#also no i dont technically live in a small city
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i love the combination of cute little city vibes and old country side vibes i get where i live now, but boy is it also kind of funny when once in a while there are just three massive ship horn blasts bellowing through the quiet afternoon. it really just adds to the feeling of home, ya know?
#i can hear bird song and gulls and every once in a while the tram#but i cant hear bikes or cars or a lot of people#because we have a private backyard where all my windows point towards#BUT if the harbour is unusually loud i will obviously still hear it hahah#own post#also no i dont technically live in a small city#but again its the private backyards that makes it feel cozy
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i pass pretty much all the time but hm. ive heard interesting stuff from drunk ppl i know who dont know im trans
#''haha when my bf was talking about you and i asked to see a picture he showed me one and i was like... is that right? bc i thought that was#a girl in that pic. i mean only bc i didnt expect him to have any girlypop friends haha''#yeah i mean that is an average thing to say and not mean or anything but it hits a bit different when im trans#i mean the person saying that didnt know and if they did they would have never said anything like that#but it's still a bit. hmmm.#also the topic of my looks came up and it's funny how everyone thinks i'm cute#i wish i could b masc hot but im fine with being cute. not everyone can look good the same way#but like it's so common for the only compliment transmascs get being ''cute'' for various reasons but i think in my case it's just my#wavy hair and slight babyface and round features#which yeah ok whatever i'm still young - ive got plenty of time to start looking less like a boy and more like a man#as in even if i was a cis guy id look pretty much like this#though! im only 2 years on t so i cant wait what the future holds for how i'll look :3c#well almost 2 and a hlaf but yknow#also i have a slight. can i say this. ''tranny voice'' which. slay. but i was told i ''sound like a femboy'' which#once again super funny that ppl say that stuff bc they genuinely cant tell im trans#the only reason i pass is bc i get read as [justin mcelroy voice] kinda faggy#oh that guy over there with wide hips and feminine manners and voice and small feet and hands [compared to cis men] with an apparently cute#face who doesnt seem to know anything about stereotypical guy stuff? thats a cis man#and i love that#but also one of these ppl is not cis#if you saw me irl you'd know im insanely easy to clock for trans people#but yeah whatever im just amused by all this it's kind of fun having ppl not know im trans#but also i have a new friend who doesnt know and i think i should let him know at some point if it comes up bc idk man. it feels like im#living a secret life or something. like obviously no one has the right to know im trans but. i can make the choice of wanting someone toknow#but also hes my only guy friend who lives in this city. well technically not the only one i have another friend but we never hang out irl.#anyways i dont want to ruin our broship#i dont think itd get ruined and if it did itd just mean whatever but im still scared#agh idk#leevi talks
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omg also im soo mad i e been listening to rhis worldbuilding podcast at work and it was giving me lots of ideas but i had to turn it off bc i took like..an hour on a room bc i was so focused on jt and my beautiful world.. and i forgot all the ideas i had 😭😭 all i can remember is my fairy thing and that isnt even a from today thoufht
#bc bssicallyyy the way magic works is every living thing produces Some magic. like its legit produced by an organ in all lviing things. and#how Much you produce is like. it can be influenced by a lot of factors genetics etc but everybody produces some. so thats all well and good#and the fairies technically dont produce lke. more magic rhan humans yk. kts actually Very similar levels BUT bc theyre so small that amt#of magic is proportionally a LOT. thats why fairies glow is bc they have so much magic (magic glows and in humans who#have a lot of magic they also tend to glow around their chest :] omg and alsooo some of the ways magic can be channeled is likee. through#your hands or your voice theres rly so many basically. and its very versatile but its likee#so im stoll working on the rules for it but basically the idea of it is like. it can be used as a form of energy and also as temporary#form of matter if that makes sense ?? idk how to explain kt)#But anyways so the fairies theg r soo little but have sooo much magic proportionally. so fhey can '#fly' with it (not rly flying rly its more like making little platforms to walk on in the air... this parts jnspired by kekkaishi cant even#lie to you i thjnk its awesome when they do that.) so ya#and technically a human could do the sane thing but the platform would be bigger and bearing more weight so it wouldnt rly be as like.#practical.. bc 1 human sized platform would be like..1000 fairy skzed platforms LOL. yk. but yeah so yeah#n then on occasion fairies are born with very low amts of magic (this happens with all creatures everybody Has magic but some ppl have so#little that rhey cant do much with jt) n these 'fairies' +#(theyre usually called something else but they r fairies. ive been calling them borrowers in my head but thats copyrighted skull) usually#cant live in fairy cities bc. well. fairy cities r very oriented around being able.to use magic to navigate them. so in antiquity the#borrower fairies would form sort of like. Underlayer cities where youd have the main fairy city up in the trees and then on the ground#would be the borrower city. but that started getting dangerous especially when tthe bigger ppl started expanding their territories and#stuff. so borrower fairies ended up forming Way more secretive communities either underground or like. oftentimes there will be entire#borrower communities in a house yk. and u see where my jnspo is comjng from yes i love the borrowers yes i watched arrietty a few weeks ago#but yeah :] the borrowers are wayyy more secretive bc they cant defend themselves against the big folk the way the magical fairies can yk.#so fairies are Known (though not often encountered bc of how defensive they are of their cities)#to humans but borrowers are WAYYY less frequently seen bc they go out.of their way not to.#theres ALSO. so. as mentioned magic is produced by an organ. normally if anything happens to that organ youre like. dead. yk. you cant rly#live without it. However fairies have figured out a way to majorly decrease your magic levels while keepjng you alive#like 50 percent kf the tjme it works the rest they just die. its a surgicql procedure basically and its Intensely guarded#as in 1-2 ppl know how to do it at any given time and if anybody else fjnds out theyre killed immediately. the only ppl who know it Exists#r like. theee highest ranking fairies in existence. its used as a punishment for the most 'heinous' crimes. aka the ones the fairy monarch#dislikes the most -_-. its not a Technical exile but like. yes it is..yk. since as i said you rly cant navigate a fairy city if you dont.
