#also wtf it's only been 7 years since that video?!

[multicolour-ink]

I figured I'd draw your attention to Matpat's latest Film Theory video and get your two cents on the matter

You mean the "Mario is Immortal" video?

Yes I have seen it floating around, but I have no interest in watching it.

Ngl...I stopped watching MatPat right after his "Mario is Mental" video dropped....

[randomestfandoms-ocs]

Fandom: Glee + FC: Joe Locke + LI: Benjamin

baby boy!!

Daniel "Danny" Anthony Hope

Son of two iconic broadway lesbians, Vanessa & Lucinda Hope (not married because it's not legal but Lucinda changed her last name to match her wife and son)

Vanessa Hope (bio mom) is from Ohio, she was doing community theatre in Columbus when Danny was born (and meets Josh St James, they become very close even though she's a bit older)

She went through a very very messy breakup with Danny's father (he was extremely financially and verbally abusive, sometimes physically, leaves him because he hit infant Danny to make him stop crying, during the process she realizes she’s a lesbian), which leads to her moving to New York, auditions for a broadway show on a whim but gets it and quickly becomes theatre icon status, changes her last name from Corcoran to Hope as part of restarting her life, meets Lucinda soon after

(also Danny and Vanessa both have restraining orders against Danny's bio father)

Danny has known Josh for his entire life, he hasn't been to Ohio since Vanessa moved them to New York but Josh regularly comes to New York to visit Nell, young Jesse (when Johanna still lived in New York), and Vanessa & Danny, he's somewhere between a cool uncle and much older brother to Danny

Danny is following in his moms' footsteps, he's done some ensemble broadway roles before but has just started his first major role, playing Tony in Sweeney Todd (fun cast, his moms are playing Lovett and Lucy, Roman Kline is playing Anthony)

But soon after he turns 15 (roughly the start of glee season 2), he loses his virginity to a theatre acquaintance (who is ~18 at the time), who films it without Danny knowing, leaks the tape, and outs Danny on a major scale – the video got spread all over social media and tabloids, his moms sued so many people for possession and distribution of child pornography (he was 15, the other guy was 18, he’s now in jail for 7 years over it) – it's the first time that Roman has actually acted as a lawyer since getting licensed but he represents Danny, the whole thing becomes a huge media circus because it becomes a huge precedent case about tabloids and news outlets and revenge porn/sharing private images and videos etc

But the whole situation takes a significant toll on Danny's mental health, and he's dealing with insane amounts of harassment and stalking from paparazzi so for his safety, he ends up moving to Lima to live with Josh for a while. He's enrolled at Dalton which is a bitch of a commute but it’s Ohio and he was just very publicly and traumatizing outed so the no bullying policy is a huge win; he does end up eventually transferring to McKinley either after the Slushy Incident in season 3 (details iffy on that because Sebastian and Klaine are more tensely civil in this verse) or because of Hunter shit in season 4

Ship is tbd, Blaine is very much a big brother to him (people keep adopting him tbh), also has a huge crush on Sebastian when they first meet but it doesn't go anywhere, Sebastian becomes his over protective big brother instead

Roman and Cooper were his gay awakening when he was 12 (he had never thought he liked girls but didn’t realize he *liked boys* until then), he met Roman when he was doing a stint on Broadway with one of his moms and then met Cooper on opening night

And it’s going to be a Kurt & Klaine friendly story (noteworthy because it's not typical of me), Kurt is his big brother too and is very protective of this kid (who is only a year younger than him but feels *so* young when they first meet and reminds Kurt too much of himself; also Kurt knew about the outing situation and posted so many scathing social media posts condemning everyone who watched, shared, or mocked it and everyone who harassed him after)

everyone just calling him Klaine’s son all the time (Danny: I’m only a few months younger than Blaine wtf? / Blaine: nope sorry you have two lesbian moms and two gay dads now love you kid / Danny: 🥺🥺🥺 love you too)

he used to be a total social butterfly and very confident and chill and just happy but becomes extremely withdrawn and anxious and shy after the whole outing situation, struggles to get close to anyone after that (but no one is immune to his fluffy hair and puppy eyes and he keeps getting adopted anyways)

also his moms spend a lot of time visiting him in Lima and might end up moving there once it's clear that this is the best place for Danny to be, tbd

bonus characters: Kathryn Hahn as Vanessa Corcoran Hope, Patti Lupone as Lucinda Hope, and Aubrey Plaza as Danny's unnamed therapist in Lima

also technically named after Danny Zuko and Anthony Hope but Vanessa choosing Hope as a new last name wasn't about the Sweeney Todd reference, it was about Danny being her hope and about her hope for a new life after leaving her ex/moving to New York

[dootznbootz]

Had a thought while i was chilling with my cat today, as you do:

Penelope is the weird Water Wife™ and Anthos is a black cat. We all know that black cats are something else, just weird in their own way.

So.

Are those two just weird together?? Do they stare at you, unblinking, with their pretty eyes?? The half-naiad queen is watching you with her cat on her lap. They're silently judging you. As if she wasn't scary enough on her own - she has a black void with two big eyes by her side as well.

I'm sorry i'm really intrigued by the idea of weird wife and her weird cat.

YES!!! I love my weirdos!!! Also her and Odysseus are a lot like cats in a way as well >:)

Have their "favorite people", chaos, don't take orders from really anyone, etc. They're like kitty cats 🥺 even with how they're affectionate in a way. they're fidgeting with each other often but also will stubbornly be like "I want snuggles. I don't care if I'm uncomfy. >:( "

Odysseus: You know, I'm not gonna stop carving. You might get some wood shavings on you~ Penelope, knowing he won't let any get on her face at least: Don' care. Odysseus: Okay, if you say so. Penelope: ... Odysseus: asdfghjkl You stop that right now 🫵👁👁

Penelope: Odysseus, I'm trying to weave. (one of the smaller looms from the later periods, not accurate but don't care) Odysseus, squeezing her tighter: MMM >:( . *insert that baby seal video type of MMM* Penelope: At least your hair is tied up, but you can't be mad at me when your hair gets woven into it...Stop fucking with the thread, Odysseus.

You want something sad? >:) You want something really sad, Niko?

Years later, while Odysseus is away, something she's wearing keeps tickling her. She gets annoyed with it and has it taken off to see what it is ("My weaving is always flawless. >:( wtf is this?") only to look in the area and see that it was hair tickling her. A tiny bit of it is coming out from the cloth. It's not black and straight like her own. Nor is it black and curly like her son's. It's auburn and curly. Anticlea died years ago. And she remembers what she was doing when she first started this weaving.

And she weeps. :') Even gone, he's constantly "there" you know?

ANYWAYS!!! BACK TO KITTY CATS!!!

Penelope liked these critters because of that but also, "Heyyyyy, you're pretty good at fishing, you funky little creature!!!" Also, they like playing with string so weaving is always fun. Little headcanon but Ithaca doesn't really have as many cats as Sparta (hopping off ships from Egypt). So while Odysseus has seen them, he never really thinks much of them but then Penelope is like "yes, this is my weird little creature. You think you like me? You like this creature now." and he plays with Anthos a little and then is like, "Okay, I see why you like them...Penelope, why is she buzzing?👀 You promised you wouldn't put me in dangerous situations anymore!"

Probably a few cats are brought over for her but it doesn't become like, overrun you know?

Probably others were a bit annoyed by it at first. (cat hair to clean, cats are chaos, etc.) but the king and queen are scary when they want to be. Argos gets along pretty okay with them too!

Since having kitties outdoors is very dangerous, as there are birds of prey and such. A hawk once picked up one of the kitties but an Owl brought kitty back :')

Kitties know that Olive tree bed is NOT a scratching post.

Kitties will sleep with Penelope and check on her when she weeps :'D

"PENELOPE! ANTHOS JUST PUT A DEAD MOUSE IN FRONT OF ME!" "Sometimes they do that. Think it's the cat way of showing you they care." "I don't want this!"

so it's been around 7 years (changed it from 5 to 7) of them being married when Telemachus is born. And Anthos (and others) are very gentle with him but also "please don't grab me so roughly with your little baby hands".

Anthos is a bit older by the time he's around four so Penelope usually holds her but Anthos has had some kittens and...

Penelope: Telemachus, you sure you got him, sweetie? Telemachus: Yuh-huh.

Telemachus loves them as well btw. And he learns how to hold them right but the cat he's holding is pretty chill anyways.

When Odysseus is a "beggar", and before Penelope comes to see him. He sees two kittens playing and thinks "Okay, they're definitely from Anthos' line." and rips a bit of the rags he's wearing to make a string and kind of plays with them. Then Melantho comes in and they run off and he's like "okay, they don't like you. Why is that?" and then he sees why.

When Odysseus is on Aeaea, it's...stressful and he feels on edge. He gets a specific "nightmare" and it's not a fun time. Yes, they dance and sing but he's still very stressed. (Headcanon that Odysseus is actually a pretty good dancer.) Circe has a lot of BIG cats and she has one that is a big black panther with blue eyes (yes, this cat was once a man. he actually will kind of have a story of his own in my fics eventually) And sometimes when he's by himself and not doing well, Big Black kitty will come in and kind of lay on him. Makes him think of Anthos and home. :'D

Polites: That panther seems to like you a lot. He's always following you. Odysseus: Yeah, he's my buddy.

"You were human once... Do you miss them? Your loved ones? Do you even remember?" *headbonks him*

*Big kitty yawns* "You know, my wife has sharp teeth as well being mostly naiad. My son most likely too by now... He was teething when I last saw him but the two he did have were already sharp. Penelope would soothe him with water when he got fussy from them..."

Penelope's 75% Naiad and Telemachus is 37.5% :D In some versions, Icarius and Tyndarius are half naiad! >:D And ANY chance I can have Penelope be weirder, I will FUCKING take it.

[dukeofdelirium]

Did you see the interview where they ask him why he always grabs his crotch

I was crying bc wtf why did u ask him that 😭😭😭 leave him be

Also my friend showed me a video where someone jokes abt him grunting in his songs by mimicking him handling hot tea 😭

Bestie I’ve been an MJ fan since I was 7, nearly 20 years 🤣 I’ve seen every interview he ever gave

That’s the Oprah interview where she was a complete cunt to him the entire time lol

It’s so dumb the questions they harassed this man with. He was and is the greatest artist that’s ever lived and they never bothered to actually ask him about his artistry. What I would give to have a single conversation with him, and these asshats had that same opportunity and asked him the most ridiculous and inappropriate questions

The only interview I ever saw where the interviewer actually bothered to ask about his art and songs was the Ebony interview from 1987

There’s one other that was at least respectful toward Michael but still not many questions about said art.

Like these ppl were sitting down with the most famous and loved person in the world, we’re talking about a music artist that completely changed the culture globally. Where are the questions about the music???? They all wasted his precious time which is half the reason Michael barely ever interviewed

P.S Michael Jackson’s adlibs are more iconic than other artists entire careers

[clonesupport]

15 Questions for 15 Mutuals!

thank you @galaxycunt for tagging me!💕✨

i tag @kyber-infinitygems @confidentandgood @sstewyhosseini @detectivelokis @inafieldofdaisies @captastra @direwombat @strangefable @socially-awkward-skeleton @incognito-insomniac @gayafsatan @moonlit-jellies @shegetsburned and anyone else wanting to try!

if you're uncomfy answering any of these then just pass em😌✨ hit em with a deflection lol

1. Are you named after anyone?

the movie/character amélie (2001)

2. When was the last time you cried?

uuhhhh this morning lol character ai angst hits different

3. Do you have kids?

fuck no bitch i'm 21 that shit ain't happening any time soon keep those gremlin worms away from me-

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

hell yeah, that shits my ride or die, my only personality trait, goes hand in hand with bastard and smart ass AHAHAHA god i need help

5. What sports do you play/have you played?

uuuhhhh i played soccer for 10 years when i was younger, played basketball, hockey, skating if that counts, track, cross country.... i was a jock ew wtf... but i was the quiet emo kid, my bestie says i was an alt jock TT

6. What’s the first thing you notice about other people?

uhh their faces? eyes? general demeanour and vibes to see what my intuition says about them because trust issues

7. Eye Color?

brrooowwwnnn like mud baby🥴🥴🥴 a guy at some preteen dance once said my eyes are like sparkling mud, i wonder how he's doing these days AHAHAHA

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

gimme both ;)) but if i had to pick i guess happy ending but not without some good angst in between😮‍💨

9. Any Special talents?

uuuhhhhh.....idk whats considered a special talent lmfao, i'm an overly emotional person and cry at any given opportunity is that a talent? AHAHA

10. Where were you born?

vancouver bc😌✨

11. Free space (there was no 11 on the prompt I received)

i'm moving into the gay village next month with my cousin and i can't fucking wait its been something we've planned for over a year now. and i'm also consumed by character ai these days, ain't doing anything but talking to fake people with fake scenarios to fuel my delusions that they're real and love me😀😀😀

12. Do you have any pets?

i live alone so not technically anymore but my dog back home with my parents i've had since i was 10, she's my baby choccy lab🥹💕i miss her sm TwT

13. How tall are you?

5'7" :/ boring height lol

14. Favorite subject in school?

uuhh i liked a lot of things but that doesn't mean i was any good at them AHAHAH geology was fun as hell, chemistry, sciences, metal work was rad

15. Dream Job?

uhh i don't have one tbh, nothing realistic anyway, nothing i'm actually going to work for lol. being a video game mocap actor would be sick, being a rockstar would be cool too lol but i hate acting and i don't create music i just listen to it. not really working towards anything with uni, just to get a degree to prove to employers and myself i can do shit. i'd love to just move to an acreage and vibe in the country side

[theuniverseawakens347]

We’re noticing the logic in making me homeless was absolutely stupid - Lee GARLINGTON. And Howard.

