#and I know it won’t end here
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there’s another life waiting, right around the corner. you won’t get to keep it. but you can have it, for now.
Quiz by @vulpinesaint (i can remove the @ if u want me to!) / OG Post Inspo by @.transfemmbeatrice / SS’s and pics by me
#wild life spoilers#in light of wild life ending and us officially getting our newest victor#eee so excited to see how the fandom takes joel in#it won’t let me add the url link im gonna tweak out#i love them#joel smallishbeans#grian#martyn inthelittlewood#pearlescentmoon#scott smajor#goodtimeswithscar#cleo isn’t here despite me counting them as a winner#i js didn’t know which one they’d be!!#this is js for fun!#wild life#wild life smp#the life series#life series#trafficblr
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Do any dead outlaw fans exist on this site?
#I hope so#because here is some food for you#GOD I LOVE MUSICAL#RGRGRGRGGRGRGRGRBARKBRAK#this has truly been an incredible season#I know it won’t win the Tony#and I do think when it comes down to it MHE deserves it more#but still#I really really like this show#should I do some more mhe art next?#dead outlaw#dead outlaw musical#dead outlaw fanart#DE musical#mhe#maybe happy ending#mhe musical#broadway#broadway fanart#broadway musicals#Broadway musical#Tony awards#theater#theater fanart#theatre fanart
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and if i made a comic about them making a blog for the weird demon dog they found in the woods just because they are being brainwashed by it and it told them they need to spread the word of what word they don’t even fucking know?
#i really won’t do it since 1 i don’t know how to make comics and 2 i don’t have time to do it and i’m busy#but i could try it maybe idk just because i’m bored and would be my first comic i guess#i don’t wanna do my finals#kino art#like it totally was smile who find them and that dog probably has another name in my au with them totally isn’t smile her name#and the first one of course to seem very convincingly manipulated was nina since it was her idea taking the dog. but also#jeff since he like it at the end even if it was a weird ass looking dog#so nina got brainwashed don’t know how because the freaking dog is weird and she said hey…#and if we made a blog for her? and jeff so weirded out and be like… why? and she’s like well i don’t know would be funny scare people#so still unconvinced smile had to dig into jeff’s brain also manipulate him and be like yeah alright maybe we should#so they went kill some college student stole their car and stuffs. they aren’t the most intelligent killers#oh but nina knows how to drive. jeff no won’t even try because he knows he would drive them both to their deaths. he so would#so yeah nina does know (kinda) how to drive so it’s all cool. jeff gets to use the stolen computer and don’t care if he deletes everything#and same for the phone but since he never got an iphone or any advanced phone nina teaches him how to use the new stolen phone#so uhhhh yeah got a bit far from that. they hacked the computer (they didn’t it was their luck it didn’t have a password)#so their dumbasses were like wait… what we were gonna do and then was like oh yeah! the blog!#they went back to the freaking dog took a very ugly picture in some abandoned house they will stay there for a while#since they were homeless for now. anyways took the picture of the demon dog and used it for#their blog and yeah did it scare some people thinking wow that’s a good photoshop but no one knew was a real haunted picture#and jeff be like hey… let’s send the photo to scare the friends of the person we killed and both they be like hehe alright that’s funny#at the end well they did enjoy making the stupid blog and scaring people with the picture they thought it wasn’t real and just a bad prank#from the… real demon dog they literally own (in reverse the roles here to be honest but they are stupid they don’t know)#while not knowing what even is that picture causing around the internet aaand… probably just probably they cursed to death some people#but for now they are too happy they have a job at least. with smile just watching them#lol this is too stupid WHATEVR#i would be a happy child in me while writing all of this shit in class idgaf#creepypasta#jeff the killer#nina the killer#smile dog
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WIFEY IS BACK 🥳🥳🥳
#Nevermore#Nevermore Webtoon#Webtoon#Omg omgomgogmgomgomg Lenore is back#I’ve missed her so much y’all don’t even know#Getting just like the taste of her in episode 114 was such a tease I wanted to voice her for more than like 2 lines#But now we’re in the arccc we’ll be with her Bee and Morella all monthhhh#Love the tone and colors of this episode very very cool feeling#Lenore bumping into them shot very cute#Pacing of this episode ough it felt so right#SO MANY ORBS OMG THEY’RE ALL DEAD THAT’S SO SAD#Oop the sneak peak RnF gave us#Is something about Lenore special that the orbs love swirling around her like that does Annabel have that too#OH NO DEAD GIRLLLL LOOKING LIKE ANNABEL NOOOO#WITH THE HEART IMPALE TOO THAT’S DIRTY AAAAAAAAAA#LENORE’S SHAKING OMG WWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAHHAAHHAH#Lenore thought monologue again my beloved#BANGER ENDING LINE AAAAAAAAA#Fav episode in a while woo#Also just while I’m here I wanna make Sleep Token art so bad before I make any other art but drawing Vessel is so hard for me#So it’s taking so long but like my brain won’t let me draw again until I draw something Sleep Token so that’s why I haven’t made things#Also just y’know life stuff#I will try to have something soon ok bye hope y’all are well
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🚨THE MOVIE WAS REAAALLLLLLLLLLLL🚨
hypnosis mic the movie is being touted as japan’s first ever interactive movie, where the audience can influence the story with their votes!!!!! what are they voting on you ask????? the 3rd drb!!!!!!! the audience gets to choose who wins the third drb in their theatre showing, meaning there are at the very least, six possible endings!!!!!!
