#also first time writing a kook!reader hehe

[nadvs]

heyyy i have a request i think about whenever i go to your profile. about an angst or fluff fic or blurb about your bio(?) “i don’t think your friends will like me” with rafe and (hopefully)kook!reader. (i hope this sparks interest if not its fine <3)

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Your friends were less than thrilled when you told them that you were talking to Rafe, but they held their tongues. Once you started dating him, though, they refused to keep quiet any longer.

He has a bad reputation. He’s known as a psychotic douchebag who gets into a fight at almost every party. And they reminded you of that every time you mentioned him.

You finally snapped one day, telling them that you appreciate the concern, but you’re with Rafe for a reason. They weren’t exactly supportive, but they shut up.

He isn’t all he presents to the outside world. Behind the inflated machismo, Rafe is fun. He’s sweet. He makes you feel like flowers are blooming in your chest every time he looks at you. And nobody can convince you that he’s simply no good.

The country club is loud and bustling, every partygoer dressed in the best, most expensive thing in their closet.

After a month of dating, this is your first time coming to a club party with Rafe as his girlfriend. His hand is at the small of your back as you enter the ornate banquet hall.

You look up at him, smiling at the adorable way he scans the room, the chandelier lights twinkling in the blue of his eyes.

Rafe is out of his element. He usually comes to these things with his buddies, drinks a little too much, and doesn’t give a shit what people think.

But he’s here with you. And the pressure is heavy on his shoulders.

“My friends are over there,” you say, pointing to a table on the far side of the room. You spot a few free seats.

“I don’t think they’ll like me,” he replies, voice low, lips curled up in a nervous smile.

You pivot to face him, hands smoothing over the fabric of his suit jacket.

“Well, I like you,” you say matter-of-factly. Rafe looks down at you with a knitted brows.

“Yeah, for now.” His words leave his mouth before he can even think about them. Rafe glances away, his lips in a nervous, hard line.

“What’s that mean?” you ask softly.

He only shakes his head, an awkward smile on his face.

“Nothin’,” he drawls.

You won’t take that as an answer. Your hand finds his. Rafe loves the feeling of your palm pressed around him as you lead him out of the room you just entered.

Your heels click against the floor as you round the corner into an empty hallway, turning to face him again.

“What’s that mean, Rafe?” you ask again, your eyes deep with concern.

Rafe’s heart is pounding in his ears. He didn’t expect to have this conversation tonight.

It’s been eating away at him. He’s not an idiot. He knows his reputation. And he didn’t care about it until he met you.

“You…” Rafe sighs, looking down at the floor, stuffing his hands in his pockets. He doesn’t even know where to start.

“Yeah?” you ask.

“I know you know what people say about me,” he finally says.

You don’t play dumb. There’s no point.

“And you think I agree?” you say. Rafe steps back, scratching the back of his neck with another sharp exhale.

“You might,” he replies, tone low. You look at him with doubt etched into every one of your features.

“Rafe,” you say with a breathy, disbelieving laugh. “I don’t care what people say. They’re wrong about you.”

He’s not so sure. He can’t control himself at times, anger and aggression pooling out of him. People see that ugly side of him. He can’t deny that that side exists.

“Are they?” he asks. His voice is thin and vulnerable. You haven’t ever seen him like this. “I’m not always like… the way you see me.”

Rafe feels like he’s teetering at the edge of a cliff now, seconds away from falling, from losing you.

“You know that we went to all the same parties before we got together, right?” you chuckle. Rafe meets your eyes again.

You saw him drink himself into oblivion and get into fights and leave parties with a bloodied face and swollen knuckles. Countless times.

“I saw everything and I still want you,” you say. “I don’t give a fuck if people don’t like you.”

Rafe’s chest burns. He almost dropped off the cliffside, but you just pulled him back.

He swallows the lump in his throat and pulls you in, cupping your cheeks to softly kiss you.

He didn’t care what anyone thought about him before. Now, he only cares about what one person thinks. And he’s kissing her and she wants him and that’s all that fucking matters.

[pradabambie]

So sorry if I already requested this, I don’t remember lol. But virgin!reader x Rafe where she wants to do it but she’s scared and he talks her through it please 🫶🏽

thank u for requesting bby! hope u like it!

i kinda got carried away but really wanted to try writing smut for the first time!! please be kind lol, i appreciate constructive criticism!

also just wrote this at two am so sorry if there's any spelling errors hehe

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are you sure? the boy asked for the hundredth time.

it's not like he didn't want to. believe me, he did.

ever since he saw you coming out of the country club pool a couple years ago, the droplets of water adorning your perfect body, it was all he could think about when you were near.

he'd always been after you, and every other girl that threw herself at him was meaningless.

at every house party, every bonfire, every dinner your parents hosted and his family attended, his attention was always directed at you.

and he was a gentleman, of course. your parents loved him, after all, he was the kook prince, the pride of the island.

he never took the first step because he was scared to drive you away, to lose you.

you never expected your first time to be with him.

but here you were, sitting on his bed, hands shaking a little and letting him see right through the ballsy attitude you wanted to show.

yes rafe, i'm sure but your eyes said otherwise.

listen, we don't have to do this, we can watch some tv, or i can even drive you to the mall! the boy insisted.

it's not like you two were dating, just good friends. you had come to him hours prior, with a clear request on your mind: you had selected him to take your virginity.

needless to say he was shocked at the petition, but didn't hesitate and agreed as soon as you finished the sentence.

he'd been waiting for this for a long time, but he wanted it to be right.

it's ok, i can handle it, it's just, first time jitters, ya'know?

but rafe wasn't so convinced.

and as soon as he oppened his mouth to try to change your mind again, you kissed him.

it took him by surprise but was quick to soften into it, as he cupped your face with both hands, deepening the kiss.

everybody told you he was a great kisser, and you never thought much of it untill now.

the timid kiss you initiated escalated into a heated make out session in no time, his hands exploring every inch of your body, lifting your white sundress and getting to the waistband of your pink panties.

you almost automatically pushed his hand away, and broke the kiss to look at him through your eyelashes.

may i? i'll make you feel good, i promise

you slowly nodded, taking your hand away and placing it on top of his shoulder, instead.

moving the delicate clothing out of the way, he slided his finger through your already glistening folds, collecting some moisture and tracing soft and slow circles on your clit.

oh baby, already so wet for me he groaned.

a heavenly sound left your mouth, and went straight to his dick, that was starting to strain against his pants.

as his pace fastened, your need to feel more of him was growing.

r-rafey, can you maybe put a finger in?

it was almost too much for him to hear those words come out of your perfect, pouty lips. your voice trembling and breathy due to the stimulation he was giving you.

you want me to stretch you out baby? huh? say it.

he softly pinched and flicked your clit, barely allowing you to get some words out. but you knew what he wanted to hear.

yes, please stretch me out for you, please rafe.

he couldn't believe his eyes. he had the hottest girl in all the island under him, a moaning mess, begging him to touch her.

he slid his first rough finger in, gaining a loud moan from you as he did so.

you were so fucking tight, he couldn't wait to fill you up.

he struggled to fit in a second, but was finally able to get you to relax after he placed a few sloppy wet kisses on your neck, slowly lowering to the top of your boobs, that were spilling out of your dress.

his fingers curled inside you, reaching an undiscovered place and making you feel a kind of pleasure you never felt before.

your pussy squeezing him tightly, he could feel you were close, and suddenly pulls out both fingers, your whinings following at this unexpected loss of contact.

m'kay baby, i need to get inside you now.

[btsgotjams27]

this is us ~ jjk | 19

✨ title: this is us | (sequel to all grown up) ✨ pairing: jungkook x f!reader | ✨ rating: m/18+ | minors dni ✨ genre/au: drama, romance, angst, fluff, smut | est!relationship, age gap, best friend's younger brother ✨ playlist | ✨ if you haven't read the prequel to this, please do so here! :) ✨ a/n: y'all, we're getting closer and closer to the ending of their story :( :( there's one last chapter and an epilogue T_T i'm sorry that it took so long to get this chapter out. i was stuck on it for the longest time bc ya know, i suuuuck at writing seggsy things, but i hope y'all enjoy it anyway. there were a few words left for me to use, so you'll see them in bold (we also have one more line, but we'll save that until the end hehe. iykyk). and as always, please like, reblog, scream (or not) at me, send me asks. i love it all. i hope you're all doing well.

[ SERIES MASTERLIST ] | next ✨ 20 ~ ending credits

chapter nineteen ~ together again | wc: 9.7k warnings: we’re back to fluffy, domestic shit 😭 (finally), they love and miss each other so much, again—lots of talking and conversations (with yoongi, yuna, namjoon), bamie is a big boy and goes on a flight, lots of hugs, kisses, touching (what else is new), our TIU babies are being grown ass adults and sharing their feelings (whutttt—who are they? like the character growth? i’m sobbing), references to jk’s weverse lives, mentions of death, language smut warnings: i am sorry (not sorry) for all the seven references, protected sex (they haven’t been with anyone else since they broke up, but they’re being safe, and to our surprise, it’s kook’s suggestion), jk is a lil dommy, use of lube, dirty talk, oral (f. receiving), fingering (from the front and behind—don’t judge me), titty sucking, kissing, groping, overstimulation (i blame his weverse live), one small convo during seggs, a lil pussy slapping, lil spanks, light light light anal play (don’t judge me—he just puts his thumb on it….), jk wants to savor every moment with oc, but she's needy af

~ Three weeks later ~

The Netflix meeting in LA was a bust, but you wouldn’t let it bring you down. At least Kenji was courteous enough to call you and apologize about his friend. He thought he was doing you a favor but hadn’t realized how slimy Zach was.

The brunch tradition continued with Hyunie, Tae, and Yoongi, but this time, Hyunie didn’t want to host and suggested going out. You didn’t mind at all. It would be nice to get out of the house and get some fresh air.

And as usual, the married couple was running late. You greeted Yoongi, taking a seat beside him. His hair had grown a significant amount since you last saw him. It suited him well, you thought.

“Nice ring,” he said, gawking at the diamond-encrusted jewelry on your fourth finger.

You still needed to get used to it—sometimes, you forgot you had it on. “Oh, thanks,” you mumbled, tucking your hand underneath your thigh. This was the first time you saw Yoongi since leaving for LA, and you were sure he would crack down on what happened.

“I’m guessing you didn’t want to live with the ‘what ifs’ and called lover boy.” He smirked, and a light chuckle left his lips. Honestly, he called it—knew you couldn’t resist, was too lovesick over him just to give up so easily.

“Actually, I didn’t call him. We kind of just—found each other.” And you weren’t lying! You didn’t reach out to him, had no idea you’d bump into him.

Yoongi holds the butter knife upright in his hand, pushing the tip into the blush pink napkin. “Found each other, huh?” he said with disbelief laced in his tone as he looked at you.

You hummed in agreement when your eyes met his. He slowly nodded, not believing a word coming out of your mouth.

“What?” you asked, annoyed at your friend.

He shrugged, putting the butter knife down. “I didn’t say anything.”

You deadpanned. “You didn’t have to. Your face said it all.”

Before your LA trip, you were wavering between what to do and ultimately decided not to call Jungkook. It wasn’t your fault you happened to be at the same hotel at the same time. One might call it destiny.

He wanted to humor you. “Okay—what did my face say then?”

You gawked at him. “That you think I’m dumb for going back to someone who cheated on me.”

“Damn, I’m kind of harsh,” he laughed.

You pursed your lips and nudged his shoulder. “Just be happy for me.”

Yoongi scoffed. “I didn’t say anything, and you’re putting words into my mouth.” You wave him off. “Didn’t I tell you that whatever decision you made would be the right one? You obviously chose one way, and the universe chose another.”

You couldn’t help but dramatically gasp, hand on your chest. “Does Min Yoongi believe in destiny? What’ve you done with the grumpy grandpa persona?”

His upper lip raises in annoyance. “He didn’t go anywhere. He’s still here.” He straightens his blueberry milk grandpa-colored cardigan.

“I can’t wait for you to meet him,” you said, sipping your water. Yoongi doesn’t say anything. He just grunts. “You’ll like him; you will.” He grunts again, finally breaking into a smile.

“I’m happy for you. I’m glad you guys are back together.”

“You are?”

“Yeah, so I can fucking stop hearing about you complain and be all googly eyes for him all the time.”

You playfully shove him. “Shut up. I did not talk about him that much.”

“You shut up, and yes, you did,” Yoongi spat back, cocking his head.

The two of you continued to bicker, nudging and shoving until Kim Taehyung interrupted, “Yah, yah, yah! What are you two fighting about?”

“Nothing!” The two of you said in unison.

If there was one person’s opinion you came to respect within the last year, it was Yoongi’s. You appreciated that he was always willing to listen, even though you sometimes felt he didn’t want to—regardless, he was still a good friend and did it anyway. You loved how straightforward he was and didn’t have many friends who could be gentle, supportive, and direct. You were happy he had unexpectedly come into your life when you needed someone the most.

The remote had become your best friend these last few days. You didn’t want to start a new drama in case it disappointed you, so you opted for your favorite: Start-Up.

Almost a year later, not having watched it. You had forgotten how much it made you kick your feet, giggle, and cry an ocean of tears. Rewatching these episodes just made you fall more in love with Bae Suzy and Nam Joo-hyuk, and maybe you were feeling all mushy gushy because you and Jungkook rekindled your romance.

The tissue you had in hand had become damp when you wiped away your tears again. It was the fifth one, and you were only halfway through the episode when your phone started buzzing.

When you saw ‘boyfie’ light up on the screen, you wiped any mascara that smudged and fixed your hair before answering. You didn’t want him thinking you were crying because of him.

“Hello?”

The screen is fairly dim from Jungkook’s end. All you could hear was him groaning before he croaked out a ‘hi.’

You giggled, checking the time on your phone. “Isn’t it early for you?”

“Too early,” he replied, carding his hand through his fluffy hair to get a better look at you. He moves the phone closer, narrowing his eyes. “Are you crying? Why are you crying?” He shifted into an upright position against the headboard.

“I’m just watching Start-Up. I promise. No one made me cry.” He had a look of relief on his face before he slumped down onto his pillow. “Kook, go back to sleep. I’ll talk to you later.”

Jungkook shook his head and pouted. “I’m fine, baby. I missed you. That’s why I called.” He slumped further down the bed, pulling the duvet underneath his chin. “I’m pretending this blanket is you.” He nuzzled his face into it.

He missed you that much, huh? Well, you missed him and couldn’t wait to be with him again. You didn’t know how people could have long distance relationships, three weeks was really too long for anyone to be apart.

“You’re such a dummy.”

“Your dummy?” he asks with a close-lipped smile.

You hummed. “My dummy.”

Seeing Jungkook so cozy and snuggled up made you want to do the same. You grabbed a throw blanket that was settled into a basket next to the couch. Your attention went back to Jungkook, who looked like he had fallen asleep. You rolled your eyes because you had told him just to sleep.

“Boyfie?”

Jungkook groaned and inhaled a deep breath before popping up with sleepy eyes. “Yeah, baby?”

You weren’t going to lie. Him calling you baby and you calling him boyfie was making your insides all tangled up. “Go to sleep. Dream some good dreams, okay?”

“My dream is right in front of me. I don’t need to dream.”

You shifted your position, leaning back on a throw pillow, legs spread across the couch. “Were you always this cheesy?”

“Only when I’m with you,” he mumbled into the blanket again as he dozed off.

At this point, you were happy you didn’t have anything lined up for you because your new job was making sure this baby star candy didn’t fall asleep with a candle lit or something. But good thing you also had Bamie on your side. He would surely come to the rescue of his owner and their crazy antics.

“Baby,” he grumbled, looking at his screen.

You answer softly, ‘Yeah’, snuggling yourself into the blanket, the little screen of your boyfie in front of you.

“I put in my two weeks' notice at work and told my landlord about breaking my lease.”

He had discussed moving back, and you felt guilty for him having to do so. It would’ve been easier for you to move out there, granted, LA was the place to live if you wanted more writing opportunities, but he insisted he wanted to be near family and friends.

“I feel bad,” you admit.

Jungkook perks up, shifting against his headboard again. “What? Why? Please don’t feel bad. I want to move back.”

“I know, but I feel like I’m taking you away from your life, and then you have to bring Bamie on such a long flight too, then you’ll have to start over—find a new job, a new place.” You could continue listing many things, but you decided to stop overthinking.

“I’m not worried about finding a new job. I’ll probably talk to my old boss and see if they have anything open for me. And in terms of a new place, I could just stay with you.”

You visibly gulped when he said that. “Like move in with me?”

Jungkook pouts, nervously toying with his lip ring. “Do you not want that?” he asked with apprehension in his voice.

“I, um, I mean, don’t you think my place is too small for Bam?” You have had your apartment for the longest time since graduating college. Even when you were with Kenji and U-jin, you were always at their place because it was bigger, but when you were with Jungkook, it always felt like home, just big enough for the two of you, and you didn’t think Bamie would like how small your place was. He was a big pup and deserved something better than your dinky little apartment.

“We could just get a new place together,” Jungkook suggested nonchalantly, like there was no weight to his words.

You squint your eyes. “Jeon Jungkook, is this your subtle way of asking me to move in with you?”

Jungkook chuckled. “I can’t get anything past you, huh? But yes, it makes sense, right?” He had been sitting on the thought since discussing wanting to move back. It wouldn’t make sense to go back and forth between two apartments.

“I mean, yeah, you were practically living here anyway, and I’d want Bamie to have someplace where he could have more space.” Bamie was a big boy, and you wanted him to be comfortable too.

“So,” Jungkook’s smile grew, “We’re moving in together?”

You stared blankly at your boyfie. “You technically didn’t ask me yet.”

He cleared his throat. “Babe, baby, sweetheart, the love of my life. Will you move in with me?”

Love of his life, hmm? You could get used to him saying that. You sighed. “I don’t know. You’re kind of a messy guy,” you teased.

Jungkook scoffed. “Me? Messy? Have you seen my apartment? It’s spotless—”

“Kook! I’m kidding. I know you’re the cleaning and laundry fairy—and yes, I would love to move in with you.” You knew moving in with Jungkook would mean you wouldn’t be allowed to clean or do your own laundry again. But that was a good trade-off, right?

He giggled, slumping from his sitting position onto his side. “I can’t wait. This’ll be so much fun.”

Although Jungkook had slept at your place almost 24/7 when you were together, you wouldn’t be aware of his late-night cooking and karaoke sessions until much later.

You purse your lips and roll your eyes. “I’ll start looking for places today, so everything will be ready by the time you arrive.”

“Perfect.”

Moving in together was a big step, and you didn’t want to overanalyze this choice. If you and Jungkook were still together, you figured at one point or another, the natural progression in a relationship would be to move in. This decision felt good, it felt right.

You were moving the last of your boxes, ensuring everything would go smoothly before Jungkook and Bamie’s arrival. Your phone ringtone goes off; of course, it’s the boyfie.

“Hey,” you answered. “What’s going on? Is everything okay?”

“Yeah, I, um, I couldn’t sleep, so I called.”

You knew he had an early flight returning to Seoul in a few hours and wondered why he was still up. “Too excited, hmm?” you chuckled.

His soft chuckle made it seem like something else was on his mind. “Something like that.”

“I’m kidding, boyfie. Tell me what’s on your mind,” you asked as you sat on the floor against the empty white wall. The apartment seemed spacious with nothing in it but you and a few boxes.

Jungkook sighed. “This is gonna sound stupid.”

“Come on, you can tell me. We talked about being open, right?”

“Um, remember when you were here, and we were talking, and you said you almost let someone you know in a bathroom?”

You didn’t mean to laugh aloud, but you couldn’t help it. “That’s what’s keeping you up? A distant memory of me almost sleeping with some guy?” You shuddered thinking about that moment–boy, you were really unhappy, weren’t you? But you understood where he was coming from, though. You were sure he was just curious.

“Yeah…”

“You’re adorable,” you teased, shaking your head and wanting to kiss him through the phone.

“Shut it,” he grumbled, burying his face into his duvet.

“You’re so cute. I just wanna pinch your cheeks. I’ll be sure to do so when you get here. My cutie patootie wittle bunny is jealous I almost slept with someone,” you giggled. You always knew Jungkook was the jealous type. He wouldn’t even let Namjoon help you with peeling a perilla leaf–what a weirdo.

“Okay—I’m hanging up now,” he said.

“No, no, no. I’m kidding. What about it?” His little spurt of jealousy was too hard not to joke about.

“Um, have you slept with anyone else since we broke up?”

“No,” you answered quickly. Even if you wanted to, your mind and heart was full of Jeon Jungkook and no one else would even be able to take your mind off him. “He was the closest thing to me sleeping with anyone, but other than that, I haven’t slept with anyone. What about you?”

“Oh, no—you were my last,” he says confidently, like it was a flex.

“Oh—” It’s not like you were expecting him to say Alex, but you were expecting him to say Alex. It only made sense since you thought she was a big reason for him leaving. You had convinced yourself he had run back to her.

“What?” he asked, piquing his interest.

“Oh, I don’t know. I just thought—”

“You just thought I would’ve slept with someone?” There were plenty of opportunities at company functions or when he was out with Jimin and Lana, but it just didn’t feel the same for him. He didn’t want a one night stand. He wanted to be in love, have one person consume every single fiber of his being, overtake him, and if none of them were you, then no one could have him.

You didn’t want to name names and Jungkook already mentioned that Alex left the company. “I don’t know. I mean, yeah, have you seen yourself in the mirror?” Obviously, you wanted to jump his bones the moment you saw him in LA, and it was so fucking hard not to tempt him into staying at the hotel with you that night.

He laughed. “Well, I just hope that means I can fuck you when I see you,” he confessed, licking his lips and winking.

“Jeon Jungkook!”

“What? I know you’re thinking the same thing. You’re the one that wanted to tear off my clothes.”

Now you wish you didn’t say anything to him about that. You mumbled something indistinct, not clear enough for him to hear. “Good god—”

“Oh, don’t tell me you haven’t been thinking about my dick in your tight little cunt,” he said in such a confident tone.

You gasped because cocky, bratty Jungkook was back and in full swing. “Okay—goodbye—go to sleep! You have a long day of travel ahead of you!”

Jungkook couldn’t help getting in a few last words. “I can’t wait to put my mouth on your—”

You quickly ended the video call. Your pussy clenched around nothing, just thinking about Jungkook being inside you again, having his lips on your waist, his hands tracing your lines. Fuck. You might just have to break out the vibrator tonight.

Not a moment later, you received a text.

boyfie 11:35 PM you didn’t let me finish…

you 11:35 PM i’ll let you show me when you get here.

you 11:36 PM goodnight! see you soon.

Jungkook gazed at the airport’s glossy marble flooring, staring off into space while holding a bouquet of white and yellow chamomile. His flight landed earlier than expected, and picking up Bam from baggage claim was effortless. He sat in a trance, wanting to pinch himself. Was this real? Was he sitting at Incheon airport waiting for you to pick him up?

He must’ve done something good in his past life, had an angel looking out for him, or after making wishes on shooting stars, his own finally aligned back to you.

How he missed home so much. The familiarity of the city was indelible. No way to remove it from his body–he was made for Seoul.

Bam sat beside Jungkook, waiting patiently, watching people pass them by. He would show excitement whenever Jungkook mentioned your name–his tail wagging, tongue out, and panting. He was just as eager as Jungkook to see you again.

You cursed the car that took your spot even though you had signaled, indicating you were there first, but you wanted to avoid getting into an accident or tussle before picking up Jungkook and Bamie–it was the last thing you wanted.

When you walked through the sliding glass doors and up the escalators, there he was, Jeon Jungkook—the love of your life, the one who made your heart flutter, the one you couldn’t live without. He was here in the flesh, and this wasn’t a dream you’d have to wake up from.

You stood, not moving an inch, wanting to capture this moment. The pair of you had gone through so much to get to where you are, and mistakes were made along the way, but you believed the best was yet to come.

He was sitting, daydreaming like usual, with a bouquet in hand, and when he finally broke out of his daze, he stood, grinning from ear to ear like an idiot in love. Bam stood on all fours looking up at Jungkook, waiting to see if he’d give him the okay to go toward you, but Jungkook never did.

The two of you stood smiling and smitten, enamored, being in this place of a love that was never lost but only put on pause. It was like a scene out of a movie, where the long, lost lovers finally reunite and get their happy ending.

You raced to him, jumping into his arms, making him drop the bouquet. Cupping his face, you placed kisses all over. All the while, Bam barked in excitement at the sight of you.

“Someone’s excited to see me,” he said, tightening his grip around your waist.

“You have no idea.” You leaned down, capturing his lips with yours, pulling him closer, inhaling all of him, wanting to give yourself as an offering, but remembering that you were still in public and it’d have to wait.

Bam whined, looking up with his big doe eyes. Jungkook set you down. You kneeled to him, cupping his cute face. “I didn’t forget about you, Bamie,” you said before he licked your face.

You stood to kiss Jungkook again, wrapping your arms around his neck, not giving two fucks who was around or if anyone was watching. The love of your life was back, and no one could stop you from showing your devotion to him.

“God–I missed you. These last few weeks have been torture.” You’d spend every waking minute thinking about what he was doing, counting down every second until you’d see him again.

Jungkook giggled. “I could get used to this. You telling me how much you love and miss me.” He quite liked the attention and affection.

