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loregoddess · 10 months ago

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Temenos Mistral for the character ask game! (Because you were talking about them earlier!)

First impression: "Oh, he seems neat, wonder what his story will be about."

Impression now: I love Temenos, one of my top favorite characters from the game, probably my scond-fave after Ochette. He's such an interesting character and his story (gripes I might have with the pacing aside) was unexpected for a "cleric" story, based on what I'd seen with Ophilia and some of the clerics from CotC. Honestly I'd write up an entire character analysis if I had the energy to do so, bc there is so much going on with him.

Favorite moment: A few different ones, but I really like how any time that the façade he puts up starts to slip, this sheer force of anger slips through--that's good stuff. Love that his "In Pursuit of Truth" theme also sounds much more energetic and aggressive when compared to his normal theme song (and like, I'm not well-versed with music terms and stuff, but Temenos is also the only character whose "In Pursuit of..." song has a significantly different tempo and more aggressive melody when compared to the standard theme, if I recall correctly).

Idea for a story: Hmm, do the two rewrite ideas of his main narrative that I have floating in my head count? Like I've said, something about the general pacing of events and a handful of narrative elements in his story don't really work for me, and as a result his story arc doesn't seem as strong compared to the others' stories. Not all of it is "bad writing" or anything, like the writers clearly had a plan in mind, and I know some of it is just my personal taste...but yeah, I have a "canon compliant, trying to match the general narrative motifs and themes of the rest of the characters" rewrite idea, and a "mostly canon compliant, but definitely changing some things to fit my personal tastes which therefore go against one or two of the overall recurring themes and motifs" rewrite idea. I'll probably never do anything with them though bc it's more like...anytime I come across story writing that I thought was really good, I try to figure out what about it I liked and how the writers set it up, and any time I come across story writing that doesn't work, I do the same thing where I try to figure out why I didn't like it and then try to figure out how I'd write it myself, and this is like, a little mental enrichment I do just for fun and also to try and sharpen my own preferences and sensibilities for storytelling and writing. So like, I don't technically have that much beef with his story, and I don't want to come off as "I'm a better writer than the original writers" or even that I thought the original arc was bad (it really wasn't bad writing per se), it's more just a thing I came up with for myself for funsies and as a mental exercise in narrative, more so than an actual like, critique of the original story.

Unpopular opinion: I uh, I don't ship him with Crick...or anyone actually. In fact the Temenos x Crick ship really does not float my goats (nothing against anyone who enjoys the ship, you do you and all that, it's just not my cup of tea). I actually read and more or less headcanon Temenos as aroace, and even if I didn't, he's got like 2934820398432 unresolved trust issues, so I'd have a hard time seeing him be able to enter into a romantic relationship anyhow. But that's just my reading, again no shade to anyone who has a different reading/headcanons.

Favorite relationship: I love his interactions with all the other main characters, but I find his weird friendship with Ochette to be really, really interesting especially (I'd write up an analysis and list of thoughts on this too if I had the energy). Outside of the main cast, what little we get to see of his interactions with Jorg, along with what we learn after Jorg gets murdered, is really fascinating to me as well. They have a very unusual familial/professional relationship (although given that Benedict and Anna's wildly unconventional familial relationship is also super interesting to me, I'm thinking I might just be an enjoyer of unconventional and murky adopted familial relationships in fiction).

Favorite headcanon: I am fond of the idea of him being related to Alpates and Throne by blood, although as I've turned the headcanon over in my head and whittled it like a wood carving, it's developed into something really specific with basically no in-game source to back it up, so it's a 100% bona fide "I just made something up and went with it" headcanon that I keep modifying and changing. Basically, I think he's got a situation similar to Hikari's, but significantly more subdued since he doesn't have an evil shadow version of himself trying to talk him into murdering everyone, and that his blood ties to Alpates's bloodline are stronger than his blood ties to D'arqest. Some more specifics about that under the cut bc explaining myself requires talking about late-game spoilers.

(Specifically rather than being directly Claude's son, I think it's entirely possible some of the Blacksnakes were able to have kids of their own, like Father did, without Claude finding out about them and having the child killed, and that even potentially those kids might have had kids, thinning the blood ties to Claude further--so rather than being Throne's half-sibling, Temenos would be more uh...*checks cheat-sheet chart for familial ties* ummm...her half-grand-nephew, god I hate everything about that phrase why does anything relating to Claude have to be a string of "wtf??"s). I keep changing this headcanon slightly (I did originally start from the base of having him and Throne as half-siblings), so who knows just how much it's gonna change before I settle on something I'm really happy with, but I do like the idea a lot.

#sdlfkja;slfdjasd sorry for posting early I keep forgetting there's a keyboard shortcut for posting a post #anyhow I heacanond the majority of the Octopath characters (both games) as some variation of ace #which is why my ''Temenos reads as aroace to me'' headcanon isn't my Favorite headcanon for him #bc it's like...my headcanon for over half the main cast #anywhos yeah #love my dude Temenos he's great I don't talk about it but I love this guy so much #thanks for letting me rant about The Guy #youcantencryptyourface #ask game #I still don't have an ask tag

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bisluthq · 10 months ago

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Hi nat, I don’t wanna sound like a hater but I’ve just been struggling sm lately bc I feel so disconnected to Taylor iykwim? Like she just seems unrecognizable and excuse the parasocialness but like idk I think I just need to separate from the fandom because I just feel she’s so different in the past year and it makes me so sad. Everything just seems somewhat staged and inauthentic. I really loved her and even considered her as my favorite person and lifesaver at some point. But that beautiful, genuine, and talented person that i thought she was is not there anymore. I really saw myself in her at some point and really believed she was a gift to this world with the happiness she brought to people and how she was unapologetically herself, from the intimate fan interactions and public vulnerability and need for privacy she showed compared to other celebrities. Especially the fact that she’s been trying so fiercely to rewrite the history of the past 7 years of her life and is doing a complete 180 on the life she said she wanted is so disheartening to watch as a long time fan. I really thought that rep - evermore Taylor was really her most authentic self but idek anymore. The person she is now is like an entirely different persona and it makes me really sad. I hope she can find herself again for her own sake but i think this is just who she is and who am I to judge that lmao? At the end of the day no person with that amount of money or fame would be relatable. Look I always have to remind myself I don’t know her obviously but I thought I had gotten a pretty good sense from following her the last 12 years. Idk honestly I’m just kinda ranting here but was wondering if anyone else felt like this lately. A lot of my irls and friends have been saying they feel the same disconnect.

Xx anon ❤️

no shade queen and I’m sorry you’re feeling sad but herein lies the problem: “I really loved her and even considered her as my favorite person and lifesaver at some point.” That’s not a fair thing to put on Taylor. She’s literally just some lady lmfao and she’s an extremely talented musician, and she’s hot, and she’s very funny, and she’s a good writer even when it comes to prose, and she’s hardworking as fuck, and she’s apparently quite kind, and she also apparently makes nice food, and she has cute handwriting. That’s all we really know about her tbh. She can’t be our fave person or our lifesaver because like we don’t know her?? It’s not fair to put that on her.

on a very minor scale when I did professional activism/politics and on an even more minor scale on this blog when it was very big like sometimes I felt like I had this responsibility to people to like idk be something for them. And I can’t lol because I’m just a girl who likes to make jokes and write and teach history and drink and recently to go rowing lol. It’s not fair to expect me to be anything other than an interesting essay (in the activism days) or a funny joke (in the blogging days). I can’t be responsible for other shit. Taylor has that on the HUGEST scale and I can imagine how stressful that is and it’s not yk fair. I personally think she’ll get bored of being this public in a bit but she’s having fun rn. She’s got a cute boyfriend and her career is doing stellar and she’s got the I cut down on alcohol glow and shit like let the lady live for a bit. She doesn’t owe us shit. And I’m not convinced she’s a different person, I think she’s just not caring if people see she’s yk who she is - not an angel, not a hermit artiste, just a girl who’s trying to vibe.

I also think for me personally I’ve enjoyed a lot of her recent music so that adds to it. I love Midnights and I love the 1989 Vault and idk I am happy to let her vibe like she doesn’t owe us shit. Far be it from me to tell you to buy her $20 teacups or whatever to sponsor her trips to KC - I don’t lol - but I think it’s deeply unfair to expect her to be your lifeline or whatever like that’s genuinely not on her.

