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dnpsuck · 3 months ago

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cried little girl tears at my big girl job today 👍

#i have been dealing with A LOT of grief since august #and the liam news keep hitting me over and over again #and i'm just so tired

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emangel2718 · 7 months ago

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Political rant in tags.

#Honestly sometimes I wonder if pop communism is a psyop #like #Let's take all these people with an energy and desire for change #and tie up that energy in consuming a whole bunch of media that ultimately says the same thing #and becoming obsessed with praxis #and building insular echo chambers #and shitting on anyone who wants to approach things differently #and making communist themed social media identities #and self congratulation #like it's practically the same shit that happened with feminism #and I'm just So Tired #oh and the constant emotional guilt trippy 'arguments' too #Guh I hate online activism so much at this point #I genuinely want to see positive change in the world and so many of the people who express any caring at all #dedicate so much of their energy to pointless bullshit that distracts at best and alienates potential allies at worst #and no I cannot Be The Change I Want To See In The World #I'm a closeted trans woman with chronic fatigue and barely a job at all with no local connections #The nearest place anyone wants to to organize at all is multiple hours away and not only can I not justify burning that much gas #my car has some mystery check engine issue that I cannot get resolved and I can't justify that risk either #and like #with things being as I described #What am I going to do as a single person?#*anime girl screaming while descending into fire*

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nonbinarynightcrawler · 1 year ago

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Every time I think about digging into my Fortune Backstory Documents and pulling out bits to share or turn into comics or something, something else happens and I lock that shit down quicker than my computer can load them up

#'just like astarion!'#and 'he gives me big mollymauk/lucien/kingsley vibes' echo daily in my head #literally moments ago I mentioned something small and the person I was talking to told me about another character with the exact same Thing #I suffer and this suffering is brought down wholly on my inability to come up with Original Content #i know it's petty and silly but like #the hype around astarion is legitimately part of why I've scrapped like. twelve or so comics about Fortune #on the off chance they take off like my stupid little tiktok i just KNOW i KNOW #the astarion accusations would be all anyone would talk about #and i'm just so tired #ive had a person tell me I drew my tav in astarion's shirt but i 'drew the shirt wrong'#the most recent one was 'oh cute! a wyll/astarion fankid!'#i crave a release from this horrid purgatory i have found myself in #i dont even own the game bc please leave me alone

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witchmd13 · 1 year ago

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I don't know what's wrong with me these past few days. I can't sleep but i can't work because I'm too tired. I feel jetlagged even though I've been back for 3 days now and it's a 3 hour time difference. I have a big meeting with my thesis committee on friday but i can't concentrate on finishing my presentation. I feel awful all the time.

#I'm at the library right now trying to slavage what can be salvaged but i can't focus enough to do any work #the news hasn't been very good for my mental health recently but i feel guilty when i look away #and I'm just so tired

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ohnoitsthebat · 2 years ago

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I give up. I have no more fight left in me.

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cultivating-wildflowers · 2 years ago

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#between casual political discussion with coworkers (practicing patience for me lol) and reading Jayber Crow and having garden season upon us #it's a good thing I do not often act impulsively or I'd drop everyone and run away into the woods #or I'd drop everything and buy a cow #or some chickens like my neighbors #and I know it's mostly the hormones talking but I hate it when people blindly adopt opinions without doing even the slightest bit of resear #*research #and they get angry at what they perceive as injustice without...the research #isn't it EXHAUSTING being so angry all the time?#I don't want to be like that I really don't #and I know that's the point lol #I know the whole point is to keep people idly and uselessly angry #at the world and 'opponents' and their own friends and family #and all of it amounts to so little #it happens on both sides #(I hate saying sides but you know what I mean)#on my end we've got people crying about how the world is so horrible and terrible as if humanity has just discovered cruelty #and how that must mean it's the end of the world #meanwhile I'm reading Jayber Crow and they're staring down the War to End All Wars and like???#not to diminish the State of Things but I think....I think it's always been this way #and I'm just so tired #I want some trees and a cow and to mind my own business and for people to just...chill #and to stop pushing around wheelbarrows full of rocks to create hills to die on #anyway it's 5:00 #I'm gonna go home and walk my dog in the sunshine and then eat something delicious for supper

