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[burberryfaerie]

If Tonks had a younger sibling Pt 4 :

Pairings : Cedric diggory x gryffindor!reader

Warnings : Angst, fluff, character death, torture, crying, swearing, a war basically, possible spelling mistakes

A/N : In case if you're asking, yes i was crying during writing this.

Tags: @loveitsonlyforthebrave ❤️

Hermione apparates you to a place called Tottenham Court Road.

“The heck is a cappuccino? Is it better than butterbeer?”

Your ring suddenly rings violently and you can't understand why?

Dolohov and Rowle rudely interrupt your thoughts.

Going to Grimmauld place knowing damn well you're being followed.

Arthur Weasley's patronus reassuring that everyone is okay.

Remus's unlikely visit.

Muggle-borns are targeted by the ministry.

Your father and best friend are targeted.

Dora's pregnant.

You'll have your own niece / nephew.

But he wants to leave her.

“Me and my family went through shit Remus, and I won't let you break my sister's heart.”

Hating Remus with every inch of you.

Because how dare he breaks Dora's heart.

Kreacher's tale.

Regulus died as a good person who lived beneath the shadows of his prejudiced family.

The locket is with umbridge.

well, fuck

You know what's fucker?

Snape is headmaster

“WHAT ABOUT MINNIE?”

“who the heck are the carrows?”

Going to the ministry after drinking polyjuice potion and morphing in your case.

"Magic is might"

Seeing 'Umbitch'

Harry stupefying umbitch.

Escaping the ministry before Yaxley gets hold of you.

Apparating to a mysterious place.

A forest apparently.

Ron's splinched.

Hermione's protection spells.

“How do you have time to learn all this stuff? Last time I checked we go to the same school,”

“Last time I checked you don't study a word.”

Taking turns in wearing the locket since you can't destroy it.

Feeling so cruel once it rests around your neck.

It's a part of voldemort's soul afterall.

Ron leaving three months later.

Crying your eyes out every night because you miss your best friend so much it hurts.

Same thing with Hermione.

“Why haven't you told him Mione?”

“Tell him what?”

“That you love him”

You give her a knowing look, she returns it with the faintest of smiles.

Going to Godric's Hollow.

Looking at the statue of Lily, James amd baby Harry with sadness and awe.

They were too young to die.

Too innocent to die.

You visit their grave.

You smiled because you suddenly felt their presence, two warm souls watching over you.

Bathilda Bagshot.

Fuck that's a snake.

Voldy is here and he was about to murder the three of you right before you apparated.

Fast forward when Ron returns.

You're so. bloody mad at him but can't help it and pull him into a hug.

“You're such an idiot, Ronald Billius Weasley.”

Hermione's so mad too but you know damn well she still loves him.

Ron and Harry telling the events of last night, first horcrux is destroyed, wohoo.

Visiting Xenophilious Lovegood.

The deathly hallows and the tale of the three brothers.

Luna's painting of you, Harry, Ron, Hermione, Neville, Ginny and her.

“She's so precious.” you think.

Xenophilious's betrayal.

Hermione wiping the fuck outta his memories.

fast forward a couple of days later.

listening to potterwatch. the norm.

lee jordan's voice

“Let's take a moment to report those deaths that the Wizarding Wireless Network  and Daily Prophet don't think important enough to mention. It is with great regret that we inform our listeners of the murders of Ted Tonks and Dirk Cresswell.”

Feeling the worst heartache you've ever felt.

feeling as if every muscle, every cell in your body stopped functioning.

“No”

he can't die.

he was always okay. he can't just die.

he's expecting a grandchild. he can't just go.

The trio rushing to hug you.

Harry not able to meet your eyes.

“I'm so sorry” Hermione sobs into your neck.

You don't cry.

You can't cry.

You just sit there, feeling emptiness.

You suddenly get up, shoving everything in your way.

Ron holding you back.

"it's okay, I'm here” he reassures you.

You letting out a heart-wrenching scream that came out from god knows where.

Thank god Hermione has protection spells.

The trio tuck you into bed, making sure you were asleep.

You slept almost instantly, dreaming of your father who speaks to you.

“I'm always here, watching over you. Don't give up sweetheart, fight for your mom, dora, Remus and Cedric.”

“How'd you know about Cedric? ”

“I knew all along” he smiled

Waking up feeling slightly better the next day.

Fast forward when the snatches caught you.

Taken to Malfoy Manor

Bellatrix torturing you and craving "traitor" on your arm.

She also tries to slit your throat.

“You know? I want to murder you so badly, so you'd end up like your mudblood father, but I'll torture you, unril you beg for mercy.”

Literally screaming throughout the whole process.

“I know about Diggory, he's quite of a traitor, but his blood is pure, he won't want a filthy half-blood traitor like you with him.”

“SHUT UP, YOU DON'T KNOW HIM, SHUT U—”

being cut of with her dagger cutting your skin.

she moves on to Hermione next while you watch helplessly.

Dobby, Harry and Ron save you two.

Apparating to shell cottage.

You spot a small, weak figure in the distance.

You try reaching out for it, but you're too weak.

You loose consciousness in Ron's arms.

Next thing you knew you were in a room, Fleur watching over you.

Learning that Dobby's lost his life.

Feeling so weak.

Remus visits.

Little Teddy is born!!!

Can't help but feel so happy and hugging Remus, forgetting about all the drama.

Harry's Teddy's godfather.

yay

Gringotts

You hide under Harry's cloak.

You get caught.

Robbing Bellatrix's vault.

Getting the horcrux and giving griphook the sword.

Aaaaaand Griphook betrays you.

Escaping on a dragon.

Basically having to head to hogwarts.

To get the horcrux.

Hogsmeade at Abeforth Dumbledore.

Ariana Dumbledore's portrait.

NEVILLLEEEEEEE!!!!!!

Him looking terrible yet dashing at the same time.

From your conversation, you concluded that the carrows and Snape are absolute assholes.

Reuniting with all your friends!

Harry goes to Ravenclaw tower with Luna.

The order is here .

Cedric spots you.

He literally just picks you up and kisses you.

infront of everyone basically.

including the adults.

feeling sorta awkward but you don't care.

“YOU ESCAPED GRINGOTTS ON A DRAGON?!! DAMN IT LOVE HOW CRAZY CAN YOU GET?!!! ”

Harry interrupts your adorable moment.

