#also i genuinely don't pay attention to what people think of me. odd to find out sometimes when it doesn't line up with

[thedissociatives]

realised over the past few days that apparently it's not normal to give as little amount of fucks as i do

[aethelwyneleigh27]

Cowboy!141 x Noble's Daughter!Reader (My Version of the AU)

(How you meet them)

Synopsis: Being the daughter of a noble is a jarring task as you must be always able to keep up appearances, so what exactly happens when your family hires 4 men? Men who seem dangerous yet you know nothing about, all happening to be part of the same group of people. What happens if they take an interest in you? Someone unattainable, forbidden yet also undoubtedly tempting..

Hi lovelies! Lia here again, apologies for the delay and inactivity, I had exams, projects and the recent release of part one of Bridgerton season 3. Speaking of the series, this was inspired by that and RDR2 (none of the elements are historically accurate, I think?), I genuinely hope this does well because this account has not been doing well as of late. With my mutuals leaving Tumblr and some friends are currently ignoring me, I genuinely don't know what to do anymore. From what I know, @ghouljams was the first one who created content in the cowboy!CoD AU but mine is a lot different? So please don't kill me 😭

This will result in headcanons for the next few posts because my brain is attached to this AU so you will be seeing more Cowboy!Outlaw!141.

(Really FEM!Reader, maybe also Plus-size!(Chubby??)Reader?? I don't even know anymore)

More content: My CoD Masterlist

Bless your noble mother's heart, although your was seen as this very respectable and intellectual man of nobility, your mother had this heart of gold having no idea that these rugged men he has newly hired were outlaws, criminals.. murderers?

Yet your father did, something about him felt sinister, well all noble money comes from not so noble cause.

Although your mother wanted you to get to know and be familiar with the newest staff members who would do all the gnarly, energy consuming and physically challenging tasks, she did not want her daughter interacting with men who would be considered improper like seemingly mysterious men who happened to be from a far town looking for a living.

Well without your father's or mother's knowledge, that rule was thrown out the window the moment you saw one of them carrying over some of the crates that contain given by some men to your father for his services and connections, particularly drawn to the one who never seemed to take off the cloth on his face.

Something about the way he stared at you, not seeing the rest of his face, depriving you of clues as to how he felt upon seeing the only lady of the house. You gave him a warm smile, for a moment you thought you saw his lips through the mask perk up, before walking off to the lounging hall for your tutoring on language.

It was odd, you observed them from afar a lot, your personal garden was your sanctuary and you can't help but do so when they talked so loudly, no sign of inside voices.

They called each other names.. Price, Gaz, Soap and Ghost. The man you encountered was named Ghost? Surely it's some alias. Well that wasn't something you should fixate on anyway so you leave for your tasks.

You find yourself feeling a little out of it after your lessons, hoping that a little stroll through the stables behind your family's estate would either help the information sink in or keep it shun out of your mind. Either way you'd find yourself in tranquil, you heard a thud behind you and turn to find so called "Ghost" behind you.

He had dropped a crate, one filled with weapons and uncharacteristically hastily picked up all of them without paying much attention. Such an action caused him to unknowingly cut his finger on one of the blades that fell out of it's sheath.

Your eyes filled with concern as you rush over to take his hand in yours before he tried to brush off the cut and get back to his duties. You knew it was dumb to be worried over something so small that the grown man doesn't even flinch and yet there you were, practically cradling his hand in yours.

A white handkerchief that was embroidered with your favorite flowers by your own mother, something you held dear and kept pristine.. using it on his finger to keep the blood from further gushing and wipe off whatever of the red residue was left on his hand.

As the blood stopped to your relief, you brought his finger and spontaneously pressed a feather-like kiss on the wound. You were so used to doing that for your little cousins, nieces and nephews that it was just a force of habit, your face flushed the very moment you looked up to meet his gaze, what possessed you to do that?

You placed the handkerchief in his hand and composed yourself, you told him to keep it and to bring the wound to the physician to get some antiseptics before running off to god knows where.

A few days after that incident, you meet another one of them except..

You couldn't help but rush, you were late for this supposedly short promenade your family has spontaneously planned. Your favourite gloves are no where to be found and with the three sisters you have, you checked room to room, seeing who might've borrowed the lacey white fabric with the sewn in bows.

Without looking your body slams into a wall, is it a wall? You softly groan, your delicate fingers brushing on your forehead that felt like it would bruise later on. Your eyes remained closed for a few seconds as the impact caused you to feel shaken, light headed.

You open your eyes to one of the outlaws, you blink up as your vision adjusted a bit, his dark skin against the light from the window really did something..

"Are you hurt, my lady?" He asked, his deep voice was smooth and rich, almost velvety. He held you up from falling.

"N-no.. Thank you, uhh..."

"Kyle, her ladyship can call me Kyle. Although I hope it's not too informal to your status, my lady." You smiled at his words, certainly a respectful fellow despite him and his group's reputation.

You felt warmth on your sides, his palms against the fabric that separates his skin on yours, he was only being kind for steadying you after you almost fell from the earlier impact but his touch felt addicting, too much as it continued to linger.

"Kyle, it is then" You said softly, suddenly a bit more aware of your surroundings.

Fuck. He was sure he felt something just by hearing the way his name fell from your lips. Normally he'd give people, employers only and only his last name. He was so used to having been called by "Garrick", he had no idea his name would sound different, so sweet coming from a pretty maiden's lips.

He stutters for a moment, realizing that his hands are touching a lady inappropriately, something only someone she's married to would have the privilege of doing. He swiftly removed his hands from your waist and formally excused himself from your presence with the excuse of his duties.

The next time you met one of them was through your mother's ball, she was always the first to throw one to bless the upcoming season of hopes that you, your sisters and brothers shall wed soon.

You had no taste for it after having a lord step on your feet at least 20 times and not even bother to apologize with how high of a pedestal he puts himself in, you found yourself escaping through the back of your estate to the gazebo in the center of your beloved garden.

You took your tight, restricting shoes off and felt the grass on your feet as you walked toward the gazebo, now close enough to see that you weren't alone but you still continued, your feet against the cooling marble platform. You sigh as you prop yourself to sit on the stone railing next to the stranger who was currently taking a puff of his cigar.

You turned your head away, you were thrown into a fit of coughs from the strong scent of the smoke while you swatch some of it away. You tried not to heave for actual air to breathe while the man next to you chuckles, making you feel irritable.

"M'sorry love.." his gruff voice whispers which make you turn towards him, the man offering you a comforting smile.

"Shouldn't you be in there with your family, miss?" Price asked. To which you hum, "I wanted some "fresh air" and silence" you answered. Moments of silence have passed, nothing but the sound of wind that rattled the trees a bit and each other's breaths.

You look towards the light of windows of your home, the ballroom filled with laughter and talk of celebration. You sighed, knowing you must return as your parents would come looking for you, also not wanting for them to punish you for sticking around unchaperoned with their new hires.

He knew you were about to leave, it would be rude for a gentleman to leave a lady without help, hmm? He wasn't a gentleman though, an outlaw, one of the worst titles one can ever bestow a man. He was considered to be of low honor but who cares?

He kneels down on one knee in front of you, gently taking your leg in his huge hand using his thigh as leverage so he can gently slip on you shoes. For a moment you felt his forehead on your knee before he pulls away and offers you his hand..

You took it hesitantly as he helped you off the railing, you look up at him meeting his eyes. Something about them burned, making your stomach churn but not in a manner of discomfort.

You watched his back as he walked away, his footsteps on the cold marble the only thing to be heard as the noise died down..

The morning after, you've barely had enough sleep, was it the events of the previous night? Nevermind, at least you had a day or two for yourself after conducting a proposition to your parents. Free time was worth it for the sore feet you had to endure.

Not really in the mood to change into anything tight or itchy, you remain in your night clothes. Finally, some well deserved time alone, comfortable and flipping pages of a book was your type of thing.

Sure, socializing has it's benefits however nothing beats your time alone or so you thought you were alone..

A table and a few chairs were set up by the servants to your request at the gazebo, giving you the perfect view of the greenery that you have planted the seeds of.

You had your head comfortably leaned onto lounge as you continued reading. Buts something was just so distracting, a few minutes of the constant snipping and twigs breaking, you look up wanting to see who was there tending to the garden.

Your eyes widened a bit, it was improper for a lady to stare a man who has very less clothing. Nothing but his jeans, belt and hat keeping his face shielded from the heat is toned, muscular and tanned torso and arms exposed.

A little later, you hear a grunt coming from the man, Soap was it? You can't quite remember much from the night you eavesdropped on them. You heard his footsteps on the grass nearing the gazebo but you didn't bother to look up, not until..

"Ma'am? May I stay 'ere a moment? Afraid the heat is getting to me" You look up from your book and sit up to see the same man breathless. You nodded and watched as he sat on the stairs, hands on his knees as he caught his breath.

"Excuse me.." You said, loud enough to hear and catch his attention, he looks back from his position. You moved one of the chairs to face your lounge, "Please invite yourself here, I can only think of how uncomfortable the floor might be, especially when you are working at a weather like this one" Signaling him to take a seat on the chair you adjusted.

