#also i was in the 1d fandom for 10 years so i get the whole.. oh i’ve been here for so long i know so much i’m a veteran ! feeling lolllll

[drusic]

It's just wild that you stuck around after the drituation to me. Like welcome welcome hope you're having a good time even with recent events (the mask 😔✊)

Honestly sometimes it's fun to flex oh I've been here for a while but I can totally see why it would get annoying. And especially them being like, on newbies will never know as if everything isn't crazily documented and clipped to hell from like mid-2020 to early/mid- 2022

...also you say that as I used to be an SBI main pre-october and then the drituation pushed me here... which is a *little* backwards but like, SBI is hella toxic in all honesty and October was my last straw

i knowww i could have left super easily and pretend i was never interested cause it had only been.. like 10 days LMFAO like it was definitely an interesting welcome to the fandom ^_^ in all seriousness though i was very normal about it cause i wasn’t that attached and was able to read everything and talk about it with my friends (who liked dream before i did) and we all quickly agreed that it was not grooming and it personally didn’t make us super uncomfortable so we moved on fast, although i don’t blame people at all for going a little bit crazy. it was a big word being used at the end of the day and i understand the panic 100%. at the time i was more worried about the fandom dying though cause that was the part i enjoy the most about stanning someone 😭

and i’ve heard of how horrible the sbi fandom is, i don’t see much about it but you’re not the only one who left that fandom because of how toxic it is :/ hope they didn’t ruin the actual streamers too much for you tho!

[louisisalarrie]

honestly you have to shake your head at these naive people. The TikTok shows the kids face unaltered. Some Freddie accounts froze the frame and he looks identical to how his brother looked at that age. But that’s the whole key to this farce, the Freddie’s don’t know what Austin looked like at 9/10 even though T has it up so you can do a side by side.

I’ve had some serious bbg feelings and thoughts clearly bubbling to the surface because this turned into a longer one than I thought. Anon, welcome to the show!

It’s just such a lack of critical thinking. But it’s also, like all these stunts, a massive thing of trust with the fan to artist relationship. Fans don’t want to be lied to. They don’t want to believe that their idol is lying to them, they don’t want to believe that the industry is capable of such stunts, and they don’t want to believe question this all because my god it is so much easier just believing everything you’re fed.

There’s also this weird toxic superiority complex that happens within this fandom, where all these solos/people who believe F is his son, believe they are better fans and that that is going to make louis like them more (which is lol). That Larries aren’t real fans because they “disrespect Louis’ family”. And let me tell you - when this all comes out, or any other scandal/stunt happens, Larries are gonna be the ones who stick around. We always have been. The most devoted and kind and loving fans are larries, and I’ve seen that for the last fucking 13 or so years.

Larries, these days at least, don’t gift louis presents related to Larry, we dont ask directly, we don’t push those boundaries because we understand privacy. Giving gifts to him for “his son” and making Instagram accounts for said child, who is still very much a minor, is creepy as fuck. If louis was posting this kid all the time, or was actually being a “super dad” (which like… if you believe louis’ a dad, he sure as hell ain’t a very good one and we’ve discussed that before with those folks just fucking celebrating the bare minimum) and was just… like.. had this kid on Insta all the time and was very loud and every day we’d have content of him, sure. Maybe it’d be a little less weird because he’d be plastering this kid’s face everywhere and making it 100% known. BUT if you believe he’s a dad, you should respect privacy, because louis is a private person, etc. and anyway they contradict themselves every second of every day and it’s extremely amusing, yet sad, to watch.

The narrative of who they’ve decided louis is, strays far from the 1d days. They just entirely don’t acknowledge what he was like back then, what he and Harry were like back then, the radical shift of him being a party boy, BLATANT evidence of stunts and that pregnancy being fake, and just roll with who he is now. And that just doesn’t make sense to me. Harries do it too. They choose what part of their idol exists, what part of their idol’s life matters, and disregard all the stuff those dudes said years ago about privacy and family values and what they wanted for their future and who they are, and were, and wanted to become.

It just also baffles me that they think F is his son because he kinda looks like him. Well… you’re hiring a kid for a closeted artist who’s pretending to be related, you’re not exactly gonna choose a kid who’s gonna look massively different, right? They’re gonna look at the parents and siblings baby photos and go “yes, we could work with this, they look similar”. It’s not rocket science.

And that kid does look soooooo much like his actual blood parents and sibling that it’s indisputable. But no, we get these random DNA family experts or whatever who decide he’s definitely louis’ because clearly everyone’s a professional these days. They ignore the facts and the photoshopping and everything that has come out over the last 9 years to keep up with their narrative.

Also, you simply cannot convince me that kid’s real name is “Freddie Reign”. Louis could sit me down and tell me himself and I wouldn’t believe him. He “named” him that to take the piss out of the whole thing, and prove it’s fake.

[pop-punklouis]

it's nice to encounter empathetic people around here... i've been a huge 1D fan when i was 14-17 - joined when this is us came out... i haven't been part of the fandom in years but became nostalgic a couple of days ago, after watching some of the videos about liam's controversies that had been popping up. 2 days ago i even saved the old xfactor auditions to watch for later, sometime during this week... i was honestly so shocked when i read the news today. i truly didn't believe it. i was sure that it had to have been fake news...

i rewatched this is us after getting back from work (for the first time in over 10 years) and have been sitting in my dark room trying not to cry, reflecting on the future that will never come to be... i think this is what is so tragic about the whole situation (apart from the obvious grief) - this lost hope, this knowledge that he will never get the chance to make amends for his mistakes or find happiness again... seeing his parents in the documentary was too damn painful, hearing them 'mourn' the young liam who went out for an audition and never came back...

i don't spend as much time online recently as i did in the past, and try to curate my experiences here on tumblr even more than ever. after getting out of my own depressive episode i noticed how toxic the tumblr environment can be, how unforgiving. people on here, while kind and hopeful in some ways, can also be incredibly cold and desensitized in others... so thank you so much for being the more positive, kind and safe presence.

for anyone struggling: remember to be kind to each other. build each other up instead of tearing each other down. don't lose yourself to online spaces and loneliness. always remember to spend some time outside with friends, family or pets. learn to appreciate each happy moment. life does get better.

yes, this is such a great message. sending you so much love and so many hugs. it’s definitely unfortunate that this has reopened the conversation of checking on others you love and to be as kind as you can because there’s so little of it in the world right now.

[ghost-of-you]

Why do people feel the need to produce break up rumors out of thin air after every tour/album 🫥 the expectations of some people in this fandom are wild to me.

What do people think they should do? Even if it weren't for Michael's baby, they released an album last year and played two tours, of course they'll need some time to recharge now. Why would you expect new music or ANOTHER tour now already?

And they have not said or done anything that would indicate that they are thinking about breaking up and still people choose to be paranoid instead of putting some trust in them and just let them rest.

