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player1064 · 1 year ago
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Jamie Carragher character thesis statement
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orions-aether · 21 days ago
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nothing will haunt me like evan kelmp getting his arm exploded to death. nothing will haunt me like "there is a very real part of him that struggles under the effort of staying." nothing will haunt me like "if it depends on what was important to him, then obviously it is his friends" and "all of these things are easy for him to haunt" and "there is something in whatever drifting space he is now that wonders what he mattered to, and if it needs to be even".
nothing will haunt me like "it's easy to drift and to move away, but it's hard to close your eyes when it's so bright around" and "the shadow reaches out, and starts to slowly put objects back in the backpack" and "the main thing I'm going to do is take the shoes off my dead body and put them on."
#me and evan kelmp and adaine abernant holding hands worrying that we want other people more than they want us#THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THE FUNNY SEASON AABRIA#evan kelmp stop making me cry challenge impossible edition#I forgot how much this ep fucked with my whole shit my god#like I was still reeling from all the homelessness stuff#staring at the bags I've been living out of for nine months because I can't settle here or maybe anywhere#(we did just like yesterday get long term accommodation somewhere though so yay for that)#and then it's like oh yeah the arm explosion situation that's here too#the way evan interacts with his things makes me feel insane and also very seen and validated#looting his own dead body for his nice shoes that are a symbol of never being clocked and called out as something different and wrong again#carrying everything he owns in a backpack even after he has a home because he can't bear to risk losing them or leaving them behind?#fuck me man#also aabria's description of what haunting his shadow feels like is just like perfect rendition of dissociation#“everything feels like the understanding of what you should feel and not the feeling of it. it's dull and removed”#like I've used this but less poetic to describe dissociation goddammit do I spend my life haunting my fucking shadow#him kicking his body violently into the backpack I'm going to throw up#my reaction would imply this is a first time watch it's absolutely not#this is like the third or fourth of season 2? and I've lost count of how many times I rewatched before season 2 came out#I can't like things in a chill and normal way and that's okay I think maybe#shoutout pissberg for making this episode not just me ugly crying about the kelmp of it all#mismag#mismag 2#misfits and magic#dimension 20#dimension 20 misfits and magic#mismag spoilers#misfits and magic spoilers#evan kelmp
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cankersoregirl · 4 months ago
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I was afraid I’d lose him. So I got there late. And… as I entered, I saw him about to take pictures by himself. The first thing that I felt was… I wanted to hug him. No matter how bad I was to him, he’s still there for me. Every time that I’ve fallen or torn apart, he always runs up to me. He’ll come running and hug me. The same goes for this time, where he shows up. Am I happy? I’m really delighted. I really am. I’d like to thank Save for always being by my side till this very day.
DMD Friendship the Reality: It Takes Two EP. 5
#auausave#auau thanaphum#save worapong#dmd friendship the reality#dmd friendship the reality it takes two#b.txt#esmetracks#visualtaehyun#uservid#springgifs#the way i dont wanna tag a lot of ppl bc this set is So Long and so For Me#making self indulgent gifs is kinda fun af guys like yes I would like to see this moment in 20 gifs!#waiter waiter! more auausave! (im literally the waiter and brother. dinner is served!)#ok time for me to ramble abt this whole moment in the following tags#auau really loves save so much… like it's so serious y'all what the fuck……#his facial journey fucking kills me every time (and i have lost track how much i've rewatched this)#the way he really thinks he lost save and then BOOM save enters and auau opens his mouth to say Something but he's SPEECHLESS.#auau tries to play up his cool guy act but ugh u r down bad <3 u get shy <3 u gaf <3#save really has him wrapped around his finger like it's just so so so crazy#you can see in the first few gifs how he really did look so sad/disappointed!! processing it in real time and trying to accept it!!#it's the way save enters too. beaming addictive smile... ok i really. they really got me bad. u ever get self aware suddenly. thats me rn#AGH BUT LIKE ALL HIS WORRIES R GONE BC SAVE IS HERE!!! SAVE CHOSE HIM!!!! AUAU WHO KEPT WORRYING THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE SHOW BC HE KEPT#GETTING SO CLOSE TO FIRST PLACE BUT STILL NOT GETTING IT... BUT AUAU!! SAVE CHOSE U AS FIRST IN HIS HEART!!!!!#and when he asks save if hes happy bc he knows they didnt spend as much time together as they wanted... but ofc theyre both happy to choose#each other 🥹🥹😭🥹 when i watched it i knew theyd end up together so ofc this wasnt a surprise. but it also felt like of course... theyre#already meant to be realhia in your sky. and they clearly get along so why wouldnt they choose each other. BUT THEN I REMEMBERED SEASON ONE#and the auausaveryujin trio thing going on couldve turned out like a tlelattefirstone moment. just cuz theyre supposed to act in a show#together doesnt mean theyll stick together... which i actually love bc its really based on who wants to act together as a koojin(g) waaaah#(but also lbr ryujin honestly wasnt even doing that much like he literally chose himself DKSFJHGD) 'i got a bit heartbroken' is so. it's so#auau. do u hear urself. GOD. dmd friendship is just so awesome. i love schrödinger's dating show so much
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ruvviks · 7 months ago
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PLEASE DO NOT TAG AS YOUR OWN OC.