You suppose you were never the type to show this much adoration in public, but you were ready to stand on top of a building and shout to the entire world how much you loved this man. Be one of those girlfriends who captured every moment of their partner and gushed about them on social media during every made-up romantic holiday.

“I love you,” you whispered, your chin digging into his chest as you looked at him.

He hummed. “I thought I’d never hear that again,” he admitted. Since leaving for LA, he had given up hearing those three words from you.

“You’ll hear it as long as you’ll have me.”

Jungkook pulled back, both hands gently cupping your face, his starry eyes staring into yours. With a soft smile, he uttered, “I want you forever.”

Blindfolds had become a running joke between you, and you couldn’t help but continue the silly tradition. You wanted to surprise Jungkook with the new apartment, and blindfolding him was the only way to keep this secret, right?

Jungkook shuffled down the hallway, his hands out in case he ran into anything, and Bam followed his parents, tilting his head at the curious pair. Bam alarmed Jungkook by barking when he almost ran into the door.

When everyone was through the threshold, you took off his blindfold, ready for him to hopefully love this new place where you’d be creating new memories together.

Jungkook’s jaw dropped, peering around the room—from the floor to the ceiling to the sliding glass door leading to the balcony. He knew you made some good money but not this good.

“How—how did you find this place? It couldn’t have been cheap, baby.” He walked around the living room, picking up a frame that held a photo of you, him, Yuna, and Namjoon at their wedding. It was one of your first photos together as a couple.

“I know someone,” you said, wiggling your eyebrows.

When you mentioned having to look for a new place to the brunch crew, Yoongi swooped in to save the day because he had a friend who was a realtor, and they happened to have a vacant place ready for move-in.

“Are you sure we can afford this place?” he asked.

You chuckled at his hesitancy. “I got a good deal on it. Don’t worry.” Jungkook narrowed his eyes and huffed. “Come on, let me show you around,” you said, holding your hand.

This place was enticing due to the enclosed balcony, nearby restaurants and shopping, plus the orangeade lavender skies at dusk pretty much sealed the deal for you.

You had set up the perfect little area for Bam, ensuring it would feel like home with cozy new toys and his favorite chews. He didn’t even make a fuss and walked straight into his crate, snuggling up in his soft blanket.

“Well, that was easy,” you tease, thinking it’d be harder for him to adjust. But maybe the jet lag took a toll on the big guy.

“I’m gonna shower. Wash the long day off of me,” Jungkook said, leaning over to kiss you on the cheek. You uttered a soft ‘kay,’ letting him go on his way.

While he was singing away in the shower, enjoying the warm steam from the waterfall shower head, you were running around the bedroom to find the perfect outfit for bed. You didn’t know his plans, but you were ready to fuck him—every hour, every minute, every second for the next seven days. Anything was possible with Jeon Jungkook.

Sitting on the edge of the bed, you had finally chosen your outfit. It was minimal and easily discardable. Jungkook opened the bathroom door, ruffling his damp hair with a white towel, beads of water falling onto his honey skin, trailing down the expanse of his broad chest toward that silver piece of jewelry still pierced into his nipple. It took a moment for him to realize you were ogling him.

Your eyes never left his as he walked to you, sitting so prettily on the bed in one of his oversized t-shirts with nothing but lacy panties underneath. Pointing your toes, you swiveled your feet in front of you, pretending to play dumb, your hands leaning back on the bed. “So…”

You feel the softness of the white towel hanging so fucking low on his slutty waist when he knocks into your knees, spreading your legs apart. Your desire grows when you feel the heat radiating off his leg—it pierces straight to your core.

He tucked a strand of hair behind your ear. You closed your eyes, letting out a small breath as you leaned into his touch. His fingers softly grazed your cheek, scanning your features, thinking how beautiful you are. “So—what should we do now?” he asked, lifting your chin so you could focus on him.

Your eyes flutter open, peering through your lashes at this drop-dead gorgeous man. With a small grin, you asked, “Mm, I don’t know. What should we do?” Your hands flew to the towel, tugging it so his waist was more visible. Leaning forward, you pressed your lips to his waist, hoping it would ease his mind, alluding to what you wanted–him.

Jungkook’s hands become entangled in your hair as you gently unravel the towel from his body and trail kisses toward his navel. His heart races, his skin tingling all over his body when your lips lead further to his growing erection.

Just as he thinks you’ll continue, you cease all contact, flashing a smirk as you look at him. “Weren’t you gonna show me what you were gonna put your mouth on?” you teased, licking your lips.

He grinned, leaning down, forcing you to lay on the bed, legs spread as he slotted between them. The warmth from his body radiated as he hovered, his hand gripping your waist and the other propping himself up. He couldn’t wait to explore you again, wondering if you were still ticklish when he kissed your shoulders or if he traced your lines, would your skin create goosebumps from his touch?

“Are you gonna show me or just stare at me all night?”

“Both,” he said, kissing your lips, then your cheek, trailing down the column of your neck. He slid his hand underneath the oversized shirt covering what he wanted, pushing it up to reveal the black lacy panties and your bare chest. You helped him by pulling the shirt over your head, exposing your naked body to his lust-filled eyes. Hands traveling across the expanse of your stomach to your breast, rolling your nipple between his fingers. His tattooed hand kneads the soft mound, eyes never leaving you.

As he advances to the already wet mess between your legs, your body arches into him. You had been thinking about fucking him all day and even felt tempted to pull out your vibrator, but who fucking needs that when you have Jeon Jungkook to get the job done?

His eyes flickered up, and he wasn’t doing much to you, but he had missed hearing your sweet gasps and whimpers.

The anticipation of what he’s gonna do has you spiraling into a deep abyss, and you’d keep falling if he didn’t bring you back. His lips pressed kisses into your thighs, his hands spreading your legs wider to access that pretty pussy he’d missed so much. If he could, he’d spend hours exploring, teasing, and riling you up, but as much as you needed a release, so did he.

Jungkook spent too many sleepless nights thinking about you. How you’d wrap your legs around him, whine and moan as you rode him, his hands guiding you, spanking you, gripping each and every part of you.

“Kook,” you mewled, almost out of breath. He looked up and hummed. “Do you even remember what I like?” you teased him.

He chuckled. “Let me show you how well I remember.” His finger toyed with the lacy fabric, looping through, pulling it higher to see your pussy peeking through it. “Fuck—I can’t wait to taste this pussy again.” He was practically salivating. His cock is so fucking hard he swears he would come if his mouth touched your lips.

He kissed the spot just above your clit, making your body squirm beneath him. Moving your panties to the side, he spread your folds with his fingers. His wet, warm tongue lay flat, licking from your entrance to your clit. Gently, he sucked on the nub, switching between sucking and licking. Repeating this over and over. Every lick, every suck, every kiss dissolves pleasure into your body.

You could feel your arousal mixed with his saliva dripping down your ass and onto your sheets. You may have to change them out seven days a week if he keeps going like this. Your hands raked through his hair, tugging him closer into your pussy, wanting more of him.

Jungkook pulled away, making you groan at the loss. “Turn around, baby.” You do as he asked, flipping onto your stomach. He admires your backside, drooling at your arousal and his saliva glistening between your legs. His hands tug off the lacy panties, tossing them aside with no care in the world. Now your ass was on full display, ready for him to pounce on and devour like the starved man he is.

He crawls onto the bed, gingerly sitting on your legs. His hands knead and massage the soft flesh of your cheeks. He leans down, kissing your shoulders, making you shudder and whimper as he trails more kisses. His hand reaches underneath you to squeeze your breast, his other hand moving toward your entrance. Jungkook inserts his middle finger, causing a soft groan from you.

“You think you can handle one more?” he whispered into your ear, and you hum in agreement. When he inserts another finger, you muffle your moan into the bed. He moves your hair out of the way. “Mm—I need to hear you, baby.”

“Please,” you begged, trying to rut back onto his fingers. “Please, I need more.”

“I don’t remember you being so needy, baby,” Jungkook teased as he lay beside you. He wanted to watch you come undone because of him. His palm makes a sharp sound against your ass as his fingers curl harder and deeper into your pussy. He’s in knuckle deep, and you’re nothing but a moaning, whining mess. You squeezed your eyes tight, mouth slack, small gasps escaping every time his fingers fuck you harder.

Jungkook removes his fingers from your entrance, gliding back and forth along your slit, just teasing you, wanting you to fucking beg. But he wouldn’t be so mean—he just wanted to take his time with you. Letting every single sensation you had not felt in over a year just wash over you, send you into another plane, another dimension. He wanted your vision to fade to black, let this orgasm be earth-shattering, explosive, making you never forget only he could make you feel this way. No other person would ever come between you again. He’d die before he’d let someone else have you. You were his and his only. He wouldn’t make the mistake of not fighting for you again.

He crawled further toward your ass, pushing your cheeks together so he could slot his hefty dick in between. The sensation makes Jungkook release a guttural groan. He had no fucking idea why he was also teasing himself at this point. He needed to feel his cock being squeezed by your tight walls. Needed to feel like he couldn’t live another day without being inside you.

His leaking tip unexpectedly slips, brushing against your entrance as he’s gliding. The two of you whine in unison at the softest touch. You just want to beg and plead, asking him to fuck you already, but knowing him, he’d tease you even more, prolonging what you really wanted. You’d just have to play along and let him do what he wants—you preferred it anyway.

Jungkook’s tattooed hand guides your waist to shift your position onto your back again. He couldn’t not look at you. Wanted to see you writhe, squirm, fall apart. His fingers are like a magnet, going straight to your pussy. Not one, two, but three fingers inside your cunt, stretching you out, getting you ready for him. You almost think you can’t take it anymore. It’s been too long since you’ve felt him inside you.

He hovers over you again, marking your neck, his free hand fondling your tit, thumb circling your pebbled nipple. All your senses go into overload when he envelopes your other nipple, licking and lapping like there’s no tomorrow. He trails kisses down your center, navel, then to your clit, sucking on it. Switching between circling and making figure 8s, all the while finger fucking you. He looks up, and you’re a mess, just like his saliva dripping down his chin and down to your ass. It’s a lewd show of how much he’s missed your pussy, like it was designed specifically for him.

You clench around his fingers, everything becoming too much for you. Your hands are balling up the sheets as he elicits moan after moan. Lifting your hips off the bed, you rut forward into his hungry mouth. “I’m gonna come.”

Jungkook pulls away and smiles. “I know, baby.” He always knows when you’re close. He could never forget.

Your moan grows louder and louder as he intensifies his speed. The fire pooling in your belly is ready to snap. He had been teasing you for too long, and you couldn’t take it anymore. A surge of waves ripple through your body. You’re quivering, knees shaking, closing in on Jungkook’s head, but he just goes deeper, not stopping. Your pussy is pulsing as he continues to overstimulate you.

You gently push him away, and he tries to go back in. “You thought I was done?” You whine and pout, closing your legs, trying to close off access to you. “I’m not done with you yet,” he said, pulling you toward him. “Just one more baby, you can do it.”

You’re still trying to settle yourself from the first orgasm. You don't know if you can handle another, but you don’t deny him. You’ll just be a crumbling mess throughout the rest of the night.

Jungkook pushes your legs up and buries his head between them again. Your body jolts at the first touch of his lips on your swollen clit. He laps between your folds, and you guide his hand toward your hole, to his surprise. You look down, and his doe eyes are wide, silently asking are you sure? You nod and smile—you know he’s wanted to for the longest time. Reaching the bedside table, you open the drawer handing him a bottle of lube.

He looks between your legs; this is everything he’s wanted. He would live here if he could, set up camp, and never leave. He squeezes a small amount onto his fingers, spreading the lube around your hole. Jungkook’s thumb is pressed lightly onto your hole, causing you to mewl. And as much as he’s wanted this and even dreamt too often about it, maybe he just liked the thought of playing with your hole.

“What’s wrong?” you asked when he stopped. You didn’t think you’d enjoy anything related to anal play, but here you were, relishing in the new sensation. It was definitely something you’d want to explore further with him.

“I, uh, you caught me off guard,” he responds.

You chuckled, never thought you could surprise Jeon Jungkook. “You don’t have to put your finger in, but I like having your thumb against it.”

“You do?”

You hummed. “It feels really good. You can just keep doing that. We can try butt stuff another time after we’ve talked about it more.” There was a look of relief on Jungkook’s face. It was good to know you could still find ways to surprise him.

“I’m sorry,” he confessed.

You shake your head. “Don’t be sorry, boyfie. Come on, I thought you said you weren’t done with me.”

Jungkook grinned, lifting your legs over his shoulders. He dives back in, licking a stripe from your entrance to your clit. He kissed your clit, and then like you wanted, he put his thumb on your hole, causing you to gasp, squeezing your eyes shut at the lightest pressure against it. Your heart pounds obscenely in your chest. Your hands card through his hair, becoming entangled, pushing him further into your pussy.

His warm, wet tongue ravishes this delicacy he’s been missing for over a year. His nose nuzzled into your clit as his tongue delved into your entrance. The combination of his mouth, tongue, nose, and thumb is sending shockwaves to the rest of your body. Your legs are shaking, becoming weaker minute by minute as he continues. You’re intoxicated, dizzy by his devotion to making you collapse.

Jungkook groans against your pussy when he feels your walls contracting. You bite back a moan, knowing you’re close to reaching your peak. You set your legs down when he pulls away, inserting two fingers into your pussy. Saliva is running down his chin, but he doesn’t give a fuck. He has a smug smile on his face as he makes eye contact with you. You’re so delectable. He could spend hours just like this.

“You gonna cum for me, baby?” he questions while working his way up to you. He’s still knuckling deep in your cunt, wet sounds filling the room. He hovers, leaning down to kiss you. You can taste and smell yourself on him, which pushes you over the edge.

He places his forehead against yours, eyes still open, watching as your hand travels to stimulate your clit, rubbing it in circles to speed along the process. Second orgasms always took a lot longer for you to reach.

Jungkook nuzzles into your neck, mouth latched onto your neck, licking and sucking subtle marks. It’s to show the rest of the world you’re his. All the while, your pussy is swallowing his fingers. You’re on the brink of losing all dignity, all composure. The fire in your belly finds its release as your walls spasm and contract around his fingers. Your legs are trembling and quaking beneath Jungkook, an overwhelming sensation floods from the top of your head to the tip of your toes. You’re seeing galaxies overtaking your existence as you finish.

As the pleasure subsides, you try to catch your breath. Jesus Christ, you haven’t even had his dick in you yet, and you’re already wiped out.

Looking over, Jungkook is lying beside you, very pleased with himself for making you come twice already. He turns to you, “Condom?”

You shook your head. “Want you raw.”

Jungkook raised his brow. “Baby,” he trailed off. Of course, considering your last scare and health issues, he wanted to feel all of you. He didn’t want to take any risks because the two of you were horny.

He gazed into your eyes. “Condom,” he said firmly. You groaned and pouted, reaching back into the side table drawer for the box of condoms. He couldn’t help but giggle. He had surely missed your eagerness to tempt him otherwise.

You didn’t think you’d find yourself back with Jungkook. You thought destiny had different plans, but everything that happened last year led you back to him. The two of you were different now—more grown up, actually talking and communicating like adults. Telling each other your wants and needs, and you really need him right now.

You’re watching his every move as he rips off the foil, his biceps flexing while rolling the condom on. “Boyfie, what’s taking so long?”

Jungkook smirks, making his way on all four towards you. He props his arms, hovering over you. He can’t believe how beautiful you are, how much he’s missed your touch, your body, the beautiful sounds you make because of him.

He brings his erect cock to your entrance, brushing against your pussy, making you whimper. He slides up and down between your folds, your arousal coating him generously. He watches as your eyes roll back, your mouth slack, soft whines escaping your sweet mouth. He holds his length, slapping it against your sensitive bud.

“Kook, please,” you plead, opening your eyes. You’ve waited long enough.

He places himself in front of your entrance. Your pussy is soaked and slick, ready to go. He gently pushes in the tip, barely scratching your walls, and he pulls out, repeating this torture until you’re squirming, writhing, pulling the sheets. You have to bite your bottom lip to not let out a sob.

Jungkook leaned down. “Wanna hear you beg for it,” he whispered into your ear before biting on your earlobe. His tip is positioned at your sex, ready to penetrate, but not before he has you whining, pleading, imploring for his dick.

You cupped his face, gazing into those starry doe eyes, pulling him down for a kiss. You don’t feel like begging again. Instead, you’d rather make him melt. “I love you, Jeon Jungkook.”

As much as he was so fucking horny at this moment. Those three words would completely destroy him in his most vulnerable state.

“I love you too,” he repeats your words.

He decided enough was enough, and there was nothing else to do but actually fuck you. He watches your face overtaken by pleasure as he pushes in, stretching you inch by inch.

Fuck—you forgot how fucking big he was and how full he made you feel. Jungkook thrusts slowly, looking down as his dick disappears into your soaked cunt. He takes your tit in your mouth again, licking and flicking. Then he props himself onto his knees, shifting you forward, raising your legs to rest on his shoulders so he could penetrate deeper. Your tits shimmy in sync with his thrusts.

Jungkook bites down on his lip. “God, I missed this. Missed you—this pussy—always so fucking tight for me.” He continued rutting into you persistently before he halted.

Your head pops up, your arms propped on the bed. “Is everything okay?” Maybe he hadn’t fucked in so long. You were wearing him out.

He smiled. “Yeah—I just—I’m enjoying this a little too much. I don’t wanna come yet.” He leaned to kiss you.

“Can I be on top?”

He showed off a bunny smile. Low-key, he loves it when you’re on top. “Be my guest.”

He sets your legs down on the bed, and he happily lays against the headboard, his cock softening just a bit. You straddle his legs, hands reaching for his cock, stroking to make him erect. You eased yourself onto him, the stretch filling you up. You began rolling your hips in a fluid motion, slowly and provocatively. You could feel sweat developing behind your knees and on the nape of your neck, but at this point, you didn’t care; you’d fuck him all night if you needed to.

Jungkook props himself up, eyes filled with lust as he watches you riding him. You hold onto his shoulders for leverage, throwing your head back. You continue rolling your hips back and forth, letting every inch of his dick leave your pussy, only to put right back in. He grabs your waist, putting more pressure between you.

“Fuck—that’s good, baby, just like that,” he encouraged as he bit down on his lip, eyes focused on your pussy swallowing his cock. His tattooed hand spanks your ass, the sound reverberating throughout the room and the lewd sounds of hips snapping against each other.

You flashed a smile as your head was lolled back, and he repeated it again. Another hard spank. Your tits are in his full view, and he can’t help but reach for it, pinching the hardened nub. Leaning forward, your lips latch onto his neck, sucking and marking him. His arms wrapped around you as he began to thrust from underneath, his dick almost slipping out from the lust-filled frenzy of his movements.

You’re flush against him, chest to chest, holding onto his shoulders for dear life as he rams hastily from below. Your gasps and moans encourage him to reach for his climax.

God, he fucking wishes he could have you raw, but you guys would have to discuss that at a different time. All he wanted at this moment was to find his sweet release.

His hands are gripped tightly onto the soft flesh of your cheeks, making you stroke his dick back and forth. His teeth are digging into his bottom lips, ready to bleed at this point.

“Come for me, Kook,” you urged.

His cheeks are burning, his heart racing beneath you. The muscles in his abdomen tighten, heat spreading under his skin. With one last thrust, he emptied himself into the condom. His chest is heaving. His breath is shattered as he lets out a whispered, fuck.

The two of you smile like complete idiots when you hold yourself up to look at him. You pull yourself off to lay beside him.

He turns to you. “Wanna go again?”

You playfully smack him across the chest. “Don’t you dare come near me.”

“Aw, come on, one more time for me.”

You shook your head. “I swear to God, Jeon Jungkook—you really will be the death of me.”

The night before felt like a fever dream. Your body aches everywhere, even in places you didn’t know existed. But you loved the familiar weight of Jungkook’s tattooed arm draped over you. You definitely didn’t mind that.

You flip over to see the big sleeping baby. His light snores and whistling are music to your ears. His wavy, disheveled hair asks you to run your hands through it. The little freckles on his cheek are like a constellation guide, waiting for your fingers to trace and place kisses.

You lean in, kissing his nose, and he doesn’t budge. You do it again, this time lightly biting it too. He grumbles, removing his arm to tuck under the pillow.

Shifting closer, you wanted to wake him up. “Boyfie,” you whisper, inching forward. With his eyes closed, he hums. “Are you up?” He doesn’t respond and hums again.

Jungkook opted to sleep shirtless and pantless, sporting only his black CK underwear underneath the sheets. Your thumb grazes the silver jewelry pierced into his nipple. No sign of life. Then your hand travels down further, palming his soft dick.

“Boyfie,” you say again, your palm pressing harder, cupping his growing erection. “I know you’re up.”

“Mm, not awake. Still sleeping,” he mumbles into the pillow, trying to hide his smile. “Keep going, though. I won’t stop you. Please wake me up.”

You chuckled softly. “We have to get up and get ready. We’re hanging out with Yuna and Namjoon today.”

Jungkook finally opened his sleepy eyes. “But I am up,” he joked, alluding to the erection poking you.

“You’re such a boy.”

“And? I wouldn’t mind a little wake-me-up,” he said, drawing you near him.

“Nuh-uh. They’ll be here in a bit, wondering why we aren’t answering the door!”

“So? They can wait.” Jungkook kisses your shoulder, trailing down your arm.

“Nope. Nope. Nope,” you protest, pushing him away, slipping from his grasp, making him pout. “We have forever to keep fucking each other.”

“Forever?” He perked up, but you already closed the door to the bathroom.

Having everyone together again felt right. With Jungkook by your side and your best friend across from you, you couldn’t forget Namjoon. He was always the level-headed one, encouraging you when needed.

You half-expected baby Indie to meet her bestie, Bamie, but Yuna left her with her grandmother. So, it was just the four of you, just like old times.

“So, how’s everything?” Yuna asked as she closed the cabinet door storing plates and bowls.

You cleared your throat. “It’s great. We’re all just getting settled and adjusting to living together.” The two of you hadn’t even had 24 hours together in this new place yet. It was hard to really gauge how you and Jungkook were feeling.

Yuna hums. It’s the same tone you recognize when she has something else to say but doesn’t want to risk hurting your feelings.

You sighed. “It’s so easy to tell when you have something on your mind. Just say it, Yuna.”

She shrugged. “I don’t know what you mean.”

“Fine—keep it to yourself. Let it stew all day until you’re ready to burst. I just hope I’m not there for that,” you stated, taking the bowls from her grasp.

She groaned, quickly looking at the guys on the couch with a beer before turning to face you. “Okay, okay. I’m obviously happy that my brother’s back and that you’re together again…”

“But?”

“I just—I love you, and I love my brother, and I just don’t want to see either of you get hurt again,” she finally confessed.

You hold your arms out for a hug, and she slowly walks into your embrace. You squeeze her before she pulls away. “I know. Jungkook and I talked a lot, and I don’t think we will give up so easily. He’s my person, and I will choose him every day, even when it’s hard and I just want to give up. I love him, Yuna, and I’ll continue choosing him until the day I die.”

Yuna’s lips thinned. She was caught in the middle, and seeing both sides almost tore her apart. There wasn’t much she could do but support the both of you as best as she could.

You hug her again. “Don’t worry so much, babe. We’ll be okay. We’re taking it one day at a time. That’s all we can really do right now.”

“It’s good to have you back, man,” Namjoon says, clinking his beer can against Jungkook’s.

“It’s good to be back. I really missed you guys.” He looks back at you and Yuna, hugging and whispering away.

“You getting all settled in?”

“Yeah, we are.” Jungkook scratches Bam’s ears, and he looks up at him with his big doe eyes.

Namjoon looks at the two of you over his shoulder before leaning toward Jungkook. “So, uh, are you guys doing okay?” Jungkook’s eyebrows stitch together in confusion, and he nods. Namjoon breathes a sigh of relief. “I love you guys, but damn, I felt like I went through this rollercoaster of a relationship too. It was pretty brutal.”

Jungkook laughed, rubbing Namjoon’s shoulder. “Hyung, we made it out alive on the other side. There’s nothing to worry about now.”

“You, uh, still thinking about your ‘future’?” Namjoon asked, alluding to their conversation when he and Yuna had their housewarming party.

He smiled and nodded. The only dream he had was a future with you, and he was ready to spend the rest of his days getting to know you again, experiencing new things with you, finding new ways to love you, surprise you, excite you.

After Yuna and Namjoon leave, you and Jungkook relax on the couch with Bam, discussing the married couple.

“Were they acting weird, or was it just me?” Jungkook asked, hooking his arm around your neck and kissing your temple.

You chuckled. “No, they were definitely acting weird. But I get it, though. They’re just looking out for us.”

Jungkook hums. “Do you have any other skeletons in your closet I should know about?” he asked half-jokingly.

Well, there was one thing you hadn’t told him about—your mom. And you can tell that your silence makes him worried. “Erm,” you pulled away to face him. “Just one.” Jungkook intently listens. “You know all that stuff with my mom that happened when we were dating?”

“Yeah, what about it?”

“Well, we argued, but then I discovered she’s really not my mom. My dad had an affair early on in their marriage, and then my birth mom died, leaving me with my dad.” A weight was lifted off your shoulder when you expressed what you had been carrying for a long time.

Jungkook’s eyes widen, and he gives you a side hug. “What?” He couldn’t believe the words that came out of your mouth. “Are you okay?”