Idk maybe I'm the opposite of those people who are still traumatised by 1D or whatever but my other favourite band just had a 5 year gap between albums, they didn't play any live shows for like 4 of those years (partly bc of the pandemic od course) and the front man did a solo album + tour in the meantime. One other band member did some stuff as a producer and from like 2 of them I think I saw a total of 4 social media posts during that time lmao. I didn't see a single person worried that they would break up. That never came up as a possibility anywhere. And then I go to 5sos fandom spaces and people are freaking out when the band goes on a break because one of them will have to care for a damn newborn like please 💀

Sorry for ranting, I'm sure you have a lot of this stuff in your inbox now. No need to respond, I just needed to express to someone how truly baffled I am by this behaviour.

Honestly, I blame one direction for a large part of it. Obviously not the boys in 1D but the whole culture and the intensity around them. I like them but I was never in really invested in them so I did watch everything that happened from the outside and I keep seeing the effects of it. A lot of people did not handle their break up and since 5sos has this connection to them that ended bringing fans over to 5sos people get triggered. But it's bullshit because 5sos is a band that wanted to be the band they are. To act as if 5sos is doomed to follow 1Ds footsteps is stupid because 1D was a bunch of kids who didn't want to be in a band, who got put in a band package and explored until they broke. And all of them are doing the thing they wanted all along, which is be solo acts, so the comparison is not fair. You can't compare 5sos to the boyband curse, because they are no are not a boyband. And this is the dumbest argument ever but it is true, 5sos has a lot more freedom with each other to do other things while still keeping the 5sos project alive. Everything they do that's not exactly like the 17 yo posting keeks and doing twitcam from a mansion creating a constant stream of content creates a wave of mass histeria and honestly, I am so tired of it. Even if 5sos were about to take a decade long break, which I don't think they will, they like making music with each other too much to just stop, they can. They gave us over a third of their lives already. They are allowed different dreams.

Also I think there's this layer of desensitization surrounding famous people in general, that makes people not see them as real people with real feelings or see them as this character they get mad won't follow the script they made in their heads. And the whole way some parts of the music industry just want a really fast rotation that's not really possible and things like K-pop that end up having a higher rotation that creates a bigger stream of content that's not really sustainable in a healthy way for very long but creates a weird expectation anyway. And people think they're allowed to demand shit just because (and this goes from the temper tantrum for the lack of tour to the obnoxious hbg chanting)

5sos already did the killing themselves for the band. Now they live and have a band. I rather to see things this way. They are happy, they are thriving in other aspects of life. If that means waiting another 2, 3, 5, 10 years for new music, so be it. To use 5sos own metaphor, they're driving the bus, we're just along for the ride so whatever stops and turns they want is what goes. They can do whatever they want because is their life and it's their band. And I'm not worried they're gonna break up. Not even a little bit. If not seeing them for a year while Michael settles into being a father is what it takes for them to be happy and healthy, then so be it, let them exist outside the band.

[lestappenforever]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Thank you so much for the tag, @lattesqueeze. 🥹

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 31! I used to have a lot more on my old account, but I deleted them all and the account ages ago.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count? 182,588 apparently. Jesus fuck, I did not realize it was that high.

3. Which fandoms do you write for? These days? Only F1 RPF, but I used to write for several others, including (but not limited to) Cut & Run, Men's Football RPF, McFly RPF, and Teen Wolf.

4. Which are your top 5 fics by kudos?

1. Devils Roll The Dice (Angels Roll Their Eyes) - My first Lestappen fic, my baby, my pride and joy

2. 19 Times The Grid Saved Lestappen (And One Time They Didn't Need To) - My first collab fic with the lovely Ilse (@f1writingbyme) 💕

3. Something Unholy - Lestappen lap dance/dirty talk PWP

4. Speak Now (Or Forever Hold Your Peace) - A personal Lestappen favorite

5. No Time For Regret (No Time For Sleep) - Lestappen PWP set after the 2023 Belgian Grand Prix

5. Do you reply to your comments? Why or why not? Yes, I do! I've made it my mission to reply to every single comment I get on my work, because the fact that there are people out there who not only read my work, but they also take the time to leave a comment, is such a huge deal to me and it makes me so happy. The least I can do is make sure they all get a reply.

6. Which of your fics has the angstiest ending? Ooof, I guess The Last Straw? The ending itself isn't the angstiest part of the fic, but the entire thing is angsty as hell.

7. Which of your fics has the happiest ending? I'd say most of my fics have happy endings, but the happiest? Probably Devils Roll The Dice (Angels Roll Their Eyes), or the first sequel Like Snow At The Beach (Weird, But Fucking Beautiful).

8. Do you get hate on your fics? Haven't gotten any hate so far on my current AO3 account! I used to get a bit of hate on my fics when I used to write for another fandom (1D, despite not being a 1D fan myself, I only wrote requests from other people) years ago, though, because back then there was apparently a "right or wrong way" to write fics, and there were always people who thought you were doing it wrong.

9. Do you write smut? I do. Admittedly, it's my least favorite thing to write, but I do write it.

10. Do you write crossovers? I've never tried, and I've never had an urge to so far.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Only one! (That I know of.) It was the first 1D fic I wrote and somebody tried to pass it off as their own. Didn't work very well for them.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? Not yet, but I was actually contacted by a lovely person who wants to translate some of my F1 fics, which is a huge honor. So it's coming!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic? Yes, I have! I co-wrote a fic with an old friend back in my McFly obsession days, and I've co-written two Lestappen fics with my darling @f1writingbyme.

19 Times The Grid Saved Lestappen (And One Time They Didn't Need To), and Ride The Bull (Giddy Up, Partner).

14. What’s your all-time favourite ship? All-time? I honestly don't know if I can pick because all of my favorite ships have been my all-time favorite ship at the time I was hyperfixating on them. But, if I have to make a choice, I'd say it's a tie between Lestappen and Junes (Harry Judd/Danny Jones from McFly).

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish, but probably never will? Oh, man, I don't have one because my brain will not let me start a WIP without finishing it. Once I start writing something, my OCD and anxiety kicks in, and I just have to finish it. And if I can't finish it, I delete the whole thing and never think of it again. Which is both a blessing and a curse.

16. What are your writing strengths? Angst and endings, I think.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Smut, without a doubt. Despite having written a fuckton of smut in my life, there is nothing that stresses me out more than when I get to the part in a fic where smut belongs. Reading back my own smut makes me cringe.

18. What are your thoughts on writing in other languages in fics? If it's done properly, I say go for it! I personally don't mind it at all and find it adds depth to a lot of work. Just make sure you use something other than Google Translate if you don't speak the language, and preferably check with someone who speaks the language, to make it as believeable to a native reader as possible.

19. What was the first fandom you ever wrote for? McFly. God, those were the days. I was a literal child back then.

20. What’s your favourite fic that you’ve written? Definitely Devils Roll The Dice (Angels Roll Their Eyes). Writing that fic altered my brain chemistry, and I can still remember how I felt writing the different chapters. And also 19 Times The Grid Saved Lestappen (And One Time They Didn't Need To), because that was just so fun from start to finish.

Tagging @f1writingbyme, @nico-di-genova, and @f1posting (and anyone else who wants to do this and hasn't already been tagged!).

[evilovesyou]

THOUGHTS ON AOTV

The movie is a nice summary of the last several years, definitely, but for the fact that it is marketed towards fans, there are very little new insights into anything. @chaotic-bells said on discord "i have it in my head that it somehow it’s gonna be like a longer version of his stories on instagram" and it's a fairly accurate description of the touring parts of the film.

