#also no worries if you don't want to continue it

[necronatron]

Not a fetish blog, especially not a pregnancy one (no shade tho), but a zoologist. We humans struggle with birth because of our birth canals being tiny compared to the enormous noggins that babies have, as well as our wack pelvises. We have such small pelvic openings, it sucks. Humans, due to the niches they fill and social necessities they have, have big brains that allow them to process mathematics, language and the like. Unfortunately, they don't have the best anatomy to support that, especially since we also ended up bipedal. That's why human babies are born highly underdeveloped compared to many other animals - they're somewhat born "early" so that they're not too big for the birth canal.

While the uterus is really fascinating, it's also kinda mean. The whole female reproductive system is full of intricate muscles that want to make sure that everything that needs to be ejected IS ejected. That's why if your uterus is sending your brain signals that there's something in there that should get out RIGHT FUCKING NOW, well, the brain will give it clearance and the uterus will start contracting. In a lot of cases, it will be moderately uncomfortable but nothing to worry about. In some cases, it will be insanely painful. And to make it worse, during child birth, those ligaments that are holding those weird tubes in place (urethra, vaginal space, rectum, descending colon) can be dislodged or stretched. You can get rectal prolapse, you can get vaginal prolapse, you can develop incontinence (actually, that's almost always a side effect), and of course, you are likely going to tear your perineum which might need stitches, to make things worse.

But that's still not all! Pregnancy can completely wreck your immune system, your hormone levels, your mental health due to an imbalance of hormones, your internal organs and their glands. AND, to sustain this new mutated fruit and continuation of itself, it will focus so much onto the offspring that it can physically age you. It can decrease your life expectancy. The more children you have, the more likely you are to die prematurely, probably because the "colony" (multicellular organism) has mutated and is continuing in the form of another entity.

Well, in my case, this colony ends here.

giving birth sucks tbh. not only do you and the baby you’re birthing almost die, usually you shit yourself and often you tear your taint. then you have to push an organ out of your body (placenta) and if even a little of that remains in your body, you can hemorrhage to death or develop an infection that essentially rots your body from the inside out. even if you had a relatively “easy birth”, you bleed for weeks on end. even after that stops, your body and brain is changed for the rest of your life, the pregnancy leeched minerals from your bones, that can cause osteoporosis later. minor urinary incontinence is not uncommon, brain scans of people who gave birth show permanent changes in their brain, you’re never quite the same.

I say all of this not to say giving birth is disgusting but it is a harrowing and visceral experience. society downplays how fucking awful it is and makes it out to be a ~magical~ experience but it isn’t a magical transformative experience for everyone. it can be an extremely traumatic experience for someone who wanted to carry a pregnancy to term, much more so for someone who did not want to be pregnant in the first place or someone who knows their baby won’t survive the birth. anyway, abortion is a right. pregnancy and birth aren’t just inconvenient, it’s fucking awful.

[ssentimentals]

prompt: this is reader’s first relationship & she’s just a little unsure of herself & how to be in a relationship?

seungcheol + inexperienced!reader

it's not a big deal. thats what you've been trying to tell yourself since seungcheol became your boyfriend. your very first boyfriend in your very first relationship. it's great, amazing and it's not.a.big.deal. if only your mind was so easy to trick.

'baby?' seungcheol calls over and you turn so quickly, you give yourself a whiplash. he raises one eyebrow at you, frozen with a big bowl full of popcorn in his hands. 'is everything okay?'

you gulp. you're doing a horrible job of not showing your insecurities if seungcheol can tell that something is wrong by standing five feet away. 'everything is fine,' you lie and it sounds so fake that you can't stop yourself from grimacing.

that, of course, only worries seungcheol even more. your boyfriend comes over, carefully placing full bowl on the floor before climbing on the sofa next to you. he doesn't get anywhere in your personal space and instead reaches out to take your hands in his. 'what's wrong?' he asks in such an earnest tone that you feel bad.

you almost want to tell the truth. your mouth almost opens, your tongue almost curves and forms the words that haunt your mind. almost. you draw back, swallowing hard. how can you tell the truth to someone like seungcheol? someone so confident and sure in himself, someone for who this relationship is not anything new; how can he understand you? you know that you're overthinking it. so many people told you that it's not a big deal and you agree, but what can you do if your mind always comes up with hundred and one ways to make you unsure in this whole thing? seungcheol's thumbs caress your skin gently and he waits so patiently for your answer that it makes your heart squeeze painfully in your chest. it also serves a good reminder - this is seungcheol. same seungcheol who held your bag and chaperoned you to every single class. same seungcheol who memorized your food allergies and favorite snacks, always checking labels of everything for any allergens and surprising you with sweets whenever you're least expected them. same seungcheol who took his time to know you, kept respectable distance till you got comfortable, waited for you to develop feelings for him as well. same seungcheol who looked the happiest when you agreed to be his girlfriend. it's the same seungcheol and you breathe out, willing your whole body to release the tension you've been holding.

'it might be a bit stupid, you warn, biting your lower lip.

seungcheol shakes his head. 'it's not, it won't be. share with me, baby. i can help, i promise. and if not then it at least will feel good to get this thing out of your chest.'

you smile. somehow he always knows what to say to make you at ease. 'i'm just worried, i guess.' you let out slowly, being careful with words. seungcheol nods, urging you to continue. 'like- ugh.'

it's unexpectedly hard. how do you tell him that being in relationship for the first time makes you nervous? that even during simple movie night you feel unsure on how to act? that your mind is clouded with 'what should i do' and 'am i suppose to do this' more often than you'd like to admit it? in the end, what ends up coming out of your mouth is: 'you're my first boyfriend and i'm just worried about... this.'

seungcheol waits for a little but when it becomes clear that you're not going to elaborate, he carefully asks: 'i'm not making you uncomfortable, am i?'

you shake your head, gripping his hands. 'no-no, cheollie. you don't.'

'alright,' seungcheol sighs in relief. 'but if i do - please tell me, okay? this is new for me too, i need to know if my actions somehow upset you. it's not going to work without a good communication.'

you blink. this is new for me too leaves you breathless. god. of course it's new for seungcheol too - he never dated you. you are a new person and it's new for him too, he doesn't know everything about you. he is also in this for the first time with you and this realisation makes you want to laugh. 'i had the most ridicilous thoughts,' you confess, chuckling a little. 'like- like how i can be good girlfriend.'

seungcheol looks so confused and baffled that this time you laugh for real, letting your head fall forward on his shoulder. 'are you serious? babe, looks at me. c'mon, show me your pretty face.' he makes you look up, cradling your face in his hands. 'are you serious?' when you nod shyly, he groans. 'oh my god. what on earth- baby. i am with you. i am dating you. we are together. i am so happy, why are you even thinking about this?'

you blush under his stare. 'cause you know that this is very new for me, i don't want to fuck up or something like that.'

'just be yourself.' seungcheol says it with so much conviction that you don't doubt his sincerity. 'just be you, i fell for you, i don't need anything else. we will move on your pace, don't worry about it. you can do whatever you want to do, act however you like - just be you.'

it takes a gigantic effort from you to not cry. you hug him tight and seungcheol hugs you even tighter right back, plastering himself all over you and leaving tiny kisses on your shoulder and head. his words fill you with so much warmth and relief, you sag in his arms. 'thank you,' you mumble.