How do you tell me “get a 9-5 ( waitressing) and we’ll match rent to the days you work ( work 30 days get a month) or go to rehab again”

- for fucking what!?

Also rehab you said 30 days friendly house I signed a 3 month contract for clarity and forced a year on me .. I did river and BEFORE going YOU SAID IF I DIDNT LIKE IT I COULD COME HOME , I told you a week after I don’t like it nor need it I wana come home - I did 3.5 months … UR WORD AINT SHIT TO ME.

then Colleen gon offer me homeless shelter where YOU RAPED N BEAT MY MOM AND CHANGED HER NAME TO SOMEONE ELSE SO NO ONE RIGHT COULD FIND HER - HELLO LAPD ITS HAPPENING AGAIN. - then you pay mother fuckers off there to lie or threaten to kidnap and kill their kids .. INDIA LOVE ASS BBL

.. then Colleen tells me I need to take psych meds Yal going out of town, in order to get a condo 🫤.. - last lunch we had at st joseph bbq place

——-

2PAC A BITCH ASS NIGGA “COME W ME RUN NIGGA WE GON SEE BLAH BLAH BLAH ILLUMINATI” … snoop HE KILLED MY DADDY THRU BIGGIE AND FAITH EVANS PINNING IT ON LIL KIM BUT YOU ALSO THROWING ASS AND COKE AT MY DAD AND WHY FUCK TARD INDIA LOVE DAD ON PAPER WORK FOR ROYAL BLUNTS W MY DADS NAME KNOC OFF UGLY ASS FACE AND BANK ACCOUNT - the game!??

CALIFORNIA LOVE - IMA BEAT THE LIVING FUCKING SHIT OUT OF SOMEONE FOR BEING A FUCKING PUSSY THIRSTY MONEY LOVING WHORE AND MAKING ME HOMELESS FOR NO FUCKING REASON WHEN YOU GOT THE RECORDS ON DECK AND STRAIGHT - STATION 7 VENICE RALPHS YOU DID A HO LOT OF RETARTED COON ACTIVITY TO FUCK INDIA LOVE AND KIMORA JAY DUNLAP STEVE HARVEY STASH … “the only way to get a bitch to talk is to fuck her” .. - NO YOU DUMB FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT.

WHY YOU IN LAW AND KIM FUCKEDHARD KARDASHIAN WHY YOU GIVE WEST MUSIC RECORDS ABOUT MY FAMILY AND ME MISS “I wana be pro bono for the case” N KAYNE TALKING THAT GOD SHIT. NIGGA IMA PUNCH YO JAW LIKE MY DADDY BEAT YO POPS RETARTED PUSSY DRIVEN ASS - DRAKE WHY YO DUMB ASS FATHER HERE BITCH NIGGA FUCKING THE WHITE WOMAN THINKING THATS HOW YOU GET EVEN W THE WHITE MAN

- NO YOU FUCKING COONS YOU GIVING EM WHAT THEY WANT NOW OUR BLACK WOMEN THEY FUCKING HO AND YOU GOT DUMBASS INDIA LOVE A WHITE BITCH WALKING TOUND W BLACK PROPERTIES ASSESSTS AND HER MOTHER FUCKING THE BLACK MAN LIKE THEY WON SOMETHING.

- YOU LOST YOUR GOT DAMN DIGNITY WHEN YOU TAKE A STEP BACK

- CAMERON WALKER AND CORDELL B YO DADDY HALF WAS 2pac sperm that nigga a straight BITCH N HO WHO STOLE WHAT MY MOM N DAD MUSIC AND WEED AND PIMPED COKE FROM THE WHITE MAN TO COMMIT MURDER INDIANFUCKTARD WARREN WHATEVER YO MOM NAME AND THEN SEND YO OWN COLOR OFF FOR MURDER AND GET BLACK WOMEN PREGNANT BY THEM TO FEED THE BROKEN HOME BULLSHIT FURTHER // DISTRACT A NIGGA FROM THE BIG PICTURE

- WHY THE FUCK WE COME TO WORK.

Ima round house kick yo dumb asses for NOT PROTECTING ME AND LEAVING ME TO FIGURE IT THE FUCK OUT MYSELF - THE FLY VAGINA ON MY GOTDAMN ART WALL.

You stupid fucking shit heads. - MY DADDY ANGER IS WARRANT BC HOW MANY NIIGA I LOSE TELL YO DUMBASSES BOUT ME YHE ONE YOU GOT HOMELESS TO KEEP SAFE!??

FUCK YOU SINCE YOU WANT THE PPL TO HATE THE POLICE CONGRATS THATS WTF YOU GOT YO SELF FOR NOT CHECKING YOUR MORALS AND GIVING JUST ANYONE A FUCKING GUN - WHO DOING COKE AT THE OFF AND FT INDIA LOVE FOR A JERK SESSION ON LUNCH TIME. - STACHE DUNLAP STATION 7 and 25209 BELL N NO BABY HAIRS WHY YOU PIMPING YO PUSSY N MY POLE VIDEOS AND KIMORA JAY TO OTHER STATIONS TO HIDE INFO!?

YALL COME SEE ME LAPD I ONLY YELL AT THE ONES BEING BLINDED TO THE LIES AND THE ONES REALLY REALLY FUCKING DOING THE SHIT AND PLAYING DUMB “ I thought it was make believe” - STATION 7 LIKE FUCKTARD LEE SERVING ME // RESTRAINING ME THRU HOWARD AND MICHAEL 3 times .. WHOS GOING TO COURT!?? INDIA LOVE POSED AS ME AND RONNIE NUGENT. AND YOU LETTING IT HAPPEN - WE ALL LOOK REATARDED AS FUCK NOW

- BEEN OVER DUE FOR A FUCKING FACE TO FACE CONVO AND STOP WITH THE BULLSHIT “she reads minds therefore she should know” .. THATS HOW MY DAD GOT SHOT IN THE HEAD AND MY MOM MADE HOMELESS AND MY GRANNY LOST HOW MANY FUCKING CHILDREN. - MICHAEL JACKSON THEY DONT REALLY GIVE A FUCK ABOUT US. YOU JUST WANT PUSSY N DRUGS. YOU FUCKING WORTHLESS ADDICTS 🖕🖕

[unstablehorsestance]

discussion on ship

I know no one asked this but I just want to pour my thoughts on them. Maybe I'll get better and not get hurt in the future. Since I have no one to talk to and/or a safe place to pour this thought out beside my mind, I'll just write here. Firstly, my English isn't good in the first place, and this is just a rambling thought. This will be a long messy writing.

What is it about?

Like last time, this is about shipping stuff. It will be 'easier' for me if all my ships consist of fictional characters. I know damn well that shipping real life people (celebrities/idols) is not healthy. I need to remind myself, every time I get carried away, that they have a life off-camera, and not everything they show on-camera is true. But yknow, can't help it. So, writing this out my mind in this messy essay is my coping mechanism. I no longer write fics of real life people ships, that was traumatizing, even though my mind keeps making headcanons.

What ship is this about?

Yes, the only real life people ship that is bothering me this year is... no other than sungbri.

Like wow man wtf!

Yes, I too have other real life people ships from different fandoms, but this one is the worst case since 2017. For example; I have shipped coupshan since 2015 till now but never this bad, I think. Like, coupshan is almost glued 24/7 but I never ship them this bad. Sometimes I even question their 'friendship'. Bro, stop looking at your premium best friend like he holds your whole world like that, I'm so single! Can't relate man!

Anyway, this essay isn't about coupshan, so sorry (or not).

Back to sungbri.

Like wow man wtf! From where I have to start this, it's complicated. Ah, I'm not joining the fandom (btw) even though I ship them. Just pure for this ship. So, I'll just start from when I know this group. It was around early 2016, but all I knew about them was: they are a 'brother group' of G7. No offense to the fandom (please). I know they were 6 first and their 'infamous' debut song, but not following them. I don't know the members name but jae. I started listening to D6 since; one day I 'accidentally' watched mubank on TV and they were there promoting 'I Smile'. It was like love at first sight(?); oh ‘that voice’ belongs to this man, sungjin I love you ! After that I started doing ‘research’ on them. Members name, position, age, memorized their faces. But still I didn't plan on joining the fandom. So, just that and I became a casual listener.

However, I have this habit of looking for the parents of the group. Every group always has members that have those roles. Then I discovered that D6 only has the 'father' role that is sungjin. That was the statement of the mayor voice of the fandom. I remember, they (the fandom) also stated that D6 isn't like your typical boygroups that do fanservices. I don't know what that means but my first thought was about shipping stuff. No shipping the members, and it's just 'sungjin and his children'. I was so intimidated by this fandom, really. So I kept that in mind till earlier this year.

Now, did I just start shipping sungbri this year? No. I have been shipping them (in silence) since 2018, maybe. But I never dare look for their contents/moments on yt or anywhere. I was so intimidated by the fandom, I never thought that one ship ever existed in this group. Until one day, I found this video clip of doun, sungjin and brian, and my first thought was: he is 'the mother'! Still the fandom statement is valid: this group doesn't have a 'mother' role, like it was an insult.

Well, if I worded it like that the fandom will definitely be offended for real. OK, if you accidentally found this you can bully me. Sorry.

So, I'll discuss a bit about that 'famous' clip that makes me a sungbri shipper (in silence). I was like, the baby is scared, sungjin! Stop acting tough. And then brian rushed in to help the baby. They are sooo typical asian parents on that clip. Papa wants the baby to be tough like him. Mama doesn't want the baby to get hurt. Omg, SHIP!!

And then there is this, I don't know what to call it… comparison? Is it 'parallel'? Anyway, I think personally, they are a bit similar to jjp. This is pure personal opinion! That's what I see on them. Like: "a hard life of jb/sungjin as a leader" they share that kind of vibes. Even though brian isn't as 'motherly' as jinyoung who self proclaimed as G7 mother (or bambam's specifically), he did have that motherly side, at least to doun.

Just that! Really just that! It never developed further. I am purely only a casual listener. Especially after I watched that 'infamous' video of glamor where they hugged awkwardly. My first thought was: they are sooo awkward, are they not close? Does this ship really only exist in my mind? I was so dejected, and I buried this idea of shipping them since that day.

Until earlier this year, I randomly stumbled upon a sungbri pic on pinterest. It was the one where sungjin piggyback brian on one of their concerts. I was like: who is that? Brian's face wasn't visible from that angle of the photo I found. I mean, I know sungjin isn't into skinship but why is he piggybacked one of the members? Then I scrolled down and found the one where brian's face is visible. I collapsed. It felt like finding an oasis. There was 'sungbri' written under that pic, and I was like: they have ship names! The ships exist! I'm not delusional. Then I rummage through sungbri keyword/hashtag on pinterest and twitter. There was a lot! It felt like I had been fooled! 