STRUCTURE

There were several things about the structure of the doc that seemed odd. In my memory the plot goes from 1D breaking up, to Louis' struggle with finding himself during difficult times (the losses he suffered), and then it essentially turns into a tour documentary.

There is not a single word about Two of Us in the part about Jay and Fizzy, despite that having been another major set back I think.

They don't mention the Away From Home Festival at all. It seems so odd not to talk about this huge accomplishment and him fulfilling this dream of his... Yes, there's a whole documentary about the first one, but there was a whole other festival since since then and it just seemed very odd not to mention it at all. (Especially since I think that he's going to announce AFH Mexico soon.)

THE CREW AND THE BAND

One of the nicest moments of the film is when Louis takes a day off with the band and they sit down and talk about how different it is touring with Louis vs. touring with other artists and that they feel close like a proper band.

Oli is definitely a contender for main character of this entire thing with how witty, funny and genuine he seems. (I'm paraphrasing here but: "I'm something of a touring PA for Louis, trying to keep his life together... But I'm not very good at it.")

THE FAMILY / FREDDIE

I think the most touching parts of the entire thing are talking about Jay. Louis' grandparents get really emotional and I think everyone in the theater shed at tear at his grandpa crying when trying to explain how close they were. Lottie speaks about how she and Louis tried to help Fizzy but they ulimately feel like they failed her.

Interesting about this is that at first the parts about his family and Freddie are completely seperate, but then later they show a few pictures and talk about how they see him like once a year, while Louis spends a lot of time with him in LA.

To be honest the parts with Freddie seemed fairly genuine and sweet to me. I kept thinking "oh, Louis is so cute with kids" and Freddie genuinenly seems like a very sweet child. The bit where he's at his show in LA with his little sign was very cute. I don't believe the whole thing, but at least now I'm fairly certain that this is something that will stay in place. No end in sight. (Though they did play coacoac after both parts about the kid LOL)

CAMPING OUT

One thing that stood out to me from the documentary was the insane amount of time they spent talking to fans about camping out for several days before shows. The point was probably to underline the dedication within the fandom or whatever, but the entire bit was so uncomfortable to watch. It was encouraging this behaviour, which is 1) a thing only people with certain privileges can do and 2) breaking the rules that venues and promoters set.

Instead of focusing on that for what felt like about 10 minutes, they could've talked to people organizing fan projects for the shows. They didn't even have to say anything about the rainbows (which they never even mentioned in any way despite them being front and center in almost every shot of the crowd LOL). There were several other projects they could've talked about. They could've interviewed the people who came up with the KMM lights for example.

(Also they interviewed US-American fans on what it was like to go to shows in LATAM and they said "it's very different, they just have so much fun even in the very back" or something like that and we all just looked at each other like WTF are you on about? You can always have fun in the back of a show LOL)

SPECIAL MOMENTS / EASTER EGGS

The first thing that was really funny to me was right at the beginning when Louis talks about his time in the band and he mentions "the friendships, the bonds, the relationship" or something along those lines? I was like the relationship singular??

There was a moment where they show Harry and Louis hugging and several people audibly gasped and then the entire theater started giggling.

I didn't notice this during the film, but apparently they show a license plate that says "HS-FR-258" ??

At the very end of the movie, during the credits, they play OOMS and a bunch of people in the theatre got up and went down in front of the screen to dance which was ADORABLE.

[lashton-is-my-drug]

ok so i don’t even know how i stumbled upon your page but i’m a relatively new fan to the 5sos family and i don’t really ship any of the boys buttt i read some of your posts and i can kinda believe lashton. so my first question for you is, do you ship malum and if lashton weren’t real, what other ship would you believe? also, i saw you mentioned them being managed by modest, and as a larry from the 1d fandom, i know all about them. i was wondering if you could explain more on that. thank you!!

First off, Hi and Welcome! Always nice to meet new people! haha

I also love to discuss and answer questions, so thank you for your good questions!

If you keep scrolling around and clicking through my hashtags you should eventually find my masterposts, lyrics analysis of a handful of songs, etc etc, and theres the matching rings of only Luke and Ash of which neither have ever worn with any other members, there's only been the brotherhood necklaces. When I first looking into them I let myself remain really really cynical until I started seeing that there were ongoing things, one after the other, that was different than was going on with the other guys. Yes, they're a brotherhood of soulmates but Luke and Ash have this added layer of treating each other. Any particular questions you're not finding an answer to even after looking through my blog, just let me know.

I don't like to refer to my beliefs as shipping, as I see that they're individually closeted, and then there's the added layer of their closeted relationship. The "shipping" that has gone on is what has muddied the waters of people being affectionate and friends vs affectionate and lovers. Vastly different, as you know the same with Larry, and the other closeted relationships that are in 1D. So, therefore, I don't believe any of the other pairings with Luke or Ash have any sort of romantic validity. Could they have experimented or whatever? Sure, none of us would know. But from the evidences, there's nothing to back that up. Cal and Michael knew each other since 2nd? grade, so they've had lots of time to be really bonded and how they've acted with each other has evidences of being boyfriends along the way. No idea if thats currently going on though. I have suspicions of Cal possibly being with Roy (longtime fellow musical artist friend), who lived with him during lockdown. But I won't get into their whole story right now. Thats a lot to cover.

Luke and Ashton are my faves and who I tend to focus on 98% of the time. So regarding Michael/Cal, I'll answer questions in DM if you're really that interested.

They were managed by Modest right out of Australia back when they first started. I'm about to very shortly post a timeline of Lashton and I'm planning to post a relationship of modest/5sos throughout the years. Think of all the tactics that have been used of modest towards the 1D boys, 5sos has a vast amount of the same things. Lots and lots of stunts/bearding (which I could post a lot more about but I try to keep that negative stuff away but I will talk abut should it be something thats specifically asked or is particularly relevant), being overworked, tabloid narratives including trying to force narratives of what/who songs are about (thankfully the boys have fought to control that as much as they are able to). Is there anything specific you're wondering about regarding this topic? Yes, they were treated like crap with them. So much so that during their 10 Year anniversary podcast where they recounted their career, year by year, they never said their name. Not once. They also weirdly left out the story how Luke and Ash actually met, which they've fondly told a handful of times before... it was kinda just breezed past (Wasn't part of the bands story? 🤔 )

Not sure what else to include so I'll stop here. haha

[gilliebee]

nine (9) people you'd like to know better

I got tagged by the wonderful @five4boarding and tumblr never gives me a little +1 notification icon when I get tagged in anything (like any other type of note would, so I don’t get it!!), so I live in fear that I’m always gonna miss these BUT I caught this one at least 👉😎👉

Last song: during my morning walk I randomly remembered the catchiest depression bop and then remembered the first time I looked up the guy's wiki and saw that he played hockey and I was like you're telling me a knife-footed ice-gremlin sang this???? (swiss juniors but still high level for his age bracket I think?) Anyway... Tomorrow May Not Be Better (specifically this version https://open.spotify.com/track/0V1quXmlVC6eH5kcfYPWEW ) by Bastian Baker still slaps to this very day 😌👌

