#also I just now searched the lyrics and I love this even more now bc I never quite understood what happens to the neck

[buttercupshands]

Hands (hands!) of time will wring my neck Every little moment spells regret But I don't have to feel this way As a voice inside my head

now going to the practice level after a small warm up

[radio-4-is-static]

毎日 | Kenshi Yonezu

あなただけ側���いてレイディー 焦げるまで組み合ってグルービー 日々共に生き尽くすには また永遠も半ばを過ぎるのに 駆けるだけ駆け出してブリージング 少しだけ祈ろうぜベイビー 転がるほどに願うなら 七色の魔法も使えるのに

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Lady, just stay by my side Combine until we burn, groovy To live through each day together Even halfway through eternity Just keep running and breezing, baby Let's pray a little, baby If we wish enough as we roll We can even use a seven-colored magic

[sunsetsentiments]

okay so i love you i'm sorry by gracie abrams is totally about jason and piper from piper's pov. HERE'S WHY,, it's a long one lol

"I told the truth, oh, but you didn't like it, you went home." // "That's just the way life goes, I like to slam doors closed. Trust me, I know it's always about me."

piper is the one who broke up with jason,, and from the burning maze, we know she saw it as an inevitable event. internally, she has been struggling with figuring out who she is outside the perils of demigod life,, and if she's living the life she wants or the one hera/aphrodite wanted for her. basically, she's dealing with the confusion and exhaustion as a result of all the life-changing events of hoo.

while i have comments about the way rick wrote and explained this break-up (again,, topic for another day),, it's clear that piper needed time away from everything to deal with her turmoil, and it's this that drives her to end things with jason. she needed to search for clarity, and she couldn't with him around when his presence in her life only added to her confusion. so she slammed the door closed and thought that it was for the best, and i can imagine jason responding as maturely as he could while still showing signs of heartbreak. all piper could do was let it happen.

"Thankful you don't send someone to kill me."

piper being absolutely relieved and guilty about the way jason responded to her decision 😭

"Two summers from now, we'll have been talking, but not all that often, we're cool now." // "Wistfully lean out my window and watch the sun set on the lake. I might not feel real, but it's okay."

these lyrics capture the kind of relationship piper and jason had - because romantic drama aside,, piper considers him to be her best friend ("more than annabeth"), and even when they were on shaky terms,, they were still able to communicate and understand each other well as noted by apollo. so yeah,, they'd definitely continue being friends even after a break-up. and it's nice and weird and comforting all at once. because the old piper wouldn't have expected things to happen this way,, but the present piper is glad that they can still be in each other's lives.

if only they had enough time to work things out though. because here comes the tragic part 😭

"You were the best but you were the worst, as sick as it sounds, I loved you first. I was a dick, it is what it is, a habit to kick, the age-old curse."

no bc in my head,, this whole bridge is piper's thought process as she deals with losing jason post-burning maze.

he was the best - literally, not only one of the most powerful and reliable demigods, but also the most supportive boyfriend she could ask for - but also the worst,, bc sometimes she felt like she didn't know him,, sometimes he was distant and too inside his own head,, sometimes she wasn't sure if they were meant to be together or not,, and that uncertainty and doubt nagged at her, and it's exactly why she breaks up with him later. but was it really the right decision, or did she let her insecurities control her? and if the latter was true,, then she broke both of their hearts for nothing,, which ultimately led to their strained relationship, and they would neve have full closure bc of what caligula did.

in piper's head,, she might start to think that she made a mess that didn't have to happen,, and the crazy part is she let it happen even though she was the one who loved him and had feelings for him first,, whether they started as an illusion or not.

so how could she possibly let all this happen? we know piper has struggled with a low self esteem since before, and she might look back to past actions that were rash in retrospect,, like stealing cars to get her father's attention. so piper might mistakenly spiral into thinking that everything is her fault bc she was lacking as a person,, and that bc she didn't beat her age-old habits, they haunted her like a curse.

"I tend to laugh whenever I'm sad, I stare at the crash, it actually works. Making amends, this shit never ends, I'm wrong again, wrong again."

piper tried to accept the break-up and losing jason as best as she could. she tried to play down the emotional weight of the break-up in the burning maze bc she felt as though she thought it through,, and at the end of toa, she's obviously trying to move on. these methods seem to work for her on the outside,, but that doesn't mean the grief and confusion has gone away.

the pain and the memories might keep coming back,, and piper might have to grapple with the possibility that she was wrong this whole time, again leading her to believe it was all her fault. in short,, she's confused and devasted and has no idea what the truth is anymore (which is why a book fleshing out her and leo's grief would be SO good).

"I wanna speak in code, hope that I don't, won't make it about me." // "I love you, I'm sorry."

the last chorus of the song beautifully reflects piper's confusion and longing, wishing that maybe she did things a little differently, wishing that maybe she and jason had a different ending.

but the thing is, in spite of all that happened and the confusion she's facing now,, the one thing that never changed was that she loved him, and it's both because of this and in spite of this that she did what she had done, and why she's feeling all these mixed emotions now.

"i love you, i'm sorry" is so powerful coming from piper considering the first time she told him 'i love you' in mark of athena,, and also bc of the whole i'm sorry part. she's sorry about breaking his heart. sorry if she ever made him doubt himself, if he was good enough, if it was his fault. sorry about never properly reconciling. sorry about not being enough to save him. sorry about being unable to say goodbye. sorry about never seeing him one last time.

[n33dlew0rk]

Only Love

rated G | 1052 words | cw: very much anachronistic lol, also changed lyrics bc gender is silly | tags: post-canon, everybody lives, pre-steddie, no beta we die like sleep-deprived dysfunctional adults 

for @steddie-week prompt 'trade' (day 4)

A few months after his slow recovery allowed him to start playing again, Eddie found himself improvising as a guitar teacher for one Steve Harrington: PTSD buddy, appointed saviour, babysitter extraordinaire, former King, currently Eddie’s biggest crush to date.

It started suddenly mid-autumn, after the third movie night in a row the two of them shared at the Munson’s new trailer and umpteenth time he found Steve’s fingers tracing the frets of his acoustic guitar.

“She doesn’t bite, y’know?” Eddie said with half a smile. 

The reverence with which Steve usually stared both at the instrument or at Eddie himself when he was practising, was one he could only translate as belonging to someone who’s been denied the exploration of whatever hobby was not deemed sufficiently dignified by an uptight parent.

That, or Steve was acting like a teenage girl crushing on a rockstar and Eddie really didn’t think this was the case.

Steve blushed, like a kid caught in the act. 

Eddie chuckled, put a hand on the other man’s shoulder and gently squeezed it. If the contact lasted one little second too much to be completely platonic, that’s none of your business.

“Come on then, take her down”, he smiled. Steve’s eyes widened like the proposition was the most absurd thing ever to leave Eddie’s mouth.

When Eddie’s eyebrows flew to the ceiling trying to emphasize his invitation, Steve finally mustered the courage to grab the guitar’s body, slowly lifting it up from its support on the wall.

He was a surprisingly fast learner. His big and already calloused hands were excellent for the more complicated chords. He had a good ear and wasn’t particularly fond of music theory, something Eddie’s chaotic study path could very well relate to.

Weeks passed and Steve slowly started taking the guitar home with him. At first only when Eddie didn't have time for a lesson or when Corroded Coffin was rehearsing. But gradually the instrument was practically fused to Steve’s shoulder wherever he went, like a little bird leaving the nest to find its way in life.

Sometimes Eddie put his fingers on top of Steve’s to suggest a better position or correct a chord and Steve would look frustrated. Or flustered, maybe? Maybe both. Eddie kept reassuring him every time, guiding the other’s hands gently, telling him he was doing an amazing job.

By the spring of ‘87, Steve was able to play about ten covers with ease and even a few duets with Eddie when he felt bold (which, granted, wasn’t that often).

After a particularly hot summer afternoon spent poolside at Steve’s, Eddie was strumming on his unofficially ex-acoustic guitar and watching the sun set slowly. 

“I should probably buy one of my own”, Steve said, mortified, walking towards him with two cold beers in hand.

“Nah”, smiled Eddie. “I miss her, but I can feel she chose you”, he chuckled. “Plus, I’m happy you’re keeping her, makes me feel like I did something good honestly”.

Steve gave him a tentative smile, his gaze shifting from the guitar, to Eddie’s eyes, then roaming on his face, to his hand on the neck of the instrument and, finally, to the floor.

