#and I'm pretty sure that I missed a lot of them

[lustlvii]

Ateez members when you squirt. Ft hyung line

Including: Hongjoong , Seonghwa, Yunho, Yeosang x fem!reader (all separate!)

Warnings: studio sex (hongjoong) dirty talk, squirting, name calling (slut, dumb little thing), mean! seonghwa, porn no plot, overstimulation, possessive! yeosang, unprotected sex, choking (yunho), size kink (yunho), Daddy kink (Yunho), dirty dirty dirty just dirty so prepare yourself, lmk if I missed anything

Authors note: I'm so happy the maknae line received lots of love 😚 here's the hyungs!!! I love yunho btw 😋

Hongjoong.

“Don’t move.” His voice cut sharp through the low hum of the studio monitors, barely audible over the looping instrumental still playing in the background.

You were supposed to be here for feedback on a demo. Just to sit pretty in his lap while he worked. But then he slipped his hand between your legs during playback—just to “check something.”

And now you were panting, lips bitten raw, clinging to the armrests of his black studio chair like they were the only things keeping you tethered to earth.

Hongjoong’s fingers were coated in your slick, his knuckles deep inside you while the pad of his thumb rubbed quick, unforgiving circles over your clit.

“Look at you,” he murmured into your neck, voice low and dangerous. “So fuckin’ wet in my chair. Acting like you didn’t wear that skirt just so I’d do this.”

“Joong—p-please—” you whimpered, voice cracking, not even sure what you were begging for. To stop? To keep going? You didn’t even know anymore.

“You feel that?” he whispered as he crooked his fingers just right, curling them up against that spongey spot inside you that made your legs kick. “You’re close, aren’t you? So fucking close.”

Your hips bucked. The coil in your belly was snapping tighter and tighter and—

“Oh my god—!”

In a split second, his hand slapped over your mouth, muffling your cry as a gush of wetness spilled out of you, soaking the front of his sweats, the leather of his chair, and dripping down your thighs.

You squirted.

All over him.

Hongjoong stilled. His fingers still nestled deep inside your pulsing heat, the other hand still clamped over your mouth. His breath was shallow. And then he laughed.

“Holy shit.”

You squirmed, blinking hard, barely able to see through the tears blurring your vision. “I-I didn’t mean to—I’m sorry I—”

“Don’t apologize.” He pulled his soaked hand back slowly, glistening in the dim LED light, watching your cunt twitch around nothing now. “Fuck. That was beautiful.”

You flinched when he leaned down and licked the mess off his own fingers, groaning like he’d just tasted the best meal of his life.

“You made a mess, baby,” he mocked sweetly, palming the soaked fabric of your panties now stuck to your skin. “Didn’t think I could make you squirt, huh?”

You shook your head, cheeks burning.

Hongjoong gripped your chin, forced you to meet his gaze—intense and hungry, his pupils blown wide with lust. “You’re gonna do it again,” he said simply, like it was fact. Like you owed him that.

“W-what? I—I can’t—”

“You can.”

He dragged you off his lap, bent you over the mixing console, careful not to press any buttons—though at this point, you wouldn’t have noticed if the whole song deleted itself.

“Gonna fuck you now,” he growled, freeing himself and shoving back into your soaked, trembling hole. “And this time, you’re gonna squirt on my cock like a good little slut.”

The music kept playing. The beat rolled on. But all you could hear was the slap of skin, the lewd squelch of your wetness, and Hongjoong’s filthy voice in your ear:

“That’s it, baby. Dumb little thing. Cumming again already? God—you really are mine.”

And you did. Again. And again. Until you couldn’t even cry anymore, only whimper and shake and thank him with slurred babbles.

The studio was ruined.

He didn’t care. He kissed the crown of your head and whispered with a devilish smirk:

“Let’s get that on the next track.”

Seonghwa.

Seonghwa was so pretty when he was gentle. The soft-spoken voice, the feather-light kisses, the way he tucked your hair behind your ear like you were glass.

But that wasn’t the version of him hovering over you now.

His hands were planted beside your head, and his hips were deep—so deep inside you, your belly ached. Sweat glistened down his neck, damp strands of hair stuck to his forehead. And his dark eyes… they weren’t soft anymore.

“Thought you said you could handle it, princess.” He thrust in once, slow but devastatingly deep. “So why are you crying?”

“I-I’m not—ah! Hwa—!”

Your voice pitched up into a sob as the next thrust knocked the breath from your lungs. You could feel yourself getting wetter, feel your thighs trembling and twitching as he pulled back and slammed into you again.

“Liar.”

He dipped his head low, kissing the tears from your cheeks while his cock bullied your walls open all over again.

“You said you could take it.” A hand slid under your leg and pushed your knee up to your chest. “You begged for it, remember?”

You nodded weakly, fingers gripping the sheets, eyes rolling back.

His pace was cruel now. Calculated. Your slick coated his lower stomach, smearing against his skin with every thrust.

“God, this pussy’s filthy. You’re fucking dripping,” he hissed. “Look at you. You're making a mess on me.”

“H-Hwa—please, it’s too much—!”

“Too much?” he echoed, mocking, as his thumb found your clit and started circling fast, relentless strokes. “This too much? Or this?” He pressed harder.

That’s when it happened—your entire body seized up and then released.

Warm liquid gushed out from you, soaking his thighs, your own skin, the sheets. You squirted so violently it splashed his hips.

Seonghwa didn’t stop. Not even close.

He growled low in his throat and pulled out for a second just to watch it. Watched your cunt pulse and gush and spasm like you were ruined from the inside out.

“Holy fuck,” he whispered, voice husky and hoarse. “You squirted for me.”

You could barely breathe. “I—didn’t mean—”

“Yes you did,” he cut in. “You wanted to. Your body begged for it. Don’t pretend you’re not a little slut for it now.”

You whimpered, biting your knuckles.

Seonghwa climbed back between your legs, cock still hard, dragging it up and down your soaked slit. He didn’t slide in yet—just rubbed his tip against your clit, teasing, tapping. Watching you squirm.

“Wanna do it again.”

“I—I can’t,” you breathed out, voice hoarse from moaning.

“You can. You will.” He finally pushed back inside—too slow, too deep—and your eyes immediately crossed.

“There’s my girl,” he purred, kissing your jaw, then nipping it. “Gonna fill you up this time, make you squirt while I cum in you. Don’t stop till you do.”

And he fucked you through it, again and again, until the only words you could say were half-spoken sobs and the sound of your own squirt hitting the ruined sheets.

Yunho.

“Holy shit.”

Yunho froze for a half-second, blinking down at where you lay trembling beneath him—your thighs shaking, your pussy gushing.

Clear liquid sprayed from between your legs, soaking his stomach, his cock, and the sheets beneath you both.

He stared, wide-eyed, lips parted. Then his expression twisted.

Into a grin.

“Did you just fucking squirt?”

You let out a choked sob, covering your face with your hands in pure embarrassment.

“D-Don’t—Yunho—”

“Oh no, no,” he laughed darkly, reaching up to yank your wrists away and pin them to the bed. “You don’t get to hide from me now, princess.”

His cock was still buried inside you, twitching, hot and hard and pressing deliciously against the spot that had just made you lose control.

“You squirted all over me, baby. That’s what this pretty little cunt does when it gets really full, huh?”

You couldn’t even talk. Just moaned, legs weak, cunt still fluttering from the orgasm that wrecked you.

“Was it too much?” he cooed mockingly, thrusting his hips once—slow, just to feel you twitch again. “Can’t handle it?”

You shook your head. “C-Can… but—”

“But what?” he leaned closer, lips brushing your ear. “Wanna do it again?”

Your moan gave you away.

He groaned, like he was the one about to fall apart.

“Fucking knew it,” he growled. “Knew this pussy would be obsessed with me. Can’t even stop leaking.”

With your legs still spread open and held wide, Yunho started to move again. More deliberate this time—less punishing, more controlled. Watching you the whole time like a man obsessed.

And when your thighs twitched again—when your moans pitched up, when your hips tried to wiggle away from the pressure—

He sped up.

“Don’t you fucking dare run from it,” he hissed. “Wanna see it again. Wanna feel you gush around my cock, baby.”

“I can’t—! S’too much—”

“You can. You’re gonna squirt for me again, just like the messy little thing you are.”

Your toes curled. Eyes rolled. The pressure hit you even harder than the first time—like a dam about to break.

And then—

“F-Fuck—Yunho—!”

It happened. Again.

Your second squirt hit his thighs, his cock, your belly, everything.

Yunho’s laugh was breathless, wrecked. He kept fucking you through it, holding your legs in place, watching you fall apart with complete awe and total pride.

“That’s my girl. That’s my dumb, messy girl.”

You were crying by the time your third orgasm hit.

And he didn’t stop. Not even close.

“Not done ‘til you’ve soaked the whole fucking bed.”

Yeosang.

You had always assumed Yeosang would be soft.

Gentle. Polite. Almost shy.

But now you were underneath him—spread open, legs over his shoulders, dress bunched around your waist, his cock buried inside you—completely wrecked and shaking.

And Yeosang?

Yeosang hadn’t said a word.

Not one.

Just stared down at you with that unreadable, infuriatingly calm look on his face while he fucked you slowly—so deep, so controlled, so consistent it was driving you insane.

