#and I appreciate all the kindness ya'll have shown me

[insertsomthinawesome]

Okay, so I wanted to give a candid update on Whumptober: Earlier this year somebody sent me an ask about whether or not I was doing it, and I said yes. And this is still technically true. But its not going to be the same as previous years: - I probably WON'T do all the prompts - This was true last year too but it bears saying: I will NOT be posting them all during Whumptober. After discussing it I realized trying to do it this year was just. Stressing me out. There's Non-Whumptober art I want to make that i feel like I can't while i have Whumptober as an Obligation. And I'm dealing with too many other things eating away at my time. And to be honest, I've had some mixed emotions/feelings about the Event over the years. Bad habits and Cycles that I want to break. Its not cause the Event is bad or anything, its all personal stuff. And I'm still very proud of the stuff I've made for the event, and I totally hope and want people to keep enjoying the stuff I've made in the past. But for now at least, I need to step away from the Marathon and completionist format of it and just do what I want.

[falllpoutboy]

Hello guys. OG tarot reader here. i'm glad you're find some enjoyment from these. I appreciate it. This reading will be about the question I saw: why did 🍀 tell🦈she needed space and...its a lot. I saw she wanted and asked for space in previous readings but wasn't shown why because I honestly didn't ask or it was hidden. Anyway I'll start here first:

I asked why 🍀needed space and the answer is because 🦈told her about his feelings. I asked if 🦈 pressed her about her feelings and the answer was yes (Four of wands, queen of wands, eight of cups, the tower, five of pentacles) 🦈 told 🍀 "I think we have a great connection. I feel very passionate about us." Now, while I'm not a huge fan of the concept of twin flames..I will add it for those of you to understand what part of this connection is. Four of wands is the first and only card that jumped out of the deck as I shuffled on this question. (I physically pulled the four others. this is significant) The Four of Wands does represent twin flames. twin flames are two people who share a soul and are connected by an intense, magnetic attraction. I remember the 2nd tarot reader mentioned they are, in fact, twin flames. This is how 🦈 sees them. Ya'll he is in love with her. The intensity with which he feels is on another level and i'm not being dramatic, even though 🦈is kind of dramatic.

I asked if 🦈 told 🍀 he was in love, and the answer is Yes. but i'll get to that. He told her I want you. I know you want me too. I know you feel the same. (He knows this. His intuition tells him this. He is highly intuitive). However, 🍀turned away from this (eight of cups). she said no. She acknowledged her feelings, but rejected him because her emotions aren't on the same level as his. At the time of this confession occurred (before 🐍, post 🌹breakup.🌹and🦈have been on and off and i'll talk about that in another reading)🍀said I don't feel the same. This shattered 🦈. Remember I said he was on the floor with the 10 of swords? (painful ending). Her rejection shook him. It shocked him. It made him question everything he thought he knew. His world crumbled. (the tower) It left him cold. Desolate. Despaired. feeling betrayed and heartbroken. world spinning out of control. (five of pentacles). Literally out in the cold asking why is this happening?

🍀 feels so disappointed that he approached her with this. I'm hearing "dude why did you mess this up? why did you bring this up and mess up what we had going. A great friendship?" for her I had to pull 10 cards because she won't give me a straight answer lol. I won't describe all cards but the ones that give me the biggest answers (7 of wands, five of cups, queen of wands, strength, fool reversed, magician, tower six of swords reversed, five of pentacles).

i'll say this, 🍀 does have sexy feelings for 🦈. She can acknowledge that, but deeper feelings she is not touching. She feels she has lost something special to her (five of cups). Like she is sad about it. To her, the magic that they had is tainted because of this and she wants to protect herself; her feelings. She feels like he tried to catch her out there and pull her card. She feels embarrassed that he did that. She also feels really sad that she hurt his feelings. She feels bad that her heart isn't open to what his is open to. (six of swords in reverse, strength). His admission shocked her(tower) made her reevaluate everything she was trying to avoid perhaps? she knew this was coming, but it still shook her foundation. She is not willing or ready to take the risk (Fool in reverse). There are too many variables. Too much at stake for her. She can't not care about the risks like he does. He leads with his heart and emotions, she simply doesn't. She too feels despair and left out in the cold because their relationship is in a rough patch. (five of pents, six of swords in reverse).