All this said, if you’re not vibing with music or the brand rn that’s okay. Harry Potter was HUGELY important to me in my preteens and into my teens and then as it happened, it turned out that JKR was a really bad person and I reread the books genuinely for science and they weren’t that great like there was a lot there I found actively not okay so aside from how I wouldn’t publicly be a millennial Potterhead anyway probably because I’m not yk that bloody weird I actively disengaged and I asked family and friends to stop buying me Robert Galbraith books and I just like… disengaged. Never watched the cursed child, haven’t watched any of the fantastic beast movies after the first one, never bought any merch again even when it’s a bit cute, just totally cut myself off. That’s MY choice. It’s not JK’s. JK is out there vibing like as she should but I don’t have to support her and she doesn’t owe me shit lol so like yes our moral compasses unfortunately do not align and that’s just the reality so I can be all dramatic or I can just stop buying her shit lol and I’ve chosen to do the latter and I don’t have any bad feelings towards her. We just don’t agree on morals. If you don’t agree with Taylor on morals or even lifestyle that’s also fine but again that’s a you problem not a Taylor problem 🤷🏻‍♀️

hope this made sense and helped although it was rambley.

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honeyhotteoks · 2 years ago

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I-

Bruh

No one writes mmf poly relationships quite like you and I just….

AGAIN, THANK YOU CHAI FOR FEEDING US SUCH QUALITY CONTENT

My favorite FAVORITE thing is how you make sure to stress consistent consent and check-ins. Not only do I find it incredibly hot when they make sure you’re with them, but because even in long term relationships where consent and limits have been so thoroughly discussed and understood, when a scene is this intense there MUST be check-ins bc the body will respond differently on different days etc. I also love how you put reader panicking or getting overwhelmed bc that feeling is SO REAL. Plus Yunhwa asking her to please communicate with them when this happens next time and properly checking in for aftercare…just 🤌🏻

Just- thank you for writing HEALTHY and SAFE bdsm and kink fics bc ffs some people really scare me with how they write it sometimes. (And when I was younger and less knowledgeable/experienced I really thought it was okay bc I didn’t know better)

Also harsh Hard Dom Seonghwa into caring/coddling (almost Mommy)Seonghwa really just hits every time.

Anyways, you’re incredible, nothing new, okaythanksloveyoubye

~🖤🖤🖤 Anon

😭 thank you so much?????

also yes you make some excellent points about long term relationships and still needing to respect limits and do check-ins. i think it's ridiculous to think that just because you established consent with a partner a week ago that it would apply to today, let alone how much gets established over the course of a long term relationship.

as far as the panicking, i feel like this part is really important to me, thank you for picking up on it! there's this interesting impression that i think some people have about subs in bdsm / bdsm porn that like no matter how intense or 'painful' a scene may be, the sub is in nothing but ecstasy and pleasure the whole time. but that's just not true - when you actually listen to people who engage in acts this intense, something they will talk about is this concept of testing personal limits as well as the results of pain play (surging endorphins / adrenaline), it's not just endless orgasms because someone likes being slapped lol

i think a lot of writers portray bdsm poorly because they are garnering all their information from sources like fifty shades or from porn that is not really made from the sub's perspective. i've done a lot of research outside of porn itself to understand these dynamics better so that when i write them, it doesn't come off hollow or problematic, and i really hope that it is working for people who do engage in dynamics like these.

while i personally may not have done everything that i've written in these fics, i do my best to make sure things stay as true to life as possible. one of my best friends is also a practicing submissive and actively working with a dom on some of these more intense dynamics, so she'll share a lot of that with me from the internal sub perspective that way the emotions and physical sensations that i'm putting on paper sound a bit more real.

i'm currently deep in shibari research mode for this very intense san fic i'm writing, so stay tuned for that one....

#answered anon #🖤 anon #i literally could talk about this stuff all day i feel like it's so important

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thinemoonshine · 26 days ago

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how do i scream into a mic and send it to u as a voice note over anon bc omg omfg wtf FUCK

U DONT GET ITTTT I'VE BEEN ROOTING FOR SUNOO FROM THE STAAAARRTTTTT 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

okayyyy ummmm i honestly am at a loss for words LMAO no but seriously this has been so worth the wait and i genuinely dont know if this could ever ever be topped by another fic for a long long time my god

one thing abt me is that im a sunoo biased before im human and what u have blessed this platform w fulfills each and every craving i've ever wanted and didn't know i needed GAWD LIKE i'll gush abt this series in 200 paragraphs im not even kidding nobody can stop me now

like i was saying (and yes im that same anon) i've been hungry for a fic just like this, where mc hold all the power, reverse harem, dark/supernatural themes, etc, except u gave me so so much more like no shade but every other writer on this app seem to withdraw from writing sunoo as the center piece of mc's attention in ot7 fics, and i can't lie the amount of delight and joy and the absolute unfiltered satisfaction leche of the sirens brought me just bc he's the "main" one—im so happy like fr thank YOU 🫵🫵🫵

and it's not just that, jfc the way u describe the gore and horror—THE VIVIDNESS OF IT ALL—is unlike any other, like it's a perfect balance of grotesqueness and violence without being overbearing, the fear and emotions detailed so gut-wrenchingly good in each and every one of them, like jfc my hats off to u for handling 8 characters so well and with none of them feeling two dimensional, OH AND WHEN RIKI'S DROPPING THEIR BODIES OFF THE CLIFF—those lines will stick w me until the day i die, how do u write so impactfully and encaptivatingly it's mind breaking, like if a siren wrote this i wouldn't think twice lmao

i absolutely ADORE the mental snap of riki and sunoo's, i can't tell u how many works i've read where they just drag a scene like that on and on, when really imo those scenes should've been spontaneous and quick, just like what u absolutely nailed. the build up from previous chapters where we read how they've all been slowly spiralling and obsess over mc really made those scenes all worth it

AND MY GOD u dont get how clutched my pearls are when it was just riki and sunoo jfc my heart was abt to sink thinking sunoo's done for, BUT I KNEWWW i so knew that he's been one crazy bitch from the start and what riki said to him just set him off and finally set his morals aside. this is why i love this series so much, how well u write dark and insane romance w again such perfect pacing that leaves me savoring every word.

ugh i want to talk abt the others but i honestly can't 😭 my mind is filled w only sunoo sunoo and sunoo

ALSO THAT ENDINGGGG i totally didn't not see that coming omfg, the fact that the others are still scummy even in their reincarnation lurches my stomach, AND HOW SUNOO BECAME A SIREN TOO OMFGGGG i was tweaking in my bed when he was reintroduced to them the same way mc first appeared. and im so so delighted when riki finally has a chance to join her like it's just all falling into place.

honestly give me sunoo now bc im so in delulu mode rn over how he couldn't keep his hands off of her at the end my god i need him like that also pls pls tell me mc ate them at the end too bc omfg i never wanted to stop reading this 😭 esp w sunoo being the way he is now (i can't stop thinking abt him im sorry lmao)

anw pls dont ever die op, ur my favorite writer and i learn from u fr the way u write has me in a chokehold 🫶

I.LOVE.THIS.SO.MUCH💗‼️ AHHHHHH YOURE SO ENTHUSIASTIC ABOUT THIS I LOVED EVERYTHING I ADORE YOU HEGSUSBSJJSSM

AND I SO AGREE WITH WHAT YOURE SAYING, like sunoo seems to have very little fics compared to the other members and i adore him so much ☹️☹️ i’m glad that you’re satisfied with the story and i thank YOU 🫵🏻 back for being such a great person—taking time out of your day to comment and share your feedback for my work 💗

#romi mailbox 💌#༄𝐿𝐸𝒞𝐻𝐸 𝒪ℱ 𝒯ℋ𝐸 𝒮𝐼ℛ𝐸𝒩𝒮.ೃ࿔*

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aajjks · 1 month ago

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lol quick rant /not bc, it's not that deep

lol so I love a lot of fan fic writers in the fandom and I just tend to read ''yn/you'' prompts bc i cringe when i read ''I'' in fan fics , when it comes to the ocs having a name i can rock with it or if she is in second or third person bc that feels a lot more neutral to me idk how to put is...that's not the issue k, so there are some amazing writer (you are a wonderful pookie , dw) so i enjoy some of these other writters and they just make it a point in ther stories that their yn , under no circumstances is to be imagined as a shade below paper white with a pink v , ofc nothing wrong w that , they proceed to say ...ofc member xyz's type would never be anyone of condemned shade which is kind of off putting bc i fear invading spaces yk like i just be enjoying reading a fic and constant reminder like that make me wonder if my kind are lowkey not welcome to read the fic ofc again there is nothing wrong with targeting your work towards a certain demographic or specifying race n character traits , I would still enjoy a good fic just what's with the lowkey wierdness

someone said in thier fic , ''I won't eat brocolli it is gross and ugly like afros''😭😭i feel like thwere should be a no ____ allowed notice on some writers blogs

thanks for listening pookie 💜😘you're so hot for not discriminating!

I actually have seen this happen and I feel so bad because all of us are very unique in our own way OK? Also another thing I would like to point out is that we’re all different from each other. There’s a lot of people with different skin tones, different body types, hair type, different eyecolor, different races, different ethnicities…

I actually feel more comfortable with the reading in third or second point of you as well because I find the first point of view really cringe.

