#an otherwise disappointing life

[dontyoufinditstrange]

Painting Of A Panic Attack Lyrics That Alter My Brain Chemistry

Death Dream

"an open mouth screams and makes no sound" "i don't know if there's breathing or not" "a still life is the last i will see of you" "my painting of a panic attack"

Get Out

"i'm in the arch of the church between her thumb and her forefinger, i'm a worshipper" "she's an uncut drug" "and for a minute i was floating dead above myself" "saw a glimmer in the dark and now i know she won't get out of my heart" "there's a name on my chest in red" "and i don't want you to get out of my heart"

I Wish I Was Sober

"we all thought that i might change as i got older" "fell down and nothing bled" "its far too late to talk so much" "forgive me i can't speak straight" "choke down the gateway drug, open the gates in came the flood" "my love you should know the best of me left hours ago" "i can't unsink the things i've sunk" "i wish that i was sober"

Woke Up Hurting

"daybreak comes with the devil's hum" "show me the door i need somewhere to go" "i woke up with dirty knees not for the first time" "i woke up hurting though i can't quite say why" "run sacred rivers up my sleeve" "i live for a beam of light" "we should pray for abduction, pray it comes soon" "plans for heaven or hell will do"

Little Drum

"i hurried home in orbit close to where i know i'm fine" "i waited for the crash to come" "too many days with too little to do" "so many days spent in empty rooms" "and then it strikes this all we've lived this long but only ever half alive" "its too late for a wasted youth" "its too late to wage a war"

Still Want To Be Here

"the perfect place may never exist" "the perfect time might be years and years away" "i still want to be here" "i would live in a devils ditch just to be near you" "nowhere to run to so we hide like mislaid infants" "fuck these faceless homes and everyone who lives in them" "i would live in a shallow pit just to be near you"

An Otherwise Disappointing Life

"i have a long list of tepid disappointments it doesn't mention you" "i don't need water i just want to wave goodbye, goodbye to an otherwise disappointing life" "i took a pain pill to scrape a hole we both could get lost in and cover love's bruise" "so lay upon me and push until its all forgotten, there are worse ways to lose you" "i have a long list of tepid disappointments and you should burn that too"

Break

"forgot to bend and now i've broken all we have" "nothings worse than realizing who you hurt" "over the edge i cant stop myself, off the ledge throwing punches" "i can't steer myself" "all over again i don't want this" "if i bend then i might not break" "if i bend then it might be okay" "can we pick up all the debris of our bitter past?"

Blood Under The Bridge

"clean out your mouth, this is not what its for" "pick up your sorrow this is not who we are" "its just blood under the bridge" "i'm too tired to fight" "watch the blood under the bridge go by" "so tie your ragged fuck-ups in a neat little knot and put it on the shelf behind the picture we bought" "i found a way to make the best of a flaw and realize its not the end its an uncomfortable pause" "and youre sick of feeling sick and so am i but its alright"

400 Bones

"400 bones crumpled in bed, i'm the only one who knows that you're still breathing" "this afternoon is one i will be keeping" "we're passing out inside a sleeping mausoleum" "this is my safe house in the hurricane" "this is what i'm living for, forever coming home" "you as my horizon line, the star i navigate by" "on absent days i will return to this place and play a silent color film within my head"

Lump Street

"though breath is warm, sex is cold" "each piece is fired inside a broken mould" "do you want more unshapely love?" "she tore his tongue out at the end of lump street" "she liked the see the blood beneath his skin" "he wore her muscles, kissed all of the bruising away" "hes a full grown man, no shoulder to cry on" "raised by wolves and they taught him to bite down hard" "scars like armor" "raised by the state but they tore it all down" "they fucked and they fought but it still felt right" "run away from these orange lump street lights" "there is life beyond the one you already know"

