#also if 'giving into your dysphoria' would have made you want to die

[perennial-bee]

"trans people are only trans because of oppressive gender roles and if we just got rid of the gender roles nobody would be trans" might sound like a hot take, a thoughtful and compassionate take, but unfortunately it is ice cold and does not understand how being trans works at all. meet and talk to and listen to more trans people - preferably in real life - before making assertions like this, especially if you yourself are not trans.

[sharkboywrites]

Haayyy >__0 if your rqs are open I'd looove to see another floyd x male reader fic... I would love to see some hurt/comfort stuff around floyd's bpd getting in the way of him finally having a meaningful relationship, n the reader comforting him about it. If you could somehow imply that the reader is trans. and autistic. that would be cool !! but it is opt. ^_^

floyd bpd is a major hc of mine and I hardly see anyone actually pointing it out or writing about it ... that stuff's gotta be done!! he's bpdtastic!! and no one gaf 😭😭😭!!!!!

Tough Times

Bpd Floyd x Trans autistic reader

A/N: Hii! So to be completely honest I don’t really know everything about bpd, although I suspect I may have it but that’s unrelated, but I’ll try my best to write it. Please correct me if I get anything wrong! Also I’ll try to fit in the reader’s own traits but I might have a bit of trouble with it

Trans reader, autistic reader, Floyd had bpd

Floyd was hard to deal with for most people

Most people thought he was too crazy, too quick to change his emotions, and was completely unpredictable and dangerous.

You weren’t most people though.

While Floyd did have his quirks, you still love him, the two of you were practically inseparable. Like seriously, it started to become odd to see one of you without the other.

Although, while you two still loved each other, sometimes it would be hard. Each episode either of you had would cause a problem in your relationship, whether it be your dysphoria or meltdowns, or Floyd’s sudden mood changes and impulsive behavior.

It hurt Floyd more than he’d ever wanted to let you know.

He really hated the way he acted, the way it caused problems between the two of you, the way he would get you into trouble along with him whenever he was impulsive.

Having these feelings just made things worse for him. The more he tried to shove it down, the worse his mood swings would get. One moment he’d be clinging to you like if he’d die if he let you go, and the next he’d be avoiding you like the plague, doing stuff that would get him into trouble.

It worried you. You knew something was wrong with the way he was acting, but you weren’t sure how to address it with him right.

During the next time he was with you, you decided it would be the best time to try and talk to him about it. You sat him down in your dorm room and gently caressed his hand as you told him what you felt was wrong.

His emotions were everywhere. One moments he was upset and crying, the next angry and yelling, mostly at himself, but in the end he was able to tell you what was wrong.

You held him closely, assuring him that even though he had these problems, you were always there for him. You weren’t going to leave him over this, that the two of you could always talk it out, just like the way you did during your own episodes.

For the next few days you made sure to shower him in affection, staying by his side almost all day, giving him treats, and reinforcing how much you love him. Your actions were reassuring to him, and while he still had some complicated feelings, you were helping to make him feel much better.

Sometimes things may be hard between the two of you, you both have your problems, but at the end of the day you both love each other, and both of you will always do your best to not let that get in the way.

[slay00ryu]

ronin hcs pls :3

I have barely any hcs but I will try my best!!!

Ronin headcanons made by yours truly, enjoy.

Fluffy ones:

- When you and Ronin decided to go and enjoy pride month on a parade the two of you saw a teenager. That teenager was carrying around their non-binary flag, but they were too scared to hold it out like most people did. You expected Ronin to ignore that, but instead he approached the teenager and held out their flag with them. You never saw him so attentive before.

- Ronin purposefully keeps some of his clothes in your wardrobe to see you wear them and then accuse you of stealing from him just for shits and giggles.

- When you walk past a stray cat and it happens to cling to Ronin he will stop to pat it. He would smile at the cat and say something like "Huh, you like rotten things too?" He would look at you after he said that.

- If you're also trans like he is and you have a dysphoric day he will make sure to help you with it. "Come on baby, you are who you say you are. And to me you are fucking perfect just the way you are." He would help you bind, or try to help you with your make up (probably will fuck it up on purpose if your mood gets better) or whatever else you need to help with your dysphoria.

- Ronin isn't really open about his feelings in words, yeah he will call you his darling or sometimes whisper an "I love you", but mostly he will show it through physical touch, he's touch starved after all. He will hold your hand, poke you to get a reaction, kiss your forehead, maybe even bite you. Big and small touches are just his thing.

- If you're having a shitty day then he will roll you up into a blanket burrito and watch some sappy shit with you so you would feel better. Ice cream craving? He already bought three different flavours? You want to smash something or someone? Baby, he's standing at the door with his crowbar and a baseball bat for you.

Angst shit:

- If you were to die but Ronin had zero control over it, he would be in despair. He didn't take your life, your death wasn't his plan or your pleading. You're just... Gone? He would feel empty for a while and then fill that void with more murder. If someone else dared to murder you they would be gone in a matter of days.

- If you and him broke up in bad blood and somehow you would leave that break up alive, Ronin would be closed off for some time. The server wouldn't notice the change unless they knew him really well. He would try to keep his edgy murderer persona, but if anyone even mentioned your name he would go quiet or leave the conversation.

- Sometimes he can open up about the mess in his head or what happened in his past. He wouldn't show how emotional these topics can make him, but if you've known him long enough you will see the change. Just be there for him, squeeze his hand and say that you need cuddles even if you know that he's the one who needs them, he won't cuddle you when he's sad, the devil doesn't feel sad.

Ronin™ type of shi:

- Ronin would push you until you kill him or a random person. He wants to corrupt your head completely. So as long as blood is on your hands then he will be satisfied.

- If you're obsessed with him then it will give him a strong sense of satisfaction. You not only need him, you can't live without him. His corruption worked out even better than he anticipated.

- If someone misgenders you, acts like an asshole or harasses you in any way, you can expect their aorta on a silver platter with a pair of eyes.

- Ronin will leave you a small message after a kill somewhere on a wall. "Love you rotten darlin'" or something like that. He will laugh at your reaction and say "Awh, but I thought that you would like this cheesy shit baby."

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That's all!!! I hope you're satisfied with these <3 I don't really make hcs so it was hard

Thank you for the ask!!!

Bye bye <3

Currently writing another rq, will try to post it tmrw

[pasta-in-the-pudding]

oh my , oh my , oh my…

MTF!Jeff the killer x Reader 🙏🏻🙏🏻

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Summary: MTF (Male to Female) Jeff x Reader headcanons

Genre: Fluff

Warnings: Little mentions of transphobia and being confused about gender, the cover picture can be a little creepy if you have a thing about lots of limbs in one place, brief mention of psychosis and jeff kind of not having an understanding of it

A/n: MTF JEFF MY BELOVED. Also, I will be referring to Jeff with she/her pronouns throughout the entire work just to avoid confusion

Credits: Jeff the killer- Creepypasta, Divider- benkeibear, Picture- Pinterest

MTF!Jeff the killer x Reader

As im sure we can all guess, Jeff didn't have the best support system growing up

The kids barely had their basic survival needs met, let alone had the freedom to question things like gender and sexuality

But after living with Slender for most of her life, jeff gets the chance to explore who she is as a person for the first time

She had been feeling dysphoria her entire life with her body, but she just considered it to be another symptom of whatever caused her psychotic break during the 'incident'

She never even considered the possibility that she might be trans until seeing others describe their experiences

It is only then that she realized a lot of what she was experiencing wasn't psychosis, but was instead gender dysphoria

And the realization kind of makes things worse

She's already in a relationship with you, and what if you leave her because you wanted a man? Not to mention what her friends might think, and what if no one takes her seriously? What if she gets made fun of?

All of these emotions swell up in her, and she refuses to talk to anyone about it

Until eventually she's just in a rage, punching walls and yelling at people, even beating anyone who gets too close up

She eventually storms off to her room and you give her a second to just chill out

After a while, you go up there too

She is laid down on her bed, seemingly trying to sleep

You sit next to her, careful not to touch her (She hates being touched when she's angry) "What was all that about?" you ask in a worried tone

She doesn't respond, she'd honestly rather die than tell you what's been going on

You sit in silence for a second before talking again "You know you can tell me anything. I promise it won't make me love you any less"

She still doesn't say anything, which leads to you sighing and leaving the room

A few days later you two had gotten wrapped up in a conversation about trans people and your opinions on the subject

"Would you ever date a trans person?" She asks

You place a finger on your chin, thinking for a moment before saying "I like to think I'd be open to it. Why, are you trans?" You add that last part as a joke, but quickly begin to question whether it was a joke

Her breath hitches and she quickly looks away from you, not sharing the laugh that you do

You quiet down and it is silent for a while, no one dares to speak

"....Jeff, a-are you trans?"