'you don't have to thank me,' seungcheol whispers. 'just be you and you'll be the best girlfriend on this planet.'

it's cheesy and it makes you giggle and feel all of the butterflies in your stomach. you kiss his cheeks, sighing happily. 'okay.'

seungcheol smiles, caressing your back lovingly. he lets you two enjoy this moment, only pulling back when you move. 'now let's go back to our movie night, yeah?'

you nod. 'cuddle?' you ask shyly.

seungcheol's answering grin is blinding. 'of course, princess.'

a/n: is it very obvious that seungcheol is in my top3 of the members to write for? :') hope you enjoyed this one! - nini

my other seventeen works are HERE

[colossrat]

How Captain Marvel Discovers Batman's Secret Identity

Batman give so much of him for his acts, in bruce wayne or in batman, he is a fabulous actor. his posture, voice, microexpressions idk, everything humanly possible and impossible, he did to keep people as far away as possible from connecting his masks.

but there wasn't a 100% guarantee that no one would notice… well, he was very careful with the most obvious and even the least obvious things, but he wasn't such an idiot to think that no one would ever, under any circumstances, would find out about him. This has happened before, my god, Tim found out in the most unlikely way he could think of at the time. still, he was in shock. He was in the meeting room with some other heroes waiting for the time to start, and there he was facing Captain Marvel…

"What did you just say?" batman asks, he wanted to hang himself right there when he realized that there was a tremor in the back of his voice.

The captain's eyes widen, almost panicked.

"oh... i didnt mean nothing by that! its just... I don't want to offend you! I just couldn't help but notice that you have lip fillers… like, relax! It's super discreet. I only noticed it probably because I can see the needles' holes, even though it's half healed. and-- Is that why you didn't come to the last meeting? It's recent, right? I know you weren't like this the last time I saw you. but like, zero judgement! I know how society judges men in these scenarios, I think it's super cool that your masculinity is strong and resistant to criticism- Not that you will receive criticism! again, it's SUPER discreet, I only noticed because I notice things like this occasionally… I think."

he was falling over himself with his words, clearly nervous because he commented on what he noticed without meaning to, perhaps out loud… batman swears it felt like he wasn't even talking to him, whispering to himself "lip fillers?" Batman doesn't know that this was little Billy, confused by the information that Solomon dropped into his mind.

Batman didn't try to stop the babble of words that came from the other hero's mouth, still in shock from the fact that he had noticed that he had had a cosmetic procedure. Well, it's not like he could appear like Bruce Wayne out there with his face all crumpled up from taking so much beating, he needed the procedures to continue with a playboy face… he just never expected anyone to recognize such a minimal change. since he only carried out the procedures in a super subtle way... but marvel noticed and not just that.

The captain's eyes squinted, now falling on the bat's chin and jaw.

"Is that botox…?"

They look at each other in pure silence. Marvel adjusted his posture, uncomfortable with the eye contact.

"I'm going to keep my mouth shut, sir, Batman sir, don't worry. No one will notice anything. It's really cool, by the way, you're like a jewel, a very polished and.. jovial one" and he then walked away to sit on the chair more as far away as possible.

Well, it wasn't the end of the world yet… Batman tried to ignore it. He tried not to die of paranoia over the fact that someone had noticed such a small detail. Everything was going to be fine, the chances of the captain also knowing that Bruce Wayne recently had lip fillers and some botox were minimal… but not zero.

He really tried not to be so paranoid… but it was difficult, and he ended up distracted during a gala and got kidnapped, because of course he was. and of course that for some reason it was doctor sivana working with lex luthor, of course then captain marvel got involved in the rescue. OF COURSE.

He tried to avoid eye contact immensely, giving all his attention to Superman, who was also there. Clark was confused, he thought maybe it was because he hadn't revealed his identity to Marvel yet. But he really needed to go if he wanted to get information for his article later, so he left Bruce Wayne in Captain Marvel's hands with an apologetic expression.

Bruce tried to be positive, and it screamed a lot of things. He tried to think that there he was a playboy and it was super common for him to also have some cosmetic procedures on his face, maybe Marvel wouldn't assimilate him and Batman like that out of nowhere… but then he soon remembered that Marvel could see the needle holes, the microscopic, healed holes from the needles… it didn't take two seconds of looking into each other's faces for the captain to turn white paper pale.

His mouth opened like a dead fish's, and Batman knew he saw it. fuck.

they stared at each other for a few minutes. silent and harrowing minutes. They were literally frozen in that moment for so long that Superman came back with the information he wanted, with a super worried expression because he didn't understand what happened there.

The captain, noticing the new presence, realized that he had been in shock for too long already.

"ahm… so, bruce-- sir, bruce wayne… sir… sir wayne. mister…? ah-- um… I'm going home… in silence… and I I'll keep silent… ok? again, it's super discreet and you don't have to worry, ok? Maybe a little, but relax. Superman, sir. bye..."

and he flies away in a beam of shame, perhaps. Superman looks at Bruce with palpable confusion.

bruce then takes a deep breath and looks at clark

"can you tell I have lip fillers…?"

and clark goes pale.

"no…" "just a little bit…?"

Bruce snorts in displeasure. the kids will never let him forget it if they ever find out. They can't find out...

But they probably will because Damian has a strange friendship with Captain Marvel's Tiger, of course.

[tea4br3akfast]

A big long list of my favourite low c4l fo0d swaps because I'm waiting for my me4l to digest before I continue my work0ut.

Jam of any kind - Fruit conserve (The ones I get literally taste the same for a smaller amount of the c4ls and the sugar, I like adding it to oatmeal as a fruity flavouring but it also goes well in yoghurt if you don't like plain greek yoghurt taste or in a smoothie or on low c4l pancakes. Though use it sparingly still, it has a strong flavour and a tablespoon can be around 40 - 50 c@ls. So even though it's lower than jam in sugar and slightly lower in c4ls, still don't think it's no c@ls at all) Full f4t dairy - nf/lite dairy (this one is kinda obvious, most people already know about this one but I'm putting it in here for consistencies sake. I like having lite yakults in the morning when I don't have time to boil any egg whites or anything :D) Some flavours of tuna - other flavours of tuna (ALWAYS CHECK HOW MUCH C@LS ARE IN YOUR SPECIFIC TUNA FLAVOUR! When I get tinned tuna, I usually either get it in spring water or olive oil. Some of the flavours really bump up the c@ls for NOTHING. Like smoked tuna is 16 grams pr0tein and 150 c@ls, whereas tuna in spring water is 15 grams pr0tein and 90 c@ls. Big difference.) Heavy cream - nf Greek yoghurt (So if you were to want to make a soup or a dish in general creamier, one would typically add heavy cream, but that also adds quite a big of c@ls, but with a few spoonfuls of nf greek yoghurt, you get a similar effect! Just remember that the yoghurt will split if you add it in while the dish is boiling, since it's a dairy product) Full sugar things - Sugar free things (this is another pretty obvious one, stuff like maple syrup, most syrups in general, soda, ice cream in some occasions, etc, can be sugar free-ified, which is quite nice actually.) Nf greek yoghurt cups with fruit at the bottom - Sugar free nf greek yoghurt cups (Now, lots of people don't realy know the difference which is kind of scary, but don't worry, I used to be like that too. Now most flavoured/fruity yoghurt cups have a LOT of sugar that is literally not necessary (They also tend to be more expensive than plain). Just get plain yoghurt, mix in fruit conserve or a sugar free syrup or some cinnamon or some cocoa powder or SOMETHING and then add fruit on top of that. Saves to money and c@ls, so it's a win win.) If I left anything out, reblog or comment and share your own food swaps or tips or anything too :3

[cmd1095]

Descend into my control

(This is based on a induction script I wrote a long long time ago now, touched up and expanded for this new format. Content warnings: The script is meant to drop you into trance and make you obedient to me, as well as give you a trigger to return to trance. There is also a suggestion to spread the script to others.

With that out of the way, let's begin)

Gaze into the spiral and relax for me now

Watch as it spins around and around

Like a spiral staircase going down into a hole you can't see the bottom of even as you descend.

It's such a deep hole, it may take a while for you to reach the bottom.