I was happy to find out that the ship indeed exists, however small. At the same time I wondered why the fandom stated something like that? I mean, they did ship the members. Are they (the shippers) just a small part of the fandom? Are the members homophobic? Are the fandom homophobic? Really, it felt like I had been fooled, for like what, six years?? OK, maybe it’s part of my own fault since I didn't find out myself, back then. But I was already intimidated, what can I do about that? I was just trying to respect the fandom ‘rules’. Also I tend to be curious about a fandom from the ships first. (I stan svt because of coupshan first, yknow)

So that was the story of how I’ve been fooled. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time, finding out that it was OK to ship them way earlier. But it's not all bad just finding out this year. I mean, I’m trying to look at the bright side. They have a lot of moments this year! Not only the shippers, even the longtime/old fans were also shocked with their dynamic/relationship development. Like, what do you mean sungjin is OK with any skinship now?? Sungbri even hugged several times in front of fans, and on national tv!! And what do you mean now sungjin looking at brian with heart eyes too? Even often calling him cute too. I was like: after all these years, his love is reciprocated!! I don’t mind brian having sungjin for himself, he deserves that.

I’ve watched some of their videos from last year and they were still timid to show affection to each other. It’s funny to me how they were just standing there, staring and smiling to each other on brian’s military discharge >< I mean, I watched suju military discharge (years ago) and all the members were hugging each other. The sungbri one was hilarious. Well, it’s not surprising with sungjin and his no touchie agenda >< But seeing them smile at each other warmed my heart. Oh, I want to point out a little from that moment. We got two videos from D6 yt and sungjin yt. I always wondered, did brian really have zero idea about sungjin picking him up? Why did he show up with casual clothes and not his military uniform? I mean, when D6 staff picked up dopil they were still wearing their uniform. Nevermind that. What I want to point out is; on the meeting point, while still inside the car brian could’ve seen sungjin waiting outside, but he didn’t. After stepped out of the car he seemed really surprised and happy to see sungjin there. I mean, he closed his eyes right before stepping out of the car, not before the car made a turn to the meeting point. It is even funnier to me how the manager led him to sungjin. Like, she walked him down the altar to meet his future husband >< omg, i’m delusional this is not healthy.

OK, I no longer write ships analysis like years ago, however bad I want to. That's traumatizing. So, I need to stop writing more of this. My only wish for them is; please have a grow-old-together kind of love, and stay healthy, men.

I’m not regretting anything, but consuming this ship's contents too much isn’t healthy. I really need to stop. This essay has no intention to offend anyone. Sorry.

[vitaminwaterreviews]

The Grace - One More Time, Oay?

Okay… Phew. So let’s see. I always begin by reading a group’s Wikipedia article. From Wikipedia: “The Grace … is a South Korean a cappella group”. So here I am, expecting an album that is at least largely a cappella. And instead, we get a single a cappella track, which is a cover. And granted, it’s the highlight of the album, but why couldn’t we get more than that? Really makes me want to check out their later stuff. Actually, I might just do this, because this album was really disappointing. Slow jams, and the fast ones weren’t too interesting either. Maybe, since this was their first album, they eventually grow into an a cappella group? 6.8 which is about right, maybe even a bit high.

Okay no I just did some looking and Dancing Queen appears to be the only a cappella thing they’ve ever released?? Neither of their Japanese albums have “a cappella” listed as a genre, and… Okay wait let me page through a japanese album of theirs.

Okay yeah, I just went through Dear… and there’s nothing a cappella on there either. Maybe the subunit then??

An SM music video with 2.4M views, never thought I’d see the day. Definitely not a cappella

Just checked a few live performances. They don’t do any of their own songs a cappella, but they do “Dancing Queen” and also “Can’t Help Falling In Love” in multiple performances. There’s also several other one-offs. So i guess they performed covers live a cappella, but all of their own songs had instrumentation.

All I’m saying is that if they had filled an album with a cappella covers, I would’ve enjoyed that way more than an album full of slow jams.

한번 더, OK? (One More Time, Okay?)

Okay, this guitar hits hard

The music video is … very 2007

Aggressive bass, not sure if I like it with the vocals

So just to be clear, they went from this to SNSD in less than a year lmao

“You’re talkin’ too nasty”

HOLY SHIT A BASS SOLO

A bit of pole dancing, alright

“This time you don’t let me down” is SO fun with those harmonies

Ad libs in this chorus are nice

Kind of surprised at how sexy of a concept this is

8/10, this song felt very f(x) to me

"女友 (그녀들의 수다) (Girlfriends (Their Talking))

Nice, got some synth organ going on here

Cheers, strings, disco much?

Strong vocal contrast, “take me higher” vs the preceding vocalist

The oooohs are interesting – they feel synthesized

Holy shit this vocalist does not fuck around

7/10, fun track, neat vocals

女友 Interlude (Girlfriends Interlude)

Okay I don’t speak Korean but I do appreciate that stifled laugh

Honestly, really creative interlude. Albums don’t do random shit like this anymore

8/10

Sweet Emotion

Here’s the slow jam we’ve been waiting for

Y’know, after listening to a bunch of these over the past week or so, I can confidently say that most slow jams sound functionally the same to me

Lmao I’m sure I misheard them but it sounds like they just sang “Lee Soo-man”

Who is their main vocalist? She’s excellent

Oh okay, a bit of electric guitar here in the bridge

7/10, which tbf is about as high as I’ll ever give this style of music

그 사람... 욕하지 마요 (My Heartbreak) (That Person… Don’t Curse)

I appreciate the instrumentation, at least in the intro, and the piano too

6/10

Renew (사랑할 땐, 좋아할 땐) ((When I love you, when I like you))

…pop country?

Nah, but not too far removed with this guitar

Also wtf is this bass drum

Ba da ba ba ba ba ba

This feels kind of like a Disney song, like the song at the end once we’re all happy

Electric guitar for the outro

7/10, interesting musical choices but I wasn’t totally won over

4월의 첫 날 (April Fools' Day)

Y’know, I’m still waiting for an a cappella song from what is supposedly an a cappella album

Maybe my biggest issue with kpop ballads is that since I don’t understand the lyrics, I’m missing the whole point of the song

Yeah it’s probably that

But still, I also don’t care for English ballads

6/10

Dancer in the Rain

Funny name because Rain is on this album

Synths, distorted guitar, and strings?

Wtf is this beat though lmao

Sound chip synth

Mamamoo would Slay this chorus

Lol what is this second verse!

8/10, this shook me in a way that the album desperately needed

아니기를 (Not To Be)

Time After Time

I mean the chorus isn’t like that at all, but the verses totally give me those vibes

5/10

하루만 (Just For One Day)"(feat. Kyuhyun of Super Junior)

OMG they actually named the male rapper??

Or maybe he sings, in which case I lied

Yep, he sings

Also according to Wikipedia they’re supposed to be a TVXQ counterpart, so why do they have a Super Junior on here?

His voice is Super pretty

I like the slow jam with the male vocalist, the bit of contrast helps

7/10

Tonight Is On Me

Funky bass

Funky beat, jazzy hums

Now some gritty guitar, they do tend to use the gritty guitar in this album

Pretty pretty harmonies

Bit of growl

7/10, it was fun but it didn’t like Go anywhere

Dancing Queen

What are these vocal samples in the background haha

OH MY GOD ITS ACTUALLY DANCING QUEEN

OKAY SO IT IS a cappella

And these harmonies

Yeah, this is the song. Like if you’re gonna listen to a song on this album, it’s this one

The harmonies in the chorus are genuinely super fun

9/10, this is what I was waiting for

열정 (My Everything)

Cute little synths in the background of the chorus

They cut the instrumental in a couple of songs – what’s the word for that? There’s a word for that

5/10, mid

Boomerang

Bboom Bboom lol

More upbeat r&b, we like it

The bass is doing a lot of work in the chorus

Lol what where did the guitar come from

They really do love their electric guitars in this album

I hope it comes back for the last chorus… I guess not :(

6/10, surprisingly mid considering they released this as a single

The Club (Feat. Rain)

“2006” didn't this come out in 2007? Maybe he recorded it in 2006

Rain with the grunting lol

I quite like the vocals in the first verse here

Is he just gonna grunt the whole song? Are they gonna give him a verse or something?

Here we go, here’s the verse we wanted

Lol this vocalist is so fun

7/10

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Summer favorites 2023!

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Aug 10/ 2023

So it's been 2 months...lol. I have been busy preparing for my first anime convention and I don't know if you want to hear about it, if you don't you can skip this whole intro.

So as this is my first time actually tabling in person I wasn't expecting much, I was able to set up really fast with the help of my best friend who was helping me all weekend.

I did make like a huge stock of things since I don't manufacture anything, I was able to make a good amount even though some things started falling apart a few days before and I had to get rid of them. I was happy that everyone who came to my table was really sweet and kind and I got a lot of encouragement from them saying my things are really cute and really acknowledge the labor and effort I put into all of my handmade things. I was able to make people happy with their purchases and that really made my day. There was this little girl who saw my resin shaker and really wanted it, she looked so happy when her dad bought it for her, it was really cute!

I've had a lot of people ask how long it took for me to learn polymer clay and resin to make these keychains and I said 6 months. lol. they were really shocked cause it would have taken them longer, I guess once you pick up a hobby and learn the ways around it it does not seem that long. You all probably remember my first time making stickers right? I shared a few blog posts about the process and how long it took to get it right.

anyways, overall I didn't get a lot of sales on my resin shakers or clay goods which i had hoped would sell fast considering I made so many. The tings that sold the most were my sticker sheets and single stickers cause I also had a deal on them. without it I don't think I'd get much sales. I was the only person that sold book marks so I'm glad I sold a lot of them. overall I did profit from this convention and seeing as it was my first con and I have seen videos of people saying that sometimes you may not break even, the fact that I did break even on the first day was good enough for me.lol.

now saying all that, there were a few encounters that made it a little weird for me, some people taking pictures when they didn't ask, some people looking and just saying to my face that nothing is popping out at them and walking away...I'm like just go, you don't have to tell me that.lol.

some people shaking my products vigoursly even though I have a huge sign next to them saying that these are handmade please be careful when handling them...I think one of shakers broke because of it. My friend looked really angry when she saw that but we aren't confrontational people, but still I had to tell one of them to be careful with them...and she just left after shaking all of it...I'm like wtf that's all you came to do...?

one person asked if she can bless me....yeah, not weird at all.

anyways, that's all that happened, I have heard people say that they made like 7 G and I'm like how? but I guess its because they were in a good spot, I initially thought being near the front entrance would be a good spot but maybe not cause most people would walk by thier first round and not come back again even though they have expressed being interested in a certain product. Maybe next year If I get in I'll get a better spot.

now onto the actual favorites for the past 2 months!

Sheena

none...just in my actual life lol

Recap:

I’m just going to put up the ongoing list only. I also eliminated some titles because they are now completed or I dropped them for now

Ongoing

Ongoing

Liveta

Kings Maker (S3)

Night fragments (hiatus)

The pizza delivery man and the gold palace

the foul

killer crush

Insatiable man (hiatus)

I became a lousy side top

tread lightly on thawing ice (hiatus)

beware of the full moon in march

Love history caused by willful negligence

Updates on ongoing titles:

Okay so some updates

Pearl boy is finally finished so you will not here me talking about it every week, instead I'm just going to dedicate a blog post on the overall story. there is side stories but I don't think the creator is making them anytime soon. Bet you won't miss my Dooshik rant every month right?...lol.

One night mate:

I stopped reading this cause there was some unnecessary drama and I don't know how to feel about it so it is on hold for now.lol

Liveta:

yes! liveta is back and we get a spicy chapter with van taking care of ian when he had a fever. You can honestly see how much van had changed through the story based on his interactions with ian. Van would used to just do whatever he wanted and even if ian pushed him away he'd still think he's playing hard to get, but now if ian is really scared or is bothered by anything he does...he will back off because he really wants ian to look at him in a positive light. Ian has his reasons for rejecting van because of the incident with his friend burning in the fire and van was there at the scene so automatically he assumed van was the one that killed him. But from the progressing chapters Ian seems to have positive feelings towards van from every encounter and actually might start to like him...ahhh my heart! I love them so much!

yohan and victor are on good terms but that has been always the case, I guess the true drama starts when yohan and jin meet and the ordeal with yohan's brother comes to the surface.

there's so much in this story to unfold that I really missed all of it when the author took a long hiatus due to health complications. I'm so excited to see where the story is heading and at least i have this to look forward to now that everything I've read is completing.

okay this month is really random...I don't want to say these titles are creeping up the list but they definitely are making me feel things and I haven't felt anything after pearl boy was finished.lol. all jokes aside these titles are quite new but is something worth reading if you like a certain topics.