#this is vee speaking#will this factor into the actual drb or is this the drb????? we will find out at a later date ig lol#like deadass this is the only way we will see nagosaka win the drb lmao 😞#if this comes to los angeles (high likelihood atp lmao) i can’t wait to get one showing ever and fp wins LMAO#the language surrounding the movie tho seems to imply this is deadass the 3rd drb and there won’t be anything else#which does fall in line with what they’ve been doing with the drama tracks for this round tbh but like…… really lol???? 😭😭😭#like if i had to guess???? this is basically round one for the drb#the votes accumulated here will be the first round and round two will be the cd sales#idk if there will be a third round of voting with vr or something else but i can see them doing only two rounds#and the mid round results will be announced shortly after the movie run is over#but pls let there be a third virtual round lmao i can’t shill with movies and cds i don’t live in fcking japan 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#like that’s my tragedy i want to see all the endings esp the bat champs end#but who knows how long i’ll have to wait until the dvd comes out 😭😭😭😭😭#c: rapping boys
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dewdrop leaves
> this was written for day 3: immortality/corruption! and of course i could not pass up the opportunity to write a corrupted venti, and bard’s reaction to it <3
Though Venti does not necessarily feel the sensations such as “warmth” or “cold,” the sheer thickness of Dragonspine’s chill tries its hardest to threaten that motion. It clings to him, weaving around and through the fabrics of his clothing, wrapping his limbs. Frost dapples at the tip of his nose, extending to his cheeks. It coats his clothing, too, the material starting to crinkle, turn firmer, and rigid.
(During his flight to here, his hat had been tossed off, and his cape’s bow had been torn unevenly….. how he quite liked those….)
When he lands, sprawled out onto all fours, sinking into the snow and feeling how it gives in, the beginnings of ice fall from him in clumps, sloughing. He extends his wings, fluttering them, and watches as even more are flicked off from the action.
Going to stand, a sharp pain pulls at his chest, seeming to bounce off of the space where a rib-cage would be, before it spreads throughout the rest of him, pinpricks of blazing flares. He doubles over from it, his forehead and bangs pressing into sparkly white (his braids choosing to sprawl across them instead.)
Making the decision to fully lay his upper half onto the snow, and partly burrow there, wings folding to slide more onto his form, it—for a moment, upon the first touch—feels almost soothing. Rubs at the itchiness lying beneath this imitation flesh, one that strikes and tears and shrieks at him every passing minute that goes by. Each louder, more vicious, than the last.
Venti grimaces.
With a tremble, he pushes himself up, crawling forward to fresher snow—areas where he did not mess with. Raises his hand, watching as the deep blue (nearly a shade close to the night sky, dotted with small magentas) covering his fingers and palm reaches up, up, up, a little past his wrist, in splotches. Racing alongside the blue, is deep, fracturing golden lines and cracks, painted across in random strokes. He flexes his hand, wincing, and noting he has his talons, as well.
(There is a prickle on his back, too, where feathers begin to sprout, beneath the pair of wings he already has out.)
He huffs a breath and continues to stand, shaking off the snow when completely upright. Crouches slightly, one foot forward, stancing for a flight into the sky once more—for as much as he would like to, Venti cannot stay here, it is too close to Mondstadt still, and there is a concerning pressure building within him, one that he fears may blast away everything here.
Wings flap, he leans. Snow then scatters and sprays in various directions, from his take-off.
The corruption worsens as his journey continues—that accursed statue, but its situation was becoming harrowing—sending shocks so severe that it has his wings beating harshly to keep himself righted. Even more terribly is when the ruins of Old Mondstadt come into view, and the extra wings find this the perfect time to sprout in full, snapping out, and colliding against the ones above them.
That has him stumbling into one of the many strong currents dotted around; where he allows them to spin him in a lift, and he dips towards the ground when they let go, upon where he forces his wings to untangle, opening and catching wind. He twists, pivoting, aiming towards the ground, his surroundings a blur—and lands onto a patch in a cloud of dust. Once it has cleared, he remains in his position, sitting on his knees, hands pressed to the sides of them as he leans slightly forward.
(Belatedly, he realizes he has lost his cape, and shoes.)
Venti heaves. The pressure from before is unbearable now. The blue-gold has creeped up his arm, the splotches trailing off in fading dots when it reaches where his archon form’s gloves would end, and he presumes it is the same for his legs—though, he can feel a weight at the back of his head, half-formed, in what could only be a halo. Go and break him down to his more divine forms, why don’t they!!
