#also im a perfectionist and i dont like how its going

[overnowsfcb]

i finally decided to postpone the first chapter of fading echoes and im currently gonna write a one shot about fermin lopez because ive been obsessed with him lately 😀👍

[hearts401]

raises my hand i actually like the concept of a shitty parent getting better i just hate when its used to be like "im good now so you should forgive me."

people grow and change and hurt people!!! and those hurt people deserve to move on without having to forgive their abuser!!!

[passsionfish]

anyway regarding the moon halloween costume that i really really want to do this year uh i forgor how i wa sgoing to word this so ill just say what my thoughts are riht now RIBBONS RIBBONS AND BELLS?? TINKLY TINMLY BELL NOISES??

RIBBONS TO PLAY WITH??? SSSSSSSSSSSTTTTTTIIIIIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM JINGLE JINGLE IJINGLE JINGELE HEHEHEH

also I NEED TO DO ARTS AND CRAFTS THINGS FOR FUN MORE SERIOUSLY JUST LET ME DO SILLY ART THINGS HHHHHHHHHGEJHG

also if icosplay moom

i get to be a silly gremlin woo yea

[catsukkii]

HI ATHENA!!! ok so i was wondering if u can do smth with drummer bakugo heh. id like that a lot!!! pls and thank u

hai i love the way ur brain works im READY!

drummer!bakugo who makes sure to bring you up in every interview, or quite frankly any chance he gets. hes grossed out at the thought he has fangirls when you’re all he wants.

“they have no chance, I dont know why those weirdos are still all over me.”

drummer!bakugo who totally shows off extra when your around for practice, unintentionally (intentionally) drowning all the other members out, hes definitely gotten yelled at by everyone more then a few times.

drummer!bakugo who runs to you after every show, completely ditching the band as they’re all celebrating another successful night.

“they can celebrate themselves, lets go home. now.”

drummer!bakugo who makes you write your initial in sharpie on his drumsticks, he claims its ‘good luck’ and makes sure to kiss the wooden sticks on stage before every show.

drummer!bakugo who acts like he hates your praise whenever he plays for you, but cant seem to hide the blush that creeps onto his face nonetheless.

drummer!bakugo who always ends up dripping in sweat after every show, unfortunately the way the colorful lights shine over his sweaty body is something you cant quite look away from.

drummer!bakugo who attempts to get you to try out the drums, and immediately regrets his decision when he hears the loud noises that don't clash nicely together at all. (he’s such a perfectionist its absolutely killing him but he loves you so he politely grabs the sticks out of your hands and ushers you to sit back down.)

however,

if you do play an instrument of any sort he’s learning songs to play together and may pull some strings to get you to play at a few shows with the band.

adding on to that, drummer!bakugo who’s insanely proud when you learn a new song and show him, he's also drooling at the sight of you playing even if its as something as stupid as the flute. (apologies flute players.)

drummer!bakugo who better not see a fan being mean to you online or in person because he does not play, immediately firing back insults. (much to his PR teams dismay.) don't even get him started on if its someone talking about how you ‘don't deserve him’ because he will tweet back about their own looks…

drummer!bakugo who refuses to get you front seat tickets, not because he doesn't want you to watch, but because he refuses to make you sit with all the other fans, especially in their more crowded arenas. Instead, he makes you watch from the curtain, definitely sending you a wink when he gets the chance. (maybe blowing a kiss if you’re really lucky.)

a/n; wrote this as an au where he’s in a band and I can’t stop won’t stop 🔥🔥

[roxyzwritez]

au writing shit idk

heres the Rough Plan for my first few eps:

ep1: the au branches off of canon in the final SU ep, Change Your Mind. renamed to Change Your World. when white yoinks the gem out of steven and pinksteven reforms and whiteasks W H E R E I S P I N K the response is something along the lines of "i am right here, but fuck you im not talking to you." (girlboss) and white gets the "im a child, what's your problem" and has the perfectionist meltdown, then steven's like "sorry but we gotta head out" and they're like "PINK WHAT THE FUCK?" steven goes "im not pink just leave earth alone" the gems agree and give steven The Legs™️.

pearl latches onto the idea that rose is still alive in there. (didn't write that tho just had it cut to this next bit oops) her and greg build a thing to connect to the gem that will essentially connect to pink/rose im just gonna call her rose damnit and allow her to communicate w everyone. shes like "...hey guys. uh. sorry for trying to kill myself i guess that didn't work but i have been minecraft spectating steven for the entirety of his existence with no ability to do anything but think and watch" pearl has a lesbian implosion, everyone's all happy n shit. steven eventually asks about the lying and she's like "yeag i done bad there. i just wanted to keep you guys together" (now that i think abt it there was no mention of bismuth here.. oops,) garnet gives her a Garnet Specil motivational speech and she's like "i missed you too garnet" (i forgot to mention, garnet violently explode-unfuses and ruby+sapphire are just bumbling with happy when rose spoke) amethyst has her own moment (she thought this was all bullshit and started playing fortnite upstairs but between games she heard rose and a p p e a r e d)

anyway rose then is thinking "oh man i gotta talk to so many ppl" and realizes eh guys nothing to worry abt just a HAPPY TO LISTEN, HAPPY TO STAY, HAPPILY WATCHING HER DR- but we should go there NOW" so they do, spinel is understandably distraught and breaks the gemspeaker in half but feels bad about it. she comes with the gang to earth, they show her around, a new gemspeaker is made and they reconcile. yippy! also spinel ate one of ALL. big donut flavors. sadie allowed this just for on e because steven is the LORD AND SAVIOR OF THE STEVEN UNIVERSE haha funny.