Die Like A Rich Boy

"i need to find somebody who can tear me away from the car crying babies and switchblade days" "i won't die in the bony arms of the state to be laid to rest in the wake of the faded town" "i can see you wrapped in egyptian threads in a marble garden, immune to the mess" "if i leave this world in a loaded daze i could finally have and eat my cake" "i want to die like a rich boy diving in a hydrocodone dream" "wanna die like a rich boy drowning in a lake that bears my name, you can die like a rich girl by me flushed and radiant with fame" "i wanna lie in a state on the tv in a golden cardboard crown" "well i found you now so tear me away from the feral street they lumped us in" "we can lose our minds at the top of the hill" "we burn cash and carry a decadent flame way in to the night and beyond the grave"

The Wreck

"we're both sinking tonight forever it goes" "as the saltwater gushes into our ships holes don't you dare jump without me" "i'm not good on my own" "there is peace beyond trouble "im desperate to meet you below the blue surface in a quiet reprieve" "it wrecks who it pleases" "the swell pulls me under come under with me" "i've got pills in my pocket"

Wait Til The Morning

"its the usual case of the only point being proven is the one that was first made" "wait til the morning" "when no one's listening anyway" "no greater good will come of it, just wait" "stop trying to change a shovel into a spade, its all the same" "no one sees the names up on the leaderboard cause no one's in the lead" "we'll burn the fiendish effigy" "we are all designed to wax and wane" "the light will come back on again"

A Lick Of Paint

"i know you're listening, i know you're there" "we get listless and worn with age" "i can see it now, theres a crack in the paint" "it wasn't you, it didn't break, but we could use a lick of paint" "it can get like that and sometimes it should" "there's medications that we can take but they kill our judgement and strip the paint" "there is time so take some rest" "don't worry too much, it can be repaired" "it could be me who's to blame, i think i need a lick of paint"

[kandicon]

I love the "he asked for no pickles" meme with doorkeay bc I've only ever seen it with Gerry being the one talking and u just KNOW it's not bc Michael doesn't want to correct the food staff, but that it wants to correct them a little too much. Gerry has to step in otherwise they'll be there for at least another hour of Michael spinning some philosophical bullshit and scaring some poor fast food worker, and while Gerry doesn't necessarily mind Michael doing that in and of itself (he knows the thing he's in love with), as the only one of the two of them who actually needs material food he would like to eat that food before it gets cold tyvm.

[stringcage]

Ok what I saw from the preview I actually really enjoyed, especially Hannah Telle's performance is really incredible and seems like the natural progression for Max as she matures... But I am starting to lose hope of getting Chloe in the game at all 😭

[sydmarch]

double exposure spoilers but the convo with the detective at Max's place really makes me feel like they aren't doing anything meaningful with whether or not you saved chloe or Arcadia bay. "seems suspicious that your best friend was shot & killed in high school and now your current best friend was shot & killed" I wouldn't necessarily agree but sure. not an unreasonable thing to say. "really suspicious that your best friend was just killed when... your hometown was destroyed in a freak storm"???? regardless of what he saw with the telescope that's just such a totally insane thing to say & the fact that max isn't like "you sound crazy what tf does freak weather that destroyed my home have to do with any of this?" makes it feel like they literally just changed individual words in the same dialogue. "Arcadia bay and Safi are NOT connected" makes much more sense as a line if it was "CHLOE and Safi are NOT connected". idk that's the furthest I've gotten but this doesn't bode well imo & makes me think they did the writing thing I was concerned about from the very beginning where whether you went with chloe or arcadia bay originally it barely changes anything. like sure I know it's life is strange & not Detroit become human im not expecting some crazy amount of totally divergent timelines but when it's something that SHOULD be of key importance to the plot & to max as a person. like this is square enix not some indie dev you think they'd put more resources into making at least SLIGHTLY divergent scenes based on that choice rather than changing single words instead of wasting time building resource gobbling winter wonderlands that kill your computer whenever you catch a glimpse of them through Max's blinds & making some entire cat rescue dlc.