Currently watching: My longstanding guilty pleasure is docs/commentary videos about any and all scams, particularly mlms/pyramid schemes. So it should come as no surprise that my brand new guilty pleasure is debt confessions/financial audits on youtube 🙈 I've been been watching a few by caleb hammer whose gimmick is that he gordon ramsey style shames people who come in with their financial records and he's like hey. why do you have $120,000 in consumer debt? why did you finance an ipad for your literal infant child?? why have you spent 30 dollars multiple times a day every day at dunkin for the last 3 months??? (the last one is an exaggeration but the first two I have seen LOL). His thumbnails are wretched I hate them so, so much, and his advice of living spartan-like for a few years to dig yourself out of the hole is ehhh maybe good in theory but generally not exactly...practical. And I think going cold turkey when you're used to constant impulse buying is basically a recipe for just eventually losing control and going on a bender. But. I'm nosy and love hearing about how people be spending their money so that's the best part of the videos for me lol

Currently reading: haven't picked up something new yet BUT I juuuust finished An Unauthorised Fan Treatise which was SO GOOD I literally slammed it nonstop for two days until I finished it. It's formatted like a rpf conspiracy theory livejournal where a fangirl of a supernatural-drama show compiles evidence that the two lead actors are secretly dating. BUT it's noted that the livejournal has been submitted as evidence into for a murder trial so y'know TWISTS AND TURNS lol. There's just something about the format that really compels me, idk I already love reading primers and conspiracies for hrpf couples that I literally have zero investment in and never will- I just enjoy the way the girlies spin a good narrative. (and also watching video essays about the uhhh less casual to super trainwreck ones like the whole larry fiasco even though I never got into 1D, as well as general fandom fiascos like msscribe and snapewives etc etc IT'S ALL SO FASCINATING TO ME 🍿👀) So it was a really natural fit for me to read in a fictional setting. And it's free to read! https://gottiewrites.com/2019/10/14/31/

Current obsession: I’m a hobbyist game maker so at all times I am rotating little bits of character development, experimental mechanics, aesthetics, ui design etc etc in my brain but it becomes much more mentally consuming during the off-season bc god knows when bruins hockey is live it is Featured Live 24/7 In My Brain. But for now... my OCs on my mind 😌💭

tagging (if you want to): OH NO I’M SO BASHFUL I NEVER KNOW WHO TO TAG IN THESE 🫣🫣🫣 uh uh uhh maybe @ghostgeno @alavenderleaf @tylerbertuzzi @reavenedges-lies @krugstrash if y’all are so inclined?? but also no pressure no pressure again I’m just NOSY hehe

[finexbright]

hi soni!!! your response to my last ask was so sweet, it made me smile so big, then like an idiot i forgot to send you an ask yesterday over all the spotify wrapped excitement 💀 how was your wrapped? were you happy with it (because i wasn’t lmao) oh and it’s first of december! i can’t believe dec is here already, this year has gone by SO fast it’s fucking insane. wdym 2019 is about to be four years ago?? 😭 anyway your taste in fitf songs is too tier, personally i agree with all your choices 🤌🏽🤌🏽 my question for today is how did you end up in this 1d/larry hellhole? because everyone has such interesting stories and i’d love to hear yours <3 by the way how’s the weather where you’re at? my city is usually like single digits in november but this time it’s literally 30C and i HATE it, i’m so sorry for laughing at greta thunberg in 2019 i see her point now 💀 do you prefer hot or cold weather? talk soon, hope you’re having a good day! your holiday pal xx 💩

no stop it you're too sweet and cute 🤧🤧 i love spotify wrapped season i love seeing everyone's lists 🫶 and i love how so many of our #1 artist was harry 🥹 very proud of that frogface! oh why weren't you happy with it 🫣 what songs/artists did you not want on the list? i wasn't very happy with mine because i feel like i have had better ones in the last couple years but i'm determined to make my next year better!

please don't remind me that it's december 😭😭 i'm still in shock that it's about to be a whole year since i moved away from home like????? 2019 is four years ago??????? no that's a lie i refuse to believe that

ooh but tell me your top three of fitf i wanna know 👀

i'll tell you about the weather first, it's cold in here! and windy and raining all the time and i prefer the cold weather when i get to be in bed all the time 🤭 30c in november what the hell?? i hope december treats you better 🫂

right so, when i was younger, like 10/11 years old, i started reading a lot of books and to sound more cool and fancy, i wanted to get into english music as well. so back then the only way i could do that was by listening to this one channel on the radio that played english songs between 12 am and 3 am and so i would listen to it everyday and because it's radio, it was basically the same set of songs that played depending upon popularity and stuff and they played a lot of taylor, justin, katy perry etc back then! and i would listen to these songs, transcribe the lyrics and write them down and remember the artist name and stuff and we had like an entertainment section in the newspaper and one page of it would be about foreign media and i would look to see the artists' names and stuff so i know what they looked like 💀 and that's how when i came across what makes you beautiful on the radio and saw their photos and saw that they had a brown person in the band i immediately latched onto it 🤭 and then i slowly became a fan but i wasn't in the fandom back then. however it was only around 2014/15 when i met my best friend that we started talking more about 1d and i got onto twitter and ig fandoms (back then it wasn't as bad as it is now and i did have a tumblr but it was for hp and b99) and it was also around the time of rbb and sbb and so basically the gay bears made me a larrie and also helped me realise i was gay too 💀 so yeah that's my story of getting into the 1d/larry side of things. this got really long 🫣 how did you get into the fandom and what made you a larrie? 👀

[stormblessed95]

I just happen to think about fanservice or acting it out for the camera a lot lately. I'm going to unfollow the jikook tags most probably after this, too much mess in my head. But I just wanted to share this and maybe seek an opinion.

Many say that jikook is fanservice but many also say that if it's fanservice then they should be given Oscar. But again many say that they are the worst at acting and that's when we get obvious jikook moments.

So my question is if they are bad at acting and controlling their emotions, how are they able to act platonic 90% of the time, if they are couple? It's just the 10% we see as suspicious couple moments.

The question itself is like an infinity loop in my head...

Jikook-bad at acting-hence couple vibes/flirting.

Jikook-good at acting-hence fanservice and nothing to see there.

I'm doubting myself at the moment for joining BTS fandom this year. The stuff on internet is too too much. I want to be less exposed to their personal lives (bombs, behind scenes, memories...) and be only exposed to their music (like 1D or Taylor Swift). In fact I never even knew Larry was a thing until I came to know about BTS ships. Possibly because I was younger during one direction time and I didn't explore much. Taylor and Harry thing I knew but again I didn't research much or follow blogs the way I am doing for jikook 😂

Ah I'm going crazy... Anyway if this makes sense, please do let me know your thoughts on "acting" thing. You can edit out the mention of other artists if that's against your blog guidelines.

Hello. You sound stressed. Take a few deep breathes and relax. To start, don't get so overly invested that you cause yourself any type of mental strain or stress or anxiety. Remember that the relationship we have with BTS is a parasocial one. They don't technically owe us anything. If it would be best for your mental health to take some steps back and only focus on their music, do so! There is absolutely nothing wrong with that. If you ever just need to talk, we are here for you! 💜 there is a lot of content as well as a lot of music out there, it can be easy to get overwhelmed by it all.