"I don't wanna talk about it" She says, quickly standing up and leaving the room

You try to get up and chase after her, but by the time you look into the hallway, she's gone

Being together after that is very awkward, and you see that she obviously doesn't want to talk much on it so you decide to keep your questions short and sweet

"Does anyone else know?" You ask, both of you not looking at each other

"No, and I don't want them to." She responds

"Do you have another name you want me to call you?"

"....Jeff is fine."

You smile and finally look at her "Ok" you press a quick kiss to her cheek before rambling about your day, quickly making both of you forget all about the previous topic

She is very shy when it comes to actually coming out, and she obviously doesn't change much, so you decide to just take things slow

Idk if she'd ever want to medically transition, because despite hating her body she also has those moments where she's like "I'm literally god no one else could ever look this good"

And as for the name, she doesn't really see a reason to change it, she likes being called Jeff

[henrioo]

Why do you have "WOMEN DNI" and "empire for male readers" in your bio things yet have the same amount of male and female reader fanfics? (also you spelt 'only' wrong in your pinned post)

Okay so

Thanks for correcting me, my English is getting worst every day but I made that banner wrong because I was almost sleeping in that day, I correct that shit like 30 times and still wrong hahaha

But now I'm not going to be nice to you because now you really piss me off, so I would say sorry but I'm not really

First of you all you must be REALLY FUCKING DUMB to think that I ever have write to female readers

LIKE REALLY REALLY DUMB

IF YOU TAKE LIKE, TWO MINUTES TO LOOK AROUND ON MY OLD FICS YOU GONNA FIND A THING CALLED "GN READER"

BUT SINCE YOU ARE DUMB YOU MUST NOT KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS, SO I GONNA EXPLAIN TO YOU, IT'S MEANS GENDER NEUTRAL READER

YOU PROBABLY ALSO DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT IS NEUTRAL BUT DON'T WORRY I'M FEELING NICE TODAY! IF YOU DON'T KNOW, THERE PEOPLE THAT, WHAT? DON'T IDENTIFY THEMSELVES AS MALE OR FEMALE

WOOOOW, THAT MUST BE SHOCKING FOR YOUR DUMB BRAIN

BUT YEAH, SOME PEOPLE DON'T ARE FEMALE OR MALE, AND EVEN IF THEY ARE, THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT DON'T USE MALE OR FEMALE PRONOUNS, ONLY NEUTRAL PRONOUNS, THE GN READER FICS ARE FOR THEM, NOT FOR YOU STUPID ASS

AND DUDE, YOU REALLY GOT ME PISSED SAYING I FUCKING WRITE FEMALE READERS WHEN I JUST READING FEMALE READERS GIVE SO MUCH DYSPHORIA THAT MAKE ME WANTS TO STOP WRITING

OH, BUT YOU WROTE AFAB... OH GUESS WHAT STUPID DUMBASS, AFAB PEOPLE ARE NOT FUCKING FEMALE, NOT FUCKING WOMEN!

ALL MY OLD STORIES ARE WRITING WHEN I WANTED TO EVERYONE FEEL LOVED WITH MY IMAGINES, I WANTED THAT NO ONE FEEL DISCRIMINATE BECAUSE IS A MALE OR FEMALE STORY ONLY

BUT OH GOD I SWEAR FOR MY DEAD BODY THAT I PREFER DIE TO WRITE A FEMALE STORY AND I SWEAR I NEVER WRITE ONE

SO YOU DUMBASS, YOU ARE LUCKY THAT YOU MADE THAT ANON, BECAUSE IF I HAVE YOUR PROFILE I WOULD BLOCK YOU WITH SO MUCH PLEASURE

SO YEAH, STUPID ASS, I REALLY HAVE A LOT OF GN READER AND SOME AFAB GN FICS, I WON'T DENY, BUT I NEVER WRITE A FEMALE STORY, WE ARE CLEAR WITH THAT?

And yes, my profile is gonna be a empire for male reader, and yes I don't want any fucking women interacting with my post, BECAUSE IS NOT MADE FOR THEM

And if is not clear enough, I don't give a shit if I'm excluding women from my stories making only male reader

Women already excluded boys from they story's and they gonna do this until the end of the days

So yeah, fuck women, my blog is only for boy and masc people that want a safe place

And for last, go fuck you anon, if you are that dumb don't even lose your time on my blog because you don't have the mental capacity to understand anything

[tirfpikachu]

Tumblr may have filtered my last ask bc it had a link, or maybe you weren’t interested in responding. If it was a fluke, I’d love to hear your thoughts on a post by butchmartyr/760478305191346176/noooo-trans-person-dont-mistake-your?source=share

My first thought was “there shouldn’t be gender affirming clothes” just clothes you like wearing or clothes that feel expressive. I stewed on it for a while because I definitely support people doing what works for them, but seeing this “no it’s not ur radical self acceptance, it’s trans apathy and don’t die wondering, u could be happier” was kinda wild. Anyway take care out there!!

NAUUURRRRR I WAS TOO LATE THE POST GOT DELETED???

but honestly from what you've said... i feel like trans ppl, especially those who go for more stereotypical opposite sex gender conforming clothes/hairstyles/etc can 1000% do gender affirming things that are sexist, or at least describe what they're doing in a sexist way. they often don't bother to look at their own behaviors thru a feminist lense. in their defense, they are often dealing with debilitating dysphoria and can't really think much beyond "i want the discomfort to stop" and humans often draw conclusions about strangers based on very stereotypical characteristics like long vs short hair, makeup, skirts/dresses vs shorts/pants, high pitched vs low pitched voice etc so for them, conforming to the opposite sex's stereotype means having an easier time being recognized as the opposite sex/agab. it means the awful feeling inside them stops and they get relief from the distress that dysphoria gives them. so they aren't thinking clearly, and i say this as someone who was dysphoric for like, 13 years.

honestly in some way i don't blame them - often they do this only until transition, and then i've found they (at least transmascs) are more likely to want to be visibly gnc post-transition. so they aren't just giving into the patriarchy's demands and reinforcing stereotypes permanently; it's a form of treatment, in a way. but the thing is that it's also addictive... they get validation from one stranger, whether it's just out of trans allyship or not, and then it makes the following times they're misgendered that much more painful. which makes them seek transition that much more desperately, understandably so.

the problem with this is that many of them don't just affect themselves with this. they affect "cis" gnc people too with how they talk about themselves and how they talk about gender-validating crossdressing ("crossdressing" can be a cringy word, but ykwim). they aren't just talking between themselves, as much as they tend to think they are. they're posting about this shit in public social media spaces with mildly dysphoric ppl and gnc people who can very well develop dysphoria thru reading their "how to Look Like A Man/Woman" type posts. if to "look like a man" or "look like a woman" you need to be gender conforming, what would that make "cis" gnc people reading it feel about themselves? in a world where we're always told that we're not man enough, we're not real women, we don't act or dress or think like a woman should? of course i developed dysphoria. ofc i did. many other detrans & post-trans gyns and detrans men developed it as a result of this kind of rhetoric. i understand that these ppl need tips from each other to figure out how to manage their dysphorias. i get that. but this shit isn't well moderated at all. they don't actually tell people hey, it's okay if you're just gnc. they don't put a dysphoria-inducing trigger warning or something. they don't realize that this is a... okay, this will be a weak metaphor, but kinda how some mental illness communities will give each other tips that really makes shit worse for ppl reading it who might not even have had any signs of mental illness symptoms before reading it. <<< another thing that happened to me btw, those tumblr spaces really made me mentally sick. i was always prone to it, same as how i was prone to dysphoria, bc of my upbringing & genes. but reading about very mentally sick people's deep inner thoughts really fucked with my head!! and reading about very dysphoric people's deep inner thoughts REALLY fucked with my sense of self. reading about them calling their boobs in masc outfits gross and disgusting and feeling slimy or whatever on their chest made me start feeling dysphoric about them; i had always felt insecure abt my body, and hated that it was so sexualized by boys, but suddenly i developed a whole new complex about it. i know gnc male/amab ppl can have similar feelings when transfems talk abt their bodies and how gross they looked in feminine outfits, how they wish they looked like cis women, how they can't wait to have that happened bc their current visibly gnc bodies are disgusting. cis/bio gnc men reading or listening to that shit can really gain so much shame abt their natural inclination towards femininity and traditionally unmasculine things.

trans people, dysphoric people really need to watch how they talk about their gnc bodies pre-transition and how much they casually gender clothes, hairstyles etc (even just in jokes). they also need to make sure their audience doesn't have ppl who are mildly, potentially treatable dysphorics who can fall deeper into dysphoria by reading what mainstream tras say about their gender nonconforming bodies and womanhood/manhood. they have no idea how many vulnerable, insecure people susceptible to new insecurities are reading what they're writing or hearing what they're saying. also, them trying to steal the "don't die wondering" sapphic slogan by making it about transness, making it about transition, is truly fucked up. if they listened to detrans/desisted/post-trans people AT ALL they would know what to do and not to do to prevent future detransitions. and detransitioners makes them look bad, as they always love to remind us, so why the fuck would they be so careless as to create more of us by not moderating their spaces? it harms trans people too, doesn't it?

we need more tra accountability. we need them to call this shit out.

