in other words: time for my weekly ramblings about a bl where im mildly interested in the main couple but the side couple means more to me than anything and no i will not stop talking about themĀ
slight warning, there will be one mention of sa and one mention of murder/suicide (both of which are my personal speculation about particular situations, and thereās no detail apart from the word being mentioned). i also discuss/ramble to myself about mental health problems, and alcohol abuse. so if any of those things are triggering for you in any way, please be cautious about reading this, take necessary precautions, and if itās particularly distressing, i urge you to call a local hotline for these kinds of emergencies. i care about all of you and your health and safety, whether i know you or not, and if you ever need to talk about anything at all, lemme know, my ask box and my dms are always open.Ā
anyway, on with the show!Ā
if you havenāt figured it out yet, this is...Ā
MY THOUGHTS ON EPISODE 4 OF ABAABĀ
(if youre new here, it will literally be all of my thoughts on everything while im watching it bc i feel like im annoying my friends with my ramblings so instead ill annoy all of this circle of tumblr. and it will probably not be coherent. youre welcome.)Ā
iām obsessed with his littleĀ ācher is so cuteā smileĀ
THATS HOW I FEEL ABOUT LITERALLY THIS EXACT POSTĀ
dONT YOU DARE DO A PATPRANĀ
thatās real insightful, cher. id never thought of that one before. the statement really gets me thinking.Ā
are you- are you saying what i think youāre saying? or am i more dirty minded than i thoughtĀ
his hair is extra curly today and its veyr prettyĀ
the curls are giving charlie spring vibes from the sideĀ
i would like to touch his hair pleaseĀ
the fact that covid exists in this universe is weirdly funny to meĀ
yup that sounds about right. no one rly cares about covid anymore when the entire world is endingĀ
YAY HEāS FINALLY OPENING UP TO HIMĀ
that freaking sucks thoĀ
and whatās worse is itās very likely tian was r*pedĀ
WHY DO ALL THE HAPPY FEEL-GOOD SHOWS HAVE TO HAVE SAD DEATH BACKSTORIES BEHIND 50% OF THE FREAKING CHARACTERSĀ
GUN (msp)āS DAD IS DEAD AND HIS MUM SPENDS HALF THE SHOW LOW-KEY DYING (and i swear if they do something to gim in our skyy 2 im gonna fly to thailand and have some words with people)Ā
AYANāS DAD LEFT, HIS UNCLE DIEDĀ
THUAāS DAD DIEDĀ
HALF THE CHARACTERS IN THE ECLIPSE HAVE DIAGNOSED DEPRESSION AND THE REST OF THEM ARE UNDIAGNOSED BUT ITS DEFINITELY THEREĀ
HERE, JACK HAS DEPRESSION (and i rly hope they go into that more in depth later in the show bc he intrigues me. if they dont go into it more then im writing a way too in depth analysis post of jack)Ā
AND NOW FREAKING CHERāS FRIEND/CRUSH FROM CHILDHOOD IS FREAKING DEAD AND HER BODY WAS FLOATING IN A POND WHICH DOESNT RLY LEAD TO ANY IMMEDIATE THOUGHTS OF A NATURAL DEATH WHICH MEANS IT WAS PROBABLY MURDER AND/OR SUICIDE WHICH MAKES IT EVEN FREAKING WORSEĀ
i knew it was too good to last. the over-confident, cocky, funny, sassy/sarcastic people are generally the most messed up, they just hide it via humour and feigned confidence (i am most certainly not one of these people at all)Ā
cher stop drinking, youāre gonna hurt yourself. also the alcohol might feel like itās lifting the burden of thinking and stops you from worrying about everything thats happening, but itll come rushing back to you when youāre sober and worseĀ because youll have a hangover, and itās only a temporary fix, drinking only works for a couple of hours. you need a more permanent fix, cos if you keep turning to alcohol, itll turn into addiction and substance abuse and dependency, none of which are good, all of which are much harder to get out of than they are to get into. so yeah, just chill with the drinking a little bit. i get that you need to let it all out and you need to not feel for a bit, and thatās totally okay, but you need to make sure youāre not over-indulging yourself. otherwise youll be very ill in the long-term, both physically and mentallyĀ
PFFFT THIS WAS THE PERFECT SHOT TO END IT ONĀ
final thoughts:Ā
theyve both said things that make absolutely no sense in context unless theyre confessions of feelings, and yet theyre definitely gonna continue to do theĀ āwhat if he doesnt like me backā thing even tho its SO CLEAR to LITERALLY EVERYONE they have feelings for each otherĀ
theyve gotten so close to kissing this episode and yet they havent which is sad, but also at least they have kissed at one point before getting to the point where they COULD have kissed a grand total of siXTY-SEVEN TIMES- (shut up im not talking about tinngun what are you talking about. .....but also if you wanted to see that post where i count out all of the times tinngun didnāt kiss...)Ā
very sad with the complete and utter lack of threezo in this episode. actually, itās not even a lack of threezo. neither of them even appeared in the episode. neither was even mentioned. they (i.e. the characters, the creators of the show) are all acting like threezo ARENāT the most important characters in this entire showĀ
i love threezoĀ
where is threezoĀ
or is it zothree
either way i dont mind bc i love themĀ
where was iĀ
oh rightĀ
this episode was pretty good, very emotional, i definitely didnt cry what are you talking about (who am i kidding, eveyrone knows i cried three times, you dont even need me to tell you)Ā
Please! Rewatch the quiz! I need something to remind me that that actually happened.
I still vividly remember that day. Going out on a chill bike ride with my two best friends for the first time in months. Sitting in the cool grass. Having a picknick. Not too hot out, nice weather. AND THEN I GET HOME TO THE ABSOLUTEL SHITSHOW THAT HAPPENED THAT DAY! Because what the HELL even was that, I still haven't processed anything. My mind keeps erasing that memory until some days the it just hits me square in the face and knocks me out š
So yeah! I would love it if you talked more about it, might help to cope a bit xD
Okay anon you motivated me, you were my Final push, Iām Doing it ! š£
Also I love that story tho you really have a Vivid memory connected to this whole thing and Iām living for it š you were just having a nice day and then Boom, all this mess š
But aight so Iām Watching it rn and will be taking notes Live as I watch Here we go:
My first thoughts is, when Dream decides to do the quiz, he seems so like, confident? And then as soon as he reads the description, his voice falters at āand now things are changingā and Iām Dead š his confidence from two seconds prior in that moment goes like š then cue flustered laugh lmao
āDo you ever catch yourself staring at your bff?ā Dreamās flustered laugh and being all like āthese questions are gonna be so weirdā uhhhhh dude what are you expecting youāre taking a are you in love with your best friend quiz š
HES SO DEFENSIVE ON THIS ONE LIKE- he keeps wanting to make excuses aww drema aww š itās okay !! George is pretty we Understand you staring king š
Like legit thatās the first question and heās already so flustered and- MY GOD GEORGE HASNT SAID A THING I JUST REALIZED WAIT HOLD ON I NEED TO GO BACK-
Two scoffs. Thatās it š§āāļø
GEORGE JSJWNSOWNEEJEN HES NOT SAYING ANYTHING IM DYING WHAT
Even when Dream first goes āaight imma take the am I in love w my best friend testā George is SILENT š
Listen- listen, Iām having a moment over this cause I donāt remember him being silent from the start I thought it was like a slow descent into him just going silent eventually, BUT NO heās just Silent from the moment the quiz is brought up š but gives like a slight scoff when Dreamās voice wavered at āchangingā like heās very much Listening, just being So silent.