“You did.” He sounded sincere, grateful. After a beat, he straightened up, but he was still not looking at the metalhead. “What if I trade you something for her?” Steve managed to say in a small voice. 

Eddie cocked his head, now curious. “Well now, Stevie, she’s royalty this one, you know?”. His hand slowly caressed the warm wood of the guitar affectionately. Then he lifted his gaze to search Steve’s. “I’ll need something valuable in exchange”, he smirked.

Steve looked at him, blushed suddenly and just nodded, his expression shifting to one of absolute focus. He extended one arm, gesturing Eddie to pass him the guitar and sat down beside him, leaving the beer bottles aside, his legs reaching the clear water of the pool below. 

A thousand thoughts crossed Eddie’s mind. It wouldn’t have been the first time Steve played him something, but he looked nervous. So Eddie bit his tongue, kept the teasing for himself and smiled encouraging at the other man.

The backyard was quiet around them as Steve murmured something under his breath and positioned his hands on the guitar. He took two deep breaths and then he started playing.

He plucked the strings intently, creating a pretty upbeat melody.

Eddie felt pride rushing through him. Steve was good. He learnt a lot in the past year, practised in every free moment he got and this was the product of his hard work.

It wasn’t, however until Steve started singing that Eddie actually listened.

Steve’s voice was soft, shy, a bit unsure. Eddie didn’t know the song, so he figured it must be something either original or too hit-pop for him to recognise. 

Darling, you're with me, always around me Only love, my only love Darling, I feel you under my body Only love, my only love

Something in the way Steve immersed himself in the music, told Eddie that this was something really important for him, personal.

Give me shelter, or show me heart Come on, love, come on, love Watch me fall apart, watch me fall apart…

A love ballad then, uh? Eddie felt a pang in his stomach but ignored it. It’s not like he could ever be on the receiving end of words like these. 

Steve gained confidence by playing and lifted his gaze to meet Eddie’s, now singing directly to him.

And I'll be yours to keep A wind in the shadows, whale song in the deep A wind in the shadows, whale song in the deep

The piece was simple and went on a few more times between gentle notes and the lyrics. Steve adjusted himself while transitioning to the closing bridge of the song and for a moment there, lost between Steve’s words and the honey of his eyes, Eddie forgot how to breathe.

Only love, love, love Only love, love, love Only love, love, love Boy, show me heart

Come on love, love, love Come on love, love, love Come on love, love, love Watch me fall apart

Come on love, love, love Come on love, love, love Come on love, love, love Boy, show me heart

[daisyswift3]

You’re Losing Me Analysis

I wanted to do a short analysis on You’re Losing Me. My first impression of this song is that it’s another breakup song addressed to her fans in allegorical form like high infidelity (see this post). There are multiple lyrics that substantiate this interpretation. It’s horribly ironic that swifties think this is a song abt Joe when it’s really abt them and their refusal to SEE her. I’m more certain than ever now that the eras tour is a goodbye to her fans before she comes out

You say “I don’t understand” and I say “I know you don’t” // This is reminiscent of the bridge of Dear Reader. These desperate prayers of a cursed man spilling out to you for free but darling, darling, please, you wouldn't take my word for it if you knew who was talking. There is a communication issue between her and her fans. Her fans don’t know who she really is and are gonna be really confused when she comes out bc they thought they knew her

We thought a cure would come through in time…Now I just sit in the dark and wonder if it’s time // This parallels the archer. Should she stay in her dark closet or step into the daylight? Dark side, I search for your dark side. But what if I'm alright, right, right, right here? Also the mention of time makes me think of “meet me at midnight” and all the clock/time imagery she’s been using lately alluding to a countdown. Spring breaks loose, the time is near / Are we only biding time 'til I lose your attention? Her Cinderella facade is abt to expire at midnight

The heartbeat is an obvious callback to wildest dreams which she includes twice in the setlist, once in the 1989 era and once in the seven spoken word poem which again makes use of this Cinderella metaphor. This poem essentially tells her fans “You can cling onto this idealized version of me in my Cinderella dress or you can meet the real me at midnight”

Do I throw out everything we built or keep it? // Again the archer. Should she come out and potentially ruin her career and her relationship w her fans or stay in the closet? She chose the first option and burned the lover house down. Dear reader burn all the files, desert all your past lives / He's gonna burn this house to the ground…So yeah it’s a fire it’s a goddamn blaze in the dark / 'Cause there were pages turned with the bridges burned. Everything you lose is a step you take. So make the friendship bracelets, take the moment and taste it. You've got no reason to be afraid

You might have just dealt the final blow // Don’t Blame Me transitioning into LWYMMD. Her singing “The old Taylor can’t come to the phone right now. Why? Because she’s dead” while all the glass closets keeping her past selves trapped shatter and they walk out finally freed. The Anti Hero mv where her daughter in law (representing the hardcore swifties) is the person that kills her and the younger son (gaylors) points this out which enrages her and sparks a brawl. Happiness, which includes a reference to the Cinderella/midnight metaphor, being a eulogy to the old Taylor and her relationship w her fans—“dappled with the flickers of light from the dress I wore at midnight, leave it all behind”

These lyrics make it pretty clear who she’s talking to imo. How can you say that you love someone you can’t tell is dying? I sent you signals // Sending signals to be double crossed / You didn’t even hear me out, I gave so many signs so many times

Now you’re running down the hallway // Dear reader, get out your map, pick somewhere and just run

I gave you all my best me’s, my endless empathy // After giving you the best I had, tell me what to give after that

Fighting in only your army, frontlines // Combat, I’m ready for combat / So yeah it’s a war, it’s the goddamn fight of my life

A pathological people pleaser who only wanted you to see her // All of mirrorball and Nothing New. The Dear Reader bridge. They see right through me. Can you see right through me? The delicate mv. Giant Taylor begging the audience to see her in the eras tour Anti Hero performance and storming off after being ignored

Gif courtesy of @iwanthermidnightz

Lastly this track follows Dear Reader and when read together it sounds like she’s telling her fans goodbye

[happyhuffles]

Angel - 01

Pairing: Idol!Hyunjin x Musician!oc (also minsung too bc I love them).

Genre: fluff, fluff, and more fluff, (ofc there's angst too 🫣), eventual smut?? Idk let me know if you guys want that.

Synopsis: Two strangers with the same love for the city and songwriting meet under the stars in Chicago. They fall in love, quick and easy. But, there's a problem. They are both keeping a big secret from each other.

Warnings: none in this part :)

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A city never really sleeps. That's something that Hyunjin learned quickly while living in the heart of Seoul. 

Lights are always flashing, people always roaming, eyes always starring. There are no breaks for people in the city. Especially for people like Hyunjin who are recognized by every face in the country. 

In 2018 when he debuted with Stray Kids he was high on life. All of his hard work had finally paid off and he got to be rewarded in the best way alongside all of his best friends. Nothing in the world could have compared. 

Seven years ago when Hyunjin debuted he was so grateful for the opportunity that he didn't notice how largely his life was changing at first. It wasn't until he had to start abandoning places like his favorite cafe that he realized what it meant to be famous. 

Hyunjin could no longer roam around his city as he had before. He couldn't even visit the cafe he felt like he'd spent half of his childhood sitting in. His love for the city turned cold. In place of it was a longing to be ordinary once again. Ordinary so he could enjoy Seoul as he had before. 

But, that wasn't possible. At least not in Seoul. 

After the release of Hop and a few performances for Stay, Stray Kids was officially on a two week break. As soon as it was announced Hyunjin had bought a plane ticket to the earliest flight he could find. He needed to escape this city and tame the ache in his heart with another. 

Thats where Chicago came in. The city that he stood in now. 

It was well into the night asnHyunjin wandered the half-empty and glowing streets with a sense of contentment he hadn't felt in a while. No one had bothered him yet and he was able to enjoy Chicago just like any ordinary person could. 

When the plane had landed the first thing he did was find a cafe. It was ten o'clock yet it had to be meant to be that he stumbled upon one of the only shops still open in the city. Dollop Coffee was his savior. The little cafe didn't have much left, just the bottom of the pot of a light roast drip coffee. But, that was all he needed and he tipped 100% because who wouldn't? Especially when the staff were singing to d4vd.

Now the paper cup that had been emptied long ago, still rested in between his hands as he made his way towards The Navy Pier. All of the shops on the wooden path had closed hours ago. There lights had been turned off and doors locked. The only thing that glowed now was a large ferris wheel that illuminated the entire pier. 

As he made his way further down the pier a pleasant melody found its way to his ears. Someone was singing. 