Bubbling. Too much of it, his grasp on everything fraying, thinning, even as he scrambles in an attempt to keep it locked shut, fingers twisting and flailing—the threads of wind, patches of time, the weather, it slips, becoming fuzzy. A gratitude undercuts it, a vague thankfulness that the ruins have sunken enough to fit the wrath of a thrashing God, a vague thankfulness that Dvalin had been sent away beforehand, before it is overrun by the thoughts—what if this is not enough? Will they fall, to his hands, just as the tyrant had done to them? Will he lose what he has fought to protect, what he has set everything to prevail for?
He cannot lose anyone again—
His imitation heart splinters and spills, the corruption truly sinking in. His vision blurs around the edges, flashes of gold tracing them, his breaths coming out labored..
(He knew, when Dvalin had been corrupted by the Abyss, that he was hurting—if it was to this extent, he wishes he could have soothed away everything.)
Around him, the wind races, becoming erratic, kicking at any surface it can find, zipping across in uneven lines. He leans further, wings curling, and the distant sounds of this place are doused, muffled, becoming white noise—a consistent ringing, overlapping
Underneath his hands and legs, the ground shrivels. The wind grows harsher, rocks being scraped across, propelling into the air and torn asunder, the glowing crystals diminishing to mere crumbles of rock. Both the dirt and grass are dragged from the ground, plucked and ripped. The intensity continues to ramp, the noises becoming overwhelming, ringing in his ears pitching, finding that his hands have raised to grip at hair, that his wings seem to wrap around him completely as he—
As rapidly as it had seemed to start, it feels as though something grabs hold of him and yanks to a halt. Venti gasps, cut hair strands falling around him.
The winds stutter, and the ringing fades. He jerks up, hands still embedded into his hair, and finds that… the place he landed in was not so deserted. Their tree stands, swaying, waving hello.
And, that everything had truly come to a messy standstill; threads of teals dipped in a bleeding mixture of a blue-gold suspended in a whirling vortex, a few parts of the wreckage they had caused gently floating besides in its grasps. The threads are not all the same, some of them cutting in dotted lines as they zoom, some of them having their lines wavering to point it threatens dispersing, some of them are thoroughly solid, some of them are splitting into branches, teal twisting and curling, and—
And—
And…
Blue eyes blink, fluttering as if just awoken.
He rubs a hand at the right one, brows furrowing at his surroundings the more aware he becomes of them. Pure raven-black braids sway, as he swivels his head, and Venti notes with a whirlwind in his mind, that the locks have stray strands flicking out from not only the braids, but the bangs, and hair that frames the face. Windswept. The clothes, as well, are missing the tear in the bottoms of the shorts, the tops of his boots, and his right sleeve. If he were to turn, there would certainly be holes in his cloak, too.
But—if he does not have those, then how is he…?
A gale is thrown into the cliff, repeatedly, tearing apart the ground, as they respond to Venti’s dread.
His eyes widen, then narrow.
No, no, no, no, no. Stop looking at him like that.
Venti hunches into himself, talons clenching and shredding more strands of hair. The gale intensifies, lashing behind him, carving out chunks and causing the ground to rumble in its fury. He bares his teeth—wanting to shriek, to grab at his head and!!!!
Stop looking at him like that!
(Why wouldn't he?
A wind out of control? A wind that slices, destruction in every path? Why would he not back away from it?)
He tilts his head, starting to stand, and his expression shifts at Venti flinching away from his approach, the wind whipping to a higher degree with the flinch. He goes to take a step forward, the grass he steps upon having a simmering, bubbling line of a thread hovering there—and there is a quiet screeching as the threads are forced away, unraveling in spools and flinging out towards the cliffs; it has him jolting away from it, one step taken back, boots hitting the ground and kicking up dust.
His gaze snaps up to Venti’s.
(He has a fleeting thought, a moment where the minuscule inch of himself that the corruption has not touched speaks; that he should fix everything, that this mess has gotten severely out of hand, to fly off deeper into the ruins before he does something truly regretful.
But it is just that—fleeting.
Because at the attempt to follow through with the ideas laid out, the corruption rushes to overtake that last final inch, smothering and snuffing it out without regard. It halts Venti’s hands when he tries to wave them, refusing to let them budge the Bard in front of him, dark blue and gold chaining them to remain where they currently are. You do not truly want that, do you? It whispers, false care and comfort in its voice. You wish for him to stay, so here he will stay.)
That gaze of his shifts once more, briefly scrutinizing, then the ever so slightest of widened eyes, before reaching a blankness. It seems that something has clicked. He tries again, purposefully angling his path to the swirling threads, and Venti grits his teeth as he moves them away, hooking a finger round them and pulling, so that no interactions happen between them and him.
(And, how during this, he sees—for a moment—a glimmer of something magenta across his form.)
And blast it all—
Venti raises himself and situates his legs into a crouch, his wings flaring unraveling from around his form. And bounds.
He crosses the distance between the two of them in seconds. Nose mere centimeters away from his, Venti grits his teeth, watches as the other blinks owlishly at him, as if not expecting to be approached so suddenly, especially not like this, Venti poised in a manner similar to that of a cat pouncing still.
“Keep off from those,” he nearly growls, “Can you not see that they—”
Hands shoot out, to place themselves on his cheeks. Venti falters, words dying in his throat.