[popstart]

Yeah you know what i'll send G1 for sexuality and gender HCs. why not

Alejandro: Ive never sat down and thought about this but bisexual seems correct.

Beth: I think ive always operated under the assumption shes lesbian lol. brady is SUCH a comphet boyfriend

Bridgette: I have a hard time seeing her as anything but straight I cant even lie? like i love wlw bridgette ships but not in a way that I wouldn't be unsurprised if they were canonically shut down lmfao 😭😭😭I really like the lesbian bridgette hc I just cannot get behind it in a way that aligns me with actually thinking bridgette would be a lesbian

Cody: I have no opinions on what I think his sexuality is but I cannot get behind relationships between him and girls

Courtney: LESBIAN. but i do like seeing other hcs for her. I see cases for her being bi, I see cases for her being straight. shrug emoji. I do really like duncney as a ship though which throws some wrenches in that hc just a little bit lmfao

Dj: I operate in a world where Dj is a lesbian even though I dont think i seriously think that. Its just how it goes

Duncan: i have a hard time seeing him as anything other than straight. like. im sorry this guy would be so homophobic. he would use the word gay as an insult. However, i do like aleduncan. so take of that as you will (its funny and makes me laugh) he has gay friends though omg🙄🙄🙄🙄

Eva: LESBIAN. yes its stereotypical. no i dont care. shes such a dyke

Ezekiel: straight??????? idk. this isnt even a "hes sexist so he would be other flavors of bigoted" I just dont live in a universe that I think ezekiel could be queer

Geoff: bisexual except i dont think he would label it. he thinks its normal for everyone to be a little attracted to the same gender. my friend that has only seen a little bit of total drama also likes him being a trans man which i mostly find funny but i could see lmao.

Gwen: lesbiannn. I really like the hc shes a trans girl as well, or nonbinary. im fine with either of those. regardless she is not cishet in any fashion. i genuinely think she is very very lesbian coded aligned because the way she behaves with men in the show is just???? so strange? i dont think it was intentional from the producers though which has me hesitant to mark it as actually "coded". Also i so seriously believe she was one sided crushing on courtney in all stars. why is she so weird. like im not a big gwourtneyer but wanting to impress a girl that bad teeters into "theres no straight explanation for this" territory

Harold: idk. trans in some direction. last year I remember seeing one of those your fave is posts and it was transbian harold and i remember laughing so hard bc i wasnt in the fandom at the time I had no idea someone would hc harold of all people as transbian.

Heather: trans girl lesbian though im less heavy on her being trans I just like it symbolically. saw someone forever ago say t4t gweather and I liked it a lot. her bald era was such an interesting look into her mind bc that is straight up gender dysphoria. I dislike aleheather bc i hc her as just so so lesbian.

Izzy: nonbinary unlabeled. she dgaf about labels so hard so im not gonna try to break it down either.

Justin: hes always given me gay man energy

Katie + Sadie: I love them as lesbian but i prefer them staying just friends (though im fine with the ship.)

Leshawna: Ive never thought about it. i think she plays a straight bff role very easily but she could be bi or lesbian

Lindsay: I prefer her as lesbian but I also like lyler in a way that has me thinking she could be bi. unlabeled maybe but lesbian aligned. dunno, I guess it could depend on the universe lol.

Owen: bisexual. ik this isnt "canon" but its canon enough to me.

Noah: Seeing people argue over this has me not giving a shit at all. bisexual i guess. i dont care

Sierra: i LOVE lesbian sierra. hill i'll die on is that shes a lesbian that made up a guy to crush on to try and appear normal since she has no friends in school.

Trent: i have quite literally 0 opinions on trent that are based on canon. hes a straight man

Tyler: straight to me i cant lie, but i like transfem lesbian tyler its cuteness

[crystalsandbubbletea]

Vent post

(Tw: Suicidal thoughts, swearing, internalized homophobia, internalized polyamphobia, internalized acephobic, internalized arophobia, internalized enbyphobia, internalized ableism, enbyphobia, dead naming, 'LGB without the T+' person mentioned)

I'm tired of being alive.

I don't want to be alive anymore.

I don't want to be me anymore.

I'm sick and tired of everything.

I'm so fucking tired.

I hate everything about myself. I hate that I'm autistic, and have ADHD. I hate that I'm on the aroace spectrum, I hate being Demisexual and Demiromantic. I hate that I'm nonbinary, I hate that I'm polyamorous, I hate that I'm Trixic. I just want to be like everyone else I see, straight and neurotypical.

I'm so fucking tired of my school trying to "fix" me because I don't want to talk to anyone at my school.

I'm fucking tired of my case manager, you want to know why I don't go to you for anything? It's because I'm fucking afraid of you, goddamnit! You made me afraid of you! You acted like you would be fine with me being nonbinary and you acted like you would be fine with my preferred name, but in reality you're just another 'LGB without the T+' people. You're a lesbian and I foolishly ended up letting my guard down because of it, but then you kept misgendering me and you even used my dead name once, you didn't correct myself, and I couldn't correct you because I was having a full-on emotional breakdown, and you just made it worse. You don't even try to make yourself look friendly, instead you're always looking intimidating and difficult to approach. I don't need you as a case manager, what I need is a case manager who also has ADHD. A teacher I knew since my freshman year is a case manager and she also has ADHD, she should have been my case manager and maybe I wouldn't have half of my issues. But no the school was like "Oh you're queer, here have a 'LGB without the T+' lesbian as your case manager."

I hate that almost everyone at my school is acephobic and arophobic, they all act like it's the end of the world when people don't want to have sex or don't want a relationship. I didn't ask to be Demisexual and Demiromantic, I didn't ask to be this way. I'm sorry that I need very close emotional connections before getting into a romantic relationship?

I hate that I hardly see polyamorous relationships in media, no I'm not a fucking cheater. I'm sorry that I want to be in a relationship with multiple people where everyone is consenting to it? No, I'm not polygamy, polygamy and polyamorous are not the same and never will be.

I hate being nonbinary, I have extreme gender dysphoria because no one seems to care about my gender identity. I hate being very feminine, I hate my chest, I hate my waist, I hate my hips, I hate my legs, I hate my body in general. Why couldn't I have been more androgynous-looking? Spring is coming soon and I'll have to put away my oversized hoodies, which is one of the few things hiding my chest size. I wish I could get binders but I don't think there are any binders out there that could fit me.

I hate being Trixic, I'm sorry that 'lesbian' didn't feel like the correct term for me? I'm sorry that 'lesbian' made me feel dysphoric? I'm sorry that I never felt lesbian?

Maybe I should just kill myself. No one at my school would care anyways. I'll just be one less freak. No one would give a damn if I die, except for the people following me, my online friends, the few friends I have IRL, and my family, but that will be it, no one else would care.

I am so fucking close to ending my life. I want to die.

So why can't I bring myself to end it all?

[madbadash]

Hi Ash!!! Sending you some for the oc ask game! Feel free to apply to any of your beans but was thinking of Jessie!

🎮💯💘

Oooo! Thanks Bloob!! I'll throw in a free Jamie! No charge, cuz I know you like him 😁😁😁 (sorry this took 8 years Jessie is so underdeveloped)

🎮 VIDEO GAME CONTROLLER — what are three of your oc's favorite hobbies

Jessie-

Baseball, very obviously. It's the sport he plays at school but he's pretty passionate about it.

He's absolutely a Candy Crush player. It's super goofy but he's like hard core addicted to it. Completing the levels really fucking pumps that serotonin.

Goofy as this is, Being with Daisy. He loves being around her, he loves thinking of date and gift ideas. She is often pacing around in his mind about 40 percent of the time. Although being around the SNG in general is a good way to hang out.

Jamie-

Watching TV. Look man, if I can say one thing it's that Jamie is consistent. And they fucking LOVE watching Bonnie's show.

Weirdly enough butchering. When they're doing their job it's quite a therapeutic experience for them. They spend a lot of the time venting to the body in front of them, mostly about their dysphoria.

Thinking about it they'd also probably find cooking enjoying, but like... That might just be my brain being like "butchering human's? Cannibalism, Hannibal time"

💯ONE HUNDRED POINTS SYMBOL — share three random facts about your oc that others may not know.