“Yeah, I’m okay now,” you said, pulling away and giving him a small smile. You’d be lying if you said it didn’t hurt because a part of it did. You understood that you would never have the kind of relationship with your mother you envisioned. “And, um, do you remember when Yuna was in the hospital, and I asked you to hold me while we were, you know—on a—yeah.”

He hummed. “Don’t remind me,” he lets out a soft chuckle.

“My mom was also in the hospital, and I apologized for my dad cheating on her and that she had to raise me. And I also told her that even though she never saw me as hers, she’ll always be my mom even if she doesn’t want to be a part of my life.”

Jungkook sighed. “Baby, I’m so sorry that you went through that. Why didn’t you tell me any of this?”

You shrugged. “I don’t know. I was going through a lot then, and I was pretty insecure about our relationship, all my health stuff, and mom stuff. It was a lot, and I didn’t know how to tell you.”

He lays on your lap, hugging your waist as he looks up at you. “Promise you won’t keep things from me. No matter how hard it is for you to tell me. Just—let’s just be open with one another, okay?”

You hummed in agreement. “I love you.”

“I love you more.”

“And what about you, huh? Any other psycho ex-girlfriends I should know about?” you said flatly.

Jungkook laughed and shook his head. “No more psycho ex-girlfriends, but there is a psycho ex-boyfriend.” You rolled your eyes, hitting his arm. “Kidding!”

Your first full day with Jungkook and Bam was perfect. You lounged around, unpacked, played with Bam, ate, fucked again, and just like that—nighttime came.

You lay facing Jungkook, finding it difficult to believe he was in front of you. “Pinch me,” you say, and Jungkook pinches your nipple. “Ow–don’t pinch me there,” you scowl, rubbing your pebbled nipple.

“You didn’t tell me where to pinch you,” he retorts.

You rolled your eyes. “Fair–”

“Why do I need to pinch you?”

You tuck your hands underneath your cheek. “Because I don’t want this to be a dream.”

Jungkook flashes a small smile, moving a stray hair out of the way. “You’re not dreaming, baby. I promise.”

“But what if I am? And there’s not a strong enough kick to wake me up? What if my totem never falls, and I really am dreaming all of this?”

He raises an eyebrow. “Are you referring to Inception right now?” He laughs, and you push him away.

“I’m being serious, Jungkook.”

His smile falters, and he’s in serious mode now. He shifts closer, draping his arm over you, holding the small of your back. “I know what you mean. We’ve been through a lot, and if you look at where we’ve been and where we are now, it’s pretty remarkable that we survived through it all. But trust me, baby, this–us–it’s real.”

“I know. I’m sorry. I’m just in my head,” you say, resting your hand on his cheek and kissing his lips. “You’re here. Bamie’s here. I’m here,” you chuckle. What else did you really need?

Jungkook gazes into your eyes, ensuring you’re okay. He snuggles in closer, tucking your head under his chin.

“Boyfie?” He hums. “Where do you see us in five years?”

If there was one thing you really did want, you needed to talk to him about it first.

“Five years is a long time from now.”

“Yeah, I know, but I just want us to be on the same page. I don’t want us heading in different directions, hoping we can read each other’s mind or something,” you admit.

Jungkook chuckles, finding you so fucking cute. He withdraws from the embrace, looking at you. “This is what I want to say: I want to focus on the present and worry about the future later. But you want to hear this: I see us getting married, and maybe Bamie has a friend he can play with.”

He didn’t mention the one thing that you were thinking of. You assumed he was avoiding the elephant in the room. “What about kids?”

He takes a deep breath. “Well, I know we have some difficult circumstances with that, but I’d be okay if we didn’t have any. Why? What are you thinking?”

Ever since you got back from LA, you have been doing a lot of research for fertility treatments, along with speaking to your doctor. And who knows, with the ways technology has advanced these days, there could be a possibility of kids in the future. You understood that the road ahead would be tough, but you knew that with Jungkook by yourself, you could weather through anything.

“I, um, I’ve been thinking about starting fertility treatments. I know it’s not a given, and I don’t want to put too much hope into it because who knows if we can even get pregnant,” you stopped because it sounded ridiculous when spoken aloud. “Ugh—it’s dumb and wishful thinking, isn’t it—”

Jungkook holds a finger to your mouth, shushing you. “Baby, if you want this, then I want it too. I’ll do whatever I can to support you. You’re not alone in this, okay?”

You smile. “Thanks, that means a lot, and I know I’m just overthinking again.”

“We’re doing this together, remember?”

“Together,” you lean over to kiss him. “I’m so happy you’re here.”

“Me too. I wouldn’t have it any other way.”

Jungkook had this hold on the thing in your chest, and you wouldn’t wanna settle for anyone less. He really had become your place of comfort, ease, and stillness. It felt so easy to slip back into your old routine. You could do this every hour, every minute, every second, seven days a week. Night after night, you just wanted to love him, right.

next ✨ 20 ~ ending credits

[beautifulplaceofyouth]

Falling asleep in your roommate's bed | JK FF

THE SECOND PART....FINALLY

Falling asleep in your roommate's bed while you are waiting for him to come home from the party

Pairing: Jeon Jungkook X Female|reader

Word count: 3.7k

Raiting:  Now 18+ because the second part includes very juicy details. Underage fans should really consider if this is the story you really want to read because you will need Holly water after....just to warn you though

Genre + warnings: Fluff, new relationship au! roommates to lovers, roommates au, cursing with hard dirty talk, love bites, hardcore smut, nipple biting, Kook fingering his girl, a little handjob, messy kissing and unprotected sex....please don't if you're not ready for a baby, lmao( since you all wanted it) , possesive and sexy badboy with some aggressive attitude, angry issues and just your cute bunny being a flirt. This isn't real, just my imagination running wild so just enjoy reading!

a/n: so....finally the second part is here with smut this time. The story is a little over the top, maybe it makes no sense but you choose if you like it so I know what to write in the future. The English is not my native(first) language so please excuse some grammar mistakes and the words I repeat the most but still I'm not guilty about writing this, hehe. Enjoy reading!

How it is to be kissed and wanted by the most beautiful human on earth? It was damn fire as you lied there in your roommate's bed, letting him touch the way no one ever has in a long time.

"Oh god," your moan was heard in the silent room when Jungkook kissed your stomach. It was just a kiss by his soft magical lips but still it made you feel hotter than ever.

"Yeah, baby. Do you like that?" the sound of your roommate's deep raspy voice vibrated over your bare skin, breaking goosebumps all over your body, all the way to your core.

You couldn't believe this is happening because the guy who claimed to hate girls from the very start, he was actually kissing you, in all places. How that even happened? When did he change his mind? You knew well that he always flirted when you started to get to know each other better with you despite his rule so you didn't get why he would do that when you obviously couldn't do the same.

It became a habit for you both were you came home everyday after your evening job, studying as well and he was already waiting for you in the kitchen, making you dinner. That was really sweet of him because you did the other things for him. Like washing laundry, clean the apartment if it became dirty after awhile, taking the trash out when you went outside but those things were just the part of it. Your new roommate was the best boyfriend material ever even though you tried not to show any attention to him so he doesn't think that you have a crush on him or something. That changed obviously when he took more interest in you by being at home every time you were there.

At first he would come only when you are in your room but weeks later he was always hanging around in the living room or kitchen. He always made an excuse so he can talk to you or tease you till you're a like blushing virgin. It was actually adorable and annoying both at the same time.

Coming back to reality, you remember that he forgot to come home because you waited for him, not even giving you any explanation at all why he ditched your movie night for the party so pushing his head away from you before he could bring his lips lower, you manage to sit up in a sitting position.

"Wait, Kook, we need to talk before we do this," your serious tone made him furrow his eyebrows when he also straightened, sitting on his knees.

"Weird, in my dream there wouldn't be any talks but just action," he pondered, thinking maybe you are fucking with him but you glared at him even though he probably doesn't see it because of the darkness in the room.

"Please, this is not a joke or a dream. I just want to know why you went to the party without even texting me once, I waited for you like an idiot, hoping maybe you are just late and will come any time but you never did. That was mean of you because you know how I love watching movies with you. Who knows what did you did there at the party, it looked like you had fun and now you are coming to me because you are horny? Do you really think I'm that easy?" The pent up frustration of your emotions came out like waterfalls and you couldn't stop it once you start. You were too sensitive over little things so you were upset about this overall situation.

It became silent for some seconds, your words shocked him to be honest so he could just stare at you but once the confusion went away, it was only anger.

"What the fuck, y/n? Are you even listening to yourself right now? Why would you think that I see you only like an easy lay?"

His sudden outburst made you flinch but you quickly masked it by rolling your eyes," Well, isn't it true? You wouldn't go to the party otherwise if you cared about me a little if it even means something to you."

Where the sudden confidence came from, y/n?

Jungkook was in disbelief, not knowing how to react but somehow understood your point when he heard sadness in your voice a bit so he admitted to himself that he feels guilty leaving you alone at home.

"I didn't say that I don't care, of course I do, sweetheart. I'm sorry for leaving you alone, it was a dick move from my part, I know but you must know that there was a reason why I was there and I completely forgot," explaining calmly, you are surprised to hear an actual apology from him for the first time and the endearment shocked you for a second also so you couldn't help but blush, good that the darkness didn't give him the satisfaction to see you like it had any effect on you.

"Forgot? You didn't even texted or called me, or you were too busy fucking other girls?" The bitterness and jealousy came out of nowhere and you couldn't hide it anymore.

It was wrong to say something like that because the next thing you know that Jungkook lungs at you, making you scream in surprise when his larger muscular form climbs on top of you, towering your smaller body when he traps you in his arms, feeling him breathing harshly right in front of you face as you bring your hands to his bare chest, feeling how strong he is.

"Take that back or you will get a red ass for that big mouth, " he snarls and for a second you fear that you have pissed him off for real this time.

"A-am I not wrong?" You try to ignore the shivers over you spine when the angry man keeps you trapped for no means of escape.

Your roommate chuckles but there is no humor in it," Are you kidding? You really think that about me?"

"N-o, I d-dont, sorry, " you tremble.

"For the record, I was at the party only for my friend Jimin as a wingman. I didn't even drink or even talked to girls, I'm not interested in them like you think so better change your judgment of me next time before you assume things of your own," he glares at you when his jaw clenches in anger and hurt.

Knowing that he is probably right about that, your head lowers in shame, only now thinking about it like that," I'm sorry, I didn't meant that, I just assumed when you said that your rule is not to mingle with the girls which are living with you, I guess I thought you have other girls elsewhere because come on! you're still a guy and really hot by the way so you still have needs, right?"

Jungkook just shakes his head, not understanding you at all, ignoring the way you said about him being hot," So what? It doesn't mean I go out to fuck strangers. I don't care about other people."

"So that means...-" His finger on your lips shush you when you blink at the shadowy looming frame.

"That means you need to shut your pretty mouth and just let this happen. I like you, y/n and only you so no one can have you but me. You're mine," the confession makes you gasp as you try to make a sound but nothing comes out when you feel him leaning even closer to you, his lips inches from yours.

"Now just let me fucking kiss you so my dream becomes a reality because you're still in my bed and I'm not done with you," with that promise, he really doesn't waste time when his mouth smashes against yours. The second time that night.

All the fears, anger and hurt flows out of the window as you feel his hot mouth on yours, tongue breaking inside to fight with yours. The kiss is rushed and harsh but the longer he kisses you as you finally kiss him back, it becomes slower and more gentler, like he is savoring every second of it. He groans into the kiss when your hips suddenly lifts up when you arch your back and they meet with his crotch and something pokes your inner thigh as you freeze for a second wondering what it is.

You pull away and try to see down but everything is dark between you when you suddenly hear a deep rumble of his laughter.

"That's my cock, baby, why you are shocked?"

His crude words make you blush and you feel yourself becoming red when you realize what he is saying but still your mouth gapes at that revelation.

"Y-Your completely n-naked?" You fear that if you move your hands lower, you will feel something hard underneath your fingers.

"Touch me and find out yourself, " Jungkook teases you when he grabs your ass in his strong hands, making you wrap your legs around his narrow waist and you can't help but gasp when you feel his hardness pressing against your panties when your bodies press to each other. The feel of him so turned on makes you feel wet already and you don't know what to do.

"Feel that, sweetheart? Feel how hard I'm for you? Do you still think that I hate girls and I'm gay? Shocking, right?" His lips drag against your ear when he bucks his hips right there where you feel most empty without something to fill it. He presses his cock against your covered core, making you moan in embarrassment again because you have no power to even stop this.

"J-jungkook, please," pleading him to make the ache go away or stop this at once, you were dizzy with lust not knowing what are you begging for.

"Such a needy girl for me, are you wet already for me, baby? Do you need something?" He mocks in a pity and you shoot daggers at him through your blurry eyes wanting to kill his attitude in this situation but his touch on your panties, pressing his finger against your vagina has you breath harder.

"Oh, what do we have here? Dripping wet pussy and soaked for me,mmm," you hear him chuckle in surprise and you almost kick him in the crotch for being so cocky seeing your reaction to his touch but when that magical finger presses deeper, you gasp as you try to support yourself with your arms on his wide shoulders. He was enjoying this, jerk but you totally loved the feeling of him so close to you.

"Just fucking touch me already," it sounds like a growl from you but to him it was like a kitten who hisses in displeasure. It just makes him feel better seeing you like this, a mess for him.

"Be a good girl and then I will reward you," his mouth brushes your neck as he kisses it gently, taking a love bite. The pain is too good so you try to keep quiet so he continues to touch you. It was killing you, the wait and suspension but the fire in your core was achingly amazing.

"Baby girl," the husky tone of his when he says that name makes you crazy when he finally pushes aside your panties to brush his tattooed fingers on your folds. The sudden relief that he is touching that place makes you jump in surprise, electricity going through your whole body.

"So responsive, " Jungkooks mutters and slides his fingers over your lower lips as you try to seek something out, begging him to just go deeper but still he teases you with gentle touches.

"You're killing me here, Kook, " you whine in protest and hear him smiling against your neck when he whispers back.

"Oh, darling, I just have started so you need to prepare for the rest of the night and once I'm done with you, I will make sure you stay with me in this bed for days till you can walk on your own."

Oh gosh.

"Are you always like that?" your voice is breathless and to be honest it is shocking to hear yourself so needy.

"Like what?" He presses the question back to you as you whine again but this time because he makes you talk when he literally plays with your clit, not going an inch deeper but just sliding his digits over your wet lips like he would play a guitar.

"D- don't make me say it."

"Is that right? Are you, perhaps, nervous, shy?"

You gritt your teeth hard," No, I just need you to- Oh! Oh, fuck!" The sudden scream rips out of you when his finger thrusts into your pussy without a warning, filling your burning emptiness like you wanted him to do but the feeling of him stretching your walls has you close your eyes in ecstasy as you moan, gripping his shoulder blades harder so you don't fall.

His chuckle is barely hard when he starts a slow pace rhythm as his finger goes deeper and deeper, thrusting it in and out, in and out. Before you can breathe again, he inserts another finger, the burn increasing every second, the slick sound of your wet clit the only thing you hear.

"Fuck, you're so sexy," he groans when he kisses you on the lips, thrusting his tongue this time inside your wet hole as you keep bucking your hips in the time of his moving fingers. He has just started but you already feel your orgasm approaching but before you can explode into tiny peaces, Jungkook removes his fingers completely, leaving you more empty than ever as you moan in protest.

Before you can ask him what the hell he is doing, he speaks for you and your answer is there.

"Have to have you, I can't wait any longer," he rasps in pain when you feel his arm between you both reaching something while wrapping his wet palm around his cock, smearing all your juices on himself. So he was naked all right.

"Take your panties off," his growl makes you jump but you oblige immediately when you remove your panties, sliding them down your legs. It was awkward a bit because it wasn't as smooth as you liked to be but it was night time, he couldn't see that obviously.

"Are you on the pill, love?"

You nod but still bite your lip in worry, " Yeah but maybe use a condom."

Jungkook shakes his head," I want you bare for the first time, I want to feel you raw. I will pull out, I promise, " getting closer, he grabs your waist with one hand and with the other guides his cock on your bare pussy. You shudder as you feel the tip touching your sensitive place, sudden fear taking over as you feel him so huge against you. Before you can help it, your hand moves on its own and you slide your fingers where his are. Jungkooks chokes almost, surprised from your sudden touch but still lets you explore when he removes his hand so you can fully grab him in your hand. His cock feels thick and big in your small hand, you thought for a second how it will fit inside you.

"Fuck, baby girl, your hand feels amazing, " he throws his head back as he groans feeling your soft hand on his hard dick. It was killing him also and he tried to control himself not to pin you against the bed and fuck your brains out until you can't even think properly. So you can think about him and nothing else.

To distract himself, he went to your crop top, sliding his hands underneath to feel your soft breasts and he growled, satisfied that they are the perfect size for his palms. Not too big and not too small either. Pushing your top over your naked breasts, you gasped when he leaned over and took your right nipple in his mouth. Sucking, bitting and suckling until the hard bud was aching, he did the same with the other nipple while gripping and squeezing the first one in his hand, fingers pinching the sensitive tip, still wet from his mouth. You almost forgot to touch him because the feeling on his mouth on your nipples was too good to be true.

"God, would spend eternity kissing your breasts, they are so tasty," Jungkook bites the underside of your boob, making you scream in pleasure even though the feeling was a little bit painful.

Your hand accidentally grips his cock harder than necessary and he hisses when he leans back too look down at you, some light from the sunrise, early morning hitting your face, showing him your beautiful face, laying there on his bed, ready to be taken by him and only him. He was some lucky son of a bitch, knowing that you're his and he was too late for realizing that you're the one he was waiting for all his life.

Your nose was scrunched due to the pain he was inflicting on your nipple but that went away when you felt him gazing at you. You didn't know when or how the time passed but there was some light from the window as you could see him more clearly. The sight was breathtaking when you saw him staring at you with a possessive gaze, his hair messy from your activities and his eyebrow and lip piercings winking at you when he breathed hard, his chest rising and falling.

Your eyes immediately went lower and you saw his muscles displaying on how much stronger he was than you and when you finally saw his cock, you exhaled in surprise, seeing it red and pulsing, standing up right there in front of your pussy and the longer you stared, the faster it grew bigger if that was even possible.

"Oh god," you moaned with your eyes wide and that was the last straw because Jungkook couldn't wait any longer, seeing your lust filled eyes literally begging him to take you.

Pinning you against the bed, pressing his body on yours, he wrapped his hand around your throat and growled when he took himself in a hand and pressed his dick against your core. Not even preparing you for his size, he started to push in. The sudden intruder made you choke on air, feeling your walls gripping him but that wasn't nothing compared for his next move. Thrusting finally in, deep to the end, you screamed from the burn and the feeling of being so full like never in your life before.

"You basically wanted this, right? Now you feel my cock deep inside you, feel it how it wrecks your small tight pussy," he whispered through his gritted teeth as his jaw clenches feeling you so small, your hot hole fitting his dick like glove.

"Oh my God, Jungk-!" He shuts you up when he kisses you again, his hand gripping your neck tighter. Somehow the lack of air makes you feel even wetter and before you know it, you scream as your orgasm goes off like fireworks, your walls holding his cock for dear life when he keeps thrusting, his hips bucking against yours as you hear him moan in the kiss from the feeling of you clamping him.

"Fuck, Jungkook, I- I think I will c-come again," You shuddered and moaned in his mouth when you felt him jerk inside of you.

"Can't stop fucking you, your pussy feels so good, fuck," he growls when he pushes even deeper and harder, hitting your g-spot again, your eyes rolling back from the pleasure as you start crying from the feeling.

"Say you're mine!" The sudden obsessive tone of his voice has you clench around him again and Jungkook moans.

"I'M YOURS JUNGKOOK, JUST FUCK ME - OH MY GOD!" The last push takes you over the edge and he groans when he reaches his finish along with you but for your shock, he doesn't pull out, he keeps thrusting until his cum blasts inside you, filling you to the brim and still he doesn't stop, he keeps coming forever making you scream again from the third orgasm.

"Fuck fuck fuck," Jungkook groans brokenly when you sob from the intense pleasure as he slowers his thrusts, just sliding in and out, like the feel of you will dissappear once he pulls out but everything seems like a blur once he stops and just kisses your face and neck so you can calm down," Sorry, I broke my promise. You felt too good around me. I'm really sorry, baby," he whispers when he rests his forehead on yours, still being inside you as you feel his spend dripping out of you already.

You just shake your head and let him pull you to the side when he wraps his arm around you waist and manages to stay inside.

"Doesn't matter anymore, too late for that."

He snuggles your neck and his hold on you gets tighter," Sorry for being too rough, I just couldn't help myself."

You smile at at that and tiredly look at him, his concern shining in his beautiful dark eyes," It was okay, I loved it."

"You did?"

You hum as you close your eyes, nodding your head, sleep taking over but your eyes snap open when he starts to push his dick out of you and slides back inside, your surprise on your expression making him chuckle deeply when you moan from being too sensitive as your walls keep clenching.

"You really didn't think it was over, do you?"

Well....

"Because I'm not done with you, we have more hours before we can go to rest. Since you said you're mine, I'm not going to let you go, you're mine, baby."

How can I resist if he says it like that?

You were doomed to the core. Somehow you were lucky that you fell asleep in his bed, this handsome man finally is yours alone.

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[borathae]

Hi SIBI happy new year!! I need to tell u how bad im missing sanguis alpha Also i hope this year brings u all the happiness u r seeking and being a lil slefish i also jope we get lots n lots of content from u😅🥰 Anyways, ive been looking for fics where jk n reader enter an arranged marriage and eventually develop feelings for one another If u dont get time then feel free to skip this but if u can pls help GREAT YEAR AHEAD! LOTS OF LOVE!💓

HAPPY NEW YEAR LOVE!! Also I miss Sanguis Alpha too :( once it's back from its winter break, it's really going to pick up speed and plot omgmgm 👀

I honestly also hope that I will manage to give you guys lots of content, I can promise you that much that I have already planned out the year until end of May, so you can be sure that in this period of time you will continue getting stories hehe 👀 (also I've been doing some major progress as far as the angel!Jungkook story is concerned heheheh)

Also to answer your question if I ever want to write an arranged marriage!AU with Kook *squints eyes* don't tempt me 😩 I already have so many wips I have to continue first 😩 in the meantime you could check out this story of mine. It's not with Kook, but Tae is literally such a snacc in it 🥴🥴

I LOVE YOU TOO ANONIE HEHE 💜💕

[poguesofthebau]

Idea to write for OBX!!!! The pogues just having a good evening together, like playing truth or dare like 16 year olds before the events of the show take place!!

heyo all, writing is hard for me recently so i decided that i would do something based off what real life is like right now with a lil inspo from this request tossed in :) hope you like it!! (naturally, reader is dating jj in this bc i can’t help myself hehe oops)

summary: jj, y/n, and the rest of the pogues (including sarah) live in the world we’re all currently living in: quarantine. so what happens when the craziest friend group in the obx are trapped inside the Chateau for weeks at a time without any authority figures or outsiders? to put it simply, anarchy happens. (alternate summary: what i wish i was doing during this stupid quarantine instead of sitting in my room to avoid my parents’ hovering.) (alternate, simple summary: a hot ass day in quarantine with the pogues.) word count: 2101

sticky. why the hell were you sticky?

you opened your eyes with a deep groan, peeling yourself from jj with a disgusted look on your face. “jj, get off of me.” you’d both been laying on your stomachs as you slept, but the boy had somehow wound up directly on top of you. it would’ve been kind of endearing, cute almost, to wake up so close to jj, if it wasn’t so fucking hot.

someone across the room laughed lightly, and you slipped out from under jj and flipped onto your back, sitting up and squinting to see who it was. when you saw sarah, kie, and pope staring at you from the table a few feet away from the pull-out couch, you let out an annoyed puff of air, raking a hand through your bedhead to slightly calm it. leaning back on your hands, you glanced back down at your boyfriend. his nose was scrunched up, and his hand started rustling around the sheets until it made contact with your right calf. satisfied, his face relaxed again. before you could look back to your friends, pope was speaking. “i don’t know how the two of you managed to sleep like that all night. with those body temperatures combined, i’m pretty sure you should’ve burst into flames by like, 2am.”

“c’mon, pope,” sarah smirked. “they’re in love. their feelings for each other, they’re hotter than anything. like, hotter than--”

“hotter than the flames in hell!” kie interrupted proudly. “and the obx may feel like it’s hotter than that already, but--”

“nothing compares to their sacred, burning love.” sarah and kie both smiled smugly at their own ability to finish each other’s sentences, fist bumping as pope shook his head. “that was good. i love us.” the girls giggled again, and you couldn’t help but laugh a bit too.

“can you corny fucks shut the hell up? a guy can never get a wink of sleep around here, shit.” with that, jj was rolling over, too, a very unimpressed look plastered on his face as he scolded his friends. not as eager to be awake as you had been, jj groaned as he stretched, flopping into your lap on his back when he was finally done waking himself up. your hands naturally found their way to his hair, scratching at his scalp subconsciously as you looked around at the mess of the Chateau. “where’s jb at? and why is it so fucking hot in here?”

