#also i havent read a book in several years

[mllenugget]

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[13eyond13]

Can I ask your fav death note fics (if you don't mind)? Can be gen or L/Light....

Also, just curious, is there a story behind your name "13eyond13"?

Yes, I have put my recs into a tag here that you are more than welcome to browse. It might have some other kinds of recs shoved into it (like DN fanfic recs from other people or media recs) - but it's 13eyond13.tumblr.com/tagged/reccs

My URL here is simply a version of the name "beyond birthday" ... I first made this blog when I was in the midst of writing a B-centric fic and got stuck on it. I thought that I'd make a tumblr so I could do more than just creep on the DN tumblrs here (which is what I used to do) and actually reblog some writing inspo stuff and post my thoughts about the series and such. "13eyond13" was just the first thing that worked for me when I was trying to pick a name, and at the time I didn't think I'd actually be talking to people here much. So I didn't put a whole lot of thought into how well it'd work as like... a name that people refer to you as or anything (I think it sucks for that!) But I've just had it for so long now that it stuck and I'm attached, I suppose

[eatmeandbirthmeagain]

HEY GWORL GUESS WHO IT IS 💫. I'M BORED ASF DOING REVISION SO IMMA GIVE YOU A FIC PROMPT 😊😊

Okay so Baldwin doesn't realise this but he has severe separation anxiety from you, and one day you go away to visit a sick relative and he's so lonely all day and he's just mooching about the library and the stables etc etc. When you come back in the evening you realise just how much he missed you and you feel bad about leaving him and you both fall asleep curled up together 💗 (Also you don't HAVE to do this but when they're cuddling at the end of the day Baldwin's golden hair has to be out and you're running your fingers through it when you're reassuring him)

I KNOW YOU'RE SUPER BUSY SO PLZ IGNORE THIS IF YOU HAVE TO DW 🙏��

♡ Beautiful Boy - King Baldwin x Reader ♡

♡ Fluff ♡

A/N: Hello Maddy!! Thank you so much for the request girl this is so cute 😭. Havent heard from you for a while, I hope youre doing well 🩷! As always, this is based on the film Kingdom Of Heaven, not the real historical figures. Enjoy!

PS: F/n = Fathers name. I use that term in this oneshot 😅

TW: Leprosy, Separation Anxiety

It had been a few years since the marriage between the king of Jerusalem and the daughter of Lord f/n.

In the time the two had been married, there was rarely a day they spent apart. Every moment of each day was spent together, whether it be in conversation or comfortable silence.

Baldwin, who before his wedding was used to a life of solitude, welcomed the company with open arms. He loved having not just a wife, but a companion who he could share each and every one of his deepest thoughts with.

After so many years of being alone, he was finally whole. He adored being around y/n and she adored being around him. They were perfect for eachother.

But it was not until one day that the young king realized just how much the absence of his wife affected him. He knew that he missed her when she was gone, even if it was for only a few minutes. But he was not aware that her absence could possibly destress him until y/n’s father fell ill.

It was necessary that she went to see him, despite Baldwin not being able to attend by order of his physicians.

“I will be back before sundown” y/n told him with a smile as she mounted her horse.

“I promise you”

“Very well, just please be safe,” the young king replied.

Baldwin found himself fighting back tears as she rode off into the desert, leaving him to watch her disappear into the horizon. He thought about what to do while she was gone.

It was a slow day in the kingdom, not a whole lot to do. Usually on days like this, he and the queen would sit in their shared chambers, playing chess, reading together or just talking about anything.

But not today.

First, Baldwin headed for the library. He ascended the stairs, stopping a few times to catch his breath on account of the mask that restricted his breathing more than it already was.

Cursing under his breath, he finally made it to the library. Baldwin walked silently through the rows and rows of books, wishing that his wife was there to look with him.

Once or twice, he even caught himself calling out her name to come and see an interesting paper he found, only to be met with silence. With a heavy sigh, Baldwin began to descend the stairs once again after finding no cure to his loneliness amongst the books.

He went to the stables, the courtyard, even the kitchen before returning to his chambers after a few hours.

Taking a seat at his desk, the young king felt tears well in his eyes. He felt so alone without her. So anxious and strangely vulnerable. What was happening to him? A man should not rely so heavily on his wife for such things, but he did.

Baldwin pondered this for a while and just when he felt as if he would finally cry, the chamber doors opened and y/n entered the room with a smile.

“Hello darling, how was your day?” she asked cheerfully, putting her bag down.

Baldwin rushed to his wife, wrapping his arms around her neck and pulling her into a tight hug.

“Oh- you missed me did you?” she chuckled, startled by his sudden affection.

Baldwin did not reply, just hugged her tighter and squeezed his eyes shut. Y/n returned the hug, rubbing her husband's back gently. She reached up and pulled his veil off to reveal silky blonde curls before running her hand through them, scratching him behind the ear and over the scalp.

Baldwin groaned softly at the feeling of her hands working away the growing migraine in his head.

“It's getting late, why don't we get some rest hm?” y/n said softly, the young king only nodded in reply. 

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Baldwin did not let go of his wife a single time as they were getting ready for bed. He was either holding her hand or resting his chin on her shoulder, so y/n never got more than a foot away before he was back by her side.

It was amongst this and his greeting that made y/n realize he had missed her much more than she believed he would. Baldwin had always been somewhat clingy but this hurt her heart. He was so deeply attached to her that it made her never wanted to leave his side again.

Once in bed, Baldwin was very quick to snuggle into his wife.

“You missed me today huh?” y/n said gently, running her fingers through his hair.

Baldwin nodded.

“I missed you too, my love. But I am back now, and I will always come back. No matter how long I'm gone”.

The young king looked up at his wife and smiled. She loved seeing his smile without the mask. He had the cutest little smile and his bright blue eyes always glowed when he looked at her.

Y/n kissed her husband's forehead, pushing a golden curl away from his eye. She cupped his mottled face in her hand. In return, Baldwin nuzzled his cheek into her palm, looking up at her with a dreamy smile.

“You're so beautiful Baldwin” she whispered. “My beautiful boy” 

“I love you y/n” the young king said, the dreamy smile never once leaving his face.

“I love you too Baldwin. And I always will”.

Y/n held her husband close to her that night as he dozed off to sleep in her arms. She waited until he was fast asleep before closing her eyes, just to ensure that he was alright.

Before long, both the young king and queen were sleeping peacefully, curled up together in each other's embrace.

Exactly where they wanted to be.

[hadesisqueer]

hows is it obvious that daenerys was the prince who was promised?

im not saying she is not i just havent read the books and im curious

I mean, I read the books a long time ago, so I'll tell you what I remember after a bit of research.

There are two figures, The Prince That Was Promised, which is a prophecy hero, and Azor Ahai, a legendary hero from thousands of years ago who'd be reborn. They have been used interchangeably, which implies that they're believed to be the same person.

There are several characters who are believed by others to be —or who believed themselves to be— Azor Ahai reborn/TPTWP. Melisandre thought it was Stannis, then if I recall she thought it was Jon Snow. Rhaegar, who was obsessed with the prophecy, thought it was him, and then he thought it was his son Aegon (the son of Elia Martell, not Jon; Jon is not really confirmed to be R + L's son in the books yet if I recall, and we don't know if his name would actually be Aegon... probably not tbh because who names his two sons Aegon). Maester Aemon first thought it was Rhaegar, and then he became convinced it was Dany.

After looking back, I remember that a witch told Jaehaerys II (Dany's grandpa) that TPTWP came from his children Aerys and Rhaella's line, which is why he arranged the marriage with each other. If we assume that that is true, then actually there would have been six possible TPTWP: Rhaegar, Aegon VI, Rhaenys, Viserys, Daenerys and Jon Snow. Rhaegar, Viserys and Rhaenys are all dead, so I guess whe could scratch them. Aegon VI (Young Griff) is supposedly still alive in the books and he fits one part of the prophecy —and so did Rhaegar in a way. But lots of people are not really sure that Aegon is actually who he says he is and that he might be a fake.

Melisandre believed it could be Jon. If I recall, there's a part where she said something like 'I ask the lord to show me Azor Ahai and all I see is snow' or something like that (again, it's been a while since I read the books, sorry?).

Now, Daenerys? She fits the prophecy to a T.

Born of Aerys and Rhaella's line? She is their daughter. Check.

Born amidst salt and smoke? Well, she was born in Dragonstone, a volcanic island, so literally born amidst salt (from the sea) and smoke (from the volcano). Metaphorically speaking though, she was also reborn amidst the salt of her tears and smoke from Drogo's funeral pyre. So... Check. Twice, I guess.

A 'bleeding star' would be a herald for the arrival of the prince. There was a Red Comet when Daenerys went into the funeral pyre, where she was reborn. So-- Check.

It was also said that TPTWP would 'awake dragons from stones'. While there are other characters that fit other requirements, Daenerys is the only one who fits this one, unless someone else manages to make three petrified dragon eggs hatch like she did. So-- Check.

Now, the whole thing: Lightbringer. Lightbringer was Azor Ahai's legendary sword. He tried making it three times, but the first two times the sword broke when he tried tempering; he finished the sword by stabbing his wife in the heart. It was said that Azor Ahai would be reborn when stars bleed and cold comes or something like that, and that that warrior would draw Lightbringer as a flaming sword from a fire.

Does Daenerys have Lightbringer? As an actual, physical sword, no. Metaphorically-- yeah. It's Drogon.