Second, I would advise you as well to follow through on the plan unfollowing all of the jikook tags or any others. Curating your timeline, either here or Twitter or any SM sites is so important. There are literally millions of fans in this fandom and there is a very loud and very toxic minority. Follow the accounts you like and that you trust and that puts out good content and remains respectful in their opinions. The only tags on here that I follow are ones for my favorite book series, that way my home page is only the people I follow popping up or book quotes/art. And on Twitter, I follow the tags for the artists and that's it. My timeline is curated pretty well to people who I want to see on there.

Third, BTS do not really do fanservice. They used to in the very early years, but not any more. They really do pride themselves on showing ARMY true and genuine interactions and genuine emotion and how they truly feel. It's important to them and it's part of what makes them so special with all the extra content they share. Dismissing their bonds (any of them) as fanservice is truly very disrespectful and i wouldn't pay much attention to the people who try to say that BTS are acting when they do things together. I would recommend you read my posts about BTS & Fanservice from my masterlist to get more detailed information about that. There are 4 posts total about fanservice, they are under the important posts/asks topic. I'll link that whole topic post here:

Yes. Jimin is for sure the worst actor in the group. Jungkook isn't much better. So, no, they aren't acting. I will also say that i disagree that they act platonic 90% of the time. But I'll also say that they don't act LOUD all the time, which is what can be mistaken for platonic. I don't know how old you are or what your relationship experience looks like. You talking about One Direction and being too young makes me feel old and I'm still young dammit. I was in high-school during the big 1D craze. I didn't get into them too much, but I did enjoy some of their songs. Besides the point. Relationships are not over the top loud declarations of love 24/7. Not even half the time. Especially not when you are with a bunch of other people, which is where we usually see Jikook, surrounded by their friends and their Staff. And even then, they sometimes very much so come off as THAT couple that can't stop making everyone else feel like they are third wheeling.

To put into perspective, lets make it personal. I've known my husband for 11 years (similar to the time frame KM have known each other.) We met and became best friends when I was 15 (close to the same age JK was). We were best friends for 2 years, before we had our first kiss at 17 (similar to the whole friends to Lovers thing KM supposedly have going on). It took another 6 months after that for him to ask me to his girlfriend, of which we made out those entire 6 months and went on "dates" and none of our friends even suspected that things changed between us until we told them we were together and confessed to have been figuring things out for the past few months. We then got married at 19 years old. We have now been married for 6 years. We are ANYTHING but platonic. Platonic moments does not negate all the none platonic moments. Lovers CAN be best friends and have simple best friend moments too. In fact, I would say that having your lover also be your best friend would make that relationship stronger and give you a much firmer foundation to grow upon. I cannot tell you the amount of silliness and just friends things my husband and I do. Doesn't change the fact that I'm so in love with him I don't know what to do with myself sometimes. Silliness over what anime to watch next or shouting matches of "you suck, you lose" whenever someone wins whichever stupid bet we placed or the race that was suggested doesn't change the fact that we enjoy each other in very non platonic ways. Him playing video games in the other room and me sitting here typing up a blog post while listening to music and us having no interaction for the past few hours doesn't negate our marriage.

Silly dances and Goofing off just continues to show their close bond, the way they have fun together. It's not acting or hiding their feelings, it's still all there. Being in love doesn't mean you are constantly melting into a puddle or trying trying cop a feel. Lol sometimes it means having fun with your best friend. Sometimes it means having fun separately with your other friends or doing your own thing and coming back together later at home and getting to talk about it or relax. And the best friend moments don't take away from the romantic ones or all the SK couples traditions they have done together, if anything, they add to it.

Hope this makes sense and helped a little bit. Maybe help break that infinity loop going on in your head too? If you ever want to talk about it more, you are more than welcome to DM me. Sorry for rambling, but you should all know by now.... this is just what I do here 😂 again, thanks for the ask. Hope you check out those fanservice posts! Hope this helped! You can of course form your own opinions on things and what you think KM are or aren't. Or just simply, let it be and not worry too much over it. 💜

Hope everyone has good day/night!

PS. For anyone who is a reader... Percy and Annabeth from the PJO series is the ultimate friends to Lovers romance in a fictional world and so sweet. Lol plus, they have oodles of what could be considered only platonic moments and they are still such an iconic OTP

[louisisalarrie]

https://www.tumblr.com/louisisalarrie/767017476313808896/i-dont-think-hes-very-proud-of-the-way-his-fans?source=share

different things tho.

his fans believe things he says.

harrys fans dont give a fuck abot any tpwk. its a common harrie joke to say "tpwk is for harry, not us" they revel in their cruelty.

not saying this is on harry at all. just saying his fans donot have any limits about being cruel.

wait they’ve said “tpwk is for harry, not us”!?!????? ok im gonna have to start getting in fights on Twitter now Christ that hasn’t been on my resumé for about 10 years now lol

seriously tho, I think it would be a game changer if he said something. I mean, I’d prefer him to action it, and hang out with the boys/follow them on Insta at least Christ but while that’s still weirdly put away to the side for now, I think the best he can do is words. but he’s avoiding pretty much all social media at all costs at the moment, which is very fair.

of course at this time the boys are very MIA which is fantastic and I hope they’re all well, but genuinely they’ve all kind of stepped back from social media. the majority of louis and niall’s instagrams are just tour photos from each night. it’s just… they are afraid to be vulnerable and personal on their accounts now. everything these dudes do is under the highest fucking scrutiny, particularly harry.

Can you imagine the state the fandom will be in if he follows the boys on Insta? Harries scrambling saying “it was an accident his finger slipped a bunch of times because he was drinking a pina colada and the condensation dripped on his screen and did it for him but he’s too kind to admit it was an accident and unfollow them” or whatever shit they wanna spew. Even something so small as that, there will be articles about it. He’ll be asked about it in interviews, hints of a 1d reunion spread throughout the industry, just… everything. It’s gonna be a whole massive thing.

However

Him doing stuff like this, will not overshadow his career. He is an established solo artist in his own right to a degree that if he followed them, it wouldn’t take away so much from his own career, so he should do it. It’s not gonna pull as much attention away from his solo stuff as it might with niall & Lou. I think it would be a sick “fuck you” to all the hairballs. He should be making moves like this. But his team are fucking tight, I’ll tell you that much. Those losers don’t wanna lose a CENT. if they think him starting to hang out with the boys WILL in fact pull attention away from him, make fans leave, WHATEVER they will strongly advise against it. I highly encourage it. It would make him look less like “he’s too good for 1d” which doesn’t even fucking align with his image right now (and obviously himself).

personally, I also think that those same harries that are so awful and so far up Harry’s arse would clean out their twitters from all the awful shit and act like they’ve been supportive all along if he decided to start posting about the boys/publicly going to their gigs/following them because they want so desperately for harry to like them. if harry was active on social media, they’d pull their fucking socks up. but they aren’t getting repercussions for their actions. they’re getting away with it because pretty much every other part of the overall 1d/solo fandom fucking hate them, and disengage from their shit.

but anyway, repercussions don’t exist in here from harry. He can’t jump on Twitter and say “hey guys, please all be nice to each other” or something of the sort because he already kinda tried that with TPWK and it didn’t work. So if he directed it more as like… a blame thing to his fans a lot of them would get mad and start blaming us anyway. But as I said earlier, it would be a game changer in terms of artist to fan dynamics/relationship and the evidence of social media

there’s no wins here though. I don’t know how to get through to them.

sorry for the weird and long rant lol

drink = 1, louisisalarrie = 0

[stylinsonshouse]

Louis x Eleanor Unfollow/Follow Saga

So as we all know, on 23rd July 2022 - 1D’s 12th Anniversary, we all got the news that it looked like Louis had unfollowed Eleanor on Instagram. Although Eleanor was still following Louis. People also discovered that the photo’s that Louis had liked on Eleanor’s Instagram no longer had his likes on them. All very interesting.