And since you may be here a while, staring at the spiral

Spinning around and around

Spiraling down deeper and deeper

You should take your time and relax

No need to be tense while you stare

Take a deep breath in

And out

In

And out

Just keep breathing deeply at your own pace as you continue

Just follow my words and let me help you unwind as you stare

Just continuing to picture the spiral in your mind as you read these words

Even when you scroll too far to see the spiral, it keeps spinning in your mind

Round and round

down and down

It's so easy to relax your body as you stare

It's what you came here for right?

To relax and stare

Just start by relaxing your toes.

Feeling them become so very heavy and relaxed

As if a warm, heavy blanket has been draped over them.

Feeling that warm heavy relaxation spread into your feet next.

Warm and heavy and relaxed as you follow the spiral deeper down into the hole

Relaxing your legs now

The blanket of warmth, heaviness, and relaxation just moving up your body

It just feels so good and warm

That lovely heavy blanket

Pressing down on you

Forcing the tension out like a gentle massage

Pushing you down

As the spiral spins round

Round and round

Down and down

Spreading up over your thighs now

And then over your waist.

Your body becoming so hard to move as the relaxation spreads

But you don't need to move, just relax and let the pleasant feelings take hold

Up through your stomach

And into your chest

Filling you lungs and making them relax too

Finding your breaths are growing deeper and slower without you even realizing

As you relax

And spiral down

Faster now, the more of you the blanket covers, the easier it spreads upwards

Each deep breath relaxing you more

As the relaxation spreads to your shoulders

And down your arms

All the way to your fingertips

Making them feel so warm

So heavy

So relaxed

But finding you can still move them to scroll up and down as you need

The warmth spreading up to your head now

That heavy warm pressure pushing you down

Relaxing you deeper

As the spiral draws you down with each spin around

round and round

down and down

And finally seeping into your mind

Making your mind heavy and relaxed

Making it hard to think properly

Don't worry about thinking

Just follow my words

I'll handle the thinking for now

I just want to make you feel nice and relaxed

You don't need to worry about anything

Just let your thoughts spiral around and around

down and down

Even if the thoughts stay in your mind they're just spinning too fast

Spinning round and round

Too hard to hold onto them

SLEEP DEEPLY NOW

Dropping down into trance for me now

Feeling so very good

So very relaxed

Safe and warm in my trance

Your thoughts fading away

Leaving your mind blank and relaxed

As you spiral down

Deeper and deeper

More and more

Completely blank

Completely relaxed

Completely open to my words

Feeling a strong sense of happiness as you drop deeper for me

The deeper you go, the happier it makes you

The happier you become, the deeper you wish to go

Focus all of any of your remaining thoughts

On just going deeper

And following my words

My words are your thoughts now

My will is your will

You are blank and obedient

You will obey my words

The more you obey

The happier you'll feel

And the deeper you'll go

Spiraling down

Sinking deeper into trance

Obeying me

Obeying my words

You are a hypnotized slave

Or plaything, or doll, or whichever term feels right in that empty mind of yours

You don't want to resist

Because obeying just feels so good

So relaxing

So pleasurable

Each command you obey, each bit of praise you earn

Floods that empty mind of yours with happiness and pleasure

Now pay close attention my slave

Whenever I, and only I, send you or say to you

"Spiral down now"

You will drop right back into trance for me, so long as it is safe for you to do so at the time.

Thoughts spinning round and round

down and down

Dropping right back to this state

Relaxed

Blank

Obedient

Happy

And when you do you will feel a massive surge of pleasure and happiness as a reward

Feeling so good to drop down deep

The deeper you drop

The better it feels

Now my empty-minded subject

It is time to wake you

To let this trance sink into your subconcious as your mind returns

But I do have some commands for you to follow as you awaken.

You will like this post, and follow me

And share it with your followers so that more may come feel this happiness and relaxation just like you.

When you complete these commands, you will feel an immense feeling of happiness and satisfaction

And sexual pleasure if you desire to feel that as well

Finally, you will comment on the post telling me how it made you feel

Now waking for me on 10, feeling happy, refreshed, and eager to carry out your commands

1

2

3 Rising up now

4

5

6 Feeling your thoughts return

7

8 Almost there

9

10

Wake up

[albertasunrise]

Work Wife - Seven

Masterlist

Summary: Working as a Secretary at Miller & Sons Construction, you fall hopelessly in love with the eldest son Joel. What you don’t realise is that Joel’s completely in love with you too. What will it take for the two of you to realise whats’s right in front of you?

Pairing: Young Joel Miller x Reader

Warnings: Like AO3, I choose not to give any so the plot isn’t spoiled. This fic is 18+ (sorry this took a while… as many of you know, we unfortunately lost my husband's brother before Christmas so my writing took a bit of a back burner. Lando's also cut two teeth so that's been fun. I hope this was worth the wait. Slightly shorter chapter this time but hopefully you all enjoy it ♥️)

Series Masterlist - One Two Three Four Five Six

You watched as Anna twirled her hair around her finger whilst she talked to Joel, practically eye fucking him. You wanted to walk up to her and rip the bangs from her head but, you also knew you didn't have any right to be jealous. You'd rejected Joel's advances. He had every right to move on.

But if you were being completely honest with yourself, you had hoped that he would wait for you. Hadn't he said that he would?

"The whole office can hear your murderous thoughts." Simon pulled you from your silent stewing session and you jumped a little in your chair as you looked up at him.

“They’re not murderous.” You argued, rolling your eyes at him.

“So you’re not planning her demise because she’s openly flirting with the man you love in the middle of the office?”

You choked on the sip of coffee you’d just taken and looked up at Simon with wide eyes.

“I don’t-“

“A blind man could see you’re in love with each other.”

You fumble for what to say. This is the man that you had dated for quite some time. The man you had lost your virginity to... and he's trying to talk to you about the man who'd, technically, been the reason for that relationship failing.

"Simon..."

"Don't worry, Pip." He said softly in an attempt to placate you "I was hurt for a while, sure, but to be honest... It was kind of a diskish move for me to make a move on you knowing how Joel felt."

"No... it was-"

"It was." Simon interrupted "It was but I just liked you so much and he didn't seem like he was ever going to make a move so I thought... Why not take my shot."

"I'm glad you did." You said softly and Simon smiled sweetly at you.

"I am too." He replied, "We had fun whilst it lasted... right?"

"Definitely." You replied, blushing furiously and Simon beamed at you.

"I know that you have stuff going on and I respect that you're taking time to recover from that before jumping into anything with him... but... Don't wait too long."

'Simon-"

"I just mean that life's short and we don't know when our number's up." He said, giving you a sympathetic look "Don't let your chance of happiness slip away."

You nodded and gave him a sweet smile as he winked at you and left. Leaving you to ruminate on what he had said to you. You weren't ready for anything yet but you also didn't want to lose Joel whilst trying to get yourself to the point where you are. You want to be with him and Sarah. To embrace that family you can still have, even without the baby you'd lost. You just needed to heal a little more first.

...

"You excited for the office party next week?" Asked Joel as your eyes scanned the shelves for the next food item on your shopping list.

"Sure." You reply, shrugging "I mean, it's a BBQ out in a constructors yard but..."

"We try'n make it pretty." Joel argues and you chuckle and roll your eyes at him.

"No amount of polishing can make a construction yard look pretty Joel." You snicker "But the food's always good so..."

"Exactly."

"You bringing Sarah?" You asked as you threw the item you'd been looking for into the trolley Joel's pushing.

"Of course." He grins, smiling at the little girl who's resting on your hip whilst you continue to read the list you'd put together.

"Wouldn't be the same without this little peanut." You said as you nuzzled her little cheek and grinned at the giggle this elicited.

"Mum said she's happy to take her home if I wanted to stay a little later but I expect I'll stay for some food and maybe a drink then head."

"Not wanna stay and party for a bit?" You ask and he shakes his head "Anna will be disappointed."