“What has happened to you?” He murmurs, gently tipping Venti’s head up, to the side, checking the dark-blue that has climbed up to his face, “Your teal… where has it gone? Have you always had gold?”
He swallows. A twitch goes throughout him, one that does not go unnoticed by him.
And, oh. That was what had clicked.
The words build, his tongue bubbling, bitterness and sweetness coating it. A name he has not said for centuries, a name he has kept clutched close to him, hidden in the palms of his hands, in the place where a heart would be beat.
Venti’s mouth opens, and croaks: “Cecil….?”
He pauses, meeting Venti’s eyes.
“Hello, little bird,” Cecil replies, softness in every feature of his. “Ah—I suppose you would be an angel now, hm? How much you have grown…”
The softness does not last long, his brows knitting as he thinks, a frown replacing that wondrous smile of his. His fingers trace the edges of the colors, outlining them, almost, a silent fury and puzzlement to the actions. “But, my friend—why are these… like veins? Why do you hurt? Did someone else do this to you?”
(I will hurt you, I will hurt you, you need to get away from me—)
“No one. This is my own doing, you see,” he says, offering a reassuring look, “I am not hurting at all.”
And—that is true, if partly. There is no stabbing prodding at him any more, attempting to wrench him towards the ground so he stays there. It aches most certainly, however, the wind underneath his skin thrumming as it races incessantly.
Cecil’s brows scrunch.
He steps forward to pull Venti closer, his right hand falling down to his waist, tracing a tear in his clothing, and… ah. Ah. He revokes everything he had said about snow and their so-called “soothing effects” beforehand, this is so much better than it, he curses them and nearly purrs at the feeling of his friend being a breath away from him, his touch curling into his bare skin so softly, lovingly.
Venti chases it.
All but lunging into him, Venti dives his head into Cecil’s chest, careful of the halo behind his hair—do not want to slam it against him. The rest of his body follows suit, his arms encircling around Cecil’s torso (with his hands carefully closed, knuckles pressing into the fabric of the green vest), knocking their legs together so that he can hook it around one of his dear’s, and his wings complete it all by flaring out to then snake around and envelop them both. Feathers brushing against skin and cloth with every other breath.
(The wind has gone still.)
“Oh,” Cecil gasps, startling at something, “you have six wings? I only saw four… have your limbs been multiplied, too??”
Does he? Venti thinks dazedly. It must have happened when the pain was ramping up, he could not distinguish it under all the other sensations attacking him. He had wondered how far the transformation would go—his most divine form has much more than four wings and a halo.
He does not give Cecil a response. Choosing to nuzzle into his clavicle instead, head going even fuzzier, thoughts narrowing to Safe safe safe, stay stay stay, love love love, here here here.
And—what an idea.
Cecil’s chest expands, as he inhales, exhales. It takes a moment, but he begins to reciprocate, an arm going around Venti’s back, between the middle wings and bottom ones. The other arm lifts to the space above Venti’s shoulders, near his nape, pulling him further into himself. He rubs at those places, in small, circle-like motions, and it has the God wholly melting in his arms.
“Is this alright?” He asks, “Is this helping?”
“Mmmmmhmmmm…..”
Gradually, the threads dissipate, dropping closer to the ground, and having the wreckages they carry collapse against the water around the tree, the dirt and rocks. Twist higher into the air at the end, then wobbling, and falling apart. He watches it all, a steady thrumming sounding in the air the longer he holds onto Venti. For one of them, he tests, to see; what would happen if he nuzzled into Venti’s cheek, patting at his back? The answer: it causes the threads to speed up, swooshing so swiftly, that he hardly has time to blink before the teal is fading.
Eyes wandering, they slide to—
Ah! Cannot have that, can we? Venti blocks his view with his right most top wing, fluttering the appendage to truly catch his attention, making his dear jolt in surprise. See, if Cecil is to stay by Venti’s side, then it should be away from here—the safest spot is the Tower, but he would not like that very much. Perhaps they should cross to the Dandelion Sea?
“Venti?”
“Hmm..?”
Cecil raises his hand up, to tap to the back of his head, his knuckles briefly brushing against the halo. He lets it stay there, for long enough that he can weave strands of hair around his fingers, to light tug at them—a non-serious scolding, for the blocking he did. They drop to rubbing circles on his nape after. “How are you feeling?”
Right, right—conversation happening.
He shuffles backwards, only a few inches, so that his dear is not forced to let go of his grasps—skin still tingling and fizzing with that loveliness. Tilts his head, then, to where Cecil gazes at him, a quiet concern and pure curiosity to his eyes, now.
Another wave of winds zip by them, these ones far lighter, livelier, and peppy than the others from earlier were—however, still the same mix of colors, if slightly more solid, slightly lukewarm in temperature. They swirl around them, teasing at hair and cloth, dancing in chiming sweeps and dives; that of which distracts Cecil for a moment, his hair blowing into his face, a muffled sound of a “wuh” escaping from him when it has strays loosing from the braids he wears. He shakes his head to rid of them, glaring halfheartedly.
