#also I do not think this was the divorce I think the divorce is yet to come and it will feel like getting punched in the face 1000 times
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Manifesting and Why Feelings Donât Matter. They Never Did.
Some of you care way too much about your feelings for me and honestlyâŚ. Itâs annoying. Feelings got yâall in a chokehold yet they have nothing to do with you getting your desires. Your feelings didnât stop your sp from coming back and treating how you wanted them to. Your feelings didnât change the fact that you got the house/apartment you have always wanted. Your feelings didnât change the fact that you still reconciled with an old friend from years ago who barely even remembers the disagreement. Whether positive or not, itâs all about the meaning you give them.Â
âI want to manifest sp back but I donât feel likeâ.â
âI want to make money without working but I feel guilty andâ.â
âI know I can manifest whatever I want but what if I feel uncomfortâ.â
SHUT UP AND JUST KNOW YOU HAVE WHAT YOU WANT. KNOW IT NOW
No matter how you "feel", you are still the creator of your experience.Â
If you are feeling nervous about getting a certain desire, who cares? Itâs yours anyways.
If you are feeling scared about something not happening, who cares? You got it and it happened anyways.
If you are feeling like you donât know how to manifest and create your reality, who cares? You are still creating even if itâs something you donât want. Just change your perspective.Â
Your feelings arenât your enemies but they are also not your God. At all. You are and you can dictate whether or not the âfeelingsâ you have matter. They donât but you can also use them to your advantage. Iâve been angry about tons of things before and instead of focusing that anger on the situation at hand, I focused it towards what I wanted to happen instead.Â
âF*ck this! Iâm literally getting what I want. I have that sh*it right now what am I even talking about âgettingâ for???? That sh*t is in my freakin face!!âÂ
If you want to feel anything, feel peace. When I say feel, I donât mean create or conjure up an emotion within yourself. By feeling, just still your thoughts and mind. There you will find peaceâ your true essence. Be comfortable there whether itâs for two seconds or two hours. From that peace is where all creation springs. Remind yourself of who you are and know it will never change. You are still in control.Â
What you say goes, not what you feel. You can experience all the human emotions âenergies in motionâ you want or donât want but at the end of the day none of that matters. Why? Because you create. You choose. Not your feelings. Not your emotions. Even physical sensations donât hold any power until you give them power. Iâve healed myself a number of times from different pains whether it was cramps, headaches, stomachaches or toothaches and even healing my second ACL faster than the first by thinking as the person who doesnât feel pain anymore/is healed. It is truly easier said than done because itâs done and easy asf to say. Be so serious. Divorce your feelings, take your ring back and decide who you are in spite of them!Â
And donât let me get started on yâall that let the 3d make you feel a certain way. You are allowing that the 3d to dictate how you feel and keeping yourself in a perpetual cycle you donât want to be in. Stop it. Get help. Help yourself.Â
#itsrlymine#loa success#sucess story#law of assumption#manifest#manifesting#manifestation#loassumption#lawofassumption#void state#shifting#shiftblr#shifting community#shifting blog#imagination is reality#reality shift#success story#pure consciousness#i am awareness#shifters#loa blog#loa tumblr#instant manifestation#desired reality#living in the end
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Interesting take, with which I generally agree. Yet still I see s2 Jinx preparing an ambush for Vi with a cold blood and a lot of planning, and with an intention to kill her. And maybe this was a reason she failed, usually when voices in her head took over she went feral and was unpredictable, but this time her fighting with Vi looked calculated thus predictable.
Meanwhile in the "divorce" scene I see Caitlyn desperately trying to calm herself down and eventually being not able to do so. Imo she didn't take her time to strike Vi because she was calculating her next move, she tried to calm herself down before exploding the same way she did in arcade and failed. She exploded in the violent way because she didn't know how to deal with her anger otherwise, especially that Vi stopped her from walking away.
I think we are used to see Jinx doing violent things so her violent actions don't bother us even if they are aimed at Vi. Caitlyn on the other hand was a very kind character so far and seeing her turning cold and violent - even under understandable circumstances - is hard, especially when Vi is targeted. But also, because of this radical turn in her character, so far her arc seems to be the most interesting this season.
I am really curious how Caitlyn's dark arc and Jinx's redemption arc will unfold and if they are connected as I expect them to. Because after all Cait as we see her now is a monster Jinx created.
You forgive Jinx but not Caitlyn? Hereâs why.
If we start from the idea that Jinx and Caitlyn are very similar and that the show increasingly emphasizes this; if we assume they both have traumas and reasons to be angry and violent; if we consider that their traumas are equally significantâbecause all trauma is equivalent when experiences differâa trauma is still a trauma.
