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Valentine's Day
Anyone else suck at writing summaries for their stories? Anyways, happy belated Valentine's! I hadn't planned on writing a Valentine's related story, but here we are. Hope you all enjoy! Constructive criticism is always welcome :D Find my masterlist here :)
Pairing(s): Paige Bueckers x female!reader Word count: 4.8k+ Warnings: a bit clinchÊ, swearing, long-distance Summary: Valentine's Day isn't so bad when you get to call with your long-distance best friend, except things don't really go the way you planned. You're not mad about it, though. ------------
Valentine's Day. A day loved by many and hated by even more.Â
You belonged in the latter category. Why did couples need an extra day to celebrate their relationship? Why would you require an extra day to be nice to your partner when you should do that any other day as well? The only thing this holiday does is make single people feel bad. Youâre not bitter about it or anything, itâs just a fact, okay fine, youâre a little salty.
Today is another Valentine that youâre spending single, but this time at least you have plans! While most of your friends were going to be off on dates, you were going to be calling your long-distance best friend and making fun of the whole holiday. To say you were excited to talk to the girl was an understatement.
Being a student-athlete wasnât easy, Paige had complained about her busy schedule enough for you to know. Not that she had to, you could tell how exhausted she was whenever she found a bit of time to call you between school, homework, and basketball. It saddened you to know the blonde was wearing herself out completely to be the perfect student while also making sure sheâs the best basketball player she can be. She barely ever has time to relax, and youâre scared sheâs going to give herself a burn-out.
You were glad Paige found time today to hang out with you. Youâve missed her more than you thought you could ever miss anyone, not having heard her voice in weeks and only having gotten short messages to let you know sheâs still alive.Â
âEveryone is gonna be out and about on friday after practice so Iâll have the dorm to myself, FaceTime at 10:30?â Her message had read last Sunday, and youâd immediately agreed. While you knew the Valentineâs Day hangout was just a friendly hangout between best friends, you liked pretending it would be a date.Â
When you met Paige, you never thought youâd ever fall for her so deeply, let alone be such good friends with her. But here you were, 6 years later, with the biggest crush on her.
When your mom sent you to a random month-long summer camp when you were 16, youâd protested with your whole being. Youâd much rather stay home, bundled up on the couch all summer, re-reading your favorite book series, not going to a random camp out in the wild. âYouâll learn so much stuff! And youâll make friends for life!â Sheâd said, making you roll your eyes. You didnât believe a word sheâd said, knowing that even if you managed to make friends, youâd only talk to them for that summer and maybe a month after.
You didnât meet Paige until a week into camp. Her cabin was nowhere near yours, and so you werenât in the same activity groups as her. One of your roommates had met her one night when she couldnât sleep and went on a walk. She said you two would get along well, but the more she talked about the blonde, the less likely it seemed to you.
While you were shy, loved staying in, let people walk all over you, and were a bit of a teacherâs pet, 16-year-old Paige was the complete opposite. She was outgoing and friendly, and she loved teasing people even when she didnât know them. She preferred the outdoors, getting restless when she had to stay in and couldnât play her sports. She loved breaking the rules and always seemed to get away with it too, her charisma being able to charm all the camp leaders.
When your cabinmate had called her over during dinner, you were incredibly intimidated by the taller girl. She towered over you with a big grin, her blue eyes wide and full of mischief. She was loud and immediately set her eyes on you when she noticed your quietness. When your friends had joked about how shy you were, sheâd only grinned wider, saying she was going to get you to come out of your shell.
She managed to win you over a lot faster than you dared to admit. After that dinner, she was always able to spot you in the crowd, coming over to tease you or introduce you to more people. Within a week, you two were glued at the hip. She managed to do what she said she would, making you a little less afraid to speak your mind, while you were able to bring a calm to her that no one knew existed.
You swore saying goodbye to her at the end of camp was one of the hardest things youâd ever had to do. You were quite dramatic at times. Sadly, youâd been right about the not staying friends thing. You two sent each other two letters once camp was over and called five times before life got too busy with school, extracurriculars, and new friends. After that, you didnât talk for two years.
The next time you saw her again, you thought you were dreaming. You were touring different universities and had just finished the UConn one. Paige had managed to get even taller, her muscles were more defined, and sheâd finally found her style. You thought you were mistaken at first, but then her bright eyes found yours, and a wide smile made its way onto her face. She excused herself from the conversation she was in and jogged over to you, not letting you say more than a hi before pulling you into a hug. You let yourself fall into the comfortable, familiar feeling, sinking into her as you hug her back.
This time, when you two parted and said youâd stay in touch, you actually did. Sadly, you didnât end up going to UConn, instead choosing a university over two hours away from the blonde. Keeping in contact was easier now that you were older and more mature. You called each other multiple times a month, texting almost daily, and even met up IRL whenever you could. Youâd attended quite a few of her games, and she even surprised you on your birthday last year.
That birthday is your favorite one so far. Paige had surprised you with flowers and a book youâd been wanting for ages. She spoiled you like crazy that day, even staying the night at your dorm before having to go back to UConn. The day after was the day you realized you were head over heels for her. You became aware of the fact that the butterflies you felt in your stomach werenât just from being excited at seeing your best friend, they were actually because you had a crush on her.
You never told her about your feelings, however. You figured she only saw you as a friend and knew that there were hundreds of girls throwing themselves at her feet, so why would she choose someone who didnât even live in the same state as her?Â
You shake yourself out of your thoughts as you readjust yourself on your bed. Seeing itâs already 10:28, you open your camera to make sure you look okay. Patting down the flyaway hairs, you smile at your reflection. Closing the app, you grab your water bottle to take a sip and calm your growing nerves.
Knowing youâll be even more nervous if you keep staring at the seconds tick by, you open TikTok and scroll on your FYP to pass the time. You quickly realize that wasnât the best idea, seeing as there are only edits of Paige on your screen. Your face becomes a bright red as you watch the videos and save them all. You close the app after seeing an edit that makes you feel certain things, fanning your face as you try to get rid of your blush.Â
When you look at the time again, you shake your head in amusement. 10:35. In the years that youâve known the blonde, there havenât been many instances in which the girl has been on time. Usually, it bothers you to no end when someone is late. It makes you feel as though they donât respect you enough to be on time. With the blonde, itâs different, however.Â
Itâs cute to see her all flustered, apologizing again and again for her tardiness. It makes you laugh when she pouts at you, complaining about how her laptop had to do another update, how her alarm didnât go off, or how Geno always has it out for her during the practices before a call. You grin when she leaves out the part where she was once again being a menace at practice, teasing her about it after Nika texts you to let you know Paige will be late and why.
You send her a quick text, asking if she managed to piss off Geno again, before checking to see if the Croatian had texted you anything. After another 5 minutes pass, you frown a little, slightly worried about the blonde. When your phone buzzes, you sit up straighter, fluffing up your hair a bit as you prepare to start the call. Grabbing your phone, you expect a âSorry Iâm late! You ready?â message, but you deflate instead.
âHey, sorry I canât call 2day, feeling exhausted, rain check?â It reads.
Of course, this isnât the first time Paige has had to cancel on you. You understood that her busy schedule left her incredibly exhausted, and you knew she hated herself every time she had to cancel. Usually she pushed through, calling you anyway and falling asleep within 10 minutes of the call. Sheâd apologize profusely, a big frown on her face as her eyes turn a murky blue in sadness. You always told her you didnât mind, you actually found it cute how her tired eyes would slowly blink at you before finally closing.Â
The fact that she actually canceled this time meant she didnât feel good at all, so you let her know it was okay and that youâd talk soon. Once you wish her sweet dreams as she goes to take a nap, you close your laptop with more force than necessary.Â
While you typically wouldnât mind all that much, you did this time. You missed her like crazy, you hadnât had the easiest week, all your friends were out having fun, and to top it all off, you were about to have your period, making you even crankier than usual. You sit in silence for a moment as you try to blink away your tears. You press your palms to your eyes as you shake your head. Slapping your cheeks softly, you try to snap out of it. âDonât be such a little baby,â you think to yourself.
You get up and stretch before pausing in the middle of the room. You look around a little lost, unsure of what to do now that your plans fell through. You bite your lip as you think about the tub of ice cream you left in your freezer for when you had a bad day. You pout as you realize youâll spend yet another Valentineâs Day watching a cheesy movie thatâll make you cry into your ice cream.
Right as youâre about to open the freezer, you hear a knock at the door. You throw your head back, holding in a groan as you debate pretending no one is home. You knew it was most likely your roommate, who knew you were going to be home, having forgotten her keys again, so you make your way over to the door.Â
You take a quick peek into the mirror to check if your eyes look red from your mini breakdown, silently cursing when they do. Rolling your eyes at yourself, you open the door, ready to tell your roommate to not mention it.
You freeze as your jaw drops open. Paige is standing in the hallway, holding a bouquet of red roses and a big teddy bear, a wide smile carved on her face. âSurprise,â she says, her voice soft as she takes you in. You cover your mouth with your hand as tears well up in your eyes again. âDamn these hormones,â you think, blinking to make them go away.
Seeing your watery eyes, the blondeâs smile softens as she mutters a âCâmere.â You fall into her open arms, squeezing her tightly as you nuzzle your face into the crook of her neck. Paige leans her head against yours, pressing a gentle kiss against your temple. She slowly shuffles you backward into your dorm, using her foot to close the door behind her.
Once you realize the way youâre gripping onto her, you let her go, heat creeping up your face. You feel a bit embarrassed, but the feeling gets taken over by the happiness of finally being near the blonde again. âWhatâre you doing here?â You breathe out as you look at her in childlike wonder. âWanted to spend Valentineâs with my favorite girl,â she replies, shoving the flowers and bear towards you. The butterflies in your stomach flutter around as you take the gifts with a wide smile, your cheeks bright red at the nickname.
You quickly put the flowers in a vase with some water before setting the teddy bear down on the couch. When you turn back towards Paige, you see her already staring at you with a soft look in her eyes. You skip back over to her, flinging yourself back into her arms, making her chuckle. âThank you,â you mutter against her shirt, fondness seeping through in your voice.
You pull back slightly with a loving smile, looking up at her but not leaving her arms. She moves one hand away from your back, bringing it towards your face as she rubs your cheek. âAnything for you,â she mumbles as she takes in your face like sheâs trying to memorize every bit of it. You can feel your face heat up, but you canât look away. Your heart beats faster as you admire her, waiting to see whatâs on her mind as you see different emotions swim around in her eyes.Â
Softly clearing her throat, she steps back nervously as she takes an envelope out of her pocket. She shifts her weight from foot to foot as she looks down at the envelope, her throat bobbing as she swallows harshly. âI, uh,â she starts, biting her lip before looking up at you with an anxious yet hopeful look. âThis is for you,â she says, handing you the envelope. You raise an eyebrow at her as you ask, âWhatâs this?â
âJus open it,â she says, fidgeting with her sleeve. You open the envelope tentatively, a little nervous at how anxious the usually confident girl is. Folding open the pink letter, you scan the page, smelling her perfume as if she sprayed it on the paper. You smile in adoration as you see the usual scribbly handwriting, this time a little less messy. Taking a quick glance at the girl, you see her rub her neck, nodding at you to read it. Your heart skips a beat as you read the words.Â
Itâs⌠Itâs a love confession.Â
You grip the paper a little tighter as you read about how Paige has had a crush on you for the past two years and how much you mean to her. Your eyes stay glued to the page until you reach the end. âWill you be my valentine?â The last sentence reads.
You look up at her in shock, excitement bubbling in your chest. The athlete is still looking at you, her eyes wide and hopeful. âReally?â You whisper, not wanting to break the intimate atmosphere. She nods her head as she bites her lip shyly. A broad smile spreads across your face as you nod enthusiastically. âYes!â You say, your voice a bit higher as youâre unable to contain your joy.
âYeah?â Paige grins, her confident, cheerful self showing again. She grabs you again, lifting you up as she twirls you around. You canât help the laugh that escapes your lips at the giddiness youâre feeling. âOkay, uhh, Iâve made dinner plans for tonight, but I was thinking we could just chill here for a bit and then go get lunch in that cute little cafĂŠ we went to last time I was here!â The blue-eyed girl beams.
Youâre already nodding your head before she finishes her sentence, knowing youâd do anything with the girl. Seeing as you still have some time before you need to start getting ready, you drag the basketball player to your couch. You let her sit down first before settling down next to her and swinging your legs over her lap. Youâd been in this position plenty of times before, but those times never felt as intimate as this time.
Your heart thrums in your chest as Paige immediately rests her hands on your legs, rubbing them softly as she relaxes into her seat. You hold your new teddy bear against your chest as you watch the blonde fondly. Catching you staring, she sends you a smirk, making you look down with a chuckle.
âSo, howâd you manage to get coach to let you skip practice?â You ask, your head tilted in question. âOh, that was easy, he loves me, so he said heâd let me skip for once,â she replies smoothly. You huff out a laugh as she says that, mischief clear in her eyes. âYouâre such a liar,â you grin back. âOkay, okay, maybe thatâs not exactly how it went,â she rolls her eyes playfully. You look at her triumphantly as she gives your leg a little squeeze, more amused than annoyed that you caught her. âHe said I could skip, but that my next practice is gonna be extra hard.âÂ
You look at her in amusement but also slight worry. âYou didnât have to do this, you know? I wouldâve been happy with just a phone call. I donât want you to work yourself to the point of passing out,â you reply, your brows furrowed slightly in concern. She shakes her head, bringing one hand to your face to smooth out your frown. âI know I didnât have to, but I wanted to. Besides, I think I wouldâve gone insane if I didnât see you soon,â she says, her voice more vulnerable than youâre used to.
Your lips curve back into a smile as she continues. âAnd stop worrying about me so much, Iâm okay. If things get too much, Iâll let you know, I promise.â She sticks out her pinky finger, grinning at you as you interlace yours with hers.
You two keep talking until itâs time to get ready for lunch. Seeing as Paige is already dressed, you leave her on your couch as you walk up to your closet to pick a nice outfit before running to the bathroom to put yourself together. Once youâre satisfied, you return to the couch, blushing as you see the blonde check you out. You raise your eyebrow and send her a teasing grin, letting her know you caught her. She simply sends you a smirk back as she gets up.
Thereâs not a moment of silence on the way to the cafĂŠ as you two talk about the latest things in your lives. You talk about classes, basketball, family, friends, and the weird dreams youâve had. The conversation continues to flow during lunch and into the afternoon as you walk around the city with Paige. A smile is permanently etched into your face as you stroll around with your hand in the blondeâs. While her hand is a bit rough from playing so much basketball, itâs still very soft. She rubs her thumb across your knuckles as she animatedly talks about the shenanigans sheâs been up to with the team.
When you stop for ice cream, you order your favorite flavor before noticing Paige taking another flavor you love. It confuses you a little, knowing she doesnât really like it, but you donât really pay any mind to it as you continue rambling about what your professor did last class. When you sit down, you enjoy your ice cream as you listen to the girl in front of you. She takes small bites in between sentences, making her still have half of it left when youâre done with yours. As she talks, she starts feeding you some of her cup, making you smile at how cheesy you two are being. You donât mind, though, this is exactly what youâd dreamed of.
When you notice the blonde isnât eating her ice cream anymore, only feeding you, you go to protest. You donât get the chance to, however, as the girl knew what you were up to. She quickly shoves another spoonful into your mouth when you open it to speak, rolling your eyes playfully. She grins as she shrugs a little.
Once you two are done, you walk back towards your dorm, silently thanking your roommate for having her own plans and not being home. Once inside, you guide the blonde to your bed, plopping down as you put on a random show for background sounds. You spend hours talking about everything and nothing, laughing harder than you have in months.Â
âSo, this dinner, where are we going?â You ask Paige as you crane your neck up from where youâre lying against her. She pretends to lock her mouth and throw away the key, making you roll your eyes. âYouâre so unhelpful, yâknow that?â She laughs, knowing itâs true. âCan you at least tell me what the vibe is? Do I need to dress fancy?â You question as you get up and walk over to your closet. You rifle through your options as the athlete speaks. âSemi-formal, I guess,â she shrugs, getting up herself. âWhere are you going?â You ask as she starts walking towards the door.Â
âGonna grab my bag from my car, Iâm not going to dinner in this outfit,â she replies, making you nod in understanding. Once sheâs gone, you pause for a moment, pinching yourself to make sure youâre not dreaming. When you know for sure youâre not, you let out an excited squeal before calming yourself down and getting ready. Once youâre dressed, you sit down in front of your mirror to apply some light make-up.