anyway she and bismuth talk. bis is kinda like "yeah i wasnt very gamer sorry about that herhee" again ignoring that SHE lied about the bubbling, conveniently forgot to explore that conversation for ease of writing and so i didn't need to go "how do i utilize my 2 iq points to channel these characters and get them to have a coherent, consistent to character conversation about this situation"

peri and lapis are called over by bismuth who doesn't say shit to them for the surprise. lapis is like "yeah ok hit me" peri is more curious. rose speaks, peridot fangirls and lapis is like "oh shit that's historically significant " peri is like "I NEED TO RESEARCH:)))" and runs off. spoiler: gem cloning

bis brings up the idea. rose is like "yeah that sounds legit" (the gem cloning conundrum took me way too long to understand. i drove my friend crazy. "hey can u explain every single quantum detail of this in the most verbose way i dont understand" but eventually i understood it JUUUUST enough to write it lmao i still don't get it)

rose n steven talk in roses room. all happy n shit. greg is told abt the plan and hes like oh shit i gotta clean up and steven is like "you know her standards. she don't give a shit" hes like "yeag"

peri makes progress! she made a little clump!! (explaining the gem cloning: theyre making essentially an empty gem with the powers but no consciousness inside. when its ready, white will take steven's gem out again, rose reforms, and the new gem gets ever so graciously stabbed into his belly where the old one was.)

peri tells steven its gonna take a year. he's like "well okay better than like hundreds of years" then he goes off to talk to the diamonds. he brings the speaker with. rose lets out the thousands of years of distrust and anger at the dismonds and they are humbled even more than when they got pinkd and rose is like "you WILL heal all the shattered ones i don't give a shit" and theyre like "whatever you say little one" (yes they do indeed heal the fallen. probably with regular shipments of steven fluid. that sounded wrong but im not a freak like that hes still 14)

also they go back home and steven talks to rose abt "you told the diamonds you literally wanted to die are you fr?" she explains and hes like YOU FATHERFUCKER, YOU ARE AMAZING AND YOU CAN'T DO THAT (crying)"

next episode is just year-long filler but i made it actually good by making it essentially a montage of lapis and peri in the barn becoming lesbian for eachother. finally, a controversial move on my part, they decide to overcome lapis's fear of fusion and fuse for stevens birthday. their fusion is turquoise (took way too long coming up with a fucking name) and can corrode (water + metal) and can morph/control metal (liquify n stuff. definitely not taken from a lapidot fusion concept i found on google images.) garnet is like "hey pearl look at these silly lesbians " pearls like "damn relatable" garnets like "yeag"

a week or a few after the bday, the gem is finally ready. everyone is excited until steven asks how this is gonna work. peri is like UHHHHH... 😊 and lapis is just "eh just take that one out, stick this one in!" peri goes NNNO- but after some damage control and telling everyone steven will be fine hes like "well i better get some good sleep then. big day!"

there's more but im done typing my fingers are about to go peridot and fuckin fly away let me know if you want the like 1other episode and the minisode after that

[moonlit-dreamers]

*sighs loudly* so i Was going to draw them but turns out my own design is too difficult for me to draw. but i'll be making this post anyway bc this au has been cooking for so long i might as well!

Featherless Flight AU

aka dca avian au where these fucks r BIRDS

(disclaimer this is a sun x moon au. it also deals with heavy themes such as child abuse, death, violence, and. ya know. wutever tws come with the apocalypse (also these will not be talked about in detail in this post))

nothing robotic in them. just feathers, blood, and bones. a lot of that stuff may be lost or break throughout their story! but lemme at least tell u wut they look like (without having my own drawings OTL (i only have a ref for their faces (which im not confident of)))

a quick note for both of their designs, they r both Fully Covered in feathers, including their arms and faces (yes they have arms And wings). the only places that dont have feathers is their lower legs and hands. they have anthropomorphic legs. and their face shape is also similar to a barn owl, as shown here (ignore the lack of mouths, idk wut to give them)

suns design! he has the coloring and general design of a sun conure. hes full of bright reds and yellows, tho the green is replaced with a bit of blue. he has multiple crests around his head that fluff up similar to a cockatiel but theyre in a way that make it look like rays. in the drawing above is wut they look like without their crests raised; that is their default. suns feet r grasping feet which r 2 toes in the front and 2 in the back. sun has high speed wings so aes a lot faster. (if u dont know wut any of this means i recommend u look it up, im a bird nerd) sun is also specifically an omnivore (them having different diets is actually plot relevant)

moons design next. moon is the color of a hyacinth macaw tho his anatomy is closer to an owl. he has one large crest on his head like a cockatoo. its also colorblind! since its anatomy is based mainly off of owls, for moons ability to see at night means he can see less colors. and bc hes more sensitive at night his eyes r always half closed in light, making it look sleepy despite being fully awake. moon has raptor feet with 3 toes in the front and 1 in the back. xis claws r also much larger than suns. moon has passive soaring wings which is better for longer flights. and moon is a carnivore :)

theres also an eclipse but their design is an enigma to me even in my own mind

but back to sun and moon! if anyone is curious moon uses he/it/xe pronouns while sun uses he/it/ae pronouns. they r both aroace and love each other deeply (qpr babyyyyy). sun is genderfluid while moon doesnt give a shit (agender).

