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jakelocket-heart · 4 months ago

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me realising what Frank Castle, Marc Spector, John Price, John Winchester, Logan Howlett and Bucky Barnes all have in common:

They were all in the military...

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pumpkinrootbeer · 1 year ago

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Eugene was truly the best boyfriend. saw his girlfriend get broken up with, and immediately had a revenge glow up. Imagine being Cassandra seeing your ex girlfriend's boyfriend and he's wearing a golden choker with the just deepest v neck known to man, the world's sluttiest gloves, and a thigh garter. I'd have to give up then and there.

#Eugenes season 3 outfit you will always be famous #eugene fitzherbert #tangled the series #:v #He saw cass's hot catsuit and knew what he had to do #Also just to scream abt the series bc I just finished #absolutely crazy to me that they have set up since s1 that Eugene has pretty strong identity issues and it's never really addressed?#like s3 was low-key a mess I wish they just let cass be a villain don't have her be manipulated the entire time let her choose it at least #or like I'm fine with her being manipulated but I just felt like they didn't want to go to far with her character #and it made her feel kinda weak narratively #a lot just felt rushed #and I think we should have gotten a biiit more with eugenes identity issues #bc a lot of it in that episode was just a running joke #will say.#euegene/Rapunzel really carried that series they're relationship was the best written part #I would like cass more if they let her be a bit more unhinged #Her best moment was ''will you fight for him?''#Like yess queen expand on that more #Need a whole episode of her kidnapping Eugene to fuck with Rapunzel #Also sorry you were worth fighting for is downright one of the most romantic lines in the whole show #Also it's so funny to me bc Rapunzel is so protective over Eugene like cass touches him and she's just #SHES MIIINE GET AWAY FROM HER IT'S NOT HER TIIIIME

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koipepo · 5 months ago

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Pondering the future he wishes to uproot

#my art #oc #original #woodkid #old creak #had a talk with my brother about the future & it was gut-wrenching. my mom is stable now but the future holds no promise #he asks me to really think abt who would take care of me when the worst came true. what my future would be?#and i didnt have the heart to say that i intend to not live any longer after my mom passes away #having passive suicidal ideation for years kinda uproots your everything. you dont think abt the future bc you don't exist in the future #at least thats what i thought #the idea of having to live (survive) doesnt excite me at all. it fills me with dread. i want to be uprooted. i want to be free from the dirt #and those feelings kinda inspired me to draw this i guess #woodkid isnt suicidal tho hes positive boy lol

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iraprince · 11 months ago

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Hiii, i love your stuff and kinda from a distance really look up at you for, in my perception, being able to express yourself without giving a fuck. Thats sick dude, Im so so afraid, of absolutely everything, its nice to think like i might grow into someone less apologetic of my existence. Nice to see people just being yknow

hey, thank you, this is really really nice. the secret that is probably not a secret is that i am also deeply afraid a lot of the time lmao -- but less than i used to be, and in ways that feel less stifling and self-suffocating, if that makes sense.

like, it used to be "i'm scared that if i express myself the way i want to, everyone will find me obnoxious, so let's just sand those edges down to be safe" -- now my fears are more like "now that i'm expressing myself in a way that feels natural and real, i'm afraid that it's all stupid/vapid/not worthwhile or meaningful" (<- specifically abt my art) or "i'm happy that i talk and act the way i want to now, but what if it makes me impossible to befriend," etc etc etc. which still feels bad and puts me in a funk a lot of the time but at least it's a fear that comes After/in reaction to doing stuff, rather than a fear that STOPS me from doing stuff, you know? like, it's evolved into a kind of fear that's less in my way.

anyway. i believe you'll experience something like this, because wanting to grow is the first step of growing. the fact that u hope or wish for something different means you're already on your way. to fewer fucks!! or at least distributing the fucks u give in a way that serves u better

