#also bc her bf is here :DDD

[kuiinncedes]

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[mars-ipan]

Okay

A list of the kinks/interests Mars may have, in no particular order cause then it's less embarrassing if I'm wrong:

Biting

Collars

Hypnosis

Panty stealing

Bondage

Hickeys

Furries

Domination

Impact play

Feeding

Pet play

Blood

Marking

Piercings

Orgasm control

:DDD IT’S HERE !!! ok i’m gonna go through these one by one:

biting: sniles so sneetly :) i have good strong teeth. would be a shame not to use them. being bitten also good

collars: i didn’t care much at first. but then komaeda. and now. i very much enjoy a collar. more on other ppl than on me though i have sensory issues with things on my neck

hypnosis: this is one i’m actually just dipping my toes in. i really dig it conceptually but in practice i tend to get nervous/distracted whenever i’m hypnotized (i’ve never been hypnotized in a kink way though). i think hypnosis as a whole is really cool psychologically and am open to exploring how it could be utilized in kink settings :3

panty stealing: i’m not like. actively into the panty stealing itself. i don’t really gaf about underwear. but! the implications that panty stealing has are fun. i enjoy the obsessiveness, the possessiveness, the general pervy-ness of the act. it’s not about the panties it’s about being deranged enough about someone to steal from them. or in the case of the dangan protags having someone trust you enough to give them your underwear as a sign of your bond. what !!! that’s insane !!! i’m looking !!!

bondage: of course. this feels like a given to me. fun fact i was born premature and premature babies need to be swaddled really tight to help development. i think i never outgrew this swaddle instinct i want to be wrapped up in smth to the point of not being able to move. that sounds so relaxing. and also trusting someone enough to do that ??? hell yeah. also good from a rigger perspective to be trusted with someone who is incapable of moving away from you in some way shape or form. that’s really good and i very much enjoy it. also it’s Pretty like aesthetically holy shit bondage is gorgeous

hickeys: correct. part of my oral fixation. i think hickies are soooooo pretty though the idea of skin dotted in little bruises as a physical show of affection…. affection so strong it hurts… gwah. fun fact one of my college besties bruises like a peach and every time i see her with a hickey on her neck (result of her bf) i get mildly jealous bc like. who’s gonna give ME a hickey huh. but i would never say that except as a joke bc that’s Insane lmao

furries: in the sense of i am a gay person on the internet, sure. i am a furry just in general (pine marten fursona will one day have a design. and a name. i promise) and i have lots of friends who are furries and they’re all real cool and furries are generally cool. i’m not like actively into them (non-human stuff is just generally refreshing though) but. cool shit is cool shit and if good porn happens to be furry porn then so be it. it tends to line up with a lot of my other interests so we’re chill but i don’t necessarily seek it out

domination: i loveeeee me some power dynamics. i’m a vers so i’m comfy on either end of this scale but goddd i love a good battle for dominance that ends in one person’s victory. soft domming mind games cruel doms the threat of punishment the promise of reward… all very good. very fun game. i enjoy it

impact play: ehhhh not really actually? never been a big fan of active hitting. don’t get me wrong there’s some sadomasochism in here but i prefer it when any pain is either inflicted incidentally (heat of the moment type of deal) or very, very deliberately. things like pinching or the occasional slap across the face depending on the scene are chill and fun. things like spanking or whips aren’t really for me. so like if partner a snaps and hits partner b in the moment yeah that’s hot. but if partner a like. bends partner b over their knee and has them count out five hits or whatever that’s a bit eh for me. not my thing

feeding: also not super my thing! nothing against it it isn’t an active turn-off or anything but. meh. not smth i care too much about. i think it can play into my other kinks if desired (i have an oral fixation i can easily make it work) but the act of feeding someone or being fed doesn’t do too much for me kink-wise. i think it’s a cute show of intimacy though :3

pet play: :3333 komahina unlocked this one in me i’m not afraid to say it. i realized hajime hinata was puppy and then i went “ah. i’m learning things about myself” and that’s just how it goes. idk the thought of sitting there doing obedience training/going through tricks for ages without even actually having sex…. the promise of rewards/‘treats’ at the end… clickers. hell yeah

blood: i like things visceral. i enjoy animalistic, primal type things. what is more visceral than blood. this is mostly a hypothetical kink for me (i’m immunosuppressed lol i can’t be out here getting genuinely injured or ingesting someone else’s blood </3) but OUGH blood is hot. blood is hot! and that’s the truth and we know it. vampires i love youuuu