Vincent spends all his life searching for himself, searching for his spot in the world. He lives in the past and what will never be, longing for everything he has missed out on and everything he will never have. It is not until he learns he is dying that he comes to realize he has to live in the present, to enjoy life as it comes.; and despite his confusion, fear, and his regrets, he tries to live the rest of his life to the fullest, knowing very well he is living on borrowed time. OC WEB WEAVE SERIES: VINCENT "V" MAYER.
charles bukowski, pulp // by wiissa0 // loneliness for love; lovelytheband // louise glück, from 'unpainted door' // by biryuza // summer farah, i could die today and live again // tobia photographed by su yang // wake up; run river north // ruhlare // by julykings // lemonade; twin xl // ryan walker photographed by ryan pfluger // mary oliver, from 'marengo' // still not dead; dreamers // by lovelyopalite // by geloy concepcion // lemon drop; raynes // chris abani, ritual is journey // 'die milchstrasse', cover detail // louise glück, averno // i like cars; caroline kole // by cruellesummer // frances molina, o’death
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meltedmush · 1 year ago
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how long does it take you to draw your sketches/doodles? also do you have any tips to draw faster? 🙇‍♀️
I generally take 30 - 60 minutes a sketch,,,, but honestly really depends on how detailed it is.
Like a Chibi will be done in 20 - 25 minutes (Counting in the extra time I spend on minute details like a perfectionist 😭)
I for some reason really like spending egregious amounts of time on random objects too??? Unless it’s the in the background, I’ll spend 40 minutes refining it.
Random characters that are fully colored and rendered with take like 80 minutes.
The comics take usually take an hour or two per page. (If I decide to cross hatch it, my entire day will be gone with 4 pages… so I’ve been trying to find shortcuts. But not without sacrificing the quality for time lol)
I don’t think there’s any trick or magic to drawing faster. It’s really about weaponizing your artistic knowledge, and finding what’s comfortable or convenient for you!