Your fingers twisted in the sheets. “Y-Yeo—can’t—”

His hand came up to your throat—gently, but firm enough to make your next gasp catch—and his hips rolled again.

Right into that spot.

Right into that place he kept hitting again and again and again.

“You can,” he finally said, voice quiet but sharp. “You can take it, baby.”

You whined, vision blurring. “M’gonna—f-feels—”

Yeosang looked down between your bodies, his brows twitching ever so slightly when he saw it.

The wet.

The way your pussy clenched hard around him and started gushing—clear liquid spraying with each helpless jolt of your hips.

You squirted.

You didn’t mean to. Didn’t expect to. But it happened.

“Oh.” His voice dipped lower. Still calm. Still steady. But different.

“You’re squirting?” he murmured, more to himself than you. “That’s how good it feels?”

You covered your face. “I-I—Yeosang—”

He reached down and pulled your hands away, grabbing both wrists and pinning them above your head.

“Don’t hide,” he said, and this time there was a flicker of something smug in his eyes. “Let me see what I did to you.”

You shuddered.

And then he did it again.

Same angle. Same roll. Same deep thrust right against the spot that made your body jerk.

You squirted again.

“Mm.” He tilted his head, blinking slowly. “So messy. What a cute little thing you are.”

“Yeo—Yeosang—too much—!”

“Then cum again.”

That deadpan. That almost disinterested tone as he kept pounding into your soaked cunt, no change in pace, no hesitation, just quiet confidence as he made you come again—

—and squirt again.

The sheets were soaked. Your thighs were shaking. You were gasping, clawing, babbling.

And Yeosang was still looking at you like you were his favorite fucking experiment.

“Didn’t know you could do that,” he murmured, licking his lips. “Guess I’ll have to keep making it happen. Over and over. Until you can't even blink without dripping all over me.”

Writing by @lustlvii please do not translate or publish anywhere

[ladykailitha]

The Dragon Slayer Part 3

Boom, baby! We are back!! This is my new schedule for fics here! Be sure to check it out so you don't miss your favorites!

I would just go back and reread both chapters starting here. I cringe to think how long it's been. But I think I have where I'm going with it sorted out and hopefully I won't hit another road block.

Part 1 Part 2

Cliffhanger warning? That's more likely than you think. ;)

~

Steffan loved to sit on the rock outcropping near the entrance of the cave and watch Edgewraith fly around the mountain as he got ready to land. He thought he was the most beautiful dragon he had ever seen. And he had seen a lot. Killed a fair portion, that was true, but only the ones that people were genuinely frightened of.

Because there was a major difference between singing the dragon’s praises because it was well-beloved and singing its praises lest it be near and eat them.

Edgewraith landed deftly a hundred feet from where Steffan was sitting, buffeting him with wind from his wings. Steffan huffed as he struggled to get his hair back in place.

“You are a vain man, Sir Steffan,” Edgewraith growled, the fire and ash kept to a minimum as to not burn the grass around the entrance. “Always fussing with your hair or your clothes.”

Steffan laughed. “Got to look pretty for the beautiful creature who rescued me from a life of starvation and ennui.”

If dragons could blush, he was sure his friend would have been. Edgewraith ducked his head and turned away.

“Flattery will get you everywhere with me,” he huffed, smoke coming from his nostrils.

“Oh?” Steffan teased. “Everywhere you say? Duly noted.” He hopped off his rock and trotted up to him. “Does that include touching you?”

Edgewraith’s eyes went wide. “You’d want to touch me? Not hurt me or harm me, just to touch?”

“Very much so,” Steffan murmured, getting as close as he could to him.

Edgewraith lowered his head placed it within arms reach. Steffan reached out and touched the snout just above the nostrils. He huffed out a short, giddy laugh.

“You’re so warm,” he breathed. “I can feel you.”

Edgewraith ducked his head again, away from Steffan’s touch. “You’re very warm, too.”

Steffan gently took his head and face it around again. Then he pressed their foreheads together, cradling the dragon’s chin.

Edgewraith began to make a sound like a low rumble before an avalanche. Steffan raised his head in delight.

“Are–are you purring?”

Edgewraith jerked his head up in surprise. “No! Of course not! Dragons don’t purr. Despite what people think, we’re not catlike, cats are dragonlike. Thank you very much.”

Steffan burst out laughing. “Well, I thought it was a lovely sound. I hope to hear it soon.”

The dragon pulled up his tail in front of his face and then deftly slipped around him to dive into the cave.

~

Steffan followed his friend into the cave and saw him curled up around the stove.

Pouting.

He went up to Edgewraith and pet his snout. “I didn’t mean to embarrass you. It was a sweet sound and I was sincere about wanting to hear it again.”

Edgewraith lifted his head and huffed steam out of his nose. “I have never made that noise my whole life and you wander in and suddenly I purring.”

“And how long has that been?” Steffan said with a chuckle, leaning his face away from the fog.

“I am over a thousand years old,” Edgewraith groused. “But then, humans have never gotten this close before and certainly not as willing as you appear to be.”

“Consider me very willing indeed.” Steffan’s voice dropped low and soft. “I adore you.”

“Are you sure it’s not Edwin you adore?” Edgewraith grumbled and Steffan was forced to step back as flames and brimstone slid out of his mouth. Steffan was pretty fire proof, but it was not something he actually wanted to test that close to dragon’s fire.

“Do you think me that naive, dear friend?” Steffan asked tenderly. “I’ve known for awhile that the two of you were one. I was waiting for you to trust me enough to tell me the truth.”

Edgewraith hiccuped and landed on the floor hard as Edwin. He looked up at Steffan in awe.

“Oh!”

Steffan held out his hand to Edwin and he took it. He helped him to his feet and suddenly they were nose to nose. A dark dusky rose blossomed on Edwin’s cheeks, but he couldn’t hide as Steffan had both of his hands.

Steffan let go of one hand to brush Edwin’s hair out his face. “Now I know why you spent your evening hours as a dragon. You blush so beautifully in the dark gleam of the torch light.”

If Edwin could have blushed harder, he would have. Instead he did the only thing he could think of, he kissed the former knight right on the lips. He pulled him close as their bodies would allow.

Steffan could feel a warmth between them an almost glow. He felt like it would consume him. He almost wished it would. How wonderful it would have been to go out in the flame of his beloved. But alas, and also not, Edwin broke off the kiss and panting, pressed their foreheads together.

“I never thought that I would ever fall in love with a human,” Edwin murmured. “But Steffan, I do. I love you so much. I fear your death would be the end of me.”

Steffan cradled Edwin’s face in his hands and then kissed him tenderly. “Then for however long I have, we will be as one.”

Edwin huffed out a watery little laugh. “Such optimism. Humans have it in such spades. I adore it. Yes, Steffan for as long as you have, we are one.”

Steffan surged forward and roamed his hands all over him, trying to get as close as possible. Edwin pushed him back gently. “There is one thing that we cannot do, as it would be very harmful to you.”

Steffan tilted his head to side. “What’s that, my heart’s fire?”

Edwin blushed darker than his red scales. He tapped Steffan’s forehead. “While your father’s spell keeps your outside from being burnt, it down not protect your inside.” He cocked his head to side. “Technically two things we cannot do. You know how hot I run, trust me when I say that you don’t want my cock in any part of you.”

Steffan blinked for a moment. “But what about putting me into you?”

The dragon coughed and turned away. “That would be acceptable, seeing as a dragon’s inside isn’t any different from a human.” He turned to look him in the eye. “That said, my dearest knight, My mouth is a completely different kettle of fish. In this form, I run no hotter than you, but in my dragon form? It is highly protected from the flames of my own belly.”

Steffan carefully stroked the side of Edwin’s face, slowly turning it back to face him. “I think I follow what you are saying. So I propose that we keep our love making to hands and mouths on skin only. That way there is no hard feelings on either side.”

“I can agree to that,” Edwin purred. And he took Steffan’s hand to lead to him to where Edwin slept as a mortal.

The room was vast, vast enough to fit a dragon of Edgewraith’s size should that come that. It was decorated with trinkets and toys and games. Senet, mancala, go, chess and even parchisi littered the area with dolls and wooden toys everywhere and that’s when Steffan realized he was looking his dragon’s hoard.

Edgewraith collected play!

Steffan looked back at Edwin to see that he stopped and was looking down at his feet, picking at the skin around his nails. Gone was the happy, upbeat person that was both Edgewraith and Edwin.

He took a step toward Edwin, who turned away. Steffan placed his arms around him and kissed the crown of curls on his head.

“You shouldn’t be ashamed of this hoard, beloved,” he whispered. “It’s beautiful and perfectly you. I’m happy you trusted me enough to let me see it. Now trust me not to mock you for it.”

Edwin raised his head, brown eyes wide and wet with unshed tears. “You don’t think it childish or naive?”

“Yes, to both,” Steffan said gently, “but that’s their point to be those things and if you love them you should get to collect them without fear of recrimination.”

Edwin raised his head and looked at Steffan in awe. The tears had dried up and now his eyes sparkled with something a little bit closer to mischief.

Suddenly Steffan was being swept off his feet and tossed onto the nearby bed. He let out a surprise yelp before he realized what had happened. Edwin stalked his way across the room, and he felt heat pool in the bottom of his stomach.

