#am I just totally fucked up by my relationship history or are all the rest of you nuts?

[ramshacklefey]

Wait. Back up. So there's like. A significant difference between the way you feel about your dearest friends/family, and the way you're supposed to feel about a romantic partner, and it isn't "I wanna fuck you stupid" OR "co-dependent attachment based on my low self-esteem and desire for outside validation from someone I think is better than me"?

And this third thing is what you're supposed to base your choice of romantic partners on. And losing it is an immense tragedy that is grounds for ending a relationship, even if you remain compatible for continuing your life projects together in all other ways.

It is also, while not being some kind of co-dependent attachment, grounds for not being able to be friends with someone if they don't feel the same way about you.

And we aren't just randomly putting a label on something and elevating it because it helps reinforce cishet-patriarchal relationship ideals.

Are we sure about this? Can anyone describe it to me? Is it in the room with us right now?

"I get nervous and excited when I'm around them," doesn't everyone feel that way when they really want someone else to like them?

"I feel like my life won't be complete if they don't form a certain kind of relationship with me," is that not co-dependent attachment?

"I really really love them and want to have sex with them," those are two separate things, why is there something magical about both of them happening at once?

"I want to live with them for the rest of my life," because you get along well, have shared values and compatible life projects, and your financial needs/desires are similar?

"I want to raise kids with them," because you have a shared set of goals as parents and your other goals and projects mesh well with that. Right? Right?

"I want to breed with them," well now you're just telling me more than I wanted to know about your fetishes.

[sukirichi]

𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐓𝐎𝐎 𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐄 | 𝐒. 𝐑𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮

— in which you and your fuck buddy pretend to date, which totally won’t lead to feelings at all, right?

content / warnings. toxic college settings. explicit smut. MINORS DNI. choking. exhibitionism. fingering. making out. masturbation. voyeurism. toxic characters. reverse cowgirl riding. implied dub-con. friends with benefits. fake dating. unedited.

dedicated to @kyriaan

The sixth beep of your phone that cursed morning had you shuffling around your bag for the device, fishing it out and muting it with exasperation. To no one’s surprise, he was the sole topic again. Oikawa this and Oikawa that — how he’d be such a great boyfriend to you and your friends could also go on dates with his equally charismatic friends; you were tired of hearing the same thing over and over again.

“Funny seeing you here,” a bored voice drawled out, the scraping of a chair against the floor snapping you to your senses. “Never in my whole life did I imagine I’d find you hiding in a library of all places — are you reading Freud? His theories are shit. They’re not even scientifically proven.”

You raised a brow at Suna Rintaro, your not-so friend friend.

You and Rintaro had a strict friends with benefits relationship.

It started with meeting at a party once when you needed a release from the stress of finals, you made out on the crowded dance floor and found yourselves tangled in the sheets with barely any memory of the night before. The rest was history. Soon, you ran into him more often than you’d expected, and it wasn’t long before you added his name into speed dial.

Funnily enough, you weren’t that close to him.

You either knew everything about him or knew little to nothing. Most of the time you spent with Rintaro would be when you two were drunk out of your minds, bodies too occupied with moving against one another that ‘getting to know each other’ had never been a thing.

For some reason, however, Rintaro was someone you could trust with your whole heart. You just wouldn’t date him because you weren’t looking for a relationship, and neither was he.

Both of you loved the arrangement you had now.

“Why do you know so much about Freud? I just randomly picked up this book.”

Rintaro shrugged, “‘Hooked up with a girl in Psychology once; she was pretty hot, but you’re still my favourite,” winking, he chewed on his gum before snatching the book away from you.

A protest nearly fell from your mouth when a mop of wavy, dark hair sauntered inside the library, taking long, confident strides as he chatted with Iwaizumi. Eyes widening, you ducked your head behind Suna, desperately clutching the hoodie clad on his stiff back.

Rintaro glanced downwards at you, “You’re hiding like you murdered somebody’s pet. Should I be worried or should I help you in hiding someone’s body?”

“Literally shut up. Oikawa is right there.”

“Oikawa... Tooru?” following your line of sight, Rintaro’s back slouched at the same time his lips curled into a mischievous smile. You could tell he was stifling his laughter; the vibrations of his back spoke enough of his urge to betray you. “Oh, he’s looking here. At you, I might say — care to explain?”

“I have nothing to explain to you. We’re not even friends.”

“Ouch,” Rintaro clutched at his chest, “That hurt. Weren’t you at my dorm like five nights in a row last week? You didn’t want me to leave the bed either. I thought we had something special!”

“Suna Rintaro, I am not fucking around with you. Shut up. I swear if Oikawa walks here, I’m never talking to you again.”

As if to prove a point, you plopped until your upper body squished against his back and the chair, cheeks puffing out in frustration as Rintaro sighed. “Okay, you don’t have to explain anything to me, but come on. You’re using me as a human shield and I have zero context on what’s going on,” he tapped your thigh, head slightly tilted to the side with a wary eye out for Oikawa. “Listen, if he’s bothering you, I could deal with it. He looks like the type of guy who doesn’t know what ‘no’ means so if that’s the case, stop hiding. I can help you with it. Just tell me what’s wrong.”

Your grip on his hoodie listened. Peering up from the bottom of your lashes, you nervously licked your lips. “Wait... you mean that? You’ll really help me?”

“Yeah! You send me nudes that motivate me to ace my exams so this is the least I could do.”

“You just have to make everything sexual, don’t you?” you rolled your eyes and ignored Rintaro’s shameless smile. Scanning the room, you glared at Oikawa’s direction before sitting up and gluing yourself to Rintaro’s hip, whose brow raised but said nothing otherwise. “Okay, so the thing is... my friends may or may not have set me up with Oikawa. They kind of gave him false hope I’m really into him — which I never will be because he has a shitty personality — but he’s not having any of it. He insisted I should go with him on just one date, and if I still don’t change my mind about him, then he won’t push further. Otherwise, he really doesn’t take no for an answer. He’s everywhere that I ended up blurting out I was already dating someone.”

Rintaro rested his chin on his palm. “That’s a lot of information to take in,” he mused, “So... you need help in finding a fake boyfriend, is that it?”

“About that,” with guilt written all over your face, you scratched the back of your neck and chuckled, making sure to avoid eye contact the entire time. “You were the first one to come to mind so I told him I was dating the middle blocker from his team. The uhm, guy who stays up until three am fighting in Twitter threads.”

Rintaro’s jaw dropped. “No way,” he clicked his tongue, hands coming up to ball beside your cheeks as he fought the desire to squeeze your cheeks. Meanwhile, you blinked at him innocently, lower lip jutted out in hopes you’d appease him — which more or less worked as he slumped in his seat. “I can’t believe you dragged me into this.”

“I didn’t have a choice!”

“You did and you chose to date me!” Rintaro hissed under his breath, “Jeez, if you wanted us to be official, you could’ve said so. I would’ve thought about it,” exhaling through his nose, Rintaro pushed his hair back, his head too much of a mess to notice you getting flustered. “Fine. I’ll be your fake boyfriend, but don’t you dare fall in love with me. Our condition when we started sleeping together was that we’re limited to casual relationships only. I like our arrangement already, and you mean a lot to me as a friend so I don’t want to lose you, alright? Whatever we’re doing, it’s all going to be an act.”

“Deal,” you shook his hand, face lighting up at how it didn’t take much to convince him. “Now go to the party with me tonight. We’ll show Oikawa why he can’t have me.”

The sight of bodies grinding onto another and music blaring through the speakers weren’t new to you and Rintaro. You’d both seen the same scene a thousand times before, having been part of that crowd at one point. Yet, tonight felt different from rest. The music felt muted as you walked through the door with Rintaro’s hand down on your waist, the stench of alcohol and sex overpowered by the musky perfume your fake boyfriend wore.

You couldn’t think clear around him.

You tried to blame it on the jitters that set your nerves on fire, anxiety pooling in your stomach at the thought Oikawa made it clear he wanted to see you tonight.

Of course, you weren’t stupid. Knowing the guy infamous for his reputation for sleeping around and changing partners like they were his clothes, he wouldn’t give up once he had his eyes set on someone. It just so happened that unfortunate person had to be you.

“Relax,” Rintaro breathed into your ear, pulling you closer by the hip when you weaved through the people nearly fucking on the floor. The sudden gesture had you jolting for a split second. Blinking, Rintaro’s reassuring smile greeted you with a tinge of amusement, his gaze tracing down your nails forming crescent moons on his arm. “Do you really have to cling to me all night?”

“We’re supposed to be a couple madly in love, remember?” you reminded with a bounce of your heel, surveying the throng of people milling in and out of the frat house in search of Oikawa.  “You should kiss me too as soon as we see him. Then he’ll stop bothering me and we can be over with this fiasco.”

“Asking just in case, but how should I kiss you? Like a peck?”

“Kiss me like you want the whole world to know I’m yours,” you said nonchalantly, not thinking too much of it since this was supposed to be an act. Until a horde of loud males started cheering as soon as they entered the room, the crowd welcoming Oikawa and his friends warmly when Rintaro suddenly grabbed you by the wrist, twisting you to face him. The last thing you saw before Rintaro tilted his head to the side to press his lips to yours was the look of utter horror on Oikawa’s face.

Although, honestly, who cared? Rintaro tasted like beer and strawberries, his musky scent clouding your senses that your eyes closed in response.

Knees weakening, you grabbed onto Rintaro’s shoulders to steady yourself, gasping into his greedy lips when you felt him squeeze your hip possessively. You groaned into the kiss, your hands running up to play with the ends of his hair as Rintaro’s back hit the wall, his bent leg trapped between your thighs. He quickly took the chance and nudged his knee on your clothed pussy. Your skirt grazed against your sensitive core that you attempted to pull away to breathe, but Rintaro wasn’t having any of it.

Smirking beneath you, Rintaro hooked a finger into the chains dangling from your skirt and pulled you flush against him. You had no time to react before he was pushing a tongue past your lips. Warm, wet muscles danced against each other as Rintaro memorized the taste of you the same way you did for him — not a single care about air anymore when he made those low, deep whimpers setting fire to your loins.