sun is more bubbly and energetic. very much high energy bouncing off the walls. hes the kind of optimist where u cant tell if their "bright side"s r trying to help or be condescending. its a master at back handed compliments. heavily a perfectionist and will reach the point of screaming fits if wut he doesnt isnt perfect. ae has a lot of self image issues. ae hides a lot of aers lack of self confidence and doubt behind a wall of "im the best", tho that wall can crash very easily. a bit of a flirt, but mainly bc he just enjoys seeing how ppl react. he takes compliments from everyone but moons compliments r always the best

moon is lower energy and calmer. at least, he acts like it. hes more reserved and if it wasnt for sun he wouldnt have any friends or talk to ppl at all. he fears abandonment and sun is the only person who has stayed with him this whole time and is the only person he truly trusts. is very aggressive towards anyone it doesnt know. despite being shorter than sun (hes 6ft while sun is 7ft) it definitely does a good job at intimidating ppl. over time when xe becomes comfortable with someone xe will eventually calm down and show a bit of a softer side to them. when xes actually calm and likes someone xe can be a bit... chaotic :)

im honestly not sure where ill start their story since ive already thought about their childhood but i also wanna write about their adulthood as well. the story of their childhood mainly deals with the abuse they went through, then with adulthood theyre shoved into an apocalypse bc... y not :) (btw the apocalypse is mainly just bc ive been enjoying apocalypse aus a Lot lately and wanna write one. the child abuse is for their development and to show y they act the way they do. while it will be fun to write their development, i am by no means saying abuse is okay and this topic will be treated carefully and seriously.)

oh theyre also nd as Fuck

but yeah. these r my babies! i hope to at some point start writing the fic so i can show it to u all, but im already in the process of writing another fic, which will be coming out soon!

[spaciebabie]

any advice 4 when u want to keep drawing 2 improve but u cant get over perfectionism ? like when u just dont care how its gonna turn out, if its bad its bad yknow?

ahh yes lowkey ive struggled with this a lot. not as much now as in the past tho, and honestly its beecuz ive developed a more neutral view on myself/my art in general. its going to take time to get to this state of mind, so dont be too hard on yourself when you find yourself falling into bad habits.

advice under the cut (kind of long winded) ⬇️⬇️⬇️

the first thing ive done to overcome perfectionism is focus less on details and more about overall shape and form. when i sketch im trying to get roughly what i want, and i limit the strokes i do in certain parts of my sketch to like 1-3 depending on what im drawing (im ngl i also am very impatient and have created a workflow that makes it so i am able to start and finish pieces as fast as possible LOLOLOL. shrugs. i just like drawing fast).

a good example would be this thing i just drew:

in all of my sketches i tend to use as few strokes as possible and just get the basic idea down. good for not overly focusing on teeny tiny details and worrying about them later (i also use the same technique for lineart, but just end up connecting the lines. thats another tip i have, if you like your sketches more than your fully lined pieces, just line the same way you sketch! or you could also use your sketch as your lineart :P)

another tip i have is to draw from references, and once again, focus mostly on shape/form/the big picture of your subject before going into details (do you know how many planes there are on the human face....i still dont know howta draw faces properly but im not mad at myself anymore about it, i just open up a reference and try to learn). i also recommend having a drawing session where the goal is to draw awfully. draw something you want to draw, but that you're not sure if you'll draw it right, and draw it. dont try to correct it, acknowledge that what you made isnt perfect, and then draw something else. you're learning! of course its not gonna be perfect. but inevitably, you're going to get frustrated. just remember if its something you really want to go back to, you will be able to revisit it in the future. feel your anger and frustration, but do your best to not direct it inward.

small side tangent about shading- I AM SO SHIT AT SHADING SKFHSAFDJHS. people dont tend to notice (surprising), since ig my shading style is considered "beautiful" or something, but if you looked at it on a technical level, there are mistakes everywhere. i havent really tried to improve it. i dont really care most of the time b/c i just like shading for fun. and especially when im shading my sketches, i already have it in my mind that its not supposed to be perfect. its a sketch. this is where im supposed to make all of my mistakes. once i start making my way to the final product is when i start worrying more about if i did the lighting correctly (even then ik im not good at it im not trying to be a god im just trying to draw things that make me happy).

additionally, i really rec u dont try and fudge a sketch until its better if you're deep in a Perfectionist moment. keep the old sketch and start over on a new sketch taking bits and pieces you liked from the original, and improving on those that you dont (shitty thumbnails are also good if you have a vague idea in mind but need ta figure out howta place subjects in your scene). honestly drawing the same thing/idea over and over gets me a better understanding of my subject each time, so naturally each iteration looks better. it doesnt take me that long to sketch tho, so if sketching takes you forever (sometimes if sketching takes you forever its b/c you're a perfectionist skjfskdjf) just think about how much time you're willing to spend on something. remember☝️ its okay to give up/take a break on something and try again later. sometimes you just needta stop looking at your art and like. look at a tree or something lmfao.

i will also say that im not looking to go into a career in art, im more of a hobbyist. ik school environments dont exactly.....help with perfectionism lol. there are certain expectations put on people who go into the art field that are inescapable. if this is the case for you, i still think what ive discussed before can help you, but i also think that you may need to lean more on the mental tips i have also provided below.

