#also holy shit this only took me 90 mins

[brodorokihousuke]

hello i'm apollo justice and welcome to my stupid baka life

you cannot tell me he didn't notice. i mean come on. he even has the apparently very unique bracelet. does everyone in ajaa just desperately want to be a cryptic loser?

[ahiddenpath]

Life Update

Life chat beneath the cut. I feel like this one is a bit on the whiney complainy side, but it is where I am now, so I'm keeping it for posterity, lol! But don't read if you're not down for some whine and cheese xD

So I took the last week off from work. I was frustrated, because I didn't go anywhere- it was a staycation. We opted for that mostly because I was going to lose my gd mind if I didn't get some time off. I get 3 weeks off per year, plus a week closure around Christmas "made of" federal holidays that we do not get, so I try to optimize my time off. But... I didn't have the brain space to do anything, and also, as I tried to plan things... Holy damn, everything is so much more expensive than it was even like three years ago.

But now I'm further frustrated because I spent the vast majority of the week just doing damned chores and household projects. Like, I told myself I would stop doing any chores yesterday, but I still spent until 2 PM exercising and doing "a few quick things." The same thing happened today. I'm kind of in, like, a horrible sort of awe of how long shit takes, man. For example, it took my husband and I about 2 hr to take down a broken ceiling fan that was 30 years old and not very user friendly and replace it with a new one. It took me an hour with a hair drier and a scraper to remove like 2.5 cm of hot glue from a doll's head (holding her removable eyes in place) so I could send her out to be painted. And I spent 40-90 min outside for like 8-12 days weeding and doing some basic yard work to prep for a mulch delivery.

I'm trying to be more fit recently. I am, ah. A very unfit human. I think I somehow have not mentioned this in the 12 years of this blog, but... I've had a million surgeries on my hip and spent roughly age 6 months to 2 yrs in a body cast, then until roughly age 4 in physical therapy to learn to move around. I'm clumsy and can just, like, fall over unprompted, I assume because of all that. I don't have the full range of movement in my lower body, so doing physical things can be... Really daunting. I always put exercise and mobility training off.

And of course, it's starting to bite my ass, lmao. I recently learned that humans begin losing muscle mass in their 30s, meaning that weight training is essential. I also learned that using a machine to exercise (like an elliptical) is only good for cardiovascular health. The machine takes on a lot of the... strain?? Work?? Of moving, meaning you aren't working your body in the same way as when you just... Walk. It's meant to help you work out longer, so you can develop your cardiovascular system. (Incidentally, this is why walking and hiking are great exercise).

That's why I took on a lot of the gardening/yard work. I did clear out all of the weeds! And the way my soreness decreased over the days means that I did something good for my body.

But, like. The amount of time caring for your body takes is absolutely gobsmackingly unreal. Holy shit god damn! I've always struggled to keep the balls of work, mental health, creativity, physical health, and social health in the air, not touching on chores and stuff. The physical ball is the one I always put down first.

But I only get this one body, and the American healthcare system is a nightmare. So... Yeah, the priorities need to shift here. My foot has been hurting for a few weeks, now, and it happened last year after Japan, too. It's time to actually go to the doctor for that.

I am sensing more and more that I need to give less to work, too. That's difficult for someone like me to do, because I always feel a deep need to do my best with everything. But... Working this hard just isn't sustainable, and it isn't as if I'm rewarded over someone in the same position who does less.

I haven't had much of an opportunity to rest or do anything creative this week, despite being off. And I'm just as distressed by the fact that um... Just being gone at work from 8:20 AM-5:50 PM every day makes it impossible to do the tasks that built up over the last 3-4 years of being in this home. You know, sometimes people tell me, "But what would you do if you didn't have a job? I'd go crazy!" And I'm like- DUDE. DUDE! I could exercise, walk, work on house projects, and do chores all day every day for like three years and still have stuff to do! That doesn't even touch the personal projects and hobbies I want to work on.

Hopefully, I can figure out some kind of balance that works for me and is healthy. I wish you all the best, my dears <3

[candiedapplez]

I ask you all of the questions from that one reblog. Good luck/nf/j

Omg ok this will be a while then tehehehehehehhe im not complaining though!!!! Heres the questions so u can look at the questions and the answers!

1.this one is OBVIOUS!!! A-90 and Opheebop!!! DUUUUUUUH!

2.lighter. Ive never used a match before

3.ew no!!! I don't want buggies crawling in my room while im sleeping!!!! However i have before!

4. Aaaaaa ive never really gotten into that stuff so i cant really give an answer-

5. A really dark brown!!

6. Oops i did that again???

7. Well idk ive used both and they are both work really well! however i do think scrunchies are safer for your hair, i use normal hair ties more often because scrunchies are more bulky and yeah i dont prefer that, but both are great!

8. Six. I have six.

9.NONE! COFFE IS GROSS BLEEEEEEGH!!

10. Ofc!!

11. Does drawing count?

12. Good day!!!!! I havent cried yet so-

13. Not too long ago, like an hour ago actually. I had pizza! (Incase u were wondering)

14. HELL YEAH!!!

15. Nope and i never want to be 😗

16. NoooooOoOoO-

17. Nope i have perfect vision muah

18. I DONT WANNA SAY TEHE! (Sry)

19. Yea ofc!!! But they probably wont turn out good…

20. Soda…. Ive never seen or heard anyone say pop before….

21. Plushies!!!! I have a unicorn plush my old friend (we dont talk anymore since she moved) gave me for my 7th bday!!!! Yes i remember when, yes i still have it! And its in perferct condition!!! Also there was this one kid who ig had a crush on my and he gave me a basket full of stuff for valentines day and i still have said basket-

22. I have no clue what this means? I guess sensitive?

23. Love it!!!!!

24. Eating :] (and joking abt pushing each other off probably/JOKE/JOKE/JOKE/JOKE)

25. Aaaa i use all of them but i use lotion most so ig lotion?

26. Idk what to say for this one aaaaaagh

27. Like 5 i think? Ive been getting better with my sleep time!!!!

28. Not anymore, our school last year said we could take them off, however i was SO insecure about my face (still am, but not as much as before) so i would wear it every single day. If i showed up to school without one people got surprised. I stopped wearing them this year, however.

29. Hot????

30. THE FUCKING WATER BOTTLES!!!!

31. Theres a lot, i dont wanna get into it 😵‍💫

32…… is that a thing? People have favorite towels??

33. Hm my school took us on a field trip to a high school so we can see animals if that counts… (i have pictures btw if u wanna see them! We saw pigs, sheep, cows and bunny! I didnt take pic of bunny tho 😢)

34. LITERALLY EVERY SIX THE MUSICAL SONG HOLY SHIT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS (the only ones i might mess up on are aywd and idnyl bc aywd is long and i dont listen to idnyl often)

35. Pst!!

36. Only once! My username used to have a 0 between the words (Candied0applez) but i changed it bc it made it sound like i candied no apples… but i was originally going to be called caramelapplez but i thought candied sounded better heheh)

37. The friend i mentioned earlier i met first day of kindergarden, her name is Alana, and this other girl Maya i met before kinder! We met eachother at a park and when we walked home we found out we were neighbors so we instantly became besties! (We still are to this day but she lives 30 mins away so i dont see her often-(

38. All…?

39. Sometimes!

40. Ice cream!!!

41. Empty. Coffee is gross

42. Hahahah yt, roblox and occasionally twitter!

43. HAND IT OVER BITCH!

44. Myself/j fucking donald trump 🤮👈🖕

45. NO ☺️

46. Oh god i dont watch any 🫢

47. | v

this actually was to the other girl i mentioned earlier! Maya! I found baby pictures of us when we were in 2nd-3rd grade and i showed her today!!!

48. Never and i dont plan on ever!

49. Never tried

50. GO AHEAD I GET SO EXCITED WHEN IM TAGGED IN SOMETHING AAAAA!

omg that took forever!!! Gosh i dont mind though!!! These were fun questions! Aaaaaaaa i enjoyed that tyty!

[daisyvstheworld]

Day 18 - Jan 18 - Geneva

Je suis fatigué. Je n’aime pas Geneva parceque le francais n’est plus genial!

Lmao anyways I knocked out at like 9:30pm last night I was so tired. Girls were all in bed but people were making ruckus all night and then apparently this girl who checked out this morning was hand washing her clothes, like trousers and all and drying them on the radiator!! No freaking wonder it was so humid and hot in the room!!!!! Freaking crazy. The lady below me called her out but I didn’t hear a response. This morning they were making so much noise as they were checking out and the lady got up and slammed the door twice. Around 8, they all left and I talked to the lady and she was like this girl crazy. So glad they all checked out though.

I reluctantly got up and got ready and left for the day.. first stop the UN building and Red Cross museum. Wasn’t gonna go to either bc they require resos so I just walked around. Nothing too special lol. I got really hungry and tried to eat my leftover couscous but they shit definitely wasn’t good no more so I threw away. I ate some of my trail mix that I’ve been carrying since San Diego 😂

The buses are pure insanity in Geneva like literally every stop is like “connections with line 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 - ALL OF THEM” I’m like wtf is the point of this bus system???

Anyways, I took the bus from the UN to the Museum of Natural History. I walked by a cafe and I stopped in to order a croissant and espresso but she gave me a cappuccino with whole milk??? Ugh. Whatever, I chugged it and scarfed down the croissant before going into the museum. There were only kids in that museum and by kids I mean toddlers LOL it was kind of a cool museum though! I used the nice bathrooms too 😊

From there, I walked to the Tavel House, which is the oldest existing apartment/home in Geneve. It was a mini history museum - also free!! It was pretty cool but 80% of it was only in French so I didn’t get to see too much of it. It was pretty interesting though!

After that, I walked around the town and saw more attractions, bought some boujee chocolate (they gave me a sample and eh, they’re ok), caved and bought a grocery store sandwich, and shopped a little. I literally saw everything by 3pm so I was like wtf do I do now.

I walked to the museums near the university and realized that the Museum of Ethnography is also free! So I went to that and it was a lot of reading, so that took another 1.5-2 hours. It was cool, just also kind of weird knowing that this is a “collectors” museum of artifacts from cultures around the world. Some of the pieces, especially those belonging to indigenous populations, actually requested the items be taken down or returned, soooo “collectors” my ass.

Anyways, I finished my trail mix and relaxed in the lobby for a bit before walking to the Auberge des Sauviese restaurant to try to see if I could dine earlier.

The sun was setting and it was actually super pretty, the rays were peaking through the clouds and looked very holy.

I got to the restaurant and they sat me but they didn’t take my order for like 15-20 mins and I was like the 3rd party in the restaurant.. so I was like wtf..

Idk why but I guess I didn’t realize cheese fondue is literally just bread and cheese so that was my dinner 🫠 potatoes would have been 6 CHF extra which is insane so I just drank my wine and let the boozy cheese fill me up. I came here bc the reviews were excellent and people said it was the best place to try fondue. HOWEVER there were only really tourists there and 90% of them were asian which I thought was interesting. I mean honestly the cheese was fine but wasn’t like my kind of cheese, it definitely had a bite to it.. if that makes sense? I only give it a 8 bc the wine was really good and this kind old man also dining alone said “bon appetit madame” 🥹 but honestly more like a 5/10. Anyways, glad I tried it! Melting Pot is yummier LOL

I stopped by Migros to pick up a quick breakfast/snack for the plane, and head back to the hostel.

This hostel has been such a migraine. My wifi code expired so I had to wait in line forever to get a new code. French boys were SCREAMING and running around so I got stuck on the stairs twice bc these fucking incompetent boys.

I finally showered and packed up a bit before watching the hitchhiker murderer documentary. It was good, highly recommend.

[hazard-and-friends]

Month 11

What the fuck. Holy hell buddy.

The focus here will be catching us up with the missed months and then next month I’ll do a 1 year retrospective.

The last time I posted one of these was January 9th. In late February, we moved from FL to WA; at the end of the month we moved into a new, one bedroom apartment. In mid-March I started a part time job which I adore (running puppy camp at a R+ facility! in the next few weeks I’ll start teaching swims and puppy play groups!). So first we did a massive amount of prep for the move, and then we did even more prep for post-move things like “meeting my family” and “oh shit there’s hills now” and in between the two we’ve made huge strides on the cat thing.

The details!

Night time: We have completely stopped putting him in the crate at night. There were two reasons for crating to begin with: 1) We didn’t know where Penny wanted to sleep and didn’t trust them when we were asleep and 2) to create good sleepy associations prior to the plane flight. #2 is no longer relevant and a) Penny wants to sleep Up or in the bed and b) Hazard laaaaargely doesn’t care about her once the lights go off. So he sleeps on the floor, after a VERY exciting 4 nights at the airbnb where he got to sleep in the people bed with the people (Penny slept on top of the catinets cabinets).

Crate in general: I spent 2 months working on the plastic crate not being the actual devil, and he did end up being happy in it. But he’s regressed to thinking that crates in general are prison spaces due to the plane flight, so it’s all to the good that he doesn’t have to go in at all anymore. Regular crate training (for trials) is on the task list.

Medications: He was on trazodone through late March. For the flight itself, I started him on gabapentin (100 mg 3x daily) 24 hours before the flight, and gave him a double dose when we left the apartment. All of this was cleared with his vet first, consult with your own etc. No side effects and the gabapentin definitely helped--but he was still upset at takeoff and landing. One of the reasons I wanted him to see a vet in March was to switch off trazodone and onto something actually validated in separation anxiety. He’s now on Reconcile, 24 mg once a day. At 2 weeks in: No lasting side effects (the first 48 hours were a little weird), and overall anxiety is decreasing.

Anxiety in general: IT’S BEEN A FUN TIME Y’ALL. Because trazodone and prozac (Reconcile) both affect serotonin, he had to come off trazodone for 4-5 days before starting Reconcile. Which confirmed a bunch of things:

Trazodone wasn’t doing very much at all. 90% of the time he was unchanged.

He is WAY more anxious on car rides than anyone realized. Once off trazodone, he started whining continuously on the way out--the way back is fine, either because he’s exhausted, he knows we’re going home, or we’ve already been to the superfunexcitingplace.

Trazodone wasn’t doing SHIT for his separation anxiety, which was unchanged.