Voldemort wants Harry.

“Potter's right here! someone grab him”

yeah of course, pugface parkinson.

literally everyone jumping in to defend Harry.

The battle has started.

You seeing Dora and running to hug her.

“MY BRAVE SISTER!” she shouts.

“Once we're outta here, we're spoiling Teddy with every inch of me.”

“I kinda approve though”

Duelling multiple death eaters.

Including Dolohov, Rookwood, Rabstan Lestrange.

Saving Malfoy's arse from the flames in the room of requirement.

Going to the shrieking shack to face Voldemort.

Snape's dead.

He's acting weird all of a sudden.

Voldemort wants Harry to meet him in the forbidden forest.

The chaos has calmed down.

You enter the great hall.

Your eyes roam around the room to find the redheads huddled together, the Diggorys, somewhat crying?

You take a closer look, seeing what they're all mourning.

You shake your head in disbelief.

Remus and Dora?

Your sister?

Your soulmate?

They just had a baby.

You felt Fred and George hug you, Hermione and Ginny hugging eachother.

You kneel down.

Your world is crushing.

They're dead but they look so peaceful.

You hugged Dora.

Ever so tightly.

The last time you'll ever hug her.

You wished you can turn the clock back, to listen to to weird sisters together, to giggle behind the Malfoys back together, to annoy your mother together.

Perhaps you could've been able to save her.

You rest your head on her chest.

Muffled voices of everyone else speaking were in the background.

But you didn't care.

You let out a cry, a small one.

You let out a slightly louder one.

You felt your chest tighten, your stomach churn, you felt your eyes twitch underneath your lids.

You heard Cedric's comforting voice.

“Shhhhhh.. I got you love”

But his words are not comforting you.

You just lay there on Dora's chest.

By that, you knew your hair will never turn pink again.

You don't know how many minutes or hours had passed by.

You heard the familiar snake-like vouce of Lord Voldemort.

“Harry Potter is dead He was killed as he ran away, trying to save himself while you lay down your lives for him. We bring you his body as proof that your hero is gone. The battle is won. You have lost half of your fighters. My Death Eaters outnumber you and the Boy Who Lived is finished. There must be no more war. Anyone who continues to resist, man, woman or child, will be slaughtered, as will every member of their family. Come out of the castle, now, kneel before me, and you shall be spared. Your parents and children, your brothers and sisters will live, and be forgiven, and you will join me in the new world we shall build together.”

You slightly lift your head.

The great hall was deadly silent.

You were sure he was lying.

You slowly walked up, holding hands with Ron and Hermione, exiting the great hall.

Voldemort and his army stood and your eyes spotted Hagrid.

He was carrying someone.

It was Harry.

Your body can't lift you anymore.

Mconagall let out a terrible scream followed by yours , Ron, Ginny, Hermione and Cedric's then everyone else.

Neville standing up to Voldemort.

He- he killed the snAKE??!!!

You just watchung Neville like a proud mom.

Cahos erupts once more.

Harry's gone?

No like seriously, he's just vanished.

poof

Spotting Cedric taking over three death eaters all at once.

Just being so proud of him.

You duelling Rodolphus Lestrange.

Took over him (as you should)

Moving to Bellatrix Lestrange.

Duelling her with Hermione, Luna and Ginny.

Bitch just aimed a killing curse at Ginny??!

About to make your move but-

“Not my daughter you bitch”

literally internally screaming because MOLLY WEASLEY DID NOT JUST CUSS???

Bellatrix's downfall.

Just felt a bit relaxed.

Voldemort is about to kill Molly but—

FUCK??

HARRY??

DID THIS MOTHERFUCKER TURN INTO A GHOST TO KILL VOLDEMORT?!!

Voldemort's downfall.

The man who everyone feared sayimg his name, just, fell down.

dead

Post-battle

You hug your mom so tight , she knew about everything.

You raising Teddy along with your mother and Harry.

You still have nightmares and trauma from the war.

But, Cedric was always there for you.

Not like he was any better, but you two comfort eachother.

Him placing soft, small kisses around your "traitor" scar after telling him about the Malfoy Manor events.

You, Harry, Ron amd Hermione gather at the burrow, just sitting there in comfortable silence, holding eachother.

Three years pass by and Cedric's on one knee, asking you to be his forever.

You frantically saying “Yes” before hugging him.

You were now an auror, just like Dora.

The wedding was so simple.

You had Hermione, Ginny and Luna as your bridesmaids.

Looking at the empty seats made especially for your father, Remus, Dora and Sirius.

Saying "I do" before leaning in and kissing him.

And for the first time in three years, your hair turned pink again.

[freerebelmentality]

Its the most wonderful time of the year

AN: Ok, I know this took me a really long time to get this done and FINALLY HAVE THIS POSTED. But I ran into personal stuff and finally my laptop broke and I got it fixed and now I have it. YAY!!! Anyways this was requested during the time of the World Junior Tournament when it was hosted in Vancouver. I am so sorry but I finished it. Anyways!!! The request was  “Can I request a Jacob Markstrom fic/imagine? They’ve been dating for a while until the world juniors happen. He’s off for a very long road trip and reader stays behind in Vancouver. She decides to attend a few games then attends throughout the duration of the tournament. Jacob tried calling and texting but she just doesn’t hear her phone. He thinks she’s cheating and when he gets back he distance himself from her. Until she straightens everything out. Is that too much?”

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Its the most wonderful time of the year. The World Junior Tournament is whats wonderful and taking over the cities of Vancouver and Victoria.

Which means the Canucks will be off on a long road trip and that also means your boyfriend will be away as well.

Its Christmas Day and you spend as much time with your boyfriend as you can along with his family. Its not every day he sees them and you’ve always loved his moms company.

“Y/n do you want to come with me on this road trip?” Jacob asks while his family is surrounded the both of you in the living room.

“I would love to but I think I will just stay behind and catch up on some work” you reply wishing you would tag along for the road trip

“Its going to be a long one, you think you will be able to handle it?” his mom asks looking to you.

“I think I will survive these two weeks without him. At the same time I get to spend time with you and my family” you reply while giving a smile to Lena.

“Alright, that sounds good to me. I’ll call as much as I can and we can FaceTime” Jacob replies while wrapping his arm around you.

After dinner is done and you help clean the kitchen with his mom and sister in law. When done the cleaning, you make the coffee and bring out the cake you made.