alright! mental health tips in regard to art:

so, i have c-ptsd, and with that comes a lot of self image issues that ive had to work on. my feelings about myself extended to the way i felt about my art. it was shit, it was awful, i cant draw like this other person can so why bother, if its not perfect i shouldnt draw at all, etc. and honestly, something thats helped is affirmations. my affirmations are c-ptsd related, but ive noticed a shift in the way i view myself, and by extent, my art since ive started repeating them to myself daily. and honestly, i think a requirement of overcoming perfectionism is telling yourself that your art doesnt hafta be perfect, A LOT. LOL. LIKE YOU ACTUALLY HAFTA ACTIVELY TELL YOURSELF YOU'RE NOT AWFUL LMAOOOO. its funny, we dont think much about how we naturally are self critical about ourselves, and we dont realize that we are basically repeating negative affirmations about ourselves over and over and thats why we're not improving (mentally).

even when you're not drawing, i think it would benefit some people to have some kind of notification on their phone to remind them to tell themselves that their art doesnt hafta be perfect daily/however often you feel you might need it. and then with that affirmation, practice Shitty Drawing. one of the best tips ive ever gotten for this was from one of my friends monnie. get out your sketchbook or some printer paper, take out a shitty pen, and DRAW. and then any mistakes you make are permanent and you cant just endlessly try and fix them. it forces you ta sit with this uncomfortable feeling that something you made isnt perfect. eventually your brain will realize that when your art isnt perfect, you can still draw and you're ALLOWED to continue to draw even if what you make isnt spectacular. if you dont want to repeat an affirmation daily, try to remember to at least repeat it before you sit down to draw. something along the lines of "my art doesnt hafta be perfect in order for me to want to draw. im allowed to draw even if its not perfect" or something else. it depends on what you most struggle with in regards to your perfectionism. im ngl its probably going to feel cringe at first, but i promise you, it really works if you put it into practice longterm.

shoot for neutrality instead of positivity first. let me tell you thats where i am now and its so much less exhausting drawing lmfaooo. i make something that looks like shit and im just like. i dont fucking careee i dont give a fuccckkkkk

those are my tips :] i hope this was helpful!

[httpiastri]

also what house do you think paul’s in? idk why but i always thought he’d be a slytherin, i feel like he just gives slytherin

sorry for spamming, i really love harry potter too hehe - 🥟

(okay sorry im gonna respond to you asks all in one because i wanna save the others in my ask to write abt….. 🤭)

hello hello love! i've been pretty good actually (a bit up and down but mostly good), just very very busy :(( but busy with stuff i like so its okay!! how have you been? and of course i remember you darling!!! 🥹

goddddddd i love the thought of slytherin paul x hufflepuff reader!! yes yes yes!! him being a bit cold and so on but the reader being the bubbliest little thing ever… everyone finding paul scary or intimidating but completely adoring yn and going like "?? how do they work out??" but they fit so well!! she pulls him out of his comfort zone and he makes her chill a bit…. and whenever she's all bubbly and energetic, he pretends to be annoyed by it but in reality, he finds her so cute 🥰

anddddddd aaaaaaa the thought of the two of them alone at hogwarts during the winter, and him being extra open and cuddly because there aren't as many people around so he doesn't have to keep up his tougher act….

quidditch! yes yes yes!!!! no matter the position he has, the reader will be so 😍 anytime she sees him in his quidditch outfit because he's just the perfect guy. and if she too is a player, she will be so distracted during the games because he looks far too good, and then she will remember that he's her opponent and just go ahead and crush him 🤭 but god there will definitely be a ton of teasing and shoving and taunting during the games, whenever they're close by… or if there's a pause due to an injury etc, they will be just sitting on their brooms in the air next to each other, chatting and chilling while everyone else goes "!! you're opponents rn, goddamn it!!!" 😭

and ofc they're helping each other practice even tho they're on different teams… and if they have a match against each other, then the loser would be so happy for the other one while the winner really just wants to comfort the other one :(( but if one of them wins the finals but against another house……. 🥰🥰

hmmmm i actually dont know which house i would put him in? i think that if i write, i might put him in different ones each time lol! because i see him as a good slytherin as you said; very driven, ambitious, perfectionistic, ruthless, and so on. but he also works as a gryffindor; passionate, blunt, idealistic, stubborn, etc. but also as a hufflepuff, because we all know how like silly, funny, genuine and good-hearted he can be. but i also kinda wanna see him in ravenclaw bcs blue is definitely his color (wanna write abt his light blue eyes matching with the scarf around his neck- oh lord) 🥹

and bb really dont apologize!! i loved loved loved reading your thoughts!!! thank you very much for the inspo 🥰 hope you have a lovely week!! 💗

[astranite]

