#also i didn't get to go to a single pride parade

[thesilverlady]

saw a post about Ryan Condal's take on Aegon's relationship with his son and I want to vent because I really don't think the man has even bothered re-watching s1 to recall what he made.

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This is the thing that Viserys never did for Aegon. And Aegon did not study at the feet of his father. His father had his male heir and then essentially said, “Well, that box is ticked,” he was ill. I think he enjoyed having a son but didn’t put in the work the way he did with Rhaenyra when he was a younger man. And I think Aegon resents that and feels that part of the reason that he’s not seen as being suited for the crown or the throne is because he didn’t get that training from his father. So now he’s going to make up for that tenfold with Jaehaerys.

Let's start with Viserys' parenting, shall we?

"Viserys never did for Aegon"

In ep2 we saw a then healthy Viserys parading baby Aegon with pride and joy. It has been the only "good" scene we had between them because it's also the only time we see Aegon as a child. It's safe to assume that he continued to dote on his son during his toddler years and only stopped when Viserys became too sick or when Aegon started developing a personality.

Viserys had no reason to bring Aegon to council meetings, had no reason to groom Aegon as heir because he wasn't. That's the entire point. We also never saw him putting any work on Rhaenyra besides her serving as a cupbearer in ep2.

"He enjoyed having a son but didn’t put in the work the way he did with Rhaenyra."

What kinda of work did he put exactly with Rhaenyra? Rhaenyra already felt inadequate in the first episode because her father desperately wanted a son, when he murdered his wife and his newborn died, he named her heir. In ep2 when Rhaenyra makes a suggestion about how to handle the situation with Daemon Viserys dismisses her and it's Corlys who supports and backs her up.

In ep3 when celebrating Aegon's birthday, it's established Rhaenyra has been once more isolated at court. Viserys never cared about the gap he created between her and alicent when he decided to take his daughter's friend for a bride and unlike Alicent, he didn't even reach out when she was lonely.

In fact, in the same episode we see he's in a hurry to marry Rhaenyra off and he publically berates, scolds and humiliates her in front of people at court. In private, he still doesn't understand her nor does he try to.

The only time viserys was "good" to Rhaenyra was a) in driftmark during the fight between the kids and b) when he spoke in favor for her against Vaemond.

And those scenes aren't even in character for show Viserys if we're gonna be honest. They only happen because they must. The plot couldn't move forward otherwise.

"He [....] didn’t put in the work the way he did with Rhaenyra [...] And I think Aegon resents that."

Except he doesn't.

Aegon doesn't resent that because the show has never established any feelings of rivalry or jealousy between Aegon & Rhaenyra and that's because we didn't have a single scene between the two.

In ep6, a very sick Viserys is seen watching fondly both Aemond & Aegon training with Jacaerys & Lucerys.

It's conveniently forgotten that in the context Viserys enjoys watching all boys together. And he takes their "fighting" as something boyish and playful. He visibly gets upset when Harwin and Criston throw punches at one another.

The only time Viserys is shown to be taking a side between his children is in the Driftmark episode when Aemond loses his eyes. And while in that context he's protecting his grandsons and to an extention Rhaenyra herself. There are more reasons to feel disdain towards Viserys; like how he particularly talks to alicent in that episode, how he's rough with Aegon himself etc. Viserys is incapable of handling the situation. Even when his daughter who is also his heir gets injured, his solution is for everyone to go to bed and for tomorrow to depart.

It makes sense that Aegon would become resentful of Viserys as he grew older but that resentment has to do more about how his father treated his side of the family rather than how he treated Rhaenyra (who he has history of treating like garbage as well btw)

"So now he’s going to make up for that tenfold with Jaehaerys."

Y'know... I gotta love how people rant about the show making both sides neutral in order to 'show depth' and then you get their interviews and you see that depth is merely fans headcanoning.

Let me explain. At first glance Aegon looks nice with Jaehaerys. it's the first time we (viewers) see the kid and it's the first time we see Aegon fully happy. it's nice. Out of context.

Now let's take the context, a joyful Aegon walks into the chamber, he asks where his son is, he goes to check the blond one that sits few feet apart from her mother because Aegon can't tell the twins apart. He quickly realizes that's his daughter so he asks again. Helaena informs him their son is at their library, doing his custom and gently reminds him Jaehaerys shouldn't be disturbed. Aegon ignores that. He tells her the reason he wants him is because he wants to take him in the council meeting and "start his training", Helaena poses a question; what if Jaehaerys doesn't even want to be king - like Aegon himself hadn't wanted to - Aegon acts as if he didn't hear and he still seeks the boy out, forcing his son to attend the meeting upon finding him.

In the council meeting, Aegon's attention is mostly on Jaehaerys who seems to be annoying Tyland. Aegon encourages that behavior and seems to take joy from it. To the point where he (rather stupidity) almost humiliates Lord Lannister by making him act as a pony for his son to ride.

This is not Aegon being affectionate to Jaehaerys. This is Aegon acting the way he probably wished Viserys had acted with him; encouraging of his rebellious/misbehaving attitude, dismissing his council and putting down important people in favor of his son.

He's not breaking the circle of neglect; he continued it in a similiar pattern. Jaehaerys is incredibly young and easy to entertain. The exactly way baby Aegon was in ep2. Aegon already ignored the possibility his heir might not be interested in his so called duties in the exact way his own mother had ignored and kept pressuring him to take a role she was molding him for.

So, similiar to Viserys, Aegon might have adopted a different attitude with his son as soon as he'd develop a persona of his own. The seeds were already there.

Saying that Aegon was simply trying to be a good dad because Viserys was shit and he was only good to Rhaenyra and Aegon felt jealous of that ignores every single time of Viserys was a walking human garbage to everyone.

[flopauling1942]

happy pride month

Happy pride month! I hope everyone is having a great time no matter how you choose to celebrate, whether that be protesting to raise awareness, going to parades, watching documentaries, or simply being yourself! Happy pride month to those who aren't out yet, you matter!

//HI! sorry I haven't made a pride post yet, I wasn't sure how I'd make a pride post. I didn't want to just post something empty for free brownie points. Pride month isn't just about happy fun times and parades, it's also to raise awareness for the hate crimes that occur for people in the LGBTQ+ community. And the discrimination, and the daily hardships that come with wanting to love who you love or be who you want to be. There are so many different Groups of people in the LGBTQ+ community that it feels really empty making a post like this because there are so many beautiful ways to love and exist and it's impossible to honor all of them in one post. I almost feel like I don't have the right to speak up on it, since I myself don't like being labeled when it comes to sexualities, I don't really have an identity in that aspect. But I know how important acknowledging these beautiful groups of people is.

here we go!

Happy pride month to those under the Ace and Aro umbrellas! Asexuality and being Aromantic Is a beautiful spectrum that not a lot of people get due to black and white thinking. YOU ROCK, and are such a trooper for combating misinformation and nosy people who don't understand.

Happy pride month to everyone under the transgender umbrella! (anyone who doesn't align with their assigned gender at birth!) There's so many different people under the trans umbrella, and I think it's beautiful that there are so many ways for a person to exist. Transgender individuals have existed for so long and are really a pillar in the community when it comes to advocacy. I've met so many beautiful trans people, each one different from the last and it has always been great getting to know them.

happy pride month to the Bi and Pan community! While these groups are major targets for celebrity queer baiting, I think it's important to remind ourselves that it's better to believe them (and avoid shaming a person who was brave enough to be openly queer) and find out they were queer baiting later (Then it is acceptable to be upset. queerness is not free advertisement.) However, I think it's also unfair to shame someone for experimenting. what might seem like queer baiting to you, might be a straight person experimenting with the opposite sex, and if they don't like it, they don't like it. straight people are allowed to experiment! that's how people discover themselves! this fact can co-exist with being bi or pan! it's especially important to remind ourselves this during pride month!

Happy pride month to intersex fellows who consider themselves part of the community! (not every intersex person does, so I'm trying to be respectful.) I don't know a whole lot about intersex other than it presents in a lot of different ways, but YOU ROCK and you deserve to be highlighted!

happy pride month to non men loving non men! I love how this label includes more ambiguous non-masc genders. they matter too!

Happy pride month to non women loving non women!

happy pride month to women loving women!

Happy pride month to men loving men!

Happy pride month to those like me who are unlabeled. It gets tough when you share your experience and someone says "so bi?" (or something adjacent to that. it's ok to be queer gendered or gender fluid as well!) personally, I don't like labels because I'm autistic and I'd rather just exist than think about who I like all that much. but every unlabeled fellow has their own story and reasonings to be unlabeled. Every single one is valid and deserves to be shared!

Happy pride month to YOU! There are so many other people I didn't touch on, and I encourage you to like and repost posts sharing less well known parts of the community. Everyone deserves a happy pride month, and everyone deserves to have their stories shared.

GO FORTH AND CONQUER! EVERYONE DESERVES TO BE SEEN AND HEARD!

this post was written with the intent to spread good vibes and to talk about groups that are misunderstood/aren't talked about enough. this was written with only positive intentions, I did not mean to offend anyone.

[zahri-melitor]

DC Pride 2022:

I didn't particularly like the Damian and Jon story (not in the least because I generally don't get much from the way they're characterised in stories together), but it did crystallise a few things for me about why I find "it's a Pride parade!" stories so unutterably dull.

I'm not going to go into the 'is Pride a riot' debate that I know was everywhere when this issue came out, but I think the thing is...the art never actually LOOKS like a parade to me, as it doesn't hit the right notes.

Where are the Dykes on Bikes at the head of it. Where are the old people who founded this. The history OF the parade is encapsulated in the shape of the parade itself. It's always too young, too sanitised and too twee.

The Nubia and Io story just reminds me I really want to read all the Nubia stuff (I'll get there!)

Connor's story is that awkward line of 'we need you to come out' and 'coming out stories are so formulaic'. Connor, definitely throw that letter in the bin. You absolutely don't actually want to send a letter to your mother about the specific details of what you do and don't want to do with other people physically. The awkwardness in your memory of what you said will never ever go away.

Alysia Yeoh's story is clearly not contemporary (probably mid Batgirl 2016 I think?) because Babs isn't using the Clock Tower when this issue came out. It's...nice. Adult. Slightly tired.

The Jackson Hyde story is cute. I feel it's making Xebel a lot calmer and friendlier than it's usually portrayed but I haven't read enough Aquaman to be definite on that. Hang out with your boyfriend, Jackson!

The Jo Mullein story I need to come back to after I've actually read Far Sector but felt fun.

The Ray Terrill story...is extremely funny if you have actually read Ray and Dinah's 1990s interactions.

What's calculated to make Ray run off to help immediately? Dinah calling for back up!

Dinah. Dinah. Behaving like this is how you had that massive fight with Ollie where he thought you were cheating on him with Ray thirty years ago. (Do it again, it's very funny to me)

Ray: nobody has every shown me affection before Dinah: acts like a human being Ray: dedicates his entire diary to being aimed at Dinah

ANYWAY. Story is fine, the bonus by reading it through a 90s lens is amazing.