A treat before going to bed and having to say good bye to your boyfriend the next day.

You look to his sleeping form and smile to yourself. As you smile it begins to fade, a reminder in just a few hours he will be off on a very long road trip and how you debated about packing as well.

“No, I really need to catch up on work” you thought to yourself as you roll over and go to bed.

You feel an arm pulling you closer and being wrap around the person you love. Oh how you were going to miss this.

You wake up early the next day, you wake Jacob up as well and he begins packing. You walk out of the room to prepare breakfast and coffee.

You make a plate for your boyfriend while you see his mom walk into the kitchen

“Is Jacob getting ready?” Lena asks while getting herself a cup

“Yeah, he is just packing and Im getting this plate ready for him” you reply and you hear someone walking into the kitchen

“There are my two favourite women” Jacob says as he gives his mom a side hug and gives her a peck to the forehead.

He goes towards you and does the same

“There is my favourite man in the world” you reply while giving into the embrace

“Are you just about ready?” you ask while finishing up your coffee and food

“I am ready, my bags are by the door” he replies while placing his cup and plate into the sink.

He gives them a rinse and places them in the dishwasher but you were going to do the dishes. Anything to pass time.

You also thought about cleaning the whole house. One day wash the walls in the living room, The next will be the windows, the next will be washing the walls in the rooms. Again just to pass the time.

“Ok we better get going. Mom you coming?” Jacob asks looking to his mom

“No, I will just say my farewells from here. Take care son” she says while giving him a hug.

His brother and sister in law come down and say their farewells as well along with with his niece. Oh how they looked cute together.

Once the both of you get to the airport is when you see the other wives and girlfriends saying their farewells.

“Last chance to change your mind” he says while looking to you.

“I’ll wait for you here” you giggle while hugging him

“Alright, I’ll call once we get to our hotel” he says while giving you a kiss

“I’ll be waiting” you reply and give into the kiss

“You two are gross, get a room” Jake Virtanen says as he passes by the both of you.

“Oh be quiet or else I will hip check you” you teasingly reply.

He gets a chuckle out of that playful threat.

“I’ll keep an eye on him for you” Jake says while giving you a hug

“Thanks” you reply while pulling away from the hug

“Babe, make sure he stays out of trouble” you tell Jacob as he gives you a nod and a smile

Ever since moving to Vancouver with Jacob, you became really close with Jake. He reminded you of your younger brother and have always remained close with Jake.

He saw you as an older sister he can go to whenever things or life got him down. Or just simply to hang out.

“Well I better go” Jacob says as he gives you one more good bye kiss

You melt right into the kiss and felt a little sad cause its going to be the last for the next two weeks. But you are willing to wait until he got back.

You wait until the plane flies off, like any other time you have dropped him off and waited until the plane was in no sight.

As you see the plane fly off and disappear into the air is when you stood there for a bit longer and finally drove off.

You went back to the house and hung out with his family. You always loved spending time with them and when it was time for them to go back to Sweden, the house felt a lot more emptier and more lonely.

Your family came and went as well and that got you down a little.

Finally you buried yourself in a ton of paper work that needed to be, you didnt have enough time before going on holidays.

Once you completed the work is when you went into the office and filed them away. Your boss is in the office as well, finishing up things before the new year.

“Y/n, finishing up a few things as well?” she asks as she enters your office

“Yes, I didnt have time before going on holidays and now that everyone is gone. I thought I would bury myself in work” you reply while finishing up the filing

“I always knew you are committed” she replies with a smile on her face

She always knew she can count on you to get the work done but never over worked you. She always wanted to give you the time to rest and come back to work refreshed.

“I have these hockey tickets my husband purchased and none of us arent going to be in the country. So I was wondering if you wanted them?” she asks in hopes you would put them into good use

“World Junior tournament tickets?” you ask rather quickly

“Yes they are and have good seats” she replies while pulling out an envelope

“Sure, I think I will put these to use. My friends are coming for a visit and now I have something to entertain them with” you reply while taking the tickets from her hand

“Good, I was getting worried because everyone else either got them or going away” she says with relief

She leaves to head home and get ready to leave for the holidays. You leave as well and go home.

You go to the bus station to pick up your friends that are coming for a visit. Finally go to the airport to get another friend. It felt good to have the house full again, even if that meant only for a few days.

The comes as the first game of the tournament starts, Its game day for team Canada and you were glad you took the tickets from your boss.

“Y/n, Im still surprised your boss even gave you tickets for the tournament” your friend Shandy says while looking at the line up to get into Rogers Arena.

“I am just as surprised as you are. I am so happy for these too” you reply thinking about giving your boyfriend a quick text that you are at the game.

You forget when your friends begin talking about other things that are going on with their lives and the line begins to move.

Finally you and your friends get to your seats while the guys went to get drinks and snacks.

“Y/n, the only one who never drinks when we come to visit” Gabe says as he hands you a water you asked

“Well someone needs to be the designated driver for your drunk asses” you reply thinking back to those times.

“Thats right and why you’re always the smart one” he replies while looking to you.

Finally the game begins.

Jacob tries calling, leaves messages and texts bu they go unaswered.

“Still trying to get a hold of y/n?” Jake asks looking to Jacob

“Yeah, I guess she really buried herself in work” he replies while placing his phone in his pocket amd walks away from him.

He takes a walk by himself to get rid of the ugly thoughts he has of you.

“No, she wouldnt do that to me. No” he thinks to himself while sitting on a bench in a park. He sips his coffee

The unanswered phone calls, texts and facetime have gone throughout the two weeks. Jacob is convinced you are with someone and cheating on him most of the time.

His other teammates and friends from other teams have tried convincing him that you would never do that to him and never got that impression from you at all. But he still isnt convinced. He appreciates the talks though but thoughts still linger.

You and your friends continue going to games, hanging out and checking out the rest of Vancouver. Along with whale watching.

Your phone died and never got the chance to charge it or just completely forgot about it cause you also went to work.

The tournament has come and gone.

Now it was time for your boyfriend to come home. Finally.

You asked one of the other girlfriends when they were landing home and she gave you the time. You drive to the airport 45 minutes early before the expected arrival. You were getting excited for Jacob to finally come home.

“Oh crap, I better charge my phone now” you finally remember and begin charging it.