He was only slightly more reactive to the cat and no more reactive to strangers. Cool.

Now that we’re 2 weeks into Reconcile: Starting to see big improvements in separation anxiety (more on that later) and cat tolerance is back to baseline (ditto). Car rides are still chatty but rapidly improving. No side effects, still playful and happy and silly.

Separation anxiety: Over a month, we achingly worked our way up to 90 seconds of me gone, or 30 seconds of me gone if I had done one preparing-to-leave thing. And even that was unreliable. That’s not right, guys. That’s the big reason we switched medications. Because keep in mind that all of this is while Jo was in the room with him. Yesterday I left to run errands with no prep and he just watched. I love Reconcile. It took about 5 minutes for him to settle down, but still. Plan is to bust ass and get to 15 minutes with no pre-departure cues and then add them back in.

Cat: Two steps forward one step sideways. While he chases her every other day or so, there are no gates in the new apartment. Sometimes we close the door to the bedroom so Penny can be unmolested, but often she’s the one who wants out, and she’s finding more and more places to chill. Moooost nights Hazard gets tied (harness to longline to my desk) but that’s more so that we don’t have to be constantly watching. At night there’s sometimes scuffles, but those end with Penny wherever she wanted to be and Hazard under the bed.

Weight: Vet had him at 44 lbs but he hadn’t pooped that day. He’s now on diet Hills SD, 1.5 cups, but he also gets around 100 pieces of treats a day so that’s surely impacting things. He’s looking better and better though--nice thigh muscles.

Formal training: I have completely jumped the shark and started teaching rally cues. As soon as the budget balances I want to get back to doing rally with Sydney’s trainer, and he’s picking up the basics really fast. Also, recall?? Is coming along fabulously?? Amazing. Love it when I don’t have to do anything.

I jest, I did a lot. We did a bowl game where I put him in a wait, put food in his bowl, then went to the other side of the room and called him. He had to come to me before going to the food, and that really helped recall click in a way that other games hadn’t.

Handling: After 11 months I admitted defeat and took him to the vet for nails. The vet tech’s verdict is that he sang at her but she got them done in 5 minutes so hey. We’re going back to the very basics and doing it to enthusiasm, not compliance, this time. Sigh.

Good note: I did teach him a chin rest and he now LOVES offering it. Amazing. Love him so much.

Stranger danger: the BIGGEST progress. In the last month he’s met both my parents, my grandparents, one of my siblings, and a friend. 6 people, 3 genders, aged 19-77, and a whole array of builds and heights. They’re all white but you can’t have everything. A growing theme is he’s much better in novel environments than in his home base, so probably we’ll be meeting people outside and then walking them in. But still, seeing huge improvements in his willingness to associate with strange humans and let them touch him.

Walks: 40 min morning/20 min evening, except for once a week when it’s a 50-60 min hike or sometimes we rent the field at my work... It’s hard to be a dog ;) Fitness is less his problem on walks than focus for that long, so the hike is actually easier for him than 40 min along a 35mph road. Still, we’re getting lots of nice perky behavior out and about.

[ginny-rose-sixx]

What the Fork? Ch 1

Story Summary:

Eva Rozlyn "Roz" Roberts accidentally time travels when she fiddles with her time turner while watching The Dirt. She ends up in 1981 in the Mötley apartment. How will the Crüe react? Will she ever be able to get back to 2020? Will Roz be able to handle their way of life? Will she ever be able to control the time travel?

A/N:

I decided to start putting my story ‘What the Fork’ on Tumblr in addition to AO3 and WattPad (11 chapters). I wanted to organize my writing some more. Since I plan on this being a very long book and I want to make it a series, I want to take notes on my chapters so that I avoid continuity errors. Also, if I find any grammatical errors that I missed I will fix those. With the notes and everything, I thought that I would start putting this up here as well. As time goes on, I may do alternate takes on chapters and stuff like that. 

Oh, and the title is a bit of a funny story. When I first was trying to come up with a title, I asked for my boyfriend’s help. I told him the premise of the story and a summary of the first chapter. The first words out of his name were, “What the fuck???” And I was like, “Ok, there we go.” Of course, I wasn’t gonna swear in the title even though I do in the story. So, I decided to make a reference to the tv show ‘The Good Place’.

Pairing: Not disclosed to reader yet

Warnings: swearing

Word count: 1886

Chapter One

Eva Rozlyn Roberts, aka Roz, was sick of waiting for her friend to pick her up. She was supposed to be going to her first ever convention. She was dressed as a Gryffindor witch. She started to fiddle with parts of her costume. First, she was twirling her Newt Scamander replica wand for a while. *Why on Earth am I still waiting for her?* Roz wondered. Roz put her wand up her sleeve, and she tried calling her friend Katy for what felt like the 100th time that day.

After the voicemail picked up again, Roz decided to start watching The Dirt again. She had lost track of how many times she had watched the movie and listened to the songs since the movie came out. As she watched the movie, she took out a time turner necklace and started twirling it in all of the different directions. *I wish I had never agreed to go with Katy. She always forgets about me or bails.* She dropped the necklace and started to braid her hair.

 About an hour into the movie, Roz had already braided her hair so that it hung over her left shoulder. Her hair was black and it had deep red highlights all throughout. When she started twirling her time turner necklace again, a faint blue tendril of light started twisting around her fingers and slowly working its way up her arms. Before she even noticed it, the light was covering the entirety of her forearms. She immediately stopped playing with the time turner and started to panic. *Time turners are NOT even real! I cannot deal with this. I just turned 19 and I have to move soon. Fuck! What’s gonna happen to Hope?* The blue light had engulfed her and no matter how hard she tried; she couldn't get the time turner out of her hands. The last thought she had before she blacked out was *I hope she’s safe and that I’m at least gonna go somewhere fun.....*

 *******************

 The guys had just finished agreeing on a name. Mötley Crüe was finally a reality. They kept drinking together and didn't pay any attention to the strange blue light emanating from under the table. After a few hours, Tommy exclaimed, "Dudes, the only thing that could make this better would be for a chick to be here!"

 After a pull from his beer Vince laughed and asked, "Where exactly do you expect a chick to come from?"

 Mick growled sarcastically, "In a ball of light ya dumbass."

 Tommy's eyes lit up with teenage enthusiasm. "Ya really think so Mick?"

 Nikki just laughed and said, "He was joking dork."

 By then the light had waned and then, all of a sudden, it flashed back out from under the table. It engulfed the Crüe and Vince screamed. Once the light was gone Mick was shocked. "Seriously, I was joking about the light. What the fuck's going on under the table?"

 Tommy ducked his head under the table and immediately popped his head back up. "Dudes, I can't believe it.  I think I drank too much! There's a fuckin chick under the table!"

 Nikki cackled "T-bone quit fuckin around! Is there even anything other than trash under there?"

 Tommy glared and pouted "I'm not joking. Just look for yourself dude!"

 Mick grunted in pain as he got down on the floor and saw the strangest thing. There was girl who was maybe in her older teens. Her sudden appearance wasn't the only strange thing. She had unnatural black and red hair that was braided. She was also in what looked to be a school uniform. She had a red and black plaid skirt, knee high socks, odd combat like boots, a black blouse, a dark grey cardigan with a lion crest on it, and oddest of all a cloak. Mick decided that they needed to at least get her out from under the table. Maybe wake her if possible. "Nikki stop your cackling and help me move her to the couch."

 "Fine, fine" Nikki said as he rolled his eyes.

 Tommy and Vince moved the table and Mick carefully lifted her head and shoulders with a grimace while Nikki got her legs. Once they got her on the couch, Vince decided to bail to his girlfriend’s place, "Sorry, but I'm not sober enough for this shit. I'll be back later."

 Tommy leaned over the girl and asked, "Where do you guys think she came from?"

 Nikki shrugged, "Fuck if I know. Wake her up and see."

 Tommy started to poke her in the cheek. She mumbled "...5 mur min mum..." Tommy giggled and then decided to poke her sharply in the side. The girl's emerald eyes flew open as she shot into a sitting position.

 She screamed and flailed her arms which resulted in smacking Tommy in the face. "What the fork? Son of a bitch! What kind of asshole jabs someone they don't know in the side? Seriously, what the fuck?!"

 The guys looked at her with wide eyes and then at each other. "Well Mick you're the one who said a chick would come from a ball of light.  What do you think we should do with her?" Nikki asked.

 Mick chuckled "Your apartment, you guys figure it out.  I'm gonna just drink more."

 Sitting up fully and looking around the room, the girl was disoriented.  "She's right here and she even has a name! She also wants to know who you guys are and where she is," she snapped at them.

 Tommy sat next to her on the couch and responded, "Well I'm Tommy, that's Nikki and that's Mick. You are in our apartment."

 "Well theirs" Mick said pointing between Tommy and Nikki with his bottle of Jack.

 "Now your turn" Nikki said pointedly to her.

 Roz nervously tucked her legs under herself and hugged her knees. Looking down at the floor Roz said, "I'm Roz, that's all you're going to get from me right now. I want to know what city I'm in and what year it is. I've learned from books, TV, and movies that fresh out of a ball of light you figure out where and when you are."

 Tommy's brow knitted and he said, "Um its 1981 and you're in Los Angeles. Uh I guess that means I should ask you; where and when are you from Roz?"

 She looked with wide eyes between Mick and Nikki before settling back on Tommy. "Please don't freak out," she said quietly. As she looked down at her boots, she mumbled, "I'm from Madison, WI, and I was in the year 2020. I was born July 1, 2001 so I turned 19 a week ago in my time.”

 Nikki snorted, and Tommy elbowed him before he interrupted, “Seriously dude?? You’re from the future AND from Wisconsin?? How the fuck did you get here? Also, why under the table?”

 “I have no clue Tommy, I was just messing around with my necklace and then POOF………” Roz trailed off and then stared wide-eyed at Mick, Tommy, and then fixed her eyes on Nikki. She had finally realized who she was with. “Holy fucking shit balls!!!!!! M-Mick Mars? T-Tommy Lee? …. A-a-an-and N-ni-Nikki S-ss-Sixx?” She continued stare at Nikki who, after a bit, narrowed his eyes at her before turning to Mick and Tommy.

 “How the hell does she know who we are?” Nikki wondered.

 Mick shrugged and Tommy laughed and said, “Wait dude, she’s from the future, right? We’re probably famous. Hey Roz is that how you know us?”

 “Shit, I shouldn’t have let that bit slip. This better not fuck up the space time continuum. I refuse to tell you guys about your futures.” She said wildly staring at Tommy.

 “Ok… ok… What should we do with her until we figure out if she can even go home?” Tommy asked turning to Nikki.

 “Well we can claim she is related to one of us,” suggested Nikki. “Hey Mick want a sister or a cousin?”

 Mick shook his head and chuckled slightly. “If she’s gonna be my cousin I wanna know her whole name.  So, lady teen, what’s your name?”

 “Seriously Mick? Lady teen? Ugh fine, my name is Eva Rozlyn Roberts. I prefer Roz though.” She looked between the guys and then around the disgusting living room. “So… um…. Where am I going to live? If I recall this place only has the 2 rooms and Vince and Tommy already share one of them.” She thought for a moment, *Honestly, I hope they say I have to share with Vince and Tommy. Sharing with Nikki would be nerve wracking.*

 “Seriously dude, it’s creepy how much you know about us. You can share the room with me and Vince. I know Nikki ain’t gonna wanna share.” Tommy said looking like a hopeful puppy.

 “I guess that works. I’m gonna need something other than my costume to wear guys. I can’t always walk around LA dressed as a character from Harry Potter.” Roz said.

 “Wait who’s this Harry guy?” Nikki asked frowning.

 Roz giggled, “He’s the main character from a series of books that started in the late 90’s. He is a wizard and goes to a magical boarding school. It’s my favorite series of books ever. Right now, I’m wearing the Gryffindor version of the Hogwarts uniform. I also have a time turner necklace and a replica of Newt Scamander’s wand.”

 Mick rolled his eyes, “ So let me get this straight. You just decided to dress like a wizarding school girl and then play with magical objects?”

 Roz’s face clouded over, “Well I was supposed to be going to a convention with my friend Katy. Bitch never actually picked me up. I was fiddling around with the time turner necklace while watching a movie. Then I was in a blue light and passed out. Seriously, magic isn’t real. At least it wasn’t until the time turner decided to spaz out and actually work.”

 Nikki smirked and asked, “Are you sure you’re not a witch? You’re already a time traveler. Why not be a witch too?”

 “Bro do you really think she’s a witch? That would be so cool!!!” Tommy turned to Roz and asked, “Do you think that your wand will work too?”

 Roz giggled, “That would be amazing, although I doubt it does. But damn is it getting late or what? Any chance we can go back over this after some sleep?”

 “Well Tommy show her to Vince’s bed. I think it would be hilarious if Vin came back while she was sleeping in his bed.” Nikki says lighting up a cigarette.

 Tommy turned to Roz, “I should have some sweatpants and a shirt for you to wear.”

 “Tommy I hope you’ve got some workout shorts because your legs are way to long,” Roz said as she followed Tommy. Tommy handed her some shorts and a t-shirt and pointed out Vince’s bed. “Thanks Tommy.”

  After Tommy left the room Roz shut the door and changed. She folded her clothes and stuffed them in the pillowcase, and she still wore the time turner and kept the wand in its sheath on her forearm. She laid down and her last thought before sleep claimed her was of how strange this all is.

[fizzingwizard]

so Digimon Adventure 2020... excuse me but OH YESSSS!!

^btw why does yamato look so angry when he eats popsicles

I haven’t read anything other people have said about it yet so this is all just my own take. Pics, observations, but mainly SQUEEEE under the cut.

(Part 1 of 2 because I took too many screenshots xP)

The animation y’all... y’all. It’s so niiiice. I mean, it’s choppy here and there, we’re still talking about a kids’ show and not a Shinkai movie. I love that they preserved the original art style! Idk much about what else is out there so many other kids’ anime blow it out of the water, but I was drooling over the fact that the characters’ pupils remain largely the same size most of the time x’D The 90s were crazy dude.