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Things that Amuse and Enrage me
Markiplier is technically more Appalachian than JD Vance is
#gopher rambles#uh fuck what do I tag this as#I'm listening to someone talk about Hilbilly Elegy and I'm collecting petty reasons to hate this man like pokemon#Explaination: Middleton. where Vance was born and raised. is less than 30 miles from Cincinnati. It's part of the metropolitan area#Milford. where mark grew up. is ALSO technically part of the cincinnati metropolitan area. but its farther southeast#and has a much smaller population. Not as small as where I live and grew up. but Middletown has a population of 50k#while milford has a population of less than 10k. For reference my entire COUNTY has a population of almost 30k.#we dont even have any proper cities. There are cities in ohio aside from the Three Cs but we dont have any of them. That's 30k spread acros#a pretty fucking big area#Neither of them are particularly rural. But Vance built his entire public persona on being a Hard Working Appalachian while Mark just talks#about growing up around Cinci sometimes. Yet I have more in common with him than a fcking major politician who claims to have my background#hooooo boy#now I know what to fucking tag this as#complaining#vent#rant
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WIBTA for not taking my cat with me when I eventually move?
For some context, I(f,22) live in an apartment that connects to the house of my parents through the garden and the basement. I have lived here since I was 17, pay rent, utilities and all my groceries so I basically live alone, just that I can visit my family basically whenever. Our family has a small dog and 3 cats, all of the animals can move freely through the entire house and also go outside if they want (I know outside cats are a problem, it was not my decision nor can I change the situation bc these are not only my cats).
My boyfriend (m,23) and me are planning on moving out next year-ish and I was not planning on taking the cat that is technically mine. She was adopted from a farm when I was around 16, I was really depressed, self-harming, had an ed blah blah, so my mom actually agreed that I could get a kitten. My cat has helped me immensely through really tough times but she is a little bit... wild. When she wants to play she can bite and scratch quite hard, she scares the other cats and the dog and sometimes pees on rugs and other stuff. She is also an absolute sweetheart and super cuddly and funny, I have zero problems with her behaviors myself because I know when she is getting frustrated I have to give her some space, I never scream at her when she does accidentally hurt me while playing, she never pees in my apartment, I only scold her when she attacks the other cats (she only wants to play but the other cats are older and dont want to). I feel like if I write it down like that she does sound kind of like a nightmare but bad incidents happen very rarely and she has gotten a lot calmer with her age. So the problem is now that my mom wants me to take her with me when I move, which I would totally get if she wouldn't have said the exact opposite before. My mom always said that I shouldn't take my cat with me when I move because she needs to stay in her home, she has got the other cats (even tho they don't really like each other but sometimes they hang out or play), the garden and a forest, a really quiet neighborhood with no cars and a big house where there is always somebody home. If I would take her with me she would be in a relatively small apartment, probably couldn't go outside (I would move from a small town to the city), no other cats and so on. I feel like my mom just wants to punish me and my cat for some reason. For her/ my family it's not much more work and they have been feeding and caring for her since we got her (together with me of course) because even though she is technically mine she was more of a family cat from the beginning. I also would pay for everything vet, food, toys whatever. I don't even really understand why she seems to hate her so suddenly, I get it's super frustrating and gross when she pees somewhere but it's also an animal you can't make them understand reason and it doesn't happen frequently, also she is not the only cat that pees sometimes so I don't get why with her it seems to be such a problem. I know she is my responsibility and if it is really such an issue I will take her with me and try to make her the best life possible but I feel like it is so unnecessary. When I got her I was only 16 and not mature enough to realize what it means to have a pet, I also feel like my mom knew that i was not in the right mind to make decisions like that, i could barely take care of myself and was definitely not thinking even 2 years ahead. I always felt like it was an unspoken agreement that my cat was like all the other family cats just a little more mine. And it wasn't even really unspoken because she literally has said that I shouldn't take her with me because it would make my cat depressed. My mom also tells me to move out so she can rent out the apartment at a higher price, so it's not her way of making me stay at home. I also want to mention that my family treats all of the animals really well and my cat would not be in any danger if I would leave her home.
What are these acronyms?
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Can you talk more about Eyeless Jack? I really love him😔❤️
holds him in my hands... yes i can.. yes. i . can..
ive already gone on about his sacrifice and whatnot.. ok . ok. what to talk about. im gonna repeat hella stuff prob.
jack nyras .. mid-late 20s... human sacrificed to a demonic deity. . cute guy overall.
as i mentioned, similar to the proxies, he has a rando cabin in the woods. slenderman actually sees him as a good utility, so while he's not a proxy, he's kept around and allowed freely in the forest without any uhh... chaperone, i guess.
his cabin is even smaller, 1 bedroom 1 bathroom, small kitchenette, small living room, etc. there's a bit of an underground bunker, sort of like a tornado bunker. he keeps 2 freezers down there. u can imagine whats in them.
the main sort of ummm... like, driving issue and character 'arc' for jack is his guilt and battles w his own humanity. he was technically possessed by a demon/deity for a year straight, and while the demon is now 'resting', he still committed the atrocities he did, and he still relies on humans. for a while after he regains consciousness, he's really skinny bc its really hard on him emotionally to eat. eventually he just gets sort of numb to it (with the help of the other creeps.. not intentional help moreso 'dont be a pussy do what u gotta do man') . jeff is especially the one telling him to 'man up and do it' so he lives. toby and ben are more understanding of why its so hard for jack.
again jacks the eldest of many siblings. i'm thinking perhaps it goes.. jack>daughter>daughter>son>son>daughter. 3 sisters, 2 brothers. he was driving and working by time he was 16, his parents had too much pride to let him help with bills but he was getting groceries and cooking a lot of food for the house.
family meals were kind of a thing in the nyras household. jack was a good cook, lots of traditional meals, etc. he's been cooking dinner for his siblings since he was like 11. his dad always thought it was odd that jack took that on, esp since he had a sister a few years younger than him, but he legit just liked it.
there was a good bit of parental pressure to be a doctor, but if that weren't the case, he'd love to go into culinary. you know. before he had to cook human meat.
he can digest raw meat, and he has a theory that he goes longer between meals if he eats raw meat, BUT he often still cooks it and tries to make it just. more normal for him.
also he can and does still eat normal food, but it lost a ton of its taste for him. he relies still on human meat, but he can go like a 1-2 weeks between meals before he starts getting violent and dealing with severe pain. sort of like tokyo ghoul style ?
mmm.. he still has a missing persons case file open. his mother still tries to get the police to keep looking, and his brothers have even tried doing crazy shit like going into creepy parts of the city alone to figure shit out, but his sisters and dad eventually gave up and assumed he was dead. his mom still believes he's alive fully. none of them know what really happened to him
he works as human remains disposal for some rando guys that ben helped him find off the dark web. thats how he pays for the cabin, but the cabin is under brian's name since...... well. um. lol. jacks missing and presumed dead and he sure as hell isnt human enough to have a house.
cute guy !!!