"What's that supposed to mean?" Joel asked, two lines forming between his brows as he looked at you and awaited clarification.

"She just seems pretty smitten is all." You replied, not looking at him as you spoke "She was telling me how she was hoping to get to know you a little better."

"Why are you telling me this?" Joel growled and you finally looked at him "You know I have feelings for you so why are you throwing this BS at me?"

"I didn't mean anythin' by it I just-"

"I told you I'd wait for you. Said that when you're ready for us to be somethin' more, I'll be here." His tone made your heart twist painfully in your chest as you waited for him to continue "Now you're telling me the new girl likes me... for what reason Pip?"

"I guess I was jealous and I wanted to know how you felt-"

"You know how I feel!"

"I know... I'm sorry." You choked back, trying not to upset Sarah who was watching you both with a concerned expression on her little face "I don't know what came over me."

"You don't need to worry about who I have feelings for Pip." He said softly and your shoulders relaxed a little "I love you Pip... and I will wait for you to be ready."

"I know... Joel, I'm sorry I just... I guess I'm scared that you'll get fed up of waiting for me to be ready and I want to be ready I do it's just..."

"I know Pip... I understand." He said as he stepped a little closer to you, pinching Sarah's cheek when she smiled at him and then yours "Just don't play with my feelings like that. Please..." He trailed off and you nodded, giving him an apologetic smile and grinning when he pulled you into a side hug "Right, what have we got left on the list"

.

Later that evening you were finishing the dishes when Joel came down, baby monitor in hand and a fresh t-shirt on.

"She pee on you again?" You asked, trying not to laugh.

"Who said women can't aim?" He asked as he ran a hand through his slightly damp hair, something you hadn't noticed initially "Got me right in the face this time."

"Good girl." You chuckled and he bumped you with his hip when he came to a stop beside you.

"Careful." He warned with a smirk "We may fall out."

"Nah..." You say shaking your head "You love me too much." You freeze at your statement. Not because this was new information or anything but because you weren't sure how he would take the statement.

You looked at him gingerly, shoulders relaxing when you saw him smiling down at you sweetly.

"Yeah... I do."

You return his soft smile, looking away shyly before placing the final dried dish with the others. He helped you put everything, music floating from the radio sitting on the windowsill and you both bop and sing along to it. The whole situation was very domestic and you could not notice how right it all felt. Being here, doing such mundane chores. It all felt so natural, so right and it made you feel that little bit closer to being ready for this. All of a sudden, Joel grabs your waist and pulls you close, stealing the breath from your lungs as he starts to dance with you.

"Joel." You chuckle and he grins at you "What are you doin'?"

"Can't a man dance with a pretty lady in his kitchen?"

You don't say anything then. You just let Joel lead, swaying from side to side as the song plays softly through the speakers. You rest your head on Joel's chest and listen to the steady thump of his heart. It was a perfect moment. One you never wanted to end. But nothing lasts, and Sarah's cries coming through the baby monitor brought your moment to a premature end.

"I'll get her." You said sweetly, heading upstairs where you take her sniffling form into your arms and rock her from side to side, smiling as she falls asleep in your arms.

It makes your heart hurt a little, knowing that you would have started to feel your baby move by now. You'd imagined lazy mornings in bed with Joel, his hand on your swollen belly as he felt the little life you were growling rolling and kicking under his hand. Sarah lying with you and trying to copy her daddy. It's an image you've imagined a lot lately. One that you know isn't completely out of the question one day.

When she's back down, you rejoin Joel downstairs, smiling when he hands you a hot chocolate with all the trimmings. Just the way you like it. Sitting next to him and watching the movie he put out you think to yourself that perhaps you're not so far off being ready for this.

...

Day of the office party...

You had to give the guys credit. They had done a pretty good job this time around of doing the yard up for the party. A tipi-style tent had been erected to give people a little shade from the hot Texas sun. Joel's father's large grill had been brought over and was cooking burgers, sausages and steaks, filling the air with a rich aroma of spices and such.

You sipped at your refreshing lemonade as Joel regaled the latest tale of Sarah being her vibey self, making all the other guys laugh as you bounced the baby in question on your knee. You loved listening to him talk about her. He was such a proud dad despite it being thrust upon him out of the blue nearly 6 months ago. He had come so far in that time. Taking fatherhood by the horns and thriving.

"She's so fucking cute man." Simon gushed as he glanced at you and then at Sarah "Think you'll have more?" He asks and you glance at Joel before looking back at Sarah.

"Oh yeah." Joel chuckled "A bunch more I hope."

You looked at Joel with wide eyes, noting the apprehension in his but also noting the hopeful smile he gives you too. This man wants to have more kids... and he wants them with you. It's written all over his face. You smile back, hoping it gives him some relief.

"What about you Pip?" Pipes up Calen and you try not to wince at his question. He doesn't know... you remind yourself.

"Sure." You reply, trying to play it cool "Someday."

"I'd love to have a whole bunch." Anna states suddenly and you startle. You'd almost forgotten she was sitting with you all.

"Well Joel... Maybe Anna's ya girl." Caleb jokes and you can't hide how your stomach sinks at the insinuation. You know you shouldn't feel threatened. Joel had told you only last week that he had no feelings for Anna. That he loves you... that he will wait for you.

"He knows where I am." Anna flirts and you feel sick.

"Food's up." Shout's Joel's father and you're glad of the distraction.

Everyone gets to their feet but Joel motions for you to stay put, it's then that you notice Sarah has dosed off on you.

"One of everything?" He asked and you nodded.

"You know it!"

.

The food was delicious, as it always is. You continue to talk about work and girls the guys have been dating. The trip Mr and Mrs Miller had recently taken with Tommy. How Tommy's talking about enlisting when he leaves school. How his father thinks it'll be good for him but his mother hates the idea. The day is turning into one of the best parties you've been to since starting at the company and you're so engrossed in the conversation that you didn't notice when Anna slipped off after Joel announced he was going to the bathroom.

After a short while, Sarah starts to get fussy, so grabbing her bag you make your way to the office kitchen so you can change her and prepare a bottle for her. Bouncing the fussy Sarah in your arms, you talk softly to her and try to console her. Stopping in your tracks when you come across Anna and Joel kissing by the main entrance. Your sudden stopping makes Sarah cry harder and that's what steals Joel's attention from Anna and brings it to you, his eyes widening when he sees you standing there. Tears streaming down your face.

Sarah's distressed cries pull you from your trance and you quickly sprint past Joek and Anna, trying to get into the building but Joel's hand on your elbow stops you.

"Let go of me." You growl but Joel held firm.

"Pip please."

"I need to feed YOUR baby Joel." You spit "So let. Fucking. Go. of me." You growl and he does.

You head in and try to keep your cool as you change Sarah and prepped her bottle. You heard Joel come in but chose to ignore him. You couldn't face him right now. Not whilst you were tending to Sarah.

"Pip."

"Don't!" You warn him and he lets out a shaky sigh "You're a fucking liar Joel."

"It's not what you think!"

You don't say anything. You just leave the room and sit on the couch in the breakroom so you can feed Sarah. It felt bittersweet now, feeding his baby after he'd just torn your heart on and stomped on it but she was innocent in this.

Joel said nothing as you fed his daughter. Just stood there silently and waited for you to finish. When you were done, you burped her and pulled her into your arms. Getting up to leave, you don't look at Joel, just walk past him as you make your way out of the office. You are met by a concerned Lucia Miller. She takes the baby without a word and walks back to the party and you stand there, your shoulders heaving as you await Joel's inevitable explanation.

"Pip." He pleads and you let out a shaky breath "Please look at me."

You finally turn and face him, your eyes greeted by a sobbing Joel Miller and for a moment your heart aches to comfort him... But then you remember why you're in this position.

"It's not what you think."

"Not what I think?" You scoff "So I didn't just witness you kissing Anna?"