The Kate Kane story just being Jacob Kane being proud of Kate made me laugh (I don't actually think you're that supportive, Jacob, but I'm glad you think you are trying to be in your mind). On the other hand it's sweet to frame something through a proud parent.

Tim's story: I laughed realising they'd given this to Travis Moore. They clearly wanted it to be pretty. Nice that they went to Fair Day.

More seriously though: this is very in tune with Tim having other moments of self discovery (To the Father I Never Knew, the first Father's Day with Bruce). Very similar internal monologue.

As I say annually, the Harley/Ivy story is unnecessary. This should be in their own titles.

(Sorry Earth-11, I do not care about you)

And then we get to the only story in the ENTIRE ISSUE with any real grit to it (Kevin Conroy's autobiographical piece) and they slap an advisory warning on the front.

And look, I get why, but also it's so...hmm...we should be able to acknowledge more complicated stories and common narratives without having to warn people. We don't put warnings like that on the front of Lobo (well, aside from the comic being titled 'Lobo'). It should be possible to acknowledge the joys of identity while still reflecting on the past. It's not even anything more than a single slur a bunch of times plus period homophobia and the AIDS crisis. It's not shocking? or surprising? or unexpected?

DC Pride Tim Drake Special #1:

Okay so this is UL reprints plus one new story?

I think the most disappointing thing about the Steph story is that the characterisation doesn't really ring true to any of the characters involved? Steph is allowed to be jealous. Tim's allowed to be avoiding her and shouldn't be getting nagged by everyone to talk to her (especially given the preceding stories and the DC Pride story make it clear Tim and Bernard have been dating for months). It's a cute fantasy but it doesn't feel realistic for the failure points of the personalities of any of the characters involved (Tim, Steph, Conner or Bart), and Cass is once again just used as an adjunct to Steph, rather than someone who has her own independent relationship with Tim.

The art is cute, I even think Tim and Steph did need to clear the air on page, but...it could have used some more grit? Depth? Possibility of things going wrong or people feeling hurt? Less of an ideal fantasy that worked perfectly?

[nothorses]

For the sake of my question, I'm hoping wherever you're from, it's not ireland because I'm looking for an experience other than Ireland. I'm from Ireland (the capital city specifically) and we have pride near the end of June every year. I was pretty excited to go, a Bunch of queer youth groups and things like that go every year. But...when I went to Watch the parade, it was....so bad? Not in quality, but there were an unbelievable amount of corporatations? And well hated ones too, AMAZON?? AT PRIDE? With a cute little rainbow logo, well that's nice... And there was SO. MANY. corporations. I for sure saw more people under banners that said shit like fucking Google more than I saw people I could reasonably assume were there for celebrating their queerness. It was just....fucking advertising. And this is why I'm asking you, I'm not really sure who to ask but really I just want answers from other queer people who've been to pride in their countries. Are the biggest pride parades where you're from like this??? Are yours full of companies too???? Or is Dublin just fucked??

I haven't really gone to pride since the first time I went some years ago because of exactly this. I'm in the US, the first pride I went to was San Francisco pride in maybe 2016? and I didn't even go for the parade; I just came to explore the festival afterwards. every single one of the booths was some corporation, and all of the food was like, super expensive because it was all controlled by one company running every food booth across the whole festival.

I've heard small town Pride celebrations tend to be a lot better for this, I just haven't had the opportunity to go to one. But you might consider looking into one of those; you'd also be supporting a Pride celebration & vendors who are less likely to be getting the kind of support that those at the big city Pride celebrations are getting.

I did also have a nice time connecting with the ace group that was there, and using Pride as an opportunity to connect with community is just like, generally very much in the spirit of what it's about! so maybe going in with some plans and intentions would be helpful as well.

[mpreg-consandvans]

Professor Todd Ziegler gets a level of authority afforded to very few professors. As the longest-tenured employee in the Math department and the employee of the college who's written the single largest amount of published research papers, you'd be hard-pressed to say he didn't know his stuff. All the professor-rating websites give him a 10 out of 10 for difficulty and effort required in his Discrete Mathematics courses, but also note that Ziegler makes an effort to connect with his students and help them understand the material. He holds office hours four times a week and a few particularly dedicated students attend every session.

One such dedicated student was Theodore Crawford. The studious undergrad had been pursuing his Mathematics degree with a particular fervor that stood out to Professor Ziegler, though it also helped that Crawford stood out in other ways. His particular style of dress, rigidly applied every time he stepped foot in public was a tweed suit and a pair of Vans sneakers, with perfectly coiffed hair. He attended all but one of Ziegler's office hours sessions for the two courses he took during sophomore year, and the one session he did miss, he apologized profusely for, blaming it on being hospitalized for an allergic reaction. Ziegler assured him that it was fine and he didn't ever need to prioritize education over his health.

At the end of his sophomore year, Theodore attended the final office hours session, after exams had been taken but before grades were posted. He was the only person in attendance.

"Professor Ziegler, I know I shouldn't ask you this until the semester is done, but would you like to go on a date?"

Ziegler almost fell backwards off his chair when the young man blurted that question out, but quickly composed himself.

"Mr. Crawford, I'm sure you understand that this isn't an appropriate request to make while I'm your instructor," Ziegler replied, straightening his tie, "I'm sorry, but no, I would not."

Theodore took the news in stride.

"Oh, okay," he said, expression barely changing, "How about I ask you again in a couple of weeks, then?"

"I don't think you're getting the point I'm trying to make, Mr. Crawford," Ziegler said, perplexed at this response.

"No, I fully understand that this creates an ethical dilemma and that it's against both the student and faculty codes of conduct for me to be asking you this. I don't really care, though. I know you're single and I've heard from Professor Jones that you and he used to go to Pride together in the '90s, so I'm pretty sure that you're gay or at least open to dating men. I'm gay and you're the most brilliant man I've ever met. I would like to see if I can impress you enough to give me a chance. I will maintain discretion in every way. I'm not stupid or naïve, I just think we'd be good together."

Ziegler internally cursed Professor Jones, who shared the story of how he'd met his husband - which happened to be at a Pride parade he and Ziegler had gone to - with the sophomores every year. Ziegler once again composed himself before concocting a plan to redirect this energy.

"My answer is still no, Mr. Crawford, but I'll make you a compromise: Be my teaching assistant next year. You're clearly an extremely motivated young man and you've excelled in my coursework. I am far from the most brilliant gay mathematician on this planet, but I recognize that it's very difficult to find people to look up to as a young queer person. I'd like to put you on a path that will help you meet and learn from other giants in this field who belong to our community. I will not date you, but I will be your mentor. Is that alright or do I have to make a report about this to the Title IX office?"

Theodore thought about it silent for a moment, chewing on the idea for a solid 30 seconds before replying.

"I'll be honest, Professor Ziegler, I think I'm still going to be attracted to you regardless, but if you're willing to let me have this opportunity, I'll keep that to myself. Yes, I will be your TA next year."

Ziegler offered a hand across his desk, which Theodore took and shook firmly.

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Through two years of being Ziegler's TA, Theodore Crawford performed his duties in a truly exemplary fashion. He was quick and accurate with grading, followed up with students when they were absent, provided homework help in the library far past the hours he was supposed to be available, and according to Ziegler's colleagues, maintained a near-perfect GPA with high engagement in all his courses, despite all his TA responsibilities. Through this period, Ziegler grew quite fond of Theodore. The fresh-faced boy had grown into a man, and was now sporting a full beard and mustache. He'd seemingly gotten over his little crush, though there had been a few times he thought he'd caught Theodore staring at him in quieter moments.

Still, Ziegler had kept true to his word and set Theodore Crawford up with other queer mentors in mathematics. He'd done a summer internship in data analytics for a gay dating app and came back gushing about all the gay informatics and data scientists he'd met, later privately confessing that he'd hooked up with a few of them, which Ziegler congratulated him on with a smile and a laugh.

It was now the end of his senior year and Theodore was set to be graduating with honors in a few days. He'd already gotten his acceptance into the Master's degree program to continue his work and a compensatory associate professorship to go with it. He stopped by Ziegler's office one final time, just before quitting time on the Friday before graduation.

"Theodore! Or, I guess I should say 'Professor Crawford', eh? Congratulations!" Ziegler said, standing to greet his teaching assistant with a hug, "Heading off for the day?"

Theo smiled and accepted the embrace.

"Yep, calling it quits for the day, but I knew I couldn't leave without telling you how much I appreciate everything you've done for me. Genuinely, Professor Ziegler, I can't thank you enough," he said, pulling back after the hug.

"Oh, please Theodore, you don't have to call me 'Professor' any longer. We're colleagues! I'm Todd, now, okay?"

"Ha, that's gonna be hard to get used to," Theodore said, tapping a finger absently against his tweed pants, "Um...well, there's actually another thing I wanted to do while I was here."

"Hm?" Ziegler queried, noting the tense bodily posture Theodore had assumed.

"I know we've come a long way in the last few years, but some things haven't changed. Todd...gosh, that's weird to hear...would you like to go on a date?"

Ziegler was rooted to the spot. He considered his best reply. There was...actually nothing wrong with it now. As of 20 minutes from now, Theodore was no longer a student, but a professor. He'd sampled the flavors available elsewhere and had come back around to where he'd started, convinced that that was the best choice he could have. Todd couldn't lie...Theodore was an attractive young man. If he wanted to have a consenting relationship with a colleague, there was no ethical issue to be had.

"You know what, Theodore? Yes, I will go on a date with you."

A grin overtook Theodore Crawford's visage, his brown mustache forming a smile of its own.

"You won't regret this, Todd. Seriously," Theodore said, taking on a slightly frantic cadence, as his eyes filled with glee, "I've been dreaming about this for three years. I will make this an amazing first date. I've got a reservation at that Mexican place up the road for next Thursday at 6:00. Does that work?"

"You made the reservation before even asking me?" Ziegler said with a smile, an incredulous note in his voice, "That's a little presumptuous, no?"

"Oh, I knew you would say yes. You think I'm attractive, but you care about your job and were worried that I was too young for you. Now there's nothing threatening your job and I don't look 18 anymore. I grew this beard for you, you know?" he said, scratching it with one hand, "I actually like it a lot, though. I think it'll be fun to feel our beards scratch against each other when we kiss."

Ziegler guffawed.

"You really do think ahead, Theodore. I'll see you at graduation and then at 6:00 next Thursday. Goodnight," Ziegler said, ending the conversation and giving Theodore a pat on the shoulder as he made his way out of the office, "And good luck."

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The date was as good as Theodore had promised. Better, even. They'd talked for nearly four hours, until the restaurant closed. Theodore was an open book, to an almost gonzo degree. He shared full details of every single sexual encounter of his life up to that point, which was an admittedly short list, but the exhaustive amount of information he'd taken down mentally made it feel like he was an old pro. He said he'd learned he liked to be on top, but that his prostate was very sensitive and could be massaged with a finger to make him cum faster, which was certainly not a discussion that Todd had expected to be having as he gobbled down some genuinely excellent enchiladas.

