#and accepting that sometimes i just don't get or vibe with or understand someone(s)

[bringsin]

i'm so much better than i used to be about duplicates. i used to be very insecure, but now that i've made all of my characters canon divergent ( even if people like it less hriweujkg ) i feel so much more comfortable with how i write. of course after 10pm my brain cannot be trusted so i do my best to ignore those thoughts

[uyuforu]

What's your favourite placement in a chart?

Another question: can placements in chart tell you if someone is like an evil or a good person? Like I know you can caculate the compatibility with another person and if they clash or not but I'm curious if theres something that can just tell they whether they're good or bad

MMmhh.. very good question because I never thought about it haha! Mmmh well I personally feel happy with my natal chart, I believe I'm quite blessed when I see other people around me with more difficult placements! Mine is quite harmonious and I'm glad.

I'm just gonna post some observations actually because I don't have necessarily favorite placements.

Uyu's Astrological Observations I

₊˚⊹ ᰔ I always really love a chart with Libra placement(s), it gives me a sense of harmony with the person. People around me that have libra placements are just the best people. They are very understanding.

₊˚⊹ ᰔ Also, I would say all the Aries Moon women I know love to gossip lmao, but they are also super funny. But they take things super personally it's insane (even when it's not even about them).

₊˚⊹ ᰔ I have Aquarius on the 5H and Aquarius men and I always got a weird alchemy, but it's never going far. Always relationships that never turn into long lasting relationships.

₊˚⊹ ᰔ The rumor as that you turn into your moon sign while drunk is super true lmao. I'm Gemini moon and I'm so extrovert when I'm drunk, I keep talking and make so much new friends it's crazy!

₊˚⊹ ᰔ Libra Men give me fuckboy vibes lmao, always. Scorpio Venus men too.

₊˚⊹ ᰔ Someone with the same sun or moon sign can make you hate them. I'm gemini moon and I hate Gemini Sun people... Sorry! No hate intended though!

₊˚⊹ ᰔ I have Virgo 11H, and all of my best friends are Virgos! 11H is the house that represents communities and friendships.

₊˚⊹ ᰔ Life is really hard for people who got Aquarius North Node with Cancer placements lmao... They usually have a hard time understanding and accepting they don't have to fit in the mass. They want that sense of belonging, of home, while the north node challenge them to realize their home is only them. They don't belong anywhere, and it's a good thing because they can be anywhere!

₊˚⊹ ᰔ Aquarius men are the strangest lmao but that's all their charm!

₊˚⊹ ᰔ Scorpio placements are the best at stalking lmao

₊˚⊹ ᰔ Virgo venus + Scorpio Mars = freaky in the sheets bro

₊˚⊹ ᰔ I have MC in Cancer and people treat me like a baby at work ALL THE TIME. I'm always the protected one whatever happens.

₊˚⊹ ᰔ Cancer placements indicate where you might get "babied" or just where youth appears (ex: Cancer ASC makes you appear younger physically, Cancer mercury makes you have a baby voice like, etc.)

₊˚⊹ ᰔ I have Saturn in the 7H but also Jupiter! It's super weird because it's two factors that tell me I'm gonna marry late (Saturn) but also young (Jupiter) lmao! An astrologer told me that could balance things out (not too young and not too old), but it can also mean to not get much luck in love until marriage! And another meaning could be that I would feel like I would marry late or never while I would totally marry at the right age. It's funny to have contradictory planets there.

₊˚⊹ ᰔ People who have the same sun and rising sign are just the most "idgaf about how people view me". Rising is how we present ourselves to people, when the people have the same rising sign as their sun, they have no facade. They are themselves all the time!

₊˚⊹ ᰔ To answer your second question: I don't think there is any indicators or bad or good part of our personalities. It's very complicated but every placements to me have a good and bad impacts. For ex: Libra rising are charming and very plesant people. BUT they also care a lot about their appearances, they can sometimes be shallow. Also a lot of squares can impact in a bad way.

Thank you for reading!

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[tokidokifish]

garashir for ship asks!!!

HELL YEAH HERE WE GO TIME FOR SOME ~CONFESSIONS~

What made you ship it?

i don't know. listen - you may think i'm being oblique. but the fact is i heard about garashir LONG before i ever got into ds9, we're talking YEARS back; i can't even remember who i knew that shipped it, because it was just that long ago. i even tried reading a fanfic, though i can't remember what it was or even where it was, because this might have predated ao3. like even before i got into the show, something about that pairing Appealed To Me. and then, of course, i DID watch the show and Whoo Boy. i mean have you SEEN them interact. i think, honestly, what sealed the deal for me - what got be truly invested - was - well, for one thing, i tend to automatically rebel against relationships that the canon WANTS to happen; even if it's a relationship i end up liking it takes me a while to come around to it bc i'm so burned out on the vibe of "he was a guy, she was a girl, can i make it any more obvious?" that so many het romances get slapped with. i'm always looking for the characters that have the most chemistry (in my opinion) and goddamn call those bitches a science department because they have maybe the most chemistry of any two characters in that show. they challenge each other in the best way! and they just LIKE each other. what a novelty! i've got my fondness for the whole slap-slap-kiss trope, but god do shows and movies rely on it way too much these days, gag. so to have these two characters which, yeah, snip at each other sometimes, but very genuinely enjoy each other's company?? sublime. love it.

What are your favorite things about the ship?

well, i think i got into it a bit with the "they just like each other", but i think i especially like that garak liked julian right from the start. like oh, yeah, garak obviously had ulterior motives for approaching julian at first, but after that he just - continued to seek out his company! i've stated it a lot in my fics but just the fact that garak alone never seemed to find julian irritating when like everyone else on the station did, even if they came around to it - like i'm not one of those people that's like "the character you see yourself most in + the character you're most attracted to is your favorite pairing" bc i think it's bullshit, but as someone who is Very Annoying and is used to driving people away, oh god the idea of being just simply ACCEPTED by someone is like. a fuckin. drug. it's honestly probably the biggest reason i have trouble shipping julian with anyone else, even though i do enjoy his relationship with miles and i especially like writing him and kira becoming close in the later seasons. and, again, the fact that garak and julian do challenge each other, and they reflect one another in such interesting ways - and, of course, they are sooooooo normal about one another even in the context of a show that WASN'T writing them as romantically involved. 's good. 's a good ship.

Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

certainly it's not unpopular amongst the garashir girlies - but obviously i consider the idea that their relationship is at all "unhealthy" complete bullshit. like i made a whole post about it. genuinely i cannot even understand the mindset - other than, of course, because garak is a "bad man" (also something i disagree with, but whatever) he cannot have healthy relationships. he's "evil", so all of his relationships must be toxic. just lol. lmao, even. i think my most unpopular opinion is that i find it VERY hard to picture them hooking up early in the series and then having a relationship on the side. like it's not a deal-breaker in terms of fics, but just not my cup of tea, yanno? i think there's attraction and affection from the get, but i think PEAK garashir happens after ips/bil, and especially after dbip, when i feel like they'd've truly come to understand one another (as much as they need to, obviously; i think a big part of the garashir relationship is the idea that garak will always have secrets and julian is fine with that (is that why people think it's toxic?)). oh also i think people who shrink the age difference are cowards. they're both grown-ass adults! let them have their 20+ age gap! it's a charm point!