At this hour the pier was completely empty, he hadn't seen anybody in the area. Where was the voice coming from? 

Hyunjin followed the sound of the gorgeous voice towards the end of the pier. After a few moments of searching he finally found the culprit. Hidden behind a statue, a beautiful woman sat on the edge of the pier with her feet dangling above the glistening water below. 

For a moment, Hyunjin studied her in complete awe. The woman sat with a notebook and pen in hand, while humming a lyrics to a song he had never heard before. He moved closer to her, resting his arms against the railing of the barrier that prevent people from reaching the edge of the pier. Obviously it hadn't worked to keep everyone out. 

"You only feel it when its lost"

"Getting through still has a cost"

"Quietly, it slips through your fingers, love"

"Falling from you drop by drop"

The voice was heavenly. Something so beautiful that Hyunjin didn't know if it could be real. He was frozen in place gazing at the back of an angel. Too afraid to blink with fear that the moment he looked away the woman would vanish into the night. 

"What I had left here"

"I just held it tight"

"So someone with your eyes"

"Might come in time"

"To hold me like water"

"Or, Christ, hold me like a knife"

As the woman continued to sing Hyunjin felt his heart twist in his chest. What she was saying, the lyrics, it was so raw. So beautiful and vulnerable. He had to be hallucinating. 

What he didn't know was that he definitely wasn't hallucinating. And funnily enough, the woman in front of him was an angel, at least that was the name of the famous ghostwriter that happened to be her. Though no one new her true identity. No one new her as Hyunjin did now. 

Angel aka Anne Wang was the most popular being in the music industry and at the same time she was also there greatest mystery. She had zero digital footprint besides the songs she helped various different artists release. And true to their every word, no one had gone against her and exposed her identity, no matter how much their fans had begged. 

Her most popular projects were with artists like Taylor Swift who she worked with during COVID. Together they had written and produced both Folklore and Evermore. Though, those were sadder albums that definitely had some tear-jerkers, those two albums are not what got her the nickname 'fallen angel.' 

The works responsible for that would be Stick Season and Wiped Out. Two albums that she had written the most heart-wrenching and vulnerable lyrics too. She is incredibly proud of her work, but even now, years later she can't stand to listen to the songs. Writing was a release but listening to the production of her inner turmoil tortured her. 

"We're born at night"

"So much of our lives"

"Is just carving through the dark to get so far"

"And the hardest part"

"Is who we are"

"Its who we are"

This song is going to be a piece on a concept album about the nine circles of hell. A dark yet dangerously beautiful concept. One that challenged Anne, and she loved challenges.

"You're beautiful." 

The unexpected sound of Hyunjin's voice had the mysterious woman squeal in fear. It was 3:00 am, who the hell was on The Navy Pier?

As she turns around she meets his eyes and her jaw drops. The man standing before her, just on the other side of the guard rail is the definition of beauty. His hair is freshly buzzed and died a golden blonde color that compliments his skin perfectly. He stands tall at just under six feet and wears nothing more that a simple pair of baggy jeans and an oversized sweater. Yet, he looks so effortlessly beautiful. The piercing above his eyebrow glimmers in the dull light of the night, adding appeal to his fox eyes. Anne can't help but stare at the gorgeous specimen, not realizing he is gazing at her in the same way.

Recovering from her momentary shock, Anne stands from her place on the edge of the pier and boldly walks towards the stranger. Not stopping till they are nose to nose. Where did this confidence come from?

It had to have come from the stars above. And it did. The small specks of light giggled together as they watched the two halves meet for the first time. Love at first sight was rare, but it was always true.

"I think you're beautiful too," she says shyly, still maintaining eye contact. Though a light blush brightens across her cheeks.

The man in front of her cracks a drop-dead-gorgeous smile at her words and shoves his hands deep into the pockets of his jeans. Anne watches as he rocks back on his heels and chuckles nervously. As she studies him she notices that his lips are chapped with anxious teeth indents and he has dark bags hidden under his eyes. They weren't too different. 

Anne pulls out her chap stick from her pocket and uncaps it, applying it to her lips. When she's done she rubs them together to spread the formula around before offering the stick to Hyunjin. Strangely enough, he finds himself taking it without hesitation and applying it to his own lips greedily. Smiling internally at the thought of sharing an indirect kiss.

When finished, he hands the chap stick back to her and she caps it and re-pockets it. Her eyes never leaving his as she does so. 

"You a musician?" The words sound pathetic coming out of his mouth. You a musician, really? Thats the best he can think of to say? 

Anne giggles and nods, oblivious to Hyunjin's inner turmoil. "Yeah, of sorts, I write sometimes and sing back up sometimes," she says mysteriously. Her doe eyes scan his face searching for skepticism but instead she finds an endearing fondness.

"Me too," he says with a happy smile. His hands come out of his pockets and grab onto the railing, feeling a little more relaxed. 

Anne smiles at the sight.

"Well, you wanna help me finish this song?"

Neither of them knew it then but that was the beginning of something much deeper than music. 

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Anne never expected to meet someone like Hyunjin. A beautiful, happy yet broken soul that seemed to mirror her own. Their connection was almost instantaneous. And as they continued to meet up in the dead of night it deepened too. 

It all started with that first night—when he sat beside her on the edge of the pier, his shoulder brushing against hers, warmth seeping through the fabric of his sweater. They had finished the song together, his voice blending seamlessly with hers under the flickering lights of the ferris wheel.

Hyunjin should have gone back to his hotel that night. Instead, he found himself wandering the city despite the cold weather and falling snow, replaying the sound of her voice in his head. When he woke the next morning, the first thing he did was rip a page out of his city brochure and scribble down words that had formed in his dreams—lines inspired by her song, by her. About the inner turmoil of his identity and the longing he feels to be loved by her. By Anne. Something so raw and vulnerable, Hyunjin didn't think it will ever see the light.

Now, a week later, after meeting at the end of The Navy Pier every night since, Anne invites Hyunjin into her place. Its nothing special. A tiny apartment lodged inside a large complex, but it was all she needed. Anne hated living alone and being in a bigger space only made the feeling of loneliness worse. 

When the pretty boy from the pier finally arrived and knocked on the door, Anne had to muffle a squeal of delight. Though she had only known Hyunjin for a week, there connection was something more than meaningful. They understood each other in a way words couldn't describe and they each felt as if they had known the other for years. 

Anne opens the door and is greeted with Hyunjin's glowing face. In his hands are two coffee's from Dollop's, something they learned on the first night that they both shared great love for. 

"Oh! You're the best!" Anne giggles out, taking the comforting beverage from his hand. Hyunjin affectionately ruffles her hair in response and leans in to give her a soft peck on the cheek. 

"Anything for my favorite girl," he says sweetly, causing a light blush to fan across her cheeks. 

Both Anne and Hyunjin didn't beat around the bush to much when showing the other little affections. They were both painfully into the other and flirted ridiculously, but it had never gone any further than that. Just flirting.

Anne steps aside to let Hyunjin in, her heart doing an embarrassingly giddy flip as he brushes past her, bringing with him the crisp scent of the city night mixed with coffee. She closes the door behind him and studies him carefully as he takes in the space. 

His eyes flick to the tiny couch shoved against the wall, to the door of her bedroom, then to the window-seat where her notebook full of unfinished lyrics lie. Its not much. The kitchen is less than 15 square foot and the living area is hardly double than that. But, while the space is small, it is extremely cosy. 

The apartment is illuminated by warm lowlights scattered across the walls. Shelves hang in mid-air filled with photo memories and luscious plants. Anne's green thumb being quite apparent. 

Finally, Hyunjin's gaze flicks the the piano that is pressed against the wall beside the window nook. Thats where they would be spending most of their time together. The thought makes his throat tighten and hands break out in a clammy cold sweat. 

He was the one to ask her if she had a piano, of course Anne did, she's an artist. So when he said he'd written a song he wanted to write piano sheet music too of course she would invite him over. But, now he would have to sing the song for her. 

It was one big confession really. Hyunjin was in love with Anne. He felt pathetic. They had barely known each other a week and here he was on his knees and completely at her mercy. Hyunjin didn't know it yet but Anne felt the same way. How could she not? 

"You ready to get started?" Anne asks, noticing the boys lingering gaze on the piano across the room. 

Hyunjin nods and reaches into his coat pocket, withdrawing the wrinkled paper that contained the silly song he had written. The song that Anne would undoubtedly decipher in a minute and see everything he felt. The thought was intimidating yet he knew she would never judge him. 

