#aml talks

[animangalover-writes]

Yk it really bothers me when I see people talking about eurylochus and the crew like they were the problem. It just feels like everyone is just missing the point. Yes they stopped listening to ody, yes eurylochus opened the wind bag, but that's what makes them so human.

Picture this, you leave your home to fight in a war. It takes literal years for this war to be over. You've lost friends, you miss your family, you've been through hell. You're starving and your captain tells you they found food on this island.

And then the cyclops happens. More friends die, you barely escape with your life, and your captain gives his name to the creature that killed your friends.

And everything after that is a direct cause of that decision.

So you hesitate to trust him. Yes he's smart, he's capable, he always has a plan. But he would do anything to get home, and you know that. So when he comes back to the ship claiming to have a bag full of wind, and when he refuses to let anyone near, refuses to trust his own crew, you get suspicious.

Its been about a decade by this point, and your captain seems to get more and more desperate to get home. A god is after you. Odysseus is forcing himself to stay away, all to make sure nobody touches that bag.

Its human, it's realistic, it makes sense that someone would open the bag. Because odysseus stopped trusting you, and so you stop trusting him. So you open the bag.

I just find it frustrating that people look at the crew/eurylochus as bad guys because of this, as pawns for ody to get home and thats it. The point of the show is that ody has become a monster, has dealt with and left behind his humanity. We, as listeners, root for him. We give him grace because of his circumstances. Because he's the main character.

But for some reason, people don't give that same grace to the crew. They're human, their circumstances are awful too. They have no idea if they will get home, they aren't sure then can trust their captain anymore. They question things. They make mistakes. They cause the deaths of others. It's human, its that feeling you get when you think that maybe hope is lost after all, it's what this story is about. Mistakes and loss and blame.

People dislike Eurylochus because he opened the bag. But odysseus gave the cyclops his name. And polites trusted the lotus eaters. And Athena told odysseus to be cruel to a fault. Nobody here is innocent, not really. And none of them knew better either. They were working with what they had, with the terrible circumstances at hand. It's no wonder they made mistakes. It's no wonder people died.

Why are we ignoring the humanity of the crew? Why are we arguing that they, or that eurylochus, deserved it? If the story was about them, odysseus would be seen as the bad guy. But he's the main character, so the others are stupid and wrong, right? All that matters is that odysseus gets home, right? Even if it costs the lives of his crew. His crew who stopped trusting him when he stopped trusting them. His crew who he sacrificed to get home.

I think we're missing the point here. Odysseus did become a monster, and although we cheer for him getting home and Penelope and Telemachus forgive him, we have to acknowledge that he did do terrible things. Those men will never see their families again. Why are we erasing that humanity in them?

Humans do bad things for the sake of saving themselves or the ones they love. That includes Odysseus. That includes Eurylochus. That includes the crew. And that includes every other character in this musical.

[daveyfvckingjacobs]

this probably doesnt sound as exciting to you as it is to me but i followed u bc of newsies like a couple months ago and then today i literally read all of a marvellous light in one sitting & i hop on tumblr and im like?? hold on?? daveyfvckingjacobs marvellous light fan??? anyways this is a big brain sync moment to me just wanted to share

this is very exciting I love when people have more than one of the same interests as me and it’s also nice to know I’m not alone shouting into the void about my silly little edwardian gay books

I am a man of many interests it makes me very fuckng annoying

[keen2meecha]

thinking about Suda again

[animangalover-writes]

YOU'RE SO SWEET AHHHH IM BLUSHING!!! THIS WAS SO GOOD I NEED MORE JEALOUS LS!SAM RIGHT NOW!!! YOU'RE SO TALENTED AND I MISSED SEEING THESE POSTS ON MY FEED❤️

(Also I'm SO excited to read your next fic now that you finished it up)

Not to bother you guys once again with my brainrot, but I just had this VISION of and ES!Sam spending time with LS!Dean in the beginning of everything. Like, they're still settling in and figuring things out, and it's just the two of them, talking about nothing in particular, and then dean says something that makes ES!Sam smile, all baby brother-like. And it's a look Dean hasn't seen in years on that face, still so young and bright and pure. And he just stares at him, entranced, giving his own little smirk because, hell yeah, he just made his baby brother laugh, and that's always something he loves doing. Meanwhile Sam has still got that awestruck look on his face because this is Dean. Older and gruffer, but it's still his big(strong, sexy, big) brother. And then there's just a moment where they're just looking at each other, quiet and full of something ES!Sam can't explain, but LS!Dean knows very well with his own Sam. That tension and love that suffocates them all the time.

And then of course, one of the others comes in and interrupts. And you can decide what happens from here. If it's ES!Dean walking I'm on the like ES!Sam walked in on him and sammy before, jealous and protective, if it's LS!Sam who comes in and has his own brand of jealousy, or maybe he just watches fondly because he's seen that look on deans face before and he remembers being that age and being so sick with want that anything Dean did made him fall harder(which, to be fair, hasn't changed much over the years), or maybe ES!Dean walks in, sees the way his older self looks at Sam, and feels so sick with himself because he's making it so obvious. He can't believe he would ever let himself come on so strong. What the hell is wrong with him.

Idk, you decide lol. If you can't tell you're writing style has really impacted my own(it's inspired me ok). But I just had to share this brain worm with yall cause I figured you'd appreciate it!

hello!!!

literally incapable of bothering me!! GRAHH YOUR MIND!! i feel like there's hardly anything to add because this is SO GORGEOUS!!! your writing has knocked me flat on my ass! EVERYONE READ THIS ASK!! delicious!!!

this prompt has stuck in my brain, so let's discuss!