And not everyone is gonna be pink and white or any of that you know? Even though I have a lighter skin tone I don’t think that every single one of my readers are gonna be like me and that’s just completely OK because I’m writing for you guys I don’t imagine a particular type of yn, I just think of their personalities, right?

Oh, and another thing that is that I write for you guys OK I base my characters on you so yn is basically you, to me she’s me because I imagine myself but to you she’s you because you imagine yourself.

I want you guys to always be comfortable enough to read my mediocre writing and feel happy. I am so sorry that you had to go through that. Some of these writers are actually weirdos.

Discrimination is not OK and it will never be OK. We are all made from the same color palette and we’re all made to be loved and love.

#asks

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rum-inspector · 1 year ago

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IF I wasn't such a lazy writer I would write the moat boring fluffiest Star Wars AU called Star Peace. The change would be

Obi-Wan actually knows force healing

Tpm goes same as it goes until Qui-Gon dies. This time he doesnt bc obiwan actually listened in healing class

Qui-Gon being more grey would be way better match to be Anakin's master while still getting guidance from Obi because why wouldn't they hang out? They are much better as "brothers" than master padawan

Qui-Gon would absolutely side with Dooku no matter what Obi cries in the original AotC. Which might send Obi into existential crisis, whether he comes out of it as even more lawful annoying defender of statua quo or sides with his old master I don't quite know, I really went into this wanting Vader not to happen so this is not that important to me

Maybe this isn't as fluffy as I though, a war would still ensue, would clones be on the separatist side if obi never went looking maybe dam I didnt think this through.

Anyway Vader never happens. Padme doesnt stress herself to death. The Republic fractures instead of becoming empire. Church and state is once again separated I mean the Jedi go back to being a cult instead of warriors of the state.

Anakin does bring balance to the force as maybe he sparks a reform within the jedi instead of fighting the sith. Or maybe he revives the sith but not in a Cruel Horrible Terrible Villains but force users who channel force through emotions like idk Power of Love. Why does it always have to be anger anyway? Maybe the Force is a spectrum and he finds a whole new shade when his pursuits arent suppressed but encouraged.

Older Anakin also does not care about the prime directive wait what wrong universe anyway he dedicates his life going around freeing slaves giving no shit about "jedi can't judge other cultures" bc while he may not be Vader he is Anakin and he does judge

Palpatine gets impeached over tax evasion or something

#star wars #star wars au #idk i always cry when Jinn dies in ep1 but also understand he had to for the story to go the way it does #TCW made dooku such a cartoon villain but the little jedi story short was surprisingly interesting #dooku gains class consciousness kinda interesting lol but of course you cant have murican audiences root for that too much can we #me and my gazillion star wars AUs the one where Luke goes to alderaan and Leia tatooine I like whenever people do that

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hausofmamadas · 2 years ago

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Yeah, no I feel real healthy and sane after reading this life wrecker. I’m so good rn not at all wiping the snot from my nose with my sleeve like im a 4 year old who’s sandcastle got kicked over

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✷ Steve saw through it, the moment he got back to the DEA HQ and assignments were debriefed he knew there was something else Javi was up to.

Sksksksks bc what are work hubbies for if not to roast you and call you out on your shit

✷ ... Steve pointed his finger and bounced his hand up in down with a nod, “we could all stay in the same hotel, grab dinners, explore the city, think that’d be fun.”

Javi began to trip on his words, not sure how he wanted to respond.

“I’m fuckin’ with you, Jav.”

NOSJSJSJ BC WHAT DID I JUST SAY. But also I’m cracking up at the fact that my reaction would be the exact same as Javi’s largely bc I’m allergic to children like I don’t believe it’s possible to truly go on a vacation until your child is old enough to drive tbh

✷ He knew you were Javi’s last serious girlfriend, and assumed probably his first as well.

NOOO INSJSN THE IMPLIED SHADE HERE in screaminfskkssn bc this is literally like 3 layers of shade, like it’s writer’s commentary on Javi filtered through Reader’s interpretation of Steve’s perception of Javi, A LITERAL ONION OF SHADE OKAYSK

✷ ... with how Javi swooned his way around women, it was hard to imagine him heartbroken but eventually he realized that was probably why he swooned his way around so many women.

And the brilliantly hilarious onion of shade continues

✷ “Well, whatever happens, don’t do anything I wouldn’t do.” Steve’s grin grew.

“So come back married with a kid?”

PFFFTTTJDJDJD okay fair point Javi like Steve did effectively acquire a stray child that he did not have or intend on having prior to going to Colombia

✷ Although he counted his blessings for that, time passed a lot slower when you had to listen to people talk about boring shit all day.

Godddd the truth of this though like this counts even when you’re not anxiously awaiting seeing the love of your life/person who emotionally maimed you for life for the first time in god knows how long

✷ You were head in the game, moving from one side of the bar to the other in seconds, shaking drinks, stirring others, filling up drafts of beer all while keying in orders to the computer.

First off, I love nothing more than when someone uses like a part of speech as a different part of speech that like otherwise would seem incorrect, except I’m not an idiot, so I am fucking liiiiivviiiiinngtgg for “You we’re head in the game,” like marveling at the way this idiom is the indirect object of this sentence, fucking LIIIIIVING for that shit and taking notes. Secondly, as someone who has had a number of jobs in the service industry, I know THIS EXACT flow described right here, like it brought me back to my serving days forreal

✷ It was one of your favorite things about being a bartender here, there was no room to think, to let your mind take over, you were focused on one task and jumping to the next in seconds.

Once again, as someone who’s worked in the service industry, like there are very few things I miss about those jobs but by god, if this isn’t one of them. Like when you’re doing an office job, it’s so much harder to just like forget that your life may be falling apart the usual anxieties of daily life

✷ Every thought you had pushed away, left no room for over the last few years rushed to your brain.

GOODSKJDISHSBSBWBWI JESUS CHRIST THE WAY RHIS SLAPT ME THO BC LIKE SEEING IT DESCRIBED THIS WAY like we all know what that’s like, you’ve been successfully compartmentalizing shit, distracting yourself but no matter what, that shit comes to collect usually with interest and you’re just like so not prepared for it. Like the just pure shock of the strength of that emotion. Fuck dude that shit is REAL

✷ “Hey.” His voice was deep and raspy.

“I’m taking my 15!” You called out immediately ...

PFFFTTJDJDJRJEN THE WAY I AUDIBLY HOWLED AT THIS

✷ You let out a laugh, you didn’t mean to but it just came out. Of course it was only a week of him not smoking. Putting your cigarette back in the box, you leaned back against the wall ... “I’m not gonna be a nicotine tease.”

Oh I love this so much bc just the way it so smacks of like when you see your ex after a long time, and it’s like the post-breakup competition of like who’s doing better sksks like who’s more functional and healthy in the wake of the breakup

✷ “... I can set you up at a table, send over food, give you a kids menu so you can do the mazes and crossword puzzles to pass the time.”

uh sorry, you mean to tell me that Reader is like SUCH the homie for coming through with this idea no wonder why javi has had it so bad all these years

✷ “Crayons too.” Javi said only seconds after you finished speaking. “I want the menu and crayons.”

OHHHHHHSJSKSJSBS S SNS AND THEN YOY GOTTA COME BACK AND SLAP ME WITH THIS MOST CHARMING OF BANTER BC YOURE CONTRACTUALLY OBLIGATED BY WHUMPRIL TO RUIN LIVES

✷ It was small talk but it stuck with you. The fact that he had clearly done this before, it made you realize he was lonely.

GODLDDSKDJDJDB OKAY so I’ve said this so many times in other reblogs but there’s always a moment in every fic I read where like someone will just touch on some character note that either, I’d never thought of before or articulate something I’ve thought but never had the words to describe about a character and LET👏🏽ME👏🏽DO👏🏽TELL👏🏽YOU👏🏽 this is one of those times bc like the idea that Javi’s *good* at small talk means like he’s had so much practice with the most shallow of interactions bc that’s only how far it ever gets with anyone else LIKE THST IS JUSTDJDISJWUWHEBWJBSBE a) SO javi and b) fucking heartbreaking to think about to the point I’m like a peeling my face off

✷ The Javi you knew was soft, he was in love, he was sweet. The Javi in front of you still had some of those traits, selfishly you hoped he saved them for you ....

SELFISHLY YOU HOPED HE SAVED THEM FOR YOU, OKAY WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK,YOU ARE LEGITIMATELY TRYING TO COMMIT MURDER HERE, YOU ARE DOING DEEP AND LASTING DAMAGE TO MY PSYCHE WITH THIS SHIFSJSUWHHW

✷ “You seem lonely.” Again, you weren’t trying to be mean or pour salt in a wound, it was just the truth.

Pfdftttjdjdj I’m like simultaneously laughing and crying at the same time bc like despite Reader’s desire not to rub salt in the wound, telling someone who’s unequivocally, desperately lonely that they seem lonely is like not even rubbing salt in the wound ? It’s like beyond sksjs more like rubbing the wound with sandpaper or steel wool ?

