#also loving the fact that i realized this during no body no crime because that's one of my favorite songs

[kitchensinkchronicles]

I have an important announcement

in watching another angle of my eras tour show bc i wanted to remember it, i discovered that i technically have a picture with taylor swift

(see the tiny purple circle)

this was in seattle night 1 last year and when i was watching this video i was like "wait, i was sitting around there....wait, 343 was my section....wait, IS THAT ME?!"

so i checked my old ticket, counted the rows/seats and low and behold....THAT IS INDEED ME!!!!

somehow the best news i've gotten all day is that i am technically visible in the same video as taylor swift. i got my picture guys!!

[ms-demeanor]

i really liked OJST in the mid-2010s but i didn’t stop reading cause of the cuck comic - wasn’t there also a comic erika moen wrote about (functionally) harassing lesbians with her now-husband?

In the mid 2010s closet-keys criticized one of Erika Moen's early diary comics and described Erika Moen as "Reassuring a cishet partner that it’s totally okay to use hate speech towards wlw at Pride" and condoning the harassment and fetishization of lesbians because of a 2007 comic that she had made as part of a webcomic she had written about gender and her interactions with her queerness.

The hate speech in question is the partner asking "are you sure you want to hold my hand with all these dykes around?" while they are pretty clearly at a Dyke Day event during pride, and the reassurance that 'it's totally okay to use hate speech toward wlw' is Erika responding "sweetie, I'm proud to be with you."

The comic is still up with a disclaimer that it was written at a different time, and I know that's probably not going to fly with a lot of people but if you were a bi woman in the early to mid 2000s it was pretty common to use statements like "lol yeah i'm into women my boyfriend is fine with it as long as I take pictures" to diffuse the biphobia from straight people AND to say shit like "I'm not a party bi, I actually love pussy, thanks" to diffuse the biphobia from queer people. (if you were a bi guy in the early to mid 2000s i'm sorry and I'm sorry now because we got LUG but that mostly went away and you *still* have to deal with the "gay in waiting" bullshit).

That comic ends with Erika and her partner looking at a woman and saying "I'd totally do her" while the woman thinks "pigs" and if you think that means that they literally sat on the street and vocally commented about lesbians passing by them or that they condone harassing lesbians (in, I cannot stress this enough, a diary comic written by someone in their early twenties who is realizing they are occasionally interested in some men some of the time after identifying as a lesbian their whole life), then I'm gonna go ahead and recommend signing up for some variety or other of literary analysis class. Do we think that Erika is seriously implying that she is going to make her boyfriend gay if she fucks him in this comic from a year later?

If this comic bothers you and you see it as a straight-passing couple giving the go-ahead to harass lesbians, you do you, I'm not saying you have to read the comic or enjoy Erika Moen.

I am saying it's a bit of a stretch, though, and certainly the least charitable explanation possible, and that we should probably give people some space to say awkward things about their sexuality and to make missteps when discussing it in their early twenties and not call them lesbophobic fifteen years after the fact for a college comic.

Moen also gets called transphobic because she has described trans men as adorable/cute in a way that could be read as patronizing in one comic and because she made a comic about wearing a packer for fun and for sexual gratification with her cis male partner as a cis woman.

Appropriately, all of these things feel very "late twenty teens tumblr callout post."

If it bugs you, you don't have to read the comics but I've talked about Moen before and I've gotten the anons in my inbox calling me lesbophobic for recommending her comic when in 2007 she made a comic about catcalling lesbians and condoning street harassment.

Which is frustrating because Erika Moen writes a comic about sex toys that has incredible body and gender diversity and is interested in making sure that people of all sexualities are having safe, enjoyable sex and talking openly about it. This is Rebecca Sugar condones war crimes level discourse over a creator who makes a genuinely good comic and gets dismissed as cringe by people who hate open discussions of sex and gets dismissed as a bigot (in ways that I think are incredibly unfair given the vast majority of her work) among people who *claim* to love open discussions of sex but who *actually* love witch hunts.

[piracytheorist]

Episode 32 notes!

Starting off right in the middle of action, right where we left off!

And some great animation there, too!

The thing about Anya is that her plans are so innocently silly that thanks to her young age, they actually work.

She's right there in front of Yor, acting like she doesn't recognize her, and Yor accepts that because a) it's easy and b) well Anya is a little kid, isn't she?

The fact that Anya is visibly sweating and has a very nervous expression shows that she's worried her plan won't work, and the entire family could come apart right there. She knows it's a risky plan... but because of the circumstances, it works perfectly not only to cover Yor but also to cover Anya's knowledge of Yor's secret.

I love her.

Also, a great way to take the fear of exposure away from Yor and help her focus on the fight! Worth waiting the entire week for!

I also love how excited the entire crowd was about seeing two people "play" with what seems to be lethal weapons. They'd do numbers as WWE fans.

The camera focuses on Yor as she's starting to question herself.

Yes you are! You're hesitating to get close because you fear you'll get hurt and you know that will make Anya and Loid sad! (And of course because you'll have no excuse to tell them but okay yeah)

Anyway. I just like how in comparison to the manga, we see her expression there during her inner monologue.

Yor comments about how professional the guy is with the chain, but then she has no problem using the chain's momentum to wrap it around his wrist and then his torso. Some excellent animation there showing the small details of her control of the chain!

~YOU'VE BEEN HIT BY-

YOU'VE BEEN STRUCK BY-

THE THOOOORN PRIIINCEEEEEEEESS~

She even used his immobilized body to make him bow. She's an absolute legend.

I've talked before that this isn't even a five-year-old roleplaying. She's actually getting involved with actual enemies of the state, helping their plans without them knowing, and having a blast. Her moral compass may be a little unhinged but by god is it steadfast XD

And then. The Grand RevealTM

WHITE ASS LEGS

I love him your honour. How did he even combine all that, I don't wanna know. The rainbow-tinted glasses is what ended me.

Anya Forger, professional heart-breaker.

Again. Talking with a guy who believes humans will never understand each other and who wants to wage another war, while Twilight has his own war trauma? No big deal. Anya calling him uncool? THE SHOCK AND DESPAIR OF HIS LIFE.

And off to the next chapter! Great transition in the anime - I can usually notice when they jump onto the next chapter, but this time I was surprised with how smoothly they took it from one to the next.

Turtleneck guy says he can't pick up Yor's scent? Even though he seems to have extraordinary smelling abilities?

Is that another reason why Yor is so good at sneaking up on people? She did sneak up on Twilight, after all...

"The bones" mentioned above... is that Loid talking about the skeleton keychain? There was, after all, a hidden bug in the store Loid and Anya were in...

Some things never change.

I can't wait for the moment he realizes how soundly she sleeps on his arms because she trusts him and he makes her feel safe, just like his mother did for him :)

Zeb! I finally get the name of the guy! I won't lie that calling him Furseal felt so weird, like, apologies if your name is Furseal but hey.

Anyway. His outburst felt so real. This man doesn't belong in crime.

And of course, Olka is way too desensitized to such violence, having grown up in the family, after all, and I kinda like how she goes like "Yo snap out of it". Endo really doesn't hold back from having women tell men off huh. I also love the baby talk she used with Gram. So cute.

This scene has the very same music used in the first episode where Twilight has his flashback and remembers what his reason to become a spy was. I feel kinda sad hearing it here because I'd thought that this melody would be used as [redacted]'s leitmotif, but its meaning seems to be connected with how people broken by war can find the hope in humanity needed for peace. Or something.

McMahon berates Yor for going near the door earlier even though she didn't hear their secret knock, but in reality it wouldn't matter - unless the assassin heard their voices from outside the door - because the assassin shot anyway. It would have been the same if she had protected Olka from the first moment and then tried to assess how to attack the guy. So maybe calm down, dude.

The moment Zeb was like "How are we supposed to sleep like that?" I was certain we'd see him sleeping and snoring deeply. I was not disappointed XD

Me when proper trigger discipline: 🥳💯👀🥳👌💯👀👌👌👀🎊👌🎊💯

First, good ol' focus on the ring on McMahon's finger. Second, I'm confused by the translation here in comparison to the manga. Here it says "as long as people continue to be people" while the manga says "as long as people are the way they are", and that can have a different meaning. The former sounds like conflict is in the nature of humans and that it's something we can never avoid, which doesn't seem to follow the story's ideal. It's what Donovan Desmond beliefs are based on, after all. The latter sounds like people are currently very focused on matters that cause conflict, and have a chance of reaching peace if taught differently.

I think, depending on the interpretation, it can tell a lot about McMahon's character. I will wait to see the rest of the arc to make up my mind.

And after he says that they're soldiers even in time of peace, the manga treats us to a panel of a pensive Yor, but the anime doesn't.

Stop robbing us, anime team!

Yor tells the others they should keep their shoes on - nice detail, btw - and Olka looks very familiar with such a concept, while it's Zeb who is a little surprised but accepts it. It's interesting what a character not reacting to something can tell about them!

As expected, Yor and Olka are vigilant, while Gram and Zeb sleep like babies. Let them rest XD

Some brand new music there! There's a lot of new music in general. And then THIS!

THIS IS THE FUTURE LIBERALS WANT ETC

The way Yor widens her eyes when she realizes what she just imagined! AAAAAAAAAHHHH!

And BOY we talk a lot about Loid's denial but the way Yor is still going like "No, no, no, priorities!" though. THE WAY SHE THINKS OF YURI BEING PROUD OF HER, THEN BEING AN INDEPENDENT MAN SHE MANAGED TO RAISE WITH A FEW ISSUES, AND THEN THE HAPPY FACES OF LOID AND ANYA EATING HER FOOD I WILL GO FERAL

Someone hug her omg she deserves the world 😭😭

Neither Twilight nor Yor are the only people neck-deep in denial though.