marking: yes. yep. 100%. possessiveness. dominance. primality. sadomasochism. yeah. the idea of lasting marks being left on a body… good god. on me on whomever my hypothetical partner is. yes. good. i want bruises up and down i want scratch lines i want bite marks. genuinely one of the hottest things on the Planet

piercings: not actively but i’m down to clown. this is mostly just me being into alt folks and also having an oral fixation. metal in my mouth please :] also sensory play is fun and piercings make things interesting. being licked: nifty. being licked and there’s a tongue piercing: woah !!! so like yeah sure 👍

orgasm control: YEAHHHHH. at first i thought this was an asexy thing bc delay/denial was how i got into it and i enjoy the idea of sex without the pressure to have an orgasm. but then as i got older i started realizing that forced orgasms and multiple orgasms and ruined orgasms are also fun and. i just think it’s neat :3

[schmope-is-dead]

Gimme those slenderverse hcs I know you want too *fingers taps like villain*

YES TY!!

so x-virus- -I use they/them pronouns for them bc. something about them feeling like they had to change their masculine name to a more gender neutral name sounds non binary -adopted by a virologist -wanted to impress her any way possible and you kinda see where it goes from there I may have written an entire wattpad story on my interpretation of their backstory -is not related to ticci toby. I know that it's canon and all, but there's just something that feels cheesy about them being related. I feel like it doesn't really add to either of their backstories in a good way -is autistic. there's a high correlation of being non binary and neurodiverse, and plus. I definitely feel like it's cool for them to have a virology special interest and all

ticci toby- -I feel like the smoke inhalation from that whole thing must have fucked him up just a bit. plus, since his mask goes underneath his nose, it wouldn't do anything to protect him from the smoke inhalation. remember to wear your mask correctly before you commit arson kids! -I'm really just going off of my bf's interpretation of him here but. I just feel like he wouldn't really be emotionally intelligent or quick-wits intelligent, but if you give him time to think about something he'll find an out of the box solution that somehow works. -as someone w psychosis, I can confirm that hallucinations and stuff can really fuck up your sleep schedule, so just. I imagine he would also have some effect like that from seeing slenderman

tim wright- -old transmasc. definitely -he's the kind of guy to work a graveyard shift at a job and take a 3 hour nap in the day then just be fine. he could just eat some cheez-its for breakfast (or late dinner) and he would be all set for the day -also the kind of guy to have roughly #9d683f color coffee if that makes sense? like, it doesn't matter what he puts in it, it always somehow comes out a light mocha brown

clockwork- -see x virus on how non binary it is to trade your old gender binary in for a new gender neutral name -pretty much just. the same as tim

sally williams- -she has an active imagination!! -nothing went wrong if she can't remember it :D -she just woke up one day in the woods with cherry syrup on her head and mr beary by her side!! and they've been having playdates in old houses since

and that's about it :DDD I have. written so much for them but I can barely remember to keep my hcs all in one place CTFVYGBUHNI

[janiedean]

Hello, sorry for bothering you with this silly question, but I only watched the show (currently reading the books...). So, Sansa and the Hound is a thing in the books? And if so, why didn't they include it in the show? Do you think they will end up together? (from show experience only, its a little bit hard for me to imagine these two as a couple, it surprised me when I heard they are kinda a thing in the books. So im curious, i dont really have an opinion about them...)

hahahahaha *cries* so, brace yourself because this is gonna be fun. in order:

they aren’t a thing now for obv. reasons ie that she’s currently fourteen and they met when she was eleven and he’s currently getting rehab and he needs to sort his shit out, but there’s a lot of subtext that the show happily glossed over or ignored

why they didn’t do it in the show: I think they decided to cut on it because they ended up casting sandor too much older than he originally was IDK WHY IT WAS A PROBLEM JUST FOR THAT SHIP esp. when then they did sansa/ramsay but whatever the fuck