Although we do get this gem in the preview for next ep bawhahaha:

... but that’s next ep so I don’t count it xD

OK right first off let’s talk about my boy Taichi. Ep 1 99!Taichi opening scenes was him sleeping in a tree. 20!Taichi is dutifully collecting his things for camp. Clearly he is a far more obedient and responsible boy lol

(I appreciate that the house is the same!)

(Also look he’s got his telescope!)

btw what’s on this August calendar... is that takoyaki floating in the ocean?

... then his mom calls and complains that she’s lost and Taichi says “Well I told you to take lessons somewhere close by.”

HE’S ROASTING HIS MOM

AND. AND HE’S TALKING TO HER LIKE HE’S THE MAN OF THE HOUSE

20!TAICHI’S ALREADY A DAD... HIS OWN

(idk how far they’ll carry that in the future but while 99!Taichi was hardly frail or spoiled, this bit is still new to me. But if anything, it echoes the very first Digimon movie, where his mom just leaves and 6 year old Taichi cooks breakfast for his 3 year old sister all alone x’D i hope they keep this up. I been writing “dumb jock is actually incredibly useful at practical things” Taichi in my fics for years)

So while I was still reeling from that, the ep decided to hit me with unexpected Taishiro. I mean, I’d been warned about it, but still I was not expecting THIS. This is the Taishiro content I thirsted for throughout Tri but only ever got crumbs.

I MEAN LOOK AT THESE DORKS.

SO CUUUUUUTE I WANT TEN

“Yobisute! Yobisute! Oh god! That means we’re dating!” - Koushirou, probably

So Ep 1 has now decisively set up 20!Taichi as a Dad and an incredibly friendly guy. He doesn’t sweat Koushirou’s somewhat awkward approach. He’s completely at ease, and that puts Koushirou at ease. (Life lesson!) At least until he’s invited inside. “Um... shouldn’t you at least take me to dinner first?” i’m sorry i had to

Koushirou’s shyness is perfect too. It’s not hang-your-head, wish-to-be-anywhere-else anxiety. He is trying hard. He’s probably practiced what he’ll say the whole walk over, and it’s the pressure of performing it that trips him up. The minute he knows he’s not being judged or sneered at, he calms down. Of course, it’s not till he’s back in his element (computers) that he’s completely himself.

Who couldn’t love this scowl of determination:

So Koushirou in this world Knows Everything. It all feels a little fast... but that’s kids TV for you. It’s also Koushirou’s Cool Factor, like Taichi’s unnatural Bravery and Gravity-Defying Agility. (I’m referring to his hair.)

... Koushirou’s also more responsible than is natural for a boy his age. X’D What’s poor Jou even going to have to do when he shows up if everyone takes over his role as Team Rememberer of the Toilet Paper?

The way Taichi reacts to Koushirou’s being a genius - while the only realistic reaction, honestly - is so well done. Koushirou is so happy to be appreciated. Genuinely appreciated, especially by someone he doesn’t know well and who he half-expected to yell “go away nerd!” and slam the door in his face. If Koushirou was blushing because he was shy before, now he’s blushing because he’s overwhelmed with pride. He’s gonna get hooked on that praise let me tell ya

This is the angelic face that will haunt Koushirou’s dreams for years to come.

Being a kids show, the kids are much more proactive about dealing with problems in the world than the adults are. Wait, what am I saying, that is an exact reflection of reality.

They’ve known each other for 20 min tops, and Koushirou can already read Taichi like a book:

Next Taichi goes into Hero Mode. To switch on, he must put on his goggles.

And leap over a ticket barrier.

Koushirou: “Holy shit this guy’s Spiderman!”

Koushirou: “I wanna be Spiderman too!”

Ticket Barrier: “Try pole-vaulting?”

I just added this pic because his face is cute

Taichi races... somewhere. I am honeslty not sure where he thinks he is going, or what he plans to do when he gets there. Jump in front of his mom’s train? Let’s all die together as a family? As cool as all this is, I rather think he didn’t, uh, think about it at all...

He starts running up the stairs and glitches out.

“Kouichi! NOOOOO!”

tbc in part 2...

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

Late to the slapping discourse but I think another thing is, well, p much everybody, be they makoto fans or haters, despise that confidant, especially due to eiko hogging up so much screentime, so seeing makoto slap her was likely pretty cathartic

sfdjkhla I get where ya coming from anon, but sorry you just reignited this fury inside me again I’mma just rant (not at you, just at the void that is tumblr, I’m just mad and I have more to say about this topic apparently laskfdj;af Just know you didn’t do anything wrong, but your ask did make me think of something new so yay!). Tho tbh, I’ve seen other Mako haters hate that she slaps Eiko for my similar reasons (aka Mako is a pretty bad person who gets away with some bad shit because she’s an main character and we need to be “on her side”). But I don’t think that slap should’ve been viewed as cathartic (tho I get WHY people do), or the fact that it is showcases a big (writing) problem.

(also sorry this is all over the place, I’m writing it very quickly, while quickly reviewing her CoOp, before I go to bed)

Y’all know I hate Makoto, and I think her CoOp is hot garbage, but I don’t actually blame Eiko for it tbh (I mean Ryuji/Anne’s are just fine with juggling other chars, despite having their own issues.....not so much are because of said side chars, it’s other things but again the side chars are juggled just fine with Anne/Ryu). I don’t really hate the char, I think she’s fine. She’s a pretty friendly person, maybe a tad airheadish but she’s not mean (at least she doesn’t say mean things without a reason). Hell I think she does her role pretty fine, it’s Makoto who fails to overcome flaws (mostly her hotheadedness and applying these new view points she’s learned). 

If the writers intended Makoto’s slap to be cathartic no offense but fuck those writers yo. Because it showcases Makoto really is unable to understand any other person’s mindset (at least in practice), does her own selfish shit, and gets rewarded even tho she hurt someone or failed to actually do the bare min to make up for shit she’s done (like the Kamo arc, sorry but you had her say it yourself writers “it’s not that I couldn’t do anything, it’s that I just didn’t care enough” your whole “adults make me do things I don’t want to/they are mean :(” bs doesn’t mesh well, you don’t actually resolve or address the flaw of that char, you just shoved responsibility onto someone else....with that something else isn’t really explored/expanded upon either). Basically, if that slap was cathartic, I think the writers failed....I mean they already did fail with them actually writing that slap in, but they failed at their theme/moral to boot.

So when I have Makoto, who’s CoOp literally starts out with her wanting to learn new perspectives (and you know, maybe kinda learning a little EMPATHY) it’s hard to argue she learned that shit when she literally is unable to do just that and slaps someone. As well as reinforce the fact SHE SHOULDN’T BE IN THE POSITION SHE IS IN (aka our planner/advisor/whatever). 1) It shows she can’t control her emotions (and if we’re gonna give Ryu shit, she def deserves it too), 2) she can’t come up with a gd plan to save her life (the best plan the PT came up with was the first dungeon in PQ2 and guess what? She wasn’t a part of it, gee I’d be shocked but....I’m not). 

It just showcases the poor writing ability of that writer. Makoto’s CoOp is about her learning new things about society and her peers she’s failing at, and ability to connect/understand the people around her....and at that freaking climax it just shows.....she didn’t learn shit. She’s been saying she did all CoOp, even basically says she understands why Eiko is acting that way, but what does she do with that info? Does’t apply it when confronting her and just reverts to bullheaded Makoto mode. It doesn’t matter what happens after, we don’t see her reconcile with Eiko, all that is off screen. In the climatic moment, she fails to accomplish the goal of what her CoOp set out to do....and she’s rewarded for it. She doesn’t realize why Eiko is upset, she doesn’t try to think of a backup plan in case her first one fails, she acts only on her own emotions in the moment. And no “her friend is in danger of prostitution so it’s now or never” is NOT a good excuse, you wanna know WHY? The freaking, change of heart part of the ENTIRE GD GAME! Any argument of “we can’t always use hear changes” goes out the gd window with like 90% of any problems we encounter when we can just go to the Metaverse (to even just interrogate tbh!). The only reason Anne/Yoshida work is because Anne’s we don’t know till the literal last second and by then it’s resolved itself, and Yoshida is dead set on fixing it himself! Makoto’s CoOp? No, that guy should be bumped from “shady boyfriend” to “yeah this guy is now on our request lists holy shit does he fit our MO”

But back to Eiko, yeah it’s great Makoto is expanding her horizons, so glad she knows what a cardigan is~! Too bad, despite actually knowing her friend’s circumstance and possibly why she’s acting that way, Makoto doesn’t approach it with the level of tact that is freaking needed. Showcasing she’s learnt nothing, nothing from her past mistakes, not from “these new viewpoints I’ve learnt,” nothing from knowing WHY her friend might be feeling this way. She literally just does what she’s been doing. She just has the smoke and mirrors benefit of saying “well I learnt a new viewpoint” but your actions speak louder than your words. You didn’t learn shit. 

Wait....no I’m not giving Makoto enough credit, haha, you see she did learn something, at the beginning of the CoOp, and that’s actually not ignoring something shady going on. Unlike with the Kamo arc. My bad, so instead of seeing her bull her way through feeling “forced” to do something, we see her bulling her way through “caring” this time. But here’s the thing, that wasn’t her arc for this CoOp, her understanding other viewpoints was. She failed. Somehow she freaking failed. It’s a talent Makoto! It’s a real talent you have there!

You know why I think Makoto/Eiko thing pisses me off so much? I have a friend that reminds me a lot of Eiko. She’s nice, def a girly gal type person, as well as other things. She had just begun dating someone I deemed a red flag (not Tsukasa bad like selling yourself or that she was in any kinda danger, but still a “yeah you should know” kinda thing....like...I’d feel bad if I didn’t know about it and I was in her position kinda thing). And you know what I did? Did I take her out into public on a crowded street and yell at her and say you need to break up with him and when she got (pretty rightfully) defensive I then slapped her and got on my high horse and was like “I’m doing this for your own good! YOU  don’t understand MY position, what I’M going through, but you need to know what I’m doing is for the BEST!”? No. That never crossed my freaking mind cause I’m not a psychopath. I instead, took her out for ice cream, sat in a more remote spot for privacy, and reassured her of her emotions and own autonomy and that I cared and that I understand she cares about things and I’m coming from a place of good faith and I wasn’t there to attack her, and then I broke the news to her. You know what she did? She laughed, was happy I was a normal human being with some tact, said she wished another friend of hers did what I did instead of through text. Said she’d take what I said into consideration. She broke up with him a few months later.....cause he was a twat apparently, but our friendship was well in tact and strengthened. And I was barely a year older than Makoto was at the time, AND a super awkward honor student AND my friendship with her was about as new as Mako’s and Eiko’s (AND we were very much opposites like those two hell even more so).

I dunno, it just would’ve been so much more impactful if Makoto, instead of slapping Eiko after she called Mako a “bitch.” Mako stepped forward (making everyone think she’s going to be physical but instead it showcases Makoto thinking rationally for once), looked Eiko in the eye and said “What you think of me is not all that I am. And even if you hate me, know I still think of you as my friend and will be here for you for whatever reason. But I won’t let you throw your life away, not for this scum of a human being. *turns to Tsukasa* Listen to me asshole, I say this not as some honor student, but as Eiko’s friend. You will be delivered justice, and you will apologize to Eiko and all the other girls who’s lives you’ve ruined” to which we either get Tsukasa’s name via asking around (low key Ichiko could probably help), or by getting it from Shadow!Eiko in the metaverse. The next rank we see Eiko and Mako making up, and Mako explains how she’s more than just an honor student (basically the shit she says after she slaps Eiko), and Eiko apologizes for all the mean things she said in the moment and how she felt afraid or whatever other stuff they wanna add to deepen her char or whatever. And we have a theme kept intact, and Eiko even learns about new perspectives (as well as reinforcing this whole moral/theme to the viewer)....but we legit get to see this development for her, and we learn how to do it with compassion and understanding and not ‘slap to be dramatic~!’ bs (because then it comes off as like....using force to change someone’s behavior.....and like????? probably not the best message ESP for P5′s setting). You can dislike Eiko, but the CoOp technically became just as much as her arc as Mako’s and the fact we don’t see the resolution is poor. (btw the “how/when” it would’ve taken place would’ve been rank 9 still, we just wouldn’t rank up till the mementos mission was done, that or restructure the link but the former is easier)

So....yeah....maybe it’s the fact that Makoto’s CoOP belittles how teens can actually resolve these problems. Maybe it’s the fact we’re supposed to root for Mako’s bad behavior. Maybe it’s the fact when it came down to the wire, Mako didn’t utilize the knowledge she has been bragging about getting over the CoOp. Maybe it’s the fact she resorted to violence when there was another avenue to take. Maybe it’s the fact we never see Makoto actually hit a bad guy/aggressor (instead we have to save her from those) but instead only see her hitting her so called friends. Maybe it’s the fact of her showcasing flaws that she shouldn’t have (her hotheadedness and shitty planning skills). Or maybe it’s the fact we root for a “cathartic slap” in favor of doing what this CoOp is supposed to be: teaching Makoto AND the viewer about learning to see someone else’s perspective, and coming up with a plan that we never would’ve thought of to help fix that issue. Sacrificing a big theme/moral of the CoOp for something “dramatic.”

But I don’t know why I should be shocked, this is P5. Contradictions everywhere, in the lore, in the themes, in the writing, in the morals. Just. Everywhere. 

[staryuta]

happy birthday l.dh

summary: your long time enemy lee donghyuck throws a party on the last weekend of summer knowing that you had your own birthday party planned.

word count: 1.8k

genre: angst, enemies to lovers, enemies to friends

based on this drabble

for the first time in your 17 years of life you felt completely defeated. growing up knowing donghyuck was bad enough but as you grew up together, and grew more hateful towards each other, the pranks and jokes became a lot more painful, but this one felt like a million tiny pins had slowly entered every chamber, aorta, ventricle and atrium that your heart held. laying in bed you stared at the digital clock that sat on the table beside your bed. you watched as the clock turned midnight and as if on cue a tear rolled down your face. “not so happy fucking birthday” you thought and rolled over to sleep the pain away.

the next morning was dreadful and somewhat nightmare like. you greeted your family members with the best fake smile you could pull off and celebrated the morning of your 18th birthday. after a while your best friend, emma made an appearance but she knew, unlike everyone else in the room, exactly where you wanted to be. perhaps you wanted to be pinning donghyuck down with your hands around his throat asking him why, out of all the days he could of ruined, he chose to ruin the last birthday you would of had with your parents for a while, but you honestly were out of energy. years of pranks and comments and jokes that were slowly eating at your patience, hoping one day you would either win or he would give up but it seems, in the end, he won.