"The man decided to live for his job" yeah right. He sees one (1) pretty woman pay him some attention because of Bond and he's like "Well imma adopt a dog then". Bond's doubtful and rejecting reaction was priceless XD

This is so fucking funny to me for some reason aadshadfhsdgh. Look at him. Brought into despair by one (1) five-year-old.

I kinda love how he admits that he does fear the unknown, and has been simply trained to overcome it and try to deal with what he has in front of him.

And currently, his fear is for Anya's emotional state.

Having no idea that she's actually having the time of her life, even though she hasn't realized how deeply dangerous her situation is.

Anyway, I love that she brought Mr. Chimera with her on the trip <3

LOID HAVING HIS VERY OWN OH MAH GAH MOMENT I LAUGHED SO HARD

He is very seriously focusing on how he can make Anya happy. He thinks she asked to go for mini golf because she likes it, so he followed along, he saw her upset with how she lost, and believed she needed to experience winning in order to feel fulfilled, so he was determined to stay there until she won.

Anya takes him to the library and of course he's read everything. And even if he hadn't, he has photographic memory and can practically read through an entire tome in minutes.

But still, he's focused on her happiness, and he's satisfied that Anya is having fun reading comics. She goes for the puzzle (btw I love the idea of having a big puzzle available and leaving it to passersby to solve it. I once visited a school where they had one on a table in the halls and students would sit and try and solve it during recesses) and he analyzes it, thinks he can solve it quickly. Anya reacts in shock, and we hear a tiny hesitant "Oh" from him, because he noticed her sudden change in reaction.

Oh no. Twilight is rubbing off on her a little too much. You're five, darling. Enjoying yourself is your job!!

Just like with the bullet in butt date, Loid cannot understand why Anya looks so angry now after having spent an entire day having fun - and he cataloguing what she seems to be having fun with.

The way that he ends his internal monologue with his fear of the Forgers breaking apart and Operation Strix doesn't cross his mind once, tells a lot about how his priorities are starting to change enough to even silence his "For the Mission" talk. My mans falling hard.

Anya sees how worried Loid has gotten... and maybe she reads even deeper and realizes how genuine of a worry it is? That he's not worried for her as an asset of Operation Strix, but as a kid that deserves to have fun and be happy. And she steps up to reassure him.

And oh, how his face changes! T_T

And the way he alternates between "Loid voice" when he speaks and "Twilight voice" when he thinks. Have I congratulated Takuya Eguchi for this feat yet?

And by the way, he "justifies" Anya being so upset of missing her mama because she's still a "small child". Because of course only small children can miss their mothers, right? Twilight definitely doesn't miss his, right?

Forget neck-deep denial, this man is deep down the Mariana Trench of denial.

And the "Small Daily Life" track from the soundtrack plays, with the beautiful family leitmotif...

I love them. He can be so sweet with Anya, I can only imagine how he'll end up post-identity reveals and especially post-feelings realization.

The final few hours before Olka, Gram and Zeb get safely transferred! I think you can see the tension on their entire faces.

Also some intense, new soundtrack there! Interesting! The composers have done a lot of job this season, carefully mixing up tracks from the previous season with new ones to create the respective mood.

And that's it for this week! I foresee way more action on the next episode! :D

[sasageyoarmin]

stained bedsheets and pancakes

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content : levi x fem!reader (or afab bc of talk of periods) , mentions of periods , period blood , etc.

a/n : hi everyone !!! i just wanted to write this little piece of levi fluff to start the week off , hopefully everyone is having a great start to their week !!!

also , i have gotten a lot of requests recently and i promise i am getting to them but it may take a little while , so i hope you can understand :)

please let me know if you enjoy this little fluff post and if you would like more !!!

•••

tears streamed down your face as you glanced down at the crime scene on the bed, cursing yourself out for not being prepared this month.

to your right was levi, your little insomniac, finally sound asleep in the white linen sheets for the first time this week.

just your luck, you had to stain the sheets of the one person who hates messes the most.

the amount of guilt you felt right now was consuming you whole, along with the cramps that seemed to be obliterating your abdomen. you desperately didn’t want levi to know, especially because he was known for keeping everything clean and tidy, and a mess would upset him. however, you knew that you couldn’t wash the sheets with his body laying on the bed, so you decided it was time to rip the band-aid off.

“levi,” your voice sounded desperate as you slightly shook him awake. “levi, please wake up.”

he moaned softly, slightly gaining consciousness before groggily looking over at your tear-stained face. “angel? what’s going on, are you okay?”

his sleep-deprived voice made you sniffle a bit more as you realized just how much of a deep sleep he was in. you felt horrible waking him up, especially when he never slept this well on a normal night.

“levi, i’m so sorry. please don’t be mad at me, i didn’t mean to do it..” your voice broke and trembled as you sobbed into your palms.

levi’s brows furrowed as he sat up and cupped your face, using his thumbs to wipe away the tears pooling under your eyes.

“y/n, baby, what happened? i need you to calm down and speak to me.” his tone was harsh, yet not in a demanding way. he just wanted you to be safe and the fact that you were currently crying beside him didn’t make it any better.

levi handed you a tissue and you blew into it before wiping your eyes with the back of your hand. you shakily pulled away the comforter to reveal a large red mark stained on the sheets.

“oh.” he breathed out before wrapping you into his chest. you sniffled and cried into his shoulder, staining yet another one of his items, yet this time it was with your tears.

“i’m sorry, you’re probably furious right now because i know you hate messes and it’s bloody and not clean and-“

“hey.” his stern voice caught your attention as your lip quivered, feeling guilt surge throughout your body. “i’m not mad at you. i could never be mad at you for something like this.”

you curled up and clutched your stomach as a vicious cramp took over your lower region, balling your fists in the process.

levi brushed your hair and sighed, feeling terrible that you were in pain. “hold on baby, i’ll go get you some painkillers.” he started to get up before you grasped his wrist to pull him back down.

“what about the sheets? i can pay for new ones, or wash these ones, or-”

“no, no honey. i’ll wash them, don’t worry.” he rubbed your kneecap, attempting to soothe your cries. “do you want to take a shower? i know those can sometimes make you feel better during this time of the month.”

you nodded as he helped you stand up to the bathroom, even though you weren’t in need of assistance. you covered your face with your palms. “i’m so embarrassed.”

“baby, don’t be embarrassed, i’ve heard it’s normal. don’t stress over it.” he kissed the top of your head, flashing a rare smile as he smelled traces of the floral shampoo he loved so much.

you looked down to examine the crime scene, eyeing the blood that had stained your sleep shorts and inner thighs. “but it’s so gross and messy! it’s all over!”

“sweetheart, you should know me at this point. there’s almost nothing in this world that can’t be cleaned, if i’m being honest.” he guided you to the bathroom before grabbing the bottle of pills and a few feminine products out of the cabinet. “now, i’ll leave you in here while i go start the laundry, just call if you need anything.” he kissed your head again before closing the door, instructing you to leave your stained clothes outside.

•••

after taking a nice, hot shower and putting on the comfy clothes levi had gotten for you on the toilet lid, you made your way out of the bathroom only to be greeted by a delicious smell coming from the kitchen downstairs. your stomach growled at the fact that you hadn’t eaten anything in hours.

levi was dressed in a simple cotton tank and sweats as he used a spatula to flip over a beautiful golden-brown pancake. slightly startling him, you wrapped your arms around his torso and sighed out loud.

“how was the shower, angel?” he asked as you moved around his body before attempting to sit up on the counter.

he hoisted you up, holding onto your thigh with one hand and grasping the pan handle with the other.

“it was good.” you said with a smile. “i feel much better.”

“i’m glad.” he sighed. “now, i’m no chef, but i tried making your favorite pancakes. can’t promise that they aren’t poisoned but hopefully they’ll be alright.” he shrugged playfully, doubting his cooking skills.

you squealed in happiness before taking a big whiff of the lovely scent surrounding the kitchen. “levi, how did i ever find someone like you?”

“pshhh, i should be asking myself that question.”

“seriously, thank you for everything.” you motioned him over as he leaned into the counter, allowing you to wrap your arms around his waist. “i just felt terrible because it wasn’t supposed to start today and i wasn’t prepared and i’ve never bled onto the sheets before-”

“hey, hey. that’s okay, i don’t care.” he stroked your thigh up and down. “‘might sound crazy coming from me, i know, but i just want you to be comfortable, is all. and hopefully,” he paused while putting a few pancakes on a plate for you, “these will make you feel a little bit better.”

“thank you, love.” you accepted the plate graciously before levi picked you up off of the counter and began to walk over to the breakfast nook, you following suit.

“i love you, darling.” levi kissed your soft lips and rubbed your back in comfort.

“i love you too, levi.”