✷ How this conversation years ago, with the same words would have been pointed and petty and now they were sad and caring.

GODDDDDDDDJDJDB but isn’t this such like the kind of grownup loneliness when you’re old enough to know what true loss looks like

✷ As you entered into your apartment, walking into the space you picked up some laundry that was tossed along the floor and threw it into your hamper. “Sorry for the mess, I don’t usually have company.”

entire side note to talk about me bc I can find a way to make anything and everything about me but the phrase “Sorry for the mess, I don’t usually have company” should be engraved on my headstone like I have never felt so seen and represented in a fic

✷ You threw your head over your shoulder to look at him, “I’m pretty lonely.”

NOOOOSBSJDJSB BUT THEN YOU HAVE TO FOLLOW THAT SHIT UP WITH THIS AND IM sksksns CHOKINSJSJSJSBS NOW BC “I’m pretty lonely” IS AN EQUALLY APPROPRIATE HEADSTONE ADORNING PHRASE DJSJSIWJSNSN

✷ There was a set of blankets and pillows on the couch, likely where you’d fall asleep every night by the looks of the indent in the couch and the multiple empty wine glasses on the coffee table.

And now I’m like actually looking over my shoulder, checking the corners of my room trying to make sure you don’t have hidden cameras in my apartment bc tbis is so startlingly me sksksns the one assurance that I have is that I don’t drink wine, so if you did have surveillance footage of me, it’d be empty glasses of cold brew and chocolate milk instead of wine glasses

✷ “I know it looks like a sad and pathetic life, and sometimes it is,” your eyebrows raised as you joked, “but it’s also pretty cool, lots to do in the city, I hang with my friends from the bar a lot, but I like my little space too.”

WHEREIN IM NOW JUST COPY/PASTING LINE BY LINE BJT LIKE I CANNOT ACTUALLT FUCKINFSJSJSN EXPRESS THE PURE CONCENTRATION OF ME THAT IS REPRESENTED BY ALL OF THIS LIKE IF WE GO SOWN THE LIST:

1) sometimes lonely and pathetic ✅

2) also pretty cool ✅

3) lots to do in my city ✅

4) I hang with my friends not from the bar bc don’t got time fordat but I do have a little crew of homies

5) but I like my little space too ✅

LIKE ALL THE FOOD GROUPS EQUALLY REPRESENTED IN TBIS SHIT RIGHT HERE, I COULD KISS YOU, I FEEL SO SEEN

✷ “I didn’t have whiskey.” Your voice interrupted his staring at your bookcase.

“You know I’ll drink anything.” He smiled and took one glass from your grip.

What does it say about me that I reas this and was like “YEAAAA THATS MAH BOI” don’t answer that, let’s not think about it too hard

✷ Javi shook his head, “and please don’t just repeat what you told me then, I’ve heard those words on repeat for years.”

Fuck. That hurt you.

FUCK THAT HURT MEEEEEEEEEEE JYEEEEEEEESUS FUCKING CHRIST SSKSWIWOSIXJSJJWBW&./&/!!€\

✷ It’s stupid now thinking about it but I felt like saying yes to you, meant saying no to myself.

Look, this could be read as like Reader being #problematicallynoncommittal HOWMEVER, given that it’s a fem Reader, MY FODDDDDD there’s so much that this says just in terms of gender roles, a desire for independence and self-sufficiency whether that be emotional or financial or both and also just feeling stifled in a relationship despite still loving the other person and as someone who just got out of a 6 year relationship where I felt stifled but still loved the other person, I feel both seen and attacked AND IM DOING FUCKINGKSJD LAPS IN MY LIVING ROOM RN BC THIS JUST CLOBBERED ME IN FHE FACE LIKE A CRICKET PADDLE WITH THE FEELS OKAY ????AND IM NOT OKAY, OKAY???????

✷ The room filled with heaviness, these weren’t easy topics to talk about and you two were discussing them like they were nothing.

Look this is probably such tmi but I legit just had a conversation with aforementioned ex of 6 years that I still love that was so much this vibe like I think it might actually be the universe’s sick cosmic joke that I chose this fic to read today bc like it’s dhshwhwjwhwnebehbwbwbw just wlalaiwisksks makinfsjsbe me feel a lotta sjsjsjs fuckinsnsbsbsbw w THIIIIINGS

✷ ... you started to tear up and before you knew it a sob left your mouth.

OHHHH SUREEEEEEEEEWW BC I WOKE UP THIS MORNINF AND SAID TI MYSELF, I WANNA GET WRECKT TODAY ~~IM NOT SOBBING, YOURE SOBBINF. NO ONE LOOK AT ME, AVERT THINE EYES

✷ “God, what the fuck happened to us.”

“A lot of fuckin’ shit.”

BOOOOOOSSJJWWJJWEB ENDJDNS DNDNAJ S NO BC YOU ARE ON A REAL-LIFE ACTUAL WARPATH COMING FIR ME WITH THIS ????????????? AAAAAAAAAAND IM FULL CHERNOBYL NUCLEAR MELTDOWN, JUST COLLAPSING IN ON MYSELF LIKE A DYING STAR

✷ You turned and lightly jogged over to the coffee table to grab the engagement ring box off the table and bring it back to the door ... “Returning what I borrowed ... Keep it. I have a feeling one day you’ll want it again.”

AHHHHHHHHHHHJ W AND NOW IM JUMPING UP AND DOWN, DOING THE CAN-CAN, POPPING OPEN A BOTTLE OF CHAMPAGNE WITH A KNIFE IN THAT COOL BUT RIDICULOUS WAY THEY DO IN THE MOVIES WITHOUT ACCIDENTALLY CUTTING MYSELF IN THE PROCESS BC IN THIS SCENARIO, I HAVE THE HAND-EYE COORDINATION OF AN OLYMPIC ATHLETE BC I WAS SO NOT EXPECTINF THIS AVTUAL HAPPY ENDING ??????? LIKE WHAT A GIFT YOUVE GIVEN ME

Something Borrowed

Javier Peña x F!Reader

Day 10 from these April Prompts: “Returning something borrowed long ago”

Summary: A familiar face surprises you along with all the emotions that come with seeing him.

Warnings: Angst. All my fics are 18+ regardless of content.

Word Count: 4.7k words

Narcos Taglist: @drabbles-mc @justreblogginfics @narcolini

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#screamblog #javi x female reader #javier peña x f!re #whumpril2023 #narcos #netflix narcos

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rrxnjun · 1 year ago

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it is pretty late so my mind i not fully working but bar D: every time u post something i'm just reminded how much i love reading still like i haven't stayed up this late to read something since like i was in sixth grade;-; i loved the whole story and plot and everything D: like i just possibly felt most of the emotions that a human can feel during reading this istg just so funny at the start and just getting more and more "serious" like the whole truth or dare part i was sitting like😧🫢 and the ending was just the cutest ever;-; so thank u for writing these amazing pieces every time;-;

AND BECAUSE I GOT TO IMMERSED IN THE STORY i don't think i counted it right so💔 like i counted 9 with not knowing how the haknyeon convo counts but i'm probably off by a bit still at first i could pay attention to it but u just had to be a great writer and have me just forget about it smhsmh/j

and a bit of a live reaction till i could if u are interested lmao: I WAS JUST IMMEDIATELY LAUGHING THAT TOILET PAPER PART I FELT THAT SECOND HAND EMBARRASSMENT and poor main character with the bad haircut i felt the too short bangs💔💔 BUT OH BOY I WANTED TO HIT HAECHAN SO BAD AT THAT PART (affectionately kindalmao) AND GETTING POOR MAIN CHARACTER TO DRIVE HIM AROUND HAS HE ACTUALLY MEVER HEARD OF GAS PRICES IN THIS ECONOMIC like i love how he wants to hang out with the mc but can't believe it's on the expense of her gas money💔WHEN I READ THE WORD HON JUST KNOW I LAUGHED!! THE DESCRIPTION OF HAECHAN IM CRYING HE IS SO;-;-;;-;-;-;-;-;-; KICKING MY FEET GIGGLING THINKING ABOUT HEACHAN LEARNING HOW TO DRIVE LIKE THAT WHOLE PART JUST PURE JOY!!! THE KIM SUNWOO SHADE STILL TAKES ME OUT GIRLY LIKE IN NO WORLD IS THAT TRUE BUT WHATEVER WORKS FOR THE PLOT IGIG😭 PLS THE TRUTH OR DARE PART POOR HYUCK TOOK AN L BRO POOR LIL DUDE (liebestraum anon sorry not sorry for the long ask again hope u don't mind)

HOW LATE DID YOU STAY UP FOR THIS BC WHEN I WENT TO SLEEP IT WAS 1AM AND THIS WASNT HERE. TT hhhh thank you so much for reading (as always, i really really appreciate it and you as a human being)) AAAH the truth or dare part was what i originally had first written for the whole series,, like months before blondes are done with fun and everything :,)) i had to edit the scene a bit because it didnt fit the vibe that much but you can definitely see it has more of a tense atmosphere bc the fic was originally supposed to be e2l but i changed my mind :p THANK YOU SM AGAIN!!