There was a period of time where I would spend 11 or 12 hours on an illustration, and it wASS UGLYYYYY. (Some of these artworks are still available on my tumblr,,, but it’s SO LONG AGO, AND IT WAS MY 1ST OR 2ND YEAR GETTING INTO DIGITAL ART)
Overtime I learned what worked best for me, and practiced till I felt more comfortable with what I was drawing. Eventually I managed to shorten the time to 4 hours or less! Ambition was my biggest enemy but at the same time my biggest motivator. (And it still is LMFAO) 😭
EDIT (bit more to my way too long tangent): ALSO??? BRO DON’T BE AFRAID TO USE YOUR MESSY SKETCH AS LINEART OR DRAW ON TOP OF IT. I’VE DONE IT FOR YEARS NOW AND IT ADDS SUCH A GOOD EXTRA BIT OF TEXTURE,, AT THIS POINT I DON’T EVEN USE LINE-ART ANY MORE UNLESS IT’S A COMMISSION,, (IT’LL ADD LIKE AN 2-4 HOURS TO MY WORK)
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#mushyrt#asks#that word minute bothers me so much#I look at it and want to refer to it as the time minute#this sketch took about 3 minutes when it should’ve been 1 minute#BUT I WAS SO HYPERFIXATED ON THE EYESSS#i say these pretty words#but THE REAL TIP IS HONESTLY THE LASSO TOOL#LASSO TOOL IS THE BEST#IT’S MY FAVORITE TOOL FOR MAKING BACKGROUNDS OR QUICK SHADING OR COLORING#OR ALSO THE MASK TOOL#TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THEM#THEY’RE SO GOOD#Procreate mask tool kinda sucksss#SO USE ALPHA LOCK IF YOU ARE A CONFIDENT PERSON#OR NOT AFRAID TO F**K UP#Bro I sometimes draw on 1 layer and use alpha lock and my friends look at me like I’m a menace#BUT IT!S USEFULLLL AND SO EASY#This little tangent definitely should’ve been my answer for the ‘how much do you draw’ question#but I’ve been thinking about it for a long time#AND I’M A MANIAC WHEN IT COMES TO DRAWING 😭😭#even if you rob me of a paper or pencil I WILL FIND A WAY TO DRAW#I WILL SCRATCH INTO YOUR SHIRT AND ROCKS AND MAKE AN ARTWORK OUT OF WATER OR CAT FUR#YOU WILL NOT DEPRIVE ME OF MY CREATIVE ENDEAVORS#This didn’t stick out to me until one of my friends said ‘omg ofc she’s drawing’ under her breath#like I spend every second of free time I have drawing unless I find something else interesting#The only time I’m not drawing is when I’m on the toilet or doing random everyday stuff#I forgot to talk about this but greyscale to color is insanely useful too; it teaches you different values while also being super fast#i tend to use greyscale to color when I do a BW sketch I end up liking#TL;DR - Lasso Tool + Layer Mask + Alpha Lock + Sketch as lineart
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skunkes · 5 months ago
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i loooove when ocs unrealized development makes them feel like real people like no i dont know whether talon is genuinely attracted to women after years of both clinging to them for safety and years of putting them onto that untouchable idealized Perfect Protector Pedestal that must remain untainted by any bad experiences, so he doesn't even try to Be With any. He doesn't know either
#like i heart bisexual men so part of me is like no yeah he does like women. he literally loves women#>what if this is just love as general blind devotion solely on the basis of them not being men#we all know he likes men without much of what would be societal shame but he still grapples with it in that personal way#in the if i like men it means i like them despite what happened to me -> i secretly like what happened to me way#talon like i like men and women but i could never spend my eternal life with a man. as a way to just focus on one thing (finding said women#instead of letting himself think about anything else at all#oc text#ill let it float into my mind but idk because this would mess up his original plot before i kept him#though tbh i want to keep keeping him idk if ill ever let him go back home ykwim. long gone concept at dis point he's mine now. ours#talkys#also this makes things more interesting too in the way of#well it was previously thought that talon has a great interest in [smunker] because of smunkers Body#a sort of unintentional and subconscious rejecting of [smunker's] gender and seeing him#as not a man#now its like. what if its not that. it rly is just sole attraction to men because well al is also a pretty feminine guy#views challenged because no‚ men one way (bad) and women another way (good)#but theres TWO guys here who exhibit femininity so he's like wait hold onnnnnn waittttt#that subconscious conflict still exists though in the fearing al (at first) due to his body and both terrorizing and clinging to [smunker]#because of his#the terrorizing because talon sees his original self in smunker (weak and youthful‚ cherubic‚ naive)#theres so many layerssss#anyway yes. loving women as in of course i love women. beautiful and they keep me safe#but not in any way further than that... i love them i can and will kiss them and do much more but it doesnt feel The Same#i dont think i actually even have any fully gay guy characters [EXCEPT MAYBE THE SELF? LMAO IDK] bc i love bisexual men so much#groundbreaking...#wait sorry more oc rambling this actually would also make sense too because how i imagine talon with women is exaggerated#complete personality change to be pleasant and pliable and you can do whatever you want to me#when its also known that the reason he ''acts out'' with al and [smunker] is because he feels safe enough to drop any and all masks to do s#hmmmmmmmm i must keep thinking