“we should just go” emma suggested.

“no. i’m not going there so he can celebrate the fact that he’s a dick right in-front of my face, i’m staying here” you replied

“he might not of known your party was tonight?” emma suggested, trying to make you feel better.

“no, he knew, his mom brought him around when she visited my mom and they spoke about it, that’s how they scored an invite” you corrected.

“so his mom is just gonna let him throw a party, tonight. of all nights?” she questioned

“what makes you think she knows? she’s out of town, both of his parents are.” you replied.

“so what i’m hearing is... he’s just a dick?”

“yep. pretty much.” you replied.

—

as the day went on emma left and your parents suggested a movie or a board game, politely declining with an overused excuse of “i’m really tired” you walked upstairs taking an actual breath for the first time today, but instead of just letting out air, your eyes fill with tears.

looking at the clock, the numbers 9:47pm are displayed in a vibrant red and you realise that you’re sat at home, on your birthday because donghyuck planned his party the same night as yours. it was at that exact moment that the anger and emotions took complete control of you.

you held the phone anxiously to your ear waiting for emma to pick up.

“emma! get ready i’ll meet you in 30 mins”

“oh god.. okay.”

you look over to your left and see your best friend with an exciting and equally nervous smile plastered on her face.

“are you sure of your actions right now?” she questioned.

“YES. i’m so done being his puppet so we are going in there and we’re gonna celebrate my night and he can watch me not give a fuck, he hasn’t won yet”

emma stares at you for a second as she processed the new personality you had taken on. until she finally replies,

“fuck.... okay, then so be it, what are we waiting for?”

walking up to his house made you shiver with hate, feeling your classmates guilty eyes on you as they remember who they threw under the bus just to be here tonight, you smile regardless, not showing anyone a sign of defeat, as if this was all part of your big day and everything was okay.

walking in felt even worse, of course the first person you see is the devil himself and you just drag emma to where the drinks are, taking a typical, cliche red solo cup and some vodka, pouring an equal amount into each of your cups and not hesitating to immediately drink the liquid courage.

“what are you doing here”

fuck

you hesitated for a second and even considered just ignoring him completely as if you didn’t even hear him. as you started to turn around slowly you could of sworn you felt your body shrink to the size of an ant. he made you feel like that, like you were so small and unworthy. his actions that night didn’t make you think anything less of that. in his presence you were nothing but small. finally facing him and meeting his eyes you saw true anger which surprisingly made you feel big, like you were winning.

“i couldn’t pass up on a party that i don’t have to clean up and some free booze on my birthday, could i?” you replied forging a smug smirk on your lips in an attempt to intimidate donghyuck.

“whatever.” he replied.

holy shit.

“shit... y/n, your fucking BAD” emma said with a laugh.

your heart felt heavy as you saw the people you considered friends stand in his living room and his kitchen and in his garden, on his stairs, his bathroom. in a way, you wanted to be the host, you wanted to clean everything up and try to shove everyone out when you thought your parents were gonna catch you and you wanted them too, so you could just be normal and have them yell at you for being a teenager and you just wanted one thing to be yours. snapping out of your daydream you realised you and emma had met up with some of her classmates and you slipped away to use the bathroom. trying to navigate through the loud music and his stupid big house full of drunk and potentially high people was difficult to say the least. you reach the top of the stairs and see a girl heading down the hall from the door on the left so you assumed that was the bathroom. assuming wrong and actually ending up in his bedroom, which was surprisingly well organised and decorated. in any other situation you would of left immediately but you needed the space to breathe and maybe even cry if you were being honest with yourself. that was until you heard his voice outside of the door, panicking you ran into the bathroom he had in his bedroom, locking it behind you. you heard him rummaging around until silence fell and you waited a few minutes until you slipped out and left his room entirely. just as you were shutting the door behind you, of course he had to speak up.

“so, you were hiding in my room?”

now he has the smug smile on his face and you rolled your eyes, full of defeat you just started to walk away not wanting to try to explain yourself.

as you pushed past him you felt his grip on your arm.

“were you crying?” he asked as if he was suprised

“no. emma gave me this new mascara and it’s irritating so i was looking for the bathroom.” you lied

“your not even wearing any makeup” he questioned.

shit

“please just leave me alone” your breath slightly faltering as you spoke.

“and why would i do that?” he questioned

“because.. because haven’t you done enough? for at least the rest of the night please leave me alone because i’ll remember this dreadful day for the rest of my life so please. 90 more minutes of my 18th fucking birthday, please just let me enjoy it, please.”

at this point you were basically pleading with him to let you breathe some non-toxic air and his silence gave you the opportunity to leave without caring about whatever bullshit answer he would give you. regardless of having your so called 90 minutes of peace, you knew that school was just a weekend away and that weekend was almost over. one more year of donghyuck and after tonight you only imagined his jokes to get worse.

after a while you started to lose count of the drinks you had the pleasure of meeting and moved on to shots.

“to senior year” everyone cheered.

looking around you realised you had lost track of emma, checking your phone seeing a text.

my dad wanted me home. see you on monday and for the last time, happy birthday <3

you smiled, feeling reassured that at least one person cared. but now you just needed to figure out how to get home, drunk and sad you lost the anxious personality you usually held so close and asked around.

“i’ll take you, come on” you heard a familiar voice say, and that was enough reassurance to your drunken state that you were with someone you knew and you were safe.

the seats in the strangers car were comfortable and you felt the world lift off of you for a second. seeing the figure climb into the drivers seat you start rambling.

“you know, it’s my birthday. i’m 18 today and it’s been so fucking boring. i thought my 18th birthday would be fun but it’s been a shit show. also donghyuck is an asshole i really hate him but fuck him right? i shouldn’t care right? well i do, i’m about as big as ant when he talks to me it’s fucking infuriating.”

you go on like that until the car stops at a diner, confused and lowkey kind of scared you look over to the stranger driving you home.

“get out, you need to sober up before you go home”

you get out and head into the diner sitting down in the corner while your anonymous driver orders two coffees. placing one of them infront of you and infront of themselves. after a while he speaks up again and his voice finally processes in your intoxicated brain and you groan, louder than you may have wanted to but expressing your feelings quite specifically.

“so you hate me?” he asks

“yes.”

“why?” he questions

“is that a joke?” you reply finally looking up but immediately placing your head back in your hands

“no. i mean i know we tease each other and we’re pretty competitive but i don’t hate you.” he says

“well i hate you.”

you spoke those four words like they were the most truthful thing you have ever said but even through all the disappointment and anger you don’t have the capacity to hate him.

“ok maybe i don’t hate you entirely, but i hate you right now. you ruined my big day, i was really happy and excited and you ruined it on purpose. and not only did you ruin my birthday but it was embarrassing and it was hurtful.” you speak from your heart and mind all at once trying to read his face, waiting for an answer, expecting a sarcastic laugh or for him to not care at all and just leave you in this random diner.

“i’m sorry.”

that you didn’t expect.

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[krreader]

BTS reacting to you catching them watch porn.

pairing: bts x reader fandom: bts warnings: sex ; oral sex ; masturbation ; mentions of anal sex ; language genre: smut ; crack ; fluff

a/n: I went with the first one, because these kind of prompts are always so much fun for me to write haha. I hope you enjoy and thank you @gaijin-bangya for requesting it ♥

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kim seokjin

Sometimes Jin wished he was a rough lover like some of his band members. He wished he was the kind of guy to just pin you against a wall and fuck you like there was no tomorrow but.. that just wasn't him.

So when you had been teasing him all day long, but then ended up taking a shower and locking the door, he had decided that there was no other way but to turn on his computer and get rid of the problem himself, doubting you would let him have sex today.

This might have been about the fight you and him had yesterday and you might have told him that he would regret smiling like he had at that other woman, but come on.. teasing him like that, when you knew you had such an immense effect on him? That was just mean.

He was about halfway through the porn, when you walked back into the bedroom, a grin spreading on your lips at what you saw.

“Well, well..”

“I want to be embarrassed,” he bit his lower lip, his head falling back, “But I can't be right now..”

In that case..-

You walked over to his desk and casually leaned against it, watching him jerk off with a smirk, and only saying: “Please.. don't stop on my account,” when he slowed down his movements.

That day was the first day that something within him had snapped. Instead of continuing to jerk himself off, he got up and pushed you further into the desk, pulling down the towel you had secured around your body and smirking as cockily as you had only a minute ago, when your breathing hitched and a surprised look replaced your cockiness.

Yeah, he could be rough too if he wanted to be.. he could show you what you were doing to him and how desperate you had made him.

And from now on, bending you over a desk and fucking you hard would forever be a memory that he treasured.

min yoongi

His headphones were over his ears, so he didn't hear someone walking in. Didn't hear you walk in.

But you know, watching porn with headphones, while your back was facing the door wasn't exactly a good idea, not even if only a selected few knew the pass code to Yoongi's studio.

You closed the door as quietly as you could, even though you knew you should just walk back out and give him the privacy he obviously had wanted, but a part of you wanted to stay. A part of you wanted to hear his breathy moans. And even though you couldn't see his penis, the way you could see his arm move up and down gave you a pretty good idea of what was on the other side of that chair.

Yoongi didn't actually notice until the porn he watched stopped because it was buffering, and yet someone was still moaning.

His head whipped around like there was no tomorrow and he found none other than you leaning against his door and looking at him with hooded eyes, a wicked grin on your lips.

“Wondered how long it would take you to notice..”

You weren't a couple, but you also weren't nothing. There had been romantic moments, there had been sex, there had been talks about whether or not this would work.

But right now, he held out his hand to you and you walked over without a single second of hesitation to kiss him desperately as you straddled him.

Why watch porn when you could have the real deal?

jung hoseok

You heard it, before you saw it.

That famous fapping noise that signalizes when a guy decided to jerk himself off.

But because you really did not give a shit and because you and Hoseok have had sex for way too many times to be bothered, you walked into his bedroom with a grin, “Enjoying yourself?”

“Yeah,” he moaned, his phone still in his hand and not even slowing down the movements.

This is the kind of relationship you and him were nowadays having. So what you did, was take off your own pants and join him on the bed, “Sex or masturbation? I can't decide.”

“The porn is pretty good actually,” he took out his headphones and turned up the volume, “So let's watch it together.”

Masturbation it was then, with the occasional kissing here and there.

God, if anyone had walked in on you then, they would have thought you were absolutely weird for masturbating next to each other while watching porn.

But you loved the relationship you and Hoseok were having, so screw what other people were thinking.

kim namjoon

“Are you seriously watching porn, Namjoon?” you laughed as you closed the door to his studio, Namjoon quickly clicking around with his mouse a few times, before the window closed. He obviously didn't turn around, so that you wouldn't see his dick.

“Nope, I wasn't..-”

“Babe, if you wanted someone to jerk you off, you should have just said so,” you walked over to him, turning his chair so that you could see just how hard he actually was.

“You said you were tired earlier, so I didn't want to bother you,” he followed your every movement, as you knelt down in front of him and smiled sweetly up at him, “You don't have to..”

“I want to. Because you're my boyfriend, because I actually really like doing this and because I want to show you that those stupid porn movies and your hand won't get you to cum as hard as the mouth of your girlfriend does.”

Well.. that was for sure.

And you proved that only once more today, when he became a moaning mess and came into your mouth only five minutes later.

park jimin

You'd think guys would stop jerking off when they were in a relationship, right?

Wrong.

Jimin knew that you were on your way, but he was just so freaking desperate right now, that he needed to have his orgasm. So with his laptop on his legs and his hand wrapped around his dick, he decided to make quick work of it today and get it over with before you could be here. Especially because tonight was supposed to be a romantic date night and he didn't want to ruin that by asking you to jerk him off.

However, as fast as his hand might have been moving, it wasn't fast enough, because without bothering to knock, you pushed open the door and walked over to Jimin's side of the room with a smile.

“Hey hun, I'm..-” but you stopped when you saw him stare at you with big eyes, his laptop at the end of the bed, half-closed and his blankets pulled up to his chin, “What are you doing?” you narrowed your eyes at him.

“I.. I was sleeping.”

You raised one of your eyebrows, when you saw something pressing against the blanket that made it clear he had definitely NOT been sleeping.

Instead of questioning him any further, you simply walked over to his bed and pulled the blanket down, cocking your head to the side and licking your lips at how incredibly good his dick looked right now.

“You really couldn't wait, hm?”

“I didn't want to ruin date night..”

“Trust me,” you sat down on the bed next to him, your head lowering itself further and further, until you could press a kiss against the prominent vein on his dick, “This isn't what I'd call ruining a date night.”

kim taehyung

“I'm actually pretty sure that people watch porn because they want to get off.. not because they think it's entertaining,” you laughed as you closed the door behind you, your eyes on the TV screen.

“I'm watching this for you as well,” Taehyung blushed, but only just the tiniest of bits.

“For me? Why?”

“You said you wanted to try something different. So I'm trying to educate myself.”

“Tae,” you laughed, cutely, as if you couldn't quite believe he would do that. Then you turned off the TV and straddled him, “When I said that, I was thinking of basic things. I was thinking of.. I don't know.. role play or maybe even anal. I don't need what these stupid porn actors do. And besides, 90% of the time, that looks incredibly uncomfortable.”

“Hold on,” he furrowed his eyebrows, “How do you know that it looks uncomfortable so many times?”

Yeah, needless to say, instead of answering, you just kissed him passionately.

jeon jeongguk

You had wanted to surprise Jeongguk, had gotten some food and wanted to play Overwatch with him.

However what you found, wasn't him sitting on his computer already playing, but him sitting on his computer and full on jerking himself off.

“Oh my fucking god,” you dropped the food onto the floor, your mouth agape and your jaw only dropping more when he got up from the shock and you saw just how big he actually was.

“(Y/N),” he gulped down hard, looking down and then protecting his shaft with his hands, so that you wouldn't look anymore, his face bright red, “I wasn't..- I mean I didn't..-”

“Holy fucking shit, you're huge.”

