like he’s the ghost.

Sometimes, when they’re all gathered together—Bruce at the head of the table, Dick and Steph cracking jokes, Duke helping himself to another slice of pie—Tim looks around and wonders if anyone would notice if he slipped away. Just stood up, walked out, and didn’t come back. Would they miss him? Or would they be too busy watching Jason, making sure he doesn’t disappear again?

He catches Jason watching him sometimes, eyes sharp and knowing. Jason’s not stupid. He sees the cracks. Tim wonders if he feels guilty, or if he’s just waiting for Tim to say something, to break the silence that’s grown too thick between them. But Tim won’t. He can’t. The words stick in his throat, heavy and bitter.

So he stays quiet. He goes on solo missions, patrols alone, comes back to an empty apartment that feels less like home every day. And he tells himself it’s enough.

Because it has to be.

[shoresoftheshadowlands]

I basically never ask for help with anything for all the reasons above. The bit about written vs vocal though is so me I feel it in my soul. I am almost entirely non-verbal when I am in my comfort zone. I don't need to speak so much because the people who would listen to me are online and read what I'm saying better than the people around me hear what I say.

I almost never ask for or about anything. Asking about something simple is more likely to get me a torrent of unrelated shit that by the time anyone bothers actually answering the core bit I wanted to know about, I no longer care and regret asking.

The only thing I keep asking for help with is my loud ass fucking door, which grates and scrapes as well as squeak-squeals like someone twisting satan's ballsack. I have asked for years if someone could please just fucking help me fix it. It's the only door in the house that squeals. (I had to ask for like two years to get a door in the first place after we moved here, which as a 32 year old at the time, not great)

I get the 'yea yea, we can fix that' and then they forget. And I am patient so I don't say anything. I will wait a long time before trying again. I've looked up how I might do it, but there's so much back and forth arguing online about what you should or should not do that I don't know anymore who's right so I don't try myself, what if I make it worse like some say it can? A nightmare waiting to happen.

So I keep to myself, I stay quiet, I avoid talking as much as I can. One wrong word already sets my mother off, as she assumed 99% of anything said is directly aimed at her and takes random shit personally, no matter how carefully it is said (Something she does to others in the home too so it's not just my autistic ass). Talking to her in particular feels like walking into an active minefield. I've got a long stick, I'm walking slowly. But no matter what you do, the field is far and eventually, you're gonna step on one. The best you can do is go back the way you came from, the fight isn't worth it.

I realized the other day that the reason I didn't watch much TV as a teenager (and why I'm only now catching up on late aughts/early teens media that I missed), is because I literally didn't understand how to use our TV. My parents got a new system, and it had three remotes with a Venn diagram of functions. If someone left the TV on an unfamiliar mode, I didn't know how to get back to where I wanted to be, so I just stopped watching TV on my own altogether.

I explained all this to my therapist, because I didn't know if this was more related to my then-unnoticed autism, or to my relationship with my parents at the time (we had issues less/unrelated to neurodivergency). She told me something interesting.

In children's autism assessments, a common test is to give them a straightforward task that they cannot reasonably perform, like opening an overtight jar. The "real" test is to see, when they realize that they cannot do it on their own, if they approach a caregiver for help. Children that do not seek help are more likely to be autistic than those that do.

This aligns with the compulsory independence I've noticed to be common in autistic adults, particularly articulated by those with lower support needs and/or who were evaluated later in life. It just genuinely does not occur to us to ask for help, to the point that we abandon many tasks that we could easily perform with minor assistance. I had assumed it was due to a shared common social trauma (ie bad experiences with asking for help in the past), but the fact that this trait is a childhood test metric hints at something deeper.

My therapist told me that the extremely pathologizing main theory is that this has something to do with theory of mind, that is doesn't occur to us that other people may have skills that we do not. I can't speak for my early childhood self, or for all autistic people, but I don't buy this. Even if I'm aware that someone else has knowledge that I do not (as with my parents understanding of our TV), asking for help still doesn't present itself as an option. Why?

My best guess, using only myself as a model, is due to the static wall of a communication barrier. I struggle a lot to make myself understood, to articulate the thing in my brain well enough that it will appear identically (or at least close enough) in somebody else's brain. I need to be actively aware of myself and my audience. I need to know the correct words, the correct sentence structure, and a close-enough tone, cadence, and body language. I need draft scripts to react to possible responses, because if I get caught too off guard, I may need several minutes to construct an appropriate response. In simple day-to-day interactions, I can get by okay. In a few very specific situations, I can excel. When given the opportunity, I can write more clearly than I am ever capable of speaking.

When I'm in a situation where I need help, I don't have many of my components of communication. I don't always know what my audience knows. I don't have sufficient vocabulary to explain what I need. I don't know what information is relevant to convey, and the order in which I should convey it. I don't often understand the degree of help I need, so I can come across inappropriately urgent or overly relaxed. I have no ability to preplan scripts because I don't even know the basic plot of the situation.

I can stumble though with one or two deficiencies, but if I'm missing too much, me and the potential helper become mutually unintelligible. I have learned the limits of what I can expect from myself, and it is conceptualized as a real and physical barrier. I am not a runner, so running a 5k tomorrow does not present itself as an option to me. In the same way, if I have subconscious knowledge that an interaction is beyond my capability, it does not present itself as an option to me. It's the minimum communication requirements that prevent me from asking for help, not anything to do with the concept of help itself.

