#and I am not ok
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Starting with nu who and working your way out from there is a weird experience
At first the Time War is just the Doctor’s tragic backstory, and it’s sad but he’s the last of his kind and has feels about it, it’s fine
And then you watch classic who and suddenly realize that oh, there’s all these people and he doesn’t like most of them but they’re all dead and gone now after being twisted by an unimaginable level of war
And then you get into the EU Gallifrey and their system is so messed up and no one is a good person but they have lives, they feel real, and they’re all going to be used as cannon fodder through one regeneration after another and there will be generations who don’t even know Gallifreyan culture because they were made only to die in the war and—
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Ok but this song is so heartbreaking and so beautiful and it gives Steven Universe and AGHHHHHH
#EVERY GOOD OMENS FAN NEEDS TO SEE THIS#THE ANIMATION IS SO GOOD TOO#AND THE VOCALS#AND NOW I'M CRYING#AND I HAVE THIS ON LOOP#AND I AM NOT OK#good omens#good omens s2#neil gaiman#david tennant#michael sheen#i'm sad#Youtube
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memory is wild
#Flashbacks are bad rn#it’s very very hard#I just wanted to put it somewhere#I don’t really understand and it’s so painful#I just keep remembering how much grief I carried as a kid but like.. in my body#and shame and worthlessness and panic#im ok#and I am not ok#healing is messy#healing is a motherfucker#but I am fucking doing it and no one will stop me#personal#mental health rant#tw triggers#delete later#my rants#i love kid me#I will not let her down
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but then you tack on anxiety with the mix and then it comes to the point where you never speak
the autism mood of never knowing when its “your turn” in a convo so you say the first word of your sentence about 5 times before you actually get to speak
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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whenever i see people draw garfield as a catgirl they always make him feminine and young. you dont understand him like i do. anyways theyre both transbians to me
[image description: a drawing of garfield and arlene from the garfield comics depicted as catgirls. garfield is depicted as a fat, light-skinned, hairy woman with short orange mullet hair, freckles, a white tank top, orange shorts, and orange sneakers, and arlene is depicted as a tall, dark-skinned woman with short curly pink hair, red lipstick, a red dress, sheer tights, and pink pumps. arlene is sitting on a countertop and looking down at garfield, who is sitting in a chair with his legs spread, picking at his teeth and smiling. the drawing is made to look as though it were a real garfield comic panel. end id]
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headcanoning Ford is a much bigger menace than Stan during highschool days but he gets away with it..
#ive drawn so much of these brothers i am not ok#gravity falls#stanford pines#ford#stanley pines#stan#young stans#my art#sorry my dum ass thought it was college..was it college?? 😭😭 im pretty sure highschool#actually...this can be college too. and stan didn't get kicked out <3333
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Writing really goes one of two ways:
1. Write 3k words in 30 minutes
2. Takes 3 hours to write 3 sentences
There is no in between
#writers of tumblr#writers on tumblr#writing problems#fanfiction writers#either the words flow through my fingers quickly or it’s like pulling teeth#if you’re called out by this post I am too it’s ok
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DEVASTATING the lyric you've been mishearing is better than the real one
#i've been listening to icarus by bastille#and for some reason my brain fills in 'this is how it feels to take a fall' as 'this is how it feels to take off all your skin'#and like fuck man#and I KNOW that’s technically not a misheard lyric but my post my rules cope#anyway my line now#also probably phrased this poorly but its ok#im allowed to be incomprehensible#as a treat#and then fuckin#from we sink by of monsters and men#the original line was 'please look away dont look at me'#and i kept hearing it as 'please learn a way to look at me'#anyway#shoving this post in the queue but please be aware that i am writing it very late at night#q
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#honkai star rail#hsr#astral express#fanart#art#artblr#digital art#i'm not tagging all of them#ok i am#march 7th#caelus#stelle#himeko#welt yang#dan heng
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Macaque spent the whole season Big-Damn-Hero-ing and was NOT happy about it xD
#lmk season 5 spoilers#lmk spoilers#lmk season 5#lego monkie kid#lmk#macaque#liu'er mihou#six eared macaque#sun wukong#monkey king#qi xiaotian#mk#li jing#anyone else find it interesting that in english the 'macaque' part of his name comes first#but in chinese the 'six-ears' part comes first? so the way he's called by name in the different dubs has slightly different vibes#i can't quantify 'em tho :/ am not a vibeologist#Macaque was this season's biggest GOAT#like he's very petty about it but he cares about mk and swk SO. MUCH.#(well ok the petty is mostly aimed at swk)#which: fair#POV: everything is going to shit and you are currently the only celestial monkey NOT being re-traumatized or gaslight by celestial beings#macaque's gonna start rolling up to beach parties with a shirt that says:#I Saved The Monkey King's Arse Several Times And All I Got Was An Almost-Hand-Holding-Moment And This Stupid Shirt#MK NOOOOOOOOO#im a fucking wreck that's their KID. he's their BOY. their little BRO HE'S THEIR KID OKAY AND THEY LOVE HIM ENOUGH TO FISTFIGHT THE GODS#which i guess is a little easier since they can win those fights actually#not explicitly shadowpeach#but oh it is there. lurking. waiting to strike#lion king reference! :D
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by popular request (one friend telling me to draw this)
#my art#ok i have a lot to tag here bare with me#electric dreams#edgar electric dreams#madeline electric dreams#2001 aso#2001 a space odyssey#halman#dave bowman#hal 9000#portal#glados#chell portal#am ihnmaims#ihnmaims#i have no mouth and i must scream#i think thats everything
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Can’t stop thinking about Ted Lasso….
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He implies she's worth building something new with, next thing we know he's wearing a more revealing outfit with her signature X doodled all over his body. Good for him!
Also, between this scene and the moment they show up in battle, they've apparently had the time to: - turn her entire lab/hideout into a blimp - cover the whole thing in giant tags of the firelights symbol, her cloud tatoos, and more - rebuild pow pow and fishbones, which were very much broken in act 2 - rally the firelights - cut and dye her hair - crop his top - pierce his ears - sew her a shark hoodie - cover her entire body in crayon drawings - accessorize their outfits - again, turn her lair, a giant airshaft, into a functional blimp
Maybe Ambessa gave her entire army the week off before battle. Maybe Jinx and Ekko were on unfathomable amounts of cocaine. We'll never know
#that opening scene shouldn't have been as funny as it was she's literally killing herself over and over. it's very very dark#and yet... hilarious#arcane#arcane spoilers#ekko#jinx#timebomb#kinda#also I am no longer in denial about the ending bc there are SOLID indicators that she's OK this is no longer copium this is facts
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feels like a good time to bring this back
#ok goodnight#make good decisions#love that this post has nearly 200 rbs and no one has started discourse in the tags. am i dreaming#<- tag cancelled someone started saying we are all n*zis#post cancelled all of yall are fucking annoying
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Wholesome Old Man Yaoi
#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane season 2 spoilers#arcane spoilers#vanco#zaundads#I AM DFHUOIU AAA!!!#OK LAST POST BUT I AM JUST SO HAPPY!!!!#LOOK AT THEM#LOOK AT THEM WHEN EKKO REMINDS THEM ABOUT THE MURDER ATTEMPT#WHATS LITTLE MURDER BETWEEN HUSBANDS AM I RIGHT#I LOVE HIS EYE
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