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Caving In [3]

Pairing: Gar Logan x Fem!Powered!Reader, Jason Todd x Fem!Powered!Reader

Words: 7,023

Chapter Warnings: Swearing, hurt/comfort, a nightmare, flirting, fluff, jason and reader trauma-bonding, talks of abuse (it’s not super detailed), mentions of food being withheld, gar feels like his trauma isn’t “enough” (unrelated to the trauma-bonding), mentions of death, mentions of drug addiction, mentions of bruises

Summary: ❝Tell me Atlas: What is heavier, The world or its people’s hearts?❞ You never expected your life to end up this way, turned upside down by an infamous Gotham villain. It’s been a living hell, every single day, until Dick Grayson brings you to Titans tower where you meet Gar Logan and Jason Todd.

A/N: So, this is the chapter where I decided to change who the fic was about because I mean hi lol so this chapter is Jason heavy 😂 I am easily motivated to post more often when I get feedback 😂 The first few chapters take place between season 2 episode 1 and season 2 episode 2. You can add yourself the tag list below, ask me to be tagged, or you can follow my library blog @jasntoddslibrary​ and turn on notifications if you prefer that!!

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The movie came to a close twenty minutes ago, Rachel already off to her room to get some sleep but Gar and Jason are still in the living room with you asleep. Gar doesn’t want to move you, he’s never been a big fan of waking people up when they’re asleep, especially when it’s obvious they haven’t slept very much. On top of that though, he’s not sure if waking you up would scare you and then you’d burn him or something. So, he figures it might be best to just let you sleep. Jason volunteered to hang out with him for a little bit anyway.

Jason looks over and his eyes just land on you. You look peaceful and kind of nice when you’re not being a snarky bitch to him. Though, he does kind of give as good as he gets not that he’d ever admit that of course. And maybe he likes that you actually have a bit of fire in your words when you talk to him. Gar and Rachel normally brush off his mean and sarcastic comments and Dick can never be bothered. You though, you play along and maybe he thinks it’s a little fun.

“Why are you staring at her, dude? It’s weird.” Gar looks away from his phone to look at Jason.

Jason shakes his head, grabbing his own phone to scroll through Twitter. “I wasn’t staring.” He mutters, his cheeks turning a bright red.

“Yeah, you were.” Gar insists. “Don’t make it weird, she’s nice and it’s cool to have someone new around.”

“I’m not making it fucking weird, man.” Jason sighs before he looks back over, glancing between Gar and you. “You gonna go for it though?” Jason raises his brows with the question, choosing to deflect.

Gar’s eyes narrow in disbelief. “I just said don’t make it weird.” Gar’s voice goes up an octave with his words. “She’s been here a day.”

Jason chuckles more to himself than at Gar. “I’m just trying to figure out the rules. You’re my friend and I don’t wanna overstep, man.” He has this grin that absolutely says he will overstep if not told otherwise.

Gar’s forehead wrinkles with Jason’s words and if it were anyone else, maybe he’d be surprised by how fast he wants this move but it’s Jason. The same guy who uses 420 and 69 (or both together) as passcodes so Gar can’t actually be too surprised. And Gar also knows that if he doesn’t answer Jason, Jason is going to do what he wants. He’s an asshole, sure, but he’s not a half-bad friend, actually.

“I don’t know.” Gar shakes his head, almost rolling his eyes. “I haven’t thought about it.”

Jason hums. “So, I can go for it then? If I want?” Jason asks and then quickly follows up with more. “Not that I do, I’m just asking.”

“Right.” Gar deadpans and you aren’t an article of clothing they’re swapping because it’s nice or something.

You’re a living breathing human being who has the right to make your own decisions. Of course, Gar knows that’s not what Jason is getting at during this or anything. He’s asking if he can flirt or try to actually get with you if you’re interested but it doesn’t make Gar feel any better. You’ve been here a day and maybe Gar just wants you to settle in before Jason jumps down your throat about it. And, to be completely fair, Gar does think you’re very pretty but he actually wants to take the time to get know you before he decides if he’d even be interested. He’s just here having fun learning to be a Titan.

“Maybe we just let her come to us if she’s interested.” Gar proposes, a partial way to get Jason to drop it. “After, she actually gets settled.”

“Hey,” Jason defends himself, but his voice is still quieter than it normally is. “It’s just a question, she seemed to be comfortable around you is all.” Jason glances to you once more before going back to his phone. “Obviously.”

“Can we drop this? She is right here.” Gar slightly shifts in his seat, not enough to wake up you.

“She’s asleep.” Jason scoffs before looking back at Gar who just looks annoyed. “Alright, damn chill out. I’ll leave her alone for a while.”

Gar nods, not having anything else to add on the topic and Jason drops it. The boys go back to their phones and have some conversation here and there about Twitter threads and TikToks they find. Nothing substantial really comes from any of it but both of them enjoy the time. Gar actually likes hanging out with Jason like this, he hasn’t had a best friend in a long time and this feels normal to him. Turning into a tiger usually makes him feel a little freakish, especially after spending so much time at Doom Manor where they were pretty much described as freaks. It was hurtful, he just wants to be normal and having movie nights with Jason and Rachel feels normal.

It doesn’t matter how much trauma any of them have when there’s a movie on and they’re just hanging out. It’s just them and when it’s him and Jason, that’s all there is. Normalcy. Even with you, a new girl, sleeping on him. In a way, it even feels a little comforting with you laying your head on him because he’s not a scary tiger. He’s just a boy.

After another half hour, Jason leaves Gar to head to the training room. Gar tried to convince him to go to bed but Jason doesn’t listen to anyone so now it’s just Gar and you. He’s getting tired himself and he’s heavily debating on waking you up so he can go in his own bed. But, the debate doesn’t last long because suddenly, you shoot off of his shoulder, heaving for air. You sit forward, eyes wide as Gar slightly jerks away from you as a reflex.

“Are…are you okay?” He asks, leaning back over and forward to get a look at your face.

You suck in a breath, your chest heaving with every breath and your heart pounding. You barely even comprehend you’re still in the living room when Gar asks you the question. All you can do is nod and try to breathe. This is really going to be your life now? Tortured in reality by a psychopath and now tortured in a dream state by the same fucking psychopath? How the fuck is that fair? You finally escaped only to be haunted by your dreams in a place you actually kind of, sort of, feel safe in.

“Nightmare?” Gar asks, not moving from his position.

You turn your head to the right to look over your shoulder back at Gar. “Y-yeah.” You nod softly before looking forward, shaking your head. “Sorry.”

Gar’s brows furrow. “For what?”

“Uh…” No one’s asked you what you’re sorry for before. You’re always supposed to be sorry for either getting angry or upset or having a smart-ass comment. There’s always something you’re supposed to apologize for. “Falling asleep, falling asleep on you….” You pause. “Nightmare.”

“You,” Gar leans forward some more, a little closer to you to try and offer you comfort in the only way he knows how. “You don’t have to be sorry for any of that. It’s okay.”

You glance over at him and the way he looks at you make you feel like porcelain. Fragile and weak. It’s not a feeling you like very much. But his eyes are warm and kind, so kind that they make you want to tell him your whole life story without ever coming up for a breath of fresh air. And it makes you feel warm.

“Do you wanna talk about it? Sometimes it helps.” Gar offers with a welcoming but small smile.

You look over to him again, your eyes dodging his this time. You can feel the flame in your belly flickering, it wants to go out so bad. It’s been wanting to go out the last few months, the last few months you were held. At the beginning, it was bonfire in your stomach. The second even a drop of gasoline were to land, it would all blow. But the gasoline never dripped or spilled. It sat in the corner and taunted you and the flame died down. And you’re so tired of it.

You want the fight back and maybe talking about it would help you feel better but you don’t want to feel better. You want to be pissed and angry and furious and you want the fucking fire back so you can hunt the bastard down yourself. But then you look at Gar again and he’s soft. It’s like you’re this tea light and he’s a glass lamp over you. Not burning out the flame but keeping it going just enough to function.

“Um…” You pause, leaning back against the couch. “It’s just….uh…i-it’s like I’m back there again.” You admit. “A-and he-he’s right there.” You stutter while Gar watches. “J-just f-fucking taunting me, k-knowing I-I can’t do anything. Fuck.” You swallow hard, not even realizing you were practically holding your breath.

Gar turns in his spot so he can better face you, never moving away from you. “What happened?” Gar asks calmly. “You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to.” Gar adds on, never wanting you to feel pressured about it.

You hang your head, then shake it. He’s going to give you the look. The pitiful look you got when your mom died. It’s the same look everyone always gives, you’re guilty of giving the look, too but it makes you shift and it make you feel uneasy. You get it, feeling bad for people who experience trauma. It’s natural but you don’t find it comforting and maybe you would find it easier if he had something snarky to say. Make it easier with humor, it’s what you do anyway.

“W-what’s the worst thing you’ve heard someone go through?” You ask, pulling the sleeves of your hoodie over your hands.

Gar sighs, thinking about it but he didn’t think very long before he starts talking, thinking maybe if you know what he’s seen and heard, it’ll make you trust him enough to talk to him. “Rachel, probably.” He answers honestly. “Her mom, who wasn’t her real mom, was shot in front of her. Then, she was locked away,” Gar says. “Only for a few hours but locked away for her powers.” He adds in. “Then,” He pauses and your brows go up in surprise. “We found her real mom who convinced her to bring in her demon dad to save my life. He possessed all of our friends and then got them to almost beat me to death in front of her.” Gar lists, reliving all of it in quick images. “Trigon,” You look at him quizzically. “Demon dad.” Gar clarifies. “Killed her real mom and then Rachel killed him.”

You sit there for a second and you really thought you had it bad. Of course, what you went through was still terrible but you do not want to play trauma Olympics with Rachel that’s for damn sure. But, Rachel seems okay, weirdly enough. You aren’t sure how long ago all of that was but Rachel does seem okay and even happy which gives you the one thing you haven’t had in months. Hope.

“Well…okay.” You nod slowly, taking in the information.

“Oh!” Gar says, remembering to add more. “We were also being chased by people who were trying to kill her because of her powers.” Gar lets out a breath, his nonchalant add-in almost makes you laugh. What the fuck?

You blink a few times. “I….I don’t even know what to say to all of that.”

“Yeah,” Gar chuckles softly. “It was pretty crazy.”

“No fucking shit.” You laugh softly. “That’s fucked up.”

Gar nods. “Yeah, but she’s okay now.” Gar assures you.

“She seems to like it. This place help?” Your eyes glance to your hands and then back to Gar.

Gar nods once more. “Yeah,” He shrugs a shoulder. “I think it does.”

It’s helped him a little bit. But, he doesn’t think his trauma is worth talking about. It’s not as bad as Rachel’s or yours. It was a disease, sure his was different, but it was a disease and people get diseases all the time. Some people live and some people die because that’s how it works. He turns into a green tiger but is that really trauma? In the grand scheme of the conversation? Gar doesn't really think so. So, he keeps the idea of the Tower and the people helping him cope to himself.

“I-it was just…hell.” You suck in a breath, deciding to tell him a little bit. “I was there for a while and this,” You gesture over your face. “Was pretty normal.” You chew the inside of your cheek. “I-I, uh, I-I thought he was gonna…kill me for a while.” You swallow. “I think he wanted to.”