But just as soon as you leaned in for more, his hair tugged backward to deepen the kiss, Rintaro pulled away. “That’s how I’d kiss you if I were your boyfriend,” he declared, pads of his thumb swiping against his moist lip swollen from the little nips you gave him — the look of pleasure and satisfaction displayed all over his handsome face that told you how much he enjoyed your needy whines.

You gaped at him, your skin burning from being edged.

Rintaro flicked you on the forehead. “Don’t look at me like that. You asked me to kiss like I wanted to let the world know your mine, and he was looking. Besides, we need to show someone who you belong to, right?” pushing his weight off the wall, Rintaro lightly bit your earlobe as you breathed hard, his sharp, cold gaze focused on a flushed red Oikawa standing across the room. “I have a better idea if you’re up for it.”

Arms crossed against your chest, you wrapped your arms around his waist in faux affection, when in reality you only needed to hear what he said through the loud music. “What do you have in mind?” The smirk on Rintaro’s face was as loud as a warning siren.

“Turn around.”

Even if you didn’t want to, Rintaro wasn’t asking. He spun you around by the shoulders, your back flushed against his chest when you felt his knee nudge between your legs once more. His fingers calloused from playing volleyball snaked past your thigh and dangerously close to your heated pussy. “This is what I had in mind,” he whispered, his voice sending tingles straight down your spine. “Let’s burn that pretty face of yours into his head. Show him what he can’t have.”

Your dignity told you to say no. To be fingered in public like this was less than ideal, even more so when your lace panties dangerously flashed into view. Yet, you found yourself arching your back to retaliate.

Ass nudging against Rintaro’s hardening cock, you smirked upon hearing his low groans. One palm cupped your ass as a warning before he playfully snapped your underwear against your thigh, a wince painting your half fucked out features from the sting. Glancing at him from the side, you sneered, about to protest when he wiggled his free hand and cupped your pussy.

Your mouth hung open.

Oikawa’s drink fell from his hands. No longer was he paying any attention to his friends, rather on the way you keened and your tongue threatening to loll out your lips the moment Rintaro’s thumb flicked your clit.

“You’re such a naughty slut. Who knew you were into this?”

“He’s watching, Rintaro,” you whimpered, gripping at his wrist like he wasn’t knuckle deep in your pants already. “Someone could see and think we’re—”

“That’s the point,” lowering his mouth onto your neck, you gasped at his teeth sinking down on the skin. Behind you, you could hear the hand on your ass disappear at the sounds of a belt unbuckling, fuelling your imagination to both the best and worst scenarios. Rintaro wasn’t far behind in his surprise as were you; you never expected you’d enjoy giving someone a show either, much less cum on the spot the second Rintaro’s cock slipped inside you. “Aw, fuck, did you just come undone for me? I haven’t even done anything yet.”

You shook your head, palms slippery with sweat as you held onto his slick hands squeezing your waist. The music was no longer audible from the pounding of your heart. Hell, you could barely feel your legs when Rintaro mumbled something incoherent around you before he guided your connected bodies onto a nearby couch.

Plopping down with your weight on top of him, you held onto his knees for dear life. Rintaro settled on the leather couch occupied by a stoned student laughing by himself, the latter’s chuckles halting when he was greeted by the sight of your hazy eyes and pants falling from your mouth. Meanwhile, Rintaro rested his arms on the back of his head. He didn’t have to lift a finger, much less give a command for you to know he wanted you to ride him right here — if you looked straight across, Oikawa would be right before you a few feet away, his frown deeply engraved into his face.

“Rin, I...”

He sat up in a flash at the hesitance in your voice, warm hands wrapping around your waist protectively. It took you a second to realize he hid his nestled cock from everyone’s prying eyes in case you weren’t comfortable, but the gesture did nothing but make you clench around him harder — both from the anxiety and anticipation.

You’d never admit it out loud, but you wanted people to watch. You wanted him to see Rintaro had total control over your body, no matter how humiliating the situation might be.

“Do you want us to stop? Should we go somewhere else?”

You didn’t answer with words. Instead, you bent your legs to rest beside his thighs, fingers looping around the ones hooked under your breast to steady yourself before you lifted your hips, then slammed back down. Again and again, until sweat dripped from your head to your jaw, you kept eye contact with a red-faced Oikawa. All the while as you bounced on Rintaro’s dick and threw your head back, laughing with your whole chest at the lights spinning from the ceiling since it reminded you of the seventh heaven you were in.

Rintaro let you go at your own pace, his grunts and garbled utterances of your name blending with the party wilding from the background. You could feel him twitching inside of you. His cock bumped and grazed your walls until the tip kissed a particular sensitive spot that had you losing your balance for a moment, nails digging into his ripped jeans to catch your breath.

“Goddamn,” Rintaro cursed, stealing away your ability to breathe with his hand snaking into your neck. “You dirty fucking slut, getting off to acting like a whore in front of the whole campus, huh? Go on. Show them how you’re such a whore for my cock.”

You couldn’t swallow down your words.

Rintaro’s grip on your neck had you on a literal chokehold, strong enough to deprive you of air and tighten around him, but not to a point you felt lightheaded. If anything, the power he displayed only fuelled you to ride him harder. Drawing figure eights with your hip, you could feel drool smearing your lipstick as the red stains smudged against Rintaro’s palm, the sound of slick and skin slapping against skin like music to your ears.

Only Rintaro could ever make you feel this way.

From the night you’d met him, each time you fucked would be the best experience of your life. Not once had he failed in bringing you over the edge or experimenting with the most absurd positions you’d never thought of before, and now you were returning the favour.

You rode his cock like it was your last mission. ‘Death by cock’ didn’t sound like such an unfavourable thing either, not when it meant losing yourself in his thick girth spreading you wide and the lewd sight of your cum sticking to his thighs. His jeans were a mess, but Rintaro never complained. He didn’t care then, and he wouldn’t care now. Seeing you dirty his clothes, your sweat dampening his shirt and your own cum coating his cock like a rewarding trophy of what felt like the best night of his life — Rintaro didn’t give a single fuck about the mess.

“F-Fuck, Rin, I’m coming!”

Rintaro held your waist, taking over with complete control as he slammed your hips up and down his twitching cock, curses falling back and forth from his mouth. “Cum on me,” he ordered. Resting his chin on your shoulders, Rintaro’s other hand twisted your jaw in the direction of Oikawa biting his lip, his hand suspiciously following your movements from under the luminescent lights. “Look at that dirty fucker. Let’s show him what he missed out on, yeah?”

A burst of warmth exploded inside you. You were too stunned to move, thighs burning from the ache that you accepted it with delight before falling back into Rintaro’s chest. “That was the best fuck of my life,” you admitted through lidded eyes, “But we’re fucked tomorrow. The whole campus is going to talk about us.”

“Let them.”

Post-nut clarity hit you hard like a truck.

Albeit expecting the rumours and looks you’d be getting the next day, the blatant impressed stares mixed with some envious ones never got easier by the end of classes. Everywhere you went, people would be whispering. But like Rintaro always used to say each time you cried to him, there’d be light at the end of the tunnel, because the best part of it all that made everything worth it?

Oikawa avoided you like the plague. Not because he was appalled of what he’d witnessed and what he’d done, but rather word spread out how he’d been rejected.

For the first time in his life, Oikawa Tooru felt humiliation, at the hands of his own teammate, no less — something Rintaro took pride in when you crashed by his room that night.

“You should’ve seen the look on his face. It was priceless,” he snickered while scrolling through the phone, about to comment when the door swung open, revealing a carbon copy replica of Rintaro. In female version.

Rintaro quickly shot out of bed and threw a blanket over your head, stalking to the girl standing with her mouth hanging ajar at the door. “What are you doing here? I thought you guys wouldn’t be home until the weekend. Plus, how’d the fuck you get inside the dorms? You’re not supposed to be here, Remi.”

Remi ignored him. “Are you hiding your girlfriend? Mom needs to know about this, she’d love to meet her!”

That was how you found yourself stuck to Rintaro in a cramped booth with his family not an hour later. You awkwardly picked at your food, stealing glances at an equally silent Rintaro while his younger sister, Remi, kept babbling about how her brother hid a girlfriend this whole time. His family went out of town for business for a while, but since they got home earlier, they decided to surprise Rintaro with a visit.

He sure was surprised, and so were you since they hadn’t stopped calling you ‘dear’ ever since.

His parents were nice — they warmly welcomed you and even invited you to have dinner with them sometime at their house. Mrs. Suna would whip up a meal to welcome you as part of their family, saying that you should consider it a thanks for making their son smile. Remi was the most excited out of all them. She’d been wanting an older sister for a while now, and she hadn’t stopped clinging onto your arm the whole time until her parents forcefully snatched her away when it was time go back home.

The entire walk back to the dorms felt suffocating.

None of you spoke a word, not until you arrived at your building and Rintaro shoved his hands down his pockets, swinging back and forth on his feet. “So... are you free this Friday? You should come have dinner with us.”

“You’re seriously asking me that?”

“Why not? You’re invited. Don’t be rude and not go.”

“It’s not being rude, Rintaro, you’re asking me to lie to your parents,” you snapped, halting in your tracks to stare at him in disbelief. “They adored me all because they think I’m dating you, but we’re not the least bit close to that. We just fuck and call it day, maybe hang out when we’re bored, but we don’t know each other at all. And weren’t you the one who told me that we can’t be more than just fuck buddies?”

Rintaro rolled his eyes. “You’re right, but I agreed to pretend to be your boyfriend to push Oikawa away. Now do me a favour and keep up with the fake girlfriend thing. My parents will be devastated if I tell them we’re not real.”

“I don’t want to lie to them!”

“It’s not a big deal! Why’re you making a mountain out of everything? So because the deal on my side doesn’t require fucking, you’ll back out just like that?”

Your mouth hung open in shock. “It’s because I don’t want to be your fake girlfriend, Rintaro, I want to date you for real!” you blurted out, eyes widening at the same time Rintaro’s cheeks flushed. Realizing what you just said, you inwardly regretted it with a grimace. “I’m sorry. You said we can’t be more than that and I know I just ruined our friendship, but I’m really sorry. I can’t bring myself to lie to your family like that, and I don’t want to lie about my feelings either,” hanging your head down low, you bit the insides of your cheeks. No matter what you said, you couldn’t take it back anymore.