Their clothes were quickly removed as Steffan situated himself on the bed. Then they were lost to the world for quite sometime as they explored each other’s bodies with their hands and mouths.

~

As they wound their lives together a niggling thought laid its nest in Edwin’s brain and slowly began to hatch.

“Darling?” he asked one night as they lay entwined around each other. “Tell my about your mother. What was she like?”

Steffan sighed. “Of course you know she was killed by a dragon shortly after I was born, but the man that my father gave me to, told me stories about her. She was beauty itself. Long honey-colored tresses and bronze eyes. She was every perfect picture of grace and decorum any man could want.”

“She sounds like she was very lovely indeed,” Edwin murmured against the skin of Steffan’s collar bone. “Did they say how she died? I know you said a dragon killed her, but there must be something more, right?”

Steffan sat up and drew his knees to his chest. “The story Iago told was one of flames and misery. During my birth, I was breech and as the midwife tried to turn me so that I could be born the dragon attacked, killing my mother, and nearly killing the midwife. Her arms were blackened from the fire as she drew me out of the now still body of my mother.

He squeezed his eyes shut. “She would later succumb to her injuries. I think it was then that my father decided to give me to the dragon slayers. Losing both the midwife and the queen was too much to bare.”

Edwin drew him close and laid his head on his shoulder. “I’m sorry, sweet one. That must have been hard to hear.”

“I think he blamed my birth for her death,” Steffan murmured into Edwin’s collar bone. “That if I hadn’t been born she might still be alive.”

“Do you have a picture of her?’

Steffan nodded and pulled out the locket he always wore and took it off to hand to Edwin. Edwin opened the locket to a strand of honey colored hair and a miniature portrait of a stunning woman. A woman with whom Steffan bore a strong resemblance to.

“She was beautiful.”

“I wish I could have met her,” Steffan said, gently taking the locket from his hands and putting it back on.

“I wish I could have met her too,” Edwin murmured and pulled them both down to sleep.

~

Edwin kissed Steffan goodbye for a couple of days. He had things that he had to attend to. This wasn’t unusual for Edgewraith to go off for days in search of game or other resources, but it was the first time he did so with such a solemn air.

Steffan busied himself with playing with the children.

Dylan was bright but bossy, Morwen tenacious, but tender. But his favorite was definitely that of Eliwen the head watchman’s daughter. She was bright and curious but had this air of seriousness to her like everything she said was grave importance. Which Steffan supposed it was.

“When will Edgewraith be back?” Laurus moaned. “We wanted to show him our new kites!” Eligia and he both held aloft two beautifully crafted kites. One was black and red and the other was bronze and brown.

“Laurus’s is a boring brown and more brown,” Eligia huffed. “Mine is sleek and stupendous like Edgewraith himself.”

Laurus stuck his tongue at her and she did the same in return.

“It depends on how long the errand takes,” Steffan reminded them. “Sometimes it takes him less than a day, others a fortnight or more.”

All the children pouted.

“How long has he been gone, Steffan?” Matthew whined. “It feels like it’s already been forever.”

Steffan smiled at the thin, lanky boy. “He left but yesterday morning. If he comes back soon, the earliest would tomorrow night.”

Matthew pouted and Steffan got up to try and distract them. He had them all line up to teach them all how to sword fight, yes even the girls.

When Matthew protested, Steffan told him, “They need to be able to defend themselves.”

Eligia was eager, Morwen was intrigued, but Eliwen was unsure. Steffan knelt in front of her. “The world is a harsh place and though you have a lot of people who will protect you at all cost, but if you’re caught unaware or even alone, you need the skills to defend yourself.”

Then after a couple of days he wanted to laugh himself sick, Eliwen was the most tenacious and fierce fighter out of all them, including Eligia.

~

When Edgewraith returned, he was not alone. Behind him flew the most beautiful dragon he had ever seen and he had seen a lot. Their scales glimmered bronze and shone brightly in the dying light of the day.

Swiftly Edgewraith changed into Edwin and he came rushing up to Steffan, kissing him deeply.

“I have a confession to make, sweet one,” Edwin murmured. “I went in search of the dragon that killed your mother.”

Steffan’s heart dropped to his stomach. “Is that them?” He jutted his chin toward the beautiful creature sunning on his favorite rock.

Edwin shook his head. “No, Steffan. It’s better than that.” He tugged on his hand. “Come. Come meet Mirrorwing.”

Steffan allowed himself to be lead to the new dragon, but as they approached the dragon changed into their human form. Her hair was the color of honey and it flowed all the way to her slim waist. She wore a brown dress over a white shift, tied at the waist with a dark brown leather belt.

“Mama?” Steffan cried.

She held open her arms and he ran into them. She wrapped him up tight and held on for dear life. “Oh, my little Steffan.” She kissed the top of his head. “I’m so sorry. I did not know your father had been so cruel. Otherwise I would have stolen you away with me.”

“What happened?”

She led him over to the rock and sat him down.

“The midwife was also a dragon,” she explained. “And birth for dragons is harder than for humans, so I was trying to give birth to you as a human, if nothing else than to protect both our identities. But you were breech and Olga–Oddwing reached into turn you, the pain was too much for me and I accidentally turned back into my dragon form...” She took his hands and held them.

“Burning her arms.”

Mirrorwing nodded. “Your father came rushing in and understood everything at glance. He knew who I was, he knew what you most certainly could be.”

“A half dragon,” Steffan breathed.

~

Tag List: TWO SLOTS REMAINING

1- @itsall-taken @zerokrox-blog @sadisticaltarts @dolphincliffs @chaotic-waffle

2- @gregre369 ​@a-little-unsteddie @cryptid-system @kultiras @themoonagainstmers

3- @maya-custodios-dionach @goodolefashionedloverboi @val-from-lawrence @carlyv @wonderland-girl143-blog

4- @bookbinderbitch @bookworm0690 @forgottenkanji @dreamercec @blondie1006

5- @yikes-a-bee @awkwardgravity1 @genderless-spoon @fearieshadow @thesecondfate

6- @dragonmama76 @ellietheasexylibrarian @thedragonsaunt @useless-nb-bisexual @disrespectedgoatman

7- @counting-dollars-counting-stars @tinyplanet95 @ravenfrog @swimmingbirdrunningrock @lingeringmirth

8- @gutterflower77 @a-lovely-craziness @just-a-tiny-void @w1ll0wtr33 @beelze-the-bubkiss

9- @wheneverfeasible @notaqueenakhaleesi @stripey82 @estrellami-1 @irregular-child

10- @steddieislife @ollyxar @eyehartart

[ysaefinn]

mommy sugu(or any of them) taking care of you after you get ur wisdom teeth removed😭 being all loopy off the laughing gas and having him dote on you… personally i would def exaggerate the pain so he doted on me more♡

Pulling my fucking hair out bcuz this was an emergency ask that i missed 💔💔💔💔 anon you were in pain and suguru and i weren't there to smother you with kisses....him and i are holding hands and jumping off a cliff.

Ok i'm done moaning.

ANON SUGURU ALREADY SEES ANY OF YOUR DOCTORS APPOINTMENTS AS THE END OF THE WORLD LET ALONE WISDOM TOOTH REMOVAL that is a very very very big deal to him he's in even more pain than you can ever be it's pretty fucking comical 😭😭

After successfully serving his purpose as the service dog he was meant to be, drives you back home and then straight to bed where he builds a pillow fort around you and the countless fluffy blankets and plushies, you're likely still drowsy and on drugs from the clinic, you could get emotional and start to cry so he chooses to hold you for a little while longer (can't resist the cuteness or say no to you when you get clingy) and keeping your head elevated to help with any pain. But eventually, he has to leave your side for a little bit to feed you.

SPEAKING OF FOOD He's already obsessed with keeping you full and healthy so you won't be skipping any meals there are no excuses no exceptions. He mashes the food for you momma bird style to help with chewing (that shit damn near impossible anyway 😭) make sure you eat a lot of eggs too!!! All while holding your head up to his chest and hand feeding you piece by piece, cooing sweet little "i know i know" for each little whine, if youre up for it you can lick his nipples for comfort <3333333

"Exaggerate the pain" dw he'll do it for you 💀 he's RESTLESS for DAYS taking care of you, giving you baths, massaging your back and tracing shapes on your skin and playing with your hair to help you fall asleep easier, you get a looooooooottttttt of love!!! Obviously you're not allowed to leave the bed without adult supervision, he's taking you and your pillow palace to your living room if you wanna watch tv and just for a change of scenery.

He does have to suppress the urge to grab you by the face and squish your puffy cheeks but ofc doesn't go through cuz it might actually make your heart stop 💀💀

So yes the mommy instincts awaken and his womb throbs and screams (my favorite thing to say ehehe) if he wasn't mommy before he is definitely mommy now, you're in good good good hands anon rest assured <333

[zeldaversed]

Malink or Zelink? Which is better?

I think it's less of a question of which is better, but more which one makes more sense.

This has been a long-standing debate with Zelda fans everywhere. Canonically, Twilight is Time's blood descendant, so he must have married someone. So let's talk about this.

Clearly, I'm not going to make everyone happy with this analysis. It's only my opinion based off of what we already know. Just to be clear, I like both OoT Zelink and Malink. I'm a sucker for both. So let's get started.