“I’m sorry.” Gar’s brows knit together with sympathy and there’s the look.

You can’t handle the look, not from him. Clearly, he’s seen and heard a lot but now maybe you don’t want to burden him with your shit. He’s been through his own and clearly knows Rachel’s, you can only assume he knows some of Jason’s shit, whatever it is. To you, Gar seems like the person everyone goes to with their problems and you don’t want to stick that burden on him. Not with eyes as caring and gentle as his. It breaks your heart to even be sitting here telling him anything. So, you quit.

“Um…” You shake your head “I’m sorry, I don’t wanna talk about it.” You shut down and Gar just nods.

“It’s okay.” Gar assures you as you get up from the couch.

“I’m…I’m gonna walk.” You fake a smile at him. “Clear my head. Thanks for letting me sleep, Gar.”

“If you need to talk, you can talk to me.” Gar stands up with you, worried he overstepped. “I didn’t mean to--”

“No.” You cut him off quickly. “You didn’t…it’s not like that. I….just. It’s so fucking fresh and you….” You suck your teeth, brows furrowing together as if you’re in pain. “You make me feel normal and I don’t wanna ruin that.” You divert your eyes to the floor. “I’m sorry…thank you.” You look back up at him before turning on your heels and head into the left hallway, disappearing into the shadows.

Gar watches you disappear, kicking himself. He thinks he made it worse. He’s just trying to be there for you but he’s slowly figuring out that that’s not something you want. Not in the talking about-it way, anyway. It’s like you just want to be distracted from it all which Gar can’t blame you for. He can only really imagine what happened from his and Jason’s little bit of research and what information you did give him. His heart aches for you but he’ll never push you to tell him anything. Instead, he goes to his room but he leaves the door cracked just in case you change your mind.

You find yourself wandering the halls until you reach the training room. There you find Jason back at the punching bag. You pull out the phone Dick gave you earlier today and it’s three in the morning. Suddenly, you feel even worse about falling asleep on Gar given how late it is. But, you choose not to focus on the guilt in your stomach and instead on Jason. You stand in the doorway, confused why he would train at this hour. Is he insane?

“Do you ever stop training?” You ask, arms crossed as you’re leaning against one of the sliding doors.

Jason jumps, spinning around quickly. “Fuck, how long have you been standing there?” Jason almost yells at you.

You snicker with a shrug. “Few seconds.”

“What do you want?” He asks and he’s as snarky as ever which makes you happy. It’s like he treats you normally. Not that the others don’t but you can tell it’s like they’re tip-toeing but Jason doesn’t.

You walk in just a few feet, looking around before looking back at Jason. “Was just walking around.”

“That’s fucking weird.”

Jason didn’t expect to see you for the rest of the night. He kind of figured if you woke up, you’d just go to your room, not walk around. Or maybe, you’d be with Gar but you’re here in the training room with him. And maybe despite the snarkiness, he wants you to stay. Maybe the comments will make you want to stay, for entertainment. You seem to like the challenge.

“You’re the one punching a bag at three in the fucking morning. You’re being weird, dude.” You snark with the raise of your brows and Jason deadpans before returning to the bag.

You watch him a little longer and this is your opportunity to ask him to help you. No one else is here and you can only assume Gar went to bed so it’s just you two. He’s clearly dedicated so maybe he’ll want to help anyway. If not, you figure you’ll just hold the little bet over his head.

You close the distance, walking over toward the punching bag. “You’re so….”

“Charming?” Jason glances at you as he punches the bag. “Amazing?” He punches again. “Hot?” He flashes a cocky grin and you sigh.

“I was gonna say snippy, actually.”

“You’re fucking annoying you know that?” Jason snarks.

“Mmm.” You click your tongue a grin pulling at your lips as you point a finger at him. “There it is.”

“Seriously, what do you want?” Jason stops, facing you with annoyance.

“Train me, Dick said I’m not ready.” You hold your head up, crossing your arms across your chest.

Jason pauses, the question catching him off guard. You don’t actually look like you’re in any condition to train, not that Jason really ever agrees with Dick. Bruce doesn’t think he should be Robin but Jason knows he’s ready to get back to it so in a way, Jason understands why you’re asking. Feeling ready, but the adults want to think they know what’s best. It’s shitty. But Jason likes a good fight.

“What happened to you?” The snarkiness leaves his voice as he nods his head up at you and you’re taken aback. Jason, not asking a snarky question? Now, that’s weird.

“Why do you wanna know?” Your voice is level, eyes slight narrowed.

Jason pauses. He’s actually just curious. He knows his motive for wanting to train harder and better and faster than everyone else but what’s yours? Unless yours is going after whoever did whatever it was to you. But now you have powers so you could just take them out with those. You don’t need the combat, really. Jason just wants to know and maybe he has a little more stake in it. He does care about it, even though he acts like he doesn’t. He’s not completely heartless. Plus, maybe it’ll give him bonus points.

“Curious.” Jason shrugs, eyes glancing from your socks to your face.

“You just wanna see all the trauma?” You raise and Jason shrugs, his brows raising quickly as if to be saying ‘why not’ and his nonchalant attitude with the mix of snark gives you enough reason to challenge him a little but take the risk in having to spill. You take a few steps towards him. “I’ll show you mine if you show me yours.” You close the small distance between you standing just an inch away from him. Jason’s breath hitches in his throat for just a second as he looks to you. The look in your eyes sends a shiver down his spine and he’s ready to play the game.

“Asked you first.” Jason doesn’t move from his stance, instead he holds still, looking at you with his eyes locked on yours and he sees a grin coming to your face.

“Alright,” You take one step back. “But don’t make it all emotional or some shit.” You plop down on the floor in front of him, sitting with your legs crossed, Jason taking a breath finally.

He said he wouldn’t. He told Gar he’d leave you alone for a little while but what is he supposed to do when you initiate it? Jason is not gonna back down from that. And, he thinks it’s fun. You play the game and lean into the challenge instead of backing away. It’s only when Jason goes to play, too that you switch it up like a game of cat and mouse. It’s thrilling a little.

Jason chuckles but follows your lead. “You always sit on the floor?”

“You always in here?” You quip.

“Shut up.” Jason shakes his head but a smile still tugs at his lips. “So, spill your guts.”

“It’s not getting that deep, bud.” You scoff but match the smile.

This is what you were thinking when talking to Gar. Gar makes it feel vulnerable, talking about it. That’s not how you want to feel about it. You want to feel strong and fiery. It’s not Gar’s fault, you can tell it’s because he just really, truly cares and feels bad about whatever it is. But, Jason, it’s like he cares but only out of curiosity not because he’s trying to save you or help you.

“Mom was killed by the Joker,” You start, gauging Jason’s face as you talk. “Dad’s a meth addict, a great parental figure obviously.” You say sarcastically. “Went into foster care, Jerry.” You grimace with his name and you try to dodge the feeling of agony and fear when you say his name. “Was my foster dad if you can even call him that.” You scoff. “He wanted to make superhumans. He used me as a test subject, I think for himself to see if anything would work. I had so many things injected I lost count over the year. He kept me chained in a basement and because none of that was quite bad enough, the fucker decided to beat me, too when I didn’t show signs of powers. He’d withhold food, all that shit. I survived mostly off of chicken noodle soup. He beat me so bad, I guess he thought I was dead and dumped in an alley and now I’m here.” You keep your voice nonchalant and steady, listing off your past like some recap of a sitcom.

Jason keeps his eyes on you and he doesn’t know what to say. It’s rare to get him speechless but here he is, without a single word in his head. How is he even supposed to respond to that? It just sounds terrible and horrifying.

“How long did he keep you like that?” He settles on the question, knowing talking about the events in Gotham is a sore spot for him.

“A year, I think. Lost track a bit.” You answer with a shrug, silently begging him to have something snarky or sarcastic to say because now it’s all too real and you wish you could turn back the clock and not say anything.

“That’s fucked up. He’d just experiment on you and fucked you up cause he could?” Jason asks as if not really believe what he’s hearing. People are terrible.

“Mhm.” You hum.

“Fuck that guy, he’s a piece of fucking shit, alright?" There’s a fury in his voice this time and it makes you smile just a little bit. He’s not sorry, he just thinks Jerry is a shitty person.

“No shit.” You huff.

“It worked though, he gave you powers. Why the fuck wouldn’t you have used them?” Jason’s expression changes to confusion. “I’m not blaming you.” Jason defends his words, feeling like it might have come off a bit like victim blaming. “I’m just curious.”

“I was afraid he’d kill me knowing that it worked. I…uh, I learned how to stay calm when he’d come at me so I pissed him off really bad a few days ago. The calmer I was, the more angry he’d get.”

“You got him to do that to you on purpose?” Jason practically yells.

He’s not sure what he expected, really. He kind of just thought it got too bad one day. It lead you to that alley. He didn’t think you actually got someone to do that to you.

You nod, a feeling of shame taking over. “I couldn’t escape any other way. I knew if I could piss him off really really bad, he’d come at me like never before. I could pretend like he killed me or put me into a coma, caused a massive brain bleed, ya know? Something, he would dump me somewhere. It was that or he was gonna kill anyway.” You pause. “Backfired a little, he did come back and I guess thought throwing a few more punches would wake me up.”

“You just played dead the whole time?” There’s a pain in Jason’s voice and he thought this could turn into something of fun, quick-witted jokey conversation but he just feels like you kicked off a cliff. 

“Oh, no, I was actually knocked unconscious most of the time while all of it was going on.” You nod casually.

“Fuck.” Jason lets out a breath before continuing. “That’s kind of badass though.” Jason states giving you a grin, you shaking your head and jerking backward in confusion. “You just took him beating the fuck outta you. That’s fucking crazy.”

You laugh softly. “Yeah, dude’s got a hell of an arm and a kick, a-fucking-parently.” Jason’s brows raise as if to be asking for context. “Found more bruises when I showed today, got a nice boot print on my back.” A scoff leaves the back of your throat.

“Fuck that guy, alright?” Jason says, growing angry at the conversation. Who does that to someone for no reason? He kicks ass every night in Gotham as Robin but those people deserve it. What did you ever do to this guy who was supposed to protect you and keep you safe? It’s not right. “He’s a piece of shit and you didn’t deserve that shit. I'll hunt the monster down for you if I have to.”

You furrow your brows. “That’s a kind offer.”

“I’m fucking Robin!” Jason tosses his hands out, gesturing into his chest and outward again. “It’s my job to hunt those dickweeds down!”

You let out a genuine laugh. He is pretty funny actually and he’s not the Robin that let the Joker kill your mom. You actually think Jason would kill the bad guys if he were allowed to. “Mhm.” You hum. “Which is why you’re the best Robin.”

“You think so?” Jason asks, the joy in his voice makes you giggle. “I know I am but Dick and Bruce...” He pauses for a second. “They don’t think so.”

“Well, Dick and Bruce don’t know shit.” You hold your head up high, and you truly think Jason is the better Robin. You’ve seen the YouTube videos.

“Thanks.” Jason offers a sincere smile. “That why you wanna train? Hunt him down yourself kind of deal?”