The real joy was when the probe of Ziegler's personal life began. Todd tried to match Theodore's openness and was honest when interrogated on why an intelligent, capable man like him was still single at the age of 66. The answer was simple: too much time spent buried in numbers, too little spent searching for a partner. He'd sowed a few wild oats in his late teens and early 20s, but college and then teaching had forced him to buckle down and restrict his social life. By the time he'd felt like he was ready to settle down in his 40s, he'd been granted tenure and was publishing the bulk of his many research papers on numerical theory. Aside from the occasional night out with Professor Jones and his husband, there hadn't been much going on for Todd socially in the last 20 or so years, let alone romantically or sexually.

Theodore seemed truly stunned at these revelations.

"Todd...I'm confused. You're so hot. You mean to tell me that you haven't had sex in two decades?"

Todd sheepishly nodded his assent.

"I would have sex with you right here on this table if it wouldn't get us kicked out. You poor man. Everybody needs love," Theodore said, reaching across the table to grasp Todd's hand for assurance, "I don't wanna pressure you, but I would love to have sex with you when you're ready."

"Oh, spare me the pity," Todd said jovially, waving it off with the hand that Theodore wasn't gripping, "I enjoy my life. Yes, I'm gay and yes, I wish I'd been able to have more sex in my life, but life's treated me well."

"So you don't have regrets?" Theodore questioned.

"I do regret some things. I always wanted to be a father, but the timing didn't work out for that. Getting to see Professor Jones and his husband raise their family was always bittersweet, because I never got to have any children of my own. That's one regret that weighs heavy," Todd sighed.

"I don't get why that's a regret. Surely, you could still become a parent," Theodore said, clasping even tighter to Todd's hand, "There's nothing stopping you."

"Oh, Theodore, I'm a 66 year old man," Todd chided, "What kid wants to be raised by an old dad?"

"Uh, me!" Theodore said indignantly, "My dads were both in their fifties when I was born and it was great. Being old doesn't make you incapable of parenting. My dads are older than you are and they're still loving life. Hell, my little sisters were even born when they were older than you are right now!"

Todd's interest was piqued.

"Your fathers, who are older than me, had a successful natural pregnancy?" Todd asked, for confirmation.

"Oh yeah, two full term pregnancies for my carrier dad, when he was 68 and 70. Actually, the first time was even an accident, but the pregnancy went so smoothly and they loved my little sister so much they tried again."

Todd marveled at the idea and transfixed as his world opened up to the new possibility.

"I can see from your expression that you're enjoying this concept," Theodore said with a gleam in his eye, "I know this is our first date, but if you're really concerned about being too old of a dad, I wouldn't wanna waste your time. With our genes, we could make some incredible children together."

"So, uh...which of us would carry it?" Todd asked cautiously.

"I don't see why you can't. You're healthy and I have a great sperm count," Theodore said with confidence, excitement rising in his voice.

"You know what your sperm count is?"

"Of course. I dreamed about being with you for a long time. I went down every avenue, including having my semen tested. Todd, if this is your dream, I wanna make it come true. Let me get you pregnant."

A waiter hastily turned on his heel as he approached to tell them the restaurant was closing, when he overheard this statement. Theodore pondered for a moment as his handsome former student sat across the table from him with an expectant expression plastered on his face, brows knit together in trepidation for Todd's assent. He finally made his decision.

"Okay, Theodore. Let's make this happen."

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When Professor Todd Ziegler returned from summer break, some of his colleagues noticed that he'd gained weight. Ziegler wasn't ever the picture of health, but this was now a noticeable paunch. No one commented on it at the time, as he began his semester with the assistance of Associate Professor Theodore Crawford standing in during lectures, never having abandoned his signature outfit of tweed suit and Vans Old Skools. Near the end of the semester, it seemed as though Crawford's influence had begun to rub off on Ziegler, who one day entered the classroom wearing not his usual beat-up old brogues, but rather his own pair of Vans Old Skools and a new tweed cardigan that covered his now-prodigious belly.

Crawford dutifully took attendance for the class as Ziegler began his lecture. After confirming the class attendance, Theodore scribbled a large message on the bottom of the sheet and showed it to Ziegler, who beamed and merely said "Very good, all in order."

The message read thusly:

"You look so cute in your new outfit! I'm glad those Vans feel more comfortable on your swollen feet. Love you so much. Keep growing our baby perfectly, like you have been."

[patoalonso]

[cis man and he/him] Welcome to Aurora Bay, [PATRICIO ALONSO]! I couldn’t help but notice you look an awful lot like [HARVEY GUILLEN]. You must be the [THIRTY-FOUR] year old [OWNER OF PINBALL WIZARD ARCADE]. Word is you’re [PATIENT] but can also be a bit [WHIMSICAL] and your favorite song is [PIANO SONATA NO. 6 BY ALEXANDER SCRIABIN]. I also heard you’ll be staying in [FISHER'S COVE]. I’m sure you’ll love it! 

BIOGRAPHY INCLUDES: cyberbullying

@aurorabayaesthetic

BASIC INFORMATION !

FULL NAME: Patricio Gabriel Alonso NICKNAME(S): Pat, Pato AGE: Thirty-Four GENDER & PRONOUNS: Cis Man & He/Him SEXUAL & ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: Homosexual & Homoromantic BIRTH PLACE: San Francisco, California BIRTHDAY: 18 June ZODIAC: Cancer RELATIONSHIP STATUS: Single HEIGHT: 5'8" OCCUPATION: Owner of Pinball Wizard Arcade / Professional Streamer & Cosplayer NEIGHBORHOOD: Fisher's Cove LENGTH OF TIME IN TOWN: 2 Years PARENTS: Gabriel Alonso (Father) — Living, Mirabel Alonso (Mother) — Living SIBLINGS: None   PETS: None

BIOGRAPHY !

Gabriel and Mirabel met as children—they instantly became friends with their big views on the world. Unlike the rest of the children their age, they wanted to travel the world and get out of their small town. They both dreamed of a life in Germany or Japan or Australia. Most people expected them to end up getting married and they were right. They started dating in their early teens and Gabriel proposed soon after Mirabel turned twenty. They saved money for a wedding, but at the last minute decided to elope—both hoping that they could get an early hop on the travels they were so excited to begin. The two made it as far as San Francisco before falling in love with the city. They decided to make the city their home, both finding jobs and finding a tiny apartment—the only thing they could afford—in such an expensive place. Only a couple of years after they married, Mirabel became pregnant and gave birth to a baby boy. He was named Patricio after his grandfather.

Growing up Pato was shipped back and forth between his grandparents in Mexico during the summers and his parents the rest of the year. He was a loved child, a bright child, someone who forged his own path with a smile on his face. Although his parents were busy people with their jobs, they eventually went to college and got better jobs—Pato was always proud of his parents and the work they did. They supported him in every decision he made—even if it was the wrong one. School was important to him and his parents pushed him hard in school. Although Pato didn't need pushing to be good in school. He was a quick learner and while there were disruptive, Pato was a particularly shy and quiet child, preferring books and comicsto his peers.

He was thirteen the first time he saw the San Francisco pride parade in person—and it was a mesmerizing experience for him. People dressed up in all sorts of costumes, bright colors, and a genuinely exciting experience. He'd nervously expressed his feelings to his parents that year and as always, they supported him, even going as far as taking him to pride celebrations. Patricio struggled being the only openly gay kid in his class, but he was a tough kid, and wore a rainbow pin on his backpack with pride. But aside from his own involvement with the community, Pato fell in love with the outfits people made and he quickly fell down the rabbit hole of costume making. He wanted to be as fabulous as everyone else he saw—be it a pride parade or an amazing cosplay.

His parents encouraged his love of sewing, buying him a sewing machine when he was fourteen. He designed his first costume at fifteen and from then on his love of cosplay only grew. Pato got a job at a local craft store, even if most of his money went right back into the store. His parents let him go to anime and comic book conventions where he showed off the costumes he made. And when the few conventions he could afford weren't enough, Pato eventually started his own Instagram and YouTube where he showed off his own creations. He felt more confident in a cosplay he made, knowing the details were perfect or near close to it. By his high school graduation, he'd earned a relatively large following online and had even started planning on entering cosplay competitions. He loved everything about designing, but when it came time for college, he decided to major in business—although he still kept up with his socials and continued make costumes.

At the age of twenty two, fresh out of college, Patricio got an office job in San Francisco and continued living with his parents. He wanted to save up some money to live on his own. Pato was miserable with his office job, but kept up. Cosplay and his social media was his saving grace, but he almost quit when he turned twenty five. He'd always read the comments on his channels because a lot of them were positive. But around the age of twenty five, a lot more of them became negative. People commented on his size, his sexuality, his costumes and it really started to get to him. He almost deleted his accounts until his partner told him not to listen to the comments, told him to stop reading all the negative comments because they didn't do anything other than hurt him. So he stopped listening to what everyone said about him and focused on himself.

At thirty, he was making more money from his social media than he was at his job, so he quit and continued making money with his own brand. He worked long hours and eventually that took a toll on his relationship. Patricio was sad about the relationship ending and to get a change in scenery, he moved to Aurora Bay. This past year, he decided to make another change and bought the arcade, honestly just looking for another place to connect to the community. He's still learning the ins and outs of running an arcade and keeps his social media accounts up and running. But he enjoys his job at the arcade.

HEADCANONS !

To be written

CONNECTION IDEAS !

To be determined

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hiiiiiiii we havent sent you any asks for some time. mostly because kanra didnt front much

[idk if you can recognize us after all the url changes]

ereyesterday our their of pissed suggested getting into an outpatient psychward and told us to think about it. and silver[headmate] made a post on the tumbler saying that this could be a bad idea because somewhat recently i made a hole in a wall and less than a week ago Lyra messed up a cupboard. as if we're the only ones who on occasion damage stuff when angered. this is literally so mean for no reason.

also. a few months ago shinra had an accident with a knife. and we got a fun new 1 inch long scar and possibly a little bit of nerve damage or something. and we were supposed to get some reminder tetanus shot around a month after that since i had no idea when was my previous tetanus shot. and i uhhhhhhh didn't get it since i'm scared of doctors, and it would probably seem quite weird if i went to a doctor about this now

also im sorta balding but. scared of doctors so cant do anything about that

last sunday i was in some social studies class or some other shit. and the teacher said something about how lgbt people were never oppressed in this country. which is a very bold thing to say as someone living in a country in which like a quarter of the area declared itself a "lgbt free zone" and only calmed down a little when the european onion told them that that's probably illegal. and i decided to argue with the teacher a bit. one of the things she said was that sometimes there's dudes in pup masks on pride parades, which invokes disgust and thus should be banned, and. idk why but i kinda expected teachers to have a bit more common sense than 14 year old twitter users. also i came to school wearing a spiked dog collar on a regular basis. [for reasons unrelated to kink.]

well. good thing i'm failing every single one of my classes lmao. at least i won't be invoking disgust in fragile old ladies

also. i just met a doggy and he was very niceys. very soft and friendly. and polite also.