Maybe. This is the theory of one person. I'm curious if anyone else vibes with this at all.

[crystallizsch]

jhgnngggn i’m back to thinking about post-nrc yuusha and jamil--- extremely long ramble below prepare for uh angst??? i guess???

i buried some of these lore in the tags somewhere but anyways-

yuusha and jamil exchanged hair ties when they separated and went off on their own post-nrc as a way to "remember each other by".

they both have different plans for their own futures despite wanting to be "together"— whatever that means. yuusha stayed at nrc working as staff and jamil is out travelling.

at this point though they STILL never officially “dated” but oh they were so so close SO many times to putting a label on it.

“what happened then” <- idk man they’re incredibly stupid. yuusha is still horribly noncommittal and jamil is- jamil. (“…the hell does that mean” <- SHHHH i will not elaborate)

they ended as just "really good friends" (something something on they’re on the spectrum of queerplatonic but they didn’t understand that that was the case) .

━━━━━━✦

at first they did well keeping in touch from a long distance—

yuusha never forgets to check in on jamil, texting/calling whenever possible, she was always the first to initiate.

and jamil still would’ve made the same effort of course, but yuusha always beats him to it. he sort of just expected her check-ins every day.

and he looks forward to that 1-15 notifications that he gets as soon as he wakes up. it does get him going knowing that she was specifically thinking of him at the start of the day.

that wouldn't last though. eventually, the more yuusha met more people and cultivated new relationships, the more she felt herself grow further and further apart from jamil.

yuusha thrives on physical relationships and the majority of the time the only communication and contact between her and jamil is through the phone.

and so the messages from her became less and less frequent as yuusha got more absorbed and interested in her work and other relationships.

don't get it wrong, she still cared about jamil. loved him even, in her own way.

he just became less of a priority.

━━━━━━✦

it was bittersweet to think that jamil finally had the chance to initiate the conversation.

because that meant yuusha had been thinking of him less and he had to remind her himself that— hey he's still there, remember him?— although that's not exactly what he would say. that's a bit too antagonistic and petty. surely, she's just busy. right?

yuusha would respond as if everything was normal. but the usual fondness, the usual warmth, they weren't there. her words through the screen felt dry. forced.

she can use the unnecessary punctuations and emojis she wants but she is not getting past him.

they called. it was nice to hear her voice. but. there's the same feeling of detachment. why are they talking as if this was one of their first times?

yuu, what happened?— is what jamil wanted to ask. but he would also respond nonchalantly. as if everything was normal.

jamil still tried to reach out to her. similar to how she did with him.

but it was to no avail.

their interactions felt too far gone from what they had.

eventually jamil also realized that there was No Point.

if she wasn’t going to make the effort anymore, why should he?

━━━━━━✦

professor yuusha tala walks in to her class which her signature braid and feathered hair tie.

it's lovely having gotten used to working at nrc. her students are surprisingly behaved and she enjoys teasing chatting with her coworkers. surely she isn't missing anything, is she?

and the traveler, jamil viper. he's seen most of the sights, experienced a lot of things. it's like he is slowly fulfilling his childhood dreams.

he ties his hair with the same one he's been using for years. it's a surprise it hasn't snapped yet from how worn out it looks. this really belonged to someone so cheap, huh.

he wonders why he's still using it. he had come across fitting souvenirs that could replace it.

waste of money— jamil convinces himself. besides, this hair tie is fit for every occasion and it's still holding up anyway.

he'll just get a new one when this one finally bites the dust.

if it ever does.

it's really stubborn for a hair tie.

[merowkittie]

Sugar Baby — Capt. John Price . Epilogue

summary: after a breakup with an ex, you end up on dating apps looking for someone to bring you some fun; entertainment. you happen to meet a military man, who’s looking for the same thing, but to spoil. who are you to decline his message asking if you wanted to be his sugar baby and tend to some of his needs?

warnings: abusive toxic ex / age gap (reader is like 24 in my head, price is late 30’s) / sugar daddy/baby dynamics / r calls john daddy / nsfw this get nastyyy (later on)

note: hi sweets, i’m officially writing again and i’m so excited to start this mini series with a little backstory/epilogue. i will say the reader is written gender neutral (do note that i use fem images to layout settings/tones for my fics!!) and i do write my reader as black presenting esp feature wise :). i may slip up and use some feminine elements here and there but it will be overall neutral.

enjoy sweets ( ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ഒ

“No Cass, you don’t understand, he sat there and played in my face for 2 years! There’s nothing to be calm about.” An aggravated sigh left your mouth as the hand holding your phone shook in anger. Your knuckles were white from the grip you were holding the poor thing in. Your free hand held the bridge of your nose as you tilted your head back, resting against the tub.

Sat in your bathtub inside of the small apartment, you thought taking a nice soothing rose water bath would relax you. It did everything but that. Even with the dim lights, candles for aromatherapy, and the oils that were infused with the bath water, your nerves were high and everything was telling you to do something!

Luckily your great friend Cass was here to save the day. She was on the phone telling you to look for other options, people come and go, live life and have fun.

“There’s no use getting hung up on a man that wants nothing to do with you, babe.” she said on the other end of the phone. Cass was always the type to forget about a man the next day and fuck one the next morning and she was trying to convert you to do the same thing.

You were never like that. Simply reserved and let things come to you. One thing Cass always applauded you on was your patience but she’s seeing now how little you have left.