First, let's talk about OoT Zelink. To keep it simple, we're only going to talk about the Child Era.

There's not a lot about that. It's the less popular of the two theories in my experience, but that doesn't make it any less valid. Zelda is the only one who stuck by Link's side beside Navi, even though she was disguised as Sheik. When he returned to his child self and came to her, she knew he had clearly been through it, even if she wasn't particularly sure what it was. They had a connection.

Zelda is the only one who knew what he'd been through. She knew about Kokiri Forest and the death of the Great Deku Tree, she knew about his quests to find the Sacred Stones, all of it. Then Ganondorf attacked, and she was forced to flee. Link was imprisoned by the Master Sword until he was old enough to wield it, and their actions allowed him access to the Sacred Realm. For seven years, Zelda hung onto this guilt disguised as Sheik and hiding right underneath of Ganondorf's nose. She waited seven years for him when everyone else was sure that Hyrule was done for.

When it's all over and Link comes back, he has the Ocarina of Time. Zelda has been having dreams about this for as long as she can remember, and now he's really here? She realizes that he's been through more than anyone else has and understands this.

It's unclear what all happens, but in Majora's Mask, they have a moment in the beginning of the game when she entrusts the ocarina to him. He settles Termina's business, reliving days and days and days and stopping the entire moon from falling, then returns to find Hyrule in a state of pre-war. He probably has traveled everywhere trying to find his purpose and can only do so in Hyrule, fighting for his country, because he feels like that's all he can do.

Zelda and Link probably work closely together during the war and the subsequent capture and execution of Ganondorf. They have a profound connection by this point. Maybe he even is prompted to tell her everything that's happened to him when she wasn't there.

However, here's where things get a little fuzzy.

No matter what, if Twilight is Link's descendant, Time would have had to have had children.

If Link and Zelda had children, then that would have made them royalty or illegitimate, if Link and Zelda weren't technically allowed to be together because he's only a knight and she's the princess; nobody knows he's the hero, remember? In either case, Link ends up in the Lost Woods/Faron Woods area and ends up dying with regrets, becoming a stalfos. This leaves Zelda and their children without his protection, which may very well be one of his regrets. My theory is that, knowing that Ganondorf might one day return, Zelda sent her children away (either to farmlands if you consider only the game, or to the village on the desert border if you consider manga canon too) to presumably keep them safe.

What I'm saying is OoT Zelink works pretty well. Link and Zelda have an obvious connection that becomes romantic over time, and eventually (whether it's allowed or not) they have at least one kid that ends up being sent away to keep it safe after Link's untimely death. Maybe in his death, Link follows his descendants and tries to keep them safe, which is why he finds Twilight so easily.

Now for Malink.

Now, Malink works too and I love it, don't get me wrong. But. Link and Malon don't really have as much of a connection. Even in the manga, Malon makes a comment about how she missed her chance with Link because he's talking about Zelda all the time.

My theory for this is that after the events of Majora's Mask, Link returned to Hyrule and became a knight. He and Malon became friends, then something more. He may or may not tell her everything he's been through, solely because he fears it could destroy their relationship because it's a lot to take in. But they bond over their love of horses, and they fall in love without a shadow of a doubt. They get married, and have children, and Link still somehow ends up in the Lost Woods/Faron Woods area dying with those regrets. But, his children don't need to go into hiding. They're just farmers, nothing very conspicuous about that.

And whether you think the manga is canon or not, it works both ways too. If we lean closer to manga, we can say that his descendants wanted to follow in his footsteps and become knights, hence why Twilight comes from a long line of them.

My conclusion here is that both Zelink and Malink both work, they both make sense, and they're both good love stories, although I will be the first to admit that OoT Zelink is a more juicy one with more angst with a semi-happy ending before Link's death.

If you have anything you'd like to add or you want to be a part of the tag list, please let me know!

[nabi-unveiled]

Love the spoiler-free insight.

I know that's tricky to do so I greatly appreciate it!

I actually wonder what are your headcanons about why Myungha had such a destructive intimidating reputation of a fighter before :]

After I'm done with my watch, I'll try to pull together any remaining head canons I have for this show and put them in a post.

I'm just going to go ahead and put my cut here since I'll be responding back to a lot of your points.

Episode names are related to missions! In direct and non-direct way^^ 발전 means improvement, progress, development but not "gamedev" specifically, game development would be 개발.

So my first thought and interpretation of it was right. Lol. Good to know. It worked both ways really, but I always enjoy added language context. Language is so complex, and it really is beautiful.

I actually don't remember the scene of hopping the wall well because I never noticed how Myungha actually had a cast(?) on his left leg.

As far as I remember, you don't see the cast in the wall scene. That's why I was inferring. Actually, I don't think I EVER noticed a cast. Putting him in a cast would make sense though. It would be a good reminder for the actor as far as movement goes. Most of the shots in the show don't include their feet which is why I tend to notice it when their feet are shown. Now I'm curious if I just missed a shot of the cast somewhere.

Minsu (Sangwon's actor) would keep talking to director even right after they finish script reading, and he'd write a lot of in-depth analyse notes about his character

The work is noticeable. It's always apparent when an actor really understands their character.

The "disease" in Korean is used in casual speech a lot. I'm not sure why were you looking for a different translation, but it's something like 'illness, being sick'. Any obsessive trait can be a 'disease/illness'.

Good to know. I got the general idea of what it meant, and that it's a playful jab in the shows where I've heard it. It's just not a word that would ever be used that way where I'm from. It would carry a pretty negative connotation crossing the line from roast to actual insult. I'll have to think about if there's an equivalent around here. Most of the terms I'm coming up with are either too mild or not playful enough. I haven't come up with anything that carries the exact same energy.

[Very random offtop: I also love roasting/teasing humor (with no negative feelings) with my friends, and I grew up in such companies - with all engineers and IT people in school and uni who love a good intellectual or worplay or simply witty jab, it was so joyful to bicker and everyone knew it wasn't serious - but then I reunited with my best friend since elementary school who went to study humanitarian and philologyin uni. And I'm not trying to stereotype guys vs girls or tech vs culture, btw - she said her uni classmates were full of vicious sarcastic subtext or roasting each other and it felt like bullying. So for a couple of years we constantly hurt each other because our ways of communicating meant very different things, it took some adjusting. Which is a life lesson but also - I definitely feel you wanting more of this fun bickering energy in your life!]

Also off topic (so skip if you are here only for LFLS): I totally understand this. It is indeed a life lesson. I've had to learn who I can spar with (a fun few) and who I can't (most). Some consider it mean. My husband considers it disrespectful. My brother and me just implemented code words. If he calls me a jerk, I know to immediately back off. We also have a code "greeting" that he uses to signal it's not a day to play at all.

That's the fun part! This show is actually saying a lot on the level under the surface, and you can trust a lot of things that slowly get connected

It is indeed the fun part. I made a note that it hadn't "said" it, because I tend to put general disclaimers on a lot of my interpretations. Particularly, if I'm not breaking down ALL the evidence of why I made that claim. Saying "you can trust it" is a nice thought. That's not always true.

I'm just saying if you want to guess something based on reactions – you should stop doubting yourself because there are almost no random choices or sloppy editing/acting decisions

Same as above -> I don't trust a lot of shows so that's good to know. Many shows don't pay careful attention to their details/editing. I just got burned by the editing in a different one. Rather than "doubt", I'd say that I normally leave room that I may be wrong. Lol. Call it the scientist in me. Sometimes it's that I actually have multiple hypotheses running through my brain. But often it's just that there should always be room to change your mind if new evidence comes into play. That said, I do doubt myself when it comes to hearing/sound. That's just knowing my own limitations.

Feel free to go wild with theories and interpretations! I love how you're already doing that.

I have a major clown car theory about the water sound at this point, but I'll save that for my episode 5 post.

I would actually love seeing other people's affection of me above their heads

Upon reflection, I've firmly landed in the camp of "I don't want to know". Ignorance is bliss and all that.

Taevin said he thought a lot what should character feel and express, finally seeing Affection level going from 0 to 1.

This just makes me happy.

Yes, the guys were talking about Myungha 'leaning' on them or help holding him so he doesn't put more strain on his hurt leg. Hold him up? I wonder what'd be the best alternative in English.

As someone who has been in a leg cast and on crutches more times than I care to remember (10? 11?), most people around me just said "help" or "support". Or they would ask "do you want to lean on me?" That probably varies by region or country though.

I know of different symbolism for butterflies so it was interesting to see your side of knowledge!

There are a lot of different meanings for butterflies for sure. I went with the one that was most relevant to me personally, but as the show progresses I could end up pulling a different one if it makes more sense.

There was also a flower in this Senior & Myungha in a Bar location at the very first episode, not sure if it's seen now, but it also had a nice meaning

Yeah, the cornflower. I noticed it during episode 1. It has a lot of different meanings depending on the culture. They're also known as bachelor's button. But they can mean love, hope, remembrance, future, eligibility to marry....the list could go on. Again, there's a lot of references for them.

leader B.I gave a speech and said "The word happiness is too vague, so I hope you guys feel like it is worth living every day".

LOVE THAT!

I didn't actually notice video game sound in the scene with Kyunghoon!