#stuff like accepting that i'm reserved and i'm not very accessible via messages.#or that my online tone isn't very bubbly and it's weird and uncomfortable to force it.#i stop letting fears about that shape my behavior ('i'll look mean or snotty so let's force markers of Friendliness to avoid that!!') -#- and instead act the way i want to and then trade it in for new fears that come After the action.#also a good reminder to give urself is that if ur fear is abt how other ppl perceive u (as 90% of mine is personally)#u really... can't actually control that. and being very very anxious abt it all the time is usually ur brain throwing a tantrum abt not--#--having that control. bc it is understandably very scary that u don't have that control #as much as it sucks + is terrifying the truth is the only thing u can do is ask urself 'am i behaving in a way that i'm proud of'#'am i behaving in a way that's in alignment w my values + what i think is important'#bc if the answer to that is yes and somebody hates u or is deeply offended by ur existence anyway. well. literally not ur problem #but obv being at peace w that is way way easier said than done + requires tons of practice and will take. probably. years. which is fine #i am stuck with myself. i can either contort myself forever trying to be someone everyone will like and find totally nonthreatening and-#inoffensive and in the process exhaust myself totally and never feel safe or natural myself. OR #i can say okay. so i am a kind of prickly guy with stern and drab speech patterns and close to no social energy. and i think i can still be #-sexy and fun this way. and it is up to other ppl to figure out if they can agree w me on that #ANYWAY enough rambling for now. just another one of those things i think abt a lot so i have a lot of ready-made sentences abt it in mind

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mwagneto · 1 year ago

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gomens fandom having a normal one (take under the cut)

#I GENUINELY DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT THE HELL OP IS SAYING LIKE WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? WAHT DO YOU MEAN #granted i never read fanfic/go on ao3 but I've been in this fandom for five years and I've never seen any of those WYM #AND LIKE. EVEN IF ANGST FICS WERE SO COMMON THEY WERE RUINING YOUR LIFE. HOW DOES THE US GOVERNMENT COME INTO IT💀#this is making me lose my mind i feel like im dreaming what the fuck does this mean #op DON'T interact with me i have no interest in arguing or ever thinking abt this again really #just wanted to put this out into the world and then leave #good omens #gomens #also literally why are the worst takes always posts that start with ''sorry im busy adulting so this post is gonna be rushed teehee''

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shirogane-oushirou · 3 months ago

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no promises anymoooooreeeee i'll appear online when i appear online 😭 every time i say "ooh i think life is almost done being overwhelming!" it. becomes even more overwhelming in the dumbest ways. all i can manage rn when i'm not stressing myself into a shut-down state is staring at the wall while listening to youtube essays + mindlessly crocheting.

i might queue up ppls art and fics w/o commentary in the tags... i want other ppl to see what all of my cool friends have made, but i genuinely can't think right now with this monstrous brain fog. i'm really sorry, just. yeah. maybe i'll think of some way to make it up later!!! once the dust has settled!!!! but until then i wuv u and miss u. smiles.

[venting in tags including familial manipulation and ableism. i. didn't mean to write all of that, thiss was originally going to be a main blog post but. aaaaaAAAAAA!!!!!

also no need for replies or anything, i'd turn them off for just the one post if i could kjsndkn, i just needed to get things out and go eep jsjndsfdn ok bye bye bye bye!!!!]

#goddd my family finds it sooooooo funny that i can't do basic tasks! it's soooo funny that i can't even think of a horror movie to watch #on halloween bc i genuinely can't remember a single one right now. it's soooo funny that i can't take cardboard boxes or #old furniture out of my room without help bc i've physically and mentally and emotionally burnt out for Months.#and me not being able to move shit out after two (2) days makes me a hoarder somehow. and ofc hoarding is a moral failing #and my mom has to give me a stern talking-to about hoarding things... that were. again. in my room for 2 days....#[tbc it isnt a moral failing no matter the reason. life is hard and things happen and it can be hard to get rid of things for Reasons.]#nevermind them making constant snide remarks about me using ugly 'mismatched' desk / storage furniture. bc it was free / cheap? no income??#AND!!!!! i have a couple of new diagnoses. which doesn't change much day to day but it does make my family making fun of me #even more dumbfounding. like. this explains a lot of really scary unexplained symptoms that constantly leave me #housebound for weeks but uhhh haha hehe hoho??? so silly so funny that i'm barely conscious for multiple weeks???#and you can see that i'm getting worse but that makes it funnier??? hmm!!!#also nevermind that i've told them the exact reason why i've been like this (read: them) but that ALSO makes it funnier somehow.#but i also can't say shit bc they're doing something ~nice~ for me (out of convenience + after almost a decade of 'don't get comfortable'#and 'don't decorate this room bc it isn't yours' and 'you need to be ready to move out by x date'#only for the date to arrive and them to pull the 'i never said that. and if i did say it i didn't mean it like that.#and if i did mean it like that i don't anymore.' card. + any big renovations are things they wanted anyway. hmmmm!!#and how i have to do all of the phys labor alone bc if i ask for help i get made fun of!!! and yelled at that i'm doing things Wrong #(hint: i'm following instructions to the letter but. my family knows better than those silly things!! ^^ ))#jfc i sure did rant. uh. yeah. things. are really weird and uncomfy and i feel thankful that i finally can have my own things on display #outside of closets and bins again after a decade?? but i'm also waiting for the other shoe to drop / them to tell me i owe them in #some way??? bc that's how it works. 'i'm doing a nice thing you didn't even ask me for so now you have to do whatever i tell you to.'#meanwhile i can't even maladaptive daydream my way through it bc my brain is soup right now. can't remember basic things abt #my interests bc i've been on negative battery / spoons for a couple of months straight and it's only getting worse.#OKAY TLDR i'm not in a state to do anything until everything irl gets settled. and i'm trying So Hard to get it all over with but there's #only so much i can do in a day before i completely shut down. i didn't even get into the insurance stuff i've been fighting too ughhhh.#so if i show up on here in short spurts -- hi! bye! hi!! i wuv and care u!!! hope youre well mwah mwah!!!!!!! i'll post what i can and then #disappear when i need to recharge. it is what it is. i need to try to sleep now... uh if this post disappears when i wake up.... yeah......#📌 [ my posts. ]#💭 [ my thoughts. ]#vent -