Jessie-

I made up the idea of Daisy's boyfriend back when I first made her for a theater class. I had to do a monologue in character and I filled it up with horror references, I even referenced the Sawyer's! But the catch was that she was supposed to be rambling to her boyfriend, who was dun dun dun ALREADY DEAD!!! Jessie as a character came later but I still think he would be the first to die, sacrificial lamb kinda deal.

This is more Trivia for the SNG in general but I mean... He's apart of it.. It counts. The SNG basically exist in a kind of multi verse? I plan to make a story focused on each of them. Michelle's is a Horror Movie, Alvin's is a romance, Clementine's is maybe a Spy/Mystery? Jessie's story should probably be a Sports one but also I am very much NOT a sports fan, so I'll have to work it out a bit more

I never posted the one doodle I did but I went to watch Back to the Future with goats and I think Jessie would be a wonderful Marty Mcfly.

Jamie-

I have shared this once before but I've always wanted to give them a hamster for a pet. It just... Fits??

They were mainly inspired by Bim Trimmer, a Markiplier character who is obsessively in love with YouTuber Matthias, so if you watch the skit "Hire My Ass" you'll see a lot of similarities

I have a friend who kinda ships Lev and Jamie, and honestly after learning that I have spent a lot of time thinking about their dynamic, and that it might change wildly.

💘 HEART WITH ARROW — what and/or who do(es) your oc consider the most important to them?

Jessie- as cliche as it is Daisy is absolutely one of the most important people in his life. Her and Dean are so very very important to him and he loves em so much.

Jamie-Oh Bonnie, Bonnie a million and one percent. They often claim that Bonnie is the one that 'got them into show biz' even though he is very much not in Show Biz. Their main motivation for basically everything is her. She's why they get up, why they kill.

[pureanonofficial]

For the director's commentary ask, from "Carved Out of Skin and Scale":

The maid flushes,” I — I’m not supposed to speak to you,” she says, then looks as if she wishes she could take the words back. “I just need a few things from you. I don’t ask much but if you help me —” Janne lowers her voice carefully, “I may be able to stop the Lindworm.”

and

“What did you do to me?” he growls. “I — I broke the curse,” Janne states with more confidence than she feels, “I made you human.” “You’ve made me like you,” he mutters, a growing panic entering his tone, “I’ve never been human! I’ve only ever been a Lindworm!" “I didn’t know this would happen!” she protested. Why couldn’t you leave me as I was? Why did you do this? Why have you put me in a body not my own!” He advances towards her, gripping her wrists, a frantic gleam in his eyes. “I thought I was going to kill you, to end your terror! I had no idea it would make you human." He stops short, his grasp loosening, “You were trying to kill me?” “You were going to eat me! I would have done anything to stop that, including killing you!” Janne says, twisting out of his grasp and onto the other side of the bed. “You are my wife and you — you —” “Yes? What did you think was happening? That I was just going to consent to be eaten once all my shifts were removed?”

This already gives me huge "Spinning Silver" vibes, but tell me about writing this fic!!

(director's commentary writing meme and the fic in question.)

Oh how I love this fic. There's things I'd do differently were I to write it again, but I have such a love in my heart for it and the world I created. With the first section -- part of my writing process was to really get into the character of the MC of this tale. What kind of a girl would be ABLE to do all these things to the Lindworm. Well, we know she's a shepherd's daughter. She's a working girl. She's a lot closer to the maid than she is to the royalty. So already I think the maid would have a lot of sympathy for her, this girl who is not a foreign princess, but someone who grew up in a similar situation to her. I want to point out this other bit in this fic in regards to that.

“I will do my best, ma’am,” the maid says, “And ma’am — if you succeed — thank you.” Janne looks at the maid. She is young and pretty — it would not surprise her if the maid had been at risk for marrying the Lindworm. Janne nods in acknowledgement and the maid smiles.

Solidarity!! And with the second section -- you are definitely not wrong with the Naomi Novik influence!! That -- as well as Diana Wynne Jones' work -- was really influential in how I wrote Janne and Hemming. What was important to me was to get the messy complexity of suddenly being human. He's not going to instantly develop morals just because he's in a human body. And there's this complete and utter terror for him because he must be experiencing some hardcore body dysphoria, right? It's even worse because in this, I wrote him adjusting to his human body shockingly fast, since after all this is his "true," form. But it's NOT the form he's spent x many years in. And then the betrayal for him of Janne trying to kill him! Him not getting the double standard of the fact that he was going to EAT her. Gosh I love them. I should write more for them. But yes -- the way to break the curse in this story is VERY violent. I focused a lot on that in my retelling. Whips and lyes and ripping off skin to reveal a mass of flesh. What could she think would happen except that he'd die? A really lovely start to a marriage!

Thank you for asking me about this fic <3 I really love it. Also I believe you know this, but still. Most of this 6k fic was written in eight sleep-deprived hours before the due time of December 18, 2021. And I mean most. I think I'd only written about 300 words before that. Don't do that. XD

[mildew-mop]

cw: vent. click to read.

I really hate the idea that """painkillers""" and """antidepressants""" are anything more than just 100% placebos. Whenever I try to talk about this, I get accused of being a liar or a conspiracy theorist or some shit. No. The actual fucking bullshit conspiracy is that """pain medication""" actually does anything for pain. It does not. Either every single time I have consumed any form of pain med throughout my entire life, it has been a complete dud, or maybe they don't fucking do shit. """Antidepressants"" have never made me not depressed and not want to die. The only reason I'm alive at this point is because I'm a coward, and it would make my partner upset. The whole fucking medical industry is a fucking scam. The idea that medication is useful is so fucking bullshit. And even if it did fucking work (which there is no way it does) it is not like you can get it in the United States unless you have like fucking magical abilities because psychiatrists and other doctors are violently allergic to actually listening to patients or helping them. They all literally care about two things, money, and getting you to shut the fuck up and go away. They could care less if you live or die or actually need help. I fucking HATE therapists and social workers. They are fine with you potentially killing yourself, so long as it means they don't have to deal with you anymore and it is bullshit. I have never acted with any kind of doctor whatsoever and had them not be a piece of shit.

When I was forced to get ear surgery (I forget what it was for but I think it was supposed to fix my hearing and I was highly pressured to get it when I was 14 without understanding much about it) the surgery left me in severe pain for more than a month of recovery. When I had a follow up appointment to check my hearing, my results were so bad that I was told that I was lying for attention, and actually the surgery was a success and my hearing was fine.

When I finally managed to get top surgery, I was fucking traumatized in the hospital bed cause I was all prepped and shit and ready and this fucking piece of shit asshole surgeon comes out and is like "oh you have to have stopped testosterone before surgery, go home and we'll reschedule" which isn't even a really medically necessary requirement or anything, just his random bullshit preference. Sure he ended up doing a good job but this combined with some other weird shit (he was a top surgeon who somehow didn't know what gender dysphoria was?? Idk he was the best option available) idk that fucking upset me.

Last time I went to the mental hospital, I was isolated, and forced to have the shittiest room (it had a window so anyone could look in and the curtain was super thin and on the outside so it let in so much hallway light that I could not sleep, also the room had only a bed so I had to put all my stuff on the floor even though all the other rooms had shelves and I was lied to and kept expecting new furniture) BECAUSE I AM TRANS. Even the other single rooms were bigger and nicer. I was told that the policy was because I am transitioning and it was heavily implied it was because I might assault someone. I was forced into the shittiest room, I think intended for those on suicide watch(?) because I was inherently seen as a predator because I have had top surgery and am on Testosterone. Speaking of that shitty fucking hospital, they did not set me up with any help once I left like they said they would. They just fucking made an account for me on this app called "Aptihealth" which I do not think qualifies as healthcare and should be shut down.

Literally every therapist I have ever had is identical. They sit there and listen to you talk about your trauma, and then they go "oh you mentioned you have a pet. tell me about the pet" and then give you no advice on anything, and encourage you to direct the conversation to bullshit that does not matter, tell you to solve your own problems, and then go "well we're reaching the end of the session, does this time next week work for you?" Like ok, I guess that discussing fucking random tv shows or other fun shit is more enjoyable of trying to work through how my father raped me as a child but why am I paying you $20 I cannot afford because I have no income, and getting assistance takes fucking forever, and I cannot be alone or unsupervised without having a full on mental breakdown for you to ask me what discord is when I randomly bring it up. I swear to god the number of fucking therapists that hear me mention a social media site, and go "oh what's that? explain it in detail" when I mention it as part of explaining something else. Shut the fuck up you old fucking cunt and give me resources to help me with my issues other than some shit you found off page one of Google that I already tried and know does not work.