She tried to make her dragons hatch (create her weapon) twice and fails-- until she kills her husband and places the eggs in his funeral pyre: she places Drogon's egg beside Drogo's heart, just like Azor Ahai stabbed his wife there and that's where Lightbringer came to be. Then she emerged from the pyre with dragons while there was a red comet (again, bleeding star; the 'cold' would be The Others —White Walkers in the show— and the Winter that comes). Dragons, well-- are fire made flesh. So-- yeah. While she doesn't have a literal sword, Daenerys has her Lightbringer, and it's Drogon.

So, yeah. While people have a lot of theories about who TPTWP/Azor Ahai reborn would be, and there are other characters who fit some requirements, Daenerys is the only one who fully fits the prophecy. That's why a lot of people aren't shocked that it's her in HOTD. It is kind of obvious in the books lmao

[ot3]

am i remembering correctly that at some point in the last several years you made a few posts about this is how you lose the time war or am i completely making that up? asking bc i (disappointed lesbian) got through 70% of it before going "okay i cannot make myself read any more of this. and everywhere i look im only seeing praise for this book. im certain tumblr user ot3 posted actual criticism years ago" only when i searched your blog i couldn't find anything. do you have thoughts on it? have you read it? if you haven't i do not recommend. very exciting premise with frustratingly lame execution.

i have not posted any kind of coherent criticism of it because i have not read it! but i did make a post somewhat along the lines of 'i dont know why but i just have the instinctive gut feeling that i would think this is how you lose the time war sucks shit' and a bunch of people whose opinions i trust were like 'yeah you would probably think it sucks shit'

it's on the backlog for my they got bitches in media spreadsheet so i might try to read it eventually. i dont like hating stuff without having actual reasons to do so and i feel like i owe it a shot just for that. but also it strikes me as the kind of writing that hits if your primary exposure to writing that Hits is 'reposted decontextualized quotes from stuff you havent read' and 'tumblr posts that shouldnt go as hard as they do' and no excerpt i have seen has done anything to dissuade me of that. in the same way that there are Booktok Books and we all understand what that means i think tihylttw is a Tumblr Book.

anyway stay strong soldier. theres good lesbian writing out there i promise. consider checking out the flower that bloomed nowhere by lurina on royalroad

[kindred-spirit-93]

grace siblings x the ithaca saga

hear me out. disclaimer for severe sibling angst ahead so be warned. also! special thanks to and blame on @xixovart for the original idea :')

aight so, unreleased ithaca saga number i cant help bit wonder fits them and both of them extraordinarily well, allow me to demonstate:

All my life, I'd have died to meet you Thought about your name so much it hurts For twenty years I'd dreamt of how I'd greet you Oh, and now you're here I can't find the words

i havent read the books so pls correct me if im wrong, but i dont think the siblings saw much of each other after they were seperated.

thalia: perhaps here jason passes her tree unknowingly and she just feels him. and she thinks to herself all what could have been..

jason: hes heard so much about his older sister only now learning of her death, and it breaks him

--

All my life I'd have died to know you Days and nights I wish that I could show you For twenty years I never could outgrow you Oh, and now you're here

thalia: living on the streets perhaps her thoughts where with her baby brother whom she had to look after for so long, the price of ensuring his well being and growth stunting her own

jason: holding onto the idea of his warrior older sister, trying to live up to the image he has of her in his mind. he stands now helpless infront of her tree, unsure what to do. what to think

--

I can't help but wonder What your world must be If we're like each other If I have your strength in me

jason: now learning of the immense hardship his upbringing had entailed, the years of neglect and abuse followed by running away and not knowing his fate. jason is overwhelmed with what it mustve been like to live years not knowing if she will live to see the next sunrise

I can't help but feel like Sorrow's all I've known And I can't help but realize For so long I've felt alone

thalia: maybe as a tree maybe before that wherever she is or may be, thalia knows her brother didnt have the easiest childhood. he may not be on the streets like she once was but in many ways he had to learn how to fend for himself

both: reflecting on how theyve been doomed from the start. no child of the big three could ever have as we say in arabic مرور الكرام - muroor al kiram (lit. gracious passage) i.e to go unnoticed; they were never going to get the endings they deserved. its the price they were forced to pay for their fathers' mistakes and shortcomings.

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this next part is more father son oriented so ill skip the first verse lol

Used to say I'd make the storm clouds cry for you Used to say I'd capture wind and sky for you Held you in my arms prepared to die for you, oh How times has flown

thalia: once again thinking of the child she held in her arms, her baby brother, whom she loved more than anything, but served as a harsh reminder of the reality of their living conditions.

I can only wonder What your world has been Things you've had to suffer And the strength you hold within

jason: need i say more?

All I've ever wanted Was to reunite with my own 20 years we've wandered But today you're not alone

both: in her strange state of being and in his half living state, thalias leaves rustle in the wind, jason reaches to feel the bark under his fingertips. it hardly counts for an embrace, but its all they have

I'm finally home

both: jason cries and the morning dew falls and the skies weep for the siblings that could have had it all but were given nothing and stripped of everything

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fun fact i originally had just jason be telemachus and thalia ody but decided it works well for both so i split them into two different interpretations sort of?

idk in my minds eye it reads like how in movies 2 people reach out to each other at the same time unkowingly and like hold hands kinda but are sperated by a wall or sum lol.

yeah. them.

[nectar-cellar]

people you'd like to get to know better

thank you for tagging me @happy-lemon i feel like i've missed a few tags lately i'm sorry!! i always see them on my phone and i mean to do them on my computer later and then i forget 😭

last song: this extended mix of rain on me by lady gaga and ariana grande has been on repeat because the original song wasn't nearly long enough. 🗣 I HEAR THE THUNDER COMING DOWN WON'T YOU RAIN ON ME ‼‼‼

favorite color: PUSSY pink

currently watching: not watching anything rn. do sims stories count as tv shows 😌

last movie: i havent sat down to watch a movie in a very long time

currently reading: last thing i read was the wikipedia summary for "my year of rest and relaxation" i was curious about reading a new book. i was not at all expecting the plot. i thought it was going to be some feel-good live love laugh story... well okay! also i went to a used bookstore several weeks ago & i have some books waiting to be opened lol *starts sweating*

Sweet/spicy/savory: savory

last thing I googled: "ask polly the cut" i wanted to read some of the ask polly advice column answers again last night 💔

current obsession: starbucks iced apple crisp oat milk shaken espresso these are so fucking good esp when they're made by GAY baristas

currently working on: i have a bunch of wip cc in my drafts and im trying to think of what to do for simblreen. also working on some random writing in my google drive.

i am nosy i want to know what youve been up to @holocene-sims @bastardtrait @pixelbots @plant-sim @sourlemonsimblr @wannabecatwriter @frostedshore @ares-in-a-jar @thegloomiestwhim @djservo @auroraeternal @streetlites @zosa95 @charmfamily

[veradragonjedi]

cant remmeber all the wuestions on the oc ask game so uh. choose ur 5 favourite questions u havent answered yet and answer those 🔪🔪🔪🔪🦬🔪🔪🔪

Maxwell Lukas has been chosen because I simply MUST talk about him!

Gonna tag @airlocksandaviaries and @many-legged because I love you guys!!

What is most important to your character when shopping?

That someone is WATCHING him. What's the point of flaunting wealth if nobody sees!? After all, he has everything he could ever want, (aaaalmost. . .) why else would he shop? Why else would anyone shop??

What type of environment does your character like best?

That misty hour, early in the morning, somewhere cold and alone, where he flourishes. Nobody should see him there, though. With others, specifically his 'love interest', it's probably the coast, same time of day. Dawn, by the beach or on a cliff, some place you can watch the boats sail past, sunrise, cloudy or overcast are the perfect conditions in either setting. Yeah, you could find him there.

Is there a habit your character has that they learned from someone else?

Ruthless, callous, and fake, from uncle Peter. The fake bit is... interesting. He can play an awfully good impression of someone who genuinely cares about you, manipulating your impression of him right up until the very end, before he plunges a knife into your side, or smashes your mirror. From Elias? I suppose the manipulation tactics also stem from the man who did nothing but watch and learn for several years of his life. Maxwell has been surrounded by upper class men with high esteem, confidence, and certainty in their beliefs and clear eyes for their motives. In the worst sense of the word: he has had some great role models.

How does your character relax?

Probably as previously mentioned! He finds somewhere to be alone, be that in the Lonely, out on the cliffs, somewhere dark and cold, or maybe just in an unused room in Lukas Manor. There, he counts seagulls, or wrings rope, polishes the hooks threaded through his ears, or just reads a book.

Is there a skill your character doesn’t know they’re bad at?

Flirting.