“I swear i should’ve listened to my gut before. You know i’m always right!”

“Always. You’re like my own personal 8 ball!” Cass giggled on the other end. “Is your gut telling you to do something specific right now?”

For a moment you stopped and tried to see if your gut was tingling and it was. Your eyes drifted to a wine bottle by your side, pink moscato.

With a hum you looked down at the bath water and thought to yourself about different things to do.

“My gut is telling me to get drunk and break this bottle over his head.” You smiled to yourself as you placed the phone on the floor, putting it on speaker and grabbing the wine bottle.

Cass laughed at the idea. Knowing her, she’d be down for that and way more. A night out with the two of you meant hangovers, no regrets, and pleasure for the whole night and maybe the morning after. “I’m down but not tonight. Mom’s over and she’s gonna go nuts if she sees me in my club outfit.” She groaned at the thought.

You chuckled at that and sighed, back to square one of figuring out what to do with a wasted night.

It was silent between the two of you for a minute, you casually sipped on the wine, thinking about how you could’ve fucked up, why he didn’t tell you how he was feeling, and who the bitch was that he cheated on you with. As far as you were aware, he had an affair with someone for a year while you two were together.

You only found out because he came home smelling like perfume that wasn’t yours and drunk talking about how he fucked someone on your last anniversary. What a loser.

“Listen, you know he was like borderline abusive to you right?” She pointed out. Reminding you on what type of person he really was. “He wouldn’t even let you hang out with me half the time. Rarely let you go out by yourself, and let’s not talk about that time i caught him hitting you during the spring party at work..”

Shaking your head, you gently massaged your temples.

When she walked in on that, you had to beg her not to call anyone or the police, in fear of what he could do to you after the fact. That day was the first time he hit you, and for some reason it continued randomly but rarely after.

Sometimes he’d pull you into him, loving you and telling you he’d always be there, then you’d do something like break a dish, hangout with Cass, or get catcalled when you’re minding your business and then the whole relationship is ruined and he’s angry. He never could control his anger properly.

“Yea.. You’re right and I only put myself through that because I thought he meant how he felt for me.. but Cass this is hard.” You took a long sip of your moscato, thinking back to how he treated you.

“I just don’t want you going through that again. I know you’re a strong girl on your own, you could totally whoop my ass.” She joked, “But let’s get over this piece of shit? I mean he really wasn’t worth it anyways. We can go clubbing soon and get hot men to buy us drinks.”

You both giggled at the idea. That was how most of your nights went. It didn’t help you two befriended like half the bouncers in the area.

“Hey babe are you down for idea time?” Cass asked.

“Yea, what’s up?”

“Ok, so I think you should get on a dating app. Don’t hate yet!—” she cut off your loud obnoxious sigh, knowing you have a disdain for those apps. “I’ll help you set your account up right now. You know what the men look like on some of these?? HOT!”

At this point you felt a tad desperate but hey, it was worth a try right? Who knows, maybe you could find someone who will treat you right for once.

“Oh god. Ok Cass.. let me prepare myself though.” You whined as you took one last big swing of your wine before picking your phone back up and downloading one of the dreaded dating apps she sent you.

She began to instruct you on how to set your account up, specific pictures to put, a bio describing yourself and etc. It was relatively easy and by the time you finished you left your bath and sat in your bedroom wrapped in a silk robe smelling like coconuts and vanilla, a night outfit, and a bonnet to hold your locs.

You bickered about some of the people you came across, who was cute, ugly, who looked like they had money, and just browsed through different options both male and female.

Cass wasn’t feeling half of the people who matched you and you weren’t really either. They either didn’t meet your tastes, not pretty in the face, or just gave bad vibes.

Until after giving up for half an hour and playing imessage games, your phone went off with a message reading.

“Hey, sweetheart.”

At first you were confused and talked it over with Cass, trying to remember who this John was and how he looked before your horny ass must’ve fast matched him.

“Wait isn’t this the dilf we were screaming over??” She said over the phone, you could tell she was getting excited.

Your eyes lit up and the gears turned in your head. While waiting for interesting people you came across a man named John Price, and his bio said how he was a man in the military looking for a potential sugar baby to talk to when he was home.

This obviously piqued your interests because the one photo he provided that showed his muscled body in a dress suit and looking away made your mouth drool in seconds.

He was a sight to take in and if he needed someone to just talk to him, you were ready.

“Oh Shit! Ok, Cass I need to lock in. I will call you back when i’m done with an update.” You promised into the mic of your phone.

She giggled and said her goodbyes before hanging up.

Now alone with this sexy man texting you, you were a bit nervous but so so excited for a possibility.

Opening the dm, you began to type.

“Hey Handsome.”

You bit your lip anticipating his incoming reply. He was quite the mystery man from the singular photo on his account and little information in his bio.

“What’s a pretty thing like you doing swiping on my profile?”

A giggle left your lips like a school girl with a crush when you read the compliment. A ‘pretty thing’. It’s good to know he finds you attractive.

Y: “I liked what I saw.

It’s nice to know you think i’m pretty. <3”

J: “More than. You’re beautiful, darling.

Tell me a bit about yourself, yea?”

Y: “What do you want to know? I’m pretty much an open book. ;)”

J: “That’s good to know.

What’re you interested in?”