This is sad, i know. I need ya'll to understand 🦈's personality (I pulled cards there too because I need to understand the person to know true intentions) he is not the lothario a lot claim him to be. Sure he enjoys women and has been dating a lot, but he truly is a relationship guy. It's why he dates his costars. (close, comfortable, familair. Connecting creatively with them). He is mainly the page of cups. He thrives in his environment through his emotion and creativity. He is emotionally driven. emotionally open. He falls in love. In love with love. Does not like being a lone. But he met 🍀 and getting to know her, growing closer he KNEW. he knows the connection is real. BUT he went too fast. pushed too hard. He took a risk because he's also the King of Wands. He is all intensity and that's too much fire for 🍀. At least for now because she still has to grow into her skin. They both do. ( you can tell in the way they touch each other. He's always hanging on and she's always slipping away, slowly letting her hand slip through his, letting him hold on. He always reaches for her first.)

the subconscious does not lie 🍀. I can tell you the feelings are there. as the 2nd tarot reader pointed out, she has met her match. Gathering more evidence, that speech he made at the emmys was for her. I asked and the cards said yes. (I pulled these cards two weeks ago before i found this tumblr page so I can only remember the eight of cups in reverse and the hangman). "learning to emotionally detach and a pause to change perspective" Anyway that message was clear "I want us to stay in each other's lives forever". I mean....intense.

🍀 is the Justice card (fair and balanced) Queen of pentacles (grounded and solid) and the King of pentacles (steady.stubborn, and unmovable.) I also pulled (death, six of swords upright, the devil). i'm hearing "we have to be grounded in reality" She wants to move away from something she feels could be toxic. Not 🦈 but the situation. Getting into this with him would be dangerous to her because of all the variables. She also doesn't want to be possessed by him. like it's not necessarily a reality, but it's how she feels with the devil card. I'm hearing the word "obsession" as well. It's his intensity; his passion once again. she aint ready for that.

🦈accepted her rejection. though he was hurt as hell and she knew it. His perception and acceptance came in the form of (six of pentacles, 2 of cups, the sun, 5 of wands in reverse and the 3 of swords). "I still love you. I still care. I still love you. I want you in my life no matter what. I now know you aren't ready. Things will be okay. I want harmony, even though this broke my heart." it's a bittersweet feeling for 🦈. Love confession rejected by the one. Other relationship did work out. Guess who swooped in and made him feel good?🐍

So there you have it. This was a lot of work lol. I used 3 different decks. Like I said it'll take time. They'll find each other again and it'll happen that time. They are twin flames and they always find each again.

oh my fucking god. not everything we speculated and guessed at actually being true

[sluttylittlenewsboy]

Guess what time it is ya'll? Time to appreciate my boyfriend!!!

As I'm sure you all know, me and @the-woild-is-y-erster have been together for seven months. That is 30 weeks/213 days, and there is no one in the whole world I'd rather spend that time with

If you haven't gotten to know Eel, then you are truly missing out. I have never met someone so wonderful, so kind, and so patient. For a long time, I thought that I wasn't deserving of love or care or attention, but every single day he shows me that I am worth so much more than I think.

My love, you have shown me that life is so much more than I ever ever dreamed it could be, happy anniversary <333

[sea-owl]

I got asked about my personal ranking of the Bridgerton books and I felt like it was probably time to say it. Now I will say this is just my preference, and it is just based off the books. I don't hate any of these characters, i'm not trying to start any discourse. Someone just asked and I thought why not?

1. Polin, RMB - Ya'll know these two are my favorite, I have made it no secret they are my favorite. I love my little author couple. I am a big mythology fan too so I love all the references to the Odyssey in their story such as Colin coming home to Penelope and the 10 year time span it took him to get there. She fell first, he fell harder is also one of my favorite tropes because I think it's hilarious that once the guy is in love he's in love. I also adore their personal journeys throughout this story such as with Penelope's agency and her writing as Lady Whistledown. Also Colin's journey of discovering that what he's been looking for has been there he's just never thought about it that way.

2. Philoise, TSPWL - So I come from a very blended family, adoption, step siblings, stepparents, half-siblings, full siblings. You name it it's probably happened in my family, if not my immediate than my extended. So I adore when I get to see that in books and see the characters trying to navigate those kind of family set ups. Phillip was a breathe of fresh air too after having three repetitive Bridgerton men in a row. He's not over the top like the Bridgerton brothers, and frankly Eloise, he's much calmer and has an almost silent strenth/dominance about him. Like he's happy to let Eloise take over the running of his life while he works in the greenhouse, even encourages her to at times, he'll support his wife 100%, but god help you if you truly piss this man off. Eloise's journey as well to learn to sit down and let others come to you when they're ready instead of bulldozing yourself forward is something I appreciate as well.

