#also just trying 2 lessen the emotional part of this. i just wanna share this bc i like the art

[felidthing]

this is the best thing ive drawn in weeks and the first time ive drawn chrysanthemum in even longer. why did it have to be Like This

[thesecretwriter]

more than just friends (part 3) - steve rogers

pairing: Steve Rogers x female reader

warnings: Angst – this part has the least amount of angst from all previous parts, fluff – flasback of how reader and steve use to be, a touching moment between steve and reader, reader being in the med bay at the compound – nothing graphic described.

summary: Things with Steve are still tense, but with the sudden occurrence of you being injured, the tension has lessened. However, Steve is left with life decisions that determine how things pan out for him. You play a vital role for him and having you there is important, even if it doesn’t seem so.

word count: 1.8k

a/n: here’s part 3 – i thought this might be a good ending, but I wanna continue it to at least a part 5. reasons being so that you guys could have a chance in seeing steve redeem himself.

minors/ageless blogs dni.

Masterlists

part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4, part 5

Your eyes watched as he aimlessly walked around the venue. His eyes roamed around, looking from one couple to another. A tinge of sadness was hidden behind his piercing blue eyes. They eventually made their way to you. The edged of your lips automatically perking up. He immediately started making his way to you.

“I was looking for you,” he said leaning against the bars counter, where you had been seated.

“And now you’ve found me,” you reply happily, running on liquid courage.

Steve watched as you took another sip from your wine glass.

“How many of those have you had?” he asked with an amused smile.

“Not enough,” your chuckle and down the rest of it.

It had been a long day filled with the endless chaos of Tony and Pepper’s wedding. The day started at the crack of dawn and wouldn’t end until the light of the next day.

“It was a beautiful day, hmm?” he gazed at you and then back at the drink in his hand.

“Beautiful indeed,” you look to Tony and Pepper who were lovingly dancing together. You were happy to see Tony finally get the life he deserved, it’s something you wanted for all your friends.

It was no secret that you were a hopeless romantic. You wanted a happy ending one day. With a loving partner, potentially a family and a few pets to keep the happiness growing.

“You ever think about having a happily ever after?” you curiously ask.

The question surprised Steve, but he took time to process the question. He did want the cliché American happily ever after. His friends from the 40’s got their happy endings and now his modern-day friends were getting theirs.

“I guess I wouldn’t mind it. Coming home to a loving wife, maybe a kid or two if we wanted…” he trailed off and met your eyes as you nodded in understanding and continued to gaze at the dance floor.

“How about you? Is that something you want?” he wanted to know what your ideal life would be.

“Honestly… I just want to be loved. I want a life filled with all the predictable cliché stuff; you know? But I think I’d also like a nice quiet life, away from the harsh reality we fight against,”

Your eyes had yet to meet Steve’s – who was looking at you with an unknown emotion. However, a sense of longing was clearly present in them. For once, Steve found himself wanting to share a similar future to yours.

(flashback over)

It felt like an out of body experience as you recalled the memory. That was the beginning of whatever 'relationship' you and Steve shared, till the faithful night of his harsh words.

Your eyes were heavy, and you were struggling to open them. The prominent sounds of beeping could be heard. When you finally did manage to open your eyes, the striking glow of the sun blinding your gaze for a split second.

Someone had been holding your left hand, gripping it tightly, when you looked to see who it was – you were met with an increasing heartbeat that could be heard through the heart monitor. Steve sat hunched over as he slept while holding your hand. As you look around the room, you recognize it as the med bay at the compound. You try to recall the moments leading up to you being here and Steve’s voice echoes through your mind.

“Y/n, sweetheart. I need you to keep your eyes open for me, okay? I want your eyes on me,”

You tried to take your hand out of Steve’s hold to sit up properly and possibly reach over for a glass of water, but your sudden movement caused Steve to stir. His eyes fluttered open as he blinked away his sleep.

The first thing he noticed was the absence of your hand in his.

He looked to you and saw you staring back at him with wide eyes.

“Y/n? you’re awake!... I need to call Dr. Cho,” he went to press the button which would request assistance.

“N-no… not yet,” your words halted his movements. He was now closer to you and looked to you in worry.

“What’s wrong? Are you hurt?”

“No, I just need a moment… what happened?” you reached over for the glass of water, but Steve had already gone ahead to give it to you. He placed it back on the side table once you were done and his hand automatically grasped yours again.

“The mission that you and Peter went on was compromised and you got shot. Dr. Cho said it wasn’t critical, but you were unconscious for more than 24 hours,” he explained and fiddled with your fingers, a habit he did to distract himself.

You nodded at his words and watched him carefully. His tone held fear, something you weren’t used to seeing Steve experience.

“Is Peter okay?” you asked recalling the look of sheer panic he had when you were shot.

“A bit shaken up, but he’s okay… he’s a good kid,” Steve commented with a small smile.

“Kid? You know him and I are the same age, right?” you chuckle.

“But he’s not you,”

A day had passed, and you were discharged to go back to your room but were told to use the next few weeks to recover. Peter had taken it upon himself to help you around the compound.

“I’m glad you’re okay,” he said as he sat on your bed where you were laying, staring at the ceiling.

“I wouldn’t be okay if it weren’t for you,” you moved your head in his direction and smiled appreciatively.

“Steve was the reason we were able to get back to the compound that quickly. Don’t tell him I said this, but the look in his eyes that day made him look like a mad man. He was frantic and wouldn’t leave your side,”

You looked back to the ceiling and began to wonder.

Steve obviously cared for you. He went out of his way to make sure you were okay, even before you got shot. During the ‘professional treatment’ phase, he had resumed back to how he was before your argument. That didn’t hinder your thoughts though, he would have to do more to earn your forgiveness.

Bored.

The perfect word to describe how you felt. It seemed like everyone was busy doing something.

You walked through the halls of the compound, aimlessly wondering and looking for something to do. Your recovery hindered your ability to kill time in the training facility, so you found yourself walking towards the same spot where you set up the picnic.

As you walked closer to the spot, you saw Steve sitting a few feet away on a bench. Feeling the familiar flutter of butterflies in your tummy, you made your way toward him.

“Hey,” you greeted, bringing him out of his daze. He looked in your direction and an automatic smile made its way to his lips.

“Hi,” he smiled and patted the seat next to him.

“What’re you doing out here?” you asked curiously.

“Just taking in some fresh air and thinking. How’s your wound? How’re you feeling?” he asked looking at the spot where you were shot.

“It’s okay, a slow recovery, but its okay,” you smile and assure him.

An awkward silence had surrounded the two of you. The scene before you was a sad contrast of how things once was.

“I uhm…”

“So-”

You both spoke at the same time and then chuckled.

“You go first,” he nodded.

“No, you. I miss hearing our voice,” the words slip passed your lips before you can stop them, but the smile on Steve’s lips quickly erases the feeling of regret.

“Okay… well uhm, I’ve decided to start... therapy,” he said looking at his hands. “I’ve been thinking about it and after speaking to Bucky about how it’s made things better for him… I realized how much of trauma I’ve retained from the war and the adjustment to living in a new age of time,”

You listened intently as he spoke, the vulnerability in Steve’s voice was heart aching.

“I think it’s a good idea,” your tone held encouragement and displayed the concern you felt for him.

“Yeah?... I think so too,” a small smile graced his lips.

You allowed yourself to get lost in thought for a moment. This was a big step for Steve – you knew it took a lot for him to admit that he needed therapy. In fact, it hadn’t crossed your mind before. Your line of work basically requires you to endure events and situations that could only be helped with therapy.

“I think it would be an even better idea if we spoke to Fury about establishing a psychologist or therapist to stay at the compound. For whoever may need it. We deal with a lot from being avengers and S.H.I.E.L.D agents,” you explain to him.

“I’ll set up a meeting with him about it,” Steve nodded and took your hands in his, moving closer to you.

“There’s something else I want to say to you…” he trailed off, his eyes were set on the ground before meeting yours.

“The words I said that night- Y/n. I didn’t mean any of them. My mind was clouded with anger, which shouldn’t have been directed towards you. And I’m not going to blame my issues or trauma on it, because it was uncalled for. I just want you to know that I didn’t mean it. You’re not a second option. You’ve been so good to me since we’ve met and I don’t want to throw that away because of my stupidity,”

Your hands remain in his as each word leaves his lips. You had already established that you knew his words weren’t true, and his apology was genuine. Which is why your next few words were chosen so carefully.

“For me to know you’re true about your words – we’re going to have to go very slow to become normal again. I’m still here for you, I always will be, but right now, you need yourself more than you need me,” you lean your forehead against his and close your eyes.

The intimate moment shared between you two solidified to Steve that there was no one else like you. No one who would say or do the things the way you do.

“I love you,” is all he whispers.

tagging those who reblogged/commented:

@paarthurnax59 @terry2227 @sweater-bee @niffala @superforgottensoul @haruvalentine4321 @steve-language-rogers @slxttyro @themrsrogers

[victory-duo]

BDSP came out a while ago! What do you think of it?

Heya! Still trying to do the legendary mon hunt postgame, but I have mixed thoughts about it being such a strict remake yet removing some things, but honestly, BDSP's been a fun revisit to Sinnoh as a game, personally!

Naturally, I treated this run as a revisit of Oliver's run but just in another timeline. :D

I'll put out my cons first:

- I was disappointed in the watering down of contests 'cause they were one of my favorite side activities. The rhythm game would have been nice if they didn't remove the dress up and move appeals completely :(

- I also didn't like that the Underground lost the traditional secret bases and traps, as I was so excited to play with my sister and friends. That said, honestly, the main reason I wanted BDSP was to be able to play Sinnoh with others (I missed out on the DS wifi), so the lack of features to connect and play with others even as simple as poffin-making made me disappointed.