You began to tell John about your interests, even asking about his. The way he spoke through these messages held a tone of authority, dominance. He guided the conversation and you didn’t feel bored at all throughout your talking. He was also constantly complimenting you, praising you on things you’ve accomplished. John was pulling you in quickly, you knew you’d have to keep him around.

You learned that he’s a captain in the military and that’s it about his work life. He didn’t seem to like to speak about it too much, rather more interested in your work and social life instead. In the back of your mind was still his little comment in his bio mentioning how he was looking for a sugar baby.

And It’s like he read your mind because after a while of talking about each other he finally asked,

J: “Sweetheart, you’re really piquing my interest. You don’t got a boyfriend at home?”

Y: “Nope. Why? Interested in filling that spot?”

J: “Haha. You don’t want me, lovie.”

Y: “But what if i do?

We don’t have to be in a relationship.. We can be fuck buddies. ;)”

J: “Dirty girl.

You wanna be my sugar baby? I need a sweet naughty thing like you.”

To say you were gagged would be an understatement. You sat for a minute or two looking over the text and thinking through your head. What would this entitle? You’ve never done something somewhat scandalous like this. Though you didn’t want to make him wait and think over this way too long. So you went with that gut feeling and replied with your yes.

Y: “Only if i’m going to be spoiled with the best?”

J: “Nothing but the best and more. You don’t deserve anything less.”

Y: “Then yes. When’s our first meeting then daddy? 💋”

J: “I can take you to a bar tomorrow night. Nothing shabby, it’s fancy and I’ll say they have the best Margarita’s and Manhattan’s I’ve ever tasted.

And we can talk about some rules to establish here?”

Y: “Rules? Why not talk about them now?”

J: “I’d rather discuss all of that in person. Don’t worry your pretty head though.

Only one rule. Shouldn’t be hard yea?”

Y: “Hmm so i have to wait until tmrw?”

J: “Precisely. You should love the bar though.”

Y: “Should i get dolled up then? ;)”

J: “Yes. I’ll pick you up around 9. Send me your address and your number?”

Y: “You’re not gonna kidnap me are you captain military man?”

J: “No darling. Not looking to scare away a pretty lady.”

Y: “Hmm. Ok then. Here’s my number and address xx-xxxx xxxx.

Don’t stand me up. And don’t kidnap me!!!”

J: “Wouldn’t dream of it.

Goodnight, Baby.”

Y: “Goodnight, Handsome.”

With that you turned your phone off and closed your eyes, inhaling deeply to register the events that have just occurred. So many questions were running through your mind though so much thrill and excitement was replacing it quickly.

Was this man a blessing after such distressing weeks? Maybe this was your fun and entertainment you were looking for.

You’d have to figure that out tomorrow night.

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(lmk if you want to be added for future parts!)

[xcal1bur25]

And honestly, when a work of art that has a more or less anti-right wing message gets an audience that seemingly "misses the point", and that work of art has a follow up that tries REALLY HARD to make that not happen...it usually fucking sucks. Sure. You may be able to successfully alienate the audience you don't want. You will also make your work garbage, because you committed the cardinal sin of writing. You wrote for the audience. Good art is not made for the audience. Fuck the audience. Making art for the audience creates soulless, passionless, made-by-committee, castrated-by-focus-group, schlock that is completely devoid of value, and that's true whether or not you like the audience, or you hate them.

Like, okay. When people bitch about a work being "too political", and they aren't full of shit, THIS is what they're picking up on. But the problem is NOT that the work has a political opinion, but that it CARES what the political opinions of its audience are. Maybe it thinks that the audience agrees with it, so it will do a thing where it will turn to the audience and go "and now is the point where you clap at how based I am". It's appealing to its assumption of its audience's politics, and saying things it thinks they agree with, because it's easier to get them to cheer about something they care about in real life than it is to make them care enough about the story to cheer on its own merits. That, and it's good for marketing. Example: Everything in the MCU that has to do with Captain Marvel. Endgame literally could have had a better feminist message by removing her entirely and focusing more on Nebula and Gamora's relationship and how Thanos pit them against each other. Alternatively, it's the situation above, and it's being written for an audience that it believes DISAGREES with it. It also probably thinks that audience is stupid for not realizing that, AND IT MAY BE RIGHT, but it then proceeds to make it's point in the most blunt and artless way possible. Example: The Boys Season 4. I agree with basically every political stance it makes, but watching it make them is the definition of cringeworthy. Good art is made FOR THE ARTIST. Good art comes when creators make something that THEY think is great. They don't try to make art that the audience wants, or doesn't want, or is intended to lecture the audience, they simply make the art that THEY want to see in the world. And by no means does this mean that good art can't be political! The statement that all art is political still rings true, and the best art is extremely political! But good political art comes from the fact that politics are often an important part of someone's worldview and experiences, and when someone writes art that they care deeply about, those political beliefs come through. However, instead of coming through in a way that's preachy, or cringe, or cheesy, or desperate, or forced, or blunt, they come through in ways that are thoughtful, or contemplative, or passionate, or angry, or sad, or hopeful.

So just forget the audience, and make the art.

i dont think fight club was co-opted by the right because they didnt get the satire, it was co-opted because it fuckign kicks ass. they would have co-opted any movie that is that good and has hot sweaty men in it. right wingers aren't aliens, they know a good movie when they see it, the lesson isn't "don't make satire because the wrong people might think its for them" the lesson would be "don't make art that kicks ass" and i'd rather there be art that kicks ass

[epickiya722]

Folks, you're not going to like what I have to say. I just know it and I'm warning you of that. I said it once before, but leaks really do make some folks act out in ways that I can't understand. We ain't even got a full translation and already people are saying this ship is canon and that ship is canon... and whatever else. Jumping to conclusions when you don't even have all the facts.