“Rintaro, I like you. You make me happy and I want to do the same for you, but I understand if we’re done now. It was nice to have met you.”

Without waiting for his response, you ran back into the building when a hand wrapped around your wrist. You stared at the long fingers and to the arm connected to it, heart sinking into your chest when you came face to face with Rintaro’s handsome face.

“You didn’t even give me a chance to speak.”

“I’m sure you don’t want to be near me, Rintaro.”

Rintaro sniffed, averting the intensity of your gaze and shrugging his shoulders shly. “On the contrary... I’d like to spend every waking minute with you,” he mumbled so soft that you wouldn’t have heard it if you didn’t listen hard enough, but you did, and you were left gaping at him with warmth spreading through your skin. You stood there, watching as Rintaro laughed nervously and scratched the back of his head. “Sorry if I said that a little too late, but yes. I’d like to be your real boyfriend. Then I can fuck you exclusively because I don’t think I like the idea of you riding other people like that.”

You swatted his arm away with a laugh. “That’s the reason you want to date me?”

“There’s other reasons too like how I love talking to you and I want to get to know you more,” he cupped your face, grinning when his palms felt the warmth emanating from your skin. ��And also, I want to do this more with you.”

Leaning down, Rintaro kissed you under the flickering lights of your hallway, the both of your lips stretching into a smile. In a way, you were thankful your friends tried setting you up with someone else, because if you’d known it would lead you to realizing your feelings for Rintaro, you would’ve asked him to date you a little earlier.

[behoright]

boyfriend! jack studnicka in bed

warnings: welp. smutty blurb. includes bdsm and kink. minors stay away.

a/n: @ancient-remnants-of-love , for you, lovely.

dsvnjkfdnvdkjvn soooooo

Jack

lovely jack

as we all know

very quiet

very private

good polite man

you guys met and just

simply fell in love

not much more than that

when I say this man

raises the standards for all men

....

Jack is straight out of a rom-com

he's just not afraid to love

it really doesn't matter what anyone else thinks

he wants the whole ordeal

constant flower deliveries when he's on the road

and special in-person deliveries when he comes back

chocolates at the beginning

until he found out you like candy better

he'll def surprise you with random gifts

but that doesn't really matter

he's always always present

hands always on you

and he looooves to kiss

if you grab his cheeks and plant kisses all over

he DIES

it literally makes his heart flutter and

he cannot help but smile

so um sex

was always just as sweet

he's def been blessed um

not only genetically (obv)

but um

technically

you never left the bed unsatisfied

not once

that being said

the more the months started to go by

you can tell that

it's not like he was holding back

but it's almost like there was

something

festering

something in his head

just starting to ignite

you tried to blame it on stress or work

maybe he's tired or something

but it didn't go away

you asked him a couple of times

and of course

in the most Jack fashion

he was soooo reassuring

still tho there was something there

so one day you had to be like

"baby, we need to talk."

his heart DROPS

"nothing bad, my love, nothing bad. I just have a question."

"doll, you can't scare me like that."

and you ask him seriously

"am I doing something wrong?"

and his puppy eyes are sparkling into yours

"baby, I told you, nothing wrong, you are so perf-"

"Jack, babe, you're always thinking about something else when we fuck."

and he doesn't say anything

"am I wrong? you can tell me, it's just, the vibe I get."

.....

"no," he sighs "you're not wrong."

"is, is it someone else?"

"no. no, absolutely not."

and you can tell he's serious. like his voice changes

"then what is it? you can tell me anything, Jack."

"I don't know, I don't want to scare you."

and you won't show it but you're like

????????

scare ?????

"no judgement, babe."

biting the inside of his cheek

like he always does when he's nervous

he looks up at you

and he looks so sweet and so tender

"I was just, uh, um..."

......

"thinking about rope."

you can't help it your face just drops

sorry??????

sweet lover boy prince Jack?????

"like, like you know my headboard has bars, like...

...maybe tying you on those."

and the rest is fucking HISTORY

over the course of your relationship

you guys have found to really

REALLY

enjoy BDSM

it's a big part of your bond

Jack really loves the bondage

that's his total favorite

any type of rope

western, Japanese, decorative

he'll do it all

he'll buy you lingerie and then surprise you

with matching rope

he just LOVES

the loops the knots

he gets very focused on all the details

and loves to see his masterpiece when its done

I'm talking about complicated shibari here

it tells him that you trust him enough to let him have control

your hands are literally tied

and he just wants to make you

twitch and moan until the end

he doesn't mind impact play

he'll do it if you ask

but it's not his first thought

he just wants to see you writhe in pleasure

this man has every single toy

vibrator

known to man

he’ll try every toy 

every type of 

technology 

to make you cum

of course he loves overstim

its just the view of you

your skin all flushed and sweaty

he can feel the heat coming off your body 

that’s another thing

temperature

sensation play

he fucking adores it

wax, ice cubes

lights on or off

blindfolds, feathers

blowing on your sweaty, hot skin

he just really likes you so 

vulnerable 

purposely for him

seeing you let go of the reigns

or your body in 

different rope patterns

twisted in every and all ways

screaming moaning crying 

he’s still so sweet 

and just so curious

seeing you cum makes him so fucking hard he starts leaking

always has to cum inside you

it’s almost territorial 

and he likes it a lot when you guys wake up

and he sees you sleeping with his cum leaking out of you

there are times however that he is not as sweet

…..when you ask

he changes so much

no smiley boy. suddenly it’s a huge man 

ready to punish you

towering over you

he just wants you to feel pleasure so 

when you act all bratty it drives him insane

he fucking gets so frustrated 

and it’s been fun to channel that into 

you

his fingers are so long it stings a little extra when he spanks

even tho paddles are his favorite

and if you’re extra talkative

those fingertips will go directly into your mouth 

your eyes look so pretty when they water with his fingertips rubbing on your tongue

he’s just so easy to tease

to send risky pictures and texts when he’s out on team stuff

not nudes 

but risky pictures

your silhouette behind all the shower steam

a view of a corner of your hip 

or your cleavage

your lips wrapped around a strawberry 

makes his jaw clench, knuckles turn white around his phone 

when he gets back he can’t help but 

just fucking take you 

which is great because he’s soo gentle out of the bedroom

so when he fucks the shit out of you

i’m talking about 

there’s a hole in the wall right where his headboard hits

oh and the bed frame is

a metal canopy frame 

obv

so he can hang you spread you open you up on every single level

he does NOT want anyone else to be involved tho 

he’d rather blast music from his room when you guys go visit his family back home

than let anyone get a hint of whats going on

but he’ll always keep that dynamic ON

groans when he cums 

you will never get a whimper out of him 

and he grits his teeth HARD too

he tenses all the way up bc he cums hard hard hard

enough to tremble

yes he has calluses from hockey but they worsen when

he grabs onto the rope tightly when he fills you up

jack’s the type that

he’s too shy to kiss you around his parents

but as soon as he shuts the door to your bedroom 

he has you with a spreader bar bending over the bed 

hands tied against the other rail 

or the top rail so you're fully exposed 

and he’ll use every hole all night 

overstimulate you both 

make you both leak until you see stars

but still melt in front of you the morning after 

nuzzle into your neck when you’re in the elevator alone

or blush when you hold hands in public

🤷🏻‍♀️

[aihoshiino]

Professor of Hoshino-Ailogy, might you have some tips on how to write the dear Miss genius idol herself? 🙇‍♀️ Been trying to dabble into writing stuff but her character's got me stuck. Been loving your OnK thoughts so I thought to try shooting an ask if that's ok!

Anon I know this is the joke but I am so genuinely moved at the idea of being considered a Professor Of Hoshino Aiology............ It really is all I was put on this earth to do. I immediately changed my discord name to this LMFAO

So! My recommendation would be to go back to OnK and specifically review episode 1 of the anime, as its take on Ai does a lot to flesh her out in comparison to the equivalent manga chapters. You should also check out Akane's little Pepe Silvia bit on episode 7, both so you can pick up on all that info and so you can point at the screen and go "Wow! She is Literally Me right now." (Anyone else? Just me? OK...)

And while everyone on earth has undoubtedly seen it already, take some time to chew on the Idol MV's imagery - the song as a whole and the MV specifically is basically just Ai's whole arc condensed and abstracted so it's good to look at how Ai is portrayed here and really think about why those choices were made.

After that, read Viewpoint B and 45510 side by side and do your best to put them in conversation with each other. What do these opposing views on Ai have to say about her and her motivations? That kind of thing. I also tentatively recommended reading the first chapter of Spica since it's some of our lengthiest unbroken Ai POV content, with the caveat that Spica doesn't always match up with how the main series talks about and portrays the same events so uh. Feel free to cherrypick what you take from it LOL

The Da Vinci interview and Artificial Girl are also both important in terms of getting a look at "Ai of B-Komachi" and seeing how she operates strictly in work mode. The Da Vinci interview also has some important notes about her history and relationships to certain other characters, so I think it's good to chew on in general!

From there, the most important manga chapters to review imo are 131, 136 and 137. 131 expands on Ai's history with her mom & has information about the abuse she put up with. As I've said before, her formative experiences with abuse and neglect and Ayumi's hands basically run through her entire soul like fault lines, so it's important to get a good understanding of that to start unfucking how it affects her behaviour. 

136 and 137 are also really important in understanding the emotional narrative of Ai's life, even if the literal events they portray obviously need to be taken with a grain of salt. We generally only see Ai of B-Komachi as a beguiling presence but 136 gives us a good look at just how fucking frustrating she would be to try and have a human relationship with and how this mask and Ai's general avoidance and discomfort with serious conversations contributes to her social isolation.

137 is, in my totally biased opinion, one of the best chapters in the entire series and so, so important for understanding Ai. It lays out in plain terms the most important foundational keystone of her entire character: that she was a normal, lonely girl struggling to connect and to find happiness and her desperation was taken advantage of so people could turn her into an object.

I think it's possible to get a good read on Ai just from the prologue arc, the rest of this material is important as reiteration and expansion on her core character. With all of it together, you should start picking up on patterns in her behaviour and drawing connections between her actions and the things that inform them.