That probably wasn't the response he had expected. He had thought you would tell him that he was disgusting (even though it was the most natural thing in the world), or you would laugh at him.. but telling him he had a big dick? What did that say about you? Were you, perhaps, interested?

Only one way to find out. 

Slowly, as if he was scared he could be wrong, he let his hands fall back to his side and when you let out a moan and bit your lip, he realized that he had been correct.

One second he was at the other end of the room, staring at you, while you couldn't keep your eyes off his penis and the next, he had you pinned against the door and was desperately trying to undress you.

So, you know.. all things considered, there were worse things to happen than you catching him jerk off.

[kathrynmjaneway]

Meeting Naoko & Kai at Time Lash III

So! The thing you may or may not have waited for! Just one thing beforehand – this is really, really personal and emotional for me, and I want to share this with you guys, but I’m asking you to please not reblog this. Thank you :)

Anyway! It’s been almost three week since Julia and I went to Time Lash and met Naoko Mori, Kai Owen and Scott Handcock (& a bunch of the DW cast, but personally, I was there for Torchwood). This is about my experience at Time Lash, but mostly about how I met Naoko and Kai (ok….. mostly about Naoko and the three hugs I got from her). This post is really incredibly personal, but I just had the best experience I could wish for, meeting them, especially Naoko, means the world to me – I’m explaining why in the post. What I experienced really shows why Torchwood, the actors and the fandom are so great and why it’s the best group of people. I just feel like everyone should know this and a reason why …. :’)

(I’m sorry there will be a lot of rambling…. I wrote this down over the course of a couple of days, because I’m so emotional over this. It’s also really kinda long, soooo *shrugs*)

We got up at around 6am on Sunday and arrived at the convention at 8am to be there when the convention opened.  We didn’t have to wait for long to be let in and get out convention bracelet thingy. The convention was really tiny and super cute! I think I heard something about there being only around 800 visitors during the weekend – which made so different than the conventions I went to before, and I loved it! We decided to spent the first hour or so in the main room and listen to the presentations there (which were both really interesting) and after that we went to check out the dealer’s room and where the actors would sit to give autographs (they had a Big Finish booth and we caused a bit of a havoc because they [german sellers] tried to sell us Aliens Among Us pt 1 & 2 and we said we already had those, but they insisted that they’d only officially come out in December – which is kinda true, if you want to get them from somewhere else besides the BF website, but they apparently didn’t know that haha).

So we just went back downstairs (yk, where the autograph room and the panel room was) and we’re standing on the stairs, not really knowing where to go, because none of the actors had arrived yet, and then SUDDENLY Naoko walked by.

I may have died a little. (She’s so beautiful?? And I think she smiled at me?? I wasn’t prepared??)

So that was that. (!!!!)

Fast forward a bit, about half an hour or so (because I think she had a meet and greet, so she didn’t go to the autographs immediately, and in the meantime I spent the first bit of my money on a Tosh action figure) (who would have thought), and we go check the autograph room again and there she was! Naoko was sitting at her table and giving autographs! There was a tiny queue, so we got in line for that, and I suddenly became really nervous??? Because I was NOT PREPARED AT ALL. You would have thought that I had thought about what I wanted to say to her, because this is a big deal, right? But nope, nothing. I was just so incredibly nervous.

What really kind of helped was that in front of us was this couple with their son, who was maybe 2 years old? And he was dressed as a mini Jack Harkness??? And my heart melted??? It was sooooo cute! (And Naoko loved it as well and even took a photo of them, and I’m probably lurking somewhere in that photo lmao). And during all that Kai Owen arrived as well and sat down on his table right next to Naoko and aah, Kai Owen was there!!! They greeted each other really cute :’) I can’t even really remember what they did, but I think Kai was teasing Naoko in some way idk? (I was a bit overwhelmed tbh)

Anyway! It then was suddenly my turn and I still had no idea what to say or do! I had Torchwood: Cascade with me to let her sign it and was sort of really holding on to it (boy, I was shaking), and Naoko was still kinda looking after the tiny Jack and then looked at me and went “Isn’t he cute?!” and I replied that he was, sort of, yk, going “!!!!!!!!” because I was talking to and standing across from Naoko Mori?!?!

And then she went and greeted me (“Hi!”) and she shook my hand (!!!) which was kinda awkward because I was so nervous and I was holding the CD case in one hand and the leaflet thing (that I wanted to get signed) in the other hand and I think she noticed how nervous I was. I think, she asked me how I was, but I didn’t quite catch it and was just sort of stuttering a “Hello!” and then she stood up and went “Aw, let’s hug!” and that’s what we did! (it was really really really nice) (holy shit)

She then asked again how I was, and I think I rambled a bit and said something like “Really good, now!” (and this was the moment where I really realized how nervous I was, because I know from past conventions that I tend to be nervous before I meet them, then am kinda cool and chill while I talk to them, as I’m running on adrenaline, and only afterwards really flipping my shit and starting to shake. I’ve only been nervous like this once before and that was when I met John Barrowman a few months ago – more on that as I go along with this)

I think I dropped my CD case or something when I tried to hand her the leaflet to sign?? (can you believe? Aaah) (awkward) (she was so kind)

And this is the point where I started rambling and as I said before, I didn’t have a clue about what I wanted to say, right? I had nothing. When I met John Barrowman back in July, I was on a mission. I knew what I wanted to tell him, I had planned for that moment since he was announced as a star guest five months or so before. That had been the moment for me [you probably know if you’ve been following me for a while. The prospect of meeting him gave me the reason and the confidence to come out, he was the first person I actually talked to and came out to in person (after I had only made a post about coming out the night before here on tumblr)], so of course I had been a nervous mess and cried, but I knew what I wanted to say, right?

Anyway – I start saying the first thing that came to my mind: what a great character Tosh is and how much I love her. And it just went from there and I found myself talking about how I haven’t been in the fandom that long and how Tosh is really important to me and that it’s because it means so much to see Tosh as a canon bisexual character, because it helped me coming to terms with my own bisexuality and coming out to some of my friends.

At this point I’m shaking and started to cry (which as I said, I kind of expected to happened when I met John, but didn’t think it would happen AGAIN) and Naoko then held out her hand and took my hand and held it. THE WHOLE TIME.

She asked about how my friends reacted, so I told her about it and how John was kind of the first person I came out to in person and that right afterwards I came out to my friends that I was at ComicCon with (ily guys ♥) and how nice and great they were about it.

She then asked really kindly if I had come out to my parents yet (I haven’t) and she was so nice and encouraging to me, that it’s alright and that it’s one step at a time.

AND AT THAT POINT I’m about 90% sure???? I got another hug from her (I honestly can’t tell for sure, even in the voice memo I made like 10 min after this all happened for some friends I already wasn’t sure anymore, I WAS A MESS) and I think before that? Or after? She and her assistant were searching for some tissues for me. I honestly forgot most about what happened in these few minutes because I was (still am) an emotional mess about this all :’)

But I remember her saying almost the same as John did back at ComicCon. “Those are happy tears, right?” (my answer was a very shaky yes, what a déjà vu)

And now she said some really beautiful things and this is the another reason why I really wanted to share this: She talked about how she and the others love “Torch” and that doing these events, because she feels like they and the fans “have this connection, you know?” and that this made it all so special.

(She said some more really beautiful and encouraging things to me and congratulating me for coming out, but as I said, I FORGOT most of it because I am still crying at this point)

At the end of our conversation I GOT ANOTHER HUG and I said thank you (probably not for the first haha) and she was so nice and kind (yes I really have to keep mentioning this) and she asked me she would see me later (yes!) and she offered me a cookie, which I took and then it was OVER and I left and walked a few feet away to hopefully calm down a little and sort my stuff before I’d go to Kai. And you know what? The cookie was a kind I usually don’t like at all, but it was soooo good in that moment and I feel like I’ll forever associate these cookies with meeting Naoko now :’D (how cliché, I know, fight me.)

So, I’m still sort of crying and completely overwhelmed because this???? Really??? Just had happened??? It took a few minutes to somewhat calm down again and come to my senses because I wanted to get my autograph from Kai and I eventually managed to get it all sorted and got out my AAU pt. 1 boxset for him to sign.

I paid for the autograph and handed him the boxset (and this is also all a bit hazy) and he asked me how I was (and now remember how he’s sitting right next to Naoko) and I sorta just gesture in her direction and say something like “Good! I don’t know how much you heard….” And he was really kind and said that he’d heard some of it and “Good for you” and probably some more, but well (aaahhh) and we talked a little about AAU and how I sorta cried when I thought Rhys would die at the beginning of pt. 2 (“Oh honey no!”) All in all he was really nice and friendly and really kinda chill (I didn’t start crying again at this point!!) and I died a little again, because KAI OWEN!

So after all that I stepped aside again and waited for Julia (whose turn it was after me each time) and I was still really emotional about everything and I promptly started crying again and it took me like 10 min or even longer to calm down a little again and then I had the grand idea to send a voice memo to some of my friends that couldn’t be there and told them about all that and promptly almost started crying again (only almost!).

Anyway – fast forward a few hours to the double photoshoot with Naoko and Kai!

Naoko recognized me! And she greeted me with “Ohh! Happy tears!” (it was so cute and my heart melted and I died a little) (again) (and I think Kai must have recognized me as well but I was kinda focused on Naoko calling me ‘happy tears’ haha) and I stood between them. She then found a hair on my tshirt so we both tried to get it off and it was just idk. It was such a small thing but it was so cute?

So that is the story of how I met Naoko Mori and Kai Owen at Time Lash and I’m honestly so happy that I was able to go (all thanks to Julia!!). This really means the world to me that I was able to meet them both (and Scott!).

This is why I’m not exaggerating when I talk about how much Torchwood means to me and that it literally changed my life over the past 11 (!!!) months. I’ve met quite a few actors over the past three and half years and it all means so much to me, but meeting the Torchwood cast is just a completely different level, for the reasons that I mentioned here.

And really, I just want to share this because Torchwood is just the Best.

[and please remember to not reblog it. I don’t mind likes or replies/messages if you feel like it, just no reblogs :)]

[quwandathornton]

Jeon Jungkook - Jealous Girlfriend (smut)

Jungkook is performing with an entertainer/ dancer he admires a lot; MinYee.

An Incident happens that angers his GF.

what will he do?

Jungkook sat in his dressing room, texting to his girlfriend. He sighs as she took the time to reply back, annoyingly he hated that but understood she was just as busy as he was as an Idol. He was just about to sit his phone done when the text came in.

Jungkook's earlier Text: Honey~ You should watch me perform in a few hours~ I will be dancing alongside Minyee-sii! Please support, oppa? ^D^

Y/N's Text: Baby, you really need to stop trying to make me call you Oppa, it's weird.

Jungkook: Okay, Sorry Noona~. >:)

Y/N's Text: Boy if you don't- You know how much I hate being called Noona...

Jungook: Will you spank me, Put me in my place noona? *wink*

YN's stares at the text in disbelief.

Y/N: Shut up Jungkook!!

Jungkook: Okay, slsoI will as long as you watch and support me tonight?

Y/N: Meh, I'll think about it~ :) I must get going, I will text you later tonight, Love you *smooches* Bye~ >o^

Jungkook: ... alright...Bye baby. I love you... TnT

Jungkook sighs while pouting; he bites his lip; already beginning to miss Y/N.

Y/N's POV

Y/n was actually planning something special for her lovely boyfriend, Jungkook. She was planning on surprising him after his performance.

She has gathered a bouquet of flowers, Reserved a spot at his favorite restaurant for just her and him. also bought him a brand new artistic drawing pad for whenever he feels like drawing for when he hs sleepless at night at his dorm room or overseas.

Seeing as his old one was already Waring thin on paper and appearance.

She grabbed all of the surprise gifts, grabbed her keys and excitedly began to make her way to the front door of her apartment, not before checking her messages once more from Jungkook, she replied.

Y/N: I love you too honey, Please Do you're best tonight. *u* keke~

She smiles to herself, and giggles as she leaves the apartment, locking the door behind her. She was on her way to see her lovely boyfriend!

Jungkook's Pov

Jungkook paced back and forth, as his hyung's eyed him the whole time.

They all stood behind the stage's curtains, as the music played for the 3rd couple ahead of him. He felt super nervous; for the fact, he will

1. Be on live national TV.

2. Be on Live national TV IN KOREA.

3. Be With MINYEE

Jungkook does find her rather attractive, like IU of course; she was talented and bright.

She has danced with many many talented dancers from ALL over the world!

He wasn't probably as GOOD as they were.Nowhere near as amazing.

Jungkook began to wring his hands together nervously, in attempts to calm down his already exhilarating heartbeat.

He broke a sweat, and that was enough to have Namjoon walk over to the youngest maknae and shake some sense into him.

"It's going to be fine, Jungkook-ah. Trust me. She is only a girl."

"Woman.." he corrected nervously looking at the lady not that far from him.

"She’s a woman hyung..."

"She is only 2 years apart from you, same age as Y/N am I right?"

"Y/n is 21.."

"Well, its basically the Same thing!" Namjoon shook the boy, Jungkook sulked.

"Look, man, She is ...Just like you. Don't put her so high up on a pedestal. Trust me! it's not even worth it."

Namjoon chuckled, making Jungkook crack a side smile, he nods to Nam Joon's words.

"Yeah! You're right hyung." Namjoon stares right into Jungkook's eyes, with the little hope he gained from his pep talk.

"What's the worst that could happen?" Namjoon smacks the boy on his back and shakes his proudly.

"THERE YOU GO! After this, I'm treating you to your favorite foods! I'm so proud of you Jungkookie! You're growing up!" Namjoon pulls the young man into a hug. Jungook sinks into it for a while before letting go.

Jungkook felt a tap on his shoulder, he turns around to see a smiling Minyee, *Note: Jungkook and Minyee has only practiced 3 times together.*

"Hello, Jungkook-sii." She bows respectively, Jungkook bowed 90 degrees.

"Hello! Minyee - Noona!" She giggled. His face turned red.

"We're going up soon." She said with a smile, she could tell he was nervous.

"Here. Follow me." She grabs his hand, and pulls him towards the food stand, handing him a bottle of cold water.