[bunnihearted]

☁️🐇💭

i dont know it all makes me feel so not human, like im missing out on a big human experience. everyone around me has a partner or have had one/multiple. even my old friend a, who i recently messaged a bit with.. even he has a bf. an all of my old friends have currently a partner, and my old classmates have partners and i dont know i just really wonder whats so wrong with my and why im not allowed to be a part of humanity. i know im extremely ugly and have an unappeaking body and on top of that an atrocious personality but like....... so do other ppl. a few of my old friends are bullies and theyre ugly as i am but they're still married and live with their boyfriends... what is so incredibly different with me, why dont i get go partake in humanity???? im like 35 fkn yrs old and never. never. i lack smth so major about being a humanbeing. recently i read a romance book abt two ppl in their 30s who were virgins and fell in love, but like even they had experienced kissing. which i havent. not even a peck. ive never been flirted with never been asked on a date never ever. and i also feel like im quickly getting older and it gets more and more embarrassing bc society ARE judgemental. am i gonna date someone for the first time when im 33yrs old and be like yeah sorry im 33 but ive never even kissed bro im terrible and useless with all of that. no fucking adult is gonna wanna "teach" or have patience with a 33yr old partner who dont know anything about any of that like be for real. i cant hide it either bc they will tell when i dont even know how to kiss. this is if i even ever get to be in a romantic/sexual situation lol.

and like no it isnt normal. most ppl, like the fucking majority, like at least 8/10 ppl have had SOME sexual experience, even if its just kissing. i have zero. like i dont even have experience in flirting. "its ok its normal" no it isnt, its fucking sad and pathetic and humiliating and sets me apart from the rest of humanity, the rest of the world. im 25 and it means im undesirable and unwanted. "u dont have to be in a relationship to be whole" but i WANT to. i used to just want friends, i was fine for somany years with being alone and just wishing to meet friends. but not anymore, it doesnt do anything for me anymore. if anything it only emphasizes my loneliness, bc my so called friends will spend a couple of hours hanging out with me, then they will go home to their partner, they person they have chosen and been chosen by, and i will go home to an empty apartment and be all alone. i dont really care for friendships anymore, i used to see it as a soothing balm to the wound, maybe not the proper treatment for it, but at least it could work as a bandaid. but now it just reminds me of how fucking unwanted i am. sure they might want to have some sort of semi closeness with me, but a mere friendship doesnt allow the closeness and intimacy i need and want. i will never be number 1, the first priority, the one and only, the one they'd do anything for, the one they wanna know better than everyone else, the one they want to spend alltheir time with, the one they're crazy about, to just a friend. it only reminds me that im never good enough or special or important enough to be chosen.

so i just dont care for friendships, they make me hollow and empty and make me feel lonely. because i wanna be so so close to someone. where we almost blend together. you dont do that with friends. u dont have sex and let eo see eachother completely naked - metaphorically - and vulnerable. u dont stay completely loyal and prioritize your friends. i want one person to pour everything into, share everything with. im tired and i dont care about spreading some shards, some splinters of me around widespread. and with how my brain works, how fucking disordered it is, i dont even have the energy to entertain and maintain several different friendships, none of them as deep and profound as i crave. i dont have that in me. i need one person to give it all to. i dont have the energy for more than that, it just doesnt work for me. i dont know. i used to think i wanted friends, and maybe i will get to a place again where i will be able to. maybe. idk anything. but really i cant see how i'd be able to have the energy to give a little bit of me to multiple people. that only makes me feel empty and lonely. i want smth with one person withno barriers between us. idc for anything else anymore i just dont. and thats why i feel so fucking lonely because im dying of thirst and everything that isnt what i want feels like nothing but drops of acid making me slowly fkn die lol

[undergaunts]

Call Me Baby (Chapter 2) (Chapter 1 here)

Sebastian Sallow x Ominis Gaunt (Modern!AU)

Summary: The text chat logs between Sebastian Sallow and Ominis Gaunt during their 6th and 7th year at Hogwarts. (or Sebastian and Ominis can't bear to be apart for longer than 5 minutes, so spend their entire summer, winter and spring breaks texting and calling each other)

Rating: Teen & Up (this will go up in the next chapter!)

Word count: 6.4k

Recommended to read on AO3 as the layout is better but it’s also below the cut <3

SUMMER

July 1st, 6:14pm

sebastian changed their name to ss

July 2nd, 10:02am

Ominis

Hello Sebastian. I just wanted to let you know I have one of your books. You’d left it in Transfiguration so Professor Weasley gave it to me. I tried to tell her but she wouldn’t listen. I’ll pass it on to Anne when we get back to school. 

From anne ^_^ to Ominis

July 4th, 11:07am

anne ^_^

has he responded yet? 

Ominis

No. I’m not surprised.

anne ^_^

to be honest me neither.

he’s such an idiot, I’m sorry. 

Ominis

It isn’t your fault, Anne. We both know how he can be when he’s upset. 

anne ^_^

yeah but to go like, what, 3 months now? hardly talking to you is SO weird.

he gets annoyed and is super stubborn a lot but to go this long being the way he is is just off

Ominis

It is how it is, I suppose. I can only see that he felt we were pushing boundaries too far and had to take a step back.

anne ^_^

but not like this, and what do you mean? 

Ominis

After we changed our display names, apparently several of our classmates contacted him asking if we were dating, or assuming we were. We do - did - spend a lot of time together, but the name change was purely a joke. I think it may have had more consequences than expected for Sebastian. 

anne ^_^

but he was the one who told you to do it, no?

Ominis

Yes.

anne ^_^

so why was it too far?

Ominis

I think it was more the questions of us being a couple. It’s a preposterous idea but if pushed too far, some people may believe it and unfortunately people did. I think he’s really just wanted to distance himself from me to prove it wasn’t true. 

anne ^_^

hmm. i just can’t see that being the issue though

he’s always been so touchy feely with you, just changing your names and having people ask if you’re dating doesn’t seem like something he’d just stop being your friend over.

and you never argued?

Ominis

Oh, we argued. A fair amount. But not recent to our last conversation. 

anne ^_^

and he didnt say anything to you over the phone or anything?

Ominis

No. Truly, Anne, I believe my theory wholeheartedly. And it’s fine. I still have you. I hope, at least. 

anne ^_^

oh ominis, always!

but he’s been really cold to me too, so i think there’s more going on. I’m certain it’s not just what you think. give me a couple days to try and speak to him, ok?

let me know if you want to talk at any point <3

Ominis

Of course. Thank you :)

from anne ^_^ to ss

July 5th, 11:15am

anne ^_^

where r u?

ss

dw

anne ^_^ 

smh where r u

ss

why?

anne ^_^

ffs seb

do i need to ask a third time

ss

on a walk it’s a nice day

anne ^_^

ok but where

ss

gods anne do u want me to just send my location or something ?!

anne ^_^

please

ss

really?? look i just want to be alone today ok

anne ^_^

uve wanted to be alone everyday for like 3 months

ss

im good company, what can i say

anne ^_^

not the way uve been moping about ur not. me and ominis r really worried abt u

ss

whats he got to do with it?

anne ^_^

everything???? he’s ur best friend and suddenly u act like u wld rather try to tame 50 graphorns at once than be around him.

look we r just worried ok? just want to know whats going on

ss 

anne im fine. look im just trying to come to terms with some things and id rather do it alone

anne ^_^

what? ur dramatic ass honestly

like what?

ss

like leaving hogwarts next year 

and stuff

anne ^_^

so u ignore ur favourite thing about it ?!

ss

what? hes not

there r other things i like way more than him

anne ^_^

such as ???!!

since the moment u met ominis u havent shut up about him, u used to wake up everyday at school and the first thing u would do would be go and wake him up because u didnt want to do anything without him

i mean just this last year u spent 24/7 with him at hogwarts and then u get home aND CONTINUE TO TALK TO HIM 24/7

and i know u didnt have an argument or anything, all that happened was that people thought u were dating for like 5 minutes and then u stop talking 

like if it wasn’t so insane to suggest id swear u were in love with him and people worked it out before u which made u work it out so now u cant deal with being around him and dont want to talk to anyone in case they mention him LOL

11:51am

anne ^_^

seb

12:07

anne ^_^

seb

12:12

anne ^_^

seb

ss

:/

anne ^_^

??

ss

…

anne ^_^

what?

ss

…

anne ^_^

WHAT?

oh

oh seb

im sorry i didnt mean to laugh i really didnt think

oh please come back home :( or at least tell me where u r. i dont wanna do this over text :(

ss

id much rather text, i think i would cry in person

anne ^_^

:( ok

im really sorry, i wish u wouldve told me

i knew u loved him i just didnt realise in that way

i mean ok maybe i sort of did if i guessed that but Gods seb :(

ss

yeah i guess everyone sort of knew before me then? which has been the craziest thing

when everyone was sending me messages asking if we were dating i was so confused cos the whole name thing was clearly a joke, then it hit me like a tonne of bricks and i realised it just wasn’t. i dont think it’s ever been a joke. like ive told people no no it was a joke stop acting weird

but the only one acting weird is me

anne ^_^

seb :(

i cant imagine how uve been feeling

i wish u wouldve told me at least, even if u werent totally sure i could’ve helped, i couldve still supported u

ss

im sorry, genuinely, its just been hard

i mean i assumed i only liked girls for my whole life, and i do, i think they’re pretty and stuff but then i realised every girl ive ever dated ive ditched to be with him? and when i have gone on a date ive just talked about him.

all i do is think about him

ive kept rereading our texts and merlin all i do is flirt, badly but still

it’s just so stupid 

fuck sorry it’s all sort of just coming out

anne ^_^

literally

ss

huh

anne ^_^

coming out, literally

ss

oh 

LMAO thanks i laughed out loud for probs the first time in months

anne ^_^

:D

sorry haha i didn’t mean to cut u off please continue

ss

no it’s ok

hes my best friend and ive ruined it by being in love, and then ive ruined it even more by just not talking to him. ugh I just...what do i even do? u kno he messaged me the other day and it made me cry. i was sitting on a rock by the lake crying like a loser. like wtf. i still haven’t replied

anne ^_^

i think he just wants u back. he really misses u. honestly he won’t admit it because hes sort of just accepted u hate him 

and u know how proper he is haha but he’s devastated

ss

u think?