- toby

HOW COULD I NOT RECOGNIZE U MY BESTIE IN CHRIST <3 u changed ur url a binch of times but ur icon remained the same sdlfndnfkjsnsdf so i was able to keep track!

i however do not understand a single word of that first paragraph. if u want my advice, DO NOT. FUCKING GO. TO A PSYCH WARD!!!!! idfc Who it helped, it hurts a lot more than it helps, theres NO WAY to tell which psych wards are good and which are shit. no really let me go thru them all rn:

REFERRALS: most professionals that work in different offices do not know each other on a personal level and may never hear of their bad stories. a doctor that was the chillest coolest doctor id ever met referred me to a psychiatrist that sucked fucking ass shit. there is no way to know for sure

GOOGLE REVIEWS: im gonna b real i dont trust some of those mfs. you seen the guys that go into psych wards? a lot of mentally ill people r internalizers and just accept whatever happens to them, and even if they arent, society looks down on the mentally ill SO MUCH that they could b told "you deserve this bc ur crazy" and due to all this societal gaslighting, theyd agree

REVIEWS ON OTHER WEBSITES: same thing lol

why is this so important? because you cannot Fucking leave a psych ward. an outpatient ward yeah you can leave, but ive been to both in and outpatient and they excert the same level of bullshit control over their patients. in outpatient, one of the therapist told me "you are not mentally ill" and made me cry lol. she MEANT to mean it in a "you're not mentally ill, you're ~suffering from a mental illness~ uwu dont let ur disorder define you" kinda way, but that concept was introduced in therapy..... two days after she told me this. like hello? and then she tried to spin it as like, it was a problem with Me i.e. My PTSD Was Triggered and not She Is Dog Shit At Timing The Explaining Of Concepts.

this place also invited my abuser into group therapy even after me incessantly telling them "this is my abuser, she will use all this against me" and yeah guess what she did immidiatley after lol

dont go to wards.

WRT THE KNIFE: damn :0 thats insane dude, hopefully the nerve damage will heal but from experience its gonna take like, a few years at minimum lmao. i had a Knife Incident involving my pinky and the nerve damage was so bad that i couldnt hold scissors w my pinky in the scissor loop thing but evenchually it got better but it took like 4 years. if the knife was clean and not rusty ur risk of tetanus is pretty low i THINK, do not quote me on this. if ur scared of doctors, look into if ur pharmacy offers tetanus shots! some pharmacies have vaccinations other than flu and covid (which i need 2 get lol rip) so u might be able to get one THERE and not see A Doctor about it!

u dont need a doctor for the balding. minoxidil my dear boy, its at walmart, its the stuff thats in rogaine. you want "minoxidil 5%" thats whats in rogaine, theres "minoxidil 3%" thats For Girls but idk ive never heard of anyone having a problem w it. IT IS TOXIC TO CATS THOUGH IT IS VERY VERY TOXIC TO CATS IF YOU HAVE A CAT DO NOT LET THEM FUCKING TOUCH YOU OR RUB ON YOU UNTIL IT DRIES ok? :) id google more if i were u but boom. problem solved. i am the doctor now

"dog masks invoke disgust and should be banned" babygirl disgust is subjective and like, someone could use that logic to ban whatever YOU like, or Are. maybe someone is really disgusted by lil old ladies bc the wrinkles look gross as fuck to them. should we quarrantine the grandmas?

also lol at the dig against 14 year old internet puritans and then surprise surprise guess what happened on This Very Blog while this ask was sitting n collecting dust!! i gotta b on my best behavior bc theres a nonzero chance that The Feds will be looking at this blog (did u know u dont report cybercrime to local police and instead theres a form on the fbi's website? Well Now You Know!) and that goes 4 all of u too. bart please be good..... for the love of GOD please be good....... please tell me yall know that simpsons scene

also also yay doggy!! was it a regular dog or a dude in a pup mask? either way very fun n cool!!!

[a-step-in-the-infinite-finite]

Started my oc a few days ago so maybe this will help me think of things

Questions from @the-cat-and-the-birdie

Link

This is also long af so

Name:Quante Hollyberr

Personality: Mostly chill but can go from 0 to 100 real quick

Powers: smokey psychedelic powers. Also mind control

Earth: idk yet

Are they part of the society: no but they know about it and have been a few times

Canon events: accidentally killed his parents because she thought they were clones but then they came back as clones but the parents don't know they're clones

Morals: is a baby punk but believes the government should be eliminated and is an anarcho-communist

Looks: lean, muscular in like a you wouldn't expect it type way,has dreads, a few piercings

Fashion sense: changes every single day, they can't pick an aesthetic

Hobie and oc

Relationship in 10 words or less: pretty chill, platonic makeout buddies, emotional support bros

Dynamic: close friends who are emotional support and make out but it is absolutely not romantic

If someone asks "are you dating" the response is: not really

Fave way to spend time together: crafting with each other, going to protests in each other's universes, libraries, just vibin really

Platonic, romantic, sexual, secret 4th thing: Definitely secret 4th thing. Really just vibes but could also be queerplatonic

How long have they known each other: 1.5yrs

A song that embodies their vibe: I have 3. Intimate friends by Eddie kendricks. Kiss me on my neck and I'm in love with you by Erykah Badu. Not romantic still

Nicknames: hobie to q; short stack, mushroom/shroomie(bc of the shroom thing), penguin(fave animal) q to hobie; tall ass, silver(all his piercings are silver) eclipse( reminds them of one) what they both call each other; lovely, bro, dove, sweets, dude, moonlight

Sleepovers: pretty chill. Usually watches movies, doing some diy stuff, cuddles, blanket forts, blasting music (I've never been to a sleepover idk what people do)

When do they feel safest with each other: just being in each other's presence, sleeping, fighting side by side

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How'd they meet: hobie popped over because another version of doc oc showed up that wasn't from holly's dimension. They met Q tryna fight oc and it was kinda even so hobie helped zem out.

Did they like each other right away: yes

First impression: Q; omg they're so cool, I want their gender Hobie; they seem fun

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Labels: partners. Partners in what you may ask. That's for them to know and you to guess

Do they say ily: They say I love you but both of them also say that to all of their other close friends so they mainly just show it

Do they kiss: they kiss in public bit it's like quick. They also kiss their homies so it's just like hangin w the bros

Steal kisses or make out: they make out alone but the will steal kisses

Love languages: hobie; gift giving, acts of service and physical touch quante;gift giving, words of affirmation, physical touch

Monogamous or polyamorous: both of them are polyam.

Do they have other partners: atm q doesn't but hobie does.

Marriage?: nopes it's only good for tax benefits and hobie isn't even a part of that dimension

Kids?: do plants and pets count? If human that's a future problem

Do other people know?: the rest of the spiderband, and margo do. Also holly's close friends know

Fave date spot: a pride parade

Who liked who first: holly liked hobie first

Who made the first move?: holly

Do they consider each other soulmates: kinda

Hobie and holly are on a date somewhere, someone begins aggressively flirting with hobie and being mean to Holly. What happens: Q tries to get the person to stop and if that doesn't work hobie jumps in and tells them to fuck off

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Has q ever seen hobie hurt: yes. Hobie got stabbed and came to his dimension to heal since miguel doesn't really check there. Q was terrified and anxiously searched Google for what to do after the tightly wrapped bandages. It didn't do much so he convinced hobie to let him call his aunt who's a doctor. They didn't go to the hospital and hobie let her aunt do her magic

Has hobie seen Holly hurt: yes. One time Holly was fighting a clone and the clone like grabbed her arm weirdly and dislocated her shoulder but in doing that it messed up some nerves in her lower back so and she already had like random minor back pains sometimes so now hobie kinds just helps him out though that whenever it gets really bad.

Has q seen hobie cry: whenever hobie cries, there are 3 or 4 questions q always asks first. Do you wanna talk abt it, do you need space ( if no then the last question isn't asked), do you need water, do you want a hug/ to be held? They may or may not end up talking abt it later, it just depends on the situation

Has hobie seen q cry: q has like this thing with crying where he knows it's healthy to cry but also she doesn't want to be a burden and depending on the situation that she doesn't deserve to cry so hobie asks them the same questions and then they figure it out from there. Depending on what it is, most of the time q will talk abt it

Has one of them made the other cry: not like sad tears but "you are loved tears and I hope you know that"

Highest moment: holly took hobie to meet his friends so they spent a few days in oakland doing stuff like going to abandoned buildings, the curiosity shop, a pride parade, and dumpster diving at Stanford on movie out day for free stuff. Then they popped over to atlanta and went to a gay club and did some vogueing. Went to underground atlanta for a bit too

Lowest moment: whenever Holly visits her parents it's always internal conflict because she killed her parents but they don't know that so it's like "am I the bad guy, would it be better if they knew I killed them and disowned me" and it's a downward spiral from there

How do they feel abt hobie's laces: pretty chill with them. Admires that he's willing to go that far

How do they feel about hobie killing osborn: also chill with it. Wishes she had enough tenacity to kill a public figure

First kiss: like on the lips? So after a protest in hobies dimension which consisted of tickling fascists until they passed out and then literally blasting their eardrums with music, they buried the bodies in the community garden and then q asked of they could kiss hobie out of excitement

First time: they don't participate in coital activities together

Fav moment: the hangout in oakland and atl

Weirdest date/moment: they were out by the bay just walking around and feeling the birds and one pooped on holly's head but thankfully ze were wearing a headwrap because if that had gotten in zer dreads 🫣

Most angry at each other: they both have these moments where they try to handle things by themselves when they don't have to and it's like "why won't you let me help you I'm right here"

Most terrified for each other: for q when hobie got stabbed. For hobie when q got mind controlled by a device that found a frequency where their powers can be used against them. It almost made her kill himself

What incorrect quote is their vibe: it can be either one saying this.

A: I think an hour in the dryer would fix me.

B:*stops folding clothes and stares at them*

A:*leaves the room*

B: What the fuck- Don't just walk away after saying shit like that!

B:And you're wrong! A rinse in the dishwasher is what you need!

One wants to give the other a surprise what do they do: they're both ok at keeping secrets but hobie is better than holly at it. Holly tries to get information he needs first which usually consists of him asking hobie hypothetical questions a few days at a time. Hobie tries to pry for more info but isn't successful most of the time. Holly rarely suspects when hobie is surprising them but when she does have a clue she tries to get her to let him guess what it is. Hobie doesn't tell em whether or not they get it.

How do they annoy each other: quante will constantly try to jump on hobies back while walking, will poke his arm repeatedly, will ask what they're doing when it's fairly obvious. Will bite hobie randomly. She will bite back. Hobie annoys q by resting her chin on their head while they're standing, will put his full body weight on him with no warning. Will randomly tickle them. Both of them will copy what the other is saying for hours at a time

One HAS to ne sacrificed who us It and how does the other react: ok so quante (depending on the time of day) is either terrified of death or like I can't wait. It's not really the after part zer worried abt, it's the transition part from not dead to dead. They're terrified of pain (ironic considering they're a spider person) but also they don't want anyone to be sad if they died. Hobie's like I really don't want to die but I will if I have to. If hobie died, q would feel guilty because it should've been her but she would also not do anything too drastic to herself because hobie died for her so he's gonna live for him. On the other hand if q died, before their death, they'd feel guilty for the pain they're leaving everyone with and selfish that they don't have to feel that pain because she dead. If it's a quick decision I feel like q would convince himself to do it before her brain talked her out of it

Accidental baby aquisition, what's happening: aw shit there's a child now. They will take care of it with everything they have. The baby also has a great community since it has the spiderband and q's friends. Hobie and q will hide this from miguel as long as possible. It's not that miguel wouldn't love the child but miguel doesn't know a lot about q's universe and they'd like to keep it that way.