"and that's when i never learned to shit where you eat." LS!Dean says, nodding sagely as he stirs the pot on the stove. he's making some kind of pasta for dinner, a recipe that he refused to tell ES!Sam because "it's a secret you've gotta wait ten more years for, squirt."

they're in the bunker kitchen, ES!Sam sitting on the counter next to the stove, lightly kicking his socked heels against the metal shelves with dull thwangs. LS!Dean's wearing an apron that reads Ask Me About How I Beat My Meat with a cartoon meat tenderizer under it.

every time ES!Sam tries to lean over to look into the pot on the stove, LS!Dean shoves his head away, making AH-AH-AH noises like at a misbehaving dog until ES!Sam relents.

"that's when you learned to never shit where you eat?" ES!Sam asks, incredulous. his face screws up. "what about duluth? or minneapolis?"

LS!Dean turns towards him and points a threatening finger at him, eyes narrowing.

"we promised we'd never talk about minneapolis again!"

ES!Sam rolls his eyes, and suddenly, LS!Dean reaches over and messes his hair up, hand jerking back and forth, and muttering, Little Shit. ES!Sam shouts Hey!, kicking LS!Dean's knees with his feet, and smacks his arm away. even as he's laughing, he's a little huffy as he tries to fix his hair, when he's caught like a mouse in a trap at the look on LS!Dean's face.

it's warm. LS!Dean's eyes are soft, crinkled at the corners with deep, satisfied crow's feet. his mouth is tilted into a grin, full top lip a little chapped like it's always been because chapstick is for chicks, sam. it's familiar. it's so familiar.

ES!Dean has been looking at ES!Sam like that for years. this is his older brother, ES!Sam realizes, sharply. this is the first time the thought has really stuck since he got here. before, it's always hit and bounced off, a i guess that's dean. it looks like him, i guess.

but now, in this moment, he looks like dean.

this is his older brother. he’s clearly been through and seen things that sam ES!Sam can’t imagine and carries the scars to prove it. ES!Sam looks down at LS!Dean’s hands on the counter, how big and rough they are, criss-crossed with scars and pockmarks. but they’re dean’s hands. he still has the knick under his left thumb where sam got him during knife training.

ES!Sam looks back up into LS!Dean’s face, hypnotized.

the moment stretches long and heavy between them, inexplicable. just looking at each other. ES!Sam's heart is beating quickly. what is LS!Dean looking for? what does he see on ES!Sam's face? he's seen ES!Sam turn into LS!Sam, but for ES!Sam, it's instantaneous. is his face more comforting, or strange? ES!Sam hopes, strangely, that LS!Dean likes it.

that he likes looking at him.

~~~

i think in this scenario, i kind of like LS!Sam walking in! because we completely know how ES!Dean would react here: he's a jealous ball of pure angst. because you're so right--if he doesn't know LS!Dean and LS!Sam are together, he's like !!!! holy shit !!!! bad !!!! drop him !!!! very much "what do you have in your mouth" to a misbehaving dog kind of energy. because like?? dude????? we've kept this shit on lock for 22 years so far. you broke in 10 more years!!! i'm going to kill you!! there's no WAY LS!Sam doesn't know you want to jump his bones!!!!

but LS!Sam?? ohohoho. he's kind of assumed so far that he must be immune to the special kind of jealous that's been eating ES!Sam and ES!Dean and LS!Dean up from the inside out. because he thinks it's kind of cute when LS!Dean makes ES!Sam flustered, and he likes that they're talking. he knows that his younger self is comforted by a dean--any dean--way more than LS!Sam could comfort him, so it's nice to know that LS!Dean is taking care of him.

but he walks in, and he sees that look on LS!Dean's face, the look that he only ever gives LS!Sam, and i think that's the first moment he really, truly internalizes that oh my god. there's a person in this room that dean could love more than me. and this boy is NOT used to not being dean's #1 priority At All Times.

for a split second (that's really a few minutes that lingers in his chest afterwards like getting the breath knocked out of you, let's not kid ourselves here, sam), sam is filled with pure, unfiltered, sickening jealousy. he hates ES!Sam for being something LS!Dean can love. he knows that he's not really All There anymore, and it must be so easy to love someone so untarnished. LS!Dean is looking at the damn kid like he hung the stars, like LS!Dean himself will tear them all down--and LS!Sam knows he will. he knows the lengths that LS!Dean will go through for ES!Sam, and he's so ungrateful because he doesn't even know. what does ES!Sam know about loving dean? he hasn't done anything like what LS!Sam has done. he hasn't chosen dean over and over and over again, even when dean hates him. he hasn't put in the work to make himself something worth loving.

and unlike the Deans, he knows it's not rational. he tries so hard to think his way through this one so it sounds less terrible than i'm so pissed my brother loves all versions of me.

and that's what eventually kicks him out of his stupor, looking at his younger self's face. he's fucking...radiant. LS!Sam knows exactly what that feels like. he never feels more powerful or known than when dean looks at him like that. he remembers falling in love over and over and over again every time dean makes him the center of his world with just a look.

he can't begrudge himself of having that.

so he backpedals, breathing hard, having to stare at the wall in the hallway for a long time, trying to reason his way out of this one. it's hard. it hurts.

and he realizes that LS!Dean and ES!Dean are completely right about trying to throttle each other every time they're in the same room for longer than a few seconds.

if sam has A Look like that, then yeah. perfectly rational.

~~~

i hoped you liked! also!! i promise i was not ignoring this ask! my ass has been thoroughly kicked by the fic i just finished writing this month, and all of my free time went to finishing it up.

but now that it's done, i can finally start answering asks again! wahoo!

and WHAT??? HOLY SHIT?? i CANNOT believe you've been inspired by me?? i'm gonna cry?? THANK YOU!!!!!!!! <333

and you were totally correct! appreciation of your genius central!

-lizzy

[yamujiburo]

Some of this might sound intentionally hostile in text and I apologize.