I just canāt wrap my head around how he doesnāt answer any of Dreamās comments, Dream keeps being like āright? Like thatās normal, right? Like thatās not weird. Right?ā And George is just SILENT š
āDo you get jealous if he or she has a bf or gfā LMAO THIS QUESTION MY BELOVED
His answer is so weird I will die on this hill.
ALSO GEORGE S P E A K S for the first time in the quiz šš£ but not much, he says ābutā, cause, yk, they both know he do get jealous so.
Which, again. Weird as hell. Imma say it, Iāve never felt jealous of my best friend getting a partner like what ???? W h a t
But ofc when theyāre so clingy on each other, like a partner would take the others place because they pretty much have each other in that spot already, so it makes sense huh
And thatās not platonic btw I wanna make that clear LMAO
I think the points of which George laughs are interesting. And thereās something interesting to his laugh too. I donāt see his face lighting up with it, if that makes sense. Itās like a, I wouldnāt say ānervousā laugh but, I struggle to find a better word for it š¤
AYO MY MANS DREAM SAYS I DONT KNOW TO IF HE GETS BUTTERFLIES FROM GEORGE I- š
THATS NOT AN I DONT KNOW QUESTION KING
EITHER YOU DO OR YOU DONT AND YOU KNOW IF YOU DO OR DONT LIKE W H A T
I have to sit with this one for a second like . What ? š§āāļø
Butterflies.
Iāve never. In my life. Like.
Thatās not- you canāt say you donāt know- THAT MEANS LIKE-
Dear lord.
Aight Iām moving on (not actually imma be awake thinking about this later. Not by choice, absolutely not. This just wonāt leave my brain unfortunately.)
Hang on. George says something here when Dream says āI have no ideaā but I canāt tell what heās saying ? Like he mumbles something whilst Dream starts talking at the same time and I canāt make it out and I wanna know what he says šš£
I Think he says āwhat do you mean you have no idea?ā Which like, YEAH, you Should question him on that king š§āāļø but itās interesting how quiet he is, like he barely pushes the question, and this is like the second ?? Time heās spoken so far. š§āāļø
Also Listen to how flustered Dream sounds my godš
This quiz never shouldāve happened whatās Wrong with him like is he this blind ?? Did he Really think taking this quiz was gonna end well ?? š
āTecHniCallyš„“ā
āMy future is your futureā
I feel like weāve talked abt these LMAO such Romantic phrasing my god
Again him going āright?ā And George is Dead Silent š
Itās interesting, like Iāve reached the ādreamsā question now, and itās hitting now and throughout this quiz how, Dream is Loudly deflective, but George is silently deflective. If that makes sense? Like heās choosing not to speak so his words canāt be thrown back at him cause he Knows if he speaks itāll be obvious. Whilst Dream over explains and fucks himself over p much lmao. Theyāre both just a mess around this subject š
āHow would You be in my dreamā is such a funny sentence from George LMAO heās so defensive š like even I have had dreams abt Dream, like youāre his Best Friend, ofc you have dreams abt him my guy š deflecting it is so weird. So Weird
āIāve never hugged youā Sad hours š
Itās interesting here. Cause they speak abt the whole ādo you go out of your way for this personā and Dream is stuck on if he should say āmore than anyone else I knowā or not. Which, thereās ofc observations to be had here as well.
But ! What I found interesting here was how George goes onto say āyou made me pay youā when Dream says he edited his video for him. And how George keeps the ālieā going for a very short bit before laughing slightly, by god he sounds so.. different? Like when he usually makes little lies to troll or stuff like that, heās much more extra and keeps the bit going and- idk how to explain it but the tone of his voice is usually way different. Here he seems to, idk, struggle to keep that up. His laugh is also just like, somewhat toneless?
LMAO The MOMENT Dream got the question āwhat do you think abt their laughā Georgeās laugh Stops. š
āDo you ever think abt what it would be like to Kiss your best friend?ā
THE SILENCE
Also,
how Dream read ākissā š¤ how Dream read āchangingā
Some words hit this man different huh LMAO
āWhy did that take you so longā on the kiss question, CALL HIM OUT GEORGE š£
HRKEJEKEEJEKJEEIEJ HOW ARE THOSE- SORRY WHAT DREAM ??
āHOW ARE THOSE THE ONLY OPTIONSā ???
God, for real, I wish Dream would get to sit down with someone one day who just Listened to him speak and allowed him to slip up and just sound so in love with George like give himself away simply because nobody is saying how weird heās-
Hold on.
Wait. A minute.
George.
George is doing that LMAOOOO
Him sitting there silently and not responding to all his small questions abt what he Should answer and such, heās so smartš§āāļø
Anyways the way Dream Had to have a āyesā answer to the kiss one will forever keep me up at night. Now along with the butterflies oneš§āāļø
I rly wonder what options it is Dream is looking for when he says ānone of these optionsā so often. What is it you wanna say king ?
WHY IS THE BUTTERFLIES QUESTION TWICE AND WHY IS HIS ANSWER NOW DIFFERENT LMAO - drema itās okay itās Safe Space š£ I feel like he probably saw chat responding to his first answer and realized āoop, thatās not platonicā and changed his answer LMAO š heās- Ahh hard to find the right words for my Thoughts here, but heās doing that thing where he looks for others what is ānormalā instead of seeing what he feels, cause what He feels is, uh, well we all know what results he got at the end there,,
I mean the kiss question is all u need really. The butterflies one puts icing on the whole cake.
āDo you compare this person to others youāve dated? Noo...ā AIGHT AND THERE WE HAVE THE CHERRY ON TOP OF THE WHOLE THING
This was the one of the Most sus ones imo from when I first watched it. It had my head spin, head in hands for Days.
What do you MEAN you compare him to others youāve dated? Why does he tell George to shut up, why do they both Know thereās a story there- I have so many questions on this and- this isnāt platonic šš AT ALL - and thereās no excuse or explanations for this one, they just Move On š
The Speed at which they move on š
And then George goes So silent š§āāļø
Dream is cruising through the questions and George is so silent now. He was Stunned into silence from that shut up LMAO
I like how Dream picked āabsolutelyā on being able to tell George everything :ā)
So.
Why does George not say anything on the ādo you think your best friend is in love with youā question? No joke, no protest, no- no nothing?
That leaves us to fill in the blanks king, just sayingš§āāļø
Why does Dream sound sarcastic when he says itās a tough question LMAO
āI have no ideaā aight good answer ig LMAO letās Pretend
Georgeās silence is for real very sus there. Very. š„“
Dream putting ānoā on thinking heās in love, is Very funny and shows just how blind he is to himself.
He rly put āI donāt knowā for the butterflies one and found the nearest āyesā option for the kiss one and then still put ānoā at the end - heās a lost cause and owns no mirrors I see how it is. (/j btw lmao I have hope in drema ofc, he too can become more self aware one day<3)
āYou are a little in love with your best friendā cue both of them laughing in just the weirdest ways. George just sounds absolutely toneless like, I donāt think heās even smiling with that laugh, gaze absolutely dazed at what heās being witness to, not even knowing what to do with himself in that moment. And Dreamās laugh is also just, weird?