•••

[sunnysideaeggs]

hi babes this is my ep 3 review. this is a lil monday tradition i love to yap

lmao rhaenys subtly gagging rhaenyra and calling her out. i’m liking her more and more compared to the first season, she seems more rounded and actually a figure of peace instead of coping

now rhaenyra is coping lol. ‘a little boy murdered in his bed’ ‘but my throonee :((((‘

rhaenyra parentifying rhaena and making her go to her mother’s place of death to safeguard her sons 🙄 not even recognizing the burden she is putting in her. a white woman giving her children to raise to a black girl smh

i like a lot what they’re making with rhaena, giving her actual thoughts that often contradict her ‘side’. go get your hightower husband girl

why no one remembered that larys, yk, the greens’ master of whispers, is lord of harrenhal? like of course it is a green location? where is he? isn’t he a memeber of the council? why does he never attends council meetings?

lmao not daemon wishing to be called king when the proper title is king consort. let me just get a meme:

i just realized that alicent now dresses less ‘richly’ maybe to indicate frugality during war to the people. ‘look, we’re not having feasts while you starve’ kind of vibe. the green queen beloved of the smallfolk

and she is also less structured because she doesn’t need to cover herself for viserys. i enjoy her having the freedom to dress as she likes

as a sansa lover, i must say i love rhaena. go gentle princess with a good who feels everything too much and wears courtesy as a weapon. i love u

if they’re diminishing helaena’s grief and they’re not going to give me helaena taking revenge in dreamfyre istg 🤨🤨🤨

I KNEW THE ARMOR WAS VALYRIAN STEEEEELL 🔥🔥🔥 that’s why it doesn’t fit him it literally isn’t made for him. i hope it’s fireproof

egg promoting his lads 😭 medieval networking

lol larys is the kind of guy that suddenly comes to you with the weirdest true crime facts that leave you feeling icky. i love him

aegon did the alicent disappointed face to his kingsguard. neat party trick

not making baelon cheat on alyssa 🙄 our one successful sibling marriage and they take it from us

tbh if i was dyana you wouldn’t catch a glimpse of me after the meeting with alicent. fuck king’s landing, that stinky city. i would have alicent get me a little house in oldtown. a job as a cook. no chance of any dirty man getting his hands on me. why keep victimizing a character for no reason condal?

any dragonseed should zip it for good, unless you get something for your heritage. my mom was a lyseni whore, that’s what i would say. nobody asks you questions when you say your mom was a lyseni whore

aegon 🙄 i thought we were getting past this. i hope he apologizes, i’m tired of this aemond slander.

i dislike the full frontal scene with aemond. literally gratuitous, no one asked for it. and we know there’s awful people saying shit about ewan’s body, they now get another chance of making fun of his most intimate parts and aemond’s intimate moments. why.

finally some class conscience exploration with criston? are my prayers being answered?

lmao not rhaenyra getting another girl daemon. i dislike baela’s hot head since ever but if it gives me comedic relief i’ll take it

rhaenyra is his father’s daughter. not a compliment

i love how daemon barricades his door just to… open it when he thinks someone wants to get in. and gets out. big forehead not big brain.

MILLY APPEARS YAYYYY 🥰🥰🥰 jaehaerys noooooo 😭😭😭

i could see jae’s actor kinda winking, his little lashes twitching. he’s a baby and he’s doing his best omg 😭💕 it could be the candles tho

yes daemon cry i hate you

imagine you’re a kid and they tell you your job is to be still and have a pretty lady hum at you and touch your cheek. so comforting tbh

ALYS APPARITION YAYYYY 🥰🥰🔥 she’s as stunning and disturbing as i imagined her. devoured. ate him alive. as she should.

lmao of course alicent would think war is to be averted after seeing her grandson without a head 🙄 and if she does she’s dead to me istg

yes rhaenyra threaten a queen 🙄 of course she will react well and think of making peace with you. at gunpoint. classical targaryen.

also she literally smuggled a weapon into a church. threatened to spill blood in a holy place. then ask why people don’t believe you have any morals or respect for anything.

alicent asking her if she’s surrending it’s so funny loool

once again, alicent talks about a child’s murder. rhaenyra brings up the throne. i’m done with her tantrums.

did you betray him at your very last, alicent? don’t you know you owe loyalty to your rapist and jailer, alicent? don’t you know you’re not allowed to want, alicent?

that’s how rhaenyra sounds.

i love how rhaenyra doesn’t spare a thought to surrender yet wants to pretend bloodshed concerns her. lmao.

alicent, i’m back. go green queen.

[angelprinz]

hi it’s degen anon

cai has been too much i swear, im currently getting divorced from my husband childe it’s a lot 🥹 but hope you like!!!

childe really doesn’t understand like women thinking they’re better than him? like he’s not a messy gymnast or whatever you call it but he just feels like he better than most people women included, i mean his bloodlust started when he would get his ass handed to him by skirk. but that’s besides the point he loves strong women but the best thing about strong women is making them weak. psychologically, mentally emotionally he is versed i all forms of battle so no matter what era or even area he loves to find strong women and take them down a peg.

21st century girlboss business woman? did you mean barefoot wife with 6 kids? sick ass sword wielding hero whose slain dragons? you mean that witch who is now in the safe hands of childe her husband? he really has done it all, but once he does it it’s boring? but you were different.

it’s not like you really had anything going for yourself, a broke college student who works to barely make enough to stay on campus. he never thought of you for a second until he spoke to you. he wasn’t even trying but as you rung his cigarettes through the register you were very nervous and anxious but that could be normal. he obviously knows he’s attractive but the fact that you wouldn’t make eye contact was surprising, you passed him the bag and looked away immediately. so cute. it’s almost like you wanted him to get to know you (he’s delusional.)

he had a plan for you but it was going to be way easier, well it would’ve been if you just admitted you liked him. he works at your school because he knows your daddy issues leave you with no parental figures to tell you not to trust him. you’re obviously not the smartest cause your you use a very similar email to your school one for your little sites. he’s practically giving what you want on a silver platter but here you are actually doing schoolwork? (if you fail his class you have to do another year.) he sees you come into his office after hours thinking you’re going to give him favours under the desk for a passing grade, but you’re just here to ask about something on the exam??? he thinks that maybe he’s looking to much into it, it’s been months and he legitimately got a teaching degree for this but what if you just liked to read some taboo things online.

but one day you were very cocky, you posted on a site with little to know information about yourself but a picture of yourself in a skirt. you explained that you would be on a bus around 11pm coming back from work and if someone assaulted you you’d let them. well thats not fun because he likes a fight then he realizes that everyone has a limit.

you left the bus with a sigh thinking that no one saw your message. you felt a breeze but then it was just someone passing by. maybe the website didn’t have that many people in your area? you walk past two building and in between them someone emerged, it was dark but they were also wearing black. almost instantly you felt their chest press up against your back, you let out the air from your lungs as the happiness turned sour as you felt a knife against your neck. it’s almost 12 now and you two were the only people on the street so him dragging you to the alley went unnoticed. cold sweat down you body as you felt exhilarated at the feeling, his large hands roamed your body as they traveled down to your panties. you had specific information about what you’d be wearing, including panties with an opening. you heard the man behind you sigh as he spoke your name. all the hairs on your body stood up as he tsked you and said he had a seminar about internet safety that you should’ve been paying attention if you didn’t sleep during the class.

he knows what you’re thinking now, his crime psych class really did talk prominently about one time attacks. most times if you knew anything about your attacker, you’re dying. no matter how small, even the colour of their hair. but here you are, you were in his office last week so you know everything. it’s almost winter but your body was cold. the entire time he was inside you it really warmed him up with how your cunt felt. hours passed and he finished for a third time on your thighs, he enjoyed cumming inside but the first two loads left nothing left to cum inside.

your scared look, the small whispered moans were all worth it but what was the best was the silence after. he fixed himself as he really didn’t take off any of your clothes, he gives you props for easy access but the moment his hands left your body he was shocked. you grabbed at him, tears in your eyes he almost felt an emotion but what really did it for him is what you said. ‘more.’ he thought it was just lust but that wasn’t it, the shame in your eyes, the way your thighs squeezed together. he couldn’t believe it, sure the women he did this to, made them understand how little they were to him was more demoralizing for him but for you it only fuelled you. he couldn’t believe after he left you the next day you were completely normal but your search history was just filled with ginger professor assaults college girl, like he just assaulted you? why not ask? (you have social anxiety and can’t even ask for extra dips at mcdonald’s.) you were like a pandora for him and that’s what made him stay with you for a while.

(this devolved way to much at the end lmao, i think of myself most of the time i write these. he could literally be inside me one day and i’d still be nervous to talk to him 😭😭)

me when i put on my glasses to read it (i'm quite literally incel taru irl) and degen anon you sound like the cutest little victim on earth i'm going to eat you whole.

i need him so much i need him to make me into his housewife & take away all thinking privileges & make my permanent job being his toy.

[hopeymchope]

How "I'm In Love With the Villainess" crashed and burned in front of me during its last few episodes

I've gotten this one recommended to me multiple times now, so I tried "I'm In Love With the Villainess". The main protagonist (initially named Rei before she gets isekai'd) is a young lesbian who fell head-over-heels for the rival/villain in an otome game, then one night suddenly blinks and finds herself in that game's world, where she inhabits the body of that game's protagonist, Rae Taylor.

No further explanation for the dimension-hopping is given or necessary! That's not important. Rei/Rae promptly confesses her undying love to the aforementioned villainness, aka "Miss Claire" and ignores all of the game's intended (sadly for her, male) love interests for herself, instead focusing on spending the most time she can with Miss Claire.

Unfortunately, Rae's advances are deeply unwanted and make Miss Claire extremely uncomfortable. She even makes overt sexual references to the poor girl. The goofy vocal intonations of our protag make it clear that this is "wacky hijinx" despite the fact that if she were a man, this would be treated as a fucking crime. (See also: Kuroko Shirai's behavior towards Mikoto Misaka in A Certain Scientific Railgun.)

Despite all of that, it's not like I haven't enjoyed problematic relationships in my anime before now! For the love of Deus, I'm even in the tank for Yunoteru. It's also not like I DON'T think this series is funny, because it is. Against all odds and all reasonable logic, the wacky antics of Rae really do come off as legitimately hilarious on many occasions.

Claire, for her part, does everything she can to bully or offend or outright beat Rae into leaving her alone during the earliest episodes. But Rae... um, she doesn't really accept rejection. And kind of gets off on the beatings.

Once again: What's goofy/funny here would be AWFUL in reality. But in this context? Seeing Rae so sincerely enjoy the abuse she receives is funny! (Well... it was to me.) And eventually — after Rae blackmails Claire's father into hiring her as Claire's personal maid against Clarie's own pleas — Claire is forced to accept that Rae will just be omnipresent, regardless of her desire to drive this lunatic away.