[skitskatdacat63]

2005 Spanish Grand Prix - Kimi Räikkönen, Fernando Alonso + Jarno Trulli(my personal post-race highlights)

[hyunjining]

“sometimes when you’re closeted you have to do some fucked up shit” and “that doesn’t always make it ok” are two statements than can coexist

[rincewindsapprentice]

Spontaneously decided to make milk bread today c:

[fauvester]

young elim "cottagecore clutterbitch" garak-bashir and iskra "i work in my bed and any furniture outside of arm's reach of my nest would be useless" garak-bashir

[mariocki]

Le lac des morts vivants (Zombie Lake, 1981)

"Stories about the lake of the damned go back to the Inquisition. They used to celebrate Black Masses back in the Middle Ages: they would sacrifice children, which they threw into it so as to appease the spirits which otherwise rose out of their watery grave in search of blood. And we too, we've used it as an unholy grave during the war. But the soldiers we threw in were not a sacrifice... and they're coming back with a vengeance."

[caffeinatedopossum]

Yknow... I've spent so long focusing on me- what *I* want, what *my* reason for being alive is, that I think I completely forgot I can never separate my life from others- no matter where I look, other people are always at the core of what's important to me. Like yknow what? Maybe I don't want to be alive, maybe I don't see the value in life and it means nothing to me- but other people do. Other people *want* to live, for reasons that I simply don't have. And I think if me dying, or just trying to explain to explain how I think and feel even, would make that worse for someone else, then I don't want to. Because they deserve to keep the things that matter to them. Because I don't have a lot of faith in the meaning of life or hope that I'll have a happy future... but what I do have is faith in other people. Even if I shouldn't, I do and I'm not sorry for it.

[deng-yi-deng]

So grumpy today

[spider-man-2o99]

theoretically a comic run abt miguel marooned in modern marvel COULD work and be really interesting, but. like. the way it Actually Happened with ANAD sm2099 was. not an example of it working in an Interesting way, tbh. for a mid-2010s spider-man book it was... fine, and, sure, a solid enough story, i guess. but. it just never really feels like anything more to me than another Average Story to read and then forget about after, and that’s a shame. it would’ve been nice to actually See miguel interacting w/ modern characters and trying to adjust after getting displaced from both his own time and his home dimension

[thentherewasfury]

They need an anonymous posting button. I have stupid thoughts to share with my followers but I don’t want anyone to know it was ME. Just SOMEONE on your dash reciting their tales of deciding to be a hoe.

[lesbiansybelle]

Alan!

Send Me a Character

And I will tell you my:

First impression: I was first exposed to him in the JSA (2007) series and honestly thought he was very homophobic to Todd and he reminded of how my mom would talk about me being open as a lesbian. Now I know it was internalized homophobia!

Impression now: worse than I thought <3. think maybe he should be held accountable for his actions at some point. admit he makes mistakes would be compelling. go to therapy please Alan, I am begging you do that before making some torture asylum again.

Favorite moment:

I think he should get more bald.

Also when Thorn beats him up:

Also love when he's acting like a bitch <3:

Idea for a story: there is actually an honest discussion of how Brainwave Sr. traumatized him with the vision of all his friends dying and Alan's continual hurt from that & how it made him treat Henry King jr like he needed to pay for the crimes of his father and some acknowledgement that yeah its fucked to forcibly institutionalize someone in an abusive place that you fund.

Unpopular opinion: the accountability is probably unpopular among his fans lol.

Favorite relationship: Vladimir Sokov, aka, his color swapped deviantart oc, they should fuck and end the cold war <3 also just his relationship with Jay, always fun. & the dynamic with the other Lanterns, I still miss the hanging out in Guy's bar era.

Favorite headcanon: still secretly bald (jk he and red lantern are secretly married)

[crossbackpoke-check]

a doc of omega yamo being a nuisance, you say?

well…

[mashupofmylife]

really excited to finally meet my therapist in person since I started seeing him during COVID

except he forgot and was working from home today. So we did virtual therapy like usual, except I was in his office and he was at home