He discards his coat over the arm of the couch and follows Anne, sitting beside her on the bench in front of the piano. Their arms brush as they find their balance and a shiver runs down his spine.

Hyunjin unfolds the notebook paper and stares down at it. Its a confession of many things. Of his love, struggles, emotions. Of everything all at once. After that first night with Anne the words had poured out of him, it was almost as if she had awoken something buried within him. But how would she react to his confession of love? A confession he had written the morning after they had met. Was he crazy?

"You want to sing the whole thing first and then we'll go back through to figure out the notes?" Anne asks, looking at Hyunjin who is torn out of his thoughts.

Hyunjin nods again, not trusting his words and takes a sip of coffee for good measure. 

"Whenever your ready then."

He takes a final breath, gathering himself. The lyrics scribbled in his slanted writing stare at him, teasing him like a dare. A dare to risk it all.

And then he sings. Exposing everything. 

"I wonder if I'm being real

"Do I speak my truth or do I filter how I feel?

I wonder, wouldn't it be nice

To live inside a world that isn't black and white?

I wonder what it's like to be my friends

Hope that they don't think I'll forget about them

I wonder

I wonder

Right before I close my eyes

The only thing that's on my mind

Been dreamin' that you feel it too

I wonder what it's like to be loved by you

Yeah

I wonder what it's like

I wonder what it's like to be loved by

I wonder why I'm so afraid

Of saying something wrong, I never said I was a saint

I wonder, when I cry into my hands

I'm conditioned to feel like it makes me less of a man

And I wonder if someday you'll be by my side

And tell me that the world will end up alright

I wonder

I wonder

Right before I close my eyes

The only thing that's on my mind

Been dreamin' that you feel it too

I wonder what it's like to be loved by you

Yeah

I wonder what it's like

I wonder what it's like to be loved by you

I wonder what it's like to be loved by you

Yeah

I wonder what it's like to be loved by you

I wonder what it's like to be loved by

Right before I close my eyes

The only thing that's on my mind

Been dreamin' that you feel it too

I wonder what it's like to be loved by you"

As the song ends Hyunjin looks to Anne whose eyes are full of tears. It was a beautiful piece. Something so vulnerable that she felt moved that Hyunjin would have the courage to share it with her. 

"Wow," she whispers looking at her hands deep in thought. 

A single tear trickles down her cheek and the boy beside her is quick to brush it away making her giggle. Anne looks up at Hyunjin through her teary eyes and his hand stays against her cheek, lingering welcomely.

They stay like that for a moment. Frozen in time. The only thing in the world that mattered was them and the way they gazed at each other. So blatantly full of love.

Hyunjin is the first to break the silence. 

"Can I kiss you," Anne is grateful he was brave enough to ask. 

She throws herself into his arms and presses her lips to his in response. Pulling him into a desperate kiss. One that they had both been dreaming of for the last week. 

Hyunjin keeps Anne close, only allowing her to pull away for half a for a breath of air before smothering her lips again. He's on fire. Nothing in the world could compare to this feeling. Nothing in the world could compare to Anne Wang. She was perfect. From the softness of her lips to the love in her eyes. She was perfect, nothing in the world could compare to her. Nothing at all.

When the two finally pull away they rest their foreheads together and open their eyes. Two big smiles spread across their faces and Hyunjin can't resist but to place one last peck against her nose. 

Somehow in the midst of their kissing Anne had found her way into the pretty boys lap, not that either of them were complaining. But, now after exiting from the fleeting heat of the moment, she feels slightly embarrassed by her desperation. 

Thankfully, Hyunjin finds the sight of her flushed cheeks endearing. The image only widens the smile that graces his face.

"That was a beautiful song, H," Anne says running her hands over his buzzed scalp. The fuzzy texture of his hair feels nice and tickles the skin of her palms. 

H, the nickname was for her and her only. 

Hyunjin pecks her lips happily in response before pulling back to get a better look at her. "I wouldn't have been able to write it without you," he starts, his eyes flickering between hers, "hearing you that day, your lyrics were so real, so vulnerable. I couldn't get it out of my head. You inspired me." 

Anne’s heart stumbles in her chest.

This time its Anne who leans in for an additional kiss. But instead of allowing the peck, Hyunjin keeps her close, kissing her deeply once again. She giggles into the affection but reciprocates nonetheless. Both of them, high on the feeling of love.

"Can I say something crazy?" Anne asks suddenly, pulling away from the man in front of her. 

He hums with a questioning glint in his eyes. 

Anne takes both of his hands in hers and Hyunjin notices a slight tremor to them immediately. She's anxious. 

His beautiful bites her lip and squeezes her eyes shut momentarily. The grip on his hands tightening as she does so, almost as if the is wishing upon a star. Then she speaks.

"I think I'm in love with you."

Hyunjin smiles, "I know I'm in love with you."

A/N: Hope you guys love this!

Taglist: @my-neurodivergent-world

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

hey i’m really confused bc I’m new to the arctic monkeys fandom, I’ve listened to their music and followed them for years but I never really knew anything about who the members were, their names, personalities, side projects etc. I had no idea about them at all. But a month ago I found out about Alex turner and fell in love with his personality, music, lyricism, everything and so I wanted to see if he did anything outside of the monkeys so I researched and found.. gayness?? I’m so confused right now. In my mind, Alex seemed like the straightest person I’ve ever thought about but then after discovering the last shadow puppets, I decided to quickly watch a performance and omfg I was so startled with how… I don’t even know how to explain it, it’s like him and Miles are homoerotic without even needing the sex part. I looked into Miles Kane, he seems like a nice guy, I like the last shadow puppets music a lot but I never knew that Alex could have that side to him lol. Can you pls explain what miles and Alex are to each other because they literally act more gay than my gay ass if that is even possible and I watched five minutes of their interviews and it’s not even just on stage, they still act as if they’re head over heels in love in interviews too? How did I not know about this?? I found out they had a ship name so I searched it and your blog was the first thing that came up so I’m asking you to explain😭🙏

oh my goodness, i can *hear* me three years ago in this 😂😭 firstly, welcome to the insanity 💗 discovering milex for the first time really is quite an experience, i know i for one have never been quite the same since lol. i mean, i went from "huh, there's kind of a lot of ust between those two guys onstage" to starting a milex blog and writing multiple fanfics about them, so... yeah. trust me, i get it 😅

however, unfortunately i'm not sure i can answer your question of what they are to each other... words that have been thrown at their dynamic from journalists, friends, fellow musicians and fans include: bromance, soulmates, love affair, best friends, lovers, brothers, infatuated, impossible. and honestly... i feel like the truth probably holds elements of all those descriptors. there's never been any official line about exactly what they are to each other, but i think one thing is blindingly clear: how incredibly important they are to each other. like those two men *love* each other. and only they know exactly what form that love takes, but the fact that it's there? absolutely and completely undeniable. the way they act around each other or even just look at each other speaks louder than any definitions ever could 🥺

if it helps, i've been here for years now and it still astounds me quite how... intense and non-platonic the vibes are in literally every scenario whenever they're within two feet of each other (although, as we know, they prefer it if the distance is much less than that). like interviews, behind the scenes footage, onstage performances - wherever they are, when they're with each other they just seem to forget the rest of the world exists and are so wrapped up in each other it almost feels like looking at something so intimate we should look away 😭

in terms of what you said about thinking alex is the straightest person ever: i think that's a really common perception (certainly one i had in my earlier days of getting to know arctic monkeys), because he certainly makes no secret of being into women. however, if you listen to a lot of his songs and are aware of the way he interacts with men too... well, it definitely doesn't seem like it's only women he's into. if you're wanting to get more of a glimpse of that, milex is a great place to start lol. but also you might try listening to songs like catapult, electricity, do me a favour, the jeweller's hands, american sports, and mr schwartz.

i hope this helps a little with the insanity of discovering milex for the first time 😂😅 if you have any other questions i'm always more than happy to help! 😘

[noxx-33i]

MUSIC/ARTIST HCS FOR THE PHIGHTERS

i said id do it and so i will… im also picking these off of vibes alone.. FEEL FREE TO DISCUSS OR ADD MORE!!!!!

Sword

Faye Webster

Her's

Lamp

Kenshi Yonezu

The Vanished People

Rocket

Julie,, please listen to their songs…

Ado!!!!

Radiohead (zuka influenced him)

Clairo. Now. Please hear me out on this guys PLEASEE

Skate

JVB

Freddie Dredd

Machine Girl

ICP

Tyler, The Creator

Boombox (i cant choose 5 guys.)