*grumble rant mostly complaining in a big block paragraph chucked out to the void* executive dysfunction issues feel so ridiculous because even when i know exactly what step i need to do next— read the articles for uni essay. Why i need to do it— so i have a base from which to figure out a thesis (look that might cause problems in What am i arguing, but thats a solvable issue if i can focus enough to fix it) to do the rest of the next steps. And how— i have no trouble reading or analysing complex texts. None of that fixes the Cannot Concentrate problem. The articles arent even boring and i like learning new things and im the sort of person know to literally read random bits of textbooks for fun. And i Want to do it. Because i like reading and writing and analysing stuff even above it being important for uni work. But ive spent the afternoon scrolling tumblr, checked my email thrice, left bite marks on my good pen, and literally stared at a blank wall rather than read the article on my screen even when i put away the aforementioned tumblr so now i want to scream. And it makes it difficult to ask for help because people assume its one of the other problems as they aren’t familiar with brain literally wont do it. And being “”clever”” doesnt help (even putting aside the frustrating fact that I couldve done this at 15 and done well and wouldve liked it) because its an entirely different thing (uncannily good pattern recognition and Details and long term memory for facts lead to analytical skills because everything ever is a giant interconnected web, but to focus they do not.) And the classic advice of ‘dont be a perfectionist’ which somehow people also go to isn’t actually what is happening here. The reason things are either in a not even submittable note or its living in my head stage or straight up noting then completed to high level (typos and formatting editing aside as at the last minute those are predictably first to go in the calculation of time to marks) is because the gap of executive function between nothing and even done at all is very large but the subsequent gap between done and done well is limited. My very particular flavour of autistic adhd coming through yet?

So hence rather frustrated especially as here i am trying to do the responsible thing of not starting at the last minute because the research alone will Take Time. And given its the final essay I would prefer not to entirely fuck it up. But ah well, so it will begin again trying tomorrow. Probably is character development that im going to Go On A Walk instead of continuing to bang my head against it.

If anyone read this far ✨Welcome to my brain✨

[struwberrii]

HIIIIIIII I'D LIKE TO REQUEST A MATCHUP (romantic matchup) 💗

im a girl, she/her pronouns, u can call me sofie. i want to be paired with masculine characters, and i dont want to be paired with Hinata, Wakatoshi and Kageyama.

1- Ideal traits: intelligence is the MOST important thing in a person for me. i want someone understanding, who i can be blunt and honest with, and be myself without worries. nerd because i am a nerd and i want to discuss about my nerdy interests :D

2- My personality: my friends say im smart but lazy, and also a difficult person to approach at first. im pretty quiet and i hate small talk so i get why they say that. they say im good at giving advice, but im really awkward when it comes to giving comfort. i cant really say what i think 100% bc im afraid of upsetting them 😭 im an overthinker, caring, perfectionist, anxious, introverted person. i worry about any little small detail and i plan every little interaction i have, even when i go to the market. my friends say im calm outside and chaotic inside. i do panick sometimes but i'd say that im pretty calm. i HATE those hotheaded people that want everything fast, LIKE BITCH CALM DOWN!

3- My hobbies: i like to draw and bake. OMG I CANT DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I LOVE BAKING BROWNIES ITS THERAPY OMG

4- love language: i give quality time and acts of service, and im open to receive any kind expect physical touch for too long. i cant stand more than a 20 second hug.

5- dream date: A CAFE DATE! omg my dream is to go on a cafe date with someone and get all the sweets in the menu while talking about our nerdy interests (i have a sweet tooth).

6- Appearence: im 1.57 cm tall, 45kg. i would say that my body is average. i use glasses, my hair is short brown with red highlights and my eyes are dark brown. i have round cheeks and some pimples like any teenager. i dont care about what i wear as long as its decent and comfortable.

7- mbti: INTJ-T 5w6

THANK U SO MUCH, TAKE UR TIME DOING MY MATCHUP, NO PRESSURE!

match up: tetsuro kuroo ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

i hope u like the matchup sofieee!!!

so the reason i paired you with kuroo is because i see him as very accepting and understanding of people, so i can see him being very open to discussing all your nerdy interest along with him discussing his nerdy interests (because he is also the biggest nerd ever LOL)

also he seems like the type of guy to not get his feelings hurt very easily so i can see him being ok with any of your blunt or straight forward comments and understanding that you didn’t mean it in a rude or unfriendly way.

also your mbti type are compatible, he is an ENTP :o (wasn’t even surprised when i found out his type 😭)

i also think kuroos giving love language would have something to do with acts of service, or gift giving.

he also seems like the kind of guy to do research on the things you like so that he can talk to you about it and actually understand :,(

i also feel like he would encourage you to speak your mind and be honest with him. he wouldn’t want to you to be unhappy if it’s something he can change.

plus CAFE DATES literally would be the cutest thing, he seems like the kind of guy to really want to know a girl before he seals the deal, so i think he would take you on a lot of cafe dates just because he loves talking to you and learning more about you :)

sorry if this was a lot to read but i rlly hope you like the matchup 😭🙏

[himbos-hotline]

i keep seeing so many cool prompts on the kink meme but i've never written fanfic before, do you have any ideas where to start??

so you wanna start writing fanfic and you dont know how to start or what to do. I hope this is somehow helpful at least a little bit

Write for yourself: Pick a prompt/two characters or even one character and write what you would want to read. Make an oc, create that rarepair! I personally started talking about wrestlers with my sibling and focused specifically on one or two and just hyperfocused on them, personally I found making headcanons were easier and building upon that as writing. Make the things you would personally like to read

Dont be a perfectionist: perfectionism is a brain killer and a creativity killer. Youre learning a new skill, you will not be perfect straight away, get a beta reader [someone to look over your work to point out typos, words that would be better ect] spell check and edit but dont start overthinking everything because it can put so much stress on you. Remember this is a hobby, not a career, it doesnt need to meet some imaginary wordcount or page number or whatever else, theres no rules to fanfiction. You dont need to write 20k words your first time, even if its a drabble of 100 words it is needed and wanted in the fandom. There is no such thing as bad writing