So why do we forgive Jinx but not Caitlyn? (Or at least, why do people seem to hate Caitlyn more than Jinx for her actions?) Caitlyn hasnât done anything comparable to Jinx, who has many deaths on her conscience. Is it because she might have sacrificed a child? No, she wouldnât have missed the shotâyou know it, I know it, and so does she. Blaming her for a shot she didnât take but would have succeeded at isnât a valid reason.
Jinx isnât more murderous, nor is she less so than Caitlyn. Sheâs not stronger...
Hereâs a little screenshot of Caitlyn getting the upper hand on Sevika. #SeviCait? đ Caitlyn is seriously badassâletâs not forget that.
Sheâs not stronger... or more loyal, fairer, or smarterâŚâsheâs just more unstable.
So yes, thatâs why so many people struggle to forgive Caitlynâs actions compared to Jinxâs; it feels like Caitlyn does things with full awareness. When she strikes Vi, sheâs fully present in the moment, taking her time to think before delivering the blow.
Jinx, on the other hand, hits Vi much harder and more than once. But Caitlynâs blow hurts more because it comes not just from the heart, but from the head as well.
Do I blame her? No, of course notâsheâs my favorite character. And I dare say I love her even more now.
Sheâll learn to handle frustration, sheâll keep thinking things through, and sheâll realize sheâs being manipulated. Sheâll make the right choices, because thatâs who she is.
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There's a conversation we need to have about Jayce, thinking he's once again doing the objectively good thing, somehow finding a way to make saving Viktor's life about himself
Ripping Viktor out of death and into birth, bringing him into the world against his wishes, the Frankenstein and Frankenstein's Monster of it all
But first I have to scream incoherently and cry facedown on the floor for about 24 hours
#arcane#spoilers#arcane spoilers#arcane s2#viktor#viktor arcane#jayce talis#viktor and jayce#i know the writers are giggling to themselves having a character named Viktor who is actually the monster#jayce has such a black and white view of what is right and wrong and it is going to kill me before the end of the season#our paths diverged a long time ago okay but what do you mean viktor what do you meeaaannnnnn#also I do not think this was the divorce I think the divorce is yet to come and it will feel like getting punched in the face 1000 times#Viktors -what am I?- almost finished me off it came very close friends
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You know when I originally suggested that maybe Dragon is the one who gave Crocodile his scar and/or took his left hand --if only because [Dragon not recognizing the big scary man with a baby when he was supposed to go see his wife, assuming the worst and acting accordingly] would make for an A-Class tragedy and great fucking drama (something which I would expect to see in One Piece)-- I wasn't fully convinced with the idea, I just considdered it just another option on What Could Have Happened between those two to get us where we are ...But the more I think about it, the more I've started to kind of believe it. And for two key reasons, first being kind of everything we know about Whitebeard, and the second being the basic logistics around the suggested scenario to begin with
By which I mean; if Dragon had indeed gone to see his wife so he could deliver their newborn baby to Garp, but instead came face-to-face with a man he had never seen before but who just happened to have the exact same and very specific facial scar as his wife and/or the same god damn hook... Like I can't say he SHOULD be able to recognize Crocodile instantly, but also, surely either of those features would make him stop for a moment think and/or talk before he'd jump into action, let alone if the man had both the scar and the hook. Of course, there is an argument to be made that maybe Crocodile had a smaller hook originally that no longer fit on his wrist after getting jacked so maybe Crocodile just wasn't wearing any hook at all, and a missing limb isn't an unusual disability on its own, at least not enough to faze Dragon. And who knows, maybe the two were supposed to meet on a dark and stormy night, in which case between the low light and the rain it could've been hard for Dragon to see any scars on Crocodile's face from a distance. These are both reasonable arguments, absolutely. But, as I have mentioned a few times before, sometimes the path of least resistance might be the most likely option as far as story speculation goes. If Crocodile had both his hands and no scar on his face, then Dragon wouldn't have had any way to immidiately and instantly recognize Croc (aside from his fashion sense) as he would've been missing (what we would now considder) his most distinquishing features. Which would it much easier for Dragon to jump into action and attack the strange man without a second thought.