anne ^_^

r u dumb?

don’t answer tht. of course he is. ur literally his best friend. his entire world. he loves u

it might not be in the way u want but he would die for u I reckon. PLEASE talk to him :( Ik it’s going to be hard but ur best friends at the end of the day, to throw it all away would be silly

ss

i know ur right. if i reply to him i might vomit

anne ^_^

worth it please?

ss

let me think. but i probably will at some point. ur right. he is my best friend first

gods im sorry

anne ^_^

don’t need to apologise to me but i think u should apologise to him

ss

yeah i will

thank u

anne ^_^

love u. come back home ??

ss

love u 2. i will soon

anne ^_^

<3

From anne ^_^ to Ominis

July 5th 2:43pm

anne ^_^

hey 

so news - he’s ok, he’s just dumb. he’s gonna message you soon

Ominis

Just dumb? I’m not sure I know what you mean. But I’m glad he’s well. 

anne ^_^

ah i’m not sure how i could explain it. it’s not really my thing to explain, but hopefully he will. well, he better or I’ll whack him over the head

Ominis

Could you do that anyway?

anne ^_^

LOL tempting

Ominis

Well thank you Anne.  I’m glad you got to the bottom of it, even if you won’t tell me!

anne ^_^

promise he will, one way or another. either he will or ive got a good sized book on magical beasts that might get his brain into working order 

Ominis

Haha. I shall look out for his message then. Thank you again. 

anne ^_^

no problem. speak soon :)

From Ominis to ss

July 2nd, 10:02am

Ominis

Hello Sebastian. I just wanted to let you know I have one of your books. You’d left it in Transfiguration so Professor Weasley gave it to me. I tried to tell her but she wouldn’t listen. I’ll pass it on to Anne when we get back to school. 

July 6th, 4:37am

ss

hi thank you that means a lot

sorry i didnt respond sooner

u can pass it on to me if it’s easier

<3

haha

8:45am

Ominis

Good morning Sebastian. I think I shall do that then. Thank you. 

9:23am

ss

kewl. sweet. sounds good

9:28am

ss

so are you

how have you

look im really sorry for acting the way i did recently. i know it probably seemed like i was angry at u but I wasnt, i was just going through something and i got a bit weird. but ive realised im stupid and im so sorry

i understand if u don’t want to talk to me anymore. i really do miss you. cutting you out like that was really horrible. ur my best friend and im really sorry :(

Ominis

I wish you would’ve spoken to me, Sebastian. If you were going through something - whatever it is - you know I’m here for you. Just like you’ve always been there for me. We can still speak about it, if you would like, but there’s no pressure. You don’t need to apologise. But I would like to go back to how things were, if possible? 

And you are also my best friend, by the way. You know I’m not one for sentimentality, but it’s true. 

ss

:’)

im honoured

sentimentominis haha

it’s really not important, im over it now

ok not really but

i would love to go back to how it was

but I love.

would u hate me if.

ive really missed u dude 

Ominis

And I you. Let’s put it behind us. But only if you promise not to shut me out again like that. Agreed?

ss

agreed :D

July 8th, 10:52am

ss

morning :)

Ominis

Good morning. 

ss

how u?

Ominis

Well. My mother, father and sister had gone to visit my brother for a fortnight, so I have the entire place to myself for the next five days. How are you?

ss

im good :) that’s cool haha why didnt u get dragged along?

Ominis

They left just before I returned from Hogwarts, thankfully. I may actually use their absence to my advantage this afternoon and choose a book from my father’s study. I’m not often allowed in there you see. 

ss

damn u sooooo rebellious 

well i guess u acc r with not being a bigot and stuff lol.

but i go looking for treasure in catacombs in the middle of the night and u go borrow a book from ur dad

Ominis

One must start somewhere. With your influence I may start a criminal trading ring. 

ss

wht wld u trade?

Ominis

Books, of course. The first book traded will be the one I pilfer from my father. The rest will then follow. 

ss

can i join?

Ominis

You’re my partner in this, so of course.

ss 

what kind of partner?

of course, travelling all over the country

Ominis

All over the world. On the run, mostly from my father for stealing that first book, but from all of the people we’ve swindled as well. It’s just the two of us, versus everyone else. 

ss

gods i love

Haha r u drunk?

Ominis

No. It seems like I should be though, doesn’t it?

ss

yes lol

so if ur home alone

ok crazy question, ik what ur probably gonna say but ill ask anyway - if ur on ur own why don’t i come over?

i mean i don’t have to come to the mAnOr but maybe we could walk around ur village or smth

it cant be that bad can it lol, i don’t have to stay over or anything, just might be nice to see u :)

Ominis

I’d like that. 

ss

really???? sure????????

Ominis

My house isn’t the nicest, I must forewarn you. It’s very old and rather grim and I’m certain is falling apart in places. It might be better to stay away from it, but I could probably at least show you the outside. 

ss

don’t care, have you seen mine lmao, me and anne literally had to nail the window closed because it just wouldn’t shut. trust me idc

Ominis

Mine may be worse than that. How does tomorrow around eleven sound?

ss

:D, yes perfect can’t wait 

Ominis

Wonderful. I look forward to it. 

July 9th, 11:43pm

ss

ik ur probably asleep but i just wanted to say i had so much fun today. ur house is so big haha im not susprised u used to get lost as a kid. but thank u for letting me see it and see u mostly

sleep well baby boy :)

July 12th, 5:18am

ss changed their display name to SEB!

SEB!

gmornin

9:22am

Ominis

Good morning. Did you sleep well? You were up early. 

SEB! 

kinda, someone has a rooster in the village so it woke me up bright and early lol there’s already plans to start a riot i think

Ominis

Well we can’t have that. Sebastian Sallow needs his beauty sleep. 

SEB!

oh you think im. so you do think im

im slowly growing uglier day by day as the rooster grows stronger, feeding off my youth 

Ominis

Ah, I actually don’t think it’s possible, your beauty is eternal, you see, but without any sleep you will not have the strength to fight back against the evil rooster and prevent it from world domination. 

SEB!

fuck so you do think im

swear ur drunk again haha

Ominis

I think it’s the fact I’m not having to deal with my mother and father, combined with the varying chemicals I’m certain are in the water here that are getting me ‘high’. 

SEB!

oh jeez haha srs? maybe u should come stay with me again then

Ominis

No. Well, there could be, but I don’t think that’s why I’m acting strange. I think I’m just happy to be talking to you again, in all honesty. :)

SEB!

i

ur

:)

what happened to Mr I’m-Not-One-For-Sentimentality?

Ominis

It seems I’ve grown soft, doesn’t it?

SEB!

is there another reason other than just

yea it’s weird!!

Ominis

I shall stop then. 

SEB!

no i love

no i like this Ominis :)

Ominis

If you’re sure. 

SEB!

totally, but i wasnt joking about u coming to stay again. could come stay the last 2 weeks again if u wanted

or even longer, up to u

Ominis

I’ll ask my father. But I would like that. I enjoyed last year, a lot. 

SEB!

me too, and this is our last summer at school so we should make the most of it!

Ominis

You’re right. I’ll see what I can do. 

SEB!

lmk wen u kno

Ominis

Will do. <3

SEB!

<3

<3

fuck

<3

July 16th, 10:32pm

Ominis

Would you like hear about my horrendous day?

SEB!

do tell. hold on

10:37pm

SEB!

ok, i have a cup of tea and some biscuits so im ready to listen lol

Ominis

I was very rudely awoken this morning by my sister, rather than the usual house elf, and ushered downstairs to where my entire family were huddled in the drawing room, as if someone had passed away. You see, apparently, after someone had tipped him off, my father had found out that the girl Marvolo was to marry was not pureblood at all!

SEB!

HORSE GIRL?

whaaaat really?

Ominis

Well, according to them, not pure enough. On her Mother’s side, her great, great grandmother was actually muggle-born. Which means her great, great, great grandparents were muggles. 

SEB!

oh my hahahahahahahaah oh i bet theyr all fuming

Ominis

That’s putting it lightly. Apparently the mother had not even told her husband or daughter about this until very recently, but they were still determined to go ahead with this marriage.

Of course my father and brother were out for blood. More so than ever before. Imagine what would’ve happened if the Gaunt name was tarnished by a minuscule percentage of muggle blood! And, God forbid, if she and Marvolo had ever had children, an even smaller percentage, ruining millennia of perfection!

SEB!

oh this is brilliant, i can imagine u standing there smiling the whole time

Ominis

I certainly would’ve, however we were then rushed to Paris by floo to call the whole thing off, if you can even describe it as ‘calling it off’. I wouldn’t have wished the sounds on my worst enemy, Sebastian. 

SEB!

all 5 of u??? wtf wait what happened, sorry i thought this was a funny story

Ominis

Thankfully I didn’t have to partake in anything this time around. Not like before. My sister made sure of that, I thank the gods for her. I know my mother wasn’t happy I didn’t stay to ‘help protect the Gaunt name’ as she put it. All I know was as soon as the doors closed, I’ve never heard sounds like it. And they tried to fight back. Of course they would, they’re wizards, not muggles, they’re not as easy to break. It was horrible. I hate them, this is so fucked up. Gods. I just 

SEB!

what?

Ominis r u home? R u ok????

Ominis

I’m home now, yes. I’m sorry. Saying it out loud has made me realise just what happened. It was utterly awful. 