- I am so polarized with the topic of difficulty and balance in this game. This mainly impacted my personal way to go about my journey with my team in Pokemon games, so two things:

1) I did not appreciate affection mechanics being merged with friendship, keeping it separate like in SWSH camp at the least would make me feel less bad that I have high friendship with them but not triggering the OP affection mechanics lol. I didn't like using herbs to lower friendship just to lessen affection so I just lived with it. I don't like battling online so I'd have preferred to experience the competitively-adjusted trainers in the main game with fair battles.

2) The EXP Share topic is a hot one, but it was weirdly balanced yet not in this game? Gen 4 games were not built around it at all, and it was so apparent with the Gym levels after Gardenia that I had to make a backup team to soak up the extra levels. I'm personally in the "make it optional" camp because I liked keeping my team up to speed and turning it off once I feel they're strong enough, but it saved some time pre-Cynthia for me not to be TOO underleveled lol.

And for the pros!

- Playing through it reminded me that there's something I really liked about the older game designs that incentivized backtracking and getting lost out of the way, and I wish future gens moving forward will get that charm of adventuring back. (SWSH dlc felt like that in a good way!)

- The new stuff they can get away with were nice!! I loved having such a tough time with the E4 and Gym rematches.

- I LOVE how they were serious making the trainers competitive and tough. I went in a deliberately underleveled run with the E4 and I like... spent the whole afternoon genuinely struggling with the levels AND their strategies. And Cynthia's Milotic???? MY NIGHTMARE

- I've rambled about it a bit in my twitter once in a while, but the DPPt soundtrack is my favorite from all of the others, and I am so happy to hear how it was approached!

My personal favorites---those I prefer much more now than the ogs, were Trainer battle (I already was obsessed with it before), Eterna, Route 209, Canalave, and the Ending theme.

- And did I mention how much I love the DPPt credits theme?? And BDSP ambushed me in the best way possible once I finished it, wow, I did not expect them to actually base the whole thing mainly from Platinum and add DP elements?!?! It's probably one of my favorite credits sequences as a whole now because of everything they did there, I was so emotional by the end!!!

- My personal favorite part? My sister and I were especially adoring all the new outfits for the O-sibs---they may be few, but I can feel that someone in the new dev team really likes fashion design, and I thought they did such a good job matching the outfits to them as existing characters!!

I wanna doodle all of them sometime, but for now I'll end this post with some of the ones I did while playing:

(I will compile these in a separate post once I complete the outfits!)

All in all, I enjoyed my time while it lasted despite my gripes! I do hope they update the game more 'cause I love Sinnoh, but atm I'm slowly focusing more on Legends. I'm really excited for it and hoping we learn more of it soon!!!

[b-lessings]

Hello again angel :’) I am saying again because I did reply the first time with a long-bum post, I had all my ideas well-organized and detailed and I was being very eloquent but then guess what? Tumblr lost the post like bam! it disappeared and it didn’t want to be posted *crying in Egyptian* So I got on my laptop and I am trying to remember the sequencing of my ideas (thus the lack of emojis, but I did put lots of hearts and lots of flower emojis in my initial reply * pouts * ) 

      - First and foremost, you have no idea how grateful I am that I am hearing from you again. I kept your old ask in my inbox and every time I see I’d just send positive thoughts and prayers you way hoping that you are safe and sound. so THANK YOU for reaching out again, for the positive updates and for being okay *red heart emoji* 

      - Secondly, and it’s also quite important, I am seeing, sensing and recognizing so much growth, so much serenity, so much inner-peace in your words I swear I couldn’t be any prouder nor happier for you! The biggest win you can reach is your inner-peace and your calmness face to abusers or toxic people. That’s incredible, you really deserve to feel proud of yourself about that! 

     - Building on that, my third thought was that even though you won, you technically won just one fight and not the whole war. In other words, having a little experience with toxic family myself, I can assure you that it’s not over yet. Abusers or toxic people don’t like to lose or give up, they’ll still sneak up on you and find words to hurt you over and over again. So SPOILER ALERT: BEWARE! it’s gonna happen again, maybe not the same way but a conflict will defenitely take place at some point. Thus, here are a few life-hacks that I’d like to share with you, based on my therapist’ s tips: 1) Be ready. Keep your guards up. Expect it to happen , anticipate it. When you are mentally prepared for something bad, no matter how hard it’s going to be, training your mind and anticipating it kinda lessens its intensity ( do you get me?) like it’s not gonna take you up by surprise, so it will hopefully affect you less.  

2) Speaking of guards and walls up, build a (mental/hypothetical) wall around yourself, your heart and your emotions, so that when the abuse goes out coming your way, it hits the wall and goes back to its source. Now I know this might sound absurd, but trust me, it’s a great trick or tool. You might not achieve it from the first try but eventually you’ll get the hang of it, I promise.

3) Hypothetical confrontation: Now I know you said in your ask that you feel light and at a good place, but trust me, that’s only a temporary high, the repressed charge of anger, deception, hurt, frustration is down there somewhere in your heart, your brain is blocking it and not thinking about it now and I am worried it would creep out on you and get out at the wrong moment at the right person. So here’s what I’d love for you to try and work on ( or at least think about it because I swear it is one of the hardest things ever to do ) is to imagine a scenario where you are facing the abuser/toxic person and ask yourself “ if they were here, what would I wanna say to them, what can I say to them?” and let it all out. You might wanna be alone in the house or somewhere else, out, in the park or something because there is gonna be a lot of shouting, yelling, rough words, you can even hit your pillows if you want, just let out that negative energy that’s residing inside your chest and eventually, if you manage to do this, that’s when you’ll feel the real lightness :’) 

Well, this brings me to the end of my post. I just want to say again and again how proud of you I am and that you got my unconditional love and support through this! I am here if you wanna talk more or anything :’) 

Finally, you have to really be proud of how far you’ve come and be proud of what you are doing. I am sure your future self is watching you right now with teary eyes being grateful for the fights you are putting and for standing your ground. You are being so unbelievably strong, you are a hero. So keep going, don’t back down. And remember, you have the control over what and who to hurt you and what and who to not hurt you. 

P.s. I wasn’t gonna share the ask for respect to your private details but I loved this last part that you wrote and I thought it was worth sharing so I took a screenshot of it, I hope you don’t mind. It’s really important our voices and our sides of the story get across and people know how things should be and not just blindly worship parents and give them a free pass for everything. 

P.P.s I LOVE YOU for calling me A :’) It made my whole day *red heart emoji * * flying heart emoji * * sparkle heart emoji *

Stay safe and be proud of yourself :)  

[kyu-bri]

Magia Rapport pt 2

@magiarapport​

August 24th prompt: What was your favorite event, and why? Is it because of gameplay or the story?

It’s hard to choose so I’m gonna just, gush a bit.

As you can probably tell I’m very biased toward the OG girls, I started Magia Record primarily because PMMM had become my new obsession and I wanted some sort of constant flow of content out of decade old anime lmao.

But another thing I think I hooked onto was Inu Curry’s writing. They really know Madoka Magica and aren’t afraid to really play with them- something the writers for a spin-off gacha game (as with most spin-off stories honestly) can be scared to do. Inu Curry made references, revealed secrets and built upon the story we already know- which lets be honest is what we always truly want from a spin-off series. Magia Record proper does this well by putting more magical girls into the world and letting us see things work out better for them than for the original cast, but what I really appreciated with this story was getting to see that old original cast get to get in on that, and these events managed to do that without watering them down any.

Under the cut is me going on for 3000 words about why I love these three events I’m so sorry. TL;DR at the very end-

I’ll go in release order,

A La Carte Valentine was one of the first if not THE first event I got in on. I was eager to bc 1 Gay Magical Girl Shit Guaranteed. And ofc 2 OG Cast participation.

I want to preface by saying I actually loved all the girls’ stories in this. I was very much still in a state of getting used to Iroha’s gang let alone trying to care about the secondary girls. I knew Tsukasa had this angsty Twins Separated At Birth Deal and liked seeing her home life (also I immediantly stanned Take. Regular well-meaning dude who has no idea whats going on just trying his best and hating his boss). I knew nothing about Ami except Cowgirl Meguca and getting the bulk of her personality in one short even I think really kept me from being absolutely sick of her, she’s just a cute silly teenage girl who could be in literally anything and I was able to just endearingly giggle at that. Hinano managed to do the heterosexual unrequited crush cliché without me groaning or missing any of her regular personality. Also was there a Ren part? I don’t remember because everything Ren does feels like a Soft Yuri Valentines Special. Also I love Momoko. Ok moving on to what I Really wanna talk about.

Madoka is genuinely my Least Cared About of the Holy Sextet. I don’t think she’s bad or even boring- Madoka has a depth to her character, like, really deep- but that’s not something ever really touched upon by the fandom. Even when people like her and make her the Heroine she’s Supposed to be, it’s usually in the context of “Girl who feels nothing but kindness and happy thoughts would cut off her right hand to feed to a hungry dog. Isn’t she so Good????”. And honestly, while I understand the point it was going to make, I wasn’t crazy about her sacrifice in the end of the series. (Team Homura “Rebellion Is Good Actually” ftw) All because I think that I’m an Adult Woman watching this like “You are 14yrs old and need to be home playing Sims and not sacrificing yourself for the greater good you stupid silly little baby girl”

So my point is here near all fan content I encounter tends to emphasize whats sort of my least favorite facet of Madoka. I don’t think she made the ‘wrong’ decision in the context she and the story were given, but it’s still a sad thing to show a depressed(!!!) insecure girl resolving to give away her very existence so that every other girl on earth has a chance to just Dream. Oh and they still usually die young. But that’s ok because then she takes them and lets them sleep peacefully forever in her Heaven Basement (Yes I am bitter stan Homura I would yank this savior complex infant girl out the sky too)

MY POINT BEING (The servers closing let me BLEED OUT ALL MY FEELINGS) This event did not do that!!! It made Madoka…….. EVERYTHING SHE SHOULD BE??? ALWAYS??? Showed her HOW WE SHOULD BE ABLE TO VIEW HER??? (Read: Happy and Alive and Confident at no foreboding or sacrifice of anyone else!!!!)