He gets up yet reluctantly makes himself comfortable on the seat, you pick a drinking glass on display from the silver tray and poured some of the cold lemonade into it, you place it down on the table and slide it to him, offering a warm smile. Your fingers on the base of the drinking glass slightly brushing against his as he takes it.

He thanks you for it and you both enjoyed the tranquil and peace.. yet you can't go back to your book, asking questions and being further interested by the man each minute passes.

The way he talked was something else, it was alluring, comforting and oddly lively, he's told you about his "past" and how he used to be a child.

"Was quite the troublemaker you see, though my family was poor and food was scarce, I found a way to feed the street animals I adore—"

You look at him, so invested on what he was about to say next, it was refreshing to have someone to converse with who isn't interrogating you and practically forcing their ideals of how many babies they want you to birth for them, practically wanting you to die for them.

"I used to steal bread from my neighbor, not a very nice man, selfish really. So I'd often sneak into his shack, leftovers, scraps and anything light enough for me to carry. I'd bring it to Lassie, my favorite stray dog. You remind me a lot of her Bonnie" He said.

"I remind you of a dog?" You weren't so sure if that's a compliment, then again he just called you "Bonnie", what exactly does that mean?

"Home, you remind me of home. Can't say I have felt this comfortable in years, friends and I are usually reserved yet you bring this side out of me, Bonnie. So what spell or witchcraft did you use?" He joked raising a brow at you, for a moment his attention falters as he looks down at the soft mounds of skin exposed on your chest.

"Eyes up here, Johnny."

You warned as you laugh at his question, you notice one of the servants coming out from the estate and into the garden, Johnny smiles and tips his hat to you to excuse himself so that he could get back to work.

Well this is interesting.. isn't it?

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[kunekojo]

Would they fall in love at first sight or would it be slow burn and why and how do they confess if the reader is oblivious for szayel, mayuri and adult uryu ? Fluff plz

Also thx for the follow 🥺

You’re welcome!!! I need to make more bleach moots 🥹🥹🥹 thank you so much for being my first request btw, this means a whole lot to me! I hope you enjoy this!!!

Love at first sight/slow burn with Szayel, Mayuri and Uryu(adult)

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Mayuri Kurotsuchi

With him, it’s pure slow burn.

At first, he’ll treat you just like he treats everyone else, but right when you indicate the tiniest bit of curiosity in his projects, he’ll be overjoyed.

His experiments are his pride and it’s pretty rare for any of the soul reapers to show the slightest bit of interest in them. Yet when you do, he’ll take you and show you absolutely everything while stating the smallest details, convinced you won’t last for too long. His intellect isn’t for everyone and it’s not his problem.

But the problem is, you don’t leave. A little unexpected but he’s sure you’ll leave, eventually.

But again, you don’t. You find everything about his experiments so fascinating that you just hang around because you genuinely enjoy it. You find him impressive enough that you can’t quit witnessing his psyche.

You’re not a scientist yourself but learning about these things takes a hold of you so much that you find yourself together in his lab with him oftentimes.

And believe me, you end up spending a looot of time with him. So much that everyone is kind of worried but that's not an issue.

The more time you spend with him, the more you begin developing ideas and you're not ashamed to spill your mind. Of course, he might be a bit cruel while correcting you but hey, this is his style, right? You can't be right about everything, but he's kind of encouraging you in a weird way to keep at it.

Still, he finds it a little fascinating how you hang around him, indulging yourself in his domain. After all, his mind is so vast, how can people not do that?

Little by little, you take after him and it impresses him greatly, so much that he's kind of developing a little something something for you but he can't exactly grasp what, hell he just thinks you've specialized yourself. Maybe it’s just mutual respect with how much you've evolved but oh boy, it's so much greater than that.

First, You'll notice he's actually letting you take part in his research as he does his lil mad scientist thing but hey, perhaps this means you’re finally able to attend to these, so good job.

Second, he'll tend to care about your well-being in battles. Thing he normally doesn't mind. As a soul reaper, you must give your all, even if it means your life, but he makes a little exception with you.

He can't explain to himself why and will try to find logical reasons for this odd behavior he's undergoing. But the more time you spend with him, it intensifies, sending him to spiral over this nonsense.

Then at some point, he needs someone as a test subject and while you offer yourself, he denies it, giving a rather weird explanation that rather makes sense but doesn't. You don't pay much attention to it because duh, you understand he knows better, you won't just question his decision despite not entirely agreeing to it, but the problem is he questions it himself

For some time the odd change he's sensing goes away, but everything shifts when you bring something for him on his birthday and he doesn't reject it. He might in fact look at it frequently. Why would he even accept something like this? Something, this insignificant. It's so frustrating, but he's got to search for an answer on his own.

This thing eats at him so much that he goes all the way to make throughout tests on himself and see wherever there's an after-effect to his experiments but it's not. The chemicals in his brain incline towards the possibility of behavior so much greater than plain respect, a little investment in you.

Simply put, he likes you a little but will run a few more tests to make sure, and they all come positive, again. He can't deny his own results at this point, but he has to accept whatever this is and work with it

Some more time later after (after days of analyzing), there's improvement on his side (he's accepted)

But you fall victim to a virus during battle and he does his utmost to generate an antidote for you and it drives him crazy when he almost loses which is unacceptable. It's the sudden fear of loss that astonished him, he's never felt that before but it’s a huge game changer between you two

This event makes him consider experimenting on you just so there wouldn't be any more chances of you dying on him

Afterward, once you're refreshed and up, you decide to thank him for saving your life and he makes an odd comment, something along the line “you better stay by my side for the rest of your time.” which you can't get at first but with time, it makes sense

Uryu Ishida (adult)

Uryu’s on the spectrum of love at first sight instead but with a tiny bit of slow burn

He generally protects and saves other women but when he meets you as you're proving you’re able to do that on your own. he acknowledges it. He can’t lie to himself and not agree he’s a little intrigued by it, but will still tend to overprotect you out of instinct

Your whole personality snatches his attention and he can't help but think about you a little, especially with how nice you are so expect him to not take his eyes off you when you seem to be in troubke

You find his carefulness precious but will constantly remind him it's not like you're helpless, but you do appreciate his care and it's what draws you to spend time with him

Despite his quietness, he's really enjoyable to hang around and you both do find a few things to talk about and they do expand quicker than he anticipated

There's just something about your being that draws him to you so much that he can't really imagine not having you around but he rejects the idea of this possibility

Then you praise him for something he did for you and it's done

Face flushed, he won't be able to take you off his mind and the first rational explanation to this oddness is that... He might have a crush on you?? If this is how crushes work.

He denies it but does take it into consideration. Everyone goes through this kind of feeling but isn't it a little different??

He has to go to Orihime and inquire about this, behavior just to confirm his hypothesis and it does

He doesn't know how to handle the news and it's somehow harder to be around you with these newfound feelings but you somehow manage to soothe him which is incredible

But he won’t just plainly state his feelings, especially that he’s not aware if you share them too. It wouldn’t even be proper to address this issue of his since you don’t seem to have some feelings as well

But god it eats at him so much that you start noticing it a little and he panics momentarily while trying to act cool about it

Still, it worries you so much that you’re sure he’s going through a bad period and you must be there for him, to listen to him, completely oblivious that this is only happening when you’re around

Maybe he trusts you enough to show his true colors in front of you!

The more time passes, the more he can't hold it inside anymore, and out of the blue, he requests you two have a talk about an important matter

You're worried sick about it and accept his invitation but when he can hardly find his words, you stare at him confused, urging him to tell you what's troubling so you could help him

“What?? No, nothing’s going on in my family, it's just that-” “just what? Please Uryu, tell me, don't bottle up your emotions. I'm here to listen. There's no shame in having family problems” “No it's not that.” “Are you sure?”

Your hand placed on his shoulders is what pushes him to the last straw

“There’s nothing wrong about my family.” “Then about who?” “You. I like you”

His words stun you but he's quick to explain his love feelings, confessing he had kind of fallen for you from the start

Szayel

Another pure slow burn similar in some ways to Mayuri

It all begins when you’re placed to work under him by Aizen himself. When you two first meet, he's not phased by your presence but takes it as it is, especially since Aizen pointed out that the choice of putting you alongside him isn't baseless

He's rather curious why though, a little convinced there might be a faulty reason to it but for that confirmation, he must put you through all sorts of trials

Yet when you pass these little mind tricks, he doesn't deny it. So you're worthy enough to witness his absolute genius

You catch up with his ideas pretty quickly which is intriguing. Your drive to help him achieve whatever’s on his mind is of great benefit to him and he does take advantage of it

Truthfully, as long as you're useful you're good to hold around.