A beaming grin tugs at him, at the sight. One that lifts the bottoms of his into soft crescents, slowly revealing how his teeth have grown sharper canines. His pupil—still a lovely teal, though, now captured around blue-gold—shines, constricting to a thin slit, as a glittering gleam dances across his gaze. He hums, unclenching his hands from fists to press the palms of them more firmly into Cecil, scraping the talons across his vest.
“Much better,” he says, a lilting, distorted pitch to it. Extends his right’s hand index finger, while he talks, to prod at his back—tracing a symbol there, one that causes Cecil to minutely shiver from it, unexpecting the action. “Thank you.”
And perhaps it is that, that has Cecil truly understand what has happened; that Venti is really not so much hurt as he is a far, far worse thing, that there is something gripping at him. Or perhaps it is the way he looks upon him, as though he were the sun, a gleeful, thrilled and eager gleam to his gaze. Or perhaps it is the way his wings gradually tighten around his form, not constricting him, yet he suddenly feels the reason they continue to be folded (and twitching, fluttering, so often) is not that Venti just wishes to hold him with everything he has.
Whichever it is, whether it be a combination of all of them, it has him widening his eyes, a near whisper of “Oh,” trailing into the winds. Winds that take the words greedily into their hands, rolling them over—winds that tell him murmurs, almost frantically, a gentle urging in the way the threads crowd further around them both, hushed jingling of bells accompanying it: stay, stay, stay, stay?
Oh.
#genshin impact#venti#nameless bard#bardven#bardvenweek2025#YAHOOOO okay tag talking time#this will go on ao3 too im gonna add a link in a reblog bc i dont think? tumblr likes when you put links in posts and i dont want to risk i#tried not to cross over into the time travel prompt so i thought it would be fun if bard was more of an illusion/manifestation of sorts#>> its really fun to toy with the corruption bc. feel like. the beginnings of ventis would be rough for both sides 😭#they’re constantly pushing the other out of the seat#so the corruption is just like frantically flipping through a book like uhhh okay you seem to like this guy a lot . here you go#(throws a vaguely shaped bard in his direction)#BUT it would be fun if it was the real one so . i tried to keep it ambiguous a bit#anyways that’s the reason why bard isn’t reacting a lot to the sky. mostly bc he has a lot of other things to deal w first ZDBDJ#and tbh venti keeps trying to keep bard from being upset 😭😭 like oops !! too many negative connotations with that rn …. lets go !!!!!#going off of dvalin it seems the corruption makes u…. feel ur emotions a lot more intensely ??? and . well .#given that venti is the king of Not Talking About Himself his are kinda going rapid fire#before kinda settling on overbearing protection. he is Scared. and this is an oddness he’s walking into#like !!! bard is free !!! despite the ending venti won’t be trapping him or caging him. but his presence is going to be very … well know#THE CORRUPTION IS FIGHTING FOR ITS LIFE. ALSO 😭😭#BARD GUY . KEEP HIM PREOCCUPIED !!! and preferably causing damage. make him sad again thanks#A WIN FOR MEEEE <- the corruption is Unaware#lantern’s writing corner#if there are any mistakes from this one to the ao3 version it’s because tumblr hates me
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I was gonna make predictions about song of the prisoners but the only one I really have is that Kazui’s song is either called “Heart” (Half + Cat) or an even more obvious term for a submissive gay man
#more detailed predictions here in tags:#I’ve already made a whole post about muu’s#I know deco said they won’t but as copiumTGE DEAD GUYS WILL HAVE SONGS ABD THEY WILL HAVE TGEIR PREVIEWS DISTORTED ABD IN REVERSE.#DECO AND THE TEAM WILL REFUSE TO ELABORATE#until maybe Haruka’s drops on his birthdayMSNIFEST GUYS MANIFEST EVEN IF ITS CONFIRMED MANIFEST#or as I expected they’re released at the presumed end of Milgram#I’ve talked about Yuno habing a baby and the baby is Mahiru before (joke)#uh fuuta’s will SLAP and use the word APPARE for his famous scatting type thing (Dan-da-dan abd DARA DARA)#still need to make a post ablit how he should be covered Cinderella#give Kazui more jazz please#ALL REALLY LONG SONGS#MIKOTOS WILL BE THE LONGEST AND BEST ONE AND HE SHOULD MEET ALL THREE OF HIMSEKVES ABD THEY SHOULD HUG PLEASE#I’m not even gonna throw out ideas for mikoto I want to be surprised#and I already have a mikoto fansong idea#I’d like to see more about the show in magic#even if it is just a metaphor#and more for the amane system truthers#and a fuuta reference#I wanna see some frightening god too#abd a shidou reference in kazui’s#I want him to be so very obviously homosexual but still denying it#man needs at least one guilty vote please#and also kinda weird and creepy#more about hinako!#kotoko is also there. more guilt about Mahiru. it’d be funny if there was more mappi in her’s then in Yuno’s#demonising es OOOH UH GIVING ALL THE OTGERS ANIMALS TOO LMAO HEHEHEHEUGHGH#new es song please#milgram#kazui mukuhara
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Job searching sends me between euphoria at all the new things I can explore! And then just the most miserable pathetic begging and pleading worthlessness of all time.