"Drink some water so you don't pass out from jittery nerves." He nods understandingly.

"MinYee Noona.." Minyee looks up from the roasted seaweed crisps laid out on the small plates on the table. She smiles at him genuinely.

"Is it obvious..?" He asks while he lets out a breath that he held in. She nodded.

"very...but it's okay sweetie. We all get nervous at some point. Heck Even I" cardsM nervous!" She said fanning him gently With her hand, he looked as his he would pass out any second.

"I"v e....never danced with someone that I actually liked." She admits.

"Me to..I've never danced with.......hold on you what?" Jungkook's eyes bugged out MinYee's eyes widened and blinked rapidly.

"I-I Mean! Like- I know BTS. I like the music, is all." She said saving face.

Jungkook was so close to becoming one with the floor. "I really enjoyed, Butterfly, Autumn Leaves and House Of Cards." She said with a smile.

"Me too..." he said while looking everywhere but at her. He felt red in the face but then his mind wanders back to Y/N.

‘get it together jungkook, Y/N is the only one you want in your life.’

Jungkook's whole soul jumped out of his body when he felt someone's hand slide against his back and pat him, and that person stood next to him and Minyee, it was one of the stage managing staff.

"You're Up next, Please be ready. Good Luck" he gives an encouraging smile and a thumbs up to the both of them.

"You heard that.." Jungkook said more to himself. Minyee Nodded.

"We can do it Jung Kook! Fighting." She said softly, grabbing his hand as the walked towards the entrance to the front stage. Jungkook's heartbeat only tripled in pace.

Y/N's POV

I'm here, Finally, now for me to get my backstage pass! Kuekue!

I'm going to surprise the socks off that boy! Oh my god I can't wait! I can see his reaction now!

"Oh my god noona! you scared me! Oh, man Holy shit! are you trying to give me a heart attack!?" I re-enacted only to get weird stares from the staff members.

"Oh sorry! I would like a backstage pass please, I am here to see my boyfriend, Jeon Jungook of bangtan!" I gave them one of my cutest aegyo stares.

The security gave me a weird look.

"Do you have proof of that? Identification?" He said in a mono tone. "Because if not, you're not going anywhere." he crosses his arms.

I reached into my purse and showed him my identification card, and an okay note from BIG hit themselves.

He nodded, putting a guest dog tag around my neck and motioned me inside. You walked inside thinking about how jungkook would react to see you once again.

"Ah!! Why am I so nervous! I am not even the one performing, he is!!" you slapped your cheek.

Maybe it's cause I haven't seen my boyfriend up close in, 4 months? Has he changed? does he look different? will he look at me differently?

I ran around like a lost puppy for a while until I found a staff stage member, it said on their back shirt and I ran to them.

"EXCUSE ME!" They jumped at my voice, looking behind them with a hand over their heart.

She stares at me like I had two heads, But I ignored it with a huge smile.

"Where is the ...uh what's the thing called, with the celebs dancing?" She raised an eyebrow.

"The Audience seats aren't this way mam."

"I know that. I'm here to support my boyfriend! backstage! Where can I meet him afterward? Ma’am" I smiled cutely. She nodded slowly and shook her head.

"This way...follow me please." She said, and she began to lead me towards backstage.

Jungkook's POV

"You got this Jungkook," Minyee said as they were in the position to begin their dance when the music cues. "Don't freak out. Breath in through your nose out through the mouth." Jungkook nods.

"Okay...Okay..." His hands lower to her waist, he didn't see it but she blushed when he did.

"u-uh..yeah." She nervously said. The Judges gave a head nod for the music to start. So it did.

Surprisingly, Jungkook remembered all the dance steps, the extra "Throw in's" to wow the crowd and make the judges at least want to add more points to their votes. Jungkook, even thought he was super nervous the whole time didn't fall or even pee himself. Everything was fine until the final end to the dance.

The Dip.

Which TO which he almost dropped Minyee,

The poor girls eyed popped out of her sockets, the force of the slip-up, making her pull him closer to her since her arms were around the nape of his neck, it was almost in slow motion, the slip up you see only in Romance movies, Kdramas...etc.

They slipped up and KISSED.

Not a LIP lock or anything, just a cute, "SURPRISED" lip peck.

The crowd erupts in applause and cheers as the kiss only seem to end just as quickly as it started. Jungkook remembering that their own stage, stands behind MinYee (in a couple stance, they do after a routine.) and they both bow at the same time.

After that, they were about to leave the stage, he walks over to his hyung's who all were cheering for jungkook. He smiles happily, at his members, and Min Yee smiles lapping for Jungkook.

"Jungkook! You were amazing." Jimin said ruffling his maknae's hair, Jungkook rubbed the nape of his neck shyly.

"He was, wasn't he?" He heard a familiar voice say, Jungkook looked around and was shocked to see right behind namjoon was, Y/N; the bouquet of flowers she had held were now on the ground and tears in her eyes. His smiles slowly fell as he watched as she turns around and sped walked out from backstage. Minyee covered her mouth, remembering the accidental kiss.

“no..” he whispered shouted.

Now understanding that SHE was Jungkooks GIRLFRIEND; She began to feel terrible.

"Oh my god! Jungkook! I'm so-" Before she could even apologize, he was already running after Y/N.

"Omo..." She whined. Hoseok sighed.

"it's not your fault, it was an accident. She can't be mad at that, can she??" Namjoon shrugged.

"Knowing women, Hosoek." Her eyed the other rapper. "Really?"

"....maybe you're right, Namjoon-ah" Hoseok Sighed.

Jungkook's Pov Continued

Shit you can't be serious! Did she only see that part? Didn't she see it was accidental? I ran after her as quickly as I can, and by God, I'm glad she is slower than me just for this moment. I ran to her and wrapped my arms around her waist to stop her from running. She screeches loudly, which GOD I never knew she had the ability to do that, if I could I would shrink.

But right now I need to be a man.

"Y/n baby! Please! let me explain!"

"Explain? how!? that you were lip locking with MINYEE!? ON KOREAN TV?!" Jungkook, still trying to catch his breath. Lays his head on her shoulder, as he regains all of his strength back, he had gotten done dancing and now ran a marathon.

"I-IT was accidental! I dipped her way too far and almost dropped her. Okay? She yanked me by my neck, and I tilted forward and we accidentally kissed! Did you not see that part?" His voice was soft as silk, he moved his lips towards the crook of her neck giving it light butterfly kisses. He looks at her side profile and didn’t notice her express, so he turns her around fully to see tears staining her face.

"No.." She rubs at eyes.

Jungkook laughed with a smile on his face as he wipes her tears with his thumbs.

"come here, baby" Jungkook grabs her hand gently before walking with her back to the backstage area. He asked the Media staff if he could show her the dance clip with Him and MIn Yee and they did. Y/n covers her face in embarrassment.

"O.h.." She said embarrassed.

"but what..What about the food bench? She held your hand...and she was close." Jungkook's eyes widen, and Y/N laughed.

"You saw that?Oh man, Holy shit why didn't you come to me?" Y/N look down sadly, pouting.

"It was a surprise...For you..I haven't seen you in four months baby- I missed you."

"oh..I see..I missed you too sweetheart." He whispered, leaning close to her face and nuzzling their noses together.

"Now About that Food area..She wasn't really trying to make advances towards me if that's what you are thinking...She admitted she likes some of our songs is all." Jungkook softly said.

His eyes searching for hers to see if she believed him, as she continuously looked everywhere but at her loving boyfriend. Jungkook felt a tap on his shoulder, he turned around to see Jin and Hoseok there with the gifts y/n dropped.

"Hey, She dropped these...with you're name on them lover boy." Y/N gasped and turns to grab them but Jungkook already did with a sly grin.

"Yah baby! You dropped my gift!?" He looked at her with a disbelieving look on his face. He then replaced it with a hurtful look. "Meanie." Y/n smacked at his arm, and whined.

"HEY, In MY DEFENSE I thought you were macking on that chick!" He bursts out in a fit of tears as she pouted and looked defeated. He flipped the sweaty hair out of his face and smiled at her. She smiled back sweetly. Jungkook pulls you in close by your waist, leaning close to your face.

"You know...I have a plan to make this all better?" He says seductively. Y/n's eyes widen and she shook her head and he nodded mischievously, a smile on his face showing his cute dimples.

"YOU”RE SO NAUGHTY" You shouted and smacked his chest, He grabbed your hand and let it rest there with even more naughty look on his face, he wiggles his eyebrow. You rolled you're eyes, you look above his shoulder to see a guilty looking Min Yee. Her arms behind her back with eyes that yells "FORGIVE ME."

Y/n pulls her hand from Jungkooks embrace, he turns around and bows to Min yee, you held in you're laugh and bow to her respectively to MinYee.

"Hello Min Yee.."

"Hello, Jungkook's Girlfriend. I am so sorry! I didn't mean for that to even happen or even partake on my behalf and my company, and my family,-" Y/n's eyes widen and Jungkoook's too.

"Whoooooa calm down, it's cool!" Y/N said patting the alarmed girl's shoulder, she looked very sorry. "Just don't let it happen again." Y'n joked, which made min yee more at ease and smile with a nod.

"Ah! JUNGKOOK-AH!" Jimin shouted, running over with the other members behind, Suga taking his sweet time. "Were going out for dinner, let's go! Min Yee? would you like to join us?" He smiles at her kindly

"Yeah!" She said with a smile, "I'll PAY!" Minyee Suggested. Jimin nodded. He looks at Jungook for an answer.

"Nah." He said simply, forgetting honorifics. He pulls Y/N by her hand, and holds her close. Her head lays on his shoulder. "I'm good. I want to spend my time with my girlfriend. have fun without me."

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Jungkook had offered to drive her car back to her apartment, and once they got out of the car. He grabs her by her hand, and his gifts in the other hand and ran their way to the elevator. She pressed the button to her floor, the doors almost immediately opened up. They walked on, and she pressed the number again; the door closed.

Jungkook to the opportunity to make the move first, pushing his body close against her's he goes in for a sloppy kiss; earning a moan from y/n. Y/n running her fingers through his silky hair as they kissed, her knee, slowly massaged his crotch which was getting harder each they kissed.

He roughly pushes her against the elevator wall, as his kisses began to go from her lips to her neck, to her collarbone. Trying his hardest to hold her in place and hold the gifts she given him the elevators door "dinged" and he pulls away, his crotch tented painfully obvious. His breathing edgy, he looks towards the floor they were on, not even close to where they need to be. He growls in irritation. The doors opened and no one came in. He rolled his eyes and hit the close door button.

Once the door's shut, he jumped right back to the make out, and began to rub his crotch against her; earning a breathy moan from her.

"I can't take this, I need it...I need you!" He growls. He pulled away from her neck, and slams his fist angrily on the "STOP Button" which set of the alarm, the whole cart turned a RED color and he dropped his gifts, using his super human strength to lift you up and place you on the ground, gentle enough to not hurt you. He pulls of his shirt with ease, unbuttoned his pants in a rush, with your help of course, you were able to take it off. His boxers thrown to the corner, now; and you were able to see how angry his cock looked.

"You did this..."He moaned, leaning into your neck and sucking on your collarbone, you moaned out his name; caressing his back lovingly. He used his free hand, the one that wasn't cupping your clothed C cup breast, and pushed the panties seat open. He struggled to put his manhood inside of you, which left you a wet mess; because of the teases.

"PUT IT IN ME NOW" You bit his shoulder, earning a gasp out of him and a moan. He slipped it in with no problem. He then began to thrust at a reasonable pace, but quickly began to pick up speed as to which now, the elevator cart began to creak and move violently, at any moment you would have hit you're boyfriend who was thrusting pretty powerfully, making the cart sway violently, but at this moment you couldn't even THINK straight, not even to scold him.

His hard shaft hitting you're SPOT constantly over and over again, you're speech began to fail horribly.

"Augh Uhhh Ju- Jungkook! P-please don't s-s-staaawp." You slurred as you felt yourself hit your peak already, his thrusts which were now turning erratic and out of rhythm , as he pounded into you harder before he is cumming inside of you. You came along with him; you're eyes rolling to the back of you're head as you screamed out his name in bliss.

Laying there in a comforting mess, you guys were jolted back to reality when the elevator began to move once again, heading up to her floor. A message flashing on the elevator's television panel, Emergency personal is on it's way.

That meant, Jungkook had to get his clothing on as fast as he could. As soon as you smoothed out his shirt, pants and shoes. He helped you with you're dress and, thank god your hair was naturally puffy. However Junkooks looked a mess, you had combed it for him with a comb from you're purse.

Making sure the elevators looked UNMARKED from sex; You both stood there. You're legs still felt like spaghetti. He smiled proudly of it, however his cock in his pants still wanted attention once they get off this ride of hell. (Heaven)

The elevator made it to her floor, and the door's open and the Landlord, plus fire department were there. Jungkook grabs you're hand and began to walk out the elevator, ignoring the questions they were throwing our way. Y/n left nervous, that she will need to explain to the landlord, what happened, leaving out the sex part of course.

You took out you're key card, unlocked the door and jungkook pulls you right inside, shutting the door. He stares at you hungrily, he throws the gifts down on the couch. You then grumble.

"You have got to stop throwing my gifts around like that-" You were cut off with him kissing on you're neck once again, opposite side while fiddling with you're left nipple. He smirks and says.

"I can't wait to have you naked....you know you're breasts are my favorite part of you're body?" He cooed softly. You closed you're eyes, shivering under his loving attention.

"Take me...Please..Jungkook."

“I’ll make you feel so good baby girl.” He shoves you against the wall, pressing his hard cock against your clothed yet we pussy.

[athleisure-aesthetic]

Ugh I did the thing again where I was busy all week and forgot to post on here. So here’s a lightning fast recap of my workouts from the past week, if you care at all. I actually think I worked out (ish, except Friday kinda) every day which is a first in a while. Bless.

Tues Mar 21 Abs and shopping. I went home after work to get my car so that I could drive to trainings the next two days, but went out to Target as soon as I got home, cause duh. Stupid idea to try on like real clothes tho, my self-conscious ass was like ohhhhh no way you need to tighten up those saddle bags and that back fat before you get any of this. So. I got a crop sweatshirt and athletic leggings, felt bad about myself but hadn’t had dinner, so I went to Wawa. Woof.