You two spend quite a lot of time together and you get to see parts of him Aizen has never told you about, so your intrigue makes you show more of you as well

He might not make it seem like he cares but he does keep in mind everything, just chooses not to give further thought to it for now

All that time also comes with different experiments which start mild and are easy to handle but the more he increases them, you start showing signs of difficulties but your urge to keep them going amazes him

So you're not perfect after all, then he should make you perfect. He deemed you worthy in the beginning, so he must keep you that way to the end. You don't even protest and he welcomes your reply

There's something odd about the way you let him do anything for the sake of research. It's not like you do it as a mindless puppet, but as someone who understands his means to some extent

It draws him closer to you but again, he does not give much thought to it

Then at some point, one of his experiments goes bad and puts you in a sort of critical condition and he does everything to undo it

Why would he even do that? It's simple, he needs you and your psyche, he can't afford to lose such a significant piece, one who listens to every command

Also maybe he's grown attached to you and the realization itches deep inside his mind until it's knocking at the door

He enjoys the way you go to the extent of putting yourself in danger but it's not like he’ll allow that to happen. He needs you healthy and well, and not only for his experiments

Your input is always spot on so he praises you when you come up with ideas to boost his brainstorming and that means a lot to him

You're in fact an important piece in his eyes and he'll do everything to ensure your growth and your safety

You also begin showing him equal signs of attachment and care for him, which he can hardly digest because of the suddenness

But he can't deny his growing feelings of comfort and deep trust around you, practically giving a hint of a feeling much more evolved than previously

It's when you manage to do an experiment of yours without his help that he places the palm of his hand on your head, as his soft-spoken words seize your focus

“I love the way you've evolved, and I wish to see your astounding skills bloom so much further.”

[livingfictional]

Hiya!!!

I just stumbled upon your blog, and you're match ups, I really like your content! :D I saw that your requests are open, and I thought I might as well request one! ^^

I would like to request a match up for COD and The Arcana. I am 19, female, and use she/they pronouns. I am also Pansexual (I don't have any gender preferences, we just gotta vibe and all is well✨️).

I really love listening to music and singing, I'm also an avid reader and have recently started down my path with practising witchcraft. I am not sure if this qualifies as a hobby, but I also enjoy taking my motorcycle out for a ride across the country whenever I have time (and money for gas 🥲). I do not do well in crowds or around loud and mentally draining people. Neither do I enjoy cooking because it, for some odd reason, drains me incredibly, baking on the other hand I enjoy thoroughly!

I speak English, German and Italian. My father is from Scotland🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 and my mother from Austria🇦🇹, I have an equally good connection with both sides of my relatives even though I am more in tune with my Austria side due to the fact that I grew up there.

I'm an INFP, I wouldn't call myself shy or skittish but I do struggle to build up relationships because of trust issues and fear of betrayal. I prefer a small circle of people around me, mostly calm and like minded people that know how to get me out of my shell. I'm also a big fan of animals and especially fond of dogs and cats (even though I'm allergic lol).

I hope that was enough info for a match-up! Have a wonderful day/night, Lily!✨️💜

Sorry you had to wait so long, thank you for your patience 🩵

I match you up with... Asra!

I genuinely think Asra would be the best choice for you.

Lazy mornings in the back of the shop. A mess of limbs tangled into the blankets as you slowly flip through the pages of your book.

Asra just lays there, watching your focused expression with a content smile. He could stare at you for hours. The shop won't run itself, though. Unfortunately.

He'll happily support your witchcraft journey, helping whenever possible. He grabs any and every book he thinks you might like.

Asra is one of the least draining people to be around, his company is always pleasurable. The atmosphere never feels heavy, and he can make the converation flow for hours on end. It always feels so natural and nice to be around him.

Might as well mention Faust, who fell in love with you just as Asra did. You can often find her perched up on your shoulders as you go about your day.

I match you up with... Soap!

Not an avid reader, doesn't always know what books to buy you. Just ask! He would buy the whole bookstore for you.

Johnny wants to spoil you, okay? He can be gone for long periods of time, and your books are the only thing keeping you company on cold winter evenings. So in his mind they are perfect gifts for you, might as well, with some help, get you one of those gift baskets with a fuzzy pair of socks, a blanket, some candy and books.

Before he has to leave, he will also take your bike and fill it up for you. Can't afford gas? Well, he can. Go for your ride sweetie :3

Slow evenings with him after he comes back from being deployed are the best. You guys are full after getting takeout from your favorite place, you've got a fire going in the fireplace and a random movie is playing on TV.

To be fair, you are not paying attention to it at all. You're brushing your fingers through his dark hair as he goes on about anything and everything.

Just as with Asra, conversations with Johnny are so natural to you, nothing ever feels forced. You guys can talk for hours and not get bored.

He can be more on the hyper side, but next to you, he can truly unwind. He will lie on top of you, placing his head over your heart.

[teanderthalrex]

Somewhere Beyond the Sea by T. J. Klune

I actually read the first five chapters of this awhile ago, but I'm only just now getting around to a review for the whole book. And how was it? Well, its complicated.

I genuinely enjoyed House in the Cerulean Sea and I think part of my massive enjoyment of that book came from when I read it, which was during the pandemic. It was a comfortable, found-family-focused novel about a man, who's days are grey and colorless, just pencil-pushing his way through life, only to get away from it all and fall in love. I think a lot of us wished we could get away from it all during that time, and the found-family elements and soft love of House in the Cerulean Sea tugged at the parts of us missing family. All that to say, as a mood reader, I don't think any sequel would top my experience reading the first book, not even the first book if I read it again today. It was the perfect book at the perfect time.

Still, I did still really like this book. We get a lot more of Arthur's POV in this. It successfully sets itself up to be a bridge book between the cozy soft vibes of the first book and the inevitable fight against the government to come.

The complexity and seriousness of the topics: abuse, child abuse, government propaganda, intersectionality, and prejudice, juxtaposed with Klune's attempt to keep the story at least somewhat wholesome and soft made some scenes tonally a bit weird to me. I'm not sure exactly why. I wish I was paying closer attention to tone while reading so I could point out specific moments of this but I wasn't.

The book is an incredibly easy read regardless, so there's a good chance most reader's will gloss right over any odd tone issues.

If you liked House in the Cerulean Sea, you will like this one.

4/5 stars

So, I really wish we got POV chapters from some of the kids. I think that the fact that we don't is part of what made me feel like the comment on intersectionality felt empty. Yes there are issues the kids have to deal with that Linus and Arthur don't understand, but we the audience also never get to see it so its almost like it isn't even there.

I loved Arthur getting to be angry. He deserves to have complex feelings about family, about being called "dad," and about people threatening and putting their hands on his kids. I'm glad that he comes to some kind of acceptance that the feelings inside him and the phoenix and himself aren't all separate because it was strange to read about him thinking of it as a separate thing after how he talks to the kids.

This book doesn't have enough Linus Baker-Parnassus in it.

But it does have a lot more of the kids. I liked seeing more of Lucy and Phee and Sal. I felt like they got the most development in this book (and Calliope).

The inspector was the right amount of, "This is for everyone's own good, the best interest of everyone," and "Ew, don't let the freaks touch me" to make you think of your own experiences with condescension and people who deny having prejudices.

I did find myself wanting the entire group to convert her just because as a bureaucrat and person without fear, she would have made an terrifying addition to the island. But it's probably for the best that they didn't.

This had the best ending of a book about trauma, because yes there was a wedding and yes things are looking up, but more importantly now everyone has access to ✨Therapy✨

[protagonistheavy]

The failure of Concord has me wondering what the future of multiplayer-focused games is going to be like, in a future where gamers are simultaneously exhausted of live-service games and the FOMO attached to it... but yet also refuse to play a game that isn't constantly being updated with both patch notes and all-new content. It really feels like the middle-ground here is nonexistent, because I can't imagine a game like Overwatch or LoL being anywhere as successful as they are if they didn't thrive on live-service elements -- what are competing games supposed to do?

It feels like gaming, in this regard, is in an unforgiving bottleneck. The effect of overwhelming FOMO has resulted in gamers celebrating the lack-of-success in games -- people are happy to find out that a game isn't popular and thus they don't have an obligation to go and play it asap. Gamers are instead stuck with just a handful of live-service games that they refuse to let go of, because they've already invested so much of their time in making that game their personal live-service game, they don't have room in their schedule to learn a different game, play by different rules, pay attention to new patch notes, keep up to date with evolving metas, watch all the videos from content creators, etc. This creates an atmosphere that's hostile to new properties and keeps players locked-up in their choice of live-service.

And that negatively effects these other competitor games exponentially, because multiplayer games like this absolutely require a constant stream of players to fill up queues. Constantly -- at no point can the queue afford to dry-up without killing the whole game. And the only way to keep players engaged long-term, realistically, is to keep providing new content, new progressions, patching the game, etc. so that players have a reason to keep coming back. Otherwise, players naturally lose interest -- even games with extreme depth and long learning curves will inevitably lose the attention of most players that are more interested in shiny cosmetics or brand new characters to play with. 1v1-oriented games can sort of get away from this system, like fighting games, but even those are nowadays relying a lot on scheduled balance changes and new content in order to keep an audience that isn't just the top 1% skill bracket replaying the same thing over and over.

I guess what I'm at odds with is how the community actually feels about live-service games, because people love loudly declaring that they hate live-service games and hope they die, but then contradict themselves by constantly pouring their time and expendable income on live-service games -- with the nerve to then complain about other games "being dead" if they don't have a concurrent playerbase in the quintuple digits. And then there's the argument over what kind of live-service is acceptable, where again, people will say that they hate free-to-play live-service games, but then scoff at the idea of a live-service game coming with a one-time entry fee to get all the content.