Ok so there was one "therapist" that wasn't like this, she was worse. I saw her for more than a decade of my life. She worked at some small clinic and her only """"qualification"""" was being an art therapist. My dad would pay her to encourage me to blindly obey him and see him as without fault because he "loves me" because he is my father. She would encourage him to actively ignore me when I was suicidal, and was a big fan of making sure I stayed brainwashed. I don't know how much she was aware of the things my father did, but if he told her to talk to me about how I was "misbehaving" too much, or not doing well with homework or not listening to him, by god she would deal with that. Clearly, the reason why my grades were taking in high school was because I was lazy, and me saying I almost always had an active plan was because I just wanted to get out of doing the homework in the advanced classes I was pressured to take and I couldn't read the textbooks because I was lazy and not because I was not at that reading level. Also that bitch convinced me that I wasn't trans cause I was crying when I tried coming out to her and she said some shit about how it was the media's fault or some shit idk. I saw her from like I think 2012(?) up until January of 2020 when I realized how unhelpful she was. Early 2020 is when I started realizing a lot of the brainwashing and shit. Its hard to realize that you've been basically mind controlled into not understanding a goddamn fucking thing about how the world works when your fucking pedo rapist father starts lying to you from the moment you understand words. I swear to god he is a fucking wannabe cult leader. He could easily make form a cult but I guess he decided just his firstborn was enough.

Even if fucking antidepressants worked, I have yet to find a psychiatrist that actually gives a fuck about what you have to say. They usually just give you random shit, even if you said it previously didn't work, and ignore you if you point out unwanted side effects. And even if you try to trust them, they don't pick up the phone when you try to remind them you need medication refills but they don't give a shit about that cause they do not fucking care.

The most recent time I interacted with paramedics? I am pretty fucking sure that I was drugged with something that I don't even know what it was. I was paralyzed and terrified. I was also openly mocked and belittled by the emergency responders who laughed at me and dismissed me as a dumb junkie when I was scared and needed help. And then when I was taken to the ER? I was there for more than 8 hours before I left without seeing a doctor. There were people there who had been waiting 24+ hours without seeing a doctor.

People keep telling me "oh just find a primary care physician" NONE ARE TAKING NEW PATIENTS AND IF YOU MISS A SINGLE FUCKING APPOINTMENT, THEY BAN YOU FROM THEIR WHOLE FUCKING PRACTICE.

I go to planned parenthood for my testosterone. I have been on t with them since September 2020, and they don't give a fuck. They don't give a fuck. They don't know shit about hrt. they do not care about patients. They are fucking assholes. and they are inconsistent about refilling shit. The one time I went for an appointment and I was asked if I was ok... I WAS BILLED AN EXTRA $15 FOR A FUCKING "EMOTIONAL ASSESSMENT" CAUSE THIS ONE FUCKING NURSE ASKED ME IF I WAS OK.

I'm lucky that I managed to get my mom to help me get a diagnosis for some of my issues a few years ago, but there's more serious shit I need formal diagnoses for, and it is so fucking hard to even talk to a psychologist, never mind find one that isn't a fucking cunt. Can't get SSI/SSD/Whatever the fuck it is with an autism assessment but how the fuck am I supposed to get diagnosed with PTSD. I can't just say "Oh yeah I have PTSD because I fill all the requirements and also a few medical professionals callously told me I have PTSD when I was begging them for help in the ER and then discharged because if you are begging for actual help with your mental problems, then they will just discharge you because people who are begging for help don't actually end up hurting themselves, so I haven't actually gotten any help, but trust me when I say that I cannot work without freaking the fuck out so give me government money so that I can stay alive." I'm trying anyways but idk how far I'm gonna get. I should probably check that they got my documents but they can straight-up just say they did not get them if they feel like it.

I fucking hate every facet of the medical industry in the united states because it is all bullshit

[gothtransandroid]

Contemplating: Revenants, Vampires and other Necromantic Immortals

Autonomy in a servant can be a valulable thing. A person who can think for themselves when you give them an order can in turn adjust to a situation where following your orders to the letter will prevent the actual result you wanted, so a free thinker can either consult you for new orders or find a way to get what you wanted despite not being able to do what you asked to begin with. All of this is to say, making a necromantic immortal being with a mind of its own is useful, but that is where the utility benefit ends and all the detriments begin. Also, always pay your servants and come to an equitable agreement in all things.

A vampire curse is one of the most complex and controversial methods of making a servant. They tend to be extremely strong, fast and their senses are all heightened beyond the norm but this is all in service of creating a predator that can hunt for its own food. Now the nature of the curse is under your control, so a weaker vampire can be made to in turn prevent any fatalities in your subjects hunting, or if willing you can be the donor yourself. The nature of the curse does unfortunately suffer the two downfalls since its inception that are hard to remove without simply making a revenant which, unfortunately, is a normal person by any other name.

First, vampires are weak to sunlight regardless of form and function, requiring armor made in extreme condtions just to prevent instant immolation. Second, the curse affects mental health from a fundamental level tied to the lesser factors and the sunlight issue. Metal mirrors are useless, obsessive tendencies are magnified and food is restricted to one rather brackish source. Without a person of a certain mindset the curse would have the servant turn on you slowly over time and without enforcing a form of slavery over the servant, which would further abuse the subject until you die and the control is removed, likely create a monster out of a person.

A more reasonable servant would be an alchemical golem, usually made from the ideal components of several donor bodies and given life with alchemy and necromancy in kind. The subject would be raised in this ideal form, could be more akin to family and nurtured to want to assist in your works, and in all likelyhood could become a legacy to carry on your work long after your death. Now these golems may have extreme lifespans, outstripping generations, but the alchemical components in machinery and medicine may prevent a true immortality if that is what is sought out in your work.

The downside of this subject tends to be matters of mental health as well, mainly body dysphoria as even the steadiest hands may not make an ideal body with the elements of alchemy and necromancy working on dead components to make a body. Positive reinforcement and a welcoming environment is good for early development but exposure to the outside world will put their mental state at risk regardless of any preperations you make. Best practices here are to maintain a safe space for your subject and hold genuine affection for your creation. If such emotions are beyond you, and such support hard for you to provide, then you may have a lonely golem with the strength of an elephant at best, and at worst a spiteful and enraged one.

Lastly we discuss the revenant. A living corpse without a soul is usually a pejorative term for them, but the revenant is simply a person brought back from death with great effort to let them live forever so long as their physical body isn't destroyed. Ignoring the labor involved, the revenant is superior to all the lesser undead due to self maintenance and sense of self, and have a step up from the greater undead because of their lack of physical and mental concerns, beyond one, in terms of socializing with others. Like the vampire, however, the revenant remembers their past life and consent in creating a person into a revenant is needed as the trauma of watching everyone you know pass while you persist can sometimes even affect the most hardened of people.

In regards to the matter of enslaving undead, to repeat what was said for the vampire, it is not recommended and should be avoided. History stands on the side of the enslaved, with uprisings and governments reversing the act consistently over time. Even a single slave can enact change and you may believe you have prepared for such risks but when such a being can outlive you then your legacy as a caster would be at risk, not only due to your slave destroying your works after your passing, but the simple fact that only a bastard repressed to the point of infancy would need another being to be wholly subserviant to them. Its a pathetic act and if the appeal to logic has not convinced you then hopefully one to pride will. Be better.

[twinhood-2dot0]

Tell Me Why

I’m a total cheapskate. I have around 150 games I got for free from Epic Games, and a few on Steam, and I’ve paid for a total of 7 games. So in June I found that a game called Tell Me Why was free on Steam so I just got it and never thought about it again. Until later on when I was watching a video on why you shouldn’t buy Hogwarts: Legacy, when they mentioned that you should instead support games made by LGBTQIA+ people, like Celeste and Tell Me Why, and my ears perked up, and I went to my Steam library and there it was! So I immediately installed it, and wow. It is awesome. I have one gripe with it though. More of a gripe with me but whenever I think about the game my brain just jumps to Jake Peralta singing “Tell me whyyy, ain’t nothing but a heartbreak”. Anyways, that aside. So the story is about twins, Alyson and Tyler, Tyler is a trans man, who were separated from each other after their mom was killed by Tyler following a supposed psychotic episode where she tried to shoot Tyler. 10 years later, after Tyler is released from juvie, they reunite, and go back to their childhood home to sell it and put their past behind them, but they find things they did not expect to. I won’t go into much more detail for now.