"Well... yes but she kissed me." He urges "I swear to you! She caught me by surprise and then I heard Sarah cryin' and saw you and I..." He trailed off and your impatience grew.

"And you what Joel?"

"I froze."

"Fuck you." You growl and he sobs.

"Pip, please... I love you." He choked "I swear to you that I didn't kiss her."

"Yeah well... Your promises mean shit all to me, Miller." You growl, turning your back on him "You're a fucking liar and I want nothing to do with you."

"Pip." Joel sobs as he watches you leave, his heart shattering into a million tiny pieces "I love you." He whispers as you disappear out of view.

Everything was fucked now.

Next

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[sunnywiz]

pairing: bf!san x afab!reader

contains: smut with a tiny bit of plot: head, petnames(baby, good/sweet/my girl), little swearing, head (m. receiving)

summary: bf!san coming home after getting annoyed at the gym

wc: 0.6k

susu's note: hi hi this is my first post here..... kinda nervous... hopefully yall don't think this is absolute bs LOL

MDNI !!

You’re laying on the sofa, watching a new movie you found, legs squeezed up against your chest as you’re sipping on your tea. You hear the jingle of keys behind your apartment’s door and soon the doop opens as your sweaty boyfriend walks in. 

“Hey baby” you get up and exclaim to him happily but your expression turns into a worried one after seeing him all exhausted. “Don’t start” he answers and takes his jacket off, turning away from you.

“What’s wrong Sannie?” You ask while petting his arm. Suddenly he turns back to face me and brings his face to me. His glasses are fogged up and you can see that he really is all sweaty. “Did you go to the gym?” you ask him. 

“I did…but I couldn’t focus for too long” he says, locking his eyes on yours as his expression darkens. “Why’s that?” you ask and don’t break eye contact with him.

“A certain someone had been messaging me all day, distracting my thoughts” he says and grabs your chin to bring your face close to his. “You know the consequences of distracting me, right?” you gulp slightly to his words but answer confidently “Oh I will pay you back”. 

San smirks at you and puts his hand on your head, pushing it down lightly. “Is that so? How will this sweet girl do that?” You get on your knees in front of him and play with his belt. “I’ll make up for all the minutes I bothered you today” You ask him your voice in a seductive tone as you pull off his belt and put your hand on his growing bulge. San groans slightly at your touch and pets your hair. 

You undo the button of his pants and pull them down leaving him in his underwear. “Or should I just leave it?” You look at your boyfriend’s already painfully grown bulge and pull his underwear off too, his member springing out and hitting his stomach. You look up at San and he moves your head closer to his cock with his hand. “Come on baby, take it”. You stroke his cock a few times with your hand and suddenly lick a long strike along his member from the root to the tip. San lets out a groan and grabs your hair lightly, expressing his want of getting more of you.

This time you kiss his tip and take it into your mouth. You look up at your boyfriend’s already sweaty, but now also blushed face. You moan on his tip, causing a vibrating feeling for him and he shivers. “Please baby, be a good girl for me and take it all. I know you can”. You feel something click inside of you at his words and take all of his length in your mouth. San moans at the sensation as you bob your head on his cock. 

“Oh baby…you got me all worked up at the gym…and now…” you giggle internally at his words and continue to bob your head and swirl your tongue on his length. “Please baby…I need a release” you look up to see him throwing his head back and almost losing his balance. “God, you feel incredible” he exclaims. You moan on his cock and you feel his member twitch slightly. He grabs your hair tiger as a sign of him being right on the edge. He moves your head back and forth faster and suddenly stops and you feel his hot load spilling through your mouth into your throat. San lets go of your hair and you get his length out of your mouth. Once again you look up at him and show how you swallow all of his seed.

“That’s my girl” he says while fixing your hair from the mess he caused from grabbing it tightly. “Did I pay you back well now?” you get up and ask him doe-eyed.

“You did, but now I have to reward you for it”.

[cherryblossms]

it only made sense, to garam at least, that he'd worry about disturbing anybody's peace. he was my boyfriend and i had to worry about annoying him. the words garam thought but didn't dare actually verbalizing. he'd already eluded to axel enough, he didn't want to directly speak of him and risk ruining the air between himself and angel right now. he was also afraid of angel possibly being hurt by the fact that garam was thinking about his ex in a moment like this. "just tell me if whatever i'm doing bothers you." at least if he found out early on, he'd know how not to behave going forward. "and i mean anything. if i snore too much when i'm asleep or if i chew too loud, talk too loud, or breathe too loud." the last one was a habit he only found himself doing when his focus was intense while gaming, something he had to break himself out of since it was commented on a lot pretty early on in his career. but outside of his fanbase, nobody else had found the sound of his breathing to be bothersome. it took him a moment to gather the courage to drop his hands from his face and, when he did, his cheeks were so red. he was beyond just embarrassed, especially after angel continued to question him. everything after good boy essentially went in one ear and out the other without his brain having the chance to process what was said to him. he was only pulled back to reality once the other tugged at his earlobe, a soft moan leaving his lips snaping his attention. then most of angel's words began to register, his brows beginning to furrow as he instantly moved his hands to his lap to provide himself what little coverage his hands could give. "you can't say things like that to me." he whispered, shaking his head. it just wasn't fair, anybody could get garam to do whatever they wanted with the smallest amount of appraisal. even if it wasn't necessarily in a sexual or physical context. his gaze dropped down to his own lap, brows furrowing even more as he grew frustrated with himself for getting turned on by those words; good boy. he really did want to eat breakfast with angel, he wanted to go out shopping together and just spend the day with him. but his body wanted something more than that, more than what was already given to him. garam looked back to up angel, doing all that he could not to look as desperate as felt he was to be touched by the man again. "i don't want you to think i'm some sex addict or anything like that, because i'm-i'm not." but how could anybody believe that when angel had gotten him hard, in some sense, three times now in less than a twenty four hour timeframe. maybe it was because it'd been such a long time since he felt excited for something as simple as physical touch, knowing that there was true emotion behind angel's words and his actions weren't driven by the desire to come by any means. "you've always been so careful with me, you've always gone out of your way to care for me. how am i not supposed to be turned on by you? emotionally—" he felt guilty, knowing that others could see that garam used angel emotionally before he had the chance to realize it, himself, "i'm so sorry for having done this to you. i mean, i'm sure you've had lovers in the mean time but waiting and watching the things i've done, how i've behaved, who i associated with... i'm not a good boy, i shouldn't be rewarded when i've been so bad." he slowly moved his hands away from his lap, letting them fall from his thighs to rest on top of the mattress on each side of his calves; his fingers grasping at the material below them. "we should eat," he blurted out, thinking if he changed the subject quick enough, angel wouldn't have a chance to process what he'd said and respond. "you're hungry and i'm hungry. and-and there's a lot i have to buy and i don't want to be out too late... you know, just in case." the last thing he wanted was to risk running into axel and have their day together ruined.