SEB!

can i call?

Ominis

Please. 

SEB is calling Ominis

Call accepted

Call ended, 3hr, 11min

July 17th, 1:59am

Ominis

Thank you. For staying so long. You must go rest now, especially if that rooster is still about. 

SEB!

it is still here lol but idc, i wld stay on the phone all day with u if u wanted me to, ur so so undeserving of all this shit. u have done nothing wrong ok? ever. plz dont blame urself

ur so important to me. i promise this time next year u will be out of there. i will do whatever it takes. 

ur my

ur my baby boy and i love u lots

:)

Ominis

Thank you. I’m sorry. 

Love you too. 

Sweetheart. 

:)

SEB!

<3

7:34am

SEB!

i just read those messages again, and i mean it. I love you, Ominis. Like, full homo haha

i genuinely meant it when I said I love you, did you?

i love you in a gay way btw

marry me?

im not ever going to send any of these messages so idk why im even typing

July 19th, 10:33am

Ominis

Hi. Hope you slept well. Can we call when you're available?

SEB!

ofc!!

SEB! is calling Ominis

Call accepted

Call ended, 2hr 42mins

July 20th, 11:21am

Ominis

Good morning. Are you free to talk?

SEB! 

yea !!! 

SEB! is calling Ominis

Call accepted

Call ended, 3hr, 29mins

July 21st, 12:22pm

Ominis

Call?

SEB!

<3

Ominis is calling SEB!

Call accepted

Call ended, 4hr 2min

July 22nd, 11:15am

SEB!

Call me when ur around

Ominis is calling SEB!

Call accepted

Call ended, 4hr 19min

July 23rd, 10:48am

Ominis

Up

SEB! is calling Ominis

Call accepted

Call ended, 4hr 57min

July 24th, 5:01pm

SEB!

going for a walk can call?

Ominis

Please.

SEB! is calling Ominis

Call accepted

Call ended, 5hr 51min

10:53pm

SEB!

oh damn haha new record didn’t even realise

Ominis

What?

SEB! 

we were on the phone for almost 6 hours

Ominis

Merlin, really? What on Earth do we even talk about?

SEB! 

absolutely nothing. it’s great

Ominis

At this rate we won’t have anything to talk about when we get back to Hogwarts. 

SEB!

but u know we will. we could easily break that record tomorrow 

and the day after

and the day after that

Ominis

I think you are right. It’s a wonder I’m not sick of you. 

SEB! 

i love

same here

somehow I forgot to ask but did u ask ur dad if u can come stay solomon doesn’t care, he was like ‘ur almost 18 do what u want’

Ominis

Ah, no, not yet. He and Marvolo are, well, honestly, I have no idea what they are doing. As you well know I’ve spent most of my time in my room talking to you. I’m just trying to keep out of the way as I usually do. But when I’ve tried to speak to him he has mostly brushed me off. Again, as he usually does. 

I’ll try again at some point. There’s nothing more I want to do than to come and stay with you, but you know how my family can be. 

SEB!

i

yea that’s cool dude, whenever u can, if u can

anne keeps asking me about us

anne keeps asking like when is ominis coming and im like idk lay off!! lmao

Ominis

I’m clearly a wanted man. 

SEB!

yeah i want u so bad u don’t even kno lol imagine if i sent that

it’s our last summer at school, we wanna hang out with u :)

Ominis

Soon. Promise.

SEB! 

fingers and toes and arms and legs and eyes and wands all crossed  <3

July 30th, 7:54am

Ominis

How would you feel about me staying for a month?

8:23am

SEB!

overjoyed, ecstatic, thrilled, etc etc

why?

Ominis

My father pretty much said I could come for as long as I wanted. Not in so many words, but I think he’s far too focused on other things at the moment to worry about what I’m doing with myself. 

SEB!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ominis

Are you busy this afternoon?

SEB!

NO! NOW? TODAY?

Ominis

That is what I meant by this afternoon. Would that be ok? I’d wait another day or two but I don’t think I really can. Haha. 

SEB!

please come whenever

come now !!

Ominis

Are you certain?

SEB!

Super certain. I can’t wait to see you. 

Ominis

:) I’ll pack my things. I’ll let you know when I’m coming. 

SEB!

i’ll let anne and solomon know haha brb

8:27am

SEB!

anne’s really excited!! solomon got annoyed i woke him up hahaha but he doesn’t care he’s probably gonna be off somewhere in a few days anyway so

ahhhhh this is great news to wake up to, can’t wait to see u baby boy it feels like forever. only 3 weeks but 

9:04am

Ominis

On my way Sweetheart. <3

WINTER

December 23rd, 6:33pm

SEB! changed their display name to sebauble

sebauble

hello lovely

did u get back ok?

7:04pm

Ominis

Yes, thank you. Thank you to you, Anne and Solomon for having me. I’m sorry I had to return back home so soon. I would’ve liked to have stayed for the entirety of the break and not miss Christmas with you. 

But I suppose there is New Years, at least. 

sebauble

ik :( sucks

i don’t get ur family, one year they don’t care if ur there or not the next you HAVE to come home

so strange

but yeah new years woo woo

Ominis

It’s not as if we really celebrate the holiday. There’s a meal in the evening, but we usually spend the days to ourselves, gather in silence to eat and then return to our rooms. 

It’s certainly not a traditional Christmas. 

sebauble

EXACTLY

damn gaunts bunch of weirdos haha

Ominis

Careful, I’m still a Gaunt whether I like it or not. 

sebauble

o_o

no no i like to think of u as a sallow

my husb

like my brother

LOL

Ominis

I told you, don’t call me your brother. 

Or sister, before you start. 

sebauble

fine, but ur still a sallow in my eyes

Ominis

How so? As your husband? Do I marry in to the Sallow name? Or is it just an honorary title?

sebauble

oh fuck did u

yes just marry me

merlin did u just

yes u can be my husband

hm it would solve lots of problems

no gaunt surname, no dealing with ur family, im a pureblood so they wouldn’t care, u could live here, wouldn’t have to be married off to someone you hate

what say u

marry me baby?

shit I’m only joking

no I’m not

Ominis

I thought you’d never ask! Haha. 

Or I could just marry Anne. Be a modern gentleman and take her name. 

sebauble

oh

yeah that could work too

we would have to see if she would agree though

Ominis

I’m sure she would. I’m certainly the better choice than half the boys in our year. And we are already great friends, it seems like a good match!

sebauble

please don’t be in love with my sister i would die

Is this ur way of telling me u want to date anne or something haha

Ominis

Oh absolutely not, Sebastian!

No offence to her, but Anne is not quite my type. I thought we were joking?

sebauble

thank Merlin

wait so

Haha yeah i am lol

so what is ur type then lol

i shouldn’t have sent that fuck

Ominis

Oh, er, I don’t really know. I haven’t put much thought into it. 

sebauble

just enough to know def not my sister then

lol poor Anne

Ominis

I suppose so.

sebauble

THANK FUCK

So like

if u had to date someone in our year who would it be

How do u even know what ur type is when u can’t see

Is it just personality? face feel?

you’ve felt my face before, did u like it?

Ominis

I really haven’t put much thought into it.

sebauble

ok but u must like someone right ?

or have in the past

u seem to get on with poppy quite well

and there’s that girl in 6th who is always nice to u and she’s pretty fit, kinda boring but

Ominis

Look, Sebastian, I don’t know and I don’t really want to talk about this. We haven’t before, and I don’t particularly want to start now.

sebauble

sorry

i won’t bring it up again

i was just being nosy

Ominis

Let’s just leave it. I’ve got to go for supper anyway. I’ll talk to you tomorrow. 

sebauble

im a fucking idiot

now u hate me

ok, sorry

speak tomorrow

December 24th, 1:37pm

sebauble

hellooooo

8:22pm

Ominis

Good evening. Sorry for not getting in contact with you sooner. I’ve been rather busy today. 

sebauble

it’s ok!!

i thought u might be annoyed at me

did u do anything fun?

Ominis

My dear Aunt Noctua has come for Christmas. It was why my parents demanded me home, so I forgive them now. Haha. 

I’ve spent a long time talking to her today. She doesn’t often visit anymore so it has been a pleasure to be in her company again. 

sebauble

ahh that’s cute im glad she’s there !!!

how is she

Ominis

Very busy, as always. She was telling my sister and I multiple stories of her childhood with my father. He used to be quite kind, surprisingly. He wasn’t there to hear, though, or I fear how he would’ve reacted. 

sebauble

NO WAY 

Ominis

Indeed. He used to read her stories to help her fall asleep when they were both young. Unfortunately the weight of the Gaunt name and the expectations from my grandfather soon caught up to him and, well, you know the rest. 

sebauble

that sucks

is she staying long?

Ominis

Only until Boxing Day. Then she’s back to her travels.

sebauble

ah that’s a shame

but at least u get to see her

makes up for u not being here tomorrow haha

Ominis

Yes, I suppose it does. 

Well, not entirely. I’d much rather be with you, Anne and Noctua. That would be a much more pleasant Christmas. 

sebauble

maybe one day :)

8:52pm

Ominis

Sebastian? 

sebauble

…yeah? 

Ominis

I’m sorry for the way I reacted yesterday. 

sebauble

oh about the

no, i should be sorry. i was prying.