STOP YOU REALLY COUNTED IT I LOVE YOU AHAHAHAH and you were right *sigh* here is your prize its the only thing i can afford rn BUT THE WAY YOU GOT THE EXACT NUMBER !!!!! ily.

the toilet paper part was inspired by a real thing i heard of but i forget who told it to me HOWEVER i enjoyed adding it to the fic HAHA the bad haircut is gonna be me tomorrow if my hairdresser fucks up my highlights ill just chop it off at the root. HYUCK REALLY DOESNT CARE ABOUT THE PRICE OF GAS LIKE MAN WE ARE FACING INFLATION!!! GET A GRIP. no bc when i typed "hon" i fully took a second, sighed and continued bc i was like oh where did that come from- oh. also i was waiting for you to call me out for it. :,)) SUNWOO DESERVED WHAT I SAID ABOUT HIM ITS WHAT HE GETS FOR ROLEPLAYING ON A LIVESTREAM.

#WILL U STOP SAYING SORRY FOR THE LONG ASK I TEXT U 10 TIMES A DAY #💌ask #feedback !!#fic: dancing in my backseat #liebestraum anon

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northern-passage · 4 years ago

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I don't want to rehash old news, but I need to say this and others need to hear it. I am so tired of people demanding IFs to be more of the same! This and that choices, this and that characters. It is INTERACTIVE FICTION. nowhere does it say that every game is a self-insert (which is an issue on its own). if you're playing a predetermined person who you can guide... It is STILL interactive fiction!! Driving me crazy. and to end it nicely; One of the best IFs ever! Love love love

yeahhh no i totally agree. no shade towards cog here but they have a very basic formula pretty much every one of their very popular games follow and bc cog sort of has this...iron grip on the IF genre due to being so mainstream, like on the app store and on steam, people think this is like.... the end all be all of interactive fiction and people compare Everything to the same three games over and over again.

and it’s not the end all be all at ALL there is SO much more interactive fiction out there. i actually got into IF on itch.io, and in the beginning i only read visual novels because i’m a child and love looking at pretty pictures. i do think the fact that i found IF this way and not through cog has been what’s influenced my style and the way i approach IF. i didn’t start reading cog until last summer, and honestly i prefer most of the wips i’ve read over actual published content. that’s what pushed me to write my own. and it sucks that cog won’t share choicescript bc it’s SUCH a good starting coding language, it’s so accessible and easy to learn.

and i’ve said before i’m just not interested in writing a flat, blank slate character. that’s SO boring for me as a writer and i also don’t like it as a reader.

i think seeing how your decisions change a character is so much more interesting than just having a generic, over-powered, essentially faceless character. now, i DO know why people enjoy that - we all love a good self-insert from time to time - but i really wish readers would break out of this mold cog has made.

itch.io can be a little overwhelming at first, but honestly it has a really nice tag and filter system (which is critical bc itch.io DOES have a lot of nsfw, though i’ve never had any issue w the safe filter on) to find stuff you like. also, if there’s an author you follow who has work on itch.io chances are they have favorites themselves listed on their profile, or will give out recs if you ask. in fact, i’ll list some of my recs right now:

we know the devil - one of the first VNs i bought and read. if you enjoy this one, def check out pillowfight’s other work

lookouts - one of my favorite short pieces.

lake of voices - a lot of people are familiar with Our Life, by GBpatch, but i absolutely love lake of voices. voiced characters, a little bit of angsty romance, death, and horror...mwah

love is strange - a CLASSIC. i played this before i even played life is strange. so imo you don’t even need to be that familiar with the original game it’s based on.

ebon light - i watched this game come to life while i followed the author’s process and saw how much love and time was put into it and i just can’t not recommend it. a dark fantasy game w romance and politics

a mortician’s tale - very different. a game about death. i’m a big fan of the order of the good death, and i actually got this game for free at some point, but it made me feel. emotions.

contrition - this one is so good. put on head phones, turn out the lights. great use of sound and music and just really good atmosphere.

cowgirl boots - love love love this one. more of a narrative than IF but it’s short and you should read it anyways. makes me feel warm and fuzzy.

is it that deep, bro? - another one that stuck with me for a while.

what girls do in the dark - this one takes me back to the old school text adventure games, but with a twist. found this one through john wolfe’s HQ residential house game jam and really enjoyed it.

the shadows that run alongside our car - another short conversational story. stuck with me for a while after i played it.

a tale of crowns - a chapter by chapter tale where you are the long awaited crown. really enjoy this one, very refreshing to read fantasy written like this. love the setting and the characters

crosshollow - multiple games, sort of like an anthology, all sharing the same setting. surreal and emotional

heartforge - some of you may already be familiar with heartforge, having started in choicescript then moved to twine. multiple games, all very different, all very good

the eight years revolution - full transparency, i’m friends with this author and we talk frequently. set over a span of eight years, you are starting out as a sheltered and naive royal, a young monarch running from a rebellion...

wayfarer - a fantasy game where you play as a wayfarer, with lots of customization options and a very interesting story

love & friendship - another author i am friends with and talk with often. love the humor in this game and the take on the regency genre.

scout - one of my all time favorites. set in an apocalyptic future, you are a scout from a small community, frequently running missions for supplies and information..

there’s this girl - whew. a short one, but emotional. this creator has quite a few works on itch.io, though some of them tend to lean towards the heavy, emotional side. recommend though if that’s something you’re looking for.

emily is away - again, one of the first IF games i played. it’s been years but it’s one that stuck with me. i think it’s worth mentioning simply to show what IF games can be like

birdland - genuinely think this is the first IF game i ever played. i have a soft spot for it because of that, as well as the story itself, which meant a lot to me when i first read it.

whew! i am certain i am forgetting some games and will curse myself later, but this is getting to be a bit long. i really encourage yall to just click around on itch.io in the interactive fiction/visual novel tag and see if you can find something you like. there is SO much out there...

#i read a lot of games yall LOL #other games #ask #anonymous

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annathesillyfriend · 3 years ago

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Anna's May Fic Recs Part II

Welcome to my May fic recommendations masterpost (part II)!! Once again I was overwhalmed with how many amazing stories I was able to read the past two weeks. The amount of talented authors on this hellsite is just mindblowing 🤯🤯

To all the writers - I love you and I appreciate you so much! To all the readers - please, share the fics you read and love. The reblog really makes the change! It’s the least we can do to show our gratitude.

MARVEL

✨Steve Rogers✨

Good girl @syntheticavenger

one-shot, 18+, trucker!steve

Underwater by @sweetlyscared

one-shot, 18+, endgame!steve 😠

Recording by @/jurassicbarnes

one-shot, 18+, i think you can guess by the title 😉

Code blue by @bonky-n-steeb

one-shot, 18+, oof 🥵

✨Bucky Barnes✨

Milestone by @itsapeterthing

one-shot, avenger!reader

Say yes by @/itsapeterthing

one-shot, 1940's!bucky x rogers!reader

Night hours by @sinner-as-saint

one-shot, 18+, mob!au

The midnight coconuts by @bitsandbobsandstuff

one-shot, late night grocery runs with buck

Peaches and cream by @river-soul

one-shot, 18+ (no actual smut but a lot of induendos), this is so fun!!

Point of view by @forever-rogue

one-shot, it's just ✨so lovely✨

Play pretend (part 2) by @wkemeup

two-shot, 18+, first part sex pollen, over all mutual pining,

Wine and dine by @witchysoldier

one-shot, 18+, roommate!bucky

Nobody does it like you do by @/ritesofreverie

one-shot, 18+, divorced!dilf!bucky, onlyfans!reader but also neighbour!reader

No other shade of blue by @sventeen-daybreak

one-shot, tfatws!bucky, so much angst but just so beautiful

Take me seaside (for my health) by @/sventeen-daybreak

one-shot, tfatws!bucky, friends to lovers, buck takes care of sick reader

Sweetest downfall by @xbuchananbarnes

one-shot, memory loss, a lot of heartache on my side but so worth it!

Winter and hope by @jobean12-blog

one-shot, this is so sweet you guys 🥺🥺

Moving day by @/jobean12-blog

one-shot, 18+, moving in with buck 😌😌

Language barier by @galaxy-barnes

one-shot from Nothing but trouble universe, 18+, absolutely wonderful OFC

Dreamland by @blissfullybarnes

series, avenger!reader, get your tissues!