“you can’t really complain about body temps when you’re curled up in your girlfriend’s lap like a cat, bro,” pope pointed out. jj rolled his eyes as pope continued. “but since you asked so nicely, it’s the first heat wave of the year-- you’d know that if you ever listened to anything i say throughout the day. john b’s out trying to get food and water and stuff before it’s all gone.”

jj muttered something under his breath about wishing pope had gone out with their other friend as his eyes closed again at the feeling of your fingertips on his hairline. “you know what we should do today?”

“make out? at least let me brush my teeth first, you animal,” jj interjected. you flicked his nose, ignoring the comment otherwise. “oh, so you don’t wanna make out? alright, y/n, but just remember, it’s your rule!”

“jj, why does everything always have to be about you?”

“i have needs, kie!”

“okay, okay, okay, i think y/n had an idea. let the woman speak!” sarah quickly redirected.

“thank you,” you smiled pointedly at sarah. “i think-- and tell me if there are any objections-- i think, maybe, we should day-drink.”

as soon as the words left your mouth, the door beside you was swinging open with a creak, john b bursting into the room. “did someone say-- DAY-DRINK?” he held up a six pack of beer in each hand, that bright and proud john b grin plastered on his face. the entire group cheered, jumping up to help him bring in the groceries he’d gotten his hands on. “thanks to mr. c’s non-existent credit card limit, we are now loaded. thanks kie!” he tossed her dad’s card back on the table, the curly haired girl laughing at his words. kiara had somehow convinced her parents that spending her quarantine with the pogues at john b’s house was an acceptable idea, and they had even given her an emergency credit line for necessities and necessities only.

beer was an absolute need for the pogues, to be fair.

----

a few hours later, everyone was pretty day-drunk, so to speak.

sarah was currently engaged in a deep conversation with pope about why, exactly, he wanted to be a coroner so badly. you were in the middle of an arm-wrestling tournament against john b, with jj and kie passing the group’s second blunt of the afternoon back and forth. “y/n, your hand is fucking slippery!”

“fuck you, john b! it’s sweaty! haven’t you noticed that it’s a million damn degrees in this place?”

the arm wrestling tourney came to a close soon after, and the group went back to sweating, smoking, and throwing back beers. your feet wound up in jj’s lap as you tried to fan yourself with an empty, folded up cardboard box that one of the six-packs had come in. “hey kie, do you think your dad would mind if we used his credit card to buy a decent air conditioning system for this shithole? no offense, john b.”

“actually, y/n, i kind of take offense to that. just a little, you know?” you stuck your tongue out at your friend, throwing your piece of cardboard at him.

“you know, guys,” sarah spoke up. “me and my sister used to play this game--”

“oh, sarah, please tell me it’s not truth or dare with no dare.” john b’s face twisted into disapproval, and it was sarah’s turn to stick her tongue out at him.

“it is truth or dare with no dare, and i don’t hear any better ideas from anyone else, so we’re playing.”

jj’s hand came down on your ankle as he sat up and looked at the other blonde of the group. “actually, i’m thinking me and y/n will just roll another blunt and go hide in the guest room. that would be a better idea, i think.”

“no way, dumbass! if we have to do it, you two are sticking around for it too. pogues never abandon pogues, remember?” kie and her rules. “so, who starts?”

“well usually when i’ve played before it’s only been two people, so maybe i’ll ask the first question and we can all go around and answer?” jj groaned at this new development, causing you to smile. you flopped around on the futon a bit until your side was pressed against his, and he threw his arm around your shoulders once you’d settled. “okay, first question. um, let’s see... i don’t know. what’s the weirdest dream you’ve ever had?”

----

“weirdest place you’ve ever had sex. three, two, one, go!” jj pointed to john b, and the entire group erupted into laughter. john b was clearly struggling to think of an answer, and jj, who had become strangely invested in hour-long game, was running out of patience. “c’mon, man!”

“jesus christ, jj, i don’t know!” john b choked out through his laughs. “a bell tower, i guess?”

“great! sarah? where’ve ya done it, kook princess?” that one earned a smack on the arm from you, and jj quickly rephrased. “sorry! i meant, uh, where’ve ya-- i don’t know. just-- what’s your answer?”

sarah glanced between john b and jj, hesitating before she answered. “conveniently enough, my answer is also... a bell tower.”

with the ruckus that answer caused, you weren’t expecting the game to end any time soon.

----

“oh, my god. i finally don’t feel like i’m burning alive anymore.” pope threw his arms victoriously above his head as he made the statement, kie smiling at him and wrapping an arm around his waist.

“that’s how fucked the weather’s gonna be forever if humans don’t start taking care of the planet, pope. isn’t that crazy?” pope looked at her and nodded with a slightly terrified look in his eye, not finding the person kie became when drunk completely trustworthy to not flip out on him for his history of littering and excessive plastic use.

“you know, guys,” john b called out, quickly changing the subject. “this is kind of insane.”

“what do you mean, johnny boy? what’s so insane about a heat wave?” your head was pretty much buried in jj’s chest as you spoke, with his hands slowly tracing big circles in your back. the last blunt of the night had just been smoked, and it was hitting you both a little harder than the others had. for the past few minutes, you’d been thinking about you and jj finally making your way to the guest room for the more intimate one-on-one time that the weed had made you crave. as soon as he’d put the roach down, you’d crawled into his lap. the temperature had dropped reasonably, and the sticky feeling you’d experienced that morning was now completely out of the picture. your left hand was wrapped around jj’s neck, your right just hidden under his shirt as your thumb stroked back and forth just above his hip. jj had watched you nuzzle into that position through hooded red eyes with a little amused smile playing his lips, before returning the physical affection by sliding one hand reassuringly onto the back of your neck and letting the other draw shapes into your back.

by the time john b had finished gazing around lovingly at the group before answering, you had almost forgotten about having asked a question to begin with. “not the heat wave, y/n.” his correction reminded you of what the conversation had been, and your tilted your head up to make eye contact with jj. when you locked eyes, you knew jj was thinking the same thing as you: john b’s about to get corny and emotional. and you were both right. “seriously, look at us. isn’t this crazy?” you and jj smiled at each other, and you placed a loving kiss on his jawline before refocusing your sight on john b. “how did we all end up together? i mean, three losers who met in elementary school,” john b listed, looking to you and jj with a bright smile as you felt jj squeeze your neck lightly. “a weird kid who, for some reason, is totally obsessed with dead bodies and shit,” pope looked a john b awkwardly as kie giggled, slipping her hand into pope’s. “and a couple of fucking kooks.” sarah hummed from her spot next to john b, kie sarcastically saluting with her free hand. “you guys, somehow, we all got together, all found each other. what are the odds of that? what are the odds that we found this totally perfect, totally dysfunctional but perfect little family?”

before you could stop yourself, you felt the first tear slip down your face. “fuck you, john b,” you muttered quietly, taking your hand out from under jj’s shirt to swipe at the wetness on your face. scrubbing away the rest of the tears in your eyes before they could escape, you put your hand back down on jj’s arm this time.

“yeah, fuck you, john b. why you makin’ my girl cry, bro?” everyone chuckled softly, admiring each other in the moment. “alright, though, really. since she’s already crying, i guess i should say it now.” your head lifted back up to look at jj, and he looked back down at you as he continued. “i love you.” as you both broke into smiles, he looked back to your friends. “i love all of you guys. you’re all annoying as fuck, and i know i live for giving you all a hard time and stuff. but seriously. this is my family. pogues forever.”

“shit,” kie muttered this time, her thumb swiping under her own eyes as pope looked down at her adoringly. “pogues forever, guys. thank you for taking in us stupid kooks and letting us be who we are. pogues for-fucking-ever.”

“as corny as it sounds, i feel like we’re kind of required to group hug now,” pope added. “everybody up! i love you sickos and psychos, criminal records and all!”

and then, you all hugged the shit out of each other. pogue style.

[wydguk]

sick of waiting for love — jjk

pairing: jungkook x reader

genre: angst, slight fluff (not much), breakup!AU

word count: 1.1k

summary: jungkook is so, so exhausted.

note: listen to “Who” by Lauv and BTS while reading this :)

☂

i need a minute, to figure out what is, what isn’t

Jungkook’s pen scratches across the paper, unspoken words flowing out of the tip.

He feels almost… guilty for writing this but it had gotten to a point where he couldn’t hold it in anymore. It was either writing his thoughts down or throwing the words in your face. 

these choices and voices, they’re all in my head

He can feel the words itching in his throat, scrambling to be spoken and coughed out. There’s an angel on his right shoulder and a devil on his left, both telling him to do things he doesn’t want to do.

With every word, it’s harder for him not to give in to his thoughts. 

sometimes, you make me feel crazy

It’s true, true, true. You make him want to scream and shout in joy and pain and he can feel it ripping him apart on the inside.

But you make him feel things, and sometimes Jungkook thinks it’s enough. 

sometimes, i swear i think you hate me

More often than not, he comes home to the sight of you with annoyance in your eyes and irritation in your voice. 

Every time, he kisses you with an “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry.” on his lips but it’s gotten easier for him to lie, lie, lie.

i need a walk, i need to get out of here

That’s usually why he’s gone. It’s an endless cycle, him walking to escape his thoughts only to return to his thoughts, full blast.

Truth be told, his thoughts are louder when he goes for his walks. He can never stop thinking about you and it’s getting exhausting. 

who are you? you’re not the girl i fell in love with

He still remembers the day he first met you. He was out eating pizza with his friends and you were their waitress. He remembers your flushed cheeks and your sweaty palms and your timid smile, your shaking hands serving him food.

Every day for the week after that, he would show up at your workplace just to talk to you. He didn’t even try to be slick, like occasionally ordering pizza or a drink. He was there for you, and only you.

He misses those days. It’s only gotten more complicated from there.

something has changed, you’re not the same, i hate it

A year into your relationship, things started changing. You stopped staying up to wait for him and he didn’t stop caring enough not to notice. But he bit his tongue, and let you drift away from him.

Two years into your relationship, he wonders if there was any communication between you two in the beginning at all. 

i’m sick of waiting for love

“I love you, Y/N.”

You had smiled at him when he said that, running your fingers through his hair. You were sitting on the couch while he was sitting between your legs on the floor.

“I understand if you aren’t ready to say it back, I just wanted you to know." 

You nodded, giving him another brief smile.

"Okay." 

Was this where he went wrong? 

i know that you’re not the one

Two years ago, Jungkook would have believed that the two of you were soulmates. But soulmates have an unbreakable bond, a connection.

Jungkook doesn’t even know if he really sees you anymore. It’s like you’re a shell. but this time, you’re not only hollow on the inside, but the outside too.

He still loves you, he really does. But he knows that you can love someone better than you could love him. He’s so, so exhausted. 

feeling hypnotized by the words that you said

But did you really say anything? He can hear you, but as much as he tries to listen, he can’t. He really, really wants to understand you.

All he hears is ringing, and pounding and screaming and it never seems to go away.

It makes him so, so dizzy. 

when the morning comes you’re still in my bed

the two of you never really established having two different sides of the bed, but he can feel the distance between the two of you as you’re pressed against his chest. 

so while you try to pretend it’s still working and fall asleep in each other’s arms, you always wake up on opposite sides of the bed, facing away from each other.

but it’s so, so cold

The body warmth between you does nothing to warm the tension, but it’s fine with Jungkook. 

When he’s with you, he’s just numb. 

Numb to the very bone. 

i’m sick of waiting for love 

Sometimes he feels so, so desperate to work the relationship out, but you don’t seem to want to put in the effort. Honestly, neither does he. 

He wants you back, but he wants you to go. 

"I washed the dishes, so I get to pick the movie, dummy.” You laugh, flicking Jungkook’s forehead.

“But you got to the dishes before I did! You practically ran to the sink the moment you finished your water!” He pouted, rubbing his forehead. 

Kissing the pout off his lips, you snatched the remote control off the coffee table to pick a movie for your movie night. 

Before you could type anything into the TV, Jungkook’s hands had travelled under your ribcage and within seconds you were shrieking with laughter on the couch.

“Kook! St- STOP!” you gasped, laughing so hard you started to snort. 

“Only if I get to pick the movie.” He raised an eyebrow at you, eyes shining with glee. 

Pinching his nose, you sat up, giving in to him. “Fine.”

He grinned at you and kissed your cheek before pulling you into him.

i know that you’re not the one

Last night he had been reading a book with you in the living room when he suddenly looked up and said, 

“Y/N?" 

"Yes, Jungkook?" 

"I love you, Y/N.” he studied your face and your body language as he said the words. 

You opened your mouth to say something, but decided against it before looking down at your book and saying, “I- I love you too, Jungkook.”

He should be ecstatic – you finally told him that you loved him, after two lengthy years. 

But he can see it in your eyes and in the way you’re lacing your fingers together. You don’t really love him.

He should be upset – but he expected it. It was bound to happen. Jungkook doesn’t say anything, and you continue to read in silence.

The exhaustion had eventually caught up to Jungkook, and now all he wanted to do was go, go, go.

Y/N, 

this is for you. i want you to know that i really did – do love you, but i know you’ll never love me back in the way i want you to. that’s okay. if we’re meant to be, we’ll see each other again.

i love you, 

jeon jungkook

but he knows you’re not the one, and he’s sick and tired of waiting for love.

☂

a/n: hi!! this is the first fic i’ve written for bts haha sorry if it’s really cliche xD this fic is inspired by Lauv’s new song “who” with jungkook and jimin! i don’t own the lyrics at all hehe

also protect jeon jungkook at all costs y/n is so mean in this :/

anyway, thank you for reading! if you liked it, please like or reblog :) my dms are always open!

[kinktae]

kinktae? i think you meant the sweetest & loveliest person ever 🥺💞💓

Anonymous said: rose deserves all the love and more rt if you agree 🤠

(warning: oodles of precious and dear anons under the cut)

yooniversus said: i faqing luv u (hehe get it) 💕💕💕🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕🥺💕❤️💫💕💫💜💕💜💕💜💕💕💜💕💜💜💜💜 ok soddy i was just bored 

Anonymous said: i dont usually interact with fic writers but ur work is out of this world!!!!! the way you write dialogue makes it seem casual and natural flowing like how you would talk to a friend :)) connecting to the main character has never been a challenge for me, but with your writing its like i am the character instead of just some reader. i hope that you never stop writing as long as it brings you joy, and that this message makes you smile (even just a lil' bit) luv u!!

worldclasscassy said: i am so geeked over ur writing 🥰🥺

Anonymous said: uwu punch me daddy

Anonymous said: ur deada$$ one of the best writers on here, i don’t make the rules sis 🙈

into1995 said: heelo! sending all my love! 🥰 you have such a beautiful soul, please take care! we are here for you always. 💕

dejayoon said: take your time lovey! you deserve a break💜

Anonymous said: imagine waking up every day knowing ur rose...PHEW!! wish i could be that lucky 😪😪

lovesic-eunoia said: hey, sweetie. i know your anxiety has been making you feel like crAP and i'm here to tell you that it really does get better❤️, there's always gonna things that make you wanna quit trying to get better, but don't give up. anxiety doesn't rule your life, you do. i wish you the best through all of the ups and downs. you're a precious piece of life. much love ❤️❤️

Anonymous said: I love you

Anonymous said: saw u on my dash and my heart went lub dub

Anonymous said: I hope you take some time to yourself and enjoy hiatus! We love you!

evilkookie said: Your health is way more important than anything!! I wish only good and positive things for you and you feel better, take as long as you need for your Hiatus 💝💝

Anonymous said: I dont know if I'm late but take care of yourself bby! Health always comes first and I hope you'll be enjoying your time outside of tumblr! Will miss you but love you so much bby! -Bunny

miss-peys said: Hope all is well! I myself had to take a step back from school because my mental health was terrible! Hope everything is going okay in your personal life! Can’t wait for you to come back to tumblr, but please come back when YOU feel ready not because others want you to come back! Sending positive vibes your way! Can’t wait for you come back💜💜💜💜

Anonymous said: Rose my darling dearest I just wanted to let you know I’m thinking of you and I hope you’re doing well 💜💫☁️

Anonymous said: hi jared ilu xoxoxo

Anonymous said: I love u and I hope ur taking care of yourself and staying hydrated!!

googie-kook said: How are you doing lovely? Miss you loads and hope you’re feeling better! Love from London! 🇬🇧 💓💓💓💓💓

Anonymous said: hi bby! im just coming in to tell you i love you! and you are loved!! and i hope youre taking good care of yourself and doing all those good things to keep yourself happy and healthy!! and im super excited for your spooky fic soon! sending you nothing but the best !!!❤❤❤

Anonymous said: i’m really happy that you’re taking a mental break from social media(tumblr). i had to do that a couple days ago and it really helps. anyways hope you get better and you take time to heal yourself. i love youuuuu🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

Anonymous said: Ur meat is huge, keep going.

Anonymous said: how are you being doing rose? hope you're well

hyzzzan said: I'm glad you're still here 🥰💜

Anonymous said: You are so good and such a cute human bean oof (are we still saying ‘oof’?) it’s really frustrating cause I can’t make u feel the intensity with which I mean it. You are so so so so good, your stories just hit different. Like next level shit. Your characters, stories, yo skills I swear if only I was half as good as you are at writing maybe I would be able to make u feel the intensity of my feelings.. I hope writing these masterpieces brings you as much joy as reading them does to me💕💕

Anonymous said: Your stories are soooo good! I am in love with them.

Anonymous said: I MISSED YOU. seeing the "hiatus" taken off your blog just made me so happy. I hope you're good 🖤 happy Halloween 🦇

Anonymous said: I'm rereading all your fics and I keep falling in love with your writing. Thank you for quality content. Also, I hope you're doing good!

Anonymous said: Hi love! I'm so so sooooooo happy you're back! Hope you had a great break and noe you're feeling better. But take your time with writing, exams come first. I still can't wait to read your new stuff tho! (On a side note, we already talked in private but I'm still shy, sorry) ♥️♥️

Anonymous said: Hi omg are you back?? I missed you 🥺

Anonymous said: rose ur writing is insanely good and whenever im having a ton of anxiety i read ur writing to calm me down so tysm for being the best ever

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said: You're BACK! I'm so happy you're back! I really hope you are feeling good and happy. Just wanted to send you a lil welcome back message with a little love

monohoed said: Hey, hope you been feeling better? I love everything you’ve written so far and just wanted to let you know! I’ve struggled w mental health myself and I empathise ♥️♥️

sydney--chan said: I fr think I might die when you post a fic again like no cap ive missed you and your writing so mUCH🥺🥺🥺

Anonymous said: so heyyy idk how to say it buttt ily~~ ★☆~

Anonymous said: hihi rose ilu sm and i hope ur doing well, pls take care of urself bb 🥺🥺💜

Anonymous said: .........you are like so beautiful

Anonymous said: HEY IM WUV U AND I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!! 💕💕 I love all your work and I hope the best for you!!!

Anonymous said: ummm ma’am??? you are so beautiful and I am so gay??????

Anonymous said: I followed you on twitter and you are pretty, funny, kind, and creative. Biggest friend crush uwu

Anonymous said: Omg you should be a model. You're so gorgeous, I'm jealous. If I ever met you in real life, my self-esteem will go down. But I love you too much girl 💕

mazeyoongi said: i haven't had much time or interest in reading fics lately because i am so busy between work & college, but every time you post a new story i HAVE to read it. no natter how busy i am or what is going on, i always read your new fics. they are ALWAYS so so so amazing and you manage to keep my interest from beginning to end no matter who or what it may be based on. thank you for giving us such wonderful work. you're amazing! 💓

Anonymous said: You're so pretty I- TAKE MY HEART PLIS I MIGHT JUST MAKE A TWITTER ACCOUNT FOR YOU 🥺🥺😩😩 -Bunny

Anonymous said: wtf the twitter video, jeezus you are freaking stunning

Anonymous said: you‘re so pretty lemme suck your dick, it‘s only fair

Anonymous said: low key your facial structure is like perfect?? i'm kinda jealous?? luv u b

charlie-hatsune said: JUST FOLLOWED YOUR TWITTER AND YOU'RE SUPER PRETTY!!!

dazedaurora said: okay but like how tf is everyone around here so pretty?! you're an absolute doll 💖

i-want-to-bite-your-head-off said: I haven't been on here in a WHILE but hi hope you're doing well and ily uwu

sapphireprinces5 said: Hello!! I just wanted you to know I really love all (and I mean ALL) of your stories. I really want to be a better reader for all of you amazing writers who share their art with us. With so many authors leaving, I really want to do my part better! So, you will definitely see more from me when you update!! Excited to see what you have in store for us ❤️

Anonymous said: Omg hi lovely!!! I just wanted to tell u that you are a precious human being and I hope u know that

ktgguk said: uwu I hope you had a lovely day, don’t forget to drink plenty of water 🧸💗 keep being amazing at what you do!!!

Anonymous said: You’re so consistent through your work and everything you write is a phenomenal masterpiece! I hope you don’t mind me asking, but how do you manage to always get such a high word count per chapter. That probably sounds so dumb and I’m sorry if this wastes your time.

Anonymous said: I LOVE U SO MUCH THANK U FOR ALL UR HARD WORK IN UR WRITING AAHHHHHHH!!!!!!

justaregularcrazyfangirl said: So, hm... It's not an ask but i just read what you said about my little review and i just wanted to say that you managed to make me blush 😆 (urgh i'm not used to do this and it shows !) Anyways, i'm happy you found my review interesting 💜 I hope you have a nice day ~ "You nice, keep going" ! (And that's my cue to go and hide somewhere !)

Anonymous said: you're an amazing writer!!!

Anonymous said: pls rose u deserve ALL the love in this universe

Anonymous said: Ma’am!! We are your friends!!! That post was SO CUTE!!! Love U!! My heart is full of love and appreciation for your cute self

Anonymous said: I love you

Anonymous said: i love your stories for one, always have ever since I found you 🥺 you give me most of my inspiration to write and let my creativity flow but it’s so dang hard actually putting the words I want on the pAGE BENDK

Anonymous said: Do you ever read your own fics and be like "Damnnn I'm good"

Anonymous said: Oh are you sick 😥 Get well soon 💜

Anonymous said: Omg you speak French too?!! Is there anything you can’t do?!?! You’re such a smart girl 😭🤧💕

Anonymous said: I think you’re really cool and I wish I could be your friend. ❤️

Anonymous said: 💜💜💜 Hey love, idk if you've already deleted the app or it'll get barried in the inevitable avalanche of asks you're about to receive but I hope you can feel the love I'm sending your way nonetheless. You're my favorite writer and there's so question, i'll be here when you get back. Take as much time as you need and I'm very proud of you for taking the necessary steps to get better. That alone takes strength. I wish you the best of luck. -🌻

Anonymous said: Life is a pendulum between your fics and your ficsrec

Anonymous said: just wanted to slide in here to say i dont really like smutty stories, but damn yours be hittin different and im obsessed, so thank u for sharing ur work with us 🥰🥰

Anonymous said: hi! i’m a reader of your work and well, I completely understand where you’re coming from. exactly. 100%. so you take your time and love yourself like you know you deserve to. I support you!

bugznot said: whenever you decide to come back we’ll be ready with open arms. remember you are powerful but you can only take so much. breaks are necessary and important and i hope you are kind to yourself in this time

Anonymous said: Leaving this message for when you’ll come back: I hope you finally start to love yourself back, you take chances cause you believe in yourself and your abilities, you leap blindly because you have faith in yourself and you know where you stand. I hope you have learnt to love yourself, to demand more of others and you for yourself, because you are worth it. I hope you come back, rejuvenated and free of all those schemes that bring you down. Love you 💕

Anonymous said: Saw your most recent post and wanted to say that I hope you feel better soon. I understand how tough it is when it feels like you’re living a lie, but not to minimize your experience, I’m sure it’ll pass and you’ll feel more comfortable with yourself. We all love you here and are patiently awaiting your return. If you celebrate it, happy holidays! Hopefully it won’t be stressful for you and you get some time to relax! 💕

Anonymous said: take as much time as you need & don’t feel like you HAVE to write just because there are people waiting for updates. your real life & health always comes first but pls know that we’ll be here for you & only want the best for you. We’ll be patiently waiting for you & understand your struggles (or at least I do 🙃). pls keep your friends around you, stay in good surroundings with positive vibes & take care of yourself (& your dog aw). sending all the love to you!!!

peachishiz said: Hey Rose my love Dw u don’t gotta answer just popping in to say I love u so much and I hope ur doing good and stuff 🌸💕

Anonymous said: hi bby, i just wanted to say that i can’t truly say ik what you’re going through, bc every circumstance is different, but i really relate to you & what you’re going through. i teared up a bit bc i’ve had the similar thoughts & feelings (and i still do) but i think being open & vulnerable about it is the first step (& hardest) so i just wanna day i’m proud of you 🥺 i wish i let you know more how much i love and appreciate your fics, but i hope the time you take for yourself is healing 💜 Luv -⭐️

Anonymous said: Hope no matter where you go or what you'll do, you'll be happy with it. Lots of love and best of luck ❤️❤️❤️

Anonymous said: dude honestly , taking that step to take care of yourself makes me extremely proud and i dont even know like that. When i first moved to Miami i think i felt similar to how you do , i held a lot of resentment for myself and the life i led and its a sentiment i dont wish on the worst of my enemies. Im sorry you feel that way , but you know you have the strength to pull yourself out of your slump , and that's quite the feat on its own. Good luck and i hope happiness finds you soon. - A.L.Á

Anonymous said: heeeeey, I hope you take lots of care during ur hiatus. Stay hydrated, eat some tasty food, make yourself a priority, reach out for help when you need to, and life is like a minecraft house, sometimes it gets burned down, sometimes it gets attacked but in the end you always have the opportunity to rebuild something new, that makes you happy and satisfied. u rock, u r wonderful and amazing, ily

Anonymous said: Hi! Just wanted to say that your writing is brilliant. It’s okay to be going through a tough time. I’m proud of you for recognizing that you need a break and taking one. The year is almost over: it’s the perfect time for a lifestyle change or a new beginning. Do what you need to do. We’ll still be here. Love you!