Ominis

Not at all. We’re best friends, I think it’s perfectly normal to talk about things like that. Especially at our age.

sebauble

yeah

i know we dont really

it’s just

im in love with y

we have almost finished school and u have never gone on a date or anything 

and don’t say no girls would date u cos they totally would

Ominis

I think that’s where the issue may lie. 

sebauble

wdym?

Ominis

I think my issue here is er the girls. 

sebauble

oh right 

none of them are taking ur fancy 

idk if u gave that 6th year a chance she might be alright 

or just date me lol

Ominis

That’s really not what I’m trying to say.

sebauble

ok then i don’t get it

Ominis

Merlin’s beard Sebastian I thought you were intelligent. Do I really have to spell it out?

I don’t like girls. I don’t want to date girls. They’re perfectly fine and I’m sure are very pretty, and actually I have been asked out before and didn’t tell you because I never went.

Because I like boys. 

sebauble

oh

Ominis

And I’m sorry I never told you but it’s just something I’ve had to keep to myself for a long time because I just never knew how to bring it up. 

I’m sorry if this makes you uncomfortable now, I really hope it doesn’t. You’re the first person I’ve told. 

sebauble

oh

Ominis

Well don’t just keep saying oh, say something, anything, I beg of you. 

sebauble

sorry

me too, i like boys too, i like girls as well but i really like boys, i mean u boys, u r a boy and i like u, i love u actually, fuck sake

Ominis, it took me a long time to see it, but I’ve been in love with you for years, you’re the person I want to spend every waking moment with and talk to about everything and oh gods i can’t do it

Ominis

Are you typing? Can you just respond please, other than just sorry?

sebauble

dude i

sorry

that’s cool!!!

u should’ve told me before

didn’t need to keep this kind of secret

i would’ve set u up lol

Ominis

With someone from our school? Disgusting, the lot of them. Filthy, smelly boys. 

sebauble

even me?

then how do u kno u even like boys???

Ominis

Well. That’s a good question. It’s just something I know, I suppose. Yep, that’s it, definitely. 

sebauble

oh no no no no no no no no please say no

…oh i see right through u

there IS someone u like

Ominis

Alright. Maybe. 

But don’t go pushing me, I’m not going to tell you. 

sebauble

fuck fuck fuck fuck just kill me

tell me who it is now, ill kill them

i wont. thats what the amortentia is for

i’ll get u to smell it, tell me what u smell and then ill work it out

im very smart

Ominis

You’d have to torture that out of me, Sebastian. 

sebauble

if it gets u on a date with someone then itll be worth it >:)

Ominis

That’s the other issue. I don’t think this person is interested in boys. 

At all. 

sebauble

dude

I have to know now

let me help

Ominis

I think we should really leave it.

sebauble

…

alright

only because im nice and respectful of ur privacy

sometimes lol

but if u need my help

i am here

Ominis

Thank you. I mean it, for not hating me. For being supportive. 

sebauble

ur my best friend

why would i hate u over this? don’t be daft

i could never hate u baby

in fact i

Ominis

:) Thank you. 

Well, I should go wallow in my own self pity now, it’s been a long day. I’ll talk to you in the morning?

sebauble

speak tomorrow

sleep well

love u

<3

Ominis

Love you too.

<3

December 25th, 9:31am

sebauble

CHRISTMAS

WAKE UP

Ominis

I’m awake! 

Merry Christmas Sebastian :)

sebauble

MEERY CHRISTMAS OMINIS

Ominis

Don’t forget to open the gift I got you. 

And the one for Anne, too. 

sebauble

I WONT

CAN I OPEN NOW?

Ominis

Yes!

9:36am

sebauble

oh dude thank you

i fucking love it

just what i wanted

Ominis

Is it the right one?

sebauble

YES

super cool

i wanted this quidditch jumper for forever 

so thank you

it’s perfect 

ITS GOT MY NAME ON THE BACK

i just saw

Hahahahah even more perfect 

brilliant

<333333

Ominis 

I’m so glad you like it. I had to get Anne’s help. Did she like her gift?

sebauble

hold on

yes she loves it thank you

she said ‘id been wanting this diary for ages, thank you ominis, u really shouldn’t have’

u need to stop being so generous dude

im sorry i couldn’t really afford to get u anything

Ominis

I just want to make you happy, it’s not about getting anything in return, honestly. 

I’m glad she likes it. Merry Christmas to you both. 

sebauble

…

Ominis

What?

sebauble

check ur bag

Ominis

What?

sebauble

just check it

9:45am

Ominis

What is this? 

sebauble

did u open it?

Ominis

No, what have you done?

sebauble

open it

9:47am

Ominis

I’ve opened it. It feels like a photo frame. What is it?

sebauble

so if u run ur hands over the whole thing it u should be able to feel some bits feel different to the other bits

Ominis

Yes, I can feel that. Some bits are raised and other bits aren’t. 

sebauble

yeah

its basically a picture with the outlines raised up so you can feel it. sort of like a drawing but u can trace over it so u can ‘see’ it

Ominis

What’s it a picture of?

sebauble

us

from mine and anne's birthday party

idk if u remember

she took the picture outside the dorm

i think we were both drunk but yeah

i just loved the picture

and wanted u to see it somehow

Ominis

Oh Sebastian. 

sebauble

is it any good?

can u sort of feel it?

im on the left side and ur on the right 

if it’s no good u don’t have to keep it

Ominis

Sebastian. 

sebauble

yeah?

Ominis

This is the most wonderful gift I’ve ever received. 

sabauble

haha

really?

Ominis

This is the most thoughtful, amazing thing I’ve ever been given. I can’t believe it. You shouldn’t have spent the money on me. 

sebauble

as u said earlier ‘i just want to make u happy’

Ominis

Sebastian. You’ve made me cry. 

sebauble

don’t cry :(

plz

sorry

Ominis

You idiot. I’m not sad. I just cannot believe someone has done something this wonderful for me. And for you to be the one to do it, well, is not surprising but.

I don’t think I can thank you enough. 

I love you.

sebauble

i

you

i love you too so much

Ominis

But probably not in the way I love you. 

sebauble

????

Ominis

Gods, I apologise, I didn’t mean to send that. Stupid phone.

Please ignore that message. How do you delete a message? I can’t delete the message, why won’t it delete it? Oh it’s still listening to me, for fuck

sebauble

what

Ominis

Please Sebastian, please ignore it. I think it must’ve heard me wrong or something, I’m sorry.

Just ignore it, I can’t delete it for some stupid reason but you’ve already seen it anyway so it doesn’t

I apologise. I don’t understand why it listens to me sometimes and then doesn’t the other. 

I hate these stupid things.

Just forget it. 

sebauble

do you

are you in love with me or something?

Ominis

I said just ignore it. Please. 

sebauble

no, just tell me

are you?

when u said there’s someone u like yesterday

did u mean me?

Ominis

Sebastian, please.

sebauble

tell me

please

u have to tell me

I’m begging u

Ominis

I can’t do this Sebastian

sebauble

please

please because if i say i feel the same way and u say u were joking i think i would die

Ominis

You feel the same way?

sebauble

i do

ominis please

im stupidly desperately in love with you and i truthfully have no idea for how long but all i know is that i love you with every fibre of my being and i spend every second without u wishing i was with u and every second with u wishing i was closer to u

all the times I’ve called you baby and perfect and gorgeous i was never joking

please tell me u weren’t joking

please

Ominis

I wasn’t joking. I didn’t mean to send it but I am serious. 

Are you serious?

sebauble

ofc i am 

i swear

Merlin

I love you Ominis

Ominis

Can I call?

sebauble

yes

please

Ominis is calling sebauble

Call accepted

[rigelmejo]

So I haven't posted in a while. Little updates:

I finished arc 1 of Guardian in chinese again. So now I wont feel bad reading the book 1 english translation.

I took a break from chinese for a while then came back to read. And its interesting to me how much is stored like "2nd level down" in my memory. I don't recall words when trying to talk, after a long enough break. But I start reading, and my brain subvocalizes the hanzi and I can recall this Gist General Meaning of the words. Some words I recall their meaning and all, some just an overall general idea. But I havent forgotten much, nothing totally forgotten, and then most of the details of words come back within an hour or reading. Its surprising to me that reading chinese, memory wise, seems a LOT like reading french. I didnt expect it to be quite as similar a process. But it seems that remembering hanzi Words is as permanent as remembering french word stems/endings (or english ones). Reading skills have long staying power, and don't degrade much even with long breaks between usage. This is Excellent news. Since I don't have time to study much for the next several months, so I'm glad reading skills will stay as good as they are Or Improve if I read, without needing maintenance study. I'd like to improve my listening skill too, because being able to understand audiobooks would increase the chinese novels I could get through that I want to read (audiobooks would be faster than reading). But I dont have time yet for listening reading combo study, and time will tell if i do that activity WHEN and IF listening skills also gradually solidify then become reliable so one can study more sporadically and still see improvement.

My french skills are. Fascinating. I havent purposely studied in like over 5 years. I dont get that much French exposure (my google is in french but tbh google email and notifications do not use a big variety of words). But I've noticed a dramatic improvement in listening skills. My french reading skills have been fine for years. Theyre at a level where I can read like a high schooler: so i can read fiction for adults, but some words or literary devices go over my head and I have to just guess, the more in depth text analysis of themes might be a challenge, but just getting the story/information/most details is fine. I havent had to limit what i read in french in ages. Its just a matter of in french i feel like i did in high school where some fiction makes me "think hard" to grasp some points, versus english where i dont run into needing to Think Hard like that unless I'm reading something written pre-1800s. Anyway my point is: reading skills have been stable a while in french. Listening skills have markedly improved despite very little purposeful practice. I think I should probably start listening to podcasts or audiobooks some point soon. Through scattered listening to B1 and B2 comprehensible audio on youtube, and french shows, im to a point where if the audio has visual context i can follow everything going on and learn new words pretty easy. So now its just listening to french when i have no visuals to rely on, that's a struggle. I remember a few years back, i could not listen to french shows id just get confused, i needed the subtitles to follow anything. My ears mustve gotten used to french or just gotten used to Listening Better to things. Anyway, if i start trying and French Listening Only materials ill mention some progress.