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riddlerosehearts · 2 months ago
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A3! Act Addict Actors || one gifset per episode ↳ Episode 04 ❀ A New Challenge
#a3#a3! act addict actors#a3 anime#animeedit#dailyanime#fyanimegifs#allanimanga#sakuya sakuma#masumi usui#tsuzuru minagi#itaru chigasaki#citron#my edits#my gifs#people who don't know a3 try to guess wtf is going on here 💖#i'm about to be so annoying in the tags though but this scene. is everything to me.#not just because it's hilarious although that's very important too#but itaru's little gasp when sakuya says 'all i want is to keep living with you'. his cute laugh at the end#the way that i feel like breaking down sobbing when i think about what this must've meant to him like#he's always been so lonely and felt so ashamed of his true self and his interests#the only friend he ever had betrayed him and left him#and yet he let himself look absolutely ridiculous about his gaming habits in front of these people he really barely knows#and then outright told them he's not into theater and he only joined to save money to spend on his gacha games#he knows he doesn't belong. he knows it'd be best for him to quit and WAIT WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN THEY'RE BEGGING HIM NOT TO LEAVE??#what do you mean they came up with this whole insane plan to make him stay#what do you mean the gambling addiction plot is them basically saying 'we know what you're like and we still want you here'#also what do you MEAN citron said he hopes the troupe can be like a family. and then their plan is PRETENDING TO BE ITARU'S FAMILYYY#hello. what the fuck. they did something so meaningful for itaru when they don't even know what he's been through yet....#okay sorry i am normal about itaru chigasaki (lying) <33#anyway sorry this post is so long but i had to include the whole scene
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woolying · 1 year ago
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I LOVE U FANGANS !!! I LOVE U DR OCS !!!
just a few i enjoy <3 yay sooo cool ooough
dr mira : @gooseagain8 drsg : @danganronpasurvivorsguilt dr50th : @okthatsgreat drdw : @sir-sunny
the stupid idiot is mine teehee
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angelonhelios · 28 days ago
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[tps vault hunter] saves angel au tierlist. thoughts
no one being put in S is so fucking funny to me. they all kind of Sucks just a little…
#borderlands#nisha is the undisputed best though. no notes. <- incredibly biased. angel and nisha get close in a way that angel cant really get w other#people. at least at that time. i think nishas nonchalance does wonders for angels comfort.#athena would stonewall angel SO badly at first but it doesnt last too long. shes def probably the closest to canon to do something#abt jack even if in my heart im a nisha fan first. in br once athena moves to hollow point angel checks in on her now and then. its only a#little tense.#wilhelm...[CAR CRASH SOUND EFFECT.] i need to make a full post about the two of them. i think itd be a Very bad situation for them both#but also very fun. for me at least. im sure theyre miserable.#and aurelia saving angel just to bring her into the hammerlock family nightmare. i think short term angel would be the happiest with#aurelia but that grace period goes away once family tension gets put back into the mix. she gets to be a heiress but at what cost....#<- angel jakobs but with extra steps.#claptrap and angel are friends to me...even if he doesnt know what Exactly she is i think hes the first to tell that shes not an ai.#but i dont think theres much saving going on there. he makes her happy at least.#being as unbiased as possible timothy is just. uhm. even if he Wanted to help her i dont think theres a feasible world where he could.#or that angel would want to spend much time around him regardless. you cant put them two of them in a room together because itd be a#constant cycle of anxiety and they just Do Not know how to regard each other.#wainwrightjakobshammerlock
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thyme-in-a-bubble · 3 months ago
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i don’t think people understand the writing process😭 give the princess some time💗
exactly 😭
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light-wrath-paradise · 2 months ago
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Now I'm not saying I want to wear things like crop tops or short shorts but I just wish I could without being reprimanded and reminded that I'm not something the public should "have to be subjected to."