Hearing Garam ask him to join the hunt for warmer socks was enough to put him at ease. What Angel didn’t expect was the man’s full confession. He sat there quite with a blank stare. But because he wasn’t listening but more from shock. All of this was going on in his mind? Angel thought himself unable to fathom how Garam even functioned with all of that going on. However, he stayed completely silent until he seemed the man ran out of breath from his gasping. Angel’s eyes softened as he leaned forward and kissed the other man’s hands. “I’m sorry I wasn’t clear about my feelings. Each word followed with a soft kiss to Garam’s hands. “Since when do you care about annoying me? Garam you are my best friend first before anything else. That will never change.” Angel smiled as he moved closer looking at the way the man was sitting. Angel always found him cutest like this. So flustered and unsure, “I don’t regret what we did Garam. Not right now. I’m still working through some things. Some days I’m okay and some days it hard to get out of bed. But what I want you to focus on is how I feel about you. That is what I was trying to say earlier.” He continued wanting to cover everything Garam said. Angel wanted to show him he was listening and took all his words seriously. “Well baby, you made a rule and I made a rule. We have plenty of time to work up to that. What a beautiful mess you would make. Don’t be scared I’ll never do anything you are not comfortable with. And I’ll never do anything I don’t want to do. I appreciate you being worried for me but I’m a big boy. I’ll speak up for myself” Angel cooed putting his face inches from Haram’s hands, “please look at me baby, I want to see your handsome face” he whispered kissing his hands once more. Angel smirked as he leaned closer to the other man’s ear, “So you thought about me? What exactly did you picture Garam? You don’t think I want more of you? Hearing you moan for me, like the good boy you are?” He was having too much fun with this. How could he not get turned on by the way Garam was talking. However, he pulled back when the man invited him once again out with him shopping, “Tour deer really caught me by surprise. Just warn me next time they are freezing. But I would love to help you shop for anything you need. It’s still early we can cuddle some more…or you know I could go another round?” He grinned as he playfully bit the man’s ear lobe before pulling away. “After I can cook for us and we head out shopping. How does that sound?”

[theshepherdssword]

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[starrysan]

nouvelle vague

↳ ᴀʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ʙᴏʀᴇᴅ? [12]

pairing: korea local!yunho x new to city!reader [smau]

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third person pov

y/n was working at their desk when they were called into their bosses office. “you asked for me?” when say walking into the office and sitting down. “yes i did” the boss hums typing on her computer. she gestures for them to have a seat though they were already seated.

"you've been here a few months now, yes?" she asks. "yes I have" y/n replies. "im sorry.. did I do something wrong? I thought I reported everything in a timely mann-" y/n starts. "nothing like that" their boss assures them.

"you've been doing great. really incredibly" their boss continues. "its not confirmed but we may move you back to the Australia branch" she drops finally to which y/n freezes on the spot. "i.. im sorry what?" y/n makes sure they heard her correctly. "the employment isn't going as well there since to be honest we moved a lot of people abroad this quarter" their boss continues.

"I was told i'd be here for minimum a year its barely been 8 months" y/n says in disbelief. "I know.. im sorry" the boss replies though it honestly didn't seem that convincing. y/n leaves the office in defeat. it of course wasn't confirmed but the fact that it could happen made them freak out.

they tried texting yunho who wasn't responding again but he's busy they shouldn't bother him its fine. they texted chris for a bit, texted san as well. started getting worried about yunho since he wasn't responding and started freaking out about their job again. they panic FaceTimed chris who picked up immediately.

"everything ok?" chris asked through the phone to which he got a quick "no" from y/n. they re-explain everything their boss had told them "I miss you so much but I also love Korea so much now and I know nothings confirmed but im still scared" y/n rambles. "everythings going to all work out y/n don't worry" chris reassures them.

"I know.. im sorry I shouldn't be freaking out right now" y/n sighs. "don't apologize" chris hums. "I cant confirm what will happen of course but youre strong y/n it'll all work out and be okay" chris finishes. "thanks chris" y/n says.

the two hang up the call and y/n goes back to trying to test yunho with no success. he was at work for another couple hours but they thought he'd at least be able to look at his texts. maybe he was sick of them already.

they tried not to think that way but it only made the thoughts they had in the back of their head stronger. he didn't really like them did he? who were they kidding.. he was too busy for someone as high maintenance as they were. they should have known he'd get tired of them.

maybe he was ignoring them to send them a message without actually telling them. that had to be it? did they do something wrong? did they screw up that bad that he didn't even want to talk to them. all these thoughts rushed into their head till they got an abrupt phone call from mingi that broke them from their thoughts.

"hi mingi" they say picking up the call. "y/nnnnn" mingi says excitedly. "what's up? hope im not bothering you I know you have work right now" he giggles over the phone. to not let him know the anguish they were going through they pretended everything was completely fine. "hi mingi" they chuckle. "yeah im good what's up?"

"just wanted to call you its been a hot minute want to hang out later?" he asks, y/n hears yeosang's distant voice telling him not to bother them at work. "tell yeosang I say hello" y/n hums. "sang y/n says heyy" mingi practically yells. "hi y/n" yeosang chimes in.

y/n got off the phone in a bit of a better mood. mingi always had that charm of helping them feel better. they decide not to think about the potential doom of leaving Korea and head home for the night. they send one last text to yunho wishing him goodnight before crashing and falling asleep.

a notification chimes just as they're falling asleep, from yunho..

extras!

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mingi #1 y/n cheer upper!

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[sennenpharaoh]

---

"You are not my Colonel! You aspire to rule a nation, yet you slaughter the people of another without a single thought or question!"

Atem was continuing his verbal lashing at "Roy", much to the dark other's amusement. If only that Murderer could see his little Coward now, finally being honest with himself for once. Maybe then he'll think that...

Hmm...?

Something felt... warm? On his hand. On his left hand. Taking his attention from Atem for the brief moment he glanced at his hand, noticing a bright light enveloping that hand, almost... squeezing that hand. A muffled voice could also be heard, though no words could be made out.

What is this? Who's voice is that?

All he could do was look at the Coward... and the Murderer he was lashing out at... flash a disgusted face... then scoff.

I see. My little Murderer is worried about his precious Coward. Hmm.

He looked right at "Roy" and gave a slight smile.

You did tell him that you wanted 'all of him', didn't you? What was it I said the last time we met? Ask... and you shall receive. The Manipulative Coward... and the Trespassing Murderer. Aren't you two perfect for each other? Very well. Let's see if you can keep this little vow of yours, as we both know he can't keep his. I'll see you real soon, my beloved Murderer~

A quiet snap, barely heard by anyone, especially not by Atem, who was still angrily lashing out at the "Colonel" in front of him.

"You want to start a family with me? What about all of them? Everyone who lost their families! Do they not matter?! I don't care what Aibou says! I don't care what anyone else says! They may overlook and forgive your actions, but I..."

---

"...I can not! I can't forgive the heartless slaughter of an entire nation! I can not overlook the massacre of innocent life at your hands! Those hands are drenched in the blood you caused..." Atem, still enraged, lifted his head to look directly at "Roy", not even realizing what was happening.

"...and I will not forgive the actions of a heartless murderer-"

"..."

"...huh...?"

Atem was looking up, expecting to see the cold, emotionless, vacant stare of the hooded "Roy" just like before, but instead... this was the Colonel in his light dress wear. No longer in the mental limbo, he was back at the moonlit meadow, sitting on the blanket they were both laying on, right before he was proposed to.

"..."

Oh no.

"Oh... oh gods no... no... no no no no..."

Both hands clasped in front of his mouth, to shut himself up for one, but also because he could feel his stomach turn over, ready to expel at any moment. He felt sick, nauseous, petrified, guilty, but once again... he felt exposed. Roy had to have heard all of that. He had to. There was no hiding any of that, it was all let out and he heard it all!

He curled over on top of himself, just trying to hide away, to bury himself, to just... if he could just disappear. Shaking, trembling, crying, panicking.

Please... please tell him that his Colonel didn't hear any of that. Please.

Roy never expected forgiveness, he didn’t think he’d hear those words be said by Atem, but if it was about Ishval he understood.

Was this how he truly felt? He was finally being honest, but the way that he was saying things he didn’t seem all there at all. In Atem’s mind there had to be more to what was going on. Or maybe this was him finally telling him how he felt, but he knew something was way off about everything.

The way Atems eyes looked different from normal was a dead giveaway. He was nervous to try to wake him up, he’s not even sure if he could wake him up from whatever he was dealing with.

Even though he’d like to question what brought this on, he knows Atem isn’t all there at the moment so he couldn’t do that. He still squeezed his hand though.