JVB

No Vacation

Odetari. This is like so obvious,,

Gorilaz,, he would love this band a LOT

NewJeans, HE WOULD FW NEWJEANS BC THEIR SONGS R SUCH MODERN BOPS

9lives

Mac DeMarco for the soft and quiet vibes

Twice is something he would listen to like A LOT AS WELL

Tame Impala, cmon….

Slingshot

JVB

spellcasting

Wallows

D4vd

Nuvfr, he would get this from Boombox bc he introduced one of the songs to him

Hyperlaser

Canonically he used to like metal,,, so im giving him Sleep Token

MEMI (specifically Guitar Pick- please listeb…)

Deftones is so obvious (younger days at least)

LOWKEY. A few Hoizer songs he would like

He would like CAS for the vibes they give off

Ok now im struggling to think

Subspace

Hes just breakcore, the entire genre…

Possibly has some slipknot saved in his playlist

Maretu too… he likes the crazy songs

ok sometimes machine girl too

ong i almost forgot sb femtanyl, it really fits him the modt

Medkit

what do i even give this fucker…

motzart?? 🤨

okay but i think he would like slow jazz as 2nd to classical music

Possibly laufey if we ignore the lyrics…

bro would just search "soft jazz" and hit the play button on any playlist

Katana

????

what what do i do… what do i give this man…

ig hes the type to listen to anything but has no specific taste

canonically. Okay. Ok but what if i just give him spellcasting for fun… what if sling makes him listen to it and he ends up liking it..?? Like.

[elviraaxen]

im new here, so im sorry if this is a question youve answered before but tumblr's search bar failed me in finding this to be previous answered but.. uhmmm

c... can we make ocs/personas for Felt World? or would you rather we not or we hold off until further in?? bc i would love to make a puppet give our cowboy a smooch before he is, i assume bc he is a fucking catch and a half, taken off the market in canon lol i assume he wont still be single by the end. im a tad bit too embarrassed to ever post such drawings, but i wanted to know in case i ever did become brave enough to make them public if such you would be welcome to be tagged in or if that would make you feel uncomfortable

and also, for that purpose: as someone with disabilities, im really curious how disabilities are translated into Felt World? obviously not all of them, that'd take forever. but i was curious if they use mobility aids just like ours or if they use ones we could not have (an example of what i mean could be like "seal-chairs" in "Witch Hat Atelier"? they are chairs with hooves that run and jump, as opposed to wheels). and i know you said music is really powerful in this world, in both singing and instruments, but i wanted to also ask how in a world with so much focus on sound are the deaf/hard of hearing accomadated? deaf/HoH people can still play instruments, obviously (the most famous example being Beethoven), but i meant other than that

(also, if i recall accurately you once said that "the puppets have to speak to be considered sentient beings"? i was wondering if in the future could that be amended to "have to be able to communicate"? because i assume nonverbal puppets would still exist, as well as puppets who just dont speak much (whether thats a facet of deafness or nonspeaking shutdown or just a quiet personality). or would that break Felt World's world-building's logic in some way? that's a genuine question. i wasnt sure how to word it in a way that would minimize the risk of one being put on their back-foot, but i tried my best, it really is a genuine question)

(also, because i never like to assume fluency in disability-knowledge: if you need a resource on media portrayals of disability at any point, i highly recommend the youtuber, Oakwyrm. they do a lot of really cool analysis videos on disability. i do apologize if i am overstepping, and you are already largely fluent in disabled portrayals in media and/or already aware of Oakwyrm's existence. i just like to shout at least one resource out because i know many people have no idea where to look to learn more about general disability representation advice and whatnot. you do not have to watch their videos if you do not want to ♡)

also a bit of a tangent, idk if this is just a "for now" aspect of Donna due to her adjusting or if this is a core pillar of her personality but... just, thank you for making a feminine character who cries a lot and is emotional with Big Feelings. ive always felt more connected to the Dorthy Gales, Cinderellas, Clarisse de Cagliostros kind of heroines who are a bit of a "damsel in distress" (tho i do think that term reduces a lot of their agency and bravery) and i feel a bit lonely that we dont see many emotional-vitality-driven heroines who need some help as much as badass heroines or sassy heroines, both of whom are fully capable of getting shit sone alone. makes my cry-baby disabled ass feel a little pathetic (im very physically weak because of my chronic health issues, and am the type of Autistic ADHDer who is very sensitive to getting big feelings), even tho i know those types of heroines are valid and needed. i resonate a lot with AJR's lyric about "But I'm weak. And what's wrong with that?" even though i know im taking it out of context

and im sure Donna will prove herself capable of being on her own and having her own agency, same as all the heroines ive listed, i dont assume she will be stagnant, but i just wanted to really thank you for making a character that i relate to. i dont get that often. it makes me feel a bit abnormal and strange, and i mean moreso than the "well youre neurodivergent and sickly" kind of abnormal that would be implied. like. Weird Kid sitting alone at lunch kind of strange. so its really cool to see Donna and feel less lonely, is what im saying. i wish there were more heroines like her for people like me nowadays, rather than the archetype being reduced to "archiac stereotypes" (which i both do and dont understand the logic of. it depends on context and the example given) and therefore shelving a type of heroine we dont see in a lot of contemporary media (in exchange for a heroine we didnt get to see often (if at all) in past media, the sassy and badass ones, i do get it, and im glad theyre being used more as they should have always been. there are a select few of both camps that feel like "women have to be as stereotypically masculine as possible to be worthy of being called 'a strong character'" when i think strong characters have less to do with personality and more to do with "do they direct the narrative's plot? do they have agency?". but i could be wrong about that and i am getting off-topic)

but yeah. just. overall: thank you for introducing Donna to be like she is. it means a lot to me to see a heroine like her in contemporary media. im really excited to see what youll do next ♡ but yeah, i know im babbling a lot here and you dont need to reply to this half, i just really wanted to stress my thanks and WHY you have my thanks ♡♡♡ i really appreciate having Donna sit at my metaphorical lunch-table with me, even if she has to go sit somewhere else later. its been really nice to be beside her

thank you ♡

ps. i wasnt sure how to format this Ask because i know some people like to have each section have their own Ask for compartmentalizing/tag-organization reasons, but others like it all to be together so they know its all from one person as opposed to the anxiety of "ahh why did i get so many Asks all at once, did i do something wrong, do people hate me-- oh. its fine. i went through that rollercoaster for nothing. dear lord, am i drained now". so i tend to rather assume the latter, just in case; but do feel free to screenshot and section these out into their own posts if you are the former, i wont mind if youd rather do that ♡ have a nice day!!

Oh my goodness what a long message!!! 0.0!!

I had to take a few hours to think about everything to make sure I answered everything. But I should start off by showing my gratitude for the amount of time and effort you put into formulating this! So thank you, this was a really cool ask to receive <3

As for OCs, absolutely you can! I've already had a few who've made theirs, and I have no rules at all when it comes to shipping or self inserts or anything, as long as everyone is being respectful towards each other ^^

As for the disability aspect, I have a few key points that I want to explore in regards to especially deafness and muteness (is it called that? muteness?), but that's further along the story and will be introduced later! Also how song vs instruments work in this world is a part of the lore itself that'll be explained further down the line too, so no need to worry about our fellow mute or deaf/hoh peeps!

I have of course thought about mobility aids and other disability accommodations (because they can be born with defect, illnesses, and be injured pretty much like us, their bodies are a bit more fantastical but there are still rules) but i must admit didn't think further other than to give them similar mobility aids that we use. But clearly it would make more sense to make something more fantastical! I'll give it a thought! That's probably gonna be a fun design exercise ^^

I'm not sure if I can answer the entire ask in a way that does it justice, it's quite frankly the coolest message I've gotten, I'm gonna try and not let it get to my head (lol),

but i'm so glad you and seemingly many others seem to like Donna and appreciate her specifically for being sensitive and reacting strongly. It shouldn't be but it's really daunting to write female leads because as we know people just don't like women in media generally, but I eventually just got over it because I realized I was starting to write a character that demanded the audience cared and respected, rather than showing a story that I had fun telling, in a world worth exploring.

And not to spoil but I've already decided I do not want Donna to go through an arc where she's forced to abandon her emotions or go through something physically traumatic in order to "become tough" to be respected, that's not only overdone but lame and harmful wish fulfillment. So no worries in that department!

But anyways, I don't think I can properly say how appreciative I am of this ask!!! It really warms my heart that you and other people are going out of your way to send me asks about my little story that I came up with on a whim!!! It's truly the best compliment as a creator.