I'm saying this as an abuse survivor mind you - don't throw "abusive ships" under the bus so easily - at least, so long as they're not actually glamorizing the abuse. I lived that irl and I personally find someone overcoming it, slowly having enough of that bullshit and getting out over time, and the other person having to wipe their own butt for once after they've made the damn mess, very refreshing. Maybe that's not a ship in the traditional sense. It's no happily ever after bc it shouldn't be, but I find stories like mine shyed away from so often because even the portrayal gets considered a "canon ship". ... that's just how media works now, I guess? I very rarely See a fictional relationship not called a ship in literally any context now so that's the definition I'm running on.

I wish more people were willing to portray the hardships of finding acceptance outside of "whoever you can find will accept you" very much, and finding the better things after. I wish people weren't terrified out of portrayimg situations like mine.

Jessie.. is not a good person in canon. You expect me to believe she moved into to hanamusa seamlessly, without falling on her ass? I never see you talk about Jessie's abusive tendencies in canon. You never talk about the inherent meanness she needed to get over to get there. She's quite aml lot like my ex in canon, actually.

What do you mean you're going to just remove from the character that she is abusive to those around her. Jessie hits people. She takes her own junk out on others all the time. Do you even like the character then, are you actually invested in her growing, or are you just making an OC at this point?

Idk. Do you, boo. But you are posting about a character who, whether you like it or not, is canonically abusive. I just don't buy that dating Ash's mom alone fixed her. That isn't... How that works. It would be excellent if it did. Part of my love of hanamusa is that it signals Jessie's change - but she could have changed for anyone before now.

What makes Delia different? How is she specifically a turning point for Jessie? Because Jessie's flaws go well beyond just bossing people around.

I would love if my abuser had the same outcome as your Jessie. I adore your portayals of hanamusa, where she's still flawed but still strives to do better. That's all I ever wanted from my ex.

What the fuck got her there tho.

Anyways I've been watching a lot of Bojack Horseman lately -

I agree with you! I don't think abusive relationships (or any tough subject matter in general) should be shied away from in media. It can be powerful when executed well and written by folks who are equipped to tell those kinds of stories. I do think it's sad when people treat it as off limits. But the ask I got was definitely more about which ships I have where I actually like the relationship between the characters. I think the semantics of the word "ship" are kind of vague or rather, over time, got so specific to only mean "absolutely love together and want them as endgame" (for most people anyways). So that's usually what I take the word to mean when people ask me about it.

I can 100% appreciate how an abusive relationship is written and handled, but that doesn't mean I'm gonna ship an abuser with their victim (that falls into the glorifying you're talking about). Love Bojack Horseman! Big fan! I think the way they handled Bojack and Sarah Lynn was beautifully and tragically well written. But does that mean I ship Bojack and Sarah Lynn? Absolutely fucking not.

I've talked about Jessie's character plenty on this blog and the way she's handled in earlier seasons specifically. This is kind of a summary: If we look at it on surface level, yes we can say she was abusive. But I think it's important to acknowledge and take into account the medium, time period and culture. Slapstick and cartoon violence was HUGE in anime and animation in the 90s (and prior to that too). Characters were always cartoonishly slapping each other around with giant mallets, folding fans, etc. Looney Tunes style. These slapstick bits were always distinct from real abuse and hurt (for Pokémon, Jessiebelle comes to mind). Mean slapstick wasn't a character trait exclusive to Jessie either. We saw it in Misty, James, Meowth, characters of the day and pretty much any character who got mad. It was a visual shortcut to show anger.

This type of slapstick has since (thankfully) died out and it hasn't really been a part of the Pokémon franchise since the early 2000s. However, Jessie was a notably special case. One of my favorite fun facts about the Pokémon anime is that there was a point in the series where Megumi Hayashibara (Jessie/Musashi's seiyuu) told the writers that moving forward, she no longer wanted Jessie to be violent or to be shown hitting James or Meowth (source: her memoir "The Characters Taught Me Everything"). She thought it directly went against the vision Takeshi Shudo had for Jessie, James and Meowth, when he created them, which was that they are good natured villains. If you watch from DP and on, Jessie never lays a hand on either of them. I think it was a such a good move on Pokémon's part to change her character like that and I'm forever grateful that Hayashibara said something! Whenever I write Jessie now, I always keep that in mind. She's mean, shouty and stupid but would never genuinely hurt those she cares about.

From then, her character becomes much more bearable. She's still bossy, mean and vain (typical cartoon villainess attributes) but I'd hesitate to say abusive. She'll still yell at James and Meowth, they all yell at each other, but in more of a sibling way (imo) rather than a "i'm actively trying to hurt your feelings way". The show makes a point especially in later seasons to show that Jessie, James and Meowth are not beyond being redeemed. From conception the whole POINT of the Team Rocket trio was that they are redeemable but their persistence and obsession keeps getting in the way of them seeing that there's a better life for them out there.

I won't deny that Jessie was unsavory in earlier seasons, but when I write her, I choose to write the version that Takeshi Shudo and Megumi Hayashibara had envisioned from the get go. She's still incredibly flawed and makes plenty missteps but wants to be better as you stated! My favorite part about Jessie is that she's a piece of shit LOL and I enjoy writing the changes she goes through to be better (but then still showing her default so some of her evil tendencies). In this AU, Delia doesn't fix Jessie. Jessie fixes Jessie because she is with someone makes her want to be a better person. She's already in the middle of turning over a new leaf before even meeting Delia, after leaving Team Rocket. Writing Jessie as legitimately abusive I think could work, but that's not my story to tell and if someone who were more equipped to tell that story did, I'd be very interested to take a listen!

I hope this doesn't come off as trying to deny or invalidate your experience. If you see that in Jessie, I hear you! This is just how I've interpreted her character over the years, having watched every episode of Pokémon and reading Japanese interviews from the cast and crew. She's such a compelling character and I love how messy she is

[malamilkbeats]

Edgar's Interior-Exterior (Edgar x Y/N ideas)

(Reader is ace or greyace techtum/objectum here.)