(ps: sansa/ramsay NEVER was a thing in the books sansa never went to wf that was her childhood bf jeyne being forced into passing as arya)

idk at which point you are, but in the first book it’s ALREADY way heavier than in the show bc sandor is the one telling sansa about his scars and how he got them and that’s when she starts seeing him as, like, a human being with FEELINGS, and acok is basically sandor trying to do whatever he can to help her out even if he can’t do much and hating himself for it and sansa realizing it while she can see that he has issues and while she’s obviously frightened she can recognize that he’s actually a true knight, and like.... he’s the one that opens her eyes to how shitty is the court or tried pre-ned and tries to help her navigate it, he saves her from the crowd same as in the show but he doesn’t betray her about her moon blood, he actually starts getting some shred of hope because she makes him realize the world doesn’t suck completely and.... let’s say that the show version of blackwater is basically child’s play in comparison to the... INTENSITY that is the book version - ngl it’s a scene with extremely problematic elements but also a depth that the show version completely lacked and if you don’t read it you don’t get what I mean but trust me you’ll get it when you get there; (someone shot a fanmade scene with two fans in costume, if you don’t mind spoilers you can watch it here ETA: it was @kateofthecanals​ shooting the movie!!)

on top of that sandor spends asos regretting she didn’t come with and wanting TO GO IN ROBB’S ARMY AND THAT’S WHY HE WAS BRINGING ARYA THERE and sansa thinks about him all the damned time and she thinks he kissed her and basically assumes he *stole* her first kiss even if he didn’t and that’s... her... coping mechanism for having given it to someone who didn’t deserve it, and like their stories are absolutely tied together and also sandor is the only person in sansa’s pov fitting the brave/gentle/strong  values that ned told her would belong to the knight he’d find for her (ie: he’s the only one she describes using all three of those words);

tldr: they have a lot more subtext and a way deeper story in the books. as for the endgame, I think yes specifically for all those reasons and others that I’d need a week of meta to explain but yes, I’d give it a very likely endgame chance. especially because in the show sansa didn’t get with anyone else and sandor died in that fucking dumb way that will never be a thing in the book, so............ if he becomes her sworn sword or smth it’s pretty much that X°DDD

anyway, not a silly question at all, it’s not anyone’s fault that d&d did them dirt wrong ;)

[simplyskipper]

A Midsummer Night’s Dream in a nutshell

So im putting on a performance of AMND ((if u live in walmart/tyson area hmu for friday and saturday showing for only 5 bucks)) and have been learning the story and what it means. so i thought i could explain it too yall pretty briefly.

so like 500 years ago this stoner named william was an author. whenever he was high, he was horny. and whenever he was horny, he would write plays. it was a system. one of the more popular of his plays was this like three-plot love square comedy featuring ass jokes. it wasnt as bad as some others, william was more high than horny, though he did slide in some queerbaiting so thats cool

anyways the story starts with wonder woman’s mom Hippolyta (amazon queen) who is a warrior lady or someth. but this stuck up duke Theseus like beats her and then marries her for that sweet sweet amazon cash ((and sexx)). so it starts off with him all like “we get married in four days i cant wait for ur cash” and she’s like “eh i dont like you n dont want to get married but yanno whatever ig”. so theyre talking and then theseus turns to the wedding planner philostrade and is like “dude go make everyone happy bc im happy >:DDD” and philostrade yeets offstage. so then they’re not really arguing and suddenly this rich dad/friend of theseus named Egeus busts in with his daughter Hermia and is all like “this boitch is pissing me off. cmere Demetrius” and like this hot cool rich guy comes in and is like “yo” and egeus is like “yeah i want him to marry my kid but then this th o t” and Lysander comes in “is like tricking her into liking him and she wont marry demetrius” and like egeus totally loves demetrius but its not gay what

so anyways they talk for a bit and then lysander is like “im just as cool as demetrius but even cooler because he had sex with Helena” and the duke is like “umm im gonna talk to dem and egeus offstage cmere.” so then like hermia and lysander are all sad and decide to run away to a reletave of lysander that night and tell Helena who is so jealous of Hermia. So traitorous hHelena tells demetrius and they runn off into the woods after tyhe lovebirds.

so theres also these two fairies named Oberon and Titania. Titania is the fairy queen who is friends with tyhis indian woman who died and left his son to her and she wants to raise him as a “changeling boi” but Oberon wants him to be his slave or something so he can get this sweet sweet power so they argue. 