She is Sassy and Surrounded By Friends and Really Funny??? And we get this Ridiculous Oh My God On Crack metaphor about her being this all-powerful apocalypse bringing being which is representing her love for the universe through her Witch form of Wanting Everyone To Be Happy And Safe With Her??? And she still risks herself to save everyone as is her Thing to do but we get to have her do it without erasing her existence as a human being at the end and if that is not some GOOD SHIT????

Ok next:

NGL Sayaka’s (fav character, inarguable best girl, can u not tell) parts in MagiReco til like the last arc have always left me a bit disappointed. She was the only late comer of the OG girls from what I understand and it kind of gives her the air of what a lot of the second(/thirdary?) girls suffer from. You can tell the writers can’t even figure out a trope to apply her to to make her easy and two dimensional to write about so they just don’t know what to do. They definitely try to make up for it (especially in the anime which Praise Be but that’s probably Inu Currys doing) but she’s still lacking like, any of the depth of her personality. Which, I guess I could anticipate. Because most of the fandom tends to as well. (again)

Gonna stop complaining and get on with- That didn’t feel as much the case in her Valentine event. Sure it was still the same formula of “The Issue Is Kyosuke” but that didn’t play out as grueling as her personal story did with “Nine Episodes Of “The Issue Is Kyosuke””

There was one big glaring heart-aching detail of “Mami isn’t really there because SHES IN A FUCKING CULT RIGHT NOW” which kind of jarred the event out of the ho-hum silly valentines sidestory these events usually keep up.

Sayaka has this crisis about Doing Anything Meaningful With Kyosuke which we all know what That’s calling back to, but in this environment we get to have Kyoko come right up and be in a position with her to earnestly and affectionately Push Her To Do It. The lonely little tsundere bitch girl pushes her Not Friend to Give The Bastard The Gotdamn Chocolate Already and for a moment you can only think about What If’s and If Only’s. Sayaka’s is still the weakest of the threes stories in this event but it worked harder to show us different sides of the characters then 6 chapters of Another Story managed to do.

And then there’s fucking Homura.

I will be, eternally grateful for Kuro. As a character that becomes metaphorical for the 2D ways we initially viewed the feathers and just NPCs in games in general, and also like, giving Homura a friend she actually cares about that isn’t the tangled dark web of Bullshit she’s gotten tied up with Madoka in. Please ask me about all my AU’s where Kuro is Homuras first girlfriend.

Seeing Moemura in Magia Record has always been a bit surreal, we never really understand just what stage of Trauma this Homura is in because Multiverses Are Hell, but this event gives us a good chunk of a Homura who still has hope and faith both in the world and Madoka. Theres this wonder to her that while still bogged down by terrible experiences still has the energy to be Trying. And she sees a girl who used to be like her- which when you think about it is probably what Madoka saw in her- and she wants to help. Because Madoka helped her. And Madoka is the best thing in the universe and maybe Homura can be just a little bit closer to that.

Kuro is too far gone though, as is the reality frequently in this series, things don’t work out just because of circumstance. Kuro was a bullied, insecure little girl who realistically shouldn’t have had to become a rampaging monster because of it. We’re reminded of this being the reality of the Madoka universe. Homura, is reminded of this reality. Homura loses this one chance to bring hope into the world like Madoka brought hope into hers.

And then her story ties into the ending of Madoka’s. Madoka saves her life yet again, even as Homura continues to feel miserable and empty. But at least Madoka is with her. The girls then share a quiet, intimate Valentines together. And you sort of understand how Homura fell so far into the darkness that the only thing she was able to still care about and fight for was Madoka’s safety.

That shit slaps. It slaps you right in the heart and causes fucking bruising but then u want it to do it again because you’re masochistic and Meguca Is Suffering.

Anyway I hope Kuroe slaps our hearts more in season2

MOVING ON!!!!

~Nagisa’s Wish~

Ok, I don’t remember what got me so simp over Nagisa, I think it was the heart-aching irony that Mami adopts the witch that fucking ate her. But that is my baby now and I’d die for her. Fandom Charlotte whose pink and silly and loves her mom and is Mami’s cancer-riddled girlfriend is cool and all but she isn’t a tiny Halloweeny baby whose fucking bitter angry and manically obsessed with cheese due to PTSD.

I had saw a summary of Nagisa’s Wish reposted just to quickly explain Nagisa’s backstory, and as such immediately had to search out if that crazy ride was true- so I actually watched this whole event probably before I downloaded the game. It was surreal on its own but replaying it when it came to NA didn’t lessen it any- I got to process more of what I was witnessing and as result stanned Yu pretty hard.

I guess to explain my Emotions here, saving Yu for later- calls for me to just, describe who Nagisa is as a human being and my headcanons surrounding it all with what this event gave us. Whether you consider it canon or not it’s one version of events that we were given and that I am all for accepting.

Nagisa’s Mom was a celebrity, she could have been an actress though I also like the idea of her being an Idol. She met Nagisa’s Dad oh-so romantically and got knocked up- they very well could have been married but it doesn’t seem clear enough. He seems to have left too suddenly for legal matters like that. Nagisa is approximately 11, and while she seems to remember her Father, she doesn’t in the sense of having had a relationship with him or any feelings. Her Mother has to “explain” why he left, so Nagisa was probably still young even if not a baby. What I’m getting at here is the timeline for when Nagisa’s Mom Got Like That. Nagisa can remember her from before she was, and then says that she got sick after her Dad left. So what I’m wondering is did Daddy Momoe ruin this young rich girls life, give her syphilis and then leave her with a baby she was unfit to care for in poverty? I know half of this is running on anime logic but Holy Shit all the possible ways reasons and ideas for why things could’ve gotten This Bad.

Is it ridiculously dark and edgy that the original story we were given was “Girl wishes her dying mother could have her favorite cake but then realizes OOPSIE-DAISY I could have wished for her to Not Die instead!!!!” got turned into “11yr old hates her abusive mother so much she wants to make her suffer in the most symbolic way she can and then goes mental when she isn’t able to do it”??? Yes. But if I had the mental capacity to I have to admit I was in a position to be just as bitter at that age too. I can’t call it unrealistic. I may infact be projecting hard with how much I support and enjoy this backstory.

Anyway Nagisa was in such a state of trauma and distress at a horrifically young age when she died that it broke her mental faculties so severely that even when she came back as a literal Angel of God she had blocked it out so deeply and thoroughly she seemingly regressed to an even younger capacity and hyperfixated on the trait that she has before used to try to bond with her Mother who she had died hating.

And that also slaps u right in the heart.

A N D T H E N !

~Beachside Bonds~

Just the simple structure of this story was so enjoyable and nicely done. We finally get to see the OG girls in a context we wouldn’t be able to in literally any other scenario. They’re going on a summer vacation together and Homura is sentimentally journaling every single second of it. Is this mayhaps because she’s never gotten to be this happy and blissful with these girls she loves so much??? Of course this is are you not paying attention what the fuck. Homura is so optimistic and healed and hopeful she’s acting like what she might actually be doing as a normal teenage girl. (A heartrending contrast to the end of her Valentines Special)

We get nothing short of pure fluffy Slice Of Life shenanigans on the beach which even includes a bunch of the Kamihama girls that the OG crew knows! And they talk about it! And introduce eachother! And their friends commentate on it! Ren gets to see Kyoko Not Being A Bitch and then Sayaka teases her about having made friends and oh my god my heart is turning into cottoncandy as we speak Mom holy FUCK

Sayaka’s existence fucking matters in this story! It’s her families Hotel they’re staying at and she has relationships and memories with the creepy twins that live there and she talks like a fucking person??? And gives opinions??? That aren’t just copypasted “Justice is Good and Bad things are BAD!!!!”

Mami is fresh out of her fucking Cult Drama and she’s still trying to be cool Senpai but then she DECKS Homura in the face and gets scared by the ghost stories and then turns into pudding and waxes nostalgia at Kyoko out of nowhere IT’S ALMOST LIKE SHE’S A FIFTEEN YEAR OLD GIRL????????

G H O S T S ? ? ? ?

Y U ! ? ! ? ! ? !

(IS G A Y ! ! ! !)

This whole fucking backstory and truly horrifying Romeo and Juliet on Acid love and death story between Yu and her girlfriend and like if I wasn’t fascinated enough by Yu just being the creepy organ harvester before but apparently thats what she became after she literally made some sort of wish that erased all of her memories besides the nickname her sweetheart used for her and coincidentally also added to her the task of killing all Bad People?????

Yu made a wish to be able to get rid of All Bad People preserving the innocent version of herself who grew up with this girl and it was right after a failed double suicide attempt on fucking Doomed Lovers Cliff fucking Lifetime Will You Ever.

It then pairs with Homura whose PTSD gets to shine through a bit in being unable to believe any bad sort of Madoka which how could you try to force her to at this point while Also pairing Homura with Ren in the ��Gay Love Saved Our Lives: Traumatized vers & Vanilla vers”

I don’t remember if there was a symbolic finale and tbh I have forgotten a lot of the details with Yu and her girlfriend Whatsherface because that shit was just so shocking and bizarre to read and much too painful to reread in a timely fashion just.

That shit hurted but it was full of so much love and hope both doomed and stolen but still was wrapped up in the comforting concept that This Is The Universe Where Homura Gets To Be Okay This Time.

She’s still scarred beyond comprehension and this ghost drama accentuated it all but at the end of the day this is still the Safe Universe where all of them are alive and the Holy Quintet are friends and they’re all going to be okay (Godoka & Aniplex willing) and so many of us love Madoka Magica because it shows girls fighting through the same pain we’ve been through and keeping their hope alive and here we get to see them actually find peace in a clunkily written fanservicey spin-off mobile gacha game and hey, that made me happy while I got to experience it. Thanks for the ideas and memories and tragic backstories and funny thirdary characters MagiReco I’m gonna take em all and Run.