[kitkatt0430]

Woo! All caught up on Doctor Who now and... I am going to be wondering who the heck Mrs Flood is until Christmas, aren't I???

I really enjoyed Rogue, though it was hilarious to me that Rogue was basically Rose and the doctor was basically Jack Harkness. You cannot tell me that the vibes and parallels were not there because they totally were. Somewhere Jack is laughing at the Doctor for this one.

I think I'd have enjoyed the Bridgerton homage more if I watched Bridgerton. It's not a show that rally calls to me though I'm always pleased to see my mutuals who follow the show are enjoying themselves watching it.

Loved Ruby with the battle mode earrings. She keeps those going forward right? We all agree, Ruby keeps the battle mode earrings? Of course she does. I would.

Overall I'm not really sold on the Doctor/Rogue ship. I mean, they're both cute about it and I'd read fanfic about them. But there's something about single episode romances that always ring a bit hollow to me. This one is better than most. But there's still something that's missing. And maybe it's just because love at first sight seems unrealistic to someone who never falls in love at all. How can you fall in love with someone you don't really know? That's just bizarre to me - are you actually in love with them or the idea they represent?

Still, like I said, it was a cute ship despite not having much substance yet. So I hope it gets some cute fanfic to follow. (I'd love for them to have a reunion... one day. Though I'd accept Jack rescuing Rogue too. It'd be funny to me.)

The Legend of Ruby Sunday/The Empire of Death was a pretty good duology, though I think the whole Ruby's mom was important because Sutekh couldn't see her thing was kind of a let down. It kind of works, however, if you consider...

It didn't start snowing around Ruby until after she met the Doctor. Until after she started traveling in the TARDIS. Until after Sutekh saw this random woman 73 yards away whose face he couldn't see... point at him.

The Doctor assumes she's pointing at him. So does everyone else. I thought maybe she was pointing at the TARDIS because maybe she could see Sutekh and was sending a warning for the Doctor. And maybe Sutekh thought the same thing. That would explain his obsession. His need for an answer. What made Ruby's mother so special that she could see Death when no one else could?

Turns out... she couldn't see death. She was pointing at the sign and thinking that's what she'd name her daughter. She'd name her Ruby.

Humans are a little psychic in the Doctor Who verse so it's possible that with everything else going on that night - the goblins, the Doctor, the TARDIS, Sutekh having a melt down because he thinks he's been spotted - left enough of a psychic impression that led from one woman thinking 'I want to name my daughter Ruby' to Ruby receiving exactly that name.

And with both the Doctor and Sutekh thinking something is up with Ruby, that's where the snow came from. Because didn't the first snow instance happen with the Doctor there and not Ruby? It focused on her afterwards, but I could swear it happened to the Doctor alone the first time. (Obviously gonna have to rewatch all the way through sometime soon.) Perhaps it could be some aspect of his true species starting to bleed through now that he knows the truth.

Ruby would have Christmas music in her soul because of course she does. Christmas eve is when she was born and she was understandably obsessed over finding details about her birth mother on a tape that had on it, preserved as best a VHS could, Christmas eve.

And so Ruby had the music within her because it represented her mother and herself and the missing connection between them. It snowed because the Doctor tied himself to that moment, over-identifying with Ruby as a foundling and wanting to know who Ruby's mother is because he wants to know who his real family is. And no one could see the face of Ruby's mother because Sutekh could not see her and because he could not remember her face the Memory Window could not allow anyone else to see it either.

And I really, really think it has to be Ruby's mom pointing that caught Sutekh's attention. Because how many people have walked by the TARDIS since the Fourth Doctor era? And presumably Sutekh didn't see all of them clearly. Hooded cloaks aren't exactly unique. But she stopped, out of his reach... and pointed at him. Or at the sign beside him, rather. But he didn't know that. He was getting so close to finally being able to enact his revenge on the Doctor and destroy the universe in one fell swoop...

And this woman comes from nowhere and sees him. Taunts him. Or so it seems. So close to his goal, paranoia had to be running high...

The ending was bittersweet. Ruby gets to have what the Doctor doesn't. And he loves that for her even as he's grieving for himself anew. Ruby gets to know her birth mother and father. She has a loving foster mom. She has family that wants her and loves her.

The Doctor's step parent abused him. Any evidence of where he came from is lost. The likelihood of ever meeting his parents is likely nonexistent. He's happy for Ruby... but he's finally grieving for himself. For the what if's that will never be.

And then there's Flood and the Christmas episode had better tell me who the heck she is. She's too vaguely sinister to be Susan, the Doctor's granddaughter. Though it would be interesting if the were Susan Foreman after all. But if she were a Time Lady then my first thought would be the Rani. The name is probably completely wrong for the Rani's aesthetic but still. It'd be interesting if it were her.

[psychicreadsgirl]

Sunghoon as a bf pleaseee??

Sunghoon watches his crush from behind the scenes. At times it can be a bit too much so he'll have to tame it down unless he wants to be seen as a stalker. He wants to know everything about his crush and will get his friends to "spy" on them. He can also set scenarios to make himself look favorable in front of his crush like getting some of his friends to pressure his crush to drink and then he swoops in to lecture them and drinks for his friend. Honestly like setting himself like a hero...saving the person in distress.

He likes to put his best image in front of his partner, partly because he's afraid that they won't fully accept him for who he is. Often his partner will feel like he's hiding something or he's not genuine enough. He reminds me a lot of that male lead from Cheese in the Trap, Yu Jung. Just those vibes + personality. Sunghoon can keep on his best act for a long time in a relationship because he deep down knows that most people wouldn't like the true him. He's not as empathetic/sweet/kind as he appears to be. He has a rather cruel side to him, quite merciless.

Sunghoon's relationships often end because his partners feel like they don't know who he really is or they find out what he's really like and don't think it'll work out. I think that's one of his worst fears -- people discovering who he is and then just judging/abandoning him.

Sunghoon's actual s*xual preferences are hidden. I don't see him disclosing his true preferences even if he becomes married. He pretends that he is very vanilla and gentle. He has other desires and some of his fantasies can be quite violent and even bloody. He may have a partner and they have vanilla s*x, but then he has to go elsewhere or perhaps hire someone to satisfy his true needs.

Sunghoon can also be sort of possessive and obsessive in a relationship. He has a need/desire to control or monitor his partner. He can know his partner so well that he'll end up being able to predict what they'd do or read their mind in a way. However, sometimes that backfires because his partner feels suffocated or they feel like he's "creepy". He might not ask his partner where they're going, but he will know somehow either through a friend or an app on his partner's phone installed without them knowing. I think he's terrified of being betrayed but his fear of someone betraying him leads him to do some things that can be too much for his partner.

I also feel he has trouble understanding what love actually means. He feels like him being extremely interested in someone is what love should be.