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goodevening I am no longer in the car and while I was in the car I was thinking about new haven wards so I'm invading your inbox. I mean. mostly just about interpersonal dynamics and not power things so technically this is just thinking about pd. but in the context of worm world.
uhmmmmm sitting in the wards base. I think they spend. all of their time out of costume there. none of them really have. family to go home to (with the exception of . william and ashe but I don't imagine they exactly WANT to spend time at home. considering.) so they spenddd all day every day out of costume with each other. i think william and dakota were paired together first and they just naturally clicked with each other right away because they balanced out each other's energy pretty well. hence the extreme codependency qpr. then vycnent joined and he was a little prickly at first bc he didn't rlly know the city or what he was doing there or what his powers were and maybe he already had a habit of distancing himself from people due to the nature of his powers. but obv he comes around eventually and william has his gay little crush and here they are sitting smushed together in the same arm chair watching a movie on the big tv together. dakota is snoring honk shoo style. then WAYYY later ashe joins and william is the prickly petty one. dakota takes to him rlly fast just bc dakota loves everyone very loudly and easily. vyncent took a little longer but appreciated ashes chill personality so clicked with that pretty quickly. william had a one sided rivalry with ashe for a little bit and didn't trust him. however now they are ride or die emos and will parallel play by sitting leaning on each other back to back on the couch doing completely separate activities and not speaking to each other. the new haven wards literally always have to be touching each other in some capacity when out of costume amazon listing do not separate they have SUCH BAD separation anxiety please
also side note about wibby I have some Thoughts about why his last name is bell and not wisp and I'm going to keep this simple and spoiler free but just know there is MORE to this. eventually. i think it's because. grew up in the worm equivalent of deadwood which is a rlly small town in the middle of nowhere which means it doesn't rlly have a strong Cape Presence. so after his trigger event and his family finding out abt his powers (bc i think they Would) his parents push him to join the wards in new haven, because his older brother david already lives there, so he can just go live with david !! easier to separate his hero identity from his parents who he loves if he changes his last name to the same as the brother he's living with in the city. smile. not going to get too into that rn
side note SIDE NOTE bc I just read about them again. do u think wibby retains some subconscious knowledge about the . extra dimensional trigger event being. I dont think he would Remember it per se but. maybe he gets really weird recurring nightmares about it sometimes. and doesn't think anything of it bc it's just SO weird and incomprehensible. this stance may change once I read abt what those things actually ARE but for now. I like to make my favorite characters suffer <3 NO WAIT MAYBE ITS DAKOTA WITH HIS CANON NIGHTMARES. IDK. YOU KNOW MORE ABOUT THIS THAN ME. WHY CAN MISS MILITIA REMEMBER THEM >:|
NEW HAVEN WARDS... SAVE ME NEW HAVEN WARDS.... ok. under the cut so this doesnt get a mile longer 3
ILL OVER THEM!!!!! DO NOT SEPARATE!!! which means of course i have been thinking so hard about all of the reasons 2 separate them & make them miserable. it's gotta suck also being in school right?? since that's iirc a prerequisite of the wards. and the prt would Not be happy with "three distinctive looking clingy ass teenagers in the school everyone knows the wards go to who look exactly like the wards on tv." lmaoo. high school hell Has to stay its so necessary <33 also. i have many many many thoughts on vyncent & how he grew up & his relationship to both his power & parahumans in general but we will get into that once we also get into wibby!!!!
but. yeah. usually when i think of other media in worm lens i immediately go "alright how can i make this dynamic as unpleasant as possible..." it's honestly really fun 2 Not be doing that & instead just putting them all through the blender in various ways. i mean. they still have a fucking insane dynamic at least one of them has to have brutalized some minor thug for hurting someone i think. it's so fun thinking abt how that desperate extreme codependency translates to on shift where their job is throwing themselves into the meat grinder & getting hurt & shit.
IM. SO EXCITED FOR BELL SHIT. im so hyped. love this i'm sure william living with his brother!! ^_^ is incredibly unpleasant and a miserable experience for some fucking reason i will find out. yayyy <3
i thiiiiink. out of all of them. yeah. wibby would be most likely to be fixated on his trigger event. for sure <33 and also he has an insane memory! even if he didn't specifically remember it i think he would maybe know something. dakota still has nightmares but theyre just normal nightmares :-) several orders of magnitude worse though. of course. also HEYHEYHEY now u know my guys my best friends my rotten cheeses the slaughterhouse nine!!! u unlock [NH WARDS NOTE 1] !! which is. i think dakota's parents would have been killed via being victims of the s9 coming to town ^_^ this will be immediately worse for you after u read some more worm tomorrow!! anyway. anyway. 130 am for mee good NIGHT i loove them i love this dynamic so much thabk u. mac ghostiezone wards in my inbox u know its gonna b a good day!!!
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Question for the RK AU, if that's alright? Bit of a loaded question but I'm curious. How did the gang get together?
Ok welcome back dearies i wasnt dead i was wandering my head around this ask.
Its been some time i dont write coherently i made some notes but here it is:
Illaoi's mother and Pyke's parents attended the same church since they were kids hence why they know each other, althrough Pyke grew to reject the religion Illaoi is still very passionate about it, they both attended the same school as kids. Abigail knew Illaoi's mother and so Sarah and Illaoi became friends in the sense of 'that one kid we play with at the park while moms are having their coffee'.
At the same time both Illaoi's mother was aware of Abigail's relation with Gangplank's family was troublesome. Pyke wouldnt tag alone to Illaoi and Sarah playdate at the park until his mother gave permission for him to go always accompanied by Illaoi's mom. Making them a 'trio' of funny kids but it was rare ocassions Pyke was allowed to tag along.
In the meantime Braum doesnt live on the same city but in a village close by the mountains around 4-5 hours of car far from the main city. Lives with his family and there's not really much educational opportunities, to wich parting to the city was an idea Braum developed early on his early teenhood age.
Yasuo lives with his mum, dealing with the passing of his father figure (something he will later relate to Sarah's pain). His relation with his brother Yone slowly withered by the pass of time and as the new reality of single parenting and death of a loved one settled, they dont interact much now despite living under the same roof, althrough Yasuo has good relationship with his mother.
Yasuo and Ahri (and thecnically Yone too) met on the conservatory where their parents enrolled the kids when they were young. Ahri is an adopted child who lives on the outskirt of the city in a more privileged household. There she learned to play violin, while Yasuo learned to play the flute, they technically know each other since they're kids but never really spoke, just Ahri ocasionally waving at both brothers and Yasuo responding back with a waving of his own, a small crush he started to feel during those ages he tried to supress.