Can’t help but remember my senior year job fair in college which I helped ORGANIZE by the way and I had fabulous grades, I met with all the reps that came and gave them tours and answered their questions and brought them refreshments and my classmates ended the day being offered like accounting positions and marketing positions and international market positions and the rep from cracker barrel asked if I wanted to be a hostess there on weekends when I didn’t have class. So like something is wrong with me.
#it took me so long to get my self esteem back to an acceptable level#a long string of minimum wage jobs and being fired made me feel like I had to beg to get anything and that I shouldn’t talk to people#so now I have a Non customer facing job and they treat me well#but at the end of the day I’m still a janitor and I don’t know what I’m supposed to do next#I can find plenty of openings I’m qualified for but the thing is they’re entry level and I don’t mind that I just don’t want#to feel like nothing and nobody again#it took so long#everyone here loves me bc I can do smalltalk and I’m very helpful and I’ve been a familiar face for seven years#I’m starting totally fresh from zero#and I’m glad I’m moving to a much better area near friends and love and opportunity#but work will either be amazing or make me feel like shit again#BUT THEN you will catch me two seconds later going#🥺 wow I could be a school lunch server wrow ‼️ I could answer phones for eight hours at a desk and then go home? jackpot#I could do adoptions at the humane society omg#I could do after school programs for kids!!#I could do a lot of things that sound rly fun and good for me but won’t pay the bills
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as someone who’s never liked timsteph i find it so funny that i just accidentally talked myself into a revrob au of them. revrob au where war games happens, steph (~15) gets captured & tortured, except this time tim (~16) comes in to try & help but due to [unforeseen circumstances] no one comes as backup, and they’re both tortured, leading to steph’s red hood era via being resurrected somehow by arthur brown and tim’s oracle era brought on via complications due to torture.
tim’s the one person steph won’t target, and steph’s the one person tim can’t really get angry with about killing, because they get it.
#THE ONLY EXCEPTION💥💥💥 except it’s like a kinda horrifically toxic relationship#steph is pissed that tim survived & is still condescending to her via his ‘as long as u don’t target the kids i won’t interfere’ shit#and tim wishes he died instead because now literally everyone knows abt him bc he was publicly kidnapped & recovered#tim was with steph as she died and she’s very grateful for that. tim is annoyed bc she didn’t have to deal w the aftermath like he did#like they have the worlds most unhealthy relationship but also it works bc their care outweighs their hatred#& then u also get fun convos where tim can’t stand damian/b/duke saying that what steph is doing is wrong bc *they weren’t there*#tim drake#batfam#dc#stephanie brown#anyway. i have never shipped timsteph. i dont know where the brainrot came from. i’m having fun here tho#reverse robins#tim becomes a biomedical / doctor esque thing and works in r&d at drake industries 👍#he’s the one steph goes to when she’s hurt. he can’t talk anymore & he trusts that she’ll always listen to him even when she doesn’t want to#anyways. what happened here.#(tim ends up having to kill black mask to escape bc he was held there even after steph died. bc he had info she didn’t.)#(it’d be hypocritical if he got angry at her killing ppl who did bad things.)#i know tim & damian are on good-ish terms when they’re adults but that tim still is fine w steph hunting damian /b/duke#bc ‘he got his chance to chew them out. now it’s her turn.’ i have no clue about literally anyone else yet tho#thoughts
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See, I hold back when I write. It could be far angstier than it is. I could be handing out forehead kisses left and right. Forehead kisses as someone cries and bleeds after a battle. Delirious from blood loss and pain and needing reassurance. Forehead kisses when they know their squadmate is going to die. A parting gift. One last way to comfort them, to remind them they’re loved.
I’m just saying I could make things more painful than they already are.
#whump#space chatter#the bad batch#the clone wars#<- it is always about the clones my man#tears streaming down someone’s cheek#breath coming out panicked and short#whimpering that they aren’t even aware they’re letting out#and someone holding them#brushing sweat dirt and tears kff of their face#shushing them with a gentleness they rarely show#‘it’s okay you’re okay don’t even worry we’re getting you out of here’#they know it won’t happen#they know it’s the end#but they hold their dying brother and rock him to comfort him in those last moments#and when the coughing starts - spattered with blood - they place a gentle kiss on their forehead#tell them it’s okay. it’s okay to let go.#and only when the body in their arms goes completely still do they let the agony show on their face#I TOLD YOU I COULD MAKE THINGS ANGSTIER I GO EASY#why is my brain both going: write this about echo and Rex while also going bUT WOULDNT THIS BE PAINFUL WITH HUNTER THO!#echo holding Rex#echo holding CROSSHAIR?!?!#but for some reason I am like 👀 but Hunter tho#I don’t put him through enough whump#apologies for the afternoon angst I am a Menace
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hikari’s team barely changed over the thirteen-ish years that i’ve been writing for her. i’m pretty sure the last change i made, the last pokemon i added, was long before i rejoined tumblr in 2020. lately though, i’ve contemplated giving her a female spiritomb, so this is what i have in mind.