[bogkeep]

How would you describe your experience with being half Czech and half Norwegian? Really curious cus I never see alot of osmosis between nordic and slavic countries.

oh boy that's a really big question that's pretty difficult to answer! this is kind of a major part of my life and identity and not really possible to crystallize into a concise point, since it's just... my whole life :')

one part of this is just the experience of not fully belonging to one place and culture, of being caught inbetween, which is something a lot of people all over the world understand and relate to, i think. this might sound niche but i have a fondness for graphic novels about coming of age where the protagonist is is the child of immigrants and has to navigate their way through honoring their heritage and fitting in with the culture they live in at the same time. maybe this sounds dramatic for someone who belongs to two european countries that are only 2-3 days of driving apart, but that's my truth haha.

another part is the more specific differences between czechia and norway as countries and cultures with different language families, which is something i can talk about at length, for sure, but like... every place has its differences, even two towns in the same country. sometimes it's difficult to know what's a real difference between two places and what's just differing personal experiences.

some things:

- one of the most iconic christmas movie that plays in norway is Three Wishes for Cinderella, a czech made cinderella adaptation (tři oříšky pro popelku). the version that plays in norway has been dubbed over by the same voice, a method referred to as russian dubbing. this movie is so iconic and beloved they have done a remaster of it, making it crisper and more colorful, but they cannot make a better dub or the people of norway would revolt. for a while i had no idea this was such a big deal, because i would spend every christmas on czech, and for me, cinderella was just one of many fairytale movies. my grandfather would always tape the fairytale adaptations on VHS and would get me to watch them when i visited for the summer. it took me a while to get into any of them, since i vastly preferred cartoons over live action TV (i have many fond memories of czech cartoons. víla amálka, rumcajs, rákosníček, krteček, lots of classics), but i enjoyed a lot of them eventually. i think the first one i liked was one called Nebojsa, about a guy who feels no fear. my eventual favourites would become Král Sokolů (the king of falcons) and S Čerti Nejsou Žerty (give the devil his due) - the latter becoming a christmas movie For Me.

- a big difference between norway and czech, culturally, is politeness conventions. norway is very informal and introverted, more first name basis than last names - in fact, i don't know the last names of any teachers i had at school except for ones i've found on facebook. i used to spend a couple months every year of grades 1 - 5 in czechia, to go to school there and practice the language. not only was school more advanced and stricter, but i'm pretty sure i was supposed to refer to teachers as Mr or Ms Last Name and i did not know this. i apparently caused quite a ruckus in first grade, but i only have my family's word for it. i remember almost nothing of my time in czech first grade except crying on my first day because i was so overwhelmed. another thing i did not realise until i was a teen was that when talking to strangers or people Of Respect, you refer to them with a Plural You until you've reached enough familiarity to switch to Singular You. it's accepted for kids to refer to everyone with the singular - same vibe as referring to every familiar adult woman as your auntie - but i've made quite a fool of myself multiple times calling cashiers and waitresses by singular you when outside of the Acceptable Age Slot. if it sounds like an autism nightmare that's because it is :'D

- i think every person in europe has been to prague at some point. every person i tell i'm half czech to tells me they've been to prague. it's a pretty city though! check out the astronomical clock

- there is a small community of czech and slovakian immigrants in my norwegian hometown. obviously it's not Every Czech Person in town, i've run into a lot of czech speaking people at random every now and then, but yeah! i think the biggest community event that gets arranged every year is Mikuláš in december. it's very reminiscent of Krampus celebrations. essentially kids are expected to perform a song or poem in front of st. Nicholas, an angel and a devil (that's the krampus in this instance), and then they get evaluated and told if they've been Good or Bad this year before being given candy (with a piece of coal or potato in it because everyone is a Little naughty sometimes). after growing out of being one of the children, i've contributed by playing the devil or the angel a couple times each.

for some reason there's a lot of people from the czech community in the historical archery club my mom and i are both part of. we actually have a lot of immigrant members, so for something so viking aesthetically coded it ends up being a fairly multicultural experience!

[quinloki]

Aaaaaaa our self ships?!?!?

I ship with Buggy and Shanks, because how could I not be head over heels for them? And I just love the height difference, me 5'5, Buggy 6'3, Shanks 6'6.... They're giants compared to the tiny powerhouse that is my s/i.

And Addie Santine, my most beloved s/i. She's free spirited, doing what she wants when she wants, who grew up with a whole lot of trauma before heading out to become a pirate at the ripe old age of 12. And as an adult is infamous, known as the Siren for being able to lure men (and certain women) with seduction and flirtation for her own personal goals. But also not to be taken lightly because she's known for a reason, and feared as dangerous and will go from being fun loving to willing to attack at a pin drop if someone presses her buttons (much more often occurring in my ship with Buggy).

With Buggy the two of them met with her saving his life (because he's Buggy) from another crew that was getting close to killing him wanting to join his crew, because with the two of their reputations they could stand to get whatever they wanted. And I mean, hot, deadly pirate lady wants to join him? Buggy's in. They don't get together for a while though once she has, instead they're pining for each other (completely obvious to everyone else) with Addie due to her past trauma with relationships and men, and Buggy thinking they couldn't possibly be interested in him with his rock bottom self esteem. But once they do my god, they're the Destruction Duo. And Addie? Don't you dare lay a hand on the clown.

And Shanks? Dashing, handsome, kind hearted Shanks? The two of them are instantly attracted to each other and often run into each other, flirting outrageously and having a deep respect for each other despite their differing views on handling conflict, with Shanks understanding Addie does what she does for her survival, and the fact that she's a much more reasonable person when she's around him. He loves her for her wildness, her love for freedom and that under the coldness and violence she's loving and kind. And Addie fell for him because he's the first person who was able to see her for who she is, and when she realises she likes being soft and gentler because he helps her be the person she wants to be. Though it still takes a whole lot of time with the flirting building up for Addie to accept her feelings for him and the fact that he returns them thinking that she doesn't deserve it because of the things she's done. But once they do get together omg, power couple!

Thank you for sharing! I love the subtle differences between how things go with Buggy vs how they go with Shanks. I love the gremlin vibes and the flirting and the explosions XD

Sometimes we just need someone to actually SEE us and that's enough for us to start to see ourselves, and there's a vibe of that in this I really like. ^_^ And like, YOU get to be the pirate, a little scourge of the high seas, for yourself, as a treat \o/

It's fantastic! I read this a couple times before I could even reply to it cause you just painted such a great picture =3 the passion's there!

Do you have anything written or drawn for Addie? I'd love to read up on her or see her ☆*: .｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

Tell me about your self-ships!

[ruki--mukami]

What kind of ask do you not accept?/ignore?

🧩 Great question. Honestly, I'll only delete asks when I can tell it's all by the same sender and the messages essentially say the same thing. Spamming my inbox with the same request over and over again in the same day is definitely a violation of my rules and I'd appreciate it if people exercised some patience with me. I understand I may be slow with getting to your ask, but if there's a scenario you really want to see, try sending it to me again a week later rather than 5 minutes later.

Referring to the pinned post on this blog or simply the rules is a great place to start.

I'll typically ignore asks that give off minor vibes. Stuff that's the same word or phrase copy/pasted like 100 times, scenarios that both most likely wouldn't happen + just don't appeal to me compared to some other asks I have piling up. For instance, I've received many asks where Yui has said some rather... 'questionable' things that she most likely would never say to Ruki even if he tortured her. I don't really want to portray certain ships in a poor lighting whatsoever if it seems OOC.

And, to be candid with you, what I feel like answering at any given moment really fluctuates with my mood. For instance, sometimes I'll be in the mood to write smut, and other times I'll feel like answering gore or fluff related asks. It really depends.

However, if it helps, I do have basic standards that I try to hold myself to. They're what I've labeled my "ask priorities."