So lol what do we want? Do we want these large multiplayer games to be one-week-long fads that you pay $60 for before the whole game effectively dies due to a lack of interest beyond that first week? Or do we want long-lasting multiplayer games that require new content and updates in order to retain a wide-enough audience to keep the game alive? I genuinely think a lot of people would read this choice and say "neither :)" and they are either totally not the target audience for these types of games (yet feel entitled to an industry-wide opinion about these genres) or they're the most miserable type of gamer that commits themself to playing games they actually hate.

Mind all this, I never expected Concord to be a big hit, because it had a lot of other problems going against it too. But when I see people celebrating its early demise, much of the attitude seems to be pointed towards the live-service system as a whole, despite live-service being the only realistic option for a multiplayer game to thrive in this current age. At some point, I think we need to accept that live-service is gonna be inevitable for games to stay afloat, and instead of hoping they all fail and gaming reverts by two decades, we instead figure out and speak-up about what live-service strategies are ethical and work well vs systems that are oppressive and unwanted.

[twilightguardian]

Lilith wasted no time. You gotta wonder if she loves Fixing RWBY just as much as the rest of us. She's just a tsundere for Raymond! We all know that she's a lying piece of living garbage but let's see what kind of laughs she has for us this time.

"Random" PTSD. Because as we all know, PTSD isn't triggered by things that can be tangentially related to the thing that we have issues with in question. So flashes of red going into a dark tunnel reminding her of Adam's red and the dark cafeteria of Beacon. Nah. Not similar. The episode was totally out of nowhere.

Breaking news: Conman is better at gambling than teenagers. More at 11.

lmao WOW she's pressed. Over basically nothing, too. What is the issue with Blake wanting to talk about what's bothering her? What's wrong with former classmates wondering what's eating at her? Is it because they're men and you don't like those things? Is that it? Like seriously what an odd thing to have a freak out over. How dare men exist and do things.

You can tell Lilith doesn't pay attention because they don't barge in to talk about how totally better people they are. They come into the room to talk to everyone and finds only Blake there and are surprised, because they never knew she was a faunus.

Victimized. That, Lilith, is called past tense. I know you haven't noticed, but it's called character growth. Cardin and Velvet worked past their differences.

Plus, they're not love interests. Yet. Raymond is still on the fence about it because it's not important to the story. But he's blushing because it's a girly thing to have on his weapon and he's a burly manly man, so being teased about it makes him embarrassed. But no, it can only be because he's in love with Velvet. I forgot. Blushing doesn't exist as a psychological involuntary response triggered by emotional stress associated with passion, embarrassment, shyness, fear, or anger. No. It can only be from romantic stimulation. Shoujo anime taught us that.

Why is the main villain of the arc appearing in the arc?!

Stop trying to make transphobia happen, Gretchen. It's not going to happen.

I already explained why this is stupid, but I wouldn't put it past liars to deliberately ignore it or twist my words no matter what I say. So there's barely use explaining anything beyond what I already said. After all, only a moron would genuinely take me saying 'I don't believe you could use your sexuality as an excuse to not know how flirting among this sex works because you're not that dumb' and skew it as queerphobic and me calling Lilith an idiot. Then again, tumblrites were never known for their intelligence. There's a reason I also called out rwde for also having their own Liliths among them, after all.

What? You mean in a series where the main purpose is to stay as close to the original show as possible where it doesn't need to be changed doesn't change things that doesn't need to be changed... doesn't fix shit that doesn't need changing? What a fucking concept.

It's almost like this series is a reconstructive exercise to show how with only a few little tweaks, RWBY could be great and doesn't require a big overhaul to make it good for those who have issues with it or something. That Raymond thinks the show is mostly fine, it just failed in a few things in terms of execution, worldbuilding and other fundamental things and was primarily fine and not completely broken. Wow. You can tell when someone fundamentally doesn't understand something when...

You know it's really funny because we're currently arguing with a guy over the rewrite, because he also thinks it's subpar. Which is fine, but he has his head up his ass to smell his own farts trying to teach Raymond (and subsequently ALL of Hollywood) how to properly write fiction and that he's going to REVOLUTIONIZE the industry. Truly, this guy is what these people claim Raymond is: arrogant, and delusional about his own abilities. Anyway, based on what I've seen his spelling error-riddled script basically makes the girls into murderous psychopaths who will throw everyone else, even their teammates, under the bus to save their own skin and he calls that character development. Truly we live in a clown world.

He might need to be looked at, too, but as per agreement, only Raymond is allowed to look at his script so far. Because he seriously thinks his ideas are so good that people would want to steal from him.

Who are Raymond's pet characters who drove the plot forward?

Roman didn't do shit this episode except hide underneath a table, so that's not true.

Cardin got two scenes where he nudged Blake forward. It's not like he went out and did the work and repaired her relationship with Yang or anything, and then after that he and Russell mostly did the same thing Dee and Dudley did. So unless you're saying D&D were integral to canon and overshadowed the girls, I'd also say that's not true.

Adam? For once she tells the truth. The villain causes stuff to happen. Like in the majority of fiction. Villains usually drive the plot, yes, congratulations, you figured it out. Have a cookie.

Nora and Ren saved Roman. Nora goes and fights with Team RWBY on the roof. Ruby goes and retrieves the weapons. RWBYN take centre stage in the train car scene. Ruby cuts the train car.

But for as much as she loves screaming about how Raymond is misogynistic for this, that and the other, Lilith never really talks about the girls of Fixing in relation unless degrading them, calling them useless, or saying they only exist to be love interests for men. She has some major projection going on.

[brionysea]

it's actually so interesting that when you start stretching possessiongate back to s3, it presents another way to interpret Will's weird MF/Vecna alert senses that season. because people have been pointing out left and right how it's funny that those Only happen when Mike is around. but under the guise of possessiongate that's a bit... uhmmm...

because you have 1. the movies (sitting next to Mike), 2. walking up the hill (looking after Mike leaving with El) 3. after destroying castle Byers (as Mike is visibly running up to him) and so on

but then every Other time Will gets the Vecna alert it's because he's actually here. once when Billy and Mrs Driscoll activate (Henry is literally in his presence). then at the hospital (Nancy's flayed ex coworkers activated upstairs and merged into the baby Meatflayer -> literally in the presence of Henry again). and then subsequently when the physical Meatflayer/Henry gets close to him from here on...

just... it's odd. there's this clear split in s3 of when Will feels Henry. there's the obvious and straight forward cases, where Henry is Right There. either in form of the Meatflayer or Billy activating right in front of him. and then there's the other times when it's not really logically clear what Will is actually reacting to

the cinema and hill scene follow shots of the rats and MF particles in the warehouse, it's assumed Will just has Massive range on his Vecna-sense. but then there's also moments like with the Flayed at the hospital that directly go against this, where Will only feels Henry when the exploded flayed start Activating activating and explode into meat. while they were going about their semi-normal flayed person business trying to Kill Nancy and Jonathan right above Will he seemingly caught none of that

so i'm genuinely curious about what's going on here. either Will can feel the flayed all across town (including the small rats) each time and just had a hiccup at the hospital and Missed the goosebumps somehow with the Flayed directly above him. Or looking at possessiongate, all the times his neck went off without the Meatflayer or an activated Flayed around coincidentally also being all the times right after talking to Mike isn't just a really funny and unfortunate coincidence...

i need to know what's going on here so bad it's eating at my brain (sorry for the long asks mb)

i LOVE long asks i eat long asks for breakfast

you've made SO many good points. and now you've got me thinking about how phenomenal this is as a writing strategy

it's honestly just really impressive how well they've hidden it. i read that post about el overhearing mike and will's phone calls argument and later hearing from dustin that mike was actually trying to call will an annoying amount, among other things mike has said throughout the show that he didn't know she heard, and it was all used as evidence that she probably knows or has the ability to figure out how they feel about each other from that and from mike's monologue

the general audience thinks mike acting weird is about el, and bylers think mike acting weird is about will, and even when it's directly about mike like what happened on weathertop (which was linked to mike and mike alone because dustin said later that he was only mad at him, similar to hopper blaming mileven's clinginess on mike), people still find a way to be like oh it's just about the love triangle, it's the heteronormativity, don't worry about will's spidey sense acting up around mike who everyone and their mother has been saying isn't acting like himself just like will wasn't one season ago, it's probably an elaborate metaphor or something

to be clear, absolutely no shade on bylers! they're actual geniuses to be able to figure all this out. but it's honestly a MASTERCLASS of misdirecting your audience that even the people who are listening to the show when it tells us to pay attention can get so close, but still not quite grasp it

they're weaponising the amatonormative assumption that people "outgrow" friendship being important to them as they grow up and start prioritising romance and only romance while actively devaluing friendship against us. they're banking on us just buying into that to forget about how mike called bullshit on only having one person who's more important to him than everyone else and how he's willing to sacrifice his life for any of his friends. they're letting us reduce mike down to a character who literally disappears into his romantic subplots so that we don't see what's right in front of us

the party is more of a family to mike than the wheelers, and considering how heavily involved will's family was in bringing him back, i think it's really really really telling that they're the ones who've been noticing how weird mike's been acting for a full year

mike devaluing friendship through his words and his actions is weird. mike forgetting about everyone he isn't dating is weird. mike letting all the societal bullshit get to him is weird. he's so headstrong, he's such an independent thinker, he's willing to start a fight with a bigot over homophobia. he has the capacity to be unashamed of that aspect of himself no matter what anyone has to say about it

they've been telling us at least once a season since season 2 that vecna definitely knows who mike wheeler is. putting it all together, it makes absolutely no sense that mike would be acting the way he has if he's really been left alone like we're supposed to think

[crisalidaseason]

more of Levi being a dad? like his daughter likes someone and Levi becomes protective and gives the don't hurt my daughter talk

>>It's okay if you don't want though<<

I'm so so so so sorry I took so long!