Akjsladbfalkjfsbslk If you read this all without getting a migraine or blocking me ily thanks for listening!!!!!!

TL;DR

Me likey A La Carte Valentine bc it’s silly and gay and I simp Kuro

Me likey Nagisa’s Wish bc sawft baby is good and so are Tragic Edgy Backstories

Me likey Beachside Bonds bc Gay Ghosts and Our Girls Finally Get To Be Happy Peaceful(ish) Teenage Girls and that’s all I want for them ;w;

Reeses In Pieces ya’ll

1Ten 2More 3Words 4To 5Hit 6(3000 7Words 8Woo 9Boy 10Howdy

[after-avenging-hours]

Incubus [Epilogue]: Bucky x Reader

Incubus / Part 2 /  Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5 / Part 6 / Part 7 /  Part 8 / Part 9 /  Part 10 /  Part 11 / Part 12 /  Part 13 /  Part 14

Word Count: 2700

Warnings: bit of angst at the beginning, bit of language toward the end

This is definitely the end of Book 1.

You’re the first one awake in the morning, which is also a new experience.  It gives you a little time to allow your mind to catch up to everything.  So much has happened in such a short time span, and you’d honestly been too delirious from pain to really understand most of it.  You almost couldn’t believe that half of the things that happened last night legitimately happened.  Or that they even worked.  With Bucky’s blood now running through your system, you felt better than you’d felt your whole life.  Like SHIELD never happened.

But then again… no amount of physical healing or recovery would ever change the fact that you had; in fact, been tortured by a SHIELD operative.  By a castor.  The things he did.  The pain you felt.  It would always be burned into your memories.  Always be a part of you.  The mark on your shoulder would remain a testament to the time you spent there.  A horrible reminder that even though you escaped… it wasn’t unscathed.

Before you can dwell on it much longer, you hear Bucky’s breathing change as he begins to awaken.  His arm tightens around your waist as he inhales sharply.  You lift your head up slightly, resting your chin against his chest so you can look up at him.  His eyes blink open, a sleepy grin spreading across his lips when he meets your gaze.  “Damn, you’re good, sweetheart.  Knocked me out like a light.”  He reaches his free hand up to cover his yawn before tucking that arm back behind his head. “How are you feeling?”

You force out a small smile. “Physically, I’m fine.”

You watch his gaze dip down slightly.  “How’s your shoulder?”

The fraction of a smile drops as you follow his gaze.  “Well, it doesn’t hurt anymore,” you respond.

“That’s good.  Hell fire doesn’t affect demons, so our blood bond was supposed to help with that.  I’m glad it did.”  Your gaze lifts back up to meet his and he gives you a tilted smile.  “And now we match,” he jokes lightly.

His words seem to have the opposite effect of what he’d intended; though, when instead of smiling or laughing, your lips begin to tremble and tears well in your eyes.  “I hate it,” you mutter thickly.

Bucky frowns, his brow furrowing in concern.  “Lumina…” He moves his hand from behind his head to reach for you.

His fingers have barely brushed against your arm when you jerk back.  “Don’t!” you scream when he gets too close to the mark for your comfort. You turn away from him, rolling on your side so the mark can be tucked against the sheets out of sight, and you clutch your arm to your chest, curling into a ball.

Bucky sits up cautiously, watching you with sadness and worry.  “Y/N, I’m sorry.  I didn’t mean to startle you,” he speaks as calmly as he can.  His heart wrenches when he sees your body shake with quiet sobs. He wants nothing more than to comfort you, but he fears he might make things worse if he does.

“I thought I was gonna die, Buck,” you whisper brokenly.

He hesitantly reaches his hand out, carefully pushing your hair out of your face and curling it behind your ear.  “I wasn’t going to let that happen.”

He watches your eyes squeeze shut, a few tears slipping out.  “They tried to make me hate you.  I was so scared they were going to succeed.”

Bucky can feel some of your pain and fear through the new bond you both share and it eats at him alive.  “I’m so sorry I couldn’t get you out of there sooner, Lumina.  I felt so useless.”

You manage to curl yourself into an even tighter ball.  “Please don’t let them take me again, Bucky,” you sob quietly.

He moves slowly to curl himself around you, letting his body heat surround you like a cocoon.  When he feels you lean slightly back against him, he takes that as an okay to wrap his arms around you.  “They’re never touching you again, Lumina.  I’ll rip them all apart before that ever happens.”

Reaching for the arm wrapped around your waist, you follow the length of it down until you’re intertwining your fingers with his.  You give his hand a firm squeeze, “I just want to forget everything that happened… But it’s like I can’t stop playing it in my mind.”

Bucky squeezes your fingers back, tucking your body against his.  “I know.  I’ve been exactly where you are Lumina.  But I promise, you’re not alone in this.  If there’s anything that I can do for you, just ask.”

You let his words wash over you, pulling strength from him that you simply can’t find in yourself right now.  “Just hold me.”

He tucks his face against your neck, holding you as tight as possible without making you uncomfortable. “I’m never letting you go.”

And as promised, Bucky holds you in his embrace while you cry out the emotions that have built up since your capture.  You let the dam break, feeling a rush of emotions all at once as they pour out of you like an open wound.  You mourn for the blissfully innocent life you’d once had.  Life would never be the same.  You now had to carry the weight of the physical and emotional scars from your encounter.

Bucky is patient with you, letting your emotions and tears run their course.  He remembers what it was like to have to go through all of this. And he’d done it alone.  He’d be damned if he made you go through it on your own as well.

When your tears finally begin to slow and you start to feel a little more like yourself, you turn around to face Bucky, burying your face in his neck and throwing your arm around him. “Sorry.  I can’t seem to get a hold of myself.”

You feel the brush of his lips against your forehead.  “You have nothing to apologize for, Lumina.  You’ve been through so much.  It’s okay that’s you’re not okay.”

You breathe in his scent, letting it wash over you and calm you down.  “I think I was also scared that I was going to wake back up over there.  That last night had been a dream.  Honestly, it still feels like a dream.”

His hand comes up to gently cradle your jaw, lifting your gaze to meet his.  “Can you do me a favor, Lumina?”  He waits for your nod before continuing.  “Close your eyes and look inside yourself.”

You give him a slightly confused look before doing as he’d asked.

“Look into the depths of your very being and try to find me.”

He watches your brow furrow as you try to concentrate, a slight frown tilting your lips.  But then he feels a sort of tug deep inside himself, and he knows you’ve found it.

The crease between your brow eases, your eyes blinking open.  “Is that you?” you question.  There’s a soft warmth that seems to surround your very soul.  It’s protective and strong and everything that is Bucky.

He gives you a small genuine smile, his thumb caressing your cheek.  “We’re linked now.  For all eternity.  If you ever find yourself questioning reality, or in need of comfort, no matter how far apart we are physically, all you have to do is look inside yourself to find me, and I’ll be there.”

Relief and gratitude fills you as you look up at the man that’s given you everything you hold dear.  “I love you, Bucky.”

His smile widens, “I love you, too.  My beautiful, brave and strong Lumina.”

You rub your fingers against the light layer of stubble on his jaw.  “I’ve been such a mess this morning, I haven’t even asked if you’re okay.”

His gaze softens, “I’m alright. You don’t need to worry about me.”

“Don’t you need to feed?” You can’t help but worry about him.

He chuckles lightly.  “I think normal food will work just fine for this.”

You tilt your head curiously. “Exactly how much has the blood bond changed us?  Will you need to feed at all anymore?  Will I need to feed?”

“I think that’s something we’re going to have to figure out as we go.  Your angel blood prevents you from turning into a full succubus, but considering the success of last night, you have enough in you to perform a transference. I don’t think you’ll be quite as dependent on it as I was.  I don’t think I’m as dependent on it now either.”

Your eyes glaze over as you think about the possible outcomes of your new bond.  “If I can now use energy transference, does that mean that you’ve gained descendent abilities?”

Bucky shrugs his shoulder.  “I don’t really know.  It’s not like something like this happens every day.  Soul merges are pretty rare to begin with, yet alone successful ones.  And then we combined ours with a blood bond, which also doesn’t particularly happen. The outcome of such bonds are different every time, depending on how strong the connection was between the two people in the first place, and what species were involved.  We’ll just have to see what happens.”

“Wait, so what exactly is the difference between a soul merge and a blood bond?” you ask to try to clear some of your confusion.

“The blood bond is what allows you to use my abilities.  It combined our demon and descendent sides.  The soul merge is a more intimate and fundamental bond.  It’s meant for two people that are ready and willing to spend the rest of their lives together.  We share one soul now; soulmates in a literal sense.  We’re basically mated for life.”

You stare at him in slight surprise.  “Mated for life?”

His lips draw into a frown as he takes in your expression.  “…Yeah. Are you okay with that?”

“Are you?  Doesn’t this go against the very nature of an incubus?”

His unease lessens and his gaze softens.  “If I hadn’t been sure, it wouldn’t have worked and we wouldn’t be here having this discussion.”

You hum thoughtfully, your gaze flickering over his face.  “Well, I guess I can get used to the thought of being stuck with you for the rest of my life,” you tease.

Bucky’s gaze narrows.  “Excuse me?”  In seconds, he has you pinned on your back, his body hovering over yours. “You wanna repeat that?”

You laugh freely, “Not particularly, no.”  You know you’ll just dig yourself into a deeper hole.

Bucky’s demeanor breaks when his lip twitches, but he fights to maintain his composure.  “Yeah, that’s what I thought.”

You can’t even attempt to feign innocence as you laugh.  It feels good to laugh.  Your hands run up his back, feeling the familiar plains and stretches of corded muscle.  “We should probably get some food in you, Buck,” you tell him when your laughter eases.