1. Requests for comfort. The world is a harsh place sometimes, and I understand being comforted by someone as charming as Ruki is something that might really lift people's spirits. So, on occasion, I'll soften him up for the sake of catharsis.

2. RP starters. Everyday I always have at least 2-3 RP starters sent in even without reblogging any sort of meme, so I try to prioritize those to an extent. However, if I feel like I've been giving some people more attention than others, then it may take me days to answer these. I'd like to give everyone a chance to interact equally, or as close to 'equal' as I can humanly get.

3. Meme prompts. When I do reblog memes, however, I definitely want to prioritize these since I don't like to reblog stuff then forget about it.

4. Questions/messages for Admin. Sometimes I'll break character and answer things on myself if they're important and/or interesting topics in relation to Ruki's character, or simply a kind compliment praising my work. I like to stay on top of the nice messages I receive since it truly means the world to me.

5. Generic asks, i.e. what’s your favorite ___? These are my favorites to answer when I'm feeling a bit tired and need something simple to work with, lol.

6. NSFW. Yes, I understand we're all thirsty for Ruki here, but sometimes I feel uncertain about my smut in that my writing tends to get repetitive, ahaha. I do really enjoy writing NSFW answers, though. Sometimes I just need a few days to recharge the smut brain because I don't want to disappoint people with writing that sounds too similar as the recent NSFW asks.

7. Reactions to specific stories with characters, setting, plot. Sometimes people send me scenarios in which Ruki is their S/O or family-related asks, such as "Kou did ___, your reaction?" I really like the creativity behind these asks and try to get to these when I can, but sometimes I do receive continuations and it can be a lot to keep track of, just like my RP threads, ahaha. I'm convinced I probably need two separate Excel trackers: one for RP and one for the anon scenarios I receive.

8. Longer scenarios that require more thought and polished writing. I really want the scenario asks to turn out perfect, which is why I only work on them when I'm very energized and in a particularly strong writing mood.

9. Headcanon requests. There's no particular reason why this is at the bottom, as my headcanon posts are actually my most popular. Don't get me wrong, I love to write headcanons, but I just love writing as Ruki himself a bit more in comparison.

I hope this was helpful. I'd also like to add that I probably won't be answering anons that I can tell are from the same person, especially if we already RP a lot, since like I said earlier, I'd like to give all a chance to interact without exactly giving anyone 'special' treatment. There are many OCs, anons, and askers in general who visit this blog, both new and old, and I'd like to develop amazing stories with everybody. 🧩

[truckfreaks]

had such an funny array of experiences the other night at that bar and I've been reflecting on it and wanting to write about it very much.....

on one hand i saw my friends sibling who i haven't seen in quite a while, and he was more outwardly open and excited and chatty than hes been for probably the whole ten years I've known him. like, he even invited me to his bands show? he never invites anyone! he's notorious in our crowd for being very, like... idk. ive heard lots of things - "particular", "difficult to work with", perfectionist... but he was totally different.

he brought his new boyfriend along, and we all had a long silly talk about sneaking into cons when we were kids, navigating the precarious world of gender soup (he understands my soup probably better than anyone, cis trans or otherwise, that I've ever met! it felt great!), the different creative projects were working on (he went to college for video game soundtrack composition at a really prestigious school - super talented!), got really excited when we realized we never had any idea one another had bugsonas and excitedly shared art of our respective bug guys... oh and his boyfriend recognized Dr. Habit on my phone lock/background?! it was the first time anyone's ever recognized anything SFM related on me in the wild ! so that was cool!

and on the other hand... my friend (his brother)'s girlfriend who i've been trying to give an honest fair shake in getting to know was there as well. and like, i think surface wise most people look at her and assume she's like, very ... leftist? and I'm sure she thinks she is, too. but every time i talk to her she sneaks in some kinda backhanded comment about women. i get a big internalized misogyny plus Italian familial politics vibe. and i found myself talking to her abt similar topics, because she said to me she's never seen her boyfriends brother so animated before! and i said well this might be my personal experience coloring things, but being out makes a massive difference in someone's ability to just, like, exist happily! and she wasn't sure what i meant by that, so i explained, and she was like "oh, well i guess i don't understand why you're choosing to identify in a neutral or masc leaning way but you dress like a girl?" and i explained that first off, i appreciate not getting it, but the first step is recognizing that there is no one right way to be a man or a woman, and if we accept gender nonconforming behavior from cis people then why don't we accept it from trans people? why do i have to be a caricature of manhood for you to see me as transmasc? and it kind of got through to her but... not entirely, because her line of questioning was a little ... invasive and unkind in a bad faith way (i have a LOT of patience for folks who may "get it wrong" but engage with me in a good faith way). like she was tryna play gotcha or something.

and i suppose the juxtaposition - people who are quietly queer suddenly becoming loudly queer and, as a result, happier, vs. people who are vocally supportive, but only when a person fits their narrative of what a queer person should look or act like... well. it was not lost on me!

and it also reminded me that sometimes, when you get a vibe about a person, you should trust your gut! it's ok to think, yeah, this isn't a nice person, im gonna protect myself! because if i continued engaging with her, the conversation might have gone very poorly. it certainly has in the past. (for example, apparently bee and puppycat was, and i quote, "too woke" for her. she got really mad when i laughed about it and realized with horror that she wasn't kidding). i feel bad for my friend (her boyfriend) for being in the middle of it, sorta. he's a easygoing simple dude who is wildly supportive of his brother and however he chooses to identify, and frankly i don't think he knows a whole lot about this side of his girlfriend because to him, he doesn't really seek out those kinda conversations. not obviously that it's never come up, but yeah. i know him well enough to know he doesn't share those feelings with her, and it's always really shocking to me to hear her express them - but always when he isn't around. so much so that in the past when I've expressed concern about it, he didn't believe me at first! (then other folks started saying the same thing.)

idk. life is cool and weird and i am happy to be a cool and weird little guy.

[theherbalsanctuary]

Hot take on Toxic Positivity in the Witchcraft Community

Rant post. Hopefully some of you can relate. Who knows, maybe "Hot Witch Takes" will become a series.

Sit down. I want you to sit, and reflect on why you chose this spiritual path. Was it for power? Healing? Love? Was it for....revenge? Or simply a deep dive for cosmic knowledge? Whatever the case may be, there is a huge trend that will not seem to die, and that is this god awful "love and light" movement.

Before I go on, yes. Going down the path of energetic workings, and witchcraft, and all that magickal amazing stuff, can be very uplifting! And if you are a depressed human like many of us are these days, then being a practitioner of some sort can bring about a ton of positive vibes and healing. But you know what else is great for healing? Embracing the dark sides of ourselves. And dare I say, only true healing can come from looking inward to the deepest darkest nooks and crannies of our souls.

What I can't stand, is when I go onto a witch page on say, Facebook, and the amount of comments condemning other practitioners for wanting to place a hex, or wanting to work during the dark moon, or even an eclipse, or dive into shadow work, is getting sort of insane. While it has gotten marginally better, rose quartz and some lavender is not going to solve our PTSD Susan. It isn't. You know what will? Crying. Digesting your trauma. Digesting your inner darkness. Learning about why we need the balance between the light AND the dark within ourselves always. Learning to forgive our past mistakes, and come to an understanding that some of those choices came from the sheer need to survive in the situation. There will never be the simple answer to the question "how can I stop feeling like trash?" But I can tell you it certainly isn't masking and compartmentalizing your emotions till you are a stoic smiling puppet touting off "only love and light vibes here!"