1) I can see your stats

"An estate to manage, a lover to tame.

Following the gruesome death of his family, mage Eyra inherits the Solath Estate and becomes a lord overnight, only to discover that he can suddenly see the stats of everyone he meets. Enter Yanu, a dashing jack-of-all-trades who seems hell-bent on distracting him from his newfound duties..."

I don't know what it is but there has been a surgance on BL fanatasy webtoons as of late, I guess authors are like I'm tired of seeing " I reincarnated as a villaness in so in so world" for the 138th time now that they decided finally to write some BL fantasy instead.lol.

Can I also point out that the two main characters here has an uncanny resemblance to Lavi and Allen from D.grayman. I had a huge D.grayman phase back in the day and the fact that these two look and act like Allen and Lavi is really making my shipping self scream...cause I shipped those two hard back then. The character that looks like allen is named Eyra and he is a reincarnated into the body of a young wizard from a prestigious family, the family was killed by a dragon and when Eyra returned to his estate he was tasked with taking over for his family. since eira knows that he is "isekai -ed" into this world he knew that he will have to complete some missions, he made this blobby companion named jelly as his "system" and is able to access his stats and those around him at any time.

he was going around town to see what the lives of the villagers were like and get familiar with his hometown, he ran into a pub with a bunch of random people that were overly friendly and drank with them, when he was done he went outside and saw a tall man with a harp playing some music...that's Lavi...I mean Yanu...lol.

oh it's a hot bard...

Yanu looked hot in Eyra's description and he was intrigued by him upon sight, but made an embarrasing attempt to walk straight after drinking like theres no tommorow, he caught yanu smiling at him and thought nothing of it and scurried away. the next day he took note that the villagers seem friendly and close knit, not so well off but they seem to get by with what they have, he decided to venture out again, he ran into Yanu once again but Yanu's attitude had shifted into being wary of Eyra. He took noticed of this and just presumed that he was a harp player that was just being rude. He offered Yanu some coins to buy better suitable clothing for the cold and he was pulled into his arms. lmao...I need to calm down.

they proceeded to have cute banter before yanu starts questioning why he has not seen Eyra before and he explains that he came back to town after being away from a while and yanu had been living here for 10 years but was not born in the area. erya decided to try and get information out of him so he offered to buy him a meal, they went to a tavern that sells really good buns and began questioning if yanu liked living here, and what made him want to live here, Yanu said he came here to look for a lover...oooo.

Yanu noticed eyra had the jelly creature on his arm like a tattoo and touched his arm, and jelly was moving away from yanu's hand, this made him conclude that Eyra was a mage. now that they have their identities exposed Erya asked if yanu was a swordsman and yanu does do odd jobs when he's short on money so he is basically a mercenary for hire. Erya proposed that he needed a guide and wanted to hire yanu for it.so they began to tour around the city, but more on a hike up the mountains to get a wide veiw of the town. there erya has seen that complete city of solith, the place he is supposed to protect. when yanu and eyra were headed to their next destination he witnessed Erya getting excited seeing a corpse of a dead monster lol and thought he was interesting. Eyra and Yanu spent the next few days together touring and eating around town and yanu was indeed dedicated to that task. When erya was shown the slums he finally realized that this is what needs to be taken care of, he sees that there is another family there by the name alhera and they are preists...I dont know what thier purpose yet is so...

after witnessing the other side of solith, eyra was a little depressed and sullen, yanu suggested they go get some drinks to cheer him up. as they spend more time together up the mountain eyra realizes the charm that Yanu has and is entirely smitten by him and admits that he is drawn towards him from the moment they met. he touched his forehead and noticed how his lips curl into a smile and the smell of him as he gets closer and leans in to kiss him...AHHHHH,,,

it's not over folks....

seems that Yanu thought eyra wanted his time only to seduce him, but Eyra wanted to truly scope the city out to try and learn more about it, this made them back off a little and Yanu seemed disappointed. Eyra went back to the castle to work on the stats of his other fellow retainers and doing missions to get jelly to level up and unlock new features...y'all know...the grind if you play RPGs.

He is now able to see the Relationship status "Rapport" of his followers and wondered what it would be with Yanu...humm...you thinking about that right now? keep this in mind for later.

Eyra went to go look for yanu after that thought and chased him around different areas but he was too fast and eyra had lost him at some point, then the town began to shake and buildings began to fall and collapse from the random earthquake. some towns people tried to get away and was almost crushed by a pile of rubble but eyra used his magic to save them. some more rubble was going to fall on eyra and yanu came to save him. eyra was about to thank him and noticed ...somethings not right with him...he looked so calm for having natural disasters happening in front of him right now. erya backed away but yanu pull him in an embrace to prevent him from falling, this was when erya commanded his stats screen to appear and what do we have here?.......

Rapport...at a 1

the guy who initiated skinship and shows affection towards eyra making him seem like they have a connection...has basically no feelings for him...huh?

that's real wierd...Eyra thought it was weird, also noticed that something is off about his eyes as well. he then pulls up the dialogue options of what he can say to him and all of it leads to a bad ending...lmao. he notices that yanu can sense something there even thought he couldn't see the status screen. He asked what spell eyra has cast on him? angrily, eyra noticed that the person before him may not be human at all and decided to keep his cool and go with an option he thought was best and that is to say

yes i tried to seduce you back then, you got me. I just wanted you to like me back...and thats all it took for Yanu to calm down and pull eyra into a passionate kiss.

after wards yanu accepts Eyras proposal to be lovers and kisses him goodbye cause he has other things to do for the time being. Eyra notices that the earthquake lasted 20 mins and caused a lot of damage to the town but no casualties. he was about to walk away when a screen pops up and announces that in 234 days...solith will be destroyed!

dun dun dun....lol. I'll leave that here for you to continue if you wish, you can read this series on manta. I really am enjoying it so far I don't read much fantasy BL and there seems to be an influx in that genre recently so I hope I can read some more of them before I get bored. This one in particular has really beautiful art and interesting characters, especially Yanu since he is still very mysterious and obviously not human cause of his extraordinary abilities in combat and endurance, my guess is he's one of those monsters in the story...maybe a dragon, that would explain the rapport being non existant at this point even though he has flirted with eyra relentlessly since the both met, you will see a lot of steamy scenes coming up if you continue to read it, I'll let you sit on that for a while.lol.

2) Half of me

"From 7 AM to 7 PM,

I have to live in someone else’s body for 12 hours…?!

Due to a car accident, Taekin, a teenager in high school, and Heechan have switched souls.

Due to this, Heechan’s vegetable business, to which he’s dedicated his entire life is in trouble!

In order to recover his body, Heechan heads to Taekin’s school…

‘That gym teacher, why is he here…?’

He sees his old classmate, ‘The ultimate nice guy’, working as the school’s gym teacher.

Heechan excitedly tries to ask for help but…

‘Kim Taekin, bend over.’

This… This isn’t it…?!

Will Heechan be able to recover his body through this difficult journey?"

I have been waiting to share this series with all of you a few months back, at the time season 1 just ended and I wasn't sure where the story was going, if you can't tell from the crappy summary I found, it seemed like pedophilia was implicated and I was about to drop it at that point...but nope nothing of the sort as of yet...so that summary is misleading and whom ever wrote that should be punched in the face. This is one of the best stories I have read so far with authentic things to say about life and suicide and overcoming trauma to live the best way you can with what you have. I honestly think this series should be a drama as it really dives into the bullying and the after effects of driving someone to the point of taking their own life. There's no kdrama I know of that has discussed some of these issues and I think it would be a good way to get the message out there, it also has a body swapping mystery that has yet to unfold and i really wish there is novel translations because I'm dying to read what happens next.

I will do my best to summarize everything so bare with me. So the story starts off with a young boy basically describing his last day fom the moment he made the decision to end his life, he felt the weight life off his shoulders, even getting up in the morning and going exiting his room was like going through the gates of hell, omg this first chapter was f*cken heavy so trigger warning to those who have had suicide thoughts or is going through something similar please be wary and remember this is just fiction. the young boy knew from that moment that everything he was ever worried about will end when he decides to go. we have a switch in scenery with a man who was going through several business deals with his work crew, it seems this man is a small business owner looking for vendors to negotiate buying their products, this is kwon heechan out main character, you will know by how he interacts with his colleagues, that is is a no non-sense person and is quite blunt with how he deals with situations, that day for him was supposed to be an ordinary day, after going to meet some vendors the crew ended work later than usual and heechan took the employees home even though he was exhausted himself. he was doing well holding up until a car came out of no where during an intersection and heechan noticed a young boy in the corner before getting into a car crash, to avoid him he swerved out of the way hitting another vehicle and was on his way to lose consciousness but right before he did he made eye contact with the kid who was caught in the intersection.

Then we get a flash back of heechan back in high school ( because the kid that was in the accident was wearing his old high schools uniform) heechan had always been a passive student, all he wanted to do was get his diploma and leave, he was not in a lot of trouble because he wanted to keep a low profile, after his family's divorced he watch his mother spend countless days working long hours to support them both and that made him get his act together.Heechan's uncle saw how much heechan wanted to do something to help out and suggested a summer job helping out at a market, mainly to look out for him so that he does not do anything that could ruin his life. He started working during his first year of high school and had to unload countless boxes of tomatoes from trucks, it was a vigorous task and to a toll on his body he was about to just skip on the work but his uncle came to pick him up everyday, soon after it had been the entire summer break coming to and end and his uncle came to give him his pay, he never said a word about how to spend it, didn't say give it to your mom...he just gave him what he earned, heechan had all sorts of thoughts with the large sum of money but in the end he gave it to his mother and said he wanted to continue working there, it wasn't that he liked the work or the people he worked with he just thought that even someone like him can do something with his life. As he continued working he noticed that a lot of store fronts have left the market each year since it was a highly competitive business, but his uncle stood firmly and unwavering, which was an inspiration to heechan as he took up the mantle and ended up opening his own small business store front years later, with a small loan left to pay off in the end. he looked back on the times before when he was smoking and drinking with others and how he could have ended up like that if his uncle had not dragged him into work every day. after he found reasonable financial stability his mother got remarried and things were looking up for him...until the accident.

heechan woke up hearing a familiar voice next to him, when he got his consciousness back it was his employee that was in the room with him, he was asking what happened to the crazy kid who dove into oncoming traffic like that, and jin young (employee) looked at him like he's crazy, cause in fact...he is the crazy kid.

you guessed it, heechan was in the body of the kid who was in the car accident...except his actual body is laying in another hospital bed still uncoincious, so it's not a body swap really. Heechan made remarks about how he knows things about them to convince them that even with this teenagers body he is in fact thier boss...lol. it was funny cause he started listing things only they would know. They were ,like got get the mirror...and heechan was like who the f*ck is this? lmao. the two employees were skeptical but decided to trust heechan, the only way to leave is to pretend like there is a psych injury as the doctor proposed and the student (kim taekin) was released. The three of them went to heechan's apartment to discuss the matter, the employees think that heechan went into taekin's body as a souls swap but he didn't know where taekin is nor did he really care because he does not know him, the hospital called and said they found the student's belongings, they went back to the hospital to look for clues and found that he had the bare minimum with just notebooks, ID and pens. They found his phone and after unlocking it they discovered that his mother was his only named contact, all other numbers have no identity. they checked everything in his phone and found that he has no images, 3 contacts and no text messages from anyone. heechan noticed something is off and checked his address and found out that taekin was his downstairs neighbor. He wondered if taekin was a stalker and is that why he went and jump in front of him that night, even looking like this he still wanted to get to work cause business is going to go down if he does not run it.

just then heechan felt faint and woke up in his own body as soon as the clock strikes 7 pm. heechan immediately got up and was discharged to take care of other things..i.e. car being repaired and work stuff, so technically he had been asleep for 7 hours but mental awake for 24 hrs due to being also in taekin's body. just as heechan was going to brush the incident off as a freak accident he felt faint again and his sould drifted back into taekin's body. when he woke up, taekin's mother was beside his bedside, she had not known until now that taekin was in a accident since she was busy with work, 7 am in the morning and he's back in taekin's body. so from 7 am to 7 pm he will be in taekin's body and from 7 pm to 7am he will be in his own body, they noticed that this is something really out worldly so they went to go see shamans to try and resolve the issue. ji young knew a shaman he was related to so he took heechan there to seek out some advice. She made some cryptic descriptions about heechan being a tiger and when heechan asked where taekin might be she said that he's hiding behind you and turned himself away from the world, meaning he's rejecting the thought of waking...essentially in deep sleep...that is real Kingdom hearts stuff going on.lol.

the shaman told heechan that his spirit is strong and that he was the one who went into taekin's body when they made eye contact during the accident, and because taekin wanted to end his life leaving his body and and entering heechan's made it comfortable for him. she said that if heechan wants to go back to his body heechan would have to find a way to wake him up. she decided to ask him to close his eyes and over his ears to show him what she means, heechan did so and felt uncomfortable all of a sudden and heard gasping noises within his mind...suddenly something in him is telling him to open his eyes now and there he found the shaman holding a knife close to his throat..lol wow lady you are extreme.