If you're still having trouble figuring her out after that, here are some points I think are really important to keep in mind that often go overlooked when it comes to Ai:

Ai is neurodivergent and an abuse survivor

Ai is stated at least twice in the text of Oshi no Ko to have a developmental disorder and I think there's enough evidence in the text to say that she's intended to be read as autistic specifically.

On top of that, Ai's formative years were spent on a home environment where she could not rely on her primary guardians to consistently care for her and she was alternately neglected and violently physically abused, to the point of not feeling safe in her own house at night.

This is important to keep in mind because while Ai is pretty good at masking, her neurodivergence and her history with abuse means that she processes information - particularly social information - in a very different way to a neurotypical person.

Ai does not always lie - and her lies are different than you think

I've said this a million times before and I'll probably say it another million but a lot of the really out of pocket Ai takes you see in OnK fandom generally come from people who go to the extreme of dismissing everything that comes out of Ai's mouth as a lie and thus just completely missing out on a majority of her characterization.

Ai's "lie" is her performance - it's the illusion that "Ai of B-Komachi" is her true self with absolutely nothing else going on in her personal life. It's not a case of making shit up, but leaving things out - obfuscation and omission are the name of the game.

Picking up on when she's being honest Vs telling a lie is just something you end up getting a feel for as you get an understanding of her but generally, if Ai directly and plainly states something and it is not in conflict with things we know to be fact, then it's probably true enough.

This isn't a strict binary obviously and there are plenty of times where Ai says something that is obviously untrue but isn't her consciously lying - rather, like any human being, she has biases that affect her judgement, with her own stemming from her history of abuse and rejection and her poor self image.

The fact that Ai lies is less important than WHY she lies

This is sort of a reiteration of what I said above but where a lot of people get stuck on Ai's external behavior (that she lies) and fail to take dig into underlying motivations that actually cause her to behave that way. I know "this character has motivations" is probably like an insultingly baby mode reminder but I really do see so many people just completely abjectly failing to grasp this that I felt it needed saying lol

Deception is not Ai's end goal. Ai lies not because she wants to trick people but because she's been taught over and over her whole life that it's the only way she can be treated with basic fucking decency, and she has internalized this persistent cruelty as being her own fault. She performs Ai of B-Komachi because there is clearly something wrong with Hoshino Ai.

Even with that in mind, this isn't something Ai wants. As she says herself says in 45510, she wants people to know and accept her as she really is, flaws and impurity and all, and as she demonstrates in both Viewpoint B and chapter 1, she's incredibly quick to start opening up to people who seem to have the potential to accept her, or even just who treat her kindly. She is simply that lonely and that desperate to connect.

I hope this is all helpful, anon! I didn't necessarily want to just point by point how I write Ai just because I think that takes the fun out of things, but this is more or less the process I went through in forming my interpretation of her, and the rest is all things I've just intuited or drawn my own conclusions about from writing her - "oh, if Behaviour X, then Underlying Cause Y", that kind of thing. I hope this gives you a solid base to work on for writing her, tho - and please let me know when you're done so I can read it 👀

[be-the-glenn-to-my-maggie]

You know what would be funny? While the RDA is obsessing over Pandora's resources and providing the rich assholes with ways to extend their wrinkled existence, the rest of humanity goes “Fuck this shit! Time to fix up our planet!” Like full on terraform Earth back to its former glory.

And so, while the RDA is spending billions to send ships to terrorizing the tall, blue people, the rest of the world is having its redemption arc up until like a year after the second movie, where they’re at the point where they can go “Yoooo, wtf is the RDA doing over there? Oh, they got bored with fucking us over so they moved to alien natives? Nah, send in the Balkan people (These mfs are built different I swear, they’ll just take a breath of pandoran air and go “Umm, spicy and refreshing”). They’re sent on their way (Let’s say they arrive in 1 year flat because screw physics, this is a joke post, mf are going 4 times ftl.), beat the ever living shit out of the Ahaa cartoon villains that are the RDA personnel and teach them some, you know, human decency, queue in the best apology video of all time, leave the blue people alone, boom mission accomplished. RDA gets sued to hell and back (You know, war crimes and all of that) and even more funding goes to fixing up Earth until its basically as we know it today.

Later down the line, the na’vi need help because of some disaster, humanity sends said help, some form of actual peace is formed, Spider becomes the ambassador of human/na’vi relationships (Guy had the glow up of the century, which tends to happen when you live in a time of peace again and people actually love and care for you “ahem, Spider Sully”) Human and Na’vi truly learn about each other (Ones aren’t uncivilized savages, but people with a unique cultures and deep history. Others aren’t advanced savages with boom sticks, but, you guessed it, people with a unique cultures and deep history.) and learn from each other.

And everyone lived happily ever after.

The end

(Very unrealistic, I know)  

Ugh, my dream. The terraforming Earth part, not the humans coming back. Because the whole movie is a colonization metaphor, I'm so tentative and iffy on the Na'vi needing or wanting any help or support from humanity.

But regardless, I am obsessed with the idea of humanity healing Earth. I know that we are cynical people and are always like "This is realistic, humans are selfish and would take advantage of Pandora as we did to Earth." And I totally get that, but I also love those humans are inherently good stories. I do think the majority of people care and have empathy about other people and their situations, and the majority of problems in the world are systematic and stem from ignorance. People are uneducated or are struggling with what they have to deal with on their own, and don't have the wherewithal to care about every single other thing that is such a gigantic systematic issue. I would love for people, for everyone, to just be like yeah this isn't okay anymore lets fix it. About anything and then everything. But I digress.

I love the idea of Spider Sully and Jake being a bridge between the Na'vi and humanity. I think Jake would have to be involved as well, because honestly Spider has never been to Earth and has never been with regular humans. My man knows no human culture or traditions, really. He's like, really Na'vi biased in that way, hilariously.

Spider: Na'vi culture is better and more important, obviously.

Someone: well, what is human culture.

Spider: clearly it's test tubes, guns, air lock doors, green paper, Jesus Christ, and also tank tops.

[kylejsugarman]

Idk if you’ve answered this already but at what point in their relationship did Jesse tell Demi ab his past? How did that go over? How much does she know?

ive mentioned it some before but i haven't really gone super in depth!! as u all may know, i am very "and then everyone made it to alaska and everything ended up ok!! :)" minded, so i dont have a big dramatic revelation beat to my story and ultimately, jesse never tells demi that he's living under a completely new identity. however, he does tell her a Lot of other things, partially because he trusts her, partially because he feels guilty keeping things from her that might make her see him differently; he feels that she deserves to know how fucked up he is so she can escape him and avoid tying herself down to a mistake. jesse first tells her about his drug use after demi explains how her sister died, again out of that guilt and the expectation that she won't want to associate with a former(ish) addict, but demi saw firsthand how powerful addiction can be and isnt scared off. when it comes to his criminal history, it takes him a little longer to work up the nerve to disclose that stuff: he's afraid of both endangering her by letting her know what he's done and losing her. he drops a few things along the way, usually related to drug dealing and production since she was so understanding of that aspect of his past, but once they decide to get married, he feels that he owes it to her to be totally honest. the dark details of making and selling the drugs, being around violence and controlling figures. enacting violence himself. losing people. being sold into slavery. he leaves out specific identifying details (demi's never been a current events kind of person but he cant risk her connecting those dots) and places a lot of the blame on himself instead of trying to describe the people from his past who were pulling a lot of those strings. its basically an abridged version of the show's events, no names, no details in certain places (he doesnt even tell her which state he used to live in), and no forgiveness.

demi listens patiently the whole time, not asking many questions along the way. she tenses up when he touches on captivity, but otherwise her demeanor remains open and nonjudgmental. when it's over, she doesn't say anything, which is somehow worse than disgust. jesse is so wound up at this point that he flips out on her, insisting that this is her time to cut her losses. he's a criminal, a fucking murderer. he's evil. demi still doesnt react the way he wants and instead just waits until he's out of venom before reaching out to very gently smooth down his hair. petting the angry, upset dog instead of reflexively giving him away. "im sorry you've had to carry that around with you all this time," she says softly and that breaks him. because it Has been so hard carrying that around. demi asks a few more questions, clarifies a few more things, then tells him what she thinks. that she's seen how he acts now, how he treats people, how he treats himself. that she grew up with a father who sounds like the figures he alluded to in his story. that she is uncertain and insecure about a lot of things, but she's never been more sure that jesse is a good person and that she loves him irrespective of whatever came before. "im dangerous," he insists, a former fighting dog that would rather die than return to the ring. a hand on his own—"then why do i feel so safe with u?"

it's not perfect. there will always be things that jesse never shares with her and he will never totally forgive himself because as the one living person who knows the Extent of what went down, he feels that it's his responsibility to hold himself accountable for It for the rest of his life. demi's perception of him Does change, although not entirely in a negative way, and she is a little hurt that he expected her to bail so quickly and she can't lie and say that her mind doesn't occasionally drift to the fact that her husband has killed people. but at the end of the day, they're two broken people who were utterly convinced that their lives were over before they found each other. this is their second chance at life and they're never going to take that or each other for granted. whatever comes, they're going to face it together

[xgoldenlatiasx]

ohhh I am Brainstorming

ok ok so infodump ahead: Arcelia is the daughter of Archie (aaaand possibly Maxie? I haven’t figured out if I want hardenshipping to be divorced or if they get together after ORAS) and grew up a member of Team Aqua. For a while there she had full confidence in her father’s plan, but then Something happens (haven’t figured out what yet) and realizes oh wait this idea is shit actually what the fuck dad. unsure of what to really do to stop her dad yet, she runs away and ends up in Littleroot. there she stumbles into Professor Birch getting chased by a wild poochyena, saves him, etc. etc. etc.

not really sure what to do with this lost child who literally just came out of the bushes and saved him one day, Birch takes her in and lets her be an assistant like Brendan is. buuut she’s not super good at it. she gets kind of fed up and restless, especially when her dad is still out there planning to FLOOD THE FUCKIN WORLD, so as a way to try and help her Birch gives her Pebble the Mudkip and sends her out on a journey. thus begins her gym challenge and her mission to save her father from himself basically.

post-ORAS Archie has to serve time and stuff so Arcelia… doesn’t really know where to go from here. and she doesn’t wanna stay in Hoenn honestly cause she’s still kinda recovering from saving the world and fighting her own dad. SO Birch tries to help and sends her to Naranja Academy in Paldea, where hopefully she can find some semblance of a normal life and learn to just be a regular kid. it’s all well meaning but it doesn’t exactly work out bc Arcelia ends up being all by herself. again.

aaaand of course that’s where she meets a certain future-ground-type-elite-4-member! Arcelia is 16 at this point but she has to start off at freshman cause of yknow, never going to school before, and Rika is 17 and a junior. Arcelia struggles because 1. this is an extremely drastic change to literally anything she’s ever had in her life before 2. sure she’s only like a year older than the rest of the kids in her grade but she’s still significantly more mentally mature than a majority of them and thus has trouble connecting with them. honestly, even if she was allowed to start off as a sophomore, that prolly wouldn’t change cause kid has literally seen shit beyond any other high schooler’s comprehension.