This not only puts and undue amount of pressure on other struggling folks to be constantly happy, or else they are failing to be a "true" practitioner. But it also discriminates from a shit ton of other cultures and their respective energetic practices. Magick, and actively working with it, tends to root itself in some form of struggle. Be it to get away from our oppressors, to get more resources like money to feed our kids, or to leave an abusive situation safely. Clearly, to stamp "you need only love and light" on these workings and desires is ridiculous.

This also begs us to consider the Three Fold Rule as well as the whole "do no harm" rule-thing that many practitioners will spout off in the comments as soon as someone wants to defend themselves. While I will not tell anyone what to believe, I will completely squash you down if you dare tell someone else that has clearly thought a spell/hex/curse through, including the potential karmic consequences. Sometimes, an abuser just needs to be put in their place. I mean this next part with utmost sincerity. If you had an abuser, and decided to put some form of hex or curse on them, while also putting up wards and protections for your own safety, you have karmically suffered enough. While I can't guarantee you wouldn't get any energetic repercussions, make peace with knowing that karmically, it is your target's "turn." You have suffered enough. (Not that you were supposed to anyway, hopefully you understand where I am going here.) Certainly, the cosmos don't follow any silly dogma that is "oh my gosh! This person sent bad energies towards this other, let's get back at them exactly three fold."

I want to finish this by saying, IF ANYTHING, the whole love and light thing should only serve as a temporary beginning to a whole self healing and self love life change. To truly love yourself is to be able to pick up all of your pieces, even the painful ones, and accept them for what they are. To be a true healer for others, it is to be able to look in the mirror, acknowledge your dark self, and use it as a tool.

Thanks for reading, take care of yourselves out there.

[itspvg]

1, 31, 41, 43, 48 for the weird asks

Thank you again for the asks! You are the best!

1 who is/are your comfort character(s)? - Eric Draven from The Crow as well as Roland Deschain from the Dark Tower Series.

Eric Darven was always a character I loved because I find myself, if I am allowed to give myself this title. A hopeless romantic at heart. And there's something about the story of loving someone so much to the point where they are taken from you and treated with such malice and contempt. That you can't rest knowing that those who would hurt someone that you loved that much has suffered. While dark, I can't help but love the character and the story. It's dark but to me it speaks to my sense of feeling toward the concept of love in a very primal way.

With Roland Deschain, it's an odd choice. But I find comfort in his character. He's a character that is developed and you travel with across 7+ books. You see him at his formative years. Right through to what the read can only assume hundreds of years later. Stedfast on a trip through the horrors and wastes for revenge. Again a character looking to avenge those he has lost. These span close friends, family and a childhood love. A man that has been so battered and broken by the harsh realities and challenges. To the point when we first find him, he's a single minded husk. A wandering lone gunslinger/knight who has one goal in mind. But along the way, he's forced to look at himself. Accept that the world is a cold harsh place and the safe home in the comfort in others is why he fights for vengence. Given the opportunity to have friends again, to become an unexpected father. He begins to find his humanity again and understand his quest. So that people don't have to feel what he felt, hurt like he's hurt. That evolution in the character I find comfort in from the stand point that it reminds me that how you start doesn't define how you end. And that you can always strive for better.

31 what type of music keeps you grounded? - These days it's hard to say. I feel like the vibe of the music and the emotion I am experiencing can have wildy big effects on me. When I am feeling sad. I need something that connects to that emotion. If I am feeling lost, music themes around the idea of self discovery cna be helpful. Thankfully as time has went on. I listen to more than just Metal and Rock. I still love these genres but sometimes I need the lyrics to speak to me directly. I need to hear the concepts even just lightly touch upon the things I am feeling at the time. There are some good artists in Metal and Rock that can do that. But then these days where it's not the right vibe. I need something with a bit of vibrancy. When I think about it. I think back to what one of my heroes in music, Marty Friedman (form Megadeth Lead Guitarist) said something that really made sense to me. He talked about when deciding the leave the band. He needed to be able to make music that spoke to him. Megadeth was Gunmetal Gray. He wanted to paint with greens, blues, oranges, purples. And that struck a chord with me as I got older. It's not the say the Gumetal gray is bad. But I needed a wider palet. And so I guess with this long winded answer. I am trying to say, what grounds me will be very much what can connect with me depending on the driving force of that emotion.

41 how do you take your coffee? - A simple one to actually answer lol. I am sure you are happy about this... Typically I like a single serving of sugar or sweetner. And lightest splash of milk/cream.

43 what’s your take on spicy foods? - I like spicy foods a lot. They have been something I have been always quite fond of growing up. But I do tend to be of the opinion that spice for the sake of spice alone is stupid. I like flavour and if the spice can emobody an interesting flavour. I love it. But you see these fucking sauce "MEGA NUKE ASS BLASTER SATAN'S TEARS WHILE APPLYING A CHEESE GRATOR TO YOUR BALLZ sauce" can get in the bin. Fucking gimmicks that just ruin a good meal.

48 when did you first try an alcohol beverage? - Oh christ, that's a story lol. First time I think I can remmeber trying a alcoholic beverage was when I got my hands on this 35cl bottle of Jack Daniels. I must of been about 15 maybe? Maybe 14. It's hard to remember... But we all had this moment where one of friends had an empty house, no folks home. So a bunch of us got together and somehow scrapped together money for alcohol. Now of course at this point I am just getting into Rock and Metal and you see all your favourite artists drinking Jack Daniels. It's in their hands in pictures and they are wearing t shirts with the logo. So you are like "Well this is what they drink and I want to be cool like them". So I manage to get this small bottle of Jack. Not understanding the difficulty mode I just decided to start on in the drinking game. I try glugging this down and of course, my small child brain ain't fucking stomaching this shit. So I get some cranberry juice from my mate. Try and mix it and get it down easier. It works. But next thing I know I have slugged the whole fucking bottle. Needless to say I am fucking absolutely Greenhoused, not able to fucking think for myself or stand an hour later. I end up sloshed against a wall at the top of my street barely keeping myself right and eventually puking into my friend's lap. He's never let me live that down, nor should he. I was an idiot....

Again I apologise for the massive answers. I dunno, I guess I am just wordy tonight but I hope that is ok and you don't hate me too much for just giving you war and peace... Again really enjoyed doing these and would encourage anyone curious to send more in!

[outivv]

hii, may i req zhongli, kaeya, diluc and childe with reader or s/o who's carefree and childlike? like, they're easily amused, literally has a good sense of humour and laughs at anything

you may reduce some character but since i have a dilemma kaeya and zhongli, please let these two stay ◕ ‿ ◕ °

but, the thing is — if you feel like accepting this request then please follow these rules :

don't push yourself

don't write at 3am, get (?) sleep as many as possible

stay hydrated 💧

stay hydrated ⛲

stay hydrated 🌊

water is important for humans' body ✍

if you follow these rules then have a strawberry as a reward,

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if you don't then i have the every rights to take it back

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have a nice day/night!