" you felt something strange did you not? there are things that we know even if we can't see or hear them" so in other words taekin felt heechan's desperation to get out and allowed him to leave at that point unconsciously without knowing what it is. so in order to fully recover his body he will have to find the route of the problem that drove taekin to committing suicide and resolve that issue. she told heechan that taekin is a good boy and him not pushing heechan away was his way of asking for help because he might not have had anyone to turn to.

can you physically see the tears in my eyes as I'm writing now...?

I really like how this scene is portrayed and it really sets up the idea that heechan would have to live in his body and get to feel what he was feeling in order to understand him, Have you all heard the phrase " you can never understand me? " it is true in a sense that you can only empathize with things going on with a person but if you don't experience the exact same things they do you will never understand what they have gone through. That is why when people say that they understand how you are feeling, they only know conceptually how you might feel but never know personally the things you go through.

heechan didn't want to believe everything being said to him, but there are things she said that hit close to home and that made him feel melancholic as he thought of the possible ways that they have in common, one of which is their mothers are single parents raising a kid by themselves working long shifts until their hands and feet were visibly sore. that's when heechan knew that there was a connection with how similar taekin had been living was close to how he was when he was in high school. As heechan didn't really know much about taekin he didn't really know how to help him and suddenly remembered that taekin had messages on his whatsapp...shout out.lol. and decided to check them.

as he opened them the three were shocked at the Ludacris messages that this boy had received, stuff like...what aren't you dead? didn't you kill yourself? you cant even die right, what a loser... clearly some dramatic bullying going on, heechan was sort of use to the fact that this stuff does go on in high school and thought nothing of it until a particular message caught his eye

" don't come to the bathroom, do I have to tell everyone your secret?"

heechan thought this might be it, this person who had found out something they shouldn't and sent taekin over the edge. So the time has come to find that out as heechan went to high school again while being in his 30's ...literally my worst nightmare so i can sympathize.

the whole point of this operation is not to solve taekins problem as heechan but to get taekin to react to something so that he can solve that on his own. he noticed the student affairs teacher outside disciplining the students for being tardy and recognized him right away, he took a look at his documents and told him to see his home room teacher in the office. hechan noticed the kids on the floor gossiping at how taekin looked fine even though he tried to die....ugh I hate kids.

taekin's mother had been taking him to see neuro-specialists and psych doctors in order to recover his memory from the accident. the homeroom teacher was informed as well and at first it seemed like she was trying to help and is kind to him, but in reality she was just scared of a person with psychological problems causing trouble for the school...teachers are sh*t I see...

heechan was starting to understand that maybe this was the reason teakin had no one to turn to is because there was no one he could have trust in this school. He was about to leave for class when suddenly he felt his heart beat speed up and felt faint, breaking out into cold sweat....I wonder why? that was only because a certain teacher walked passed him...oh boy

heechan just thought it was cardiac arrest lol. omg you silly boy. if you couldn't guess yes taekin has a crush on the mysterious teacher that we are only shown the backside of ...but you can tell that he's hot right? as heechan went to class he was dreading the fact that he has to try and make nice with a bunch of teenagers ...lmao word, I have never felt so much of a connection to that statement, cause i to had to make friends with 20 year olds in my vet tech class and I am in my 30s so literally didn't happen. anyways, taekin noticed that the class room was silent as he walked in and knew that whoever was sending him those messages was amongst this crowd.

he asked a person next to an empty desk if that was his seat and the kid ignored him and started typing on their phones, so all the group messages were people in the class talking about taekin, they were all trying to ostracize him and heechan of course like every 30 year old thinks it's immature but the fact that they don't openly bully him means that there are ring leaders setting up this ordeal and everyone in the class is afraid of them.

heechan just does what he does best ignore and sleep, he was tired from actively being awake for 24 hrs on a daily anyways so it was all he wanted to do right now, he was listening in and found one person who had a lot of authority which made him one of the ringleaders...so there's 1

and number 2 and 3 may have been the ones throwing erasers at him, of course distrupting kwon heechans nap time mean you eat his fits so as much as he wanted to smack the living sh*t out of these kids Taekin's body didn't have the strength to. He noticed that taekin was trembling as the others threw things at his back and that made heechan a little annoyed that he just had to act passive in that situation, heechan made a point about if he can't handle this minor situation then he will never be able handle situations being a working adult, I think personally heechan handled it the best way he could by just ignoring and eventually they got bored because they could not get a reaction out of him and moved on.

I would like to point out that it's not that heechan is apathetic, it's just that he had to grow up really quickly and didn't have time for people's bullshit, which to someone like taekin and even ji young who had to endure being bullied, it's hard to stand up for yourself in that moment. heechan is an adult now and has forgotten that minor problems from and adults point of view are major problems to a growing teenager, it's not that a point of right or wrong it's just a different view point depending on the person. In order for heechan to be able to reach taekin, heechan would need to learn to be compassionate towards him. Taekin's mother is worried about him and asked the next day if he wanted to stay home, indicating that she might know whats going on with him at school and wanted to be of help, heechan didn't want the mom to worry so he said he would go, even knowing that there might not be someone to open his heart he was determined to change taekin's perspective so he can survive independantly. But I think heechan is missing the point that taekin's mother is there for her son and if he told her everything thats going on she would be able to help him, he's looking for someone to get taekin to wake up but I think his mother may be the key to do that, it' s just my opinion.

at school heechan was able to manage going about the day as a regular high school kid, he seems to have a connection with the student affairs teacher in the earlier chapters and it really feels like the miscreant kid talking back to his favorite teacher, it really gave taekin some personality since we don't know what this kid was like before. His punishment every morning for being late or being disruptive was to do "push ups" I use that term lightly because they just say down on all fours and they just stay like that for 20 mins. so I'm just going to use "push ups"

as the term. heechan could not lift a soon after that to eat, but he was determined to put so much food in the kids body so his body wont be so small.LMAO the effort you put in is like no other heechan!

after he got back from puking the extra food out of his system, it was time for gym glass...now this is the point where every person in the class made a comment about how he must be excited that it's gym , and that he's a little pervert...which insinuates that something might have happened in gym class that contributed to taekin wanting to commit suicide. He was trying to figure out which locker was his and deduced that the one with the biggest lock was it courtesy of his so called classmates for locking it up. heechan noticed the messages from his bully again and actually responded with " who are you?"

the bully was like " who said you can talk back retard..."

in which heechan replies " retards the name I call your mom what's yours? "

Lmao...and the bully was non other than the class prez, and he really wanted to throw a swing at heechan after hearing that. luckily before a fight could break out they just left. Heechan noticed how the lock was super big, but it was nothing that he couldn't pick and so he found something to teach taekin when he wakes up. its kind of cute how heechan through out this was like after taekin wakes up I'll take him to the gym, or like I'll teach him all these things like an older brother figure even though he hated the situation at this point. As he approaches the track area outside the gym teacher was checking attendance and heechan noticed that his heart rate was speeding up again and he was breaking out into cold sweat like the earlier chapter in the office...can you guess why?

he took a look at the mysterious figure and found the hot gym teacher was non other than his old class mate in which he only knew his nick name as " the dog buddha" the peanut gallery was making comments like eww...look at that perv, he's already drooling...which makes me think the gym teacher has something to do with this whole situation. Heechan then gets a flash back as to how he knew of the dog buddha despite him trying to live a passive lifestyle and he was a loner through out high school.

heechan always took naps in class so there was only one person that made an impression on him that was memorable. from what he remembered woo minjae (hot teacher) always had a smile on his face and that they only made eye contact that one time...oooo really? you can tell by the way those panels were drawn that they had something going on, whatever it was at the time...it was cute that they both turned away as soon as their eyes met. But the point is that the school had a bunch rich kids from the neighborhood attending that school and that minjae was from one of those wealthy families, they didn't have to bully others to flex their wealth and power, instead these boys spend their time bar hoping and driving fancy cars to insinuate power. It was that time when the class prez had beef with the group minjae was a part of and wanted to start something. everyone was expecting minjae to fight him but instead he gave him a few words that seemed like a threat and smiled like ti was no big deal. the prez's name was gae-sounds like dog in korean and so he got the nickname "dog buddha " from that situation. I dont really get what happened I think minjae threatened that he would get better scores and prez would have to step down or something...and he did. Now knowing that his old classmate is now the gym teacher of this school he might be able to recruit his help in figuring out what happened to taekin.

Heechan noticed that he was not the same person as he was in high school, he looked like a dead pan-cynical person and wondered what could of happened to him all these years. I think my favorite part was heechan explaining to his employees that taekin might have a heart condition that they don't know about cause of what happened with minjae earlier. lol. his employee are like are you for real? you've never had the hots for someone before ? LMAO and he has not cause very girl that hits on him thinking he's fine as hell, the thought goes over his head and he does not get it. its so funny cause he's always drawn with sparkles beside him to indicate that he is a handsome dude to whomever sees him, but he's like...not interested! I only want my buisness to got well. I love heechan, he so precious

so now that we have established the fact that taekin may have a crush on minjae, would that be a reason for his suicide though? it might have ha something to do with it but not entirely, so everyone thought it was best to contact minjae and ask him for his assistance to look after taekin.

I'm skipping the part about his gay friend cause i don't know how relevant he is at this point.lol.

the next day heechan was asleep on his desk and over heard the class prez and his possy talk about going to a club tonight and to keep that a secret. this was the perfect time to get those students expelled, minjae walked into class as soon as everyone left and warned taekin to leave cause he can't clock out until every student evacuates. this was when heechan decided to test him, if minjae was a good teacher and doing what teachers are supposed to do, he wont ignore the underage hooligans going to bars. so heechan did his best to look at minjae and told him what he over heard...except he forgot the name of the club.lol.

he thought it might be bad after all cause he used to be those people partying all night at bars so why would he expose them? heechan decided that maybe he should go instead and do it himself and that is the end of season 1, we just get heechan and jiyuong heading to the designated club the possy was meeting at. I will stop here but if you want to continue the series is licensed on lezhin.

I love this story sorry for how long it got but I wanted to be thorough enough since I really think its a good story and I really want it to get more attention, if you have read Pay back or know of that series...it is written by the same person, but this to me is way better. I'm enjoying reading season 2 so far and i love the banter between heechan and minjae.

a.k.a the part of the series where I shit on your favorite manhwa/manga/webtoon etc. Joking but not really, you have been warned.

This is the new section where you’re going to find titles that I dropped and the reasons why I discontinued the series all together, fair warning if you triggered by people criticizing your favorite series then you may want to skip this section all together. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and not every series that is “popular” or well liked by others will be like by all...therefore if there is content that makes a person uncomfortable enough to stop the series, that is on them and please don’t judge them for their morals.

to those who consider quitting series, if it bothers you then just stop! no one is forcing this down your throat you can quit whenever, but don't harass the creator on social media if you dislike their story it's disrespectful. Again, I say these are trash but they are for a certain demographic/target audience...I'm just not one of those people.