Hobie is insisting holly give them a piercing, how does that go: holly has given herself a helix piercing and a nostril piercing and it went well ish. So when hobie is adamant that hollu gives her one she's like sure why not, first time for everything. It goes pretty well and only got infected once.

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What does q think of hobies music and do they listen to punk music: q likes hobie's music and goes to his shows. He always makes sure she has earplugs so he doesn't have hearing loss by 25. Meanwhile q had those like construction headphones because they have sensitive ears. They still go to support hobie thought. Q does listen to punk music, it's kinda just jumbled in w the rest of their music taste. But it's there.

What music does q like and does hobie listen to it: q will listen to almost anything as long as it has a catchy beat. The lyrics don't matter but if they're good that's cool. She's mainly been doing an exploration of black music so there's a lot of neo soul, afrobeat, afrobeats (yes there is a difference), funk, punk, disco, hip hop, r&b, jazz, hyperpop. Hobie's chill with most of them but she vibes with the neo soul, afrobeat, punk, funk, disco, and jazz.

Does Holly make music and does he make it with hobie: holly writes songs occasionally that they never finish. But they will help hobie with some songs or will ask them for input on a song

Any exes on either side: hobie yes, holly no

Political ideology and do they agree with hobie: after learning what anarcho-communism is and how there are better solutions than the system in place, she started doing a deep dive and hobie helped him with some research. So they agree with hobie

What's something hobie and quante disagree on: hobie isn't really a big fan of organized religion amd quante is Christian so sometimes they get into disagreements about that. Of course hobie is like respectful but thay doesn't mean they agree

Do they argue and what's that like: they don't really argue over like important things but they will have little arguments about q's music taste sometimes

How do they get over disagreements: they take some time away from each other to gather their thoughts, then they come back and try to work things out

Fave personality trait about the other: holly likes hobie's confidence and how she isnt afraid to just be. Hobie likes how easily holly can adjust to whatever's going on

Least fav personality trait about the other: hobie doesn't like how q automatically tries to blend in to situations and mirror other people. It's not a conscious thing and most of the time q doesn't even realize he's doing it. Q doesn't like how stubborn hobie is.

How do they make each other laugh: holly is a really easy person to make laugh. He'll laugh at a bug falling off the wall. It takes a bit more work to make hobie laugh. One thing they'll both do it try to mimic each other's accents terribly. Holly is horrid at mimicking hobie's accent and hobie can't get the flow of an Atlanta accent

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Are they fine with pda or do they keep it private: it's mostly private but in public and around close friends they'll like lean into each other and do quick kisses

What are cuddles like for them: they will cuddle literally anywhere. The floor, check. The couch, check. A mattress in an abandoned building, check. Once cuddling starts it takes like at least an hour for either of them to consider getting up. Most of the time there's music playing but sometimes the silence of each other is enough

What are their kisses usually like and who goes for them first: at first hobie initiated them but once hobie reassured q that affection was ok she started going for them more than hobie. Most of the time it's just soft sweet kisses but there's an occasional makeout session here and there. Those are in private

Do they hold hands a lot: yes and when they can't they're always touching each other in some way

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What's a secret they keep between them: both of them like pineapple on pizza. Everyone would have a fit if they found out

What's something they know about each other: hobie knows about holly's frequent identity crisis'. They happen less often than they used to but only hobie knows the extent of them. Holly knows about hobie's self destructive tendencies and tries to help her through them.

Do they hide anything from each other: yes. They don't need or want to know everything about each other. Also, some things don't need to be talked about and surprises are cool.

Do they fear losing each other: definitely. Hobie is terrified something may happen to quante while she's fighting clones since he's not always the best at looking out for herself. Quante has emotional attachment issues so that coupled with the fact that hobie is a spider person and the society is jacked up is already enough to terrify him

Have they ever broken up or lost contact: there will be periods when one of them just dips for a bit. It's no more than a month and most of the time they warn each other before hand

Do they playfight/playargue: definitely. At this point it should be added to the list of love languages

What's something holly can do that hobie can't: holly can hide in cabinets

What's something hobie can do that holly cant: hobie can jump to touch the top of the basketball square. Without spider powers. Like the top of the back board

How big is the height difference and how do they feel about it: hobie is a foot taller than quante and he always makes a point to bring it up. Quante is kinds used to it by now since his brother has been doing the same thing ever since he was a centimeter taler than him. But whenever being short cones in handy, she never let's hobie live it down

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How does q show he cares about hobie: info dumping is a love language. If hobie wants to info dump about literally anything, q will try to grasp as much as ze can and add it to the little information pile of hobie stuff they have in their head. Q will also just give hobie random trinkets they find on the ground or get hobie something because it made them think of her.

Something sweet q has done for hobie: had her friend teach her how to crochet a tiny dong so he could make hobie one has also gone into one of those pits at punk concerts where people like run into each other (I forgot what the pit is called) it didn't go too horribly

Has holly ever made hobie feel sappy: so after a patrol one morning holly was meeting up with hobie and on the way there he saw a baby pigeon. It wasn't in or near a nest so she loomed around for one and when she couldn't find one she took the pigeon with her to see hobie and hobie kinda adopted the pigeon and now he has a lil pigeon child. The adoption date of the pigeon is also the same as the day yall met. Hobie doesn't really keep track because multiverse time is weird and also time is a construct (does this count as sappy? I kinda forgot what it meant and can't look it up because I'm on a plane)

Does Q keep anything of hobie's around: anything hobie gives her, she keeps. Anything that reminded them of hobie they keep. Occasionally steals hobies clothes because it will be waaaay too big. Q is a hoarder, hobie amplifies this

How does hobie make quante feel: in summary, akskjejsjsjsudjshshshshdhjsjdjd. In detail hobie makes them feel safe and seen. They feel like they can just exist and not have to worry about anything. Being with hobie is freeing and calming and exhilarating

Does q have any feelings about hobie that they don't tell them about: hobie gives q an immense amount of gender envy and he constantly wants to steal his gender

How does hobie feel about q: hobie feels that q is a breath of fresh air. They aren't worried (too much) about the society around them so it's also freeing for hobie in a way. Hobie feels that the vibes are chill and there's no pressure to do anything the other doesn't want to do. It's chill, it's refreshing, it's nice

Why do the 2 of them make a good pair: both of them are similar in someway but I think their differences balance each other put and they each bring new perspectives

How do they make each other better people: hobie makes quante a better person by encouraging them to be themself regardless of what's happening around them. Quante makes hobie a better person by making sure he gets a freaking break. She has to remind them that rest is necessary and the world needs a not worn out hobie brown.

The plane just landed and this is very long lol so here are some pretty pics

Have a great day yall

[aspireangel]

Just because I was there in the park for a shooting eleven? Years ago doesn't mean that every time I go to the park there will be a shooting. I have been to events at the park since, so maybe I'm just anxious and paranoid..

So yesterday or maybe the day before I decided that I was going to go to pride. I reliezed that I wanted to go and there wasnt really a reason I couldn't. So I decided to go both days, see the concerts and the parade which I've never seen.

I picked out an outfit and figured out what I should bring and how I was going to get there.

But now I'm not going, I'm going to work instead maybe. Part of me still wants to.

I realized why I wanted to go and a few reasons I shouldn't. I shouldn't because it is dangerous, shootings, bombings, needle sticking etc. and all the weird stuff I would probably see, maybe running into someone I know and it being negative, pick pocket, sunburn, dehydrated

So deep down I want to go because..

I do want to see the concerts

I want to be around other gay people

I want to wear my outfit, it is the only place I can wear it irl. I want to wear it and be seen

I want to see if I run into or see anyone I know. Good or bad I want it.

I do want the experience of traveling up there and back and being in the park for a few hours around people

And also because I have a death wish.

For some reason I'm very convinced that something will happen tomorrow there. Like I said shooting etc.

Sure I could come out unharmed physically but I'm so convinced that it feels like a suicide if I were to go. If I know something bad is going to happen and I still lalalalalla just go anyway it's the same as swimming into the sea.

I have that same feeling I get that tugging feeling from my family to not make the death promising choice. Make the other safer one. Go make some money instead.

But the side of me that says didn't care about anything, never did, get me the fuck outta here, I'm done pull the trigger is the part of me that is tugging at me to go. Go see if something dangerous happens. If I stood face to face with a killer would I not say please shoot me now? If I wouldn't, I don't want to know about it.

So I'm not going. I'm making the safe choice, the choice that keeps me out of trouble, the vanilla I'll kill myself later instead choice, the choice that doesn't make me do laundry tonight, the choice that doesn't show me off to anyone, that keeps me modest and single.

If nothing bad happens Saturday maybe I'll go to the parade

[kinky-asexual]

Idk if this is weird to say, but I wanted to say hello as a fellow TMNT fan and Georgia resident 👋😁

I saw your mention of the Atlanta pride parade and as someone who is disabled and never goes there, how bad does it get? I avoid Atlanta at all costs due to the violence there daily.

Hi fellow Georgia TMNT fan! 👋 I wanna preface this, as someone who *lives* around the city, while there is violence, it is not anymore than what occurs in any other city anywhere else in the world. The amount is greatly exaggerated by people with something to gain politically. (There is also the fact that atl police have been shit since 2020 after Rayshard Brooks was murdered and a majority of the homeless shelters were forcibly closed). Atlanta is a beautiful diverse city with many things to offer, so maybe don't avoid at all costs *all* the time, give it a chance. ANYWAYS! Atlanta pride. I haven't been since I think 2019 was the last year I went and was solidified that I probably won't attend again. Not sure if things have changed but knowing how Atl Pride works, I highly doubt they have. It is mostly held in Piedmont park which is a massive public park in the heart of Midtown but it spills out into the surrounding area because there's a shit load of queers in the community here. While the vibes are immaculate, everyone was always super nice and there were great little artists booths and music and outreach happening, it was always weird to me how every other booth was some corporation or bank or what have you. Not to mention the amount of alcohol pushed onto people. Literally Svedka Vodka was like a *HUGE* sponsor so it was fucking *everywhere*. And while I don't think drinking is bad or anything, it was just kinda skeezy weird feeling how hard it was pushed onto people. Pop up bars everywhere and people handing out shots to draw you to spend $18 on a less than half full cup of vodka. The parade is a whole thing too. In previous years it was so fun and easy to watch, people would get their spots and respect boundaries. But the last year I went it was awful. Every float that came by was corporate. Home Depot, Svedka vodka, Chase Bank, Blue cross Blue Shield. Like I gget that they're sponsors and help pay for the event to even happen but when you make them *The Whole Show* it kind of outshines what pride is supposed to be about. The community. Yeah there were some groups and organizations marching, I don't remember a single one of them getting a big float like the sponsors. Even Stacy Abrahams had a float. And security fucking SUCKED! People were just standing IN THE ROAD. Previous years it was always a thing that you had to stay up on the sidewalk, but that year idk what people were thinking. I'm 5'2 so I always try to get a spot on the edge so I can actually SEE but some people just came and stood on the street in front of me. A security guard came by and like very gently motioned with his hands for people to get back up one the sidewalk but when they didn't listen, he just didn't try more, just moved on doing the same thing to other people in the road and also being ignored. I even remember people standing literally in the middle of the street watching the parade come at them like WTF? As for the counter protestors, they are usually kept in a corner by a volunteer group who hold big flower signs of all shapes and sizes up to block the shitty insulting signs the counter protestors have. But they will *follow* people into the park. I have been followed into the park by these people screaming at me that I'm going to hell, walking past security while they did *nothing*. I get that Piedmont park is a public park and you can't *not* allow people in, but if they can fucking police people having *dogs*, something that is allowed within the park ANY OTHER DAY OF THE YEAR, then they can surly police these people who are clearly there to harass. I wish more than anything that Atl pride would be better, would actually care for queer people that live here. But as of right now, all it seems to cater to is The Cis White Gay™️ image that is pushed onto the queer community.