There's a certain sequence of sounds in the soundtrack I'm referencing when I say that in a reaction. I'm going to be trying to pay attention and take note of them in the future.

Like you'd say to a kid who's making great great promises and really insisting they'd get you a moon for your next birthday. Which can be seen as condescending but I don't read it at that level at all, there's no malice in his words or gesture that could make Yeowoon feel bad or offended - in my view.

This is a *me* problem. Not the show's problem. Lol. I didn't think there was malice or that Yeowoon felt bad/offended. It just confuses me. Similar to the hug in the earlier episode.

only Joonkyung is looking at his blondie brother in a worry. He does seem like he was an actual friend of Sangwon

I rely a lot on experience or connections with other media to try and understand people (even in real life). That type of interaction is just far outside anything I've ever experienced.

I do think those two are friends. I may have to think on Sangwon's relationship to the gang a bit more.

I kinda love that we didn't get 'Oh.' moment but instead got the badass unapologetic confession

I'll take unapologetic confession every time. After the shared meal, that might have been my favorite moment of the episode.

(why does it always take me a couple of hours to write my own comments on your comments lol? I'm sorry)

I appreciate you taking the time. I greatly enjoy reading the response and all of the added information. It actually takes me a good bit of time to make the initial post too. I type fast, but not THAT fast.

in the very first take he totally forgot to cover his mouth and just kept staring in Yeowoon's eyes like 🥺

I think I'd stare too. Kabedon moments get me every time.

Sea or Mountains?" is a very popular 'personality division' question in Korea

It's a pretty popular question here too. Not so much for "personality" division, but it comes up pretty often in social situations and as a conversation starter.

Myungha does always wear black shirt under his school uniform

I have a theory about this one now too, but I'll save it for the episode 5 reaction.

As always, I appreciate your time and the insight! So much fun ✨!

Catching Up: Love for Love's Sake (Ep 4)

Other Reacts: Ep 1 Ep 2 Ep 3

Yes, it's 3:15 in the morning. Yes, I have to work tomorrow. No, I can't even sleep in because I have to interview a potential intern at 9 am. Plus, the kids will be home with me too since it's a school holiday. I don't care. I'm starting episode 4 anyways.

And yay! We've went back to the fight. I was hoping we would find out more about what happened.

Is this a new way for them to do the subtitle for "debuff/curse". I guess that's fine so that people who don't understand gaming get it. It feels a little late in the game for that though. Still, I loved this screenshot, because you can see the transition that's a bit gamified. And the purple aura energy is showing up on Yeowoon's arm.

We didn't have any debuffs last episode so I guess the debuff really does relate to affection of Myungha and not Yeowoon's personal affection. Fine. I'll exit my clown car theory about the debuffs....for now. Outside of my clown car, it makes sense that the debuff would show up now since Myungha's affection level just plummeted.

Myungha absorbs the debuff. Yeowoon is left in shock. He definitely is feeling rejected/slighted at this point.

Myungha is dragging Sangwon through the halls. Sangwon says "I'm not a kid." I'd be careful Sangwon. That line of thinking means he can hit you. I know Myungha knows how to fight, but I do wonder more and more every episode about "why" he fought. I'm already developing a lot of head canons on that score. Maybe we'll find out eventually though.

He's not going to hit him (not that I thought he ACTUALLY would anyways), because we now have a ringing sound. I'm guessing the debuff is having an effect. He absorbed all the bad purple energy, and it was STRONG this time base on his -99. Was the -99 in red last episode? If not, it should've been. Sorry, random thought.

Myungha falls down the stairs.

I've given up on the episode names being strictly related to missions. The gamer in me though is going to retranslate this as "progress". That feels better in gamification terms. Especially if it's talking about progress in the mission quest. I obviously have no clue whether that is right. Wait. Unless they're talking about aspects of the game being "in development" like new code/levels being written or the story being redeveloped/changed. Hmm. That actually feels likely. We'll stick with development.

KYUNGHOON! You're back. I missed you so much. I'm guessing they're having to skip class to go to the competition. Apparently, Myungha has hurt his leg. Kyunghoon struggles to get over the wall. Based on how Myungha hopped the wall, I'm guessing it's the right leg that's hurt. But Myungha's leg obviously wasn't THAT badly hurt. It didn't look like he tried to favor one leg more in the landing. Guess that could depend on the type of injury though. My perspective is probably skewed. I've dislocated kneecaps more times than I wish to recount. I definitely wouldn't have made it over the wall shortly after one of those times. My personality is such though that I'd have doubled down and probably hurt myself more while trying. Lol.

Sangwon is waiting on the other side of the wall. I loved his "hi". Kyunghoon asks if he was waiting. Myungha says it's a "disease". It works, but I wonder if there is a different translation of that word. They've used it several times. It was also used in a very similar way during Secret Relationships ("being nosy is a disease").

Sangwon says he was just late to school. It's coincidence that they met up. I love that he's somewhat "talking back" to Myungha. But I also have a very sarcastic/roast style sense of humor. These types of exchanges always make my day. I wish I had more of that energy in my life.

Kyunghoon asks about the shoes, and Sangwon realizes that he had made a mistake. I didn't mention it last episode as the post was already getting really long. But my guess is that Sangwon was upset about the shoes, because he thought that his mom gave them to Yeowoon. His mom had just been to the school after all, and it appears like they have a complicated relationship. I'm guessing there's a lack of affection there too based on Sangwon's reactions to Myungha's signs of care. This is all conjecture on my part. The show isn't really SAYING any of this at the moment.

But now he knows the shoes weren't from his mom. It's okay Sangwon. I made several bad calls in the last episode too. Sangwon decides to follow.

And just like that, we have a gaming party embarking on a quest.

Our trio notices that Yeowoon is standing instead of taking his place on the blocks. Is he wearing the blue shoes? It looks like it. Myungha is still outside of the love supremacy zone, but he yells Yeowoon's name. I'm taking note that his number is 251 just in case it pops back up at some point. I loved the sound effect as the camera circled around and Yeowoon realized his name was being called.

Yeowoon is recalculating his affection, and the number starts moving up fast. Lol. This feels very much like love indeed. Highs and lows and emotional turbulence. Some might say that's the fickle nature of teenage affection. I'd say that doesn't ever really change. But maybe that's just the nature of my personal relationship talking. Maybe it'd help if we had affection scores above our head so we'd both know when we screwed up. On second thought, I don't think I'd want to know my score. That feels like a recipe for disaster.

Yeowoon takes his place at the blocks with magic sparkles coming off of his blue shoes. The affection level keeps rising.

If this wasn't a "game", the new shoes would be disastrous in a competition. But as I've thought about it, I actually like that this feels like an equipment upgrade in a game. Higher tier equipment immediately leads to better outcomes in a game assuming you have the skills to use it.

The music reminds me of late 90s/early 2000s movies. I kind of love it since we're panning across Sangwon and Kyunghoon's faces, and it feels like a friend montage moment out of one of those types of "high school" movies. Ah nostalgia.

Affection level is back at 0. The subtitles say Yeowoon is second, but I'm guessing he's actually third. They announced two other names before him.

Yep, he's third place based on the next part of the dialogue. Myungha says he did well. Yeowoon is crying, but Myungha definitely doesn't understand the reason. Yeowoon is trying to figure out why Myungha is nice to him.

Poor boy is definitely dealing with romantic feelings now. I'm loving the romance driven emotional angst of it all. This is my cup of tea.

The coach interrupts. Yeowoon is still emotional, but Myungha says he'll wait. They can eat together afterwards. Yes, please do. I'm always going to be down for a shared meal.

Yay! Our whole crew is EATING together! And Yeowoon is smiling.

Yeowoon tells Myungha to eat too and gives him food. OMG - our affection level has crossed the zero threshold. We're now at 5. And it keeps climbing as he keeps giving Myungha food. Lol. Kyunghoon tells Myungha to eat slowly and Sangwon's face is priceless! He seems absolutely disgusted by Yeowoon's actions. We end on an affection level of 17 for now.

Sangwon and Yeowoon are bickering. I love it. so. much. Frenemy relationships are the best. I'm looking forward to seeing how this develops moving forward.

For those that like talks about linguistics, they said a bit about honorifics too. If I followed it correctly, Sangwon used more casual speech with Myungha and Yeowoon didn't like it. I could be mistaken though. Myungha really is the exasperated parent here. Lol. Cutie Kyunghoon helps Myungha out. He is worried that Yeowoon's feet might hurt since he ran with new shoes.

Yeowoon says he's fine, but he asks what happened to Myungha's leg.

🤣 This pout had me dying. For the game aspect, it really is like now that his "affection level" has went up, it's unlocked all kinds of new dialogue/expression options.

I wonder if Myungha realizes that his leg getting hurt was due to the purple energy. He's a smart cookie. I bet he's figured that out.

This whole scene just put me in a good mood.

Yeowoon offers to help "hold" Myungha. I'm betting there's a better translation of that. Kyunghoon used the term earlier too. I bet it has to do with letting Myungha lean on him or something like that rather than "hold" as I typically interpret. Myungha says he fine.

Yeowoon wants Myungha to rely on him too. This is a tricky situation. Yeowoon wants them to be EQUALS, but Myungha is definitely going to struggle with that. Myungha has taken on a caretaker role, and while those things aren't mutually exclusive, it can make things complex.