His eyes flicker down to your lips, becoming hooded.  “Can I just eat you?” he asks, head tilting down just enough to brush his nose against yours.

“Didn’t realize you’ve started resorting to cannibalism,” you tease once more.  “I think you’re taking that ‘one soul one body’ thing a little too literally.”

His eyes shine with amusement before his head dips and he starts a trail of kisses down your neck.  “Maybe, but I already know how good you taste.”  His tongue then darts out, licking a long stripe across your collar bone.

“Ew Bucky!” you shriek, pushing him off of you.

He laughs boisterously, falling onto his back next to you.  “What’s the matter?  You don’t seem to mind when I’ve got my tongue elsewhere on your body.”  He grins unashamed.

You feel your blood heat at his words.  “We need to get actual food in you, James” you try to insist.

Sitting up, you move for the edge of the bed.  Bucky sits up, too; however, and quickly wraps an arm around your waist to pull you back.  “If I eat my breakfast like a good boy, will you let me have dessert?” he whispers huskily into your ear.

The shiver and goose bumps give you away as you try to hold control over your body.  “Bucky, we’re not the only two in this household,” you try to reason.

He chuckles darkly, “I’m sure they might be willing to watch, if that’s what you’re worried about.”

You roll your eyes and push yourself out of his hold.  “You’re incorrigible.”  Moving to the dresser in the corner, you quickly riffle around and grab something to cover yourself before Bucky can get any more ideas.  You also toss a pair of lounge pants his way, which he catches with ease.  “Let’s go eat, Barnes,” you tell him once you’re dressed.

“Yes, ma’am.”  He smirks as he moves toward you, linking your fingers before leaving the room.  “You know, I kind of like it when you order me around.  We’ll have to try that some more.”

You send him a look of warning to behave before you both enter the kitchen.

“Look who finally decided to get up,” Sam laughs from his position at the stove, where he’s cooking what suspiciously smells like bacon.

“Morning, Sam,” Bucky greets, releasing your fingers to steal a strip straight from the pan.

Sam glowers at his friend, but does nothing to try to take the bacon back.  His gaze drifts to you, “How are you feeling this morning?”

You give him a small smile. “Everything worked perfectly, thank you for all your help.”

“Happy to be of service. But your boyfriend now owes me big time.”

Bucky nods sincerely.  “I know.  But I always handle my debts.”

“You do,” Sam agrees.  “Which is why our friendship works so easily. Under different circumstances, I’d probably hate you.”

Bucky smirks openly, finishing off the last bite of his bacon.

“So, where’s Wanda?” you find yourself asking.  Even though you haven’t really forgiven her yet, you know you should at least thank her for her help last night.

“She’s outside with the other one,” Sam comments, turning back to the bacon.

You watch Bucky tense.  “What other one?” he asks dangerously.

“The guy that showed up last night.  Wanda seemed to know him, so I didn’t really question it.  Don’t know when you started hanging around Nephilim, though.”

Bucky is out the door before you can even blink.  You try to rush after him, calling his name.  By the time you’re outside, Bucky is only a few short paces from where Steve and Wanda are talking.  The blonde turns his head just in time to meet Bucky’s fist.

“Son of a-” Steve shouts, reeling back and holding a hand to his nose when blood begins to poor out.

“That’s the least of what you fucking deserve!  If anything had happened to her-”

“Bucky, stop!” you push yourself between them, hands on his chest to get him to step back.

He doesn’t fight against you, but he also doesn’t allow you to push him too far away.  “You were my best fucking friend in high school.  But then when I transitioned at 19, you joined SHIELD and let those fuckers brainwash you!  When you came to me to help you with Talia, I thought that maybe they hadn’t wiped everything out of you.  That maybe my friend was still in there.  But after all of this shit?  I’m done.”

“James,” Steve’s voice is thick as he tries to speak around his likely broken nose.  “I swear, I didn’t know what they were doing to her.”

Bucky’s glare only hardens. “I don’t give a fuck anymore.  Do whatever the hell you want, Rogers.  But stay away from my sister and my mate.” He turns to stalk back toward the house, the tension never leaving his shoulders.

“What are you going to do?” Steve calls after him.

Bucky pauses at the door.  “I’m gonna figure out how to rip apart Rumlow and Pierce.”  He glances back over his shoulder, his gaze cold, “And I don’t care if I have to destroy SHIELD in order to do it.”

Keep an eye out for the sequel: Descendant coming soon

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[k-renne]

duuude dude i had an idea (dunno if it's gonna fit in one ask so bear w me): so i was watching midsummer's night dream and kept thinking abt reader being queen of the fairies and getting that love nectar put in her eyes and falling in love with kylo, a man whose dark magic turned him into a beast, so kylo becomes king of fairies and her love slowly changes him back (although not fully) BUT (1/2)

cremedelabrulee said: kylo discovers that reader had the love nectar in her so he turns to magic once again to undo the spell and spare you of loving a monster like him an he waits for reader to sleep to drop the antidote in reader’s eyes but he just cant leave, he just looks at her all night while she sleeps, crying silently about how he’s gonna miss her… he lost track of time and she wakes up, only to treat him as lovingly as before… turns out that the effects of the love nectar had faded long ago YAY HAPPY END

A/N: I LOVE THIS!!! it reminds me a little of @kyloholic love spell au, but I hope to make this different because I like it so much but I wanna giver her credit for being the first one to write something like this - also i’m sorta combining this with my witch!kylo au…sorta except more beastly

Everyone knew of him, he was a man - no a beast to be feared. They said that his face was so twisted that he had to wear a mask, that those who had seen his face without it never lived to tell the tale. He had the body of an animal, furry limbs and claws with two black wings on his back. Most times he walked on all fours, if he stood he’d be hunched over and leaning on something. 

He covers himself in all black so that no one can see his true body, though the way he stands is unmistakably predatorial. His back is slightly bent forward, though it does little to lessen his height. His hands hang low at his sides, fisting and uncurling like they’re ready to attack at any moment.

He could barely speak without a growl in his voice, his voice was harsh to anyone’s ears and often inspired fear. Despite his more animalistic tendencies, he still was a powerful witch - but now his power was more destructive and he had much less control over it. 

It was a cruel irony what happened, the plan was to give the love nectar to the queen of fairies so that she would marry Armitage Hux and so that he could become King. You were renowned for your beauty and power, though you wielded it much gentler than your beastly counterpart. Every man wanted you, except perhaps Kylo Ren, he didn’t care about such things he was more worried about trying to stand on his own two feet and resisting the urge to hunt. 

He doesn’t know how exactly he ends up at the wrong place and the wrong time, but right after the nectar gets sprayed in your eyes he appears and you fall in love with a beast. The plan was that Hux was supposed to just be around the corner, he was heading your way. But Kylo was following a deer in the forest, and had mistaken you for his prey. He couldn’t help it, you had such a nice musk. He could see himself making a mate out of you.

“What are you doing in these dark woods little fairy?” He growled at you. 

Your eyes fluttered open, and what you saw mad your heart fly to your throat. Kylo could see it too, your flushed cheeks and the sound of your heart racing. He tilted his head in curiosity. “I-I love you,” You blurted out, the spell speaking for you. 

Now Kylo was very confused, impossible. Nobody could love him. “I need a ruler, someone strong to lead by my side. Will you help me?” 

“Who are you?” Kylo said, speaking softer than he had in a long time.

“Y/N, Queen of the Fairies, and this forest. I think I know of you, Kylo Ren. You have caused me a lot of trouble in the past, but I want to look past that,” You smile at him, putting your hand on his upper hand. Kylo stares at your hand, he can’t even remember the last time he’s been touched. If you could see his face you’d see absolute confusion.

“You’re a queen-I…are you sure that’s the best idea?” 

“Yes, I believe in you Kylo. I’m confident that you will make a great King, and a great husband too...” 

“I-uh,” Kylo stutters.

“This way, we have no time to waste.” You lead Kylo towards your castle, and he seems to have no choice but to follow you. 

He didn’t even believe in himself, but for some reason he couldn’t help but fall for your saccharine sweet words and touch. He hung on to your every word. You gave him these...feelings, things that he hadn’t felt in a long time. And he quickly grew addicted to them.

Your love, your light, slowly changes him. The more that he gets it the more humanity he gains back. He’s still afraid for you to see his face, but now he only has a few beastly features compared to more, now he can stand up straight. 

“Kylo, my love, when will you let me see your face?” You ask him for what seems like the thousandth time.

“No, I’d disgust you,” He refuses. 

“But I love you, how you look would not change that,” You quip. You didn’t understand it, he was your husband yet he wouldn’t even eat with you. There was always a distance because of that cursed mask. 

But truly in your heart, you did love him at this point. And you knew that his curse wouldn’t change your mind. You had fallen for the sweetness that he’s shown to you, his attentive listening, how he had protected you from those that wanted to do you harm. You’d fallen for his shyness, his sarcasm that he’d only share with you, and how he genuinely tried to do the best for your people despite their fear of him. 

Kylo sighs, he was a slave to your love. He couldn’t say no, in fear that he’d make it go away. He unclips the helmet and takes it off, clutching it close to him in fear of your reaction and ultimate disgust of him. 

“You’re so beautiful, I can’t believe you’ve hidden this from me,” You gasp, moving closer to cup his face in your hands. 

Kylo can feel his eyes watering, “Really? You aren’t just saying that because we’re married?” 

“No Kylo, I’m not. I’m saying it because I love you, every part of you,” You kiss the tip of his nose. “And this hair...I already long to run my fingers through it,” You remark. 

Kylo blushes shyly from your compliments, “I love you so much,” He chokes back tears, voice thick with emotion. He knew he could never find such happiness in his life as he had now by your side. 

Ignorance really was bliss.