<3

[daisyjonesgf]

OMG billy dunne renaissance? I used to pray for times like this🙏

Ofc I have to bring up Miss Swift everytime, but ur blurbs about him def remind me of Is It Over Now?

But specifically these lyrics:

“You dream of my mouth before it called you a lying traitor. You search in every model’s bed for something greater”

“And did you think I didn't see you? There were flashing lights, at least I had the decency to keep my nights out of sight. Only rumors 'bout my hips and thighs and my whispered sighs. Oh, Lord, I think about jumping off of very tall somethings just to see you come running and say the one thing I've been wanting. But no.”

OOO and (spoilers if anyone else hasn’t seen the show) about your blurb about eddie pining for her, if she pulls a camila and actually sleeps with him bc she’s hurting abt billy, this line would actually hit:

“Baby, was it over when she laid down on your couch?Was it over when he unbuttoned my blouse?”

But also!☝️There is another blondie who’s songs i think fit perfectly. Miss Sabrina Carpenter 😌 Specially Tornado Warnings, Vicious, How Many Things, and Read Your Mind!! Ahh so good!

“Don't understand how quickly we get right back in our rhythm without missing a step. And logically, the last thing I should have on my mind, but I want you there sometimes. I guess maybe that's why I'm lying to my therapist. I keep saying things like, ‘I never saw him and we never kissed.’”

“You don't feel remorse, you don't feel the effects. 'Cause you don't think you hurt me if you wish me the best. I shoulda known all along, I was only the next one to take your love songs as a promise.” !!!!!!!!!!!!

“I consider you, I'm not trying to. It doesn't matter whether not I want to. I can't help it, it's a habit. Your corner in my mind is well established”

“You say that you need to be alone, but night and day, want me at your beck and call. You say you know that you might be crossin' the line. Wastin' all our time. To think that we could be casual. You're not my friend and, baby, you never were. Why the fuss? If you say you just wanna be mine. I can't read your mind”

But yeah HAHA thank you for feeding us billy dunne content <3

-🦅

I'm here to deliver times like this 💋

yes I agree they are serving major is it over now? except it's ever really over

she's an attacker, she does not mince words about how she feels in the moment and is attacking full force, if he's a lying traitor she's saying it, but on the flip side she's also the type to always tell him how good he's doing, soft kisses, adoration at the best of times. and he's always got more groupies lined up, but none of them compare. and the media tearing her apart as the younger girlfriend of billy dunne who has nothing else except a rich dad and famous boyfriend to her name.

I totally believe she slept with eddie at least once and felt terrible about it because she feels like she's betrayed billy even though it was during one of their off periods and he constantly cheats on her. at first it wasn't necessarily sleeping with others, but I think coming up to the final full breakdown it becomes that and she can't take it anymore. but it just makes eddie pine for her more.

yes yes yes my girl sabrina

her and billy have venomous fights where he breaks her down and she tries to bite back, but then the moment he calls or shows up or she is suddenly at a rehearsal they're acting like nothing happened. seamlessly back to being in each other's arms, kisses, laughter, leading up to ofc another meltdown.

and billy never apologizes, not until after rehab and everything, but usually it's just songs and acting like nothing wrong happened at all. and he's not consciously trying to hurt her, but he is.

and she can't stop thinking about him and be can't not think about her. she can try to move on but it'll always be billy and he can say there are others, but he'll always end up wanting her instead.

and the way he calls her his girl but won't actually put a label on it and always says she's not special when he's upset. he also expects her to always be around for him and gets pissy when she's not even though he won't say that they're really really together. and it's so fucking confusing for her.

ofc pookie ❤️❤️❤️

[aturnoftheearth]

I KNOW!!! THE LORE IS SO COOL and i love seeing?? everyone's different takes on it?? it's really cool seeing how ppl take diff meanings from the exact same song rahshshs

FEEL FREE TO SPAM MY INBOX ANYTIME PLS...... I sent my friend one (1) lord huron song and then i was like ACUTALLY IM GONNA RANT ABOUT THEM NOW and proceeded to go off for a half hour about the lore that i did know HAHAHAHAH

YEAH TO ALL OF THIS!!!! i absolutely adore the lyric callbacks and Moments (like in “lost in time and space” when he sings “aimless searching for a long lost face” woughhhh) and the way songs fade into each other is soooo 😵‍💫😵‍💫 funny enough, i got my entire family into lord huron but the most shocking one is my dad bc i can’t name another artist from the last 20 (maybe even 30??) years that he’s loved but then boom. there’s lord huron and there he is blasting it at midnight and crying over twenty long years at red rocks 😮‍💨 but the point of that is every time we put lord huron on shuffle and the yawning grave comes on i HAVE to put frozen pines in the queue otherwise he’s so caught off guard akdjskshdkd so i DEFINITELY agree that transition is SO good. i also love the where did the time go/not dead yet, the moon doesn’t mind/mine forever, and the brother/in the wind transitions like they’re so well done and beautiful and insane !!!!! AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON THE LYRICS. the amount of times i’ve spiraled because the lyrics of one of their songs is just soooo beautiful to me…. i can never say what my favorite lord huron songs are because they truly change so much like sometimes you just happen to focus on the lyrics of a song you’ve been sleeping on and boom. new favorite. it makes me so excited (and lightheaded lmfao) to think about this new album they’re working on and beginning to tease because good god i can’t even fathom more beautiful music

[eviltransswag]

sorry everyone im autisic and sonic is my hyperfixation so im actually gonna answer this because i am obsessed with this right now

so okay in Forces they didnt do a good job really talking about Sonic's trauma of being a prisoner of war for 6 months but we can probably surmise that fucked him up MAJORLY like he's sonic he's bounced back from everything but it doesn't mean it doesn't fuck him up. frontiers does a better job of showing how fucked up sonic is right now with the cyber corruption. what does this mean about the similarities between infinite's song and find your flame? its probably just a call back to sonic's state at that time. high stress situation and loved ones at stake makes sense, but why knight specifically? why not supreme who is technically the penultimate boss fight? i could say because supreme is also the last big boss fight for the easy and normal mode followed by just some qte (idk ive only played the game in hard bc i actually like the end boss fight). but i think it has to do more with a character element to it.

remember, knight is the one holding tails. in the last conversation between knux and sonic on ares island, we only see knuckles reaction and going by his surprise and the lyrics of find your flame, sonic is probably fucking pissed. i cant really use forces as a benchmark for anything because there was just never any... character moments that were particularly good. but there is a reference to infinite in that tails talks about how he was terrified of infinite's clones and how he hates that he has been so inconsistent in his behavior. i think it would make sense in the storyline of frontiers, that being each of the characters finally going in search of their own individual "freedom" so to speak, that the titan on tails's island shares a theme with infinite, who tails has a sore spot over. as for sonic's anger and how that plays into what i was saying, i feel sonic must've been pissed about infinite torturing him and also being a presence on his little brother's conscience, being something that exacerbates tails's low self esteem. tails is sonic's little brother, a kid he basically raised, and if something is haunting tails then sonic is going to go out of his way to fucking destroy it. its not the same situation, but its the vestiges of infinite and knight who keep tails locked up. and sonic is definitely going to rip and tear through that.

i dont even know if this is like coherent i just like woke up so sorry if this is all over the place just know i get serious about sonic

[narrativelysignificantturtleduck]

she!!!

1. a lot's gonna change - weyes blood

if your friends and your family sadly don't stick around / it's high tide / you'll learn to get by

the beginning of her arc, how she's had to learn to deal with adversity but also how much is going to change after she meets aang

2. you're me and i'm you - black belt eagle scout

you know you're me and i'm you / just like you, my mom

a song about the artist's close relationship with her Inupiat mother, and therefore a perfect song for katara and kya.

3. temple - thao & the get down stay down

i know your father can't call anymore / he never meant to be a man of war / but we found freedom, what will you do now? / bury the burden, baby, make us proud

normally, i wouldn't add a song like this to a character playlist - it's from the perspective of thao's mother who fled vietnam in the 70s and it is very specific to that situation. but the loss of a homeland due to war, generational trauma, and even a few specific lines like the ones above are all extremely fitting, and it's just a fantastic song that i think more people should listen to.

4. wolf - first aid kit

see it fall, child of war / lend a mending hand

video

5. water witch - the secret sisters & brandi carlile

wade where no happy man searches / in the place only mad women go

this is more of a hama song but there's a lot in the verses about digging into the pain of history, and that is what draws katara to hama to begin with. women's generational trauma + water imagery = katara & hama vibes.