strangely benevolent from the get-go ( but if wronged, she will still lash out and seek vengeance single-mindedly, as with most members of her species ). first encountered at night on mount coronet or route 209. she followed hikari for a few days —- kept her distance while observing her, interacted with some of the team when they demanded to know why she was so intrigued by their trainer* —- before hikari finally relented and caught her.
the spiritomb came up with her own name : yura.
her life story’s a complete mystery. however, there was this one time when she grew very, very upset over the course of a documentary that hikari was viewing about modern sinnoh, from the kingdom’s violent dissolution to the turn of the millennium. and when cynthia’s face appeared on the screen, when cyrus’s treason was described in great detail, when hikari’s heroism in opposing the latter was brought up, it only served to agitate her further. whatever it was that disturbed yura kept her down in the dumps for . . . quite a while afterwards. hikari thinks she ( or some of her one-hundred-and-eight spirits, rather ) might’ve undergone immense suffering during the war, but since yura refused to open up to either her trainer or her teammates, they chose not to pry.
she’s done alright since then. not another thing off about yura besides how capable a fighter she turned out to be from the start, putting up impressive resistance against each of her teammates when hikari sought to evaluate her. it’s almost as though she’d battled extensively under another trainer. someone near or on hikari’s level, perhaps.
cynthia still bothers her a little, but that, hikari has never been able to put forward a possible explanation for.
* “ i’m trying to figure out if she is who i think she is ” pretty much sums up yura’s response. eventually, she would reach the conclusion that hikari is not who she thought ( hoped ) she was. not even close. all it took for her to realize that was a documentary.
#[ the player on the other side :: ooc. ]#/ idk if i left good enough hints so — yura is from another universe. one in which p:la DID take place. she’s the same kid in#jubilife village who asks you to collect 108 wisps. months/years after her original trainer akari passed away#( from causes i won’t determine lol ) yura went into a deep slumber. somehow got whisked away to hika’s sinnoh. slept for a few more#years/decades/idk and then woke up and wandered. stumbled across hikari and couldn’t tell if she was either akari reborn or a descendant#( sadly hikari is neither ). the doc showing the warring clans era revealed to her that she’s ended up in an entirely different universe.#akari being dead ( along with most or even all of her team ) probably helped yura make peace with her new reality. no-one waiting back home#so being misplaced isn’t nearly as bad as it could’ve been. how similar is hikari to akari anyway besides in appearance? who knows. but if#hikari’s mannerisms are like akari’s . . . then yura probably doesn’t mind staying here at all. just had to recover from the initial shock#of realizing this is a sinnoh with a different history. one in another universe. how could volo’s lookalike be good while cyllene’s is#evil? oh well. it’s just how alt universes work. roles were swapped around and whatnot.#( yura has no idea that her original universe will eventually go through dppt’s events too ).
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the moment he remembered Emmet...
Out of all the moments to remembers... it's now...
Mishearing Ember for Emmet, subconciously reaching out to someone who isn't there. The fog surrounding his memories is lifting, returning to their original station.
I'm sure he's at the point where he's not fully there anymore. At this moment he's probably back in Unova waiting for Emmet, ready to finish off the day at the Battle Subway.
It has been a long day and he is eager to get some rest to sleep. Today he's extra tired from work. He's sure that Emmet is as well. He's so tired and he wants to rest. "Sleep" tugging at him.
The level of pain has been through the roof with this! But it is comforting that the next time he comes to be and is more clear there IS gonna be Emmet at his side along with Akari most mayhaps!
Gosh I already know this fic is gonna rip me to shreds but I'm gonna be all there for that!
And the WIPs and the way you're writing is definitely making this a ride I wanna be in until the end!
In regards to this IWLYB WIP I posted
Correct, Ingo is losing himself at the end here, probably not sure of what he is and isn’t supposed to be seeing or hearing anymore, and not being well enough to realize he should care that’s even happening. The brain is just going through everything it still has.
But man the way you phrase it, to him he is just waiting for Emmet after a long day of work and being tired and just wanting to sleep. Ohhh ow ow <;( OWW AUGH
But you are also correct in that his next lucid moment will be waking up to see Emmet and Akari. He’s got it easy past this point, just lose consciousness and wake up at the good part. Akari’s the one that’s left alone with all the hard work to get him to that point!
I’m so glad you’re looking forward to the fic and you’re enjoying the WIPs!! Thank you so much!!