Anonymous said: You’re doing great sweetie! Keep going ♥️♥️

Anonymous said: im not sure if you still have the app or not or if you'll ever see this but i love you 💓 & i know idk you but to see you taking steps toward loving yourself is so beautiful ! im still on that journey myself 🤷🏽‍♀️ & it gets hard but you gave me some newfound energy just now. good luck !

Anonymous said: I am so proud of you. You’re so brave for accepting the fact that you are not okay, and doing something to turn that around. Now you’re walking the path towards betterment. I won’t wish for you to not fall back into that hole, but that when you do, I hope you come out faster and stronger every time. You made my life a thousand times better through your works, I hope through this hiatus, you’ll be able to do that for yourself. I am rooting for you ❤️

sydney--chan said: Hi babie🥺 please take all the time you need for yourself. I am proud of you for taking a step back and realizing you needed change. You are very strong and I cant wait for you to come back better than ever:)

Anonymous said: Ah, baby! Just the fact that you opened up and came with this decision shows that deep inside you care for yourself and you are also really brave. YOU ARE inspirational, your friends aren't lying. So many of us can't stop being stagnant and that's ok too. But you, you are doing so much and you are handling this better than you see it yourself. You are mature enough to see that things are wrong and that you deserve to heal. Everything that's wrong is going to pass. (1/?)

Anonymous said: And the cloudy days are going to be gone. I believe in you and I hope you believe in yourself as well. Treat yourself like you would treat one of the boys, for ex (I know it sounds silly but... lol). Imagine if they were feeling down and if they made mistakes. Wouldn't you forgive them? Make them see that it is ok? Wouldn't you want to cuddle and take care of them? Treat yourself like that, please. Treat yourself like you deserve to be taken care of, because you do. (2/?)

Anonymous said: Try to date yourself, you know. Take yourself on a date, buy you something nice when you can, try not to tell yourself things you wouldn't tell other person (cuz I know you are the kindest to people). And it is ok if somedays you can't handle things the best way, but you're just human and it is okay. Allow yourself to be imperfect. We are all trying hard in this life and we are all making mistakes. I am proud of you for trying. Keep trying to be better for yourself. You are precious and (3/4)

Anonymous said: I hope everything gets better for you as soon as possible. We are cheering you up, also while you're on hiatus. Come back whenever you feel like it and don't feel pressured to please others. YOU are the one who matters here and you're amazing af. We are going miss this bright star that you are but be patient with yourself and take your time. Please, seek a professional and take care of your health. You are lovely and loved. Everything goes, my love ♥♥♥♥ (4/4)

Anonymous said: I love you so damn much❤️

Anonymous said: I'm proud if you, I get that this was a hard decision to take, and you still did it. So, I'm proud of you. You finally understood that you are the n. priority, so please treat yourself like it. Even if you'll be gone for the whole year, I'm still super happy ti hear this. You deserve this, as you said yourself, you deserve the world. I'm sorry to hear that you're not doing good, but I know that you can make it better. Please, remember that you're not on your own: ask for help if you need it. Ily

lorengarcia-yut said: I just read your post and I just want let you know that we support you! Your health comes first, please take all the time you need. I feel for you, cause in a way I understand. Please take of your self! May God bless your life cause it’s gonna get better. Keep going, don’t ever give up, and please keep pushing. You deserve better than what you’re going through. Bless your heart ❤️

Anonymous said: 🌹 I don’t know if you will see this but I completely understand what you are going through. I have depression and social anxiety, and it’s so hard for me to get out of bed in the morning to go to school in a city where I don’t know anyone. I just want you to know that I will always support you and I hope that this time away will help to clear your mind of some negativity and bring you into a new year with hopefully brighter days 💜✨☀️

minigalixies said: i hope you come back feeling better, love ♡ so proud of you making the decision to put YOU first !! it’s a hard, but VERY important, decision that i hope benefits you sO MUCH !! i look forward to seeing your new posts when you feel better mentally + physically !! ♥️

Anonymous said: I hope this break provides you with everything you need. I hope life in general gets easier for you, you deserve it my love. Your mental health is way more important than providing us with content. Please take care of yourself, we'll be here for you if/when you decide to come back. I love you.

Anonymous said: hello im here to state a fact: your writing is perfect

moonchild-love-letter said: Hi, how are you? I hope you're okay. Actually, I hope you're better than okay, I hope you've been eating well, sleeping well, and spending your days chasing your bliss. Your writing is a piece of art, whenever I finish a chapter I always feel so happy and blessed to have found your blog. I hope that happiness returns to you ten folds. I hope your days are filled with love. Thank you for sharing your work. Thank you.

Anonymous said: BABY ROSE YOURE BACK!!!!! I’m ready to spend my 2020 supporting your 10/10 writing and you on your life journey. GONNA SMOTHER YOU WITH KINDNESS AND LOVE 🥰🥰

Anonymous said: i admire u so much for being confident enough to put ur mental health first. school causes me so much stress and anxiety and makes me slip back into my depression so fast. i look up to u so much. im glad ur doing what makes u happy. 🥺

Anonymous said: HAPPY NEW YEAR BBY 💙💙 YOU WERE LITERALLY THE FIRST FEW BLOGS I FOLLOWED AND YOU GOT ME INT HE FEELS SO MANY TIMES AND YOUR THEMES ARE AMAZING AND YOURE AMAZING AND I LOVE YOU YOU SMOL BBY -Bunny

tinievmin said: Okay so you’re my internet older sister now!!! Wow this is so cute 🥺🥺 Take care of your health, eat well, drink water, sleep, and be kind to yourself this year!!! Sending u love!!

Anonymous said: U ARE A BABY 😩😩😩😩😩😩

Anonymous said: WT FFFFFFF ROSE HAPPY NEW YEAR 🌟 u are backkkkk i miss u little bby 🤧💕

Anonymous said: While they say that army’s are toxic, i think I’ve never found so many people sharing one common interest with such an awareness and consciousness about complex concepts like loving yourself. I like to think that BTS deconstructed the cliché of “love yourself” into something more complex and difficult that u would pursue in life bravely, even through struggles, and not just a quote u find on aesthetic pillows. And I think you’re doing just that too with your stories and your journey. thank you💕

Anonymous said: hello! i'm a returning bts writer and so glad to see find you on here still!! i remember reading one of your earliest fics i love you

Anonymous said: You’re so talented!!

Anonymous said: hello miss rose how are you today? I thought id just come over to say hi and i love you so much you beautiful human being. I hope you and your little fur babies are doing well!💜💜💜💜

Anonymous said: hey, idk if you'll even see this, but i just wanted to say i'm in love with all of your fics. i don't even have a tumblr account, i just come to your page from google to read your stuff and see if you're doing well😳 i could say more but that robot verification keeps running out, so hope 2020 treats you well and you're an amazing writer!

pocketfullofsuga said: hey I checked who im following and it said you are one of my favorite tumblrs I mean they aint wrong though bby

Anonymous said: JUST WANTED TO SAY ILYILYILY AND I HOPE THAT THE NEW DECADE IS TREATING YOU WELL EVEN THO WE ONLY FOUR DAYS IN. ILY, STAY HEALTHY, LOVE YOURSELF. k bye 🥺🤍🕊🥰

[smellycinnamonthundahfudge]

Tag Game

Tagged by: @theslytherinterran haha thanks for this btw, i really like getting these things cus im just such a needy bish hahaha

Name/Alias: hahahahaha i dont think im ready to give out my real name on tumblr so i have this thing where like i kinda just wanna be called smells instead hahaha. yknow cus of my url? like yknow how mel is short for melody (pond hehe), i want to be called smells because it's short for smelly hahaha

plus i think it's hilarious to be called smells cus i actually am kinda gross irl hahaha

Birthday: Dec 20 🤟😘

Zodiac: Saggitarius... i think? is that even how you spell it? haha lol

Height: 5'5"?? tbh i aint rlly dat sure haha

Hobbies: bingewatching (tv shows, movies, yt vids), writing (fanfics, poems, analysis/posts/captions/thoughts), hanging out in tumblr haha, reading (once in a blue moon, i binge a couple fics on a list or a book that i kept on pause haha), and then lastly, hanging w/ meh doggos hehe 🥰😄🥰😊

Favourite Color: Pink (i wonder if that seems unexpected for me here or nah haha)

Favourite Books:

there's this author in my country, Bob Ong, i think he's pretty much the most mainstream author we have and i fucking love his books. i've only read 2 of them (so far) abnkkbsnplako?! and stainless longganisa but i fucking loved them. they are so relatable n honest n FUNNY n smart n truthful n emotionally resonant. they're basically memoirs n rando thoughts about school and writing. but i honestly really really loved them

Ugly Love by Colleen Hoover - whew holy shit this book was a doozy for me. one, she's like only the 2nd fem author i've read (i'm not much of a reader if i'm being honest, dont have the patience for it), it is such an emotional love story with great characters and it had me saying i love you to the loved ones in my life after reading it (but that may or may not have to do with the fact that i just have a lotta repressed emotions that this book, and sleep deprivation from binging it, managed to wring out of me haha). it's also pretty funny n quirky n cool n haha it's the first time i read a sex scene that wasn't on fanfic haha

A Series of Unfortunate Events by Lemony Snicket (aka Daniel Handler irl) - i. love. these. books. they are so freaking smart and funny and amusing and lemony snicket's voice is just so effing good. i havent read all of them tho. an unfortunate mistake that i still feel guiltyabout to this day haha lol

Last song listened to: when i first started answering this, it was Euphoria by uhh jung kook is it? tbh i only listened to it cus kat and ethan's romantic confession was literal goals haha. but then i listened to vacation by the gogos while writing this probs cus i was lssing to it after ffh haha

Last movie watched: i thought the last movie i watched was endgame too (every time i watch it is a memorable af experience) but i am just now remembering it's actually mamma mia hahaha. i've rewatched that film so many goddamned times already it literally just slipped my mind haha. and then after putting this on pause, i watched like 3 romcoms (10 things i hate about you, begin again, and half of flipped haha)

Inspiration for muse: hhmm well i think it usually happens when i read/watch something and then my mind fixates on how my ship could be applied to that as well haha dunno

Dream Job: comedian-writer-director haha

Meaning behind my URL: hahaha ngl i kinda feel like i've been waiting for someone to ask me this ever since i came up with it hahaha. like the explanation has just been sitting in the back of my mind for so long and now i can finally explain the quirky cute weird insanity that is my url haha.

each word is related to something significant from a fandom of mine

smelly is from smelly cat from friends, phoebe's infamous song haha

cinnamon is rajesh koothrapali's adorable lil dog (CINNAMON, MY LITTLE LAMB CHOP 😂😂🤣) from the big bang theory

thundah, i think, is from cat in the hat. where the cat has thing 1 and thing 2 and thing 2's nickname is chocolate thundah hahaha (overcompensating with the nicknames because of he's number 2 hahaha)

and lastly fudge is from how i met your mother because marshall erikson calls himself/is called big fudge and subsequently judge fudge hahahaha <3

and thus smellycinnamonthundahfudge was born. i have no idea what past me was thinking hahaha. i think i was trying to be all WEIRD AND QUIRKY YAY which i think i succeeded at haha cus i was finally going to join tumblr. i also have a hard on for references that i wonder if ppl will get or nah hahaha. plus i really like its flow, like you can say it really quickly despite it being long af hahaha

imma just tag familiar faces around here haha (yknow the gist, do wat u wanna do, im not forcin u or anythin)

@mytamakomysookee and @hello-em75 (the first pips i actually chatted with when i first got here hehe), @suplosers (the first one ever to tag me in something like this hehe) and then just a buncha pips i've seen around here somewhere... cant really place you, u guys just seem familiar enough haha lol @you-guys--are-losers @the-real-illi-vanilli @nicehandsfeet @justaleapoffaith @jennifer7585 @orntrnk @mllefangirl @dhallia @untitledandrandom @spiderman-homecomeme @kanakalala458 @xfandemoniumx @justanotherfangirlpassingthrough @justlookatthosesausages @bubbleuwu @timey-wimey-drew @ironchilddragon @walkingcherrysoul @sexylordpalpatine @ohthedreamsofeuphoria @mattsavocados @missjordie @across-the-pond

and finally @tare8chan even tho you've not just been tagged to this already (by the same person who tagged me for that matter), you managed to finish this before i tagged ya hahaha darn

this was so effing long and sharey i dunno maybe i was just bored or on a confident streak hahahaha lol

well i think the lesson here is that i'm a very intense person with a lot of feels. thanks to anyone who actually read this entire thing for some reason haha. i know my intensity can be really offputting sometimes but eh pips gon be hu pips gon be. dey cant help it

[jjungkooksthighs]

HIII ITS ME HEART FLUTTERING ANON 😁 SO! FAV CHAPTERS EEEE first of all chap 1 had me hooked obviously from the start, and for chap 2 i lovedddd how it set the scene for how they first met and then when they ran into each other again ... literal tingles up and down the way he TALKED to her??? “pretty omega ... i won’t bite” AHHHHHHHHHHHH

and then all of chapter 3 was so good the way he was talking to her again was sooo good so possessive and it was incredible like i don’t know if you understand literally LITERALLY it makes my body tingle and then chap 4 when he carried her through the forest and hes all like “you wouldn’t want me to lose control would you” AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH

and then chapter 5 i love that you wrote her a sweet best friend and also that scene where she imagined him .... GOD ur incredible. and then the ENDING. when taehyung popped out .... i’m actually double biased with taehyung and jungkook and so when that happened i was like JHDJSAIWIQKSJJS more tingles it was so well written please

... then chap 6. do i even need to say anything? thigh riding i CANT i almost passed out and he made her admit that she had her own fantasies and nobody could do it like him .... also the end when he was like “it won’t be just your legs that ache in my wake” AHHHHHHHHHHHH LIKE I SWEAR MY WHOLE BODY JUS. IDK HOW TO DESCRIBE IT OTHER THAN AHHHHHHHHHHH

chap 7 ... the whole dancing scene was so hot and then he told her to come to him OOOOO ANTICIPATION

finally chap 8 GODDDD first of all i love grinding like literally you don’t even understand and so when you wrote that in i was like EEEEEEE and then she went down on him and at the same time she got off on his leg that was so so sexy but then they have to go apart again :( until the next chapter !

so. in case you haven’t noticed it’s very hard for me to pick a fav chapter. lol. BUT i would def say chap 6 and chap 8 for obvious reasons, chapter 3 and 4 were also really sexy but i think my fav will be chapter 9 actually i’m anticipating it a lot and i’m sure it’ll be nothing but amazing ... that’s not pressure it’s me having faith in you cause you’re an amazing writer and i’m so excited to see what you come up with next hehe

i hope tbis wasn’t too long and annoying to read but yeah ily

Chapter 1 of COC was written during a lust filled craze following the Idol performance at Gyeongbokgung Palace that they boys did for that BTS week on Jimmy Kimmel’s show. Kook really was in a rare form following his 23rd birthday and that performance truly had me salivating over him from start to finish. I saw Jungkook and my eyes did not stray from him once and not a day later, I was working on a fic that I had no idea would become the 40k plus piece that is now COC. 

Chapter 1 was brought you to my overwhelming horniness after that performance and it’s interesting that you were lured to my fic in the same way Jungkook allured me to him even from the moment I first saw him back in 2013. 

You caught that little bit with him biting her in chapter 2, huh?? XD I am impressed. Perhaps he was joking, perhaps he knew from that second he saw her that she was destined to be his mate and therefore was hinting at a future mating mark???

Moving on, Jungkook is indeed a very possessive individual (from what we know of him irl in that he’s said “what is yours is mine and what is mine is mine”) and I wanted to depict that side of him in addition to making that trait even more abundant in his character in the story since wolves themselves are very territorial and possessive creatures. If Jungkook irl likes to stake his claim on things, then you can only image how much more enhanced that side of him would be if here were, say, a werewolf. 

I am glad you Jungkook’s characterization in the way that he converses with those around him (especially reader) and when I was writing, I wanted reader to feel shy and even more, I wanted you guys as the readers to “feel” the tingle that she does when he speaks to her. The fact that you do means i succeeded in that and I am very, very pleased to hear it!

As for his comment about “losing control,” let us just say that every single time that reader is around him, it takes him an enormous amount of self-restraint not to let his urges take hold of him that she brings out whenever he inhales her pheromones that make his baser being howl with need for in addition to her own personality that he finds very refreshing and adorable. On top of all that, she’s the most beautiful creature he’s ever seen, so he’s quite taken with her and she with him. I wanted to instill that desire between them as well within their conversations and hopefully that is conveyed in the chapters, too!

Chapter five....that one was one written after quite the dream I had. I will say that one was genius if I do say so myself. It was so long and i had so much I wanted to do with it and the final product I was actually really satisfied with. I’m happy to know you were, too, hun! It’s funny you say you are double biased with Tae as someone I know very well irl is biased so hard for him that not even Kook can sway her attention (and lbr how can one NOT look at Jungkook when he’s sin incarnate when he wants to be and cute lil baby boy when he feels like being sweet?)

LISTEN CHAPTER SIX I WROTE IN ANOTHER LUST FILLED HAZE OKAY I MAKE NO APOLOGIES FOR THIGH RIDING I MEAN HAVE YOU SEEN HIS LEGS??? HAVE YOU??? LITERAL ORGASM MATERIAL ISTG I WOULD RIDE THEM WHENEVER, WHEREVER AND HOWEVER HE WANTED IF HE LET ME. MY URL LITERALLY IS JJUNGKOOKSTHIGHS OKAY I MUST PAY HOMAGE TO THE CREATIONS OF THE FINEST MAKING TO MAN (honestly though everything about Jungkook is a gift from the gods). i cannot tell you how many times I have thought about fucking myself over his thighs okay it’s just not healthy and let us leave it at that. Ahem, anyways.... chapter six really was something, huh? That whole chapter got deleted off my computer after I closed the file and forgot to save it and so had to rewrite the whole thing from scratch. It was a sad day when that happened, but I got right back to work and finished the reworked version about two days later. I had worried for some time that that chapter wasn’t as hot because of the diction in it, so hopefully you were able to immerse yourself in that and get those tingles there, too XD

Chapter seven was especially long and that one was actually deleted originally after some comments about the diction and so I had to rewrite it and repost it so that people would be able to understand it better. That whole dance scene is very close to my heart as it was taken directly from that little dance break Jungkook does in his My Time performance during their online MOTS: One concert. The song he sings is also My Time, which is my favorite solo song (in combination with Euphoria because they are both my children and you can’t pick favorites with children lbr), so that whole little show he puts on for reader is very special to me since I love the song (and dance) so much. 

Chapter eight was hot af, I admit it. He really did a number on reader in chapter seven and so she wanted to show him how he made her feel and boy, did she deliver. He fell even harder for her when he realized she wanted to please him despite her inexperience and it was a godly experience for him to be able to teach her how to use her mouth on the only cock that she will ever have in her mouth or her cunt. :) They are animals after all, for only animals do what they did in that chapter in terms of her literally rutting against his leg and getting off while she drank his seed after blowing him. Anyways, it was hot and I confess, my mind really was somewhere south while writing that. 

Oh, and to clarify, they don’t separate in that chapter (and I have begun to write chapter nine and they are not apart in that one either. Well, in the beginning at least ). 

So, chapters 6 and 8 were your favorites, huh? Looks like your favorite ones are the ones with smut , eh??? Interesting... I will say that chapter nine will not have any smut in it, but I think you will be pleased with it when you read it. You will have quite a lot of emotions hit you during it and I hope to do you justice when I post it, hon. 

Thank you so much for giving me such a long and detailed response. You may think I found it annoying, but I assure you that I did not. Rather, I thought the opposite in that it was endearing and I want you to know how grateful I am that you took the time to write all this out and send it to me. I wanted to give you a response that was just as detailed and thoughtful as I appreciate you for doing what you did. So, I guess what I am trying to say is thank you for this. I enjoyed reading your thoughts and i hope you will be appeased by my reply in turn, sweetling. 

[happy-meo]

Masquerade 3.1: The Decision

When nothing changes, would you take a chance and wait, or would you  leave?

SPOILER ALERT!! If you haven’t, please read the main stories of this series: MASQUERADE & Masquerade II & Masquerade III !! 

Summary: When you first started, you thought it would progress into something more. But months down the road, nothing’s changed. You were still in some weird in between phase, waiting. But the longer you waited, the deeper you fell for him. How long exactly could you hold onto the hope that you had when everything first began?

Jungkook x Reader (ft. Jimin, Hoseok, & certain GOT7 & BlackPink member/s)  Cop!Kook/ Police!Kook, Host au Fluff, Angst, Rom-Com, Slight smut

A/N: Hi ~ hehe I missed my Masquerade characters so I was feeling like writing a short (but not so short) story <3 Enjoy!

           Jungkook's hands roamed your bare body, stirring you awake with the familiar yet still tingling sensation.

           "Jungkook." You sighed.

           "Hm?" He hummed, nuzzled closer into the crook of your neck now that you were awake.

           "What time is it?" You yawned.

           "Mmm 4am."

           "Ugh. I can sleep in for another hour. Why did you wake me?" You complained.

           "I didn't wake you. You woke up yourself."

           You could hear the smugness in his voice.

           "Anybody would wake up if you kept touching them." You huffed.

           "But you like it." He planted kisses on your shoulder gently then bit into it playfully.

           You rolled your eyes, but didn't budge, letting him gnaw at your skin like a teething cub.

           "Don't tell me you're still horny after you kept me up until late last night?"

           "And who was it that invited me over?" he rested his chin on the curve of your shoulder so his breath tickled your cheek.

           His warm chest was pressed against the skin of your back. It was comfortable and secure.

           "Well some days you just leave..." You tried not to sound as bitter as you felt.

           "I told you I leave 'cause I have to go to the police station early." he yawned. "My place is closer to it."    

           "And don't you have to go today too?"

           "Yeah. But I was too tired to head home last night."

           "Heh." You smirked. "I tired you out, huh?"

           He threw his leg around you and enveloped you tightly.

           "How about you try to stand first? Then we can talk." he grinned.

           "You're such an ass." You shook your head.

           "I'm so proud of you." he teased. "Before you talked like a nerd and now look at you, cursing and saying stupid things."

           "Hanging out with you has clearly done wonders to my brain cells." You scoffed.

           "Well clearly, I've done wonders to other parts of your body." he chuckled as cupped your breasts playfully.

           You smacked his hands away. "Hands off the goods, mister. I won't be starting shenanigans with you this morning."

           "No shenanigans." he lifted his hands up.

           "But no, keep hugging me. I'm cold." You huffed and pulled his arms back around you.

           Jungkook smiled as he placed a kiss on your temple. "Am I coming over tonight after I get out of work?"

           "Oh um..." You hummed.

           "Hm?" He loosened his hold so you could face him.

           "Um...I'm actually...I have um..." You lowered your voice. "I have a date."

           "What?" he blinked.

           "I have a date." You shrugged. "So I don't think so."

           He stared at you dumbfounded. "I didn't know you were seeing someone."

           "Yeah, well it's our first date today. We've been talking online mostly." You rubbed Jungkook's arm.

           "Interesting. Is he like...real though?"

           You smacked his chest. "Yes, I insisted he webcam with me before I agreed to meeting him in person."

           "Webcam? Or...webcam?" he wiggled his eyebrows insinuatingly.

           "JUST webcam. I don't do that with strangers." You commented.

           "Oh really?" his lips curled up. "As I recall, we were strangers when you first requested me in the Club."

           You groaned and buried your head in his chest. "You're never going to let me live that down!"

           He giggled. "Never. You chose me out of all the masks."

           "I keep telling you I just wanted to prove you wrong and stab your ego!" You argued.

           Jungkook kissed you. "Sure, sure. But look where you are now? Still in bed with me."

           You exhaled. Yes, look where you were now. Still in bed with Jungkook. Still in the same weird relationship, but not relationship with him. I guess most people would define it as friends with benefits, but it was more than that. You two went out to eat; sometimes you'd just sit around and relax together. It wasn't always about having sex. But it never progressed to anything more either.

           Whenever you brought up the topic though, Jungkook would always say he wasn't ready. And you wanted to respect that. I mean, when you two had met, he was terrified of interacting with women. But recently, you've started wondering if he would ever be ready.

           At first, his job at Club Masquerade didn't faze you. It was work. You were well aware of what he did, and he never spared a detail about what he did. But down the line, you began getting this twisted knot in your gut whenever he recounted moments with his clients, and you realized he was doing things he did with you, with other women. Not just one, but many. And you realized that you couldn't wait for him anymore. Because he consistently made it clear that he didn't want to settle down. Your relationship wasn't going to progress past lust and like. So you decided, if he could see other people, then why shouldn't you?

           Honestly, his indifference at your confession only served to dishearten you even further. But what could you expect? You were the one that jumped into assumptions that you two would eventually begin dating. How foolish.  