Hux couldn’t stand to see the two of you together, it reminded him of his failure. He dug deep into Kylo’s past, to find his insecurities, what would hurt him most. A sinister grin formed on his face when had the delightful news of telling Kylo that you’re love was fake, “Ren did you think that anyone could really love you? How foolish,” Hux chuckles. 

Kylo’s chest feels tight, it couldn’t be true. 

After learning this he became obsessed with finding an antidote, obsessed with freeing you from a monster like him. It pains him so much to know that every smile you give him is because of a spell, he spends many nights silently crying himself to sleep as he holds you in his arms. Because he does love you, but if what you feel isn’t real he’d have to let you go. 

He’s finally found the antidote, it took months of secret work but he finally did it. Now he just had to wait for you to sleep, and then leave in the night. Putting the drops in was easy, but he didn’t know how hard it would be to leave you. 

Tears flow down his cheeks as he looks at you sleeping peacefully, anguishing over how much he’d miss you, how much he’d miss this. You were his other half, and he loved you deeply, he’d love you eternally. He stays awake, thinking of your as he relishes the feeling of you in his arms. Trying to engrave that into his memory forever. 

He doesn’t even notice the dark fading, the birds chirping, as night passes. He’s staring at you lovingly when your eyes open, looking at with the same warmth they held before. “Kylo, have you been crying?” Your brows furrow in concern. 

He can’t help but break out into a great big smile, “It is nothing, I’m just so happy to have you in my life. I would have been a monster without you.” 

“Hmm, I love you. Hold me closer,” You snuggle against his chest, closing your eyes. Together you drift off back to sleep, Kylo still with a smile on his face.

[tinkdw]

The romantic writing of Dean / Cas (through deleted scenes)

OK, so full disclosure. This started as a simple answer but turned into a whole thing about TPTB and the meaning of deleted scenes and kind of therefore ended up as a Tink’s own small version of a masterpost of the writing of Destiel.

For me, deleted scenes are really important. They made their way to the DVD anyway so are part of canon, lets start with that. But they are deleted for a reason. And before that, they are though up, written, authorised, acted and edited for a reason.

For me the deleted scenes I list below are a big, core part of why I believe Dean and Cas are written romantically and that this is canon. Whether they decide to follow through on it is another matter but I and I know a lot of others agree that they are clearly written romantically and these deleted scenes uphold that. Then they are deleted. Now, some deleted scenes are for time but as you can see here, these scenes often hold key information regarding the overall narrative so clearly they are deleted because of the strong Destiel references. I like to believe this is because they just want to drag it out instead of completely get rid of it from the show, I was worried I’ll be honest before mid season 11 but since then I’m tentatively positive in that I believe the tides are turning and they will textualise Destiel properly and stop deleting these kinds of scenes, especially since season 12 has had so many similar scenes go through to the final cut…

The important deleted scenes for me regarding Destiel are:

1. The deleted scene from 10x23 

Cas states clearly that his time on earth has been more important to him than any time in Heaven and Sam and Dean are like family to him.

here’s a link. Basically it’s this:

Source:

http://constiellation.tumblr.com/post/134329938841/10x23-deleted-scene

As always Cas’s scenes that are just too emotionally compromising or hint too deeply at his feelings for Dean (even if Sam is lobbed in there too) are deleted, BUT this in particular has now been addressed in 12x12! So….fingers crossed?!

2. The deleted scene from season 9 

THIS IS MY FAVOURITE, IT IS SO IMPORTANT TO THE WHOLE SHOW, to the whole of the narrative for Cas and Crowley. 

Here’s a link to the video.

This one scene just kills me as it sets up Cas and Crowley’s whole arcs for the whole show and yet it is deleted because, clearly, no homo. As otherwise it is an excellent scene to shed light on two of the core characters of the show and reveals their motivations for their actions, which is what a lot of the fans have struggled with, saying these 2 characters are stale. 

In this scene Cas and Crowley discuss how they ‘dislike’ being human and how it’s so not worth it and why would you want to be human anyway (the underlying feeling being that they’re both lying and there is a reason they would like to be) - and then Dean immediately walks in and they share a glance. This is….. expositional screenwriting 101 ? 

I mean this is a classic - in fact it reminded me so clearly of the opening scene of a classic romantic supernatural love pairing in the cartoon Beauty and the Beast - the narrator says “for… who could love a Beast?” - and it CUTS TO BELLE’s introduction…

And yet they cut this scene. And it means we don’t get a clear narrative reason why Cas and Crowley do what they do and are who they are, and casual viewers who don’t look into things as deeply as all of us are confused and think they’re stale and uninteresting. 

Without this scene only people who really look into the show in huge detail, dorks like me, will know that Cas and Crowley are mirrors of each other and both their arcs up to a point revolve entirely around Dean Humanity Winchester.

Yes. That is what happens when you cut important scenes for a stupid reason, the whole show doesn’t make sense and fans get annoyed. *facepalms*.

There are probably people out there who think Cas still wants to be an Angel pffff because he said “I just wanna be an Angel again“ that one time. Yeah, that one time he thought Dean was dead and there was nothing left for him and he knew being a proper Angel would lessen his emotional pain and give him a purpose to focus on. But then, as soon as he learned Dean was still wandering the Earth he just… hangs around, pining, languishing in the blue bathrobe of despair, hoping to fix him. 

And when he finally does get some grace back (FROM CROWLEY - these two are so interlinked Chuck help me what a great narrative if they actually showed it properly) he doesn’t WANT the grace, Crowley doesn’t really want to give Cas grace either but he does it FOR DEAN, and Cas, he allows Crowley to do it FOR DEAN. This then also reminds us how earlier on when Cas steals his first lot of grace Dean asks Cas if he’s cool about being an Angel again Cas deflects and says he needs it. Not wants it, but needs it to fight.  

WHY does Castiel not want his grace back? WHY might Castiel have learned to love ‘humanity’? WHY might Castiel want to be human?

THIS IS SO IMPORTANT FOR CASTIEL’S ENTIRE STORY.  

*facepalms again*.

3. The deleted scene from 10x14.

Here’s a link. 

This scene is not only is great for it’s own individual reveal - Cas and Crowley jealously pretending they dont care about Dean and perhaps he is the other’s boyfriend, even using the term boyfriend, I mean, guys. Could this be clearer? 

But this also just ties in to the whole end of the episode where Dean hands CAS the first blade instead of returning it to Crowley. HE CHOOSES CAS! THIS IS SO IMPORTANT (and is easily overlooked as it was deleted for *reasons*).

This, in an episode where Cas is clearly narratively paralleled as Dean’s Colette, where Dean is scared of losing himself and in a call-back to the season’s start and call-forward to the season’s ending Cas is desperately trying to save him and stop, to keep his humanity….

So, in conclusion… 

There is a recurring theme of Destiel (and Drowley) - heavy scenes being cut and this is hurting the narrative of the overall show. It’s not that these relationship are written into the show to begin with that is the problem as they are key to so much of the overall story arcs but the fact that they are written in, used extensively as key points in the story while being kept in the subtext and then when there is an opportunity to make it textual to make it make SENSE to the narrative it is so heavily affecting, these scenes are cut.

*FACEPALMS SO HARD INTO MY KEYBOARD*

Why are they hurting their own show by doing this?!

So yeah, it’d be lovely if they actually showed these scenes that explains WHY things are happening to the casual viewer and Destiel shippers weren’t sometimes made to feel like we are grasping at straws. 

Newsflash, it’s like a milkshake bar there are so many straws in this show, everyone involved knows about it and plays on it and CONSISTENTLY WRITES IT INTO THE MAIN NARRATIVE.

Just search Amara on my blog, the whole of season 11 doesn’t make sense without Destiel. If God’s sister herself reveals that Dean represents humanity after the fandom had that meltdown after Metatron’s ‘in love with humanity’ speech, DURING a scene interspersed with Metatron just to remind us ;) If God’s sister has to work through the Dean / Cas longing to reach Dean, uses Cas to manipulate Dean, keeps talking to Dean about love and hiding things, holding back, if Dean calls out to Cas while in Amara’s presence and pretty consistently only cares about Cas during these interactions where Amara is present, even though they themselves are bonded by the mark, one of God’s most powerful creations…. please. 

And season 12 basically is one long Cas-focused parallel so they know what they are doing at this point. I want to trust Dabb but we have been burned before so… tentatively fingers crossed on this one now.

It’s just so freaking stupid to build a gorgeous story and through Chuck knows what, I like to hope it’s not homophobia but at these points I feel like what else can it be, they ruin their own narrative and make the story just flounder, not making a whole lot of sense because  they are not following through on their own narrative and we are therefore MISSING INFORMATION!

We are tired of waiting for this all to make sense.

So I recommend anyone and everyone pay attention to deleted scenes. They are scenes that show that writers have noticed all the other subtext themselves in order to add to it, then thought about, written, acted out, edited and at the last junction been ripped out, and from these scenes it’s clear why, they all share a focal point - canonising or at least heavily clarifying the subtext between Cas and Dean and/or Crowley and Dean.

Because it is there, we are not insane. If it gets so far as to get acted out and left on the cutting room floor then it’s there and there’s a reason it’s been cut.

[seigyokus]

Chapter 2 - Friends Talk!

Idolish Seven - Pieces of an Intermission, Chapter 2 For more Part 2 translations, click here!

Translation below the cut!