6. sisters of the moon - fleetwood mac

she asked me "be my sister, sister of the moon"

also katara and hama.

7. you got to run (spirit of the wind) - buffy saint-marie & tanya tagaq

as you bend / you learn to be your own best friend / and you learned how and you learned when / to take a chance on the spirit of the wind

katara's decision to leave home, following aang and determined to become a master waterbender.

8. strange girl - laura marling

i love you, my strange girl / my lonely girl /my angry girl / my brave

this chorus is just my internal monologue when thinking about katara.

9. landscape - florence and the machine

born from dark water / daughter of the rain and snow

generational trauma again.

10. dead in the water - SPELLES

now i rise with the tide / i won't stop til i reach the shore

video

11. water - FINOM

what made a killer from a lover from a memory? / what made destruction so appealing to a human being?

video

12. simmer - hayley williams

how to draw the line between wrath and mercy?

like the previous, this is about the southern raiders - about being justifiably hurt but deciding not to give in, deciding to choose mercy and let go for your own sake

13. mother's daughter - miley cyrus

must be something in the water / or that i'm my mother's daughter

i hesitated adding this song for a while bc katara isn't nasty and evil but that title lyric fits too well

14. freedom - beyoncé ft. kendrick lamar

i'mma wade through the water / tell the tide don't move / i'mma riot, i'mma riot through your borders

katara is obviously a beyoncé fan.

[1d1195]

I looked up the songs and omg tell me why I got the urge to CRY during Black and white?! That’s such a cute song 😭and you do seem like a lyric girly! From the songs you’ve mentioned in your asks and even the songs for story inspo they tend to have strong lyrics that do seem to give story vibes! But ahh so happy you got see him live! I’m so glad you had a nice time!

Now idk if you ever answered this before but who was your “main guy” when 1D was still active? Did you go through phases or was it just hard to choose?

Not the trauma dump BAHHA it’s okay, I feel like we have all trauma dumped here😂 plus your blog is a very safe space (at least for me) so it’s okay lol but I’m a bit the same too, if I do something I have to personally feel like I gave it my all in order to feel “okay” about it. I think it’s a good quality to have but definitely not great in the long run if not learned how to manage so it’s okay! At least you’re aware of it! I’m also thankful I’ve had other things to obsess over hahah

I love ranting! I will gladly read anything you feel like ranting about lol I don’t have the kindle app on my phone, what I do is I search for free pdf versions of the book I’m looking for whether it be school related or for fun! If I can find it for free, I WILL BC I LOVE A DEAL! And I also use Apple Books depending on the vibe I’m in lol but overall I do prefer a physical book because I just love the whole experience of it!

And yeah it’s 13😭 idk if I’m gonna be able to commit to a full series because I haven’t been able to do that in a long time 😭 I prefer it that way too now! I don’t really have the time or energy to binge anything anymore, it’s very rare when I do it lol I LOVE watching once a week episodes like it’s so fun for me! When Succession was airing, I WAS LIVING FOR IT! It was so fun to see people’s theories/reactions to it and it was great. Plus I also love Drag Race so that is probably the only show I consistently keep up with lol oh don’t even get me started on the whole Part 1/2 thing IM SUCH A HATER OF THAT!!! Like it’s so unnecessary!! Oh and bestie I’m so excited for the next episode bc a great(and hot 🤭) character is coming back and I’m READY!

It’s always the English teachers that are like the best at explaining! My sophomore English teacher really helped me understanding Shakespeare because I just didn’t get it and I also didn’t care enough to get it lol but she made it bearable! She was also like the one who made me feel more confident in my writing skills even though I always did get good feedback, her enthusiasm for me really made me feel nice 🥹 I’m still a Shakespeare hater though 😗

Aww you’re so sweet! I mean tbh I’m still learning if I’m being honest lol I didn’t really know how to have a full on conversation in English till I started kindergarten. I knew some basic words but at home we mainly spoke Spanish. My dad actually started to teach me a bit before I started so I wasn’t completely clueless. My mom taught me a little bit in English too but she was more worried about my brother and I speaking Spanish well so she focused on that. It was okay like I was alway labeled a “smart” kid so I could make things out a bit quicker. Sometimes I would even help translate a bit for other kids who knew less English at an early age too which meant they were mainly my friends lol but mainly later on it was just ironically reading comprehension/ little bit of grammar that I was struggling a bit. It was mainly like American slang/culture references that would confuse me (idk wtf a cup of joe was until like the 3rd grade 😂). And sometimes even writing was difficult because I would only feel like I could properly express me thoughts/feelings in Spanish and sometimes it happens in convos lol and being a first gen/eldest daughter later on i helped my parents understand certain things in English too since i would have a better understanding in some aspects. But overall in terms of just language stuff, it wanst too bad considering I did have help and I was determined to understand things. Plus I’ve always liked learning lol AHH sorry that was so long it probably doesn’t make sense 😭

Omg Sam😭 that is just so sweet of you to say😭 would have loved to have shared a class with you too💗

Ooo yay the beach sounds so fun and idk a shopping trip sounds fun! AND I SUPPORT ANOTHER SILLY ROMANCE BOOK!!! ITS GOOD FOR THE SOUL!!

I actually went to Mexico today! It was to get a massage but not the relaxing kind lol I messed up my neck and leg somehow?? so I went to get it which I’m okay now lol but I did get to eat some food that I’ve been craving so it was a win lol. But other than that I don’t think I have any set plans! I dyed my hair and girl… it’s giving lava girl from that movie shark boy and lava girl 😀 Anyways lol Do you have any plans?

ALSO BESTIE I READ SUNFLOWER ANS LET ME SAY THAT WAS SO CUTE!! Okay im gonna try to keep it short bc I’ve yapped for too long! Okay he is SO ME WHEN LIKING SOMEONE LIKE I LITERALLY CANNOT LOOK AT THEM BAHAH I loved it though, it’s always so cute seeing a shy flustered Harry! A down bad shy guy! And you know I loved that little jealousrry moment give gave just the right amount of angst between them! And SAM DONT GET ME STARTED ON HER NUMBERS POEM! That was so beautifully written! I immediately thought that it was so YOU in the best way and I honestly loved the new perspective on how I view it! It’s was just perfect! Ahhh I would love to see how they turn out if you’re up for it! I loved it!!!! You did great as always my love!-💜

I was actually a Liam girl at the start! My serious line of thinking was "Harry's too popular I'll never have a chance 🤦‍♀️" and he was so cute. Liam also has the dad-vibe of the band and I'm the mom of the friend group so I figured we would be 🤞 But it lasted about two weeks because Harry is just too sweet and perfect. I still love Liam with all my heart. I def go through phases though! Anytime I see a picture of Louis I pretty much fall in love with him again. His voice and lyrics are CRIMINALLY underrated. Zayn is probably the most beautiful man I've ever seen and it lowkey feels illegal to look at him. But Harry and Niall are my main people these days. Old clips of them doing interviews together are hysterical. They're just so funny together. It was def Harry when 1D was active but my bf likes to make fun of me and say I have 5 celebrity crushes.

Free PDF versions is a move. That's how I read the first half of midnight sun when it was leaked 😂 I love a deal too! I def need to do more searching. But I love bookstores and I love holding the new book it's just so nice!

I too do not enjoy long commitment series/binging anymore either (See also: my addictive personality). It's SO much energy and time. I caught up on Grey's Anatomy a few summers ago (I feel like I've mentioned this before) it literally took THE ENTIRE summer. I had stopped watching when I went to college and then I didn't really have great access to cable all the time so I didn't keep up. Then another 8 seasons had come and gone 🤦‍♀️

No it makes so much sense! I heard that dynamic a lot in my education classes when I got my SEI endorsement--a lot of families have the primary language at home and then English in school. I'm truly astounded that you picked up things so quickly. I literally cannot imagine. We have a teacher at our school that works with students coming from other countries/language backgrounds when they arrive and he tells all of us and the students that if there is slang they don't understand he can ask him and it doesn't have to be awkward or uncomfortable and I think it's really nice but it's what came to mind when I read the cup of joe thing HAHAHAHAHA. You got me looking up the origin of why it's called that 😂 I totally just use the phrases I hear now. Especially from my younger students. They get a kick out of me saying "no cap," "period," and "deadass." (I use that one sparingly and usually only repeat it after one of them say it lollll) ALL TO SAY the slang in America is nuts.

I will let you know, I want to write for an hour or so I think and then maybe read for an hour.