I really love the story and where it’s heading and oh my god, the interactions between them, so great. Gameplay-wise, it’s sorta like a visual novel but you get to play, instead of choosing dialogue options and reading text, sorta like a Telltale game (Telltale Games was a development studio that made episodic games with choices that branch the story, like choosing to be an asshole or choosing between characters to die. It’s fun. I never played any because cheapskate, but I watched like a ton of playthroughs and could probably detail the story and branches of Minecraft: Story Mode). There’s also a really interesting mechanic that I don’t really want to spoil too much, but they help tell the story through flashbacks and make for some interesting interactions. I also really love the portrayal of dysphoria and the struggles of being trans, they put a lot of effort into getting it right, which I really appreciate, and the voice actor for Tyler is also himself trans. :P I wish I took more screenshots, but you’ve seen those that I did take, so eh.

NOOOO DAMMIT, I COULDN’T GET A SCREENSHOT. Anyways, it’s just dialogue that went

Alyson: So do you want instant coffee or… instant coffee?

Tyler: Hmm, nah. I’m more of a T person. Get it? Like T as in-

Alyson: Mmmhmm. How long have you been waiting to make that joke?

Tyler: Longer than I’m willing to admit. 

(Sorry, I’ve been waiting to use this meme for longer than I’d like to admit too.)

(T is short for Testosterone if you weren’t aware)

Uhh what else have been up to, oh yeah, I finished 2 anime. Your Lie in April and Tokyo Ghoul. YLIA is certainly something. My heart aches just thinking about it, and I’m not one to get emotional about much. Seriously, it has this really cool opening, https://open.spotify.com/track/2BlDX1yfT0ea5wo0vjCKKa?si=7b95e588be604494

 and I learnt to play the intro on the piano, but whenever I do I’m like goddammit I can’t deal with this pain again. It’s about a piano prodigy who stopped playing after his mom and tutor died, and him getting back into it because of a violinist. She forces him to be her accompanist and then picks it up again. Again, don’t wanna give out too many details, although, it is romance so you probably won’t watch it, but whatever. I would make a comparison with a certain novel but that would be giving out too much. I’ve vowed to never spoil anyone. I think I’m finally shedding toxic masculinity and allowing myself to watch whatever I want. Overtly edgy stuff still has my heart tho. Tokyo Ghoul is… weird, in a bad way. I watched the first two seasons and I’m like huh??? in a bad way. I usually like going huh??? but like, nothing mad e sense. Turns out the anime adaptation is garbage. Gonna have to read it :P. So I started Banana Fish. My first shoujo! I heard it’s… sad? Weird? Disturbing? I don’t remember, but all of those are right up my alley so I’m gonna watch it anyways.

(Okay, I'm 3 episodes in, definitely disturbing. Yay! It's created by MAPPA??? Why does MAPPA have everything, like what? Attack On Titan, Chainsaw Man, Jujutsu Kaisen, literally every recent anime is MAPPA lmao)

Also, I played this really cool demo of a game called Paper Trails, by the creator of Hue, another puzzle platformer game that I got for free, with an interesting mechanic where you use colors to make stuff appear or disappear, so like if it's a red platform and you switch to red, the platform will disappear, and if you switch to something else it reappears, and Paper Trails did not disappoint either. So, the basic mechanic is, it's a top down puzzle game, where the levels are paper. So the level has two sides, and you can fold the paper to create pathways and solve puzzle. Really innovative, can't wait to play the finished game.

[traanarchist]

Mentalhealthposting (positive) about Music (CW: Discussion of the Concept of Suicide)

I've heard it's good to write down how you're feeling every so often, so I'm doing that.

(This half does not mention Suicide in any way, I will mark when the other half, which does mention Suicide, starts.)

You ever have a like, breakthrough in your own weird depression/dysphoria/whatever feelings out of nowhere? That happens every so often for me, and it just did and it is wonderful.

I am winding down for bed, singing along to the Car Seat Headrest & Naked Days livestream (my fave CSH livestream) and I'm looking at the lyrics for Life Worth Missing, as I don't really know the lyrics for it very well.

I sing the third verse, and I just feel the like emotional breakthrough in my chest as I sing it.

Fall over the edge Learn to live while falling Every life is a path worth following When you put it into words It's comfortingly bland There's so little left to understand

This just like HARD RELATES to me, I already knew that I probably should be living in the moment more, and that my life has meaning if I let it. What flipped the switch for me actually believing it was "When you put it into words It's comfortingly bland". It is bland and generic, but it feels good to actually believe it, like you're giving yourself a hug.

(Second half starts now, Content Warning for Discussion of the concept of Suicide)

I've had these breakthroughs with music before, and the one that really comes to mind is Levers by Roland Faunte. The entire album that Levers is from, Sewing Kit, is very, very, very sad. But it's also one of the most hopeful and powerful things I've ever listened to. The entire album is about Faunte's struggles with Suicidal Ideation, and Levers is about what he thinks happens to those who do end their life. This section is the part that really changed me.

And then it showed me my life How it could end, and where it started And then it showed me the world but said I'm not a part of it But the lonely and the hurting have a place, no one's seen it But once I have shown you, you can't ever leave it

No matter these thoughts, and these words, so inviting I can't say goodbye just quite yet I'll keep fighting it People who love me would never stop hurting From something so simple yet something so permanent

Gone into the valley where everyone started Where smiles are worn by the hopeless and the brokenhearted There in the light of the stars dancing quietly Spirits at home in the warmth of eternity

It makes me really sad when I hear about how some people think about people who ended their lives. As someone who is incredibly unsure about what happens after death, it makes me profoundly sad to think that people who end their lives head to a worse world where they're tortured and punished for their "sin". I don't want to die currently, and I don't want the people who I care about to die either, in fact I'd say that I don't actively wish death on anybody.

But it brings me a weird sense of hope that maybe those people who made that choice are in some place of peace, of solace. It's a weird ambivalence where I really don't want people to choose this action, but I also don't want people who choose this action to be hurting any longer in whatever waits for them after their death. But that ambivalence helps me feel more secure in my choice to continue living, strangely enough. I choose to live for me, for my past, present, and future members of my chosen family, and for them, because they're at peace now, and I hope they're proud of me.

If anybody ended up reading this whole thing, I just want to say that I hope you have these breakthrough moments too, and maybe me telling you my breakthrough moments helps you find yours. I hope you're doing okay, and I hope that you do even better in the future.

[vinecine]

That's a man in the picture dressed up as a woman. If you don't know what "trans" mean then don't talk all big. Too many perverts and weirdo men use the trans community or whatever to wiggle their way into female spaces to commit crime. Many pedophiles have already been arested under the "trans" title. Many men identifying as trans (meaning they're fake trans) are being put in female prisons and there commit rape. IF you haven't heard about this or deny it then it's clear you're biased.

A lot of actual trans people have spoken about lgb drop the t, because being trans is not an identity, it's a mental disorder called gender dysphoria. "Lgb" stands for "lesbian, gay, bi" indicating that only 2genders exists. Being trans means you want to pass as either a man or a woman. Identifying as a dog or a cat is mental illness that should be treated as such and professional help should be sought instead of playing along and furthering a person down a hole they might not get out of. The "lgb" community want to drop the "t" because of you posers who think being trans is a cool identity and think there are trillions of genders. You make us lgb and real transexual people look bad and stupid.

And before you mention intersex people, educate yourself that the majority live as the gender they were "given" at birth and they're finw with that. Intersex people are not as many as the rest of the 2genders, it's relatively rare, that is the 2nd reason it's not seen as a third gender(bc it's not as common as the other 2genders).

And the whole thing is an agenda because you're pushing, brainwashing people with lies.

Neopronouns aren't real or a thing. They're made up by mentally ill people who hate and don't want to be themselves. And instead of taking care of their traumas and mental illnesses they live these stupidities. No sane person with eyes and ears will believe or give into your bullshit just to make you feel better about yourself. If this makes you sad or angry or whatever then you're not ready for the real world and reality. Trans women cannot give birth or menstruate because they're biological men and saying otherwise you're spitting in the faces of so many women. He/him and she/her are not made up pronouns, they're used since forever ago by people with common sense. If you use they/them then you normaly talk about someone you've never sen or heard of, meaning, don't know their gender, meaning, non-binary is not real or a thing. Also calling oneself "it" is just plain sad.

Even if you'd put a uterus in a man's body I don't think it would end well for the carrier's body and life. I can bet on money that the body would reject the organ. Also if the man would have a spontaneous abortion, how would he know? He's not going to bleed down there to know for sure. Pain? Pregnant women go through pain like tone pains and it can be either normal or threatening. So in conclusion a lot of men would die from something that they should have never been doing in the first place.

Real trans women will never go into women's spaces if they don't pass because they don't want to make women feel uncomfortable and bad. Those men who don't give two flying fucks are not trans but predators and mentally deranges individuals.

