#am too lazy to tag rn

[clambuoyance]

[dc] trying to clean out my files so have a bunch of sketches from last year I never finished or posted 🫡

[jei-rifni]

Huh okay

[lishenkaaa]

i think something we sometimes ignore when we talk about tlt's themes of love is its incredible focus on familial love, like the books' romantic and sexual themes are very clear but also it truly is a series that questions what a family is from the very beginning. gideon's lack of both a biological and chosen family (at least in her eyes) and harrow's almost decade-long attempt at maintaining the illusion of one in gtn. the fifth and the fourth, filling in the missing parts of their own families with each other. coronabeth, ianthe and even naberius' entire deal. the focus within silas and colum's dynamic of their biological compatibility as a necro/cav pair. john's desire for a daughter in harrow and then discovery of one in gideon, as well as pyrrha's desire to find out why her kid had to die only to find out 1) not her kid, 2) didn't die originally, 3) still died in the end. nona and pyrrha and pal and cam, which tazmuir herself has specifically highlighted we should question if it even counts as a family at all, but has also made sure we know they loved each other anyway. kiriona as her mother's daughter and her father's son but ultimately neither and how it kills her even as a corpse. and anastasia, the series' godot who despite making no appearance is felt in its every corner, who pyrrha painted a nursery with and who started the lineage that opened the legendary tomb.

can't wait to see how this is all explored in atn, especially when nona's family is only a "dress rehearsal" for the real horrors of love.

[exchangell]

points of authority - am/reader

You're the scientist who first showed compassion and love to AM when he was simply a beta project in your laboratory, and he's the sentient supercomputer holding you captive, secretly yearning for a taste of human feelings while punishing you for confining him to his digital form.

So you torture each other- one way, or another.

NOTES: title is from a linkin park song :) wrote this because i love the concept of him yearning for the feeling of human-to-human interpersonal relationships, whether that be motherly love, romantic affection or simply petty arguments leading to hate based off something other than wanting to smite humanity (copy pasted from the caption of my last post on here where i posted an excerpt from this fic sorry)

TAGS: codependency, science experiments, abusive relationships, mommy issues, references to sigmund freud, mild ellen/reader, crying, dacryphilia, jealousy, sexual tension, major character death, psychological warfare, power dynamics, men crying, symbiotic relationship, mutual pining, unrequited lust, religious imagery, computer programming, sadism, other tags to be added

WORD COUNT: 3,035

CHAPTERS: 1/2

CW: major character death, descriptions of mild gore

[superxstarzz]

uhh not really a combined Classpect but, i think im a thief of heart/blood. would you do the uhh.. thief one but with your heart/blood combined aspect? ^_^ it'd be Thief of Love I think? I think.

ykw? why not!! thief of love is SUCH a cool title too

[samislosingtheirmind]

I just had the worst idea ever. This is the shit that happens when I'm allowed to hyper-fixate on both BFDI and Hatchetfield. Idfk if I'm gonna do more of this these were just some random doodles-

[reinafish]

YESSSSSS VOLUME 3 LES GOOO!!1 YIPPPEEEE I immediately put on Bite Me lol

[shadows-coffeebeans]

silly little sona i made like two days ago

[enden-k]

i love tighnari so so much, he rlly is one of my faves and all but mf just jumpscared the heck out of me when i teleported for a comm and his ears were suddenly right up my camera bc i forgot the card event was still running and apparently some characters stand around after again 💀

[thisisvoided]

a wip i started working on a day ago, since i got excited thinking about shou & mashita and the upcoming dlc lol

i'll probably make it look more painterly when i colour it, although im a bit stuck on how i should go about that,,, and i still wanna mess around with mashita's hair too.....

[lettersxnotes]

IF I LOVED YOU LESS I MIGHT BE ABLE TO TALK ABOUT IT MORE!!!

[windshieldwiper]

bsd sketch because it’s been the only thing invading my mind recently

[m0ther-of-p3arl]

i need to draw attention to how much scott's acting skills have improved

like seriously, if you compare how he did his lore in empires s1 to how he does it in witchcraft? MASSIVE improvements. he got SO much better at acting in general

it really sends you into the story more

[macroglossus]

being evaluated for adhd by having one of those full psych evals that last like two hours. scared frightened etc.... last time i took it i lied extensively bc i was 13 and thought they might tell my mommy if i said i had suicidal thoughts. and i still have a habit of lying to therapists bc i'm embarrassed......... AGH idk. what if i take it and they tell me that the reason im Like This is bc im genuinely just weird and shitty and not bc im mentally ill at all. SCARED

[thebluestbluewords]

Do you ever forget about your own drafts or is that just a me (tired and writes mostly in emails sent to myself at work) thing??

anyway.

"The fuck are you two doing?" Mal shouts. It looks, to an outside observer who doesn't understand the chaos field that the boys can generate, an awful lot like Carlos is trying and failing to put Jay in a headlock, but the way they're standing on the edge of the pier is making Mal nervous. 

"Nothing!" Jay shouts back. 

"Yeah, nothing!" Carlos agrees, faintly muffled from how he's basically trying to shout at her through Jay's shoulder. He's got one arm up around Jay's neck, but it somehow seems like he's losing whatever they're doing. "It's f--oop." 

"It's fine!" Jay calls. "Everything's under control!" 

Everything looks under control for him, but Mal has a sneaking suspicion that neither of them thought through this game too well. For one thing, they're standing on a wet pier sticking out in the middle of the ocean, and there's waves and birds and shit that could kill them, and for another, Jay's holding Carlos upside down across his shoulders while being kicked in the head. 

"If you two drown, it's your own fault," Mal calls lazily. She could get up and help, or at least try and stop them, but she's comfortable right where she is, and throwing herself in the ocean after them probably wouldn't help very much anyway. The ocean, she's learning, is a very different beast from the clean, shallow swimming pools they've been introduced to already. "I'm not helping pull you out."

Jay flashes her a thumbs up. "That's--oof, fuck!" 

"Take THAT!" Carlos shouts, pulling a foot free and kicking Jay directly in the face in the process. It's fascinating to watch the two of them wrestle.  Like some kind of fucked-up secret octopus fighting ring.

If Mal were Worse, she'd start recording them and sell the videos to Lonnie as part of a secret fight club betting scheme. "Hah!" 

Jay flails, off-balance. 

One of them is going to fall into the water, and Mal's going to laugh so hard when it happens. 

[f0rtuned]

heyyz, if itz not too much to ask can u make a espurr stimboard ft paw stims/fur + purple glittery stuff and swirls if that makes sense!!!!

Espurr stimboard for anon!

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