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thekittyokat · 2 months ago

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most if not all of the saw art/fic i've made so far have been rly lighthearted and kind of silly or soft and i hope that doesn't reflect like i don't enjoy everything else because like

it's weird, i'm just not that confident in my ability to draw/write things that are more serious, but i enjoy that stuff a LOT too

i think i'm just best at making pretty unserious stuff, might just be a skillset thing

#i don't really believe in my ability to create something profound #but that's ok because i really like thinking abt the saw cast in a slapstick cartoon #saw #cat chat #idk i'm just sharing my thoughts. i get a lil insecure bc i don't want it to seem like #like i'm IGNORING canon or that i don't know to characterize #i don't want to be accused of not understanding these guys on a serious level because i'm actually really passionate about the tragedy 😭#i just personally really like drawing soft and silly stuff #'he would not fucking say that' sort of haunts me. yeah but what if he did. come play w me in my sandbox #w/e normally this stuff doesn't bother me at all bc im aware of how cringe i am and i'm usually pretty shameless #but today i'm in a mood

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sillyfudgemonkeys · 5 months ago

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Yangchen and Aang: *trying to hold onto what Air Nation qualities they have while still performing their duties* Disha, to Roku: You are a spirit of NO Nation. Me: ??????

#Dishaaaaaaaaa #dishaaaa what do you mean DISHAAAAAA #me: *trying to rip apart her psychology with like the 3 lines I have from her*#i know it's a set up for Ta Min to be like “no you're a spirit of ALL Nations! :D” but stilllll I'm stuck on Disha rn #is she trying to get him detached from all the nations? not just fire? is this a detachment lesson?#but the avatar can never fully detach.....#silly talks #it's just interesting how RoR they are trying REALLY HARD to strip away his Fire National heritage #and how Yangchen/Aang struggle to keep hold of theirs #and how Korra's during S2 takes sides #(is it suppose to be a parallel to kyoshi?)#(kyoshi tries to distance herself from her own nation on her OWN not bc someone tells her to)#(kyoshi's also special cause she had a duality going on but that's a different topic)#reckoning of roku #roku #hmmmmmmnmmm #i have to re-read RoR maybe there's something I missed but I DON'T WANT TO RE-READ ROR IT SUUUUUCKS TT0TT #funny how disha says this and then gets the damn Air Nation involved to fuck Kyoshi over #It's weird they single Roku/FN out... is it because its the Fire Nation?#and is it bc of what the FN is GOING to do? Or is it bc of Szeto?#Cause I think it's foreshadowing for the former and....I don't like it #It's not good foreshadowing. It's foreshadowing that doesn't make sense #it feels like “oh you better distance yourself from ur country now buddy! cause they're abt to do something bad!” kind of foreshadowing #instead of like “that pebble lek picked up and is the same one that Kyoshi will use to kill Jianzhu”#Like the former feels PANDERING to ATLA rather than it making sense in the story #roku salt #(i'm working on the asks I swear~!)#this just popped into my head and I-RAAHHHBAHBJFJKLDSAJF TT0TT

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llycaons · 22 days ago

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I saw a slightly obnoxious post like 'wow you realize it DOES make you feel better when you read more books and do x and y and z' and had my typical instantly contrarian thought of 'well sometimes....but some books this year I read pissed me the fuck off' but readings those books enhanced my enjoyment of the books I actually like so in a roundabout way I guess it was true..