Bold of you to put homophobic words in my mouth, so I'm just gonna ignore that retarded statement. Going on, a lot of trans men in particular don't tell a man they date that they're trans and when they get "introduced" with the reaction seeing a dick on a "woman" they go make tiktoks how transphobic and wrong these straigth men are. It's almost like being straigth nowdays is a crime. Not everyone wants your dick, not everyone wants your pussy. Deal with it and move on and stop being an idiot. Attacksin these cases happen because your trying to trick or make a straigth person do things they don't want to ingage with which is, I'd say valid. If you don't want to be in a situation like this, be honest of what you are right from the beginning and you'll see how these attacks with fall in number. It's simple as that. If you purposely put yourself in these type of sexual situations just to be able to make stupid tiktoks about it after then you're the perpetrator in the end.

White racism is very real because random white people are being assaulted and murdered by others because, I don't know, to make a stupid point like "this is how we felt like in the history". Why would a white person who hasn't done anything wrong pay or be held accountable for something some white people in history did? How far back does your mentality live? Saying white racism doesn't exist is very racist. Every race in the past were enslaved. The very first slave owner in the US was a black man, just so you know. Idk in what kind of a magickal place you live in, but I live in a country where very minumum diversity exists and people here assume white people to be junkies, murderers and whatnot if they behave like it and give a vibe like such. So basically you're pulling these "facts" out of your ass. It's not right to assume all nation, race is [insert accusation] based on some or many individuals who do/are [insert accusation]. But recently many young kids are beaten up in schools by black people because they're white to the point of death.

I agree that there are many policemen out there who are shitty and not suitted for their jobs because they use their power for evil. But if you disobey a policeman..what else can you expect other than them using force. Policemen job, overall, is not easy and neither you or I know what they have to deal with or go through on daily basis. But the point is the if one black person get killed then they'll be all over the news and social media when so many whites are killed by black people, you won't hear anything because it doesn't fit a narrative for the media. I have so much proof of this, if you want I can always provide. All lives matter because a human life is precious and if you think the color of one's skin determines who is more valuable then you're the one who's super racist in the end.

It's not just the book so it's not one incident, it's also drag queens "reading" to kids (which is insane that a man dressed up as a woman who's job is doing sexual gestures/dances for money). Why not allow veterans and old people read to kids so they could earn some money? Why is everything sexual around kids? What kind of perversion is that? And these..people are put in kids' animation movies singing about drags which is sick. Kids shouldn't know anything about these things or what sexuality a teacher has or what they sleep with. But there's a golden saying for a reason "one life is too many" regardless of a situation.

I personally am not right or left because these weird "ideologies"(idek if that's the right word) don't work where I live. But if you support child abuse like transing minors then..what else can I say.

If you support all trans sisters then you say that you also support Maria Childers. I only support real trans people who are not huge in numbers and are not the wannabes and those who don't make a trend out of transness(like Aurora Bird does).

I don't remember stating that your, as a minor's, opinion isn't valid. There are a lot of flaws that you don't seem to see because your "facts" are based on feelings not science. I lived as a "trans person" for many years too till I grew out of it. And so many detransitioners nowdays do too but they have done such damage to themselves that they either off themselves or just..live on like that because what else option ia there. Gender dysphoria is a mental illness despite what the politicians and the false doctors, who use you as guinee pigs for their modern world Unit731 experiments, say. I know I'm using rough words, but there's no other way to explain it. It's all a huge medical experiment and money grab. Being trans is not an identity one can take on just like that. The whole point of being a transexual is to medically and surgicaly transition to appear as the opposite gender for yourself not the whole world. Ask any real trans person and they'll say the same. And I mean a real trans person like Buck Angel or Marcus Dibs or Scott Newgent or any other.

I want to add that calling biological people "cis" automatically puts a label on your forehead that you are not gonna be respected in the slightest. And no one cares about the stupid "history" of the word. If a person doesn't want to be called it, you don't call them that. Respect goes both ways, it's earned not demanded. So that's something for you to remember.

I already addressed intersex people.

Women who have hysterectomies have cancer, a life threatening situation, bro. So point invalid when it comes to this. Also women who cannot get pregnant have a medical condition therefor cannot get pregnant. It's not the same. I haven't heard of a situation of a woman being born without a womb. If you have proof, I'll gladly see it.

[sugarbooger513]

JJK Men x Insecure chubby Fem!reader

Today has been hard to think of myself positively, and I have friends who struggle with the same thing, so I thought I could indulge some people with some very loved characters reminding us that, no matter our size, we're perfect.

Characters: Satoru Gojo, Toji Fushiguro, Choso Kamo, Kento Nanami

Warnings: Insecurities, body dysphoria, Toji's gets spicy (sue me), suggestive at the end of Nanami's, tooth rotting fluff.

Satoru Gojo

- Let's be completely honest here, this man rarely feels insecure, if he ever does.

- He wouldn't be able to sympathize, but that doesn't mean he doesn't care. In fact, it makes him care a lot more.

- His comfort methods aren't for everyone either, so be prepared. He's trying, give him that.

- Humor. That's what this man knows. Iykyk, this man deflects any form of trauma with his humor.

- If he notices it isn't working, then he'll come up with something else because he loves you. That love tells him that he has to try.

"Oh sweetie pie, I'm home!" Satoru's voice carries easily through the house, but you can't seem to care at the moment. Your cheeks still feel somewhat sticky from the tears that have fallen the past thirty minutes.

"Honey bun? I said I-" His voice cuts off, and you know you're caught. The bed shifts where your boyfriend lowers himself beside you. "Y/N, why are you crying?"

"I-I don't want to talk about it, Satoru." He removes his blindfold with a small chuckle. "Did your favorite anime character die?" "No." "You sure? You tend to sob when-" "I said I don't want to talk about it."

He freezes at the way you lash out at him. Yeah, something is actually wrong.

"Love," his voice softens in a way that shows how worried he is, "is there anything I can do to help? Anything at all?" You're quiet for a minute, but you eventually scoot closer to him.

"You want me to hold you?" All you manage is a nod before more tears slide down your cheeks. His long arms encase you securely against him. "I can do that as long as you need. I'm here for you, Y/N."

The two of you stay like that, you crying softly into his uniform while he runs his hand up and down your back.

Eventually, your sobs turn into small sniffles, and you finally speak. "I.. I'm sorry for snapping at your earlier, Sato." He smiles at the loving nickname. "No, baby, I'm sorry for joking around. You wanna talk about it now?"

"I just... I was thinking about.. how many girls looks so much better than I do." He scoffs. "You're kidding, right?" "Sato.." "No, I mean that. It isn't a joke. Baby, we've been through this since day one. I. Want. You."

You hide your now blushing face against his chest. "But.. I just don't understand.." "Look at me, baby." When you do, his bright blue eyes seem to shimmer. "You're the love of my life. You're gorgeous, stunning, beautiful, and every other synonym to those that I'll have to get Nanami to teach me because I will remind you everyday until it gets through your thick ass skull."

His hand comes up to rest on your chubby cheek, where he starts to wipe away the drying tears. "I. Love. You. So. Freaking. Much. Y/N." Each word is punctuated with a kiss on a different part of your face, until he eventually meets your lips.

The small giggles you let out makes him smile. "There's that beautiful laugh! Come on, why don't I pop some popcorn and we go watch whatever you want on the TV?" Your shit eating grin makes him snort a bit of laughter. "Even if it ends in a favorite character dying?"

"I don't mind having to hold you a bit longer."

Toji Fushiguro

- This is also someone I don't think can really empathize with you and your insecurities.

- However, when this man falls he falls HARD

- He will do anything in his power to make you feel better.

- Well

- Anything he can do while still seeming nonchalant about it

- Lets talk about how this man would take matters into his own hands, with his own hands, to make sure you know how loved you are. (You couldn't have expected just fluff with him, give me a break y'all.)

"Y/N," Toji kicks his shoes off carelessly at the door, "I'm home." He raises a confused eyebrow when he looks around the house. Plates from your movie night yesterday lay strewn about the coffee table, still.

'She never leaves dishes out. That's weird.'

He starts to walk around the house, worry filling his chest. It just isn't like you to leave a mess, or to not greet him at the door. There's no way someone came and did something to you, right? No one is THAT dumb, surely.

When he hears the small sniffles coming from your shared bedroom, he breathes a small sigh of relief. "Y/N? I'm coming in." He pushes the bedroom door open to see you cuddling his pillow while laying on your side.

His eyes widen at the sight of your body trembling from the small sobs. "Y/N?" He walks around the bed to kneel in front of you. "What happened?"

"N-Nothing Toji. Sorry, I-I know the house is a w-wreck." "Shut up about the damn house. I don't care. Why are you crying?"

You finally sit up, which lets him sit beside you on the bed. "I just.. Bad day." "Who do I need to stab?" "T-Toji?! You can't solve everything by stabbing!" He shrugs a bit. "You can try."