“Yeah, if I ever see the piece of shit I don’t wanna give him the satisfaction of knowing it worked. I wanna beat the fuck with my bare fucking hands like he did to me.” There it is, the fire you’ve been looking for. You want him to suffer at your own hands. No one else, just you and him and you want to watch everything he worked for crash around him. You want him to be bloody and bruised and beaten like you have been for a year.

“Good, he fucking deserves it. Dick will probably hunt him down if you tell him.” Jason informs you. “He used to be a detective and he worked a lot of cases with shitty parents. I think he went out as Robin and kicked their asses.”

You smile. “Good, people who beat kids deserve what’s coming.” You laugh softly, stretching your legs out beside Jason’s and leaning back on your hands. “Your turn.”

Jason nods, pulling the leg furthest from you up so his foot is on the floor and his knee is bent while he leans back on his hands. “Dad was killed by Two-Face, mom’s a smack addict, uncle drank himself to death.” Jason rambles off as if it were nothing and your eyes squint for just a second. You’re nonchalant because it’s easier that way. Is it easier for him to be like this, too? “Gotham, right?” Jason scoffs, looks down and away from you.

“Special kind of fucked up there.” You say, not looking away from him. “I’m really sorry.” You say, your heart aching for him, something you didn’t really expect given the banter between you. “How’d you get here then?” You ask, instead of asking for details about those he lost knowing you don’t like to talk about it and assuming he probably doesn’t either.

“Caught stealing the hubcaps off the Batmobile.” Jason chuckles, his cocky grin back on his face as he looks to you, clearly proud of himself. He expects you to be impressed with his courage to steal from Batman of all people. But that’s not what your face is telling him.

Your eyes narrow and then you look up before squeezing the bridge of your nose. “Hubcaps.” Your voice is exasperated, eyes closed before looking back at him. “Fuck.”

Jason laughs, knowing what the expression is now. “What? You robbing cars?” He shakes his head. “Nah, you gotta get the hubcaps, more likely to get money from that. Less likely to get caught, too.”

“Fuck you. You got caught, too!” You glare at him.

“Because it was the fucking Batmobile.” Jason tilts his head back with a laugh. “He didn’t wanna press charges, instead, he took me in.”

“Oh, to have been so lucky.” You snark with the roll of your eyes.

“Yeah…” Jason sucks in a breath. “Sorry.”

“Nah,” You scoff with a smile. “I wish I would have been smart enough to rob the Batmobile!”

“Everyone says it was dumb.” Jason scoffs.

Bruce said it was dumb, the cop said it was dumb, Dick, Gar, Alfred, everyone but every single one of them completely neglect the need to survive. Jason's been in and out of the system his entire life. He got lucky that he didn't end up like you in all of the time he was in the system. It was lucky. He lived on the streets, no job, no GED, no diploma, he had nothing. Stealing the hubcaps off cars was how he got money for food. The Batmobile? He knew he'd get more money for it. No one wants to talk about why he did it, just that it was "dumb".

“Well, you got to move in with Batman and even if you succeeded, you would have gotten money. That’s a win-win.” You give him a smile and a laugh because you really wish you would have done it. You get it, you’re the one who gets it.

“What I said!” Jason defends.

“So, that it? Parents and guardians suck?” You pause. “So…why're you here then? I think you're a great Robin, seems a bit weird you're here." You question because you want to know what he did. If stealing hubcaps wasn't Bruce's red flag, what was it?

Jason’s face grows something sad and you’re watching, not sure what he would be sad about. He seems so happy about being Robin. What is there to be sad about? Dick said Bruce wasn’t the best, but was it that bad? Is the guy who dresses up as Batman every night actually a horrible person? Is it all just a show?

“He’s making me take a break.” Jason looks to the ground, his face settling somewhere between annoyed and sad.

You nod. “Ah, what’d ya do?”

“Well,” Jason sighs, running a hand through his hair. “There was the joyrides in the Batmobile and then riding a motorcycle in the manor.”

“I-you…I don’t know what to unpack first. Batmobile or the motorcycle. Why? For both, I guess?” You question.

Why would he risk that? Getting thrown back to the streets or worse? You run the questions through your head but you don't need to ask him because you know. It's what he does. It's what you do. You’re asking Jason to go behind Dick's back, knowing that Dick doesn't have to let you stay. It's a risk and sometimes the risk is worth it. Maybe it's genetic, to be some sort of fuck up. Or, in this case, maybe it's just environmental.

Jason shrugs. “Seemed fun, I guess.”

“You know what I think.” You point a finger at him and Jason deadpans but gestures a hand out for you to proceed. “I think he doesn’t give you enough attention.”

“You a fucking shrink now?”

“Fuck no.” You chortle. “Just an observation. Seems like you like a lot of attention.”

"And why the fuck do you think that?"

"You're a smart-ass." You chuckle as if it should have been obvious. "The risks you take, the fact everyone has something to say about you tells me you intentionally start the shit so they do talk about you. Talking about you in any context is better than being forgotten." You explain and Jason just watches you growing annoyed. He thinks he's so hard to figure out but you have him pegged in five minutes.

"Fuck you." Jason huffs. He does not like being analyzed.

"No one wants to be forgotten." Your voice is quiet and the annoyance suddenly leaves Jason with your tone. You notice the way he looks at you, not with sympathy or pity but with a genuine understanding and you deflect. "And if you keep saying fuck you, I might take you up on it." You wiggle your brows at him and Jason's jaw opens slightly, feeling as if he's just gotten whiplash.

He can play this game. He won't let you get one over on him. This is Jason's game to play and win.

"Fuck. You." Jason taunts you, leaning forward slightly.

You think it's funny. You’re just messing with him but the way he doesn't even bat an eye at it, it energizes your blood in every way. Talking and messing with Jason makes you feel so normal. He doesn't do that little dance thing that Gar does, where he's so worried about stepping on your feelings. Jason just blurts shit out and calls your bluff. It's fun.

"Tell me how you really feel." You challenge him.

Jason wants to go there because he doesn't think you'll commit to it. Maybe you'll pull away or laugh but he'll have won because he didn't back down first. It's like this silent game you're playing and Jason can't tell who the ringmaster is. He swears up and down it's him, but you take the challenge and maybe he's a little worried you'll win.

You make him feel....not useless right now. He has felt useless since being sent here. Dick didn't want him to stick around and help but he kept Rachel and Gar around. He couldn't stop Trigon, he never even stood a chance. But, with you, you don't know any of that shit. It's just you two with no expectations of anything. It's the two of you and your trauma bonding and this little game. He wants it to be a long game though, drag it out and see who wins then.

"I don't think you like attention." Jason states, your brows furrowing and you didn't expect him to be the one to back down.

“What makes you say that?”

“You’re awake when no one else is. You choose Gar to hang out with. I'm guessing you did a lot of the crime at night and not just because it was easier. It's Gotham, day crime is also pretty fucking easy. Guessing you haven't told anyone else what happened because you don't want them to look at you.” Jason explains in the same way you did but this time, with a bit more bite in his voice.

You shake your head, a smile tugging at your lips. Maybe you’re also a bit transparent around him. “Mmm who’s the wanna-be shrink now?”

“Fuck off.” Jason chuckles. “Have you told anyone else? About what happened to you?”

You shake your head. “No, uh…” You furrow your brows, shaking your head once more. “I almost told Gar but….he makes it….too…”

“Real?”

“Yeah and vulnerable. Dick’s too serious about it and I haven’t talked much to Rachel. You always have a smartass comment though. Makes it feel more like a joke. And....we have Gotham in common, ya know?”

Jason nods with understanding. He doesn’t really like talking about any of it either. None of it really. It’s why he always says it so nonchalantly. It’s easier to brush it all off than boil in the feelings of sadness and regret. It’ll eat him alive if he thinks too much about it.

“Yeah, you make it easier, too.”

“Was that something nice you just said?”

“Shut the fuck up.” Jason groans. He nods his head up at you quickly. “How bad are the bruises?” You raise one brow at him. “I’m not a complete fucking asshole, alright? I don’t actually want you to get hurt.”

He’s thinking of caving. He gets you and you get him. Jason doesn’t have confidence about where this will go by any means but he’s confident he can trust you. If it were Jason, he’d never fucking quit if he were told he couldn’t train. He’d be training recklessly if he had to. You, at least had the brains to come and ask him for help. You’re not dumb, you’re desperate and Jason gets it. But he doesn’t want to contribute to your injuries if they’re that bad.

You think for a few seconds. They’re not great. Most of them are a deeper shades which means they’re further away from healing but you have a few older ones that have turned lighter in color. You know those aren’t the ones him and Dick are concerned about. And you could lie to him, it’s not like he’s going to pin you down and check for himself. But that doesn’t really feel right. Especially with him being nice to you and honest.

“What’s your definition of bad?” You ask, just trying to see how well you need to answer his question.

“Do they hurt?” Jason asks, not sure how to answer it.

“Well, yeah they’re bruises.”

“You know what I mean.” Jason groans.

“Yeah, they hurt. Like walking kind of hurts and bending certain ways hurts.”

“And you wanna fucking train and make it worse?”

“Do you ever rest? If you get hurt being Robin, do you rest or do you train?”

“Fine.” Jason groans, knowing he’s lost the battle. “But you know you’re not gonna run into the guy this week, right? The tower is secure so you don’t have shit to worry about.”

Jason caves. Training helps him deal with the bullshit. It makes him feel like he has a purpose. Being Robin is the one thing he does really well and it makes him feel like he belongs somewhere, something he’s never felt before. All the bullshit that happened before, it doesn’t matter when he’s Robin and when he’s training. He wants to give that to you.

“I know but I wanna be prepared. I wasn’t prepared last time.” You answer honestly. You will never let anyone do that to you again.

“You’re fucking crazy, ya know?” Jason chuckles softly.

“So are you, bud.” You get up. “Well, good talk. Lots of trauma bonding, but I’m gonna try to go tot bed.” You opt to end the conversation just in case he changes his mind but you’re a little disappointed. You do enjoy talking to him. Just like this.

Jason pauses for a second, looking up at you. You’re a human person and you have similarities in your traumas. It’s a little refreshing in a fucked up kind of way. No one else really gets it because it’s different, having a parent actively abandon you is different than dying. In a way, Jason thinks it’s worse. His mom picked drugs over him. He wasn’t good enough to love, by his own mother, and the only one who’d actually get that here is you. But, he knows that you might also benefit from actually talking about it with someone who can offer some actual support about it. It did help when he talked to Gar about it once.

“You should talk to Gar.” Jason says from the floor as you were on your way out.

“About?” You turn to look at him.

“What happened to you.” Jason gets up from the floor.

“Why?” You think it’s a bit weird to bring that up and now. You both just said it’s weird making it feel vulnerable and real.

Jason shrugs. “Might help, dealing with it.” He sucks in a breath as if it’s hard for him to even say. He hates talking about it but Gar will just listen. He’s the one person Jason has actually had a heart-to-heart to about it.

“Afraid I might…break him.” You laugh softly. “Ya know? Like he’s already seen some bad shit and he is…. unfathomably kind. I don’t wanna ruin him.”

Jason huffs but there’s a smile peaking onto his face. “He looks at the ligature marks on your wrists whenever you’re not tugging on your sleeves. Whatever he’s imagining happened to you is always going to be worse than what actually happened.” Jason says, his voice a bit flat and you can see this is a struggle for him to say and you wonder why.