Fast forward 12-14 hours and Louis followed Eleanor on Instagram again.

Now there are ALOT of theories flying around all over the fandom as to why this happened, so I just wanted to break some of them down and take a closer look:

1) It was a glitch on Instagram.

For me this is the least plausible. Why would a glitch on Instagram sever specifically and only her and Louis connection? We know it was only their connection that broke because Louis’ following count only went down by 1 when this happened and subsequently up by 1 when he followed her again. And why specifically on 1D’s Anniversary? It’s possible that one of them could have been hacked, I would be more inclined to believe that than that it was a glitch. A hacking would explain why Louis didn’t follow her again for 12-14 hours, maybe they were trying to get the account back. I still don’t think this is what happened though.

2) Eleanor blocked Louis, unblocked him soon after and followed him again as the block would have severed their connection and caused the likes to disappear on her photos. There’s also the theory that it could have been by accident.

Blocking/Unblocking seems the most plausible theory to me but it raises the question of why she would block him in the first place. She’s a 30 year old woman with a 10 years long relationship under her belt, albeit fake. If they had had an argument, which if this relationship was real they would have had many of over the years, would she really block him over it on Instagram? A platform that they don’t even communicate on? Where the whole fandom can see? And why now, why wouldn’t she have blocked him during other arguments over the years? I do think the blocking/unblocking is what happened but I don’t think it was caused by an argument that was quickly resolved resulting in her unblocking him and following him again and him then following her again later that day.

My feeling is that if she blocked him and unblocked him it was done very much for the fandoms benefit, for us all to see and create a circus over. Why else would Louis wait 12-14 hours to follow her back after she unblocked him? To make sure people noticed, that’s why. The next two theories below could be the reason for wanting the fandom to notice what happened but I’m not really sold on either of them.

The fact that Louis took so long to follow her back tells me it wasn’t an accident as he or one of his team would have followed her back straight away to stop the circus. Also it takes a few steps to block someone on Instagram, making it very unlikely this could have happened by accident.

3) Eleanor wanted to stir it up to get traffic onto her Instagram profile to boost her analytics to land a brand deal.

I mean the lengths Influencers go to for promotion/engagement/follows etc I wouldn’t be surprised if this happened but it doesn’t feel like it’s the answer for me. I feel like she gets a lot of her work through networking events because she can’t use Instagram to its full potential like other influencers do. By this I mean she has to have her comments limited because of hate and she doesn’t engage with people through her comments much, if at all. This limits her engagement figures as getting comments and replying to comments contribute hugely to your figures on there. So I don’t see her doing something like this to increase her engagement while she still has comments limited, when she could just stop limiting her comments to boost it instead. Yes she will get the hate but it won’t be anything different to what she got during this circus. And this would also mean if she stopped limiting her comments for a while she would get more longevity with increased figures rather than just a spike for a day or two surrounding what’s happened.

Also we know that engagement isn’t all a brand looks for in an influencer so that might not matter too much but she needs a high follower count to land promotional work and this theory poses the risk that her follower count could decrease if the fandom thought they had split up as a lot of people follow her to support Louis or to keep an eye on her because of Louis. She could easily have lost some of those followers which wouldn’t be beneficial for an influencer looking for more work. Although in turn she could also have gained followers through people wanting to see if she posts anything relating to the drama so of course I can see where the theory has come from but why start using these tactics now, when she’s already getting brand deals and what looks like an increase in opportunities lately?

4) It was all a PR stunt for Louis next album release which is coming ‘soon’.

With everything we know from behind the scenes and what’s happened in this fandom over the years, would we really be surprised at this? Still not sold on this being the case but again I wouldn’t be surprised if it transpired to be this.

I know there are some other theories, like BBG is ending but this post is more of a top level, let’s look at the basics sort of brain dump. I think it’s pretty clear she blocked him and then unblocked him as it lines up with the likes disappearing off her photos. But my question is why did it take so long for him to follow her back if it was due to an argument that then got resolved the same day when he must have known the circus that went on on Twitter, Tiktok and Instagram? He must have known she was getting hate from all angles, celebrations were in full swing across the fandom and also really horrible fights were breaking out across all platforms too (except tumblr of course!). Why would he drag out following her back when he knows he could have shut all of this down in an instant by following her back again straight away and passing the whole thing off as a glitch or accident if anyone noticed 🤔

My theory: He didn’t want to. For reasons I’m sure we will come to learn… or not because you know, nothing makes sense when it comes to Louis. We all know how it feels to be left in the dark by this man 😂

I’m sorry that this post raises more questions than answers and is a bit all over the place but I had to dump it all somewhere before my brain exploded!

[ladyaj-13]

Annual Writing Self-Evaluation 2021

Thank you so much for the tag @haztobegood! It was really interesting reading all your thoughts. I love this kind of thing!

1. Number of stories posted to AO3: 19

2. Word count posted for the year: 98,352

3. Fandoms I wrote for:

One Direction, Radio 1 RPF (in connection to 1D), Ghosts/HH/Bill/ThemThere/Whatever those guys are called now RPF

4. Pairings (some are secondary pairings):

Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson

Liam Payne/Louis Tomlinson

Nick Grimshaw/Louis Tomlinson

Niall Horan/Louis Tomlinson

Zayn Malik/Liam Payne

Zayn Malik/Louis Tomlinson

Niall Horan/Zayn Malik/Louis Tomlinson

Nick Grimshaw/Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson

Greg James/Louis Tomlinson

Gen fic! Big up the non-pairing stuff too :)

Larry Rickard/Ben Willbond

5. Story with the most Kudos/Bookmarks/Comments:

Can’t Buy My Love, Can Buy Me Dinner (not really a surprise. It’s Larry :P)

6. Work I’m most proud of (and why):

It’s tempting to go for the longest as I tend to be a short fic writer, but honestly, it’s probably Blow Me Away? It was a total experiment to see if I could write anything above a very soft M rating and I think it worked. I don’t think I’ll ever be known for my explicit sex scenes, but I feel more confident about including one now if I want to!