Anyone have any french audiobooks or podcasts/fiction story podcasts they enjoy???

Japanese. also in a weird place. ToT. My biggest hurdle isnt even japanese: its being too chicken to challenge myself. I can play Yakuza Ishin in japanese and follow the main idea and objectives and main points in scenes. Yet i have NOT played more cause it feels Draining to grasp all that info from context and im lazy. I know if i watch a show in only japanese, with japanese subtitles, i know enough to grasp the main plot. But im lazy and its a LOT of effort to see the japanese subtitles and match new sounding words with kanji and try to remember the new pronunciation AND pay attention to the brand new plot. So i fall back onto english subs. I KNOW i can read japanese novels with a click dictionary, its just such SLOW reading, and if i just read while listening and Guess all unknown words its mentally exhausting even though its faster. I even have the easy peasy Glossika Japanese audio to listen to, but im still on lesson 36 because i have to Pay Full Attention when i listen to new lessons and im too lazy to listen with full attention ToT. I can watch lets plays in japanese, i understand them, but the effort of focusing is so much MORE than it would take if i just went to watch an english lets play where i can just hear in the background and follow it fine not even looking at it.

I am at a POINT in japanese where I CAN just learn by doing now! Which is huge! Its an incredibly useful milestone to be at! And makes future study, in the long run, much less daunting to plan as it can become just Do Stuff In Japanese to study. But since im at the beginning of this Comprehend Enough to Learn More from Context phase... learning new stuff from context still takes SO MUCH EFFORT. ITS SO DRAINING. Paying enough attention to comprehend things ive studied is exhausting, paying extra attention to new stuff and guessing what it means is draining and requires a Lot of focus. I know this is just how this stage goes but. Im so lazy.

What i need is something in japanese im SO interested in, that it drives me to engage with it even though I'm drained because im so Curious and Interested in understanding, so i push through until comprehending gets easier. Ideally, a game or show, something that plays so i am Forced to frequently proceed to the next sentence. Because with books and manga i will just stop and dwell on a paragraph for 2 hours and not learn much new stuff.

This stage is especially grating because im not in the stage with french or chinese anymore. I can listen to chinese shows in the background, check my phone while listening, not use the chinese subtitles, pay half attention while drawing. Chinese audiobooks require More attention, but i can listen to them walking or driving without subtitles/transcript and still follow the plot. With french Im to that same comfortable point with shows and youtube videos, not audio only stuff yet but i dont Engage with french audio only stuff. My point is Japanese is the only one where Im really feeling that INTENSE FOCUS drain whenever i try to engage with challenging new stuff in japanese. I dont feel an intense drain with chinese unless I read one of my harder reading level Print Novels or a higher vocab audio only material. I dont feel it with french unless Im doing it with audio only material. I feel the drain constantly with japanese.

[preordainedplace]

tagged by coolest awesomest guy ever @wereoz thank youuuuu <3 havent done one of these before but i love talking about my self forever

last song: mediocrity rules by le tigre (from the desk of mr lady is a great album. go listen to it)

currently watching: finally got around to watching the good place it’s been so so so good so far i love dysfunctional groups of morally corrupt people in inescapable scenarios (iasip and succession enjoyer) so i’m having a lot of fun with it :) also been rewatching my beautiful wife severance and my other slightly worse beautiful wife nbc hannibal. i watch tv shows in normal ways like a normal guy

currently reading: william shakespeare’s othello for my lit class (it’s dense. first year of sixth form so haven’t grasped shakespearean era language yet and i keep having to look things up it’s rough i’m sorry william) + wolf in white van by john darnielle (john is my #1 writerguy his stuff’s always fun to read. so sure i’m biased but wolf in white van’s been super fun so far and in terms of themes and such it really reminds me of tsn especially in its handling of time. so been enjoying it!) + the accidental billionaires by ben mezrich (autism is a real thing. bought her on a second hand books site for 3 bucks and its actually been a really fun read it’s written entirely like a novel so reading it post-social network it just feels like a deeply canon compliant piece of fanfiction. tsn nation get a copy it’s a good time) + they can’t kill us until they kill us by hanif abdurraqib (doesn’t really count because i’ve kind of been skipping around but his prose is absolutely wonderful he’s one of my favourite writers ever :) his essay fall out boy forever is an absolute joy. go read it it’s brilliant he’s brilliant)

current favourites: jacob geller video essays + saying ‘beautiful world that we live in’ in conversation + clothes with so so much unnecessary metal attached to them + writing analytical essays + the power of the human spirit + hats + bright clear days + leafy greens (especially pea shoots. i love pea shoots forever) + annotating books + slogan t shirts + playing and having fun + wearing the same outfit every day + cds + free admission at art galleries + publicly admitting to having a blog + fuckener’s tsn fanfiction + the sound of my wallet chain when i walk + trent reznor and atticus ross soundtracks + the new fall out boy music video + the busy beaver button museum + tunnel vision jewellery + winning ebay auctions + most importantly my beautiful girlfriend the social network 2010 dir. fincher and its accompanying content <3

tagging @viixeon @endingofdramamines @hereticpridemp3 @jokeryuri @scoobydooisgay and any of my other lovely nicey mutuals who see this (u may not know that we’re mutuals because this is a sideblog but you’re all like brothers to me. kisses <3)

[elusiiev]

shoutout to the autism songs you know the ones

the ones your brain decides to take in as a parasite despite not even being your favorite songs

the only thing your brain decides to function to

those

yeah anyway heres a giant list of all the ones i remember:

Tek It - Cafune || obsessed. when i tell you this is what was pumping through my veins peak 2022, it was SEVERE. - rating: 10/10, lyrics have been sung many a time

Cats - The Living Tombstone || i dont even like their music that much i know like two songs, but this song got me through finals so???? cool????? idk it was once again the onyl thing my brain could function with - rating: ?????/10, singable??? dawg idk its fucking meows

Rises the Moon - Liana Flores || this is a sleep song, i go eepy to it a lot - rating: 10/10, its a very iconic song but still

FAERIE SOIREE - Melanie Martinez || shes in hot water rn, uhhh but i really liked this song idk why !! i dont exactly remember what i did in relation to it other than my makeup, so i guess its kinda my makeup song?? - rating: 8/10, ending gets mildly repetitive and gets rid of the instrumental which was one of my fav parts, also singable (aka i have listened to it so much i know all the lyrics)

Comfort Chain - Instupendo || my brain ticked to this song - rating: 10/10

5:32Pm - The Deli || if you cant tell already i tended to be a lo-fi person, but this is also just my brain ate it up - 10/10, nostalgic because of how much i listened to it a few years back

Coming Back to Me - Leith Ross || another sleep song, but it reminds me of a book i had read a while ago, i dont remember why - rating: 10/10, very soothing (im biased)

S.N.U.F.F.Y - Metaroom || it bounced my brain around - rating: 7/10? im actually not sure! i dont like this one as much as the rest

Hansel - Sodikken || god i loved this song so much its just so funky and i highly recommend sodikken's music if you like the kind of weirdcore-ish sound - rating: 10/10, very singable

Tank! - Seatbelts || saw it in a rhythm game, liked it much - rating: 8/10, still a vibe

A Cold Freezin' Night - The Books || this song makes me feel weird. i love it. - rating: 10/10, singable? kinda??? idk i know the words but its kinda just... words

Hidden in the Sand - Tally Hall || IT JUST MMMM OKAY ITS MMMM -rating: 10/10, 100% singable

Nonviolent Communication - Metro Boomin || from the atsv soundtrack, that movie is my lifeline, song yummy, need i say more - rating: 10/10, singable

Hummingbird - Metro Boomin || also from the atsv soundtrack, and i love it just as much if not more than Nonviolent Communication - rating: 10/10, extremely singable

Hayloft II - Mother Mother || it makes me wanna stomp - rating: 10/10

Free Mind - Tems || i love Tems voice it feels like drugs /j anyway this song was everything to me - rating: 10/10, very singable

Glider - Japanese Breakfast || this is from the Sable game, i havent played it yet or seen gameplay, but i really like the song it feels like freedom - rating: 10/10, i have no fucking clue what theyre saying for hte mostp art, so not very singable, but not for the lack of trying

Just Waiting - Cinya Khan || randomly discovered, i want to eat her voice - rating: 9/10, singable, but not my favorite honestly

If You Can't Hang - Sleeping with Sirens || OK OK OK I LOVE THIS SONG ITS BOTH AN AUTISM SONG AND ALSO ONE OF MY FAVORITES I CANT EXPLAIN I JSUT LOVE IT I LOVE IT - RATING: 13/10!!!!! VERY SINGABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Formula - Labrinth || this is from euphoria, i never watched it, but i really liked it a couple years ago cause it felt like drugs /j - rating: 6/10, its not the greatest song tbh

Every Day - bo en || one of those dreamcore ish weirdcore ish songs, it makes things not feel real in a good way - rating: 10/10

Nimbasa CORE - Plasterbrain || I LOVE THIS I LOVE THIS it feels like my brain is running - rating: 11/10, i just really like it

Ghost - Machine Girl || feels mildly like insanity, very comforting !!! - rating: 10/10

Aftermath - Caravan Palace || this is also one of those unreal feeling songs, i really liked it though - rating: 9/10, very nostalgic

death bed - Powfu || its pretty sad, but also extremely nostalgic so once again gets a high rating. also this is technically a sleep song i listened to it a lot to sleep - 10/10, also very singable i know all lyrics

1995 - Coryayo || i found this song because it was in a fucking roblox myth game and i joined the game consistently just to listen to it because i didnt know what it was called - then it was removed and i got really sad, and then i scowered the wiki and lo and behold.... the name (i continued to listen to it nonstop after that) - rating: 10/10 (i have a sweet spot for it) kind of singable? i mean theres not many lyrics but

Notion - The Rare Occasions || this was when i was in my more Indie... phase, but the songs not bad it just reminds me of Cringer times /hj - rating: 9/10, but at the time this was just nonstop, also singable, know all the lyrics for the most part !