“Like in horror movies. Choosing not to show the violence because what we imagine will always be scarier.”

“Yeah, I’m just saying, he’s a good listener if you just wanna be pissed about it.” Jason chuckles. “He’ll let you bitch about it.”

You smile at him and shake your head. Everyone here wants to talk so much shit about him which hey, maybe he deserves usually. But, you see through his bullshit because you do the same shit. It’s not cold-hearted, it’s a coping mechanism. A way to protect yourselves from getting hurt again. You get him, you get it and it makes you happy because he gets you, too.

“You’re not so bad, Jason Todd.” There's a genuine sweetness to your eyes as you say it and Jason doesn't believe it.

“I am the best.” He opens his arms, palms up, the arrogant smile beaming.

You roll your eyes, feeling bubbles and butterflies in your stomach. “Yeah, sure, goodnight, Jason.” You emphasis his name as you turn to leave and it sends Jason’s heart spinning.

“Goodnight, Y/n.” His voice is actually kind as he watches you leave.

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[vergess]

8, 42(0), 66, 99 (double nice)

Lmaoooo bless you darling

8: Sergio Assad's "Snowflakes" as played by Plinio Fernandes

Absolutely stellar guitar work here, and I'm such a sucker for classical guitar.

420: Here We Go by Alohaii

This song is like the vapourwave equivalent to "Sway" (I literally added it to my Sway playlist lol) and it's terribly fun. Such a nice beat.

69-A (66): Dark, Darker, Yet Darker, originally by Toby Fox (Undertale), remixed by SharaX

This one had been in my top 100 for a fer years now. It's just! So! Loopable!!! It's a very intense (IMO) electronic song, so maybe turn your headphones down, but get ready to also turn your heart rate WAY UP lol

69-B (99):

OHHHHHHH YOU'RE NOT GONNA BELIEVE IT BUT 99 IS ACTUALLY LITERALLY THE NEXT SHARAX TRACK LOL

Megalotrouse, mixed by Sharax from Bonetrousle and Megalovania, both by Toby Fox (undertale).

[chvcklefvck]

hookhausen x reader Who's the 666, who's the 420, and who's 69.

Me using brain power to answer this? It's more likely than you think.

Obviously Danhausen is 666! He is very evil (but very nice) so he is in this spot. But for reader and Hook? I feel like both could fit in the other two spots. Reader seems to fall more into 420 though, imo. and Hook is 69 because... Look at him.

But also, now i think about it. Advice!reader is probably 69 lol. of course i'll get into this more as i write more for hookhausen x reader. but yeah, that reader specifically is 69, so hook is 420 lmao

[ice-block]

I posted 7 times in 2002

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I added 49456789 tags in 2007

#bingus soup - 12800 posts

#out of touch thursday - 56 posts

#minecraftMinecraft- 420 posts

#mine craft - 54 posts

#frog explosion - 53 posts

#nothing - 69 posts

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posts that your tormented me the most in 2021

#5

Mineblr was so so cool and now people keep bringing back my old Minecraft posts like "omg this about Minecraft and therefore also about mcyt!" No it's not. Explode.

51450000000000000000 notes • Posted 2021-08-24 17:04:41 GMT

#4

When Minecraft eventually reaches its last update Mojang should just throw herobrine in there and say nothing about it

69 notes • Posted 2021-05-19 22:53:25 GMT

#3

I miss cons so much... I want to pose for photos with hundreds of sweaty people in anime costumes for 3 hours and spend 60$ on a couple of posters before returning to a musty hotel room and passing the fuck out still in my makeup and cosplay...

420 notes • Posted 2021-01-25 04:43:37 GMT

#2

Scientists tagging birds with colored bands and accidentally making the tagged birds more appealing to mates is so funny. Imagine being abducted by aliens and they give you a gucci belt

63769 (nice lol) notes • Posted 2021-02-27 17:23:52 GMT

I KNOW GUCCI BELTS ARENT ATTRACTIVE SHUT UP PLEASE

#1

I think it would be very funny for like characters in a fantasy setting to walk into a pub and try to order and the bartender sighs and goes "species and age?" While pulling out a massive book holding the drinking age for every type of species capable of purchasing alcohol

way too many notes • Posted 2021-05-15 20:57:37 GMT

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[zathechaosgod]

Favourite Stream Moments!

Streamed by Philza on Twitch on Friday 8th of January 

Hardcore boi is back!

We can finally breathe during a stream again pog

it’s been a little bit huh

time to get some actual work done, (on the new monument build!)

glass pog??

THERES AN EVILZA EMOTE NOW OF PHIL WITH THE EYEBROWS AND MOUSTACHE

phil came with a nightmare scenario: tommyinnit pogemote

he still has the normal skin, but he’s been saving a bunch of the ones people made!!!

minecraft tip: you can save skins into the launcher and switch between them really quickly!!!

he’s got like twenty skins now waiting for the currect occasion (including beach episode?!)

AND A CATBOY SKIN LMAOO

he will always be ready

pinkza, redza, orangeza, redza 2, realistic, ae, yellowza, catboy, dadza, beach episode, ghostza, sadist 1-7 and classic aka NINETEEN IN TOTAL

he’s still gotta add more colourzas

GAPPLE GANG CATCHUP

lost in the alerts once again lmao

SNOOP CATCHUP FROM LAST STREAM POG

EARLY PURGE

time for food, aka time for the cows to die

reminder that broken arms micheal might be dead

NVM HES ALIVE

BROKEN ARMS MICHEAL LIVES ON

B E E F

bunch of glass crafting and marking out the perimeter of the ocean monument today!

oh we’re only 10mins behind right now pog

question from kristin for the australians: do yall have crackers, not the edible ones, but the ones you pull and there’s a little toy inside

chat says yes they do

keto diet is going well so far?

also bc of chatterino phil is always in six different chats (fundy, tubbo, tommy, wilbur, techno, himself, i think?)

lol he was about to craft more fireworks but he’s got stacks in a shulker already

depending on the amount of stuff that gets redeemed today we’re gonna spend possibly all of today marking out the border of the ocean monument build, which is gonna be the same shape and size as the s2 one!

SUB ONLY POG

bye bots

rip dadza went to get the lapis from the mine but he had already mined it all

passed by the baby zombie halloween edition to say hi lmao

chat is all ph1lZombie and “PHIL LOOK OUT”

he knows he’s got lapis somewhere else but has no idea where

f he does not have enough glass for the entire thing

or well, not enough blue dye

FISHING STREAM

plebs are free again!

“im gonna SHOOT THE SHEEP” “d e a t h”

lana is gonna stop gifting if broken arms michael dies lmao

life advice for parents: find a balance in which you support your kids but not so much that they immediately drop something for a hobby

he’s giving up, we’re gonna go in with what we’ve got

netherrack to measure everything out pog!

he knows the distance already lol

today’s pogchamp doesn’t really feel like a pogchamp

phil saw a cool idea tho: (look up the origin of pogchamp for an explanation) the friend who was with him at the time made a similar face, and actually was used as a replacement for all the pog emotes (he’s the KevinTurtle emote!)

bless kristin cooking for both of them on this diet

dadza misses milk and milkshakes

LMAO PHIL SAW ASHE IN TECHNOS STREAM DONATING “HI PHIL” HE GOT SO CONFUSED

ashe is a time traveller confirmed

rip he was almost one block off

RIP THE BOTS CAME BACK

sub mode again pog

lol he said he’d be forced to get 69 levels if someone redeemed an earcheck so take one guess as to what happened

THREE GAPPLE GANGS IN A ROW POG

its actually a rich boi earcheck but we first gotta get some witherskulls lol

420 POG

already, only an hour in pog

phil cant decide which snoop

lol phil got a heartattack from a thunder dono notif on a snoop vid

“what are you doing?” “losing viewers because of a tradition” -phil, but also conservatives lmao

IF THE RENDER DOESN’T MESS UP LIKE IT DID TODAY, WE’RE GETTING A NEW YT VID

69 levels nice

tubbo watched sad-ists new animatic on stream so phil watched it for the second time as well lol

also dw phil won’t be affected by the anime copyright stuff

finally heading to the end farm lol

two earchecks pog!!

someone said he was copying tubbo with the guardian farm lmaooo

lmao ashe apologized for cheating on him with techno

earchecks over!

phil doens’t like coffee or tea

dolphin glitch? it yeeted netherrack at him lmao

SIMON AND LEWIS FROM YOGSCAST ARE THE MAIN REASON PHIL GOT MINECRAFT

he used to watch yogscast and got the game basically right when they actually added the survival aspect

“i haven’t pressed the button yet, but i will, live in fear” about the sub server reset

he’s a little bit out of it, but that’s bc he’s making sure he doesn’t mess up the circle bc that’s gonna be a pain

phil says 10mil easy this year for tommy on yt

rip dadza trying to get a clear view of the picture he’s basing his build on

he’s printing it now lmao

rip he can’t even get that to work

the printer can smell his stress i swear

it finally printed!!

..it’s literally just a circle of blocks printed really small lol

we’re halfway there!

a drowned came by and sat exactly in the block where he wanted to place glass lmao

lmao phil doesn’t even know if he’s actually gonna get a tommy youtooz

random stream-item giveaway in the future pog?? (like shopping lists, notes, gapple gang notepad, stuff like that!)

lol phil has gotten inside his own head and is afraid of making mistakes even if it goes well lol

Wilbur is spamming “Hardcore players be like time to drain my ocean monument”

PHIL STARTED THAT TREND LMAO LITERALLY WITH S2

philza minecraft created minecraft: confirmed

TIME TO FIND OUT IF PHIL MESSED UP SOMEWHERE

NEW HARDCORE THUMBNAIL HAS A PHIL POGFACE

aww he was gonna show us but he can’t find it rip

lol it’s actually really funny chat is now sending messages to themselves in the future through the alerts delay instead of complaining about it

we made it halfway!

now the other half lmao

phil’s favourite soda is irn bru, although he doesn’t drink it that often anymore bc sugar (imagine it’s chemical bugglegum sugary but really good, and the almost neon orange colour adds an extra je-ne-said-quoi) (it’s frustratingly good lmao)

lmao KomodoHype is becoming the new pogchamp, whether twitch likes it or not

WE MADE IT AND IN PERFECT TIMING WITH THE MUSIC

TUBBO WITH THE 80K RAID POG

and yes the “phil created minecraft” meme came from there today, that’s all chat is today lmao

lol chat really becomes total chaos when he gets raided by tubbo/tommy/wilbur

yooo yes check out that one reddit post on twitch communities (scott smajor tweeted it as well!)

it’s so interesting to see how communities interact and mesh

chat is spamming “bubbleinnit” now lol

LMAO CHECK HOW THICCCCC THE LINE BETWEEN TUBBO AND TOMMY IS

literally like 90% of their followers overlap

scott is so far out from the rest of the minecraft community lmao

(it’s bc he’s been playing so much among us)

he’s just gonna accept that he created minecraft now

time to confuse any newbies in the future

rip, time to get more glass and lapis

also clips channels suck if you didn’t know

it’s so funny if someone says f on stream, chat instinctively types f as well lmao

lmaoooo like half the original article with the twitch communities is “who tf is tommyinnit: an explanation”

tommy is gonna get that one rubbed in later lmao

awww little blade counted coins to buy us all pizza and even has a slice for phil but he’s on keto so he can’t :(((

awww in like 10-15 mins phil is gotta go

bright side: he’s gonna record another vid with tommy and the boys!

tommy wants those modded vids a regular thing poggg

minecraft tip: glass like,,, spreads light through glass? underwater, so the pillar to the floor lights up the ground!

kristin showed phil a video of a baseless pizza and it’s the most stereotypical southern usa video ever apparently lmao

HARDCORE LORE: the ocean overlord, who is gonna live in the monument, missed the enitre war and was just chilling until his house disappeared

he’s pretty powerful, he’s just stupid

tommy is spamming time to go rip

phil really needs a zoom button lmao, alerts are still behind but he needs to end stream

anyways phils gotta go, he read out the donos

GARBAGE DAY

and fundy raid pogggg

[technicallyaminecraftsimp]

also wanna hear a funny fact? I didn't know why 69 was the "funny number" until I heard it like. sometime in the last year. and was like. "wait so this number isn't funny because it looks nice?" or something like that. haha it was funny finding out- - anny

Ooh fun fact, lol. Surprisingly, I knew what 69 meant before 420. Also, my friend who told me what 420 meant didn’t know what 69 meant

[wh33zy]

You have 69 followers? Nice ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Also how TF is that all you have? I legit think you're like a popular blog

Right!? NOICE. 