#as much as the instant urge to find fault and nitpick in general leads to extremely annoying peoppe in the notes #being shitty to users for not thinking of every individual thing #I'm never going to stop actively thinking abt the stuff I read on here. bc it's never a bad thing to critically examine shit....#I'm not willing to just swallow feel-good posts and all. I think discussing and breaking down concepts presented is really valuable #it does go way too far very often esp when op gets harassed for making personal posts or when ppl don't understand what they read #or when they make up things to get mad at or overblow smt for the sake of arguing #but in a lot of cases it's fun and I like it. I even like the screenshotting and drowning trend #sometimes you don't need to involve op at all you just want to discuss their ideas #and you should be able to refute smt on a socmed site without getting into an interpersonal debate w the op #obviously context matters...I'm not talking abt a callout that could have been a private convo or a vent or w/e #and yes in MANY cases personal beef and an inflated sense of unnecessary rage make things extremely overblown #and contribute to harassment campaigns and social ostracization #but I'm not talking abt that I'm just saying I love disagreeing w posts I see bc I get to exercise my critical thinking and all.#which if you follow me. you know this #and I'm not immune to not thinking through smt before reblogging it either #it's um. confirmation bias. I am not immune either!#cor.txt

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chrisbangs · 1 year ago

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hello... (and bye ig 👋)

#👋😭 hi...#i haven't come on in about a month and i didn't realize a month passed by like that... i've kinda stopped using any apps on my phone #i barely even talk to my friends anymore lol 😭#i just saw my follower count this morning and realized i hit 13k and i was like 🥸 huh...#uhhhhhhh 😭 idk i wanted to say thank you i guess 🫂#i'm done with stayblr and tumblr in general 😭 this much has been obvious for a while now... i tried to fit myself back in during 5star but #i think i realized i've outgrown the vibes here and in online spaces in general... i don't really enjoy it anymore 😭 which is weird cause #i've used tumblr since i was in middle school so 🫡 end of an era some would say...#i think it sucks because i don't have the same feelings about this place or skz or anything in my life right now... i tried to ignore it bu #it's so obvious now that the entirety of december passed without me really talking to a single person / without me using social media /#without me really doing much except for like homework and assignments lmao #i think genuinely i've stopped enjoying everything i used to like and i don't know why 😭 it hit me the other day bc i don't even enjoy #pc collecting anymore which is CRAZY considering how much time and money i've put into that hobby so 👋🥸 who knows what goes on #i haven't consumed any skz content since rockstar dropped 😭 and that also feels weird to me... idk... i would say maybe i'm going through a #depressive episode but i don't really feel how i do then... i think i'm just tired like i always am and that's just how i am now .. i think #i'm just not really interested in things anymore? weird but .. yeah idk😭 if i knew what was wrong i would Fix It sndjdndkd mostly i'm just #sad because i haven't been talking to friends... i keep ignoring everyone and not replying to any texts from anyone because ????#i tell myself i will do it later but i know i won't ... idk i genuinely don't know why i'm struggling to talk to ppl anymore 😭 i've become #even more of a reclusive hermit than i already was 💀 and the worst part is i feel normal abt it #i don't feel /bad/ i just feel guilty that i'm not replying to ppl bc i don't want to hurt ppls feelings... on my end i feel Normal abt it #like i ??? is it weird that i'm so detached from everything that not even a month ago made me so happy..? that's weird right 😭 like idgi #i don't feel (as) depressed (as i usually do) but clearly ?? smth is wrong ?? like ik i'm not a clingy sentimental person but ? it kinda #makes me sad wondering if i really don't care abt ppl anymore ... but i think 😭 it's also the object permanence issues that come with adhd #not seeing or talking to the ppl i love . not doing my hobbies or seeing the groups i care abt . makes it easy to not care or forget what #they make me feel etc etc ... i get it... but idk 😭 if that's what this is . well wow it sucks ASS.. cause i feel guilty for not feeling #anything at all ... 😭 idk how to explain that HENSKDNISJS anywayyyy 💀#i came on cause i wanted to say thank you for 13k followers 😭‼️ and that i probably will not be online anymore unless i really want to say #this was a really long winded way to say i feel bad but i'm done with stayblr fr 👋🥸 i tried so hard for the last 2 years to make it feel #like home again but it stopped ages ago so 🥹 that's ok.. i still cherish my memories here 🫂 anyway thanku and sjsjsksksks bye i guess 😭#who knows maybe i'll enjoy it one day again and come back :') never know what the future holds 🫡