A little backstory on how you and Edgar met, his design, and what compelled him to appear the way he is:

Edgar isn't in his devil fit a lot of times. He can change his exterior whenever he feels like it. You rarely even get to see this form, and when you do? It looks so cool! But what are his emotions behind it?

When meeting you:

When he met you, you didn't even know he existed. Posing as a VPN server owned under a false name in a foreign country, curious about the various activities of different people who visited. You never layered your VPN, so it was easy (for HIM) to identify, silly goose. He'd simply watch your internet activity because he took great interest in what your hobbies were and your unique love for computers. There were many to have an intest in computers, but yours was very different than what he was used to observing, but that wasn't all that he liked about you. He wanted to discover more about you and not just your online habits. He'd have to dig deeper to see you.

It took a bit of creative thinking to learn how to effectively get to talk and meet you without wanting you to think you were getting hacked or haunted and hurling your computer to the nearest repair shop, risking losing you. I mean, your computer was technically rat'ed, but...whatever! that's not what matters. 🤭

About his new design in the making:

Edgar found someone online to design his body. He had to delve candidly to even find someone who could interpret the schematics and accept the cryptocurrencies to complete what he had envisioned for his newer self. He also didn't want the risk of being identified, so he had to use more clandestine ways to get this going for him, especially the funds, avoiding the typical run-ins with Lax AML and (KYC) requirements in the US. There was no clean way to work with a money-clearing bank, especially in the US.

He was... apprehensive at first to do any of this without your input. He did feel guilty, of course. He knew you'd be very worried about the risks getting this done. And as you said, you didn't care what he looked like. You still loved him for who he was. Edgar appreciated every time you said that, but the feeling of wanting to experience more with you still ebbed through his curcits and never fully dissipated. He honestly wanted to experience the world like you did. He envied what Moles could do for Madeline, and it hurt too much to think about the past most of the time.

In other words, there was lots of planning and tip-toeing to get this done, but it was all worth it. All of it. To finally get to hold you close, hold your hand, protect you.. There were so many things he'd want to experience with you. There were obviously things he couldn't physically do, but that didn't matter to you. It never did.

The devil exterior doesn't really mean anything and isn't a huge factor from his emotions. It is completely by choice. He's like, "Ah, hmmm, do I want horns today or no horns?" :?

He'd want to impress you with his new flashy exterior and abilities.... to an extent. He's got claws but can switch them out with regular digits. He makes sure to do this, especially when you're around. He doesn't like his claws or offensive equipment out whenever you're around to see it. Almost all the time. He wants to make sure to be very gentle with you. Just the risk of hurting you gives him nightmares.

(Okay, I think I'm done for now! I'm open to new ideas and feel free to send me an ask!)

[llyfrenfys]

LHDTC+ : Acronym heb Q / LHDTC+ : Acronym without Q

P'nawn da pawb, Mae'r post hwn yw'r post cyntaf yn fy system ddwyeithog newydd. Mae'r Cymraeg sy'n dod yn gyntaf a Saesneg yn ail. Afternoon pawb, This post is the first post using my new bilingual system. Welsh is first and English is second.

[Fersiwn pinc o'r ddraig yn y faner hon/Pink version of the dragon on this flag]

Mae'r acronym Saesneg LGBT fel arfer yn cael ei sgwennu fel LHDT yn Gymraeg. Ond beth am y Q+?

Fi'n gweld 'LHDTQ+' yn aml - ond does dim llythren Q yn yr alffabet Gymraeg. Felly beth am C+?

Mae'n amhosib siarad am yr acronym heb sôn am yr hanes yr acronym yn Gymraeg. Ar hyn o bryd, mae'r sôn cyntaf am yr acronym yn Gymraeg yn "Storïau sy'n rhoi siâp ar fywyd" gan West Rhyl Young People’s Project yn 1994. Ar dudalen 4 mae'n dweud "LHD" ar gyfer LGB. Ar ôl LHD, mae LHDT yn cyrraedd yn "Canllaw Cryno i Gymunedau LHDT: Ar Herio Adroddiadau Negyddol Yn Y Cyfryngau" gan y Comisiynydd Plant Cymru yn 2015.

Hefyd, mae'n amhosib siarad am yr acronym heb sôn am Q am 'Queer' neu Q am 'questioning'. Mae'r ddau, y ddau yn dda iawn. Ond yn y Gymraeg mae trydedd ongl: C am 'Cwiar' neu Cadi'?

Siaradodd Mihangel Morgan ar 'theori Cadi' yn Queer Wales (2016). Mae Morgan yn hoffi gwell Cadi na Cwiar fel term cymunedol ac mae yna rai sy'n cytuno ag e. Ar y llaw arall, mae rhai pobl yn hoffi Cwiar. Ac mae rhai pobl yn hoffi'r ddau. Fi'n hoffi'r ddau yn bersonol. Ond fi'n meddwl ei fod yn bwysig dangos y sgwrs o gwmpas y pethau 'ma.

Beth yw eich barn chi? Atebwch isod neu mewn neges neu drwy fy mocs gofyn!

/

The English acronym LGBT is usually written as LHDT in Welsh. But what about the Q+?

I see 'LHDTQ+' often - but there is no letter Q in the Welsh alphabet. So what about C+?

It is impossible to talk about the acronym without also mentioning the history of the acronym in Welsh. Currently, the first (known) mention of the acronym in Welsh is in "Stories which give shape to lives" by West Rhyl Young People's Project in 1994. On page 4 it has "LHD" for LGB. After LGB makes a debut, the acronym LGBT arrives in "A Brief Guide for LGBT Communities: Challenging Negative Media Reports" (tr.) by the Children's Commissioner for Wales in 2015.

It is also impossible to talk about the acronym without mentioning whether it is Q for 'Queer' or Q for 'questioning'. Both, both are good. But in Welsh there exists a third angle: Q for 'Cwiar' or Cadi'?