And then there's Whitebeard. Whitebeard, who was kind of famous for stomping rookie pirates only to invite them to join his crew as his "sons", but who also had a weird thing about not having women in his crew (his nurses aside), because he believed "women do not belong on a battlefield". For one, that actually kind of supports the "Crocodile is openly trans" theory because, again, how the fuck would Croc have been pre-t AND stealth as a Wardlord getting his shit kicked in by Whitebeard? Like it's not impossible, as we have discussed many times before (and that is not the point of this post!!), but once again it would be easier to just assume Crocodile was still living as a woman at this point in time. And indeed, that could answer the question of "why would Whitebeard not invite Crocodile into his crew to be one of his children like Ace and everyone else?". If Croc was still living and presenting as a woman at this point, Whitebeard would not have even wanted him in his crew. (Sidenote but since Whitebeard seemed to have no issues with Jinbei hanging around the Moby Dick despite being a Warlord I don't think Crocodile's Shichibukai status should've had any impact on WB's ability to invite him to his crew. To be fair though, Jinbei did join the Shichibukai much later so it is possible WB could've just changed his position on the subject over the years) And that leads to this question; if Whitebeard has that kind of views on women, then would he ever go as far as to severely injure and scar (someone he viewed as) a woman right on their face? With an attack that could have very easily chopped Crocodile's entire head in half like a god damn burger bun if he weren't careful? Do you think Whitebeard would have chopped Crocodile's left hand off and left him permanently disabled if he viewed him as a woman who shouldn't be a fighter to begin with? Yes, to be fair, we do not know the circumstances under which Crocodile challenged Whitebeard into a fight and what kind of a pirate Crocodile had been up until that point, what his reputation had been and if he had done anything in particular to invite Whitebeard's wrath (much like Kid and Barto with Shanks). Like for all we know he could've done something truly heinous and fucked up enough that Whitebeard thought teaching him a lesson was justified.
Just, looking at all of these notes together, I can't help but to feel that it's actually very plausible Dragon could be the one responsible for one of Crocodile's injuries if not both (if Crocodad Real).
#Moon posting#OP Meta#Sir Crocodile#Crocodad#Dragodile#Also yeah if Dragon did Do That to Croc then that would explain why they PRESUMABLY haven't seen nor talked to each other in like 19 years#Like how would you feel if you found out you almost killed your beloved and left him permanently disabled. How would you ever even apologiz#How would you ever go about begging for forgiveness from someone else when you'd probably never be able to forgive YOURSELF to begin with#Like yes it would have been a tragic accident but also like. That's your significant other. Or at least WAS.#You know me I'm a sucker for Tragic (and Extremely Divorced) Dragodile#Sitenote but if Crocodile hadn't even figured out his Gender Shit yet when fighting Whitebeard then like#Whitebeard beating his ass but refusing to do anything drastic because he didn't want to "hurt a woman'' would like#Like that might not crack an egg but god damn would that fucking feel BAD (in a way he didn't quite understand) and be humiliating#Also yes it is possible WB would've given Croc at least one of his injuries. Absolutely viable. I just don't think he did BOTH#Also like if you subscribe to the Croc is Xebec's son theory then that alone would give Croc enough beef with WB to explain Summit War#It's not a requirement for WB to have taken Croc's hand for Croc to have a vendetta against WB (with that theory in mind at least)
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so no one was going to tell me if i got literally one episode further tenax drops that heâs the one who saved scorpus from his momâs pimp AND that heâs intimately familiar with scorpusâ dick when he was younger. guys. guys.
#thinking about an INSANE divorce fic. as a follow-up to the 30k canon-compliant backstory i have not written#(really it could be an au of that because like. am i sentimental and would i want them to get emotionally divorced NO but i will get into#the variants of this later i have to tell you about them ACTUALLY divorced first before i get into the hot divorcee energy of it all)#where they fucked around when they were younger and then broke up because. yeah tenax can dream but scorpus needs certainty he is what he#is he wants attention and dignity and when blue offers for him he goes and we donât need to know what the massive fight was but we DO need#to know that they stopped fucking and maybe they stopped talking too but now theyâre Colleagues. putting the âbecause i canâ moment#into a WHOLE different light bc itâs very much a âyou no longer have a say in who I get to fuck because itâs not YOU. because weâre notâ#and thus we get an exes-to-lovers arc I still know you the best and yes I SEE the scorpus xenon andria potential & once again I am saying:#put that in a box we canât talk about that right now I see it but thatâs not what weâre here for. anyway I was TRYING to say the âI know u#best of anyoneâ of it all and if you think I have stopped thinking about tenax goading scorpus & talking about his dick for a single second#I have not. I REALLY have not because that is top tier blatant manipulation to be like ohhhh poor baby youâre so old and rotting I can just#get a new chariot driver I donât even really want you anyway đ and scorpus KNOWS Itâs bait however. heâs gotta get his attention back.