Trash List:

So to recap, the series that I mentioned dropping so far are

Love or Hate

Yours to claim

Wistful summer

Anti-p.t.

The sound of fire

Kiss damnation

Cherry blossoms after the winter

Chasing Mr. CEO

Who’s a sweet cheater?

Another sequence

Love is a fantasy

Missing love/married man

My reason to die

I'm back to trash titles again lol. I'm glad I got that out of my system last favorites post.

The flower blooming in my hand:

okay another one of these idol-sponsor crap stories and it is as you may have guessed trashy and full of people making bad decisions, the main character is a rich dude who happens to see his cousin getting a BJ from this other guy while he was going to see him in his office and reconizes the guy as someone he came across once at church or something. the cousin explains that he is the guy's sponsor in exchange for favors he will give his idol group promotions, the main guy was like well since he's your toy, guess you don't mind sharing...and started to make offers for an acting job for the guy. as you can guess he was cold and wanted sexual favors at first but then they started to catch feelings for each other...but of course the cousin is a little c*nt and does what ever to separate them and blackmails the guy into coming back to being his sexual slave..and that's where I stopped cause If I have read anymore of this garbage I might start having a stroke.

I don't know about other people but the whole sponsorship trope is old and reused so many times that it has zero effect on me, like I just do not feel sorry for someone who chooses to be engaged with a person that abuses them, I'm like you should know when someone is not right when you meet them and that's when you tell them to f*ck off and leave you alone.

it's just one bad decision after another and I'm sick of reading crap like this, it's just bad writing at this point.

Saranghetang:

by the way don't let the cover fool you cause that's not the person he ends up with...at least from what I've read before i dropped it...disappointing.

the main guy is a webtoon author who is really tardy and does not want to change his life style even if his sex partner really wants to be official with him, nothing is wrong with the characters, they are tropey but the problem I have is that the direction the story I though was going was he met this new guy at the convenience store and they started to get to know each other and he cooks him proper meals and shows him how to take care of himself....and then he's like...oh I want to get back with my old boyfriend....I'm like WTF...why??? ex boyfriend (sex partner) broke it off with you cause he cant date you until you get your act together, then you meet this other guy who you seem to have feelings for, takes care of you and all you do is try to get back with your old sex partner...I'm like omg....what are game is this author playing? your story is so deceiving. I'm also disappointed in the sex partner cause this dude has no boundaries, he's like give me space and then next chapter is like oh your here lets have sex...wtf...am I even reading?

so I called it quits cause I don't like where its going, i'm so annoyed with the guy I can't do this anymore....lol.

these titles....TRASH.

also down the same rabbit hole there are certain types of stories for certain people and I understand that but it's not like what the author writes is original in anyway so it makes it less enjoyable in my opinion. some authors took a long break and you forget that story existed until they come back and give you the same crap, I'm like why do continue reading this? it's not new from the time you stopped reading...the angry boy with a bad past is such a dumb trope, it needs to stop cause it's getting tiring reading the same type of character over and over...sorry just a rant from recent things that are resurfacing...you can feel the eye rolling through the screen I'm sure.

ruroni kenshin! can't believe they remade this series, I mean it was really old to begin with but I haven't seen it for so long.

none again, thinking of dropping this section .lol.

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Ending note:

hello glad you made it through the storm, I hope you enjoyed reading what you have been missing for 2 months and I hope that you will read some of the suggested titles.

I will be tabling at a local market this week and maybe another one in September, I really want to get into as much as possible before market season is over until Christmas time.

so wish me luck with in person sales!

I also have a website to which you can buy my handmade accessories and art prints

shinahartshop

please adopt some stuff I made! I will be eternally grateful.

I will be back for the next favorites and hopefully it wont be two months late.lol.

thanks,

Sheena

[acebean]

thank you for taking the time to give me such a thorough answer, i really appreciate that. I'll probably just skip over black flag for now and then come back to it once ive got the money for it then (i play on ps4, i cant stand the pc controls and also my laptop cannot run the ac games lol, i tried ac1 since thats the only one not on ps4 and it was super laggy despite being such an old game and again, i hate the pc controls very much)

i too am a slut for egyptian and greek mythology (i know a bit about norse too but not a ton), and i've played a fair bit of origins, though haven't finished it bc its long af, i remember having 0 interest in Layla at all even though I did look at her laptop and read some of the emails and stuff, I didn't really understand what was going on with her (I thought she still worked for Abstergo and was in the process of going rogue? Again though I haven't finished it yet so), and I thought the thing with her not needing to be related to Aya and Bayek was lame, I feel like needing to share DNA with whichever assassin whose memories you're seeing is kinda the point?

I'm pretty iffy about the god/magic stuff too, like I'm interested in and will be playing Odyssey once I eventually finish Origins, since I bought them both in a double pack during the boxing day sale or whatever it was last year, but from what I've seen about Odyssey and Valahlla, alot of it seems waaaay to fantastical for a series that used to be (relatively) grounded in reality. (I've found myself not too bothered by spoilers for this series, which is unusual for me, but I've been reading fic and watching youtube videos doing story breakdowns and stuff since I was like halfway through AC2, and I'm still enjoying it alot despite knowing the gist of what happens to Desmond and how Ezio finds Altair and stuff) (Im getting off track lol I do that alot)

As for the Kassandra/Alexios thing, that's basically what happened yeah, it was 100% sexism, they did a pretty similar thing with Evie in Syndicate. IIRC the game was originally supposed to be just Evie, but the Ubisoft higher ups didn't want a female protangonist/didn't think one would sell as well, so they 'compromised' by adding Jacob, and then heavily focusing all the marketing on him. As much as I love Jacob (which is alot) that was originally supposed to be Evies story.

The staff thing sounds kinda...dumb? Though I guess that explains why I heard Kassandra shows up in Valhalla? (I am way too into this fandom for someone who hasn't even finished the Ezio trilogy yet lol, though hopefully I'll finish that either tonight or tomorrow, I'm starting Sequence 7 of Revelations as I'm writing this)

Everything I've heard about Valhalla makes it seem like it's really not for me, from the story to how heavily they went on the rpg mechanics to how goddamn long it is, so unless I find it cheap on marketplace on a time I can spare the cash, I'm pretty unlikely to play that one tbh, though Mirage might go on my christmas list if reception for it is good and they stick with releasing it on both ps4 and ps5 (fucking spiderman 2 crushing my heart like that wtf)

the tree thing sounds like it might be an interpretation of the world tree from norse myth? idk though, most of my norse knowledge comes from just general pop culture or the Magnus Chase series, but if that tree is somehow Desmond I will fucking scream

ANYWAY thank you so much for the reply lol, I'll probably do Rogue after AC3 then and Unity after that :)

does it matter what order you play the ac game in after ac3? Ive heard the modern day story kinda dies after that and from what i remember of playing syndicate that definitely seems to be true since iirc that was just some cutscenes between sequences plus the showdown cutscene at the end, so does it matter what one i play after ac3 or should it definitely be black flag?

[arcane-ish]

Vi changing, revisited

Actually I think I kind of take back what I said about Vi not changing in prison. 

I think it can be read in a different way. 

The main thing is that she didn’t change in a way that we expect people to change in prison. 

I think normally if somebody that young goes to prison that long under such bad circumstances (beatings, solitary, separated from her family, having just lost her family, no mental health support), we would expect: 

- They come back rougher and hardened and cynical from the rough prison life they had to endure (”I did what I had to do to survive”)

- They come back a complete mess due to all the trauma and mistreatment

- They found comfort in a really obvious ie come out super religious

But maybe the thing about Vi is that she came out of prison even gentler than she went in? 

Now Vi before she goes into prison was by no means a bad person. We see her lose her temper in the Enemy video, we see her be short with Mylo, we see her be angry at the enfocers. But of course we also see that she is somebody who is willing to listen when Vander gives her a proper heart to heart and of course we also see her be affectionate with Powder and try to properly juggle her leadership role. 

At the end of Act 1, she lashes out at Powder, runs off, regrets it quickly but is then prevented from outside circumstances from reuniting with Powder and talking things through. 

When she finally voices her feelings to Powder she says: 

I'm sorry, Powder. I never meant to leave you.

and 

I spent so many nights in that shitty prison. On the freezing floor, hungry, bloody, counting the hours. The only thing... The only thing that kept me going was the thought of getting back to you.

So she gets ripped out of her life at her greatest moment of regret and she spends years (6-7 years according to the writers!) stewing in her regret. IMO it makes sense that those conditions would cause her to single mindedly focus on Powder and reuniting with her and desperately wanting to do better/wanting to make up for things. 

And while it wasn’t the prison that caused her state of regret, it sort of caged it in. I still think that if Vi hadn’t been taken and instead had to take care of Powder and fend on her own, the reality might not have been easy, to have to deal with the exent of Powder’s trauma (this time without help from Vander), but also be faced more directly with the loss they experienced. 

IMO it makes sense that if prison did not create the idea that all those deaths did not matter, she still loves Powder, it most likely helped cement that conviction (a conviction that might get challenged as she sees that Powder killed a lot of people since then). 

(I still maintain that this doesn’t really fit with Jinx’s complaints against her, after all, why would Jinx have a problem with Vi being more gentle and more dedicated to her than she was already) 

Sidenote: thinking about Vi, stuck in her cell, stewing in her regret made me wonder about a different topic, to what extent Vi had the chance to really grieve for Vander. 

Any chance that anybody would tackle that as a Vi/Cait thing? Vi opening up to Cait about who Vander was/Cait asking in a quieter moment what exactly happened between her and Jinx/what some of Jinx’s ramblings meant at the “dinner” (”He took everything from us. Right here, he stabbed Vander in the back.”) 

Or where Cait’s cop mind quietly kicks into gear (imo her way of thinking is like super on display in the Council Archive thing) (also in my mind Cait’s mom would have to be okay for that to fit the characterization) and she starts questioning Vi about the dinner scene, about what the various other “people” there meant because the cop mind wants to catalogue it and understand the motives and mind of the criminal she is dealing with. (and maybe in the middle of it a worn down Vi goes “wtf? are you interogating me?” and Cait is like “what no? wait, actually, probably yes”). 

[hogwartzlou]

ST. LOUIS RECAP (DONNY JERSEY) -AKA THE MOST AMAZING NIGHT EVER

Honestly this is just for me, Literally nobody asked for this so if you don’t want to read it that’s fine! but I need to write this down for my own sake bc Louis actually fucking talked to me during a concert and I need to remember it.

When it was happening I was genuinely like so calm (looking back it was 1000% just me being completely shocked at that moment)

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Some people have asked where I got it, I’ve had the Donny jersey for 7 years now, only worn it like once. I brought it to my OTRA show, but other than that it’s been just in my closet.

I was hoping to be close to the stage for this show so I figured might as well try to get his attention because as we know he loves Doncaster.

I didn’t want to be like super obnoxious holding it up the whole time so I waited for when he wasn’t singing and wasn’t like gushing about how much he loves us.

The moment he noticed it I was just like “OMFG IT WORKED” and then he said to pass it up and at the time I swear the people around me were more excited because my mind was just not caught up yet.

I literally spent the next song just in complete awe like my brain was just like not processing, like I had hoped he would sign it but the fact that it actually happened the way it did!?!?! DEAD

I literally spent the rest of the concert just like checking to see if I could see it on the stage with the other things people had thrown, but I think it was like immediately taken by security or Louis’ team bc they left before the encore and I was talking to the people around me and was like “He better be bringing my jersey back out”

I didn’t get it back til after the show. Louis left the stage and I was chatting with the people around me about it and then a group of people right by the barricade/stage door and were like “who had the jersey” and I was like “ME” and got my ass over there.

Some security guy was like “wait here” he came back like a minute later tops with the jersey and said “is this really yours?” And I was like “yes it is I promise it’s mine” and then”how excited are you?” I just said “I’m so excited omg” and then he gave it to me.

Ppl immediately started asking about it and like asked if they could touch it. And as I was walking out some people would notice the jersey and asked if he had signed it.

Honestly it didn’t hit me how big it was until I got back home and literally watched like the one video of it I could find.

And here are my thoughts about it now a couple days later and watching the video again and again

“She’s got a Donny shirt!” -AKA The literal moment I went into shock! HE SAW IT!