You hear Paige walk back in, having borrowed your keys, as youâre applying mascara. Once youâre done, you look at her through the mirror and send her a bashful smile. She doesnât smile back, too enthralled by your beauty. You shake your head as you giggle, grabbing your lip gloss. You lean in a bit closer to the mirror, applying a thin layer of gloss to make your lips shine. You glance over at Paige, seeing her eye the applicator as you glide it across your lips. She swallows harshly when you make eye contact, looking away sheepishly as she walks over to get ready in the bathroom.Â
You scroll through Instagram as you wait for the blonde, liking the Valentineâs Day posts from your friends. When you hear the bathroom door open, you glance up, your throat going dry. Paige always looked gorgeous, but right now, you think sheâs never looked better. She smiles softly at you as you take her in. She doesnât tease you about the way youâre basically drooling over her, knowing sheâs just as enamored.
âYou look beautiful,â she says, grabbing your hand and giving it a soft squeeze. âSays you,â you grin with rosy cheeks. Her eyes twinkle with happiness as she leads you to the door. âOh, one sec!â You mutter, running back towards your dresser to grab something. You quickly put the tiny box in your bag before walking back over to Paige. âAlright, Iâm ready,â you say, rocking back and forth in excitement.
You walk towards the taller girlâs car in comfortable silence, your hand in hers, fingers interlinked. You let her open the passenger door for you, chuckling at her as she gives you a bow. âMâlady,â she tries to say seriously, but she canât stop the smile growing on her face. âYouâre such a dork,â you reply as you get in, hoping she doesnât notice the bright color of your cheeks.
Once you two are on the road, Paige takes one hand off of the steering wheel, putting her arm on the center console. You look at it for a moment before grabbing her hand and interlacing your fingers once more. You take a peek at the blonde to see her reaction and feel your stomach flutter when you see her sporting a tiny, content smile.
Once you get to the restaurant, you look around in awe. It was beautiful. You still canât believe that all of this is real. That Paige Bueckers, your best friend, is taking you out on a date and treating you like a queen. Your cheeks hurt from how much youâve been smiling all day.Â
You two share a bottle of wine as you enjoy your food, letting one another taste each otherâs dishes, grinning when you find the otherâs food better. You giggle as you switch your plates around, not paying any mind to the looks youâre receiving. After finishing your meal, you order dessert, sharing the sweet treat, feeling pretty full from dinner.Â
Once youâre done, Paige pulls out a wrapped box with a tiny ribbon bow. For a moment youâre confused where it came from, but you quickly dismiss your confusion. âPaige, you didnât have to get me anything! Youâve already paid for everything today,â you whine, feeling bad about how much the girl is spending on you. âOh hush,â she says, âI love spoiling my girl.â âYour girl, huh?â You tease with a grin. She rolls her eyes lightheartedly. âOpen itttt,â she says impatiently.
You giggle as you open it, letting out a gasp as you see the bracelet inside. âPaigeâŚâ you breathe out, âthis is beautiful.â âYeah? You like it?â She asks, hoping youâre speaking the truth. You nod eagerly, flashing her a toothy smile as you brush your thumb over the P charm. âI was scared it would be too possessive, giving you something with my initial on it for our first date,â she admits, scratching her temple. âI love it, P,â you say, letting her help you put it on.
You grab your bag, pulling out your own gift box. âYou didnât,â Paige grins as you hand it to her. âI did,â you grin back. âHow? You didnât even know I was coming today,â she asks, giving you a curious look. âI got this a while back and was just waiting for the perfect moment to give it to you,â you say, your heart drumming in your ears as you nervously wait for her reaction. Her face lights up at the sight of the new chain youâd gotten her. She lifts it out of the box, letting it shine in the dim restaurant lights.
She taps the tiny basketball pendant as it swings on the chain. The blonde sends you a radiant smile, her eyes shining with love. âThank you,â she says, adoration clear in her voice. You raise one finger, making her pause. You rummage in your bag, grabbing a tiny plastic bag, before handing it to her with a smirk. She holds it close, laughing as she realizes what it is. Opening the bag, she grabs the tiny charm, twirling it between her fingers. âI see we had the same idea,â she smiles, her cheeks becoming a soft pink at the thought of wearing your initial on her neck.Â
You help her put it on before waving over the waiter for the bill. You begrudgingly let Paige pay, knowing youâd never win that fight against her. You hold her hand as you walk towards her car, squeezing it softly. Your heart feels like itâs going to burst with joy and adoration. Once you reach the car, you look at the taller girl as she pauses.Â
Her eyes flit over your face as she softly grabs your hips. She steps closer, gently pushing you against the car. She leans in closer, her eyes looking into yours with a questioning look. Your heart skips a beat as you nod lightly. The blue-eyed girl leans even closer, her lips hovering over yours for a moment to give you an extra second to change your mind. When you donât, she presses her lips against yours in a slow but deep kiss. You grab her face, trying to pull her even closer as you close your eyes. After a minute, you pull away slightly to catch your breath. You move your hands towards her neck as you play with her baby hairs. The smile she sends you makes you weak in the knees, making you silently thank God that youâre leaning against the car.Â
âBe mine?â Paige breathes, her question sounding almost like a statement. You donât need to think twice as you nod, pulling her into another kiss.
You know it wonât be easy, being in a relationship while youâre miles apart, but you know that itâs all worth it when you get to call this amazing girl yours.
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grumpy!joel miller x reader
summary: Joel despises the superficiality of Valentineâs Day, and you, a hopeless romantic who adores love in all its forms, find your friendship tested when you spend Valentineâs week together as single friends, only to discover unexpected feelings that blur the line between friendship and love.
a/n: a little valentine story for yall đ
joel miller masterlist
Valentineâs week was my favorite time of year. Everything felt lighter, softerâlike the world was wrapped in a warm, pink haze. Even if most people thought it was cheesy, I loved it. Love letters, heart-shaped candies, couples holding handsâit made me believe that love, real love, was still out there.
Joel Miller didnât share that belief.
âDonât even start,â Joel grumbled the moment he picked up my call, his deep, tired voice crackling through the phone.
I grinned, curling up on my couch with a cup of coffee. âStart what?â I teased, already picturing the irritated look on his face. âI was just calling to check on my favorite Valentineâs Grinch.â
He let out a long sigh, and I bit back a laugh.
âWhat do you want, y/n?â
âWell,â I drew out the word, knowing exactly how much heâd hate what I was about to say. âWeâre both single this year. Why donât we spend Valentineâs week together?â
There was a beat of silence. I imagined him blinking in disbelief.
âYouâre joking.â
âCâmon, itâll be fun!â I insisted. âMovies, takeout, no pressure. And who knows? Maybe Iâll even convince you that love isnât as terrible as you think it is.â
âNot happening,â he muttered, but I heard the faintest smile in his voice.
âIs that a yes?â I pressed, holding my breath.
Another long sigh, thenââFine. But donât expect me to wear anything pink.â
I laughed, my heart fluttering. âDeal.â
The next few days felt like walking a tightrope.
We spent almost every moment together, but never crossed the line. We did all the things couples doâlate-night drives with music humming softly in the background, sharing breakfasts at the little diner on Main Street, walking through the park while I pointed out every couple holding hands just to watch Joel roll his eyes.
But neither of us said it. Neither of us dared to admit what was simmering beneath the surface.
âThis is exhausting,â Joel muttered as we sat on a park bench, sipping coffee.
âWhat is?â I asked, smiling into my cup.
âAll of this. People pretending for a week that theyâre in love.â
I nudged his shoulder playfully. âNot everyoneâs pretending, you know.â
He scoffed. âName one couple that ainât puttinâ on a show.â
I didnât even have to think. âMy grandparents.â
Joel raised an eyebrow.
âTheyâve been together for 53 years,â I said softly, my smile turning wistful. âThey met in college. My grandpa still brings her flowers every Friday. And she still laughs at all his bad jokes.â
Joel let out a low hum, like he wasnât sure if he believed me.
âIâm not saying itâs common,â I added, reading his mind. âBut just because itâs rare doesnât mean itâs not real.â
He glanced at me then, his gaze lingering a little too long, a little too soft. My breath caught, but I looked away before my feelings betrayed me.
One afternoon, we ended up in the bookstore downtown, wandering through the aisles. Joel found himself in the history section, while I was drawn to the romance novels, of course.
âYouâre really gonna read one of those?â he asked, leaning against the shelf with a teasing smirk.
âYes, Joel,â I shot back, holding up a book with a dramatic cover. âItâs called escapism. You should try it sometime.â
âIâll stick to the real world, thanks.â
âWhere love doesnât exist?â I teased.
âExactly.â
I sighed dramatically, shaking my head. âYouâre hopeless.â
As we walked out, I couldnât help myself. I nodded toward an older couple sitting on a bench, their hands intertwined, lost in their own little world.
âLook at them,â I whispered. âDonât tell me thatâs not real.â
Joel followed my gaze, but said nothing. I wished I knew what he was thinking.
It started with a simple planâcook dinner, keep things light, pretend my heart wasnât on the verge of bursting every time Joel Miller looked at me.
I wasnât exactly a gourmet chef, but I knew my way around a kitchen well enough to whip up something decent. Joel sat at the counter, watching me with an amused expression, a beer in hand.
âYou sure youâre not gonna burn the place down?â he teased.
I shot him a playful glare. âIâm perfectly capable, thank you very much.â
He chuckled, leaning back in his chair like he didnât have a care in the world. I, on the other hand, was trying not to melt under the weight of his gaze.
I turned on some music to fill the silence, letting the soft strum of a guitar filter through the room. And then it happenedâone of my favorite love songs started playing. A soft, sweet melody that made my chest ache.
âUh-oh,â Joel muttered, already sensing what was coming.
I grinned, turning to face him. âDance with me.â
âY/nâŚâ he warned, shaking his head.
âPlease?â I stretched out the word, giving him my best pleading eyes. âFor me?â
He let out a long sigh, but when I reached out my hand, he took it without a fight.
His hand was warm as he pulled me close, his touch gentle despite the roughness of his calloused fingers. We swayed in my tiny kitchen, the smell of dinner forgotten, the music weaving around us like a secret only we knew.
âThis is ridiculous,â he whispered, but there was a softness in his voice, in the way his hand rested on my waist.
âMaybe,â I whispered back, resting my head lightly on his shoulder. âBut itâs nice, isnât it?â
He didnât answer, but he didnât have to. I could feel itâthe way his grip tightened ever so slightly, the way his breath hitched when I leaned in closer.
For a moment, it felt like we werenât pretending anymore. Like the feelings we never spoke about were real, tangible.
When the song ended, Joel pulled back slowly, his eyes lingering on mine. The air between us crackled with something unspoken.
âDinnerâs gonna burn,â he muttered, clearing his throat as he stepped away.
I laughed softly, but my heart still ached.
Because even when we danced around our feelings, I knew the truth.
Valentineâs Day arrived quietly, the way it always did.
I felt like I was losing my grip. Every smile, every lingering glance, every time Joelâs hand brushed against mine felt like it was unraveling me.
When I opened my apartment door that morning to find Joel standing thereâgrumpy expression firmly in placeâholding a small bouquet of wildflowers, I froze.
âUh⌠these are for you,â he mumbled, looking like heâd rather be anywhere else.
I stared at the flowers, then at him, trying to process the fact that Joel Millerâthe man who swore up and down that Valentineâs Day was nothing but a commercial scamâwas holding flowers for me.
âIs this a joke?â I teased, even though my heart was racing.
âDo you want âem or not?â he grumbled, shoving them toward me.
I laughed softly, taking the bouquet from his hands. âTheyâre beautiful, Joel. Thank you.â
âDonât make a big deal out of it,â he muttered, rubbing the back of his neck. âItâs just⌠you like this kinda thing. Figured you deserved somethinâ nice.â
My chest tightened at his words. Joel Miller, who claimed not to believe in love, had just done something more thoughtful than any grand gesture ever could be.
That night, we ended up back at my apartment, a bottle of wine between us, laughing over old memories.
âI donât get it,â Joel said, leaning back on the couch, his voice quieter now. âYou got your heart brokenâbadâand you still believe in all this love stuff.â
I swallowed hard, the memory of my past relationship still a dull ache. âBecause I know what it feels like to be loved, Joel. Even if it wasnât forever. And I know what it feels like to be alone, too.â
He looked at me then, something unreadable in his eyes. âYouâre not alone,â he whispered.
And for a moment, I let myself believe him.
The night felt endless, every moment stretching out between us like a question neither of us wanted to answer.
I could feel Joel beside me, the weight of his presence grounding me, but also unraveling me. The flowers heâd given me sat on the table, delicate and unexpected, just like him.
âJoel,â I whispered, barely able to hear my own voice over the pounding of my heart.
He turned to me, eyes darker than usual, something unreadable flickering in them.
I opened my mouth to say somethingâanythingâbut before I could, Joel was already moving.
His hand cupped my face, rough fingertips trailing along my jaw, and then his lips were on mine.
This wasnât a tentative kiss. This wasnât careful. This was Joel Miller finally giving in, finally letting go of every wall he had built around his heart.
His mouth pressed urgently against mine, and I melted into him, my hands gripping his shirt as if holding on for dear life. His other hand slid around my waist, pulling me closer until there was no space left between us.
I felt everything in that kissâevery unspoken word, every moment weâd danced around our feelings, every piece of him heâd kept hidden from the world.
When we broke apart, breathless, Joel rested his forehead against mine, his voice rough and low.
âI canât fight it anymore,â he whispered. âI donât want to.â
I swallowed hard, my heart aching in the best way. âThen donât.â
He kissed me again, softer this time, but with the same intensity, the same longing that had always been thereâwaiting for us to finally stop pretending.
In that moment, I knew. Joel Miller didnât just care for me.
He loved me.
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maggie iâm going a bit off-script here, but for your valentineâs blurbs can i request Âłâž âhas it occurred to you that weâve spent more valentineâs days with each other than with people weâve actually been dating?â with quinn â but plot twist, he thought you were passed the just friends phase. just a little awkward & flustered quinn vday moment ��
âŠâ§âË bratbarzal's valentines event!Ëââ§âŠ
3. âhas it occurred to you that weâve spent more valentineâs days with each other than with people weâve actually been dating?â we love awkward and flustered quinn in this house!!!
"I can't do this anymore," Quinn grumbles out of nowhere as the two of you are on his couch, drawing your attention from the dimmed screen of your phone to watch him pinch at the bridge of his nose and kick the throw that is draped over both of your lower bodies.
"Can't do what?" You frown, tilting your head to watch the theatrics, the blanket falling from your own lap into a tangled mess on the floor.
"Sit here and do nothing. I'm sick of doing nothing. You're driving me crazy, is this like, some sort of power thing? Are you seriously not even gonna acknowledge what's going on here?"
"What's-," You literally have no idea what the hell has gotten into him. "Going on? Quinn, what are you even talking about? When did you get all antsy and weird?"
"Uh, I don't know," he retorts, narrowing his eyes in your general direction, not quite able to meet yours. "Maybe when you started giggling at your phone and acting like this is any normal day? I get trying to convince yourself that this is no different to all the other times, it's what I kept telling myself to calm down earlier, considering we've been technically doing this," he gestures around the two of you, "For the past few years now, but I thought this time was different. I want it to be different."
"What do you mean by that?" You frown, pushing your phone under the pillow you're leaning on, shuffling a little where your legs are tucked beneath you on the couch and watching as he stands, arms thrown out in irritation as he turns back to you, swiping quickly where the blanket is bunched up and an inevitable trip hazard and throwing it over the back of the couch.
"Alright, has it ever occurred to you that the two of us have spent more Valentine's Days with each other than with the people we've actually been dating?"
You stare blankly at him for a second, mouth agape as you register what he's actually talking about, before you clear your throat with a hand to your mouth as Quinn stares back, waiting for a response, eyes narrowed as his patience wears thin. "It's Valentines Day? Today?"
He's right - for as long as you've lived in the same building as Quinn over the past few years, the two of you have spent the day together, making a tradition of it, even when you'd had boyfriends and he'd had girlfriends, somehow always finding yourselves in distant relationships with people who travelled or just plain didn't care.
Quinn's door was always open to you - even on days saved specifically for romance, even if the two of you had never even considered crossing that line.
You know you've been a little distracted with work lately, but surely you'd have heard about it being Valentines Day sooner than now. You reach back for your phone just to check, and sure as anything on your homescreen is the date - Friday, February 14th.
Crap.
You've literally spent the past twenty minutes texting your group chat, following along on the boozy girls night you had turned down in order to spend another night in with Quinn. A night you hadn't given a second thought to, as the two of you have been hanging out more and more, lately - him slotting you in pretty much any and every time he's free.
And now it makes sense - they're doing Galentines.