Trilogy by @buckycuddlebuddy

series, 18+, fuckboy!bucky, college!au, if you want to have you heart ripped out then this one's for you :')

✨Stucky✨

Turn the light down low by @slyyywriting

one-shot, 18+, bucky x reader x steve, some limousine action 😏

✨Sam Wilson✨

The whole Sammy sunday tag by @ritesofreverie

collection of all thing Sam, each one better than the last

✨Helmut Zemo✨

Twice by @mypoisonedvine

series, 18+, professor!zemo

✨Peter Parker✨

FBI agent by @hollandcrush

one-shot, 18+, onlyfans!reader

Challenge accepted by @stuckonspidey

one-shot, 18+, 🥵

Just friends - collaboration between @emmastarz and @cherrytholland

two-shot (part two in the making), the big three: best friend!peter, friends to lovers, ANGST :)))

✨Joaquin Torres✨

Chasing pavements by @mischiefmanaged71

one-shot, slowburn, stark!reader

Doodles by @anna-phora

one-shot, soulmate!au 🥺🥺

Wrong house, right time by @hairringtonsteve

one-shot, our boy comes to the rescue in the times of trouble

✨Wanda Maximoff✨

Mine by @buckybarnesplumwhore

one-shot, 18+, black!reader, jealous!wanda

HOLLAND & Co.

✨Tom Holland✨

Birthday, interrupted by @worldoftom

one-shot, 18+, uni!tom x uni!reader, oh man, i hope you have the fire house on speed dial bc this is pure 🔥🔥

Hooked on your feelings by @heyhihellowhatsup0

series, 18+, neighbour!tom, friends to lovers, fwb, so much angst *chef's kiss*

A royal convenience by @poetrcy

series, prince!tom x princess!reader, might be my favourite royal!au I've ever read

The way home by @hollandsmoose

one-shot, best friends to lovers

Supercluster by @wizkiddx

one-shot, best friends to lovers

Mornings in Italy by @heavenlyholland

one-shot, morning, Italy and Tom just belong in one sentence 😌

Dirty reflection by @wazzupmrstark

one-shot, 18+, mirror mirror on the wall, who's the naughtiest of them all? (it's y/n and tom)

Who would've thought by @multiholland

one-shot, frat!tom

Crash course by @greenorangevioletgrass

one-shot, 18+, bi!musician!reader, childhood friends to lovers

Stuck with(out) you by @duskholland

one-shot, follow up to Settle, 18+, mob!tom, pregnant!reader, the best mob!au fic ever!!

Long distance by @sunshinehollandd

one-shot, just 🥺🥺

Jinkies (part 2) by @madmadmilk

two-shot, 18+ in part two, this is so wholesome, please just read it

Night changes by @spideyspeaches

one-shot, 18+, fwb, fake dating, all the fun stuff, there's part two in the making!!!

Midnight kisses by @/mcumendes

one-shot, best friends to lovers!!! 😌

✨Harry Holland✨

This fic by @peterplanet

one-shot, 18+, just yes

Cabin fever by @hazofmyheart

one-shot, 18+, friends to lovers 😫😫 so good

Roll with the feeling by @unsaidholland

one-shot, rich kid!harry

✨Harrison Osterfield✨

Fevers and tea by @thegirlintheswivelchair

one-shot, friends to lovers, taking care of sick haz 🥺🥺 so adorable

Between tulips and blue eyes by @mcumendes

one-shot, flower shop!au 🌷🌷

Lucky strike by @soft-haz

one-shot, rich kid!harrison x rich kid!reader

OTHERS

✨Harry Styles✨

Bright and Blooming by @havethetimeofyourstyles

one-shot, 18+, best friends to lovers

✨Ransom Drysdale✨

Pledge Week by @the-iceni-bitch

series, 18+, Ransom and his girl are celebrating his birthday week 🎉

✨Andy Barber✨

Yes, Mrs Barber by @jurassicbarnes

one-shot, 18+, husband!andy

Holly by @uncafeavecbarnes

one-shot, 18+, domestic bliss 😌

Sundress season by @jurassicbarnes

one-shot, 18+, ex!husband andy 🥵

#bucky barnes x reader #steve rogers x reader #sam wilson x reader #joaquin torres x reader #peter parker x reader #tom holland x reader #harrison osterfield x reader #harry holland x reader #andy barber x reader #anna's fic rec #fic recs #may fic recs

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cinnaminsvga · 4 years ago

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Sweeter than Strawberries | Jungkook

→ summary: at euphoria bakery, seasonal changes also bring seasonal menu items. when you find out that your favorite strawberry shortcake milkshake was phased out after the end of summer, it takes only one puppy eyed look from you for jeon jungkook to make it for you anyway—just don’t tell his boss about it, alright?

→ genre: bakery!au, s2l, fluff → warnings: none unless you count the fact that i’m writing shy!jungkook again :^D, we love mutual pining in this house ex dee → words: 4.5K → a/n: this was commissioned by @ihatemathanal!! i was super stoked to write this bc it’s really cute and sometimes it’s nice to just write happy fluffy things every once in a while (aka zee is turning into a fluff writer jfc) it got a lil longer than it was supposed to, but that’s bc i got carried away lol anyway i hope you guys enjoy!! (ps: this also works for the bgw bingo so... tyg for s2l fics!! let’s get it!!)

For the most part, the beginning of autumn is usually your favorite time of the year. When the tree leaves begin to yellow and the air gains a significantly colder bite, this signifies the end of pit stains and sweaty thighs and the start of sweater paws and chapped lips. Above all, you are most excited, of course, for an excuse to gorge yourself on steaming mugs of hot chocolate, paired with delicious mountains of warm gooey brownies.

For the most part, these are all things that often get you excited for the coming chill. What you do not think to remember, however, is that while these seasonal changes bring more good than bad, there still remains a little snag: a small oversight, if you will. As businesses all over the world begin the annual transition to the colder months, so does your favorite bakery across the street from your university. After all, summer ingredients grow scarcer as the year nears its end, so it’s understandable for bakeries to switch up their menu to keep up with both the supply and demand.

What does any of this have to do with anything? Well, long story short—

Your favorite strawberry shortcake milkshake is about to get phased out. No, scratch that—it’s already been phased out, right from under your very nose, no less!

You shouldn’t have been surprised, really. You have always known it was a specialty drink; your best friend had even been the one to introduce it to you just near the end of your summer classes:

“This is Euphoria Bakery,” Namjoon had said with a smile, waving cheerily at the two boys manning the till. You heard him chuckle in amusement when your eyes nearly popped out of their sockets, staring longingly at the sweet treats and baked goods lining the display case.

Namjoon had stolen your attention away, however, when he pointed to the chalkboard menu on the wall. As it turned out, the bakery also doubled as a cafe, serving the usual coffees and teas while also making the occasional specialty drink for different seasons or holidays. The chalkboard was decorated beautifully, the menu items written out in neat cursive with tiny little doodles littering its margins. On one of the boards, there was a new drink item being advertised in bold pink letters—a great summer treat!—or so it said.

“Jungkook-ssi, can you get me and Y/N a strawberry shortcake milkshake? Extra whipped cream for me, please!” Namjoon called out to one of the boys, startling the younger of the two. The boy, Jungkook, must have been busy fiddling with the cash register that he hadn’t noticed your arrival.

“N-Namjoon-hyung? Sorry, I was just busy counting the money—” Jungkook stopped short in his speech, his tongue getting caught in his mouth when his eyes landed directly on you. He had made a strangled sound, like he had swallowed his spit too quickly and was struggling to regain his composure. “H-Hello?”

You realized belatedly that he must have been greeting you, as you had been distracted by his fidgetiness. His nervousness was cute, if a little bit contagious; you couldn’t help feeling anxious too, like your heart was missing every other beat, even though you had no reason to be. “Hello! My name is Y/N. It’s my first time coming here, but Namjoon says your new summer menu item is really good? I wanted to try it out for myself.”

Jungkook nodded, still staring wide-eyed at you as if in a trance. You expected him to start... well. You weren’t an expert on how bakeries or cafes are run, but you were pretty sure he should’ve started doing something after you had spoken, perhaps ring up your order on the register, or start working on your drinks. Instead, he’s still frozen in place, like he’d somehow short-circuited within the last two minutes.

It seemed you weren’t the only one who noticed his odd behavior because the man working with him suddenly pushed Jungkook to the side, a brief smirk flashing across his face before it was quickly replaced by a more subdued, professional smile.

“Sorry about him. He’s usually my best baker, but sometimes he can get a little... distracted when he’s confronted with sweet things,” the man said nonchalantly, but it seemed that his innocent-sounding comment had embarrassed Jungkook greatly.

“Jimin-hyung!” Jungkook whined, stomping his foot not unlike a bunny. If you squinted a little bit, you could definitely see the resemblance.