Synopsis: childlike, and excited s/o

Warnings: not proofread

Game/ fandom: genshin impact

Characters: zhongli, kaeya, and Diluc

Pronouns for reader: gender neutral/ not mentioned

A/n: hello hello! That’s a long list of rules but I’m 90% sure I followed them all >:D! I haven’t answered a request in a while, and I do apologize it took so long to get to this one, but I really enjoyed writing this! Hope you enjoy, and stay hydrated yourself >:O!

— zhongli —

I think he enjoys your eagerness, and overall joy that you bring to his life. He really enjoys having you around, even before he realized he had feelings for you.

Zhongli doesn’t laugh often, but when he does it’s because of you. He always laughs with you, and it’s always a genuine and hearty laugh. It’s somewhat amusing how you can make the man who always seems so stone faced, let out the biggest and most genuine laugh you’ve ever heard.

He lovessss when you ask him something with genuine enthusiasm and curiosity. He gets to talk for a while (zhongli is truly someone who likes the sound of his own voice), and you get to learn something new. It’s a win-win!

He can get a little nervous with how carefree you are. Zhongli is very logical, and down to earth, so he sometimes doesn’t understand just how you can be so carefree? He admires it, but will occasionally have to be the voice of reason :’)

— Kaeya —

You both probably piss people off. Cause on one hand, you have the carefree sweetheart, and on the other you have the smug and secretly rather logical bastard.

The like… energy you both bring with you is so… astonishing???? Like kaeya by himself already brings a rather interesting vibe with him, but you two together??? The room will be rolling on the floor laughing, and having the best time hanging out with you both.

Kaeya really likes teasing you, I mean he would like teasing you regardless of your characteristics, but now??? You’re so eager, and then quickly turn bashful just by kaeya teasing you. It’s hilarious to him.

— Diluc —

Dawn winery will never be the same without you there. You really bring the kind of energy that dawn winery was missing, and Diluc can never go back to the way it was before you. You once left for a trip to sumeru to visit some friends who are currently studying at the Academia. Diluc was like a sad dog waiting for their owner to come home from work. He quite literally, cannot live without you.

You seem so interested in everything, and ask him a fair amount of questions about the wine making business. Which he thinks is nice but- OUT OF EVERYTHING YOU COUKD ASK HIM YOU ASK HIM ABOUT WINE :’)

Probably asks you to go to angels share when he has to work with him a lot. Not you also working, but you sitting at the bar, just talking with him. It really does make his shift sooooo much better. And people like kaeya or venti a little more tolerable.

[assassyart]

I view Bakugou as the type to never seek out a relationship. You couldn't catch him on an online dating site even with a gun held to his head. He's very focused on his goals and never spares a moment to think about his love life and I think he's actually okay with the idea of dying alone without an S/O; overall he thinks it's a big waste of time when he has all he needs (platonic friends). To change his mind that person has to be stubborn and patient. How do you get through to a workaholic with thoughts only of being the best?

This isn't to say he wouldn't be the first to confess, he definitely would be in certain relationships.

If he ever did find someone that he'd be in a relationship with, he'd transfer his "be the best" mentality to the relationship, too. Being the best boyfriend would be extremely important to him and he'd take it very seriously. However, at least in the way I perceive him, I think the moments in the relationship that he'd genuinely enjoy the most are the small gestures.

His partner holding his hand when they notice he's tense. Hugging without a word when either have had a bad day. Being the person's shoulder for them to fall asleep on if it was a long evening. Cooking together, the person waking him up with his favorite food so he won't be cranky. Catching the person in the rain when he passes out from exhaustion. Stuff like that means a lot to him. He likes actions, because words are easy but backing up those words is a hell of a lot harder.

For example, Bakugou would view hand holding, with Deku especially, as the biggest gesture of love and acceptance. Their relationship is built on hand holding and it has several layers to it. The first instance of Deku reaching out to him was because Deku could acknowledge that Bakugou was human, not invincible, and might need aid no matter how sugoi he is. At his core, holding hands would mean he feels safe with Deku the person and is finally okay with admitting that he needs him for support. These two just have to share a look and they already know what the other is thinking. There isn't anyone else that he chooses to be truly vulnerable with besides Deku.

While with Todoroki, the most loving gesture either could do is try to make the other laugh. Making jokes, understanding boundaries, and being each other's comfort during hard times is a big thing with these two. While I don't think Bakugou would voice his feelings often, Todoroki has been around him long enough to be able to sense the vibe that something is off. Now, he might be dead wrong sometimes, but it's the thought that counts. Bakugou has actively tried to make sure he never breaks the trust that he has with Todoroki, because he knew a secret most people didn't know that is very personal. And he succeeded because he's damn good at keeping a secret which accidentally means he's damn good at being one of the people Todoroki trusts.

And that's the bottom line. Getting Bakugou Katsuki to admit he can lean on and trust his partner as they trust him is how you know you've got a good match for him.

Ik a common HC typically characterizes him as a f-boy, but canonically, he couldn't be any further from the sort. He's all about viewing and judging people based on their actions and acting accordingly, and he's far too focused on his goals to date around.

[i-need-air]

Hybrid!AU Wolf!Bakugou Katsuki HCs Part 2.

Summary: Part 2 is here! While in part 1 it was mostly adoption and how he'd behave with you as a roommate, part two is him ✨ realizing things ✨ followed by how he'd be in a romantic relationship.

Word Count: 2k words [ oops, I did it again ]

Notes: So I said it'll be out in a few days but three [3] people asked me for part 2 and I'm a sucker soooooooo!! I could've just written a long ass fic but whatever, I thought I'd make it shorter in headcanons... hah lol right. Enjoy!

Part 1 here!

× he's a wild wolf so he's very active; like you need to understand he needs to go outside if not he'd get impatient, more aggressive, snappy, so once you took him on an easy hiking trail near your house and he loved it so once or twice a month you both go together to different places [ he demands it ]

× it's hard to keep up with him bc he's literally genetically engineered to be better than any very fit human being but he slows down for you

× morning runs at 5 a.m. bc he's insane

× is also a grandpa

× watched all documentaries on any streaming platform you could provide to him, also loves reading

× as months pass and you start to have your routine in order, word comes to you that an acquaintance is looking for a security guard at his mechanical shop two streets away from your house

× you casually mentioned it to Bakugou because he was starting to act anxious whenever you'd leave the house, so you assumed he was extra bored

× seriously, the house was spotlessly cleaned, he cooked amazingly and was occupied with your old laptop and going around the city to explore, but you guessed he wanted more independence?

× little did you know you were right but so wrong lol

× so Bakugou stared at you intensely and asked "Where?"

× it was as easy as telling him the location, him nodding and you thought he'd consider it; you didn't put any pressure on him because he already did so much to help around anyway

× well guess what bitch, next day he comes up to you saying you gotta co-sign his contract [cuz fuck society] meaning he got the job

× he was perfect for it because tall, intimidating, muscular wolf guy? who'd even mess with him? do they have a death wish?