After highschool they all enrolled to the same school for baccalaureate (...thats what word reference says, but im unsure if thats understandable. Basically after highschool where you pick either art/science/humanities to then go to the university or other more complex studies).
Wich made Braum finally move in the city by renting a flat alongside other students in the city. After Abigail's death, Sarah lives by herself under the roof of a students residence. Illaoi still lives with her mom and her mom's partner. Ahri can come by car first driven by her parents and eventually by herself once she gets her liscence. Yasuo remains the same aswell as Illaoi. Pyke decides to leave his parent's home for independence, a hard decision that made him work part time while also doing his studies and renting a flat with the little money he makes.
By the time school year starts Sarah and Illaoi already know each other, alongside with Pyke to wich they catch up on all the stuff that has been going on. Yasuo stumbled upon Ahri on the same classroom, and decided to sit together to be comfortable around the new students, althrough this made Yasuo's crush develop even more. Braum, despite not knowing anyone, remained cheerful and kind.
They all coincide on the same classrooms in general subjects. On specific subjects Sarah wants to study any branch related to politics, to wich she chose humanities subjects, wich made her stumble upon Braum, who also chose the same subjects for him to study child education. Althrough his personality seemed to crash to Sarah still mourning soul, he actually manages to crack a smile on Sarah, enjoying to have him around and as a support for these subjects while everyone is on other branches. After the firsts days of classes she presents Braum to both Pyke and Illaoi and accepted him as part of the group.
The others decided to go for science focused subjects to study different branches after it. Pyke goes for marine biology as Illaoi decides for personal training studies (like P.E. teacher/gym trainer etc), sitting together. Curious about the oddly shaped bags Yasuo and Ahri carries around for conservatory after class, Illaoi asks what instruments they play. Marbeled by the music Illaoi grew fond of the pair of students, while Yasuo's unability to pick what to study and his lazy personality struck a cord on Pyke, wich also made them to group in, while Ahri is interested in studying psychology. Eventually the group consolidated as now they sit togehter on the general subjects, Yasuo's love for alcohol made Sarah quickly friend him, aswell as Ahri cheeky but sweet personality made everyone quickly accept her to the group aswell.
Is this a school/highschool/university/whatever AU? yes and no. Althrough school is a good chunk of it i dont want to focus entirely on it. They have silly shenanigans inside and outside the school and i dont want the school to be the only escenario, althrough its the place the group consolidated.
#mkay i thought i was going to be shorter im so sorry#but yes thats it#thank you for the question sorry for taking sooooo long i had to think this through. i had vague ideas and this did good for me#to stablish something solid#i might have said things in the past that dont correlate to this post im so sorry i dont even know what i say most of the time#but this is the real piece#not like the previous arent but this is the firm part of the au#i do think of this au all the time and if i had the willpower for doing animatics even for stupid 10 second clips#this au would be much richer but alas im lazy as fuck#this is also technically settled on my hometown or at least in andalusian context#wich doesnt make it not readable for english speakers or anyone outside spain#but its something i like to point out#there's quite a lot of spanish. perhaps not the typical spanish but the 2000-2010s type of spanish teens#i dont even know what im saying is 4:44 in the morning#omg angel numbers#ruined king#ruined king au#pyke#miss fortune#illaoi#ahri#braum#yasuo
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One of the things that kinda annoys me about acotar is that its a series about monarchs in a vaguely medieval european/pseudo-victorian setting and theres like, not even a mention of incest. Dont get me wrong, Im not one of those people who needs "historical accuracy" in their fantasy stories to be immersed because what does that even mean when we're talking about fantasy which is completely made up but idk, i guess its because acomaf (and even the UTM section of acotar) seems to be going more for gritty "historical accuracy" with all the women being brutalized and objectified all the time, so its weird that sjm would write that and then not even mention the fact that incest would probably be very normal, especially considering the fact that Prythian is prezty small and your "dating pool" would be pretty limited, even more so when youre royalty only looking to be with other royalty. Then again, considering crescent city (which is very modern) also has a bunch of unpleasant in-universe misogyny, maybe its not actually there for "historical accuracy" and sjm just really likes to write about misogyny for some reason. Also, apeaking of crescent city, if i remember correctly there was a whole thing in cc2 where Bryce is engaged to her cousin by the autumn king for political reasons and because the fae are clearly kinda archaic in the sense that they still have this outdated monarchy system, but then its like, okay how come the fae living in the modern day have arranged marriages to their cousins but the fae actually living in the equivalent of the 1800s dont?
I was thinking about this because I was thinking about Mor and how when she introduced herself as Rhys' cousin he was like "oh, we're only cousins in the most distant sense" and that was really weird to me, because I feel like if you were close you would be fine with just identifying as cousins even if youre technically cousins sixth removed or whatever. Like, maybe Im the one whos being weird about this, but does that not seem like the kind of thing an author would write because two of her characters who are related were romantically involved at some point and shes trying to lessen the incest of it all?
And the more I think about it the more im like, yeah, why did Keir wanna marry his daughter off to an entirely different court in order to gain power when he was already connected to the highlords main family of his own court and couldve gained even more power within that court by marrying Mor off the heir to the throne
#miscellaneous acotar thoughts#kinda anti acotar i guess??#idk man like i dont NEED incest in my fantasy stories so i dont really think this is actual critique#just something ive been thinking too much about
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hello friends! it is time! Below the cut I have included connections and plot ideas that i have for my current characters. If there are any that interest you please reach out - especially if you have a lot of muses - otherwise give this a like and I will come to you
CARDAN GREENBRIAR.
I'll start this off by saying that Cardan is not available for shipping, he's one of my few characters where I have it in his bio that he's married to his canon partner (im obsessed with them, truly)
I would love to see people that he's pranked or gotten into fight with before, he has the ability to glamour things and could also technically make humans do whatever he wants, though he's trying to behave
some friends would be fun, of course, cardan is a bit of an alcoholic if i'm being honest and he can be a bit cruel to anyone he doesn't like HOWEVER he has gotten better and can be a good friend and person. it just takes some time and patience
CONNOR HOLSTROM.