7. Work I’m least proud of (and why):

Hold On. It was my first in the fandom and for me that’s always just testing out my grasp of the ‘canon’ and characters, but it’s definitely the fic I reread the least. There’s nothing wrong with it, and it served its purpose at sucking me in as a 1D writer, I just don’t think I’ve done anything particularly interesting with it.

8. Share or describe a favourite review you received:

Such a hard question - I love every review! I notice the people who come back again and again, so shout out to those (adorelouis for instance), and any of the podcast reviews are so awesome. Something about listening to people’s voices just makes it all hit so much harder. I listen when out walking and probably make some pretty weird faces as I try not to combust with joy/cry in public. Also @zanniscaramouche left me a lovely page-long review on Let Me Kiss You the other day, which I haven’t even replied to yet, but pulling out all their favourite bits (which I LOVE). It was for a Merlin fic I wrote last year, but also in summer one person told me they have synaesthesia and when writing is really good they can ‘taste’ the words, and that happened with my fic Lay Me Down (which isn’t even one of my better received fics in that fandom). That one is going to stick with me, I want to hug it.

9. A time when writing was really, really hard:

Generally when writing is hard I put it aside and do something else! The time I pushed through most was for Rising to the Occasion, where I had real trouble getting it to flow and handling the large cast (as a Bake Off non-AU, every scene was in a tent that housed Harry, Louis, Niall, Liam, Noel, Paul and Prue), but wanted to hit post before Louis’ fish finger cooking video came out and disproved my headcanon he was a kitchen disaster. Turns out I gave him far too much credit in my fic.

10. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you:

The whole output of 2021. In December 2020 I couldn’t even name all five members of 1D and a year later here we are…!

11. A favourite excerpt of your writing:

Liam’s POV, from my Lilo fic Caught in the Rainstorm. I also adore the Liam and Harry phone call in this fic but that excerpt would be huge.

He’s not sure how long they dance for. The songs meld into one another, the DJ a master at easing from track to track until time seems immaterial, and he’s right in the hazy, alcohol-soaked sweet spot where he thinks he could do this forever. Lucille’s an excellent dancer too, and he’s caught more than one envious look thrown his way when she drapes her arms around his neck or shimmies along his front.

It’s hot though, close and crowded, and as he draws back to say they should probably get some water, his eyes catch on her upper chest. She’s sweating - they both are - and a rivulet gathers, snaking down from her neck and into her cleavage.

A little water droplet falls from Louis’ nose and his brain slams the brakes on.

Shit. No.

He’s here with a hot woman - and not just a hot woman, but actual girlfriend material - and… Louis. Dripping in his entryway, leaving wet sockprints on his floorboards, retching at sugary tea, his hair fluffed up from a towel, keeping the remote hostage, eating Liam’s naan bread when he said he didn’t want any, sleeping in his spare room and leaving without his socks.

Louis.

It thrums through him, a physical thing that starts in his stomach and works it’s way up until it’s hard to breathe.

12. How did you grow as a writer this year:

I think I got more comfortable with trying different things. Certainly RPF, which I hadn’t written or even really read before, but also omegaverse, which I never expected to write and which ended up being my longest fic of the year. Plus the aforementioned smut. And I now make moodboard/fic posts!

13. How do you hope to grow next year:

I’d like to get better at developing longer fics, 15k+, and holding both the focus for finishing them and all the threads of the story. I have so many ideas! (And so many partly written stories…)

14. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc):

I’ve got to say @lululawrence. She left such a wonderful review on one of my fics back when it was still anonymous, then just as I got up the nerve to come off anon I discovered her podcast and literally teared up hearing her say such lovely things about my story. When I told her I’d come off anon, she followed me, encouraged me, subscribed, reblogged my fic posts, told me when I’d left off the link (it happened twice!) and continued to read, review and podcast about my stories. I tend to hop around fandoms and I honestly think 1D might have been a flash in the pan if not for the welcome she extended my way. This is true of the 1D fandom as a whole though - I’ve never been part of a fandom which is so dedicated to supporting and reccing other people’s fics via Tumblr.

15. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year:

My fuzzy blue blanket. Louis’ mum has one in A Kiss for Christmas and Nick has one in Little Saint Nick. Nick also has one in the next bit was spanners to my plan.

16. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers:

Never assume you'll remember that great idea that popped up while walking/showering/etc. Always write it down! And don’t be afraid to run with something if inspiration hits, even if you think it’s stupid. My last one of those has ended up being my big bang for next year…

17. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year:

Fingers crossed, my big bang! Otherwise, I have a poly Blind Date AU which I would love to see the light of day. Also a canon Lilo set Feb 2022 so it would be good to finish that off by then if I can… Beyond that, there’s a Larry canon-divergence where Louis isn’t put in the band, a Ziam tattoo shop AU, an omegaverse Larry fic, a Ziam canon wooing fic, a Tomlinshaw/Ziam/Payneshaw(fake-dating) thing that I would really love to delve into, a Ziam Bachelor AU, a Zouis kidfic, a canon Tomlinshaw with cookery videos, a Ziam bakery AU, someone stop me this isn’t even everything I have ‘in progress’ let alone the 20+ cards on my ‘ideas’ list…

18. Tag some writers whose answers you’d like to read.

I’m not sure who’s already been tagged and who hasn’t, but I’ll try @lululawrence, @allwaswell16, @thestylinsons, @laynefaire, @a-brighter-yellow, @chloehl10, @londonfoginacup and @parmahamlarrie.

[anexlarrieblog]

Hi, just wanted to say thank you. I think blogs like yours are important to get people out of the larry bubble. Its not their fault really. They somehow are introduced to the fandom (Louis/harry/1d), and the larries quickly jump on the "new recruits" by showing them a montage of romantically edited music set to some 10 second out of context clips and who doesn't love a good romance, they fall for the idea. I mean if so many people are telling you something, some middle aged people even, there has to be some truth to it right? They have no idea what actually was said and done over the last 12 years, the only route is to learn the truth piece by piece and gradually unlarrie if at all. Its difficult because larries dont allow you to question any theory, if you do you are automatically ostracised from the only community you feel like you belong to because louies and harries already think you are crazy. If somehow you make it out and come to your senses you feel embarassed because you were just duped and spent so much time spreading nonsense. Larries remind me so much of religion, fed to you at birth, forbidden to ask questions and it takes years of self-reflection to make up your mind or leave. Thats where having a blog like yours is a comfort, you know you're not alone and won't be judged. So once again, I hope you keep doing this for everyone's sake, thank you.

Awwww thanks anon, I really appreciate it 😘 I understand what you are saying that basically Larries don’t start off with bad intentions. However it’s the behaviour that comes with believing in the conspiracy and by continually pushing the conspiracy that is hugely problematic. Conspiracy theories are just harmful in so many ways. Everything from the behaviour, to the mindset, the group think, the denial of reality, just the whole general toxicity. Most Larries start off by thinking oh what a cute and exciting idea and then before they know it spiral into these harmful, deluded conspiracy theorists. Also let’s make it clear that when comparing Larry to a religion we are not saying that religions are conspiracy theories because that would be hugely offensive. But I know the context you meant it in! And you described unlarrying down to a T 😭

[larrysballetslippers]

Annual Writing Self-Evaluation

Thank you @haztobegood for tagging me. This was so fun to do, I can't believe the year is over. My writing journey has only just begun, but it is already so great.