× well, even before this he started to be... soft

× but once you really did show him you support whatever he wants to do, you give him his freedom and liberty of choice, he just reaaally changes, man

× he gets touchy, like his hands stay one second longer on your skin, he uses any excuse to have them on you, even his eyes follow you everywhere

× like c'mon, it's obvious but you didn't wanna put too much thought into it because we're respectful here

× not like you had a big fat crush on him and slowly started to realize it too

× sike bitch he knows

× you think his super-hearing didn't catch the way your heartbeat spikes up every single time he touches you? *please*

× i think he knows before you know

× meanwhile he is working to discover his feelings too

× so your relationship slowly turns into a couple's like relationship but without anything official and of course no kissing or such [ sadly ]

× would get jealous easily

× basically because nothing is talked between you two and deep down is insecure

× why the hell do you smell like other people? was it just a hug or something else? hell, why would you even hug people when he's right there??? just ask and don't touch some extras????

× another thing he does is getting very close to you while you talk to somebody else; scoffs and glares at them too

× ok so!! gifts! he really appreciates any gift you give him but scolds you if you do because you genuinely don't need to do that

× of course he just scolds you and calls you an idiot so I do hope you already learned his language

× it basically means that you shouldn't have done it, he's really grateful but seriously you shouldn't have

× like that one time you saved up money to get him a good computer and he forgot how to speak for like an hour

× the softest thank you ever afterwards

× still sounded rough but he was shocked as fuck

× one thing that remained in your brain were his friends, as sometimes he'd mention them

× so you took it upon yourself to find them, of course with his permission

× gets genuinely overwhelmed and plays it off saying he wouldn't mind knowing where those idiots ended but you didn't miss the way his voice trembled

× for you to find them you needed names and any information he could provide so that's when he, after a long silence and a mesmerized look on his face, started really talking about his life

× which was fucked; won't get much into detail but he was indeed in a fighting ring, people came and bet on whoever was stronger, he even had to fight his friends, everything was filled with abuse and their conditions were subhuman...

× just overall awful

× you couldn't help but hug him tight, feeling him shake in your arms

× with a hesitant voice he asked if you really did think there was a chance to find them

× just couldn't believe how amazing he felt in your arms

× or how your determination that night made his heart clench and took a big weight off his shoulders

× anywho;;;; after his first paycheck he takes you out on cute dates

× never calls them that, just demands you dress up [helps you out cuz boy got style] and takes you to a nice coffee shop or something

× AND on your fifth not date cuz you're not official but there's this weird tension between you date he finally kinda s n a p s

× you honestly didn't expect the waiter to flirt with you, he came out as very pushy and even if you were a lil uncomfortable you smiled and brushed it off

× when the waiter suggested giving you his number the sandy blond hybrid growled

× which i shit you not made the whole coffee shop freeze

× and you froze too

× but neither of you could say anything because the oblivious fuck kept talking

× basically joking about how you should keep your pet in a leash, to which you got up, threw some money on the table, grabbed Bakugou by the hand and leave before he'd rip someone's head off

× it only took you to touch Bakugou's arm to calm him down as he followed behind you wordlessly

× so you stood outside, angry, deep red eyes on your figure

× and silence

× his hand still in yours

× it was warm and amazing and you felt angry but your heart was beating loudly; angry at the waiter that you wanted to go full Karen on and get fired but excited because that growl shook you to the core, as if you could tell it was territorial and it was because of that pig flirting with you and did Bakugou Katsuki just lace his fingers with you?!

× "Oi." he interrupted your thoughts

× he turned your frame towards him and pulled you [kinda harshly] into him

× you'd make a comment about it but brain empty, just Bakugou Katsuki blushing

× "You're mine, you get it?"

× skdjflglykshs

× it sounded like he asked but it was a demand so oops you're his now ok bye

× like I said, boy isn't dumb so he lowkey knew you felt something too

× legit from there on he's just soft as fuck

× has a hard time opening up but visibly tries for you

× still continues to be a pain in the ass, Bakugou Style, but with a loving teasing attitude behind it

× his eyes give him away all the time

× they shine whenever you're in his field of view so congrats because, and this is the best part:

× WOLVES MATE FOREVER 💕💓💞💗💝💟

× oh yeah, he's yours, no takebacks

× he isn't one to half-ass the relationship; you're his now and he'll do anything for you

× big time touch starved it hurts

× because he is shy

× so whenever you introduce him to hand holding and cuddles, he can't get enough

× not big on PDA [ and not recommended since human-hybrid relationships are kiiiinda frowned upon but it's getting better ]

× although at home it's another deal

× seriously cuddle him; he's big into the protector vibe so he's a big spoon almost exclusively unless it's to sleep on top of you

× speaking of! accept that even if your relationship isn't that intimate, he'd still hint about sleeping together in the same bed

× so you better catch on when he does because he'll just click his tongue and call you needy

× while dragging you to bed

× sleeps holding you, his nose in your hair or in the crook of your neck

× unless it's summer then stay on your side 💅

× you know those kisses that just scream "I can't get enough of you"? that's his whole kissing vibe in a sentence

× hell, even the gentlest kiss gives that vibe away and it'll 100% leave you breathless

× doesn't have experience but is a very fast learner

× pays very close attention to your body language

× really into biting your skin enough to leave marks

× wear his hoodies

× no, I'm fucking serious, wear them now

× his chest puffs and he turns into a blushing mess when you do it the first times because his scent is on you

× scenting is a big thing for him so of course he's gonna love it

× 10x more territorial because now he has a mate to protect

× jealous but trusts you

× still very jealous though

× let's all pretend he is definitely not scenting you before you go out because it's in his nature and it is embarrassing

× the first time he tells you he loves you it's when he's feeling vulnerable

× the search for his friends is still on-going, he feels less than adequate as a providing mate, is pissed at the world for treating him like an inferior animal when they created him, everything is piled on his shoulders and whenever than happens he closes off

× you notice immediately

× will not tell you at first

× it's only when you go to bed and he turns his back to you when you really know it's bad

× even if you fought before, he'd angrily snuggle you at night-time

× now it's so different

× hug him, whisper sweet nothings in his ear, pull a blanket all over you both and big spoon him, he'd start shaking and talking in no time

× will hide his tears from you but you'd know

× "You're the best fucking thing that happened to me, [Y/N]... I—... Shit... I love you so much."

× neither of you slept that night

× excuse you? drink some water and pray to jesus;;; you talked about feelings, ok? communication is key in a relationship, puh-lease

× [ i have this whole nsfw hcs post already cookin in my brain so maybe I'll make it happen cuz y'all know he has a mating season and all that comes with it 👀 ]

× back to being children of jesus here

× thanks the moon, the heavens and all the gods for putting you in his life; boy didn't believe in destiny but deep down he thinks you were meant to be

× you still better wash the dishes or you'll get your ass kicked.

Extra:

× you did find some of his friends, little by little, and even if he acted nonchalant, like k das cool, it was obvious he was extremely happy

× so they did get adopted too

× you got in contact with them on social media and they were all very excited about meeting

× so it was a chaotic meeting with a dog hybrid called Kirishima and a mouse like vibrat yellow guy called Kaminari

× they all were looking for Bakugou too since they were very worried about where he ended

× Kirishima shed manly tears when seeing Bakugou

× as they instantly welcomed you in their small group, they informed you both that the majority of the squad was adopted and they're in contact, while they're still actively looking for the others

× cue to the softest expression you've seen on Bakugou in public followed by "That's good"

× silence

× shock and silence

× Kaminari turning to you and whispering "You did this" with a hand on his heart, lips trembling as he wiped an imaginary tear

× insert instantly snappy Bakugou

× when everyone laughed and continued to make plans to meet up with the others, he just looked at you conversing with them, soft expression again on his features and his chest warming

× "Oh! Look, he's doing it again! Quick, take a pictur—"

× "SHINE!"