Dad!Levi x Daughter!Reader

Prompt: Levi with a daughter that has a crush on someone.

Tags and content warning: Levi being a paranoid dad, Hange being a menace. Reader's crush is not specified. Reader uses she/her pronouns and it's implied to be a teenager (nothing else is specified)

People think Levi doesn't pay attention or notice anything that is not related to the missions, but they are so wrong. Levi is a wonderful observer, noticing changes of behavior in everyone. He just doesn't give enough of a fuck.

That means he finds really odd when you're suddenly coming to the headquarters a bit too often with excuses like "I'm paying my dad a little visit" or "bringing hange some pastries they love". It's not like he doesn't appreciate you visiting, but you were never a fan of the military headquarters.

Hange was the first to put the spark of paranoia on his mind. "Hmmm, she's always coming during the cadets training hours" or "is she wearing make-up? Is that a new dress?". He tried not to think about but it was impossible, so one day he decided to join one of the training sessions.

He spotted you watching the training on the second floor and like the hawk eye he is, Levi followed your gaze and saw a specific soldier. A scrawny one who was also a disaster. Now Levi had nothing against you courting people but he knew soldiers were the worst, he would have to give that soldier the talk.

The poor soldier didn't even know who grabbed him by the neckline of his shirt. All he could see was the intimidating 1,60m man pinning him to the wall.

"you've caught my baby girl's attention, how dare you?"

"what do you mean you don't know who I'm talking about?"

When Levi finally let's the poor soldier go, they just run away traumatized. And when you find out about it you wanna die so bad from embarrassment. You have to explain the old man that you were crushing from afar and Levi just traumatized a kid for nothing.

Safe to say that he now asks you, awkwardly, if your romantic interests are aware of your feelings before threatening them. To be honest he intimidates them anyway and the poor soldier thinks it's just gratuitous hate from Captain Levi.

If you end up getting a date with your crush, Levi will be worried the entire time you're getting ready. He's asking you a million times if it's safe, giving you another pocket knife 'just in case', also giving you a strange concoction Hange made (something with lots of pepper).

When your date comes to pick you up he makes sure to take them aside and very calmly say "if you hurt her, I will rip your limbs off one by one and feed you your own toes".

If your crush ends up not being nice, expect Levi to just make them disappear. Don't ask me details, I don't know what happens.

If you have a nice partner, then he will test them infinitely. Test their loyalty, their strength, the way they make tea (Levi finds everyone's abilities with brewing tea atrocious).

He genuinely thinks nobody is good enough for you, but deep down Levi is scared that he's gonna die and nobody will take care of you. He wants you to have a real partner just in case death finally takes him.

Isn't he such a cute dad? A little pinscher.

[koumeowkami]

6, 10, 13 and 19 for the violence ask game!!!

choose violence ask game!

cherennnn these questions were so hard 😭 i did my best okay

6) which ship fans are the most annoying?

uhhhh i don't find any shippers annoying (as in pushy with their ideas and stuff like that)?? maybeeee a bit wataei shippers cause it often sounds to me that you must love them only cause they're fundamental for the enstars plot. remember that infamous wataei poll? those times on tumblr were hell for me. but in general i find the fans of certain characters more annoying than shippers and i could make a whole list for that lol

10) worst part of fanon

okay uhhh... i pondered over this question for half an hour trying to understand and i'm still not sure of it (← isn't familiar with fandom terminology), but here goes nothing! just some fandom opinions i don't agree with:

- i said that some days ago but, fem tsumugi being drawn in a way that in my opinion is unfit for her character

- the hajun with nayuta/cozmez ship is a bit odd to me cause fans always turn him into a person that's completely different from canon. like... he would not fucking do that believe me, he's genuinely nice only with bae and it couldn't be different even in headcanons 😭 in general, it seems to me that hajun is seen very differently from what he's really like but maybe it's just my hatred for him speaking :D /hj

- do some fans know that kanata is not just a tsundere. like i bully him for that too (affectionately) but he's such a complex and deeply emotional character please let's not overlook that. for some reason i think not a lot of people pay attention to cozmez lore and it's about time y'all start doing that

- hinata being seen as the worst brother ever™ and toxic as fuck cause ?????? that's just so wrong ???? he may have used wrong ways but he NEVER ever planned to make yuta suffer. on the contrary, he did pretty much everything for him. i think some people should learn how to read

13) worst blorbofication

momochi. i think no one's less unfit for that title than him 💀

19) you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...

i would say dialovers as a whole but actually i'm not ashamed lol sorry. maybe i'm a bit "ashamed" i like laito and shiki (dance with devils), but i'm gonna justify myself saying that their story arcs are interesting despite all the gruesome details (they're probably the only "problematic" characters i like). can daisuke hirakawa also be a good reason to like them? cause... yeah

[a-student-out-of-time]

So uhhh I’m guessing you saw the latest ep? I hope you’re okay

//My apologies, everyone. I did not have a fun time with that episode and I got very upset.

//But I've taken some time and applied some of my DR-savvy mind to this episode and I'm going to give you a (probably delulu) theory on what actually happened here:

//Simply put, I don't think that's actually Arei. I'll explain why:

She made it clear how much she hated being reminded of these things, about people who'd send her rope on her birthday. Even after her emotional breakdown, I can't believe she would actually do this. One could argue someone killed her with it, but:

There's been so much emphasis on Arei's character and backstory, and to have her die now would not only feel like a complete waste, but it feels like it was setting up for something deliberate involving her.

As others have pointed out, the changing rooms in the clothing store- the same floor as the playground- are soundproofed. Arturo couldn't hear what J and Teruko were talking about in there, even though he was right outside.

That moment where Teruko and Veronika had their weird and inexplicable conversation about prosopagnosia and how Teruko's not good at recognizing faces. That felt so odd to include...but the fact that we didn't even get a good look at the face with that reveal is telling.

The fact that David drew so much attention to the fact that Arei is missing, and everyone spent so long worrying about her being dead. That's so obvious and played so straight that I genuinely can't believe it would ever really happen. This is meant to get us to remember who was at the scene and who left in what order.

Rose brought up that her turpentine is missing. Something that Teruko pointed out could be use to knock someone unconscious.

The Motive Reveal situation also drew so much attention to the fact that 13 people were in the auditorium. That was bolded in yellow and feels so weird to include if it's not going to be important for later.

Most importantly, the BDA cut off right at the end. We didn't get any details, any closeups, anyone musing on the fate of the victim, or anyone actually checking the body. We got that with Xander in Chapter 1, but not here? In fact, think about it: has that ever happened genuinely in any of the games? All we got was the body swinging from a long distance, no closeup of the face or anyone saying the name, just the "A body has been discovered" announcement and then it immediately cuts off.

//Maybe it's because I've absorbed so much DR-related content at this point, but this reveal feels much too obvious, too straightforward and too weird for me to take it seriously. I honestly can't buy that DT, which has done so well at averting these tropes so far, would suddenly go this route.

//Instead, I think Arei's actually alive somewhere, and that body is someone else dressed up to look like her. They're close enough to the changing rooms, nobody would've heard and we've yet to see anyone except Teruko, Whit and Eden find the body.

//Until we can actually get a headcount and confirm that, yes, that is actually here and everyone else is accounted for, that I'm comfortable with saying that it's not actually her.

//Maybe I'm crazy, but the way this is set up feels far too weird for me to take it seriously. This is too obvious, it has to be setting up for something else.

//This series excels at getting you worked up with seemingly obvious reveals, only to hit you with something that you may not have seen coming if you weren't paying attention.

//All I'm saying is, if it happened with Kaito and Kokichi, it could happen here too

//Until everyone is accounted for, I'm not going to be convinced

[theswansoftalloworacle]

Traditional meanings vs intuitive meanings vs custom meanings

It's a very rare thing to find an oracle card, be that tarot, Lenormand, Kipper, or otherwise, that doesn't have a specific meaning. The tarot has meanings that date back to at least the mid 15th century, and even a deck written this year will have meanings listed in a booklet or sometimes on the cards themselves. Those are not the only meanings though, and in this post I'll go over how they can change.

Traditional meanings When I say traditional I don't just mean those things that have been around for a long time. The Fool has been part of tarot decks for centuries and means new beginnings, new journeys, new adventures, but it also means a lack of understanding due to inexperience. By the same token a 2020 deck called Beyond Lemuria has a card called Star Seer which means paying attention to our intuition and trusting ourselves.