Double crap.
"Oh my God," he runs a hand through his hair in exasperation, that one thick strand you always thought was a cool stylistic choice bouncing straight back into place across his forehead - because of course it just naturally does that. "I can't tell if you're just oblivious or I'm a complete idiot."
"Maybe it's a secret third option?" You offer, standing from the couch and taking a cautious step towards his now pacing figure.
"Don't be cute," he glares back at you, "I'm really not in the mood right now for you to be cracking jokes, I'm embarrassed enough-,"
"Embarrassed?" You frown, taking another step, "Why would you be embarrassed?"
"Because I thought this was a date," he jabs a finger into his chest before pointing it back in your direction, "And you thought it was any other Friday night."
"Oh."
"Yeah," he huffs.
"That is embarrassing."
"Jesus Christ," he mutters, spinning on his feet and starting to make his way over to the kitchen before you panic and grab at his wrist, tugging him back with a little more effort than you're used to - because Quinn Hughes is nothing if not stubborn when he wants to be.
"Wait," you pout, trying to meet his avoidant gaze as he looks at anything but you, jaw set and body angled away. "Why did you think it was a date?"
"What is this, a humiliation ritual?" he scoffs, "I thought it was obvious. I asked you over. For dinner. I cooked! When you walked in here I was wearing an apron, for crying out loud! There's flowers on the table," he hooks a thumb over to where the two of you had eaten - sat across from one another at his small dining table, for once, instead of on the couch or the breakfast bar, places set before you even got there. A small vase with gerbera daisies and a little ribbon around the rim. "And I'm wearing a shirt. In my own home." You cast your eyes down, to the way the buttons are popped at the top, a small sliver of his chest peaking through - and it feels like the first time you're really taking him in.
Not even tonight, but maybe ever.
It's not like you've never thought Quinn was hot - he's gorgeous, Mike Wazowski in a blindfold could see that - but there's always been a barrier there, like a cartoonish, pixelated sort of blur that hides him from full view, unlocked only by some costly subscription with life changing terms and conditions that you could never be bothered reading.
And you might have struck him off, until now - until he stood before you with a pouty bottom lip and a mortified flush to his cheeks - and he all of a sudden doesn't look like someone who could never be more than a friend.
Especially when you consider that maybe he's been thinking about crossing that line.
In a new light, he looks like someone who goes the extra mile, who gets you flowers and cooks you your favourite pasta dish, buys your favourite wine, puts an effort into his appearance to distinguish between all the times you've seen each other in sweatpants and actively listens to your dumb stories about office politics and teams meeting etiquette - like it ties in at all to any part of his world.
He sighs, heavy and resigned, and you see his chest deflate where your eyes are locked on it, catching the subtle shake of his head in your peripheral as you take too long to respond.
"Look, I kinda feel like an idiot, so maybe it's better if we just-,"
It's the tug of his wrist that spurs you into action, and you let it drop - too eager to grab him elsewhere, like by the front of his soft, pretty shirt - pulling him in by the collar and pressing your lips firmly to his.
You worry for all of three seconds until his fingertips dig pointedly into your hips, guiding you forward until you're a little closer, and they can slide further back. Your own hands move higher, touching skin now - curling around the back of his neck to bury themselves in his hair, pushing at his head to better meet where you're angled up to kiss him.
He purrs almost at the feeling, a hum of satisfaction that's spoken straight into your lips, and it almost distracts you from the way his touch wanders, one hand sliding up the back of your shirt and the other hand sliding lower.
You hum back at the firm press of his palm into the small of your back - his hand warm and his touch soothing, your shoulders loosening until all the tension seeps from your body, and you start to feel like you're floating.
Or falling.
You part slowly - of equal volition, you think - your eyes opening to see Quinn's screwed shut, and you take the second he keeps them that way to feel a flush of pride at the soft pink tint that has taken to his lips.
"I'm sorry," you tell him, barely above a whisper, when he finally opens his eyes and flashes you that darkened gaze, where it darts between your own eyes and your lips in a tantalising triangle.
He clears his own throat then, blinking hard and purposefully, and licking at his swollen lips.
"For what?" he asks, breathless, his hands still in the exact same places, thumb swiping at the dip in your spine and the fingers of his other hand temptingly close to crossing the curve of your ass - confident more in his touch than he seems to be with anything else.
"For wearing sweatpants to our date," you huff, embarrassed yourself, because even if you hadn't known the implications of him asking you over for dinner, why couldn't you have at least put on something nice. "Now I get why you looked at me so funny when you opened the door, earlier."
He laughs then, slow and easy, his smile crooked and his eyes a melting kind of warm.
"I'll forgive you if I can change into mine."
"Deal," you nod, lips twisting as you take him in - those barriers, that pixelated blur, animating into something crystal clear and definite, something you can't believe you haven't given yourself the pleasure of seeing until now. "I'm sorry for being oblivious, too."
"It's alright," he shrugs, "I'm sure there's some way you can make it up to me."
And you're still standing with your arms resting on his shoulders and your hands behind his neck - the prime position to lean up and kiss him again.
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This took me so long I'm so sorryyyyy. I meant to do this like, last week. I've just been busy prepping for my new addition lol.
I adored this one, you did such a good job writing him and I think this is one of my fav Logan fics from you!
Like always my thoughts and such are below the cut ~
He hates how commercialized the holiday is thanks to the multi-billion dollar corporations that fill department stores with trinkets the second that Christmas is over. He hates all of the pressure and unrealistic expectations that come with planning the perfect date. And as much as he hates to admit it to himself, he hates that it's a stark reminder that he's just as alone in this universe as he had been in the last one.
My first thought was yes, I feel this hard.
He'd never admit it aloud, but just maybe the fact that he canât keep his thoughts from straying to a specific next door neighbor certainly doesnât help. He hates to use the word crush at his grown age, but he canât really think of a better word for it. If itâs not a crush, why else would he be wondering what your plans are for this evening? Why else would he feel the unmistakable, undeniable twinge of jealousy when he thinks of the mere possibility of you spending your night in the arms of someone other than him?
I love a jealous Logan. I love the neighbor trope so much too, it was one I never really thought about until reading your fics.
âOh, no. Not a date,â you correct him quickly with a bashful grin. âWell, maybe. Is it considered a date if Iâm dining by myself?â âYouâre going to dinner by yourself?â Logan asks, unable to hide the surprise in his tone. âLooking like that?â
Ay ay ay...Logan, don't judge. Sometimes it's nice to go out and treat yourself
All it takes is one look at the table that the host takes the two of you to for Logan to realize that he has indeed never had Korean barbecue. You donât appear to be the slightest bit confused so he assumes that the circular grill built into the middle of the table is normal, though heâs never seen anything quite like it in a restaurant before. You giggle when you notice the curious expression on his face. âItâs kinda like hibachi,â you begin. âExcept instead of someone cooking it in front of you, you cook it yourself.â Logan takes in the array of various meats on the tray to the left of him. You pick up a piece of what appears to be some kind of beef with a pair of tongs, and place it on the grill. It sizzles, and he watches as you add a few more pieces of meat onto the hot surface. âIsnât that kinda the whole point of going to a restaurant? To have someone else cook the food for you?â He asks the question as gently as he can, not wanting to hurt your feelings. Heâs just happy to be here with you â even if he doesnât fully understand the appeal of going to a restaurant to pay to cook your own food.
I've never been to a place like this or had Korean bbq at all and my first thought was the same as his, but I've always wanted to try it lol.
âLast week, when we got stuck in the elevator together,â you begin in a low voice. He swears that your eyes flicker to his lips for a split second before meeting his gaze once more. âWere you nervous?â
She's better than me I'd NEVER work myself to ask him this lmaoo
âDo you wanna come up to my place?â you breathe, nodding your head in the direction of the apartment building. âWhat? You donât wanna come to mine and hang out with Al?â he teases, nudging you in the direction of the buildingâs entrance. âAs tempting as that soundsâŚâ You trail off, following his lead. The second that the elevator door comes to a close, his hands are back on you. He backs you up against the wall, his hands gripping your hips as you spread your legs enough to allow one of his thick thighs in between them. This time, heâs the one who kisses you, wasting no time in slipping his tongue between your lips. You whimper into the kiss, your tongue fighting his for dominance.
Yesss this is what I was waiting for! She's so playful lol and he's a big ol' tease.
âFuckinâ hell,â you groan. âNot this again.â
No no...this is good.
Thereâs a mischievous look on your face. Before he can question you, youâre sliding down the wall until you reach the floor. You reach for his belt with your hands, making quick work of undoing the buckle and then the button to his jeans. Oh. All Logan can do is stare down at you in wonderment as you tug his zipper down. âThis okay with you?â you ask, but the look on your face says that you already know the answer.
This okay with you - girl, he's about to bust rn. He's def okay with this lol
Later, he tells himself. Heâll get you naked later, in the privacy of your apartment, where thereâs no risk of the elevator doors sliding open at any given moment.
A gentleman, don't argue w me.
Your cunt tastes as sweet as the fruity wine from the restaurant did on your tongue. He eats you like he wants to get drunk off of you, alternating between soft licks through your folds and fervent kisses to your swollen bud. He feels your legs quiver around the sides of his head. He supports you from below, letting you go all but limp above him. He glances up at you, your head thrown back in pleasure and your chest heaving with ragged breaths.
He is diving in there đŠ Grab his hair and tug -
âDo you.. wanna wait until we get back to your..?â âGod, no,â you exhale, and pull him to you by grabbing his flannel in your fists.
LMAO same girl đ
âMind if I still come back to your place? I know we justâŚâ He trails off, glancing down at where heâs still tucked inside you. âBut I just realized I forgot to pick up cigarettes for Al and she isnât gonna be too happy with me.â You roll your eyes, and playfully push him away from you so that you can tug your skirt back into place. âI think I can find a way to be okay with that,â you smirk. âIf we ever get out of this fuckinâ elevator.â
This ending was so hilarious too I absolutely loved it from start to finish. The fin little moments and the build up, the smut scene was HOT and the funny little quips added into the fic were MUAH. You did sooo good with this one ~ đđđ
either way, i'm going your way
logan howlett x reader (worst!logan x reader)
word count: 4k
summary: logan doesn't remember the last time he celebrated valentine's day, and he doesn't have any reason to believe that this year will be any different. then he runs into you, wade's neighbor, who happens to love the holiday despite not having anyone to celebrate it with.
warnings/tags: smut, 18+ only mdni, sex in a public place kind of, oral (m&f receiving), unprotected p in v, logan's pov, neighbor!reader, reader is afab, reader is described as being shorter than logan, no use of y/n, hints of grumpy x sunshine
this is my entry for @yxtkiwiyxt & @lubdubology valentine's writing challenge! thank you both for hosting this, i can't wait to read the other submissions â¤ď¸
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Logan has been alive for two centuries worth of Valentine's Days. He can count on one hand how many heâs actually celebrated, and he can't recall the last time he had a reason to even acknowledge the day.
To him, Valentineâs Days have always been just another Tuesday, or Thursday, or whatever day it falls on that year.
He hates how commercialized the holiday is thanks to the multi-billion dollar corporations that fill department stores with trinkets the second that Christmas is over. He hates all of the pressure and unrealistic expectations that come with planning the perfect date. And as much as he hates to admit it to himself, he hates that it's a stark reminder that he's just as alone in this universe as he had been in the last one.
Technically he can't say that he's entirely alone. Romantically? Yes. Sexually? Yes.
Physically, however, heâs lodged between a blind eighty-year-old cocaine addict and a ten pound living tumor - the latter of whom keeps trying to French kiss him.
Wade might be out with Vanessa for Valentineâs Day, but for Logan, this is any other Friday night â watching Who Wants To Be A Millionaire reruns with Al and Mary Puppins.
Something about his current predicament makes him feel even more alone than if he actually were alone. Maybe itâs how unfamiliar and foreign this universe still feels in so many ways â heâs been here for some months now, but thereâs some things that remind him that he still has a ways to go in terms of adjustment.
He'd never admit it aloud, but just maybe the fact that he canât keep his thoughts from straying to a specific next door neighbor certainly doesnât help. He hates to use the word crush at his grown age, but he canât really think of a better word for it. If itâs not a crush, why else would he be wondering what your plans are for this evening? Why else would he feel the unmistakable, undeniable twinge of jealousy when he thinks of the mere possibility of you spending your night in the arms of someone other than him?
He has no one to blame but himself, and he knows it. He had the perfect opportunity to ask you out just last week, and he didnât take it. The two of you were both taking the elevator up to your neighboring apartments when it broke down for the third fucking time in the last month. It took nearly an hour for maintenance to get it back up and running, and he couldnât find the nerve to simply ask if you have any plans at any point during the time you were trapped in the fifteen square feet of space together. Instead, he awkwardly rambled about he had walked in on Wade and Vanessa in a compromising position the day before.
He cringes at the memory, tossing back another swig of whiskey when he realizes the bottle is empty. He sighs, earning a side-eye from Mary Puppins.
If this is how heâs going to be spending his evening, he should at least be a little intoxicated.
âIâm going to the liquor store,â Logan announces as he transfers Mary Puppins from his lap to Alâs before standing up from his position on the couch for the first time in hours. âYou need anything?â
âPick me up a couple of scratchers and a pack of Newports.â
Just her usual requests, then.
Logan throws on his leather jacket, dreading the cold and dreary February night but willing to face it for a bottle of bourbon and some cigars. Heâs been out of those since yesterday, so a trip to the nearest convenience store is much needed, anyway.
The door to the apartment complexâs singular outdated elevator is sliding to a close when Logan hears a familiar, feminine voice call out.
âHold up!â
Logan immediately pushes the hold button, freezing the door in place. A second later, you appear in the doorframe. Youâre slightly out of breath, with a relieved expression on your face.
âThanks,â you greet him as you lean against the wall of the elevator, smoothing your hands over the fabric of your plaid skirt. âIâm running late to my dinner reservations and really didnât wanna have to take the stairs in these.â You glance down at the heels of the uncomfortable looking thigh high boots that youâre wearing.
Uncomfortable looking and hot, he thinks, before your words sink in. Dinner reservations â of course youâd have plans tonight. He feels a slight pang of disappointment (and jealousy, if heâs being honest with himself) at the realization, but he isnât surprised.
âWell, letâs cross our fingers that we donât get stuck in here again and that you make it to your date on time,â Logan says with a forced laugh and smile as he pushes the button once again to close the door, followed by the button that says lobby.
âOh, no. Not a date,â you correct him quickly with a bashful grin. âWell, maybe. Is it considered a date if Iâm dining by myself?â
âYouâre going to dinner by yourself?â Logan asks, unable to hide the surprise in his tone. âLooking like that?â
Your eyes widen in shock. âWhatâs wrong with how I look? And whatâs wrong with going to dinner by myself?â
âNothing!â Logan begins to backtrack when he realizes how his questions came across. âYou - you look great. I'm just a little surprised. Wouldâve assumed that you had a date tonight is allââ
He trails off when he realizes that youâre pursing your lips together in an obvious attempt to hide a smirk. The mischievous glimmer in your eyes gives you away.
âIâm just fucking with you, Logan,â you snort with a playful slap to his arm. âI know itâs a little unconventional to take yourself out on Valentineâs Day. But Iâve always loved the holiday despite being painfully single, so I thought why not? Better than sitting at home and sulking all night.â
The corners of his lips threaten to twitch upwards at the words painfully single as he contemplates the rest of your response. He canât help but admire your way of thinking. He was content with staying holed up inside the apartment and drinking himself into a stupor, but he canât deny that your outlook on the holiday is far less depressing and boring than his.
âWhat about you?â you ask as the elevator comes to a stop with a melodic ding. You exit, looking back at him over your shoulder. âAre you on your way to your Valentineâs plans?â
He chuckles at the question. For a second, he considers lying to you. He considers telling you that yes, he is on his way to pick up his date right now, just so he doesnât have to tell you the truth â that heâs on his way to buy bourbon, cancer sticks, and lottery tickets for him and his elderly roommate. But with his luck, youâd run into Wade tomorrow and heâd open his big fucking mouth about how Logan actually spent his night, and the thought of that is even more mortifying than telling you the truth to your face.
âNot unless you count making a liquor run as Valentineâs plans,â he sighs, averting your gaze as he opens the door to the apartment building for you. âThe only thing I plan on doing tonight is listen to Althea scream at her game shows.â
You come to a stop outside of the apartment building, wrapping your coat tightly around your chest to fight off the chilly night air. Thereâs a peculiar look on your face that Logan canât quite read â something between amusement and hesitation.
âYou could have worse dates, I suppose,â you laugh.
