shima says all this stuff that at face value can seem like good advice ("don't get too hung up on decisions" etc) or does things that make it seem like he doesn't really care (him bunking off school, not interfering when mitsumi is being mocked in front of him). and it means he gives off this chill vibe on a surface level.
but when you understand the underlying reason why he thinks this way it becomes incredibly obvious that these words and actions are more an expression of how unhealthy his mental state is?
he's actively telling himself that stuff doesn't matter because when he *has* let them matter in his head, that's what led to the whole acting-mum-ririka scenarios. so, school doesn't really matter. theatre? he's done with that. it doesn't matter that he once "loved" acting when all he has now is a broken relationship with his mum and bad associations. much easier to not care.
it's a mix of what he tells himself and what he genuinely believes at this point. he's so conflict-avoidant that he pre-empts any possible tensions by being deliberately passive and prioritising (his perception of) others' feelings above himself. his very choice to agree to date mitsumi was a mix of his own unrecognised feelings towards her (which is why he jumped the gun when mitsumi hadn't even properly *asked*) and the idea that mitsumi liked him so he could do this for her and maybe it wouldn't be so bad. he's trying to pacify his idea of mitsumi's feelings without actually examining his own.
and at the same time, for someone so image-conscious, he has zero idea of the red flags he gives off sometimes. his perspective of love being that between a 'person' and a 'lover' it would be the 'person' you 'like' more being the most extreme example. he plain doesn't realise that his approach is atypical and so he doesn't realise he needs to 'counter' it in his image management. when people make fun of mitsumi in front of him he chooses the route he believes will lead to the least tension and is genuinely surprised when mitsumi *doesn't* want to prioritise group harmony above herself.
he's pushed his own feelings down until he no longer understands himself and it actively affects how he reads other people too. generally speaking, he *is* good at reading the social mood, but more specifically, he's good at figuring out *how to placate people*. there's a reason he's so popular. but he keeps individuals at a distance deliberately. most of the people he's closer to and/or more honest with are those who have known him from his acting days, before he started pushing people away. and when he's interacting one-to-one with people who actually know him like mukai? that's when the cracks start to show and the whole illusion breaks down.
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Next girl in my 3x3 of favorite girls series: Lady Kiki from Akagami no Shirayuki-hime or Snow White with the Red Hair. I first watched this series back in... 2017..? (Dang has it really been that long?) And loved it. I remember loving it so much that I wanted the manga only to realize that the manga wasn't out in English and was shocked; it was so good, why didn't it have an English translation. A few years later, it did get a translation, but I only started collecting it last year and am only on volume nine, so I'm nowhere near being caught up. Anyway, I can't necessarily explain why Lady Kiki is my favorite, I just think she's cool and funny, but also I love her design. Also, who doesn't love a female character who can wield a sword?
Anyway, didn't realize that it's been nearly two months since I updated my 3x3 series (Whoops!). Got caught up in some major artblock and lack of motivation, but I'm slowly getting out of it. I'm determined to finish this series! Also, despite this being the biggest illustration I've done in a hot minute, I really like how it turned out. Plus, I got to practice layering watercolors, which is something I've been wanting to practice.
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In the final chapter of the popular manga series BNHA, the majority of heroes lose their quirks following the defeat of Tomura Shigaraki. This unexpected turn of events has left many fans in disbelief, as the characters who were once revered for their extraordinary abilities are now ordinary individuals. Quirks, which were once commonplace, have become a rarity in this new world. Deku goes back to being a regular guy, working at a shop. He's not a big hero or anything, he just works in retail.
Bro, I’ve literally read the last chapter of BNHA and this ain’t it💀💀💀 The final chapter does in fact pop off and I adore seeing everyone as pro heroes. The only thing I have an issue with is that we still don’t have a hero name for Shinso. That, and short haired Aizawa. But tf sorta bait is this supposed to be? Just some shit copypasta?
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Songs that are so painfully Nezushi to me they make me do wounded animal noises - Featuring three PLACEBO songs cause I've been listening to them A Lot and the vibe just fits
The Bitter End - PLACEBO (Shion's POV while in the Correctional Facility - you guys EVEN THE MUSIC VIDEO'S AESTHETIC FITS??? GO WATCH IT)
Every step we take that's sincronized
Every broken bone
Reminds me of the second time
That I followed you home
You shower me with lullabies
As you're walking away
Reminds me that it's killing time
On this fateful day
See you at the bitter end
See you at the bitter end
Iris - The Goo Goo Dolls (Shion's and Nezumi's POVs)
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Every You Every Me - PLACEBO (Nezumi's POV, post novels)
Carve a name into my arm
Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed
Cause there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you
Like the naked leads the blind, I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind
Sucker love, I always find someone to bruise and leave behind
All alone in space and time
There's nothing here, but what's here's mine
Something borrowed, something blue
Every me and every you
Every me and every you
Every me
Every me and every you
Every me
Center Of Attention - Jackson Waters (Shion's POV) - I have to thank the fanvideo below for introducing me to this song, and it's such an emotional, somber, and tender fanvid! And the editing?? It's probably my favorite Nezushi fanvideo ever. Go watch it and give some love to the creator in the comments!)
You think that you're the sun
The whole world revolves around you
The center of attention
And everything is drawn to you
But I'll take my time if you want to
And I'll give you whatever you need
And I'll wait a lifetime to give it to you
Give it to you
I would wait a lifetime
And I would wait for you
I would wait a lifetime
And I would wait for you
Running Up That Hill - Kate Bush, but PLACEBO's cover cause it's PEAK Nezushi energy (Shion's and Nezumi's POVs, trying to figure each other out, you know the whole 9 novels worth thing)
It doesn't hurt me
You wanna feel how it feels?
You wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me
You wanna hear about the deal I'm making
It's you
It's you and me
And if I only could
Make a deal with God
Get'em to swap our places
Be running up that road, be running up that hill, be running up that building
If I only could
You don't wanna hurt me
Let's see how deep the bullet lies
I'm aware that I'm tearing you assunder
There's a thunder in our hearts, baby
So much hate for the ones we love
So God tell me we both matter, don't we?
Come on baby, come on darling
Let me steal this moment from you now
Come on angel, come on darling
Let's exchange the experience
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Comics Read in 2024:
The Summer Hikaru Died Vol. 1 by Mokumokuren (2022)
The Summer Hikaru Died Vol. 2 by Mokumokuren (2022)
The Summer Hikaru Died Vol. 3 by Mokumokuren (2023)
The Summer Hikaru Died Vol. 4 by Mokumokuren (2023)
The Summer Hikaru Died Vol. 5 by Mokumokuren (2024)
The Way of the Househusband Vol. 1 by Kousuke Oono (2018)
The Way of the Househusband Vol. 2 by Kousuke Oono (2018)
Campfire Cooking in Another World with My Absurd Skill Vol. 8 by Akagishi K & Ren Eguchi (2021)
Campfire Cooking in Another World with My Absurd Skill Vol. 9 by Akagishi K & Ren Eguchi (2022)
[ID: Covers of the aforementioned books. End ID.]
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