As your phone begins to charge is when it comes to life, text messages are coming through, voice mails. Sixty text messages and countless of voice mails, which is full. You read every text and begin to feel bad for not charging your phone sooner.

Half of the text that consists of I miss you, good night and I love you. The other half is what are you doing?, why havent you texted or called back?, What are you up to? Is there someone else?

“Fuck” you mutter to yourself

You see the plane land after going through your voice mails and deleting everything. You needed to explain yourself to Jacob.

Finally the plane comes to a stop and finally the guys exit the plane.

Jake sees you first before Jacob can even notice his surroundings.

“Hes not happy with you right now” he says and gets into his truck

You go towards Jacob and give him a big hug, he returns a weak one and begins putting his stuff in the car. As the both of you get into the car, its silent.

“Before we go, can I explain myself?” You ask breaking the silence

“Please by all means” he replies with a stern voice

He really doesnt look happy right now

“Shandy and them came into town and we attended the world junior tournament” you reply while looking to him

“But why couldnt you just return my texts or phone calls” he asks while driving away from the airport

“Because I completely forgot to charge my phone the minute it died. Well until today just before you landed” you tell him looking to him in hopes he will forgive you.

“If you even did go to the games. Where did you even get the tickets? They were all sold out” he says never taking his eyes off the road

“I got them from my boss. Her and her husband were going out of the country for the holidays and she didnt want those tickets to go to waste and gave them to me” you reply while keeping your attention on him

He is beginning to feel a little better but the feeling of you seeing someone else isnt fading. He wants to believe but something else is tugging away.

The rest of the ride was quiet, being at home was quiet and eating dinner was quiet. Going to bed was quiet.

Going to bed without telling each other ‘I love you’

No kisses good night.

Just went to bed

Quiet

As the days go by you feel hes drifting away from you. The more you explained, the more he didnt believe a word you said. Nothing

At work wasnt great either. You were distracted and everyone can see that.

Your phone begins to ring and you see its Jake. You slide across the screen to answer it.

“You: Hey Jake

Jake: Hey, how are you?

You: Not so great

Jake: Yeah, I figured

You: Thanks

Jake: You arent the only one

You: Right

Jake: You free for lunch?

You: Yeah, since my person isnt going to pick me up nor will he answer my calls or texts

Jake: I know, Im outside your office building”

He hung up on you and you just smiled as you got up and got your jacket. You walk out of the building and get into his truck

“is he talking to you at least?” you ask once you get into his truck

“Nope, not a single word” he replies pulling away from the building

“He thinks I knew that you were messing around but I tried explaining that you wouldnt. I also mentioned that I didnt know nothing and tried convincing him you did absolutely nothing” he adds while looking for a place to have lunch

“This hurts” is all you say and the ride goes silent

He sees the hurt of your face and he doesnt like what he sees. He hates seeing his best friend, his sister hurting. He hates it.

Finally the day ends and the thought of going home was just dreadful. You didnt like the silence at home.

You walk into the house and you see Jacob in the kitchen.

“Y/n can you come into the kitchen please” he says as soon as he hears the door open

Your heart begins to race.

“I am so sorry” he says while looking to you.

You look up and tried not to form any tears

“Shandy called me and she told me everything. I am so sorry for not believing you and pushed you away” he continues while coming closer to you.

His arms wrapped around you felt amazing, finally feeling complete again and finally just being close to him. After so long of being ignored and not touched.

You were already beginning to feel as though the both of you were over and you feared he was going to ask you to move out.

Thankfully he didnt.

A tear streams down your face and you release a soft sob

“I know you said you werent seeing anyone, its just I had this feeling at the pit of my stomach that you were cause you werent answering my calls or anything. That nagging feeling wouldnt go away and I was stupid” he continues while he still holds you in his arms

“I was getting scared that you were going to ask me to move out” you whisper while pulling away from him

“No. No” he says while looking to you.

“I am so stupid, I should have listened to you but no. I am so sorry” he continues

“You arent stupid. You were just scared as I was. I dont want to lose you” you tell him while looking into his eyes

“I dont ever want to lose you either and Im sorry that I drifted from you. I feel incredibly stupid for doing that. I placed myself in a lonely position by doing that” he says while placing a light kiss to your forehead.

The more the both of you talked it out, the more everything started to feel less empty, lonely and more understanding.

“From now on, Im charging my phone right away then waiting till way later to charge it” you say while giving him a kiss to the lips.

“Yes. Or else next time Im kicking your ass to the curb” he jokingly says with a smile

Oh how you loved his smile, the dimples were always your weakness.

“Do you promise?” you ask as you chuckle as well

He pulls you in closer and kisses you. He loved being close with you and he always felt complete.

[sunnysidewrites]

Soulmate!Woozi

Requested by anon: This is going to be an odd request, but if you had seen the Disney short, "Paperman" and could use the idea of it in a scenario with Woozi? If you haven't seen it, I recommend it~

omg so i watched it right after i saw this pop up in my inbox and lemme tell u it was so freakin cute thank u anon for enlightening me with this cute lil short love u <3333 i hope it was what you wanted bb!! also excuse the gross quality of this,, i havent written an actual separate thing in so long but hope this is somewhat decent :))) <3333

REQUESTS ARE OPEN BTW SO DROP IN SOME STUFF FOR ME TY TY I HOPE I WONT BE A LAZY ASS AND WILL ACTUALLY DO SOME WRITING

warnings: paper cuts. no paper airplanes were hurt in the making of the process but jihoon sure was

Every day, every single day, was the same old for lil Jihoon

An ordinary office job, an ordinary house, an ordinary lifestyle

Sure, it’s stable. His mouth is fed and a roof over his head hey that rhymes hehe but it’s so dull and lonely

You know that soulmate au where all you see is black and white until you meet them?? Yep. that’s it. That’s the tweet.

But the two people have to actually lock eyes -- it can’t just be someone seeing the other across the street

All of his friends are slowly marrying their soulmates and jihoon is just like hahHAHAhahaha guess i’ll marry my boring as hell job!!!!!

You’d think jihoon is most likely to marry his job right??? Mmm yeah that only applies if he likes his job sigh poor dude

Probably the most eventful thing that has happened to him in the past four years is “spicing things up a bit” amd spreading strawberry cream cheese on his bagel rather than regular cream cheese :(((

He needs some EXCITEMENT!!! ADVENTURE!!!