Both of these can be classed as the traditional meanings. You could say traditional and book meanings but that's a big long-winded, plus my version of Beyond Lemuria is the pocket edition, where the meanings are written on the cards so it doesn't come with a book.The Four of Wands. Seventh Sphere Tarot. Rider Waite Smith. Labrynthos app

Intuitive meanings The intuitive meaning of a card is what you feel like it's saying, what your instincts tell you the card is trying to communicate, sometimes this is completely at odds with what the traditional meaning is. You look at the card and something about it makes you think of something, a thought strikes you out of the blue, a tiny little symbol reminds you of something, whatever happens the card is saying something besides just the traditional meaning, or it might be saying something completely different.The Listener. Oracle of the Dragonfae. Sword Oracle app.

Custom meanings These are things you choose for the most part but things that come up time and time again. For example the 8 of Wands means forward momentum and rapid action, but perhaps for you it has come to refer to your bossy sibling who charges full speed into your life and takes over. It's very common for certain cards to represent certain people over and over again, it's also common for them to represent certain aspects of your life, like your work or health. Custom meanings usually develop over time. You'll see the card come up time and again and realise it now means a specific thing when you read for yourself. For example, when I do Lenormand readings for myself and I see Mice come up I know that card is referring to me, Mice has a meaning of decay, pollution and disease, but also represents illness and so fits with me as a disabled person. Channelling. The Secret Language of Light Oracle. Sword Oracle app.

The correct way Let's get this over with, there is no correct way to read oracle cards. Some people will tell you there is but those people don't know what they're talking about. Considering the amount of disagreement there can be over one single card in tarot I think it's reasonable to say we all have our own way of doing things and all those ways are legitimate so long as we are genuine about them.

You can also choose to work with oracle cards traditionally, intuitively, and with their custom meanings all at once. It's up to you.

[boxed-chardonay]

So look, I have this cousin (in his mid 30s I think) who is in jail for numerous offenses few of which are substance use/dealing and illegal possession of a firearm (this will become more relevant later) . He was arrested at burger King Like All great criminals are. He's Been in rehab, corrections, and prison for about 5ish years now.

Now this is where it gets twisted. He is soon to be released, which for numerous reasons we will talk about I don't agree with. But i know somebody who has evedance that he hasn't changed despite what he is presenting himself to be. But to understand that, let's go back to just before he got arrested.

The leading days to his arrest (keep in mind he was on illeagal substances) he harassed everyone in the family. From his mom to the 7 aunts and uncles and everyone in between. With out going into detail he harassed both if his sisters. Calling it harassment is taking it lightly. That same week he broke into my home and stole my father's cloths and one of his uncles duffel bags to "deliver" "goods" that same day the previously mentioned illeagal firearm was brought to my mom's attention. Nothing was said nothing came out of this man's ill mouth. Just a blank, emotionless stare right at my mom. On the same day as well my mom was babysitting my 2 younger cousins. He purposely told them that a tornado (it was storming out) was going to kill them and left the house. Quite a few things after that happened that I vaguely remember, but I can't pull them forward for some reason. Anyway. The next week he was arrested at burger King and sent to a rehab/corrections facility. Things genuinely seemed like they were turning around for him, which was strange because he's been in jail before and he came out with noting different about him. Some time goes by as his mother updates the family. People asked me to send him money to which I did not. Last year, around this time his claim was he was becoming an ordained minister for the church. Which once again struck me as odd. He was never a church going person. But the pastor of the church that I occasionally frequent that all my family goes to saidhe was doing better and how he was meeting with him every so often to help him get ordained. Hopes started increasing that things might potentially be changing for him.

I now believe I was wrong. Recently our uncle had passed over a substance overdose. And strange things happened (that's for another story). He claimed he saw our uncle with our deceased grandmother. His mom. It was an entire thing for a different story. One of my cousins stayed with me during my uncles service because she came from Kentucky. I was brought to attention of a list of things he wanted is girlfriend pinpal to search for him. One of which was a very specific illeagal substance traid in my state.

I bring this up because most people in my family don't know this. I also bring this up for the judge mental posts that I have seen. But I have to be honest though judgemental I don't disagree. I fear my families life when he gets out because I fear what he will do. My mom tells me "he served his time" to that I say his time isn't long enough. People tell me "only one person can judge him now and that's God" Like I'm sorry. Love thy neighbor and all but love thy neighbor behind bars. I shutter to think what this man is going to do when he gets out. And if it has anything to do with anyone in my family being harmed he will be the one 6 ft under and I will be the one behind bars. I've been told I might act nice but I can mace Satan cry and if my cousin ends up in hell as a result of me Satan himself will apologize because I will be the one in his torture chamber humiliating, torturing, and harvesting his pain for eternity. Everyone has high hopes for him. But they don't know what I know. And for that I home they won't find out because if the cops don't get to him before I do there will be hell to pay and I will enjoy every second of it even if it results in me being behind bars for the rest of my life. And he will have to answer to me for the rest of eternity. Begging for me to stop, asking me to let him take one breath. Because I won't.

[hanna-kin]

Outsiders

Simon and Wille are so different yet so similar. And one thing that they share is that niether of them fit in at hillerska.

Both both of them stand out and are the odd ones out and even if it is for opposite reasons I still think it is important.

Niether of them wanted to go to Hillerska in the first place. Simon only went to protect Sara and left his best friends and Wille was forced to go there.

Obviously their experiences are different but it still strikes me how they both end up at a school they don't want to go to, leaving their old life behind. They both hate it at first but end up finding eachother through it and and I think they kind of bonded over being the odd ones out.

Simon comes from an entirely different background compared to the other students which immediately makes him the odd onr out and a target for their other students. Unlike Sara he has no wish to conform to this new environment. We see the other students make fun of him for simply saying hello. They don't think he fits in because he's not like them. He's not one of them and he's definitely lower than them simply because he comes from a less privileged background.

He has a different financal status different political views, family relationships with a single mum and an alcoholic dad whereas most other students have a traditional family setting, one way or another. He's also a day student. There are just so many things that makes him different to them and people look down on him for it and treat him as less than them. August uses him and messes with him because he clearly thinks he's better than Simon.

Simon tries to not let it bother him and I think he is strong enough to not let it bother him too much. But it must be exhausting.

Wille stands out for completely different reasons but I still think he struggles just as much.

He's the richest and most privileged person. He's not just rich he's royalty. Top of the top in the school and for some people that would be a dream. But for Wille it is not. Unlike Erik he doesn't thrive in that environment (I'm not saying Erik loved or enjoyed the attention and glory but I think he found his place at the school)

Wille wants to be normal and do normal things but he won't be allowed to have that. Even at Hillerska.

Everyone watches his every step and gossip about him because he's not just their peer or student.lz he's also a public figure and someone at least q few of them idolizes. Even the teachers give him weird privileges that he's not asked for which reminds him that he's not normal and he has much higher expectations on him. People know how to act around him or won't speak up around him. They'll just be awkward and weird around him or try to use him for different reasons.

August uses him but not in the same way he uses Simon. August tries to boss him around to up his own status and in his mind he's a friend to Wille but it's always on his terms and he pays attention to what Wille really needs.

And it's so clear that Wille hates to be treated like this.

I've talked about it time and time again but I can't and won't shut up about it.

They find eachother because they don't treat eachother like everyone else does and they give eachother just what they need.

Wille treats Simon with decency and respect. He doesn’t care about Simon's background or belittle him for who he is. Instead he pays attention to him and is genuinely interested in him.

Simon is not afraid to speak up and he also treats Wille the same as does anyone else. He doesn't treat him differently and he makes Wille feel comfortable. He is himself around Wille and he doesn't expect Wille do be a certain way either because he's a prince and it allows Wille to be himself.

For a while it was them against the world.

[bored-storyteller]

All the parts you want. If you have anything specific in mind let me know!

Part 1:"Keep death away"

Part 2:"Beyond the Mask"

39- Tokyo Ghoul- Uta x Human! Reader pt. 3

"Just like you"

His tattooed hand presses against the wardrobe door that he has just closed, right in front of you.

Your breath tickles his knuckles as he hurries to hide the jar from your view, which you only caught a glimpse of it.

Trapped between him and the piece of furniture, your guilty gaze meets his.

"Oops ... sorry." You murmur, barely smiling at him.

Uta sighs slightly, shaking his head with his sweet and calm expression: "no ... I'm sorry, I forgot they were there."

You watch him bend over to open a drawer to look for the leather straps he asked you to retrieve, only to see him return to his workstation soon after.

Were those fingers in there?

The shop has been closed for a while now, and even if you would never say it out loud, this makes you happy. It's not exactly the best for you to always be ready to snap to hide in the bathroom, waiting for his customers to leave.

It hasn't happened many times, actually, but in one of them you heard Uta justify the presence of your smell as "his next meal". It made sense, yet you couldn't ignore a shiver running down your spine.

Despite any moral expectations, since you discovered that that boy is a ghoul you have found yourself much more company with him than before. It is something of yours, mutual. Now that a frightening world has knocked on your door, the one who showed it to you has become your safety and protection, and in the same way Uta comes into your protection with concern and at bottom with a slight sense of guilt it tickles his soul, relieved simply by the relief of not having to hide from you anymore.