[twopoppies]

alright currently on the train writing this through my tears but oh my god gina it was honestly surreal

i was near the back and there were loads of tall people (my 5ft1 ass could NEVER) so i couldn't see super well but istg i didn't even need to

the energy, the sound, the people all around us, i was just completely enveloped into this atmosphere of just... love, and acceptance, and understanding. not to be a larrie but it just felt like coming home. there were a few moments were i just closed my eyes and just focused on like feeling everyone, all the happiness, the music, i just let myself enjoy it with something other than my eyes and it was absolutely magical.

JHO was pretty special to me too, cause it's the song that quite literally saved me, stopped me multiple times from just ending it when things got tough, and hearing him sing just felt like it was all worth it and that i could do anything. he makes me feel invincible.

everyone screamed all three "LARRY"s during 7, the princess park line legitimately shook the entire venue and everyone around me screamed it at the top of their lungs, the U R OUR BECAUSE project went down perfectly and he looked so happy seeing us hold the signs, the amount of rainbows and rainbow lights during OTB just made me bawl it was so good, and THE LIGHTS DURING TWO YOUNG. the videos do not do it justice, he looks like an actual angel standing in front of the doors of heaven singing us in, it was something of a religious experience tbh.

now onto my het hours cause we need those sometimes.

the 7 high note and SECond to MAself absolutely killed me omg he's so hot it's like sorry h but PLEASE RAIL ME. matt? sir you are so fucking fine just say the word and i'm on my knees. michael? i don't know whether i should tell you to keep doing your riffs or to stop cause but either way if you need a dog i can bark. isaac? ✨isaac✨ i have no words. steve? we need more big screen videos of steve smiling along while he plays the drums and looking surprised every time we sing. tommy from otp? sir, may have your hand in marriage please? your vibes are absolutely immaculate

speaking of otp, they were so good!! they really know how to warm up a crowd, there was also a project for every song i ever wrote (which was honestly amazing) and i just had so much fun. we were jumping around all the time, singing, dancing, yelling, then crying a little at ceasefire but oh well, it's still amazing

now for the little things i noticed cause my anxiety made me hyperaware of everything so i tried to direct that to the stage, lights, and louis, instead of the people around me.

otp had very clear blue and green lights for about half of the second song, to the point where i was cautiously suspicious cause it didn't seem to fit the vibe of their poster. then whenever the lights went down to announce a new song there were lights in the back that i think flashed blue and green, but it could also have just been a sort of turquoise almost, not completely sure due to the distance so take with a grain of salt. he was also very happy when we screamed the princess park line so keep it up!!

paramedics came through the crowd a good couple times, and we had to stop the show once when he started fearless for the first time cause someone passed out (which, like, i feel bad for this, but het hours part 2 when he said "stop the show" and everyone legitimately stopped everything...i get why he's the dom, i get it) but we got back pretty soon

i met some awesome people, they were just so nice!! and everyone was pretty kind, signaled immediately when someone went down, and were pretty diligent about passing around water and making sure people around, strangers or not, were alright. so i'm pretty proud of us for that ngl.

i also got louis grey and green world tour hoodie cause it looked extremely comfortable and i figured yk why not, this might be the only time i get to go, you never know what's gonna happen, so might as well get something to make me happy (it did, it made me very happy, it's extremely warm and comfortable even if it was 70 fucking francs. worth it.) the cool thing (and by cool i mean panic) was that while standing in front of the barriers in front of the merch store, and pretty girl got all up on my back like pressed against me all proper and just went "sorry, hope i'm not bothering you, there's just loads of people trying to push me"

sweetheart you can push into me any day any time oh my god that felt like the start of my fanfic love story

(it wasn't, i just said "don't worry, you can stay as close as you want", enjoyed ten minutes of uninterrupted cuddle time with you i've now dubbed The Gay That Got Away, and then regretfully left cause i was late to catch the next train)

so all in all, it was an amazing experience that i hope everyone gets the chance to enjoy at least once in their life, i made a ton of friends, managed not to have an anxiety attack (at least so far, but i'm feeling pretty good about everything) and i no longer have a voice, pretty much constant bi panic throughout everything but i'm not even mad about it. it was awesome. 10/10 would do again

(also peep my larry red string of fate concert shirt cause it got a decent amount of attention and i'm very proud of it)

hahahha! This is lovely. Thank you so much for sharing you show with us! I love the t-shirt. Sounds like a great time.

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Hi! I hope I wasn't bothering you or anything, but, is it OK if you write about the Proxies ideal S/O types? (Maybe use MBTI a little bit, if you want to?). Also wanted to let you know that you are absolutely amazing! 💗💗💗.

Hi love bug, you are never bothering me, don't worry!

Proxies Ideal SO Types: MBTI and General Profiles

So, let me just preface this by saying that I think literally anyone can be compatible, there's just varying levels of that compatibility - meaning, the work you put into your relationship will vary depending on your compatibility.

None of them have any types, is what I tend to feel.

BUT if I had to put MBTI and basic profiles that I think the proxies would look for in SOs, here's what I think that would look like if it was written right down.

Masky

MBTI types: Have to give it to the INFJs, INFPs, ISFJs, and ESFJs.

They're mostly introverts because I think Masky is a really big introvert. I think he gets along best with people who are similar to him, but not so similar? Masky has a really hard time taking care of himself and all of these MBTI types feel like the kind who would take care of him? Y'know, I'm also of the belief that Masky and these types would click pretty quickly.

When he's not fronting as Masky, that is. If he's like, Masky-Masky gl that man is a MESS. But Tim? Tim gets along with these MBTI types really, really well.

Hoodie

MBTI types: ISFPs, ESFJs, INTJs, INFJs, ENTPs and INTPs.

I feel like Brian is an extrovert, Hoodie is an introvert. He can get along well with either though! He likes people who can he can just exist with. People who make the days a little better and brighter. He loves going out and doing things. Doesn't always have to be high energy, just wants to be with someone he can vibe with.

When he's not fronting as Hoodie, I feel these MBTIs would go just wonderfully with him.

Toby

MBTI types: ESFPs, ESTJs, ENFJs, ESTPs, ENTPs.

Lots and lots of extroverts! I think that Toby is an ambivert! His energy goes everywhere and I think someone that has a very extroverted personality would bring him out of his quiet, sometimes stuck to himself personality. He can get lost in his head like there's no tomorrow, so someone that can pull him from his head and let him smile. Someone with good energy, you know, that kind of stuff.

Just be good to Toby, please. Understand him. Accept him.

Kate the Chaser

MBTI types: ENTJs, INFJs, ESTJs, ISTPs, ISFPs and ISFJs.

Kate is kinda tricky in my eyes because I think she's kinda just simultaneously accepting of everyone and really, really picky. She's an ambivert as well, and mostly vibes with introverts. She likes people who can just stay at her side and not need to say anything to have a fun time. She does like extroverts to help get her out of her shell every now and then! Kate actually likes high energy, she's just,,,, she's sleepy. Y'know?

Be gentle with her omfg.