JUST CASUALLY GO TO MEXICO OKAY. That's so cool! I've never really traveled anywhere--but to be fair I'm not very close to any other places. I still want to see a lot of places in the US tbh. So am I to presume you live pretty close to Mexico? Do you mean the massage messed up your neck and leg? I always say I want a massage but then someone pointed out it's almost like a workout for your muscles and they can genuinely be sore afterwards. LAVA GIRL I'M SCREAMING. Does that mean you like it? I think either way it's cool you did something different and fun! I also love that you got food that you were craving. We went out for my sisters bday to a Mexican bistro. One of my favorite places. Truthfully, idk how authentic it was but my bf liked it and he would be the first person to say that it was un-authentic.

No plans for the weekend. Just relaxing and catching up on a few things! I started rewatching a show I had stopped watching after season 2 (of 4 total) so I'm hoping to get through that in the next couple weeks!

SO glad you loved Sunflower! I enjoyed writing it a lot! I lowkey wish I took it a little further and made them kiss or something, but that's what Part 2's are for! 😭 You're so sweet about the numbers and everyone really loves a jealousrry moment it seems 😉 💕💕

xoxo

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oh my god thanku really love the date cuz its a national holiday here so every year i'm getting fireworks🤭🩷💗also can i ask when is ur birthday or is that top secret information?👀

oo i'm really glad u were able to keep the idea🥳🥳(but really cuz other wise i might have not found ur page and that is just heartbreaking when i think about it💔)

tbh i'm down if u end up coming just tell me cuz i'm 80% sure i will go🫡 i don't understand why they are not going to vienna like i remember it being so popular for concerts cuz i was so salty about the fact that it's just the neighboring country and they couldn't have come a little bit closer🤣 AHH MAN NOOO THATS SO SAD☹️☹️☹️I HOPE U WILL BE ABLE TO SEE THEM ONE DAY!!!!☹️

U ARE JUST AMAZING FOR THAT!! best tendencies 🤣 yeah i was very shocked as well but i didn't get edits about it luckily cuz i think that would have made me so much more sad🫡 I UNDERSTAND THAT SO MUCH I WAS THE SAME FOR AGOOD WHILE MANS WAS ON MY MIND 24/7 (and still he is very much there although not as much as he used to:/)🤭 IDK I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY THERE ARE BASICALLY NO TREASURE WRITERS HERE??? but i really think u would be an exceptional writer for them👀sooo i'm waiting for a treasure fic if u don't fall out of them ofc (although that is kinda hard to imo) ooo u know i think just a drabble couldn't hurt anyoneeee🤗 THEN IM WAITING FOR UR FIC EVEN MORE🥳

HOOE UR DOING WELL AS WELL!!! and i'm not too sweet u are too sweet!!!!!🩷💘💘 (and sorry again for the very late reply school sucks☹️)

(and i also wanted to ask that should i send u asks on ur other acc if i see something that i would bring up here just so i don't pollute this page anymore than i already did🤣like i just keep bringing up random topics here so sorry)

(liebestraum anon🌷💕💞)

omg thats so cool???? fireworks on your bday every year must be so amazing woah,,,, my bday is not a top secret dw 😌😌 its quite literally in 2 days (apr 16) lmao i feel very old and i also forgot its my bday this sunday so when my mum mentioned it i was like what already???

hhhh i am too!! i am currently actively writing it just so you know<33 if school doesnt kick my ass as hard (which it might bc i have my first final in 10 days LMAO) i think it should be done before summer AHAHA

have fun if you end up going!!! i had a talk w everyrone and came to the conclusion that i just cant go this year so thats :// maybe next year.... manifesting vienna fr that way i could be home the same day if i tried hard enough. VIENNA USED TO BE SO POPULAR W CONCERTS i swear every pop punk band and their mothers back in the day had a concert there. what happened im gen so confused i keep searching for it on every tour but nowadays no one goes there

you know the song TV by billie eilish??? thOSE edits make me so heartbroken. like 'dont know where you are right now, did you see me on TV?' bitch stop puting mashidam onto those lyrics i will have a full on meltdown. but anyways my man jihoon is still on my mind 24/7 and its gotten even worse man i need serious help i think. somebody call an exorcist. and stop supporting that drabble i will nOT write it (i am trying really hard to contain myself rn)

school sucks and it should be cancelled. >:(( i hope youre doing well i enjoyed hearing from you,, hope life treats you good in the next couple of days!!! mwah

also you can send asks whenever you want!! honestly this is my space and i dont mind clogging the dash djfkdlj if anyone minds these they can just block the tag, they curate their own tumblr experience :p but if you ever wanna send anything to mosviqu or my other blogs i honestly welcome you everywhere!!!

[vriska-serketboard]

YIPPEE thanks for the tag!!

favorite song: it’s hard to say what my favorite song of all time is, but some of the ones I’ve been really obsessed with lately are kill the music by every time I die (featuring Gerard way on the chorus vocals), say days ago + greener with the scenery by the used, & the lying eyes of miss erray by i the mighty

last song: put me out by the used

favorite color: green 💚💚💚

last book: I’m currently reading “high bias: the distorted history of the cassette tape”! I forget who it’s by unforch

last movie: ah man I haven’t seen a movie in a while. I saw the first 40 minutes of home alone 2 a week or 2 ago if that counts

last show: brooklyn 99….. (ITS A GUILTY PLEASURE OK I VERY OBVIOUSLY DO NOT LIKE COPS IRL)

sweet/savory/spicy: usually I’d go for spicy but I’ve been feeling more sweet lately

relationship status: very single (dated my friend/crush for like 10 days in October, got broken up with [it was very drama-free & for personal reasons on their part that had nothing to do with me specifically and more to do with their ability to handle being in a relationship emotionally], and subsequently fell into an emotional rut that lasted for abt a month & a half, but I’m mostly out of it by now. I’ve stayed good friends with the person in question throughout all of that, even though I’m probably should’ve have given myself space for longer after we broke up bc I was basically crying for multiple hours every day & seeing them at that point made me feel simultaneously worse and better. But then again I was also rereading parts of our old dms every day & once I made myself stop doing that, I felt actively less terrible abt all of it. Sorry for dumping all this in here I just needed to rant; I’m pretty much over the emotional aftermath of us breaking up but I’m still very in love with this person so. Yeah that’s something that happened)

last thing I searched: I searched up “the lonely scriptures of a shopping mall” bc I’d seen a fic with that title in my marker for later list & I’d forgotten that the lyric was from jesus of suburbia

current obsession: Thursday, mcr, music history in general

looking forward to: my friends and I are driving down to RI for a show on January 3rd & that’s the last show of a local band we really like before they disband so I’m happy to be seeing them one more time. Also I’m turning 20 in less than 2 weeks!! Crazy shit 🤯 & there’s a show the day after my bday that I’m planning to go to. Oh and seeing mcr again in September too! My bff & I are going together! Idk how we’re getting there from our respective campuses but we’ll figure smth out probably

open tags!!

i have been tagged by @d3ad-on-arriva1 + @raytoromp3 + @notsmashingwindowspdf + @gentles-and-ladymen and probably more to do this tag game so here we are :D thanks guys!

(note: @minyard-05 also tagged me in a very similar game where only the first question is different so i’m just gonna add it at the beginning hehe)

favorite song: 27 // fall out boy

last song: bulls in the bronx // ptv

fav color: PURPLE 💜💜💜💜✨

last book: jurassic park!!!! one of my favorite books of all time alongside stone butch blues

last movie: oh it was this stupid christmas movie my mom made me watch a couple days ago 😭😭 don’t even remember the title

last show: supernatural <33 me and my mom are over halfway thru season 1 and we’re having a great time

sweet/savory/spicy: SAVORY 🗣️🗣️🗣️ i love meat and beans and protein and savory food it’s sooooooo good. spicy is a close second tho bc they go hand in hand

relationship status: single ☹️ it’s hard being aroallo bc my ideal relationship is friends with benefits but i don’t know any girls my age who are down with that……

last thing i searched: osteopathy meaning

current obsession: pierce the veil 😍 fob is up there always but recently i’ve been on a MASSIVE ptv kick so that’s been fun :3 i learned bulls in the bronx on guitar it’s actually amazing

looking forward to: a lot of things!! turning 17, the two concerts im going to next summer, SUMMER☀️🌻⛱️🌊🏝️, listening to more music as always <3

tagging: @thnksfrthmmrs @pnuk-r0ck @lipglossveins @40steps @roastedsoup and anyone else who wants to play!! sorry if u guys have been tagged already >_<