But I gained a follower this morning so now it won’t be nice until I reach 420. 

Lol, I’m flattered!! I think it’s just because I shitpost like a popular blog lol

[spooky-scary-imagines]

i got tagged by @novemberpines 0wU u

1. Nicknames: Bitch? All my nicknames are just insults lol. Everyone calls me Leo.

2. Zodiac Sign: Pieces Though I’m and Aries cusp if y’all who know astrology think that means anything

3. Height: 5′3??? I never remember that stuff 

4. Hogwarts House: Hufflepuff

5. Last Thing I googled: The IMDB page for “Don’t Look Now” I’m on IMDB like 25/8

6. Favorite Musicians: AJJ, The Mountain Goats, Pansy Division, Britney Spears

7. Song Stuck in My Head: Funkytown by Lipps inc..

8. Following Now: 267

9. Followers: 797 Holy shit! Though I’m sad I missed properly celebrating 69, 420, and 666

10. Do I Get Asks?:Yes, but I’m a lazy bitch and it takes me five-ever to answer them

12. Lucky Number: To quote Bill and Ted, “69 Dudes!”

13. What I’m Wearing: Glen or Glenda shirt, cargo shorts, my funky cat socks. I got a crystal necklace fiddling with and a safety pin in my ear. 

14. Dream Job: Film Historian, I adore more than anything analyzing films and how they are products of their time and location and how they affected the society around them.

15. Dream Trip: I’m a homebody and I don’t much care for traveling tbh But I’d love to go to the Greenich village of the 70s before it was gentrified all to hell. Maybe I’ll make my “Divine” pilgrimage to Baltimore.

16. Favourite Food: My taste-buds are hella devolved uh...Chicken Ramen noodles (I like to eat it dry cause the crunch is a nice mouth stim), candy, and Meat Lovers Stuffed Crust pizza from Papa Murphy’s, ya boi is a simple man

17. Instruments: I can sing aight but I can’t play anything worth a shit/

18. Languages: English and I’ve cheated my way through three years of French so I’ve picked up some of it.

19. Favourite Song: It changes constantly but at this second: Boys Like U by Zand, Bill and Ted’s Homosexual Adventure by Pansy Division, and Soccer Practice by Jonny McGovern

20. Random Fact: I love doing voice impressions. Some of my faves are John Mulaney (my voice actually just sounds like that it’s weird), Chop-Top/Beetlejuice, Buffalo Bill, and I can do over half the entire cast of South Park. I also just accidently slip into different voices for no reason lol.

21. Aesthetic: Trashy films in the back of the video store, Norman Bates’s stuffed bunny rabbit, a plain white mask, bowling alley carpet, a candy cigarette, touched-starved fingers reaching over the movie theatre armrest, fake vampire teeth, the wildly-stupid dialogue of gay porn, the feeling of biting into Styrofoam and tearing it to bits with your teeth, cuddling up with someone watching MST3K, Giant sharp monster teeth and a big ole tongue, etc.

Tag 21 people: That’s hard : P Just anyone who wants to do it can!

[balancedpluto]

All arcana asks ;)

I hate u so much Hayden. Putting it under a read more cuz HECK this is a lot. Also u can clearly tell Rose is my most fleshed out apprentice lmao. U can also tell when I started to burn out lol. THIS TOOK ME ALL DAY HECK

1. Name? Surname?Rose LaFontaineAaron (???)Lyra (???)

2. Any Family?Rose: she has a sister who’s 10 years older than her named Yvette, she’s a pirate. And her mother still lives in Fantasy France.Aaron: SO MANYLyra:….she doesn’t like to talk about it

3.Any Familiar?Rose: A bull mastiff named Mika who can change in size (so she can fit in a pocket or be the size of a horse, at her will)Aaron: A bearded dragon named Sir Slappy Skiddaddly the Third Lyra: A cute little rat named Pixie

4.Asra, Nadia, or Julian?Rose: JulianAaron: AsraLyra: Nadia

5. Best strength in magic?Rose: IllusionsAaron: Fire magic. Anyone who follows Eereree saw this coming.Lyra: the creation and manipulation of light

6. Favorite color?Rose: Maroon or light pink Aaron: Red. Surprise surprise Lyra: Purple

7. Favorite number?Rose: 69Aaron: 420Lyra: HOW DID YOU TWO ANSWER THAT SO FAST??? Uhh, 7?

8. Sexuality?Rose: BiAaron: PanLyra: Lesbian

9. Weird hobby?Rose: not really weird so much as unexpected for her, but she likes to sew and knit.Aaron: Weed lmaoLyra: Buying books but never actually getting around to reading them.

10. Favorite season?Rose: SpringAaron: FallLyra: Spring as well

11. Favorite weather?Rose: Sunny, but not hot.Aaron: Thunderstorms Lyra: Drizzly

12. Favorite place in Vesuvia?Rose: The Raven, or Mazelinka’s place. She loves that lady like she was her own grandmother.Aaron: The market. That pumpkin bread thoLyra: The palace library

13. How does their laughter sound like?Rose: Sober, its a soft almost teasing giggle. Drunk, loud cackling. Both are very charming in their own way.Aaron: LOUDLyra: giggling and soft snorting

14. How do they look like when they cry?Rose: She doesn’t cry often so when she does its…a lot. Loud gross sobbing often accompanied by yelling. Its not pretty.Aaron: Ghibli tears. You can’t convince me otherwise.Lyra: A lot of sniffling

15. What do they like to wear?Rose: Long dresses/skirts with low cut tops. Her brests are her best asset and she’s gonna show em whether you like it or not.Aaron: Tits out. That’s all u need to know.Lyra: Long, modest cut dresses with a corset. Very simple, but she always looke nice.

16. What are their fears?Rose: Fears? Don’t know her. (Actually death, which is…ironic considering the circumstances)Aaron: Abandonment. And cockroaches.Lyra: Rejection. The dark.

17. What do they like to do Friday night?Rose: put on fancy lingerie, get wasted, and play card games.Aaron: Blaze it lmaoLyra: (cuddling with Nadia) Reading

18. Do they use makeup?Yes. All 3 of them.

19. Favorite food?Rose: Mama LaFontaine’s crepesAaron: Spicy Vegetarian ChiliLyra: Cookies (technically not FOOD, but sweets are her big weakness)

20. Favorite drink?Rose: Rosé wine. Sounds redundant considering her name, but thats why she likes it. Growing up she thought it was named after her.Aaron: Just water, surprisingly.Lyra: Green tea

21. Zodiac sign?Rose: CancerAaron: Cancer Lyra: Aquarius(I dont care i have two apprentices that are the same sign leave me alone)

22. Day of birth?Honestly haven’t even thought if that lmao

23. Favorite movie?Rose: Heathers. She loves a bad bitch movie.Aaron: Shrek. Lyra: Not really a movie person tbh. She likes Disney stuff tho.

24. Favorite music genre?Rose: Classic rock or indie. Also has an interest in things involving old or obscure instruments.Aaron: Pop PunkLyra: Soft indie or video game soundtracks

25. Favorite song?Rose: Over the Hills and Far Away- Patty GurdyAaron: It’s Never Sunny in South Philadelphia-The Wonder YearsLyra: Youth- Daughter

26. Favorite TV show?Rose: Likes to watch cooking shows cuz its usually the only thing good onAaron: Doesn’t really do TVLyra: Also not really into TV, will put on like, QVC or something for background noise tho (im guilty of this)

27. What is their style?Rose: Like i said before. Long skirt, tits OUT.Aaron: Lazy but somehow manages to look hot? How does he do that???Lyra: Simple and modest, but always in pretty colors.

28. Any mental health issues?Rose: She has some anger issues, along with a tendency to bottle everything upAaron: hrrhgghh i haven’t gotten that deep with him WHOOPSLyra: Really bad anxiety

29. Any health issues in general?Not really?

30. Are they human?Yeah….or are they dancer?

31. Favorite book?Rose: She honestly can’t remember the last time she had time to read for fun.Aaron: Wtf is a book lolLyra: Don’t make her choose for the love of god

32. Favorite book genre?The person writing these questions assumes I know books lmao

33. Favorite time of the day?Rose: SunsetAaron: Early afternoonLyra: Like, really early morning. My sweet child why are you awake this early

34. If they weren’t a magician, who would they be?Rose: A pirate like her sister. Unless this is meant as like a modern AU then she’d probably sew and knit cute things and sell them online.Aaron: Probably a video game youtuber tbhLyra: Not much different, only she’d run a little mom and pop knick knack/ book store instead of a magic shop

35. Do they believe in ghosts?Yeah

36. Do they believe in aliens?Kind of?

37. Do they like sports?What is this…sport you speak of?

38. How do they look like?Sexy

Rose: 

Aaron:

Lyra:

(art by @willowwish64 )

39. What is their biggest motivation to solve the Lucio’s killer mystery?Rose: To clear Julian’s name Aaron: To make sure it wasn’t him and he just doesn’t remember. I mean…fire is kinda his thing, so…Lyra: To put Nadia’s mind at ease

40. What do they think of Lucio so far?Rose: “He’s an asshole.”Aaron: “Goatman! Fuck you, goatman!”Lyra: “I can never look at a goat again without feeling terrified”

41. What do they think of Nadia so far?Rose: “She’s the kind of woman I strive to be. I have so much respect for her.”Aaron: “A smart, capable woman. Also really hot like wowie.”Lyra: “She’s so amazing and so beautiful and i don’t know why she likes me so much, I’m so dull compared to her and-” (this can go on for hours)

42. What do they think of Asra so far?Rose: “A great friend and mentor. I’d do anything for him.”Aaron: “He’s like…a human sheep…but really skinny…imagine hugging cotton candy filled with bones…its amazing. Also dat ass.” (He loves him but he’s bad at serious answers)Lyra: “A close friend to whom i owe my life”

43. What do they think of Julian so far?Rose: “Oh, Julian. How do i begin to describe how i feel about him? I’ve never met someone who’s so smart and witty yet so dumb? And he’d do anything for you but doesn’t think he deserves the same, even though he does. And, well, i could go on but the long and the short of it is, I love that idiot.”