[like-wuatafauq]

Trueee trusting people can be super hard especially when you've been hurt multiple times before. It's okay to be cautious and take your time letting people in. The ones who are meant to be in your life will understand and be patient with you :)

Also omg your native language is Spanish? That's so cool!!! I find that language to be really romantic

And don't worry too much about the English stuff. Being fluent doesn't mean you have to know every single word perfectly. Mixing up phrases happens to everyone, native speaker or not. Do you have a preference between the two or do you feel equally comfortable in both?

One time I was chatting with this British person and I was completely lost 'cuz they were talking so fast and their accent was so thick I could barely understand a word 😵‍💫

I straight up just left from the call without saying anything... HAHAHA

Thank gosh it was a group thing so they probs didn't even notice I was gone 😭

Oh and my pride month plans they're basically just to make more queer friends online and maybe chat more with my irl queer friends too. Tbh there's not a whole lot going on around here. I've never actually been to one of those big pride parades. Have you?

Also what's your pride month plan? ^_^

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Awe thank you :,) and I've been told I sound kinder in spanish or that I seem like a different person but I don't do it on purpose🥲 so idk what they mean but also even though I think it be romantic too, I've never used it on someone. As in I've never been with someone who I've spoken sweetly to in spanish not even my ex I was with almost 4 yrs, plus i didn't want to lol, i dont think i had that much chemistry with her to bring that out of me. Plus she wouldn't even let me play mexican music, honestly I never used my spanish around her unless I was translating, it genuinely made me sad cuz if I translated or spoke more in spanish to my family then my accent would stick she would say "why do you sound like that now, you didnt sound like that" and id say i cant help it if im switching my brain back and forth so I kinda just stfu now lol or I try to focus when I switch back

But yeah i prefer spanish and I think I'm slightly better at writing,speaking and word knowledge in spanish plus when I feel things strongly i genuinely have a hard time saying it in english so if i dont end up saying it in spanish i just get quiet. or if I get high or drunk I might completely forget I'm supposed to speak English I've done it to my bestie lmao 💀

Also lmaoooo you being like nvm and then leaving is funny af I should do that more often instead of pretending ik what the fuck they say.

Those sound like good pride month plans!! I need to see if there is events near me I know in the city there is but it's like 2 hrs away and about 3 to get to the major one where I think they have pride parade there too. Yes I've been but only once. I might just focus on at home things this month tho I'm currently out of the country 😅

[kanmom51]

I have been reading you for long time, what’s your opinion on nowadays jikook relationship? Did you notice the change? Do you think they are still couple? Do they maybe have now time off for some time to figure out stuff? Several months ago you did post that was quite popular where you made conclusion “TKK are simply not a thing, while JKK clearly are a couple” @ because Tae forgot that JK did 2 hour vlive (he even commented during it but simply forgot). Now Jungkook forgot or didn’t know (it’s unlike, I think he saw it maybe for bride second but just brushed it as if it was unimportant information in his brain) where Jimin’s new tattoo is. How is this situation different from what you initially thought about tk one? Isn’t the conclusion should be the same?

You seem angry, lol.

And from your ask I guess you are also sure that JK and JM are no longer together.

Funny how JK seems to have had his JM tattoo just touched up (just the JM, those two specific letters).

Before I get into JK’s Vlive, you ask me what I think the status of their relationship is now days.

My answer to you is that I think they are fine and dandy. I think they are as in love as ever and their long term relationship is as strong as it has ever been.

Seeing their interactions in LV, JK being super loud not only on his IG stories or his Vlive, but also during the concerts and the Vlive Hobi, Tae, JM and JK had.

Only to mention a very few of said words/actions/interactions:  JK’s “keep being jealous I’ll keep holding JM, blblblblb”, JK’s description of JM hugging him with a big ass smile on his face, JK’s ass grab, JK saying “love you” to JM (I do think he thought the mic was off and we weren’t going to hear that one, that it was for JM’s ears only, oopsy), JK’s heart finger for JM, JK carrying JM, their interactions, their utter happiness around each other.

And if you were maybe thinking something happened after they got back, just maybe, then you have the pre-recordings happening just days ago telling us just the same - they are still drawn to each other, their interactions still same old Jikook interactions.

It’s like every single time we don’t get to see them there is this wave of insecurity, and “JK doesn’t look at JM the same”, “JK isn’t all over JM”, “JK doesn’t live JM anymore” (funny how it’s always JK the one not wanting JM anymore, isn’t it?).  JM and JK are super private people.  When they are off camera they want to be off camera.  Not to mention, and I am sick and tired of having to mention this yet again, being a closeted queer couple in an unaccepting society, with a very negative climate at the moment (have you seen what’s been going on with the Seoul pride parade?).  But the second they are back in front of the camera they just cannot hide it, and every single time said rumours are proven wrong. 

So no, I don’t think there is anything wrong with their relationship.  They are, as I said, fine and dandy.

Now to the Vlive:

I haven't seen the live. And definitely not translated, so I'm living on what you are writing and bits and pieces of information about what was said.

Do I have to remind you that we are talking about a friendship tattoo, one that all of the members have had done or are going to have done?

One that so far both NJ and Hobi have shown us themselves!

And JIn also referred to his, almost showing it to us too.

As for JM, from photos it seems that JM might have had it done on his left hand...

He hasn’t told us though.

You say that JK "didn't know where JM's friendship tattoo is", but that’s not what JK said though.  As far as I understand JK mentioned RM’s, Hobi’s and Jin’s tattoos.  And then went “and where did Jimin hyung get his one again?”

So 3 members who have basically revealed their tattoos already and the fourth, JM, who hasn’t just yet.  JM who is a private person.  JM who will be the one to decide when and where to reveal it to us.

This isn’t JK’s story to tell us.  It’s JM’s.  And JK not telling us is him respecting that.

As it being a friendship tattoo JM isn’t hiding the tattoo from the others,  they know about it, he’s told them.  It’s not something JK would know about because of bf privileges.  

If we saw the tattoo already, granted by accident, but none the less, I can assure you that the rest of the members, all of them, have seen it already and know exactly where JM had it done.  Boyfriends or not, lol.  So even if JK was not romantically involved with JM he would know where said tattoo is.  Do you get that?  I hope you do.

Hence, JK not divulging where the tattoo is has zero to do with the question if they are a couple or not, and I do hope you’re not even hinting to JM and JK not being friends enough for JK to be one of those to know where JM’s tattoo is.  You aren’t, right?  Because even if you are hinting in your ask to believing they are no longer a couple, you wouldn’t be going down the path of them not being friends.  Nah-ah.  Nope.  

Btw JM himself kind of hinted to where his tattoo will be during the festa dinner.  Telling us where he would like to have it done...

At the end not the pinky, but definitely on the inside.

So JK not telling us about JM’s tattoo is not about him not knowing where it is.  This is about JK realising this isn’t his story to tell us, respecting JM and letting him be the one to tell and show us the tattoo.

Those are my thoughts.  Take them or leave them.

[queerlyhalloween]

"Why would you come out as non-binary"

Well you see! The way that our society is structured means that - even if I'm the most GNC person in the room - people will just guess a gender, either male or female, and then I correct them. Even, the most well-meaning of allies and, occasionally, even other binary trans people also do this, as such this is the little dance I have been locked into for the rest of my life.

Due to practicing mindfulness and a touch of self-love, I've realised that if I've been indoctrinated into a new group of friends it's good to get that out of the way early on: "Hey, I'm Adryn, I use they/them pronouns." As opposed to being misgendered until I dissacociate; because presuming people are going to immediately be assholes can drain a person a lot more than they think.

This has benefits for many reasons:

Means I don't have a miserable, dysphoria-filled evening

When I end up running into these people again (rural communities are small) they already know my pronouns

Normalises non-binary genders within the local community so the baby queers don't have to worry so much

Cishets or Cis LGB folk get to ask questions if they want, it can get tiring but two friends of mine are men in their 80s who would have been scared to ask people they knew less well and I've learned so much from them both :)

If folk ARE assholes about it then I know immediately and I don't have to waste my time on them ✌

Baby queers come find me in the pub ('cos word gets around) so I can help folk if they're having issues with anything

I went to my first pride parade this year and didn't pay for a single goddamn drink myself 😎

Now, due to my horrible transphobic mother this has been a slow learning curve of literally five years and counting. So it's a slow process and I don't think one anon in my inbox is going to change that.

In fact, I'm hosting another poetry event in an hour and a half and I think I'll wear a few pronoun pins 🎵

[queentheweeb]

Momo X Female Reader

A/N: Guess who's back after 3 months XD, ha

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Being a lesbian brought about many more problems than you were anticipating. For starters your dad was super supportive of you, he bought you cringy LGBTQ merch that you wore proudly because there were many children and adults still in the closet unable to freely express themselves. He made sure to go to every pride parade each year, made sure you were comfortable, and defended you against every and all homophobes. Hell, he ran a bunch of them over with his truck at one of the anti-gay rallies and it was only because he was best friends with the Chief of Police that he wasn't in prison. He made the news and everything become quite famous amongst the LGBTQ+ community. He became a spokesman at events and everything in between. Unfortunately, you couldn't say the same thing to your mother. She was one of those Christians that believed every single thing in the bible and would use it against you. You guessed her missing church on Sundays, and eating meat on Fridays just wasn't applicable to her. Neither were all her piercings and two tattoos and dyed hair. I guess it only applies if you're gay because 'God made man and woman procreate or something like that. You weren't too fond of the Christian bible anyway.

"Y/N-chan?" You were brought out of your musings turning to look at your girlfriend Momo. You still couldn't imagine how she ended up choosing you over men. Well, not really that was a debatable topic considering some men were okay. Your dad set the bar pretty damn high for what you would expect in a man so a lot of men disappointed you in the blink of an eye. 

"Yes, babe?" You grabbed her hand kissing her palm gently loving how flushed her cheeks got every time you did that. In the beginning, you used to also enjoy making Jirou jealous since Momo rejected her and, on one side you felt bad because rejections are always hard to get over but, on the other hand, you were happy because that means you had a chance. You took a chance and to your utter surprise she had a crush on you and that was the reason why she rejected Jirou. Fast forward to a year later during the second year of U.A the two of you were still going on strong with no sign of relationship strain.