āYou donāt wanna ruin it, Dream.ā Followed by Dreamās immediate, āoh what? It says-ā like immediately moving on lmao š that āoh what?ā Sounded like āoh whatās that there oh thatās rly weird wow letās move on from what you just said ahem wow really weird thing over thereā LMAO
āThereās a two percent chance thereā LMAO
OH NO THE SILENCE WHAT
I THOUGHT I ACCIDENTALLY PAUSED THE VIDEO BUT THE SILENCE IS SO LONG AND SO LOUD
Then Dream going onto pretending like heās gonna do another test As If heās not been planning his escape excuse from the very moment he got those test results LMAO
And the silent pauses are taking me out š
āI think weāre doneā HOW COULD HE LEAVE AT THAT POINT ššš
āCOOL PODCASTā IM DEAD ON THE FLOOR
āWHY ARE YOU SO NOSYā DREAM I- WHY U SO DEFENSIVE GEORGE ASKING WHERE YOUāRE GOING IS A NORMAL THING TO ASK šYOUāRE THE ONE WHOāS SUDDENLY LEAVING
NOT DREAM AWKWARDLY SINGING THE WIZARD OF OZ-
HE SOUNDS SO WEIRD-
The tone of his voice is so off my guy is so ready to leave and sit and stare at a wall whilst looping heatwaves for five hours š
:((((( drema my beloved :((((( itās okay to be in love !!
Not him leaving- he full on ignored Georgeās āwhere are you going?ā
Heās not going anywhere istg the moment he left that discord he put his head in his hands and just Stared š
Which fb characters do u think ur most and least like??
LOL this is a rly funny question....i think iām very similar to shigure, uotani, kyo, and kakeru. i realize this combination of characters is not very pleasant but it is what it is. sometimes ur just an angry lesbian who cant stfu. shigure uo and kakeru all like to fuck w ppl for fun which....i do....and i think iām very reactive in the same way kyo is. at times i think iām also similar to yuki, but not so much personality-wise (heās very reserved and iām not, though we are both pretty dry and sarcastic) but moreso in the way he copes lmfao
i would say the character im least like is tohruāsheās very bubbly and positive and kind of spacey, none of which i would say i am. along the same lines im very dissimilar to momiji as well. honestly any peppy character iām not like, i have no idea how i come off online but irl im just very dry and i can be pretty aloof.
clicks my fingers to no humanly discernible rhythm as i strut bk onto the dash w chara number two!! (itās me nai bk again bt this time wearing a stick on moustache). bradleyās pinterest is HERE n u kno the drill mre abt her under the cut n like this fr those Sweet Sweet plots!!
MARGARET QUALLEY / CIS-FEMALE ā donāt look now, but is that bradley milligan i see? the 23 year old psychology student is in their junior year and she is a rochester alum. i hear they can be brave, resilient, destructive and ruthless, so maybe keep that in mind. i bet she will make a name for themselves living in off campus. ( nai. 23. gmt. she/her. )
aesthetics: singeing a hole in your fishnets with the cherry of a menthol, spitting a pistachio behind the bar just to hear it ping off the nozzle top bottles, lemon in a fresh cut, a war torn poppy standing alone in an empty field, poking bruises, stomping over flowerbeds when thereās a path right next to it, dangling over ledges just to feel your chest jolt, a snarling rottweiler that should be muzzled, limp feet poking out behind a door, āI PROMISE I DONāT BITEā scrawled on a name tag, slapping a bald head in front of you at the cinema like itās a bongo, not owning a single jacket that isnāt stolen, driving a stolen car in the wrong lane against the traffic, blowing coke in someoneās face after asking āhey, does this smell funny to you?ā, hair more feral than a wolf cub and eyes smudgier than a coal mine. Ā
BACKGROUND:
father runs a gang n strip club in queens called āno angelsā tht fronts an affluent drug trade, primarily coke. his name is tony milligan n his gang is p infamous around there fr being jst likeā¦. completely cutthroat n awful. they were nicknamed ātonyās rottweilersā by locals bc he bsically has all of these trained dogs on leash at his command n theyāre still a growing organisation tday
heās pretty much the worst human being alive n bradley hs likeā¦.. a lot of issues with herself as a result of years of toxicity n abuse
in terms of more family bkground info her mumās name was alyssa n she vanished when bradley was 12. jst likeā¦. into thin air. nothing. no note. zilch. gan! n when bradley asked her dad abt it his response was essentially āguess she didnāt love us enough to stayā. as bradleyās got older tho n become (without intention) more involved in the business side of things, itās become pretty clear there was far more to the story.
they had a horrible marriage n tony ws quite violent at the best of times, which didnāt help the fact tht alyssa ws struggling a lot w severe depression n rly justā¦ not in the mindset to b dealing w anything else on top of tht, even where motherhood ws concerned. bradley p muchā¦ would look after her a lot n theyād both b scared of her dad n it was just a whole mess.
anyway im rambling bt basically tony (bradleyās dad) gt wind of alyssa sleeping w men tht worked fr him n he justā¦ got rid. bradleyās kind of worked out over the yrs tht her mum didnāt jst leave on her own accord n tht something must hav happened to her bt sheās too scared of her dad to ever directly accuse him
when her mum went all of her dadās cruelty pretty mch got channelled straight onto her. it ws diluted between two before bt as u can probably imagine her upbringing was jstā¦. a steep downhill decline frm tht point onwards
she learnt ways 2 deal w the incurring trauma bt they werenāt healthy ones at all! bsically jst. will do or take anything fr the distraction. chases a thrill like itās the only way to remind her sheās alive. has absolutely no regard fr her own wellbeing n sometimes gets other ppl in trouble too bc sheās so insatiably reckless
she hdā¦.2 separate stints of psychiatric hospitalisation n she never tlks abt it. like ever. acknowledging sheās been vulnerable is her worst nightmare n bc of the way her dad raised her she always thinks any sign of struggling within herself is weakness. truly doesā¦. not kno how to properly emotion
CUT TO!!!! huntington beach. sheās currently living in a spacious loft above a rly busy bar tht i picture like. p close to campus so a lot of students prob frequent it?? she loves it bc she can sit on the window sill smoking n argue w ppl tht walk past drunk. jst randomly callin out like. nice chest hair Loser. i feel like she hasnāt even paid fr wifi she jst uses the barās free one n like. goes in there expecting free drinks all the time?? is jst like erm? i live here? let me drink? this is my house? aka sheās. a lot.
her dadās opening up a new strip club (also called no angels bc heās trying to lowkey make it like a chain) n heās only allowed her to make the move bc sheās overseeing it kind of???? as well as a few guys tht worked fr him back in queens. one in particular called billy hs made the move n heās a menace so. three cheers fr anarchy!
PERSONALITY:
the kind of sour cherry only certain people have a taste for
once drank a bottle of whiskey, insisted she could still do a cartwheel and accidentally kicked an old manās front tooth out in the process. proceeded 2 collapse into a flower bed and laugh so much abt it that she cried
barely takes anything seriously 50% of the time and is angry the other 50%
if she was a coffee sheād be black with five grains of sugar that you couldnāt taste until the last sip
high functioning alcoholic. if u ever see her w a coffee cup u jst kno tht one sniff will confirm high alcohol percentage. honestly idk hw she does it her liver must b yellin
loyal to a point of fault. if she cares abt u and u murder a man in cold blood sheāll brawl anyone that says ur guilty
honestly wld probably fight a person over anything. sometimes sheāll jst be having a bad day n sheāll burst n take it out on whoever says the wrong thing. a minefield!
has the worst luck in romanceā¦. ever. the majority of her past bfs hav been absolute beasts n as a result she kind of has the āromance is dead n love is a lieā mentality
speakin of which i feel like sheās bi bt wldnt have dated a girl or anythin. like guys r probablyā¦. her preference just bc historically theyv treated her worse n she hs a very self destructive personality like that. sexy!