Aaron: “He’s like a taller, hotter version of me AND IM SO PISSED”Lyra: “he sure is…something”

44. What do they think of Portia so far?Rose: “My future sister in law???? I love her so much! ”Aaron: “She’s…so small…my god im surrounded by small people”Lyra: “She’s so lovely!! She’s like my best friend!”

45. What do they think of Muriel so far?Rose: “He…doesn’t like to talk much does he? And he’s so…TALL. Makes you wonder about…things.”Aaron: “Him big. ”Lyra: “He…kind of scares me a bit? ”

46. Do they like animals?OF COURSE

47. Are they allergic to anything?Nope

48. Do they have any talents (except magic)?Rose: Again, she’s really good at sewing/knittingAaron: He can lick his elbow. And he shows off his “skill” to everyone. Charming i know.Lyra: She’s really good with animals

49. Do they get drunk easily?Rose: No, she can hold her liquor pretty well. She usually just gets tipsyAaron and Lyra: YES

50 .What is their personality type?*fart noises*

51. What is their worst negative quality?Rose: She tends to dodge any question that’ll make her show any negative emotion. Being with Julian is kind of helping her with that, since he needs her support and she feels okay talking about this stuff with him. Also she tends to be kind of overly sexual. She doesn’t really mean to, it just happens.Aaron: He tends to take serious things as a joke sometimes.Lyra: She likes to just, avoid people. She’d rather just be alone by her own choice than face rejection.

52. What is their best positive quality?Rose: She’s like a mom? You wouldn’t think that on the surface, but she’s actually really warm and motherly.Aaron: So fucking funny.Lyra: She has a heart of gold

53. What is their position to fall asleep?Rose: She likes to fall alseep with Julian resting his head on her chest and petting his hair. Motherly instincts, i guess. Also it’s the only surefire way of making sure he sleeps. If she’s alone, on her stomach or side with her arms under the pillow.Aaron: Starfish. Asra just has to deal with it, i guess.Lyra: Curled up with Nadia. It’s where she feels safest.

54. The most uncomfortable moment they ever experienced?Rose: (spoilers) Finding out she died. Considering death is her greatest fear, it was especially hard for her to swallowAaron: When his brother found out him and Asra were fuckin…and he found out his brother and Nadia were fuckinLyra:…..

55. Their happiest memory?Rose: When she first came to Vesuvia. It was kinda scary, but there’s SO MUCH TO SEE!!Aaron: Getting Slappy. Lyra: Finding out Nadia likes her back. She nearly fainted.

56. Do they blush?Rose: Not really, if she does its hard to tellAaron: SometimesLyra: YES

57. Are they clumsy?Nah

58. Do they like jokes? Of course, they’re people, arent they?

59. How do they flirt?Rose: VERY direct. She’s not afraid to let people know what she wants.Aaron: “Hey cookin’, what’s lookin’?”Lyra: oh god she’s so bad at it help her

60. Favorite fruit?Rose: StrawberryAaron: Orange Lyra: Kiwi

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Re:CREATORS Original Soundtrack — Review

Yeah, I’m doing this. I started this like 2 weeks ago but didn’t have that much time to listen through the whole thing. Regardless, I have heard every song that Sawano has made for this series and I plan to watch the anime sometime in summer.

Now, to make clear what exactly I will be sharing my opinions on, I have listened to both discs of the OST, the Rearrange CD and the gravityWall/shØut album for Re:CREATORS.

The way I’ll do this is, I will post the notes I took when I listened to each of the songs for the first time and give my overall rating (1-10) at the end. Also, if you haven’t heard the OST but want to experience it fresh, this post may be full of music spoilers (NOT spoilers from the anime, obviously) for you. Whatever works best for you, of course.

Let’s do this.

Disc 1

01. God of Ink

First song! Without a doubt, kicks off very strong and slowly becomes more and more epic. Glad to get a new solo mpi song. I’m afraid it’s been a while since I’ve heard one of those. 

Anyway, the instruments used are great, though it gets slightly but very subtly repetitive around the 2nd chorus. Nevertheless, I enjoyed the song but I expected it to be a little more… uplifting? 

I expect the instrumental at the end will give me a better grasp of the feel. But the lyrics are great! Probably my favorite element of the song.

Rating: 8.5/10

02. rE:CRe@T0RS

Classic Sawano. It’s not a Sawano score if one of the tracks isn’t named after the series it’s used in. Well, apart from that, once again very intense start. 

This initially gave me the vibe of a surprise battle that happens in the middle of the city. (Don’t tell me if I’m right about this by the way). 

Overall, nicely put together in terms of sections. The middle kind of dulled out on me but the beginning and end.. just right.

Rating: 9.5/10

03. Re:3$penS

Okay so. First of all.. that bass. I’m assuming with some of these songs, the way I would enjoy them more would be to see the scene in the anime. I’m looking forward to this one specifically, as it imposes a feeling of danger and mystery. 

Very nice! The drums and guitar stand out the most, but it’s honestly so good overall.

Rating: 9/10

04. 4GL4yu8RE:E

Now this is what I’m talking about. Fast-paced theme which would fit any action scene! I love it. The orchestra stands out the most but the percussion… give me. I love the overall upbeat sound of it.

Now, the second half gave me chills. That piano was amazing and the drop… man, I don’t know what to say. Amazing song.

Rating: 9.5/10

05. Hey39-udn

Well, nothing too impressive about the first half. The second part, however, is the definition of lit. I love the synth honestly.. like, very upbeat. 

This is the first song on this OST I’ve heard so far that hypes you this much. (Barricades is the last song that gave me this vibe).

Rating: 8/10

06. RE:3343

Before Listening

I’ve seen memes about this song and its name. And memes are good. Expectations are high, but let’s see if they sail high on the high winds. 

After Listening

Okay, well.. this was not what I expected lmao. It sounds like it’s on the Grenzlinie borderline of being either a “standard” track or an atmospheric/ambience track.

I like it, though! Gives off this weird feeling of hollowness but also.. hope? Not the best way to describe, it I know. But the subtle sounds in the background are very nice.

Rating: 9/10

07. HERE I AM

Am I listening to Sawano or is this vocaloid?

I’m just joking. I love this song.

Though... this sounds like it’s supposed to be an ED rather than an actual theme but considering how different it is than gravityWall, I’m just gonna guess that I’m wrong about that one. 

I can only imagine what kind of character or scene this is used in. Honestly though, it made me laugh. It’s quite cheerful and upbeat and the lyrics are gold. I’m not kidding. Actually.. screw it. This one gets the perfect rating from me. GG Sawano.

Rating: 10/10

08. 2109-a8Ru件

Yo. YO. I’m going around giving perfect ratings as if it was free… well.. that’s what it feels like at least. 

BOI. I can jam to this. 

This is nice. This is very good. 

The Daily Life from the snk soundtrack is a great chill song but this outclasses it in every way. I love the percussion and the folk-ish sound at the beginning. Honestly like this is perfect in every way. One of the best tracks so far, no doubt!

Rating: 10/10

09. AL:Lu

Before Listening

Okay, this one…. Let’s see… how should I put this. I’ve seen thoughts about this song, mainly people saying it’s the best one. I have high expectations and I’m bracing myself for a slow, sad vocal song. 

If I’m wrong then you’re probably laughing while reading this. Here we go. 

After Listening 

…Okay. Well. I. Uhm. Uhhhhhhhhh. LMAO Okay so. AHAHAHAHAHAH. GODDAMN IS THIS HYPE. 

For the record, this is the first Eliana song I’ve heard. Apparently she was in Kabaneri as well? I don’t remember, but this is is new. AND IT’S AWESOME. GODDAMN SON! 

The lyrics are amazing, the song gets you hyped and… yeah Eliana is awesome. I am definitely going back to listen to this later. 

Note while writing this post

I’ve probably listened to this song like 40 times already and I have exactly zero regrets.

Rating: 10/10

10. 高度8b6n

Wow. This song is just pure hype. The badass guitar.. and that bass. Toshino Tanabe my boi, how did I not know who you were earlier so I could praise you. 

Honestly though, this one is great in terms of pacing, speed and intensity, so to say. I imagine the scene this is used in (if it’s already been used) is memorable. So far so good! I love it!

Rating: 9.5/10

11. 8sawOGRE6

This sounds like one of those tracks made for a purposely attractive female villain. 

Oh well. I like it, but it doesn’t stand out that much. Well, the middle does. I love the drums and the “hype” but apart from that, nothing too much. Still an amazing feel, though.

Rating: 8/10

12. Layers

Before Listening 

First a song that has “OGRE” in the title and then a song named “Layers”? What? Did Sawano browse Shrek memes for 5 hours before naming these songs? Well… I hope so because that would be dank. 

Anyway, I’ve also seen this one get a lot of praise and impatience when people were waiting for it. Let’s take a look and see what we get.

After Listening

Okay this was interesting! The lyrics definitely raise some questions though I already have an idea of what the concept of the series is. It’s good! 

I haven’t heard an Aimee Blackschleger song in a long time, the last time being Release My Soul MOD and DOA. 

Some parts are pure hype while others are just headbang material. I can’t quite say which one it leans to or.. if it’s the same or not, though lol. But I like it!

Also, it’s 4:20 minutes long. Dank af boi.

Rating: 420/69 9.5/10

13. re:pianohi1tars

This, my friends, is a piano masterpiece. It gives off so many emotions at once it’s hard to keep track of it. Like, the fast pacing and the “epicness” behind it is just mind-blowing. 

It’s a balanced track that doesn’t go in too many directions but it delivers the feeling it’s trying to convey JUST right. Nice one! 

Rating: 9/10

14. ∞GodMachine

Note Before Listening

This sounds like it’s going to be an all out grand and heavy orchestra. I’ve seen SOME talks about this one, so I’m bracing myself. 

After Listening

Well. I’m not TOO impressed by the second half, but the first one is great! I love the part before the transition to the second part.. if that makes sense. 

The percussion and synth is very pleasant to listen to, though it isn’t nearly as “hype” if you may… not counting the first half. Great song overall but not too many highlights for me… but still great dontgetmewrong. 

Rating: 8.5/10

15. ABYSSwaltz

The song title is cool. Everything else… not so cool. 

Seriously, Gemie’s German pronunciations shorten my lifespan with each millisecond. The song itself doesn’t sound TOO bad but it’s not really something I can enjoy that much or.. interpret, I guess. 

The lyrics kind of work, but.. well… yeah... not really much of a highlight.

Rating: 6.5/10

16. Pf:Creators

I laughed at the last 3 seconds. This is gold. Did I mention how much I love chill songs I can just jam to? I love it, honestly. 

Kind of repetitive at parts but I can kind of visualize the scene it’s used in. Good stuff indeed.

Rating: 9/10

17. 音:9RE:eita-zu

This one was long. Or, I guess you can say… zu long. It’s nice, though! 

I am especially fond of the last minute and a half, though the rest of the orchestra throughout the track doesn’t stand out to me as much. 