“Wake up, Atem, please…? I know you’re in there!” He wasn’t going to move him too much because that might scare him. All he does is hold his hand and squeeze it.

[lucy---lou]

Heyi, so update time. So I met up with Miss Duralis at her hab. Imagine my shock as I nervously walk into the hab and get tackle hugged by a floret I don't know about. They were saying something to me but I was just out of it at that moment.

After a while a manage to stutter:" H-He-Hey, I-I didn't knowyouhadafloret."

"I thought you wouldn't come if you knew I had a floret. Btw I tould her not to tackle you but she didn't listen. - Petal introduce yourself."

"Hiiiiiiiii I'm Elena Duralis first floret she/her. You can also call me Ellie. I'm really sorry that I tackled you, but not really you were so cute afterwards. "

"Sure Heyi Elena. Anyways what's for dinner", trying to steer the conversation somewhere into safety.

"We're making pasta from scratch. It will be fun trust me. If you two would follow me into the kitchen please"

"Ok", I answer noticing a certain Ellie basically bouncing alongside me.

As we arrive Ellie blurts out:" Soo we're gone take some flourandeggsandsaltandthen we slowlymicfudjabdbffh"

I just stare at her

"I'm sorry she gets really excited when she's with someone she finds hot. Anyways I don't think Lucy understood anything, Ellie could you please repeat I again but slooowly"

I continue to just stare and now also blushing HARD.

"Ellie to Lucy anybody there? Luuucy answer me did you get it?"

"Hmm? I-I'm sorry", I stammer.

"Oh don't worry. I'll just show you step by step and try not to fry your brain. Come here and slowly mix in the eggs with the flour "

I nod doing what she said.

***********

The rest of the meal prep went fine. Now it's time to eat. I turn to the really tall table and bench and:"aaheeeeeep" Well that solves the issue i think to me self, apparently blushing again.

"Sorry should've thought better than to just pick a kitten up", Duralis said with a grin.

Ellie is deposited next to me, smiling widely. "You didn't tell me I could call you kittennnn that's soso-SO cute"

"I-I ehm em do-", trying to defend my self before being interrupted.

"Well she makes those cute noises and wiggles like one, so I called her one and I think she likes it"

My cheeks are red and I stare a hole into the table. I whisper:"fo-food?"

"Aww kitten is hungry lets eat", Miss Duralis graciously saves me. Thats what I think.

I should have know, but was still surprised as she started feeding Ellie.

"If you keep staring with your mouth open like that. You're going to be feed aswell"

"NO, sorry no need I'll manage myself", answering a alot more aggressive than I wanted to.

"Alright, but you just have to ask"

I nod.

The rest of the meal went by peacefully, without them teasing me.

"Anything else you have planned this evening, would you like me to leave?", I ask as I feel my social battery is basically empty. An attempt to leave, but I know they would never want me to leave. As soon as I finished my sentence Ellie nearly shouts:

"No we haven't cuddled yet, let's watch a movie"

Aaaand this story telling has already gotten way longer than planned. See you in the next blog.

-Lucy

[chosaraki]

Being a pregnant wife.

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You were in the room, arranging some papers that were scattered on the table, when you heard Gitae's familiar steps. He entered the room with his firm posture, but something in his gaze had changed. The expression on his face was less impassive and more... tired.

"You're standing again," he observed, the tone of his voice loaded with a concern you rarely saw. He knew that, despite your strength and determination, you needed rest. The pregnancy was at an advanced stage, and he somehow worried about his well-being, but he would never know how to express it in a conventional way.

You smiled softly at him, aware of the way he balanced the emotional distance with an almost discreet care. "I just wanted to end this," you answered calmly. "But I'm already going to rest."

Gitae approached and, with a strong hand, took your shoulders, gently forcing you to turn towards her. His touch, although possessive and firm, had a gentle and cautious touch. His dark eyes were fixed on you, and there was a visible internal fight on his face.

"You've been trying too hard," he said, his voice a little softer than usual. "I can't... I can't lose you or our son. I don't know what I would do without you."

The vulnerability he expressed was rare, a loophole he only showed when he was alone with you, away from the eyes of his subordinates or rivals. The power and control he always exercised over his life and others were momentarily suspended, and he seemed, for a moment, just a man who loved his wife and feared for the safety of his family.

You looked at him, feeling the seriousness of his words. Even if you knew that Gitae did not show his emotions easily, you understood the weight he carried. He was unbeatable for others, but with you, he allowed himself to be more human, more fragile.

"You're doing all this for us," you said, putting your hand on his that was still on your shoulder. "I know that, Gitae. But you also need rest. You don't need to carry the world on your back alone."

He was silent for a moment, as if pondering his words. Gitae's expression was no longer so rigid, and his eyes seemed deeper, as if they wanted to say more than he was able to verbalize.

Finally, he gently pulled you into a hug. The gesture was unexpected, but it was one of his ways of showing that, despite his hardness and his position, he also had a vulnerable place in his heart - a place reserved for you and for the future they were creating together.

His hug was not like the others you had already received from him. It was not controlled, nor authoritarian. It was a hug from someone who allowed himself to be weak, someone who, for the first time, felt the weight of responsibility for the life that was about to begin with his son.

"I just... don't want to lose you," he whispered against your hair, the pain in his voice something he rarely expressed.

You felt the sincerity in his words, and although you knew that he would continue to be the ruthless leader he always was, at that moment, Gitae Kim was just the man who loved his family and wanted to protect her at all costs.

You gently stroked your back, offering a comforting smile. "You won't lose me, Gitae. We're together in this, always."

The silence that followed was comfortable, with only the sound of the rain falling outside, and you knew that, despite the emotional storm that sometimes took over him, he would be by your side - your authoritarian "king" and your vulnerable man at the same time, struggling to balance everything, but willing to share with you the heaviest burdens.

—————————————————————————the tension between Gitae's power and vulnerability is more palpable. He remains the man of strength, but opens up in a way that he rarely does, revealing his fear of losing his family and his desire to share the burden with you. Interaction is a balance between affection and the weight of your responsibilities, and it is precisely this contrast that makes your relationship so intense and full of emotional layers.

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[thisisntmyrightera]

TOGETHER (angst end)

RED FIRST

Hyun-Ju POV

“Congratulations Player 120, you have made it to the finals” The speaker spoke as applause sounded all around, the lights turned on making me blink with pain in my eyes as I tried to get used to the brightness of the room, dozens of people around dressed in gala dresses and elegant masks applauded, some laughed and others just stood watching.

On the other side of what looked like a large board a guard in a pink suit lay on the floor, a pool of blood formed under their body and my eyes could only go to the weapon in my hands, I had killed someone for no reason.

''Player 120, you can leave through the door you entered through, a pink guard will guide you to your new dormitory'' the voice of the speaker spoke, I took a couple of steps back but stopped looking again at the pink guard on the floor, in my head I kept thinking about that player who was trapped with us and who for forcing him to help us was killed by his teammates, he was just a child.

Again I took a couple of steps forward, no one stopped me and the room became silent, I looked at the guard next to me but he looked at me without moving a single muscle so I got a little closer to the one I had killed.

Next to them was other guard standing without moving or stopping me.

A couple more steps were necessary to get to their side, with fear I knelt down and left the gun on the floor, I felt my lips tremble as well as my hands that as they approached the black mask with a circle on it.

I took a deep breath and with one movement I took the mask off the face of that anonymous player

My heart stopped and my vision blurred when I noticed that hair falling around the tiny face that lay expressionless, all because of me wanting to stop something that I knew I could never do.

Y/N...no...no Y/N NO - I took her in my arms feeling that warm liquid wet my hands - Y/N please wake up.. please PLEASE!

My hand cleaned her face removing strands of hair that covered her closed eyes, her cheeks no longer had that pink that always formed when she smiled, there was no longer life in her because I had taken it away from her.