#wayward’s asks#I Won’t Leave You Behind#gonna be honest for a long time I’ve been like ‘Ember’s name is so close to Emmet I should use that’ and didn’t know what to do with it#until I started writing this and went oh#once again a lot of this is what links this fic to the song ‘Curses’ by Acloudyskye#it’s got lines like#‘watch me disappear as I’m leaving here coming up with words till the end is near’#‘I’ve fallen off the earth again and all the world rushes underside’#‘Is that why? all these storms are getting worse but as I sink into the dirt I feel fine’#it feels very reminiscent of someone going numb in every sense as they lose themselves#that’s how I take it at least and apply it to this fic#I still want to do an animatic to that song#one day
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I miss the days when I would only passively check the plot of THT on Twitter, bc it was obvious nothing was going on in seasons 4/5 and I could binge the series later. Now I’m rocking back and forth bc I think I’ve become overconfident they won’t give Serena some kind of doomed ending..noooo they wouldn’t, it’ll all be fine aha

#my sister won’t let me bitch about this to her anymore so I gotta post my anxiety here#a clip came across my ig of the cast saying they don't know each other's endings because they were given separate scripts#idk why that’s making me so nervous lol ultimately they’re gonna do what they’re gonna do#and if they do something stupid so be it#I’m going to have a drink and calm down#serena joy#the handmaid's tale#queue
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Something I want to see is for Megatron to have his fusion cannon have stronger forms of blasts, if that makes sense
Like what some of his early bios refer to, where he can use an anti-matter blast, but it causes tremendous strain on him as a result

Like I want to see a Megatron who has an absolutely busted level of blast he can use, ridiculously overpowered, but it has tremendous draw backs. Like, it takes multiple uninterrupted minutes for him to charge, and he only has one shot, as afterwards he’s left unable to move for days or maybe weeks, and potentially if he has low enough fuel levels, the amount of energy taken could kill him. And possibly if he stumbles on other parts of the process it could kill him as well, by making the cannon internally explode
Like you’ve got to add a lot of checks to make sure he’s not ridiculously overpowered and isn’t just using this on the Autobots whenever he can, like it’s something he only saves for emergencies. But it’d be really cool to see him just have a crazy overpowered thing he uses on occasion, at least to me
#this made more sense in my head but I don’t know how to word it here#but you understand what I’m saying right?#I want him to have a crazy overpowered ability because it’d be fun to see#but realistically you gotta balance that which you know I can accept#I want him to be strong but not ridiculous levels like he can just use something like that whenever#overpowered abilities are only cool when they’re rarely used so they have more impact#well no they can be more common it depends but for Transformers I want it to be rare#it’d be fun to see situations where he needs to use it and all the issues that come with him needing to prepare it#mostly I want it in a scenario where the two sides have to team up against a world ending threat#which is why he uses it here (and he knows in these circumstances OP won’t pursue him afterwards)#but yeah make him more overpowered#also also in my head this crazy overpowered blast is like black with white outlines#like the Darksaber or Raven’s powers in Teen Titans#because it’d look cool and weird#anyways hopefully my explanation wasn’t too confusing and you see my vision#transformers#megatron
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Hey as an American I’m actually about to crash the fuck out.
#I’m gonna crash out#I’m actually about to crash out#what the fuck#what the fuckkkk#what the actual fuck#I’m going to be sick#I feel sick#does anyone else feel sick#I don’t even know what to do anymore#I’m gonna crash out about it#idk what to do#I feel like I can’t do anything but fucking watch in horror#because the people who could do something fucking won’t#and I don’t get that#and I’ll never get that#and I’ll never get how he was even allowed to R U N for president let alone be elected#fuck I’m actually going to make myself sick#i don’t want to be here anymore and yet there is no where else to go#I’m just supposed to live my life right now??? really??? that’s what we’re doing?? what do I do????#fuck#fuck fuck fuuuuuck#this entire fucking dangerous clown circus needs to end
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my fellow anxiety havers what is one of your mundane day-to-day tasks that should by no means be anything remarkable but feels like you are being hunted for sport. i’ll go first: putting all of your groceries on the conveyor belt during checkout is like a long series of quick time events to me
#marzi speaks#it’s bc like. you have a cart Full of groceries#there is a cashier looking to scan the groceries#there is (often) a bagger looking to bag the groceries and put them back in your cart#goal: get as many groceries onto that belt as fast as possible#REMEMBER: heaviest items go first so that nothing gets crushed when the bagger puts the groceries back in your cart#it is so stressful. move so fast ‘which of these items is gonna be heavier’ getting to the end and realizing you missed like 3 cans…#it’s even worse if there are ppl behind you. i live in texas so i can at least make socially acceptable conversation with the cashier#EXCEPT i’m already way overthinking the conveyor belt situation. i’m already frazzled#and now i gotta do small talk? oh god#on the bright side i am so fast at it it’s insane. i move faster than the cashier can keep up with#which is A Good Thing. bc that means i am at max efficiency#but like. WAAAUUGHH#and then u pay and hope the card reader isn’t gonna be a bitch#and you sit there for a moment while the cashier and bagger bag the rest of your groceries#and ur like ‘….should i help should i stay here’#tbh checkout is why i like never go grocery shopping alone if i know i won’t have self check out#bc what if there is no bagger. then i gotta balance Get Groceries On Belt. Pay For Groceries. AND Bag The Groceries#ouh god the time concerns. no . never. you can’t make me do that alone#someone handles the transaction while the other person bags it’s the only reasonable way to do it#i KNOW logically that it is not a big deal. but i hate the idea of making anyone wait for me
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