Yeowoon asks how Myungha knows his (shoe) size. Myungha says he let the fan (sis) pick it out, and that she wants to meet Yeowoon. Yeowoon doesn't seem happy about Myungha hanging out with her often, but he agrees to meet up with Si-a.

Yeowoon has essentially walked Myungha home. He tells him thank you which Myungha teases him about. But he says it again and leaves.

The entry light starts flickering and there are some jarring sounds. Ominous music plays, and Myungha's head is hurting.

OOOOOOH. It WAS development like "game in development". Exciting.

We're back at the bar from episode 1. Senior is asking Myungha questions.

I first noticed the three butterflies in the corner of the paper. It shouldn't be a surprise given my blog name that I'm likely to notice butterflies. They're a symbol of transformation and personal growth. Actually, they have different stages of development just like a game. A butterfly's development requires they insulate themselves from the world and focus on changing themselves before they can emerge in their final form. I don't know whether that has anything to do with this show or not though.

But these questions are interesting. Yes, I used my phone to translate. Though it kept giving slightly different translations depending on the angle I held it, I think I got the gist of it. One of the things says "like minded friends" which was what the quest said in episode 2. If I remember correctly, that was in Myungha's hand writing. So is senior having Myung-ha essentially write the game levels? I had said in an earlier episode that this was really a quest for Myungha's own happiness as well.

It WAS his writing. I love this shot. It feels like a magic dungeon with the candles and lighting. The shape of the glass is nice. I think it's a glencairn whiskey glass. Actually no. The base is wrong. It doesn't matter. The glass itself is probably not symbolic. I just find certain types of glassware pretty. As a fun side note, I used to drink everything (soda, milk, etc.) out of a red wine glass that I got while dumpster diving in college. I loved that beautiful glass. My roommate eventually broke it "on accident", but said it was "probably for the best" so that people didn't think I was drinking alcohol. Fun times 🙄.

It's late/early. I'm rambling. *Focus brain*

Senior is in white as the "heavenly" being with the power. Am I supposed to trust him? I don't. But it feels like he's God/angel coded.

"Will there be happiness to 29 year old Tae Myungha?"

"So the standard is very important." says Senior.

Myungha doesn't hear him clearly, and we can't hear his next line clearly either. He's muffled as if he's under water. It's the same sound as when he first entered the game world.

This feels important, and it feels mistranslated. Or at least like it was translated without the needed nuance. I need to pause anyways. I'm tired enough that I know I'll miss details if I keep going tonight.

(pause)

Ok. I've slept a few hours and hung out with the kids for a bit. I've mulled it over. I'm guessing that senior is really meaning that Myungha needs to be very careful about what goals/words he's using. Happy is a pretty vague term. I actually walked down the aisle to a song called "Different Kinds of Happy" from the movie Sweet Land. The idea/theme in that movie is that happiness can take different forms and mean different things to different people. In a game, if you don't have a clearly defined objective, then it's going to be difficult to meet it. So what does Myungha actually mean by "happy"?

But Myungha "can't hear" what senior is telling him. Myungha, and us by extension, are missing a critical piece of information. I'm guessing it has to do with the standard/clearer objective or that it's a warning of some kind.

We're back in the video game world. Myungha is looking at his notes.

AND OMG - YES! HOORAY! A time jump/alternate world that GETS how problematic it is for a 29 year old to be suddenly back in high school. The dialogue is clearly establishing that he IS 19 in this world. It's how I had resolved it mentally myself in episode 2. I love it when my head canons become actual canon.

Anyways, it's a good question. What CAN he do? Because "making someone happy" on a identity level scale really isn't easy. I would argue that it's not actually possible. That they have to strive for their own happiness as they accept themselves. It's not just circumstances that's driving Yeowoon's mental disdain for himself. New shoes are great, but they're not a long term solution. When you're dealing with suicidal ideation the other person has to "want" to live. A lot of times they don't even realize it until the moment. Yeah, it wasn't my grandfather's first attempt before he succeeded. My brother's neither. So far my brother has always decided he wanted to live and sought help in time.

I love that Myungha is being smart about this. He goes "What does he WANT me to do?" If you're playing a game, that's an important question. It's anticipating the game maker's design. I am noticing that the butterfly is on the journal paper here. But it's only one this time, and it's in the top right corner instead of the bottom corner.

Now THAT'S interesting. He doesn't remember "senior". There are a lot of fun implications in this development, but I'll have to stop for now. It looks like my husband has got off of work early today. It's a national holiday. I should've expected it. This will have to wait until after everyone is asleep tonight. I didn't get very far in this session, but it's fine. I really should've been working/writing anyways. I have five scripts due in the next two weeks.

(pause)

Well...the emoji tag game happened, and I got a wee bit carried away with it. I loved it so much. But then my brain was broke so it's taken a few days to get back here.

The fact that Myungha doesn't remember "senior" from his real life is a cool detail. I had said I thought it was in odd in episode 1 that he wasn't weirded out by the situation. It could mean that ONLY senior is obscured. Or it could mean that the facts of his "future" will slowly disappear as he creates a new story leaving him only with the 19 year old version of Myungha. There are a few other possibilities too, but I'll go with those two for now. I actually like the latter one in some ways. I don't remember if he recalled senior once he entered the video game during episode 1. That would provide evidence for which possible interpretations to keep moving forward. I might have to go back and check that out.

Regardless, we know this memory was jarring. The question is what triggered the memory.

We're down to 288 days left to complete our mission so a good bit of time has passed, and we're reminded that death is the penalty. We still don't know whose death we're talking about though.

We cut to Kyunghoon and Myungha walking down the hall together. Myungha is complaining that the teacher treats him like a thug. Kyunghoon proposes that they go to college together, drink together and have fun together in the future. I love the video game sound effects in the music/soundtrack.

OH! Random thought. I wonder if those sound effects show up at critical/specific moments. Is this like the rain drops in When It Rains or just a fun part of the soundtrack? Sound analysis is tricky for me, but it can add a lot to a show. And I LOVE it when sound is used symbolically. That would require an entire rewatch though as I'd have to focus just on the sound. I'll try to make note of it moving forward though to see if I can find a pattern. I can't promise I'll catch it every time though.

Hold up. We HAVE had a sound. The freaking water. I said before that it sounded like water when Myungha is shifting between worlds. That's definitely a specific sound at critical moments. Is that significant? Is it even water? Stop brain. You know your hearing can't be trusted. Move on.

Myungha is obviously uncomfortable here. Probably because he knows that he doesn't have that kind of time. He was just reminded of the countdown. It could also be because he didn't have that kind of life in the past. I don't know if he has those resources in the current videogame timeline either. Money isn't an obstacle for Kyunghoon. But it will be for Myungha and Yeowoon. But I figure it's that he feels like he's lying to Kyunghoon by agreeing to a future that may not exist. Yeowoon has already called him a liar after all.

Ah, the bullies are circling for blood. Frizzy blond guy asks Myungha if he's gay and is obviously intimidating Kyunghoon. Myungha says "I'm gay. So what." That's the confidence of someone who is very comfortable with themselves. I wonder if he was always that way, or if this is a manifestation of him already working through that part of his identity in the "real world".

Cutie Kyunghoon steps in between to protect Myungha 🙌🙌🙌. This is VERY important. Why? Because it's a dynamic shift. Myungha is collecting people in his life that care about him too and who will stand up for him even if it's risky. He's gathering "like minded friends" as well.

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Myungha kisses the bully.

Should I be laughing? Probably not. This is a forced kiss. But AM I laughing? 100% yes. And all of the bully gang not knowing how to respond is epic.

Blond guy is rightfully angry, and Myungha just scolds him for swearing. What I love about this interaction is that it quickly and decidedly shifted who was the "victim" in this interaction.

Blond guy - Tak ...Joonho? It'll eventually stick with me. Anyways, he punches Myungha and we see Myungha deftly assert his dominance. He threatens to kiss him again.

This is the second interaction where Myungha has really shown this guy to be pretty pathetic. As he seems to be a leader in this "gang", he's probably not going to react to this well. He wouldn't be able to keep power over his bully gang if he ignored things like this. I'd expect backlash soon. He'll either take it out on his own members or start targeting people Myungha cares about (Yeowoon, Kyunghoon). Potentially both. If he comes after Myungha himself, it will be sneaky style. He can't (or shouldn't) risk another direct confrontation like this one. He's already lost twice.

Teacher intervenes. Apparently Myungha has got some type of cleaning duty punishment.

Yeowoon is on the other side of the window being cleaned. I'm trying to figure out if Yeowoon had heard about the fight or he just noticed Myungha's busted lip. Either way, his expressions here are KILLING me. They are so earnest and so different than what we had in previous episodes. The rise in affection level has definitely had an impact.

Myungha tries to brush it off, but Yeowoon won't let him. "Who hit you?" Myungha tells him he doesn't need to know.

Yeowoon gets very serious. Just like that earlier interaction with Kyunghoon, this is actually very important. Yeowoon is asking to be seen as an equal. As someone that Myungha can rely on. He's asking Myungha to trust him. Ooh interesting. Yeowoon dropped honorifics.