I would love for him to have a few roommates - maybe four people sharing an apartment? I think that could be super entertaining
A group of friends, i do plan on him gaining his memories back eventually and befriending the other characters from the crescent city books but i think it would be entertaining and good for future angst if he had made some solid friendships before his memories return. Connor is into sports and fitness and also drinks in his free time
Gym buddies! he works at a gym and i feel like he would have made friends there
Someone, or maybe a few people, who he just doesnt get along with. Where they bicker/banter and leave every conversation rolling their eyes at each other
a midgame ship. I kind of want him to meet someone and think that theyre the one for him but then something happens where they end up breaking up. I do see him as bi so it could be boy or girl and we can discuss reasonings for the breakup as we go
an endgame ship. i almost want it to be someone that he's friends with and ends up developing feelings for them.
NINA ZENIK
Bi queen, however shipping is already going to be a mess for her. Nina is a flirt and currently doesn't have her memories so if we would like to add more angst i would gladly do some flirtationships and maybe have her go on a few dates
Lots of friends please! Nina is an extrovert and has a huge heart. She's very confident and can be self sacrificing almost ( definitely ) to a degree where it's a flaw
I do think she'd definitely have enemies or people she doesn't get along with, she's very outspoken about her opinions and I think it'd be fun to have someone that she doesn't get along with even if it's something small and all they do is bicker
i think that a roommate or two would also be entertaining! I definitely dont think she would live alone
INQUISITOR ANDROMEDA LAVELLAN.
Andromeda is very playful and flirty so I could definitely see her having some flings and even one night stands
friends will be hit or miss, she can befriend anyone but she also has trust issues so while she may be friendly it might take awhile for a real friendship to form
i'd like some workout buddies for her! She's definite a regular at the gym and I can also see her as the type to go for a run every morning
reading buddies/book club? She's only recently started reading for fun but it's something that she enjoys and i'd love to see her bond through that ( also her bragging that one of her closest friends is an author )
i also think it could be fun for her to bond with others from different fantasy worlds, just seeing them discuss the differences could be entertaining, i think
SUNNY BAUDELAIRE.
I would love for her to go on some dates, I'm not sure how much of a settling down type Sunny is but I'd love to explore chemistry with her and see who she vibes with. I think she's still learning for herself and it could be really fun
Friends! she definitely cooks for them at any given opportunity
a best friend, i want someone outside of her siblings that she feels comfortable letting down her guard for
Coworkers, maybe they aren't super close friends but the type of people that she gets along with and they have a camaraderie despite being very different people, give me one adult that she actually trusts of the head chef that she works for
I could see her having enemies and I genuinely wouldn't be surprised if there were time that she had gotten physical with them
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time and space
time
there is a concept that i always always always love which i call palimpsested layers of history. its when you can see clearly the stages of times clearly depicted in physical from in a seamless way.
one of the clearest examples is an archive of civic records, wherein the nearest shelves you can see modern, clear white paper in plastic folders printed with toner all prim and proper but as you go deeper into the shelves you start to see yellow paper typed by typewriter in manila folders and then you start to see old cracking parchment, written with florid quill and leather bound. and its all one continuous system, its living history.
my favourite execution of this is in portal 2, where you go back all the way to the very begginigns or aperture, arguably even before that when it was merely a salt mine. you get to walk down the old caverns and then into the very first lobby and then through all the different layers of offices above that and its all one continuous path! you can go from the highest headquarters of modern aperture and merely following stairs and hallways you can walk all the way down to the old installations (with the help of your portal gun, granted, but the spirit remains).
on the one hand because i like being able to see living history re-play before my very eyes. i like to see the evolution of things, to see how things become other things. it can be easy to forget that everything that exists didnt just spontanously appeared as it currently is, but that there was a long arduous process that brought it here and i love to see that process.
but also there is something magical about the linkage of time and space, about the way in which your own two feet can carry you to the past and its all one continuous path. the illusion that there is a thread, a powerful, unbroken chain running through the ages. its the same feeling i get when i see immortal flames or the oldest cities in the world still standing.
space
another concept that i love is that of the architectonic megastructures. but not the hollow ones. im talking about castles, mansions, palaces.
gormenghast is a great example of it. i love this idea that wether you are in the lowest dirtiest dungeon or the highest cleanest tower, you are still, in a sense, in the same place. within the same thing. that the small sideways bathroom in the servants wing is part of the same structure as the big banquet hall. that the tiny hidden away portcullis, tucked within the cliffside upon which the structure rests is just as valid a way to enter or exit as the giant 10 meter tall entrance for the carriages.
its something about transitions, again, continuity is key here. is about erasing the borders between two things that are very different. that there is a path from the lower kitchens to the north side library. i love this idea that every single stone belongs to the whole. that the moment you are touching one of the rocks in the giant wall surrounding the perimeter you are technically touching the place, all the place.
i love this image of a partly fallen wall, in the farthest corner of the perimeter, the one that is pushing against the forest, where the wall is merely two meters high and one of the branches is hanging over the terrain and you could just climb the tree and get to the branch and you would be inside the great beast.
this can also apply to great ships, to mazes, to universities, to really big machines.
i dont even know what my point is here. just trying to capture emotions
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🛩🛋🦋🏆📚🌪 )HOPE ITS NOT TOO MANY SDKLGDS)
LOL no worries!!! this ended up being a bit long so answers r under the cut >:3
🛩 [PLANE] -> Was your Original Character born on Jorvik or did they come here from somewhere else? If so, what was their reason to come to Jorvik?
nova (like me) is from canada! she actually came to jorvik at age 11 when she was scouted by the jorvik ballet company, and became interested in horseback riding when her ballet master took her and her fellow students to see the circus - she was enamoured by vaulting!
🛋 [COUCH W/ LAMP] -> Where does your Original Character live? As in, where do they reside - one of the many stables across the Jorvegian Peninsula, or do they own an apartment/home within one of Jorvik's Cities?
technically nova lives with mrs holdsworth (who is essentially her adoptive mother), and that's the address where she like. gets all her mail lol. holdsworth is also more or less the only person who is relatively up to date on nova's whereabouts at any given point (eg. she was the only one who knew where she was during nova's stint in the wildwoods). in practice, nova's a nomad, and can't handle staying in one place for too long. currently she's stabling her herd in valedale, in exchange for them being used in druid activities (this is really reluctant, but when you're low on funds, you havent got many options lol). oh, there was also a period of about a year during which she lived in the little shack at the unfortunate dews' farm! this was way before maya staked claim to the property, and they never ran into each other while maya was caring for the livestock there, but i like to think that, since they're friends, maya lets her crash there every once in awhile
🦋 [BUTTERFLY] -> Does your Original Character belong to any of the organisations or groups on Jorvik - Dark Core, the Keepers, the Rangers, the GED, one of the Stables, etc.?
there was a period of time (roughly three months) during which nova was employed by the rangers at redwood point. she's affiliated with the keepers, but isn't exactly happy about it. she's really close with the moorlands, and worked at their summer camp for a couple terms. she's also a guest instructor with the bobcats!