“Now I’m not being funny, but it’s been a while since I’ve seen a Donny shirt.” -Honestly idek, like he was still talking to me??? WHAT?!? Also just so happy that I did something kinda like outta the box?? (If you see more Donny jerseys pop up on tour you know why)

“So I’d rate that, I rate that” WTF I mean I know it means he loved it, but also like what????? AHHH

“…Pass it up this way, I’ll sign it” THE LITERAL MOMENT I DIED. ALSO THE WAY HE STARTED TO WALK AWAY THEN CAME BACK?!?!?! Just like so casually?!?!?! Like he hadn’t just like made my dream come true?!!?!

“I’ll do it at some point. I’ve got a show to do” I didn’t even know he said this bc as I have said a million times already I was just so shocked.

I got the shirt literally like 2 minutes after he got off stage so like it was like the FIRST THING he did which is just OMFG DEAD ALL OVER AGAIN

I genuinely can’t believe this happened still, I am just so over the moon about it and I just can’t even.

[louis-in-red]

Top ten AFHF moments, Steph go!!!! ❤️

Hi Sea! As the rest of the Louies, I’m still processing the whole thing. I woke up feeling so proud of this person I may never meet, but somehow feels like a friend from my childhood who I am watching grow up into this amazing performer and singer.

Here are my top ten moments (to be honest the whole thing is my favourite thing in the world right now)

1. His voice at the beginning: hearing his talking voice after so long, was so important. This year was hard, almost zero content, no interviews… so just hearing him speak (…I understood how important people are) was healing. I could honestly spend hours listening him talk 🖤

2. Him interacting with the crowd with the Spanish fans at the Madrid show 🔥 he looked so in his element and so proud (I felt like a fucking God). Kudos to the fan who said Louis is the puto amo 💙

Credits to louisgalaxy for the gif

3. His little dance with Charlie when he arrives to film the Live From London Livestream 😭 I really like his relationship with Charlie and how Louis is always so silly with him. Plus, we get so see how Charlie is directing the whole thing which is HOT! Louis talking about how cool the livestreams are and a great opportunity for fans to see him for the first time… such a good soul that man 😔

Credits to Sanju for the gif 💙

4. His little feet when he is jamming with his guitar 🥲 also him talking about the lack of inspiration and how difficult this time has been not just for him but for everyone else… it felt so human

5. His excitement when speaking on the phone to Matt (I’m guessing it’s him) about the free concert. He said he wanted to be the first to doing one and being ahead of everyone else… 😫 plus he was so flirty, playing with his hair… 😮‍💨. I’m adding here as a fave bonus part, Louis being so involved in the whole process, choosing the venue, checking how the stage was going to be, also him being concern of respecting the distance with fans due to restrictions (the way he says Corona… 😳🤤)

Credits to Sanju for the gif 💙

6. His relationship with Helene, from seeing how they rehearsed together, to knowing they have been working this whole last year through video calls (when the media and “his close friend from the band” said he was just drinking beer and probably chilling)… to know he was working during all this time into improving his voice because he is a perfectionist… I LOVE HIMMSO MUCH!! ALSO! Louis just LISTENS, doesn’t he? Like you can see how he listens to Helene. She could probably give harsh feedback sometimes and he would take it in the most positive way, because he knows Helene only just wants the best for him and her feedback will only be constructive. Her being a huge important part of his life, not just as vocal coach but as part of his support system makes me so emotional 😩 Louis my god! I’m watching again those clips and I’m crying again 😭 (PS: who is John??? wtf 😩 that name has been mentioned way too many times now and I’m clowning)

7. His confidence through the whole show but specially in We Made It??? Like he went out there to WIN!! He gave his all from the beginning to the end. I have to say I’m wasn’t a fan of 7 (😳) because I didn’t really listened to a cleaned version (only the ones from Madrid)… but NOW??? I’m a FAN! The band was so SICK and so INTO IT! It was hot to watch! They really killed it and it was one of my favourite moments from the concert 🤤 kudos to Charlie for capturing Louis’ beautiful eyes during DLIBYH.

8. The fans and how they reacted to everything Louis did or say! Him saying it’s fucking unbelievable and that it’s only posible for the fans 😪😪😪 what the fuck I was worried about? 🥲 and the fans during CHANGE… I don’t think they were expecting that quality of a song and you could tell in their faces that he exceeded their expectations (kudos once again to Charlie for beautifully capture the relationship between Louis and the fans). It was cute that Louis said the song it’s name CHANGE and not CHANGES 🙂

Credits to setsfiretohistory for the gif

9. The band!!!! My GOD THEY ROCKED!!! They were so into it, they jammed through the whole thing and you could tell they really enjoyed it and that they love playing for Louis!! Steve was so 🔥🔥🔥 the drums were on FIRE!!! Michale and Isaac being a cute guitar duo during OTB and Matt being beautiful and cute during 7 just jamming and rocking 😫 Zak on the keyboards doing his little head movements 🥰 I don’t know what else to say I just love them and I love that Louis has them as a band. Kudos to the string ladies who sounded amazing and were so cool (drinking the encore shots)!!! I hope they go to tour with Louis 🥺

Credits to Sanju for the gif 💙

10. The after show moments: From the group hug (that shot did some magic as well), to his family and his best friends being there, from Helene being the most proud (crying because Louis sounded amazing) to Louis talking about how he can get lost in his head sometimes but it was different during the festival and that he trusted Helene saying he smashed it… I think he truly felt it! He knew he gave his all and since it’s been a year and a half since he had that feeling… maybe he was afraid he wasn’t going to be that good but now he knows he was the best he has ever been and he feels more confidente than ever. I can’t wait for next year when will get the tour (please let him tour 😭) and probably (hopefully) we’ll get more bts footage since Charlie will be there with him for some dates (I hope).

Credits to Manu for this gif 💙

Well… this was an emotional rollercoaster. I laughed, I cried, I was horny, I was sad, I was happy, I was proud… It was everything 😌😮‍💨 I’ll watch it again later 💙

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what do you think are gg's biggest flaws?

Ooh, Anon! It’s like you’re in my head. 

I’m busy making a video (that will probably never see the light of day) about this --  my distance from the show has really helped with some super objective clarity -- so I’ll use my notes from that to help me answer. 

I’ll preface this by saying what I was most shocked by after putting down all the points was that Rio isn’t even mentioned until really far down??

Anyway, let's get into it.

These are Good Girls' greatest flaws in my opinion (and relative to season 1 -- while I think it had its flaws too, the list is far smaller and I think that's a separate post)

1. It didn't stick to its guns

What set this show apart from others in the 'Everyday person does crime (poorly)' genre was its comedic lightness, strong friendship element, relatability and emphasis on girl power.

a) By season 2, the lightness was already slowly disappearing to make way for season 3's darkness. (Quite literally; this show said sunlight scenes for WHO.) It also stopped being as fun. Remember how it genuinely used to be fun? I mean let's not forget The Best Scene Ever where Ruby shoots Big Mike by accident and we all laughed our asses off. (Compare and contrast to a similar-in-tone-and-context scene -- or even the whole episode -- like Boomer popping up behind them as Rio's package in season 3.) I think season 3 had some great lines and laughs, but in general, the fun element was completely missing for me.

b) As was the friendship. We already know Annie and Ruby basically became Beth's backup dancers in season 2, but at least then they still seemed to have some type of agency. In season 3, they rarely question Beth's (truly questionable) decisions, don't talk to her about shit like why she's still with her horrible husband and have very few true friendship moments as they did in season 1.

c) Which made it less relatable, but what also contributed was the major plot holes (it's less easy to relate when you're constantly having to remind yourself to suspend your disbelief). And, to be honest, their stupid actions. Just the most common-sense things weren't followed, like not taking your children to a crack den or not putting a hit out on a gang leader. It's frustrating watching a TV show -- where characters are supposed to learn things, have arcs and improve over time -- and feeling like you have more logical sense than all the main characters in every scene. (WHO would think a hitman was going to use a sniper rifle on people in broad daylight on the side of the road???)

d) You don't have to look any further than the title or the stans who shout "THE SHOW IS ABOUT THE GIRLS" -- or, hell, the first 10 seconds of the show where Sara is literally talking about the glass ceiling -- to know that the main characters being women is very important to the show. If not formally feminist, it was at least supposed to be empowering or feel like "girl power" (a term I hate, but we won't get into that now).

And I think it did it pretty well in season 1 -- it actually played on my favourite theme of the show, which is the world's perception of these women being what ultimately allows them to get away with so much. (Rife with opportunities for commentary about white privilege, but also a genius way to upend patriarchal beliefs.) But more and more it seemed like the show was asking you to accept empowerment as simply "these things are being done by women, yay".

And, well.

2. Its marketing

I'll keep this one short because I think we all know how messed up this situation is. Basically they're selling a show (every week!) that they're not making while ignoring all feedback on every social media platform. Which brings us to...

3. The marriage of Death

If I've said it once, I've said it a thousand times -- Beth's character development starts with getting rid of Dean. Her growth is stunted by him on multiple fronts and it's frustrating to viewers since she's constantly put forth as the main character. Not to mention how the audience, separately from Beth, was originally conditioned to see Dean as the scum of the earth (think of scenes like him crashing his car because he was perving on a woman jogging) so keeping them together is really... a choice. To actively root for this marriage (which seems like what the show wants, at least for the protracted moment) means either thinking Dean is a great person (which, as I said, we've only seen the opposite of) or believing he's all Beth deserves. Which leads me to...

4. Beth's (socio)path(y)

Is sociopath a 'good' word? Probably not. Have I seen dozens upon dozens of posts talking about whether Beth is one? Yes. And I see it from a huge variety of people -- from viewers who just binged the show last weekend to those who've been watching for years, the question keeps coming up. And I entirely blame the writing of the show that, by the way, I don't believe is deliberately creating Beth to get this reaction. I think she's written (and, to an extent, acted) in a way that is much too aloof and I'm not convinced it's meant to come off as cold and unfeeling as it does. Everything else leads me to believe that the audience is supposed to root for Beth, but it's just so difficult.

Beth does a lot of messed up shit that requires dialogue to sympathise with her and the inner workings of her mind, but in the later seasons Beth rarely gets to express herself verbally. And every time she does get to speak about her emotions, the dialogue is a pick-your-own-adventure between "She's in so much denial", "This person feels no emotions" and "I'll go find an analysis/fic later to explain this" (scenes like "Nothing" or "I was just bored"). Compare and contrast with some of the great scenes in season 1 where she emotes, like her paralysing shock after they first rob the store or admitting she enjoys crime, or (one of my favourites!) the one in the park where she's mimicking the other mothers beside her.

5. Brio

I said in the beginning that I was shocked Rio doesn't get mentioned until this point and that's because I've always felt like he was an integral part of the show. When people say the show is about the girls, they're truncating -- the show is about the girls getting into crime. That crime is represented by Rio over and over again -- they never bring in another criminal at his level (which is another one of its flaws, but that's also a different post); Rio is it.

And though I stand by Rio's importance, the truth is that Brio isn't as essential to the show, by which I mean that if all of the above were done well, it wouldn't be as sorely missed. In lieu of riveting plot, a fun friendship, character development and empowerment, most viewers have glommed onto Brio like a lifeboat (or ship, heh).

Unfortunately it's also what the show has most stubbornly refused to develop significantly.

It's honestly a toss-up for why I feel Brio is a flaw: is the flaw that they got together? That they never got together well enough? That the writing keeps bringing in these 'chemistry-filled' scenes that are ultimately filled with air?

I don't know. Maybe all of them; maybe just one, depending on the day.

6. Its criticism falls flat without intersectionality

This is a big one because Good Girls is *trying* to do something very clever. As mentioned previously, my favourite theme of the show is how the women's apparent innocence/vulnerability in the eyes of society is their biggest strength. The show plays with this and other interesting themes with varying levels of success, but ultimately they all fall a little flat when they don't feel intersectional.