"DO NOT touch me!" "But your hands are so soft!"

There's a simultaneously super-sweet AND semi-tragic undercurrent to all this madness. See, the obvious fact is that Miss Claire is straight. She has a crush on one of the otome game's princes, and her dislike of Rae's advances is made ABUNDANTLY clear. And Claire even initially shows an offensive prejudice towards Rae for being gay that really parallels real-world issues. And it's cool how that's all discussed/addressed! But Rae is somehow understanding of all this and even helps Claire with her own romantic pursuits, because she says she's happy just being able to help the person she adores so much. That's why Rae happily endures Claire's initial bullying/abuse. That's why she even applies to be Claire's maid. And after that, an extremely unlikely yet weirdly heartfelt friendship begins to grow between the two. Claire may still intensely protest Rae's perverted comments and is uncomfortable when Rae openly speaks of her love, but she also grows to trust Rae's counsel and companionship. It's... weird, and in real life it'd probably be ill-advised, but it feels oddly beautiful in this bizarre fictional context. (Which once again reminds me of Kuroko Shirai and Mikoto Misaka: Their friendship in A Certain Scientific Railgun feels bizarrely sweet despite how much it'd be an awful idea and VERY unhealthy if this were reality.)

So here I was, really enjoying the weird purity (if that's the right term?) of Rae's undemanding love, and the funny antics that she and Claire would get into, and rooting for Rae to find a nice woman who'd be a good match for her that would let her let go of her unhealthy fixation on the unattainable. But I realized that last desire was probably more of an endgame thing for the story, so I knew I was in for a long haul here. Along our path through all this, we get to watch Rae trying to play cupid for her beloved Miss Claire and the boy she's sweet on. We also get some pretty legit worldbuilding about the struggle of the working class vs. the nobility and the threat of revolution, some magic-based action, and uh........................ there's also an incest subplot about some supporting characters thrown in too because WTF?

But even THAT wasn't the turn that ruined it for me.

Because then things took THE TURN.

(***SPOILERS*** FOR THE LAST TWO OR SO EPISODES BELOW)

Look, everybody has different lines they're willing or unwilling to cross. In both real life AND in fiction. I think most people are more accepting of things in fiction than they'd be in RL, but there's still some kind of event horizon where everyone will go "TOO FAR IMO" and mentally check out/completely stop consuming the story.

In last few episodes of the series/season, a character rolls in who... it doesn't matter who they are. Let's call her The Interloper. The Interloper finds it legitimately enraging that Rae is just accepting that she won't be with Claire. "If you were SERIOUS about your love, you'd FIGHT to be with her!" she demands. And this feels so utterly, DEEPLY opposed to everything beautiful and sweet about Rae's affection, but... no, we're apparently meant to AGREE with The Interloper's bizarre attitude.

"Get out there and CONVERT that hetero bitch already!" "........wut?"

This Interloper does everything she can to spur Rae into legitimately fighting, tooth and nail, to get Claire to date her. And it.... fucking works????!?!???! The series ends with Claire and Rae as a COUPLE?!?!?!

So uh. I guess if you just do something impressive enough to really bowl over the object of your affections, it doesn't matter if they're gay or straight or whatever! They will legitimately change their entire sexual orientation FOR YOU. All you have to do is keep hammering away at that person rejecting you, and you can convert them into whatever you need! And you should absolutely FIGHT to make that happen, the show says!

Or how about this: FUCK. YOU.

Yeah, this was my "TOO FAR." It pissed me off to no fucking end.

Of course, I would've been perfectly justified to be pissed off much, much earlier. I could've easily been pissed at Rae's refusal to accept rejection and the fact that this is never seen as a problem or called out by anyone. I could've rightly been offended by the idea of this stalker and the object of her affection actually growing friendly with each other. I could've switched it off after the random incest. I could've been repelled by a physical abuser and the object of that abuse hooking up at the end (remember: Claire didn't KNOW that Rae would enjoy the beatings when she was actually performing the beatings). I would've been justified in any of those cases!

But it's like I said before: Our individual lines vary. I've certainly been ok with problematic relationships in fiction before. Partly because I've slowly accepted that in real life, our relationships can be messy and weird and distressing and born from bizarre, unwise circumstances. But... flipping a heretofore-aggressively-cishet character to suddenly be open to playing for the other team? That feels like a bridge too far for me.

And I accept that for you, reader? It might NOT be a bridge too far. If you can enjoy this despite all of what it entails? The more power to you.

In retrospect, the conclusion might've been an easier turn for me to swallow if (A) the series didn't actually take the time to seriously address some queer issues before this. Like, if this show had NEVER tried to give a shit about actual sexual orientation and prejudices about it, I think it might be easier for me to take this transgression LESS seriously because maybe I could be like "They're not remotely taking any of this stuff seriously/don't understand any of these issues, I shouldn't be suprised, it's more of a wish fulfillment thing at this point." It might also have helped if (B) the series ever made an effort to portray Claire as being attracted to a girl before this instead of always being freaked out/repulsed by the concept of homosexuality. But only in these last couple of episodes do we meet the aforementioned Interloper, who is actually a girl but who Claire used to have a little-kid crush on when she THOUGHT the Interloper was a boy (because they can pass as either pretty easy). This is the closest we get to Claire showing any openness towards/attraction to the same sex, and it only comes at the exact moment when we're angrily told that by a newcomer that the sweet and touching relationship at its core is somehow wrong, because the right thing is to convert someone to the sexuality you demand of them.

Christ. Can you imagine if this anime was about magically converting a gay person to become straight at the end? Can you imagine the RIGHTEOUS FURY that would have unleashed??????

No. I just can't with this. But your mileage may vary, and the fact that I'm spoiling the events of these last few eps might actually HELP your mileage to vary. Because I honestly think that if I knew this was coming, it might not have pissed me off as much as it did. I could've braced myself for the impact.

OOOOORRRRRR maybe I would never have been happy with how the earlier eps handled things if I knew where it was all headed in the long-term. Because for me, this adorable little comedy really just absolutely faceplanted into dog shit at the last lap.

Too bad.

[munkeeyz]

cole and gwen’s relationship is so unique because, in their world, people measure morality by whether you have a set of horns or a halo.

halos are commonly associated with children, as with growing up comes a loss of innocence and people become more self-serving. while not impossible, it’s quite rare for an adult to have a halo.

horns ( around 2-3 inches ) are incredibly common and associated with almost all adults. they aren’t “bad people” in the way that everyone is committing egregious crimes and what not, but the general self absorption and lack of care for others is enough.

halos are lost around the ages of 16-19, and horns grow in during a painful process lasting about a week, almost as punishment. there are painkillers strong enough to suppress this pain, but they’re only used around the time horns grow in, or for the very rich and famous; there are procedures to remove horns, but they are incredibly expensive and the public generally treats anybody without them with wary. horns are an understandable science - a sort of bone compound that is strong enough to exist outside the protection of the body. halos are something else entirely- basically pure light, with anyone besides the halos owner touching it getting burned.

cole and gwen’s situation is unique because gwen is an adult with a halo, which while rare wouldn’t be too out of the unordinary, except for her profession (SW, mainly dancing. this is something she does before the start of the comic and for a little while during, but ultimately is able to pursue a job in the arts). in public she’s usually assumed to be a child, and constantly has to prove her ID is real. people talk down to her, thinking that she’s naive or stupid. she also takes advantage of this in her job, as the juxtaposition of what she does vs how she looks is enticing.

cole, on the other hand, was born with an extremely rare (condition? disorder? i don’t know medically what it should be referred to) that caused him to never have a halo, instead growing long, gnarled horns a few days after birth. this rarely ever happens, and in the past has been seen as a “sign from above” that the baby would become a catastrophic monster, with the assumption that the baby should not be allowed to get that far. with there being the same tragedies in their world as in ours, this is obviously incorrect. cole’s mother fought furiously for her son, knowing that’s not something he would become, and if it was what he was supposed to be, then she would teach him otherwise. through this, cole was able to grow up, learning that his horns are actually attempting to destroy themselves, very slowly, due to the fact that they just shouldn’t be there. cole strives to be the best person he can be everyday, and although he sticks with it it’s unrewarding due to how people see him. he’s beat down and ostracized from basically everybody. this, combined with a horrible bullying incident, is why his horns are sheltered in adulthood than they are when he was a kid.

cole and gwen are on the opposite ends of the same spectrum, and are drawn to each other due to being the only people who can ( and are willing ) to understand the others situation. gwen has no reason to trust cole, but does so anyways because she believes it’s right to give him that chance. cole doesn’t necessarily understand how gwen’s halo could be a problem, as it’s something he’s wished for his whole life, but listens to her troubles and realizes it’s not all it’s cut out to be if it sticks around.

anyways. they kiss a lot and i love that for them

[momentomori24]

Chapter 4 of Rain Code somehow just really made me love Halara than I already do (which says a bunch cuz I love Halara. Like. A lot). They really fleshed out everyone here but I really want to start with them first.

They started off as a logical, cool and collected yet emotionally distant and cut throat individual with no regard for other's struggles and will only lend their aid when the pay is right. In Chapter 1 they literally rejected a poor little kid who's dad was falsely arrested because he (very obviously) didn't have 5 million shien ready and then claimed that those unable to prove their resolve might as well not exist to them. And as a slap in the face threw the ball that boy offered instead because it was his most important item over to Yuma, completely disregarding the sentimental value which came from the fact that he used said ball to play with his almost-as-good-as-dead dad before all that crap went down.