Rika, not knowing anything about the whole saving the world thing but can easily see Arcelia’s struggling, approaches her and offers to help her with fitting in, keeping her grades up, and stuff like that. and the rest is history! the two become extremely close, but I don’t think Arcelia would fully open up about being the hero of the Hoenn crisis just yet- she’ll vaguely mention her strained relationship with her dad and make it come off as something much more simple than “my dad was an evil team leader who tried to drown the world”, but during their school years Rika never totally understands the full weight of it.

I think once Rika graduates they have a dramatic falling out of some kind. haven’t exactly figured out the details of it yet but during this falling out Arcelia has to go back to Hoenn- probably somethin to do with her dad or with Kyogre or whatever- whatever it is she can’t tell Rika about it, which only frustrates Rika even more and creates a further rift between them. eventually Arcelia just leaves with hardly a goodbye and neither of them really get any closure.

-of course until Arcelia comes back to Paldea several years later :]

[jsandrs]

I'm not trying to be rude but how did you meet your boyfriend? Your age gap is a lot bigger than I'm used to seeing.

We are used to people asking this and similar things. Yes, we have a very large age gap. I'm almost 22, he is 40. He's almost double my age.

How we met was he was in a band and I started talking to him outside after a show. We really hit it off and I gave him my number. He thought I was older, and he also thought I was biologically male. After we casually spoke, and things started getting flirty, I let him know I was only 18, and he did take a step back at that time. Obviously we decided to move forward with a relationship but he wasn't totally on board initially because of that. I was really afraid it wasn't going to work because on top of the age gap, he still didn't know I was trans. We hadn't been physical or anything and we also hadn't sexted or anything, so my anatomy never came up. It wasn't that serious to start with because he lived in California and I was in New York, so it didn't seem practical. He flew to New York to see me a few months in and I told him I was trans, which he was so fucking cute about. He didn't care at all. He told me he wasn't even gay but he is bi so it made no difference to him. I was so scared and he immediately validated me. I come from an unaccepting family, who disowned me at a young age once I started HRT and they saw changes, so I wasn't even living at home at the time, but with a friend's family. After Ryan came out to visit, he went back to CA and I wanted to go with him. I didn't right away, but I needed somewhere to go long term and I wanted to be with him. So, a few weeks after he came to visit, I was planning to move out to CA with him. I did, and I guess the rest is history? We started discussing sexual preferences in depth about a year after I moved in with him and found that our kinks we felt some shame about were very closely related. that's really allowed us to make some dreams a reality for both of us<3

I think the age gap makes people think something nefarious happened. The reality is that I'm mature for my age and Ryan is a little immature for his age lol I was the one who pursued him, not vice versa. Our emotional bond and chemistry came first and foremost and literally everything that happened was what you could expect to happen between two people regardless of age. I know it's off putting for some but it really isn't a big thing for us. I didn't even have like a preference for older guys or anything, he just was so charming and fun, I immediately felt drawn to him and didn't want it to end.

Now we have our gorgeous girl Lily and her baby sibling on the way. He's seriously the love of my life and makes me so happy. He's the best daddy and his age honestly is almost never something on my mind. He's a goofball and is super silly. I think he acts more like he's a fun 30 year old and I am more like a 25 year old or something. It feels like our mental ages are closer than our actual ages.

[hendolish]

gonna need to hear a loooooooooot more about hendolish camming au🤤am guessing jack is the camboy? (irl loves to perform and get attention especially from hendo) jordan's about to waste a ton of time money and tokens to watch a spoiled exhibitionist. there's so much potential for drama and roadblocks with that ideas as well, the pitfalls of dating someone who doesn't have a regular private life and shows all of themself online to total strangers for work (no judgement ofc! just that it's tricky to navigate)

also the love island epilogue is exciting! dying to know if hendolish went the distance and stayed together to make it work in the big bad real world (and if stonesford did too). when we left them hendo had already said the l word to jack so he at least had serious plans for them both..

hendolish camboy au 📹

my thoughts exactly anon!! i was thinking about another camboy au from a different fandom that has always stuck with me and then it just suddenly hit me how perfect the dynamic would be for hendolish and i literally went into a frenzy writing everything i have so far !!!

camboy jack is as cocky and exhibitionist as you would expect, and a proper little british chav one at that. he hasn’t been a camboy for long but he’s now 18ish and has established his own little fan base and regular viewers with his live shows that make him good money. this is where jordan comes in.

jordan’s still a footballer, just breaking into the first team at liverpool, so he’s under a lot of pressure… guess what he turns to to relieve that stress? ;) he stumbles across jack’s liveshow completely by accident the first time but is immediately hooked by the absolutely obscene things that fall from this brummie camboy’s lips and the way he seems to revel in performing for the camera.

of course jordan gets hooked and eventually starts sending the lad money and commenting on his live shows and eventually, before he knows it, jordan becomes jack’s top donator. jack recognises him in the chat now and sometimes directs questions directly towards jordan which makes him feel pathetically special, but then one day jack offers him a private stream just for him ‘to say thank you:)’ and the rest is history…

here’s one of my fav snippets from what i have written!

As he moves to fiddle with the remote, the man’s hair falls over the thin headband pushing it back, blonde highlights catching in the light, and Jordan can’t draw his gaze away from his face.

His cheeks are flushed and red with exertion, but that smirked grin digging into them seems to be invincible. Jordan grazes his thumb over the head of his cock as the man’s eyelashes flutter and a soft moan falls from his lips when the vibrator presses further inside him.

“bigdaddy21, thanks for the dono,” Jordan catches his accent this time, Brummie for sure. He doesn’t stop moving as he talks, fucking himself downwards, “You can just call me ‘Jack.’”

Jack. Jordan thinks as he grips his cock more firmly, trailing his gaze over the sharp jut of his jaw and his round, bright eyes. Jesus, this kid can’t be a day over eighteen.

That doesn’t stop him from wanking himself off either way, watching and listening intently as Jack continues to fuck the vibrator into his hole and pant out moans that get louder by the minute. Jordan thinks he can’t get any more fucked, but then Jack starts talking.

♡

Three Lions Island epilogue 🏝️

in my mind both jack and hendo would’ve been pretty serious about things!! they’d have their problems (jack being a tad immature, hendo’s stubbornness) but they’d work around it because they know the other is worth it and neither of them have had that before <3

john and jordan’s relationship on the outside is perhaps a bit more rocky- they bicker and fight all the time but it’s healthier to address the problems rather than letting them build up, right? they always kiss and make up (literally). sometimes they fuck to get it out of their system and it usually works. they love each other but hardly say the words out loud. it’s an understanding between just the two of them.

check out my previous ask for more info on the plot of the epilogue!! ♡

[corneliaavenue-ao3]

20 Questions

I would like to thank @thenicestthingiveseen for the ta

How many works do you have on AO3?

I have 9 whole fics on that website

2. What's your total AO3 words count?

A whole whopping 29,110

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Only Harry Potter. I don't know what other fandom I would write for tbh

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Loves a Game, Wanna Play?

up on a roof with a school girl crush

i wrote a poem (you say what a mind)

Island Breeze with the Lights Down Low

the road not taken looks real good now

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I usually do! I love commenting and having conversations with fanfic authors, so I try to respond. Sometimes I read a comment and struggle to really form my feelings into words because I am so overwhelmed that anyone is liking my stuff enough to comment!

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably the road not taken... because it ends when the death eaters interupt fleur and bill's wedding

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

up on a roof... ends with their second kiss and i love that for them

8. Do you get hate on fics?

you have to write popular fics to get hate i think

9. Do you write smut. If so what kind?

i do. the kind of smut i write is smut between harry potter and ginny weasley. sometimes they are step siblings in this scenerio.

here is a snippet of chapter 2 of trust him like a brother i intended to write more of last night

Harry cleared his throat at the invitation. "No, I just, er, realized that your mum was awake and leaving the house at the same time we were, you know," Harry's voice trailed off.

"Fucking?" Ginny finished for him, opening just one eye to give him a sharp look. "Your tongue has entered my vagina and you can't say the word fuck?"

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I do not. but i have this weird falling asleep story that i fix season 7 of the 100 by sending bellamy to hogwarts during dh and helps the da because that would still make more sense than whatever the hell the writers wrote

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

YES ACTUALLY. So this is not my first fanfic account. I had one at the bright age of 12, and I wrote a better than revenge fic for ginny based on cho chang, and then SOMEONE STOLE IT! IT WAS SO BAD? WHY WOULD SOMEONE STEAL THAT?

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope

13. Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

I have not

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

Hinny <3

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

The one where Harry and Ginny get stuck in a time loop at grimauld during ootp. It is bad, and I don't want to take the effort to fix it.

I JUST OPENED IT AND ITS 40 PAGES???? I THOUGHT IT WAS LIKE 15

16. What are your writing strengths?

That is a great question, someone please tell me

17. What are your writing weaknesses?'

I struggle with making my writing sound pretty. Adding detail that paints an image and not so literal. Because most days this is what my writing looks like.

*** is a 71 year old male with a past medical history of HTN, HLD, CHF, GI bleed and a recent hospitalization for PE and is now on eliquis who is presenting to the hospital for significant, persistent epigastric pain. He has had this pain before and it was present during his prior hospitalization. The staff at his nursing home noticed that he was in more pain, so he was brought via EMS to the ED. The pain is primarily in the upper abdomen, specifically the epigastric and LUQ, worsened with palpation, and improved with pain medication.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I struggle with English enough

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

god rest my soul I can already tell you that would've could've should've will be my most listened to song this year and I just love looking into the relationship between Tom and Ginny

[cyberhai]

What is Chinooks relationship with the other winds like? Oh and his relationship with bladewolf and armstrong if you don't mind.Sorry if I go a bit off topic,I just want to talk about how cool and stylish you made him look.