Can’t really do that when you’re stuck in a cubicle from 8-5pm can you smh

He didn’t expect -- ok well he probably did actually -- to have a painstakingly slow and mundane life when he moved to the city those years ago but it’s not like he can complain about having a stable life,,,, right?

You’re in the same slump as your soulmate without even realizing it

You landed a job at this fairly large corporation, and the pay was enough for your everyday living expenses

Each day, you stood before your reflection in a cute yet professional suit

You thought that this was what you’ve always wanted to be: a successful career person

Yeaaaa that’s not working out like you imagined it would be :(((

It sucks even more since you only see black and white so the boring factor just amped up by x30 more sigh rip you reader

Anyways, Jihoon was at the subway station as per usual, waiting for his 7:30am train to come

He’s carrying a huge stack of papers nECK HIGH so when the top paper starts blowing away he’s like oH NO NONOONO

Luckily (or is it unluckily?) the paper lands right in front of your face and he’s like oh,,,,, crap. There’s a bright red lipstick mark smack in the middle of the page LMAO

He wants to reach out for it but his hands are a little busy at the moment, but fortunately you laugh it off and place it back on his pile

He’s relieved as h*ck that you didn’t go nuts and tear his head off

It’s also a nice bonus you’re hella cute too ;))) some nice eye candy in the morning for the both of yall

You don’t quite make proper eye contact,,, it’s more like one of yall are looking at the other only when the other isn’t looking back

He’s about to work up the courage to say something to you, but as soon as he turns back to you, you’ve disappeared!!!

You lock eyes again on either side of the train and then it’s farewell T_T

The next few weeks he’s going INSANE and thinking about you no matter how much he tries to bury himself in his work

Quite literally. Those papers just keep multiplying rip jihoon

His boss is just like ohmYGOD WE DON’T HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD GET A MOVING!!!!

One day when he’s at his desk, his boss --

You guessed it

-- plants down a new stack of papers

Is this some daily ritual or smth idk man

Truth be told, he kept that paper with your lipstick mark on tucked in one of his desk drawers as a friendly reminder of the lost opportunity he screwed up on :))) good job my dude

He sighs and turns his head to stare out the window for a moment when he nearly jumps oUT OF his skin

There you are in your nice and polished suit, sitting in the room diRECTLY ACROSS FROM HIM IN THE NEXT BUILDING

He tries waving and just about anything to get your attention, but you’re too absorbed in engaging with someone else so he’s frantically trying to come up with another method

And there it is. He looks at the pile of papers and a lightbulb goes off

45 pages of paper airplanes later, you stiLL haven’t noticed anything rip all those airplanes failed. The closest he ever got sailed right in the back behind you but you didn’t notice it :’((

Soon, he uses up aLL his papers and his boss catches him doing some weird stuff so he shuts down the window and forces him to focus rip jihoon no one is on his side. On top of giving him another stack of documents ofc

Him: this is so sad alexa play i won’t give up on us

Anyways he tries to go back to his work but when his boss leaves he’s back to those airplanes

He runs out again and this time he’s like ok. I have no choice but to use The Last Resort

He makes a final airplane using the lipstick paper and IT STILL FAILS RIP BYE END OF STORY

He sighs frustratedly and gives up but since this is based on the disney short, some magical stuff happens LMAO

All of his failed airplanes come to life and ATTACK THE HELL OUT OF HIM WHEN HE TRIES TO LEAVE

Simultaneously, the lipstick airplane also comes to life and is discreetly flying through the city to catch you when you’re walking back to the train station to head home

Jihoon’s airplanes are viciously attacking him -- ngl looks pretty painful -- but they’re pushing him towards your direction all while your special airplane is leading you to him!!!

The city onlookers are freaked tf out seeing a man with 20 airplanes attached to his body and attacking him but a plane’s gotta do what a plane’s gotta do right folks??

Jihoon tries to move out of the train that the planes pushed him onto but they firmly hold him back the poor man

You’ve been following this lil lovely plane for a while now and just when you think of heading back, you meet a very familiar man but he’s… completely covered in airplanes

The boy keeps struggling against the planes and it’s super hard to walk and see when all he sees are blurs of flying white around him but he comes to a sudden halt when he sees the face he’s been thinking about for weeks

All the planes on his body slowly fall down and the second you lock eyes, colors just bURST into your vision

You’re not sure how the airplanes did their magic, but it’s definitely the least of your worries rn

He shyly chuckles and rubs his hand on the back of his neck, a tinge of pink coloring his cheeks (which you can NOW SEE YAY)

You look at the gigantic pile of airplanes crowding his feet and you can’t help but giggle when you connect the dots

“Did you really spend that much paper and time folding all of these?”

“It’s… a long story, but I’m glad I did. I think I have a bunch of cuts from them jamming into me earlier tho :(“

“Hmm, how about we properly communicate over some dinner?”

He smiles boyishly and nods in agreement

“As long as there’s no lemonade involved”

[greyknm]

You’re a dangerous man

V/Taehyung fanfic

Angst

It’s been a while since you broke up with Tae. He’s done nothing but put you in trouble you didn’t ask for. When you met him it felt like a fairytale.

“Hey, you seem down.” A man with long wavy gray hair slides in a chair next to you. His voice deep and soothing. You on the other hand wasn’t looking your best. Mascara running and teary eyed. There was obvious something wrong with you. You saw your boyfriend with another girl that day. You settled your problems with going to a club. “Yeah.” Is all you answered. “Would you like to…dance what ever is wrong away?” You gulp down your last shot and wipe away your mouth. He looks at you with teasing eyes. You think why the hell not. You dance with him then have what you wish now could only be, a one night stand. You’d exchange phone numbers at one point during that night.

T: hey, wanna hang out later. I want to get to know you more than how your lips feel.

Y: Taehyung?

T: Yep! It’s me. So..

Y: I’ll be busy.. Around 5?

T: Yay!! Ok. Coffee shop on Charol road.

You go to the coffee shop a little early because that’s just you. Every passing minute left you anxious that he wasn’t coming until you see a man with gray hair come through the door. You relax now that he’s made it. He comes to sit at your table. He’s wearing sunglasses that you can only see your reflection in. “Why the sunglasses?” He rests his face in the palm of his hand and pulls down the sunglasses revealing a black eye. You push back in surprise. “Ran into something the other day so sunglasses are a style today or I cover it with make up.” You calm down being you were a little worried. “Do you run into things alot? Knowing now that you have make up.” His laughs. “Yeah… So! Changing topics! What do you want to drink.? I’ll pay.” You refuse him many times until he finally wins. Since then you guys been hitting it off soon getting into a relationship.