(i've already answered the trophy one so i'm gonna skip it to avoid being redundant)
📚 [BOOK STACK] -> What is your Original Character's story? Not just in SSO's canon main story - what is your Character's deal in general?
this is a wonderful question that i would love to answer in great detail, but i honestly dont think i can! i would say it needs its own post, but i think nova's life story is one that will be revealed (to everyone, including me) over time, through answering small questions, creating art, and making tweaks over time in compliance with (or defiance against) the existing canon of SSO (which is an ever shifting beast, but i genuinely enjoy the challenge!) essentially, i'd say that nova came to the island as a kid, experienced a falling out with her family, and never went back. there was a period of a few years (2016-2023, aka when i stopped playing the game and got the sudden inexplicable urge to come back) during which she travelled the world at large, but never went back to canada. at that time, she split her herd between the moorlands and herman to employ as lesson horses. it's been a labour of love for her to restore her bond with each of them as individuals. i havent figured out her in-canon reason for coming back to the island yet unfortunately! she also had a "love interest" (comp het) several years ago who experienced a tragic demise, and is the reason she left the island to begin with
🌪 [TORNADO] -> Does your Original Character have any traumas or fears that stem from something that happened to them on Jorvik? Have they been confronted with something that left them scarred (mentally or physically)?
yes! yes. the aforementioned "love interest" is absolutely one. she broke her foot at the moorland's summer camp which meant that she couldnt dance anymore, and also spurred her falling out with her parents. nova also has lingering issues with her eyesight in her left eye, following an accident involving a cross country course and a thorn bush (which is based on an injury from my irl cross country days lol)
thank you for the questions!!!! i love talking about my fucked up baby girl
#nova snowfoot#star stable online#ssoblr#sso oc#i also forgot to say but she was absolutely groomed by the keepers of aideen from a very young age#which i would consider a mental trauma
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pinned post time (remake)
used to be drthamen
sammy, 28 (may 13th), germany, nb biace, they/she
multifandom but currently focused on cyberpunk (clearly)
pinterest
info about the main OCs under the cut
since i cant seem to link tags properly im just gonna list them, im so sorry fellas
cyberpunk 2077
V full name: valerie jeanne evans scene lifepath: streetkid, "netrunner" faceclaim: royal and the serpent other: pinterest board | spotify playlist info: the "small-time klepto punk from the afterlife", "the dirtgirl from heywood who found the guts to walk a few extra blocks from home" this how kerry & johnny describe streetkid v and that is exactly what she is. a troubled past, present and future, constantly pissed off with some bad habits. she's been a merc since she can remember but also had some "normal" odd jobs: repairshop for electronics, waiting tables, customer service and many others. she was the lead singer of rotten, a nu metal/ alt-metal band from night city that was doomed to fail thanks to aforementioned lead singer. she's always had a knack for technology so hacking badges and corpos came naturally to her. most people call her a netrunner, a pet-peeve of hers since it's not what she technically does. that being said, she doesnt shy away from physical altercations either though it usually ends in getting her ass beat. v spent her two years in atlanta with her brother vincent, he had convinced her to get out of nc for awhile in hopes it would help on her healing journey but the city has and always will have an iron grip on her. temperance is her canon ending (for now). while it seems nonsensical at first glance she wasn't going to take johnny's chance at a second life away from him just for her to die within months. besides, she would adapt to life behind the blackwall better than he ever could. v was always going to die young, might as well die for love, right? tags: -> otp; just the two of us - my personal flavour of silverv brainrot -> otp; mary on a cross - v & dagger (more below) -> otp; the ghost of you - v & lou (more below) -> p; a little bit happy - v & vincent -> p; my ordinary life - v & kerry -> p; rise rebel resist - rotten, the band she used to be in -> au: watch the world burn - 2020s AU -> au: generation doom - 2020s AU but more messed up -> au: say yes to heaven - happy AU johnny where gets a body, v lives, they are dating and kerry & v are best friends relations: -> vincent - twin brother also rotten's bass player -> dagger - band's lead guitarist and her ex also obsessed with kerry eurodyne (because im annoying like that) -> lou - dead ex, every day i inch closer to just scratching this ngl -> freddie - drummer of rotten, if v = johnny then freddie = kerry but ten times worse (they actually hate each other) might be kovachek's son idk sometimes i have silly ideas -> krasny - plays second guitar in the band, lowkey the mom of the friend group, will break up the fights between v & freddie, calls v a psychopath regularily Vincent (big WIP so there isnt much) full name: vincent raphael evans other: pinterest board info: same backstory as v, obviously. but unlike her he managed to heal to some extend; the polar opposite of what she is: he is happy, kind and believes that there is good in this world. moved to atlanta at some point to get away from the place and the people who hurt him (parents and v). v introduced him to the love of his life kerry and romance ensues, he even comes back to night city for a while. (i will be real with you the reason i made him initially was to romance kerry) not technically a "v" but i really dont care if you call him that. tags: -> otp; industry baby - did you know kerry and vincent are in love? relations: -> dagger - his bestie for some time, unlucky his sister broke her heart but they are still in contact -> freddie - had a crush on the band's drummer but things were messy enough already so nothing ever happened -> alexa - daughter, vincent & kerry had twins in my sims game so naturally they become somewhat canon. overachiever, became a lawyer -> rico - child (alexa's twin), rebellious nb disaster, gamer, lived in their parents house for a bit too long -> valonia - daughter, spoiled youngest child, named after v, kerry's favourite
dragon age