Yuki: Do you have many friends? Izumi Iori: ...I do not. Kujou Ten: I have a pretty normal amount. Yuki: Someone like Momo has tons of friends-- he has friends for every department. For sports, it's this person. Going out for drinks? This person. Kujou Ten: Ah.... I’m kind of like that too. Yuki: That's different from me. I'm the type who doesn't mind having fewer friends if that means we can do everything together. Izumi Iori: I see.... If I had to choose, I am probably the latter type. Kujou Ten: So you guys would rather do everything with people you're really close to? And only them? Izumi Iori: Precisely. Yuki: Yep, yep. Kujou Ten: But what if they have different hobbies than you? Kujou Ten: Wouldn't rather you have a deeper and more meaningful conversation with someone who is in the same line of work or has the same hobbies as you? Izumi Iori: Indeed, that would be useful for interviews and discussions. But you don't have to be friends for that. Kujou Ten: Well, what if you are friends? If they're primarily interested in me as an idol, it'd be pretty boring if I talked about other aspects of myself, wouldn't it? Yuki: Not at all. I definitely want to hear your love advice, Ten-kun. Yuki: So which type do you two think is intellectual, then? Izumi Iori: What do you mean? Yuki: We’re Team Intellectual, aren’t we? Yuki: Is it more intellectual to subdivide and have different friends for different things, or have a small number of friends for all occasions? Kujou Ten: I don't know if it's intellectual, but I think my way is pretty rational. You get to expand your horizons, and nobody's time is wasted. Izumi Iori: Well, with friends whom you've shared many experiences with, you get a better understanding of each other and your values align more as time goes on. Group-work is also significantly easier. Yuki: Exactly. Getting close to someone starting from square one is also such a hassle. Kujou Ten: A hassle, huh. That's rather feeling-based. Emotional, if you will. Yuki: It is. Kujou Ten: So it's okay if we deem that method unintellectual, then? Izumi Iori: Wait! Please ignore Yuki-san's last comment. Didn't I provide an intellectual reason in this debate? Kujou Ten: Was it really intellectual though? Let me put it this way: by choosing to do everything with people who understand you and no one else, you're the only one who has it easy. Kujou Ten: Sure, it might be more comfortable for you if you have someone who's your ally, friend, member, and co-worker. Someone who shares the same dream as you, and is part of your private life as well. It may be easier for you, but it also might burden the other person. Kujou Ten: Not just that. If you depend on someone that much, too much even.... When you lose them, you lose everything. Kujou Ten: Are you prepared to face that? Izumi Iori: ......Just who are you talking about? (1) Kujou Ten: I'm talking about you. Izumi Iori: Let me get this straight. You've partitioned off bits of your personal life in order to lessen the risks. Your family, friends and members are all separate entities-- Kujou Ten: Ahaha. Izumi-kun, you're going off on a tangent. Izumi Iori: You're the one who went off on a tangent! Yuki: This team is emotional, through and through. Izumi Mitsuki: Are you the type to apologize first when you've fought with friends? Nikaidou Yamato: Hm.... It’d depend on what the fight was about. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: I'd apologize first if it was my fault. Izumi Mitsuki: But both parties generally don't think they’ve done anything wrong during a fight. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Then I'd ask them what I did wrong. I don't like it when things stay tense. Izumi Mitsuki: That's so mature! Yamato-san's the type who'd never, ever apologize. Nikaidou Yamato: Hey, I would! Mitsu's the stubborn one here. Izumi Mitsuki: No way. I would definitely apologize. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Do you two fight a lot, by any chance? Izumi Mitsuki: Kinda, yeah. We're not constantly fighting though. Nikaidou Yamato: How about TRIGGER? Izumi Mitsuki: See, look! You did it again! Nikaidou Yamato: What did I do!? Izumi Mitsuki: You always try to change the topic when the mood lightens up. And then you pretend the argument never happened in the first place. Nikaidou Yamato: Pretend it never happened? I mean, if the mood lightens up, then haven't we made up already? Izumi Mitsuki: I get that, but you can't just do that every time! You gotta speak your mind and talk it out first! Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Now, now. Just make sure you talk it out thoroughly the next time you fight. How about that? Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: It’ll only get worse the next time you butt heads if you keep bottling it up, so it's best if you try to meet each other halfway, bit by bit. Nikaidou Yamato: True, but this guy over here's pretty damn scary.... Izumi Mitsuki: No, I'm not! Nikaidou Yamato: What about TRIGGER? Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: We get along pretty well. Although we do argue over work since we all have differing opinions, we always end up making it work. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: We don't really fight over things that aren't work related, though. All of us just kind of freely do our own thing. Nikaidou Yamato: Damn, that's TRIGGER alright. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: All the IDOLiSH7 members live together at the dorms, so your personal life is shared too. That might be why fights happen. But! Those fights are proof that you're all very close. Izumi Mitsuki: How was your reopening ceremony unit? Did you ever fight with Sougo and Tamaki? Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: We got along really well! Ah.... I think Sougo-kun and Tamaki-kun fought with each other though? Nikaidou Yamato: I am so sorry about our members' behavior. Izumi Mitsuki: Yeah, sorry about that. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Ahahaha. Izumi Mitsuki: You really don't get angry ever, huh. Are there ever times when you get really mad, Tsunashi-san? Nikaidou Yamato: Like, what would someone have to do to royally piss you off? Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: They’d have to be cruel to someone I really care about. Nikaidou Yamato: Ah.... Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: That includes my family, friends, or members. I can't forgive anybody who thoughtlessly hurts the people I care about. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: I think I'd get pretty mad if that happened. Izumi Mitsuki: So damn cool.... Nikaidou Yamato: Man, I wanna be one of Tsunashi-san's friends.... Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Ahaha! We already are, aren't we? Yaotome Gaku: Do you remember your first friend? Rokuya Nagi: I do. Osaka Sougo: ...I don't really remember mine. Osaka Sougo: I got along fairly well with everybody, but I don't think there was anyone I was particularly close to as a child. Yaotome Gaku: Well, that’s a surprise! Especially because you're really kind and considerate, Osaka. Osaka Sougo: Thank you very much. I believe I was closer to one of my relatives back then, the oldest one. Yaotome Gaku: Ah. When you’re with your cousins, it kinda feels like you’re with your friends. You only get to see them a few times a year, though. Yaotome Gaku: What kind of person was your first friend, Rokuya? Rokuya Nagi: He was an older man who loved music. (3) Yaotome Gaku: Really? It wasn't someone from an anime? Rokuya Nagi: I am currently looking for otaku friends though. Osaka Sougo: What about you, Yaotome-san? What kind of person was your first friend? Yaotome Gaku: We went to the same pre-school and elementary school. He was really fast on his feet and was good at everything. We used to compete to see who'd eat their school lunch the fastest. Rokuya Nagi: Are you still friends with him? Yaotome Gaku: Nah, we ended up moving. I have no clue where he is now. (2) Yaotome Gaku: But because it's him, I'm sure he's doing something awesome out there. Rokuya Nagi: Do you hope to meet him again someday? Yaotome Gaku: I know I will. That's just how friends are, right? Rokuya Nagi: ......Indeed. Yaotome Gaku: What about your friend? What is he doing right now? Rokuya Nagi: I don't know. I haven't been able to contact him. Yaotome Gaku: I see....... But, well. You'll meet him again someday, as long as you keep hoping to. Yaotome Gaku: Who knows? Maybe you'll see him again in the near future. Rokuya Nagi: OH.... I'll be thankful for your prediction when that time comes, Yaotome-shi. Yaotome Gaku: What about you, Osaka? Do you have any special friends? Osaka Sougo: I....... The other IDOLiSH7 members were the first people I could talk to about everything and anything. Yaotome Gaku: Really? Osaka Sougo: That's why I'm very happy.... I want to treasure everybody and be friends with them forever. Yaotome Gaku: That's nice. I'm sure they'd be happy to hear that. Osaka Sougo: What are the TRIGGER members to you, Yaotome-san? Are they your friends? Osaka Sougo: Ah....... We're wandering away from our theme, but I was just curious.... Yaotome Gaku: Haha.... The cameras are rolling, I can't. Osaka Sougo: Huh? Yaotome Gaku: It's hard to say in front of the cameras. But, well. ...Yeah. Yaotome Gaku: They're like brothers in arms. Momo: "If you were to hang out with this group...?" Nanase Riku: Anything we'd do would be fun! I want Momo-san to teach me new things to do! That, and hanging out with Tamaki kinda brings back that high school feel, which is nice! Momo: It is nice! Yotsuba Tamaki: Yeah. I'm down for anything. Just feed me good food. Momo: Of course, of course! The three of us should go somewhere after this. How about it? Nanase Riku: Yeah! Yotsuba Tamaki: Let's go, let's go! Momo: We're gonna go! Let's invite Yuki too, since this is such a rare chance. He'd definitely be happy. Nanase Riku: Of course! Is it okay if I invite everyone too? Momo: Sounds good! Let's also invite TRIGGER! Yotsuba Tamaki: Are we just calling them over? Now!? Momo: Just the people here is fine too! When you're hanging out with friends, the more the merrier! Yotsuba Tamaki: I thought you said Yukirin wasn't your friend. Momo: Wait! People will misunderstand if you put it that way! Yotsuba Tamaki: I'm gonna go tell him after this. Momo: Ahaha! Tamaki-kun! Things will get way outta hand if you do that, more than you think! Nanase Riku: Momo-san, you should rank Tamaki-kun! Momo: Momo-chan's best boy in IDOLiSH7 is......! Yotsuba Tamaki-kun! Yotsuba Tamaki: Ahaha! Yay! I'm number one! Nanase Riku: Man, that's nice! What about me!? Momo: Riku's number one too! Nanase Riku: Yay! Tamaki, I'm in first place too! Yotsuba Tamaki: Hey, no fair! That's cheating! Izumi Iori: "If you were to do something together with this group...?" Kujou Ten: I wonder what we'd do.... Yuki-san doesn’t want to travel too far, right? Yuki: Not at all. I like going on drives-- I've been on one with Gaku-kun before. How about we all go on a drive together? Izumi Iori: Um....... Kujou Ten: What's with that reaction? Izumi Iori: No, hold on. Yuki: You don't want to? Izumi Iori: That's not what I mean. It's just…. I have slight reservations about getting into someone's car when I don't even know their full name.... Yuki: Shall I tell you my real name, then? Izumi Iori: Huh!? Kujou Ten: Speaking of which, Gaku told me that he asked you for work advice during the drive. He said that you're really good at listening and was very touched by that, Yuki-san. Yuki: Ah. That's good. Kujou Ten: But once it hit noon, the only thing you’d say in response to him was ‘I’m hungry’ no matter what he was trying to ask. Izumi Iori: That's exactly like Yotsuba-san.... Yuki: Well, you just can't think about anything else when you're hungry. Izumi Iori: You are an adult, please try a little harder. Yuki: I see....... Kujou Ten: Gaku was very excited to go on a drive with you again and said he’d invite you once he decided on a restaurant, but is it okay if I bring him along this time? Yuki: Of course. Feel free to bring along your other members too, Iori-kun. Izumi Iori: Will we all fit in the car? Yuki: Don’t worry, we will. Yamato-kun can go in the trunk. Izumi Iori: Ahaha, that's mean. Kujou Ten: If anything, I feel like that onii-san would run away if you didn't stick him in the trunk. Izumi Iori: He'll get mad if he watches this, you know. I can already imagine him sitting on the sofa with a scowl on his face, beer in hand. Kujou Ten: What do you say to him in times like that? Izumi Iori: I don't say anything. But in this case, Nanase-san would probably say: Izumi Iori: "Aw, it must be nice in the trunk! I wanna be in the trunk too!" Yuki: Ahaha, he would say that. Kujou Ten: Haha.... Gosh.... Then Nikaidou-san would have no choice but to laugh. Nikaidou Yamato: "If you were to take on a job with these guys, what would you guys wanna do?" Izumi Mitsuki: Oh! What indeed. Singing would work, filming would work too-- I'd want to try everything! Izumi Mitsuki: What would you wanna do, Tsunashi-san? Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Hmm.... I'd want to try being in a drama with you guys. I feel like it'd be pretty fun on set! Izumi Mitsuki: I wanna try working with Kujou too! I feel like I learn something every time I see him. And I wanna learn more! Nikaidou Yamato: Mitsu sure is passionate about his work. Izumi Mitsuki: What about you, Yamato-san? What kind of work would you wanna take on with us? Nikaidou Yamato: Probably filming. Especially at Tsunashi-san's hotel in Okinawa. That must be real nice.... Izumi Mitsuki: Yeah, I wanna go too! Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: That does sound fun. MEZZO" mentioned that they wanted to come as well, so you're all welcome to visit. Nikaidou Yamato: What about Re:vale? Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: I wonder, would Yuki-san visit? Momo-san has visited me before, though. Izumi Mitsuki: That's nice! Nikaidou Yamato: What did you guys do? Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: We fished the whole time. Nikaidou Yamato: Ahaha. He definitely would. Both of you guys are the type that could stay outside forever. Izumi Mitsuki: I'd love to fish the whole time too! What about the rest of TRIGGER's members? Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Gaku and Ten, huh. Ah.... Is it okay if I say this.... Nikaidou Yamato: What? What? Izumi Mitsuki: Do tell us! Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: We've been there plenty of times for work, but only once on our own personal time. It was really fun! Izumi Mitsuki: You guys are super close! That's a really good thing, and not something to keep secret at all! Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: It's because those two get embarrassed really easily. Please everything I've said here a secret from them. Nikaidou Yamato: Well, the cameras are rolling, so. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Oh. Osaka Sougo: "If you were to hang out with this group...." Yaotome Gaku: Where do you guys wanna go? A collab cafe? Rokuya Nagi: OH! Having more people with me would be extremely helpful. Yaotome Gaku: Is there really that much to eat? Osaka Sougo: It's for winning coasters. Rokuya Nagi: YES. Yaotome Gaku: Winning coasters? Aren't they normally there though? Osaka Sougo: These coasters have pictures of the characters printed on them, and are randomly distributed. Nagi-kun is collecting those. Yaotome Gaku: I see....... Rokuya Nagi: You keep ordering until you get the coaster you want. Yaotome Gaku: ....... Yaotome Gaku: I'm gonna have to say no to the collab cafe this time. Rokuya Nagi: WHAT!? Yaotome Gaku: If we're gonna do something that hit-or-miss, then why not go somewhere we can all get excited over stuff? Like a shrine. We could all go and get omikuji. (4) Rokuya Nagi: No, no, no! It's not the risk that thrills me-- I just want to build my collection. Yaotome Gaku: Then just go some other time. Osaka, which shrine do you like? Osaka Sougo: Huh-- Me? Let me think.... I don't really have any preferences.... Yaotome Gaku: Pick one out, and then all three of us can go there for Hatsumōde. (5) Osaka Sougo: What!? With Yaotome-san!? Yaotome Gaku: Is that a no? Osaka Sougo: Oh no, absolutely not-- I would love to go! ...Doing my first shrine visit of the year with Yaotome-san....... Rokuya Nagi: No, no! Sougo! Please tell him you'd rather go to the collab cafe. Osaka Sougo: If I do my first shrine visit with Yaotome-san, isn’t that already a sign of a great year ahead…? Yaotome Gaku: Rokuya. Did you know they have something called omikuji at Japanese shrines? Daikichi means you hit jackpot, and kyou means you missed. Rokuya Nagi: How dare you explain all of that to me with such a smug expression.... No thank you! Don't talk to me as if I'm an amateur when it comes to Japan. Osaka Sougo: Does TRIGGER ever do their first shrine visit together? Yaotome Gaku: Not unless it's for work, no. I'll try inviting them this time. Osaka, you're one of our fans, right? Osaka Sougo: ......Holy shit....... This is gonna be the best New Year's ever....... (6) Yaotome Gaku: I didn't know you could say stuff like 'holy shit.' Rokuya Nagi: Sougo! Don't you dare collect all of TRIGGER before I collect all of my coasters! Osaka Sougo: Sorry, Nagi-kun. My battle here is over-- I'm withdrawing. Rokuya Nagi: No, no, no! Yaotome Gaku: Ahaha! It'd be great if we could all go. All hell might break loose, though. Osaka Sougo: I'll do my best and try not to cause a ruckus....... Yaotome Gaku: Didn't know you'd be causing one, but sure. Rokuya Nagi: OH....... Since it has come down to this, I'll be enlisting every man into going to the collab cafe with me after the shrine visit. (7) Rokuya Nagi: Let's make it an All-Star Challenge! Izumi Mitsuki: You know, Nagi? The only thing you talked about was the collab cafe. Rokuya Nagi: OH....... It's because we were the team that had nothing in common....... Osaka Sougo: That was mean. We definitely had something in common with each other. Yotsuba Tamaki: Sou-chan. You forgot the cameras were there in that last half, didn't you? Nikaidou Yamato: I can't believe you were tryna rank even on this show, Tama. Yotsuba Tamaki: Ugh. We should've just shoved that video into storage. That was so embarrassing! Nanase Riku: What were you talking about with Ten-nii and the others, Iori? Izumi Iori: What? Didn't we just watch it? Nanase Riku: Yeah, but you guys were using really hard words so I didn't really get it. Summarize it in one word. Izumi Iori: Alright, in summary-- Nanase Riku: One word! Izumi Mitsuki: Man.... I can't believe I talked about all of that stuff back then, with this old man. Nikaidou Yamato: Yeah.... Izumi Mitsuki: It was very moving. Nikaidou Yamato: Yeah.... Nanase Riku: We went out to eat with Momo-san after that! Mitsuki, Nagi, and Sougo-san came along too! Osaka Sougo: It was fun. Are we really doing the first shrine visit of the year with him though? Nagi-kun, can you go and very casually ask-- Rokuya Nagi: Please don't use me. Why don't you ask him, Sougo? Osaka Sougo: Because I'll only get nervous.... Yotsuba Tamaki: I'll ask. 'Yo, you free on New Year's?' Osaka Sougo: P-please ask just a little bit more politely.... pipi.... Izumi Mitsuki: Ah, it's a Rabbit Chat from Yaotome. Osaka Sougo: What!? Nanase Riku: What does it say? Izumi Mitsuki: It says, “You guys down to do the All-Star Challenge on New Year's?”