and then theres like these working dumbasses who are going to put on a play led by director peter quince. and he assigns roles but this ahole nick bottom is all like “ah i could do the whole thing” and this moron snout is like “what are the lions lines?” and then they kinda talk for a bit before blasting off

so then like oberon tells his buddy puck to put flower juice that was hit with cupid’s arrow in titania’s eye so she falls in love with the first person shee sees when she wakes up

then like the love square all fall asleep in the woods and oberon feels bad for helena so he tells puck to put the w33d in demet’s eyes but puck messes it up and puts it in luysanders eye but luysander sees helena and falls in love twith here but she thinks its a mean prank

then oberon gets mad and tells puck to put it in real demet’s eye and demet wakes up wne lysander is chasing helena but he falls in love with helena and not lysander talk about queerbaiting

so anyways like helena is all sad bc she thinks its a mean joke and hermia is confused because her bf is after helena and lysander and demetrius are gonna fight and like theyu do

then puck is watching the mechanicals ((the dudes doing the play)) practice in the woods and turns bottom’s head into a donkey head bc he an ahole and then like all the others run off in fear and titania wakes up and wants to smash him so she pampers him and all that

then like puck leads demet and lysander away from one another by changing his voice and then like fixes lysander but not demet and then like the love square is fixed and demet is with helenaa and hermia is with her boi lysander and then they like pass out nake in the woods

so puck goes and fixes titania and then bottom and bottom goes back to his squad

then like titania got rid of changeling boi and titania and oberon are together again

then theseus and his hunting party go to the woods and theseus is like “im so cool look at me hippo” but then they see four nake l00sers asleep and egeus is like “freaking no wait kill lysander” but demet stands up for him and theseus decides to do a triple wedding ((poor philostrade))

so they go and have thr wedding and its getting late and theseus is all whiny bc hes bored so philostrade is like “yeah theres this 10 word play but its like really shitty” but theseus decides to watch it anyways and it freaking blows but whatever its funny

so then they dance and its time to go to sleep and smASH FWINALLYT and then puck is like “if this offended u just say its aa dream” and boom end of play 

[dejinyucu]

2017 summary!

Hi, I’ve been busy :’) Here’s the 2017 compilation with my fav personal art I did each month :) ...which is mostly just a bunch of Tales of Zestiria and NieR:Automata stuff xD I’m happy I managed to have personal stuff each month this year! 2016 was mostly work and more work until I said screw it and ... stopped working “Orz. I’m tempted to do my fav work or project piece of every month, but I already spent enough time on this one x’D

Art goals for 2018:

FINISH MY PROJECTS, DAMMIT. Do more traditional art on my free time. >> 2016 compilation <<

Month-to-month insight and personal life musings about the year under the cut. Warning: It’s long, and everything is pretty much a bummer, so if you’re feeling bummed yourself, it’s be a better idea to go watch puppy videos than to read this xD

I did count the number of files from procrastidoodles, finished pieces, project stuff and paid work/commissions I had for each month saved on my computer and excluded the duplicates. They painted a pretty good picture of my mood and my mental state along the year, I think. I drew 240+ procrastidoodles this year! (again mostly Zesty and NieR lol) Most of them were done while burned out, during months after I tried to get a lot of work done :’) I spam most of them on my twitter nowadays. I keep forgetting to upload stuff over here and for that I apologize “Orz. January was a very productive month for me in general, while February was a burned out month (lots of procrastidoodling, very little of anything else... including work.) I was still obsessed with Zesty during Jan/Feb.The anime iirc was still airing back then and I was still trying to be sociable in the fandom. March started my descent into NieR:Automata hell xD It was also another “try to get a ton of shit done!” month, because NaNoRenO; I had a death wish and decided I could handle paid work and THREE personal projects at the same time. Ha. Hahahaha. =_= (spoiler: that didn’t work.)

April was the heavy burnout month after that. Actually I didn’t do that much procrastidoodling this month and I was in general pretty dead... idk how I managed to get 2 finished pieces done at all O_o; Maybe my procrastidoodling energy was channeled into them somehow...? May was when I threw the towel, decided to take a full break from work and projects, opened commissions and just did whatever I wanted. The Soremiku piece I picked for May was a collab with @alassetasartir​, she did the lines and I did the coloring ^^ June was apparently watercolor month! Also very procrastidoodling-intensive. July and August where... bad. I did pretty much nothing and barely got out of bed to exist (I did 7 things in August. 7. In total. Across all my categories. “Orz). I did work on the Amusement park piece in July-August and that’s my favorite thing I did in 2017, though! And by the end of August, I moved to a new apartment! Where I FINALLY GOT A 2ND ROOM AND COULD HAVE A DESK ALL FOR MYSELF AND MY STUFF WITHOUT HAVING TO SHARE IT WITH THE BF!! ;O; I wanted that for 5 years, 5 YEARS!!! *wipes a happy tear*

September and October were “catching up with the work I’ve neglected this year” months. I didn’t get much done in terms of personal things, though, because... work.