It’s enjoyable to listen to but not too many highlights. The instruments used are mind-blowing, however and have all of my yes.

Rating: 9/10

18. BRAVE THE OCEAN

Yep. Eliana is definitely on her way to being my favorite female vocalist. Honestly... amazing and powerful voice which conveys a strong feeling. 

As for the song itself, I wouldn’t say it’s something I would listen to extensively. It’s upbeat and.. sounds like an ED song at the end of a cour or a really happy episode. Can’t quite put my finger on it. 

The lyrics are fine, though I guess it’s a tiny bit too upbeat for me. HERE I AM nailed that aspect though, to avoid contradicting myself.

Rating: 8.5/10

Disc 2

01. E:verydaytor1

This song has like… so many parts. I like the cheerful and uplifting tone of the last few minutes, but overall I feel like putting so many different tones in one track is a bit overkill, even for Sawano. 

Regardless, I really like the last 2 minutes but overall it’s a bit excessive and not enough highlights.

Rating: 7/10

02. Pf:CreatorsII

Before Listening

Oh, there’s a sequel to Pf:Creators. Okay. 

After Listening

Oh, it’s completely different than the first one. Lmao.

I love me some good piano. So relaxing and soothing… idk what else to say about it but it pulls your heartstrings. I imagine the scene this is used in at.

Rating: 9/10

03. E:verydaytor2

Before Listening

Uhh… okay. Sequel again? Is there some kind of pattern here that I am missing?

After Listening

Okay, I get it. I see the remaining tracks below and it seems like these are the atmospheric tracks with consecutive naming patterns… familiar and typicial of Sawano. It’s like Disc 2 of Snk S2 all over again lmao. 

Anyways I like how cheerful this is but it really didn’t stick out to me that much. It’s an average track so to say.

Rating: 7/10

04. Pf:CreatorsIII

A TRILOGY! 

Now this I can get behind! Creepy, kind of sad and kind of… foreshadowing something to happen. Hard to describe but it’s that good feeling of creepiness.

Rating: 9.5/10

05. SawElephant4

Before Listening

TFW Sawano breaks his own naming combo. YouSawBIGGELEPHA/N:T??? 

After Listening

Damn. Bury me under all of those creepy strings. I love it honesty. Near-flawless choice of instruments and composition and very interesting to listen to. 

Very fond of the entire song and not just certain sections. I can get behind this, honestly.

Rating: 9.5/10

06. Pf:CreatorsIV

Before Listening

Not a trilogy anymore... nevermind.

After Listening

Ah, here we go. The first song I’ve heard on this OST that almost made me cry. Seriously... the piano songs are always the sneaky ones. Damn ninjas cutting onions. Amazing piece.

Rating: 10/10

07. E:verydaytor3

…This song is just funny. Lmao. 

The percussion and perfectly placed sound effects are the catchiest thing I’ve heard in a long time. I want to watch the anime just to see where this is used in, to be honest.

Rating: 9.5/10

08. Pf:CreatorsV

What beautiful piano. It’s a really soothing and catching song that messes with your feelings. I love it.

It doesn’t have too many highlights for me to point out but it’s a nice song. Somewhat average but quite nice nonetheless.

Rating: 8/10

09. God-ground2SAY310

I feel like this is one of those songs where I need to listen to it multiple times to actually appreciate it enough. 

It has an interest instrument choice, but for an “atmospheric” track, I’d say it’s slightly weak. It’s not necessarily a bad song but I guess it conveys what it’s trying to convey.

Rating: 6.5/10

10. Pf:CreatorsVI

Creepy atmospheric piano track FTW.

To be completely honest, it’s average. But because of my personal enjoyment and love for creepy, slow, ominous music, I think I can dig it. A lot.

Rating: 9/10

11. E:verydaytor4

Have I mentioned how much I love upbeat folk jams? Because I do. 

This one gets it. I’m kind of curious about the second half as it sounds like it would play in the last few seconds of the series finale… not that I would know. 

Either way, this one gets the one and only perfect rating because of that first half. Amazing.

Rating: 10/10

12. DA-world2HEN90

Woah, this one was short. 

Anyway, nice soothing guitar! I love me some of that. I wish I could say more about this one to be honest but that’s really it. 

Nice guitarist you got there, Sawano.

Rating: 9/10

13. God of ink (Instrumental)

I love it. It’s a very good standalone song and works just as fine as it does without mpi’s vocals. 

Don’t get be wrong, I love both versions but with this one I can appreciate the guitar more!

Also, I’m a sucker for slides. lmao

Rating: 9/10

14. HERE I AM (Instrumental)

I’m.. not even gonna say anything.

This song just makes you happy. That’s it.

Both with and without the vocals, it’s catchy af just makes you smile and laugh. I love them both.

Rating: 10/10

15. Layers (Instrumental)

Oh... OH.

Holy fuck.

That guitar and those drums… sorry Aimee, this version is a lot better. 

I dare say this is the best song on the entire OST.. if not, I’m putting it in the same league as AL:Lu. A ridiculously good Sawano piece and one that I will definitely come back to. I didn’t expect it to be this good since I wasn’t TOO impressed with vocals for Layers (I mean I love it but it isn’t really a highlight for me) but… 

Yeah. 

This is perfection and pure badass.

Rating: 10/10

16. BRAVE THE OCEAN (Instrumental)

Aaaaand yeah. This is ALSO better than the vocals, as much as I like Eliana after AL:Lu. 

Goddamn it. This is really nice to listen to, especially after the second half when the guitar kicks in. I thought the song was slightly too upbeat for my taste but this I can get behind. Quite chilling and nice to listen to!

Rating: 10/10

Rearrange CD

01. God of ink <MODv>

Okay. I prefer this more than the original version. Those drums are lovely and so is the extra piano. I’m glad they kept the original riff, but like.. the drums. 

Too good. Out of the three versions that this song has, I still like the instrumental of the original the most, though this one is the better vocal version in my opinion.

Rating: 10/10

02. Layers <MODv>

HOLY SHIT THAT GUITAR RIFF!! CHILL SAWANO OH MY GOD I WAS NOT READY. 

Okay the strings are kind of… not sure. I like the drums. If this one had an instrumental I guess I would appreciate it more but to be honest this is great! 

Putting it on equal terms with the original as they both have their own unique things about them. This one makes heavier use of instruments but the original is more upbeat and intense. When it all comes down to, I prefer the instrumental of the original here as well, obviously.

Rating: 9.5/10

03. BRAVE THE OCEAN <MODv>

Okay, this one works a lot better. I can actually listen to the lyrics a lot easier with a lighter use of techno-ish drums. I love them a lot, especially after the first chorus. 

Overall, this is definitely better than the original BRAVE THE OCEAN and conveys a much brighter feeling, at least from my perspective.

Rating: 10/10

gravityWall/shØut

Note: For the record, this is not really a “Blind” listen because I already heard all of these songs yesterday when they came out (I couldn’t contain myself). The same goes for gravityWall, which I’ve heard a while ago, but regardless, I will share my thoughts on all of them per procedure, and one of these holds the title of Best Song.

01. gravityWall

The first OP! I have to admit, I kind of skimmed through it when the TV-Size version came out with the anime. I don’t know why. 

But when the full version came out, I listened the fuck out of it. I love it, honestly. Gemie and Tielle make an amazing combination. I could complain about Tielle’s lyric-writing skills during the English parts, but it still works, I guess. Amazing song.

Rating: 9.5/10

02. gravityWall (Instrumental)

This song works better with vocals. It’s nice to listen to, but I don’t think it’s good enough to be its own song. Like I said, Gemie and Tielle make the best combo and it worked perfectly with the vocals. But without them... eh, not really.

Rating: 7.5/10

03. shØut

Here it is. The one and only. After having listened to every single song Sawano has made for Re:CREATORS, this one takes the cake for my number 1 favorite. Only HAIRS ahead of Layers (Instrumental). and the next song you will see below. I love it.

Funny thing. Originally my favorite was AL:Lu, but I really loved gravityWall. Then again, gravityWall is an OP so it obviously needs to have a different and better sound than the soundtrack pieces.

Well, with this song, it’s not a problem. Because shØut is AL:Lu made into an OP. Like.. WHAT?! Fucking perfect. It’s so satisfying to actually acknowledge this song’s existence yet alone listen to it. Sawano delievered. Perfect. Did I mention Gemie and Tielle do the combo again? Just... No words.

Rating: 10/10

04. shØut (Instrumental)

HAHA. Even without the Tiellie Combo™ (that’s what I’m calling it now, deal with it), this sound still kicks your ass either way. 

I just feel bad putting it and its vocal version to compete, but I can listen to both depending on what mood I am in. 

Although I said shØut was my favorite, in reality I love both of these equally. None is better. I put the vocal version on there but I don’t like one more than the other. Just kill me if I need to choose one. The chorus without vocals especially is too badass for it.

Rating: 10/10

05. oldToday

From what I have gathered, this is a standalone song that is neither part of the OST, nor is it used anywhere. 

It should be. It’s.. just so beautiful. I don’t dig the beginning too much the second half is just amazing. Bury me with it because it’s so beautiful... just.. perfection. If you want to cry of happiness, this is of you.

Rating: 10/10

Results (Average Rating)

Disc 1: 8.94

Disc 2: 8.31

Rearrange CD: 9.83

gravityWall/shØut: 9.40

Final Rating: 9.12

Conclusion

Overall, I would say this OST is simply amazing. To be perfectly honest, there are only a handful of songs I would actually go back and listen to, but the ones I would are just simply amazing. Sawano definitely showed some greatness here, but I wouldn’t say this is his highlight score of any kind. There’s definitely a lot of tracks, but in my opinion, Guilty Crown, Crisis and OST have an insanely large count of memorable songs.

Maybe that’s just my opinion. Maybe it’s because I haven’t actually seen the anime and got to experience the songs the way they are supposed to be experienced. Don’t worry. I plan to watch it in summer. My knowledge of it isn’t too positive from what I’ve heard, but I do plan to give it a try, regardless of that. The music is simply amazing

Should you give it a try? Oh, absolutely. It has a wide variety of tracks which all convey different feelings. I’m sure there’s at least 2 or 3 in there that will appeal to you in one way or another. Until next time!