#anyway they are ugly divorced and itâs very slow burn but I know exactly how you taste & what buttons to press & how to grip your shoulders#in an argument until they fuck nasty on all of their riches or however this thing ends. not well for anyone but I WILL be getting them back#together. the other fun little big divorced energy thoughts i had were very much âdivorced and arguing but itâs foreplay to threaten to#leave each otherâ so they can have hot aggressive mean sex because they get off on arguing with each other. everybody in the stables starts#to see them arguing about chariot design & the brothers are scared theyâre gonna kill each other & then suddenly scorpus is tongue-fucking#Tenaxâs throat with a fist still in his hair and tenax has a hand pinning him back against the post by the throat and thatâs all they see#before everybody clears the FUCK out. this is a regular occurrence at all times in all arguments itâs so fun I love the dynamic#OHHHH AND ITâS AN OUTSIDER POV FIC i said the brothers really i meant elia but also now that i say that. could be a fun five + 1 of#everyone watching them threaten to kill each other and then yâknow. la petit mort. ALSO i know i see the calla/tenax too we canât talk abt#that put it in the box with the chariot drivers we can have one (1) thing at a time. the calla note is because i want a calla pov of them#where sheâs just like âfreaks. right in front of my salad?â and does not give a fuck at all. top tier. anyway. andria/elia/calla/domitian#(Domitian seeing them petition him would be so fun because he wants to puppet master everything heâd want to know SO BAD.) the 5th one idk#because I donât have any idea about the third brother yet but maybe Tenax catching scorpus in a brothel again? and the +1 is their POV ofc.#(anyway for myself: the vibes i want here are geno/anna cat and mouse follow/unfollow divorce and win her back rumors)#scorpus/tenax#those about to die#scorpus#tenax
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Fish, 7 (For your prompts! â¤ď¸)
Hi, anon!! Thank you for the prompt, you were the very first one to send one in! 7 was, again, the wildcard, so I randomly generated a different number to land on Yue Qingyuan (from Scum Villain)! I have no choice but to dedicate this to @bytedykes, because I told her about this prompt and she said âyqy pet fish mental health speedrunâ and we went, uh, a little insane about it. Enjoy some yuefang, folks!!!!
âMu-xiong,â Yue Qingyuan says. âIâm sorry to bother you. Are you available?â
âYue-xiong is never a bother,â Mu Qingfang says warmly. âAnd I am, actually, yes. Is everything okay, Yue-xiong?â
âI think I need help.â A bit dramatic, perhaps, and Yue Qingyuan hates to trouble Mu Qingfang on a rare day off, but Yue Qingyuan and impulse have never been the best combination, and he would appreciate a second opinion.
Mu Qingfangâs voice turns hard. âWhere are you? I'll come right away.â
âWhatâ?â Yue Qingyuan stares at his phone like the blank call screen will tell him why Mu Qingfang suddenly sounds so serious. âI'm at home, butââ
âI'll be right there,â Mu Qingfang says, and hangs up.
Yue Qingyuan stares at his phone for another second, then lifts his gaze to his sparkling new aquarium. His new betta, white and black and resplendent of fin, stares back. Was his crisis of faith about his viability as a fish owner really so deserving of such urgency�
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âSo,â Mu Qingfang says. âThis was your emergency?â He looks about as unimpressed by the betta as it does by the two of them.
Yue Qingyuan feels obscurely like heâs being scolded. Mu Qingfang is one of the nicest men he knows, but that just means that his censure takes the form of a blunt instrument of mass disappointment.
âIn my defense,â he points out meekly, âI didnât say there was an emergency. Mu-xiong just assumed.â
âThatâll teach me,â Mu Qingfang huffs, but at least he looks amused. âYue-xiong should get used to asking for help more so this gege doesnât have to panic every time he does ask.â
Yue Qingyuanâs mouth almost drops open. He can only hope his cheeks arenât as red as they feel. âErâwell, I asked this time, didnât I?â
âYou did,â Mu Qingfang allows, looking something horribly close to fond. Yue Qingyuan swallows and tries to hurry on.
âSoânot an emergency, but I do want your opinion,â he coughs out. âIâm having⌠doubts. About the fish.â Mu Qingfangâs eyebrows contract. Yue Qingyuan rushes it out. âDo you think I should keep it?â
âYue-xiongâŚâ Mu Qingfang looks politely incredulous. âWhy does my opinion matter? The fish is already yours, isnât it? If you donât think maintaining its upkeep will be feasible, thatâs one thing, but⌠Surely Yue-xiong did the research before getting it?â
He doesnât sound judgemental, but Yue Qingyuan feels his cheeks warm. âI did, but I wasnât planning on getting a fish; I was only admiring the tanks. There was a salesperson who was⌠very insistent.â
Mu Qingfang regards him doubtfully, which is fair. Yue Qingyuan towers over most people he meets, and his bulk only further adds to the impression of immovability. Itâs only when he opens his mouth that it becomes clear how spineless he actually is.