dresses like courtney love, 2014 sky ferreira and a character from this is england had a baby. mostly wears stolen clothes from strangers and jackets that swamp her. hair is p much always a wild mess n she usually hd kind of smudgy/smoky makeup bcos apparently sheās allergic to combs and generally looking presentableā¦ relatable content
sheās v sarcastic. sometimes blunt. kind of has a habit ofā¦. assessing a person n sheās quite perceptive bc sheās been trained to b by the way she always has to monitor her dadās expression fr the slightest emotion change. sheās quite confident n can p much mke a conversation out of whatever. sort of independent too like she hs a bunch of friends bt she doesnāt care abt going out places alone if sheās in a certain mood n jst wantsā¦ā¦ to get into chaos. sheās probably kind of known around campus bt itd b a 50/50 balance between bein known as intimidating n bein known as that one girl tht always gets into anarchy
likes: fishnets, stealing cars, throwing watermelons off rooftops and whiskey
dislikes: amy schumer, honesty, yellow tulips and going home
PLOTS:
someone tht got a job at the new strip club her dad opened up in town?? either as a dancer or bartender or whtever. just a forewarning itās probably gna b a pretty..... seedy and Not That Pleasant environment bc itās like. a crime hotspot inevitably bc itās a gang hangout so. ur chara wld truly be in fr a rollercoaster ride to say the least
she deals coke fr her dadās gang bt itās more like. a hobby than a steady source of income tht she Needs bc she just likes the thrill of the fact tht encounters in tht line of work can turn sour tbh. a Thrill Seeker! mayb she deals to ur muse??
anyoneā¦.. sheās brawled in the past like. sheās literally a menace i cnt express this enough. wil jst randomly throw a drink in someoneās face fr no reason bc sheās bored. sheās probably pissed off 1000 diff ppl in 1000 diff ways. the possibilities r endless n i jst think thtās a sexy prospect!
fwbs perhaps??? exes??? (probably ws a tumultuous relationship wteverā¦. ur muse is like like bradley is. a handful)
mayb someone tht she met at an aa meeting when she hd to go fr a court mandated thing one time after bein arrested fr public indecency. i feel like thereās probably a rly expensive statue somewhere thts fancily Sculpted n she like. did a flying kick n kicked the dick of it off n gt arrested fr it
ppl sheā¦ā¦. Goes Wild Goes Crazy w. truly jst the most self destructive person alive so anyone w a similar mindset wld b a hellish bt fun combination
on the contrary a gd influence cld b nice perhaps? like someone tht genuinely cares abt her n she jst doesnāt kno hw to compute it
um. honestly the worldās our oyster. hmu n we cn brainstorm if none of tht catches ur eye!
lady gaga vc: iām still in love w judas Babey..... helo. nai again. i cnt rly write lana atm so! switched her out fr jude. some of u might kno him already bt if nt then hereĀ is his pinterest board to kind of get a feel fr his aesthetic or whtever n then u can find out mre abt him beneath the cut. like this or hmu fr plots!!
( cis-male ) havenāt seen JUDE HAYWARD around in a while. the DOUGLAS BOOTH lookalike has been known to be (+) WITTY & (+) PROTECTIVE, but HE can also be (-) SARCASTIC & (-) DETACHED. The 23 year old is a JUNIOR majoring in FINE ART. I believe theyāre living in AUDAX but I popped by earlier and no one answered the door. ( nai. 22. gmt. she/ha. )
born in sheffield in england, bt they went back and forth between there n san fran a lot
jude was an unhappy accident. his parents never rly used protection bc they were super liberal n au naturel n believed in the pull out method bcā¦ they were maniacs. bt then the one time they used a condom in an effort to b safety conscious it broke n henceā¦. jude was born
they just kind of ran w it bc they had such a passionate relationship tht they were like what the hellā¦. may as well! itll be fine weāll learn to be good parents n love him like normal ppl do
spoiler alert: tht didnāt work out
they were ok to him like they werenāt super abusive or anything like that bt they just found him to be a massive burden n hindrance to their plans
they literallyā¦.. had sex all day every day n acted like a pair of teenagers. it ws a super weird/unhealthy environment for a kid to grow up in bc he literally had no role models orā¦ guidance orā¦. anything rly. occasionally theyād joke around w him or pretend they even knew what grade he was going into but for the most part they just didnāt care one bit
they were both suuuuper into the arts. theyāre both rly good sculptors bt they paint too n they actually own a successful gallery in san fran
as a result he grew up around a lot of creative n sometimes pretentious ppl. the friends of his parents were more present in his life than his actual parents bc they were always jetting off to diff countries to scout out new pieces fr their galleries n just have a gd time in beautiful places withoutā¦. the annoyance tht ws their son forcing them to b responsible n look after someone else. tbh some of his parents friends tht stayed w him while they were away were rly damaging too btā¦.i wonāt go into that just yet. it doesnāt rlyā¦need properly explaining bc jude never talks abt it anyway n itā¦.is rather triggering so iāll jstā¦.leav it for now tbh fgkhdfgh. basically they just were not nice n jude had a lot of bad memories he keeps repressed
bc of how he ws raised he has a p cultured taste. he luvs classic lit n film n p much anything artsy. he can play piano 2 n sometimes gets rly high n thinks heās mozart level gd at composing. i mean heās gd btā¦ chill
personality wise he acts out sometimes bc heās so frustrated. he tried rly hard to be someone his parents wld care abt by doing wild or stupid things so heād hav funny stories to tell them n tbh sometimes it works n he gets them to laugh w him but it isnāt a parent/son bond n it never rly wil b. heās rly sarcastic, sleeps around a lot bt isnāt particularly fond of actual dates except in rare cases, has an overflowing secret sketchbook n if he cares abt someone heāll probably draw them n get rly defensive if they find out abt it fkjgdhfkj bcos heās an independent boy without a sentimental bone in his body! or so he tries to pretend. pretty deadpan humour most of the time. luvs strange ppl tht keep him on his toes
he has rly bad insomnia so he like never sleeps fgjkhfgjkf he always has rly sleepy eyes n rubs them tiredly mid conversation. he smokes a lot of weed to try n compensate fr this n make him tired bt he still struggles a lot. he alsoā¦ smokes a lot fr the sake of his depression bc hoo boy does he hav it bad! heās tried a bunch of medications n none have rly worked bt u kno. heās surviving
wld die to protect tha Wamen. once punched a guy fr bein disrespectful to queen n living legend frankie vigo. rly jstā¦ does his best to b a gd guy bt sometimes fucks up mostly frm jst. thoughtless errors
king of bein an lgbt ally. experimented once n ws like :/ when guys jstā¦ werenāt fr him. he genuinely ws disappointed over it n hs sighed at least seven times over the matter. when blake came out as gay he wore this shirt 2 support him. truly jst a strange little man w positive intentions
ummmmmmmm honestly idk iām blankin on what else to say. ull find him smoking weed reading an american classic or gnawing at his thumbnail n getting charcoal smudges along tht dramatic model jawline. heās p broody n scruffy n heās mostly here fr a good time. o and heās that guy that would die fr morrissey (in terms ofā¦. his style bt he acknowledges tht he ws/is a pretentious twat) and all that stone roses the smiths the cure etc stuff music wise. hmu fr plots!!!!!! iām down fr anything
@uberoll-oystercrackers late night (early morning?) posting here but this is super nice ty and also again retroactively thank you additionally for all the long replies & kind tags you give
like really yeah itās like, on the one hand, itās fairly sucky having to have this thing where im always jumping the gun on considering someone Maybe An Friend and then having to remind myself / be reminded of the fact that like no probably not, which is true and yet sucks, which is just how some stuff is!! like sometimes stuff just is Not Good and is not ever going to Not Hurt, despite the fact you can kinda get better at living with it. and like this one isnt a huge deal even tho the larger problem of when ur like, lonely &/or isolated is kind of a whole real dealā¦ā¦
like itās strange having these contradictory problems with itā¦..like, Being Myself has never really just been something i can Naturally do, so even just trying to be nice is like oh lord am i being ~manipulative~, and im always too prone to treat interactions like ive got to placate the other person, and then also just likeā¦.not having amazing social skills anyways in the sense that i know a lot of times i come across ~off~ to people and canāt really do a lot about that, but also, i feel like iām always overcompensating for like, enthusiasm and just the fact i like to Get Silly and maybe iāll act too cool~n~collected or come off like im trying to be all Smart and Smarmy and like jeez noā¦ā¦it doesnt help that when i was younger i generally preferred interacting with adults and so probably was trying to come across as clever and when i was wanting someone to like me iād be real nervous and try to go too hard in seeming the opposite lolā¦ā¦oh the legacy of the time i found out my momās childhood friend who was funny and cool to us thought i was bookish (true) but like also snobby or something lmao like ah jeez i probably made too many sarcastic jokes about thingsā¦.but oh well i was just like 10-ish at the time.