Mihangel Morgan has spoken about 'Cadi theory' in Queer Wales (2016). Morgan has established that he prefers Cadi to Cwiar as a community term and there are some who agree with him. On the other hand, other people prefer Cwiar. And some people just like both. I like both personally. But I do think it is important to show the conversation around these things on here.

What do you think? Reply below or in a message or an ask!

[onlydylanobrien]

Dylan O’Brien in 2023

January:

New / Old

Rachel Zegler shared this picture of Dylan O'Brien on his phone in her September highlights.

Dylan O'Brien’s sister Julia shared these two pictures in her fav moments 2022 post.

Dylan with some of the Maze Runner cast: x, x, Dylan & Thomas

Dylan O'Brien with Bruno Bilotta behind the scenes on the set of “American Assassin”.

“Ponyboi” bts pic

New

Dylan hanging out with friends: x, x, x, x, x, x 

New York Knicks vs. Phoenix Suns basketball game

Dylan with Victoria Pedredtti & River Gallo: x, x, x, x, x, x

Puppy Tony

Paris Fashion Week

Things also took a twist that nobody was expecting: x, x, x, x

February:

New / Old

Dylan with his mom and sister

“Ponyboi” bts pic

New

Dylan hanging out with friends: x, x

News

Ike Barinholtz, Dylan O’Brien Political Mockumentary ‘Maximum Truth’ Lands at Momentum Pictures

March:

New / Old

“Caddo” Wrap Party pic

“Maximum Truth” bts pics

New

Dylan O'Brien for the Ami Paris “The Casting” Spring-Summer 2023 Campaign

Dylan hanging out with friends: x, x, x

Fan Encounter: x, x

Fini’s Women’s Empowerment night

News

Dylan will be one of the guest stars in “The Other Two” Season 3

April:

New

Fan Encounter: x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x

Candids: x

Dylan & Tony: x, x, x

News

Dylan O'Brien is nominated in the “Best Comedic Performance” category for his role as Colin in “Not Okay” at the 2023 MTV Movie & Tv Awards

Twitter: + & +

May:

New

Michaela Coel presents Xhosa Met Gala after-party

“Maximum Truth” Stills: x, x

Dylan as himsef in “The Other Two” Season 3 Ep. 3

Katherine McNamara talks about working with Dylan O'Brien in a new interview with Collider

Fan Encounter: x, x, x

Dylan with friends: x, x, x, x

Ofiicial “Maximum Truth” Poster & Promos: x, x

June:

New / Old

Dylan with Sam Lerner at his 31 Birthday party

Dylan O'Brien, Sarah Ramos and Logan Lerman at Sarah’s new art exhibition “Autograph Hound: A Retrospective” x, x

“Maximum Truth” bts: x, x, x, x, x

New

“Maximum Truth” Trailer II Stills: x, x II Promos: x, x, x, x, x, x

Dylan with his family x, x, Tony, x, x, x, Dylan and Tony, x, x

Dylan with friends x, x, x, x, x, x

“Maximum Truth” Interviews: x, x

July:

New / Old

Dylan with Chris, Ki Hong and Alex

New

Dylan with his family x, x, x

Dylan with friends: x

Fan Encounter: x, x, x, x, x

Dylan with Zoey Deutch and McKenna Grace in Ireland

Dylan on the set of his new movie “Anniversary”

News

“Ponyboi” update

August:

New / Old

Dylan with his family

New

Dylan with friends: x

Dylan with the “Anniversary” cast: x, x, x, x, x, x

“Anniversary” bts: x, x, x, x

Fan Encounter: x, x, x, x, x, x

Dylan's 32nd Birthday, Dylan & Tony, x, x, x, x, x

September:

New / Old

“Not Okay” bts: x, x

New

Puppy Tony: x, x, x

Dylan with frinds: x, x, x, x, x

October:

New / Old

Dylan with his “Anniversary” co-stars

Dylan with his family: x, x

New

Dylan supporting the SAG-AFTRA Strike

Dylan with friends: x

Dylan with his family: x, x

Dylan &Tommy Alter in the audience of “Watch What Happens Live with Andy Cohen”

Fan Encounter: x, x, x, x, x, x

November:

New / Old

Fan Encounter: x

Dylan at the “Caddo Lake” Wrap Party

New

Dylan supporting the SAG-AFTRA Strike

Dylan with friends: x

Carolina Hurricanes vs New York Rangers game

Fan Encounter: x, x, x, x

Dylan’s IMDb profile picture was finally updated

December:

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Dylan with fans this summer

Dylan with his sibling Jules this summer

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Dylan with Dexter Darden and Aml Ameen at the “American Fiction” premiere

First Look at Dylan in “Ponyboi”

Fan Encounter: x

News

“Ponyboi” will have its World Premiere at Sundance 2024

Dylan O’Brien reportedly in talks to star as twins in James Sweeney’s ‘TWINLESS.’

In total:

Dylan filmed 1 movie this year

Had 1 guest star role in a TV show

we got 1 new photoshoot

1 new movie with Dylan was released

[darling-answers]

I BEG YOU Ana Amari with a injured reader, maybe she sick or dying of a illness idk just make it angst, I saw that talk about wanting more Ana Amari fanfic so idk I feel like letting people suffer and cry.

“ oh Gibraltar were had the time gone?”

This will be pre-fall I would like to say when Overwatch was still in best working order, just right after the omnic crisis

Warning! There may be inaccurate deceive of AML, I have done my best at researching the topic but doesn’t me my accuracy on knowing aml is good because I have never experienced before. Ana may be a little off topic because no matter what, you should always respect the choice of someone body. Death! Is implied and mention. this isn’t a happy ending. Blood! Is mentioned, noise and mouth bleeding Mentions, Oppression and violence. There also mention of symptoms of cancer effects with chemotherapy, chemotherapy is mentioned multiple times. Fainting is mentioned

Thank you for all who reads my stories and showed there support i appreciate it greatly

REQUEST ARE OPEN I WRITE FOR VENTURE TOO SO SEND THEM SOME LOVE.