Look, I'm not saying Hori is the best writer. I'm not saying Izuku and Ochako is a bad ship (it's not, there's worse... a lot worse).

But I do think some people are jumping ten steps ahead and I doubt that they are canon romantically. This isn't me being in denial because I could care less about the ship. It's not a ship that makes me sit up at night and cry and want to punch a wall and harass people. No ship for me does.

So far, from what I can gather from the very little information Izuku wants to see Ochako more because... THEY LITERALLY HAVEN'T SEEN EACH OTHER A LOT. In the last chapter, Izuku states that the class haven't been able to catch up and whatnot because over the years they got busy with their careers. The last time they probably had a proper conversation was in high school.

Izuku and Ochako wanting to meet up more doesn't automatically mean they're going to date. Let's not forget, Ochako is one of the first people to become a close friend of Izuku's in their first year. They clicked because they were so similar. They mirror each other even!

They're best friends if anything and wouldn't you want to see your best friend after not seeing them for a long time?

So far, it just feels that this epilogue is them accepting their own feelings about everything that has happened, like a self-reflection and self-acceptance type of deal.

Sometimes, you realize something about yourself when encountering someone who is like you. That's how Izuku and Ochako are to me.

It takes them identifying with the other to come to terms about themselves.

"But the blushing! The handholding!"

So blushing automatically means "I have romantic feelings for you", is what some of you are saying?

Just gonna forget all the times they and others have blushed out of embarrassment or happiness? That even some characters have the blush stickers to show their sweet innocent nature, like Ochako for most of the story?

Izuku blushed at Katsuki in the final chapter out of happiness, so it can't apply here, too? Why does blushing got to only be used in a romantic sense?

Seeing Izuku blushing looking at Ochako is funny when considering he's holding an (possibly) alcoholic beverage in that same shot. My guy is probably drunk. 😆 Jokes aside, jokes aside.

This is Ochako and Izuku, we're talking about here. They're the Queen and King of MHA characters who blush a lot, no matter what is going on.

And the handholding? In MHA? It happens a lot between characters! It's not like anything new or Izuku and Ochako are going to get cooties.

Look, I might make some people laugh or hate me for this one but when I saw this... I was reminded of this.

For those that don't know, that is from the Predator (1987). Yes, that Predator.

Two characters that have been friends for a long time and just happy to see each other.

We seen this kind of handshake like this before between characters of different and same genders. Either as a greet or as an agreement.

Izuku and Ochako are just agreeing to see each other more and that they should allow themselves to live happy lives. That doesn't mean they're going to start dating and having babies the following week.

"Bakugou is being treated like his wingman!"

Ah, stop right there. Katsuki encouraging Izuku to talk to Ochako isn't like that strange because between Izuku and Katsuki, Katsuki is the one to most likely reveal his emotions. He is more in touch with his emotions than Izuku who while emotional tends to keep everything in.

Katsuki isn't playing wingman. He's playing advisor and someone who has experience with emotions.

Seeing Izuku stumbling over his words and being all nervous trying to talk to Ochako is so in character for him. He has never been too good expressing his emotions.

I doubt Katsuki would be like "go tell her you want to marry her". He is more like "go talk to her, you're friends, remember? Been forever since you had a proper conversation."

It's the same case with Himiko pushing Ochako towards Izuku. She is encouraging her to be happy and not be stuck in the past. Not "go get married".

Happiness doesn't mean you must be in a romance.

Just me, again, but I feel like some people are really just jumping the gun here. If you really are thinking Izuku and Ochako being canon is bad for your ship, that's... I'm sorry, this will be mean of me to say, but that's ridiculous.

A ship being canon shouldn't stop you from enjoying the ships you do like. What ever happen to "ignore canon"? Oh, I guess that becomes irrelevant when you want to cause panic and bash and panic and bash and panic and bash.

Like a handhold like that shouldn't make you feel threatened by that ship.

Just continue shipping your ships! Take it from someone whose favorite ship is of two characters who haven't been seen interacting before.

Even still, with just leaks alone, it doesn't mean they are canon. I have my ships and there's moments in whatever the story makes me ship them but I also don't think every little behavior is meant to be romantic.

The thing I know I'm going to hate about this epilogue isn't even the chapter itself. It's the reactions.

I know some people are going to say this chapter is queerbait and use to it to even go as far as to bash Ochako given she is the woman and it's routine to hate on the woman. It ain't queerbait if Katsuki and Izuku wasn't going to be explicitly a couple themselves. Let's not forget it's Shonen Jump and even though the queer coding can be there, we can't have everything.

Also, I also know that some fans of IzuOcha are going to use this chapter to justify their "authority" of "best ships" and harass people like "my ship is better than yours" and be only concerned about Ochako being a housewife.

I don't think Horikoshi is the greatest human and MHA is a flawless story but some of you are no better to these characters and the story.

[fushiguho]

Synopsis Suguru Getou isn’t sure what it is about you that makes him lose all sense of himself, that makes his blood both run cold and southward. What are you? A fallen angel? A succubus? A mere figment of his imagination? God, does he want to know, he needs to know because there is no way that you’re human. So, that begs the question... what are you?