He smiles sweetly when you slap his arm. "That isn't funny." "Hmmm, but it made your cheeks flush." "Toji Fushiguro!" "Alright, alright. You wanna tell me what's wrong now?"

"I just.. looked in a mirror for too long, babe. Don't worry about-" "I'm lost. What do you mean you looked in one for too long?" You sigh, knowing he hates vague answers.

"My body is disgusting me today, Toji." He scrunches his eyebrows and leans in a bit closer to you. Your face heats up from the slight glare in his eyes.

"Looks the same to me." "Toji, I-" "Correct yourself." His already deep voice seems to drop even lower. Your entire body trembles. "S-Sir."

"Good girl. Now, let me get this straight. You don't think you're attractive." You shake your head, suddenly feeling the tears come back to your eyes. "Why not?" "J-Just.. my body.. it isn't.." "Skinny?" The word hurts your heart, but you nod, knowing he expects some sort of answer.

"So? You're exactly what I need, Y/N." You glance up to meet his loving gaze. "N-need?" "Don't play dumb. You know I need you. Now, we have to fix those insecurities."

He stands, offering his hand out to you. When you take it, he pulls you to your feet.

"Now," he groans as he lays back down on the bed, "I've had a tiring day at work. I want you to strip and come take a seat." "A-a seat?" His smirk tells you what you need to know before he elaborates. "I AM rather starved. Come on, I'm pretty impatient."

"To-Sir, I'm too.." "Heavy? Try again. You aren't getting out of this." He snaps his fingers, and the sound runs deep into your core. His eyes watch you hungrily as you start to get out of your pants.

"Now, for every one of your orgasms, I want to hear 'I'm Toji's pretty princess.' Understand?" "Y-yes sir."

You have no idea what posses you, but you finally let out you own witty comment. "You could at least take me to dinner first."

"You cheeky brat, don't worry. I have plans for your meal."

Hope you don't mind being hoarse for a while. You had to repeat just how pretty you were a number of times.

Choso Kamo

- SWEETEST MOTHER FUCKER I SWEAR

- He doesn't see a single flaw in you, honestly.

- Plus, he doesn't really understand beauty standards. All he knows is he loves every inch of you.

- Nothing goes unloved by this big ass baby.

- You crying would probably bring him to tears because he feeds off your emotion.

- But there is no doubt this man will do anything and everything to see your smile again.

- A true king who just wants his queen as happy as she makes him.

He left you for maybe an hour. Maybe. Choso just had to run and pick up a movie from Yuji.

"Angel, Yuji said that we have to-" He drops the movie the instant he sees tears in your eyes. "L-love? What happened?"

He rushes to your side and wastes no time wrapping you in his strong embrace. Your hands grip his shirt in a feeble attempt to pull him closer.

"What happened? Do you need something? A doctor?" His eyes are scanning your body for any signs of pain. His hands running gently over your back, arm, sides, but everything seems normal.

"I-I'm okay, Cho." "No, you aren't. Please, angel, don't lie to me." His own eyes start to fill with tears, but he tries to will them away. He knows he shouldn't be crying, but seeing you in any pain hurts him just as much.

"Cho, I just.. It's stupid." His large hands cup your face so you're forced to meet his eyes. "Nothing that makes you cry is stupid. Absolutely nothing, my love."

"I.. I tried to put on a hoodie of yours because I was cold." He blinks in confusion. "Was.. was it dirty?" "No I.. I stretched it out.." he tilts his head.

"Is that all?" You nod, but even more tears come to your eyes. "I just hate how big I am.. I thought you would find it cute to come home and see me in your clothes but.. I just messed them up.." He stands, suddenly walking into the kitchen. "C-Cho?"

"I bought some of your favorite ice cream. You know, the kind you always crave on your period. I figure we can cuddle and you can enjoy it while we watch a movie."

"I- I don't really want anything to eat." He smiles, still grabbing it and a spoon. "I know, but just in case. Listen," he places the carton on the table next to you, "you're gorgeous. Every part of you just screams beauty. Nothing could ever change that. Not your size, not you stretching out a stupid hoodie, not you crying, nothing."

He opens the carton, only to get a spoonful out and kneel in front of you. "Open up, angel." You do as he says and allow him to feed you the ice cream. You can't help but smile as you eat it.

His index finger wipes a few old tears from your cheeks. "There's that smile I love. Now, I think we need a movie and some cuddles. How does that sound?" You can only nod, absolutely floored by how much Choso truly loves you.

No more negative thoughts came to your mind while you laid against his chest. He even took a few times to feed you more ice cream throughout the movie.

Oh yeah, he totally bought new hoodies in a bigger size so you could wear them around the house without fear of stretching them.

Kento Nanami

- KING ENERGY

- You can't tell me this man doesn't want someone who acts as his pillow. Come on.

- That being said, Nanami knows how it is to be insecure.

- Whether it's over body insecurity or not, that can be argued either way. Still, insecurities aren't something he's ignorant about.

- On days where you can't seem to like your body, he'll do whatever you need.

- Need to be alone? No problem. Need someone to talk to you? Covered. Just need to be told you're loved? He'll tell you as many times as it takes.

- However, he can't help but be blunt. That's just who he is.

- He does it out of love for you, though. He never wants you to believe something that isn't true.

It's really hard for you and Nanami to get the same day off of work, and today was no different. Since you were the one working today, Nanami decided to take up cleaning the house and preparing dinner. He would also insist on doing the dishes, but he knew better. You never allow him to do all of the work.

He watched the clock hit five thirty and smiled. No doubt, that was your car he heard pull into the driveway. Now that you were home, he could surprise you by telling you that he managed to get the next five days off, which matched your schedule.

The front door opens, and he's quick to call out a "Welcome home, dear. Dinner will be done soon." He turns his body, preparing to catch you in his embrace as usual. However, all that happens is you call back, "Thanks, Ken."

His eyebrows furrow, and he quickly takes dinner off the stove so he can go check on you. He's not one to forget anniversaries or anything like that, so his mind is going through any possible reason you just called him Ken.

"Bad day at work, dear?" He wipes his hand on his apron as he comes around the corner. You were already sitting on the couch, eyes on your phone. "Yeah, I guess." "Okay," he sighs and sits beside you, "would you like to talk about it?" When you finally look at him, his eyes widen. Your eyes are puffy, as if you had been crying.

"Y/N.." "It's just coworker drama, Ken, don't worry too much about it." He scrunches his face. Those women you work with always pissed him off. He's noticed them staring at him whenever he brings you lunch. "Well, humor me a bit. What happened today?"

He just knows you can't resist gossiping with him after a work day. "I-I don't want to repeat it, Ken." The worried look in his eyes makes you whimper. "What?"

"I'm not used to you calling me 'Ken' at home." "Sorry, honey. It's nothing you did." He smiles softly and reaches to cup one of your cheeks in his hand. "Are you sure you don't want to tell me?" You do. God, you do because you know you'll cry again and he'll be here to hold you through it.

"They started talking about you." "Me?" "Yeah," you look at your hands, already feeling your chest tighten, "and started laughing at how you're.. settling for someone who is as big as I am.."

Nanami's soft looks suddenly turns harsh. How dare they say stuff like that? What's worse is he's sure they knew you could hear them!

"Really?" When you nod, a tear falls onto your lap. "It just.. really hurt knowing that I'm not the only one who thinks that." "Y/N.." He pulls you into a hug with a soft sigh.

"Don't think like that. Dear, if I wanted anything different than what I have now, you would know it." You sigh and cuddle into his warm embrace. "I know, but-" "But nothing, my love. I love you, only you, forever you. Do you understand?" You glance up and he places a soft kiss on your forehead.

"Yeah.. I love you too, Kento." "I have an idea." "Uh huh?" His smirk has you worried. "Well, we both have the next five days off.." "We do?!"

The excitement in your voice has him chuckling. "There's my pretty laugh. Yes, we do. I'm thinking on your first day back.. you go in with a ring on your finger."

You blink in confusion. "K-Kento, you don't-" "Oh I do. Am I the person to joke about wanting to marry you?" Your eyes start to fill, yet again, with tears. However, these tears make Nanami also tear up a bit.

"Are you... asking..?" "I have a ring just for you in my suit jacket, Y/N. Just say you'll marry me." He isn't really expecting you to jump on him, so when you do, he falls from the couch to the floor. "You know I'll marry you, Ken!"

The two of you share a long kiss, complete with tears and laughter. "Well, now that that's decided. I think we should get a head start on something." "What would that be?"

He stands before securing you in his arms bridal style. "The Prehoneymoon." "That isn't a thing, honey." He smirks before playfully smacking your ass. "For you, Mrs. Nanami, anything is possible."

@katgalle @savonline