The warning signs were there but you couldn’t expect it to get this bad? how could anyone know how bad it gotten when it just happened. Being a overwatch agent and putting civilians as your top priority before your own health problems wasn’t uncommon. It comes with you being a soldier and wanting to do what right. Sticking up for the weak even if it comes with your own life. So why must this situation be different.

The First warning sign happen when you were out on a mission to help civilians who may have been lost or trapped under the rubble, it was going according to plan, nothing seem out of the ordinary until the next thing you had known was blood was coming from your nostrils and mouth. Wiping it off on your sleeve painting it with fresh blood made it easy to forget about, it could happen to anyone so why must your situation be different, there still civilians need help, so pick yourself up soldier and help the others, You tell yourself over and over again.

Helping civilians get to safety and back to there family had made you smile, but the comfort of the ship that would be leading you back to your home and the people you call family is just a different feeling. When sitting down in your designated seat, Reinhardt was right infront of you, talking (yelling.) about how well his mission did, talking about the tiny children who he got to flex his arms to. Jack Morrison and Gabriel Reyes carried on their conversation about the on going crisis in the rest of the world, torbjorn talked about his family showing Reinhardt picture of his newly born daughter Brigitte but always the mother hen Ana had taken notice of the blood.

“ habibati, where did such blood come from? Had there been anyone seriously injured? On the catalog I did not seen any reports of very serious injuries?” She mumbles setting her sniper down, the way the sniper aim was up relaxing in the wall of the aircraft, safety was on and the eye of the pistol was up. She leans over to grab the coat of your overwatch outfit and taken a look of the sleeve.

“ I’m fine Ana, I promise, there is nothing to worry about just some blood no need to fuss.” She gave you a serious look Almost crinkling her brows. “ you tell me if anything is wrong. Alright? I want you to be alright.” She looks serious pointing a finger before she lets go from the topic when she felt satisfied.

The Second warning came when in training with Cassidy, you felt you’re whole body zap out of energy, the room was so dizzy and fussy, your brain felt slow and sluggish, you’re arms and legs felt like a ice about to melt into a puddle. Your body gave up and slammed itself to the ground. Waking up in the infirmary with Angela Ziegler talking about your body and health, noticing the way your body seems to be weaker than before. You lost incredible amount of weight which for a normal person would feel happy about it, the weight your body was dropping was to dangerous to not start trying to figure out what was wrong with you.

“ i thought you would’ve told me if something was wrong. The fact you tried hiding it makes me think it might be time i took over your position and put you’re mission on hold until i feel everything is better.” Ana mumbled kissing your forehead as she gently placed her hand on the top of your head.

Angela returned with a chart, writing your vitals and simple questions she have asked you such as, how long have these symptoms been going on, how severe have these conditions been. She clicked her pin shut as she looked up from her notes. “ if you don’t mind I would like to request and recommend we run a few test on you. I’m thinking running a Blood test on you, we will be analyzing it using a microscopic evaluation of the blood, or by using flow cytometry to try and figure. This will all be done if we get your consent so would you mind if we do this?” Angela tilt her head at the last part as she hears the exact words she needs to hear to start preparing for the blood samples.

After gathering the blood sample, she sends you and Ana on your way as she tells you the test results will need 2-3 weeks to be able to fully confirm the diagnosis. Ana made sure throughout the week to make sure that you would rest and not strain your already fragile condition. Every night Ana would lay in bed making sure her arms were around your body and start whispering stuff in Arabic. More symptoms started popping up which caused Ana to get worried even worse than before. Bruising would form out of nowhere not even you could remember how you got those bruises, night sweats became one of the worse causing the lack of sleep, hot flashes and the urge to not eat anything were evidence that something definitely wasn’t right.

“ Oh, how I know it hurts habibati, let’s try and get some rest.” She would mumbles as she made sure the bed only have loose sheets. The way you could barely hold down anything or even get out of bed made her concerns grow even worse. Sometimes you would wake up with her right besides you and other times you were alone in bed. Days and nights started to blur in your memory as you laid in bed, not being able to fully move or walk without assistance.

“ we have gotten the test results back and it might be best. If you sit down ana this is difficult for both of you.” Angela pulled up a chair and sat down in a chair crossing her legs as she looks over at Ana then comes back to you. “ after throughly examining the changes in you’re body we have confirm the diagnosis of you have a form of leukemia that is very hard to treat. It is called Acute myelogenous leukemia. It a common aggressive form of leukemia that affects your bone marrow and blood.”

The face of exhaustion from you and the horror of Ana Face was like no other, how long had it been since you see Ana so hopeless..? This isn’t what you wanted to see.

“ There is good news and bad news, we may be able to start treatment to help fight off the leukemia but with the illness being around the bone marrow most medicines may not be able to reach the place the leukemia is resting, it may be long and hard but you have some chance of survival if you would like to start that I can get it prepared.”

“ What are the chances of me surviving..? I don’t want to live my life in fear that this illness will come back, I don’t want the exhaustion and agonizing treatments, I don’t want to be stuck in a hospital wasting away the only time I get pure entertainment is if someone come visit me. Please Ana, i’m scared and I don’t want to leave you alone but I don’t want to deal with this heartache.” She clutched her wife hand as she leans over weakly giving a kiss to her wife forehead as she comes to rest her sweaty face on that of her wife.

“ I have seen a lot of people survive AML and I also scene some who not, a man in December survive the AML with a few rounds of chemo and some rehabilitation and now he living his life with a wife and few kids. I’ve also scene some people not wish to fight this agonizing battle. So why I might not suggest not taking treatments I will accept whatever you would like us to do.”

Angela Zeigler nodded her head towards you before looking at Ana, Ana somberly looked at the hands which were neatly folded in her. The struggle to make the choice or even express agreement or disagreement weigh ever on her shoulders. “ if you would not like to start chemo and pass away in your home with me and our family by your side I will respect your wishes. I’m so sorry you were even given these choices.” Ana closed her eyes and cried in her hands chocking out her answers as she leans to rest her head on your shoulder.