anyways tho i feel like that still kicks in and when i get the sense someone is cool and itād be cool if they thought i was cool too iām like Well So Then i gotta PLAY it cool!! and then like oh no am i coming across as a jerk? or an trying-to-be-an-intellectual?? i always have a lot of thoughts and i do go off when its like, also tied in to Opinions of mine, so im like, oh no am i coming across as trying to tell someone i think they should think exactly this?? or if i try to Be Witty and Tell Jokes are they just coming off as snarky b/c i hope not especially since a lot of times my actual Lighthearted Snark gets read as āi hate this and think its dumb afā lol. ahhhh i just do not know!! like, i wanna sort of dial back my Warmth b/c i can get enthused fast and i have a tendency to get too attached to ppl too fast, which really only sucks for me, but still!! yet i dont wanna rein it in too much and try to overcompensate and come off like im Eternally Unimpressed and donāt really care and etc etc and justā¦..idk its wild itās hard to tell how i may be socializing awkwardly lmao ahhhā¦.and on top of it all, i manage to be godawful at realizing when other ppl actually like me. like, that sort of sounds like The Opposite but i guess its just more of that problem of thinking that im going to always bother peopleā¦.a lot of times it takes me like, months or a year (or two or three) to realize that someone who willingly interacts w me during that time probably does genuinely like me and is maybe a friend. wrow
uhhhh anyways lord that was all just. tangentially related. im Tangents
UH more to the point!!!! the good news is that yeah i donāt have to think āoh weāre totally real bffsā about anyone to really enjoy and appreciate Our Interactionsā¦..and like i do have real appreciation and gratitude for basically all nice attention lol like, if a single reblog of smthing has kind comments, if someone cool just Likes a few posts, talking on occasion or like, ever at all. cuz for real The Little Stuff has always been a really good thing for years now, especially since thereās been plenty of times i havent really had anything happening In Person that was likeā¦.good interactions or ppl who were able to hear my actual thoughts and feelings about whatever and still be interested in interacting with me. cuz in terms of not being isolated and in what i find it easy to talk about and how, Online Interactions have been genuinely important and impactful in a positive way for like a solid decade now since i was able to be consistently Online and have my own accounts and stuff in the first place
so like yeah totally i really do appreciate stuff like that. i think its pretty incredible whenever anybody just like, thinks of me, and likes me. having None Of That Feeling is supremely trash and i so appreciate that i donāt have to feel like thereās nothing and that nobody out there in the world is aware of me, and yet i donāt need it to be that like, anyone is Constantly aware of me and like, intensely invested, cuz thatās just not how it goes lol and even kinda meaning a little bit to someone and having my tiny presence in their life be a positive one is a great thought and i really do appreciate it. Unfortunately for likeā¦.my entire life, The Contempt Of Others has been a consistent #thing iām dealing with and itās not great!! like yeah fortunately ive had the āfelt so bad about myself that it eventually circled back around and now self loathing isnt too much of an issue for meā thing, but it still sucks experiencing it lolā¦..having any testimonials that like, whatever shit im talking about @ myself is fun to read, or i seem okay, or its fun to talk, etc etc, like thats fantastic really
and the kinds of leaf thoughts too, yeah, that kind of thing is nice to know too lol. i was hoping you were ok like, ten hours before i saw you posting again lolā¦..weāre out hereā¦ā¦..
like yeah ldmbgglh whatever my weird problems are with being overexcited abt any Potential Friendship, and also being bad at realizing if people do like me, and also just being Weird and not great at talking, and overcompensating for whatever and maybe coming across too Coldly when rly im a fiery dumbass, wanting friends but also wanting not to be burned by getting ahead of things and being reminded that most ppl arenāt like, as starved for even just friendly interactionsā¦ā¦..iām better at navigating and handling it in some ways but cāest a māess!!! aaaggbfg
also i worry i donāt express affection and appreciation enough!!! itās not that iām like Oh i donāt want to Commit to Being Friends ewā¦..itās that i donāt wanna be the one pressuring someone else into being like uh oh i have to play up being invested in milo!! but then maybe my playing-it-cool just makes other ppl do the same thing or think i donāt care or something. like oh i appreciate this person a ton and think theyāre great and theyāve been kind to me but if we only talk so often and obviously im not There for them and involved in their life in the way a ~real friend~ would be, maybe it would just ring hollow to say i love them, for example. lord lolā¦ā¦. itās all āoh donāt dial down your kindness and affectionā and yet also ābut donāt wanna inadvertently push other people or Be Weird or get myself invested in something where i donāt mean as much to the other person not cuz they suck but because like, of course im just a fun internet acquaintance, which is fine!!ā ahhhhhh the challenges. anyways!!!!!!!
the point is well i do like ppl yeah and i really appreciate ppl liking me. every now and then they do it online or even in person and thats just a Joy and i wish things were more secure!!! i also have to not even necessarily want ppl to get invested in me in case things go to shit too soon or whatever and it doesnt help that ~being open~ means talking abt depressingass stuff sometimes that like, i donāt mind being open about, but i also donāt want to put on other ppl. which, sidenote on that, im feeling relatively alright all these recent months even if im not technically thriving; itās okay. itās a hot mess! but thatās just How It Is sometimes!! itās what it is. and ive had support from ppl in big and small ways that i know i could have had to go without and all the ways ppl are nice to me count for a whole lot and i have appreciated it, and do appreciate it, and will continue to appreciate it.
helo it is me nai bk again w chara #2. i hd jude at the old lockwood some of u may remember him he is? frankly my pride n joy n like the only male chara iāve ever been able to properly stick w. here is his muse tag n here is his pinterest board if ur into tht stuff. gna just dive in bc its 8am n i still havenāt slept rip!