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telemiel · 1 year ago

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i really can't keep going and keep myself alive on my own, but i think i'm always going to be alone

#i'm really just at an impasse because how am i supposed to live alone and function and keep myself alive?#i just don't think that i'm capable of doing it alone but i'm always going to be #i don't have anyone and i never will #i can't really blame people #who wants some broken and useless barely functional mess in their lives?#who wants to deal with me always falling apart and always going through another disaster?#i'm cursed and there's not nearly enough positive to outweigh all of the bad for anyone #on the rare occasion that i make a friend i inevitably become too much #i'm too damaged and i needy #no matter how hard i try to hold myself together it's never enough for someone to love me #and i'm just so tired #i'm only 26 how am i supposed to endure a lifetime of this #sometimes it's all i can do to get myself out of bed in the morning #what's the point of being diagnosed as autistic if you still don't have any support?#nevermind the crippling depression and anxiety that's currently going untreated #i'm so horribly lonely and existing is so difficult #it doesn't even seem like it's worth it #and my life is never going to get easier because i'm never going to have any help or support or guidance to get through anything #i just... don't know what i'm supposed to do anymore #it's not supposed to be like this is it?#sorry i need to dump before i scream #my day was fine but i'm exhausted and now i've come home and everything is falling apart and i'm spiraling #vent post

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lordfriendpatine · 1 year ago

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#ahsoka series bad :')))))#look there were some nice things i liked that would have been awesome in any other competent show #but i can't do it man #dave filoni doesn't deserve the pedestal y'all put him on #this show was nothing. it was nothing. i feel nothing.#star wars hasn't made me feel anything since andor and mandalorian season 1 #and i'm just so tired #y'all will hate the mcu but eat this same shit up if it's star wars #fuck. i'm gonna go to bed

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violetsiren90 · 2 years ago

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Send ya' girl some borahae vibes. If I make it through the other side of this week, it'll be a miracle.

#i'm being dramatic but damn #this one's gonna take all my strength #and I'm just so tired #anyway #dear violet's diary

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bunni-bun · 2 years ago

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#happy tuesday #i have never felt wanting to die more in my entire than now lol #i got fired from job yesterday #my family doesn't like my partner and they all told me #i feel like a failure in every aspect of my life #and i'm just so tired #i don't want to keep trying when i'm just so tired #tw suicidal ideation #cyndy speaks

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a-queer-little-wombat · 10 months ago

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I don't have a cute metaphor, but also sometimes it's jut fucking being tired most of them time and the fucking dysphoria even when I'm not.

And as a reminder, dysphoria is not a trans-only thing, body dysphoria happens in all sorts of directions.

I mean, I am bigender so yes, there is sometimes gender dysphoria involved, but honestly my body shape doesn't match my internal sense of self in *either* gender, so ... yeah.

Like, I'd really love to be able to wear a nice masc suit but there's no disguising my lumpiness. I'd really love to dress up fancy and femme but I'm short and fat and nothing looks right on me. ... and I don't have anywhere to go or do that makes it worth the effort of wearing something nice.

I don’t think it’s true at all that the reason most people dress boring is that they want to fit in sometimes you just need to accept that not everyone is obsessed with finding a unique style some people just wear clothes to avoid public indecency

#style #and also #the depression #the pandemic #because #the pandemic is not over #and i'm just so tired #and no amount of looking at fat people dressed up sexy/fancy/aesthetic/etc has budged my dysphoria

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lgbtlunaverse · 9 months ago

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The world exists in such a baffling state of simultaneous sex-aversion and sex-hegemony. Every social platform on the internet is trying to banish sex workers to the shadow realm but I can't post a tweet without at least two bots replying P U S S Y I N B I O. People are self-censoring sex to seggs and $3× but every other ad you see is still filled with half-naked women. Rightwingers want queer people arrested for so much as existing in the same postal code as a child and are also drumming up a moral panic about how teenage boys aren't getting laid enough. I feel like I'm losing my mind.