Man looks stylish as fuck with his glasses but I like on how he wears them to help with his migraines. Two reasons to wear cool as hell glasses.

Chinook's character design is *mwah* chefs kiss.(I'm a sucker for good character design if you can tell.)

Also,love your art btw. I feel your struggle of getting used to digital art.

To sum it up,chinook is amazing and I want to give him a hug.

Ok,that's all I have to say,your oc is awesome.

RAAAAAAARRRGGGGHHH Sorry this took a thousand years to answer, I am still Inventing Chinook Lore. This was a fun question though!!!! And I'm so glad you think he's purty 😎

Relationships!

Bladewolf

He’s not quite sure whether to treat Wolf like a machine or a living thing. Nevertheless, he loves jokingly testing the extent of Wolf’s intellect by asking him irritatingly specific questions (“What happens at 1:24:57 of Django Unchained?”).

Mistral

Best described as MLM/WLW Hostility. Most of their frenemyship involves them bullying each other. But if they’re training a platoon together and he blacks out from a migraine, within five seconds, she’ll have the room cleared, a cold compress on his head and be calling for backup. They’re mean as fuck to each other. But they’re homies :D

Monsoon

To say the least, their relationship confuses the fuck out of everyone. Do they have something going on? Are they just work buddies? Sometimes they can be spotted sitting shoulder to shoulder despite Chinook's touch aversion, marking up a map of their next target together. Other times they're bickering like an old married couple. More than one time Chinook has crashed out and fallen asleep on him flying back to base. Then again, Chinook does that to just about everyone. Most Desperados have adrenal enhancements that allow them to stay awake for longer periods of time without rest, but not Chinook. He's much more machine than Sam, but not as much as his fellow Winds. Thus, he is a sleepy fuck.

They've been spotted on a few weekend trips to DC together, seemingly unrelated to work. But, hey, they could just be scoping out the Pentagon.

Sundowner

These two are total bros. They’re both former Army, Chinook was a combat medic and Sunny D was a grunt, so they bond over shared experiences and swapping war stories. Chinook keeps up a pretty professional demeanor unless he and Sundowner are in the same room. Many a time one of them has been leading training or giving potential customers or recruits a tour of their facility, only for it to be interrupted by the other running up and slapping him upside the head. Chinook sort of bounces off his energy when they're around each other and swears 3x more than usual.

Their dynamic was inspired by some of the drill sergeants and NCOs I trained under during my very brief military experience, they were always messing with each other. One second our senior drill sergeant is smoking the platoon because someone mouthed off in formation, then third platoon’s drill sergeant creeps up behind him and kangaroo kicks him in the ass, then they’re giggling and fistfighting while us trainees are dying in the halfway down pushup position. I miss those mfs. 🥲

Jetstream Sam

Chinook was the one who designed and helped install Sam's arm. They're not AS close as the rest, as Sam's still relatively new, but they clicked pretty fast after the initial Arm Incident. Chinook is a big military history nerd, so he was eager to learn about Sam's samurai family background. They meet up to spar sometimes, whether for actual practice or just for shits and giggles. They're mostly evenly matched in terms of speed and strength, but seven times out of ten their fights still end in Chinook getting his ass handed to him.

Senator Armstrong

Chinook, despite having spent a significant portion of his life working for the government, distrusts and dislikes politicians, and by default is VERY leery of Armstrong. He is civil to him, figuring if the Winds are cool with Armstrong, then he’s gotta be cool with Armstrong too. But the iffiness is still very much there.

[bobocrottentotten]

4/23/24

I'll start by saying I am in a non-monogamous relationship. I have a boyfriend (J) of 4 years (in June) and I've been dating my girlfriend (A) for 5 months, in a relationship officially for almost 2 months hehe :).

I love them both. I've considered if it's too early to tell A that I love her but we do and it feels right. I do love her, she is so sweet and makes me feel like we are the only two people in the world when we're together. I think about her all of the time and I miss her the second we start saying goodbye. Am I in love with her? Not just yet but boy is it coming!!!

It's been difficult to navigate this. I have dated women in the past but in these situations, it's always been for pure pleasure. Either I was not expecting to progress in a serious relationship and just wanted to be intimate and cutie together OR they already had partners so there was no pressure to grow into anything too serious because our foundations were already there. This is the first time I have ever had a second partner and it's been hard to balance. I'm not totally sure I will be able to maintain this partnership with both parties for long which makes me sad because that means I have to break someone's heart along with my own.

Recently J and I have been experiencing a lot of issues. Our relationship became monotonous and routine. I want to add that being non-monogamous has nothing to do with the deflation of our relationship, we have been in this lifestyle even through the most exciting parts. The past year I have seen a lack of effort from him. He doesn't plan dates, he doesn't communicate with me at all even when I bring things up that I want to talk about. He just shuts it down with a "Ok. I'm sorry. Ok." and nothing further even when I try to pry he just won't budge. He avoids conflict at all costs. I think it makes him feel uncomfortable but for me it feels like he's not truly listening or attempting to come up with a game plan for the issues I bring up. We do not fight, it's always just conversations. But it's so irritating feeling like I'm the only one who cares about anything. I also feel like I mother him sometimes by reminding him of all the basic shit he should do like text his grandma happy birthday or buy holiday gifts for his nieces and nephew or exactly what to purchase at the grocery store. If I don't write out a detailed list of everything we need, he will barely buy anything and he will only get what is on my list, nothing more. He also has a history of hiding addiction from me. Specifically nicotine addiction but recently he admitted he was addicted to kratom and has been hiding it for over 9 months. He never wants to go out or do anything, he's home all of the time, I feel like we barely talk anymore.

I know he loves me, I've never doubted that for a second. I know he is absolutely, positively in love with me and would spend the rest of his life with me and never be unfaithful and accept me for everything I am and want to be in life. I just don't know if I feel the same way right now and that's unfair to him.

But fuck, I do love him so much. I love how it feels like home when we're together, I love the life we've created and what we accumulated together in our home. When I look around our house I see the story of our lives and I love it. Which makes me feel sad like I'm grieving it somehow. I don't want to be 80+ years old and look back and think, wow imagine a life with J, being with him holding hands at 80. Or we lose touch and I was never there for him through his life and I miss out on all of the fantastic things he's done with it. I don't know if I could ever be his friend. But I don't want to lose him. :(

As you can see I'm conflicted.

I don't want to lose A either. Although it's new, she cares for me so much. She plans dates and we have lovely conversations and memories already. She values her family, friends and future and has big plans for her life that fill me with inspiration and motivation and make me want that life too. With her.

Fuck.

In other news! I went to the gyno today and turns out the constant outbreaks that I thought I was experiencing from my HSV 1 were actually ingrown hairs and I haven't been getting breakouts as often as I thought I was getting them lol. That filled me with relief and made me feel like I can finally be intimate again without having to stress all of the freaking time.

My life has been full of ups and downs. I've also recently gotten accepted into my master's program which is exciting and scary. I hope I can balance work, school and life. I will do my best.

I'll end here for now. I could go on to talk about how my exes old friend reached out to me recently and we've formed somewhat of a purely textual (AKA only on instagram DMs) friendship which has been both healing and bringing up old ugly memories of my ex but I won't get into that right now. It hasn't been affecting me significantly.

Until next time!!!

[jpapimphot]

"Y-Yeah... if I die, who will bring you their left-over cookies?" Taeyong jokes,

trying to salvage whatever dignity he has left in front of his crush.

"Fuck, I'm so mad at myself... I totally blew my chances with you, didn't I?"

He holds his breath. Time stands still, everything fading away until it's just Taeyong and the hope blooming inside his chest like a fragile flower.

Feel the fear and do it anyway.

When in doubt. Be yourself.

When life plants you. Bloom with grace.

Once I care, I don't leave. Once I leave, I don't care.

Humans can be museums too filled with history they can no longer touch. - Bianca Sparacino

A real hero aims high, plans well, armed with a broad mind and generosity. #CaoCao

เข้มแข็งพอจะต้านทานสิ่งใด ... แต่ไม่ใช่กับโชคชะตา โชคร้ายที่โชคชะตามักชอบเล่นตลก - แต่งกลิ่น

This is what happened to a lot of male monarchs - they received little real love from their parents but lots of fake love from court sycophants, so they grew up entitled, insecure, emotionally stunted, unable to love but desperate for love, and completely lacking in empathy all at the same time.

- STOPjammietime

Sometimes it shines shyly over the grass or the lakes, timidly hiding behind the clouds above the valleys. That’s probably why the Midlands people are scarce with their words but grand in their actions. So secretive in their words, keeping the kindest ones for friends but always having a handshake for a stranger.

“What kind of man, do you think, is a man who burns cities to build his own?”

for the voice that influence almost every decision Taeyong has ever made. Aureate's strong member and Teayong's devil.

Never in doubt

anticipating a moment he could steal for possibly a chat or a dance.

He moves on and decides that friends, lovers, families are luxuries that are too expensive to be owned and he doesn't do debt. -

Trust is a subjective term to use.

Using ... as an excuse to avoid a conversation is a new level of low. TY has reached a hundred levels of of low lately.

as much as they are both bad at apologising, they are worse at accepting apologies.

The barks are harsher than the bite. - Blister

But you are not easy, and neither am I. So run a little more, I like the chase.

His father is a born scholar. His life has been paved with determination and unwavering faith to the world of knowledge and excellence.

He has buttoned Monday with Tuesday.

He pleases the eye, but not the heart. - Bird

His face opened many doors, but also closed many more.

His knowledge limited to the books his mother taught him to read.

An old worn kindness in his actions that told Taeyong he had always treated the world better than it treated him.

so it seems like our only choices are either safe stability or risky fulfillment. .... well-put

But that's selfish, isn't it? I have all this wealth, and I never go hungry, and some would do anything to have that luxury.