( nai. 22. gmt. she/her. ) it might be HIS JUNIOR year but I still think JUDE HAYWARD looks exactly like DOUGLAS BOOTH and sometimes I think the CIS-MALE is actually them. Of course Iām wrong, as theyāre 23 and studying ARTwhile living in POTENTAS here at Lockwood. The PISCES can be rather WITTY and PROTECTIVE, but also kind of RUDE and DETACHED. Their most played song on Spotify was ASLEEP by THE SMITHS, so I think that says a lot.
born in sheffield in england, bt they went back and forth between there n san fran a lot
jude was an unhappy accident. his parents never rly used protection bc they were super Liberal n Au Naturel n believed in the pull out method bcā¦ they were maniacs. bt then the ONE time they used a condom in an effort to b safety conscious it broke n henceā¦. jude was born
they just kind of ran w it bc they had such a passionate relationship tht they were like What The Hellā¦. may as well! itll be fine weāll learn to be good parents n love him like normal ppl do
spoiler alert: tht didnāt work out
they were ok to him like they werenāt super abusive or anything like that bt they just found him to be a massive burden n hindrance to their plans
they literallyā¦.. had sex all day every day n acted like a pair of teenagers. it ws a super weird environment for a kid to grow up in bc he literally had no role models orā¦ guidance orā¦. anything rly. occasionally theyād joke around w him or pretend they even knew what grade he was going into but for the most part they just Didnāt Care one bit
they were both suuuuper into the arts. theyāre both rly good sculptors bt they paint too n they actually own a rly successful gallery in san fran
as a result he grew up around a lot of creative n sometimes pretentious ppl. the friends of his parents were more present in his life than his ACTUAL parents bc they were always jetting off to diff countries to scout out new pieces fr their galleries n just have a gd time in beautiful places withoutā¦. the annoyance tht ws their son forcing them to b responsible n look after someone else. tbh some of them were rly damaging too btā¦.i wonāt go into that just yet. it doesnāt rlyā¦need properly explaining bc jude never talks abt it anyway n itā¦.is rather triggering so iāll jstā¦.leav it for now tbh fgkhdfgh. basically they just were Not Nice n jude had a lot of bad memories he keeps repressed
bc of how he ws raised he has a p cultured taste. he luvs classic lit, especially kerouac, n p much anything artsy. he can play piano 2 n sometimes gets rly high n thinks heās mozart level gd at composing. i mean heās gd btā¦ Calm Down Jude
personality wise he acts out sometimes bc heās so frustrated. he tried rly hard to be someone his parents wld care abt by doing wild or stupid things so heād hav funny stories to tell them n tbh sometimes it works n he gets them to laugh w him but it isnāt a parent/son bond n it never rly wil b. heās rly sarcastic, sleeps around a lot bt isnāt particularly fond of actual Dates except in rare cases, has an overflowing secret sketchbook n if he cares abt someone heāll probably draw them n get rly defensive if they find out abt it fkjgdhfkj bcos heās an Independent Boy without a sentimental bone in his body. or so he tries to pretend. pretty deadpan humour most of the time. luvs strange ppl tht keep him on his toes
he has rly bad insomnia so he like never sleeps fgjkhfgjkf he always has rly sleepy eyes n rubs them tiredly mid conversation. he smokes a lot of weed to try n compensate fr this n make him tired bt he still struggles a lot. he also... smokes a lot fr the sake of his depression bc HOO boy does he hav it bad! heās tried a bunch of medications n none have rly worked bt u kno. heās surviving
ummMMMMmm honestly idk iām blankin on what else to say. ull find him smoking weed reading an american classic or gnawing at his thumbnail n getting charcoal smudges along that Dramatic model jawline. heās p broody n scruffy n heās mostly here fr a good time. o and heās That Guy that would die fr morrissey and all that stone roses the smiths etc stuff music wise. HMU FR PLOTS!!!!!! iām down fr anything
I mean like. Yeah u can hyperfixate on yuri but once uve read all the manga volumes like..its over....i mean ive had periods where i was hyperfixated on yuri in general but theres no like. Specific yuri series that lots of people make fancontent for that you can consume for months on end??? theres so much fanart for mdzs, and its specifically a danmei. and theres more than just fluffy romcoms....!!!!!!besides citrus..!!!!!!!! I have a manga on my desk rn called "killing me!" abt a vampire hunter and a vampire or "after hours" which is abt adults and one of them gets the other into DJing, and even series with "fluffy" romance can be a lot more nuanced than ud think and tbh i think its a lot healthier to have mostly fluffy stuff than mostly sexual content (gay teens deserve wish fulfillment stuff, also not saying mdzs is sexual i mean ? I dont know if it is? Just yaoi in general) but i agree the worship of """""" purity """"""" is gross but the difference is that its made mostly by wlw. Also i wasnt being accusatory, like i know ur gay, its just funny bc idk like. i feel like everyone got into chinese bl of a sudden and I dont rly get the appeal even tho theres more to it, its kind of like the three kingdoms (i assume theres like politics and battles ?) but magic and gay thats nice!!! That sounds sarcastic its not i swear. i cant watch series that have 50 min long eps but I'll take ur word for it that the untamed is good
hyperfixation has nothing to do with fandom and as someone who's hyperfixated on obscure shit for years at a time if there's no content you can make your own. like I completely get what you're saying but that's really not how that works
ofc there's more than fluffy romcoms -- however most wlw content tends to be of that type bc of the obsession w women being "pure" n shit like that. it's the same reason why most content of gay men tends to become hypersexualised -- it's just another manifestation of homophobia. that kind of content doesn't appeal to me, so when it comes to yuri I often have to look harder. I don't even like romance as a genre (generally hate it actually) which is why I've been going on about tgcf so much -- it's the first romance-centric media that's made me Get It
I get what you mean about how gay kids deserve better n I agree!! hypersexualisation fucking sucks and I wish we didn't have to grow up in a world where we're seen as commodities. however mdzs and tgcf are both what I'd consider 18+ books and any adaptations remove most sexual elements. I really don't think you should pass judgement on them without knowing anything about them. that's not a case of "uh you haven't consumed it so how can you judge!!" but instead hey maybe you could like, ask me what they're about... do a basic bit of googling... also BL isn't yaoi. BL and GL stand for boy's love and girl's love respectively and there's nothing inherently sexual about either of them. I get the feeling you've gotten confused on some terminology
honestly no idea where you're getting "everyone is into danmei now" from bc the group of people I know who're into it are VERY small lmao your social circle is not the entire internet. it's okay to feel confused by the changing tides of fandom and it's okay to feel left out but it's really not anything deep mate. it's okay to not be interested in something other people like, you don't have to justify it. although your concerns about the sexualisation of LGBT people are a legitimate discussion and I'm interested in having it within this context it's just not working bc (as you've admitted) you don't even know the media you're using as a springboard. what I'm hyperfixating on is none of your business and it's not something you should feel comfortable going on anon and basically telling me I should feel cringe for, holy shit. your argument is lost bc you are approaching this as if you have any right to the media I consume! I'm sorry if this sounds mean but I just woke up and I'm really tired and stressed and you're projecting ideas onto me that I have no way to deal w because They Have Nothing To Do With Me
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Roleplaying/Writing
My favorite muse(s) of theirs and why:okay okay hear me out righti still fucking love daev okay (formal fae boi who is a sweetheart?? i love him)but kitten and tielo are The Shit and i also love themĀ (kitten whomst luc adores and is just such a fun muse to watch? and tielo that roslyn loves to hate and oxy fawns over in the most uncle way possible? i love them tielo is so good)
My favorite interaction/thread of theirs:tbh i love our discord rps (and i rly appreciate how youll put up with me talking about like a million aus because i dont think any1 else would) and i think the only one weve done on tumblr in recent times has been between lu and kitten so those,,,