"I was wondering if you wanted to go to the beach?" You went through a few emotions. One, you were ecstatic because you enjoyed going to the beach, two you were going to see your beautiful girlfriend in a bikini, third other people were going to see her but, that was fine since you were the only one that could touch and enjoy her. Plus, you can fight. 

"That would be nice! We are going today?" At her affirmative nod, you moved your face to kiss her lightly before pulling away. "I'm going to go get ready!" You went to move but, she grabbed your hand to draw your attention 

"I know you don't like bikinis but, um....can you wear the pretty yellow one? I really like it on you." She was too sweet for this world. You smiled gently nodding yes loving the way her eyes lit up with glee. You left her to go to your room to get ready. You took a breath and packed up your beach bag with a towel, umbrella, snacks, sunscreen, sunglasses, and some clothes. You grabbed other necessities, threw on your bathing suit underneath your shorts and shirt, and left. You made it downstairs seeing everyone was ready including Momo. You saw her talking with Denki and Kirishima. You didn't mind besides Kirishima was gayer than the rainbow and Denki was a pansexual mess. The only one you were wary of was Mineta and Jirou. You hated Mineta and you just didn't like the way that Jirou would still be all touchy-feely with Momo but, thankfully Momo defended herself and knew when to draw boundaries. That's why she was a Queen. 

"YOU WANNA FUCKING GO ICY HOT." You rolled your eyes at the shenanigans that always happen with the Pomeranian. That was the class cue to go. Everyone filed out and there were separate conversations with you in the back with Bakugo. Somehow, the two of you always ended up in the back. 

"So, when are you going to stop pussyfooting and ask out Todoroki." You side-eyed him quickly adding "Unless you want everyone to find out what we talking about I suggest you be quiet. Unless quiet isn't in your vocabulary." In a way your snark was to get back at him for being mean to people but, in his book that made you cool as fuck and he always managed to squirm his way into your presence to ask for advice, sparring, food, or whatever else. He will never admit you are his gay bestie. Denki would have a fit if he did and so would his pride.

"What the hell makes you think he will agree." At least he stopped faking 80 percent of the time around you. 

"Everyone knows you and Kirishima have the hots for both him and Izuku. The four of you would make the most chaotic poly, or quadruple, couple but still manageable. I wouldn't say it if I didn't think Shoto wasn't on the same page. He's just awkward like the rest of you." The little shit hissed at you but, said nothing but looked away. 

"You better be fucking right princess." That was the nicest nickname he has ever used on you, it had you shaken. You glanced over at him but, he refused to look back your way meaning the conversation was over. In about 20 minutes everyone made it to the beach and, it wasn't that packed. There were people but, the whole class was able to set up and get comfy. You chose a spot where you can get into the water and watch your stuff. 

"Come on babe! Let's go." You turned as Momo tugged you towards the water. You looked and saw she had that cutout neon pink swimsuit you loved. It had a plunging neckline and slits on the sides allowing you to see her squish. Yes, she was squishy and you'll be damned to let anyone say otherwise or make her feel bad.

"Ah man, if I knew there was going to be this many tits I would have come sooner." You looked over to your right and of course, it had to be three grown-ass men ogling every single woman. Damn you knew they didn't get any ever. 

"I love the big ones." You heard the second guy snort 

"Big tits, small tits, perky tits, saggy tits, what's the difference? Tits are tits." You were still disgusted even though he didn't discriminate. You looked forward back to the Ocean to see Momo coming back towards you looking upset. It had to be Mineta. You looked behind her and saw Shoji tossing Mineta back and forth with the other taking turns to dunk him. You knew it. 

"Look at the size of them on her. Holy shit." You felt a vein on your neck appear and an eye twitch. Momo moves your beautiful ass quicker. 

"Baby, you would not believe what the hell just happened-" Before she can finish you both turned at the sound of gagging.

"Did you just call her babe? That's fucking gross. What the hell can she do for you? You just haven't been with a real man, that's all. This is all a phase." They stepped closer causing you to activate your quirk. 

"Woah, easy there tiger. No harm, no foul. We are just stating a fact. How can a woman know how to please a woman? How you're going to give her children? You can't do none of that without a man-" You cut him off with a fierce uppercut. He was running his mouth so much he didn't even see your hands flying. 

"No wonder a woman wouldn't look in any of your directions. All you see women as are objects and breeders. Who the fuck raised you? Did your mom love you? Did your fathers love your mothers? I don't think so because none of that would have ever come out of your mouth. Be real. This is the future, women don't need a man that'll burst in 2 minutes and can't even get her off." You went to stomp off but through over your shoulder "SHE IS A MINOR AND YOU ARE SEXUALLY HARASSING HER." That got the attention of everyone around them and now they were being pressed. Good. As they should be. You kept walking towards the water and once inside you felt arms wrapped around you from behind. 

"Don't you ever let their words get to you. Ever. You're all I ever need. You help me emotionally, mentally, verbally, physically, and sexually. You offer so much more than a man let alone those pigs could ever offer...Besides." She squeezed you and turned you around with a smirk "Strap-ons come in different sizes and colors." Your jaw dropped as she sweetly smiled, pecked your cheek, and pulled you back more into the water. Whoever is listening to you, just know she was going to kill you.

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Hoped you guys liked it! It's good to be back as well

[hoaxsen]

| a/n: first time doing a fic on tumblr, heh. enjoy. :)

| word count: 1,519

| pairing: Ryomen Sukuna x reader

| tw: character death, and blood.

Curse. 

Demon. 

Abomination. 

King of Destruction. 

The Ruler of All Curses. 

He's heard it all, and has taken it in with great pride. A wicked grin on his face as he wrecked any kind of havoc he could. Most of it out of pure boredom. 

But that was centuries ago. 

Now he resides in his domain, in the mind of a young boy he's taking as a vessel. Since who else in their right mind would casually eat one of his fingers? This was certainly the best he could get, along with that. This boy, Yuuji Itadori, was probably the most compatible person he's come across. 

The rest died. 

Sitting on a throne of skull and bones, Ryomen Sukuna was lost in thought now. Taking trips back down memory lane that dates back to over five hundred years ago. Probably landing him at the age of five hundred years old, or maybe four hundred and ninety-nine years. Who knows? He doesn't care for the age, just the person that occupied his time back then. Before his fingers were scattered off to the winds, labeled as special grade curses. The most dangerous things deemed on the face of the planet. 

" Sukuna! " 

It was like he could almost hear their voice again. Playing aloud in the back of his mind, as almost if they were still with him. Vividly and clear, as if you were right behind him. 

" You did this to me! You are what they say! " 

Brows furrowing as one memory in particular started to play like a movie in his mind. His fist clenching at the thought, the leg that was crossed over the other started swaying back and forth. Black claw like fingernails rapping and tapping against his leg. He wanted to forget, but he also wanted to remember. The look of fear on your face that day, burned permanently into his mind.

It couldn't seem to ever leave him. 

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" My dear, are you going to wake up at all today? It's nearly noon! " 

A top and bottom ruby red eye opened to take in the appearance of the one disturbing his slumber. A slow sleepy like grin adorned his face once he saw, an arm reaching out to drag them down to join him in the plush sheets. Their resistance was futile, as all it took was one gentle tug in his own strength to bring them down. Four arms reaching out to cage them close to his chest. A hand in their hair, two around their waist, as the last one rested on the small of their back. The demon hummed contently, curling around his adoring lover. Their small squeaks of protest to get up was falling on deaf ears, a chuckle rumbling from the deepest pits of his chest. 

" What's the rush? Let me enjoy this. Leaving that wretched village behind, nothing is stopping me. " 

This was wrong, he was so vulnerable at this point. 

As their head popped up, with a pouting glare to meet his smirking features. Crimson red eyes clashing with e/c orbs, they had to be his favorite shade of the color. 

" Stop staring like that. It's weird. " 

" I might be a curse, but I know when to stop and appreciate things. " 

Though it seemed like he didn't stop enough to appreciate anything. His pride started to overtake his being, wanting to cause more destruction and chaos that the world has ever seen. Of course it didn't sit right with you, it never did. Never when he came back, sometimes covered head to toe in blood. Dragging in behind a new souvenir, the chaotic outbursts that came along with everything else. Tied off into some gorgeous, yet twisted bow, and handed to you like a birthday gift. 

" I can't keep doing this. " 

Stopping Sukuna dead in his tracks, a brow being arched to show his confused state. 

" Can't keep doing what? " 

" Being in love with a demon. " 

One, ouch. Two, what? Why speak up now of all times? You knew what he did, yet stayed silent with him the entire time. Like what the cursed man did was of any hindrance in this. It must be an off day, or clearly he misheard. 

Oh how he wished it was that. 

" Look at this! Look at you, yes you're a demon sent straight from the depths of hell. Yes, you do whatever it is you want. " 

Where was this going? 

" But I can't sit here and be apart of this! I was already shunned by my people for just saying ' I love you ', I've tried to ignore what you've been doing for so long. But I can't, Sukuna. I can't! You parade the innocent towns for nothing, not a drop of revenge, or anything against them. Just wake up one day and choose this sicking, maddening violence! " 

" Where is this goi--? " 

" I'm leaving. " 

It was quiet enough to hear a pin drop, all four eyes he adorned started to narrow and glare harshly at your figure. As if he was searching for a hidden message behind this. 

" Say that again. " 

" I said. I'm leaving you. " 

Like hell you were that day. This might just be a phase, something you'd get over in the meantime. What the humans would call these days, ' a misunderstanding between couples. ' 

" No. " 

" What? What do you mean no? You can't make a decision like tha--! " 

" No. You're not leaving me, you are to remain here. " 

His voice was increasing, he could remember the small hunted traces of fear in your eyes as he took his steps forward. Causing you to take a few steps back, which he had no care for. 

He remembers the screaming, yelling, breaking of a few small and meaningless objects. 

Though what he vividly remembers was, once being close enough, one of his arms shot out and a hand grabbing your face. Black nails gently leaving indents prickling into your s/c skin, his harsh words that soon brought tears to the colorful eyes he used to love so. 

Out of his fit of rage and this argument going on for how long it did, Sukuna's grip did tighten. Ignoring the protests of him hurting you escaping from your lips. Something just snapped inside of Sukuna, from angered yelling and screaming, to now just seeing red. Red was somewhat of a favorite color to him, how the blood drips from a corpse. Or how it pools from under one, didn't even matter who it came from. 

For this time, of course it did. That same red from the trigger for him to kill, murder, destroy all before him. Sadly, it was you. 

Nails digging into your cheeks, your hands on his wrist trying to pry him away was not enough. Weak against him, nothing against him, futile against him. It was enough to show the signs of prey struggling to stay alive once they know that they've been cornered by their predators. As his nails dug into your skin, blood started dripping along with the mix of tears from pure fear running down the nail. Coating it this coat of red with a shining clear. 