âThatâs true,â Logan agrees. âAt least I have Vanessa to thank for a Wade free evening. But Iâll let you go, donât wanna make you late for yourââ
âDo you like Korean barbecue?â
Logan freezes, taken aback by the question. He snaps his mouth shut, realizing heâs staring at you like a deer in the headlights.
âKorean barbecue?â He asks lamely. âDonât think Iâve ever tried it.â
Heâs had barbecue. Heâs had Korean food.. maybe? Heâs been alive a really long time, heâs sure heâs had Korean food at some point in the last two hundred years.
But he canât say that heâs had Korean barbecue.
A nervous looking grin appears on your face, and you cross your arms over your chest before taking a small step towards him.
âAre you hungry?â
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All it takes is one look at the table that the host takes the two of you to for Logan to realize that he has indeed never had Korean barbecue.
You donât appear to be the slightest bit confused so he assumes that the circular grill built into the middle of the table is normal, though heâs never seen anything quite like it in a restaurant before.
You giggle when you notice the curious expression on his face.
âItâs kinda like hibachi,â you begin. âExcept instead of someone cooking it in front of you, you cook it yourself.â
Logan takes in the array of various meats on the tray to the left of him. You pick up a piece of what appears to be some kind of beef with a pair of tongs, and place it on the grill. It sizzles, and he watches as you add a few more pieces of meat onto the hot surface.
âIsnât that kinda the whole point of going to a restaurant? To have someone else cook the food for you?â He asks the question as gently as he can, not wanting to hurt your feelings. Heâs just happy to be here with you â even if he doesnât fully understand the appeal of going to a restaurant to pay to cook your own food.
âItâs about the experience,â you explain with a shrug. âTo be fair, when most people come to a Korean barbecue restaurant, they usually come with a group of people â hence the large amount of meat.â You nod towards the arrangement of the meats that have yet to be cooked.
âItâs a social thing. But all of my friends had plans with their significant others tonight, soâŚâ
You trail off as the server places another tray on the table â this one covered in various colorful side dishes that heâs definitely never had before. He wouldnât exactly describe himself as adventurous when it comes to trying new foods â for the most part, he lives off of ham and cheese sandwiches and frozen TV dinners. But he tried shawarma when heâd first arrived in this universe and ended up loving it, so heâs determined to try a bite of everything on this table.
âSounds like itâs a good thing that you ran into me, then,â Logan murmurs when the server walks off.
You take your eyes off of the pieces of meat that youâre paying careful attention not to overcook, looking up at him through your lashes with a soft smile.
âI'd say that youâre right about that.â
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Despite the breeze and the chilly night air, Logan feels perfectly toasty on the walk back to the apartment thanks to your tight hold on his arm and the wine that you had insisted that he try.
He'd learned a lot tonight â a lot about you; your hobbies and your interests. Heâd learned all about Korean barbecue, and that he likes bulgogi and buldak.
Most importantly, he'd learned that he was stupid for ever being nervous about asking you out.
He feels at ease with you. He already knew he enjoys your company from all of the times that youâve joined Wadeâs movie nights and get-togethers â but heâd never been alone with you (with the exception of getting stuck in the elevator with you last week). Wade, Vanessa, Al, Peter, Yukio, and countless others always seemed to be present, making it near impossible for him to get to know you in the way that heâs wanted to since he first met you.
But now, with your arm intertwined with his and the scent of your perfume hitting him each time there is a gust of air, he knows that he is going to do all that he can to keep having moments like this with you.
âI have a question,â you state as the two of you turn onto the street where your apartment building is. Logan glances down at you in curiosity, but youâre not looking at him â youâre looking ahead, your teeth biting into your lower lip.
âWhatâs that?â Logan murmurs.
You hesitate, your eyes flickering up to him before quickly looking away again. âDid you actually like the kimchi?â
Logan canât help but cackle, taken off guard by the question.
âThatâs your question?â he laughs, thinking back to the spicy and tangy flavor of the fermented vegetables.
You come to a stop next to a streetlight outside of your apartment building, pulling your arm away from his to stand just inches in front of him.
âNo,â you admit with a smirk. âThough I am curious about that, too.â You take a step closer to him, your chest ever so slightly brushing against his. He feels his breath catch in his throat at the way that your eyes twinkle in the glow of the streetlight.
âLast week, when we got stuck in the elevator together,â you begin in a low voice. He swears that your eyes flicker to his lips for a split second before meeting his gaze once more. âWere you nervous?â
He thinks back to his nervous rambling in the elevator, to how you looked so pretty that he found it difficult to hold direct eye contact with you, and to how it felt like half of his brain was screaming at him to ask you out and the other half was screaming at him to not make himself look like an idiot.
Yeah, nervous is accurate.
âThat obvious, huh?â he sighs.
âJust a little,â you shrug. âBut donât worry. I was too.â
âIs that right?â Logan asks, trying not to give away just how happy the confession makes him. âAnd what about now?â
He doesnât have to ask â he's standing close enough to you that your increased heartrate is easy for him to detect.
âSomething like that,â you whisper, and before he fully process whatâs happening, youâre raising up on your tippy toes to capture his lips in yours.
The taste of the fruity wine from dinner still lingers on your lips. He places his hands on the small of your back, pulling you flush against him. Your hands cradle his face, pulling him down closer to you. The warmth of you is a balm against the brisk night air, making him feel like he canât get close enough to you. You donât pull away until youâre breathless, looking up at him with dilated pupils in the florescent street lighting.
âDo you wanna come up to my place?â you breathe, nodding your head in the direction of the apartment building.
âWhat? You donât wanna come to mine and hang out with Al?â he teases, nudging you in the direction of the buildingâs entrance.
âAs tempting as that soundsâŚâ You trail off, following his lead.
The second that the elevator door comes to a close, his hands are back on you. He backs you up against the wall, his hands gripping your hips as you spread your legs enough to allow one of his thick thighs in between them. This time, heâs the one who kisses you, wasting no time in slipping his tongue between your lips. You whimper into the kiss, your tongue fighting his for dominance.
It isnât until he pulls away for air and opens his eyes that he realizes the elevator has come to a stop. It couldnât have been moving for more than ten seconds â
âFuckinâ hell,â you groan. âNot this again.â
Logan looks at the panel of buttons to his left. Sure enough, the number reads that youâre still a floor beneath your apartments. He beats his fist against the elevator wall, as if thatâs actually going to help the matter.
Still pinned between his body and the wall, you pull your cell phone out from an interior pocket of your coat. You quickly find the number for building maintenance in your call history, but it just rings, and rings, and rings.
âI could probably pry the doors open,â Logan muses as he begins to pull away from you. He thinks back to how it took maintenance nearly an hour to get the elevator back up and running last week, and knows that he wouldnât have the patience for that now. The thought of having to wait even a fraction of that long to get back to your apartmentâŚ
âLetâs not do anything that could potentially put the elevator out of commission permanently, yeah?â You pull him back to you, grabbing his face in your hand and making him look at you. âI think that we'll be just fine right here for a while.â
Thereâs a mischievous look on your face. Before he can question you, youâre sliding down the wall until you reach the floor. You reach for his belt with your hands, making quick work of undoing the buckle and then the button to his jeans.
Oh.
All Logan can do is stare down at you in wonderment as you tug his zipper down.
âThis okay with you?â you ask, but the look on your face says that you already know the answer.
He nods, his mouth suddenly feeling too dry to speak. He helps you shimmy his boxers and jeans down enough for his cock to spring free. He glances around the elevator, double checking that there arenât any security cameras. Considering this elevator is ancient and doesnât even function half the time, he isnât surprised to see that there arenât any.
You take the base of him in your hand, languidly massaging the length as you tease his slit with your tongue. You lap up the beads of pre-cum before easing him past your lips.
The sight of you on your knees for him is enough to have him twitching in your mouth. Add in how your soft lips and tongue feel working his length, and he knows he wonât last long like this.
You bob your head around him, gagging when his head juts against the back of your throat. You pull off of him, leaving a thick rope of saliva that trails from his cock to your mouth.
He doesnât think heâs ever seen anything prettier. He could spend hours looking at you like this.
But this isnât how he wants to finish â in your mouth, before heâs even had a chance to make you feel good. So as much as it nearly kills him to do it, he pulls himself away from your sweet lips and yanks you back up by the tops of your arms. Thereâs the slightest hint of disappointment on your face, but it quickly disappears when he pushes your coat off of your shoulders and down your arms. It falls to floor, leaving you in still too many articles of clothing for Loganâs liking.
Later, he tells himself. Heâll get you naked later, in the privacy of your apartment, where thereâs no risk of the elevator doors sliding open at any given moment.
For now, he settles for pushing the restrictive fabric of your skirt upwards, bunching it around your waist. He sinks to the ground in front of you, splaying his palms on your inner thighs and spreading your legs open for him. He rubs the pad of his thumb over the soft material of your panties, right over your clit. He feels shudder at the sensation, and notices the goosebumps that appear on the skin of your thighs.
He hooks his index finger through the cotton fabric, pulling it to the side. He looks up to see if thereâs any kind of hesitation on your face, but you quickly pull him to your center by the back of his head, erasing any doubt. He chuckles lowly, and flattens his tongue over your slit.
Your cunt tastes as sweet as the fruity wine from the restaurant did on your tongue. He eats you like he wants to get drunk off of you, alternating between soft licks through your folds and fervent kisses to your swollen bud.
He feels your legs quiver around the sides of his head. He supports you from below, letting you go all but limp above him. He glances up at you, your head thrown back in pleasure and your chest heaving with ragged breaths.
His name slips through your lips, your voice strained with desperation. He loves the sound of it, and wants more than anything to hear you keep saying it. He snakes one of his hands between your thighs, and teases your hole with the tip 9t his finger. You involuntarily sink down, nudging the tip of it past your entrance.
He groans against your clit at how fucking tight you feel around his finger. God, he canât wait to be inside you. He pumps the digit, your walls already clenching around him.
âLogan,â you moan from above him. âIâm gonnaââ
âI know,â he hums against your clit. âLet go. I got you.â
Your climax washes over you with a sharp cry of his name and Logan mentally prays that the elevator walls arenât as thin as the apartment walls.
When you go still above him, he reluctantly takes his mouth off of you and stands up. His jeans and boxers are still bunched just above his knees, his erection painfully hard and his balls full. He wipes the excess of your slick from his mouth with the back of his hand, and then begins to stroke his own length in his fist.
âDo you.. wanna wait until we get back to your..?â
âGod, no,â you exhale, and pull him to you by grabbing his flannel in your fists.
His lips crash against yours as he nestles himself in between your legs, teasing your slit with the head of his cock. He coats it in your juices and eases into you slowly. You groan into his mouth and he has to try not to cum on the spot.
Youâre tight, and warm, and your walls flutter around him just right. He hikes one of your thighs over his hip, deepening the angle before he pulls almost all the way out. He rocks back into you, working up to a steady pace.
The small, confined space is filled with the sound of your body meeting his and the sweet noises you make that are music to his ears. You grip around him like a velvet vice and he knows that he isn't going to last long.
âGonna cum, honey,â he warns in a grunt next to your ear. âYa feel too fuckinâ good.â
He feels your walls pulse around him at his words and he can tell that you're just as close as he is. A few more deep thrusts that hit your cervix just right and heâs spilling into you as you cum around him.
When heâs empty, his movements cease but he doesnât pull out. He nuzzles his face against your throat, pressing kisses to the soft but sweat-slicked skin.
âHappy Valentineâs Day to us,â you murmur in a borderline delirious voice. He laughs, pulling back just enough to press his lips to yours.
âMind if I still come back to your place? I know we justâŚâ He trails off, glancing down at where heâs still tucked inside you. âBut I just realized I forgot to pick up cigarettes for Al and she isnât gonna be too happy with me.â
You roll your eyes, and playfully push him away from you so that you can tug your skirt back into place.
âI think I can find a way to be okay with that,â you smirk. âIf we ever get out of this fuckinâ elevator.â
not my favorite thing i've ever written by any means, i've been feeling really unmotivated to write and have felt kinda burnt out, but i still wanted to get this out before valentine's day bc if i didn't then i never would have finished it at all, lol. so i'm sorry it's short đ hope you still enjoyed
reblogs/comments are always appreciated, thanks for reading!
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đ°: ARMY, youâre staying healthy, right?
Lately, the weather seems to be warming up, only to turn cold againâit feels like itâs mirroring my heart.
Todayâs weather feels especially gloomy.
Though thereâs still a long way to go, I find myself having more conversations with myself around this time of year.
Itâs one of those nights filled with many thoughts.
Sometimes, I imagine capturing ARMY and myself together in a single photo.
The smile that unconsciously spreads across my face in that moment makes me feel truly happy.
But at times, I also wonderâwill it only remain a figment of my imagination now?
Of course, even that doubt, I choose to question. I will create memories even more beautiful than what I imagine.
That means Iâll have to put in just as much effort, right? ă
I never forget that the ones who have held the pen writing my story all this time are you, ARMY.
Because of that, I know exactly what I need to do.
Even so, I canât help but feel a little impatient, excited, and maybe even a bit uneasy.
But after writing these few words, I think I wonât get lost in my thoughts too much.
I just⌠I just want you to know that I think about you all so, so much. Thatâs all. I donât ask for anything else. ă
Thank you for reading this.
I miss you today, as always.
Iâm still waiting.
Please take good care of your health, everyone.
I love you.
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My baby⌠I just⌠I just want you to know that I think about you all so, so much⌠tooooo
Thatâs all. I donât ask for anything else.
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ARMY, youâre staying healthy, right?
Lately, the weather seems to be getting warmer, but then it suddenly turns cold againâit feels like Iâm looking at my own heart.
Todayâs weather feels especially gloomy.
Thereâs still a long way to go, but around this time, I find myself scolding myself more often.
Itâs a night filled with many thoughts in various ways.
Sometimes, I imagine capturing a photo of ARMY and me together.
The smile that spreads across my face in those moments makes me feel really happy.
But at the same time, I also feel a sense of doubtâwhat if itâs only imagination now?
Of course, I even doubt that doubt itself, because I know that weâll create memories more beautiful than any imagination.
Of course, that means I have to work just as hard, right? ă
I never forget that the heart with which I think of ARMY and the owner of the pencil that has written my story until now is you all.
Thatâs why I know exactly what I need to do.
Even though I know, I guess I still feel a bit impatient, excited, and maybe even a little anxious.
But now that Iâve written a few words, I feel like I wonât be lost in my thoughts anymore.
I just⌠I just want you to know how much I think about you all. Thatâs all. I donât wish for anything else. ă
Thank you for reading this.
I miss you today as well.
Iâm still waiting.
Please take good care of your health, everyone.
I love you.
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Seven Minutes in Heaven (Chapter Two)
F!Reader x Gojo Satoru
Previous Chapter 1 (Tumblr/Ao3)
Summary: It was supposed to be a normal frat party. Just a stupid game of Seven Minutes in Heaven. Just him, king of never taking anything seriously, getting shoved into a closet for a dumb dare. And yet. Now, he canât sleep. Canât think. Canât stop thinking about you. And one by one, his friends are starting to realizeâWhatever happened in that closet? It never really ended.
Outside in the garden, Toji mocked. "Man got a straight-up haunted hard-on."
"Wait, wait, wait," Sukuna wheezed. "Tell me why bro just made out with a ghost so hard he got a fucking boner."
"Can we not call it that?" Satoru groaned.
"Thatâs exactly what it was," Hiromi confirmed, shaking his head. "You got seduced by a fucking spirit."
Shiu, lying on the grass scrolling through his phone, barely looked up as he added, "Even in the afterlife, women arenât safe from your dick preceding your reputation."
"I'm gonna kill myself," Satoru muttered, running a hand down his face.
"Ghost girl might be into that," Choso said thoughtfully, sipping a beer.
"Yo, shut the fuck up," Satoru snapped.
"You were rock hard for a literal corpse." Shoko was almost rolling in the grass, clutching her bottle.
"FOR THE LAST TIME, I DIDNâT KNOW SHE WAS A GHOST!"
"And yet," Suguru drawled, gesturing vaguely at the still-very-visible problem in his jeans.
Satoru made a strangled noise, willing his soul to leave his body.
âIf I see your haunted dick in my nightmares, Iâm suing." Yuki yelled.
"I have hater friends. At least she thought I was beautiful." Satoru smirked.
A collective groan echoed through the garden.
Kento dragged a hand down his face. "I hate him. I hate him."
"Fucker just got ghosted in every sense of the word, and he still has the audacity to make it about his looks." Kashimo jeered, leaning on Haibara, who was barely holding himself up.
"Kill yourself," Sukuna muttered.
"Honestly, yeah," Hiromi agreed.