3x each 15 reps straight leg raises 15 reps roll ups leaning camel x 45s bird dogs x 45s 60 reps heal touches plank 35s, 40s, 45s 10 reps assisted push up 40 reps russian twists 8# alternating superman 1 min 15 reps single leg pulses

Wed Mar 22 Run on the trail after this horrific training class in which I was literally the only student for an all day session. And I had to go back the next day 😩 went to Marshall’s before my run to see if I could find any cold weather gear bc I only had my sweatshirt, gloves, wool earwarmers, and thin leggings. Didn’t find any of that, but got those AMAZING NEON PINK LEGGINGS IN THAT ONE PICTURE and some other ones too. You know me, can’t stay away from that athleisure ish.

It was hella freezing and took me so long to warm up once I started on the trail. Fortunately it was so picturesque and my music was bangin so. I survived.

2.78 mi 9'55" min / mi

Thurs Mar 23 6 x 200m sprints on the trail. Bless up, convinced my instructor to finish early bc tbh he was not really all that helpful once I started following the book that was included, so I went to the mall and got some more athleisure (deh), cheap sunglasses, athletic ear warmers for $.50 each, a VERY cute lightweight rain jacket, and (!!!!!) these black leather slip-on sneakers I’ve been looking for for like 6 months. I just caved and got the name brand ones but stILl omg I’m so excited about them I finally found them.

Started the sprints in the cotton leggins I was wearing, then after like maybe 9 or 10 strides I was like oh FUCk no they suddenly lost all their elasticity and I was having to pull them up for my life. So after completely embarrassing myself hoisting those mothereffers up for my first sprint, I jumped in the car and changed into spandex pants, then zoomed back to the trail start and actually did my workout. Good thing my house is only 8 minutes away from that part of the trail.

I think I may have mis-read what my Nike app was telling me to do, but I’m pretty sure it said to do 6 x 200m sprints with 4:45 min in between. So that’s essentially what I did, I sprinted for the 200m and ran / jogged in between. Although the app only recorded the distance for the sprints, I wanna say I did a little more than the day before, since I went further on the trail. I hate that you can’t go back and check what it told you to do; you only see how you actually ran according to the app. Lame af. Though I was proud, I increased my sprint speed at almost every length except the 3rd.

0.77mi 6'59" min / mi (lol can’t believe I actually ran a mile faster than that at one point in my life holy shit)

Fri Mar 24 No real workout here, since I had to leave work early to take the train back to le Nova for Palooza. I scarfed down a Snap pizza (the classic spot) right before the show, and somehow stayed away from the dangers of late night college food. Though I did get all my steps in my showing one of our friends’ home friend around campus, and apparently that little tour counted for a nice brisk walk. Obvi the Snovas killed it, as a great opener for what my friends and I dubbed AcaWeekend. Saturday they’d be competing at ICCA regional semifinals #pitchperfect for the first time ever, which was so exciting. Palooza the day before was just their warmup, but fortunately we got to see two new songs from them. It kinda sucked for them though bc they went first out of the seven groups and the sound guys always need a few groups to warm up before they actually refine the balance, and they just sounded muddled. Womp. Oh well. Everyone knows they’re/we’re the best anyway. Proud alum.

Sat Mar 25 Run in the morning before the day’s festivities. This was a quick workout before most of the humans who stayed in my apartment became humans, a brief mile ish to the waterfront and back. I realized I’d been wearing a blueish shirt and black leggings in literally all of my pics lately so I spiced it up with these fun stripey ones. Lol.

We adventured to brunch, where I had a yummy spinach and goat cheese salad with fig dressing, and wandered around the city for the afternoon before we had to head to semis. I splurged on Hunger Burger at RTM because I told myself that this was my indulgence for the weekend, and I wasn’t going to be drinking anymore for the next few months (it’s not like I do it that often anyway, I just want to try it to see how it helps my training/weight loss, if at all), so I got a specialty thin mint shake. Woops. Honestly, it was so worth it though, and I didn’t even end up eating most of the fries anyway, so it wasn’t the worst I could’ve done.

At semis, there were literally so many good groups and we were all like oh shit how are they going to stack up?? But Snovas SLAYED even better than they did last time and ENDED UP IN THIRD PLACE WHICH IS THE CRAZIEST BEST HONOR WE’VE EVER GOTTEN AND IT’S JUST SO COOL!!!!! A cappella is the shit, guys, I swear. I’m so proud of those kiddos, and they get to submit a wildcard video for a chance at Finals in NYC which is like legitimately insane. They’re somewhere in the top 18-27 groups in the country right now, and coming from a school where we legit don’t have music majors and a joke of a music activities staff / support, this coulD NOT be cooler. They murdered it. And so did all the other groups at semis, like damn. We weren’t even sure anything was gonna happen for them, but they clearly did some things right. Ugh so obvi we celebrated when we got back to Philly, going to a few bars and ending up at Frankford, where we got some amazing soft pretzels and other snacks. Best day ever.

1.26 mi 9'21" min / mi

1.32 mi 10'03" min / mi

Sun Mar 26 Long ish run and relaxing. Got up and was worried about the weather forecast for Monday because I was supposed to be doing my long run for next week then, and it was going to be torrentially downpouring all day, so I was hoping to switch my days because the weather was decent enough that I could’ve done it on Sunday. But then I updated my app and A, it changed my schedule for this week anyway, and B, I remember I could’ve moved it anyway if I wanted to. So instead I went and did that 5K Sunday challenge thing that it introduced. And I ran back from there, so it actually was closer to the 5 miles I had wanted to do anyway. So ya.

I felt a little subconscious in these leggings because, though they are a spectacularly bright and amazing color, they also show my cellulite on the back of my legs… but I thought, fuck it, people will see me, and if they give me a look, I’ll just push harder and show them that cellulite means nothing if you’re fast and capable and strong. So. I used it to empower me, I guess.

Spent the rest of the day relaxing and watching ICCA videos, still hyped up on the Snovas victory. Legit it’s still coming to me in waves, it’s actually incredible.

3.11 mi 9'41" min / mi

1.53 mi 9'44" min /mi

Mon Mar 27 Full body circuit and a benchmark run. Work is starting to bore me so much lol on Monday I think I may have done approximately 2 work related things all day, otherwise I was just distracted. I decided to do a NTC workout and then my benchmark, so I chose Body Flexor 2.0, which worked a lot of different areas and was pretty fun. Then I ran on the treadmill for my benchmark for the first time, which was weird knowing my exact speed at certain times and being able to force myself to a certain pace. If I have to do it that way again, next time I’ll just cover the numbers and just focus on how it feels to push hard. The picture up there is me literally dying because of how sweaty I was. Plus fun leggings from Marshall’s.

1.54 mi 9'49" min / mi

Tues Mar 28 Abs / some arms, plus 20 minutes on the elliptical. I was an idiot today, and not only forgot a hair tie after my shower, but I left my phone at home, which I realized too late in the elevator on the way to work. Nice. So I had to go without both all day, though Kelly let me borrow a hair tie so I could work out thank GoD cause I was looking at using a legit rubber band, which would’ve been awful. The moves I chose for abs today ended up also working my arms a lot, which was nice to combo them. Because I didn’t have my phone, I just kind of had to make up my elliptical workout, which was meh but whatever. Next time I’ll be prepared. That’s definitely not my favorite type of cardio anyway.

Tonight I made these AMAZING baked zucchini fries, I probably could’ve eaten like 90 million in one sitting they were so crunchy and good. My sweet potato fries didn’t turn out so good (I actually burned the shit out of them, but I’m going to attempt to eat them tomorrow for lunch anyway 🙃) but I’m happy I’m trying new things in the kitchen, even if it’s taking me like 3 hours each time lolol.

I’m down a few pounds from last week, though, which is kind of nice! A little affirmation after working hard every day.

3x each 15 reps dumbbell side bends alt. sides 8# 15 reps twisting core stabilizers alt. sides 8# 15 reps bow extensions alt. sides 8# 15 reps woodchops 8# 10 reps windmills 5# 40 reps russian twists 8# 30 s plank 7 reps full extension inch worms 15 reps in-&-outs

Wooooof I’m going to try to post more often now that I’m all caught up. Lol it may last for a day but you know. #Goals.

[jonguntitled-blog]

shit

"Please answer me...Min...Minnie..." He could hear a soft whimper on the recording, it was at the one minute mark, the first 15 seconds had been silent before she started to speak with a shaky and quiet voice. He'd never heard her speak with such a tone and it chilled him down to his very bones. What's worse was he was the one who instilled that tone in her. "I'm not mad, Min." She sniffed, her voice cracking now. He could hear another female voice, it was quiet, barely there and muffled in the background of the voice message but it was there. He knew exactly who it was and he cursed under his breath. "Minnie please, please call me back. Answer my calls...something. I don't want to give up. I'm not mad. I'm sorry if I made you angry. I'm sorry okay? I'm sorry. I'm sor-" Min heard slight static on the other end like the phone was exchanging between people. "That's enough." Another voice spoke before the message abruptly ended. This was the fifth time he'd listened to this particular recording. It was the most recent one Emilia had left him. His hand were shaking as he pulled his cellphone away from his ear, setting it in his lap. His eyes were blurry and they felt sore from the amount of crying he'd done over the last week. How had it only been a week that he hadn't spoken to Emilia? It felt like years at this fucking point. The message she left last was from Wednesday, today was Sunday. He had an inkling she hadn't contacted him because she wasn't allowed her phone. But maybe it was because she really was fed up with being ignored. That was for the best, best she not get caught up in all of this after all. Min's peace was disturbed when he heard the click from his bedroom door, appearing in the threshold was someone new to the whole fiasco they called a fucking family. Sungho had picked her up late at night when he was checking up on one of then less than reputable establishments Tang had purchased when Sungho was in prison. Min couldn't remember her real name but he remembered her stage name was Tammy. Feeling annoyed and quite pissed off that she had the nerve to barge in, he saw an opportunity to be rude, "Tammy, what the fuck do you want?" The slim, former crack whore grinned and closed the door behind her. She leaned against the cold wood and crossed her ankles, somehow keeping impressive balance in her five inch stilettos. "I don't go by that anymore, you can call me Seonja though." She gave a warm smile to the sulking man. He sighed, feeling defeated that he hadn't even gotten a dirty look from her. He wanted to be cruel and mean like his brother. Or a trickster like his sister, but he could never be either. He was weak, just like his grandfather always said and his mother. He was the spitting image of his father, looks and personality. "Can I help you, Seonja? Or do you just have a habit of barging into people's bedrooms?" He sighed, he had been sitting on the edge of his bed. He put his phone onto the mattress beside him and covered his face with his hands, elbows resting on his knees. "Master Sungho wanted to see you. I was also supposed to update you on the status of your fiancée." Min's heart leaped at the mention of Emilia. He felt a lump form in his throat and Seonja actually had a devilish smile form on her lips when she saw his reaction. "Don't get too excited, Master Yeongmin." Min swallowed the lump, or tried to. It seemed to grow when he heard the words "master" leave Seonja's lips. He really didn't think he could get used to this shit. "What about her?" He tried to act nonchalant, like he hadn't spent the last week thinking about Emilia every single moment. Like he had been sleeping soundly every night, like he hadn't been having nightmares of her traumatized face or hearing the gunshots ringing in his ears every morning when he screamed himself awake, feeling for her at his side. "She's well." Seonja crossed her slender arms over her chest, "Master Sungho has more information for you and will obviously fill you in. But I'm told that you will be directed to me for any further information on Miss Patera, or well to be Mrs. Jong from now on." She gave another warm, albeit fake, smile and turned on her heel to open the door. "Master Sungho is in his office, he's expecting you shortly." She said over her shoulder as she crossed the threshold back into the corridor, closing the door behind her. ~ Min slammed open the door to his brothers office, storming into the serene space Sungho had made for himself in the highrise office space their grandfather owned in New York City. He'd made it quite comfortable since leaving prison, it certainly was more decorated and "worked in" than Sooji's rather dull and plain office across the hall or god forbid Min's blank office with literally just a desk and a chair. He didn't even bother having a computer, he just brought his laptop in sometimes. He didn't intend on using his office anyway. Sungho looked up at his brother with a blank stare before a sly smirk creeped onto his face, he sat lounging back in his leather chair. He looked relaxed and comfortable in this environment, the all black designer suit he wore with his leather shoes, expensive watch and numerous rings fit him much better than the orange jumpsuit ever would. Although he still had his same dark brown, almost black wisps of hair, perhaps a little longer than their grandfather would have preferred but Sungho liked that finger brushed hair look with the part down the middle. Sooji often complained it looked too 90's but over the last couple years she'd stopped complaining as she realized it was coming back in style - all the idols were wearing their hair like that after all. It made Sungho laugh, maybe he could be an idol, if he had a clean criminal record. "So do we just kidnap fucking fiancées and girlfriends and shit now? Is that what we fucking do, Sungho?!" Min's voice was disrespectful to say the least and loud, very, very loud. Sungho cringed slightly at his volume before rolling his eyes. He sighed and adjusted in his seat to show his annoyance, "Sit down and speak to me like a fucking adult." Min reluctantly obliged but not before stomping his foot and slamming himself down into the chair with a loud thud. His jaw clenched as he watched his brothers gaze wander over him. Min looked a right mess, his normally neatly brushed shoulder length hair which was often pulled into a ponytail or half up and half down was now in a tangled mess of waves and curls that Sungho didn't even realize his brother's hair naturally had. He took a deep breath, looking down at his holy sweatshirt and ripped jeans, embarrassed that he'd walked into the office building looking like that. "You couldn't have at least cleaned yourself up?" "You ordered a hit on my fucking fiancée, you piece of shit." Min growled. "Now now, Yeongmin, how do you know that was me?" "Because I just fucking do." "Did he tell you?" Sungho raised an eyebrow. "No." Min recalled the man's shocked face before he unloaded his clip into the man's mouth, eyes, cheekbones, anywhere the bullet could reach. "She's fucking terrified." "She's safe." Sungho said bluntly, not missing a beat. "She has watchful eyes on her. She won't be out of my sights until the day she dies, you have my word." "Yo-you're fucking watching her?" Min raised his voice again, gripping the arms of the chair tightly, digging his nails into the leather. "Of course. She witnessed murder. A murder committed by one of my own. I need to protect you don't I? If she tries to report anything well...you know." Sungho lifted his lips into a slight smirk. "I-If you fuh-fucking..." Min could barely hold in his rage. "You wouldn't kill your own brother. Besides," Sungho lifted his eyes to glance up the doorway of his office, seeing the figure that stood in the threshold, "Sooji ordered it."