Practise: i try to write everyday, even if its just 100 or 50 words, thats enough. You dont have too if its too hard. like previously said its a skill youre learning and it takes time to feel comfortable doing it and you get better while writing and pracising. even if its a line of dialogue or a sentence. However take breaks, dont force yourself to publish a chapter or a oneshot daily otherwise youre going to burn out and thats no good for anybody

Dont use ai: self explanatory but generative AI will kill you creativity and excitement for writing. it also steals from other fanfic writers and its in general not writing. It will not help with beta reading or spelling or nothing like that, stay away from character ai and other stuff as well as chat gpt

write the way you want: if you wanna write in lower case, do it. if you want to use a script format do it! however certain people enjoy things differently.

read: Keep reading, other fanfics, other books you enjoy, research pages. reading helps with writing. leave comments cuz thats just the nice thing to do and then youll have more fanfic to read!

dont compare yourself to others: each author has a different writing voice, you will find your own the more you write. Some people fall into writing easily others work a little harder and thats completely fine, youre making a form of art, not a product, fanfic isnt content. like how artists have different art styles, we all have different writing things

use prompts: either using a genator that you enjoy [if you wanna write smut- a kink generator, theres whump geneartors, fluff prompts] or use tumblr or pinterest

requests: the way I start writing for aew is taking prompt requests for ships. My first one was a hookhausen one and I still love the ship and fics to death so open requests for drabbles [100 or so words]

research: never go into a topic blind, dont know a kink google it or ask a friend, not sure if diaglogue sounds like a character, find clips

Im sure theres others but thats just, how I started writing and always remember what youre writing theres always gonna be one person who likes what youre writing, you can do this anon! i believe in you and I look forward to watching you flower and flourish in your writing journey

[ssolnyshka]

TO MY GORGEOUS AMAZING COMMISSIONERS!!!

I JUST WANTED TO SAY THANK YOU ALL SO INCREDIBLY MUCH!!! @afreakingdork @hijinxensues @kirikatalksalot

I have so much love and appreciation for you three!! You guys were my first proper commissions ever!!!! I had so much fun drawing up the comms to the best of my ability, and im so so SO thankful that you each deemed my art worthy enough to be paid, or tbh literally just ASKED for in the first place. The fact you guys even like my art is beyond me?!? 🙇‍♀️😭🫶🏻 (Also, im doing the perfectionist artist thing where i keep looking back at them going... they deserve better... what if i just re drew it... [theres the possibility i might tbh🧍‍♀️])

I genuinely dont know how to explain how insanely thankful i am for you all!! 🫠🫶🏻

I remember with each commission i would freak for a bit, kicking my feet, squealing, jumping around, etc... before calling/messaging my parents who were just as stoked that I had managed to succeed enough to finally have people who actually liked my art enough to request a commission!

As shown in my squeal-y excited texts lmao

@afreakingdork my mum knows vaguely about you just bcs i constantly honk abt "this fanfic i really like!!! thats so well written!!! and is the size of multiple novels!!! The author is so lovely!!! RAH RAH RAH!!!" (I frl dont shut up when a new chap comes out, even if im vague abt what its about... im not THAT comfortable with my family HAHAH)

But seriously, from the bottom of my heart, thank you all so much. You each made my year, tbh my life, i genuinely wont ever forget how lovely you all have been and the support you have given me :,) <3

Sorry if this is annoying/embarrassing to have me freak out and fangirl over you each so much but IM JUST SUPER HAPPY 🙇‍♀️🫶🏻😭

So much love to you all, Stella. <3 xx

[johannwolfgangvongoethe]

modding/chara building diary

just realized i can just post truly anything. this is sort of ffxiv posting but not really. this is also sort of enstars posting but not really.

this exists so i can look back on it <:) a lot of this probably makes no sense to most people, sorry.

uhh i was kinda into modding ffxiv two years ago. then i stopped because the community around this is full of the most unsympathetic people you will ever meet, and that was honestly just very demotivating. but i play ffxiv regularily and its rather fun and easy to mod. and thats illegal!!! btw!!!! (no one care)

so since enstars has hurt me one too many times and there is no hope for things to get better, i am coping (or not) and grieving terribly by making a seeker catboy who isnt really koga but has all the parts of him that are important to me and that i enjoy.

yeah idk if this is productive either. but its not doing any harm probably. ffxiv as a game has its ups an downs but i find the universe to be very very easy and fun to build around.

idk. im just having fun with it for now.

ive been meaning to make an NA alt and replay some of the early game at least (i started in... 2017? its been so long. man.) and this seems like a perfectly nice vehicle to do so :) and while that happens, i can maybe organically learn about the pretty-much-OC i am trying to build. but out of perfectionist ambitions, i had to mod everything into place first.

i have decided on a name but i ueuuueeehhhhughhhh >publically naming your characters when youre a modder. so i will say "W" for now. basic lore thoughts i knew going into this:

he needs to be a tia because i like catboys and theyre all vaguely gay loner nerds and incredibly hyperfixated on one specific topic

the Warg seeker tribe seems like the obvious and fun pick

i want a monochrome grey colour scheme + Much Teeth

-> game limitations classify those as keeper traits, not seeker traits. but i dont care!!! however that means im using a keeper model for all of this

the character has to be an artist. because the "i need to make art and i wont accept any other way of life" sort of mentality is precious to me due to how unsustainable and stubborn it is