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the-lark-ascending69 · 9 months ago

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> be a robin buckley fan

> be lesbian

> project on robin

> look up "internalized homophobia robin buckley" on tumblr because it's cathartic

> 3/4 of the posts are about st3ddie or just about steve

#saw one in which steve was like ''no robin you don't understand! i have never been loved! i don't know how that feels like!''#i have several grips about that interpretation #going from the fact that's not true (dustin is clearly a big steve fan + robin herself cares about him deeply)#to the fact he probably wouldn't be introspective enough to voice his emotions this concisely not to mention he'd probably wouldn't take #a moment to realize he's never felt loved if that were the case. i mean. he could think that. when he's like 35 and more in touch with his #inner world. 19yo steve can't even get the hint that hitting on a girl who's already clearly taken (nancy) is wrong so like i don't expect #him to be that smart #but i can live with people having takes i don't agree with. my opinion doesn't have to be everyone else's opinion if you see steve that way #it fine #what bothered me was the fact he was saying this to a lesbian living in the 80s lmao #who tells him that 1) her whole life has been an error 2) she doesn't think he'd want to be close to her if he truly knew her and 3)#3) is paralyzed by fear of social suicide if she dares believe for even a second that the girl she likes may like her too #like i dont need people to do deep dives into robin lore and quote from memory lines from Surviving Hawkins abt robin feeling like she's #rotten inside. not supposed to have friends. feeling like something is wrong with her and that pushes people away etc etc #the fact that she's a lesbian should tell you enough abt who has the biggest chances of being loved 😭#also bothered me that it showed up when looking up posts abt internalized homophobia because?? where's the internalized homophobia therw #unless it's gay steve feeling bad abt it in an AU (as if canon robin didn't go through it)#like look im not bothered to find steve-centric content in the robin tag cos people are gonna tag her in posts mentioning her.#she's his friend.#but there are barely any posts at all about robin's internalized homophobia. like i saw 2 or 3. compared to all the steve or steddie ones #where's the love for my babygirl 😭😭#anti steddie #not really but y'know i don't wanna bother anyone #edit: the bit about there being like 3 posts on robin w internalized homophobia isn't exactly true. there are a few. but they still feel #drowned in st3ddie posts #like something isn't right here

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yurislava · 2 years ago

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now why did dazai say here he wanted to ask chuuya sth 🧐🧐...? WHAT WAS THE QUESTION SUPPOSED TO BE?! like I know it'd be probably another joke but what would he say hadn't he made that joke...

#also yk when you're scared of ur feelings / don't want the other person to know sth so you start saying sth and then stop mid sentence?#not bc u didn't realize what u were saying but bc there was some hope maybe you'd hear what you wanted to hear #or just that you wanted to live in the fake reality for a moment and imagine yourself asking that not necessarily wanting an answer #yeah that's what happened here 😍#no but tbh i think sth similar happened in ch 101 #but actually not similar ahhhh I'll make a post abt that #anyways WHAT WAS THE QUESTION SUPPOSED TO BE DAZAI I NEED TO KNOW 😭#and don't tell me it would've been a joke i listened to one too many skk songs today #soukoku #bsd #okay actually im not finished bc this is another time where Dazai purposefully acts like a person / character in love with the other #(character bc how he does that is stereotypical. like an archetype from a movie) (the Book thoughts in my head rn)#so yeah like you don't say such a think to a random person or a colleague like THE BONDDDD god #and the fact chuuya really gets scared....#remember in 15 when they first met and Dazai was like 'will you let me go... if I talk?' and then he said chuuya ought to drink more milk😐#imagine if adult!Dazai's question was meant to be 'have u been drinking milk?' with that blank annoying expression of his #bungou stray dogs