Some days he would come to your house bruised. You’d ask him what happened and he’d only make lies. You began to get worried about him. Once you had to pick him up from the police station. “Tae Tae what’s really going on? You know you can tell me anything. I’m worried about you. You come to me with bruises, I pick you up from police stations. What are you doing?” He looks up at you slowly and inhales. “Jagiya, I love you ok? And I’ll tell you things when I can, ok? Don’t be worried.” He walks up to you and tilts your head up to kiss you. You trusted him. His words sealed with kisses. All lies. All lies.

He put you in danger once when you were out together walking in the street. When a gun was fired right towards you. He managed to block the shot from you, causing him to get shot instead. There were other times where he came to your house for hiding. He got abusive. What ever was happening to him wasn’t good. You were scared to tell him you wanted to leave. You wanted to stay too, he was hurting and you wanted to help. You started going to therapy. You were going crazy only because of him. You finally managed to tell him you didn’t want to do it anymore and you had to go. He threatened you about the things that could happen or that he could do to you. Only after to aplogize to you by hugging you and stroking your hair. You’d cry alone not knowimg what to do.

“YOU’RE A DANGEROUS MAN TAEHYUNG! IF YOU LOVED ME YOU’D LET ME GO! FOR MY SAFETY, WHY DRAG ME IN FURTHER!"You cried out to him. He just stood there eyes filled with darkness that you see alot now. He walks with full force to the room and comes out with a bag. He walks to the door. "If that’s what you FUCKING want! I’ll go. I’LL LEAVE.” You’re tearing up. “THEN GO!DON’T COME BACK EITHER! I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN KIM TAEHYUNG!” With that he slams the front door shut leaving you there in the darkness. You fall down to your knees and cry.

You move alot now because somehow he keeps fuckimg finding you. Trying to get you back. You were done with him. When he left, you were in even more danger when he was with you. People knock at your door and follow you on the streets. It got scary you had to move. He’d find out where you live and come back to you.

You’re in a line trying to get popcorn at a movie theater. “What movie are you watching today,miss?” You see a familiar frame stand beside you. “Taehyung I told you to stop following me. Why don’t you get that. Just leave me alone.” He sighs. “I just wanted to know what movie you were going to watch.” You’re now frustrated. “Taehyung I’ve beem trying so hard but if I have to put a fucking restraining order on you I will. Stop fucking following me!” “Next!” The lady at the cashier calls out. You walk up and take your order. You look back and he’s dissapeared.

You’re chilling in your apartment until there’s a knock at the door. You go to the door amd open not unlocking the chain. “No!” You go to close the door.“Jagi please” he stops the door. “Don’t call me that. Leave me alone Taehyung. Stop finding me, just let me go.” He sighs and inhales. “Jagiya please… I-I need you right now. You were the only thing right in my life an-” you interrupt him. “Yeah! Taehyung, and your right thing is now gone because everything is wrong. Every where you show up I’m in trouble. Leave.” He sniffs. You look up to see him tearing up. You hate tears it’s your weakness, you turn your head. “J-jagi please let me love you. I won’t cause you anymore problems. I-I’ve changed and got rid of all the bad. Let me restart. I won’t be mean or hurtful to you in anyway.” You close the door. Thinking what you should do. You wait for a while and unlock the door. You open it and Taehyung’s eyes light up. He hugs you and picks you up. He cries and apologizes in your shoulder. You show no emotion and rub his head. “Taehyung. I can’t and I’m sorry. You’ve made me scared for my life, made me gone crazy. I just can’t. I’ll always love you but you have to leave. Leave me. I’m sorry I couldn’t and now can’t be with you to help you. I won’t do it. I’m glad you’re doing better. Really I am.” You start to tear up. He gets up and gets him self together. “Ok jagi. If that’s what you desire, I’ll leave you for good.” He wipes away tears and you do the same. “Before I go can I kiss you goodbye?” You nod. He kisses you. The feeling soft and loving you don’t want to let go but you pull away first. He looks at you one last time. “Goodbye.”

It’s been 3 years since then. You still linger in his head. For you he is a lost memory that pops up every now and again. You’ve never seen him after that goodbye. He actually listened. You still wish to see his face again wondering if he’d want to see yours too. Somewhere in your heart you still love him. His number still in your phone you exchange every time you get a new phone just so. You’ve both went separate ways. Maybe in another life you’ll meet again in a better situation at a better time and a better person.

[tumblunni]

Yeah thats literally the only kh3 news i know, that something something ALL THE ORG FAVES ARE BACK FROM THE DEAD and also NOOOO VEXEN GOT POSSESSED BY THE GUY but also YAY HIM AMD MY OTHER FAVE FROM KH2 ARE FRIENDS NOW so it all balances out :3

Oh and i may as well actually say which games ive played in the series, to avoid confusion! I did play kh1 and kh2 as a kid and i have massive nostalgia for it. But i missed out on all the spinoffs that werent on the same console. Much much later when i was around 19 i rented BBS and Days from one of the last video rental places around, and i LOOOOVED days cos i am a big Organization Thirteen stan but i felt all disillusioned and bad about BBS. Thats about when stuff started to get REALLY confusing and it wasnt a good place to start getting back into the series as someone who hadnt played it for years. And also i was no old enough to realize that the voiceacting in this series is generally bad and there's a lot of plotholes, etc. Flaws that were probably in the older games too but i just never noticed them and i was able to get more swept away in childlike wonder due to less convoluted plots. Plus there's the whole fact the story in BBS starts due to a cavalcade of contrived misunderstandings and This Never Before Mentioned Thing Is Super Important and timeline confusingness over whether this is actually a hundred years in the past or just five years but this world happens to look medieval steampunk. And id waited so long for a playable female character and then aqua came out and she was (predictably) the magic user and the sex symbol and the Mom Friend and the Very Monotone Monologues Voice and the making of the same lucky charm for the thirdtime despite being unrelated to the other three female characters who ALL HAVE THE SAME DAMN HAIR. Like seriously is aqua kairi's long lost mom?? Did namine get born withthe same hair but slightly longer due to kairi's memory of aqua? AND WHY DOES LARXENE ALSO HAVE THAT HAIR JUST WITH LIL FLICKIES ON THE TOP

Anyway i never finished BBS cos that video rental store closed, and i wasnt enjoying it so i never picked it back up. And i havent tried any of the other spinoffs yet either. So there's a lot of new content for me to see even before kh3 comes out! I probably wont get it on release day because of that, i doubt i'll have finished playing every game in the series before january.