-> i have for now settled on painter because its the type of art i have most connections to. also bc uh love and beast ref ig (I HATE YOU "HIDDEN BEAST"!!!! I HATE YOUUUU!!!!!! but its cute he was a painter for it, isnt it)

his place of origin is most likely the north shroud, esp the bit that got utterly messed up by the calamity, around alder springs. mostly because its an interesting place and warg must exist in the area due to the ixal

this also implies the warg seekers might work in mining these days Or have largely moved their residence. or they split up. i need to re-do coils

to support himself while his art isnt selling yet, i think itd be nice to put him with a tree nursery around gridania that i already thought of for my main ffxiv chara. i just think its funny if theyre ex-coworkers. that is all

-> hes creating incomprehensible symbolism-y shit to me. without people in it. but constantly attempting to redefine and depict humanity without humans. he hates drawing landscapes and portraits but will do so grumpily, if it gets him acknowledged and paid

because i am forever deeply fan of the rkg dynamic, the character must have a muse, which is dead, but which he clings to dearly for inspiration and emotional support. esp bc i dont think the guys that social otherwise.

the drama of him seeing a ghost that is no longer there but real to him is nice.... and honestly even practical. it might just be aetheric residue with a sprinkle of mental illness.

what of the muse? i dont know. a fellow painter, who couldnt follow that passion. obviously they must have met before. i have vague thoughts but nothing im confident enough in yet (i think a duskwight family of heretics could be interesting and dramatic but ehhh) ALSO I DONT THINK THEYRE ACTUALLY DEAD-DEAD LOL but i havent figured the situation out yet

-> you know in star trek tng when Q just randomly shows up to bother picard. thats maybe sort of how id describe whats going on

the muse W sees is a version of a person that is long gone, and cannot return. the actual person behind that might still be out there but they are not the one that left an impact on W. what W sees and passionately interacts with is a phantom that only exists bc his mind allows it to, it is a self-serving vision, at least to a degree. maybe comparable to what fray is.

-> W never actually paints them. he only paints emotions about them. (they were a portrait artist and it makes them rather sad)

which leaves me with a nice to do list i can work on every once in a while, like making the chara, doing sidequests in the north shroud, looking at leve and fish descriptions of that area, doing coils again. to begin with.

anyhow, to the actual modding part. its such a work in progress. but i have made so many small adjustments already.

got an asymmetric face UV base to work on

edited the face mesh, mostly to make the chin more broad and to pull up lower canines

translated the standard miqo'te facial markings into smth more dog-like in appearance, while attempting to keep their canon design somewhat intact

added some basic make up, as well as bit of a gradient

+AN ASHY NOSE. THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING A MIQO'TE CAN HAVE

got rid of the ear skin

replaced ears and tails with a torgal body parts port WHICH THANKFULLY EXISTED ALREADY? THANK YOU RANDO ON XMA

darkened the eyeball to resemble canine eyes more

slightly adjusted the dimensions of some face and body parts, like the nose

got rid of the catboy tear lines. bc on dogs they look unhealthy. now hes not a dog. and they dont look bad on game models. but the association is there. this makes no sense really, it just bothered me personally

-> to do: definitely need stronger thicker brows. look up how that works now after the graphics update. add a bit of skin texture? a bit of freckles/moles? need to find out how to hide hair when a full helmet is equipped. also since the ears are attached to the tail, i need a version of the model that just has the tail, so i can kick the ears if i need to (impossible to explain. but what if he wore a hat)

i made a hair mashup for this because. why not. then i painfully retaught myself how weighting armatures works. bc i hate myself. also made shapekeys, so he can wear hats. but i learned a lot so its ok (crying) (thumbs up)

TBSE download bc what else are you supposed to do

added a gradient to his lower legs and arms too, to match his face, also added some skin details but nothing crazy

started making the hands uglier. this guy touches dirt and paint thinner all day. he must have the ugliest hands in the world. and i love that.

but its not enough. we have to go deeper. i have to make them WORSE STILL!!!!!!!! i wonder if i can just shorten the fingers or if that will mess up animations. hmmm ill have to try

also made a quick chest piece mashup just so hes dressed in smth for now.

-> to do: worse hands. maybe paint on rougher skin? i think it would be cute to add paint he didnt manage to wash off to his hands? hrmmm. also ill need to make custom earrings. there still smth about the hair that i need to fix (augh)

but yeah thats what i got so far. might update later on. i just thought itd be fun to capture my initial thinking process in case this goes somehwhere. i like being creative but im not that huge on drawing tbh. so i do stuff like this and nui clothing to stay sane while also engaging in arts and crafts LOL....

[transflynnscifo]

oh my god you know. i forget to mention how much i enjoy seeing art of flynn but the expressions really count. obviously tender expressions or determined faces are good, gay even, the "heartthrob with the steely gaze" is very underrated.

i feel like i sometimes forget that flynn isnt constantly smiling and is instead sporting a severely intense expression. its only when hes in the party where he (though not instantaneously) starts smiling more and relaxes (though he could relax some more)