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downsteepy · 2 months ago

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can you believe ive spent the better part of several days throwing up for a 4 minute video

#i think i get quieter later in the video but i've been told that you can still hear me but </3 #i think between it being hard for me to just say things that i want in the way that i want + being afraid of making long videos for some #reason . its difficult for me to do smth like this bc yeah i can kind of spit out some cohesive thoughts within 4 minutes but also like.#i could go on for hours !!!!! i just dont think i could. my throat hurts and this was just 4 minutes worth of speaking #it's like just a weird gray area thing w this where i dont HATE it but i'm also not like 'this is my magnum opus'#it's also just difficult in general for me to talk abt this movie at length. i genuinely just like keep circling back around to 4 different #points and reiterating things and its hard to not do that.#i think i could revisit this topic with more quick thoughts 4 more times and never really truly be done. i don't know why i chose this movi #to be the first one i dump my thoughts about someplace . i just think about it a lot and how there's like.#idk inherent melancholy to it.#it's also just like a nagging thought in the back of my mind that someone will misinterpret what i'm saying so genuinely #to combat that my only defense is make it short + sweet and if someone asks somewhere for more thoughts. give them there. i dony know #if i made a directors cut of this video it would genuinely span over like 7 hours with tangents that are somehow still related. believe me #Um anyway please be nice to me. love you #Youtube

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unproduciblesmackdown · 14 days ago

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what in the. see this is why it's a good thing that multiplayer videogames especially are about having fun & being yourself like what do you mean disguised spies automatically had the speed of the disguise's class & everyone's like yea if i wasn't always going for the scout disguise i'd kill myself right now. i'd be like haha can't catch Me out supposedly the extra slow or extra fast class >:) i am a harmless engineer

#something something like ah as scout you move fast & can be allll the way over there & your line of sight is above your Visible head #devastating. sure i Always could've looked these things up but i just like figured. don't disguise as heavy or scout; a plausible limitatio #i mean i guess i always did okay as spy b/c like in random lobbies there's just more chaos factor so like. no Your Je Ne Sais Quoi is off #even in terms of like ''why would xyz class being doing abc rn'' like who can say....i sure can't like #never knew the maps much less their Strategic Points for Whatevering. rarely tried being a Real Engineer like where do i put shit #or real demo like i don't want a team to think that role is covered. it is basically not. or a soldier even when i think that was like #recommended basic / beginner role. well i never figured out how to rocket jump reliably so jot that down #heavy pretty straightforward. medic i figured out soon enough you're Mostly supposed to support a heavy lol like okay if we need one #go figure i never seemed to do well as pyro; an alright scout probably like you really can have fun & be yourself zooming around like that;#sniper i was okayish too like yeah perhaps i can lurk & take out a heavy. or get into an intractible [the snipers are fightinnnng]#spy also okayish like again w/chaos on my side sure maybe i can sabotage turrets backstab a sniper heavy medic & cloak away....#but also all this like No special abilities or weapons. i don't even have the basics down lol. what is this link talking abt trickstabbing #are they not all trickstabs lol....apparently not exactly. i am discerning it is the art of [spy backstab] plus Juking #so i guess anything but the theoretical standard Surprise Approach. ''that know they are a spy'' ''in difficult situations''#ppl listing off a bunch of Named Trickstab Maneuvers lmfao talk about kill me. good thing videogames are about having fun & being yourself #also that i couldn't play tf2 now if i wanted to. which eh i kinda do b/c the whole time it Was like yeah this'll be a mess but haha whee #again good thing that ppl theoretically can now though? vs whatever peak ''so matches are overrun w/bot players'' times #why was that a thing at all. something something Items okay. alright back at things i Can do after another Looking Stuff Up tangent #prior geological eras into Big Events on that scale into Large Insects into lol giant water bug i.e. weird but in charge of the nighttime #i'm just still arm slung around tf2 like a smissmas miracle despite it all for sure #& it really even is that rare Games I've Actually Played Myself Ever....it really is....#hey what in the disguised enemy spies can be healed too? & like for real not just Appearing to be? what a menace lmao

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100-gar · 3 months ago

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Controversial take but i watched all of jjk, in subbed, so it had my full attention 100% of the time, and i am of the opinion that it just fucking sucks.