Even if you are now aware of who you have in front of you, however the dynamics between you two are still fragile, and above all the dynamics between you and your inner fears are fragile.

The day after the tragic and at the same time sweet evening that opened you to a completely new reality for you, he immediately took care to give you the necessary recommendations: if someone asks you for something, any person, you absolutely must instantly forget that he is a ghoul.

At first you actually felt offended. Did he really think you were that stupid to tell someone about this? Did he think you would ever endanger him?

But soon after, you realized that it was not for his safety that he worried so much. He was afraid for you.

"This is really dangerous" he had told you "If anything happens to me, nobody has to know that you know, okay?"

If anything happens to me.

You couldn't say anything clever at the time, so you just nodded, but something bittersweet had started to tingle in your heart.

He is dangerous, and at the same time in danger. You are in danger of being there with him, you are in many ways. Some would say that you are committing a crime, that you are wrong, that you deserve punishment just because you enjoy his company. Yet you can't feel guilty.

You have so many questions to ask him, but in those days since the revelation you have not asked him even one.

It is so difficult for you to understand what you are feeling. He kills, he eats people, this is now known. He is one of those monsters that the news is talking about so much, one of those monsters that should be exterminated.

Yet you are now there, observing the empty, weeping eyes of a mask behind a display case. He must have done it recently, it's the first time you've seen it.

But still, you are there, in a hidden shop where you risk finding a box of human eyes by opening a drawer, and the thing that scared you the most until the other day is that you can't get the reaction you would expect from you.

You keep looking at the masks and him as you did until last week even though you know.

You didn't tell him, but it all kept you up at night. You've always thought about it, every moment was spent to find a way out of that tangle of thoughts and emotions that went through you both in his presence and in his absence.

It was hard to make peace with yourself, it was almost scary, but in the end you accepted it. You had no choice but to accept it.

He eats people like you, but if he didn't he couldn't exist ...

"I like this mask ..." so sad, so scared, a soul of a poor devil in hell.

"Really? I recently did it. But you know, to tell the truth it gives me a strange feeling. "

Even if he doesn't look at you he is attentive to you. Even if he sits on his stool where you are, he listens to you, he perceives you, much more than you perceive him.

Now you know… someone in that cruel world has to die, and you don't want that someone to be Uta, despite the price.

Yeah, the price, that price you didn't pay.

Now there is one more thing you have to solve with yourself, something else to admit, so fragile and so strong together.

You approach him to see what he is working on - or rather to see him.

When you look at him, every time, you immediately remember that he is a ghoul, but at the same time it is as if you forget him.

You've been spending a lot of time together now, yet each time you want more, and you don't really care how wrong it is.

“Listen…” his peaceful voice quickly distracts you from your thoughts “… you've been pretty quiet lately. Do you feel ok?"

His hands do not stop for a moment to work, to create. He certainly has deadlines to meet and yet what he is doing is not simple work, it is art. You feel privileged to be able to observe it at work.

"I'm sorry, you're right, I've been thinking too much lately."

You just laugh, a little embarrassed and a little really strangely and genuinely amused by that turn that everything is taking, as long as you are with Uta you feel free to smile again, despite everything.

You move closer to get a better look at his fingers intertwining with ribbons and straps. Who knows how he does it.

"Is it really such a big problem that I'm a ghoul?"

His words rain down on you like a cold shower interrupting all consideration, yet on his part they were necessary.

Uta also finds himself strangely surprised. His skilled hands interrupt the art, in the surprise of that new doubt that until now he had ignored.

No, in fact, he hadn't really ignored it. It had simply always presented itself in a thousand other terms that had never been posed as such a placid question.

He had experienced that stigma, that exclusion from the beauty of the world in a thousand sick ways, but never as he is experiencing it now with you.

And again that world that runs too fast for him returns, that world that "loves only humans", yet in his selfishness he prays on the sidelines that you will be able to give up that love that that magnificent world grants you, to stay there immobile, with a Pierrot like him.

For a moment Uta doesn't know what to do, whether to resume his job to avoid your gaze and protect himself, or to risk looking at you, discovering your emotions.

Yet before he can decide, he feels your movement.

You don't even know what you're really doing, you just know that for some reason at that moment you need to feel him as much as possible, to understand, to fix yourself.

Kneeling on the cold floor, in the intimate solitude of the closed shop, you let your arms surround his waist without fear. Your head in his lap, nestled against him as much as possible.

He doesn't react, he just looks at you, blank in the face.

Suddenly he feels angry restlessness rising in him. What are you doing? He can't read it, what does it mean?

For some reason he can't really feel your hug, it's as if he doesn't contemplate it among the possibilities. You're hugging someone else there. Snuggled against his stomach, you are approaching human victims like you, not him. There is no bridge between you two, it is impossible to believe.

There is no way that you, little fragile human, can really accept something so big, he cannot ask it to you, he thinks ... and yet ...

"I like it ..." your words are light, shy, and even fearful. Afraid of the scope of what you are saying, of that bestial confession you are revealing "that you are a ghoul ... I like it ..."

And that's the hard truth. It's just something of him, it's him, it's something attractive.

It is attractive to know that those gentle lips could bite you and trap your flesh, that those light hands could tear you apart. That safe sense of danger he gives you is tempting, and the trust you place in him just makes you enjoy that awareness.

This is hard even for you to admit, but you cannot ignore it, nor leave him unaware.

And once again your words overturn his stage, destroy it and rebuild it according to a new conformity.

He is surprised, you can feel it from his breath that stops for a moment, jumps against your cheek.

One thing he loves about you is that he can't help but believe you. No matter how much those words may be at odds with everything life has taught him, if you say it then it's true for him.

His delicate fingers intertwine with your hair, light, almost shy. His hand caresses you patiently, aware, almost as if he is caressing a child, while he holds you there in a sweet constriction.

"Really?"

His calm question about him is not a request for confirmation, as much as wanting to hear you say the things he never has the words to say.

You rise from your seat, getting back on your feet, but unexpectedly you are prevented from walking away from him.

Now it's his arms that surround your waist, and you find yourself there, trapped between his knees and his arms, without being squeezed. His eyes look at you attentively, his bizarre face shows nothing but his calm composure - which does not at all reflect the vibrations of his heart -.

“I think… it's part of you, you wouldn't be the same otherwise. I like it."

You don't know with what courage you spoke those words, so sure and sincere.

You are not embarrassed, perhaps because you both love that little world that belongs only to you, where no one can see and hear you, that behind the scenes of the circus of life.

And it is your way of seeing reality that he likes, what he needs. That your putting Uta before the ghoul, that small and natural confirms that you always give him. This is what still gives many hope, the existence of someone like you, who knows how to see things in the order in which they should be seen. It is the principle for which love exists between humans and ghouls.

The light and affectionate smile that is painted on his lips is the confirmation that is needed, nothing else.

"I could eat you ..."

"I know" but you won't.

You should be food for him, you are. You are a possible meal, but you are also a person. You are someone. You talk, laugh, joke, cry, get angry ... and over time he has learned to want to keep it all, because he likes the way you are. Though you may be his source of life, just imagining feeding on you becomes painful for him. The thought of devouring you, of consuming you, of making you disappear from the world, of swallowing your body, your laughter and your tears, your voice calling his name… has become extremely painful.

And he's also sure you don't really know what you're saying, he's sure you want to change a lot of things about him if you only knew them, but for now it's okay that you only know that drama.

Indeed, no, it is not a scene. Uta is Uta, whole and sincere. What you know is the real and authentic facade of Uta that you deserve to know, there is nothing wrong with that, and he is sure you know it.

Everyone is modeled on relationships, you do too, but it's not that you are less true with him than with others.

The same goes for him, and despite this he is also aware that the affection that binds him to you will not change when he is talking to Renji, and not even when he is at the center of an auction. Uta is always Uta, and you are always you, no matter where you are or who you are with.

Two extremely complex creatures, monster and prey that still share something so profound and at the same time solid and concrete.

His lips curl slightly more, in a vague expression of veiled sweetness.

"Good."

His hand slips on the table as he stands up, but you don't notice it, too focused on seeing that the other hand hasn't given up on the touch on your hips.

Only when something lands on your face do you wake up. You do not understand it immediately, but the mask, still white and anonymous, is now on you, supported by him.

Before you can say anything or ask for an explanation, Uta is close to you, so close that you know you can feel the hard cover vibrating slightly on your cheeks under his breath.

It is still too early, everything is too delicate to utter certain words between you two, to give voice to deep and primitive feelings, which have nothing forbidden even though society would like you to believe.

It is not for fear that you will not admit what you both know, it is just for the pleasure of enjoying that moment, that moment before, that sweet harboring the affectionate secret.

This is why it is the stiff and cold lips of the mask that are kissed, a slight barrier that separates the delicacy of that touch from you.

A kiss that doesn't whet anyone's appetite, is just a silent admission of something extremely big.

And as the mask came, it goes away, returning to its place, leaving you uncovered and incredulous.

Uta also moves away, returning to turn his attention to the stock cabinet, abandoning you still and dazed in front of that almost dreamlike situation.

"Uta?"

"Yes?"

His answer is always ready as he rummages through the rolls of tissue.