Satoru just grinned. "Jealous much?"
Suguru physically sighed. "Let's go, you delusional horny disaster."
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Satoru couldnât stop thinking about you.
Not the way your lips had felt against his, or how you made him laugh, or how you got flustered easily but still kissed him first like a paradox he couldnât solveâthough that haunted him, too.
No, it was the way you had looked at him.
Like you had been starving.
So, Satoru did what any rational person would do.
He spent an unhealthy amount of time at the library.
Gojo Satoru. At the library. Voluntarily. His friends thought he was having a crisis.
At first, there was nothing.
No students matching your description in the recent records.
No tragic accidents or ghost stories written in the university archives.
It was like you had never existed.
But thenâ
One night, while flipping through the schoolâs oldest records, something caught his eye.
An envelope stuffed with papers.
He pulled out a diary first.
Diary of Miss L/N
(Archivist - Leather-bound, gold-embossed. Found in the ruins of the university, its final pages splattered with what appears to be dried tears. Handwritten, ink fading in places. Some pages torn. Final entries nearly illegibleâwritten in a shaking hand, desperate and uneven.)
January 3, 1914
There is a new litter of kittens in the old courtyard! I counted five, all squirming and mewling, their mother, a thin little thing who watches me with wary eyes. I left some bread soaked in milk, though I do not think she trusts me yet. Perhaps if I sit quietly tomorrow, she will let me closer.
(If I were a cat, would I be loved more easily?)
The groundskeeper scolded me, said I am too soft-hearted, that I let animals take advantage of me. As if a kitten could be cunning! I told him there is no harm in kindness. He only shook his head.
Satoru sat back, staring at the first entry, his thumb tracing your handwriting. He didnât know much about youâhell, he didnât even know you were alive a hundred years agoâbut he could picture you, kneeling in the courtyard with kittens, trying to be kind. He imagined the faintest smile tugging at your lips when you saw them squirming in the dirt. The idea of you feeding a stray mother cat made his chest tighten in an odd, unfamiliar way. He ran his fingers along the edge of the paper, almost as if trying to feel your presence through it.
That groundskeeper? He was an idiot. He didn't get it. Satoru couldn't help but feel a spark of frustration. You didnât need anyoneâs permission to be kind. He almost laughed at the idea that someone might scold you for being soft-hearted. If anything, he wished he could go back and tell you not to worry about those around you. He wouldâve probably looked at you the same wayâthe way he did when you kissed him, not knowing why or how, but unable to stop himself from caring just a little too much for someone soâsoft.
January 10, 1914
I do not think they like me.
Not in the way they like each other.
They are polite, of course. They smile. They call me âMiss L/Nâ with syrupy sweetness, but their eyes flicker. I see the way their lips press together when I speak. The way their laughter dies when I enter a room.
But it is alright. Not everyone has to like me.
I just wish they did not hate me, either.
Satoru skimmed the next entry, his eyes narrowing. You were already noticing the tension in the air, werenât you? The polite smiles, the murmurs. The fake sweetness they showed youâhe could practically hear the insincerity in their voices. He frowned, shaking his head. You didnât deserve that. Nobody should ever make someone feel like they didnât belong.
For some reason, even though you were long gone, he found himself angry on your behalf. He didnât understand why they treated you that way. You were probably just too good for them, werenât you? Too pure, too gentle. He shook the thought off, the sharpness of the moment still biting at him. It made him wonder if maybe he wouldâve been one of the few who wouldâve actually liked you.
January 25, 1913
Viscount Salvatore looked at me today. He did not merely glanceâhe looked. I was in the library, carrying too many books, and he leaned back in his chair, all effortless indifference, and drawled, "Planning to read all of those, Miss L/N? Or are you building a fort?"
(He thinks I am ridiculous.)
(He noticed me.)
I almost dropped Wuthering Heights on my foot.
A frown burrowed on Satoruâs face when he read about Viscount Salvatore. You noticed him. He noticed you.
He flipped your yearbook with his other hand to find any Salvtores; there had been two in your class whoâd gone to become Army officials in the first World War and then died there. Your description fit the blue-eyed one with a cocky smirk. Like Satoru? Did you have a type?
He felt a slight sting in his chest at the thought of this Viscountâsome guy who probably had no idea what to do with someone like you. Still, he couldnât suppress the bitter taste in his mouth. Jealousy? Was that what this was?
A sigh slipped from his lips. It was stupidâhe was more than a hundred years too late. He didnât even know if youâd ever seen him the way he now imagined you looking at the Viscount. The thought of another guy noticing youâreally noticing youâmade him want to jump from a boat. But instead, he read on.
February 2, 1914
It was a joke. Just a prank.
"She'll cry and beg to be let out," one of them whispered, giggling behind her lace glove. "Let's see if Miss Perfect is still so polite in the dark."
The door slammed. The lock clicked.
The dark swallowed me whole.
I did not beg.
I bit my tongue until I tasted iron and waited. And when they let me outâsmirking, triumphantâI smoothed my skirts, fixed my hair, and walked past them as if I had not spent the last hour choking on the thick, dusty air.
They did not like that.
"A little too perfect, isnât she?"
(They will do it again.)
Satoruâs eyebrows furrowed as his gaze lingered on the next entry. You were trapped. Locked in a closet by the very people you probably thought were your friends. It was sickening. He almost couldn't finish readingâhis stomach lurched with disgust. The way you didn't beg... it said so much about you. You mustâve been used to pain by then, used to being pushed aside and ignored. But stillâyou walked out of there like nothing had happened, like you didnât carry the weight of what they had just done to you.
Satoru shook his head, muttering to himself, âCowards. All of them.â He clenched the paper tighter in his hand. He hated the idea of you facing that kind of cruelty alone, without anyone there to stop it. He could feel itâyour loneliness, your frustration, your unwillingness to break. And somehow, it only made him want to be there for you more. He'd never admit it, but there was a strange urge within him to make it rightâeven if it was a century too late.
February 10, 1914
Today, I found a sparrow with a broken wing. I named him Edgar (after Poe, of course).
I should have left him alone. Mother says I should not dirty my hands with such things. But he was shiveringâhow could I leave him?
Viscount Salvatore saw me, kneeling in the grass, my gloves stained with dirt. He raised an eyebrow but said nothing.
Then, just as he passed, he murmured, "Donât name it. Youâll only make it harder."
He has such an awful way of speaking. Always so practical. So cold.
(He was right. Edgar did not make it through the night.)
Satoru didnât expect to feel as deeply affected by this entry. You found a broken bird and tried to help it. Just like the kittens. Just like everything else. He read about the sparrow, Edgar, and that bitter, practical remark from Viscount Salvatore.
He rolled his eyes. That guy was cold, wasnât he? It was almost like he couldn't even understand that you just wanted to do something kind. His jaw clenched slightly at the thought of this Viscount, cold and indifferent. Did he not understand the pain of losing something you tried so desperately to save?
âYou deserved better than that.â Satoru muttered quietly to himself. He could barely comprehend it, but it stung to think of you, caring for something so fragile, and yet not having anyone there to help you when you needed it most. He could almost hear the sadness in your voice, like you were speaking not just about the bird, but about yourself.
February 13, 1914
Razor blades in my book bag today.
I did not see them in time.
A sharp stingâred seeping into my gloves, blooming against the pale silk like a dying rose.
A girl gasped.
One of them. The one who used to call me her friend.
She reached for me, hesitated. Opened her mouthâclosed it.
Did nothing.
(They are all cowards.)
I smiled at her anyway.
(It is getting harder to smile.)
The entry made Satoru stop in his tracks. Razor blades? What the hell...? He had to reread the paragraph twice, the sharpness of the words sinking into him with every line. It was hard to stomachâknowing that someone, one of the people who had once called you their friend, did this to you. Left you bleeding and didnât even care.
He felt a fire burning in his chest now, a rage that was foreign to him. A strange protectiveness, something darker, almost suffocating. He didn't know how you had kept going through all this. And yet, you had. You smiled through it all, even when everything in the world was trying to break you.
Satoru stood up suddenly, pacing around the room. He was aware of how ridiculous this wasâhe didnât even know you. But damn it, you deserved someone who wouldâve fought for you. Someone who wouldâve taken those blades from your hands and never let you feel alone.
February 14, 1914
Viscount Salvatore pulled out a chair for me today.
The smallest thing. A flick of his wrist. A glance in my direction. A murmured, "Miss L/N."
But I have not been spoken to kindly in so long.
For a moment, my eyes burned. My throat ached.
But I said nothing. I only sat.
And when I looked upâjust for a secondâhe was already watching me.
(What a strange, strange man.)
Satoruâs fingers lightly brushed over the paper. He didnât know what it was, but something about that entryâViscount Salvatore pulling out a chair for youâmade him pause. He didn't react outwardly, keeping his face carefully blank, but internally? There was a slight stir of discomfort. It was such a small, insignificant thing, yet it meant so much to you. A simple gesture, something that shouldâve been normal.
He imagined the quiet moment, your surprise. The thought that such a little thing could make you feel seen, even for a second, gnawed at him. A frustrated sigh left his lips. Why did it have to be like that? If he were thereâif only he were there, he wouldâve shown you kindness, not just with gestures, but with actions. But that was a thought he quickly pushed aside, frustrated by how much time had slipped through his fingers. He kept reading, though.
February 20, 1914
I have decided. I loathe Viscount Salvatore.
He is insufferable. He speaks in riddles and always looks as if he is laughing at me. I do not know why I bother thinking of him.
(He held the door open for me today. Said nothing. Just waited.)
(I hate him.)
A faint chuckle escaped his lips as he read the next entry. Youâd decided to loathe Viscount Salvatore now. "Insufferable," you called him. Satoru almost wanted to agree, though he couldn't completely share your sentiment. He had a feeling there was more to himâmore that was left unsaid. Still, it was a funny thought. Viscount Salvatore being that frustrating, mysterious figure. Satoru was intrigued by how you wrote about him with such sharpness, but the words seemed like a cover for something deeper. He wasnât sure what, but the tension between you two was palpable.
âIs it really that bad?â he muttered, flipping the page, knowing he wasnât going to get an answer. He felt a flicker of something, but the rest of the entry, especially with the way he âheld the door open,â left him feeling... unsure. He wasn't exactly proud of it, but maybe there was some part of him that didn't want you to find comfort in anyone else.
March 2, 1914
I found a dead rat in my desk.
Its body bloated, eyes staring.
Its tiny mouth open, frozen in a silent scream.
There was a note pinned to its belly. Still feeling generous?
I swallowed back the nausea and took it outside myself.
(It is getting harder to breathe here.)
Satoruâs expression hardened as he read about the dead rat in your desk. He closed his eyes briefly, forcing himself to focus. The cruel games they playedâit disgusted him. He could almost feel the sickening weight of it, as if it were happening right there, in front of him. Who does that? He set the paper down and ran his hand through his hair, trying to keep his composure, though his jaw was tight.
You didnât even flinch. You simply took it outside. There was an odd kind of resolve in the way you wrote that. No begging. No breaking down. Just... handling it yourself. It made him uneasyâhow much you had to endure, and how little anyone had cared. He couldnât imagine what you went through, not yet, but the pieces were starting to come together. The cruelty. The silence. The isolation.
June 20, 1914
I am tired.
No, not tired. Weary.
I wake up with my body braced, waiting for somethingâwaiting for the next whisper, the next cruel trick, the next unseen hand that will shove me down the stairs when no one is looking.
I have not eaten all day.
(They will not break me.)
The word âwearyâ hit Satoru like a punch to the gut. He could picture you, slumped in exhaustion, never having the chance to recover. He could almost hear the quiet panic that sat beneath those words. The next cruel trick, the next shoveâit was too much. His hand tightened around the paper as he read on.
He didnât need to know everything to understand that what you were going through wasnât just physical. It was something deeper. Something that made your bones ache and your heart heavy. And yet, here you were, still breathing, still defiant. He let out a breath, annoyed at the powerlessness he felt just from reading your words.
July 24, 1914
I am going to the party.
They said they want to start over. That it was all just foolish jealousy. That they want to be friends.
I should not believe them.
I know I should not believe them.
But I am so, so tired of being alone.
Just for one night, I want to pretend I belong.
Satoru frowned, eyes narrowing. The truth was already in your words before you even said it. He felt an odd mix of sympathy and frustration as you told yourself you were going to the partyâhoping, wishing to belong, even for just one night. He had to read that part again, swallowing a lump in his throat.
He flipped the page; the diary ended. Satoru immediately scrambled to pull out another stack of papers from the binder.
Final Entries â Found Scribbled in the Dark on Stationary available inside the closet
(Archivist - Stray pages, ink smudged. Words scratched over and rewritten as if she could not make her fingers hold steady.)
July 25, 1914
They lied.
Of course they lied.
The music was loud. The air was thick with cigarette smoke and laughter. For the first time in years, I thoughtâmaybe.
Then hands.
Grabbing. Dragging.
"Letâs see how perfect you are now."
They locked me inside.
A closet. Small. Cramped.
The door will not open.
It has been hours.
(Or has it? I canât tell.)
No one is coming.
The change in tone was abrupt, and Satoruâs pulse quickened as he read about the party. He could feel the shift, the claustrophobia, the betrayal seeping through the paper. The scribbled wordsâhe could almost hear you gasping for air, trapped in that small closet.
âThey lied.â That one line stung. It was so raw. He couldnât make sense of it. He couldnât make it right. But he had to knowâhe had to understand why you were forgotten. He had to keep reading, even if it made his heart feel like it was crumbling under the weight.
???, 1914
How many hours has it been?
They will come back.
They must come back.
Please, please, pleaseâ
My throat aches.
I screamed until my throat bled.
No one heard.
No one wants to hear.
(They have forgotten me.)
Satoruâs hands clenched around the papers. They had broken you in ways that even time couldnât erase. And he could do nothing. He gritted his teeth, struggling to stay composed, but it was impossible to ignore the ache that had settled in his chest. Youâd screamed until your throat bled, and they had... forgotten you.
Satoru sat with his elbows on the desk, his fingers steepled against his lips as he read the next entries. He was quiet now, the usual restless energy in his body drained away, leaving only a tense stillness. The words on the page felt heavier with each line.
???, 1914
I am thirsty.
I am so thirsty.
If I press my ear against the door, I can hear the music.
(Another party?)
They are still dancing.
They are still laughing.
They are still living.
And I am here.
Satoruâs throat felt tight. He swallowed against it, as if somehow that would make up for the dryness that must have burned through yours. He could picture it too clearlyâthe way your lips must have cracked, your voice reduced to a rasp.
And yet, they were still dancing.
Satoru exhaled sharply. You were still there, forgotten, while life carried on just outside the door. The thought made him nauseous.
His fingers flexed against the paper. If I had been there... But he hadnât been. No one had. That was the entire tragedy of it.
???, 1914
It is quiet.
No music. No voices.
Something has happened.
Why wonât anyone come?
Satoruâs breath slowed. You didnât know. You had no idea that while you were trapped in that suffocating darkness, the world outside had shifted.
They left.
No one had opened the door. No one had checked. It wasnât even malice at this pointâit was worse. It was indifference.
His jaw clenched. You werenât even aware that the world had moved on without you. You were just waiting. Waiting for a help that would never come.
July 28, 1914
Sirens.
War.
The halls are empty.
They have all gone home.
No one remembers I am here.
No one remembers at all.
Sirens. The first world war. The absence. His hand trembled. The emptiness of the halls. You had been forgotten amidst the chaos, the madness of the world falling apart. He hated the feeling of it. The helplessness. The way everythingâeverythingâslipped away, leaving only that quiet, sickening silence. He muttered a curse under his breath, feeling a heavy weight in his stomach.
You had been alone. And it wasnât just the physical isolation. It was the fact that no one even cared enough to remember you.
???, 1914
(Archivist - The ink is uneven, pressed too hard into the paperâher hand must have been shaking.)
I dreamed of Viscount Salvatore.
He pulled out a chair for me again.
Only this time, when I sat, he turned to me and said, "I see you."
I woke up crying.
(He will not remember me either.)
Viscount Salvatore was back in your dreams. And now, Satoru was reading about how you woke up crying. He shook his head slowly, his eyes closing briefly. Even in your lonely moments, he was there, haunting youâboth a comfort and a torment. He could almost see it in his mind, the way Viscount Salvatore's distant gaze would have held some measure of regret, maybe even longing. But none of that would ever matter now.
âDamn it,â Satoru cursed under his breath. He didn't even know what he was mad atâhimself, the Viscount, or fate. The whole damn situation. You didnât deserve any of it.
???, 1914
There is no light.