           "What's the guy's name?"

           "Yugyeom. Kim Yugyeom."

           "Hm." he hummed as he drew circles on your hip.

           You exhaled and turned to get out of the bed. The longer you stayed near him, the more you wanted what you couldn't. You didn't want to jeopardize your friendship and get weird. But Jungkook's hands grabbed onto you and easily pulled you back down to bed. Much like how he always seemed to pull you to act out of reason. It was only him that could stir up your feelings faster than your logic for once.

           "Where are you going?" he frowned.

           "I should get ready for work." You tried to make an excuse.

           "You said you could sleep in for another hour." he stated curiously.

           You fell silent, and he just held you quietly.

           "Can't I come after your date?" he whispered as his lips pressed down your neck before taking a good sniff into your shoulder.

           You always melted when he did that. Because the man was so sensitive to scents, but for some reason, he constantly enjoyed the smell of your skin no matter if you were sweaty post-sex or freshly showered.

           "I-I don't know what time we'll be back or what will happen..." You mumbled.

           "What are you hoping to happen?" He shifted as he began peppering kisses on your face.

           "I um...well you know if things go well we might end up here or someplace else --" You couldn't finish because his lips pressed roughly onto yours, knocking the wind out you. His tongue slipped into your mouth with need, and you allowed him access as if it was the most natural thing in the world.

           You weren't sure how long you two made out. Time always flew too quickly. His presence had become a drug to you. Even when you were skin to skin you wanted him closer. You reveled in the way his lips perfectly slotted against yours and how his tongue explored your mouth, firing up your senses so early in the morning.

           "Let's get ready for the day?" he smiled when he broke the kiss.

           You couldn't help but mirror his face as you nodded.

           He hopped out of bed and extended his hand out. Knowingly, you took it and both of you made your way into the shower.

           "Thanks for dropping me off." Jungkook smiled as he leaned over to kiss you.

           This wasn't what friends with benefits did. They didn't drop each other off at work. They didn't kiss each other goodbye where others could see. But despite all these fallacies playing in your mind, you kissed him back.

           "Have a good day." You waved.

           "Have a good date." He grinned cheekily.

           You exhaled as he hopped out of the car.

           "Oh? Yo, partner!" he called out.

           You scowled as you realized that his police partner, Lisa, was also walking in at the same time. Never mind his customers at Masquerade, but she was an actual female with an identity and a clear role in his life. It truly irked you. You watched as they chatted at the entrance then hurriedly averted your gaze when they glanced over in your direction. Lisa brightly waved at you, and you wryly smiled and returned the gesture. She was a sweet girl and had done nothing to warrant your bitterness, but for someone who claimed he couldn't talk to girls, Jungkook was doing just fine with her.

           You shook your head. No point in thinking about that now. You had to pick up coffee for Jimin and Hoseok again so you needed to hurry.

           As you were about to pull out, you spotted Jungkook hurrying over to your window. Curiously, you rolled it down.

           "Did you forget something?" You asked.

           "Yeah." he captured your lips passionately, making you forget you were in the middle of the parking lot at his job.

           You breathed, "What was that for?"

           He smirked. "Something to remember me by when you're out with that Gyeo guy."

           "Yugyeom." You corrected.

           "Yeah, yeah. Whatever." he huffed.

           Your lips curled up. Maybe he wasn't completely indifferently after all.

           "You sure you want to be kissing me in front of your beautiful partner?" You fluttered your eyes. "She might get think we're together or something."

           "Mhm." he smiled as he leaned down for another. "Hundred percent sure."

           "Alright lovebirds! We have crime to fight! Kiss later!" Lisa chuckled.

           "Text me later, okay?" Jungkook pressed his lips on your forehead.

           You literally felt your chest tighten at his tenderness. But it only served to make you want him for yourself even more.

           "Jungkook. Why're you back here so late? You don't have the night shift?" Lisa questioned, surprised at seeing her partner.

           Jungkook was typing frantically as he munched on a packet of seaweed. He had rushed out of Masquerade, and back to the Police Department with a single sole purpose.

           "Hm." Lisa raised an eyebrow and leaned over to look at his computer screen. "Why are you tracking down someone named Kim Yugyeom?"

           "I'm just doing some...research..." Jungkook mumbled bitterly.

           She eyed him suspiciously. "Is this the person Y/N said she was going on a date with tonight?"

           "No." he replied unconvincingly.

           "Jungkook, this is an abuse of your police power." she crossed her arms.

           Jungkook stared at her worriedly, wondering if she was going to say something to the higher ups, but she simply grinned and pulled a chair beside him.

           "Show me what he looks like."

           Jungkook chuckled and continued fluttering his fingers on the keyboard.

           "Oh! They're pulling out of a restaurant." Lisa smacked him excitedly. "I can't believe we tracked down his car. You really are good at everything."

           Jungkook smirked and shrugged, feeling quite accomplished himself.

           "Oh?" Lisa blinked.

           "What? What's wrong?"

           "They're heading to a park? At like 11:30pm?" She glanced at her watch.

           "Is that weird?" Jungkook tilted his head.

           "Um well they surely aren't going to just stroll around the park in the dark, if you know what I mean." Lisa insinuated.

           Jungkook's eyes widened in realization, and he grabbed his jacket. "I need to go."

           "Take the cop car!" Lisa called out as she threw him the keys.

           "Thanks." Jungkook grinned as he caught it with ease.

           "Go get her." she giggled. "You little creep."

           Jungkook snorted and sprinted out into his police car.

           Surprisingly, you were actually having a great time on this date. You had dreaded it. Almost cancelled out of fear that it would be awkward or that you would spend the entire time wishing it was Jungkook, but it turned out to be a wonderful time. First, he had picked you up at your apartment like a true gentleman. Then it turned out he had already taken care of reservations for the evening. Yugyeom was handsome, slightly shy but once you two became comfortable, funny.

           Time really flew by during dinner, and you didn't feel conscious at all. Conversation flowed well. You definitely were attracted to him. But there were occasional moments when he did or said something that reminded you of Jungkook, and that made you feel a little empty. You had to refocus yourself and push those thoughts and feelings to dark spaces of your mind. You were here to move on, to move forward.

           And there was definitely a click with Yugyeom.

           "Let's go?" he grinned as he stood up.

           "Sure." You smiled.

           "So...my place?" he asked questioningly.

           You hummed, delighted that he reciprocated your feelings of attraction. However, it felt like too big of a step bringing him to your place, to where too many memories of Jungkook lingered. But you also didn't want to go to his place, not knowing where he lived, and if things were going to take an odd turn and you couldn't escape. He seemed to sense your hesitancy, so with a gentle squeeze on your hand, he suggested.

           "How about some other place then?"

           And that was how you found yourself making out in the backseat of Yugyeom's car, in the middle of a park parking lot. It was dim and secluded. Somewhere where you could forget Jungkook, and get lost in the feeling of someone else. If things did take a downward turn, you were confident that in the small space, you could hit him where it hurts, push him out, and jack his car to make a clean escape. You clenched your fists into his shirt, mentally scolding yourself for thinking so pessimistically.

           But you wanted this.

           You wanted to see how it would feel like to be with someone else. You had been with only Jungkook for far too long, that maybe your feelings were just simply complacence. Humans were attracted to consistency and security by nature, so it's normal to want someone you're comfortable with, someone who's consistent in your life rather someone uncharted and new. You climbed onto Yugyeom's lap, delightedly feeling that he was already hard.

           "You're so hott." he whispered as he reconnected your lips.

           His hands were roaming towards the zipper of your dress as you deepened the kiss with great need, urging him. Suddenly, you both jumped apart at the blaring sound of sirens close by.

           "Shit!" Yugyeom cursed, and you both hurriedly scrambled to the front seats.

           In no time, there was a knock on the passenger's side window of the car. Nervously, you rolled the window down. But when you did, your eyes widened.

           "What in the world--" You started.

           "Mind telling me what you two are doing in a park this late at night?" Jungkook gave you a slight smirk, but directed an intense gaze at Yugyeom, who immediately straightened up.

           "Um w-w-we were lost!" he lied.

           "Hmm..." Jungkook hummed, and you knew he had seen your swollen lips and flushed cheeks.

           But why in the world was he here in the first place?

           "Miss, I'm going to have to ask you to step out of the car." Jungkook commanded professionally.

           "Wh-" You were about to protest.

           "He's a cop, Y/N. Do what he says." Yugyeom urged, concerned.

           "You." Jungkook flatly called. "Don't tell her what to do. Shut your window, and look forward until I'm done talking to her."

           "Yes, sir." Yugyeom nodded and fumbled to do what he said, clearly shaken.

           You exhaled, and stepped out of the car obediently.

           Jungkook's mouth was turned down seriously as he studied you carefully.

           "He didn't hurt you right?" he questioned.

           "No. I'm fine." You replied, knowing Yugyeom could still hear from inside.

           "Is he making you do anything you don't want to?" Jungkook inquired.

           "No, Officer. He's not." You stared at him steadily.

           Jungkook remained silent for a few seconds, before knocking on the car window. Immediately, it rolled down.

           "I'm going to make sure this young lady gets home safely as per protocol. I won't write you up or anything, but I'll let you off with a warning. If this happens again, you could be convicted of public indecency, attempted rape, or attempted murder. Any problems with that?" he questioned.

           "N-no Officer! Please make sure she gets home safely!" Yugyeom squeaked.

           "Yug--" You gasped.

           "Here's her purse! I'll call you later, Y/N, okay?" he smiled shyly.

           "Now get out of here." Jungkook smirked and gestured with his head.

           Yugyeom scrambled to start his ignition and within seconds, his car disappeared.

           You simply glared at Jungkook, who shrugged and gave you his most innocent smile. You sharply went to seat yourself in his passenger seat without another word.

           Needless to say, the ride home was an unbearably silent one. Jungkook kept glancing at you worriedly, but you kept your arms crossed so he wouldn't try to touch your hands, your legs crossed so he wouldn't slide his hand on your thigh, and your head glued to the window so he couldn't caress your face. You knew him well enough to know that he thought these moves would ease your anger. And on a normal occasion, they would. You two never fought over anything substantial. But this...no, this was just absolutely humiliating and uncalled for.

           He parked easily in your apartment complex, and you slammed the car door behind you as you stomped out. Hurriedly, he followed you to your apartment with a sheepish look on his face. Once you both were in the safety of your place, he finally broke the quietness.

           "Y/N..." he reached out for you, but you stepped back.

           "What was that?" You bluntly asked, throwing your things onto your couch.

           "What do you mean?"

           You scoffed. "Jeon Jungkook. Why did you show up in the middle of my date?!"

           "I was just passing by." he lied.

           "Passing by my ass! We weren't even close to the police station, and you don't even have the night shift tonight! WHY DID YOU DO THAT? DO YOU THINK I'M A JOKE?"

           "No! Of course not!" he worried. "Y/N, that's not-- look I wasn't. I wasn't thinking."

           "That embarrassed me, Jungkook. I had a really good time with him. Things were going great tonight. Why couldn't you let me have this?" Your heart hurt. Why was he holding onto you when you were trying to forget him? It was so unfair.

           "What do you mean?" he frowned.

           "Do you not care about me? Is that it? You're just going to waltz in and continue ruining all the relationships in my life?"

           "Why're you even dating around now?" Jungkook raised his voice, obviously ticked off. "You said you weren't interested in seeing people!"

           "Yeah, I was never interested in seeing people, Jungkook. Because unlike someone I want to be with just one person!" You yelled.

           "So you just sleep with anyone you have a good time with? Is that it?!" he bellowed.

           "I don't want to hear that from someone who fucks people as a job!" You pushed him. "You're so frustrating!"

           "I'm frustrating? YOU'RE frustrating! Why're you so mad about me barging in one fuckin' date with someone you don't even know?"

           "But why did you, Jungkook?" You exhaled.

           "Huh?"

           "Why did you barge in?" You ran your hands through your hair. "Were you watching me the entire date? Did you put a tracker on me? Were you protecting me? What in the world were you thinking to make you do this?"

           "I don't know." he mumbled.

           "THAT!" You shoved his chest, blowing up again. "That is EXACTLY why I'm dating again. You don't know anything, Jeon Jungkook! You don't want to know anything! I'm not YOURS. You don't even really care about--"

           Your words were cut off by Jungkook pulling you in roughly and shutting you up with his lips.

           "Don't you dare finish that sentence." he fumed.

           Both of you were panting. You were sure your entire floor heard your argument with how loudly you were screaming at each other.

           "Don't you dare say that I don't care about you." he gritted his teeth.

           "I'm not yours." You buried your head into his chest as you repeatedly drummed your hand against it. You weren't his...but you wanted to be.

           Tears streamed down your cheeks, because you were angry, hurt, yet relieved all at the same time. You were so in love with the man in front of you. But you wished he knew why he had done what he did. You wished he had done it decisively, because he didn't want you to be with anyone else. You wished he had done it because he loved you and wanted to be with just you. He cared about you, but it wasn't enough that he wanted to keep you all to himself.

           "You don't care about me." You whispered.

           Jungkook pinned you against the wall. "Shut up."

           "You don't care." You stared at him defiantly.

           His hands had a deathly grip on your wrists.

           "I told you not to say that."

           "You don't care. You don't care. You don't --"

           You barely had time to breath before he closed your airway with his mouth again. This time hungrily, passionately, aggressively, like he was trying to force something down your throat. You tried to pull your arms away but he was too strong. Your limbs remained against the wall submissively.

           You may have lost control of part of your body, but you weren't going to lose in the game of tongues. Swiping his bottom lip with yours, you caused him to moan and press his body closer to you. Heatedly, you two continued your battle for dominance. Whoever yielded would have to admit they were wrong, and this time, you definitely weren't going to back down. He knew it as well, so he had purposely disabled your hands. But you had other methods up your sleeve.

           You wrapped a leg around him, causing your skirt to ride up and grinded into him.

           "Fuck." he hissed as he latched himself onto your neck.

           You threw your head back as he sucked into your skin, marking you. But your mouth was free, so you took advantage of it.

           Leaning into the shell of his ear, you whispered, "I want you to make me cum with your mouth."

           You smirked as Jungkook began having a coughing fit. It was only on very special occasions that you pulled out the dirty language, so it always came as a surprise to him.

           "Why? Not confident?" you taunted.

           His eyes changed once again at the challenge.

           "I'm already so horny from my backseat make out. I need you right now." You urged.

           "Hands behind your head so I know you're not trying to pull any cheap tricks." he raised an eyebrow.

           Your lips curled up as he slowly loosened his hold on your wrists. Obediently, you placed your hands behind your head. And in one swift motion, he lifted you up with ease.

           "Bedroom? Living room? Kitchen? Bathroom?" he questioned gently.

           You blinked up at him. His change of character made you temporarily forget your plan of attack.

           He looked down at you curiously, but chuckled at your astonishment.

           "Bedroom it is then."

           And well, let's just say your neighbors were hearing a different type of screaming this time around.

           "Jungkook." You mumbled as he cleaned himself up.

           "Hm?"

           "Do you think you'll ever graduate Masquerade?"

           He slipped into bed next to you. Both of you were facing each other intently. He sighed as he fiddled with a strand of your hair.

           "I don't know...Club Masquerade...it just gives me confidence, you know?" He bit his lip. "Like Red Mask and the other hosts were there for me when I just felt so lousy about myself. I mean you definitely were too. I feel like it's just such a big part of me, and that I can still learn so much from being there about interacting with others, and about myself."

           You smiled sadly and nodded. "I understand."

           "I'm sorry about barging into your date." he apologized.

           "I'm sorry for getting so mad." you chuckled. "It was a little funny...seeing his reaction."

           Jungkook grinned. "Okay, so I wasn't the only one that found it hilarious."

           "No." You laughed. "I really didn't expect him to be so scared of you. I mean, you don't look half as intimidating as the others on your team."

           Jungkook glared at you. "What is that supposed to mean?"

           You patted his cheek. "Oh, you were blessed with a baby face. It's hard for you to be terrifying."

           "I can be terrifying!" he huffed.

           "Yes, yes. You definitely had Yugyeom shaking a bit today. I have now witnessed the fear you instill in others." You commented playfully, trying to appease him. "Never again will I question it."

           It evidently worked because Jungkook smiled and outstretched his arms. Knowingly, you curled into his chest.

           "But Jungkook."

           "Yeah?"

           "I want to see other people too."

           You felt him tense at your suggestion.

           "Why?"

           "Don't you think it's unfair for you to sleep around in Masquerade, while I sit and twiddle my thumbs and wait to be your eleventh?" You shook your head. "I have my pride and dignity too. I want to experience things too. I want to meet other people. I want to get practice and improve. If you're still working at Masquerade then I, then I..."

           "You...?" he questioned.

           You looked up at him decisively. "Then I'm returning as a customer."

           Jungkook snorted. "Suuuree you will."

           You grumbled. "Just watch me, Jeon Jungkook."

           He yawned as he pulled your body closer to his, clearly not convinced.

           "Why are you staying over again? Shouldn't you head home?" You huffed, half-heartedly.

           "Your bed is more comfortable." he relaxed warmly.

           You smiled to yourself. "You're coming up with some creative excuses now. I'm so proud."

           But you soon felt his breathing steady and his embrace around you loosen. You lifted your head up and found him already fast asleep.

           Exhaling, you reached out to fix his hair gently.

           "I'm sorry Jungkook. But I'm not sure how long we can stay like this for anymore." you whispered sadly. "I don't know if my heart can take it much longer."

           "Umm Nochu?" Receptionist worriedly called him on his cell phone.

           "Yea?" Jungkook yawned as he was taking a break in one of his rooms.

           "I think you should come down here."

           "Why?"

           "We have a bit of a situation..."

           "If it's a crying girl, you know Pink Mask Jin is better suited for that..."

           "No um...it's actually Dark Angel."

           "What?" Jungkook shot up.

           "She's here."                                                                              

           Jungkook scrambled out hurriedly, to find you surrounded by the other masks excitedly.

           "Wahh! It's Dark Angel!"

           It was no secret that you had tamed the Golden Mask's ego once upon a time.

           "What brings you here?" Receptionist smiled.

           "I'm here as a customer." You shrugged.

           A few of the masks you didn't recognize raised their hands to volunteer to be your host.

           Suddenly, Jungkook slid into the scene, grabbing your shoulders, and using his body block you from everyone else.

           "What're you doing here?" he worried.

           "I told you last night. I'm coming back as a customer." You whispered. "I'm going to have fun too."

           Jungkook groaned. "Can we not do this?"

           You raised an eyebrow. "I can do what I want. We're not together."

           Receptionist bit her lip in amusement as she eyed the two of you. "Well Dark Angel, anyone in particular you want to try today?"

           Jungkook glared at her for consenting, but Receptionist shrugged it off nonchalantly.

           "Well who's one of the best around here?" You covered Jungkook's mouth as he opened it to most probably claim the title himself.

           "Hm well we have Pink..." Receptionist glanced over to find Pink Mask Jin frantically shaking his head and flailing frantically in disapproval. She blinked slightly confused at his reaction. "I mean uhh we have..."

           "Well if you want the best," Someone with a green mask slid in front of you and kissed the back of your hand suavely. "I'm happy to oblige."

           Jungkook rolled his eyes as you giggled.

           "And who might you be?" You asked.

           "They call me...The Wang." he wiggled his eyebrows playfully. "Shall we?"

           "Let's." You grinned.

           Jungkook grabbed your wrist. "How about no?"

           "Excuse us for 5 seconds." Jin smacked the back of Green Mask's head and dragged him away.

           "How about yes?" You turned to Jungkook. "Aren't you a little free for being the top mask around?"

           "Well...he's not taking as many customers as before." Receptionist tapped her scheduler.

           You glanced at Jungkook, surprised, but he averted his eyes.

           "Jackson! What in the world?!" Jin hissed. "I told you that that's my sister!"

           Green Mask laughed, "I know dude! I wasn't going to sleep with her! I was just helping you and Nochu out as the only uninvolved party that knows who she really is!"

           Jin glared Jackson skeptically.

           "Dude." Jackson raised his hands up innocently. "We have two codes between us. We're not only homies in Masquerade, but we're also roommates. I wouldn't break our bond like this."

           Jin exhaled.

           "I promise. I will not shack up with your sister, no matter how much I want to." Jackson stated.

           Jin smacked him. "Don't even think about her!"

           Jackson cackled. "I'm playing with you, bro. She was also Namjoon's fling-a-fling, and clearly, someone important to Nochu. And I do not do my dude's siblings and flings, and almost-girlfriends."

           Jin leaned his head against the wall. "Why is she back here anyway?"

           "Well, I mean you were all angry at first about Jungkook and her dating. Like you hit Jungkook every chance you got, and childishly challenged him to random games...which you shamefully lost. But what? Now you want them to get together?" Jackson questioned.

           "I don't know." Jin sighed. "I mean I want her to be happy. And whenever I do see her, she's practically glowing. But I also want her to be with someone that respects her and treats her well. If I've been waiting for Jungkook to graduate, I'm sure she has been too. Maybe this is her last stand or ultimatum, you know?"

           "You're such a nice brother. Come here." Jackson embraced Jin. "I will sacrifice myself, and try my best to be a wonderful, respectful side piece for today."

           Jin scoffed. "Gee thanks."

           "So we cool right? I'm just going to have tea and conversation. No fooling around." Jacksoon outstretched his hand. "Okay?"

           Jin nodded and shook his friend's hand. "Alright."  

           "Alright. How about this?" Jackson clapped his hands as he returned, cutting the tension between you and Jungkook. "Dark Angel and The Wang will just have tea and conversation today. She'll have a good time. Nochu can chillax for now. And whatever happens between you outside of here, stays out of everyone's eyeballs."

           You and Jungkook glanced at each other curiously.

           "Sure." You smiled. "I'd like that."

           "Good?" Jackson addressed Jungkook.

           "Yeah." Jungkook frowned, but agreed reluctantly. "Yeah, that's fine."

           "There's this new tea that I've been meaning to try. Are you familiar with fancy teas?" Jackson offered his elbow and easily slipped into conversation with you.

           "I can't believe she's here." Jungkook sighed as he pushed his fingers through his hair. "I didn't think she was serious."

           "You know..." Receptionist hummed. "...why aren't you two together? It's been months."

           "What? And leave here?" Jungkook ruffled his hair. "I still haven't made my mark as Red Mask's prodigy! I don't want to lose the competition!"

           "Nochu..." Receptionist frowned. "That's not what you should be worried about losing..."

           "Hm?"

           She looked over at you having a genuinely good time with Jackson.

           "She's not going to wait forever for you, you know. If you don't make her yours, someone else will."

           "Honestly..." JK exhaled. "I don't know the first thing about being someone's boyfriend. I still don't have the confidence in that area..."

           "Well you know, the only way to learn is to actually be someone's boyfriend."

           "Tae." You slumped over the counter as he slid you your usual drink.

           "Another rough night?" Your cousin grinned and leaned over to pat your head gently.

           "How do I get someone to make me want to be his girlfriend?"

           "Still talking about that guy you've been hooking up with steadily, but he's afraid of committing?" Tae asked.

           "Yes." You frowned. "I tried seeing someone else, but he showed up in the middle of my date and took me home."

           "Hm. Romantic." Tae chuckled.

           "It would have been, if he confessed his undying love for me, and told me never to see another man again." You whined.

           "Sounds like someone's been watching too many K-dramas." he poked your forehead.

           "What do I do? I can't let go...but I don't know if I can keep holding on." You sipped your drink.

           Tae exhaled and grabbed your hands. "Look Y/N. I've been in that position before. I chose to wait and eventually, she chose someone else. Sometimes we think not doing anything means that we love them enough to wait. But I realized that it looked like I didn't care enough to fight for her, and that maybe I should've loved myself more."

           "Hm?"

           "Waiting hurts, Y/N." he smiled sadly. "Don't hurt yourself for anyone, okay? If that guy can't see what he has, then it's his loss. But before you give up, maybe show him what he's missing out on by not going steady with you. You can wait, but that doesn't mean you can't fight. Flaunt yourself. Find your happiness. I mean you can be with him, but maybe not just be only with him? You know?"

           You hummed. "So you're telling me I'm going in the right direction by trying to see other people?"

           "Hey, if this guy isn't going to keep you, shouldn't you give yourself the chance to find someone who will voluntarily?" Tae reasoned. "But I could be giving terrible advice. You should go to Jin hyung for these things."

           "Ew no. I can't go to my brother and ask him what to do about my friends with benefits. He would act all 'parent-y'. So would my sister. They would probably lecture me about sleeping with someone who sleeps with so many other women, and using protection and whatnot." You complained. "That'd be traumatizing."

           "Well...are you?" Tae blinked.

           "Yes!" You covered your face. "And he's clean too if that's your next question."

           Tae giggled. "You've changed in Seoul, Y/N."

           "Have I?" You smiled.

           "You've loosened up. But you know what?" Tae grinned.

           "What?"

           "I think you need to bring your old country edge back." he winked and refilled your glass. "And you, Little Missy, are sleeping over my house tonight. I need someone to watch romantic comedies with."

           You smiled gratefully and nodded as your cousin scurried to help his other customers.

           Thankfully, Yugyeom seemed to genuinely like you and continued to keep contact, regardless of the embarrassing situation that occurred during your first date. But he was definitely a little more hesitant about touching you, which you didn't mind. Taking things slow definitely wasn't bad. You were giving yourself a chance at finding a new connection, and you didn't want it to get muddled by physicality. If only Namjoon could see you now, you were sure he would be proud.