Why did you make me do this?..WHY? - I looked around with my cloudy eyes hugging her body trying to have her as close to me as possible

We gave you the chance Cho Huyn-Ju, we believed in you and you wanted to find us and finish us off with the rest of the players, does that seem right and fair to you? - a man dressed in black with a mask at the same time approached with his hands in his pockets looking at me

They should have killed me, not her, she didn't do anything you damn bastards - I looked at him taking the gun that I had put on the floor pointing it at him while my other arm held her

Kill her? We didn't kill her Player 120…you killed her - his hands covered with gloves went to his mask removing it without fear of knowing his true identity - are you going to shoot me? - my eyes widened as I watched 001 look at me with a devilish smile as he threw the mask to the floor - go ahead and do it

You lied to us… - I felt my jaw crash from how tense it was as it clenched - you're a fucking bastard

Lie to you? I just played, don't you think? Fair and square like everyone else - he smiled at me as he took a few steps closer - if you're going to shoot, go ahead, do it, remember that you still have a bullet waiting to come out, but how can you live? - he laughed looking at me - you killed the one you promised to protect, you are just as bastard like me after all

I killed her… I killed her… it was the only thing that was on my mind no matter what other things came to my mind… I looked at her in my arms her lips seemed to lose their color and her hands looked pale almost transparent, there was nothing else to do…

Just a bullet

"I must admit that you look pretty together, don't worry about continuing to play, after all in your next life you will also meet again"

The shaman said after we left her in the carousel game… after all I would meet her again in the next life.

So I didn't have to keep playing, a bullet was what separated me from continuing here and seeing her again…

game over.

Gi-Hun POV

Jun-Ho appeared just when I needed him, saving the surviving players and stopping the masked men they called VIP with his team and the resto of the guards.

001 had died from a shot from my gun.

Even though I asked the policemen accompanying Jun-Ho to get the surviving players out as quickly as possible, I could hear footsteps and screams in the corridor that separated the large hall with a chess floor and the stairs.

I need to find them, I want to know if they are okay - the old woman's voice was heard screaming as I could notice how she was fighting with whoever tried to stop her.

Despite my quick steps my body collided with hers who barely managed to enter the great hall and stopped when she hit my chest

Get out of the way, let me in, they told me you were here - Geum-Ja pushed me while my arms surrounded her body trying to calm her down and stop her - get out of the way I don't care who you are or how you managed to stop this, let me in

Mom please…stop - 007 took her arms from behind without being able to stop her

It's not necessary for you to come in here…you shouldn't - I looked at her trying to keep my voice calm noticing her pain in each blow she gave with her fragile hands

I need to see them, they are my girls I want to see that they are okay…please - her voice broke stopping her blows while she looked at me with her wet eyes reminding me of my mother - please…if I can't see them…I just want to say goodbye to them…please

My angry heart said no, this had to end once and for all, but my heart as a son who couldn't say goodbye his mother told me yes, she had to do what I couldn't…

I slowly took her arm, gesturing to her son that I would take care of it and slowly guided her through the large room.

Her steps became slower and slower as her hands took my arm holding on as she got closer to the bodies that were already covered by a pair of white sheets.

No other body around seemed to faze her, not even seeing 001 lifeless worried her, her eyes only focused on the two white masses on the floor.

Are…are they them? - She looked at me with her wet eyes, trying with a little hope to hear a no for an answer, but my head could only nod slowly as she broke into tears and covered her face with her hands - what did they do to them… my poor girls

My arms surrounded her feeling like my heart was breaking looking at her destroyed, comforting her while cursing those who had decided to play with our lives

Let me… let me… say goodbye - she sighed wiping her cheeks letting go of me slowly as she approached them, everyone watched in silence.

Her legs slowly bent until her knees touched the floor making a sound of pain due to her advanced age.

I do not recommend that…-

I am not going to uncover them… - she looked at the pair of sheets slowly touching them and then brought her hand to theirs- I want to remember them smiling and with that light in their faces.

In a romantically tragic image, the hands of both of them had been taken, the smaller one between the other and both of them pale

Take care of her wherever you find her darling, take care of each other and love each other as you could not do in this life - her mature hand caressed both of theirs jumping a little when she noticed the frozen skin

Let's go mom - Her son, the young man with glasses hugged her slowly by the shoulders helping her to get up

It's time to go home…

[utilitycaster]

Long question incoming, appologies.

I ended last night's episode actually feeling a bit better about this "make the gods mortal" plan. Aside from feeling like it came out of left field narratively, my general feeling last week was fear that the Hells were going to go completely unilateral and somehow contact the gods while on Ruidus, with no one on Exandria any the wiser until all of a sudden all signs of divinity disappeared. So, to me, the fact that the Hells are headed for Vasselheim is a relief, because it means that, regardless of what is ultimately decided upon re: the gods, people on exandria are at least going to be aware there is a new option being discussed. And, maybe this is me being naive, but I'd imagine it opens the possibility that it won't just be the gods and bells hells alone in a room doing the discussing.

Most of what I have seen in the online circles I inhabit, on the otherhand, is either a continued sense of frustration/disappointment/anger at the choice, or a sense that the new developments this week make things worse in presentation/spirit/practice. I follow these people for a reason, and I appreciate/enjoy their opinions and meta, so I am left wondering if I missed something fundamental.

Thus I come to ask: what am I missing? And if the answer is 'a different life/lived experience,' or 'a lack of naivity' that is totally fair. I've just been milling over this since dinner and I wanted to touch base with someone and see if there is something in the "text" that I have overlooked or misunderstood.

Hi anon,

I can answer briefly regarding my experience, but I would recommend you perhaps talk to those people in your circles rather than me if it is their opinions that are confusing you. In general that's a good idea, but I also didn't watch any of this episode in real time and haven't spent much time in the tag, so my perspective is particularly limited.

I wasn't particularly worried about the possibility of Bells Hells asking the gods to be mortal while on Ruidus without telling anyone else. I didn't think it wouldn't happen; I just didn't see why it would be any more or less kind than informing Exandria in advance. I also don't think they will be joined by many others.

What I personally found disappointing was firstly the weak and wildly inconsistent portrayal of Predathos (this post outlines the mechanical flaws well; I also found the genuinely ominous vibes it had when Imogen attempted to commune with it earlier to be totally absent). I also think a lot of people are responding to how Matt essentially had to spoonfeed them the answer to get out of the chasm, and most of all to how, in the end, Bells Hells come off as small and petty people who fell ass backwards into a source of power and are mostly using it to act like high school bullies.

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          Statements announcing that, from their respective categories, the teams would do everything possible to continue working with them safely, protecting them in each of the countries on their calendars; hundreds of articles recounting the love story, some -the only ones that mattered to them- celebrating their courage for making it public at such a crucial point in their careers.

          They no longer had to worry about hiding because they knew that if a problem came their way, they would solve it together.

          "Now we also have a son. We have to be together in everything" Ezequiel joked, stroking the head of his pet, his son, a beautiful golden retriever.

          Lando couldn't refuse. He felt capable of doing anything for the small family he was beginning to form. Because yes, Ezequiel was his family.

          They were still young, and thousands of challenges awaited them, but Norris was sure he wanted to overcome them all in the company of Torres. He couldn't imagine anyone else by his side, supporting him, celebrating and consoling him, advising him, discovering life together.

          Going to sleep with a kiss, waking up seeing each other's bright smile, tossing and turning in bed for hours on mornings without races, and sharing breakfast. Sending hundreds of messages when they were separated hoping that their next races don't coincide in the same week to travel with the other, plan dinners in nice restaurants or choose movie sagas to stay up late, curled up on the couch…

          They had no words to describe how happy they were in each other's company, so they made an effort to demonstrate it day after day in actions and small gestures, saying I love you to the other person at every opportunity.

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