3. Franchael, WHWW - Again love of blended families defiantly helped push this one forward, because I also believe it is possible to find love again after the loss of a spouse. After getting past the fact that Michael shares a name with my grandfather. I love that both Michael and Francesca both felt like they were in the shadows of their families but how they went about that different ways. Now don't get them wrong they know they were loved by their family and they truly did love their families but just because someone loves you doesn't mean they can't accidentally hurt you. Francesca made herself content in the shadows, she found her joys, and in a way clung to her one family member she felt closest to. Meanwhile we have Michael making people see him by becoming the Merry Rake, but also in a way still taking to the shadows by hiding his love for Francesca. I love when we finally got to that part of the book where they finally realize that they see each other, they love one another, and that's something they want to keep to themselves, at least for a little bit. I loved that they eloped, thought it was fitting. They don't have to share their love with their families, nor do they want to, it's something just for them.

4. Kathony, TVWLM - One of the books I related to a little too well. Little fact about me I am an eldest daughter who for a time period that still has affects to this day, was basically the third parents for her younger siblings when I was roughly in my preteen and early teens. So I get Anthony's and Kate's, struggles of trying to make sure their siblings are happy and thriving. I also enjoyed their journeys of discovering that hey it's okay to want something, something permanent, for yourself. I enjoyed Anthony and Kate's rivals to lovers romance (not enemies, they were rivals and I will fight anyone on that.) They're both strong willed and competitive, which I enjoyed seeing still lasted even after marriage as shown by the second epilogue where it's revealed they have annual pall mall match.

5. Grucy, OTWTTW - Oh Gregory, you little baby himbo. Honestly, his book was probably the perfect ending to this series. Julia must've had a dart board filled with romance tropes when she wrote this book and whatever ones the darts landed on she put in, and then asked herself how can I make this more extra. Gregory honestly felt like at times he had a checklist and was determined to outdo his brothers when it came to how scandalous his road to true love would be. I liked how Gregory was a romantic, like Phillip, it was a nice change of pace compared to his brothers. Not saying the other boys weren't romantic, but Gregory wasn't afraid to let it show. Lucy was a real treat, too, being the calm to Gregory's crazy.

6 & 7. Saphne & Hyareth, TDAI, IIHK - I put these two together because honestly I could go either way depending on the vibes that day. I thought both romances were sweet at their core. Simon and Gareth having their shitty "fathers" but them going in opposite directions of how they handle it. Simon ran, and completely avoided his father. Waited for his dad to croak to finally come back. Gareth basically went fuck you to his dad, I'm going to do something you could never. Both of them also, in the way I read it at least, craving that family comfort their wives had. I also love the girls. I love the hints of how traditional, yet also not Daphne is throughout her story. She's looking to create the best life she can despite her puzzle missing a few pieces. I also adore her more non-traditional traits such as how hard she hits as said by both Simon and her brothers. Hyacinth is a riot. Like Gregory, she's basically got a checklist of trying to outdo her sisters, and she's non apologetic about it. It's also hilarious when you think about how Violet and Anthony differed when it was when the first daughter getting married vs the last daughter getting married.

8. Benophie, AOFAG - Again I don't hate these characters but this is definitely my least favorite of the books. I am grown enough to realize that my personal experience working in restaurants and hotels has probably tainted my view of this book. I have been in Sophie's shoes where a man of higher power has tried to solicit sexual favors out of me. Now it was never my direct boss or a associate of my boss, but we do get some rich business men who come in for a few days who try it, the whole getting the front desk girl to come back to the room with them thing. I can tell you they're usually drunk. It's gross. Benedict's constant pushing for Sophie to be his mistress in this book reminds me of this one guy who basically followed me around my whole shift one weekend, he's not allowed back, and if he was they know I would quit on the spot. Now once Benedict and Sophie are actually on the same playing field and treating each other as equals, I think they're cute. I admire Sophie's kindness and willingness to forgive. She's a better woman than me, because Benedict would've gotten a no from me the first time he asked and then socked in the face the second time. I would still be in jail because I would throw hands with the stepmom. Benedict's journey of getting his prevlidge checked is another that I do enjoy. He has defiantly gone through a lot if not the most self improvement in the books with his view changes around Sophie and gaining empathy towards her.