#it's bad if you want i have sex it's also bad if you DON'T want to have sex #god forbid if you're a woman in a heterosexual marriage and aren't in the mood #that's 'withholding sex' and you're clearly abusive scum who should be divorced and left without any of your shared assets.#but if you DO have sex now you're a degenerate freak plotting for the downfall of western society #i don't know what to say i'm just so tired #politics #culture #queerphobia #lgbtqia #misogyny #<it's not the exclusive source but let's be honest sooo much of this is integral to the patriarchy #patriarchy needs access to an underclass they can treat like sex objects but they also don't want them to have any human rights #so sexuality is both obligatory and stigmatized #purity culture #i'm really struggling with tagging this because most of the appropiate tags would- in a beautiful twist of irony- get me booted off tumblr

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 15 days ago

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I love you Safety Wizard.

(Inspired by @keroascrazy)

#safety wizard #wizard #Tumblr wants me to use the wizardposting tag so badly and I'm tempted. It's a good tag.#Shout out to stackedbirds for sending me the safety wizard post. Beloved mutual and beloved supplier of good wizard posts.#I will make it an open secret that I love me some good goofy wizards.#Safety Wizard has a special pizzazz that just gets the gears turning.#I like to imagine Safety Wizard began their studies as a traffic wizard. Then took some courses in roadside hazard magic.#This sparked an interest in safety magic and resulted in an eventual change of major - but the outfit stayed true to their roots.#All that said and done; The original costume is really good and I hope OP keeps up the good wizarding work.#Remember that distracted driving is extremely dangerous. Do not drive tired or in altered states of awareness.#It is always morally correct to call a friend of ride service if you have even the smallest doubt you will be a safe driver.#And *please* wear proper PPE on your job site. Do not put yourself or other's at risk!

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tyanis · 1 year ago

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Kinda feel like there's some untapped meme/reaction image potential from old horror movie trailers...

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letmetellyouaboutmyfeels · 5 months ago

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I am incredibly serious right now when I beg you all, please, and if you have Twitter or Tiktok or whatever to please spread the word: click on an author's profile on Ao3.

You want to know if an author has written more? Want to know if they're still writing? Want to see more from them? Want to know if they've written a trope or kink or sex scenario you enjoy?

Click on their name. And look at their profile.

I cannot tell you how many times in the last six months someone has read a new or newer fic of mine and said they (a new reader who has read nothing else I've done) "can't wait to see what you do next!" I've written 50+ fics and over a million words already.

"I don't know if you're still writing..." click on my profile. I am. I literally wrote a 128k+ fic for that ship last month.

"Would you ever do X?" "Please do Y!" I already did. Click on my name and look at my works.

Archive of our Own is a library. It's an archive. Not social media. It is your responsibility to fight back against the laziness that corporate algorithms have trained into you.

Click my author name. Just click it. Just click it.

Before you demand more, or ask if a writer will do XYZ, or wonder if the author still writing, or anything - click on their profile. Click on the author's profile.

I'm not trying to be mean or condescending or anything like that. I'm just exhausted. It's disheartening and frustrating to repeat myself ad nauseam, because someone couldn't take thirty seconds to do the tiniest bit of work to see if I've written lately, if I've written more for their ship, or scan my works to see if I've written what they're asking for. Please. Please. I'm begging.

Click the author's name, and explore before you ask.

#lincoln rants #I'm sorry but I'm at the end of my rope #I got a LOT of these comments on my Buddie Platonic Sugar Baby AU #acting like I was some new writer to the fandom #babes I've been here since the dawn of 2020 where the fuck have YOU been?#I am happy to answer questions! I love responding to reader comments!#but it is beyond frustrating to answer a question that if they'd literally just clicked on my author name #they would have gotten the answer to themselves #yes I have written more yes I am still writing yes I've been here longer than you have #and I don't mean that in a pulling rank/seniority way I just mean that in a could you please just CLICK ON MY NAME???#INSTEAD OF MAKING ASSUMPTIONS??? way #I'VE DONE MY TIME! FOUR AND A HALF YEARS! IN THE CIRCUS!#I'm sorry but sometimes I have to yell publicly a little #and I really do suspect this is people who are not on tumblr #so I am genuinely begging you #if you are on other social media platforms #PLEASE feel free to repeat what I have said #PLEASE I AM SO TIRED!!!

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firefrightfic · 8 months ago

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to anyone missing my writing please know i am also missing my writing

#about me #long span depression episode #plus tired #plus family issues #I'm looking after myself but I do miss just being able to get the words down #writing #right now I am also ill so that sucks #but hey #got an autism diagnosis a few months back which explains so much #oh god 10k notes

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