Namjoon, who had been quietly watching everything unfold, chose that moment to pipe up. “Oh, I see. I didn’t know you had a type, but after thinking about it—” Namjoon shot a surreptitious glance at you, before turning back to Jungkook with a teasing grin, “—I can definitely see why.”

At the time, you had no idea what was going on, mostly confused as to why Jungkook had suddenly become so red-faced while Namjoon and Jimin giggled like a couple of high school girls. It seemed like you were somehow the main reason for his embarrassment, so you were quick to poke Namjoon in the stomach, effectively silencing him.

“Hey! Stop teasing the poor boy. He’s just being nice,” you said, pointing a soft smile back at Jungkook. “Sorry about him. I’m sure you’re an excellent baker, judging from how wonderful and cute all these cakes on the display look.” Somehow, your praise had only made Jungkook’s cheeks brighten even further. He cleared his throat as if to say something in response, before changing his mind and scuttling away to the back room instead.

“I’m going to start making your milkshake! D-don’t mind me!” He called out from behind the door, causing Jimin to finally break down into raucous giggles, nearly doubling over from his own mirth.

“Aish, that kid. He never learns, huh…” Jimin sighed, but the smile on his face is kind—the sort of fond look an older brother might have for his kid brother. He turned back to you and Namjoon with that lingering softness as he rang the two of you up, before chatting idly with you as you waited for Jungkook to finish making your drinks.

“I’ve never seen you around, Y/N-ssi. Jungkook—sorry, I meant I definitely would’ve noticed you if I did. You go to the same university as Namjoon-ssi, right?” Jimin asked, flipping a pen between his fingers with incredible dexterity. You were slightly distracted by that, faintly jealous of how his short fingers could somehow manage such a feat.

“I—yeah, I do. I’m assuming you’re also a student?”

“Yep. I actually met Namjoon-ssi when we took that one music theory class together. I was handing out flyers for this bakery after class and he happened to be one of the first people to actually come,” he said, winking at Namjoon. You watched with much interest when your friend turned a faint shade of pink, his hand coming up behind his neck—a signature tick of his whenever he was feeling shy or nervous.

“I-It was nothing… I mean, your seasonal drinks are always so good! I remember your old snowman-shaped donuts with the raspberry filling? I still dream of it sometimes,” Namjoon sighed, eyes going glassy for a moment.

Jimin laughed, his eyes crinkling into cute little crescents. “Oh, stop it! I remember how you’d come here even after we stopped serving that donut and you’d beg us to make them again.”

“And yet you never did, even though I know you have the ingredients to make them,” Namjoon pouted, but there’s endearment dancing in his expression.

You chuckled, shaking your head in disbelief. “I never pegged Namjoon as a sweet-tooth guy, so this is honestly all a very big surprise to me. I should be pumped for this milkshake then, huh? Hopefully, you aren’t just hyping it up and I’ll end up disappointed.”

Before either Namjoon or Jimin could retort, Jungkook had reappeared from the back room with two large cups in hand, almost tripping over his untied apron string but managing to get to the counter in one piece.

“Here you go. I hope you won’t be disappointed when you try it,” he said, gaze averted downwards when he hands you your cup. Your fingers grazed each other for a second, nearly causing both of you to drop the drink like it was on fire.

“S-sorry,” you laughed it off, feeling your ears get a little red from your blunder. You pointedly ignored Namjoon’s arched brow, no doubt enjoying your sudden shyness. Without waiting for him to get his own cup, you casually tear off the straw wrapper and take your first sip of the drink.

“So?” Jungkook asked after a while, watching with bated breath as you take a good gulp of the milkshake. “How is it? Is it worth the hype?” You don’t speak for a moment, further aggravating the two bakers as you carefully chewed on the bits of strawberry in the drink.

“This—” you said, speaking slowly for increased dramatic effect. You could hear Namjoon groan beside you, used to your need for unnecessary anticipation. Even as you paused for a moment longer, you could already feel the smile creeping up your face, unable to completely hide your giddiness. “—is fantastic. Show-stopping. Best thing since sliced bread! I could live on this shit alone.”

Jungkook released a breath he didn’t know he had been holding, chuckling in relief as you began to completely devour the treat in mere minutes. “I’m… really glad you like it,” he said with a wide, toothy grin. You were so immersed in your drink that you missed the way he sighed softly, hand gently cradling his chest where his heart would be.

Namjoon had taken his own sip as well, sighing dreamily as the creamy and sweet flavor overtook his palate. “Truly the best drink in existence. If I was a Twitch streamer or some shit, I’d promote this regularly for free.”

His comment made Jimin giggle softly, but his gaze is trained on something else entirely. “I’m flattered, but maybe don’t promote Y/N’s cup, over here. We don’t typically have strawberries and hearts doodled all over our cups,” he said, smirking slyly.

Lo and behold, your cup did have small doodles littering its sides whereas Namjoon’s was just a plain white paper cup. “Oh,” you said, blushing furiously when you finally noticed. Your flush was nothing compared to the one on Jungkook’s cheeks, however. The two of you refused to make eye contact after that, both of you trying (and failing) to silence the amused snickers of your respective friends.

Despite that slightly embarrassing (and heartwarming) experience, that had marked the start of your love for the tiny bakery and their special strawberry shortcake milkshake. You returned to Euphoria Bakery as often as you could throughout the summer, even going to visit it without Namjoon most of the time. You would even occasionally go out of your way to visit the bakery, even after your summer classes had ended and there was really no reason for you to be around the area.

It also didn’t hurt that the boy behind the counter was especially cute, with his big doe eyes and melodic laughter that always got your heart beating erratically in your chest. It hadn’t taken long for you to admit to yourself that you had a not-so-tiny crush and every visit to the bakery only made you fall deeper for him.

Namjoon has assured you that Jungkook clearly has a crush on you too, but you’re quick to shut him down. It is one thing to be shy and awkward around a girl and another to have a crush on the aforementioned girl. As you visited the bakery more and more, you do notice that Jungkook is more reserved when it comes to other female clientele, although, dare you hope? He does seem a little bit more… nervous, when he talks to you, but that could be your lovesick eyes playing tricks on you.

Never mind the fact that he only ever seems to leave cute doodles on your cups alone, but that could just be a coincidence, right? After all, he can hardly hold a conversation with you when you try to speak with him, always eager to rush to the backroom to make your drink.

Your visits usually consist of making idle chit chat with Jimin after greeting both him and Jungkook. The younger boy often dips the moment he sees you through the glass door, automatically going to prepare your favorite summer treat without even having to ask for your order. He never stays to stick around long enough to make conversation, as he eventually excuses himself to do some chore or another. During one of your trips, you tentatively asked Jimin if Jungkook was avoiding you, to which the blonde boy just laughed heartily at your query.

“Don’t worry about it, Y/N. He’ll come around eventually; he’s just nervous. Don’t tell him I told you this, but…” he trails off, peeking over his shoulder to make sure Jungkook wouldn’t accidentally overhear him. When he turns back to you, the smirk on his face is equal parts amused and mischievous. He looks a little impish, though you aren’t sure if he’d take that too kindly. “Jungkook always stares out the door, waiting for you to arrive. I’ve caught him red-handed far too many times for it to be a coincidence.”

Your cheeks flush warmly at his words but don’t say anything after that. You suppose all you can do is wait for him to start warming up to you eventually, and you hope the day comes sooner as the summer days grow shorter and shorter.

Of course, that day does come eventually, but probably not on the day you wished it would happen.

Like all good things, summer comes to its close and so does the summer menu options offered at Euphoria Bakery. Jimin had already told you a week beforehand that your favorite strawberry shortcake milkshake would get phased out as soon as July hit, but you refused to listen. You had hoped that as his regular customer and friend, perhaps Jimin would make an exception and prolong the milkshake’s lifetime for your sake, but it seems that Jimin has made it clear that friendship and business are two separate entities that he will not allow to coincide.

“Please Jimin? Just one more time? I’ll even settle for a small size,” you beg, your entire body draped over the cashier counter like the pathetic plebeian that you are. Thankfully, since you have made it a habit to pass by the bakery when it’s close to closing time, there aren’t any other patrons left to judge your pitiful display. Unthankfully, that also means Jimin is free to flick you on the forehead with no holds barred, leaving a large red welt where his finger hits.

“I already told you that I won’t budge, not even if you licked my Balenciagas. Besides, we’re out of strawberries anyway.” Jimin huffs, rolling his eyes at your pained whines as you grasp your head in agony. “Oh stop it, will you? I didn’t even hit you that hard.”

“I beg to differ, hyung.” Jungkook pipes up, startling both you and Jimin. Jungkook is usually content to wiping down the glass displays or tables while he passively listens to the two of you bicker, humming occasionally to indicate that he’s still listening, so it comes as a small surprise whenever he does decide to speak up. He must have noticed this too, as his ears quickly begin to redden as he scrambles to finish his sentence. “I-I mean, hyung might have small hands, but his finger flicks are no joke. You could break someone’s skull with that thing.”