1. Number of stories posted to AO3: 8

2. Word count posted for the year: 82418

3. Fandoms I wrote for: One Direction

4. Pairings: Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson

5. Story with the most:

Kudos: Pretty please

Bookmarks: Look what you've done to me

Comments: Mr. Brightside

More under the cut.

6. Work I’m most proud of (and why): Look what you've done to me. I have learned so much writing this fic, it was the first one where I put so much attention on. I tried my best to create a solid story. It was also really fun to write.

7. Work I’m least proud of (and why):  Mr. Brightside. It's a cute fic, but I'm not as emotionally attached to this one as my other fics. I sometimes forget it exists.

8. Share or describe a favorite review you received:

It was a comment under Look what you've done to me. It isn't the complete comment, it was long. My characters are the most important part of my fic, so I melted when I got this comment.

Ahhh that was such a journey!! I really loved it, your take on both Harry and Louis was wonderful! I loved how nuanced they were, both of them stubborn and not so good at communicating but also so in love and so caring! I especially appreciated how balanced and well equilibrate their relationship was, with both of them taking care of and being protective of the other.

9. A time when writing was really, really hard:

When I was starting my new major this September. I was finishing LWYDTM and it was really hard. The adjustment to my university and the stress of the deadline was a lot.

10. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you: The kiss scene from Look what you've done to me was so so great. I didn't expect to make a kiss so heated and passionate. I know that's good, but I was surprised with my writing.

11. A favorite excerpt of your writing:

Out of Look what you've done to me and my favorite scene. The pond scene, but I like the part the most.

Louis closes his eyes and breathes in the fresh air, he takes in all the beautiful sounds of the park; the ducks, the water, and trees blowing in the wind. Louis hears the sound of grass being ripped out of the ground. Harry bends over Louis and lets some grass strands fall on his face. 

“How is my face? Is the composition of the grass alright?” Louis says nonchalantly, without laughing at his own joke.

“Hmm… I think the grass compliments your little freckles well. If I move this one the composition is perfect.” Harry moves one small strand near Louis’ eyes, almost touching one of Louis’ eyelashes with his finger. 

12. How did you grow as a writer this year:

Woah, so much, so so much. I only started this year, so I came from zero. Well, I always like creating stories in my head, but actually putting it on paper was a whole other challenge. I noticed a growth in my vocabulary, grammar, describing body language etc. I learned what it takes to write a fic and I'm still and the beginning. I can't wait to see my progress in the next few years.

13. How do you hope to grow next year:

I want to further improve my basic writing skills. I want te be better at planning my fics and knowing how much it's going to take. I also want to learn more about BDSM, to incorporate that in my fics.

14. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc):

Firstly, my beta @fearlesslysweetcreature. She taught me so much and is the best cheerleader ever. Love you 💕

Also the wonderful writers of @1d-library . I can talk to so many amazing writers who have been writing for years or are starters like me. Writing sprints and actual help with fics, I couldn't wich for a better community.

15. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year:  

Don't get me started on the self insert haha. I started writing to let out my lockdown frustrations. My first fic, Garlic banana bread was miscommunication and boredom, that was my lockdown too haha. But I put a lot of myself in my fics. It's very difficult for me to not do that. Especially Harry, he always ends up looking a bit too much like me.

16. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers:

Ummm, just start. It doesn't matter if you will never open the doc again, just write a sentence or a prompt or anything. Nobody has to see it, so just write the things you want to write. I have so many prompts I might never revisit, but I wrote them down.

17. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year: 

My Royalty au, Secret Pride. She needs all my attention and love. I hope I can finish it.

18. Tag some writers whose answers you’d like to read.

@harrystomlinson @larrydoinglaundry @beckydoesthings @juliusschmidt @justalarryblog @hometothecanyonmoon @laurelsmybeloved @onlyfor-thegays

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Fic Writer Questions!

Thank you for tagging me @haztobegood!

1) How many works do you have on AO3? 86

2) What’s your total AO3 word count? 865,801

3) How many fandoms have you written for and what are they? 2 (1D and Harry Potter) or if you count adjacent ones to 1d...more than that lol.

4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

I Didn't Fall For You (You Fucking Tripped Me) (wtaf. Like I knew this had the most kudos but I did not know the exact number, and I am just both shaking my head and a little weirded out.)

That's How I Know

Consequences

If I Loved You Less

Paper Houses (wth? Had no idea this even had that many kudos)

5) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

I want to say maybe When the Sun Won't Let You Sleep just because there's no epilogue. I always meant to write one, but I commissioned some art that never happened that was supposed to go with the epilogue. So it just never got written lol.

6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

I'm going to say Until because I think it's the only fic I've written that has a romantic wedding as part of it lol.

7) Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

I guess the only true crossover I have is my very first fic, Just Hear This and Then I'll Go. And that one is a modern day take on Pride and Prejudice. Oh wait, I also wrote a short fic that was a modern version of a short story by L.M. Montgomery, You & Me.

8) Do you write smut? If so what kind?

I do. And uhhh, different kinds? lol. To be honest, I write whatever feels right in the moment. I never plan the smut out ahead of time.

9) Do you respond to comments, why or why not? 

I do! I love comments and I always leave comments when I read. I really love that communication between writer and reader that can happen in the comments.

10) Have you ever received hate on a fic?

I've been pretty lucky with this. I did have one once say something about how the actual members of 1D wouldn't like my fic. a;lsdjfsa I then pointed out that FAN fiction is for FANS. Right there in the name lol.

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Unfortunately, many times.

12) Have you ever had a fic translated?

I have! I generally allow translations as long as I'm credited and given a link to the translation.

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I haven't. I don't know that I could really do that. I'm always amazed by people who do this! I think if I ever did it would be with my long time beta/best friend @taggiecb.

14) What’s your all time favorite ship?

Oof. I have lots of ships that I love, but obviously based on my writing and reading, Louis/Harry is my favorite.

15) What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

I actually have a published wip that I abandoned. sigh. It's sort of a Secret Garden-ish inspired fic, but I just never really figured out where it was going. I'd like to someday write a bucket list au that I've literally been thinking about for years. I don't know why it just never gets written.

16) What are your writing strengths?

Probably dialogue? Or maybe writing humor? People tend to enjoy my brand of humor if my most popular fics are anything to go by. lol.

17) What are your writing weaknesses?

Better descriptive writing is currently what I'm working on. I find that I often write in a visual way, but I tend not to include other descriptors.

18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I personally wouldn't because I don't speak any other language well enough. I once had a little Italian in a fic, and I had an Italian friend write me those sentences.

19) What was the first fandom you wrote for?

My first fic that I published was for One Direction.

20) What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Probably If I Loved You Less because it's my two favorite things put together...Regency romance and fan fiction. And I filled that fic with a whole lot of Regency romance tropes haha. I also really like how a/b/o fits into that world.

I'll tag: @justalarryblog @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed @becomeawendybird @falsegoodnight @jaerie @whatevertearsyou @sadaveniren @vintageumbroshirt @jacaranda-bloom and anyone else who wants to do this!