That coldness extends over to Yuma as well. They put him in debt in exchange for their help and up the price for the cake they bought and how much he made them wait. When he reached out his hand to them to activate his Coelescence, they state they have zero intentions of getting friendly with him before violently shutting him down by saying they despise him and the thought of their hands touching makes their skin crawl (that actually hurt btw). They don't just hate Yuma, they hate humanity in general, but surprisingly that didn't stop them from fulfilling their role of assistant in exchange for his payment. They're cold, but not cruel. Even though they expected payment for their services, they didn't press him to hand him the money right away. They didn't think much of Yuma outside of being a trainee, yet were willing to see his potential and put credit were credit is due. Even though they did most of the heavy-lifting during the investigation and figured out the crime before Yuma did, they set up the scene and brought forth the suspects to give him his time to shine. They literally come to the rescue every time he needs help, whether he called on them or not. And most importantly, even with their memories of the Mystery Labyrinth erased and them having no recollection of Yuma solving the case, they still acknowledged him as a detective and stated he should be proud of himself for trying as hard as he did. In Chapter 2, they even defended him against Desuhiko when he was coming at Yuma for not being a real detective, saying that they shouldn't don't descriminate and that he's also one of them. They warm up to him, from praising his decision to take the initiative even in the face of Yakou's disaproval to helping out the group free of cost and billing the expenses to the WDO instead in Chapter 4.

And CHAPTER 4, man. They truly grew as a person and that chapter shows that so well. They're still classic Halara for planning on charging Vivia for his laziness when they make their epic entrance to save the group and telling the peacekeepers that they'll be having their coin back, but honestly I wouldn't have them any other way. And while I loved seeing them kick ass with those legs of pure steel, my favourite scenes were when they were tending to Yakou when he was on death door.

They were trying to keep him alive for as long as possible for everyone's sake. It's those brief yet tense moments where we get to see Halara at their most desperate, where their cool-headed persona starts to crack. We finally see just how much they care about the others. The moment they realize something's off with Yakou they rush to his side to resuscitate him as best as they can. And the worst part is that Yakou was probably already gone at that point.

We heard his voice in the corridor when were conducting the investigation using Spectral Projection before we met with the others. And if that voice was truly his soul seperating from his body, then wouldn't that mean that Yakou was already dead for everything else that happened after? We know he was already dead before Yuma and Vivia got back; they confirmed that themselves. They probably noticed it around the time his heartbeat stopped.

If that's the case, then was Halara just appearing to resuscitate his body for that long? Just to not break Desuhiko and Fubuki's hearts? So that Vivia and Yuma get even the slimest chance of saying goodbye? It's such a complete 180 to how they were at the beginning. Had this been chapter 1, they would've broken the news as soon as they found out. They wouldn't have spent ages giving people hope for a dead person to come back because there's no logic to that-- and yet they do. Because they care about their friends. Where their kindness and support had once come at a cost and as obligatory as their cooperation had been, their relationship with the other detectives has at some point crossed over into genuine care and thoughtfulness over their wellbeing.

I just really love seeing how much they changed over the course of the chapters. They were definitely very selfish and cold and calculating at the start, but they're the furthest from it now-- and I love them for it.

[cru5h-cascades]

Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh~ Story of Hot Fuss~

Ight I'm gonna cut the crap y'all know this is the long awaited Murder Trilogy essay thing let's just get started:

Hot Fuss revolves around the story of a romance gone horribly wrong. The characters in this story include:

Andy - the tamborine player in an unnamed band referenced in Glamorous Indie Rock & Roll. Prior to things going downhill, Andy dates Jenny. Andy used to be a football player in high school and is someone the small town he lives in look up to, despite the fact he's actually a scummy person to his GF behind the scenes.

Jenny - the one who dies and the drummer of the previously mentioned band. Jenny, of course, dated Andy, but realizing that their relationship isn't great she goes out with another dude behind Andy's back.

Natalie - who I believe is Andy's accomplice in the crime. Natalie helps Andy find a way to not get caught by the cops after Jenny's murder. Natalie is also part of the band Andy is in but it's unknown what part she plays in it.

The story:

Andy You're a Star opens up the story giving us an introduction to Andy. The narrator knows what's probably gonna happen to Andy and Jenny, emphasizing how they hope Jenny isn't "his world" because in the end some bad stuff's gonna happen. After this, we're introduced to Andy and Jenny's band in Glamorous Indie Rock & Roll and we get to learn a bit about their relationship. It's not the greatest since they often break up but ultimately get back together. After being introduced to our key players, we can kick off the story for real. Smile Like You Mean It takes place during or after Andy and Jenny's graduation, when the two decide to move away from their childhood homes. Who I assume to be Andy's father is giving him and Jenny some words of advice before they head off in the first verse of the song and during the rest of the song Andy's thinking about his past and future and as he continues to think about the future, the more he's scared of it. Sometime after Smile Like You Mean It, Andy and Jenny arrive at their new home and they decide to do the dirty, however at one point Jenny wants out, but the love making continues. After this, the relationship between the two becomes worse, yet the two stay together... at least for now. Mr. Brightside shows Jenny going off with some other dude one night and Andy ends up finding out about this. Andy attempts to keep his cool but it doesn't work. After the events of Mr. Brightside, Andy goes back home and waits for Jenny to return to talk about the situation. Change Your Mind is how Andy wants us or even himself to view that conversation, but Somebody Told Me is actually how it plays out. After this, the two end things for good and Andy moves out some time after Somebody Told Me. After moving, Andy reaccounts the events that followed Somebody Told Me in a drunken stupor in Leave the Bourbon on the Shelf, specifically after Jenny helps Andy unload his stuff from the moving truck and putting his stuff inside his new place. That same night, Andy gets an idea. Still drunk, Andy goes out to find Jenny in Everything Will Be Alright and ultimately finds her, killing her during the events of Midnight Show and throwing her body into a nearby body of water. The next day, Andy realizes what he has done and regrets it deeply, expressing said regret and sorrow in All These Things That I've Done. Panicing, Andy turns to the only person he can turn to: Natalie. He confesses to her what he did to Jenny in Believe Me Natalie and the two attempt to go on the run, however it's all for naught as Andy gets taken in for an interrogation, which of course is featured in Jenny Was A Friend of Mine. At first, Andy tries to keep his cool, but begins to crack under pressure from the cops who in the end know what Andy did. We the audience are left to speculate what happens to Andy after that point, but I think bro was found guilty and was locked up in the end. The ending of Jenny Was A Friend of Mine gives me that feeling that in the end none of his lies were gonna get him out of the grave he dug for himself.

TL;DR: Dude bro gets worried about his future and resorts to making his relationship with his GF shittier to try to calm his nerves, only for his GF to realize what she got herself into, which pisses dude bro off and then he kills her.

[gaycapfan19]

My name is Bob, and I am almost certainly a VERY Gay man. My only lingering doubts on this are related to my gender identity, NOT my sexual orientation, and these thoughts stem from the main reason that I managed to delude myself into thinking that I was Bisexual for most of my adult life (I know that some men truly are Bi, it just took me FAR too long to realize that I am not one of those men). I have never enjoyed heterosexual intercourse. Only once in my life have I ever been able to climax that way, and only because I imagined that the woman I was fucking (a bitch who insisted on having sex with me with the lights out) was cheating on an imaginary boyfriend who (in my mind) caught us in the act and, instead of stopping us, told me to keep fucking his woman while he fucked my ass to keep me hard enough to finish inside her (THANKFULLY I had a condom on). It has always bothered me that I could not truly enjoy vaginal intercourse because I have, on multiple occasions, genuinely enjoyed eating pussy. Not because of the taste (I have NEVER liked that), but because I like giving people orgasms. Also because I did my research and I knew what I was doing with the few vaginas that I've gone down on, and I genuinely hoped that my mouth and tongue would never fail to give at least one orgasm to every woman I ever went down on when I was younger (Pussy Free since April 2008!!!).

It is a genuine crime against Humanity (committed by Nature itself) that Evolution made it so the female orgasm is never guaranteed, and I HATE such unfairness (biological or otherwise). On an unconscious level, I believe that this desire to see women ALWAYS get the orgasms that they deserve is what drew me to lesbian porn (which has ALWAYS made me cum MUCH harder than straight porn ever has, and straight porn only really works when I watch clips of videos that either feature blowjobs by women who genuinely enjoy sucking dick or anal sex featuring women who truly LOVE taking it in the ass, and even then these videos only work if I imagine myself as the woman). I know for a fact that I don't want to fuck a pussy ever again, because my little Gay dick is just shy of six inches and it will NEVER be up to the task of giving women the orgasms that they deserve, even if I actually did want to feel a vagina wrapped around my little Gay dick again (which I DON'T). But a part of me will still ALWAYS want to forget my homosexuality and ignore the bad taste of vaginas so I can give women the oral orgasms that they deserve, that FAR too few straight men are willing to put in the work to give to their women properly. If I'm being honest, willingly being able to give to women what too few straight ever care to is probably the only reason I truly enjoyed eating pussy at all. It was work, (something that no sex act should ever feel like), but it still felt oddly fulfilling... until I was expected to fuck the women I went down on and then could never "deliver" for either of us during that "main event." Sigh...

Lesbian porn helps me to rationalize my desire to give women orgasms that will never "agree" with my homosexuality. By imagining myself as a woman pleasing other women, the idea of eating pussy suddenly becomes Gay, and Gay sex stuff is something that I can quite easily get behind. This has also led me to wonder about my gender identity. If imagining myself as a woman pleasing other women gets me off as hard as it does, then maybe I am actually a Transgender woman and not a Gay man. I'm also incredibly turned on by the idea of crossdressing before having Gay male sex, so maybe, if I AM a Trans woman, I wouldn't even be Gay at all. Maybe I was right to call myself Bi all along and I just got my gender identity wrong this whole time. Who honestly knows? I'm keeping my options open on that, but until I know for sure, and as long as my body remains distinctly male, I am 100 percent Gay until I am proven to be Trans. My mouth may not hate pussy as much as one would expect a Gay man's mouth to do so, but my penis certainly does. So, we'll see how things turn out...