Poor Suguru. He caught you red handed, but god, what a sight for sore eyes you are — your bare, perspiring body trembling as you hump against his pillow, sweet cries of his name spilling from your raptured tongue as you lay in a tousled mess of plaid, unkempt sheets. Suguru wonders, what possesses someone to do such a thing? To creep into their housemate’s sacred space, climb into their bed, and fuck themselves against their one and only pillow? Why is it making his cock jerk against the fabric of his briefs?

Maybe it’s the simple fact that you just don’t care. The fact that you’re so flagrantly conquered by your overbearing lust that you lack half the decency for respect, for shame. Maybe that’s the very reason he’s drawn to you in the way naive moths are to rampant flames; in the way curious bumblebees are to bright, beautiful flowers; in the way sweet, respectful men are to women who embody such raw and salacious feminine vivacity.

There’s such a dark, seductive energy that manifests in the way you walk, talk, breathe. Suguru can see it — the colorful ripple and billow of the overwhelming ambience that emanates from your entire being, it surrounds you. It hums and crackles in haphazard spurts of electricity and he feels it, he smells it. He needs to be inside it — inside of you. You overwhelm him, fogging his brain to the brink of utter confusion. He’s grossly enthralled by your unfathomable beauty, yet he’s terrified of what you'll turn him into.

For months, his fruitless attempts to suppress his growing infatuation has only made stronger, louder — it’s a low, ravenous growl that’s hungry, it craves satiation, it craves you. Now, he feels your presence even in your absence. Remnants of your sickly, sweet perfume clinging to the couch, the walls, your used towels in the shared bathroom. Everywhere, you linger. What is it about residing in such close quarters that morphs his cordiality into carnality? Is it something more? Something beyond human comprehension?

You’re even appearing in his dreams now and he’s sure that he’s completely lost it. In the sick, repressed depths of his subconscious, there is a facet of his latent mind that works overtime, conjuring the vilest, most debauched scenarios that feature you — obscene amounts of dried, caked over arousal kissing his abdomen each morning a testament of his late night ministries, the honeyed redolence of you lingering.

Whenever Suguru is around you, he can’t breathe, he forgets how. He chokes on a breath, the thick, protruding vein that adorns the underside of his cock throbbing painfully as you shamelessly rut against his pillow, breathless whines and gasps of pleasure dragging from your gaped mouth, oblivious to his bashful eyes. Incredulously, he observes you, wordlessly peering through his cracked bedroom door, the subconscious clamp of his thighs dulling the thrum of arousal that pools in the fat of his balls.

A large hand is cupping the unmistakable bulge that weeps milky tears of desperation, silently begging to be taken care of because it hurts. Your poor, sweet roommate is so hard to the point that it physically pains him, and unbeknownst to you, you’re the culprit. A strained whimper is prying his jaw open, thick, sable brows knitting so prettily in tandem. His fruitless attempts to dampen the cries that yearn to be heard are done in vain.

Suguru can’t help the guttural moan that belts from the depths of his chest when your darkened gaze eventually catches his. You’re whorishly sprawled apart now, head suspended from the side of his bed as you press a pretty, pink vibrator against your swollen clit. His timid gaze falls from your relentless prowl to the girthy, wet wand that hums and glides between your drooling lips.

Unabashed, you smile. “I see you, handsome,” the discernible tent that lurks beneath the restricting fabric of his bottoms makes your core sink in arousal, “him too.” You purr and he breathlessly follows the descent of your gaze, the both of you peering down at the unquestionable bulge at once.

Suguru chokes on a breath, averting his gaze. “Oh,” a deep, crimson hue is creeping up his neck, spilling across his cheeks, the peak of nose, and the tips of his ears, “you… you’re… you’re…” his mind falls barren.

Giggling, you beckon him. “C’mereee,” you jerk your head, smiling, “I missed you, Sug,” his jaw gapes as your legs fall open just a bit wider, almost serving as an invitation. “Please? I need your help...” your hips buck sluttily as you frown, the hum of your vibrator ebbing as it disappears into your sopping cunt over and over and over again.

A timbre, helpless groan rumbles from the pit of his sternum when your back arches off of his sheets, a desperate slew of whines tumbling from your slacked jaw. Bewildered, he shakes his head, utter confusion etched within his gradually widening eyes. No, maybe this is just another one of his deep, repressed sexual fantasies — a cruel desire within a dream that he’s unknowingly played a hand in conjuring, because no, this can’t be fucking real.

The slick, translucent arousal that drools from your cunt, pooling into a sinful puddle beneath you is not real, nor is the sweet, repetitive prayer of his name that spills past your lips like a sacred mantra. Your hand is enticingly reaching out, waving him over and he subconsciously obliges, slowly creeping further into his bedroom. As he inches closer, the muted glow that pours from the full moon reveals the subtle glint of lust that pools within your darkening irises. You are going to eat him alive and he’s ready for it. He needs it, undoubtedly.

Suguru audibly expels a breath he wasn’t aware he held, cock drooling against his tightening briefs as he nears the purely erotic mess that adorns his ravaged sheets, you. The palpable thump! of his heart is deafening. His knees want so badly to buckle beneath him, sending him flying to the carpeted floor and at your mercy. He huffs another loud, incredulous breath, blown out pupils falling to the warm, gleaming arousal that seeps from your pretty pussy, gossamers of your essence stretching and snapping between your slick, tautly stretched lips.