Overall Favorite Track:  shØut

Final Rating (Again): 9,12

[monsterflavoredcondoms]

w.e

1. What is you middle//full name? Sabrina Ines Rivera 2. How old are you? 17 3. What is your birthday? may 24 1999 4. What is your zodiac sign? gemini 5. What is your favorite color? pink 6. What’s your lucky number? never had one , maybe 6 7. Do you have any pets? 2 cats and a dog , yellow cat mac , black cat jen, chihuahua dog coco 8. Where are you from? born and raised in puerto rico for 7 years , then mostly here in florida 9. How tall are you? 5.1 10. What shoe size are you? womans 6.5 i think 11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? like 10 but i only wear like 2 maybe 4 out of all of them 12. What was your last dream about? i dont know but i had a dream when i was 4-5 and then again at 10 about this little purple alien w green dots and its only as big as my hand and it would take me into its little door and i was turn as small as the alien and the place looked like new york but like underground 13. What talents do you have? double jointed in 4 of my fingures 14. Are you psychic in any way? no , but if i say "it wont happen" a lot of times , then it does happen , or like the opposite , so since nothing wants to go my way i just ask for the opposite 15. Favorite song? brenna from a victim a target 16. Favorite movie? idk , just listen is like an unknown movie but its so good and so emotional that i kind of love it 17. Who would be your ideal partner? someone who thinks about my feelings before their own and is cute and clingy as all hell 18. Do you want children? FUCK NO , dont even joke like that 19. Do you want a church wedding? hell no 20. Are you religious? athiest 21. Have you ever been to the hospital? many times , i had asthma till i was 3 , i fell from moms bed when i was three , i had an ear infection when i was three , threatened to kill my self when i was 12 , my sistick (its a ball that forms in the bladder while the menstrual cycle is on) poped when i was 14 and happens now every 3-9 months but now i mostly dont go to the hospital , good shit is i dont get pains now 22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? nope 23. Have you ever met any celebrities? no-.- 24. Baths or showers? showers , but kinda equally love em 25. What color socks are you wearing? grey w pancakes on them 26. Have you ever been famous? lol no 27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? lol no , maybe on youtube , but 28. What type of music do you like? anything hut country and shit rap , like meditating or heavy metal or xxxtentation 29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? no , but i jumped in the pool w my bra and panty on once 30. How many pillows do you sleep with? two but my head lays on one 31. What position do you usually sleep in? stomach down 32. How big is your house? medium , not rlly big 33. What do you typically have for breakfast? jenny creig 34. Have you ever fired a gun? no 35. Have you ever tried archery? yes , when i berally remembered anything 36. Favorite clean word? beautiful 37. Favorite swear word? cunt 38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? 32 hours , crazy shit , i did an all nighter , pretended to get up early and went to therapy later and went places , got home at 6 pm 39. Do you have any scars? on my fore head , when i fell off moms bed when i was like 3-4 40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? no , idk 41. Are you a good liar? nope 42. Are you a good judge of character? nope 43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? not rlly , if i try 44. Do you have a strong accent? no , my mom does tho , i dont have an accent on either spanish nor english 45. What is your favorite accent? british 46. What is your personality type? interested 47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? a dress in the back of my closet in which i got so that i can be brights made in my cousins wedding 48. Can you curl your tongue? no.. idk 49. Are you an innie or an outie? belly button? outie 50. Left or right handed? right 51. Are you scared of spiders? terrified 52. Favorite food? fuck idk , food , mac and cheese 53. Favorite foreign food? zorrullos , its hispanic 54. Are you a clean or messy person? messy , we aint talking soccer here 55. Most used phrased? go to sleep 56. Most used word? um 57. How long does it take for you to get ready? 5 mins or less , unless a bitch pisses me off , then imma be cute/hot as hell for a bitch to be jealous 58. Do you have much of an ego? i dont think so 59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? suck 😉 60. Do you talk to yourself? always 61. Do you sing to yourself? no 62. Are you a good singer? lmaoo.... no 63. Biggest Fear? spiders 64. Are you a gossip? only to my closest friend possible , probably gossip bout trump lol 65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? hunger games probably 66. Do you like long or short hair? buzz cut 67. Can you name all 50 states of America? lol no 68. Favorite school subject? lunch 69. Extrovert or Introvert? both , like extrovert w people but alone i hate everyone lol 70. Have you ever been scuba diving? no , went zip-lining tho 71. What makes you nervous? everything , walking up to friends , talking to adults , starting conversations , walking places by my self 72. Are you scared of the dark? no , not at my house , in the streets a little 73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? almost not , if they talking shit they aint suppose to , then a bitch gotta stand up 74. Are you ticklish? fuck you 75. Have you ever started a rumor? no 76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? no , dont recall 77. Have you ever drank underage? lol yes 78. Have you ever done drugs? 420 bro 79. Who was your first real crush? kindergarten a little boy , we ended up dating untill i never saw him again 80. How many piercings do you have? one on each ear 81. Can you roll your Rs?“ yes , hispanic mami 82. How fast can you type? fast asf boi , when im mad 83. How fast can you run? slow 84. What color is your hair? blond , naturally dark brown tho 85. What color is your eyes? hazel, they've been orang yellowish for a while tho 86. What are you allergic to? donald trump 87. Do you keep a journal? yea but its like a sketch book , i draw my feelings if im mad 88. What do your parents do? sit behind a desk and then come home to complain about work 89. Do you like your age? eh , prefer 21 for all the good reasons 90. What makes you angry? my father 91. Do you like your own name? no , i prefer stella or steven 92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? dren, steven , rose , their birthstone 93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? a human who will choose their gender when they're older 94. What are your strengths? fangirling over steven universe , kindof good at math , like good at adding subtracting and multi 95. What are your weaknesses? socializations , situations in which i have to argue 96. How did you get your name? the nurse asked and mom was like "idk" and the nurse was like , this book says sabrina , and mom was like "ok" 97. Were your ancestors royalty? lmfaooo... no , i have a italian ancestor , explains my love over pasta 98. Color of your room? white but i have like 20 posters and drawings and painted handprints and shelfs and a portrait in marilynn monroe , also stickers and trash 99. Color of your bedspread? red 100. Make up your own question if u can meet anyone , who would it be? rebecca sugar the creator of steven universe , and i mean like , meet her and hang w her for like a day , i hope she's nice , i hear she's nice , but people always tell me , some idols turn out to be assholes

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Episode 8 | "I'm Always Playing To Win" - Johnny Stockton

I have given you all multiple warnings. Confessionals are now 69 mandatory, if you do not submit one per episode 420 you will be given a strike. There will be no exceptions to this rule.

I kind of sad that Bryan is here. He was the only one besides Tim to have voted for Adrian, thus trying to save me. Chrissa seems to have a vendetta against him, but I think that has dissipated. For us, there are bigger fish to fry in the main game. I want to see the Hufflepuff tribe go to tribal because I want the remaining of that tribe to get voted out. I especially want Carson, but that seems unrealistic. Hopefully, the first Outcast Tribal will show everyone that it was a mistake to put Chrissa, Tim, and I on the same tribe where we hold majority. We will be the death of many people's games to suit our own personal vendetta. This game is a revenge quest now since I do not personally foresee myself winning. So let's see how many people I can take down along with me.

Thank god for Jordan Pines. I hate myself. 

So we lost, and for the first time all game, I have to vote someone out, which sucks, but not that much because meh. I barely spoke to Jordan after the vote was read, and he said that everyone wanted Antione out, and I'm perfectly okay with that. Antione apparently wants Jay, and has already been throwing Jay and Andrew under the bus. What I'm MORE nervous about is if we lose again NEXT round. I am hoping we won't be in these tribes for much longer, but I just simply do not want to go into a vote with the five remaining on this tribe, assuming Antione goes home. I don't have a relationship with Katie, but thankfully the two people I do feel closest to in the game is Jordan and Andrew. I really do feel confident in Stephen too, but the man pissed me off hardcore during that Raffy vote, so I'm removing him from my mind for the time being....... So yea, we'll see how I can move forward. I'm probably going to try to start talking to Katie and see if I can bloom a relationship there, that can be as salvagable as her relationships with the three other people on this tribe, who have VERY MUCH been a part of this community for a way longer time than I have, which is what makes me nervous, but I've gotta believe my relationships will get me there. I can tell I'm not playing the most EXCITING game, but I'm really REALLY attempting this Under the Radar, and then coming out HARD at merge strategy, just so my premerge game can be a bit aloof, and then I can try to really make shit happen come merge. That's about all I can think about right now, because I'm always playing to win, but I can admit my social game isn't as up to par as it normally is.

I'm just going to say this, if I go to Outcast Island, I am 99.99% sure I'm going to be the person they gun for. Chrissa and my past is horrific. I voted out Raffy and my social game with him was piss poor My only interaction with Bryan was on Crossroads, when we voted out Emily, and Emily brought Bryan to that tribal, and Bryan and Emily were the only ones who didn't know what happened. And then there's Tim, who is a nice guy and all, and would probably be most likely to consider working with me, but I doubt it. With this combination of people on Outcast right now, I'd, for sure, be out of the game if I happened to go. Not like I'm thinking, at all, that I'm going this round, but next round? If Antione is there, and I'm about to vote HIM out too, I'd be screwed. I'm going to hope that they gun for Raffy on Outcast this round, and this frees up Tim, and maybe my relationship I can salvage with Chrissa or Antione. Idk, I'm just thinking of all sides of this and I'm NOT happy about it because my position ain't great :/

Once again, I feel it's either me or jay. Last time, I was on the wrong end of the stick. I hope that this time i'll get to have the strike!

Yay! we won. Me and carson are going to try and map out the idol places. We'll see how it goes this is a short round

Feels so good not to go to tribal. Its come at a great time to, hopefully this can mend any wounds between Carson Charlotte and me.

Yee, we won again. Being on a tribe that wins a lot is a new experience for me, I don't think this has happened since Taveuni. 

I don’t think I said this but Charlotte is one of the fakest people I’ve ever met.

i dont feel like trying to understand deadlines so im just going to send stuff everyday because being striked out for lack of talking is very off brand. also i feel bad betraying one of my guys anotine who helped me rule outcast island... but JP is my dude and has never betrayed me in a game so I feel most comfortable following his lead. 

jordan pines i will come to canada and kick you between the legs if you betray me in this game

I'm on a tribe of such shady people but I need to trust them. If I get blindsided tonight then I'm literally gonna hack into and delete all of their skypes.

I picked a winning swapped tribe? I'm fucking shook. Like the momentum of this swap could not end until I make the merge!!

nothing much has happened but winning immunity w such a low score was nice lol 

Omg, I have a bad feeling that it might be me. Like I wouldn't be surprise if those people lied to me again. They probably know each other so well already and I'm like the new guy in the town. If I do NOT end up going home tonight, then it probably means that I'm in a good place in the tribe. I guess we'll see!

I am gay, i am a liar. Therefore I am a gay liar. Sorry antoine

So, back on Outcast, there is no one I want to be here. It's a true tragedy. However, I still hold the majority over here. No way will I be voted out in the tribal tomorrow. I have complete confidence in this group. Honestly, I'm just going to go with the flow since I do not have anyone I truly want gone. Tim being voted out may give me an edge (after all I still have 1/4 of an idol), but I think I can still use him, and get him to take me to the end. I got this!

I'm really bad at conferences now. So I'm really glad that we won that last challage cus man, my social game bows. BUT I guess me and Carson talked a little bit today I'd like to think k that me a rob, even though we're not really talking much, we are close enough not to vote each other out. I'm a little worried about jorden and Johnny. I'm pretty sure that the two of them, me and la and Stephen can get back together and make a 5. If not a y for a little bit with Charlotte. At least until we turn. The three of us turn on each other. LA definitely has Johnny, I think k I'll have jorden.... But who knows about that one. Then who knows about stephen.nust gotta keep winning and hoping that the others are good... Same as any other game. 

this games going well-ish? talking more to people, doing good in immunities... i'm thriving! i wish i could think long term rn but i REALLY need to talk to andrew because he's probably the person i trust the most and i want our goals to line up. i dont have a longterm plan in this game. i need to be able to adapt really and i dont think i have the ability to plan a longterm boot order or alliance. my goal right now is to roll with the punches and what the game throws at me so im better equipped to win!