Athras - dragon age: inquisition full name: athras lavellan origin: dalish elf, mage (ice magic & shapeshifting) other: pinterest board | spotify playlist info: athras never wanted to eventually lead her clan so when the keeper sent her to the conclave she gladly accepted. the chaos that ensued and her becoming inquisitor, thus being responsible for so many more people really put that into perspective. she wears the dirthamen vallaslin but it extends down her arms and back, in hopes that it will help with her messed up spine (scoliosis girls rise) and enhance her magic capabilities. clan lavellan specialised in potion brewing and it's a craft she follows proudly since she has zero affinity for healing magic, which is one of the main tasks for a clans first and keeper. (she might not like leadership, but she still wants to be useful to her clan) her magic manifested as ice but later on she adapted the long lost art of shapeshifting. her preferred form is that of a raven with a wolf coming in a close second. looks lowkey evil with her dark hair, pale skin, SUPER tall stature (2m) and red eyes. she likes it that way since it makes her less approachable. doesn't like most people and hates very few. tags: -> otp; dream collector - i am forever stuck in solavellan hell -> otp; let's get this bread - after inquisiton athras builds a home in the woods and falls in love with a baker in the nearest village, their name is morgan (the shipname was a placeholder) -> otp; running with the wolves - her first big love, a dalish from another clan who happens to be a werewolf, his name is ilvin -> au: nas'taron - athras takes a nap in a temple and wakes up with dirthamen in her bones, they also fuck (can you believe i wrote "what if you fell in love with the person living in your head" before cyberpunk came out because i cant) -> au: the mad inquisitor - in order to find solas and bring him to justice she injects herself with red lyrium (#girlfail) -> au: professor lavellan - modern au duh -> au: all alone in a pack of wolves - after deciding to stop solas at all costs it finally comes to a confrontation but she caves in and saves his life at the cost of her own, she wakes up in his base of operations -> au: dhru'an'adal - ancient elvhen AU (the emerald graves grow around her sleeping body btw) -> au: dinathe'dirthelan - harpy AU i never did anything with and was inspired by my friend who did a similar au (hello reed) relations: -> mareloen - mother, she left clan lavellan not long after athras was born, she would visit when they were in the area -> rasdheas - father, lowkey a vampire, don't ask me how he dresses like that, has a lame leg -> fisara - sister, joins her at haven after the conclave because she was concerned. rogue/ bard, falls in love with josie -> deshanna - keeper of the clan and thus athras' teacher (also her aunt since mareloen is her sister), wears a plague doctor mask all the time, a little weird even for clan lavellan standards -> ilvin - her first big love i mentioned before, sort of becomes warden at some point lol -> morgan - the baker i mentioned before, they leave athras somewhat abruptly, might be my dreadwolf protag who knows -> agrippa - athras finds an abandoned child in the woods near her house post trespasser, turns out he is a mage and obviously in need of tutelage, another candidate for dreadwolf protag
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heeheihiihohihiohihiihiieihi very late dailt check in…. STop
during lunch my head was huritng a lot so i went to go honk mimimimimi (sleep) and i woke up and it was already fourth period 💔💔 AND FHEN WHEN I GOT HOME I WENT TO SLEEP AGAIN SO NOW IM STUDYING FOR MY TESTS TOMORROW.
i say im studying as i am on tumblr typing this out shhh
NOTHING REALLY HAPEPNED TODAY ACTUALLY UMM MY SCHOOL IS PLANNING A NEW YORK CITY TRIP?? its for $1.4k and my parents said im literally going to nyc for march break (for my birthday 😈😈) so i dont really see a point in going but my friend wants me to go with her but i really dont wanna spend 1.4k to go to a place ive already been to basically twice by the time the trip actually happens
the first time i went to new york i actually passed out bc MY DUMB BUMBUM FORGOT TO BRING WATER ☹️☹️ so my trip got cut short bc we headed back to the hotel right after i passed out and i legit passed out AS I WAS EATING AND THE FOOD WAS SO GOOD TOO UGH but now im kinda scared of big cities despite living in one
anwyays time to LOCK IN and .. study 💔 im scared kms gonna fail
the dailt question for today is which bllk character would study their heart out and still get like 2% on a test HELP
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HIIII OMG I THOUGHT YOU GOT ABDUCTED FROM THE OCTOPUS POLICE
OOH was the sleep good atleast😕?? LMAO IT WAS BC YOU WERE JUST TIRED? atleastyou got some mimimi😴😴😴!!!
HELPME multitasking fr! ALSO NEW YORK TRIP WHAT SCHOOLS ACTUALLY DO THAT😨 I wanna move out this country.. BUT 1.4K WHAT
omg march is my birthmonth heh.. I share the same bday with yuuta🤫🤫 03/07 heheheheh
HELPME YOU PASSED OUT I've never left my country before the most I did was i took a trip to the twin island bc I live on the big island and when I was younger I spent a summer on the small island apparently they're sisters😱 my country is a twin island country so technically I DIDNT EVEN LEFT THE COUNTRY I JUST LEFT MY HOME ISLAND fun fact my home island is kinda shaped like a boot hahha!
I WANNA VISIT THE USA just for the food I really wanna visit egypt tho!
LOCK IT YOU WONT FAIL!!
ERM ERM ILL SAY igarashi bc I forgot he's in bllk!
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A - awakening
i realised i was nonhuman just a year ago! ^-^
B - balance
my otherkin identity doesn't interfere with my normal life, no. no one irl knows about it (except my sibling now), so i keep them pretty separate. the only thing that gives me trouble are my dragon urges sometimes, specially when interacting with people, because sometimes i just want to growl or bite at people and that is not appropriate in most settings.
C - city
i live in a city sadly and tbh its pretty bad. my heart yearns for the forest that is my hearthome, and seeing all this concrete makes me sad. also, i have asthma so my lungs really dont appreciate the city. there is a little forest park near my home where i hang out sometimes and i consider it my territory, even if it isnt quite right.
D - diary
i used to have a journal but i was not good at keeping it so I stopped doing it.
E - experience in the community
oh ive had a wonderful time here. everyone is just so nice, i cant believe how many friends ive made since i joined!
F - friends
i only told my sibling because i suspected they might be a therian too. i havent told anyone else and i prefer to keep it that way
G - gear
i have gear of my dragon side, such as my hoard of found items and my horns that i bought. for my enderman side i have my fingerless gloves and a cardboard glass block i made
I - identity
im dragonkin, endermankin, corvidhearted and spacehearted!
J - jokes
both. both is good.
like i love to write mini essays and all but sometimes i just wanna get a bit silly about it.
K - knowledge
ive only been here for less than a year so id say 6/10? i try to read about the history of the community and stay as educated as i can, but i still have a lot to learn.
L - liking, loving
yeah i like them. i sometimes wish i had a more common 'type (like, a minecraft enderman? are you serious, brain?) but i love the draconic community here so i cant complain.
N - nature
yeah, both my kintypes live in the wild.
O - otherhearted
yeah, im corvidhearted! ^-^
P - popularity
for my dragon 'type, yeah, id say its pretty "popular", in the sense that there are a lot of dragons in and outside of tumblr. as for my enderman kintype... lets just say that there are like three of us that are active rn, and im the only one that actually talks about it so...