That was taken as another sign, go in for the kill. As all signs were evident and shown, Ryomen Sukuna did. The sickening crack of a neck being broken filled the air, followed by a dead silence as he came back to his senses. The curse pulled away, as if his hand was being burned. Your body hitting the floor with a thud, the culprit standing and staring right over it. No emotion on his face, no looks of being teary eyed or angered. 

This would be the first time Ryomen Sukuna felt numb and powerless. A first in  where he didn't know what to do, a first for everything there was. 

Nudging your body with his foot, Sukuna was not ready to accept the fact that he's done this. Quick to deny it and shut it down. 

Denying how the spark left your shining eyes.

Denying how the red blood that dripped from the small cuts in your skin was of his doing. 

Denying that you were dead.

He's never disliked the color red so much before now. It took years for him to finally stop lying to himself and accept the faults. 

He killed his love, and he knows it oh so well now. 

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Resting in his domain, still have not shed a single tear. Not even on that day, nor the next day after that, or the next day after that. Sukuna roamed around with the knowledge of him doing such a deed. 

What would it have mattered right? Your lifespan would not have lifted up to his, still. 

He had no right to take it. 

" Are you happy with yourself? King of Curses? " 

It was like he could still hear you. Taunting him, throwing him off balance. The one life he wishes that he didn't take.  Though, you can never change the past. 

With all the cursed magic running through him. 

Ryomen Sukuna sometimes wishes he could. 

[miko32]

Obey Me The Yokai Parade

Hi guys! Here is the different Obey Me fanfic following the Yokai Parade event. I just made this cause the event was quite boring and the plot story was too fast. I wanna make the boys fight over MC or do cool stuff like that. I'll be making this fic into four-five chapters. I'll also be including more Raphael into the story.

As Kristin and the boys walked by the festival, she encounter Raphael in strange behavior. The raccoon dog yokai may have more pranksters for the special exchange student.

Welp, enjoy reading!

Kristin stared in awe of all the festival yokai they saw from the balcony of their inn. As they walked through the road, the gentle yellow light from lanterns lit up, the lights from various stalls, and all kinds of yokai in a massive crowd. 

"Kristin~" Asmo called her from her daze. He wraps his arms around her shoulder. "Caught up in that tiny head of yours?"

"Ah, Asmo," Kristin tries to push him gently away before…

"Oi! Asmo! Get your hands off her!" Mammon scolded. 

Yep, there it is.

"So loud, Mammon! Kristin was up to her head again; I cannot let her like that." Asmo pouted at his brothers and turned at Kristin. "Not when we're in the middle of a Yokai Parade."

Just then, a group of yokai passes through the balcony with a rainbow bridge. Kristin gasped in surprise as a yokai-like frog, a pig with two legs, humans with three eyes, and many kinds of yokai passed through their rainbow bridge. Kristin wants to reach forward and grab them. When one tiny yokai, a yellow troll with one eye, stopped and stared at Kristin. Kristin gave a wave and a little 'hi' to the yokai. Then the troll yokai opened his mouth, stretching widely like an alligator. 

"A yokai tries to eat Kristin! Du-du-du-DUM! Levi to the rescue!!!" Levi jumped up to the yokai when a blast of winds blew the yokai away. It shrieks as it flies back up to his friends. They turned to Lucifer, who had conjured the wind. 

"Kristin, had I told you not to be friendly with the demons you had seen for the first time?" Lucifer scolded. 

Kristin pouts at the demon but ignores him. It's better not to provoke the pride demon. Not when she finally has the chance to see the yokai parade. 

A week ago, in a student council meeting, everyone was enthusiastic about two weeks off school after exam week. Diavolo had an idea for all the brothers and the exchange student to see the yokai parade. Kristin was so excited she shouted her dreams of seeing the parade. 

"I always wanted to go to such a grand diversity parade! Since I've watched "My Fox Friends and I are Struggling with Human Deforestation of Our Homeland, We Had a Plan to Scare the Humans with Yokai Parade, Will we Succeed or Not?"

Levi jumped from his seat. "Ohhh… it's the story about a fox yokai trying to save his home by scaring the humans with yokai illusion! Production by Bilbi studio! The greatest anime movies and series production! I have watched every single movie and series Bilbi has made. They even collaborated in making the Ruri-chan movie Justice in the Spout Land!"

Kristin shrieked and went to Levi's side. "I know! It was produced in the 90s but had such delightful characters and good pictures!"

Levi holds Kristin's hands in excitement. "The Bilbi production always has unique drawings and pictures. Ah! But! The story was sad; the fox didn't make their home safe." Levi tears up. 

Kristin cries as well. "I know! I was crying all the way to Sunday!"

They're both crying in the council room, exclaiming about the movie characters, and Kristin apologizes to the foxes. Lucifer had his hand on his face, shaking in disbelief. Diavolo sat still with a smile and turned at Lucifer. "Well, I guess we're going."

Kristin sings behind the screen while changing into her costume. She struggled a bit since she had never worn a Japanese dress. Kristin worked with her shawl. Is it a shawl?

"Kristin?" Lucifer's voice startled her. 

"Ye, yes?!" Kristin shriek. 

"...do you need any help?"

Kristin's eyes widen. How did he know you were struggling? Kristin scoff. She shouldn't be more surprised by every scheme his brothers had cooked for him. 

"Kristin?" Lucifer called for her again. 

"Um, yeah! It's just this," Kristin closed her mouth, wanting nothing but to knock her head. "Can you come here?"

After a moment of silence, Kristin turned and followed the slight shadow behind the screen coming over. Lucifer walked behind the screen. Kristin had to hold her breath at his costume. He looks so cool! Ugh! So unfair, God! So unfair! 

"What are you struggling with?" Lucifer asked. 

"Um, this, how do I?" Kristin showed the shawl, and Lucifer took it from her hand. "Eep!" She squeaked as Lucifer put his hand on her shoulder and turned to her back. Lucifer chuckled. 

"Don't worry, little lamb; I'm not gonna hurt you." 

Kristin growled over her shoulder. He loves to tease Kristin with her lamb form. Then she felt Lucifer focused on his task at hand. Circling the shawl around her waist, Kristin holds her breath as he does. Lucifer buttons the shawl on her back. The rest of the yellow fabric falls to her left hand. Lucifer gestured to the button on her sleeve. 

"Here, connect this to here," Lucifer said and clipped the button together. "And let it fall to your right arms." He stepped back and looked at her proudly. "There."

"Ohhh, yes! This is exactly how the catalog showed!" Kristin gave a little twirl. Adjusting her horns as she looks at Lucifer with her head held high. "How do I look?"

"Just like the dragon yokai. It's perfect."

Kristin blushes at his compliment and looks down on the floor with a pout. Lucifer chuckled at her reaction. Kristin tries to compose herself and asks. "Uhm, you look cool too. What sort of yokai are you?"

"A gashadokuro, a giant skeleton monster."

"Uuuuh…a skeleton monster?" Kristin giggled. Lucifer raised an eyebrow at her. "It fits you!"

Lucifer furrowed at her, scowling. "What is that supposed to mean?" 

Before Kristin could tease him further, the screen beside them pulled away. Mammon did it with an angry look on his face. 

"What are ya two do'in hiding behind a screen?!" Mammon yelled. Kristin rolled her eyes. 

"Uwoooo!!! Lucifer and Kristin! Behind a screen?!" Levi scream. 

"Levi!!!" Kristin shouted, stomping her foot. "Calm down, you two! Lucifer was helping me with my costume!" Kristin walks away to get away from Lucifer. She bumps into Mammon's wings. "Uf!"

"Kristin!" Mammon and Lucifer shouted for her; all that Kristin comprehended was that the two oldest brothers were grabbing her from side to side as she was off her footing. 

Levi squealed again with a depressed cry. "Uwoooo!!! Mammon and Lucifer rescued Kristin! While Levi stands here like a useless otaku he is!!"

"Leviiii!!!" Kristin yelled. She didn't notice Lucifer and Mammon glaring at each other and helping her stand on her foot. Kristin thanked them; she walked over to Levi and scolded him for downgrading himself. 

"Look who has changed into their costume!" Asmo exclaimed, walking into the room with his hood on. "Wow! Kristin, your custom looks amazing on you!"

"Oh, thank you, Asmo. I'm a dragon yokai. You must be a vengeful yokai bride?" 

"Yes! That's right! Though I don't know what the yokai is called." Asmo said. He then notices his brothers. "Oh! The same goes for the rest of you, by the way! Perfect fit!" 

Levi sighs and complains. "We're just an afterthought to Asmo, huh?" Kristin slapped his shoulder at his comments. 

Kristin looks at all the brothers in customs. "I agree with Asmo; everyone fits with the yokai they choose." She giggled as she turned at Satan. "And of course, Satan with his cat custom choice."

Satan looks away with a blush. "There's nothing wrong with that. I knew you were all thinking it. My yokai is called nekomata, a two-tailed cat yokai."

"It's a good thing they have a cat custom for you." Kristin circles around him to play with his second tail with a bell on it. 

"O-oi! Don't play it!" Satan exclaims; his face is still red. He didn't try to stop her from petting it. Kristin smiled and walked toward Beel.

"Beel looks cute too!" Kristin exclaim. "And the tail! So big and fluffy!" She grabs the tail and hugs it to her face, squeezing her cheeks with the bottom.

Beel hum in delight. "Thanks. The tail does feel nice. I can rub it anytime I want."

Kristin giggled. "It is; it feels like hugging a giant teddy."

"I wanna hug it too with you," Beel said with puppy eyes, making Kristin giggle and gesturing for him to join in. 

"Hey! I wanna hug with Kristin too!" Belphie scolded and went from behind Kristin’s to reach the tail. Kristin squeaked in surprised and giggled. 

“Oi! who said ya can hug her like that!” Mammon yelled and pulled Belphie from his tail. 

“Oww…Mammon…” 

Kristin gasp. “Mammon! don’t pull your brother like that!” 

“Kristin, Mammon’s bullying me~”

Kristin gave her deathly glared at Mammon. Mammon quickly held his hand in the air in surrender. “Alright, alright, geez! Just, don’t hug!” He said with a pout. 

Kristin notices Belphie’s custom. “Belphie, that’s a lot of ornaments in your custom. You’ll be alright when we’re walking all the way through?” 

Belphie groan. “It is quite a heavy custom. But I’ll be fine as long as you stay beside me.” he smiled at Kristin. She agreed and reached over to rub his ear fox. 

“Alright, everyone, we should be going now not to arrive late,” Barbatos said as he walked into the room with his lizard-like custom. Diavolo came in as well with a demon look. Everyone does like the yokai they represent. 

“Ah! Right! We shouldn’t let him wait any longer!” Luke said. Kristin wanted to comment on his bunny suit instead of a dog suit. But she changes it. 

“Um, there’s another one coming along with us?” Kristin gasp. “It isn’t a REAL yokai, right?!” 

Diavolo laughs. “Hahaha. That might be interesting. But no, it’s not a real yokai.”

Kristin let out a disappointed ‘oh.’ Barbatos smiled at the group and said. “Well then, shall we go outside and greet the final member of our group?”

Hope you guys enjoy that! I'll also post my mc in her yokai custom in the next post! See you in the next fic!