“Who are you calling small, huh?” Jimin growls, but the playful smirk on his face tells you that he’s just teasing. He pulls Jungkook in a headlock, who surprisingly doesn’t seem all that bothered by the fact that Jimin is actively trying to block his windpipe with his strong forearms. “Take it back!”

“Never,” Jungkook wheezes, effortlessly removing himself from Jimin’s grip. He dusts himself off, not even breathless. “Also, why’d you lie to Y/N like that? We still have strawberries in the back. How else would we make our strawberry jam tarts?”

Jimin squawks indignantly, folding his arms. “How dare you sell out our company secrets! I could fire you for that!”

Jungkook scoffs, bumping Jimin with his hip. Jungkook must also not know his own strength, because he accidentally causes Jimin to stumble a few steps back, nearly toppling over one of their bread racks. “You’re joking. If you fired me, no one would be able to make the bagels in the morning because you never know how to proof them correctly.”

“Slander!” Jimin hisses, pinching Jungkook’s side in retaliation. You and Jungkook laugh at his childish pouts, but the older boy can’t hide his own mirth for too long. “Fine. You can stay. But you,” he points at you this time, eyes narrowing with suspicion. “You better not seduce my boy over here to make your strawberry shortcake milkshake. I have eyes and ears everywhere.” He drags his finger to the corner of the walls, where there is—

“There’s nothing there?” You follow where he’s pointing, but all you can see is a stray cobweb that Jungkook must have missed while dusting this morning. “Am I supposed to be looking at something?”

“Jimin is thinking of installing surveillance cameras soon. He’s convinced that someone is trying to steal his banana cream pie recipe.” Jungkook shrugs. He slings an arm around Jimin’s shoulder, glaringly delighted when their height difference becomes even more apparent while he stands close to him. “Anyway, I promise I won’t get ‘seduced’ by her, or whatever you want to call it. Why don’t you head home early for tonight? I’ll close up and I’ll try to convince Y/N to try our other pastries as a replacement.”

You open your mouth to try and protest, but Jungkook sends you a cheeky wink, making sure that his boss doesn’t catch him in the act. Bemused but interested to see what he’s up to, you decide to keep quiet and wait for him to continue.

“Don’t try and think you’re being slick here, buddy,” Jimin says, closing in on Jungkook’s personal space by pressing his chest against his. “If I see that you break the bakery code and serve her that drink… There will be consequences.”

Jungkook rolls his eyes, sighing dramatically as he gently pries the smaller man away from him. “Yeah, yeah. I got you. No funny business, I promise. Now get out of here, hyung. Leave the rest to me.”

Jimin gives him one last firm look before squinting warily at you, lips pursed tightly. “No seducing,” he repeats, wagging his finger at you. He unties the apron around his neck, throwing it haphazardly at the coat hanger on the back door where his jacket was hanging. He folds it over his arm and points at the corner of the ceiling with his free hand once more before exiting through the front entrance, the soft bells hanging above the doorway tinkling in his wake.

When he’s gone, you release a breath that you hadn’t realized you had been holding. “Well, that was easier than expected. I didn’t think you’d be able to get him to leave. He must trust you a lot, huh?”

Jungkook shrugs. “Nah. He’s just lazy. He hates closing the bakery and will jump at any opportunity to go home early.”

You nod. “Seems like him.” There’s a beat of silence. “So… How much seducing am I gonna have to do to get my milkshake, huh?”

Like you guessed, Jungkook immediately turns red at your words, spluttering and stammering over his spit for a few seconds before managing to come up with a reply. “O-oh, there’s no need for that. I was gonna make the drink for you anyway.”

“But what about the quote-unquote consequences?” you ask, still worried that you might be getting Jungkook in trouble. You’d rather have your arm cut off than have him get punished, no matter how small it might be.

“No need to worry about that. Jimin might pretend to be a prickly old man sometimes, but he’s mostly just full of hot air,” Jungkook snorts, shaking his head in amusement. “He’ll just make me treat him to some skewers or something. He’s just teasing.”

“If… If you say so? I just really don’t want him to get angry with you…” you say, voice turning small as you tried to reign your embarrassment in. “I know I made a fool of myself just moments ago and begged like a baby for the milkshake, but I was just exaggerating…”

“Something tells me that you aren’t, but let’s pretend for your sake that you are,” Jungkook says. You huff indignantly at his teasing, but you’re more overjoyed by the sight of his cute bunny smile. You had only seen it in passing a few times in the past, but seeing it directed at you is an entirely different experience. Because of you, your mind helpfully supplies.

He heads over to the backroom to begin preparing your drink, but he keeps the door open this time so you can see him even from behind the counter. You can mostly only see the large industrial ovens and bread racks filled to the brim with all sorts of pastries proofing for the night, but you do catch a glimpse of the sole blender near the back. Jungkook grabs the glass jar first and then walks over to the fridge just out of your sight, most likely to grab the ingredients needed for your milkshake.

The bakery is mostly silent, save for the sound of Jungkook moving and assembling everything. You rack your brain for some sort of conversation starter, as the atmosphere between the two of you has begun to return to its usual awkward state as you skirt around each other, unsure of where either of you stands. You might have known him for a while now, but today is the most you’ve ever spoken to him and the tension is palpable.

“So.” You clear your throat, heart beating a mile a minute in your chest. “I… guess this is going to be the last time I have this drink, huh?”

The sound of Jungkook chopping on the cutting board pauses for a second. You can only see his left shoulder from where you’re standing, but you can see it tense even then. “I… I mean, will you stop coming over to the bakery if it is the last time?”

There are so many things you want to say all at once, but the words somehow get caught in your throat. You want to say that you love coming to the bakery to see them (though it’s mostly Jungkook if you’re being honest) and that the strawberry shortcake milkshake had just been an excuse to visit for a while now. You want to keep visiting for as long as they’ll have you—but you don’t know how to say it without hot humiliation running down your spine. You don’t want to weird him out by confessing to him all of a sudden. And so, you clam up, not knowing how to respond.

When Jungkook throws in all the ingredients in the blender, he doesn’t turn it on immediately. He tilts his head to the side, not fully looking at you but giving you a view of his beautiful side profile. You see his Adam’s apple bob for a moment, his tongue poking out to wet his lips before he speaks. “Because… If that’s how it’s going to be, then maybe… buying a couple of skewers for Jimin won’t be so bad.”

You freeze. “What? Are you saying that...”

“I’ll keep making the drink for you, even if it’s not on the menu anymore?” Jungkook finishes, turning fully to face you. There’s a shy grin on his face, coupled with the ever-present pink flush high on his cheekbones. “Yes, that’s exactly what I’m saying. We’ll have to be sneaky about it, though. You’ll have to come to the bakery only when I’m closing so that he doesn’t catch us but otherwise…” He scratches the tip of his nose, looking embarrassed. “If… If you’re fine doing that, I mean.”

It feels like an eternity before you can remember how to function like a regular human being again. Your insides feel like molten lava and you’re certain that your internal organs have begun to self-destruct right after that super-effective hit from Jeon Jungkook, super baker boy extraordinaire. It’s mind-blowing how effortlessly cute he can be, making you realize belatedly that his quiet demeanor over the past few weeks had been a blessing and not a curse. If he had been this sweet with you from the get-go, you’d surely be melted butter on a sidewalk by now.

“I would love you—I mean, I would love it if you did that for me, actually.” You stammer, resisting the urge to punch yourself in the tit. You’re thankful for the lack of mirrors at the bakery, for you are positive that you must look like the devil’s blazing red testicles at this point.

“Great,” Jungkook smiles softly. He turns the blender off, pouring your drink into a paper cup. “Oh, before I forget…” He grabs a marker from the small tin can near the cash register, and you watch as he quickly scribbles a few hearts around the circumference of the cup. “There we go. Now it’s done.”

As Jungkook hands your drink to you, you’re hit with a moment of déjà vu when your fingers brush just like the first time you had met. You sense the same familiar shock of electricity when you touch, but instead of pulling away like before, Jungkook surprises you for the third time that day.

When he’s sure that you have a secure grip on your cup, he grabs your free hand with his, unfurling your fingers until he can get a hold of your pinky. He curls his pinky into yours, linking them together with a bashful smile on his lips. “There. Now we pinky promised to each other.”

“Y-yes. Of course,” you mumble, giggling lightly when he still refuses to let go. “I pinky promise.”

Five minutes away from Euphoria Bakery, Jimin sits quietly in his parked car, his figure hunched over the small screen of his phone as he chuckles loudly to himself. There is a tiny video of two people, a boy and a girl, with their hands held together. Despite the quality being grainy and warped, Jimin needs no confirmation as to who those people are; he’s always known, after all.

“All according to keikaku.” He whistles happily, already salivating at the thought of all the skewers Jungkook will have to buy for him.

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