I am afraid to sleep. Afraid I will wake up and it will still be dark. Afraid I wonât wake up at all.
I think I can hear something scratching. Or maybe it is just my own heartbeat.
Satoru shut his eyes for a brief second. That sentenceâit was worse than the others. It wasn't just physical anymore. It wasnât just being locked inside. It was the fear creeping in.
Afraid to sleep. Afraid to wake up and still be in the dark. Afraid to never wake up at all.
He felt sick. You werenât even sure if you existed anymore. If you were real.
He let his head drop forward slightly, fingers pinching the bridge of his nose. It was just a diary. Just words. So why did it feel like they were clawing at something inside of him?
???, 1914
I had a Mother?
Satoruâs eyes flicked back to the page, scanning the sentence again.
His stomach twisted.
You were unraveling.
That was what this was. Not just hunger. Not just thirst. Your mind was fraying at the edges, breaking apart piece by piece.
He shifted in his seat, suddenly uncomfortable, a strange, suffocating weight settling in his chest. You had been alone for so long that even memories were slipping away.
You were forgetting yourself.
???, 1914
I dreamed of the kittens.
They were hungry. So was I.
I woke up biting my sleeve.
Satoru closed his eyes again. That dreamâit wasnât just a memory. It was your body crying out, pulling at whatever fragments of warmth it could find.
And when you woke up, you were biting your sleeve.
His lips pressed into a tight line. He didnât want to think about that. He didnât want to picture you curled up in the dark, trying to trick yourself into feeling full.
He ran a hand through his hair, swallowing hard.
???, 1914
I have started whispering my own name.
I am afraid I will forget it.
Satoru blinked. The words blurred for a second before coming back into focus.
You were losing yourself. The last thing you hadâthe only thing left. Your own name. And even that was slipping.
His grip on the paper was too tight now. He forced himself to relax his fingers before he crumpled it.
You had been so, so alone.
???, 1914
I do not want to die like this.
I do not want to die in the dark.
Satoruâs shoulders tensed, but he forced himself to read it again.
You knew. By then, you knew.
It was no longer just fear. It was a final, quiet understanding.
Satoruâs hand came up, fingers pressing lightly against his temple. He had read countless things in his lifeâreports, records, confessions. But this?
This was someoneâyouâbegging the universe for something it had already denied you.
???, 1914
Did he ever think of me?
Did Viscount Salvatore ever notice that I was gone?
(I am so, so cold.)
???, 1914
I can hear it raining.
There is no hunger anymore.
No thirst.
Just cold.
So, so cold.
???, ????
(Archivist - Final entry. Ink smeared, nearly unreadable.)
If someone finds thisâPleaseâPlease remember me.
Satoru didnât move.
He stared at the words, his vision blurring for a moment before sharpening again.
His throat felt tight.
His grip on the page softened, and he slowly, carefully, set it down.
Satoru wasnât sure what he was supposed to do with thisâthis aching, gnawing thing in his chest. He didnât have the words for it. But as he reached for the next stack of papers.
Newspaper Articles
(Archivist - Yellowed clippings, brittle at the edges. No one speaks of her anymore.)
DAUGHTER OF L/N FAMILY MISSING â UNIVERSITY REFUSES COMMENT (July 27, 1914)
Miss L/N, the only daughter of the esteemed L/N family, has been reported missing for over a week. The university has declined to comment, insisting that Miss L/N likely departed of her own volition.
Her parents, Mr. and Mrs. L/N, have offered a sizable reward for any information regarding her whereabouts.
SEARCH FOR MISSING HEIRESS ENDS IN TRAGEDY â PARENTS DECLARED DEAD (December 3, 1916)
After two years of relentless searching, Mr. and Mrs. L/N have perished under tragic circumstances. Their estate, heavily in debt from the investigation, is to be auctioned off.
Miss L/Nâs disappearance remains unsolved.
RENOVATIONS UNCOVER HIDDEN CLOSET â HUMAN REMAINS FOUND (March 5, 1957)
Construction teams working on university renovations discovered a sealed-off closet in the west wing. Inside, they found skeletal remains, still clad in a deteriorated silk gown. A diary was found nearby, though much of its ink had faded with time. Officials report that the identity of the remains is unknown, as no records exist of any missing student matching the description.
No further investigation is planned.
THE DAILY GAZETTE
Est. 1896
Thursday, March 7, 1957
PRICE: 10 CENTS
MYSTERY OF THE FORGOTTEN GIRL: REMAINS DISCOVERED IN UNIVERSITY WALLS
Renovation Workers Uncover Skeleton, Raising Chilling Questions About the Past
By George L. Whitmore
SHIZUKA CITYâA routine renovation at one of the countryâs most prestigious universities took a macabre turn last week when construction workers stumbled upon a hidden closet sealed within the walls of the East Wing. Inside, they found the skeletal remains of a young woman, her body curled as if she had simply lain down and never risen again. The discovery has sent shockwaves through the academic community, raising unsettling questions about how she came to be thereâand why no one ever looked for her.
The identity of the deceased remains unknown. No records exist of a missing student from the time period estimated by forensic specialistsâlikely the early 20th century. But one thing is certain: she was left there. Forgotten.
A Name Erased
The East Wing, once a grand structure funded by old money and aristocratic influence, had been largely abandoned for decades before renovations began last fall. The university, now bearing the Gojo family name, was once under the patronage of another dynastyâone that, curiously, has all but vanished from historical record.
Researchers digging into archived documents found faint traces of a once-powerful benefactor: the L/N family. According to a 1907 university registry, the L/Ns were among the wealthiest patrons of the institution. From Arms dealings, their contributions were responsible for much of its early expansion. And yet, no descendants remain. No estate. No legacy.
A mere decade after their peak, the family seems to have disappeared altogether. Their name erased. Their wealth scattered.
And now, this girlâthe girl in the closet.
A Harmless Prank Gone Horribly Wrong?
The discovery has sparked whispered theories among university staff and alumni. Some recall long-forgotten stories, rumors passed down like ghost stories in dormitory halls. Stories of a girl. Beautiful. Intelligent. Kind. Too kind.
âShe was perfect, too perfect,â said one retired professor, who wished to remain anonymous. âPeople resented her for it. The way the faculty admired her. The way she carried herself. There were whispers, of courseâugly, jealous things. But back then, the school was different. There were rules about what could and could not be spoken aloud.â
While no official reports exist of bullying, former students who attended in the early 1900s recall the cruel pranks that were common among the elite circles of the time. Stolen books. Torn dresses. Whispered mockeries disguised as etiquette lessons.
Then there was the incident at a partyâa party that took place just before the world changed forever.
âShe went missing that night,â said another source, a woman in her seventies who had attended the university in the years following the First World War. âThere were rumors, of course. But no one ever spoke of it directly. And then the war came, and everything was forgotten. Just like that.â
What started as a childish prankâlocking a girl in a storage closetâbecame something else entirely when the world was plunged into chaos. Sirens screamed. Students fled. The university shut its doors. And no one, not a single soul, remembered to let her out.
A Legacy Stolen by Time
The timing is chilling. The L/N family vanished not long after. Their once-glorious estate burned to the ground under mysterious circumstances. With their wealth depleted in a desperate search for their missing daughter, they faded into obscurity, lost to history. Meanwhile, the university found a new patronâone with deeper pockets, stronger influence. The Gojo family.
âNothing stays empty for long,â remarked historian Dr. Henry Carrington. âPower abhors a vacuum. One name disappears; another takes its place. Thatâs how history works. The question is whether it was simply fate... or something more deliberate.â
What Comes Next?
For now, the remains of the forgotten girl lie in the care of forensic specialists, who will attempt to identify her and, perhaps, grant her the dignity she was denied in life. The university has yet to release an official statement, though sources indicate there are plans to memorialize the discovery.
Still, the air remains heavy with unspoken truths. A legacy buried beneath floorboards. A name erased. A girl left to die in the dark, her existence fading from memory even as the institution she was meant to inherit flourished without her.
And now, decades later, she has returned. Not as a scholar. Not as an heir.
But as a skeleton in the walls of a university that no longer remembers her name.
Satoru understood what had happened.
---
1914
The first time they locked you inside, it was supposed to be a joke. A harmless prank.
âYouâll cry and beg to be let out,â one of them whispered, a cruel giggle curling around her words as she hid her smirk behind a lace-gloved hand. âLetâs see if Miss Perfect is still so polite in the dark.â
You cried.
But you didnât beg.
Not that night.
Not yet.
It didnât surprise you. Youâd always known people resented you. You were the only child of the L/N familyâtheir legacy was carved in the very stone of the university. Wealth, power, influence, all wrapped in a name that commanded respect. Your family had funded these halls, shaped them. Built them.
And you were meant to carry that weight forward, to live up to expectations that came with being the heir of such a name. You studied hard, spoke softly, helped others without a second thought. You tried to meet the world with grace.
But you had made one mistake.
You were kind. Too kind.
You didnât wear your last name like armor. You didnât command respect with a gaze sharp enough to cut or a voice cold enough to freeze. You didnât move like royalty among commoners. You spoke gently, smiled too much, helped without expecting anything in return.
And that, apparently, was enough to make them hate you.
They called you perfect. A fraud wrapped in silk and sweetness. A girl born to wealth, yet untouched by cruelty. It made them sick to their stomachs. They told themselves your kindness was a mask. That you were pretending. That behind your soft smile, you looked down on them.
The whispers slithered through the hallways, filled every corner of every dormitory, echoed between the benches in lecture halls. âShe must think sheâs better than us.â The rumors crept, fed by jealousy and disdain, each one sinking deeper, until they made it their mission to tear you down.
It started small. Stolen assignments. Ink spilled all over your uniform. Books knocked from your arms as you passed, their laughter trailing behind you like a shadow.
But then the pranks grew worse. Razor blades slipped into the lining of your bag, waiting to slice your fingers. Your tea, laced with ink, stained your lips and tongue black for hours. Dead rats left in your desk drawers, bloated and stinking, their decaying bodies a cruel reminder of their hatred.
You had friendsâor you thought you did. But when you looked to them, their smiles faltered. They said nothing. Did nothing. They looked away.
So, you endured it all alone.
Then came the night of the party.
You hadnât wanted to go. But one of the girls, the one you still foolishly believed to be a friend, begged you. She said everyone wanted to start over, that they regretted their childish jealousy and were ready to put it behind them.
You wanted to believe it. You wanted so badly to believe that people could change, that cruelty wasnât the default. You wanted to believe that if you just endured long enough, they would see you for who you really were.
So, you went.
The music was loud, thick with the beat of drums and the pulse of electric guitars. The air was heavy with smoke, alcohol, and the scent of youth gone wild. Laughter rang out, spinning around you as people twirled under lantern light. For the first time in years, you thought maybeâjust maybeâyou werenât so alone after all.
But then, hands grabbed you.
They pulled you, dragged you away from the laughter, from the light, down the dim hallway that felt colder with every step. You struggled, but there were too many of them. Nails dug into your skin, and their breath reeked of whiskey and sweat.
They laughed. âLetâs see how perfect you are now.â
The closet was small. Cramped. A tiny, forgotten storage room in the corner of the building, filled with old books and dusty supplies. They shoved you inside.
You stumbled, tripping over the rough wooden floor, your hands scraping against the splintered walls. The door slammed behind you, the sound of the lock clicking echoing in your chest. You barely had time to press yourself against the door before it shut you in complete darkness.
âLetâs see how sweet you are after this,â they jeered, and then they were gone.
At first, you thought it was a joke. Any second now, they would open the door, laughing, saying it was just a prank. The music outside was still loud. The sounds of celebration filled your ears, muffling your screams and your frantic banging against the door.
They would let you out.
Of course, they would.
Wouldnât they?
You banged harder. Screamed louder.
But no one came.
Minutes passed. Then an hour. Two.
Your fists were raw, your throat burned from the screams, but still, nothing.
At some point, you must have fallen asleep. When you woke up, your mouth was dry, your body stiff and cold. You were still in your party dress, but your shoes were gone. You had lost them somewhere, in the chaos of being dragged.
You banged again. Screamed louder.
Nothing.
More hours passed. Maybe a day. You tried to count the time, but it blurred. The darkness stole all sense of it.
Then, one nightâthough you couldnât tell if it was day or night anymoreâsomething changed.
The university went silent.
The once-bustling halls were empty. The voices, the laughter, the musicâgone.
In the distance, you heard sirens. A sound that felt like the last thread of the world unraveling.
The world was at war.
Overnight, everything collapsed. Students fled. Professors disappeared. The university shut down.
And no one, not a single soul, remembered that you were still locked in that closet.
The hunger was unbearable at first. You pressed your hands against your stomach as it twisted in agony, but after a while, even hunger faded into the background. The thirst, however, never left. Your lips cracked, your throat burned, your vision swam.
But you were too weak to scream now.
At some point, you stopped feeling anything at all.
No one remembered the girl in the closet.
Days passed. Maybe weeks. Maybe months.
But in the end, it didnât matter.
There was only silence.
When they finally reopened that part of the universityâyears, maybe decades later, during renovationsâthe workers found a hidden closet behind the walls. They found a skeleton, still curled on the floor, clutching the remains of a tattered dress.
No one knew who you were. Your records were gone.
The L/N family was erased from history.
Your parents had searched for you. Desperately. They spent every penny, called in every favor, tore the world apart looking for their only child.
But war doesnât care for grieving parents.
They died before they could uncover the truth. Your home burned. And with them, the name that had once shaped this university disappeared from the records.
The buildings once funded by your family were renamed. The university you were supposed to inherit now bore another familyâs name.
The Gojo family.
And you?
You had simply ceased to exist.
---
Present Day
Satoru stared at the newspaper article in his hands, the words blurring as his chest tightened. It felt like someone had reached into him, squeezing the air from his lungs until he couldnât breathe. His vision wavered, the paper in his hands turning into nothing more than a smear of ink and empty noise.
He had spent the entire night digging. Searching. Prying through the layers of forgotten history no one had cared to remember. And nowâ
Now, he wished he hadnât.
His chest ached. His stomach churned with the weight of it. He hadnât expected to find this. He hadnât expected to feel the crushing blow of reality, the terrible, suffocating guilt that twisted through him like a knife.
You had smiled at him.
how your fingers had trembled in his hands, how your wide, nervous eyes had held so much uncertainty, yet a quiet hope. And when you kissed him, your lips soft and warm against his, it had been the kind of kiss that felt like it was long overdueâlike youâd been waiting a lifetime for someone to touch you.
And now he knew why.
You had been waiting for a hundred years.
A hundred years of silence. A hundred years of darkness. A hundred years of loneliness so deep it suffocated you, a cruel weight on your chest that no one had ever bothered to lift.
He thought about the closet. The cramped, suffocating space. The darkness. The silence that stretched on for years, unbroken. The pain of realizing no one was coming, no one cared.
The students who had shoved you inside. The laughter as they walked away, their voices fading into the distance while you were left to rot alone in a forgotten corner of the university. The friends who had seen it happen and did nothing. The ones who had turned their backs when you needed them most.
Satoruâs chest tightened further, a sharp pain stabbing through him. His teeth ground together, his jaw clenched so tight it felt like it might crack. His hands shook, trembled violently, as if they could somehow undo what had been done, erase the horror of it all.
He wanted to break something. Throw something. Tear through this cursed world and go back, back to that night, back to when he couldâve stopped it. To rip open that damn door and pull you into his arms, to tell you that you were never alone. That he would have fought for you. That someoneâanyoneâshould have fought for you.
But it was too late.
One hundred years too late.
He sucked in a shaky breath, but it didnât help. His lungs felt tight, and his throat closed up, like something was blocking the air. His hands shook as he traced the edges of the photograph in front of him. A group of students stood there, stiff and formal, their faces solemn in that black-and-white world of the early 1900s. They were so... distant. Detached. Like they were living in a world completely untouched by joy, by life.
And then there was you.
At the edge of the group, standing out like a ghost, yet so very present. Your soft features. Your gentle eyes. Your delicate, hopeful expression that somehow still managed to look so... lonely.
Beneath the photo, in delicate cursive handwriting, the caption read: "Class of 1914. Including Miss Y/N, the only child of the L/N familyâour universityâs first founding patrons."
Satoruâs breath caught in his throat.
Your name should have been everywhere. It should have been on every plaque, in every building, carved into the very bones of this place. Your family had built this school, laid its foundations with their blood and wealth. You had been the heir, the future.
And yetâ
No one remembered your name.
Satoruâs pulse pounded in his ears, a frantic rhythm that seemed to echo in his chest. His fingers curled into the paper, the fragile edges crinkling beneath his grip. His heart hammered in his chest as he clenched his jaw, fighting back the urge to scream.
