#although I've just done some thinking

[abearirl]

you can't call characters that are probably my age 'old'

you're not allowed to do that. because it hurts my feelings

[thedreadvampy]

GOD I love my career path BUT ok like. I spent today at an academic conference on epistemic injustice and I LOVE ACADEMIC CRITICISM. I LOVE ACADEMIC THEORY. The problem is I don't want to BE an academic, it looks like it sucks and also I like to have work with clear material impact. but today has scratched an itch I rarely TRULY get to hit and I want ittttttt. I love PHILOSOPHY I love SEMIOTICS I love EPISTEMOLOGY I love THE PRODUCTION AND COMMUNICATION OF IDEAS it is 90% of what I am thinking about at any given time and nobody outside academia is nearly as interested in it as I am, or if they are then we're using mutually incomprehensible frameworks/language.

academia is like welding, wrestling or bricklaying. I want the opportunity to learn the skills and do it as a hobby but I ABSOLUTELY DO NOT want a career in it and the only ways to get at these things seem to be as vocational paths 😭

[seventh-district]

not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

[aceghosts]

I want to write, but too many competing ideas are essentially giving me writer's block.

[mad-hunts]

so, i'm gonna give y'all a warning for this post immediately because i have yet to talk about this on here besides with one or two people, and the last thing i want to do is make anyone uncomfortable... but if you believe that cannibalism is a trigger for you then please do not continue beyond this point. for those of you who are okay with it, though, let me start by saying this:

barton does engage in cannibalistic acts sometimes, and this is actually one of the few, if not the only sources of shame that he feels in response to the heinous acts that he commits pretty much on the daily. and this is because he believes himself that it is disgusting and not something to be proud of; so, in a way, it does kind of demonstrate that he has some humanity left in him albeit in a very unsavory way and that's mainly why i wanted to bring it up. because his relationship with this part of him... well, it really isn't good, for lack of better words. which is understandable considering cannibalism is a rather big taboo in society, but it has become somewhat of a compulsion for him. not to excuse it in ANY capacity, of course. that is honestly just the best word i could use to describe it as i've done some research about it and, like other serial killers, barton is SO perpetually lonely that by consuming his victims -- it makes him feel like he is no longer so alone anymore as he will always be able to 'carry' a part of them with him that way, so-to-speak, and they'll never be able to leave him.

now this is obviously not the way to go about dealing with his loneliness at all, as it is extremely messed up both morally and honestly, just wrong as a human being to do. but i also believe that there are other factors at work regarding his tendency to sometimes cannibalize his victims, and that is that because of the trauma he endured at the hands of his biological father (wesley mathis) whom forced him to eat people with him. it could sort of function as a very unhealthy coping mechanism for him to navigate that complex trauma; and this is because it may serve as an attempt for him to restore a sense of control over himself that he felt was stolen from him as a child, since he had no choice but to engage in it. plus, interestingly enough, antisocial personality traits are often an underlying element in those who divulge in cannibalistic acts. and cannibals in one study have been found to have more cases of abuse / have more family members who are criminals, so this could also be indicative that his environmental upbringing very well could have a hand in his subsequent (occasional) cannibalism after he commits his killings.

i also thought i would mention that, despite his apparent depravity, barton has taken extra care not to expose his own children to the same trauma that he had to suffer from as a result of wesley (what with the 'hunting trips' that they went on) and he would NEVER want his kids to see him eating people. so, although it still is unquestionably wrong for him to be cannibalizing people, things are a little complicated in that regard. while i'm talking about it, for my closing thought, i'd like to say that the police does highly suspect that the dollmaker is a cannibal but they haven't been able to confirm it as of yet. though i'd imagine that most of the underground knows that he cannibalizes people because rumors can be spread quite quickly, and i can totally imagine the way in which people found out being that they were unfortunate enough to have to stumble upon barton just... eating someone. and a lot more casually than one should probably be about it, because half of the time, he doesn't even remember that he's done it afterward because his mind literally just blocks it out. but that's something i shall expand on more later

[byanyan]

3 - 5 things your muse can be identified by

emotions / feelings

rage

frustration

mischievousness

hostility

excitement

greetings

"hey."

"fuck off."

friendly (but strong) arm punches

no greeting, simply jumping straight into what they want to say

colors

pink

purple

iridescent (it counts as a colour ok)

black

silver

scents

sweet berries

sweat

weed

blood

smoke

clothing

colourful and/or edgy platform boots

crop tops and cropped hoodies

leather jackets

streetwear style cargo pants

cute, flouncy skirts

objects

iridescent knives

sketchbook

body jewelry

huge pink backpack

lighter

vices / bad habits

smoking and drinking

drug abuse

theft

picking fights

reckless self-endangerment

body language

either too casual or too tense for a situation with no in between

impatient finger tapping

always fidgeting with something — clothes, jewelry, knives, lighters, etc.

arms crossed or hands on hips

dramatic eye rolls

aesthetics

kawaiicore

pastel grunge

egirl

kawaii punk

sanriocore

songs

give it to me

hold me like a grudge

what i want

[sisterdivinium]

As the owner of the post where the WN commentfic fest is taking place, I get notified of every single new addition (which can also apply to you if you have a DW account and track the post, btw!), be that a prompt, a fill or a comment -- and let me tell you just how giddy I get to see participants posting an idea, a story, or even just cheering others on <3

[asexual-levia-tan]

i love the bias + the fan pairings so much because on the surface its very "oh, well, the bias just has to fall for the fan and then its happily ever after" but no! its way more fun than that!

the fan isnt in love with the bias. in fact, the fan doesnt view this world as reality, nor do they even view their bias as a human. the fun part of this pairing is the fan having to recognize the world they live in as their new reality and the people around them as people! the bias falling for the fan is just part one, the fan falling for the bias as an Actual Human Being is just as important an element

[loregoddess]

well, despite the wiki's utter lack of useful info, my love of wildly underdeveloped dead moms with little to no info won out, and I now have an updated design for Ikona

for whatever it's worth, I spent several hours comparing key facial features of the Hoshido siblings and Sumeragi to try and reverse-design what Ikona might have looked like, and came up with the shittiest Punnett squares to figure out eye/hair color (eye/hair color aren't Mendelian traits, Punnett squares for calculating eye/hair color are actually BS). I don't...actually think Kozaki spent the time to try and draw familial similarities, not the way Nuri does at least, but damn if I didn't try to find similarities/differences to work out my design for Ikona

[bat-connoisseur]

Not a bad year, all considered! Mostly improved with shading but that's something I've been needing to do for years so I'm content with it.

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[giantkillerjack]

Thank you, younger me, for drawing so many things in which the lines were never quite right. It is quite literally the only reason I ever figured out how to get them right.

[jelly-boi]

hi ho~

[thevegetablewhichnoonedaresname]

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[indi-glo-archive]

Tara doesn't have the cursed twist-out in the promo pics. Black people win at not losing

[powerfulkicks]

i love having a chronic illness bc occasionally it'll just be like New Symptom Unlocked and you get a few days of wondering if this is something new or maybe something completely unrelated or maybe nothing at all? who knows!

[electrobiology]

also i want to say this probably has no basis in canon i can't remember all of the gaster lore off the top of my head. but i was thinking recently the idea of gaster's mistake in the undertale universe subsequently dooming all alternate versions of himself so they too fall to some horrible fate too early (even if they're of course not all Falling Into The Core)... love it personally