My thoughts on their unique characterization/interpretation of their muse(s):okay first offi wont talk about daev because im not even sure if ur still doing him but if u are i love him oksecondi like tielo for his bouts of sort of grumpiness and then also him being this v warm character towards Oxy and his sarcastic and dont care attitude towards roslyn (their fights are awesome we should do more of them), that he has drawings of bb oxy is also hella fucking cute??? i love him hes such a sweetheartkitten is also The Shit i like how youve incorporated the canon dirk aspect with his punishment for falling and i like how these different circumstances give him a different attitude but hes still a dirk and hes a veryi dont want to say lighthearted but he makes me feel lighthearted and hes fun to interact with and his worries and doubts are just im typing this on my pc so i cant emoji this but theres an emoji to explain my reactionĀ
My thoughts on their writing style as a whole:I loovvvee iittt i think ur v succinct but do some really good descriptions as well, and you do not have the flaw of too much exposition (like me ur better than me is what im sayin)
Situation(s)/Plot(s) Iād love to see their muse(s) in:i have,, a few plots id like to do w kitten and tielo but none that are fully formed enough just yet so idk well seeĀ
Someone else I love seeing them interact with:you and i forgot their url but the aradia blog those are good
Anything else I want to say about their roleplaying:u are so much better than u think
If We Know Each Other
What I Think Are Their Best Qualities:@ all
What I Think Are Their Strengths:cym comes up with some pretty awesome plots and au ideas so creativity for surehes also just funny cym is funny
A Memorable OOC Interaction Of Ours:the bible
Why Others Should RP With Them:because cym is a sweetheart whoĀ
How Others Should Approach Them:listeni know nothing about approaching peoppledont ask me this
Other Roleplayers Iād Recommend To Them:@ everyone
Anything else I want to say about them:i can spell
once upon there was a gay on th e moon bc of a really lovng alternate au idea where elc turened BAD and klaus had a 1000 year nap and it'd take too long to fucking explain this so just roll with it ok. this gay--its elcrest btw hes also a Bad Boy now; he rly likes hot topic and thinks those t shirts with sarcastic sayings are actually rly funny but we all know they aren't--was feleing emo bc he couldn't see his bf xen o bc he betrayed him. so he stayed in his room whining abt how fgay he was until eve showed up
"hey whats wrong elc mother is here for u" even tho shes like 5000 years old and looks like shes 2 and also a rock (but im not rockist guys i promise). elc looked at her with his optics shining in the pale argentate light. good thing hes the seme here bc otherwise he'd start crying. in reality he rly wanted to fucking bone xeno bc obviously they had a lot of gay sex b4 they tried to kkill his mom once nad staring at rocks all day kinda sucks.
a;so burnign alive but hes kind of over that phase.
"im sad my bf left me for 1000 years can i pls go back to earth my raging hard on can't be satisfied bc rocks. my dicks not a jack hammer even tho im jacking it all the time (thats what guys do right bitch i dont know)" eve was so offended she put her hands on her giant rock self thats not just herself. its rly fucking complicated shut up u came here for the gay sex not instructibles on how physical forms manifest.
"we dont say ROCKS in this household young man!!!!"
"ļ¼¢ļ¼µļ¼“ ļ¼ļ¼Æļ¼Æļ¼Æļ¼ļ¼ļ¼ļ¼ļ¼ sorry i forgot to turn off my seme voice lemme adjust my mic it happens when my dick is hard" elcrest coughed twice "ok sounds good, BUT MOM I RLY NEED TO NUT. YOU KNOW NUT I'M SAYING... ITS ALL OR NUTTING BUT MOSTLY NUTTING IN XENO'S SWEET HOT BUNS"
"stop talking abt nuts u disgusting boy fine, god, if u leave me alone u gaylord"
and then eve punched him so hard in the dick that elcrest landed on earth in a giatn crater. how hes still alive is bc he still had some continues left like in mario even though this is a srpg game. once elc recovered he struck a pose and laughed evilly while twirling his mustache.
"finally...... I have RETURNED for xeno's hot man breasts! the world cannot stop me now!!" he cackly cackkled and quickly ripped off the fake mustache he put on just for this one scene. then elc went on a quest to find where klaus was and bc the author is too lazy to write any tansitional scenes.
elc found him chilling in his bed reading a book that was called Sweets and You: Do sweets make u inherantly Gay? elcrest made the PFFT noise. ofc they make u gay, fuckiing idiot book. he could write better than that author. in fact, elcrest was gonna do that when he got home bc obviously if this trash is published any shit elc wrote would be good.
NO! he had to focus! but he couldnt stop staring at xenos man boobs and felt his dick get hard again. elc got a nose bleed too bc thats what happens in anime right. i played persona 4 i know what im about
"damn u xeno." elc said thru his nosebleed and klaus looked up bc the author cant fucking rmemeber who is klaus and who is xeno and was surprised i remmebred his name but could not remember remember the 5th of novemember
"what"
"XENO IT IS I" since h e was caught red handed he just kickflipped through the window anyway. he did a sick flip then stood in the middle of klauses room. klaus made a gay gaspp
"alto! what are u doing hre!?" klaus said, bc in this AU that was his codename. elc wanted to be currently doing that but eve said no. fuck his mom. except please dont bc i know you sick fucks are thinking abt it.
"I HAVE COME TO BRING YOU BACK TO THE GAY SIDE, XENO WE HAVE COOKIES. bc i really miss that bammin slammin bootilicious sex we used 2 have and you are in fact bammin slammin bootilicious. also have u heard the word and gospel of our savior mother" elc said gayly
"dude no please stop preaching in my house im a changed man now" xeno pirouetted out of bed
"cmon man im ur seme u cant refuse we made like a yaoi blood oath u cant go back on ur word" elc pushed him back on thebed bc he'd have his ass yet anyway so no real use getting up. bc what is consent anyway hes Bad
"o shit really huh" klaus paused in thougt and bad elc laughed evilly. his plan was working!! all he had 2 do was the final touches! i mean besides touching xenos dick or whatever we're not yet. sorry u have to suffer for ten more paragraphs for sweat boy on boy. elc then turned around an produced a kitty keyboard from the recesses of his coat tails. xeno made the :O face and elc sat down bc playing while standing rly fuckin g sucks
"i wrote this for u on the moon so you'll be hypnotized by my sick beats" then he pulled the mic out of the keyboard and made a sick beatbox noise. No i dont know what the fuck it sounds like just google it. klaus blushued and made another gay gasp and elc made the >:3 face
then be started to play the piano keyboard. he was playing cruel angel thesis, their theme song that they had decided at 1am while xeno was drunk af. Ā it was their theme song despite none of them speaking fucking japanese but they just felt it in their SOULS. it was rly gay. elc was going so fucking hARD that his hard on was getting 40 hard ons. and thats four tens the hard ons. and its rad.
except the ebst part was it was all in meows so it spoke 2 klaus' furry soul.
klaus nyaed softly in surprise and suddenly all his memories of being xneo were restored!!! he gave into the desire that he craved in his soul and opened his big man arms bc for some reaon everyone thinks dudes are thirsty af. dont ask me why
"elc1!1 pls take me!! but be gentle my ass hasnt been ravaged in 1000 years (sick reference to hilda and altos magical wedding night by sorunort like, comment, subscribe for more sick referneces like this one)" xeno mewled like afucking furry and elc nodded once. xeno walked up to elc an touched his man boob sensually even tho xeno is like 60 feet taller than elc just imagine it ok
elc now has sunglasses just bc i think its a funny image
"xeno...... lets do it" elc said softly
"o h elc senpai......." xeno meowed
"and i'll keep my sunglasses on bc i hate the sun #moonlifeforever" and xeno gayzed into his emotion shields sensuallyier. then elc kissed him passionately and their tongues battled for dominance but we all know klaus is a fucking bottom bitch as stated in hilda and altos magical wedding night by sorunort paragraph 17 and 18 bc it was a dialogue.
then elc ripped off his clothes bc hes fucking JACKED and jACKED OFF and xeno gay gasped forlike the third time in this fic. elc was fuckign shredded. legends told of his abs but this time it was real. almost like the fact that shaved ice flavors dont actually exists the syrup is just food coloring. Ā his dong dangled in the breeze and xeno was turned tf on so he took off his clothes too bc hes not a god damn animal god whats wrong with u elc.
except elc didnt take off the sunglasses like he promised so those were still on dont worry readers i got you covered.