November was WORK OR DIE. I did *a lot* of stuff. A lot. I churned out stuff for projects and work like woah. And personal stuff was close to 0. I have only 4 doodles saved from November on my folders, though I may have a couple more on twitter? I tend to screenshot my doodles, post them and not save them ^^; And December has been a summer-hot, slow, short mess of a month; I suspect burnout, bc I can barely draw shit right now... or do anything else, for that matter “Orz. I seriously need to buy an industrial fan for that awfully hot computer room or I won’t survive January =_=; (in case you don;t know, I live on the southern hemisphere, it’s summer here and it’s awful)   As for art, I feel like I improved this year. I’m happy with with what I’ve been able to do and with what I’m able to do when I work hard! I managed to do personal stuff each month, even if it was mostly procrastidoodling, but still! :D I even did finished pieces almost once a month :) And I keep repeating it, but I’m extremely proud of my amusement park piece <3 <3 <3 ...But I’m also upset with how inconsistent I’ve been and still am when it comes to balancing all the shit I have to do and want to do ): Being productive, then burned out, then productive then burned out again has been my jam this year and it hasn’t been healthy at all “Orz.

As for life, it was... bleh. While 2016 was like a rollercoaster, with a lot of high-highs and crashing down lows, 2017 was just a looooong low ride. I went from the social online person I had become in previous years to slowly being a hermit again because I managed to screw things up with some people while I was also, once again, pretty overwhelmed with everything I had on my plate. The depression and debt I was dragging from 2016 plus the burnout cycle kept doing their thing on my mental health, and losing friends and getting dumped didn’t really help; yay bad timing :/ (I deserved being dumped, though; I was neglectful af and bad at communicating, so even if it was understandable bc my mental health was pretty crappy during late 2016-early 2017, it’s not an excuse.) I ended up with a lot of “what’s the point of getting out of bed today” days by the middle of the year. Moving to a new apartment with the BF helped improve a lot of things, though, and for that I’m very grateful! Also having a dog helps a lot, I may feel like a waste of space that can barely exist, but my dog needs to go outside for potty at least twice a day :’D Since then, I’ve been working towards a more balanced life, with more successes than failures, but still not quite there yet. I still have a few days peppered here and there where I feel heavy and sad and unable to get out of bed and I barely eat... but I try to not dwell on them for too long (speaking of which, I should shower and attempt to exist today... “Orz). When I look back and think of the highlights of this year, it’s all stuff that happened to other people around me.  I just... kept struggling with my bad choices and poor mental health to pay the bills, pay my debts and don’t disappoint ppl. But such is life for a lot of folks, isn’t it? So let’s say... the positive highlights of this year were the new apartment and NieR:Automata xD Also @yunalescasakura​ , she’s been a sweetheart this year to me and I don’t deserve her. I believe everything will be better once I manage to finish my project stuff (450+ unpaid hours to go... :’DDD) and I can’t wait for the day that I’m finally free from that to start a new chapter. By this time next year I should be done with projects and will be able to get a better balance!! I JUST HAVE TO ENDURE ONE MORE YEAR!! >_</ What I’m looking forward in 2018, besides finishing all my shit, is to buy a pen display! I’ve been saving slowly for one! I can’t afford a Cintiq, but I’m eyeing an xp-pen 15.6 *v* I also want to try to do traditional art once a week, probably during the weekend... I seriously need a break from drawing on the computer all day, and watercolors and colored pencils relax me so much... I want to buy a good webcam eventually to livestream/record speedpaint videos of it, because I love watching videos of people doing traditional art, haha ^^; Hopefully, in 2018 there will be a couple of Visual Novels released with my art, not counting my own stuff. I’ll also be resuming work on CDC: SideB as a hired artist this time around, since I can’t find the time at all to work on it otherwise. I sincerely hope I’ll be able to find mental space to be sociable in 2018 again, I hate being a hermit “Orz. That’s my goal for 2018: Find balance, kill the burnout cycle and be sociable again!

If you managed to read all of this, thank you. Thanks for being around, thanks for the nice messages that some of you somehow still send me even when I’m barely around anymore. I hope in 2018 I can give back to you all a lot more than I was able to this year. May the new year in ahead of us be full of nice things for everyone!