[heleftnowwhat]

I haven’t written in a while. I have had some repeat doggy clients so I wanted to wait for a new one to write about.

OMG, I just had a my tiniest guest today. Diego is a 10 week old, 3lb Beagle/Chihuahua mix. This was his first visit and he did very well. I assumed that he would play for an hour and sleep for an hour and I was correct. I took him out every 60-90 mins to go potty, which he did. All and all, a great first visit. I believe that he will be coming back, YAY!!

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 Like I said, I have had some repeat clients….here they are…

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Also, A friend and I went back to PA for a weekend in Sept. We joined my sister’s team, to walk and to raise money and awareness of Melanoma. It was fun and very successful. I am excited to say that my sister has had her 12th and final treatment and all looks good now. She is so strong. This is her story…..

My Melanoma Madness Family history: none Number of full skin checks I had through my life: zero Melanoma type: Acral Lentiginous (subungual) the most common in Asian, Hispanic and African American races. Of which I am not. This type of melanoma makes up less than 5% of all melanomas. Melanoma is the deadliest form of skin cancer. Timeline: Years and years ago I got a mole on the cuticle line of my left big toe. It was fine. Appeared normal. I thought it odd to get a mole on my toe, but I was not concerned. Fast forward to sometime in late 2017-ish I notice I have what I think is a blood blister. It’s near or on or around the “mole”. So I google blood blister on toe. Because who googles toe cancer??? I go several months until having it looked at.

May 2018: I’m in my 3 month diabetes check appointment with my Doc and at the end of appointment, I ask him to look at my toe. He glances at it and tells me it’s ugly and I should cover it for a week and if it doesn’t improve I should go see a podiatrist. Ok!!! Sounds easy. So I do what he tells me and it seems to start to dry up so I don’t go to the podiatrist.

September 17th 2018: Ok, I give!!! Made an appointment with the podiatrist because it seemed to get worse again. I go in, sit down and show him my “blood blister”. Instantly he tells me it is a wart. Oh! I ask if warts oozed and bled. He shook his head and told me no and that he wanted to biopsy it to see what kind of wart it was so he knew what type of antibiotic he may need to prescribe. OUCH. That kind of hurt. But ok! The results will be in in 7-10 days. Thanks doc. So, because I’m impatient, I go buy a wart freezing kit and try to freeze the little bitch off. HOLY CRAP. OUCH IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT. And it obviously wasn’t even worth the pain. Tic tock…. tic tock September 28th (10 business days later): I call the office to ask about results. I am told there are none. Sometimes these things could take up to a month they say. Of course, I argued that and said that the doctor told me 7 to 10 business days. They shrug and say they hope it’ll be in next week. HOPE?????? Mind you, I struggle with anxiety and unknown things are huge a trigger for me. Ok. Sigh.

October 5th 2018: Ring ring. Hi, this is Stephanie Heart. Calling to see if results are in. Nope. What the hell????? Ok. This is science. Deep breaths. October 17th 2018: Cell phone rings. I’m in middle of something and can’t answer my phone. Voice mail says: “ hello this message is for Dr. B…, this is so-and-so from the pathology lab in Maryland and I need to speak with you directly about one of your patient’s biopsies” UMMMMM….. what the hell? Now I’m freaked out. So of course I call back and leave a message. No response. Text— no response. Call doctors office and leave urgent message with answering service. Call doctors office again first thing in morning and start pushing. Hard. Turns out the initial abnormal results were in a couple weeks ago and lab was doing further testing. WHICH NOONE INFORMED ME OF. The lab certainly broke some rules by accidentally calling me directly. They say they will have doctor call me. 15 min later he does. Tells me same story. Says he is trying to get in touch with pathology lab and will get the results for me and I can pick them up in office tomorrow. Ok. Fine. Instantly google cancer on toe, because why else would a lab be trying to reach the doc?

October 18th (my cancerversary, I guess) I arrive at the office and go to desk and say I’m here to see the doctor about my results. They tell me he gave us this for you and hand me a sealed envelope. Um. Alright. I leave office and am in lobby. Remember, I’m impatient. So I open envelope while alone in the lobby. And all I see is MALIGNANT MELANOMA and I am alone. Frozen. Oh. Also a note with a referral to a dermatologist. That bastard let me read that alone. Ok. Now it’s a search and destroy mission. I immediately call this dermatologist and fax over results while I am on the phone. While scheduling the appointment with the receptionist, she asked me to hold on and out of nowhere this doctor gets on the phone. He tells me that he would gladly see me, however, he would be telling me immediately to get to a surgeon at Fox Chase Cancer Center and gave me the name. He told me that this was a deep tumor and it would have to be removed. Holy shit. This is serious. Like WAY serious. My fingers instantly started dialing the number to the doctor he referred me to. They were amazing on the phone while I cried and they got me set up for an appointment with the chief of surgery in less than a week. Begin massive anxiety attacks. Google. Bing. Explorer. Knowledge is power.

October 25th, 2018 Appointment with surgeon. The guy who saved my life. Tells me that the depth on the report puts me at a stage 2. Which means they remove it and then do a sentinel lymph node biopsy to check the nearest lymph node to see if it spread. But only 20% chance it would have. And then he tells me that to remove it, they have to amputate the top half of my big toe. Wait. WHAT??? Alligator tears begin flowing. Sends me on my way to schedule surgery.

November 2, 2018 Surgery day. Maybe after today I won’t have cancer anymore. Ativan on board I head to the hospital with my army. Long day of waiting and tests. Blood work. They do the injection for sentinel lymph node biopsy. Waiting and scans. Then it’s time to head back. I don’t remember any of it. Wake up. Foot is wrapped and I have a nerve block. They said they were sure they got clean margins. So as long as lymph node comes back clean, I would be cancer free! Remember only 20% chance of the lymph node being malignant. They send me home same day with healing instructions and tell me results will be in in 7-10 days. I’ve heard this before. Anxiety is in high overdrive. My family and friends took amazing care of me. But in the midst of this I told the boyfriend to take a hike. Zero empathy and he couldnt understand my fuss. It was only a toe. Not even a whole toe. It wasn’t like it was a boob or a lung. I’m sorry…. you’re out of my circle now. Piss off.

1 week later: Still no results. Tic tock. All I can think of is just getting back to work and I did. I work from home so was able to do some work and elevate.

About 12 days post op: Guess who is in the 20%???? Of course I am. Worst news I could have gotten. I now have stage 3 melanoma. Stage 3. Are you kidding me? You have to be. Now what? Time to have a PET scan of my entire body to see if it has spread anywhere. This would place me at stage 4. Thank goodness, it had not spread. I remain stage 3, but now I have to face a year of immunotherapy treatment with CT scans, skin checks, MRIs, ultrasounds and a slew of other tests every 3 months or so.

November 28 First meeting with medical oncologist. He details the plan of action to do everything we can to make sure the beast stays away. Melanoma is really sneaky and can just show up anytime anywhere. Sigh. A lifetime of anxiety. There is no cure. We set up the treatment plan.

December 5,2018 Treatment day. Lab work first to see if my body can handle it. Meet with oncologist again. Then head to the infusion room. Walk in and there are a ton of cancer patients in their chairs hooked up to IVs. Not gonna lie. It was scary and I couldn’t believe I was there. They begin the infusion after mixing the medicine. They have to wait for doc approval for this as they bill my insurance company $115,000 a month for this drug. Yes, the comma is in the right place. Infusion begins. And ends just as fast. Only about 30 min. And they send me home. Almost instantly, my entire body is hot and so itchy. A normal side effect. Any type of “itis” is. I’ll take that over chemo though. The itch continued for 2 months. My first 2 treatments.

Wash rinse repeat. I just completed my 6th of 12 treatments. I’ve had some scans and skin checks in between. So far…. I am FREE of cancer. We call this NED. No evidence of disease. And we celebrate this.

A few things I have learned: Not all melanoma comes from the sun, but most does. Mine didn’t. I am now susceptible to any and all skin cancers as well as having an increased risk of developing other types. I must be diligent with protecting myself from the sun. When in doubt, get it checked. Schedule yearly dermatology appointments. ADVOCATE for yourself for fast treatment and diagnosis. You are never too busy to take care of your health. In times of crisis you really learn who your true circle of people are. Mine is huge and I am truly blessed.

I am so thankful for the care I have received and continue to receive from everyone at Fox Chase Cancer Center. They literally have saved my life.

I still struggle with anxiety and depression and some pain and swelling. But I’m managing it by staying informed and positive and laughing at things. That’s how I deal. Gotta laugh. My side effects haven’t been horrible from treatment. I hope that my story can help at least one person to get help if needed. Early detection is KEY to surviving melanoma.

I am a melanoma warrior. A survivor. And I plan on keeping it that way.

GET CHECKED PEOPLE!!!

Doggy Guest #30 Diego and more I haven't written in a while. I have had some repeat doggy clients so I wanted to wait for a new one to write about.

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Rivals Thread: Burnley vs Manchester City via /r/LiverpoolFC

Rivals Thread: Burnley vs Manchester City

SORRY LADS ITS THE NERVY PART OF THE SEASON COULDNT RESIST AND MADE THE THREAD EARLY.

I will buy a Burnley kit and make Sean Dyche my phone & computer background if they pull something off today. Yes, I am a mad lad.

Burnley vs Manchester City @ 14:05 UK TIME

0': KICK OFF

15': Borefest so far, City with 70% possession

17': Gonna take a piss, hope Ashley Barnes can also take the piss and score a hattrick in the time that I'm gone

18': Great play from Burnley just then, I don't know if I can watch this whole thing. Never thought I'd be clenching for another team.

20': Kompany uses hands on Barnes. Free-kick Burnley.

22': Wood (pls have a better first touch) kicks shite Smiley Face Tattoo Man in the Wood. Kyle Walker also slips and hurts himself.

27': Burnley are really trying their best. Not much more you can ask for.

27': Bernardo shoots but its soft.

30': The Brexit Boys playing better currently than that shite effort from the Manc Cunts last time out

35': Ashley Barnes with the GEGENPRESS, takes the ball off Sterling then Sterling pushes him over. Free kick Burnley. Barnes playing for his Liverpool contract.

40': I have an assignment due soon but cannot work on it until I know the result of this match. Meanwhile Aguero tries his best Phillipe Coutinho in a red shirt impersonation and it goes over the bar, just.

42': Pep is bald.

43': I say this with 100% seriousness, I honestly think Ashley Barnes believes he's getting a Liverpool contract if he wins this. He's the best Burnley player atm. If he wins this, I'm all for it.

45': There was a great opening but the ball wasn't hit well for Barnes. +2 Added time. Burnley fans doing great with the "ole's" for the shit passes from City. Pep's body language shows that the only thing in his head right now is Salah, Mane and Firmino.

HT: Burnley 0-0 Manchester City. Obvious nerves from City, I'm loving it. Very happy so far.

This is the first thread of this kind that I've done and so far, it's been a good result so I am not changing anything. I expect all of you to remain doing exactly what you were doing in the first half. Let's go Burnley.

46': WE ARE BACK. No clue if something scary happened as by the time I got to the TV Burnley had a goal kick all of a sudden.

48': Alright lads City have come out of the dressing rooms a different team. Really shitting my pants now. Two close chances but its still on.

49': City thought there was a handball. Don't know what they're on about to be honest. If I didn't see it, it didn't happen. See, the word handball has two words in it, hand and ball. The ball hit Ashley Barnes' (our hero) ARM. The rule isn't called ARMBALL. Carry on lads.

52': ABSOLUTE CLUSTERFUCK OF STUPID THINGS HAPPENING IN BURNLEY'S BOX YOU MAY AS WELL CALL IT BREXIT. SOMEHOW STILL 0-0. HEATON IS OUR SAVIOUR.

54': Aguero drags a shot wide. Loudest "OLEEEEEEE" yet.

56': Barnes is everywhere. Burnley are soldiering on.

57': Another clusterfuck in the Brexit Box. Corner City. BURNLEY DEFENDING FOR THEIR LIVES.

59': Lowton wonderful tackle on Sterling but he's hurting.

60': An hour gone. 30 mins left. Commentators still talking about "its a penalty". Sorry, too late.

63': Fucking hell. City score 1-0. BALL WENT OVER BY 2.95MM. As soon as Peter Drury started saying "Agueroooooooo" I knew it was a goal. We can't be pissed about that, we aren't owed anything by Burnley.

65': Peter Drury tells us (liverpool fans) to turn off the TV and go out. I may actually consider that. Cheers lad, son's crying.

70': Lads the thread was going well until you all went full "Liverpool Match Thread Doom and Gloom". Relax we weren't owed anything. We just have to sit back, clench and see what unfolds.

72': Bernardo Silva with a clear shove in the back. Throw-in.

74': HOLY FUCK CLEAR OFF THE LINE WAS ABOUT TO SWITCH IT OFF.

75': FUCK OFF REF THATS A FOUL ON THE EDGE OF THEIR BOX.

78': A few attempts to play the ball from Burnley but they're just not up for it.

79': As I say that fucking hell they got the ball in the box but cleared easily

80': Guess who's parking the bus?

82': McNeill playing well last 10mins. Aguero off, Stones on. Burnley are tired.

87': Sterling being a dirty cunt.

90': +4 added time. It's the hope that kills. That last cross from Burnley made me feel something and Ederson catching it took that something way.

91': FREEKICK BURNLEY about 30-40 yards out. EVERY BURNLEY PLAYER UP. 4 CB's on for City.

92': .....aaaaaaand its dead.

93': Freekick city in Burnley's half. It's over.

96': Full Time. Brendan Rodgers, we believe in you.

We were owed nothing and you have to commend Burnley for their efforts. ONTO BARCA NEXT FOR US.

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