[ziasann]

Seven Fun Facts with Crimen Passionis

1. The title Crimen Passionis meant “a crime of passion” in Latin.

I originally thought of this title for a Cyno/Tighnari fic last year where it also dealt the same theme of Cyno as an unjust General Mahamatra of Sumeru because of Tighnari.

Unfortunately for my Sumeru fics, I found better fitting titles so I kept that one in my treasure trove and I did not expect to use it with NeuviFuri. I did not even expect to ship NeuviFuri this BAD but here we all are.

2. The songs inspiring the fic are actually from Vocaloid’s Evillous Chronicles series.

“Cappricio Farce” and “Judgment of Corruption” are the songs I have repeatedly blasted to as I wrote the story. The lyrics from Cappricio Farce are very much in line with the overall theme of the fic.

Corrupt!Judge Neuvillette is just very hot too 😘

3. Had a lot of help around actually!

I struggled with the writing process, but my writer friends helped around. Daisy (ao3: wisforia) told me to lean on the concept of “love corrupts” with Neuvillette. Meanwhile Rika (ao3: pinkweirdsunsets) pointed out how my story is the entire opposite of the Archon Quest.

me: how to write a character going insane?

sunshine & vira: what was the reason of her madness?

me: guilt because she fell in love instead of focusing on the prophecy

My long term writer friends and beta readers Sunshine (ao3: 20fifthbaam) and Vira (ao3: Viralaine) suggested I use “distraction” to portray such guilt. The whole Fountain of Lucine scene and the narration from then on was driven from that. The date at the Opera, her platter of sweets, Neuvillette vacating the premises, all of them: a distraction.

Also fun beta reader comments!

4. Furina lessened her use of cosmetics after the merge with Focalors because her now godly constitution makes her skin and looks better!

Her palate for sweets had not lessened, but her usage of cosmetics did. — Canto IV, Acedia

5. The 23 stabs to Focalors (and 24 women Furina killed) was a reference from Julius Caesar who was betrayed and stabbed 23 times.

Here is my full response:

At this point, I think that Furina was experiencing bouts of hallucination and insanity, she even forgot she killed 24 women until Neuvillette pointed it out. Was Furina stabbing Focalors in her dreams actually Furina killing the 24 women in reality? Or was it a different illusion altogether? We can never know. Only Neuvillette might know the real answer, or Furina herself whose state of mind was not very reliable at this time. Hence the tag, "Unreliable Narrator." But while writing I had a thought too that perhaps when Furina killed Focalors in her dreams/hallucination, her body was enacting the stabs to the 24 victims of Vacher. Perhaps, she was also thinking of another thing during those episodes.

6. Writer Annotations at the Original Doc:

7. Neuvillette’s final judgment and Furina’s final performance.

While writing the scene before the insurrection, I realized that Furina was acting. She was manipulating Neuvillette to tip his judgment in favor of her. Because she promised before in Canto III that she would never cry anymore after handing out half of the Hydro Gnosis.

In the last few scenes, Furina cried before Neuvillette so that Neuvillette would indict: “The People of Fontaine made you cry, they made you lower yourself like this…Their sins will never be forgiven.”

Focalors did tell Furina:

“He promised you the world, the rain, that he would do everything for you! Once you utter the sentence, once you realize you will do everything for him too…”

Furina uttered her cries, so Neuvillette did everything for her.

[wttcsms]

OK ROYAL AU IDEA where reader is the spoiled princess who happens to be the youngest daughter of a king who's ruling over a major kingdom. you are to be married off to some prince in another kingdom, and this is the first time ur father has ever refused a request of yours. he assigns character as the knight in charge of taking care of you and seeing that you make it to the other kingdom safely. of course, you're being a brat and you don't want this AT ALL, so the whole entire time, you're doing whatever it takes to prolong the journey. you're asking for frequent stops, complaining the whole way, etc. character already has a slightly bad relationship with royals and you don't help his distaste for them. (yea it's an enemies to lovers fic, what's new!!!) i just love this fic concept bc i've decided that it's all about the YEARNING. the slowburn!!! the (sexual) TENSION.

it's all about the enduring a long horse carriage ride with the person you currently despise the most. it's about the first inn the two of you seek shelter at only having ONE BED. it's about the next inn you guys stay at being owned by a conservative lady who only rents to MARRIED couples so the two of you have to pretend to be married!!!!!!! it's about you being difficult to deal with for the first half of the fic but despite his annoyance with you, he still fulfills all ur seemingly impossible requests!!!! it's about you learning how to be a better person and as a princess who's never had to say 'thank you' for anything but yet you find yourself realizing those two words don't properly describe the gratitude you feel towards him. it's about him always putting his life on the line for you!!!! it's about how you're the first person to hear abt his nightmares. it's all about the fact that in the beginning of the fic, you delayed the trip in any way possible but now HE'S the one subtly delaying the trip the closer y'all get to the kingdom because he doesn't want to see you marry someone else but also bc he's grown to enjoy your company. it's about how you request that your trusty knight stays by your side at least til the wedding. it's about the fact that he's the only familiar face in this foreign town and perhaps THATS why you want him near you always (even though you know that's not true; you know that it's HIM you wish to be betrothed to, but unfortunately you're already promised to another). it's about how during a banquet, someone makes a snarky comment about him and just like how he's defended you all those times, you're repaying the favor. it's about you forgoing all proper etiquette and absolutely seething as you tell the person who insulted him that "to speak ill of him is the same as speaking ill of me & everyone here knows the punishment for that crime". it's about the fact that you get drunk a week before your wedding & he's there to take care of you and that's when you beg him to make you his, in mind, body, and soul, but right now, more specifically, body. it's the way he's been dreaming of you underneath him far too many times to be appropriate, but he still rejects you because he's a man of honor; after all, you're set to become someone else's wife, and youre a princess and he's from a scorned family and even if that wasn't an issue, you're still intoxicated and not in the right state of mind but you're crying and asking him why aren't you good enough. it's about you waking up the next morning to find him sitting in a chair, fast asleep because he spent the whole night consoling you and watching over you and you tell him that everything you said that night was true, that he is the only one you want, status and family reputation be damned. it's about him dramatically objecting your wedding!!!!

[rageprufrock]

What’s your favorite scene from Ravenous? Give us the DVD commentary for that scene!

This is actually a fun one to answer because it's not so much a scene but a realization I was hoping that everybody would get to have!

This story is older, but just in case you don't want to have the narrative trick spoiled:

So the whole deal with the story is that we're looking at the truth distorted through so many different lenses: from the distance of time, through the eyes of Clarice, from the writing of Freddie Lounds, through the legend of Will Graham, in the context of the mythos of Hannibal in post-revelation society.

There's fundamentally no way to ever know the truth of the thing, and so all of Ravenous is just a dissertation on what we can imagine and what we can divine from what remains.

The pivot in the story is that in addition to all of that, we're not in the timeline the Freddie Lounds excerpts imply we are, and it's not until we're deep into the narrative that we get this moment:

Morning Edition is a blur in the background. Clarice listens to them talk about the Republican primary, gets an update on the Rio Olympics, she loses some time to the drumming of the asphalt under the car wheels, and when she comes back, it's because Freddie Lounds is on the radio.

"Generally speaking, there are two types of serial killers: organized and disorganized," she's saying. "The designations explain themselves, mostly. And in the case of Buffalo Bill, we're definitely seeing an organized criminal. Catherine Martin is his sixth abduction, and may become his sixth victim, so we know he's planning this carefully, meticulously, or else the BAU would have him."

"That's the Behavioral Analysis Unit for the FBI, correct?" the host asks.

"Exactly. They specialize in this type of crime, and you know — despite my occasionally rocky history of them — they are the very best at what they do," Freddie says.

Clarice passes under a green sign, I-495 / BALTIMORE.

"You write about some of it," the host prompts, "your work with the FBI and the BAU on the case of Hannibal the Cannibal in your book, Craving."

"There's a lot to write about when it comes to Hannibal Lecter," Freddie laughs. "Um, but even beyond him, you know, Craving's really about an extraordinary string of crimes that occurred during Lecter's late, active period — I'm actually in the process of outlining a sequel, Ravenous, that will focus more on his particular relationship with law enforcement."

And this is the moment when the narrative clarifies finally that the book we have been reading in between snatches of narrative with Clarice is not, in fact, published yet, which means that we are earlier in the timeline than we think and that shit is about to get real.

"When you say law enforcement, you mean Special Agent Will Graham?"

"He's widely believed to be Lecter's last known victim before he escaped the country," Freddie agrees. "And you know, if Lecter hadn't retained his taste for extraordinarily elaborate crimes, he'd still be at large. The only reason the Florentine police even knew how or to look for him was that he'd arranged a body like a recreation of Paolo Veronese's Scorn — it's part of a group of works called Four Allegories on Love."

The host shoots back, "Bad breakup?"

"Not an entirely inappropriate guess, given how Lecter handled splitting with Graham," Freddie quips. "But the victim may just as likely have taken the last bottle of truffle oil."

This was really fun to write but also a tightwire act, to give away enough but not too much the whole way until we hit this scene, and I could pull the ripcord on the plot.

[sissytobitch10seconds]

A Slight Conundrum

Fandom: Wednesday (2022) Summary: She wasn't going to be a mother or a wife just because she was a girl now, but parenthood and marriage don't sound that bad now that it's what she's being presented with. Warnings: Mentions of abortion, teenage pregnancy, implied underage sex, implicit underage sex, mentions of torture, and implied child abuse Word Count: 3,367 Ship(s): Wednesday Addams/Xavier Thorpe

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A/N: So I was going through the backlog of my prompts and I found this. I don't remember what it was originally going to be other than a couple of chunks of dialogue and Xavier's characterization, but I'm pretty happy with how it turned out. I hope that you guys like it! Stay sissy and bitchy everyone &lt;3

Nevermore turned out to be a place that she acclimated to frustratingly quickly.