#like sorry for being born i guess#I'm only acceptable when I wear long sleeves and clothes 2 sizes too large and only when they never touch my body lest they#reveal the abnormality underneath and I can have my orthoses but they need to look like jewellery because otherwise The Public#will have to experience the horror or existing in the vicinity of someone who isn't built in a typical way. well sorry about it.#i didn't ask for it either.#but I was born like this and there's nothing i can do about it#because there's just one surgeon in the whole country and he said that it doesn't seem to be affecting my heart so whi cares#well i care because if i try to wear a shirt that fits my grandma tells me to go change. that I can't go outside like that.#that i should be ashamed. and when i need to change my shirt i have to do it when everyone leaves.#because I know from my mother that it's a disgusting sight. i know I'm something they put trigger warnings on.#and people always tell me not to worry about my body so much but god it's the only one I've got and you'd spend a lot of time#thinking about it too if you had to pause and ask yourself 'will this potentially reveal my silhouette if i pose or move a certain way?'#every time you got dressed. when i had very big issues with gastroparesis i kept talking about food.#because you'd be thinking about it too if you had to take a pill or two before every meal and you could only take two pills a day#and even then there was a chance you'd suffer for 24 hours. you'd think about it.#i have to think about clothes because I can't wear them unless they flow. unless they're comically oversized. unless I'm sure there's no way#I'd Harm™ the oh so well-regarded Public Masses™ by subjecting them to the terror of catching a glimpse of the outline of my fucking body.#my family wouldn't allow it and when I'm not near them and make an oopsie i know that strangers notice and stare#the same way they stare at people in wheelchairs or people with canes (that's also me by the way) or people with leg prosthetics#they stare the way they stare at people with facial asymmetry or with alopecia or at people with limited mobility of half of the face#the way they stare at people with missing fingers or polydactyly or anything else you can think of. anything that makes The Masses™#think 'If i were them i would never leave my home. How dare they? Don't they know we; the diligent citizens; are here too?'#as if the only person who has a right to exist is the outwardly perfectly typical 100% average and preferably conventionally attractive#specimen
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shachiruka · 3 months ago
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when will people learn to stay at home when they're sick hhhh
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realmikedirnt · 5 months ago
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gonna do this now while i take my meds
w's for yesterday: class went well, i had stuff ready to roll even though an assignment was posted late. i was even not too weird around my classmates
got the skip to m4 even though it was hashtag Painful
WE GOT OUR RECLEAR IN ONE NIGHT, it was so exciting, now we have all the rest of the week to go do fun shit
watched leverage with the cats (they required this)
today: no classes bc of the snow, and i slept in (both kind of a w kind of an l)
grill't cheese >:3
gave a friend a ride
had tea and a good dinner and a conversation i've wanted to have for a while, and while it maybe didnt end how i hoped i'm still happy with how it shook out
got my disc farm working in minecraft (floating island now comes with Creepy Ambiance, courtesy of jukebox and also allays)
almost... done... with netherite farming..... /falls over
ALSO while i was writing this twizzler came upstairs and demanded pets and lovies. best boy
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orcelito · 5 months ago
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Bought a stupid suit thing. Disgustang.