And LOL yeah i am Bad At Math so i anticipate i'llbe hilariously bad at COM! Randomly i actually had a dream last night about lets playing com?? I think it was the remake version cos i was going 'wow it sucks that they removed THE ENTIRE CONCEPT OF LEVELLING' from the remake'. ??? And then i remember i was in this weird area of interconnected floating platforms and i had to find the exit before a time limit by collecting small keys from portals to like.. Single rooms of other worlds. And all the keys were in weird places like stuck in the foot of the cat lucifer from cinderella. I think that was me trying to justify giving him a redemption plot cos he was just grumpy from a thorn in his paw. I always felt bad seeing this ordinary non sentient cat being treated like a 'villain' just for doing ordinary non sentient cat things. Oh no how "mean" that a cat is trying to eat a mouse like every cat does. Dude he has no way of knowing theyre protagonists and he isnt, thus he is automatically evil :( Anyway in the dream i was annoyed cos this big key finding sequence took forever and then the boss after it was Jafar in the form of a giant caterpillar (???????)and it was really bullshit hard and if you lost then you were back to your last save before the dungeon started and u had to do all the shit again.

And OH YEAH i saw like all your posts about the great characters and all everyone else's posts about them and AAAAA I AM SO EXCITED FOR THIS GAME!! i definately wanna try it, im downloading an emulator right now and i managed to find an unexpected 10 bucks in my couch so im gonna go buy SO MANY GROCERIES and eat a good meal and chug a milkshake or something and then FUCK YEAH GREAT GAME TIME

Im a lil confused on how to use this 3ds emulator tho and i dunno if my computer is good enough to run it and also u have to download all the dlcs separately and i dunno how you install them...? So yeah just gonna start with the original version cos ive herd the best good reviews about it and also its easier. But i'll still try and get this other one to work cos itd be fun to do as a second playthru. And then of course when i have the money for it i'll buy the actual physical copies to support the company, even tho i cant record those for an lp cos my 3ds is broken lol

So much game excite!!!!!

The most important thing you can do right now is take care of yourself!!! I don't want toa sk you to spend more money when the situation is like this . . . But what do you think about doing some kind of reaction series with kingdom hearts? Or if we can find a way to do a game called "Radiant Historia"? The main character remidns me of you, and it has a High Quality Villain Grandpa

Oh, well i was thinking of doibg games i already own or free to play games for the moment, and then waiting til christmas to buy whatever game you suggested and do the lp for it. Itd be my present to both me and you! :D

So if you know any good free to play games that’d be fun, or if you could suggest which kind of kingdom hearts reaction vid you want me to do? Like i said, sadly i never finished the chain of memories reaction vid cos i literally got halfway through and was like WHO IS THIS MAN VEXEN I LOVE HIM and then trawled the wiki for three hours and gained a New Fave Gramps. So i am ALWAYS ready for New Fave Gramps!

I’ve actually heard of radiant historia and ive always wanted to play it for years but i kept never getting it? Like, whenever i got money id always buy a cheaper game that i knew more about. People were saying i should stay compketely unspoiled to have the full experience of RH but that means i literally know nothing about it except its (probably) rpg genre or adventure genre? And i think the art style looks cool. And maybe time travel or historical war game due to the title? Or maybe its just a title cos i mean kingdom hearts sounds like historical war game. Oh! And one of my friends said they were sad about a character getting a bad redesign in the remake! So i know its on at least 2 consoles but i dont know which ones or whether the remake is better or not? I hope at least one of the versions is one i can play!

So yeah i’ll go do research on RH!! And if you have any specific KH ideas then get back to me! I was considering maybe doing an lp of COM cos, yknow, found out vexen existed and instantly loved him. Plus i can play the gba version on my computer! And i own the whole HD collection of kingdom hearts on ps4 whicj i havent even started yet cos i was trying to figure out how to hook up a normal microphone to the console but then i ended up eventually finding a universal headset that has adaptor attatchments for all consoles and also pc. But by then i forgot what i even wanted to lets play in the first place lol! Just the other day i saw an advert for the hdcollection and was like ‘damn i wish i had that’ and somehow didnt remember i bought it in like march??? I think The Discovery Of Vexen just blitzed every other piece of kingdom hearts content out of my brain, lol. SRSLY HOW DID I MISS OUT ON LOVING HIM FOR MY ENTIRE CHILDHOOD!! And also lexaeus and also THEY ARE TOTALLY MARRIED AND YOU WILL PRY THIS HEADCANON FROM MY COLD DEAD HANDS cold dead hands like VEXENNNNN AAAAAAA my boy my baby boy my baby grandpa *goes down like a log into the woodchipper of feels*

Sorry where was i ANYWAY i could totally play COM on an emulator and then play the remake and maybe compare them? And yell LOOK IT MA BOY in pixels and also 3D! And compare it to the manga which is the only version ive seen so far and VEXEN IS A REALLY CUTE SAD DAD IN IT AND THEY HAVE A LITTLE CHORES WHEEL IN THE SCIENCE LAB AND THEY WERE FAMBLY hhhh my emotions.my preemptive emotions for a game i havent played. Man im gonna be so dissappointed if ScienceDaddo isnt as neat as ive been imagining but ehhi can always live in headcanon au family land. EVERYTHING IS BETTER WHEN YOU GRAMP

…anyway im slightly hyperactive from the excitement of getting groceries, as you can see XD

[inhalareexhalare]

Shit, I Snapped (Again)

I snapped again.

Karu asked me to get our food outside. He's busy, I understand. He has a gig today.

I didn't snap screaming or anything. As usual, it's a quiet ticking nuclear bomb.

I'm just too busy remembering what he said yesterday, that he's gonna spoil me and cook his good food and stuff. None of it happened, and I am still too wired to expect the good things.

I also claimed our laundry while I was out so as to make the trip more worth it.