Yeowoon drags Myungha to the nurse's office. It's a reverse of care. Yeowoon taking care of Myungha. I mean, technically Yeowoon had intervened before. However, this is DIRECT care. Yeowoon asks if he's really not going to tell him. Myungha responds "What would you do if you knew?". Yeowoon - "I'll kill him". 🥹 Yes, I'm taking the threat as a squee worthy moment. There was no hesitation. Just a direct assertion of "you matter to me that much".

Myungha rubs his head.

I'm going to have to think about this one. Why is this man's physical affection so hard for me to interpret? This feels like a parent/child interaction to me. Which...is possible. Is he in guardian mode? Trying to calm Yeowoon down while acknowledging that he's grateful for Yeowoon caring about him? Or do other people see this as just a friendly interaction? Because things would not end well if my friend rubbed my head and used that tone with me. I'd see it as condescending for sure. But cultural differences could be in play here. I'm going with guardian mode.

Myungha says that rather than hit, it's more like we kissed. And Yeowoon's reaction is amazing.

Myungha is flustered by Yeowoon's reaction. Yeowoon has to be cycling through all kinds of feelings. One - this gives him hope. Two - Myungha was kissing someone besides him.

So many thoughts running through this boy's mind.

He says he should ask Tak Joonho. That means he DOES know who was involved, but he wanted Myungha to confide in him on his own. "Can men kiss too?" "I want to kiss him" while staring at Myungha's lips and putting on the ointment. Baby boy is down bad.

We cut to Sangwon coming towards the bully gang. There's the "hi" again. Love it. But it does feel like he's out of the loop. It feels more like he's invading their space. @dropthedemiurge I see what you meant now. He's not part of the hierarchy of this group. The uniforms vs. plain shirt is visually depicting that as well. That does make me have some questions about the earlier rooftop scene, but I'll hold them for now.

Did he come because he had heard about the fight? Or is this just part of his routine? He does seem to do whatever he wants. Case in point - he didn't come to class just because he didn't want to. Skipping seems to be a regular occurrence for him.

Tak Joonho says that he's going to teach Myungha/Kyunghoon a lesson. Sangwon is trying to put the pieces together. I do find it odd that Joonho is openly admitting that Myungha kissed him. I would've expected him to threaten the others and keep that quiet. Unless he's expecting Sangwon to commiserate with him and understand.

Not happening though. Sangwon is clearly on Myungha's side in this one. I figure he knows Tak Joonho enough to know he instigated whatever happened. The chuckling of the other students as Sangwon pushes back has got to raise Joonho's ire.

Tak Joonho thinks Sangwon is teasing him, but he's actually angry.

I'm rewording this line a little bit in my head to fit better with that sassy head tilt that just made me so happy. In some ways, it's a lot like Myungha earlier. "Yes. I am. What are you going to do about it?" It's a statement and a challenge.

Unlike Myungha, Sangwon does punch Joonho and IMMEDIATELY puts his hands back in his pockets. LMAO. That's a dominance signal right there. He knows Joonho isn't going to immediately punch back. He doesn't see him as a threat.

Joonho says he's holding back because he's rich. Sure you are. Keep telling yourself that. Kyunghoon seems to be pretty rich too, and you tease him just fine.

Note - I do realize that they've said that Sangwon can get away with everything due to his family. I'm sure it does play some role. But it's not everything. Sangwon is exuding dominance in this situation. He's even leaning in a mock little bow and saying "thank you" in a snarky tone. God, I love him and his self-confidence. He has grown on me so much, and I'm only halfway through this show.

Joonho asks if he can't see that he's outnumbered.

Sangwon (in other words): Bring it.

I'm sorry. I've tried to ignore that hideous wall color this entire show, but now we've added what has to be one of the ugliest arrangements known to mankind in front of it. I'm sure there are people who like that kind of thing, but it just makes me wonder why someone thought a feather duster was appealing. Normally I would be trying to figure out if the red meant something, but I just can't. It's an eyesore.

Is Si-a considered part of our gaming party now. I'm not sure. 🤔 They're collectively worrying about Sangwon though.

Si-a asks if Myungha wants to be a model for Swoony (the brand). The pay is better after all. Pay is always an enticing thing.

Myungha tells Si-a to buy him dinner. I'm confused. Why does he want Si-a to buy him dinner? 🤔 Myungha doesn't do things without a purpose. What's the catch?

LMAO. It's because Yeowoon is here. He's giving her the fangirl moment. Yes, she better buy the meal. A good one too.

Wait. Her name has an "h" sound? The subtitles now say "Shi-a". Did I miss that before? No. I'm pretty sure that's a change in subtitles.

Yeowoon looks ticked. My guess is that he thought he was going to get to eat with Myungha alone. He wouldn't be reacting like this if he had known it'd be a fangirl moment. Yeowoon is being very terse. Yes, he seems to be a more introverted, private person. But this is what you do when you're thrown for a loop. Myungha, you really need to give us introverts a heads up for these types of situations. Especially true if you gave us false expectations and now expect us to socialize with someone we are not comfortable around.

I'm still bitter over there being no food at the company meal that I drove two hours to yesterday. Don't promise me food and then give me a non-alcoholic beer instead. Shared meals are sacred. Oh...it's probably this kind of stuff that prompted the anon's "what's with you and food" question the other day. I get it now. Sorry anon. I didn't understand what you were asking.

I'm squirreling. None of that's really relevant. Yeowoon is just upset because he expected alone time with Myungha (pretty sure on that one), and he isn't getting it.

This conversation is awkward. Si-a signals Myungha to please help. Myungha asks Yeowoon if he has any questions. "Are you two close?" I've said all along that I love how direct Yeowoon is with Myungha. If he has questions, he is going to ask them. It's admirable, but lol. He's not looking at Si-a at all. Yeowoon is grilling Myungha.

Myungha responds playfully and tries to direct the conversation back to Si-a. I actually see that as a way of trying to include her in the conversation. He was trying to create a fan moment for her after all. Si-a says they're just colleagues which Yeowoon smiles about. But then Myungha protests that designation.

Yeowoon didn't like that at all. 🤣 "Are you closer to her than you are to me?" I love that Si-a can see this is important to Yeowoon. She's giving Myungha this look that's like "You idiot. Don't you dare make my blorbo upset!"

Myungha says "I only have Yeowoon in my heart" which makes Yeowoon beam. Si-a takes the opportunity to ask for an autograph. Si-a, I know I struggled with you in earlier episodes. I'm sorry. I can respect your non-toxic, supportive fangirl side.

"What do you think of when you run?" "I imagine there's a big crocodile chasing me." Well...that would be motivation I guess. I never imagined what was behind me when I ran. I was always focused on the finish line. Different things for different people I guess.

Ok Yeowoon. Let's not manifest that energy. There are too many trucks of doom in dramaland. And I've had two of my family members hit by vehicles. They survived, but they still have side effects. My brother got hit by a car while he was INSIDE a building.

Anyways, Yeowoon is saying that the vision has changed. He now imagines that someone is waiting for him at the finish line.

Sweet. I wish I knew what his personal affection was at this point though. We're seeing the impact of Myungha's affection level changing in his mannerisms and dialogue, but has it impacted how he sees himself?

Si-a says that's romantic, and Myungha breaks eye contact and visibly shifts. Lol. He felt that one.

We cut to them walking home. Yeowoon tries to ask Myungha about Joonho again, but Myungha says that Yeowoon isn't allowed to say kiss.

We got confirmation that Yeowoon thought it was going to be the two of them. Myungha chastises him a bit saying he needs friends. That's really not the point Myungha.

Yeowoon said that he's annoyed. Myungha says "he's been rude lately". Did he drop honorifics?

Yeowoon says "I want to go play with you". My kinky brain takes that line a completely different way that intended. But he's asking him out really. I LOVE this frame. There's a blinding light of love, but it's mostly over Yeowoon. Yeowoon knows he wants to kiss Myungha. He knows he wants to spend time with Myungha 1-1. Myungha still hasn't come to that realization yet.

It's an amusement park near the sea. Myungha seems hesitant, but he says yes. Wasn't Myungha's mom near the sea? I wonder if that's part of his hesitation. Yeah, there's definitely something there. This means something more to Myungha for some reason. But he's agreeing anyway.

Well hello. 👀 She's pretty. She was hidden initially in the frame, but they've now exposed her as she's asking Si-a for help. Who is she? Is this the person returned from abroad that Kyunghoon mentioned?

We're now in a dream sequence. 100%. "Do it with me too. The kiss."

Based on the game interface, this is Myungha's dream. Fun. Realization is coming. It's a bit of a kabedon moment with the tree. I'm enjoying it, because as confident as Myungha was when he kissed Joonho, he's not confident at all here. He's flustered.

Myungha wakes up.

Yeowoon has been sending him messages. Apparently he woke up early. If you get messages from me at 4 am, it means I haven't went to bed yet. Not unusual.

Myungha has a message from an unknown number. It's referencing children's day, mother's day, and teacher's day. Myungha isn't sure who it's from though. My immediate guess is his mom. But that doesn't make sense. He hasn't had contact with his mom since he was really little.