R - real body
dont get me wrong, i like my body. im not really trans so i dont experience dysphoria or anything, but i do wish i was stronger. i dont have time to exercise anymore and im kind of built like a stick, so im not intimidating at all and i miss that. my claws are missing, my teeth are too small, i dont even have my wings :(
S - sex
yes, but also no? if we're talking about biological sex (that is, chromosomes, hormones, internal organs, external anatomy, all that) yes, my dragon kintype is technically a female dragon. but neither me nor my dragon species care about gender, so im pretty apathetic towards that. dont even get me started on the enderman, who dont even have biological sexes OR gender. because i dont have a gender, i have a habit to collect xenogenders and labels because i prefer to associate myself with an aesthetic rather than a specific gender.
T - traits
my dragon urges include getting to high places, climbing, hoarding, protecting my territory, hunting and of course flying! as for my enderman urges, its stuff like holding block-shaped objects, making enderman noises, teleporting, wandering around and attacking anyone who makes eye contact with me /j
U - urges
it depends honestly. if im having a bad day, or if im having a lot of anxiety, or if ive had a meltdown/shutdown it will become a lot harder to repress my wild nature.
W - wondering
Y - yarn
not a mammal so, no fur.
Z - zoo
zoos are fine generally. im a vet student, so ive studied A LOT on animal Welfare laws (which are much more strict than people think!). trust me, modern zoos are really good in keeping animals happy, healthy and appropriately stimulated. its the dream life for any wild animal.
Alterhuman alphabet!
(feel free to copy, paste, fill in and credit me!)
A - awakening
When did you realise you are an alterhuman? At what age, how long ago?
B - balance
Does your identity affect your social life (school, work, ect.)? Does it cause troubles or not?
C - city
Do you live in a city? If yes, is it hard for you to be away from nature? Does your therio/kintype even need nature?
D - diary
Do you have a diary about your alterhuman experiences? If not, do you want to start one?
E - experience in the community
What is your experience and thoughts about the alterhuman community?
F - friends
Have you told your friends about your identity?
G - gear
Do you have any gear? If yes, is it handmade or bought?
I - identity
What is (are) your therio/kintype(s)?
J - jokes
Do you like to make little jokes about your identity or is it rather serious for you?
K - knowldege
In scale of 1-10, how big do you think your knowldege about alterhumans is? Are you new to this topic?
L - liking, loving
Do you like your therio/kintype(s)? Do you love or dislike it/them?
N - nature
Does your therio/kintype live in the wild, or rather not? (E.g. it's a house pet, or it's a robot.)
O - otherhearted
Are you also otherhearted? If yes, what is your kithtype(s)?
P - popularity
Is your therio/kintype "popular" or is it rather rare?
R - real body
Do you feel good about your psychical body? Do you experience gender dysphoria?
S - sex
Dies therio/kintype have a different sex than you?
T - traits
What are your alterhuman traits? (E.g. a need to hunt, bark, ect.)
Urges
If you have a theriotype, are you good at controlling your animalistic urges? Do they bother you?
W - wondering
How do you think you would look like, if you could psychically shapeshift into your therio/kintype? (Describe or put an inage here!)
Y - yarn
If you wanted ti buy/make a tail, would it be real fur or fake/yarn fur?
Z - zoo
How do you feel about zoos (a place, not z00philes)? Are they good or bad in your opinion? Do you want to go there to meet your theriotype (if you are a therian).
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That's all! Bye!🍄
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hollywood studios
2/24/2023 11:03pm
i really question sometimes in my family if i am the crazy one? or maybe they grew up in another time? maybe we just grew up so differently that i dont feel i can understand them.
we were celebrating my moms birthday and lots of small things had been going wrong. being with my family really reminds me why i used to drink it made existing easier in some ways. we were all tired and there was a dense fog over the city. as we approached the park august kept yelling about the fog.
we were running a bit behind schedule but made it to the cantina in star wars land for morning drinks. it was really cool. the day was exhausting but overall going well. we went from the cantina to the smugglers run ride. the park had been more packed than normal which meant that everyone was a bit more on edge. we went and got pizza then went on the minnie mouse ride in the chinese theatre. we went on toy story mania and then went to walt disney presents and the disney junior area to cool down. after that we went to our dinner reservations at hollywood & vine. it was a buffet it was pretty mediocre quality. at least the characters were coming through which the kids liked. when we were leaving mom and i went to the bathroom and kevin made a joke about us having bladders the size of peas.
we then went to go walk towards rise of the resistance. the really popular star wars ride where there is always a 2 or 3 hour wait. on the way there kevin says he has to go to the bathroom and i start making the joke he made less than 15 minutes earlier about having a small bladder. he cuts me off and says his stomachs bothering him and i said i didnt really care and that it was literally the same thing he just said to me and then he grabbed me by the neck with the same two finger grip digging in that he always did when i was a kid that i hated and he jerked me like he was trying to throw me to the ground and i tried to push against him and wiggle out if it and he kept pushing me to the ground so i elbowed him in the side and he let go and i yelled that he was a fucking bastard he finally let go and walked off to the bathroom. and then everyone started telling me how he was having stomach problems and a long day!! like didnt even check on me or anything and i started saying that it didnt matter and he does not get to put his hands on me like that and saying that i should expect it because no one in this family respects me. and complaining about how its a pattern and theres been other recent times where he has sat on me even after ive been yelling out in pain. and they were just like well everyones had a long day. and then i started chasing the kids around again while he was in the bathroom. and i think my mom told him off when he came back because when he came back he said he was sorry and gave me a hug but i sorta didnt drop it. like i was just like saying the same thing i just said back to you shouldnt cause that kinda response especially when its not relevant. and he told me that he was just sick of me saying that all day and then i asked him if his medicine also caused him to hallucinate cause I was literally saying what he said. and then he asked me when i got so sassy and i said who do you think i learned it from and my mom kinda just wanted it done so we ended it and went to go on the ride.
and then the ride was closed for technical difficulties!! and we went back and now i really have to do pleasantries with all these people even tho i have such pain in my heart from my brother attacking me in public!! and my family being more concerned about his wellbeing and placating me!!
insult to injury i am sleeping in the living room right next to my brothers bedroom. so obviously i can hear them talk and i really can hear him being surprised i got upset with him or something? idk he was less clear and then julie pretty much said it was due after 10 years like what?? i just dont get these people
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