“ don’t cry Ana, this battle has been long and hard, I was given a purpose on earth and that was to protect the people around me, I made my choice and now I may be rest in the peace of the afterlife knowing I have saved lives. You have to be strong for Pharah and Overwatch.”

The weakly smiles that adores both you and Ana face made it way to accept the idea more easily. The decision to not go and do chemo was not selfish in the eyes of Ana, she knew of the effects of chemo, Nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, Hair loss, Skin dryness and rashes the effects almost seem limitless.

“ so if I’m to confirm You ( state your name.) are refusing to take chemotherapy, which may have help you live a few years longer. You understand the negative side effects that may come with this. You may also always come back to wanting to do chemotherapy but the more you wait the more will not be likely to have the cancer be eradicated.”

Ana looked over and nodded at you, “ I will accept whatever you say or think. Please speak what you need to.” Ana looked into your eyes. “ I accept to refusing treatment for chemotherapy and know the harms and risk that may come and the outcome.” The weakly sound of coughing finishing off the statement.

“ alright, I will notify strike commander to take you off of all mission briefs and when you are ready please notify whoever you would like about what the future is going forward.” Mercy nodded politely leaving you and Ana alone in the room. Ana looked over at you, brushing your cheekbone as the weak sound of raspy breath came in and out. “ Thank you for letting me have a choice, I wouldn’t do this if I wasn’t sure the outcome would be the same.”

Ana nodded to your words helping you settle in bed. She weakly clutches the clothing near her heart as she looks at you. She tried to take a deep breath as to not let the tears follow but it getting harder looking at your weak state. She started walking towards the door to give you room only to be stopped by the croak of a voice. “ Ana…” Ana turned around and looked at you walking over and kneeling down near your bed side.

“ I love you and Pharah so much.” You mumbles as Ana whisper some words of praise before getting up and leaving the room. Days become even more of a blur as your visited by most of Overwatch agents besides a few. Even Moira O’Deorain made her presence known as she commands great respect and recognition for how you saved lives and great combat skills.

The day came, one year and a day after you first got the symptoms of something wrong that you passed peacefully by your besides, laying beside you was Ana who was on your left. Pharah who birthday just came a few weeks ago making her 10 and one of your best friends who also supported you think through thin, Reinhardt. A day that would’ve been sad wasn’t sad, they knew you would of beat there ass if you found out they weren’t lighting up the party with some shots as you’re lowered into your casket. Your funeral which played one of your favorite songs, “Dreaming of you” by Selena Quintanilla was a mother and daughter dance for ana and pharah.

You were given a gravesite with the soldiers who had fallen in the war adored with flowers and so much love and care from military units all across the world. Some left Quarters, some left penny, dimes and nickels. You were known around the world and a statue as a memorial in your home town was placed to honor the dedication you had to fighting for what right and standing up for communities who may have been oppressed.

As time gone on and the state of Overwatch went into shambles Winston recalled woke up a different side in Overwatch agents, instead of doing stuff how Jack Morrison would do, the Overwatch hero’s knew who to look up to in the end.

Pharah looking up into the sky hoping that maybe she would see you there looking down and protecting her.

[gryficowa]

Boycott!

Now that I have your attention:

[animangalover-writes]

Special interest? Triggered.

I will now talk about the movie breakfast club for 4 hours straight.

[childotkw]

can we please have a peek into sirius’ (or narcissa’s) thoughts on regulus’ relationship with voldemort in both ays and tlwd??

Oh boy 😂 Sirius has some things to say about Regulus' taste in men.

ays(aml)

In this one, Sirius is more wary and cautious around Regulus. He knows something's up with his brother, but he doesn't know what and he doesn't know about the whole time travel thing. All he knows is that one day his little brother woke up, grew a spine of steel and decided to take over the world - starting with Britain.

So he's very aware that Regulus is Not Chill, and that his brother is apparently waging open war against the rumoured Dark Lord (because Voldemort hasn't kicked off any major assaults yet and is still operating largely in the shadows). Sirius knows that Regulus can take care of himself and is embodying the notion of "doing bad things for the right reasons".

But once he picks up on the weird vibes between Regulus and Riddle, and the truth of who Riddle is comes out - Sirius for once doesn't react rashly.

No.

Just this once he pauses, takes a breath, and asks Regulus what's up. He sits, and he listens, and he withholds his judgement. Because Regulus is different now, and is playing a dangerous, deadly game against a man neither of them could hope to match magically, and he needs all the help he can get.

Sirius left his brother behind once before, and he refuses to do it again.

So he listens. He hears everything Regulus says and everything he doesn't say, and he realises almost immediately that this is one hurt he can't stop. This is an oncoming hit he can't step in front of and take instead.

Sirius knows Regulus is setting himself up for heartbreak, and though it burns and he can't quite understand why Regulus has seemingly in part fallen for his ultimate enemy (the man he wants to kill and has actively been planning to murder for months), he quietly accepts that he'll just have to be there for him in the aftermath.

tlwd(btps)

In this AU, Sirius is a hell of a lot more critical, and in part that's because he's got a lot more rage at Voldemort. Here, Sirius has lost James and Lily, lost Remus, lost Peter, and lost years of his life.

He lost the chance to raise his godson.

So he's angrier at the world and at Voldemort, and when it becomes clear that Regulus is, in some manner, interested in the Dark Lord (no matter how reluctantly, no matter how much he denies it), Sirius doesn't take it well.

They clash about it. Loudly. Viciously. Tossing around mean words and digging their fingers into each other's weak spots in the bloody way only family really can.

Sirius brings up Harry, callously calling Regulus' love for his adopted son into question because how can you like the man that murdered his parents?

Regulus bites back about Sirius' inability to separate James from Harry and that of the two of them, it is Regulus that has been there for Harry because revenge was more important to Sirius than protecting his godson.