#speculation nation#i got it on sale but it was still kinda expensive. ughhhh#hates every part of that. it's so stiff and uncomfortable and unnatural feeling.#but business professional is the recommended attire... so to that i went...#felt bad staying so close to close but the employees were nice about it at least. and i still got out b4 they closed (barely)#i wanted to go shopping earlier today. in between class and orchestra. but allegedly attendance is required in the lab.#so i went. didnt really feel like attendance was taken. but i still went.#still gotta finish prepping my resume but i dont think itll take Too long... i got a template to follow#from my web coding class actually. bc we just happen to have a resume building assignment this week.#so by working on my resume im working on the lab!! yay!!!#except im not doing the lab resume rn. just the normal resume. the template is still helpful tho.#also need to do a bit of research into the companies that are there and the interview style thingie#GOD this is going to be a whole hassle. i dont wanna wrinkle my stupid suit so i shouldnt stuff it in a bag.#and i dont wanna BIKE in the stupid suit. so im thinking of driving up to campus. forking over the money for guest parking#do the stupid career fair then drive back home to change and then go back up to campus on bus or bike in time for bowling#hopefully. we hope. nonzero chance of having to miss bowling and web coding classes tho. depending on how long i spend at this thing.#ultimately career bullshit is more important than one day of bowling so like. whatever.#but i still want a reward for sucking it up and going to the stupid career fair anyways. even tho i Really dont want to.#im already planning on skipping my first class. he made it sound like it would be fine + expected. so we can go to the career fair.#and that opens up a good amount of time so. doing that. and then hoping i can make it to bowling class...#it's funny to imagine if i didnt have time to go back home to change. me showing up to bowling in a suit.#im not doing that tho. this shit was too expensive to risk it doing physical activity.#BLARGH i am so supremely grumpy going to this thing. i dont want to. at all. i hate all this Professional Attire bullshit.#but i need to... and i already went thru the hassle of getting the damn suit... might as well just go.#i will simply pout and grumble the whole way. until tomorrow where it'll be full social smiles and whatever the fuck.#need to get enough sleep to make talking easier. no time for any fun stuff tonight.#need to find my damn. razor. bc i need to shave my little mustache thing probably. for 'professionalism'. ugh.#kicking and screaming this whole way. man i dont think i even own an ironing board. gonna have to hang the shit up and hope for the best#longest sigh imaginable... i just wanna write....... or play video games...... wahhhh#at least itll be over tomorrow. but then i will have to do presentation stuff for thursday. ughhhhhh
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Do you ever read a post where someone is explaining a pokitical thing and from the way they're saying you know with absolute certainty 1) they got their info from a tumblr post and have never actually followed up on how feasible that information actually is to act upon (they may not even have checked if it was CORRECT, but when they do they have clearly not looked into how easy or hard it may be to follow those instructions with a positive outcome), and 2) you know WHICH tumblr post they're quoting because it is basically a copy/paste of it, and 3) it was YOUR goddamn post and the thing they are saying is entirely counter to the point you were making when you said it to the point that you genuinely wonder if they just like. Memory-holed the entire context once they saw that one itty bitty point.
It's like the motherfuckiny dating apps all over again. I do not want people to love my words if they are not actually willing to do the work of understanding them! Didn't your kindergarten ever make you play Telephone to teach you how heresay falls out????
#sometimes i feel like a prized 12 point buck and everyone is desperate to give chase so they can skin me and wear my pelt in memorium#the luxury of being seen is rarely extended to those we perceive as confident/constant in their sense of self#the path of being a child who was constantly told i was making people uncomfortable and alienating my peers#only to immediately become an adult who everyone perceives as so together that they are just Like That With Everyonr#brennan said something like this in the disection of a recent misfits and magic episode about sam (character)#and how he (as evan) realized that the charm and specialness she gifts to everyone around her means that no one ever really gifts it back#and how that fundamentally felt transcendent and revelatory for evan as a turning point idea#he'd spent so long never trusting others feelings of care for him that he couldn't see how he was bulldozing right into and over sam's own#insecurities about whether or not she is worth loving or is special in the same way#and then they had some back and forth about like#sometimes when you develop the skill of relateability and pacification#you disappear so deeply into it that no one notices you're gone - even you yourself - until it's too late#it put to words a lot of the like#gap. that i've always felt between me and others. this insistance on elevating or pathologizing me depending on where they feel the need#to be in relation to me#while having absolutely zero awareness of my actual positioning in relation to them#i have found that they way i interact with others seems to give the impression that because i am being 'genuine' and 'open' about myself#that ALSO means that I am sharing the whole of me.#and when i talk about destigmatization and shame and people work really hard to be like. aware of the edges of me to carch me embarrassed#like if they can prove that i don't 'admit' something it's because i'm ashamed as opposed to considering that maybe they don't have the kind#of relationship with me that would warrant the sharing of it#because i'm willing to talk i am no longer allowed privacy or it's treated as incongruous#but like. i am different people for different people and they are all authentically me but they are also about faciliting the version#of the other person that matters to me to be able to spend time with. i'm not going to bring the parts of me that put you in a bad mood#or aren't comfortable/safe for you. also probably not going to put those things out into the open world as a mixed company conversation#i don't know where I'm going or where I came from here but i think the point is just that I think there's melancholy in seeing when#you also don't know a reliable way to be seen in turn
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