[unicornsandhandgrenades]

Hello everyone, as most of you already know 2 days before Thanksgiving I had a death in the family, came home and a day later another death. Today I am once again suffering a loss. But this time it is different. Maybe the Universe is trying to tell me something....perhaps I need to listen. I want you all to know that although my heart is deeply saddened I also have a sense of Peace. Maybe its time to begin a new chapter in my life. I've always been a free spirited girl who follows the flow of things in life and wherever the wind may blow me that is where I shall land. I have been on Tumblr almost 7 years. I have met so many amazing people here and am incredibly honored to call some of them my Tumblr family. I am thankful for this community who has accepted me and made me feel special. I have found love here and I have lost love here. But through it all I have grown. I have no regrets. My heart is full of love for everyone I've encountered. This place has become my home away from home. But it has also become my crutch. And my place to escape the things in life that I needed to face. Namely myself. The girl in the mirror.

So on that note.... I will be making some changes.

I will still be around here @unicornsandhandgrenades and @princesslovebirddaisycakes , but it will be very sporadic. I need to deal with my inner Demons and I need to figure out what's next for me in life. Messages and asks are greatly appreciated as long as they are respectful. I will be checking them.

In regards to my theme Days @daisiesandgiggles

I will still be there as always until the very end (whenever that may be) I enjoy being able to bring some joy and happiness to this community. It's always been something I've been very passionate about. This community has shown me so much love through out the years and if I have been able to make a positive impact on just one person then all my work has not been in vain.

So to reiterate.. No changes for me @daisiesandgiggles at this time . The only changes will be @unicornsandhandgrenades and @princesslovebirddaisycakes . Where I will be stepping back.

I love you all. Be kind to yourself and treasure every second of every moment you have in life with those you love. Remember the way they laugh and smile. Cherish them. For one day they will only be a memory. With that I wish to leave you all with this pic. It is recent and is one that I would like for ya'll to Remember me by.

Wishing everyone much peace, love and happiness.🌼🤗❤️🦄🌼

[astr-0n0-mical]

Today, I'll be talking about what has been troubling me for some time now...

Also, I am asking for some recommendations on some SFW series/one-shots/dabbles...

I know it doesn't make sense... so I'll be giving a trigger warning about Christianity even though it shouldn't (in my honest opinion)...

I grew up in a Mexican christian household. Since I was born, I was introduced by the word of God. At such a young age, I didn't really understand God's word, but as I grew in my teen years, I became close to him and felt connected to him, I know that people wouldn't understand that.

But when I entered into the community of Tumblr, and seeing the may fiction stories I like, from marvel and the K-pop community here was nice to welcome anyone, it felt nice and warm and welcoming, something that I had/have before but with God. But that doesn't mean I won't stop liking K-pop.

I understand that some people won't get it.

but along the years, I read and read and read many stories that contained mature content, I knew that apart of shouldn't, but I did, I always made an excuse for it, but deep down I knew it wasn't right.

But as of today, I won't be reading and interacting with any of that type of work.

Not because I think badly of the work or the author of the work as well. I appreciate the kindness you all have shown me while I interacted with ya'll either annoumously or unannoumously.

For those authors that I follow or even follow me, I'm not trying to say your writing or yourselves are bad or anything, I think, is absolutely and amazing thought out with the plots, it's the mature content that I'm giving up.

And for those who really read this through, I always wanted to say this but I felt some of ya'll would argue or want to reject it but.

May God bless you and protect you in these troubled times we are living, or you may have encountered, be patient and trust in him, you will get through it, even if you don't see it. You are loved and cherished by others, but God loves and cherishes you as well.

Thank you.

( If you want to ask questions as well, I'll be willing to answer those as well.)

[ozpins-halfway-house]

Hey, guys 👉👈 just, uh..... wanted to let you know I was having a pretty rough day today with work and classes and stuff.... wasn't expecting much of a response when I put out the first post of the day and ya'll proved me fucking wrong and flooded the ask box.

So, yeah, just wanted you to know how much I appreciated that. I love interacting with you guys here on the blog and that lifted my spirits a lot. It's kind of silly, but it really did. So thank you!!!

It's late where I am so I am headed to bed but the ask box is still open! Please, send in any questions you have, I love seeing them when I wake up, like little gifts in the morning lol. Uh.... yeah, that's it.... thanks again, guys, I really really appreciate all the support you've shown to this AU! It means a lot :) goodnight!