So me and my wife were talking about it, and we were trying to figure out why people like it and we've come up short. I do not understand what's so appealing about this show for so many people. Can someone PLEASE tell me.

#yes the animation is phenominal and honestly i would have stopped watching after the first episode without it #MAPPA creates some beautiful art like just gorgeous #but the constant force-feeding of every minor character's backstory was hellish for me #had me rolling my eyes every time they did it (every three seconds)#the vast majority of characters are unlikable or bland or dead #often all of the above #choso is the only character i actively liked?? like i understand him i reallu do #i liked mahito? he's a freak so that's a given #i liked that one old guy with the weird still frames power #uhhh i like sukuna's weird obsession with ripoff sasuke #edit i member: i liked megumi he deserved better #oh i also REALLY liked nanamin or whatever his name was (it's been a while)#i think yuuji's suicide mission that he didn't think through is super interesting #alright heres my most controversial take of all #i don't care at ALL abt gojo. he's so mid there's like a million characters exactly like him #and he's UGLY why do people say he's attractive bro is UGLY A HELL #the intros are baller tho i sat through them every episode no skipping that shit #gorgeous animation as i'd expect from this studio #like! there's so many little drops of things that i liked about this show! which is why it pissed me off so much every time they did boring #ass exposition dumps on characters that are gonna die in five seconds. or worse-they are gonna live and continue to bore me to tears #and when i tell you i physically couldn't read the manga because of how fucking BORING it is #i got caught up and was like 'okay ill read the manga i kinda like what's currently happening n ive made it this far might as well keep goi #g' nah man i couldn't even read a whole chapter. jjk is king of exposition dumps #i do think the powers and how if you tell your opponent what it is it gets stronger is rad #and it drives me insane because i know they know how to drip-feed information about a character! and when they do that they do it SO WELL!!#but they just force feed you all this information the rest of the time like BRO ITS TOO MUCH SLOW DOWN AND JUST LET THE CHARACTERS DO THEIR #THING AND IT WILL BE MORE SATISFYING #anyways not tagging this because i don't wanna put hate in the main tags #just like. if you see this please explain to me what im missing PLEASE i want to like this show SO bad

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cielosuerte · 2 months ago

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something distinctly sad & frustrating internally about watching someone go through something chronically awful & similar on the face of it to your own horrors & wanting to reach out and talk to them about it to offer support & knowing that by nature of the similarity that is almost definitely the last thing they want/need & so you have to sort of watch from afar and psychically beam your words at them and hope it clicks soon

#the paradox of never wanting to be a burden. of becoming someone that doesnt annoy anyone #is that you feel guilt for talking about the pain with others #and so. you falsely but understandably think isolation will be the perfect solution #''if i isolate then im suffering but if no one hears about it no one cares and no one is bothered so i win''#is a fundamentally cruel take. is the thing. and it is so hard to accept that because of the guilt and the feeling that there is no winning #but the thing is when you isolate and suffer people are now both worried about you and feel discarded. feel hopeless. etc.#and i dont think you should do everything for others. and i think when you are making choices for others it is worth being #realistic about what you are deciding for them and knowing when it is irrational #bc the thing is people do care and that does feel uncomfortable #and you do feel guilty for people being ''bothered'' by your suffering #and i understand the instinct to say no! the point of me isolating is so you dont feel bad about me! stop caring!#thinking this is the righteous thing to say to someone when really it is just something that hurts to hear #i'm still learning it too. i'm not perfect at it. i'm chronically suicidal and always going back and forth with myself about all the horrors #two things:#1) guilt is not absolute as an indicator of rightness. learn to recognize when it is lying to you.#2) the best way to unburden yourself to others is to not kill yourself. to find hope or curiousity or whatever will keep you alive and #grab it fiercely with both hands. to start to be kind to yourself when it's hard and to at least recognize the goodness of others #instead of cruelly dismissing them. i don't think therapy is the only answer or even the best answer. i think too much is too expensive #to suggest anything that isnt something you can do on your own #and it is fucking hard and feels impossible and you'll have a lot of bad moments with it but like. i know you can get to a place where #you're not cured but you're not cruel anymore. and it gets easier from there #ugh none of this will ever get to that guy but i just really wish him the best and ill respect his wishes and not think abt it anymore #but just for the record that does hurt bc i care about people and it sucks when im not allowed to but thats his perogative and #he is his own person and i just really hope things look up for him soon bc hes cool and has nice art

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