“Fuck,” it’s quiet, teetering a breathless moan, “can… can I taste it, please?” He’s sinking to his knees, peering up at you so obediently from between your plush, outstretched thighs. “You’re so fucking pretty, pleasepleaseplease let me taste you…” every hot, raptured breath he pants fans your swollen lips, he’s drooling, for it — or rather on it, “please?”

The sweet, tantalizing giggle that parts your lips is like kindle to a rampant flame, his cock aches. “You don’t ever have to ask me, Sug,” an ethereal smile is gracing your face, “it’s yours to taste whenever you want it, hm? After work, as I’m cooking… while I’m sleeping.” The insinuation makes his heart lurch.

Another audible breath parts his lips. “Yes… yes, p-please I want that,” Suguru is nodding dumbly before you can finish, “I can do that for you, please let me do that for you, fuck… I’ve always wanted that. I… I can be a good boy for you, your good boy.”

He’s indubitably blinded by his ineffable lust — babbling reckless pleads amongst his erratic breaths of utter incredulity. All he can do is feel; his warm, ever growing touch haphazard and clumsy and needy and so gentle in all the right ways. His soft hands are politely abrupt and unsure, yet there’s an inborn, animalistic urgency that completely consumes him, heedlessly drawing him into you. There’s a fleeting, unintentional forcefulness that guides him and it’s setting your skin ablaze.

Two, large hands are gripping the supple underside of your thighs, unintentionally prying you wider; his long, burly thumbs are spreading your pretty, gleaming lips, removing the toy that hums inside of you. It’s sudden — the longgg, searing drag of his curious tongue from your drooling hole to the head of your quivering clit. It’s pleasantly abrupt, pulling the nastiest whine from your gaped mouth. A dazed hum of satisfaction thrums against your cunt, his wet, open mouth wrapping so eagerly around the mound of arousal that drools endlessly.

God, he’s already drunk off of you, the taste of you like sweet, forbidden fruit from the sacred garden of Eden. He’ll hardly remember the way he’s whorishly pulling his cock out, whining so prettily against your puffy clit as he desperately ruts against the side of his mattress. The poor, aching head weeping against his cotton sheets, crying tears of desperation in syrupy, white ribbons — he’s cumming, hard. Long, droning whimpers drag from his open mouth and into the mess of slick that laminates your cunt, his pretty lips quivering against yours.

“Oh?” Utter arousal pools in your widening eyes, a gasp following. “Are you cumming?” Several of your fingers are carding through his mussed hair, a deep, pleasureful groan kissing your cunt as you tug him closer. “Are you making suuuch a mess for me, huh?” The gyration of your hips has him slobbering into your pussy, unbroken hums of rapture pouring against you. “Show me how much you came for me… show me what a mess you made.”

His eyes are screwing shut. “Oh, god,” he’s gasping, reaching a large, obedient hand down to gather the prolific arousal that soils his sheets, “it’s… it’s so much.” The sweet quaver of his voice makes your heart swell. Pure, unadulterated submission seeping from his wet, whiny tongue. He’s adorable.

Suguru is dutifully delivering his dripping fingers to you, a dark set of meek, forbearing eyes peering from behind the long digits, patiently awaiting your next command. An obscene amount of cum dribbles down his knuckles and palm, painting the expanse of his hand in a sheer, white mess. It drips against your perspiring skin, trickling down your plush thighs and tummy. His gaze meets yours timidly — waiting, pleading.

“Touch me with it…” you whisper, sitting up to rest on your elbows so you can eye the sweet, hungry man that peers up at you, “use your fingers and fuck your cum inside of me.” A slow, bewitching smile is marring your face and it’s sick. He nods stupidly, bewildered, heart sinking to the pit of his stomach. “Yeah? Can you do that for me, baby? You gonna show me how your cum feels inside of my pussy?” God.

Suguru expels another loud, shuddered breath, cock twitching. “Yes... yesyesyes, fuck. I can do that for you… I’ll do anything for you." He’s sitting up higher on his knees and leaning closer, the audible pant of his breath fanning your skin, "you're s-so pretty, I'm so lucky to do this to you... to see you like this." He’s creeping even closer.

The entirety of his wet palm is running up the expanse of your cunt, smearing his viscous arousal across your clit, between your swollen lips, then deeeep inside of you. A long, drawn out whimper is pouring from your gaped mouth as his cum-slick digits are sinking inside of your slobbering hole, an obscene, gut wrenching squelch!  crying from between your thighs. God, the sound alone could make him cum again, and again, and again.

Wide eyes are flitting up to catch yours. "Like... like this?" He breathes, thick, sable brows furrowing incredulously as you buck against his pawing hand. "Is this good? Does my cum feel... good?" Over and over again, his fingers disappear into your pretty pussy, bottoming out at his burly knuckles each and every time, pulling the sluttiest cries from your parted lips. "Am... am I being a good boy for you?"

Nodding, you gasp. “Yes,” your jaw falls slack, hips canting in the air, “such a perfect boy… listening so good for me, mhmmm.”

“Can I taste it again? I… I wanna taste us, please?” His lips are subconsciously parting, drool almost spilling from the corner of his mouth. “Please, I’ll make you cum over and over again if you want that, just tell me what to do… tell me how to please you.” He almost wants to cry, sweet, pleading eyes so so close to watering with fat tears of desperation.