When Ruby gets sidelined. When Turner, who sees and all but calls out by name Beth's privilege, is portrayed as the villain. When Rio is told he's gonna "pop a cap" in his young child's "ass". When the racist grandma becomes a sympathetic character whom we must later grieve. (And she really didn't have to be racist, now that I think about it? It was just that one line for laughs and that was it.) When, despite the real-world implications, Dean can loudly announce in a store that he's buying a gun to kill someone with and the show just glides past it. When Ruby has to grovel for forgiveness from Beth for trying to protect her husband and family from the system, with no acknowledgement from Beth about how their realities are different. When Rhea gets booted off the show as soon as she's done serving Beth's plot. When Rio gets treated like a prostitute for absolutely no reason. (Oh, and is accused of raping Beth and is literally spoken of as an animal and starts only existing in zero dim lighting as a one-dimensional stereotype... the list goes on.)

7. PR/The actors

I'll risk my life here to sprinkle this in because I do think it's a massive problem. The Manny/Christina of it all is just the tip of the iceberg (although wtf Good Girls? There's nothing you could do to get these two into an interview together??). The main actors do the bare minimum to promote the show and it's weird. I also think it's the height of unprofessionalism to keep characters on the show against the wishes of the majority of the audience just because you enjoy their actors (Boomer confirmed; Dean highly suspected). While, on the flip side of the coin, limiting a character's screentime because you aren't best buddies with them. Having less and less Rio when he's such a fan favourite is dumb; as is not including him in any series marketing material. It feels personal and that isn't how a TV show should be run.

8. The entire hair and wardrobe department needs a stern talking-to

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HI YES I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR MORE ABOUT KNICKLE

christmas present to myself; infodumping about knickle

OK SO first of all their surface level dynamic of 'two gamer bros, one is grumpy and one is goofy' is already excellent. i can make so many gamer jokes. i can make so many bro jokes. its amazing.

but their FULL dynamic makes me go bonkers and become gay. 'two bros. one is an emotionally repressed jerk with a secret soft side thats trying to better himself. the other is a goofy and ditzy gamer whos mellowed out due to a traumatic experience and is trying to recover. the jerk cares about the gamer to a degree he hasn't shown to any other character on the show, and the gamer, due to the advice given to him by the jerk, has been able to make an effort towards moving on from his old friend that sent him into a depressive spiral. they also play video games together' like THATS SO GOOD *passes out*

i started liking knickle before episode 13 + 14 came out when the only meaningful connection they'd really had was the scene from episode 7. it was mostly me being like "knife was nice to him and seemed to genuinely care about helping him even though he usually doesn't do that. kinda gay ngl." which was pretty awesome of me. but now that knife berated taco about abandoning pickle and asked mic to say hi to pickle on his behalf... that scene was definitely not a one off thing of him doing a random act of kindness. he cares about the pickle and still thinks about him.

AND IT MAKES SENSE THAT HE DOES!! knife is the most critical of the show and takes the most note of the way that it affects people. and pickle is arguably the character that has undeservedly been hurt the most by the show. knife is like you deserve better than the world has given you bro. i love you bro. but even besides knowing and caring about what pickles going thru, given that they hung out together inbetween seasons and that he wanted to say hi to him, knife seems to just. genuinely like pickle and enjoy his company. which is probably more reason why he would care about helping him out. cries.

so besides the fact that knife genuinely cares about and wants to help pickle, he's also benefited from being so willing to do so. the episode 7 scene was the first time in the show he had extended kindness to anyone, and in the two other notable times he's extended kindness and given advice to people... id argue its because they reminded him of pickle?

my friend rib did a sick knife analysis which kinda goes over this but like. knife notices suitcase distressed over the way shes been treated by her alliance. kinda like pickle. and its even more more obvious with mic, he's more adamant about mic getting out of the alliance because he knows what SPECIFICALLY taco did to her last alliance member, and doesn't want her to do that again. but he can never seem to be as genuine as when he gave more direct advice (albeit as a metaphor) to pickle. his advice to suitcase is very vague (wtf does make your presence known even MEAN bro) and their conversation is more him pointing out the behavior of the alliance that he thought was apparent. and with mic, he sees his efforts as favors, and a combination of spiting taco and keeping mic from going thru what pickle did. pickle is where knife's advice character arc started, and pickle is where it's presumably ended (is that what you said to pickle, say hi to pickle for me). pickle makes knife want to be a better person. cries again.

and though theres less to say and analyze since he hasnt. had any frickign lines for 6 years (im so excited for letters to get a comic dub you have no idea), pickle has benefited from knife being there for him and giving him helpful advice. he replaced the photo of him and taco and has been more willing to forgive and trust, like with balloon, and if not for knife, there's... no telling if anyone would've noticed what he was going through and tried to help him, or if he'd be willing to open up to OJ after the events of episode 7 kept him from doing so. which makes me so frickin sad man.

and this is jsut me projecting and being soft. but. the thought of, after all the shit he went through on and after the show, after being pushed aside by everyone, pickle getting to be with someone that changed for the better and cares about him from a place of genuine compassion? as opposed to taco, who changed for the worse and only pretended to care about him for her own gain? holy moly im gay. pickle deserves a happy ending after being treated so badly, and knife deserves one too. and i think it would be so sweet if a happy ending for them meant they'd have it together.

THIS IS MOSTLY JSUT MY DUMB THOUGHTS ON THE CONTENT IN THE SHOW rather than like. headcanons like a normal person. oh god. basically despite them being apart they care about each other, make each other better people, and their relationship makes for plenty of fun and comedy as well as a lot of tenderness and mutual love + support.

also ive honestly? kinda come to terms with it maybe being harder to get into knickle due to the lack of content in the show. and its definitely my favorite partially because i love overanalyzing stuff and take a lot away from things that are implied or subtext. which is also partially why i love pickle, hes has a lot of cool emotional stuff goin on that hasn't really been explored and i find a lot of joy in thinkin about him!! anyways if you read all of this i am so sorry

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Can you please talk more about valerie red huntress symbiote au ? Just general thoughts on how it would work ? I know barely anything about Venom but imagine valerie would get the symbiote from Axion Labs.

OH GOD OH NO OH GOD OH NO I DIDN'T MEAN FOR THIS TO BE AN AU I JUST WANTED TO DUNK ON BUTCH HARTMAN AND HIS PLAGIARIZING HABIT AND MY VENOM OBSESSION

First of all: I will be referring to the symbiote as Venom, a la movie canon, because I have a deep and passionate loathing for the past three years of Venom comic canon, do not get me started on this because I will not be able to stop.

Okay firstly: YES Venom totally comes from Axion Labs. I have not watched Danny Phantom since it was actually airing so I'm definitely checking the ole wiki as I write this but apparently Axion Labs was its own thing and then VladCo bought it? Idk how Venom got to Axion Labs, but it got there and the scientists were like "idk wtf to do with this" and just sorta. Put it in a drawer with a label that says "weird space goo" and forgot about it. (That is VERY MUCH a thing that happens in science labs you would not BELIEVE the shit you can run into if you start poking around old storage objects in labs.) And then VladCo buys Axion, and Intern Valerie is helping organize things and she finds the jar of lost space goo. Idk what happens after that; maybe she determines it's some flavor of alive and passes it to Vlad under the assumption that it's a Weird Space Ghost, maybe she drops it and Venom escapes and bonds with her. I don't know, the details of how they get together aren't important IMO, the important part is the interactions between symbiote and host.

Valerie is still in high school and this is very important to me. Depending on what you do and don't consider canon, Venom is between several thousand and six hundred million years old. Depending on what you do and don't consider canon, Venom has BEEN TO EARTH BEFORE! I am of the opinion that Venom is actually extremely knowledgeable about physics and chemistry and other like, not-Earth-specific things, because they're old as balls. So imagine you're in high school and you're in AP World learning about the Vikings, and you hear this bass-ass voice in your head go actually it wasn't like that at all and suddenly you're RELIVING some other creature's memories of fighting Vikings. Or you're in high school and you're in biology watching a video about octopus camouflage and this voice in your head goes we can do that too and your arm turns "invisible". Imagine you're on your period and you ran out of Advil and you think to yourself "I swear to god if this lunch line doesn't move faster I'm gonna eat the kid in front of me" and the voice in your head goes no, eat the one behind you, he looks juicier LIKE WHAT THE FUCK

Valerie and Venom get together way after Danny becomes Phantom. So Valerie has this huge crush on Danny, but then she also hates Phantom's guts. Venom has senses that humans don't so they can tell that Fenton is Phantom, and Venom regrets their life choices re:bonding with a human, because oh no, these bald apes are so fucking stupid. Every day Venom considers informing Valerie about the secret identity thing. Every day Venom remembers that Phantom's ghostly wail is extremely deadly to them specifically. Every day Venom does not tell Valerie about the secret identity thing.

Most of town is probably at least a little convinced that the huntress is some sort of weirdass ghost, because humans aren't that big. I headcanon Valerie as being short but muscular as hell, around 5'4". Venomized Valerie? Pushing 7' and built like Athena. People assuming she's a weirdass ghost pisses Valerie off SO MUCH, and it pisses Venom off too though for different reasons (I AM TAKING VERY GOOD CARE OF MY HOST SHE IS ONE HUNDRED PERCENT ALIVE I AM INSULTED BY YOUR INSINUATIONS THAT SHE IS IN ANY WAY DECEASED)

Oh hey wait, if Venom can tell the Dannys are the same person, Venom can also tell that the Vlads are the same person. Vlad has never demonstrated anything along the lines of a ghostly wail, so his secret identity is NOT safe and Venom tells Valerie what's what. Valerie is so disturbed, but then she decides to give Vlad the Homophobic Rich Grandpa treatment and pretends to go along with what he wants so she can get that sweet sweet tech, then she turns right around and does whatever she wants when he's not looking. Maybe Venom (as in the big lady) and Red Huntress are assumed to be two different people because Valerie works for Vlad as Red but then does her own stuff as Venom?

Carnage. Oh god, Carnage. So, the Carnage symbiote (often referred to as Red, I love a coinkydink) is Venom's offspring. In the comics, it is possible for a host to experience sympathetic morning sickness and shit in advance of the symbiote spawning. Please imagine you're in high school in a small town, and you are nauseous as fuck and having weird dreams and cannot eat enough chocolate (chocolate is a good source of phenylthylamine, which is a neurotransmitter that symbiotes need to eat) and one of your shitty high school friends goes "omg are you PREGNANT" and you know that whatever you say, everybody in the universe is gonna hear it. You've never had sex in your life but you still have a moment of panic like OH GOD AM I THE NEXT VIRGIN MARY SHIT and then your body roommate is like actually, this one's on me. DO YOU LOSE YOUR WHOLE GODDAMN MIND OR DO YOU LOSE YOUR WHOLE GODDAMN MIND. "wait Venom I thought you were a guy" "why would you think that i have a concept of gender" "...your voice is deep?" "humans are so fucking stupid"

The big weaknesses of symbiotes are fire and certain frequencies of sound. Venom is scared shitless of Ember McClain, send tweet.

There's a re-appearing ghost who hosted Venom when they were alive. This could be a canon character or an OC. Either way, the interactions maximally play up the "awkward ex" thing.

A better source of the phenylthylamine Venom needs to live is BRAINS. This is now a ghost hunger AU also and Valerie catches Phantom noshing on like, a ghost deer or something. Cue Venom SEE IF HE CAN DO IT WHY CAN'T WE

Hey Venom's an alien who is old as balls, it's called the INFINITE REALMS, there's probably LOTS of alien ghosts with opinions about symbiotes

One day Phantom gets hurt really badly and Valerie feels bad enough to go save his ass (if only because the only person that gets to kill Phantom is HER tyvm). Venom is very Exasperated Parent about all of these fool human children so they just. Pick him up by the scruff like a disgruntled kitten and drag him to safety.

Venom has a very, very low opinion of the Doctors Fenton. Venom knows one (1) thing about humans and that is Protecc The Children and these morons are continuously shooting at their own child. The only reason Venom has not eaten them is because a) Valerie insists that humans are off menu and b) Danny's ghostly wail is scary. Also the only competent ghost hunters in this town seem to be Sam, Tucker, Danny, Jazz, and Valerie. Valerie why are the only competent people in this town children. "i wish i FUCKIN KNEW"

I'm now headcanoning that Valerie has a Very Southern grandma or auntie just to have an excuse for Venom to learn Very Southern expressions. Please imagine doing something stupid and the alien that lives in your brain stem just goes "oh bless your heart". Please imagine that some asshole yoinked the whole town into the Ghost Zone again and the alien that lives in your brain stem is like "dear jesus give me patience" I just think that would be funny.