"get on ur knees dude and give me a wet willy but like on my dick" elc demanded
"wtf no"
"dude u cant say no its a smutfic"
"ok yeah i guess i kinda do like sucking dick or somethign"
"PREPARE TO EAT YOUR LAST DICK, XENO" elc cackcled and then xeno succed his dick like no tomorrow. elc practically creamed right there bc he couldnt get his rocks off on the moon for 1000 years (hahaha no im not gonna stop makign rock jokes). also xeno has no gagreflex bc he succed dick like a thousand times. once that was over elc just punched his dick in xenos hot cross buns and xeno meowed again
"why are u still a furry after 1000 years" elc asked but continued to Ravage The Promised Ass
"do u nyat like it erucu-kun???" xeno purred and elc shook his head
"no ur still banging its ok"
NUT THEN (i wanted to write but but i typoed and decided to keep it its funnier this way) xenos ass started 2 glow with a new holy light
"WHAT tHE FUCK" elc yelled
"my ass was actually the only way we could turn u good again! the more u fuck me the gooder u are!" and elc gasped gayily! no! his plan was working against him! he could alredy feel the goodness (haha get it bc fucking is hot i guess) turning him good! he had 2 pull out but found he couldnt. xeno was just too bammin slammin bootlicious
"HOW DARE YOU TRICK, I, ELCREST THE CONDICKTOR" he roared and xeno was tuned on again bc roaring is prolly a furry thign im not a furry im sorry
"it was for ur own good elc bc i love you!" xeno dokied so hard there were shoujo sparkles and even elc got shoujo sparkles. his azure optics glew like stella glow and u could almost see constellations in them. except there were sunglasses so u couldnt actually see it but the reader can. xneo was right. he was his tru Ā love..... not the Mother..... his mom was lame anyway all she did was talk to rocks
"xeno.............." elc said wiwstfully before bangin xeno harder. their bangin was so intense everyone could hear it in the kngihts barraks. it was so loud that even ana in her coma woke up for like a second to be like The Gays are At It Again. soon enough the banging was sucessful. elc glew in a beautiful magical girl ligtht and he was become good again. xeno shed a single tear but licked it away
"im cured! xeno ur ass did it! plus that was hot" elc smiled and im pretty sure xeno cried bc look at that man. hes so beautiful. please take the $2 from my purse. they embraced in a gay way. it was cute and xeno did a thumbs up and ana's face appeared at 20% opacity in the bg and she was also winking
"elc i am so glad u are back and i love u" then they made out. for a rly long time too bc theyre so fucking GAY good lord how could stella glow keep this under wraps. then they decidd they had to punch eve in the rock bc she was a dickw hile elc was being emo and stuff. BUT FIRST, xeno got porked lke 80 more times b4 then bc 1000 years does a lot do u.
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For the Kpop ask thingy - don't worry! You won't get none because I am asking 1 (between any of the HV members), 18, 20, 30, 31 (of HV), and 33!!!
hahaha awww thank uuu (that sounds sarcastic but it is 100% genuine)
1 - who has the best body rolls in hv?MAN it depends on the era theyāre all always too much but seoyoung during wiggle wiggle/iām ill was. wow but also yy n recently yeoreum
18 - who would work well as a solo artist?this is difficult i would be sad seeing any member of hv without the others (tho ora lol) so i canāt say them i would love to see sejeong have a solo mini or any member of mamamoo (moonbyul maybe) and i swear to god if taehyun doesnāt have a great solo career iāll burn buildings down
20 - who are some of your top bias wreckers?ot6 biased for hv so theyāre constantly ruining each other lol i used to be REALLY sumin biased (sonamoo) like a proper stan from debut then d.ana ruined everything n i ult chanmi but aoaās jimin is. so small n so cute but also so badass n i love her too n i was always dami biased when dreamcatcher were minx n iām still dami biased but gahyeonās SMILE??
30 - fave choreography?i LOVE sonamooās choreo for both i like u too much n i think i love u theyāre so energetic (tho recently dreamcatcherās chase me choreo is insane and lit n i love the gun thing helbi do at the start of mysterious itās so hot)
31 - ur favourite thing, personality wise, about each member of hvi realised this was going to get long so
alice - she is so real n genuine like the wholeĀ āāā4dāāā thing in kpop kind of gets on my nerves bc it can be so put on sometimes but alice is just. genuinely funny and an idiot thereās a quote where araās likeĀ āwhat you see is what sheās really likeā and i just think her personality rly shines thru whatever sheās doing and u can tell everyone rly enjoys being around her
nara - sheās so HUMBLE sheās just. so sweet like i think she rly thinks of hv as like her sisters n her friends n obviously i canāt know that lol no one can but like it would be so easy for her to be claiming all this attention for herself and kind of lowkey mentioning hv sometimes but no sheās ALWAYS bringing things back to helbi even in little asides on lotj likeĀ āi miss the members so muchā etc n she works so hard but thereās nothing affected or arrogant about her at all
lime - nothing i hate her no iām joking itās the same thing as alice rly she doesnāt care aboutĀ āimageā n sheās so fucking talented but u donāt see her like steamrolling over the group or constantly talking about it and sheās so lovely about interacting w fans of all the members i think sheās the one who appreciates cupids the most sheās always making little comments n being generally sweet to everyone what isnāt there to like about limeās personalityĀ
yooyoung - omg i feel like yyās become rly mature and calm n cool headed n i get the feeling that people like having her around bc sheās just so chill n grown up and ready to do anything like she seems so unaffected even tho sheās been in dramas n stuff like sheās totally committed to anything she sets her mind to idk i love her i think sheās a sweetheart i donāt think thereās anything bitchy or horrible in her sheās just super mature and focused (but also still a baby icb the words hot and creamy left her mouth)
seoyoung - oh man i always get the feeling that seoyoung is kind of shy and a bit awkward and itās so ENDEARING like sheās always being rly extra w fanservice but i think she lowkey exaggerates it all so she feels like she has a solid role in the group besides her vocals if u get me n i think itās just so sweet i just want to hug her and tell her we all love her
yeoreum - she has properly blossomed omg she was so much quieter during ss and now sheās ridiculous she rly feels like aliceās little sister itās so sweet lol i think she must be a lot of fun to be around i just want to repeat what i said about alice rly thereās a video where aoa win n chanmi turns to hug her n yeoreum is so genuinely excited for her n she becomes aoaās lil cheerleader for the rest of the time sheās onstage n thatās it thatās my favourite part of yeoreumās personality in a video
that took so long and i kept making myself stop bc i was being too extra lol how embarrassing
33 - which idol is closest to your ideal type?lime iām rly sarcastic n ironic n generally horrible irl n i always feel like our personalities would work rly well n weād just constantly beat each other up but also be adorable??? also sheās really hot lol ss era lime is. a goddess i just want to date her