“If it’s not you it would never be right.” - ringfinger

“And should I be offended that you had doubted my love for you?” He rested a palm on top of the taller’s cheek and Johnny happily leaned into the touch.

Hexagram

“Dr. Kim, do you only attend conferences for the gossip, or are you here for intellectual merit purposes?” Johnny asks. "Guess things really don’t change."

“When we’re both 24 we’ll get married hyung~” Jaehun said to Doyoung, they were both little kids, Jaehyun was probably just a silly boy in love thinking that every relationship ended in marriage. But Doyoung stored those words in his mind, in his heart, next to the promises of never leaving him alone in the dark and to destroy every monster under their beds.

Kimgdoyoung

Also, I don’t rule, I run, and if you’re were smart like you said, you would know because that is my job. The fact that you need to do this public confrontation makes me wonder your competency even more. So, I suggest that you accept this and go pack your things. Taeyong?”

“I know I know, it’s a shitty move but I had no other choice okay? I was panicked and that was the only solution that presented itself” He defended.

Not that he’s a hopeless romantic. He may have a career as a classical pianist, and that his emotions push him to hone his art, but he’s a firm believer that the head should always triumph the heart. Not that he always follows that rule, but it has helped him manage expectations and be realistic about whatever circumstances follow his way.

This feels natural, like it was meant to happen all along.

[intimacyequalsdeath]

New here :D

Permission to request a soft fem s/o (fem means female, I was lazy) with poly!ghostface headcanons? She is like..a bab, y'know? Softie, cutesy and caring nature :3

Needs to be protected at all costs?

Welcome to my blog sweet anon! We are happy to have you!

I am really pumped for how this turned out since I have lowkey been wanting to right more Poly! Ghost face fics, so I hope you enjoy as well!

Poly! Ghost face x Soft fem reader : Headcannons

<3 The ultimate final girl situation

<3 The boys would be head over heels as soon as they laid eyes on you. You were so quiet that at first they hardly noticed you at school, But Stu being Stu he HAS to know everyone.

<3 He told Billy about you pretty much as soon as he saw him next, Billy was hesitant at first even though Stu was begging for you to be their "Final Girl" but not actually kill you.

<3 Billy was hesitant until he also laid eyes on you, then Mr. Billy was absolutely hooked.

<3 Hooked to the point they may or may not have bugged pretty much everyone in the school office to give them a class with you...Yeah totally not...Totally. They ended up getting a study hall with you at the end of the day, That first day they both sat on either side of you and the rest was history.

<3 They love how smol and innocent you are, You are they baby and if anyone so much as even looks at you wrong, they're getting added to the list.

<3 The best times is when it has been such a long day, Billy is pissed about god knows what and poor baby Stu is just kinda down in the dumps, and they go back to Stu's place and their favorite girl is waiting for them with cuddles in bed ready to go.

<3 Billy would think every now and then what it would be like to corrupt you, But he never would. Stu would fucking kill him and even though he doesn't want to admit it, he adores the smolness just as much as Stu does.

<3 You would love to do anything for your boys. If you have any cooking ability defo cook for them. They will totally die. Even if you can't cook full meals, packing them school snacks with little notes will also send them over the moon.

<3 They wouldn't let you know right away about Ghostface. They would both be nervous that it would change your view and not wanna be with them anymore, or even worse, turn them in to the cops.

<3 When they do tell you, if you do decide you don't want the relationship to continue that is totally fine with them. But to their surprise you accept it with open arms.

<3 "Maybe you aren't so innocent after all" Billy would joke to you, making the 3 of you laugh.

<3 Even though you didn't mind Ghost face, they would still out of respect try and keep you out of it. It's a combination of them just not wanting you to be worried about them as well as wanting to make your precious brain stays clean of any thoughts of blood and gore.

<3 Your thankful for that, as you would honestly rather not hear about the gritty and gross details. As long as your boys come home to you each night and are safe and sound with no injuries, you couldn't care less what they do.

<3 Sydney and Tatum are thoughts long since gone in their minds, their main and only focus is you. These boys would take care of everyone in Woodsboro if it meant keeping their baby safe.

<3 Your boys love you and you love your boys.

[swimmingleo]

Stockholm Syndrome: or Harry making us sing about kink again

For a very long time (note: my early teenage years) I hated that song. Now it’s one of my favorite Harry has written because I think he was an absolute genius with the concept: it’s a love anthem, it's about being sexually liberated and it's a massive fuck you to The Power That Be.

I got inspired to write this post after witnessing some good ole twitter drama: basically what happened is that someone made an account dedicated to Harry presenting as a sub. The response was massive backlash and bullying (from larries!), because people perceived it as gross and sexualizing. And I think that's a shame and a bit ignorant of queer history. I also vented here on anon some time ago and um saw the ask go around it didn't like blow up but still got more notes than most of my posts so it made me laugh a lil sobs

‼️DISCLAIMER‼️ By making this post, I want to highlight another form of queer expression Harry frequently uses. I am in NO WAY digging into his privacy. Everything used in this post is content that Harry chose to publicly display. I'm keeping it PG it's cool (as PG as a post about kink can be lol).

STOCKHOLM SYNDROME: A QUICK ANALYSIS

Yeah, that song is totally about sex. And pain. (btw shoutout to this cool analysis including the boys' reaction to H saying the song's about a nympho.)

This song's concept relies on the opposition between love and oppression. A lover ("You") and the rest of the world ("They"). Though they're radically opposed, these two find a common ground with the pain they give to Harry. Pain is comforting and pleasurable when it's from You and pain is threatening when it's from They.

Who's that shadow holding me hostage, I've been here for days

Who's that whisper telling me that I'm never gonna get away

At the beginning of the song, Harry doesn't put a name on the shadow who has him tied down and subdued. You or They ? Good pain or bad pain ? Basically, it's Harry establishing the setting of the song: love and oppression operate the same way and tie him down.

Harry uses this double meaning again in Two Ghosts with "Tongue tied": are they tongue tied because they experience communication issues in their relationship or are they literally silenced by They ?

I know they'll be coming to find me soon

But I fear I'm getting used to being held by you

Here, Harry identifies the anonymous shadow as two different subjects. They are actively trying to get him and Harry knows there's no escaping them. However, he's physically with You for the whole song. Just the two of them in their own hm kink safe bubble ("in your room", "but now together we're alone"). Stockholm Syndrome is first and foremost a love song about intimacy and sex.

Now the percussion and the "OW" punctuating the chorus... It... slaps ? It's... full of imagery ?

Who's this man that's holding your hand and talking about your eyes?

Used to sing about being free but now he's changed his mind

I looove that bit. Stockholm Syndrome is a love song, right, but it's not that kind of love song. Usually, Harry sings about his lover's eyes, but Harry's not about all those pretty "summer feelings" here. I love this verse because I see it as Harry having a funny thought right in the middle of the aCTioN: "can you believe hours ago I was like, holding your hand and being all romantic ? Look at me now lmao it's like I'm a whole different person". In the same way, he makes fun of the way he usually writes about wanting to be free to love (Happily, Something Great) when he loves being tied down in bed. GET IT ? FUNNY INNIT. Sigh. If this isn't peak Harry's humour then what.

This verse is also pretty important regarding the whole song as it debunks a misconception about BDSM: that it's unhealthy, it's weird, there's no love in taking pleasure to hurt your partner or be hurt. Popular fictions like 50 Shades of Grey certainly didn't make those misconceptions go away, it even reinforced them as it depicts a toxic and pretty much abusive relationship.

However, Harry can also be romantic with his partner. They hold hands, he praises the beauty of their eyes, aka the most platonic part of the body and the one linked to the soul. They're a very loved up couple who also happen to get freaky in bed, no big deal.

TO MAKE IT SHORT Stockholm Syndrome is a song I'm sure Harry had a lot of fun with. The songwriting is one big clever wordplay. It's kinky as hell and it all comes back to love and consent: Harry chose to be tied down by You, the person he loves. They play a scene, with rules they both agreed on. If anything, Harry feels trapped because of how much he loves his significant other: he's a prisoner of love. Aww. Aaand he's literally tied down of course. On the contrary, Harry doesn't consent to be a prisoner of They. They want to get him for real, it's not an act, they don't make the rules together. It's a one-sided contract he can't put an end to.

PUBLIC IMAGE AND KINK: NOT A GOOD ASSOCIATION

As I said earlier, Stockholm Syndrome relies on opposition: love VS tptb. Intimacy VS Everyone else.

I think this song also showcases Harry's struggle with his public persona, especially when it comes to his sexuality: how it's presented VS how he wants to express it. To the public, Harry is a lady pleaser. To some fans, he's the ultimate sexual fantasy, a blank slate that can fill the role of the vanilla nice guy or the toxic dominant bad boy (like After). None of those representations match what Harry expresses through his artistic choices, which is what appears like a queer man signaling as a sub in BDSM practice. Literally nothing near the het expectations. And even this is pure supposition yk.

This dichotomy reminds me of George Michael's song Freedom! '90. In this song, George tackles his relationship with the music industry, his public image and his old persona. For context, George Michael was a gay man whose career ressembles a lot Harry's: he knew fame as a popstar, was part of a band and was marketed as a ladies man. In the Larry Lore, both Harry and Louis referenced him a lot in their respective works.

Some nice lyrics from Freedom! '90:

Heaven knows I was just a young boy

Didn't know what I wanted to be

I was every little hungry schoolgirl's pride and joy

Yeah, 100% Harry. A little boy (tbsl?) in his formative years trying to understand who he is, what he likes, when everyone and their mother already force their perception upon him.

There's something deep inside of me

There's someone else I've got to be

Take back your picture in a frame

Take back your singing in the rain

I just hope you understand

Sometimes the clothes do not make the man

Forget about that Hollywood sweetheart and whatever you think he's like, you're not even close. Your friendly neighborhood boyband idol may be currently tied down to another man's bed. Who knows.

All we have to see

Is that I don't belong to you

And you don't belong to me

... Okay this resonates nicely with Stockholm Syndrome. I understand these lyrics as a "Here's me: take it or leave it". George Michael wants the right to be himself and express what he wants through his art and the fans are free to stick around or not. No one owes anyone anything. Fair deal. It's not the case in Stockholm Syndrome though. The music industry, the fans, They all take and take from Harry as long as he keeps parts of himself hidden to please everyone. Not a fair deal.