           And once in a while, you visited Club Masquerade just to piss off Jungkook, and to try to give him a taste of the hell he had been putting you through for months.

           "Whoa!" The Wang gasped as you dragged him into a room. "Hello to you too, Dark Angel."

           You smiled. "I'm sorry. I'm going to use you to make Nochu jealous."

           Jackson raised an eyebrow. "Do I still get paid?"

           "Of course." You chuckled.

           "And do I have to do anything?"

           "No." You waved your hands. "Think of it as an hour to relax?"

           Jackson shrugged. "Sounds good to me. I'm in."

           You grinned gratefully.

           "I can even make convincing sounds if you want me to." he laughed.

           "Like?"

           "Watch this." Jackson cleared his throat, and he let out guttural moan.

           "Wow." You nodded. "Impressive."

           "Thanks." he grinned proudly. "Took me awhile to get it down. My roommate wasn't quite pleased though. Our entire complex thinks we're together because we were the only two in the room."

           You snorted. "How unfortunate."

           "Eh, he's handsome. I don't mind." Jackson winked.

           You giggled.

           Jungkook thought he was going to lose his mind. Why were you torturing him like this? Why did he feel jittery and angry all the time? You still treated him like normal. You two spent the nights and days as usual, but you began going on more dates with Yugyeom, and started seeing Green Mask occasionally in Masquerade. And although at the end of the day, you were in bed in his arms, it was all unsettling. What were you doing? And what was he going to do?

           I mean, he saw your point. But Masquerade was a job. It wasn't like he was doing it for only fun. But why shouldn't you see other people of your own? Why was he so against it? It definitely was hypocritical of him. That's why he couldn't say or do anything. He only could simply watch other people make you happy. He could only pace back and forth in front of Green Mask's room, praying you would just get out, and willing himself not to barge in and pull you into his room instead. Both of you were at a standstill, and he wondered if it was alright to be like this.

           I mean nothing changed between you two.

           You still looked at him fondly. You still called his name sweetly. You still made jokes and sent him funny pictures, recounted stories about your day with him.

           He frowned. But was he the only one you were doing that with now?

           One day, on his way to work, he decided he wanted to see you to clear his head. So he stopped at your office building. A place he hadn't been to since you were both interns. He smiled warmly as his body took the familiar route to the company's floor, remembering how you two had interacted before. How you terrified him because you were so bold and nonchalant about touching him. How you literally baffled him with how curious and sharp you were, yet you knew so little about other things.

           "Mr. Jeon!" He heard a gasp as he stepped out of the elevator.

           He smiled and nodded, waltzing into the office.

           "Whoa-hoho! Look who's here to arrest me?" Jimin smirked and held his arms out. "Come on Officer. I've been a bad boy."

           Jungkook rolled his eyes. "I hear someone, but I don't know where the voice is coming from."

           "Come here you little handsome rascal!" Jimin pulled him down playfully.

           "Mr. Park, please." Hoseok exhaled and shook his head. "Hi, Jungkook."

           "Hi." He smiled as he peeked into your cubicle, only to find it unoccupied. "Where's Y/N?"

           "Ouch." Jimin clutched his chest. "And here I thought you were visiting us."

           Hoseok pointed to the back. "She's in the copy room teaching the new intern. I'm sure she'll be happy to see you."

           "Thanks." Jungkook grinned and hurried to where you were, trying to ignore the eyes following his every move. He definitely didn't miss being oggled at.

           But his worries disappeared when he heard your laughter, and he saw you through the window. His smile faded into a scowl as he saw the young male intern clearly entranced by you as you explained how the machine worked in intricate detail. However, he allowed himself to watch you as well. It had been awhile since he had seen you at work, and he always admired the way you spoke so confidently, so fluidly, with so much detail. His lips curled up as you waved your hand in front of the intern's face, who obviously was just staring at you and not comprehending anything, with that adorably annoyed face you make when you had to repeat yourself again.

           As if he had made a noise, your eyes suddenly connected with his and his heart fluttered at how you practically beamed at the sight of him. He watched in amusement as you fumbled around, accidentally messing up the papers in your arms, and eventually, just shoving it into the intern's chest before making a dash out of the copy room. He wondered how you had gotten cute in his eyes so quickly and so persistently.

           "Jungkook!" You breathed.

           He felt himself reciprocate your enthusiasm.

           "Y/N!"

           "What're you doing here?" You asked.

           "I wanted to see you." He smiled as he grabbed your hands, well aware that the intern had his face stuck to the window curiously. "Surprised?"

           "Very." You chuckled as you gestured towards your co-workers staring from their cubicles. "I didn't think you'd jump into the line of fire to come visit me."

           "Well I figured I'd test how far I had come." he grinned.

           "Everything's okay though right?" You worried. "You're not like being transferred or something? And you're making me happy temporarily only to drop a bomb on me?"

           Jungkook chuckled as he kissed you. "You really need to stop watching dramas. No, nothing's going on. I really just wanted to see you."

           You blushed. Jungkook had never publicly displayed affection this much before. It really confused and worried you.

           "Let's go somewhere else." You squeezed his hand. "Mr. Park, I'm taking 15!"

           "Are you sure 15 is all you need?" Jimin shouted back, earning a smack behind his head from Hoseok.

           You led Jungkook to the rooftop, and he was curious as to why you were taking him somewhere secluded.

           "You sure you're okay?" You cupped his cheeks and stared into his eyes intently.

           "Yeah, I'm perfectly fine. Why?" He snorted.

           "Well, first, you just kissed me in front of the entire office like nothing." You commented.

           And he felt himself blush at the realization. His body had just acted without thinking.

           "What if people see that and force you to graduate Masquerade?" You frowned. "You need to be careful."

           His heart panged at the statement. "Wait. Didn't you want me to graduate?"

           You smiled and squeezed his cheeks before wrapping your arms around his neck, "Club Masquerade is important to you, Jungkook. I wouldn't want to take that away."

           That unsettling feeling in the pit of his stomach returned.

           Shouldn't he have been happy hearing that? But why did it hurt hearing you give up on the idea for him? What did the mean for the two of you?

           "But anyway," you kissed him sweetly. "I'm happy you came to visit. Now that intern will get off my back and actually do his work hopefully."

           "You should've told me to come sooner if he was bothering you." he pouted.

           You laughed, "And have other girls get a look at you? No thanks."

           "Why?" he smirked as he stepped closer to you flirtatiously. "Want me all to yourself?"

           You smiled as he locked lips with you gently, lovingly. It really was unfair at how easy everything seemed to fit with Jungkook. And although, a yes lingered on your lips in reply, you left the question unanswered.

           "Are you going on a date with Yugyeom tonight?" he asked.

           You nodded gleefully. "One of his friends owns a cafe so we're going to go there after work."

           Jungkook smiled gently.

           For some reason, leaving the office was difficult for Jungkook. His steps were heavy and his mind was racing. Nothing particular happened. He just showed you the new game he had downloaded on his phone and you asked him questions to get a better idea of its appeal, which he happily answered. Then he had you try it as you sat on his lap, his arms embracing your waist, watching you panic about not knowing the controls well enough. But the fact that you had wanted him to be happy and comfortable, that you genuinely cared about him enough to worry that he would be forced to graduate Masquerade despite how often you asked him to do so before, left an anchor in his heart.

           He was being selfish. It wasn't fair to you. Yet there you always were, waiting for him, encouraging him, helping him.

           But for how long?

           He stopped in front of the building entrance as he remembered something you had said a week or two ago when you thought he had fallen asleep.

           "I'm sorry Jungkook. But I'm not sure how long we can stay like this for anymore." you whispered sadly. "I don't know if my heart can take it much longer."

           He had brushed it off as a dream, a nightmare, but he realized that you had actually said that. And now more than ever, he knew what he had to do.

           "What in the world?" You huffed as you spotted a parking ticket on your car. "This is my usual parking spot. Why --"

           You blinked as you recognized the handwriting on the ticket.

           "Come to this address tonight. -- Jungkook"

           Furrowing your brow, you turned the ticket to find a familiar address. You wondered what it was all about. Was he really leaving somewhere far? Was something going on? Biting your lip, you contemplated on what to do. You had your date with Yugyeom tonight, and he knew that. So why did Jungkook ask this of you on the same day? Was it time to make your choice already?

           You shut your eyes and exhaled. You already knew what your decision was.

           Jungkook nervously fiddled with his leather jacket as he waited for you. Would you show up? He knew it was slim, considering you already made plans with Yugyeom, but he didn't want to wait. Part of him also wanted to see if he was still of more importance than your new date. But you weren't one to break off plans, so maybe that didn't mean anything. He was internally fighting with himself.

           "Gah!" He groaned as he hung his head, irritated. He should've just made a normal plan to hang out on a different day. What was he doing?

           "Jungkook?"

           He gasped as he straightened up and spun around, his eyes wide. There you were, curiously watching him.

           "You're here!" he blurted out, in awe.

           You laughed as you fiddled with your dress. "Um yeah. I wasn't...I was on my way to Yugyeom...but I turned the car around..."

           Jungkook took three large strides to close the distance between you two and immediately pulled you tightly into his chest.

           "Thank you." he breathed.

           "You've been acting funny. What's going on?" You looked up at him, with genuine concern.

           "Do you remember this place?" he smiled. He felt like he had just power lifted 200lbs and chucked the weights away now that you were in front of him.

           You nodded and glanced around. "It's where you dragged me to bungee jump with you because no one was insane enough to do it voluntarily."

           Jungkook chuckled. "Well I mean sure, but you could've just said it was our first date."

           You raised an eyebrow. "Even though we were in a 'fake' relationship, I guess it counts. But what does that have to do with anything?"

           "Y/N." Jungkook grabbed your hands, and for some reason, he was slightly shaking with nervousness.

           You must've felt it too because you glanced up at him, confused. But you didn't say anything and you waited for him to collect himself, as you always had. You were always so patient with him.

           "I wanted this also to be the place where I officially ask you to be my girlfriend." he stated, his voice coming out much more confident than how he was feeling.

           You stared at him, unmoving.

           He panicked. Had he messed up? Was his mind just playing tricks that he had said something coherent? But he couldn't exactly remember what he had said since his thoughts consisted of only high-pitched screaming at the moment, disabling all coherent thoughts.

           "What?" You asked.

           He bit his lip. Oh, what the heck.

           "Be my girlfriend, Y/N." he took your hands in his. "I've been such a coward...for so long, even before I met you. But with you by my side, I began changing little by little. I became stronger, a little braver. And I thought it was because of Masquerade, but I realized it was because of you. I was able to be confident because even when I screwed up or when I freaked out, you never left me. You teased me, made light of the situation, and encouraged me to keep moving forward. Because of that, I was able to grow a little. I wanted to become better. Yet, I made you wait for me. I hurt you by making you think I didn't care enough about you. But I just... wasn't confident in myself. I was scared. Yet you stayed with immature Jeon Jungkook."

           He smiled sheepishly. "And I want to stay like this for a long, long time. Forever if it's possible. I don't know if I'm too late or if you lost feelings for me. Maybe you had totally given up on the idea of going steady with me or--"

           You tugged at his jacket and captured his lips with your own, cutting him off.

           "Damn you talk so much." You chuckled. "When were you expecting me to answer?"

           Jungkook laughed, "Nervous habit, sorry."

           You exhaled and looked up at the sky, willing yourself not to cry. "Oh wow. Here I thought you were going to end things between us for good. That's why I didn't want to come."

           Jungkook shook his head as he cradled your face in his hands. "Never."

           You nodded as you sniffled, trying to compose yourself. "I guess I can be your girlfriend, Jeon Jungkook. Since you asked so nicely."

           He flashed that stupidly adorable bunny smile of his right before he pressed his lips against yours happily. "Take that Kim Yugyeom and Kim Namjoon."

           You laughed.

           "But you know..." he frowned. "I'm going to need another job once I graduate Masquerade. I don't really want to keep relying on my parents...even though they don't mind."

           "Hmm..." You smirked. "Actually, I know somebody who's hiring."

           "You do?" Jungkook blinked.

           "Whoa. I've passed this place so many times." Jungkook marveled. "It's right next to the Club. I didn't know you went here often. Wait-- you don't perform here at Burlesque right?"

           You snorted. "Oh please. Nobody wants to see me shake my goodies on stage."

           "Well..." Jungkook placed his hands on your hips. "Maybe one person might."

           You smacked his hands away. "Hey. Be professional. You're going into a job interview right now."

           He chuckled. "It doesn't even look open though. You sure we can just go in?"

           "Yeah. I have my connections." You waved your hand as you pushed the door open. "Hello?"

           You were met with silence.

           "Hello? It's Y/N. I have the guy I said would be perfect to help you out." You called, raising your volume.

           "Sorry! I'm coming!" The two of you heard footsteps shuffling towards the entrance.

           "Oh for goodness sake, Tae. Put shoes on." You scowled.

           "Eh. You know me and shoes don't see eye to eye." Tae came into view, donning a loose, long white button up and baggy sweatpants. "Oh?"

           "Yah..." Jungkook's eyes widened.

           "Jungkook?" Tae beamed.

           "Taehyung!"

           "Wait what?" You gawked as the two engaged in some weird handshake routine in front of you.

           "Oh my gosh! What're the odds?" Tae bellowed. "Y/N! You didn't tell me you knew Jungkook!"

           "Well you never mentioned knowing a Jungkook either." You crossed your arms.

           "I did! Well..." Tae hummed. "Maybe I never mentioned his name. He's the friend I always walk Soonshim with. I even told you the funny story about how we went to karaoke while you were cooking dinner last night."

           "How was I supposed to know that was him?" You shook your head.

           Jungkook eyed you two skeptically. "And how do you two know each other so well?"

           "Oh she's one of my cousins." Tae laughed. "Remember I told you two of them are in Seoul?"

           "Oh." Jungkook relaxed then he bellowed. "Wait what?! COUSIN?!"

           "How do you two know each other?" Tae tilted his head.

           "Um..." You and Jungkook glanced at each other and blushed.

           "Ah ~" Tae smirked, putting two and two together. "Well anyways, want a drink?"

           "Sure." The two of you shrugged, a little shy at being found out already.

           "Jungkook, you're hired by the way." Tae grinned.

           "Just like that?" You mused.

           "Well, he's my friend. He's your boyfriend. We both know how hard he works. And I think it'll be good for him to work here. As you know, I'm good at being social and Jungkook wants to work on it. Plus, we could use another male eye candy around here."

           "On second thought, maybe not." You huffed.

           Tae laughed while Jungkook ruffled your hair.

           "When can you start?" he asked.

           "Mmm tomorrow night?" Jungkook suggested.

           "Sounds good to me." Tae raised his glass and the three of you cheered before downing the shot. "Hey, you'll never guess who started coming to my clinic."

           "Who?" You and Jungkook asked.

           "Oh this is awesome! Now I can tell my story once to both of you instead of twice separately." Tae giggled. "Anyway, the dog lady that dropped her bread became one of my clients! What're the odds, huh?"

           Jungkook snorted. "You're working for one of the biggest vet clinics in Seoul, Tae. It's not odd at all."

           "True. But she's kinda cute." Tae chuckled as he leaned his cheek into his hand. "She kind of reminds me of you Jungkook when you were scared of girls. She gets all jittery and jumpy even when she's in the waiting room."

           Jungkook grumbled.

           "Anyway, you should invite your friends for your first day of work." Tae suggested.

           Jungkook hesitated.

           "Oh it's fine, Jungkook." Tae snorted, lightly shoving his friend. "He's Y/N's boss too. We've all moved past it. She works here, you know, so it's hard to not run into them. I'm just saying it'll ease you into the job if you have friendly faces in the crowd."

           "Plus I can keep an eye on you. You better just focus on your job, Mister." You scolded.

           "Cute." Tae grinned as he fondly watched you and Jungkook bicker lightly.

           "I can't believe he graduated already." Jimin playfully wiped a non-existent tear. "My prodigy settled down so fast. I'm so proud."

           You rolled your eyes. "I'm sure I had absolutely nothing to do with it."

           "Well I've never tried you, Y/N. So I can't say how good you are in bed." Jimin smirked.

           Jungkook flipped his notepad roughly on top of Jimin's head in retaliation. "What can I get you all tonight?"

           Jimin huffed and rubbed his crown.

           "You deserved that." Silver chuckled as she leaned her head onto Hoseok's shoulder. "A beer for Hoseok and a Long Island iced tea for me."  

           "Can I get this?" You pointed at the menu. Jungkook nodded and everybody continued to order as he scribbled it down.

           "I'll be right back." he smiled and you watched him disappear fondly behind the counter.

           "I can't wait to see my girlfriend in action." Jimin stretched.

           "Can we not embarrass her again with your obnoxious cheering?" Receptionist appeared and hugged him from behind.

           Jimin laughed. "I'm just putting out a claim on what's mine."

           "Okay, but can you do it a little quieter?" she snorted.

           "We'll see." Jimin shrugged.

           "I wish I could join in on the fun." Receptionist frowned. "Tae told me everyone was going to be here since it was Jungkook's first night working."

           "Hi Noona." Jungkook grinned as he placed everyone's drinks on the table.

           "Hey you." she smiled. "The Club is practically a jungle fighting for your spot now."

           "Eh. We all know Pink Mask Ji--"

           Receptionist started coughing violently to cut him off.

           "Here's water." Jungkook worried. "You okay?"

           "Yeah." she chugged it nervously as Jimin watched her curiously. "Where's Y/N's drink?"

           "Here." Jungkook smiled. "It's the first mixed drink I made. Try it."

           You clapped excitedly. "I'm sure it'll be great. You're good at everything."

           Jungkook blushed at your comment.

           "Jungkook, don't forget your extra service." Tae winked and patted his butt as he passed by.

           "Extra service?" You blinked.

           Jungkook chuckled as he planted a kiss on your lips. "Only for you, of course."

           You felt your cheeks heat up as the entire table hooted and hollered at you two.

           "Drink up. I'll be taking you home anyway." he winked playfully.

           Oh boy. What had you gotten yourself into? 

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MASQUERADE 3.2 (COMING EVENTUALLY)

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HI YES UM FIRST OFF I LOVE THE NEW THEME 😩 BUT I HAVE TO ASK FOR YOUR HELP um okay sorry for caps but this is urgen😔🖐 like a few months ago i read this fic that was like half smut half writing it was abt jungkook and the reader and they go camping (they're basically strangers only met like 2 times) but the readers stupid ex is there too and kook and the reader share a tent and they fuck i think they date im not sure but um yes pls help me find it it was so freaking good 😔

HELLO THANK YOU SO MUCH!! I’m so glad you love the theme hehe!! but also ahhhh I don’t often read fics for Koo and I’ve definitely not read this I’m sorry :((( if anyone knows what fic this could be please help!

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Im so happy for this week's theme! I had an incorrect submission for royalty!jk but now this is my time to finally recc it right (pun hehe). The Prince and His Rose by vanaera is THE ULTIMATE BEST! Slowburn is its epitome!!! This series is f2l and is sweet AF but Miss Aera took the time to slowly let us get to know jk and the oc. The series is non-chronological and i was confused at first but then realized it is its charm. Bc the installments jump back to each of their memories as childhood(1/3)

friends depending on the topic the installment will be focused on. Even though it's like that, we still get the sequence figured out bc Aera writes the scenes seamlessly that you'll go "oh so this is what happened ext." There's a lot of f2l fics out there with kook being emotionally constipated around OC but in TPAHR, this non-chronology became an exciting twist, moreso there are so many installments. This is also bc Aera writes about very real characters and us readers slowly understand(2/3)

why jk is like that. Also, this series may present a somehow too ideal relationship (basically bc this series highlighted everything I ever wanted in a story-longing stares, subtle touches, little actions of love) but Aera still makes it feel SO real by discussing every people out there are wondering - their dreams, progress, mistakes, and how to get over it etc. Seriously, I just love how Aera makes us feel afloat in a world full of stars and love and yet still reel us back to the ground 3/3)

Thank you for your fic rec!  I’m glad you were able to submit the fic correctly this time!  We’ll add it to our masterlist.

-Admin Ellie

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Please ‘Keep Reading’ to find my response to your ask ^^ As always, I have copied and pasted all asks into this post in regards to last night’s chapter to avoid clogging up people’s dashboards and to avoid spoilers for those who may still wish to read the chapter. Thank you ^^ 

(I have also included asks that I received in the hours before IWSY was posted ^^)

Anonymous said: So i found IWSY last week and marathoned through it in 2 days and omg its so good im dying for the next part!!! Thank you so much for blessing us all with your writing have a wonderful day/night!!!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤

Oh my gosh thank you for marathoning through it! I’m really happy that you found it and that you’re liking the story so far my dear ^^ I hope you have a wonderful day or night too! ❤

Anonymous said: TONIGHT'S THE MOMENT OF TRUTH!!!

WOOHOO! C:

@mysr3 said: Queen Serren will shed some light for us tonight and poor Jungkook' unbeating heart is ready  I can feel it! My heart is also not ready!!! Have A good day Love ❤️  PS I re-read Who are you again! And I find new things that I didn't notice before last time and feel different! You are such a good writer !!!

Hehe yes things were revealed last night with more to be explained c: And yay thank you for reading it again! I’m glad you could pick up on things that you maybe didn’t pick up on before, I personally love when that happens to me :3 ❤  Thank you so much my love :)

Anonymous said: It's 11:14pm in Sydney right now and I am so ready for IWSY! Unfortunately, it's a little known fact time difference is a bitch and I can't read it till the afternoon! *sighs* if only they didn't block tumble at school. -Tall anon

Aww that sucks that they block tumblr at your school! But I can understand why because they wan you to concentrate :( I hope you’ll enjoy it when you read it my love!

@lostheretics said: fEW HOURS TO IWSY AAAAAA *screaming internally* but cant read it immediately bc i have mid tests😔😔😭😭

That’s okay my love! tests and study come first ❤  I hope you enjoy it when you get a chance to read it!

@deangetoutofmyspleen said: iTS TUESDAYYYYYYYYY

YES IT IS!! ❤

Anonymous said: Yuss, vamp!Kook-tuesday!! Highlight of the week ❤

I’m so happy that it’s the highlight of your week ❤  ahhhh that really makes me smile so much!

@m1n-yoong1 said: OMG I JUST REALISED ITS TUESDAY AND IM REALLY HAPPY NOW. My day has been quite bad so I was sad all day until now 😁😁

I’m glad it can brighten up your day my love, I’m sorry that your day has been sad :( *hug* ❤

Anonymous said: I'M READY FOR WHATEVER PARANORMAL SHENANIGANS YOU HAVE PREPARED LETS DO THIS *insert boxer emoji here*

PARANORMAL SHENANIGANS YES ❤  hehe I hope you enjoyed it babe!

@kpoperinthehoody123 said: OMG SARAAAA!!!!!!!!!! I JUST READ THE WHO ARE YOU // IM JAEBUM SERIES ALL IN ONE GO AND IT IS SOOO FUCKING LEGIT THAT I FORGOT CEO JUNGKOOK WILL BE COMING OUT ANY MINUTE NOW!! HOW DO U WRITE THESE MASTER PIECES??? *cries in the corner* However, U have such an amazing and creative mind oh Sara😘😘😘 Can't wait to read 'I wont stop you' part 21 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Ahhhh thank you so much for reading it alongside IWSY! (I hope you enjoyed last nights update too!)  You flatter me way too much D: I just imagine something and then write it, it’s nothing special ❤  Thank you so much my love!

Anonymous said: I've updated your tumblr way too many times tonight.... I'm dying to know what's going to happen! 💕

asdfghj I hope you enjoyed the update beautiful!

Anonymous said: i spent a single day binging the entire IWSY series and i've never been happier because it's been hard to find some good vampire!jk and now i have and i'm living also i remember that i had read it when there was only one chapter and then i forgot about it but honestly im so happy to be back!! your writing is exceptional and as a fellow writer, i'm so happy to have found this and you ❤️❤️

jkdgkjsdg ugh thank you so much ❤  I’m really happy that you found it and returned to it and that you enjoy it ❤  thank you for finding me and telling me that you like my series dear, it really means a lot to me!

Anonymous said: I'VE NEVER BEEN SO EARLY FOR A FIC HOLY--

I HOPE YOU ENJOYED IT!! ❤

Anonymous said: idk why but i??? Cried during chapter 21 its was sO GOOD BLESS

awh~ sad tears or happy tears? c: Thank you so much my love!

Anonymous said: I had a feeling that I would get the vampire explanation and not the "what the heck is she" explanation. On another note, in really happy with how the whole thing went, like I half expected for it to bee more awkward and for the second hand embarrassment to be worse, but you managed to write in in a way that wasn't over the top and still provided a realistic (as realistic as we can assume a scenario like this would play out) scene. So thank you for once again making the week long wait worth it.

Yes~ I personally feel it would be too unrealistic for them to tell absolutely EVERYTHING in one go~ (Y/N) has had a traumatic time and if they were to just unleash everything then she legit might run away terrified lolol. I’m happy that you perceived it as being realistic - especially when the genre is supernatural. I think, for some people, there will always be an element of cringe when it comes to talking about Vampires but I really wanted to make it as natural as possible. In this chapter, I really just wrote like - how I would react if someone were to tell me. I’d be scared but I’d require proof and I’d be curious if I was able to see substantial proof heh~ Thank you very much for honest and unbiased review of the chapter, it was refreshing to read and respond to - and I hope you have a lovely day ❤

Anonymous said: I HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER WEEK FOR THIS MASTERPIECE TO REVEAL WHAT THE HECK Y/N IS?