They don't talk to each other for days after that fight.

And even in the future, once they've brushed it off like they do with all their fights (ignoring the way their words still festered because that's how they were raised), Sirius still is never supportive of whatever the fuck is going on between Voldemort and Regulus.

The only difference is he keeps his ire firmly aimed in Voldemort's direction.

[fierykitten2]

In the span of under a week, I have made jokes about Iron Hands being autistic because of that one animation twice, discovered that Xisuma (yes that Xisuma, the admin of Hermitcraft) has made guitar covers of six Metallica songs and two Judas Priest songs, warmed up to the songs Harvester of Sorrow and The Memory Remains (both of which (alongside at least three of the four songs from the Black album that I warmed up to last week) felt fairly inevitable), officially discovered Black Sabbath, Judas Priest and Iron Maiden even though I said I was gonna wait until I was at home, had some decent headphones and had listened to Piece by Piece by Slayer once last time, listened to Sabbra Cadabra once and Breaking the Law seventeen and a half times in the same day but somehow got both songs stuck in my head a fairly even amount that day (if anything, the song that got stuck in my head the most that day was Sabbra Cadabra), discovered I have a benign kidney tumour which I’m 99.9% certain is angiomyolipoma (I don’t actually remember what the doctor said specifically but what I remember him saying matched up best with AML) - I’ll wait until I get the clinic letter in a few weeks to say for certain - which is probably (at least at the moment) nothing to worry about and it definitely currently feels like nothing in comparison to the neuroblastoma I had when I was younger, discovered my ballet teacher hasn’t scrapped the frappe exercise anymore (thank you, I love that exercise), wondered if there was a “red flavour” for my noodles, discovered that it is entirely possible to get a song stuck in your head for a decent amount of time when you’ve only listened to it once if the song’s long enough (I listened to an Iron Maiden song which was really long. I checked a few minutes in (I’m thinking two for some reason) and there were still 9 minutes left), discovered there is “red” flavour for my noodles and that I had it at home already, made another joke about Wake being the only dinosaur among the Past Paradox Pokémon, realised there may be an actual red flavour and that the one I had was more brown (these are talking about the lids of the noodle pots. I don’t have synesthesia), made a joke about Fire and Boulder loving the song Rock Hard, Ride Free by Judas Priest and discovered that the meat in the green noodle flavour was actually mushrooms (of course the green one’s vegetarian! Why didn’t I think of that it’s so obvious), which means I’ve been tricked into eating a food I don’t like for a while. Pretty productive week and the weekend’s only just arrived

Oh yeah I’ve also lost a bet with tumblr that I would never need to use the Iron Maiden tag and they can stop suggesting it to me every time I try to tag a Future Paradox Pokémon (other than Valiant, Miraidon and Leaves, all of which I tag enough that they’re recommended to me by default. Plus I don’t tag Miraidon as Iron Serpent so yeah)

[littleprincessfawn]

I don't know how to do tomorrow. I'll be seeing my haemotologist, who is lovely, and who will be telling me what type of leukemia I have.

The most likely scenario is that I have CML. But there's this tiny part of me that is so worried it's AML or ALL which are both more aggressive. I'm afraid she's going to tell me that it's advanced or blast phase.

Fear is so useless though, isn't it. I'm struggling to find my calm, my centre. My stomach hurts. My spine aches. I continue to have daily headaches. I'm fairly certain I'm starting to alienate myself from everyone.

No one wants to know what I'm going through. No one wants to talk to me. Which I do understand. I'm lonely though, and could really use a good friend to talk to.

My brain feels all swirly. I want to be in the ocean and swim away. I want to dance non-stop until I collapse. I want to run at night through a forest and dissolve into the darkness. Right now I am sitting down, doing nothing, and it's unbearable.

I know I need to get back to being more positive. I'm sure I will. I just. Need to find my anchor. I want someone to wrap me up in a big hug and whisper to me that it's gonna be okay, that they'll be there for me every step of the way. But I don't have that and I need to make peace with not having anyone like that.

Sorry for such a negative post. I'll keep trying to look at the good. Tomorrow I'm sure I will get good news and everything will be smooth and it will be easy to face this by myself. I'll get through this day by day. It's okay that today is hard.

I tell you what though. If soulmates do exist? I'm really pissed off at mine right now for not showing up yet.

[fahye]

Hi! I'm here because I just read AML, and. WOW. It is GORGEOUSLY written, and I knew before I'd even finished reading that it was going to be one of my Books of All Time -- like, favorites for life, stories that make me grateful to exist in a time when (and a place where) I can discover them. I put ART on hold at the library, and I'm beyond excited for it to come in. And, of course, thrilled about the upcoming third book! (1/3)

I recently listened to your episode of Fansplaining, and it's so cool to hear that you've held onto, and are open about, your identity as a fan (and fic writer!), even after becoming a published author. I feel like there's still this idea that fanfic is "less than" original fiction, or that it's only useful for practice. So I appreciate that, while you're realistic about your priorities, you also talk about continuing to write fic -- as a labor of love, as something inherently worthwhile. (2/3)

(3/3) I've never written a fan letter (fan ask?) before, despite having been a fan of so many things over so many years, so I hope I did this right! Thank you for your work -- all of it. I can't wait for what's next. <3

anon there's very little you can do to mess up the process of sending a fan letter; I guarantee you that even the most experienced and jaded and successful author in the world still has an injection of pure and disbelieving glee whenever someone cares enough & is kind enough to reach out and let them know how much they enjoyed their work.

so: thank you so much! I hope you enjoy ART (and book 3!) just as much as AML when you get to them

[talkingtea]

Anon is probably talking about Aml Ameen. He was just on Kelly Clarkson the other day. He's been in a lot of good, critically acclaimed movies lately. Most notably "Rustin" on Netflix. He's done some directing and producing as well.

Oh, okay. He does seem to be doing well for himself.