"What was that?"

His quiet face of him turns to you, and you know him well enough to notice that slight amused glint in his eyes.

"What was what?"

“That! You know!"

A slight amused snort from him lets you know you'll never get your answers: "You must have daydreamed."

-End-

[ohnobjyx]

I've seen so many sol0 fans or just people that have watched cql and cares for the cast, talking about how they feel that bjyx is something one sided and unrequited. some comments about how xz (in the later fan meetings) is kinda just patiently indulging yb but clearly was not v happy about it. Sometimes I do think xz is more reserved and seems to try to "tame" yb to be more discreet about their, whatever it is, thing but i don't particularly think he is cold? What do you think?

I know it may sound odd but is there some analysis about Xiao feelings towards Yibo? I mean this guy is head over heels for him, no doubt about that but I don’t really feel the same from Xiao? I mean I could be wrong since I’m new there and didn’t read a lot of analysis so if you have some can you link them please? Thank you! And I don’t ask this in a « wrong » way like I genuinely feel like there’s something but I don’t see the same feelings towards each other. Again, I could be wrong! 

Hi, anons. These asks has been sitting for the longest time in my inbox, so I decided to tackle them today (still writing two days later, I’ve desisted on creating a more organized post and I’m just dumping my thoughts here this time).

(It’s also that I’m frustrated about this, because these are two of the most polite ones, but I’ve also received others less well worded ones, that basically imply that there’s nothing from gg).

For the anon asking for some analysis, I’ll leave a link here to a post that basically sums up my own thoughts.

Disclaimer: as always, don’t take bjyx seriously. Pure speculation here.

Long post.

Before I start, I want to say that I shouldn’t be the one to convince you to anything. It’s never my intention to impart the “universal truth” or to be patronising. If any of you really feels that there’s nothing from gg, no matter what I say, you won’t be convinced by my post alone. And it’s alright to agree to disagree. Just keep it in mind.

I feel that what anons describe it’s something that often happens to new bxg. Dd’s so obvious, so painfully obvious that in comparison, gg is much more “discreet” (well, we had to learn to read Lan Wangji’s expressions, didn’t we? The same happens with gg’s gestures). I don’t agree with the idea of dismissing someone’s love just because they aren’t as obvious and as telling as their partner at first glance (gg’s songs and drawings aren’t as straightforward, but they are there for those who care to listen and see).

From my pov, I think it’s very very probable that they are together. So, that works both ways for me. I don’t think dd’s love unrequited. They take care of each other in ways that speak of a high level of trust, intimacy and chemistry (yes, I initially wrote that post for these asks). I’ve talked about subtle ways to display your love, because when you love someone it’s difficult to hide it, and gg has a hard time trying to hide for the cameras.

(I’m still thinking of Happy Camp, when dd hurt his neck with the necklace... gg’s reaction wasn’t controlled in the slightest, and the combination of worry and anger would be a interesting combo if gg indeed wasn’t anything to dd or if he hadn’t gifted him the necklace).

Gg often has a hard time controlling his reactions when dd is involved. He’s much more natural, a lot closer to how he really is instead of his very polite and soft public persona. He get a glimpse of him in the bts (I suppose they never expected CQL to be so popular, and didn’t thought that the bts would be so watched a year afterwards), and comparing how he is in the bts with dd to how he usually is in other interviews and events with other people is a very interesting exercise.

It’s true that gg in the interviews seemed to try to hold back dd, to the point that they both lied sometimes in the interviews... the effect they caused was contrary to what they wanted. Definitely. Because they tended to forget what they had lied about, and the “plot” had holes everywhere. Like gg reacting surprised to the possibility of dd starting a fashion brand. Twice. In the same day. Or the eggplant/carrots thing. Or the “I didn’t know you slept with the lights on, but I’m aware of your sleeping pattern” thing. Please note that these three plot holes were caused by gg (in the second case, I’m refering to carrots ofc).

About what the first anon says of “how xz (in the later fan meetings) is kinda just patiently indulging yb but clearly was not v happy about it”. It’s one thing that by then they’d have noticed that their cp had attracted a whole lot more attention that they had ever expected it to and a whole another thing to “indulge” someone (as if only dd wanted it and gg had nothing to say about it) and “not be very happy about it”. Gg might have tried, but even he couldn’t completely erase all of the little moments directed at dd (and you have to take into account that gg was actually sick in the last fan meeting in Nanjing, that’s bound to affect his mood too).

(There’s no one else when they look at each other. No wonder Wen Ning achieved such a third wheel look when they were filming the boat scene, I suppose it’s taken from real life).

How gg looks at dd and only smirks when dd looks up... well, gg still makes his best effort at being discreet...

And dd in this moment... well, what can one do when a man like gg looks at you like that? (dd.exe has stopped working. Please restart).

Source of the gifs: 仙娱

Last but not least, I’d like to talk a little about W/ibo Night, the main source of many people’s doubts. I’ve seen many analysis, from “poor puppy dd following gg around” (that’s... bs) to some better analysis that deserve to be taken into account.

W/ibo Night is an event organized by a state controlled social media platform. It’s one of the most observed events of the years, with potential future employers and coworkers, apart from the government, so it’s not just them, but everyone is very serious and controlled in their actions.

They obviously had agreed beforehand on how to behave in this one. While dd is very serious, he doesn’t seem angry or sad that gg isn’t looking his way. However, they both can’t help but look in each other’s direction (gg’s more discreet, but pay attention and you’ll see him side glancing at dd at least three times on stage) and the way dd turns just so he can have a look at gg is... 🤦

They tried so hard that it ended up getting the effect they wanted to avoid: when everybody else was greeting each other (friendly hadshakes, patting their backs, etc.) these two just stood there, a little awkwardly. It became obvious to most people that they were acting as if they were strangers.

I think (speculation here) that while they had agreed to act as if they didn’t know each other, gg was... off that night. His eyes were very bright (as if teary, so not in a good way) and his smiles were tense, so I’d say in a bad mood or maybe he was feeling under the weather. I think dd was worried, so that’s why he kept glancing at him (I’ve read about the rumours of why gg was like that, but I tend to dismiss them if there’s no proof).

For someone as polite as gg, to walk so obviously in front of dd when they were getting on stage (c-culture here: the one who walks in front has more seniority/authority, so gg always lets the other people walk in front of him as a sign of politeness and respect), speaks of a familiarity that exceeds that of coworkers. Dd’s actions need no more words: waiting for gg and letting him walk in front comes naturally to him.

Choosing fans (though at first, dd just looks at gg choose his). I don’t know if you remember, but gg chose “I can do it” and dd chose “I have it difficult” (as a way of saying “I can’t”). I think it was entirely a coincidence, because dd was looking at his gg choosing his fan, the one he had wanted at first was taken by another person, so he chose this one as “I couldn’t take the fan I wanted” and “it’s difficult for me to choose”.

However, look at the happy and surprised smile from gg when he notices that his fan and dd’s make a pair (similar to “yes” and “no”, gg had filmed an ad for the event in which he linked this two exact phrases as opposites). A sad spoiler: this is the only time he truly, spontaneously smiles at the event (and notice how dd’s face inmediately mirrors gg’s and how he tries to rein it in a second later). 

I couldn’t find a video, but just before leaving the stage, dd looks at gg again and shakes his fan. Without a single word, gg understands that dd is asking from where to leave the stage, and makes the slightest movement with his fan to point the way. I assure you, this level of 默契 (mo qi) is difficult to find even in established long time relationships.

Once they are seated, gg leaves for a second and tells dd “I’m leaving” and dd answers “okay”. There’d be no need for this interaction unless they’re still friends/couple.

This one broke my heart a little: dd had been sitting on a plastic bottle the whole time. Usually gg clears his seat when dd comes (Nanjing fan meeting, Tencent awards night), probably because he has noticed that dd doesn’t care that he’s sitting on things. Dd left earlier the event because of his schedule, and once gg came back from getting his w/ibo king award, he sits on dd’s seat. And notices the water bottle under him. Even his poker face can’t hide the sad fondness “aiyo this boy...”

Some say he sat in the seat next to dd’s, but there’s a video I can’t seem to find (the despair is real) of gg sitting on the water bottle, so it’s indeed dd’s seat.

Also, you may try to think this from your own perspective: when and why would you sit in another person’s seat in an event as important as this one? If I try to answer this from my pov, I’d say that first I’d need to know that that person wouldn’t mind me sitting there and/or knowing that this person isn’t going to come back to the event. In both cases, it requires communication and trust between these two people. Gg had to know that dd was leaving first (and why would dd tell gg if not because they chat about their work schedules?) and that dd wouldn’t mind once the fancams made it to social media. This is what I think, at least.

Okay, so here ends my post. I just exposed some of my thoughts on why I think yizhan is NOT one sided or unrequited. But of course, you’re allowed to disagree with me, anons, since we are all in the speculation ground here. Nonetheless, note that this is a yizhan/bjyx blog, which implies (at least for me) that there are feelings from both sides, so I may not interact further with one-sided yizhan/bjyx asks.

(BTW, I found a very complete post of moments where yizhan isn’t one sided here, so I decided not to elaborate on those moments in this post).