Is it the heavenly senior? We know information about the game comes to Myungha through his phone. "But no time for me to meet you." It's reminding me of the poem I wrote for my grandfather following his suicide. It wasn't about holidays/time, but about hiking trails. That was our thing. "But no trail that brings me to you." Crap. I'm crying again. This has been a week of tears in BL land. For the record, I cry very little in real life. But I bawl like a baby watching shows. It's cathartic in some ways. I can't analyze this properly. I'm going to read things into this that aren't there. I'm sure this will become a reoccurring event. I'll wait until the next message to figure it out.

Yeowoon came to pick Myungha up, and it looks like he paid for the bus fare for both of them. Cutie. Myungha may not realize it, but Yeowoon is definitely taking him on a date.

The mural next to the bus is of the sea. I could get a better angle this time. Phone keeps translating different based on angle, but it's better than last time. Something about sacred and beautiful love. Something about a lighthouse.

I love that Yeowoon quickly says "Look at the seagulls". There were birds on the mural too. Seagulls are a trip down memory lane for me. I got handed a bone during my oral qualification exams and asked what I could tell the professors about it. It was a seagull bone.

Seagulls have so many different symbolic meanings depending on culture. I know there are a few different takes in literature. There are also a lot of different meanings for them in Native American lore. Some positive, some negative. It depends on the tribe. A lot of it has to do with their ability to navigate in a storm and overcome obstacles if I remember correctly. There might have been something about the connection between physical and spiritual realms which would be interesting given the premise of this show. Like a bridge or messenger between the two. I don't know what they typically means in S. Korea though. I'll dive into that later.

Yeowoon says he should've brought shrimp chips. They're not my favorite, but my sous chef loves shrimp chips.

Oh. We're feeding them to the seagulls? I mean, they'll eat it. It's a fun experience for the human. It probably doesn't give them the nutrients they need.

Myungha asks if Yeowoon likes the sea. Yeowoon says he likes the mountains more. I love them both, but I live closer to the mountains. I've asked my kids this question before. One chose sea. One chose mountains. One chose "Wherever Uncle Zach is". Yeah, I'm not the only one who thinks my brother is awesome.

They're planning to climb mountains. Yeowoon wants to climb "Kongryung". Based on Myungha's reaction, that must be a hard climb. Based on Yeowoon's reaction, I'm guessing it's a long one. "I'm happy to be with you." Myungha doesn't seem sure how to process that.

Yeowoon asks if Myungha has been here before.

This feels like a lie. It's going to be interesting if lying becomes a thing for Myungha. Well-intentioned lies. But lies nonetheless. It might not be a lie though. That's just my gut talking.

They're planning on going to a clam kal-guksu place. I enjoy noodle soups, but I've never had clams in any capacity. They're not very common here. I have dissected one and done an experiment on heart rate for a class though. Not important.

Apparently, Yeowoon doesn't like seafood. And Myungha slips up. He's using information from the manuscript. Yeowoon is rightfully perplexed and then amused that Myungha knows this about him.

"Sometimes it feels like you're someone that knows me."

Yeah, that's probably going to hurt when he realizes Myungha has known about him all along.

All of Yeowoon's little smiles are killing me this episode.

Yeowoon says he now understands why Myungha likes the sea. Did Myungha say he liked the sea? I don't remember that. 🤔 It could be in an earlier episode, or I could have overlooked it. If he likes the sea though - is that why we have a water sound? Yes, I'm still stuck there. My brain is still obsessing over a sound that probably isn't even what I think it is. I curse my brain sometimes.

Yeowoon says "I've come to like it too". Cut away to them sitting on the stairs in their coordinating blue/green shirts.

There is so much I could say about that closing frame, but I know that I'm out of images. Anyways, we're halfway up the stairs. We're building the relationship. We're sitting side by side. We're equal...in this moment at least. There's no railings on this part. It'd be easy to fall off the sides.

The blue/green combo I find interesting, because it's a shift. These two characters have worn a lot of black & white. What does the shift mean? Is it part of their relationship developing or the changing levels of affection?

Is this show even color coded? I'll have to think about that. Because Sangwon also wears a white undershirt. He's definitely not a "heavenly human" type. Wait...is Myungha the ONLY one wearing a different color undershirt as part of their uniform? Is he the only one in black? I guess that makes senses. He's from a "different" world after all. But why black? Actually, Yeowoon's running outfit was in black too when he had the -100 value. So Myungha isn't the only one in black. Nevermind. I was overthinking again.

This was a fun episode. I'm loving that Yeowoon is so open and direct with his feelings. Myungha isn't there yet, but he's beginning to react. Now I just need to convince my brain that it's 4 am and it needs to just let the water sound go. IS IT WATER?!?

Don't tell me. Because if it is water, that means it's important. And if it's not water, I'll eventually realize it wasn't important.

For now, I'll just distract my brain with a more pressing question - what happened to Sangwon?

[inkskinned]

one of the things about being an educator is that you hear what parents want their kids to be able to do a lot. they want their kid to be an astronaut or a ballerina or a politician. they want them to get off that damn phone. be better about socializing. stop spending so much time indoors. learn to control their own temper. to just "fucking listen", which means to be obedient.

one of the things i learned in my pedagogy classes is that it's almost always easier to roleplay how you want someone to act. it's almost always easier to explain why a rule exists, rather than simply setting the rule and demanding adherence.

i want my kids to be kind. i want them to ask me what book they should read next, and i want to read that book with them so we can discuss it. i want my kid to be able to tell me hey that hurt my feelings without worrying i'll punish them. i want my kid to be proud of small things and come running up to me to tell me about them. i want them to say "nah, i get why this rule exists, but i get to hate it" and know that i don't need them to be grateful-for-the-roof-overhead while washing the dishes. i want them to teach me things. i want them to say - this isn't safe. i'm calling my mom and getting out of this. i want them to hear me apologize when i do fuck up; and i want them to want to come home.

the other day a parent was telling me she didn't understand why her kid "just got so angry." this woman had flown off the handle at me.

my dad - traditional catholic that he is - resents my sentiment of "gentle parenting". he says they'll grow up spoiled, horrible, pretentious. granola, he spits.

i am going to be kind to them. i am going to set the example, i think. and whatever they choose become in the meantime - i'm going to love them for it.

[timdrakesbussy]

7 y/o Sebastian: Can we turn on the night light?

7 y/o Abigail: And have a beacon for monsters to come for us? Think again, Sebastian!

[babacontainsmultitudes]

Ough guys I'm hopping on the train in less than 2 days to move to a new city this is sooo fucked up what do you meannnn

[disposal-blueeee]

from this thing lolz

ty to @cherry-207 for the idea !! XPP

vargas by zarla-s

[wonder-worker]

"[Elizabeth Woodville] was the only member of [Crown Prince Edward of Westminster's] original 1471 council not already on the king’s council and her name headed the list of those appointed as administrators in Wales during Edward’s minority. [She remained on the council after it was expanded in 1473 and granted additional governing and judicial powers]."

"In 1478 Prince Richard married the Mowbray heiress. Like his elder brother he had a chancellor, seal, household and council to manage his estates. His council, like that of Prince Edward, comprised the queen [Elizabeth Woodville] and a group of magnates and bishops, few of whom were Woodville supporters. [...] It was Elizabeth who mattered, for Richard resided with her and Rivers treated his affairs as their own."

— J.L. Laynesmith, The Last Medieval Queens: English Queenship 1445-1503 / Michael Hicks, Richard III and his Rivals: Magnates and their Motives in the Wars of the Roses

[buttercup-art]

hey

[zosonils]

Favorite pokemon glitch from the past 10 years?

oooh this is an interesting one because most of my glitch knowledge is further back than that [by which i mean i know about gen 5 softlocks i hate the passage of time]. there might be cooler ones that i don't know about but i'm gonna say the sword and shield bug where through some fuckery involving online battles and clock settings you can use an item on a pokemon in your party and then change which pokemon you have selected in this tiny window between confirming the item validity/effects and actually applying those effects. in practice this primarily means you can evolve pokemon that shouldn't be able to, such as gmax factor pikachu and eevee into raichu or any of eevee's stone evolutions, or male combee and salandit into vespiquen or salazzle via exp candy. they took transmasc azumarill from us but at least we have transfem vespiquen now

[sxtystrs]

i think being a vtuber fan is genuinely the worse thing ever because when your oshi/kamioshi graduates it's like. the worst fucking feeling ever.

neeever forgetting the time magni graduated and i got put into a depressive rut for like. months. & i feel like it's not good to feel that way but it's crazy and i do not know why it happens.

maybe because i know i'll never see them collabing with friends i like the dynamic of, or maybe there will be no merch, no more streams, no more covers, no more birthdays — it's such a weird, weird feeling. it's like all of it is just... gone. the character isn't there anymore, but the person behind it is — but yet, it doesn't feel... reassuring? you loved the character, a lot, but now you're never going to see it again officially. maybe even in fan art too because suddenly no one is drawing them again, or including them in group arts. which i have a huge gripe with, but you know, i can't control the way people make fanart.

and i understand since it's kind of because they're gone and not participating in event/drawing, but... it still leaves a bitter feeling, i guess.

or maybe i'm just not ready to move on still.

[gachaparadise]

oh god wuwa is releasing designs i legit love now. i'm fucking cooked.

[nexus-nebulae]

randomly remembering how i would Regularly damage like All of my fave dvds with how much i would watch them

[racke7]

Huh. I actually managed to finish Divinity 2 for once.