This school, his school, had been built on the L/N family name. Your familyâs legacy was supposed to be immortal, etched into the very structure of the place. And yet, all he saw now were the names of the Gojo familyâhis familyâeverywhere. The library. The dormitories. The lecture halls.
Your family had been erased.
A sickening wave of anger washed over him. He wanted to scream, to tear the world apart. He wanted to shove the truth in their faces, shove it into the faces of everyone whoâd forgotten you. Everyone who had abandoned you. But more than anythingâhe wanted to go back.
He wanted to go back to that night.
He wanted to break down that fucking door, drag you into the light, and tell you, "You werenât alone. Youâll never be alone again."
But he couldnât.
It was too late.
One hundred years too late.
He squeezed his eyes shut, but the image of your face lingered. You, the girl who had been forgotten. The girl whose name had been erased from history. The girl who had waited for someone to remember, to fight for her. The girl who had suffered alone.
No one remembered you now.
But Satoru did.
A/N: Did you get who Viscount Salvatore was?
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Gracie Abrams x Female Reader Summary : you and Gracie go to Taylors party only for one of Kelce's friend to flirt with you. Let's just say Gracie isn't too happy about it.
Warnings : jealousy, bf Gracie, fluff
Taylor Swift's birthday party was the party of the year, before it even started officially.
Gracie and I stopped in front of my mirror, fussing with our clothes for what felt like the hundredth time. Taylor had sent out invitations with a silent expectation that everyone would be looking their best. I'd wasted twenty minutes debating with myself about whether or not my dress was too much or too little before Gracie cut me down with a blunt, "You look hot. Let's go."
The bows, however, had been her idea.
"Come on, please," she had begged, smiling as she held out the soft silk ribbons she had picked. One in pale blush pink, the other in classic black. "Matching bows, Y/N. It's so us."
I had rolled my eyes, half-exasperated, half-laughing. "Gracie."
She pouted. "Don't be boring. Think about the look."
"You just want an excuse to tie something in my hair."
Her eyes sparkled meanly. "I love to tie things in your hair."
And, since I was a pushover for her (and since she was already leaning in towards my hair), I let her.
We were standing outside now, with our backs to the building, which twinkled with fairy lights and music already pulsating through the walls. A security guard checked our names against the guest list, and thenâmagicallyâwe were let in.
The party was exactly what I had envisioned: polished but electric, a pack of celebrities mingling, flutes of champagne served by waiters in starched white jackets.
Gracie tugged my hand as we stepped inside. "Let's find Taylor before she gets swept up in the Blake-Selena-Sophie crowd."
"I believe she lives with them now."
We barely had time to take it all in before we heardâ
"There you are!"
Taylor suddenly appeared out of thin air, as otherworldly as ever, in some kind of retro-themed, glittery dress. She was cradling a single drink and had an all-out joy look in her eyes as she hugged us both.
"You both look so amazing," she said, stepping back to look at us. And then she caught sight of the bows. She smirked flirtatiously. "Oh my God, matching bows?"
Gracie grinned, pushing hers up like a crown. "So us, then?"
I rolled my eyes. "She forced me."
Taylor tilted her head. "You're playing like she had to fight you. We all know you'd do anything she asks."
I pretended to be shocked. "You betrayed me so fast."
Gracie simply grinned smugly, slipping an arm around my waist. "She knows what's up."
Taylor laughed, shaking her head. "God, you two are disgusting."
A waiter passed by, and Taylor grabbed two champagne glasses from him, handing one to each of us and then lifting hers. "To my birthday," she said, "and to my two favorite lovers in denial."
Gracie gagged on her drink. I nearly spilled mine.
"Taylor!" I hissed, blushing.
She just laughed and walked away, leaving us standing there, shocked.
Gracie was the first to come out of it, elbowing me. "Denial, huh?"
I shook my head. "I hate her."
"You love her."
I sighed, sipping champagne. "Shut up."
The night had gone so smoothlyâdancing, laughing, striking a ridiculous number of poses with Taylor, and sitting through Jack Antonoff grumbling about how much he hated getting dressed up.
And then.
He appeared.
Travis Kelce's friend.
Tall. Dumbly arrogant. That kind of charming in an unsubtle fashion that only men who never had to work too hard tend to have.
It started as normal. He came over to greet me, which was okay. But thenâhe started looking at me like I was the center of attention. Like he cared. (Disgusting)
And that's when Gracie's hold on me subtly clamped down.
He leaned forward, smiling. "So, how do you know Taylor?"
I shifted, aware of Gracie standing by my side. "We met in music. We've known each other for a while."
He nodded, looking impressed. "That's cool. You look cool." His eyes flicked down to my dress. "You look great tonight too."
Gracie's arm around my waist suddenly wasn't restingâit was holding on.
The guy was oblivious. He just grinned at me, all confident. "You know, I was going out, but when I saw you, I'm glad I didn't."
Before I could even think about how to answer, Gracie interrupted.
"She's with me," she said, her voice smooth but unyielding.
The guy blinked, eyes darting back and forth between us. "Oh."
Gracie smiledâsweet, but menacing. "Yeah." She wrapped her hand around my waist, holding tight. "So you can go ahead and try to flirt with someone else."
For an instant, it looked like he was going to slug it out. But then he caught a glimpse in her eyes that led him to do otherwise.
"Uh⌠yeah, cool. No problem." He grudged an unnatural laugh, nodded, and retreated.
The instant he'd vanished, I looked at Gracie with my brows raised. "That was.. a lot."
She still hadn't let me go. "He was annoying."
I bit my lip, trying not to smile. "You're jealous."
She rolled her eyes. "Wow. Okay. First of all, I am not jealousâ"
"You so are."
"I just didn't like the way he was eyeing you up and down. And calling you the prettiest girl here like it was news? Please."
I smiled, a warmth spreading through my chest. "Boyfriend Gracie is kinda hot."
That fazed her. A silence latched onto me before she expelled a dramatic sigh. "Now you're simply attempting to distract me."
I tilted my head, regarding her. "Working?"
She expelled a breath, arms still encircling me. "Maybe."
I moved in, lightly kissing the corner of her jaw, because I could. Because I wanted to, "im yours, baby."
Gracie melted. Fully.
And that's when I realizedâ
Jealousy did her really, really well.
#fanfic#gracie abrams#gracie abrams x reader#fluff#gracie abrams x female reader#gracie x y/n#jealousy#gracie and taylor#taylor swift#x reader#gracie#bf Gracie#wlw
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Drunk enough to request Artrick piss kink shame free and off anon đł
Thinking about the boys just hanging out and drinking and Art needs to pee but Patrick keeps saying he needs to do this first, and they need to finish that first (not even to stop him going on purpose he genuinely doesn't realise Art is about to piss himself) obviously eventually Art can't hold it anymore and pisses himself and he's like oh god, I pissed myself in front of Patrick he's going to make fun of me now and he starts crying. Patrick however is like why does Art look so good crying and after pissing himself? Do I have a piss kink? And then obviously he fucks Art
drunk enough to request off anon is SO REALđjinx have i ever said how much i love you? because i do and i hope you love this :) and we all know these arenât proofread right? lololol
cw: nsfw (18+) piss, dom/sub undertones, daddy kink
Art and Patrick were on the tail end of a bar crawl that night. They are pretty drunk. They had been drinking for the past two hours or so, really pushing the limits of their tolerance. Their fake ids had only gotten them so far because eventually the bartender cuts them off.
Theyâve decided to walk back to the dorm since Art doesnât think he could handle riding in a car right now without throwing up. But Patrick has a few stops he wants to make on the way.
âcâmon itâll only be for a minute i just want some snacksâ Patrick says as he walks into the corner store, one of the only places opened this late.
Artâs stomach turns because the last thing he wants to think about right now is food, heâs too drunk for this. but he still follows Patrick inside. He groans, âfine just hurry up man.â
Drunk Patrick doesnât really take that into consideration as he strolls up and down the aisles leisurely looking for scooby doo fruit snacks, oreo cakesters, and cheese balls.
Art is getting antsy. He already feels like shit anticipating tomorrowâs hangover but shortly into this trip he realized he really had to piss.
While Patrick is la la land, looking like heâs moving in slow motion. No pep in his step like he has nowhere to be. Art tugs on Patrickâs arm, âcâmon can we go? are you done?â
Patrick has completed his shopping list before he thinks, âoh shit wait i want to get Tashi the doritos that she likes.â He does a 360 turn going back to the chips aisle.
When they get there Patrick sees every doritos flavor imaginable (this store even had international flavors) but he didnât see Tashiâs favorite, the purple ones.
âthey donât have it man, letâs just go. câmon i wanna go home.â Art whines, he can feel his bladder pulsing. He needs to pee bad.
Patrick frowns until he comes up with idea, âletâs just ask him at the front, maybe they have it in the back.â
Art is praying to god they do not have it in the back so they can leave.
Patrick makes his way to the cashier, dropping his stuff on the counter. Art follows suit trying to focus on anything other than how badly he needs to go.
The cashier says he will check for the purple doritos in the back and Art feels like he wants to cry.
The cashier comes back, purple doritos in tow, and he checks Patrick out. Then they continue their journey back to the dorm.
They get there about 10 minutes later and Art is so close to relief he can feel it.
Patrick is fumbling around in his pocket trying to find his keys but he thinks he left them inside. Oh god, Art doesnât know what to do now. He could barely walk straight on their way back from how badly he had to pee. But he didnât tell Patrick because he didnât want to seem like a baby.
He also didnât want to pee on the sidewalk or in an alley way like a delinquent. Patrick did it all the time if he had to go, but Art was too worried someone would catch him. He also couldnât go if he knew someone could hear him, he gets nervous.
But this time was different and before he knew it his bladder gave up on him. The warm liquid started to run down his briefs. It trickled from his thighs all the way down to his calves. His jeans were soaked, he could feel the fabric getting heavier against his skin. Oh fuck.
Art canât believe he did that. He feels relieved and petrified at the same time. Patrick is probably going to make fun of him for being a baby and being able to hold it like an adult. Fuck. This is so embarrassing for him, Patrick will never let him live this down.
Luckily Patrick hasnât looked back at him yet, still searching for his keys. Shortly after he realizes the keys were in his jacket pocket, not any of the million pockets on his cargo shorts, and he opens the door. He turns to look back at Art but his smile slowly drops from his face.
Thatâs all it took for Art to start crying. He knows the wet spot on his jeans is very visible. Tears running down his cheeks, his face flushed with embarrassment.
Patrick is frozen in place. He didnât know Art had to pee that bad, let alone at all. If he wouldâve known he wouldâve convinced Art to just pee in an alley way. But somehow he thinks he likes this better? Art looks really pretty with those tears falling down his face. Too pretty. Patrick can feel himself hardening in his own shorts.
He pulls Art inside their dorm and locks the door.
â âm sorry.â Art gasps out between sobs. He doesnât really know what else to say and the embarrassment heâs feeling is immeasurable.
Patrick drops his the plastic bag with his snacks by the door before he approaches Art. He stand right in front of Art so their face to face. He slowly lets his eyes drag over Art lower half, subconsciously biting his lip. He doesnât really know why heâs so turned on right now.
Of course heâs watched ridiculous categories of porn before but never anything like this. Is he into this?
He brings his eyes back up to meet Artâs red rimmed eyes. He brings his hand up to Artâs cheek to wipe away some tears.
âitâs okay babe, donât have to apologize,â Patrick all but whispers. Keeping his hand on Artâs cheeks he slowly pulls him in for a kiss.
Art is confused but he lets his eyes slips close and kisses back anyway. The kiss starts slow and shy, until it picks up true desires being unleashed. Itâs a mess of teeth, tongue, and lips.
Patrick pulls away, resting his forehead against Artâs. He starts unbuttoning Artâs jeans before he shoves his hand into Artâs damp briefs which makes Art gasp, âpatrickââ
âfuck.â Patrick whispers under his breath, âyouâre so fucking hot.â Patrick continues as he starts stroking Art to full hardness.
âahâ ah patrickâ Art whines while Patrick grabs Artâs other hand, bringing it to feel Patrickâs boner.
Patrick keeps jerking off Art with one hand, while he pulls his own shorts down with the other hand. Moving Artâs hand to grip Patrickâs hard cock. Patrick leans in by Artâs ear to whisper, âthis is what you fucking do to me,â before pulling Art into a kiss.
Art moans into Patrickâs mouth, making sure to start stroking Patrickâs cock. Patrick moves his hands into the back of Artâs briefs, gripping Artâs ass.
âneed to fuck you, pleaseâ Patrick groans into Artâs mouth. Without another word Art is quickly pulling off his damp briefs and shorts. He also pulls his shorty over his head.
Patrick does the same, shedding his clothes. He puts Art on all fours before smacking Artâs ass for good measure while a moan escapes Artâs mouth.
Patrick eases two lubed up fingers inside Artâs tightness to stretch him out. Once Art staring pushing back on Patrickâs fingers, greedy, he deems Art is ready for his cock.
He lines up with Artâs hole before pushing in slowly until he bottoms out. âholy fuck Art youâre so tight.â
Art gasps as Patrick fills him up. Fuck heâs so fucking full right now. âplease fuck me, pleaseâ
Patrick starts slamming himself into Art, making sure to keep a good pace. âyou looked so fucking hot pissing yourself. jesus fuck. couldnât hold it in huh baby?â
Art shakes his head no as he keeps whining, moaning, any sound he can make at this point.
Patrick continues âso you made a big fucking mess didnât you baby? just for me to seeâ
Art nods in agreement this time. His head was feeling a little flirty and he wasnât sure if it was the alcohol or not anymore.
âsay it, tell me how big of a fucking mess you made.â Patrick said punctuating each word with a hard thrust. He moves his hand around so he can start stroking Artâs cock as he fucks into him.
Art chokes out in between moans, babbling at this point, âiâ iâmade such aâfuckâb-big mess daddy.â
âholy fuck,â Patrickâs thrusts stutter and he comes inside Art immediately after that. Art comes at the same time squirting all over their sheets.
Patrick collapses next to Art on the bed. He chuckles lightly, âthat wasâŚwow.â
Art sits up, âi didnât know you were into that, thought you were gonna make fun of me.â
âi didnât know, but when I saw you I just,â Patrick smirks, â- yeah that was good, are we gonna talk about you calling me daddy?.â
Art scoffs shoving Patrick, âshut the fuck up I didnât mean it.â
Patrick raises his eyebrow, âi donât know sounded real to me,â he starts to mock Art, âoh daddy please yes make me cum ah-â
Art shoves Patrick again, making sure Patrick is face first into a pillow so he can shut up. It was clear Art didnât want to talk about it so he stopped, for now.
Patrick starts again, ânow we really have to clean up your mess,â he laughs.
Art sighs exasperated, âitâs your fault.â
âiâm not the one who pissed myself,â he says back with a low whistle. Art blushes, crossing his arms in front of his chest. Patrick could sense Art was starting to get a little insecure again so he pipes up again, âcâmon iâll change the sheets, and you can shower. deal?â
Art nods small smile on his face, âdeal.â
#challengers#art donaldson#patrick zweig#artrick#art donaldson x patrick zweig#challengers 2024#artrick smut#moot ask
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I have a strong feeling that I will die soon, I always did, but the day never arrived -yet-. I am not wishing for death obviously, not at all, -words can just not convey my feeling like it truly is- I mean, I donât have much to find in my scales anyway.. However, I feel like everyday is my last, I donât plan my life in the future for I donât see myself being part of it. I barely plan my day, simply because I am unaware of wether Iâll live to tick any of the checkboxes in my todo list.
A sane person would think that this mindset kept me always on check, always aware of my deeds, always careful and wary, but I was rather the opposite âIâve done enough let me restâ I thought, or âthereâs not much left I donât have time to do anything immensely beneficialâ. Yet my departure seemed further day by day, every night I was still here, living a new day, wasting my time and drowning in sin.Â
What saved me from this depressing loop is dhikr, a small deed which doesnât require much time but has great rewards, truly, read about the rewards of merely uttering a few words -with a present heart- which are easy on the tongue but heavy on the scales, and youâll understand what I say. I no longer think I donât have time, because this special deed doesnât require any, and doing this little deed slowly motivates you to do even bigger ones, and to remember that if you intend to do a deed and death takes you before, youâll still be rewarded for your intention.Â
I know not many will relate to this feeling, but it is a thought that comes to my mind often, when I remember those who left before us, either to Jannah or to the swamps of misguidance.Â
Those youths I used to befriend, those whom I wanted to meet In Jannah, those whom now I despise. People whom I used to love dearly because our love for Allah united us, so when they stopped loving Him -and love is not just a feeling- our bonds were severed and the flames of our enmity were ignited. I donât want to be like them -(Ů اŮŮŮŮ
 Ůا شŮ
اتŮ!!)- and that is why I want to rush to my lord for as long as there still is a molecule of eeman left in my heart.Â
My fear from death is not greater than my fear from life, simply because once Iâm dead Iâm under 99 parts of the mercy of Allah, and here, only one. And because I envy those who are with their beloved -Allah- while I reside among my enemies.Â
Even Abu Hurayrah shared this feeling with us, -us, those whose life in a world in which Allah is disobeyed became unbearable- so he said, âI wish I had never been created, he said such words to convey his severe fear from deviating from the path. And similar words came from the mouth of the companion of our prophet, the one who was called by Allah âthe most God-Fearingâ so he -may Allah be pleased with him- said: âI wish I were a tree that is cut down and eatenâ⌠If such words came from those whose deeds are still known to this day, what can we, -strangers amongst strangers- say?