I am shutting down my laptop, stopping my games, so I don't distract myself from these awful poison feelings I'm feeling. I insisted on cooking the rice since he's so busy.

I'm pissed and I'm sad, as expected, but what hurts more is that I think I'm not getting better at all.

So I'm spending the rest of time I have left before we have to eat in quiet solitude. Well, I say eat, but the time before he left and the time he returned aren't very much different. We'll probably just gobble the food up, hurrying to keep up with his busy schedule.

I don't even know why I struggle so much to walk home so we could eat together. The truth is, I know why, and that's because I, on my own, wanted and insisted that we eat food together.

I know he cares. He really does. But this place in my head right now is pulling me in, telling me all my fears, telling me all the pain. But no, he's just busy.

Aren't people just busy?

I'm asking too much. I know I am. Fuck I am sad.

Okay. Breathe. No running away. I'm sad, I get it, and that's okay. I'm okay. I'm going to be okay. Just breathe. Let that loneliness sink in, deeper. It's going to be okay. (I sound like those doctors that give you trust issues and tell you it's only going to sting a little hahaha)

It's going to be okay.

My parents were both busy when I was little. What if I felt neglected, and I'm having transference, associating that feeling of neglect and loneliness with these consecutive broken hopes and expectations?

But I always had my two brothers and one sister with me. So I couldn't have been that lonely. I really don't remember when this loneliness started. I just know it's been there since I was at most five years old when I won't stop crying at night when I couldn't sleep and my thoughts wouldn't leave me alone, and everyone else were asleep which confirmed that I was terribly alone.

Maybe the night just made me an easier target because the night is one of the big triggers. Maybe this situation is also one of the tiny triggers that remind me of my loneliness.

Writing all this down help me make sense of things.

Sort out my memories.

But I'm still just feeling sad. And that's okay. It's going to be okay.

It's okay to be sad. You don't have to hide yourself from Karu.

It's okay. Breathe. You don't have to smile, but you don't have to hide the sadness either.

It's okay.

Breathe.

2019-02-16 12:05 Philippines Saturday

And I'm all good again on my own.

Hm. It took an hour to transition here. I'm pretty sure I don't hate Karu hahaha hmm.

This reminds me of when kids know how to have fun when their parents are away. Like, maybe you crave their attention and you feel bad that they're going away again, but soon enough you forget that feeling as you get yourself busy with so much you can do with so much time alone.

It's honestly fun amd comfortable. But also confusing. So basicallyyyy...

There's unresolved conflict that keeps getting set aside for the reason that nothing can be done about it.

So hmm (1) Person of interest (POI) not around=nothing to do about conflict. Forgets conflict!

(2) POI around=remembers conflict but stagnates in it because I "can't do anything about it"

Possible, possible hahaha

But there IS something I could do about it though, and they are the opposite of the instinctive response to the conflict mentioned above:

(1) Understand the conflict within. Don't leave it for later.

(2) Tell the POI whatever the hell conflict it is that's inside you. It's important not to make the POI be the solution. Pull yourself away from the idea that POI is an antagonist that is making you suffer by trying to understand them. That way you can keep away from revenge mindset. If you know what it's really like to be sad/in conflict, you know it's not good for others too. Turn your sadness into kindness.

Okay. I'll try this out the next time I see him.

2019-02-16 15:12 Philippines Saturday

Who knew? In attempt to understand my inner struggle I isolated myself both in the process of my self missions or in my social missions.

I really did socialize with people, but after that I'd just revert back to self-obsessing.

It's important to internalize your issues to understand them, but make time to take breaks and look at other people, else you lose your balance.

My inner murmurs overpowered my social game.

Isolation is not only an external environment. Isolation can also live in the mind.

PS I kinda regret looking at distractions and escapism bursts as weaknesses now. It's not the act that's weakness. It's your intention that can turn it into weakness.

2019-02-16 17:40 Philippines Saturday

I'm very sorry, reader, for putting you through this mess of cycles and ups and downs. I sprawl flat on the ground and pick myself up again and again and again. It's probably getting tiring or annoying.

But actually, I'm not sorry at all, because this is exactly what I meant when I said I will not give up.

2019-02-16 18:24 Philippines Saturday

There are many times when you have to drop a mystery even before you reach the answers. Because you also have other parts of yourself you need to take care of.

The door won't run away. It'll just stay there. What you do when you obsess over something is you starve yourself of something else and then it becomes many other something elses that you are starved from. Until you die of starvation, by the door.

Essentially, this is the choice between living to fight another day or dying a fruitless death.

Drop it. Pick it up again later.

Passion is a good thing. But it shouldn't be the only thing.

2019-02-16 19:00 Philippines Saturday

YES IT WAS GOOD I initiated a short exchange with Moira and she gave me a few hand-me-downs hours later too so that was another short exchange, and then I was affectionate again to Karu when he got home late at night!!!

He was pleasantly surprised haha

I am remembering something stupid about myself before. It actually still sort of applies until now. There was one time when I confessed to Karu, just to give him some trivia about something he probably doesn't notice:

Every time he spreads out his arms wide, my arms instinctively twitch, as if asking, "is it hug time? Is it hug time?" And many times it isn't hahahaha He could just be changing clothes or stretching, etc so it's funny. He laughed at me so I felt doubly stupid, but it's true. I feel like a dog sometimes.

(Also, I feel like I already put this memory in this journal somewhere, but whatever haha)

Our first hug was like that. It was by the time he already knew that I was crazy for him that he spread his arms as a means of calling me to hug him. It was some form of reward, to my understanding. That concert we organized was one of the best. He was still in love with Isla back then.

2019-02-17 07:05 Philippines Sunday

I survive! Nothing was triggered even when Karu told me today that he has to go to a gig in a bit.

My reasons for getting pissed or sulky or offended seems to tweak a bit each time, but!

Again, I think that reasons are just excuses. They aren't the real problem. They just help manifest it, and so help you root it out.

I am still convinced that even though the situation/trigger looks a bit different, the main issue, is the same:

An imbalance in what I put my attention to. Balance social and self missions!

I learned new special moves from this experience yay! Making a game analogy really helps me organize my thoughts and future actions and goals.

I learned what I call <Break>. A change of pace, a positive distraction, a healthy interval for better productivity.

I put it under my Self quest.

Weee!

2019-02-17 13:02 Philippines Sunday