Nice addition is the iconic leather jacket being an important symbol in the Freedom! '90 MV. It symbolizes the end of an era for George Michael when he burns it: he used to wear this jacket during Wham! and his first solo album Faith. In both eras, he fully embodied the het sex machine role to please the public and the music industry.

However the leather jacket is a whole another story for Harry and here's why. nice transition

HARRY AND THE LEATHER COMMUNITY

BDSM is inherently sexual but it also translates to the public through flagging, signaling, and various depictions through art: just like any queer subculture.

BDSM itself counts several subcultures, one of them being the Leather Community. Though it doesn't necessarily concern gay men only, the Leather Community has been mostly associated to the gay scene. Freddie Mercury proudly displayed it on stage, when he wore various leather costumes inspired by the clubs he frequented. Fandom certainly didn't miss the inspiration Harry took from him:

There is something about Harry, a queer man, and leather. By choosing to wear this leather suit at the "crowning" of Fine Line (the album about knowing and embracing who he is), marking the end of the FL era, it's a strong statement. The association with the Leather Community isn't lost on some.

There is more of it, for example the Beauty Papers photoshoot: it seems to be inspired by Robert Mapplethorpe, a queer photograph who pictured BDSM a lot in his work:

... There are even more accurate parallels but um keeping it PG remember?

The leather collars he wore for Another Man and the mag issue being captioned "Oh boy !" (slang in the BDSM community for a male sub) is also pretty evocative. Especially when the article focused on his transition from boyband to solo artist and his desire to express his own character. It's always about expression. And just like George Michael or Freddie Mercury, the desire to represent the end of an era and the beginning of another with bold queer statements, as a mean to own their sexuality.

Harry doesn't shy away from expressing his sexual preferences or the communities he feels part of. It's part of who he is, it inspires him, the same way it did for other artists and I love that for him <3

[absolutebl]

This Week in BL

March 2021 Part 4

Being a highly subjective assessment of one tiny corner of the interwebs. 

This is a LONG ONE, it’s been A WEEK everyone. 

Ongoing Series - Thai

Lovely Writer Ep 5 - a little slow this week, but at least Gene finally flirted back, and very cute flirting it was, too. Also we got Aey’s motivation, background, and love interest. Thank goodness for that. 

Brothers Ep 8 - still pants, what can I say? Clearly I am a BL masochist. Very embarrassing for everyone concerned. 

1000 Stars Ep 9 - the conflict over Tian’s father was REALLY well done. The plot of this drama is excellent, the leads are great together, and yes I totally cried. What, you didn’t? 

Ongoing Series - Not Thai

Word of Honor (China) Ep 16-18 - big battle fighty fighty stabby stabby. Ep 17 switches to “this drama isn’t big enough for two chaotic-neutral godlings!” So what do they do? Drink together and bicker... A LOT. Then in Ep 18 we all get the dubious joy of really freaky puppets. (I HATE puppets.) Also how is China letting this be so SO VERY VERY GAY?  Also, I wanna walk through the forest wearing a smanshy purple robe and waving a big fuck-off white fan around simply because I’m a pretentious fuss monger. And frankly, I feel like this is an achievable life goal for me. 

We Best Love 2 (Taiwan) Ep 4 - not gonna lie, this is looking to be one of my top 3 BLs of 2021. It’s SO GOOD. Big bonus to this ep for treating stalker behavior like the mental illness it is and not as some dumb representation of enduring love. 

The Most Peaceful Place is My Place (Vietnam) Ep 1 - finally dropped (find it under NƠI BÌNH YÊN NHẤT LÀ VỀ BÊN EM on O2′s channel). It’s got actors already comfortable with BL and looks pretty good so far. An angry tsundere uke reunited with his ex, a stoic chef, giving us lots of snap, crackle, and pop out the gate. 

Dear Uranus (Taiwan GL) Ep 2 - I want to love it, but it is just moving too fast. There’s not enough character dev and then they’re throwing flashbacks in? It feels like a treatment rather than a show, and a rushed treatment at that. Bummer. 

HIStory 4: Close To You (Taiwan) Ep 2 (AKA Ep 3-4) - let the cheesy popcorn continue! Idiot remains an idiot; ingenue remains an ice queen; nice gay guy remains nice and gay; obsessive stalker brother is getting ever more whackadoddle. Of course these last two have the best chemistry. (It’s caregiver codependency and the salvation trope. We got us a Leo/Fiat situation going on.​) Plus lots of classic BL tropes because OF COURSE there are lots of tropes. 

Occasionally, I am tempted to argue that shows like H4 or Cherry Magic or Ossan’s Love aren’t technically BL because of the office setting and age of the protags - but then they all behave like high school students anyway, so *shrug* 

Stand Alones

Cute little Taiwanese micro BL Friend or Lover dropped, about bisexual realization within a friendship group. Normally these are too short for me, but this one did pretty good with its 15 minutes of charm, plus it’s abad boy + shy softy pairing. 

Breaking News - Thai BL

Fish Upon the Sky released its actual trailer. The upside-down kiss is gone, which makes everyone sad, and it seems far less rivals to lovers than the first iteration, which makes ME sad. But it still looks good and a more classic BL than GMMTV has given us in a while. New trailer focused more on the makeover trope and they’ve upped Mix’s role (the object of everyone’s affection) now that he’s proved himself. (Or they are using him more to carry the trailer since he has a fan base form 1k*). Starts April 9 on GMMTV in 1K*’s time slot, probably with a 10 ep run. 

2gether the movie is apparently coming April 22 to Thai theaters. F4 Thailand must be having issues or GMMTV just wants to milk the BrightWin cash cow. It’s rumored to be a combination of 2gehter + Still 2gether with some extra scenes and ending. Also, one assumes a lot will be cut out, if it’s movie length.

Call It What You Want released its updated trailer. If anything, it looks more scary than before. What are we in for? April 9th. 

Nitiman got a release date, May 7 on One31. 

I Told Sunset About You 2 got an updated release date of May 27 on LineTV. 

Second Chance the series is coming to LineTV on March 29. I don’t know much about this one. Tons of familiar faces (mostly TharnType side dishes) and some nice looking new talent but a dearth of eng subs. I think it may take on Brothers’ time slot. Line did eng subs for Brothers so maybe they will do 2nd Chance too? 

Close Friend the series is coming April 22. This is a combination of 6 couples with 6 story arcs as music videos (maybe)? It’s an epic fan service with familiar faces like OhmFluke (UWMA), MaxNat (LBC also in Y-Destiny), YoonLay (YYY also in Y-Destiny), KimCop (GenY), and JaFirst (TT2).

Y-Destiny starts March 30, and has starting dropping couple’s trailers. I’m still suspicious given the director but it seems like there is plot (or plots) and a theme. Looks to be a series of 7 single ep vignettes (amended, see comments, might be 2 eps each for 14 eps total), different couple each time, some with supernatural elements, all with decent chemistry and acting chops. 

Sun MaxNat’s tutor/student arc

Mon jaded rich kid meets poor innocent  

Tues sports romance enemies to lovers 

Weds the messy realistic actual dating one 

Thurs hot ghost boyfriend (sad) 

Fri YoonLayPerth coping with loss and finding new love (sad). This one will all rest on Lay's acting so we know it’s in safe hands. Our boy is going to KILL it. 

Sat time-slip memory loss reunion romance 

I’m thinking we can’t expect any of these to end happy or be classic BL. They’re gonna be more slice of life-ish. 

Gossip - BL Outside of Thailand 

Scholar Ryu’s Wedding Ceremony AKA Nobleman Ryu’s Wedding (Korean historical BL) got a legit teaser (eng sub here). @curriculumvtae​ reports that it’s releasing April 15th on WeTV (Philippines & Thailand) and Idol Romance (South Korea), while Will of Thai Bl says it’ll be on Viki too. It’s a short run of 8 ep built on a fake relationship trope (arranged marriage variant):

Ryu Ho Seon’s (Kang In Soo from You Wish) arranged marriage turns out to be with his expected bride’s brother, Choi Ki Wan (Lee Se Jin from Mr Heart). Ryu tries to undo the marriage, but his ill mother opposes this saying the scandal would be too much. Meanwhile, Kim Tae Hyeong (Jang Eui Soo from Where Your Eyes Linger), a senior at Ryu’s school, comes to congratulate him and falls in love with Choi. Then one day, the original bride disappears.

Okay it seems a bit twisty turny for ONLY 8 EPS, but oh my goodness how excited are we? Our first intentional historical BL out of Korea!

We already knew Hong Kong was doing a remake of Japan’s Ossan’s Love under the same name (not my favorite Japanese BL but so very popular) but it’s now reported to be coming to Viu in June. Who knows how the CFA will take it. Depends on whether Hong Kong bows before the NO GAY KISSES regs or if they are going to use this as a political nose thumb... things could get cray with this puppy (the original has several kisses and s shower scene). Are we back in Addicted territory only with added comedy and civil unrest?

Speaking of Japan, Absolute BL (AKA Zettai BL ni Naru Sekai vs Zettai BL ni Naritakunai Otoko) dropped sooner than anyone thought, March 27. But being Japanese who knows how/when/if we get subs. Protag finds himself trapped in a world of BL, but being straight he fights against any hot guy that draws near, but the whole world (literally) is conspiring against him. It’s a parody adapted from a yoai.

What with Absolute BL from Japan plus Lovely Writer and Call it What You Want from Thailand, is 2021 the year of BL being ultra self referential? Sure feels like it.

In Case You Missed It

Faded a gay micro film from Taiwan from 2017 deals with parental acceptance and serves up a ton of BL tropes (piggyback, forehead kiss, etc). I’m pretty sure this was a propaganda piece for legalization of gay marriage, and it’s an interesting nugget of BL history as a result. Yes, it ends happy. It’s cute. 

Next Week Looks Like This:

Some shows may be listed a day later than actual air date for accessibility reasons.

Upcoming 2021 BL master post here.

Links to watch are provided when possible, ask in a comment if I missed something.

Man there’s a lot going on right now! Spring has sprung... I suppose. 

P.S. I cannot believe I missed Absolute BL as a blog name. Numbnuts = me.