(i ramble on for a bit more with some in-game examples below + conclusion)

but you know? beyond these two options you need to know. there is a perfectionist grouch under all that worksona and even tenderness. honestly those bits only kind of emerge when he loosens up enough to banter with yuri in skits, and even then his skit faces dont go that extreme. obviously this is because flynn struggles relaxing even when in the party

example one, the skit where everyone discusses their least favorite places in the world, flynn gives a non-answer. when rita calls him out on it, he gets flustered about it

example two, in fact, he is obviously uncomfortable letting any personal gripes and discomforts known that it takes yuri to tell the party that flynn hates the food theyve been eating (cook enough seafood and youll get it :p )

there is even a (translated) anthology comic that plays with this all, where karol wants flynn to be less serious/tense around them all. its a struggle

if you would consider it, the first strike movie shows us a grouchier flynn, though, granted, hes younger, more foolish, and also going through many feelings

but where im going with it is that especially latch myself to drawn flynns that are at least a little dismayed or even grouchy over (mostly yuri's) shenanigans that he witnesses. i think there should be more of it. he isnt mister perfect he is a bastard and i like him (obviously also flynns that are ready to dismay others around him are good as well. but that wasnt exactly the point of the post)

[jiminjeonging]

i wasn’t going to say anything, but since you obviously saw it too and it annoyed you, why don’t we vent about it, nat?

some winterbelles acting like they have some phD on “minjeongology” getting mad at us for supposedly putting her in a box that is, to make an almost exact quote, “a baby persona that fits into our fantasies for our shipping shits”, and also “a made up persona based on a heteronormative, oppressive kink trope”

sometimes I truly wonder… do these people even perceive mj at all?

it’s kinda crazy to me that they can stan her so fiercely and fail at understanding something as basic as “mj ≠ winter.” i wish they could see the irony of saying this bullshit too, because they’re the ones that are actually projecting onto her and failing to separate her stage persona from her true personality. yes, she is comfortable with masc terms; yes, she likes being called handsome; yes, she dresses in a somewhat boyish manner.

none of these things make her any less of the supreme babygirl that she is lol

if anything, they’re the ones putting her in a box. basically they’re saying that this other side of her nullifies her being inherently baby, and that is not how this works. as you’ve said already and i’ll repeat, she could shave her head and even change her name to minsik and start using he/him pronouns, and that still wouldn’t change the fact that she’s so aegi to the point of making her seem outright childish (in an endearing way, of course, because we know how much of a responsible, perfectionist workaholic she also is, and again, this doesn’t change her personality and who she is as a person when off the clock).

the girl literally just said she sleeps with puppy plushies on her bed with her kindergarten puppy blanket, but sure, clearly that’s some hardcore mature and manly thing to do or some shit. clearly we’re the delulus and those boywin truthers are right. something something wock, something something jm really must be the actual omega/bottom lmaaooooooo

better point and laugh 🤣

they’re soooo weird its actually jarring to see. they know nothing about mj nothing and they have audacity to call us fake stans just because we dont see her as the top dom daddy of the group which is something they made up in their own heads. like everything i said on that tweet came out of her own mouth willingly. not even a fansign question like minsik was but we are the wrong ones for saying shes a baby based on her own words?? they need to unstan right now if they think we calling her a babygirl “kink” fucking weirdos i swear. and im so sure those were the ppl camping on my ccs about babyboy mj back then. they all have me blocked when i didnt interact with them once but they still stalk and subtweet like the weirdos they are

[venomsrealgf]

♡!Introduction!♡

Hello everyone! I never really made a proper introduction before, or made my boundaries clear when it comes to requests ect! So I thought considering I've posted a few fics already maybe now would be a good time haha. My name is Mio! I go by She/her and im a raging bisexual fr. I am 18+ therefore I do not want minors to interact with my NSFW works that i may do in the future. Interacting with SFW fics is completely fine for teens up. I do not mind if you wanna message me about anything, feel free! I enjoy making new friends and especially friends who r into writing :) Now when it comes to requests I will go over my boundaries and rules! ALSO MY REQUESTS ARE OPEN!!! SHOOT ME A DM OR ASK!! <3 What I will do: - SFW, Fluff - Light NSFW / Heavy NSFW - Angst / Heavy Angst - F/M, F/F, GN/M, GN/F - Any touchy subject (TW below) (example: SH) - Usage of drugs/alcohol ect. - Gore, ( I am comfortable with heavy Gore) What I wont do: - SA / Rape - Incest - Underage - I will not age up any character to make NSFW out of them, only if they have a canon adult version. - Other yucky stuff - I am not comfortable writing about male/male NSFW since I am a female and feel like I would butcher it up badly. SFW I can do slightly.

- What Games I know and will write for: - Overwatch - League of Legends - Valorant (not 100% familiar but will still write for) - Baldurs Gate 3 - Dead by Daylight (PLEASE) - Lethal Company - Genshin Impact (Not too familiar since i havent played alot in a while, but hot men so.) - IF YOU DONT SEE A GAME YOU KNOW ASK ME!!!! maybe i will know it just forgot to add!

- What Shows/Movies I know and will write for: - Marvel - Hazbin Hotel / Helluva Boss - Demon Slayer - Avatar (2009 and Way of water) - Arcane - Transformers Prime / Bayverse / Rescue Bots - Sonic Boom / Sonic Movies. (shadow my love) - TMNT Bayverse (never written before but its fine!) - How to Train your Dragon ( I LOVE HICCUP) About fanfics of Content Creators: I am kind of meh about writing fanfictions of CCs. I also please ask you to request with a clear vision in your mind since I am a perfectionist lowkey and It starts bothering me if someone who requests doesn't have a clear plot. (A request i have trouble with: Can you write (character) with Reader? You can figure out a plot!) (A request I don't have trouble with: Could you write a fic where (character) and Reader spend a nice day out for their anniversary and they do lots of stuff together, and then they end up home ect. ect.) Okay I've never written this much before or used this much time on a fucking introduction before but oh well!!!