Escapism - Steven Universe || i love this show so much, i love this song so much, it was a functioning song, it was a sleep song, it was an everything song. - rating: 12/10, i love steven universe, this song is still everything, incredibly singable, know all the lyrics

lily's theme - closed on sundays || my 2020-2022 lo-fi is showing. this is literally just a lofi remix. but i listened to it for hours, i dont even like harry potter, i never got into it - rating: 7/10? im not sure

K.K. Cruisin' - ACNH || repeat. constantly. in all rooms of my house. in my hears. in my brain. in my body. - rating: 10/10

Stale Cupcakes - ACNH || same with kk cruisin, maybe even stronger, stale cupcakes is literally one of my favorites ever its just UGHGHHUFIUEWHFWEFIJWEFJ - rating: 10 quintillion/10

honorable mentions (either artists or soundtracks entirely):

ITSV and ATSV soundtrack , i love both movies with all my heart, but ESPECIALLY right after ITSV came out i was all over the soundtrack

odetari , extreme ear worm honestly, makes my brain want to do backflips

TV Girl , THIS IS STILL CONSTANT OKAY I HAVE NOT LEFT MY TV GIRL PHASE I LOVE TV GIRL I LOVE THEM SO MUC HAND I LVOE THEIR SONGS

In The Heights soundtrack , i am a musical person

Hadestown soundtrack, i am a musical person ALSO I FUCKING LOVE THIS MUSICAL PLEASE IF YOU DONT LISTEN TO ANYTHING PLEASE PELASE PLEASE WATCH A SLIME TUTORIAL OR LISTEN TO HADESTOWN THIS IS SINGLE HANDEDLY THE SADDEST MUSICAL IVE EVER SEEN IT IS LITERALLY A TRAGEDY AND I LOVE THIS OK

ACNH songs in general , i love the game i love the songs i dont think theres a single bad one, except maybe there is idk i forget

Hawaii: Part II. I LOVE. HAWAII PART II. I LOVE IT. I LOVE IT. FOREVER. OK THANK YOU. GOODNIGHT.

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OK THIS WAS VERY. /VERY./ LONG. POST. but if you also remember years worth of autism songs i would love to here your list because like

i cant be alone right

yall hyperfixate on songs too right ....

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wooaahg a get to know you meme.. i was tagged by @ruushes !! thank u this is so fun hehe

three ships: just 3!! difficult 2 choose

zevwarden also very much on my mind recently. they are so special 2 me and i always get very fixated on my pcs in rpgs so im double invested lol

shadowgast :) fun fact the initial reason i decided it was time to catch up with critrole was because i heard whispers that they actually ended up being real, and then i didnt want my cr journey to be over and started watching bells hells too hehe

honestly theres others that are more at the forefront of my mind atm but i gotta shout out satosugu. was deeply sick over them for a long time

first ship: god i don't even know for sure, but honestly think it might have been thomas and minho from the maze runner when i was in like middle school LMFAO. or odin/ava from avas demon !

last song: guys, its damned for all time/blood money from jesus christ superstar. i dont know what happened to me these last couple days but i got the urge to listen to jcs again and have been playing the cast recording on loop LMFAO its so good

last movie: amazing question. probably deadpool 2 bc i watched most of it with my brother earlier this week and i have no recollection of any movies ive seen recently before that

currently reading: only truly counting tevinter nights even though theres several other books i havent finished bc some of those have been on hold for actual years atp LMAO. but the others are the left hand of darkness, humanKind, and the sixth extinction.

currently watching: always critical role. also various dropout tv shows and always jerma and other gaming channel vods/compilations :]

tagging @sotc @mourn-and-watch @teansouprmyjam @saturdaysky ONLY if u feel like it !! feel free to ignore this whole thing LOL

[omegawolverine]

Bestie bestie gimme all ur favourite horror movies i wanna binge them since i havent watched any of them as a kid (consequence of me only watching 2 movies on repeat)

tbf im not a huge horror guy despite the Everything about me and my blog (a lot of horror doesnt scare me so it just makes me bored unless its horror comedy or there is homoeroticism) BUT

-scream 1996 (u can watch the others if u want but there is a severe lack of faggotry and they arent funny enough to make that acceptable)

-IT 2017 + 2019 (read the book first if u have the time/patience bc the movies are leaving out so much detail but theyre still good)

-seed of chucky (watch bride of chucky too if youd like, you honestly dont need to watch any other childs play movies to enjoy seed tho)

-army of the dead (not rly horror but its zombies so im listing it. watch army of thieves if you want too but that's not horror at all since its a prequel where zombies are unimportant)

-saltburn? does that count? idk its like thriller comedy but a lot of people die so im putting it on the list

-the voices (horror comedy AGAIN im so sorry)

-renfield (okay just assume everything on this list is horror comedy unless i say otherwise)

-missing (not comedy!! this movie had me feeling insane with the plot twist but apparently my mom expected it so maybe i was just being dumb)

-donnie darko (i think its a lil funny but i dont think its supposed to be comedy)

-coraline (this is the only animated movie im mentioning but its like. so fucking good)

-barbarian (this is like if the naked gramma scene in IT chapter 2 was extended and also somehow worse)

-pearl/x (cunty campy fun horror but also. insane. watch pearl first then x if you want extra context but pearl is technically a prequel)

-ready or not (i only saw this once but ive been wanting to see it again ever since but its not on any of the streaming sites i use so i gotta get creative with my searches iykyk)

okay everything after this point is like honorable mentions that i dont rly care about a whole lot but are like good watches anyways even if they arent my faves if that makes sense? like i like them but im not crazy about them

-hereditary

-parasite

-saw (ive seen 1-3 and theyre pretty good but 1 is the only one ive rewatched and if u dont pay attention to it itll feel like a flop bc youll miss all the important stuff)

-us

-midsommar (i dont even rly like this one but sometimes i watch it again anyways just bc it makes me feel normal)

-the exorcist (this is literally the only horror movie that has ever like. gave me actual genuine fear. but that might be bc i was raised christian and watched this for the first time at 9 years old)

[thealmightyemprex]

70's comic review:All Star Western #10 (Jonah Hex's first appearance )

So for several years ,I have been fascinated by Jonah Hex .For one I love westerns,but its more the character himself that interests me , a scarred Bounty Hunter who is kind of unphased by weirdness ,able to do traditional Western tales,but also can fight monsters,zombies,or hang out with Batman through time travel .I've seen a lot of the media with Hex (Favorites being the Batman the Animated Series episode Showdown ,the Jonah Hex animated short with Thomas Jane,the Jonah Hex motion comics with Jim Cummings who might be my fave voice for the character ,and the Batman Brave and the Bold episode Duel of the Double Crossers ),and yes I have seen the movie,its bad .However while I love the character of Hex ,I havent read any of his comics ,so I am happy that the poll picked Jonah 's first appearance .Also am JUST doing the Jonah Hex story here,not all of All Star Western # 10,because the Hex story is all I found on Internet archive

In this 1972 comic Hex arrives in Paradise Corners,having killed members of an outlaw named Big Jim(Who looks like Lee Marvin for some reason )'s gang ,but is feared by everyone save for a young boy who admires

......So this is one of the best first appaearance of a character I have ever read cause you get most of what he is about ,it establishes him very well.Basically he is a scary guy,hes a big mean horribly scarred gunslinger who is an expert at killing......But honestly,all he wants is to settle down.....And no one will let him,so he act mean and tough to hide the fact he is hurting .Its a classic western story,he is necesary ,needed to dispose of the bad guys .....But the town doesnt want him .When he asks about buying a place the town leaders lie and say theres no room as they are afraid he would hurt their image of a perfect town .He is feared both by those he protects and those he opposes ,leaving him alone .And he does have noble aspects ,punching out an animal abuser ,and being touched when the boy says he should visit cause his ma is making apple dumplings.

Artistically it is a gorgeous book ,I like how you dont get a ful look at Hexs face till halfway though ,where its night and its lit by a match showing his scars ,and the ending where he punches the towns sign hit me hard

Great story.Great character,Will read more

@ariel-seagull-wings @countesspetofi @the-blue-fairie @princesssarisa @filmcityworld1 @themousefromfantasyland @piterelizabethdevries @barbossas-wench @theancientvaleofsoulmaking @amalthea9