The classes were more in line with the kinds of things that she wanted to go into and less what was standard in the state that she and her parents lived in. She studied poisons, murders, writing, and all matter of things that would have scared even the most grizzled of public school teachers. The people around her seemed to pick up on the fact that she wanted to be left alone faster than they had in any other school that she had attended. That meant that she was actually left alone during the times that she wanted.

Even the struggle that she had about following in her mother’s footsteps were abandoned after she had put her own stamp on the school. The sports case where her mother’s face stared up at her from the picture of Nevermore’s best ever fencing year was something that she had learned to avoid after just a little while. The vampires only ever had to return to Nevermore every hundred years so that they could learn the updated information about how to interact with humans in a way that would be beneficial to everyone involved so none of the students remembered her mother. After Weems had been replaced by the new principal, there weren’t any teachers that had remembered attending school with or teaching her mother either.

She was her own person and she was thriving. That meant that she actually had to admit to her parents that they were right when she was sent home for their impromptu winter break while everything was getting fixed. On top of that, she also had to admit that Xavier had been right about giving her a phone. She had gotten a stalker almost immediately afterwards which helped her keep her mind off of the first love that she had just lost. Even after she had finished her first year at Nevermore, she liked being able to keep tabs on Enid and Xavier when they weren’t around. It was also nice to send threats to her brother in a more menacing format than a crystal ball.

Years had passed since then and she was now in her last year of high school. She had gotten all of her required classes out of the way as quickly as she could, which meant that she was left with only the classes that she wanted to be taking. Her schedule was full to the brim with self-study courses taken through specialized colleges in other parts of the world where she could learn about the most gruesome crimes and deaths that had ever occurred on the planet.

She was supposed to be studying for one of those now, which was why she was back in her dorm room. The new host of Freshman hadn’t quite gotten the panic of coming to a new school that was unlike anything they had faced out of their systems so she couldn’t do in the library like she had wanted to. Her nose wrinkled as she realized that her boyfriend was rubbing off on her when it came to his penchant for neoclassical aesthetics. Studying murder in her room was far more herself than surrounding her body with dusty tombs that she was never going to pick up because they were no interest to her.

The boyfriend part had been a surprise to her. She should have known that once she got over that part of herself that had to make a big, obvious stamp on the world, she would find herself getting closer with Xavier. There was a reason that his mother and godmother had been close with her grandmama before their early demises. They were similar enough that they related to one another but not so much that she felt like she was staring another version of herself in her face.

She was jerked from her thoughts when she heard the door slam open. She couldn’t focus on her reading as much as she had before now that she actually cared for people, which was a thought that was sweet enough to make her feel physically ill. Wednesday quickly soothed it by reminding herself that she was just making sure that no one else got the chance to murder her beloveds before she had the chance to bathe in their blood and hold their viscera in her hands.

“Enid! I thought that the last time I woke you up in the night was enough to make you stop disturbing me while I study, do I really have to escalate to-” she paused when she finally turned around and saw that it was not her roommate, but instead the boyfriend that she had just been thinking of. “Xavier.”

“Wednesday,” he replied.

He had been absent from all of her classes and her life since they had come back to school a few weeks ago. They had briefly seen each other over the summer but she knew that he enjoyed the pain that came with heartache more than he liked being around her, which gave her the space and distance that she needed. She had been able to keep track of him through the phone that he had provided her years ago so she knew that he had come back to their academy even if he was avoiding her.

She stood from her chair and walked over to him as he closed the door behind her. She folded her arms over her chest and looked him over with the expression of someone that was chiding a particularly bad puppy. “Where have you been?”

“Around,” he replied cryptically. He pushed past her as he walked over to her bed, which meant that something complicated was going on. She had known him for long enough to know that something was wrong with him outside of his usual endearing theatrics.

When he sat down, she turned on her heel and assessed him properly. She noticed that his skin was slightly more sallow and green tinted than it had been the last time that she saw him. His eyes were shadowed by large, dark bags like when he had a period of nonstop night terrors and visions back when they were Juniors yet somehow more intense. Despite the fact that he looked rather sickly, his cheeks and jawline had filled out so that there was more roundness in his features. She also noticed the way that he was hunching his shoulders forward despite the obvious lump of his chest being pushed down with the binder that he almost always wore.

She wanted to pry into him further so that she could figure out what was going on, but she had learned that Xavier had to wallow in his own thoughts for a certain amount of time before he could actually tell her what was on his mind. If she pried before he had that time, then it would result in them getting in a rather annoying quarrel.

So instead of prying into his mind with eager fingers, she grabbed the chair from her desk and moved it so that she was pointed towards him. Wednesday gracefully sat down and folded her hands in her lap while she stared dead-ahead at her boyfriend.

Just as she had suspected, he stayed quiet for six and a half minutes before he gave a small sigh and said, “I’m pregnant.”

“That’s impossible,” Wednesday immediately replied. Logically, it was not entirely impossible and they both knew that. Despite his constant attempts at trying to find a doctor or mad scientist at their school that would be willing to perform one, Xavier had not had a hysterectomy- full or partial. Wednesday had no interest in getting part of her removed for someone to grab and do whatever they pleased with it, so she also had a fully functional set of genitals. The reason that it was highly improbable was because they were both taking the hormones that the school’s chemist, a boy named Casper that was also transgender, had given to them as part of his control group. It should have killed all of their fertility and made it impossible for him to have a viable womb and her to have any sperm in her ejaculate.

“Do you really think that this is something that I would joke about?” he asked as a scowl formed over his features.

“You’re always one for theatrics, perhaps this is something that you misinterpreted in a dream and decided it was true before you really figured out what it was trying to tell you,” as the words came out of her mouth she could almost taste how phony they were. She was making excuses because the idea of it being true meant that they were in for a headache she didn’t want to deal with. Wednesday had just gotten to the point where she was writing the second novel in her series and she was rather looking forward to the next crime or mystery that she could sink her teeth into. Dealing with an unwanted pregnancy or baby wasn’t something she wanted to handle at the moment.

Xavier stood up from the bed and unbuttoned the blazer that she hadn’t even noticed were stretched across his body. He shrugged it off onto her bed and then did the same to his shirt. When he was left in nothing but his binder and tanktop, the only place that her eyes could move was down to the gentle swell of her abdomen.

“How pregnant are you, Xavier?” Wednesday asked while refusing to look away from the bump where the bundle of cells was hidden inside of him.

“When was the last time that we had sex, Wednesday?” he replied as he sat heavily back down on her bed. She wondered if he was enjoying the troubling symptoms that came with pregnancy. She knew that her mother had enjoyed the end stages when she was so uncomfortable that she could barely sleep. Xavier probably liked the sickly look that his skin had taken, the nausea that was no doubt plaguing him, the heartburn that he got when he ate certain foods, and the pain that came with the dysphoria of the pregnancy.

She snapped herself out of her thoughts when she remembered that she actually had to answer him, “We last copulated on the day before we had to go home for the summer. You wouldn’t let me even touch you when you came to visit me in June.”

“I already knew I was pregnant then and I didn’t want you to know,” he explained as he ran a shaking hand through his hair.

Wednesday’s attention had drifted back down to his bump but as soon as he finished, she snapped up to meet his gaze, “You didn’t really have food poisoning, did you?”

“No, I had food poisoning,” he reassured her. “But I also had morning sickness. I was just able to hide one better than the other because you sleep like the dead.”

“I’ll have you know that when someone is trying to kill me I wake up very quickly,” she pursed her lips bitterly.

Xavier let out a huffing laugh, which made her feel a bit better. She wanted him to be unable to wallow in the emotions that he loved filling his mind with. If she had to be upset about something in their life then she wanted him to be just as uncomfortable as she was. “I wasn’t trying to wake you up so you didn’t. I think your mom probably figured it out.”

“That would explain the way that she acted before I went back to school,” Wednesday clicked her tongue. She had assumed that it was something she would riddle out later or just her mother being strange again. She had never been able to totally understand her family even if she was closer to them than other people her age were with their parents.

Silence settled over them again as the thinking look crossed over Xavier’s face. Wednesday stood from her chair and sat down beside him as he thought about what he was going to say next. This time it took exactly nine minutes and forty seven seconds, which meant that the second detail he was going to share was much more intense than the first.

“My dad won’t let me have an abortion,” he sighed. He carded a hand through his hair again and she noticed that the tips of his fingers were stained with red ink. She wanted him to paint with her blood so that it would dry under his nails the same way that the pigment had.

“Then fake some medical mystery and have Casper remove your uterus. You know that he wants to so that he can have experience when he does it on himself,” she replied pragmatically.

Xavier’s face twisted up into a look of pain that she hadn’t recognized before. He buried his face in his hands and she could almost see him crying by the shaking of his shoulders. He turned towards her suddenly and his dark brown eyes were so intense that she felt like she had fallen into one of those Alaskan mud pits, drowning with no water.

“When I first found out that I was pregnant I wanted to have an abortion right away. This process isn’t something I ever wanted to go through because it validates the stupid way that my body was born. I asked my dad to have an abortion and he said that he wanted me to reap what I sowed because he’s an ass,” he explained.

Despite her thoughts towards her partners borderline annoying dramatics, she could actually agree with that. Vincent Thorpe was one of the cruelest people that she had ever met. He gave people false hope because it got him more money and enjoyed torturing his son out of hate towards him instead of mutual enjoyment and love like her parents did for her. She hated the man almost as much as Xavier did, especially after meeting him the summer after her first year at Nevermore. Still, something wasn’t quite adding up. “So why can’t you get one now?” she asked, raising a brow at her boyfriend.