YES MY LOVE YOU DO ❤  Hehe, thank you for reading it ❤

@moonlighthollow said: Jesus christ.... this was so worth the wait😂😍 I'm soooo inlove with this story omg thank you for writing so perfectly and amazing🙏

I’m glad you found it worth the wait ❤  Thank you so much for reading the update my love!

@lovehaniwhaimagines said: HOLY FLIPPIN SHIT. I binge-read all 20 chapters of I wont stop you just yesterday and waited until the new chapter and holy frickin cow, I LOVE IT. Please keep up the good work, I appreciate every single thing you write :) ~

I’ll keep writing for sure! Thank you so much for reading and enjoying the series love ^^ ❤

Anonymous said: You know you could actually write a book and it would sold to millions of people! You're creative stories and writing are fantastic. I love how you mix humor into your stories, especially in "I Won't Stop You". You are one of the best writers on tumblr no doubt about it. Love you~

I’m not sure about millions of people xD But maybe one day eh!? hehe~ And yes! I love to incorporate a little bit of humour, especially if one of the characters personalities is like that, it can be a great mood lifter or a change of pace throughout the story or chapter ^^ Ah, you flatter me so much ❤  thank you my love, and I love you too!

@parkheehi said: I'm so fucking happy that Y/N was not that mad at jungkook for his secret. :D do you know how many parts I won't stop you will have?? (BTW I DIED WHEN JUNGKOOK SAID 'I won't stop you' AFTER Y/N ASKED HIM IF SHE COULD  TOUCH HIS TEETH)  Don't overwork yourself and stay healthy!🤗

I have no idea how many chapters~ You guys will know when I do! ALSO THIS ISN’T THE FURST TIME JUNGKOOK HAS SAID ‘I WON’T STOP YOU’ - and actually, the reader has said it before too ;) I guess youll have to go back and read to find out where and when it was said! hehe ❤  thank you my love and I hope you’re having a great day!

@semisweetsuga said: I fukin knew you were gonna end it on a god damn cliffhanger but the update was SO GOoD I loVEd iT!

This should no longer be a surprise anymore~ I’ll gladly wear my crown for queen of cliffhangers ~ hehe, I love Kotooooo ❤

Anonymous said: I JUST ABSOLUTELY LOVE WHEN YOU HAVE "I WONT STOP YOU" SAID IN THE IWSY STORY!!!! IM SO EXCITED FOR NEXT WEEK BECAUSE IVE HONESTLY SO CONFUSED WHENEVER YOU MENTION THE AFFECT (Y/N) HAS ON PEOPLE. ❤️😍

This isn’t the first time that the title has been mentioned in the series! :3 Jungkook has said it once before and so has (Y/N)~ muhaha! I hope you’ll enjoy the storyline when you find out what (Y/N) is ❤  thank you so much for reading!

Anonymous said: HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO ME! I HAVE BEEN WAITING LIKE THE WHOLE FUDGING BOOK TO FIND OUT WHY SHE TINGLES, AND THEN YOU JUST SNATCH IT OUT OF MY GRASP AND SAY NOPE YOU'LL HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER FUDGING WEEK TO KNOW THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW (I know I sound really sad) Ugh 😑 at least you know how to keep your readers along for the ride

Because my dear, I am evil and I enjoy inflicting pain ❤  heh~ Thank you so much for reading and I hope you’ll enjoy the future chapters!

@pandafish said: A very intense and dramatic reveal!  I can't want to hear about their history!

Thank you so much my dear! I hope you’ll enjoy it :D

@animeimmortal said: I shit you not i have never been this mad before. The other cliffhangers? Fine ill just deal with it. but this one? LET ME LIVE FOR ONCE I BEG YOU JUST ONE CHAPTER WITHOUT A CLIFFHANGER PLEASE DO YOU WANT ME TO DIE FROM THE LACK OF KNOWLEDGE I AM SO FRUSTRATED I NEED THE REST GOD PLEASE OMG ❤ love you ❤

U mad bro? :3 tehe~ But thank you s always for reading it despite wanting to kill me ❤  I love you too!!

Anonymous said: When she asked to touch his fangs and he was like 'go ahead I won't stop you' I literally had to refrain from shouting TITLE REFERENCE! BOOM!

This isn’t the first time that the title has been mentioned in the series! Jungkook has said it before and so has the reader ;) But it was probably less obvious because I like to slip in those things to see if anyone picks up on it~ heh^^

Anonymous said: *glares at you author* I was this close to knowing. NOW I HAVE TO WAIT 7 MORE DAYS TO GET MY ANSWER TO WHY I'M VAMPNIP!!! GRRAGH>:( But on the bright side, this chapter wasn't as angsty as I feared! Hooray! :) *but I'm still mad at you hmph*- love Vampnip anon

*glares back at you and smiles* muhaha~ Don’t be mad at me because I love you very much ❤  hehe thank you so much for reading it my dear!

Anonymous said: AAAHHH I've waited so long for this IWSY Chapter *^* My jaw dropped when "I" called the Queen 'bitch' >.< I also really wanted to read about her finding out that the Jeon's are the royal family and her beloved Jungkook is a PRINCE <3 maybe in the next part~(?)

Haha yes! You called the Queen a bitch! c: But it can be forgiven I guess due to the circumstances lol ^^ YES MAYBE SO! ❤  thank you for reading the update dear ^^

@omelys-space said: Once again such a great update ❤ I am glad that they all opened up to her and that she had her time to freak out but calmed down pretty soon after that  Excited to see what she is now and again gotta give some love to Serrena  She is such a babe 😍 Thank you for your hard work and till next week ❤

Ahh thank you so much my love ❤  I’m happy that you enjoyed it and I hope you’ll look forward to next week too! ^^

Anonymous said: You always leave me crying, my heart full yet broken. Every Tuesday. And it's okay because art takes time.

Ahh you make me sound like such an emotional abuser :c I don’t mean to break your heart! *hugs* hehe~ thank you so much for reading the chapter dear ❤

@deboracorrea25 said: OMG!!! Perfect, simply perfect! I just love the way you write,  the way you make us feel all the emotions of the characters. I could feel the surprise, the anger, the acceptance, and even the love. I couldn't imagine this to be better, and I know next week chapter of "I won't stop you" will be flawless too. Thank you again for writing this fanfic. Love you!

sdfghj you’re too sweet for your own good, i’m so glad that you could feel all the emotions that everyone in the chapter was feeling ^^ thank you so much for reading it and for looking forward to next week - I’ll do my best!! ❤  I love you too :D

@mocking-butts said: OH MY GOD IM SCREAMING FOR THIS CHAPTER~!! I was literally at the edge of my seat when they were telling her and oh my god I almost cried and I need it to be next week I want to know so badly I love this story so much teach me the ways oh wise one. I love this story so much I can't even right now.

It’s only 6 days away now! *sweats* lolol c: Thank you so much for loving the story, I really really appreciate it that ❤

@fashionkilla124 said: I am SO FUKIN DONE WITH IWSY. I WAS CRYIN AT FIRST BUT HAD ME DYIN AT TGE END I CANT JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL.😩😩😂😂

*pats your head gently* there there my love, its okay~ ❤

@kookies-hoe said: ARGHHHHH 'I won't stop you' JUNGKOOK YOU TEASEEEE AND ALSO HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME, THE CLIFFHANGER 😭😭😭😂

Ahhhh but it’s not the first time that the title has been mentioned in the series!Both Jungkook and the reader have said it before :3 thank you for reading it my lovely!

@mysr3 said: SARAAAA!!! I LOVE YOU!!! You saved JK heart and my heart at the same time This chapter I love it. The details are amazingly well portray and I love the humor you threw in there to emphasize Y/N characters in the state she is in or her personality in general. ahhh I love your writing! But you just ripped my heart out dying to know the whole story! I was so sure you would reveal today! I thought I had nailed how today chapter would turned out but I was wayyy offff lol Well played my love ❤❤❤

I’m glad I could save your heart and rip it out at the same time hehe ❤  I’m so happy that you could feel everyone’s response and their personalities in the chapter too ^^ Thank you for reading it dear and I hope you have a wonderful day!

Anonymous said: THAT ITALICIZED I WONT STOP YOU I SCREAMED BIIITTTCCCHHH YAAAAASSSS 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾 I love it SO MUCH also the garlic bread part I died that was so fuckjng funny and then the to be continued 😭😭😭😭 y u do dis 2 mE ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

This isn’t the first time that the title has been mentioned in the series! Both Jungkook and the reader have said it before c: LOL I chuckled at the garlic bread reference when I was writing it haha (i’m so pathetic lol) Thank you for reading it despite the frustration of waiting ❤

Anonymous said: If you keep ending IWSTY chapters like that I'm going to explode. It's been continuous cliffhangers omg. I love the story and I can't wait for the next chapter!!❤ love you

Please don’t explode, that would make me mega sad :( And yes - continuous cliffhangers are kind of my thing? my style? lolol I’m sorry but it is what it is! :P Thank you very much for reading and I love you too pumpkin ❤

Anonymous said: okay SARA what the absolute HECK why must you play with our feelings that way?? i really thought we were going to get the tea ☕️ on what the reader is but NO ahhhh lovely chapter though omg 11/10 as always!!!!

Because I love to play and toy with people’s emotions~ does that make me a bad person? c: lolol thank you for reading and enjoying the chapter my love!

@doubletroublesince1994 said: I didnt expect this reaction at all! I thought she'll stay mad for 2 or 3 chapters before finally accepting it 😂😂 On a side note, I particulary loved this chapter because Ive been waiting for the declaration since day 1! Can't wait for tge 2nd part

Ahahaha I hope you still enjoyed it though my love! And it makes me really happy to hear that you’re looking forward to the next part too! Have a wonderful day babe ❤

Anonymous said: Oh my gosh this chapter was so good!!!! I can't believe that Jungkook finally told Y/N!  Thank you for writing this amazing series. ♡♡ - self care anon (and yeah, I'm trying to take care of myself. The routine is the most helpul part. Love you!)

Hi there self care anon! I’m glad to know that you’re still taking care of yourself and that my series can attribute to that self care routine ❤  And I’m also really happy and thankful to know that you enjoyed the chapter, thank you so much for reading it and I hope you continue to take good care of yourself ❤

Anonymous said: O.o Oh mai gawd Sara, that was sooo good. IWSY part 21, (y/n) stays!!! Yess!!! I've been so excited for today, I was so anxious to see whether or not (y/n) runs out on Jungkook and I'm so glad this part ended the way it did. Without a doubt, IWSY is the main reason I put up with tuesdays. ily soo much! can't wait for next part! - army anon

Hello army anon! I’m so glad to know that you enjoyed the new part ^^ and yes! (Y/N) was never going to run away or leave Jungkook - she loves him too much :D I love you too and thank you so much for reading it!

@audreymv said: MAMA IS ABOUT TO GIVE STORYTIME WOAH.  This was a roller coaster of a chapter like she yelled at them and she was angry wow and then like wow next thing ya know is she is apart of the ancestral line. Maybe her parents died by mistake. Ooo it's getting interesting

STORY TIME WITH SERRENA TURN UP! lolol~ Thank you once again for reading the new update and I hope you’ll enjoy next weeks too! Have a great day my love ❤

@btsfanficss said: What the heck I swear I was following you this entire time :o BUT ANYWAYS THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EXISTING I LOVE IWSY SO MUCH IVE BEEN FOLLOWING IT FOR SO LONG ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

That’’s okay my dear don’t worry! A lot of the time I assume I’m following people but it turns out that I’m not so I totally understand xD Thank YOU for existing too and thank you so much for reading IWSY ❤

Anonymous said: Not gonna lie, I squealed like a fangirl when Jungkook said, "I won't stop you" LOL. But you're seriously killing me every week sara! I die every Tuesday, then get resurrected the next Tuesday just so I can't read the next chapter 😂 UGH AND AGAIN? REALLY SARA?  IM STILL WAITING TO FIND OUT WHAT Y/N IS 😭😂  I'm hoping the next chapter will be nice and long for me to indulge in 😉... and not gonna lie, I'm scared of the idea of vampires, BUT I REALLY WANT ME A VAMPIRE JUNGKOOK OMG 😜 - 7:45 Anon

Did you know that this wasn’t the first time that Jungkook said I Won’t Stop You? The reader has actually said it before too c: lolol And don’t worry - the next chapter will probably be around 7k words (just like this chapter was), because it’s essentually the chapter that I explain the lore I’ve created/decided upon ❤ AND SAME I REALLY WANT A VAMPKOOK and I also want Vampire Vmin too lolol~~ Thank you so much for reading the new chapter as always 7:45 anon ❤

Anonymous said: YESSS I WONT STOP YOU AAAh. This made my day lol , I love you!!!! Have a great day c:

Did you know that this wasn’t the first time that Jungkook said I Won’t Stop You? The reader has actually said it before too c: hehe ^^ I love you too and thank you so much for reading my dear!

@ineffabl-y said: IM SHAKEN OMFG but like WHEN IT SAID THE TITLE I SCREAMED also you should use this thing called interactivefics and it lets the reader insert their name inside the fic and I love it!!! just a suggestion tho ANYWAYS CANT WAIT TO BE THIRSTY FOR THIS FIC TILL NEXT TUESDAY <3

Did you know that this wasn’t the first time that Jungkook said I Won’t Stop You? The reader has actually said it before too c: That’s good that there’s a site like that but I think for now I’ll be staying on tumblr because if I moved and started uploading somewhere else, people might get confused :( Thank you so much for reading my love and I hope you have a good day!

@ohheyitsebonyrose said: Saraaaaaaaa my queen. That part was amazing. I'm so glad the protagonist knows of vampires now ^.^ IM SO CURIOUS TO SEE WHAT SHE IS!!

Yes she finally knows! What a relief hehe ^^ Thank you so much for thinking that it was amazing! I hope you’ll enjoy next week too my love ^^

@theninjachan said: I die every Tuesday and rise again every Tuesday. Thank you. Chapter 21 was a delight (cont.) Oh and “Go ahead; I won’t stop you”  Nut bust x10000000000

Did you know that this wasn’t the first time that Jungkook said I Won’t Stop You? The reader has actually said it before too c: Hehe, thank you so much for reading it my love and I hope you’re having an amazing day!

Anonymous said: I CANT TAKE NO MORE. THIS TUESDAY TO TUESDAY IS KILLING ME. I JUST WANT Y/N AND JUNGKOOK TO BUMP UGLIES AND BE HAPPY. BUT THIS CHAPTER WAS SO INFORMATIVE AND INTERESTING LIKE I WAS LIKE AHHHHH SNAP ITS GOIN DOWN NOW. But on a real note like this story is my shit. I don't mind waiting every week but I do. But like I don't. But then again I do. I'm just confused and I need to know what up with y/n cuz my theories are hella wild and I need the tea ☕️. I love you so much! 💜 ~LilKookieAnon

BUMP UGLIES AND BE HAPPY LMAO I LOVE YOU SO MUCH LIL KOOKIE ANON :3 I love you too and don’t worry, all will be explained in time, I promise you!! Have a wonderful day my dear and thank you so much :3

Anonymous said: Wait, so since Serrena is older then Jeonju does that make her a cougar?  🤔😂

I mean, I guess so c: A hella cougar tho! hehe~~

Anonymous said: I HAVE NO WORDS. That chapter was amazing!!!!!! I'm jungshook. But in all honesty I really want everyday to be Wednesday!! *sigh* I'm so excited for chapter 22! -Tall anon

Thank you so much my dear! That means so much to me Tall anon :D I’m so happy you enjoyed it!!

Anonymous said: How long do you think I Won't Stop You is going to be because honestly I need it to be as long as possible!! I absolutely love it

I have no idea how long it will be but it won’t be ending any time soon ^^ you guys will know as soon as I do! thank you so much for reading and enjoying it my dear ^^

Anonymous said: OH MY GOD I LITERALLY SANK DOWN IN MY SEAT WHEN HE SAID "I WON'T STOP YOU" ITS LIKE YOU MADE ALL OF THESE CHAPTERS JUST TO SAY THAT ONE PHRASE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IM SCREAMING

Did you know that this wasn’t the first time that Jungkook said I Won’t Stop You? The reader has actually said it before too c: It will be a reoccurring sentence throughout! I hope you’ll be able to find them all c: hehe I love you so much too and I’m so happy you enjoyed the chapter!!

@jynxy24 said: I hate you so much, Sara. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO MEEEE AND JUST AS SHE WAS ABOUT TO TELL?! COME ONNNNNNNNNNNNNN! (Reader was adorable with the way she was asking question :3) I swear when I saw that cliffhanger, I was like, "Wha- Uh- Sara!" ISTG I'M SO CONFUSED AND FRUSTRSTED😂😂😂 Staph torturing me, Sara😂

Awww don’t hate me because I LOVE YOU very much c: And you should know by now that I love to torture you c: But thank you very much for reading the new chapter Jynxy my love ^^

Anonymous said: God damn it you know like what even what the actual fuck. I am more than shook rn ok. I am relieved nothing too bad happened but I am on edge now with that cliffhanger (& all others). I love it & dislike it (I don't like using hate cuz it's a strong word u kno). I'm sure u get that a lot tho lol. I am so excited for the next part oml I'm so eager to find out what the reader is & y she makes vamps feel things. It sucks to wait but I am really looking forward to the next part 💕 take care 💕

I do get it a lot haha it’s a weird feeling to know that people love and hate me at the same time lolol xD Thank you so much for reading and I’m sorry about the frustration! I hope you’re having an awesome day my dear ^^

@ananyak26 said: Ok I love this chapter!!! How can Serrena  be so savage AND sweet at the same time?!.. And jungkook... Ahhh.. Jungkook . Great job as usual author-nim!!!

She’s a badass mum indeed! Thank you so much my love and I’m so happy you enjoyed the new chapter!

Anonymous said: Love the 'I Won't Stop You' series! I found it a few weeks back and it's amazing!!! Always looking forward for each Tuesday (well Wednesday for me since I'm 7 hours ahead of you)

Ahhh thank you so much sweetie! I’m so happy you found it and that you’re enjoying it ^^ And ugh, damn timezones, they ruin everything!! lol I hope you’re having an amazing day ^^

@angelbeats47 said: YO SARA!!! I'm really getting angry reading I Won't Stop You!!! Like seriously you're writing is fantastic and I can't handle this anymore.... I literally threw my pillow as I finished reading the latest chapter 😡😡😡😡 THIS STORY IS TOO GOOD! I'M GETTING MAD BECAUSE I GOTTA WAIT ANOTHER WEEK FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER 😫😫😫😩😩😩 ugh so good so good 👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽

Hiya doll! :3 You only have to wait another 6 days so it’s not too far away right? c: hehe, thank you so much for reading and I’m sorry it makes you angry :P I hope you’ll enjoy the next chapter!!

Anonymous said: I die every Tuesday bc of your clifghangers!!! Asdfhklhdf your work is so good,  i literally binge read all of 'i won't stop you' yesterday and its killing me inside!! Also, a part of me wants yoongi to fall in love with her and become a better person but i also want her to end up with jungkook ahhhhh can u feel my pain T__T

Awh thank you so much my dear! Glad to know that you’re enjoying the story and I’m sorry about the frustration you feel heh ^^ Have an awesome day/night!!

[borathae]

~Chapter 29~ I'm baaaack, sorry I was so busy with uni, actually still am but I just saw the Orange Ginger Chai Masterlist and got SO excited you don't understand. Sounds phenomenal. But back to chapter 29, I don't personally posess dom energy to this extent but well fuck i love that for oc (and jungkookie 👀), she a bad bitch, power to all the women ✊🏻

🖤 Lips On You - Maroon 5

This reminds me so much of the scene where they kiss against the fridge and jungkookie is a crying mess. I can see this especially playing right after the second chorus drops, that's when they first kiss. Then there's this short slower part that's when the whole burnt ramen thing happens and then the big drop at the end when they just say fuck it and it gets real steamy 👀 "Can't nothing get in between us, baby, we've been waiting on this moment for so long. You wanna be reckless, restless, right until tomorrow. Wait. When I put my lips on you I feel the shivers go up and down your spine for me, make you cry for me. When I put my lips on you I hear your voice echoing all through the night for me. Baby, cry for me."

🖤 Daisy - Ashnikko

Honestly this is self-explanatory, just oc being a dom. "You don't wanna see me bratty, pet the kitty, call me catty. Make your man call me daddy. [...] Fuck a princess, I'm a king. Bow down and kiss on my ring. Being a bitch is my kink. What the fuck else did you think? [...] It's gonna hurt, it'll sting. [...] I'm crazy, but you like that, I bite back."

🖤 Do Me - Kim Petras

Also very self-explanatory, the lyrics are so fitting. "Do me, do me, do me like that. Hurt me so good, make me wanna be bad. Give it to me, to me like that. Feels so good, got me coming right back. Touch me, touch me there, right there. Kiss it, lick it, flip it, leave your handprints on my ass, yeah. Won't get to the bed, to the bed. Counter, in the kitchen, bathroom, mirrors on the stairs, yeah."

🖤 needy - Ariana Grande

This just screams jungkook to me. "Lately, I've been on a roller coaster tryna get a hold of my emotions. But all that I know is I need you close. And I'ma scream and shout for what I love, passionate but I don't give no fucks. I admit that I'm a lil' messed up but I can hide it when I'm all dressed up. I'm obsessive and I love too hard, good at overthinking with my heart. How you even think it got this far? [...] And I can be needy, way too damn needy. I can be needy, tell me how good it feels to be needed. I can be needy, so hard to please me. I know it feels so good to be needed. Sorry if I'm up and down a lot. Sorry that I think I'm not enough and sorry if I say sorry way too much. You can go ahead and call me selfish but after all this damage I can't help it. But what you can trust is I need your touch." Some of those lyrics are giving me old jungkook vibes with which he's obviously still struggling with bc you can't just change your deepest issues like that. Like "I'm obsessive and I love too hard, good at overthinking with my heart" or "I can be needy, so hard to please me" which represent his jealousy issues which came from a place of love and hurt but are obvs still toxic. Or "You can go ahead and call me selfish but after all this damage I can't help it" this sounds a lot more taunting than what I interpret it like. It's not like "are you calling me selfish? 😡" it's more like "I know I am selfish for wanting you back 😔" which he used to say a lot and I imagine this lyric representing him struggling with being open with his feelings and associating his vulnerabilty with something negative. He calls himself "selfish" when he's actually just so in-fucking-love. He feels like he has to apologize for feeling bc he's not used to it being valid and he feels like there has to be a specific reason when sometimes you just feel without a real reason and thats valid too. Honestly while I'm writing this I'm not even sure if it makes sense lol

🖤 Better - Khalid

This started playing right when I was reading the whole thigh riding soft love making part and wow it fit perfectly. Well I mean technically the song is about two people that are not publicly showing their love for each other but the whole "nothing feels better than this part" and just the sound of the song is perfect for this scene imo. "Love to see you shine in the night like the diamond you are. I'm on the other side, it's alright, just hold me in the dark. [...] Nothin' feels better than this. Nothin' feels better, no, no."

OH MY GOD SONG ANONIE!!! I MISSED YOU SO MUCH!! I WAS ALREADY WONDERING WHERE YOU WENT TO gosh I am so happy that you are back hehe!! 🥺🥳💜 now to the songs becAUSE 🥵

Lips on You - Maroon 5

I didn’t know this song before you recommended it to me and let me tell you, yes. This is excatly the type of song that plays in such a scene hngng and now I am thinking about them being all desperate and kissing each other and I am spiralling  🤧

Daisy - Ashnikko

I mean honestly that song is self-explanatory, this song is a jam and I am listening to it at least three times a day hahaha. This 100% fits the mood and the reader being all like “kneel for me” before she spits in her mouth hHAHAH byE I just remembered that she does that to Kook and now my mouth is watering hngngn 😩

Do Me - Kim Petras

👁👅👁 that’s all I am going to say here hgngngn. Listen especially the part with the kitchen counters. If that isn’t them using the entire apartment to fuck 🥵🤧 also omfg that part “you know my body, you don’t need a map” if that isn’t both of them realising how well they know the other and what they like 🥵 

needy - Ariana Grande

He calls himself "selfish" when he's actually just so in-fucking-love. He feels like he has to apologize for feeling bc he's not used to it being valid and he feels like there has to be a specific reason when sometimes you just feel without a real reason and thats valid too 

This just broke me holy fuck. I am without a doubt crying in my seat :( noooo this is so true and so sad and I am sad and I wanna give googie a hug and goddamn :( lisTEN I never even realised how well that song fits Jungkook and his inner struggles and now I will never be able to listen to it any other way 😭

Better - Khalid

I read the thigh riding part to get your full experience and now I am quAKING IN SAD hfahsdfha this fits so well. Gosh I can’t I am literally going through it 😭🤧 the melody and the slow beat, just *chefs kiss*

No joke song anonie I missed your recommendations so much and this right here made my entire day 🥺💜 seriously thank you for always sending in those amazing messages, the songs you chose really made my story feel far more alive and they added the spice, which it needed. So thank you and I really love you lots 🥺💜