The End.

TL Notes/comments:

(1) aka in a 'are you talking about yourself?' way. Are you still talking about me, or are you talking about yourself and speaking from experience? yeah OW 

(2) did gaku move or did the dude move??? I d k 

(3) "shiroi u went out of order" yea bc im a forgetful sack of mold ooPS but ANYWAYS pronoun tossed in because its Sakura Haruki. We know who he is so ayee 

(4) Omikuji are lil rolls of paper you get after making an offering at shrines (and temples apparently). You get it from this box and it'll say Big/middle/small blessing or curse, etc. There's a bunch of possible fortunes.  

(5) First shrine visit of the year! It's a New Years thing (I am just exceptionally late in tling this FUCK me) Read more about it here!!  

(6) THIS LINE GETS TO ME EVERY TIME, I WOULD'VE PAID GOOD MONEY TO HEAR THIS VOICED BEACUSE [cv. abe atsushi] YABAI...... SAIKOU NO TOSHIAKE.............................. anyways! yeah i went w/ yabai = holy shit LOL... it's a V flexible word so 'holy fuck' 'hot damn' 'good jesus mother of GOD' 'wOWOWIE' would've all been p good alternatives. 

(7) sougo used a war/battle-related word a few lines ago, and so does nagi here so I continued the thing! sort of! idk if you can even tell! Ha! ha! Ha! 

*** fun fact it took me the same amount of time to tl Everything else (fun grp banter) as it did to tl the fucking Intellectual Team debate. Holy Shit. I feel Riku so hard rn

I MADE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WEEHAW anyways yeah, here’s some nice happy fun winter times before part 3 swoops in on us in ... 4 hours. Fuck

As usual, if you see any mistakes/mistranslations/etc, please message me!

Thank you for reading!!