Xavier almost never touched her without previously given consent, only reaching out towards her when she was having a vision or when he desperately needed something and was too deep in his anguish to properly use his words. She didn’t feel the buzzing in the back of her skull that let her know she was about to see something, so she knew that it had to be the latter. One of his calloused hands wrapped around her wrist and then her palm was pressed to the swell of his belly, lower than his naval but above the folds that she would prefer to have her fingers buried in.

“Because of this, I can’t kill it anymore because I’ve become attached, Wednesday,” he explained. 

She was about to say something snide and crude about sentimentality, but then she felt what he had mentioned. It was as gentle as the fluttering of a bird’s wings against the tips of her fingers and yet still as stark as an electric shock. She felt her breath come out through her mouth in a low pant while her brain reeled to process the fact that she could feel her spawn moving within the man she had placed it into.

Something strange overcame her then. She had never had any maternal, or paternal for that matter, instincts and yet when she saw that a piece of her had taken root inside of her boyfriend she felt like a feral alleycat hissing at the man that had come to take her kittens. It was almost like a spell had been cast between the two of them and their mixed genetics growing inside of Xavier’s womb was the poltice that contained it. She felt incredibly warm and the back of her mind was buzzing with the urge to have a vision.

She was going to fight it off until after their conversation was over because she couldn’t handle the idea of her boyfriend just wallowing in his own pity when she had to tell him how feral she was feeling over this.

“This is our child,” she was pressing her hand to his stomach of her own volition now. “I put this in here.”

“Yes, that is kind of how it works,” he replied sarcastically while his dark eyes flicked into a roll.

She stopped him from saying anything else by pressing their lips together in a dramatic kiss. Her heart was thrumming up in her ears and her blood was boiling in her veins. She didn’t want to have to go through the ordeal of motherhood the same way that her mother had, she didn’t want to be her parents, but the idea of another creature that was half her that she could torture and experiment on made her nearly lose her mind.

The energy thrumming through her body was enough to get her to tip Xavier over properly. She kept their mouths glued together in a kiss that was growing even more passionate with every breath that they took in around nips of teeth and the dance of tongues. “Wednesday,” he mewled when her knee moved in between his legs.

“I’m going to ravish you for the gift that you’ve given me, Xavier Thorpe,” she informed him. She knew that he preferred it when it felt like he was given no choice in his life because it allowed his mind to drift down to that dark place that his muse lived in. It was the reason that the two of them meshed together as well as they did. 

“It’s not a gift, it’s a curse,” he snarled instead of just melting into the adoring ministrations that she was giving him like he always had before.

Wednesday scowled slightly as she pulled away from him. They pulled themselves up so that they were once again upright on the bed and staring at each other. “Xavier, what are you on about? This is good.”

“How is this good?! We’re both teenagers, we haven’t graduated, you wanted to go to college. This is fucking awful,” he growled as he tugged at his hair with one of her hands.

“Don’t damage my property before I’ve had the chance to do what I like with it,” Wednesday snapped and batted away his hand with her own. “My parents will be fine to raise the child while we’re working and we can live with them. This is something that we may not get again and it’s a good chance to prove that we’re different than them. I thought that you would be interested in something like this, it gives you the tragic backstory that you so desperately wanted.”

His eyes shifted as his thoughts did too. She knew that he was contemplating the information that she had just given him, which was something that happened often. His Romantic mindset meant that he was often lost in a specific thought and wouldn’t be able to find his way out of it until she reasoned practically with him. Xavier let out a shaky breath as he said, “I don’t want the baby if I can’t also have you.”

She rolled her eyes and kissed him again, “Haven’t you been listening? I want you and the baby. I can prove to my parents that we can do this differently. I can develop a child from the moment that their born.”

“I would like to do things differently than my father did,” Xavier smiled softly. “I’m not sure that I would be able to survive giving my baby away either, which is so terribly cliche.”

Wednesday huffed and tossed on of her braids over her shoulder. “I would never let you go because of that, I would sooner murder you and then myself.”

He grasped the front of her shirt and then pulled her down so that they were a hair’s breadth apart and then asked, “Promise?”

[greekromann]

1, 6, 12, 15, and 16! for the WOL ask meme!

👀 this is long so. Its under a readmore. Also ffxiv spoilers through endwalker below

1. Why did he become an adventurer? Glory? Money? ...?

The way Khalja grew up, his adoptive father made sure to instill in him a deep respect for the sacrifice his birth parents made to keep him out of the crossfire during the empire's expansion into doma. This was intended to convince him to stay safe and look out for himself, but it backfired into "im going to set out and do something about the empire. Personally", so his initial reason was really. To get stronger and find a group that he could join to combat imperial expansion. He'd heard about how the eorzean city-states drove the empire out of the continent from traders in kugane, so he figured hed start there

6. What did they think of Hydaelyn in the beginning? Did they change their mind about her since then?

He was actually initially pretty mistrustful of "giant crystal that talks to you", and couldnt shake the feeling that he was being used and intentionally kept in the dark. The mistrust turned into annoyance when he found out that she was the reason he had the echo (has considered it a curse ever since he awoke to it as a teenager), but through arr he found no reason to directly oppose her because she granted him the strength he needed to meet his own goals. When midgardsormr more or less broke her blessing, he found himself 1. Very fucking scared and 2. Missing her presence, at which point he realized that he had come to lean on her much more than hed ever intended to. He was kind of pissed about what happened with minfilia also lol. He just very much doesnt like feeling like he and every other person with the echo is a pawn in some cosmic game of chess. By the time shadowbringers wrapped up he'd become more comfortable with (or more accurately, resigned to) the idea that he would probably always be her champion, and that was fine as long as their goals were still aligned. Brief moment of panic where he learned that shes a primal, in the "does that make me. Tempered. Am i tempered" before realizing that thats stupid and the fact that hes Able to question that means he probably isnt. And then of course the events of endwalker completely tossed his idea of her on its head. He only wished that he got to spend more time with venat in elpis, but what little time they did have together made him far more comfortable with championing her cause. Khalja voice "venat my best friend venat"

12. What do they think about redemption and forgiveness? Would they forgive an enemy? Would they forgive themselves?

I think, prior to shadowbringers, he wasnt. Super into forgiveness and redemption. Like as far as he was concerned any crime needed to be answered for, and post-shadowbringers he definitely doesnt believe in like. Letting go of past offenses, but he sees a lot more nuance in these kinds of situations. [Standing in a room together with gaius post-stormblood] [gritting his teeth] This Is. Fine.

Ultimately he just wants to understand people's reasons, i guess? And he'll judge for himself whether those reasons justify their actions. Additionally, if someone proves that they're interested in doing better, or somehow making up for their past transgressions, he's going to try and look at them in the here and now, rather than as who they were before (with varying degrees of success)

As for himself... he's become acutely aware of the ridiculous amount of power he weilds, which means he's also Acutely aware of how devastating the consequences could be if he made a misstep. In an unhealthy way hes fashioned himself as the sole protector of his friends and loved ones, and so if any harm comes to them, he'll probably. Never forgive himself lol [flashes back to the vault]. Additionally, the body-snatching incident with zenos put a new fear of "what could other people do if they got their hands on my strength" into him. He's started to feel guilty for simply Being, on account of the danger it potentially puts other people in. But Its Fine Hes Fine Guys Dont Worry About It

15. How do they feel about the Ascians?

He has a very hard time hating the ascians after seeing them for who they really are. I mean that didnt stop him from stomping them into the ground whenever they posed a large enough threat, and nothing justifies the havoc theyve wrought in the millennia since, but he cant help but feel sympathy for them. After all, if all of the people HE loved and looked out for were killed, shattered, and transformed beyond recognition, he cant guarantee that he wouldnt also make some. Extremely terrible selfish decisions. [Throwing pebbles at emet-selch] Youre still an asshole [feels bad anyway].

He feels the most sympathy for elidibus, on account of. Teenager Thrust Into Govt Position And Turned Into A Primal For The Survival Of The Star. He doesnt really see him as responsible for the events that have followed since, even though he definitely. Still is. He sees a lot of alphinaud in elidibus gwjegdjd

He Does Not like lahabrea, but as of meeting him in pandæmonium hes weighing the pros and cons of attempting to Get Some gwjsgdjgdjd. Cons: hes actually one of the worst people he knows, thancred would kill him, thancred would kill him, he'll probably be rejected out of hand, etc etc. Pros: god lahabrea can GET it

16. Tell us about two major events from MSQ that left the deepest emotional scars on your WOL.

I MEAN. several gwjwgjdgd but the deepest scars......

the first would probably be the vault. Khalja felt that he owed a lot to haurchefant and he was kind of charmed by his extremely earnest nature, so losing him would have hurt enough on its own. Worse than that though was that haurchefant died protecting khalja specifically, which is something that he'd never had to. Deal with before. Up until then hed thought that the only person he'd hurt with his reckless behavior would be himself, but [watches haurchefant bleed out from a wound meant to be inflicted upon him] [has to go home and tell his family that hes only alive because their son/brother died] Oh. Oh This Sucks So Much Worse. Hes partly healed from that experience, but the guilt he feels has never left him (and likely never will), and it influences the way he handles situations where his loved ones are involved. Hes not willing to let anyone else take a bullet for him lol

The next would actually be the body-snatching experience with zenos. He'd never felt more helpless and terrified; the image of his own body about to strike down alisae and raha haunts him constantly, and while he understands that it wasnt him who did that, it definitely made him start to view himself as. A monster of sorts. Lol. When he woke up back in his own body and saw that none of his friends had come to harm he broke down sobbing in relief [he has not cried in front of. Most of them]. Post-endwalker, hes still afraid of his strength someday being used to hurt the people he loves. He would genuinely sooner die than let something like that happen again