Oh Allah we ask you for firmness upon whatever You have decreed.Â
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Iâve kind of had this post/a version of this post brewing for two weeks or more now, but like, last night I left a discord community Iâd been a part of since the pandemic, where I was one of the first and founding members, over something that I guess could be considered ânot that big a dealâ and that was definitelyâŚsomething that stung certainly. Typically, Iâm not exactly a âpack up itâs time to hit the bricksâ sort of person, and overall I think I can say that Iâm fairly? okay/open to talking about things in a way thatâs meant to be explanatory/educational especially as it comes to be Chinese Diaspora.
Yet I also think that at this point it was impossible for me to stay because at this point I am so sick and tired of the rampant Sinophobia that exists in fandom spaces, especially ones that demand that CMedia caters to their sense of aesthetics regarding pretty gay men while fetishizing/refusing to engage with the very real problems that Chinese Diaspora/Chinese Nationals face, especially when we try to point things out. Â
In this case, this particular discussion was brought about re: a discussion about Falun Gong. which is a cult. And when I pointed out that saying âonly China and Russia will be happy about a decrease in US hegemony on the global stageâ was uhhh pretty Sinophobic of them (admittedly, not politely and perhaps too emotionally for people to take me seriously), they responded with âItâs my right to criticize whatever country I want actually even if itâs one you like and you canât just accuse me of -phobia or whatever because of thisâ along with some other stuff that basically amounted to âI have 0 empathy about a number of very personal issues that youâre currently facing because Iâm not American and your country sliding into fascism is your own fault wah wah cry harder.âÂ
Given that Iâd known this person for going on four or more years now, this wasâŚreally a âah, weâve completely lost you to multiple brands of Kool Aid hereâ moment. And instead of staying to argue my point, or to try to explain that maybe this server that was primarily about anime with a smattering of cdrama on the side really shouldnât be so chill with this sort of talk (After all, how often is it that someone prefaces their love of anime with: oh but donât worry! I donât support anything that the Imperial Japanese Government Did or anything theyâre currently or have done in the past to Ainu people!) I decided to leave.Â
In some sense, I feel like Iâve overstayed my welcome. Iâd become this sort of killjoy, you see, because thereâs only so many times you can point out a problem to a person or a group without starting to becoming that one person thatâs too serious or always stomping on other peopleâs fun or policing them for âincorrectâ expressions of their thoughts or whatever.Â
And this brings me to the like âwhat is a killjoy?â part of this thought because so much of life is about those sorts of battles: when do I think it might be safe to express an opinion? When do I think itâs okay to say âhey that wasnât a great statement to make, cut it outâ ? How often do I think I might be supported or heard when it comes to something like that? Who am I creating pushback for â the person who said something shitty or the other people who might not realize or not know what to say in response to something shitty?Â
So much of the time, I err on the side of trying to explain that Chinese people, ethnically Chinese diaspora, Chinese nationals, whatever are people who gasp! Have thoughts and feelings and possess a modicum of intelligence perhaps like you do, instead of just saying âoh fuck offâ or fucking off myself. So much of the time, I debate whether itâs polite to mention that this thirst to see pretty gay Asian men combined with this blanket rage at âcensorship by the evil governmentâ (as if censorship regarding queer subjects does not exist in the English speaking west) or âgovernment propagandaâ (as if, laughably, governmental propaganda does not exist in the English speaking west) is in fact, actively alienating to those who are ethnically Chinese.Â
Or if perhaps, by stretching and bending and purposefully misunderstanding the customs of Chinese characters and erasing their names and traditions and refusing to engage with our holidays and substituting your own is a form of microaggressive violence towards those in your fandom community who are Chinese.Â
After all, if I do point this out, itâs a matter of âTav, literally we just want WangXian to celebrate Christmas, itâs harmless.â (We will refuse to learn about new years traditions beyond Gong Xi Fa Cai and exaggerated bows and we will refuse to engage with Qingming or Mid Autumn or ancestor worship or filial piety if we even know what those are because those arenât sexy and familiar as decorating a fucking Christmas tree after all.)Â
As for exactly what this particular longtime acquaintance had said was my own fault re: Americaâs slide into fascism â my youngest maternal cousin died two weeks ago, and my mother is too terrified of leaving the country to go to his memorial service because sheâs afraid that as a green card holder, she wonât be able to make it back into the country to ever see her husband or daughters again with the way this current administration is handling things.Â
He was twenty four years old and his parentsâ only child.Â
But yes, perhaps I was impolite in my expression of what I was afraid of.
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To be honest, YES, YES, I would also like to see something similar in future episodes!!!
I've been thinking about the possible interaction between Ray and Sky, and even more so after Obi's recent post and the new shorts, I can't keep quiet.
I had a plot in my head that Dork and Rey found out that Sky was a vampire. And then there's the fact that these two guys know each other. And since Ray has already mentioned that he has a lot of sexual partners, Dork could have just snapped while talking to him.
Because of jealousy? No, I don't think so. Just imagine, Ray already knows a vampire, damn it (although he probably doesn't know it himself). He lives separately in a great apartment, and has a job. He had, in fact, arranged his life perfectly by the age of 27. And Dork... which flies past many points where Ray has succeeded. Which can hit self-esteem incredibly hard, especially Dork's self-esteem. (I think these two are the same age, because they were classmates)
I can see them starting a little argument, and suddenly Dork loses control of what they're saying and says something like:
â "My God, this whole situation doesn't piss me off because you had something with guy I don't even know... and because of how unworthy I am!!! Do you really think I like my life? What am I like now? According to you, I don't get up every morning thinking...
"COOL, I'VE LIVED ALMOST A THIRD OF MY LIFE FOR NOTHING AND ACHIEVED NOTHING IN SO MUCH TIME, CONGRATULATIONS!!"
...AND Don't think that this started happening recently, I haven't been able to get these thoughts out of my head since I was DAMN 15. From the very f@cking beginning, I realized inside that I was NOT capable of anything... Just don't think that this is your merit, too much honor. You just didn't make the situation any better, just like everyone else around me...It's all my DAMN fault...I've made such a fool of myself.... F@ck, yes, I have a lot of strengths and advantages like a person, but because of people like you and because of myself, every night in high school I trampled myself into the mud, wanting to damn adjust... Do you have any idea what it's like to do your best to hide your feelings all this time?? I KNEW PERFECTLY WELL THAT I WOULD BE RIDICULED IF I EVEN GAVE A REASON TO THINK THAT I WAS IN LOVE WITH YOU.
TO THINK I HAVE DAMN FEELINGS
...DO YOU THINK I HAVEN'T ASKED MYSELF AN INFINITE NUMBER OF TIMES WHY THE HELL I FELL IN LOVE WITH A PERSON THAT MAKES MY LIFE UNCOMFORTABLE ?..and you know what...I DIDN'T FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU THEN BECAUSE OF YOUR IMAGE OF BAD BOY OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT...I WAS INFURIATED BY THE TEACHERS' ATTITUDE TOWARDS YOU.... I REALLY WANTED TO HELP YOU AND BE THERE FOR YOU... You're really smart, and I didn't want to see you accept this role of a bully with no future... I really wanted to help with all my heart, but I was afraid of ridicule and bullying.....but after all this time, I still haven't gotten rid of these feelings....
///here Dork could sit down somewhere or sink to the floor, as it is not particularly good to tolerate such frank conversations. ////
WHY ON DAMN EARTH I involved myself in all this? Yes, I finally have a chance to be your....FRIEND AT LEAST ... I have a chance to change....but inside, I realize how stupid I am, how dumb.... I already know how much I will regret telling you all this in the future... But it's been inside me for too long.... I'm sorry for all this nonsense....
And that's where the tears will start. Cool, I like it.
I want Dork to just break into tears
Full on heavy breathing, barely conscious, eye flooding crying
Mostly because I think it'd be such a difficult situation for Ray to deal with, like sure nobody really knows how to handle crying people but with their history and the current state of their...friendship-? Forgiveness arc? Wtv they got going on, how the hell would Ray know what to do
I want Dork to be an absaloute mess and Ray trying his best to figure out what to do without causing any more issues for them, cause I feel like given their situation he doesn't want to cause them more pain, he doesn't want to encourage their suffering. So he's trying to help but when Dork realises how much trouble they're causing simply makes the tears flow thicker
It's a mess and everything's awful...but slowly it calms down...and I feel like that moment, that feeling of finally being able to deal with those heavy feelings would show how far they've come. The changes they've both gone through. It would be amazing
#obsidian lantern#long post#dork squad#stuck with your high school bully#ray bully#ray obsidian lantern#asmr story#obsidian lantern ASMR#stuck with your bully#stuck in the rain with your high school bully
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shipping yhk not in a romantic or platonic way but a secret third way (âŹď¸âŹď¸)
#domo rambles#its like. u cant put a label on whatever the fuck is going on between those 3 they make me a little insane#their dynamic is just so insane in the context of the story. but i also need them in a low-stakes high school au#something very cyclical about them. you meet someone and you cant help but love them so much that youd do anything to save them#so you doom the universe and kickstart all the events that brought so much misery and suffering to others just to keep that 1 person alive#bc thats how important they are to you. you pour your soul into writing this story even as you slowly disappear#in the hopes they stay alive. bc they have to survive and you will ensure that#and to do that you create someone who will try again and again to survive at all costs. someone who doesnt givr up#and so the character is born. and you have little recollection of your life before adulthood#but one thing youre sure about is that you will see the end of the scenarios#and then you meet someone who somehow understands what you went thru in a way youve never experienced before#and they shine so brightly likr a star in the night sky you cant help but love them#and so you chase them across worldlines to keep them alive. bc they have to survive. you almost feel like thats your purpose#that you were created for the sole purpose of loving this person and ensuring their survival#and youd doom yourself to keep repeating this life just for the chance to meet that person once more#and then at the center of all this. you see the universe someone created for you and you cant help but love it with your entire being#this was what kept you alive all these years and what kept you from giving up. you dont deserve this salvation#you are rhe reason for the pain and suffering of so many including the one thats kept you alive all these years#you are the reason someone doomed the universe and created something by chipping away at themselves for years#and so to atone for this you would doom yourself to an eternity of loneliness in order to sustain this universe someone created for you#i created this universe for your survival. i was created so you would survive. this universe will survive and i'll doom myself to ensure it#sorry i ended up writing an essay. can you tell im insane about them#orv#orv spoilers#yoohankim#if you read all this im kissing u on the mouth
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Coding woes (Patreon)
#Doodles#Original#Ukadevlog#Bug testing sure is something lol#These are both problems I've figured out now luckily! And I did them on my own! :D Extra pleased with myself :3#My slightly cocky attitude of ''Well that was frustrating - luckily I'll never run into another problem again'' amuses me lol#'Cause in the moment everything's flying! The code comes together lovely and it's all great! And then I come up to the next thing#Something I haven't done before - something that there's no Direct how-to of how to do a thing#Like setting player-and-character pronouns! I didn't know how to do that! But I figured it out!! :0 What a rush haha#It really did take me an evening of knocking my head against the wall in attempts - I waaaayyy overcomplicated it to start haha#I was like - trying to set up a system that would call on specific pronoun sets individually based on player input#Ridiculous - so much easier to just slap some values into an envelope and have those tied to a specific shell lol#But that took all night! I got sleepy while working on it and even my drowsy brain was like Wait...what am I supposed to check against? Haha#Such a weird experience subconsciously as well :0 'Cause I had normal dreams that night#Maybe some slight code-adjacent dreams of A Screen With Text On It but that could be anything :P#Most of it was just normal dream melodrama - but in the few times I woke up to readjust or roll over or pull my blanket#It was juuuuust enough for my ''conscious'' brain to kick in and think about what to compare against - what structure would work#And so by the time I woke up proper I had to frantically write down a bunch of code in a spare word document so I wouldn't go stir crazy lol#Breakfast must wait! Dailies must wait! I Have to write this down!!#And when I implemented it - it worked exactly as I hoped it would and is much much Muuuuuch simpler to call upon haha#Wow! That was a weird fluke that definitely won't happen again! Haha#I don't actually believe that I just have no way of guessing which aspect will trip me up - This Should Be Easy! And then it isn't lol#Definitely didn't predict the second - Especially because other than a small roadbump of not knowing how to Shell-Switch (ty again Cherry âĽ)#Everything up to then was going well and everything after that was going fine! Until The One Thing happened pffbtl#I wanted to assign a value to check if a specific piece of code was being called upon - basically a fork between two outcomes#That went fine! The value Was changing! But only the first fork was being called???#No lol I just didn't put the second = ugh pft - and what's more frustrating is that I'd been using == up to that point!! I'd been warned!!!!#I - for some reason - was convinced that using && would make the value check Only need to check If x = 1... That's not how it works......#It's an If statement! If x = 1 then why do I have to check IF x == 1! Just check!!! Hwagh rules and whatnot lol#Like I said it's all fixed now but sheesh! What a silly mistake! I knew better!! And now I double know better haha
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#thinking about how much having a kid changed my marriage#how much our dynamic changed afterwards#I think that was something I wasnât really prepared for#and no one ever talked about it either#but itâs true#and im sure im not alone im sure plenty of couples experienced the same thing#but no one wants to talk about that#everyone has to pretend to be okay all the time#better than okay even#I hope that we can find a way to head in that direction together#I hope that we will find a new way to love each other#because thereâs no going back to how it was#thereâs just going forward#really hard pills to swallow honestly#because I thought I knew myself#that I knew everything there was to know about who I am what Iâm capable of#but there was a whole other side when I became a mom#I found a strength in me that I never knew existed#that I realized I truly could do anything because I did that#I woke up every 45 minutes one night to take care of my baby#I cleaned during nap times I made dinners I did laundry I kept my house going regardless of how spent and exhausted I was#I felt like less than a person by basically becoming my sons main source of sustenance#I felt invisible#I felt unheard#I felt ugly and undesirable#I felt extreme joy paralleled by extreme loss of myself#I reached a point of truly knowing what it means to be torn apart as a person and then recreating myself from scratch#and it was so fucking hard#but it was worth it
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#hi everyone I'm sorry I vanished for a few days#this weekend has been hard here with irl family things and in my heart in the world of F1#I feel so so so so much for Daniel and I keep riding a roller coaster of anger that RBR let this happen and sorrow if this is it#then I swing back to hope#not just in 2025 (which I still believe in!!)#but that he can find joy and fufillment and love somewhere better#he deserves so much better than the callously cruel weekend from a sport he's given so much of his life to#I'll be a Daniel fan no matter where he goes next#but my trust in RBR is irrevocably shattered as it is for many (not that I had much to begin with!)#but he was thrown to the wolves and I'm just so angry and heartbroken this happened#but then the possible last lap of his potential last race given to Max#thank you Daniel#and I'm hopeful til the end#I hope he gets what he wants but he deserves so much love#and seeing the love from fans and the people in his life who DO care#I'm a newer fan but I have become so fond for Daniel so much and the anticipation is killing me#let him and fans have peace (even if the goal is Checo retiring after the Mexico GP then at least give some closure for the month between)#just a hard weekend#and the FIA absurdity with Max too ugh#and Carlos' crash in quali ahhh just an awful weekend#with that and an overwhelming family weekend I just couldn't bring myself to post anything#but thank you everyone for this space#I need to catch up but I have seen so many folks echo how I feel#it is upsetting and needless and uncerimonious and cruel#I'll be hopeful forever there is a chance#but Daniel deserves to be happy and RBR proved how heartless of a place they can be#I'll savor the silver linings of Max and Daniel's bond and those on the team who lifted him up#I'll be away again for a work event today but I looked around insta a bit last night#I'll post and tag for the GP if anyone wants to not see it!! still hurts but it'll all be okay in time I know it â¤ď¸#autumn posts
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