You can hardly nod nor fix your lips to speak because he’s practically diving into you, wet lips instinctively latching to your ravaged clit, tasting himself. Satisfied, he hums to himself, savoring the marrying flavors of arousal on the tip of his tongue, his lithe fingers steadily pummeling inside of you. As if it’s his sole purpose in life, Suguru is eager to please — so willing and enthusiastic and completely devoted to you.

He wouldn’t mind if this became a reality for him, or rather the both of you — a common occurrence that becomes so regular that it’s just ordinary, normal. He wouldn’t mind if you crept into his bed during the dead of night to sit on his face or if you only sought him from here on out for a quick fuck. He doesn’t care. He needs you to want him, to want to be pleased by him.

He pants against your drooling cunt, begging. “Please cum for me,” his vacant hand paws at the thick of your hip, desperately pulling you closer, warm tongue gliding between your glossy lips, “pleasepleaseplease cum for me… on my tongue. Please, I want it — I need it.” He whines between the frantic drag of his tongue.

Amused, you smile, his cock throbbing in turn. “Stop asking, Sug,” you’re carding a hand through his hair, sweeping away the several, inky strands that occlude his vision, baring his drunken mien, “I’ve already given you permission to do as you please, baby. Don’t ask me again.”

Suguru nods eagerly, choking down the groan that threatens to part his lips. The sweet, subtle sternness that drips from your tongue is killing him. He can’t help himself, he’s so incredibly conquered by his insatiable desire to please. All he sees is you and the pretty, pink vibrator that lays alongside you, beckoning him. He’s hastily snatching the toy from the tousled sheets and toggling the power button on with a click!

He exchanges one, last look of pleading, wordlessly seeking your assurance a final time as he nears your weeping cunt with the loud, humming vibrator. You nod down to him, a big, toothy grin playing your lips. Yes, this is exactly what you wanted — for him to lose himself in the taste of you, to be so utterly prevailed by his carnal and overbearing lust that he lacks half the decency to ask for permission anymore. This is exactly what you need.

His mouth gapes, a loud gasp ensuing. “Hah — oh my… god,” he groans and he could fucking cry as he replaces his fingers with your vibrator, slowly easing the girthy, pink wand inside of your welcoming hole, “oh my fucking god, you’re s-so wet.” Suguru is so plainly subdued by his aching need to satisfy that it exudes in the way he speaks, in the way can’t help but to moan out his words, simple vowels and consonants laden with his discernible lust.

“Yeaaah, that’s a good fucking boy, spit on it,” you gasp as he’s leaning forward to loll out his tongue, rivulets of drool spilling from the wet muscle and onto your perfectly swollen clit, “yes — fuuuck, god.”

A longgg, drawn out whine is dragging from your hoarse throat, the repetitive batter of the buzzing toy beating up your tightening walls. He’s lapping you up, grunting and moaning and drooling onto your cunt as if he’s on the brink of death and you’re an oasis amidst a barren desert — as if he’d simply die if not for your saccharine essence.

Suguru’s cock aches, growing impossibly hard yet again, the red, swollen head leaking a sinful stream of arousal onto his carpeted floor. A slew of guttural moans disappear into your cunt, his vacant hand wrapping so desperately around the length of himself, fist tightening to dull the mind numbing throb of his poor, weeping erection.

“Yes,” your hips are bucking so sluttily, meeting the mindless jerks of his tongue halfway, fucking yourself on it, “yesyesyes, fuck… so good, such a good, pretty mouth fuck.”

His fist tightens impossibly tighter, a helpless, high-pitched whimper thrumming against your clit. He can hardly help the hand that’s beginning to tug at the length of his cock, the slick remnants of his previous orgasm the perfect lube. The not-so-subtle buck his hips into the palm of his hand forces pant after breathless pant from his occupied mouth, his audible gasps for air separating the purposeful drags of his tongue.

Suguru is drunk, so plainly intoxicated and it’s purely from you — your slutty moans, the near feral buck of your hips, your greedy hands and how they possessively steer his head exactly where you need it, even the palpable throb of your aching clit has him squeezing his eyes closed in his overwhelming arousal, but he loves every fucking bit of it.

Not a single, seraphic inch of your cunt is left untouched. His tongue is relentless, completely consuming you and everything you have to offer; it’s sliding up the length of your lips, his erratic breaths hot and loud against the juncture where your thigh and pussy meet; it’s licking up the expanse of your plush, inner thigh, a glistening trail of saliva left in his wake; his tongue is even lapping against the vibrator that plunges in and out of your greedy hole, drinking the married, syrupy mess of arousal that leaks out of you. It’s exactly what has you unwarrantedly gushing down the length of your drenched toy, his name on the tip of your beautifully raptured tongue.

And god, Suguru has never seen anything like it — the deep, depraved arch of your back, plush tits pressing against the thick, tangible air; the discernible hitch of your breath that interrupts your sweet cries of his name, even the subtle glint of amaranth that gleams within your beckoning irises instills an innate sense of fear in him, yet it’s the most erotic thing he has ever experienced and he wants more, he needs to find out what the fuck you are.

“God, please fuck me,” he pants, his pretty, fucked out face gleaming, “m-make me your good boy forever.”

He has no idea what he’s asking for. Poor Suguru.

A/N i actually had no idea where i was going with this drabble. i started with the idea of making the reader a succubus, but it kinda got lost in translation. maybe it can be left up to the reader’s interpretation. but i like it i think? do you? let me know :p