Yue Qingyuan falters. âI had thought⌠I thought it might be nice.â The bettas had seemed so majestic in their tanks, iridescent monarchs of false grass and plastic coves, and Yue Qingyuan had thought, wildly, that one might be rewarding to keep, might breathe a touch of life into his immaculately sleek living room. The whole affair hadnât even been expensive by his shiny new standards, forget difficult to physically arrange. It was only when installation and set-up for his new aquarium had finished and he was left to watch that jewel-bright being swim disaffectedly through its new home that doubt had seized him, all-consuming and black. He had, admittedly, panicked a little after that.
(Yue Qingyuanâs apartment is very large, and very clean, and very empty. It holds the barest amount of decoration and muss to qualify as lived-in rather than a snapshot from a magazine ad. The fish may, in fact, be the only thing in the entire place which really qualifies as his. No wonder Yue Qingyuan wanted to jettison it from his life as soon as he got it.)
Mu Qingfangâs expression hovers between concern and simple confusion. âIâm sure Yue-xiong will be a more than adequate caretaker,â he says, more gently than Yue Qingyuan and all his neuroses probably deserve. âWhatâs this really about, Yue-xiong?â
Ah. There it is. Being the mildest person of Yue Qingyuanâs admittedly sharp-tongued social circle doesnât preclude Mu Qingfangâs wit from being as keen as the scalpels he works with.
âI donâtâŚâ Yue Qingyuan falters. How to express to Mu Qingfang how manifestly unfit Yue Qingyuan is to care for any living creature at all? He changes tack. âI think he hates me,â he admits dolefully.
Mu Qingfang stares at him for a long time, long enough to imply that heâs reevaluating certain opinions about Yue Qingyuanâs intelligence. âYue-xiong, with all due respect to your new petâitâs a fish.â
âFish have emotions!â Yue Qingyuan argues. He flushes at the volume at which it comes out, and at the way Mu Qingfangâs eyes go wide-eyed in startlement. But the salesperson had been very insistent about that, as well. âBettas are intelligent animals. They dislike certain colors, apparently, and theyâre very sensitiveâah, to environmental disruptions, that is. Andââ
Mu Qingfangâs eyebrows are still high, but his face has relaxed into a smile. âIt sounds to me like you like it quite a bit already. Isnât that reason enough to keep it?â His tone curls with sudden mischief. âHave heart, Yue-xiongâyouâve hardly known each other for a day! Give it time to adjust to you, and Iâm sure youâll win it over as surely as you do everyone else.â And he grins, sure and easy in his trust that Yue Qingyuan wonât fumble and shatter something so small and monumental as a life that he could cup in his palms.
While Yue Qingyuan is still dazed by that, Mu Qingfangâs eyes alight with interest. âAh, Yue-xiongâwhat have you named it?â
â...â
Mu Qingfangâs face falls as devastatingly as it had lit up. âYue-xiongâŚâ
âMu-xiong is aware that I was unsure of whether or not Iâd keep him!â Yue Qingyuan is terribly aware that his ears are now heating up to match his cheeks. Mu Qingfangâs ensuing laughter does not help with that matter.
Yue Qingyuan is not very good at holding onto things. More often than not, he makes a mess of whatever heâs set his clumsy hands to, lets it fall right through his scarred fingers. But Mu Qingfangâs words ring through his head: Isnât that reason enough to keep it? And, well, isnât it? Surely Yue Qingyuan is adult enough to follow through on this. Maybe happiness can be look like his new betta swimming up to the tank to observe the new colorful form moving in front of it, can come as easy as Mu Qingfang quipping that his knowledge about fish is clearly lacking and vowing casually to read up on bettas to be a better fish uncle.
Yue Qingyuan buries a smile and walks over to let Mu Qingfang know that bettas can be trained to follow fingers around. The bettaâs clear preference for Mu Qingfang over Yue Qingyuan is as good a marker of intelligence as any fun fact the pet shop worker could have given him. Yes, Yue Qingyuan thinks with a smileâhe thinks heâll be keeping this after all.
#yqy in canon: i make impulsive decisions of a scale where they torpedo my entire life#me: got it. in a modern au he makes expensive impulse purchases and then returns them immediately after#bc he can't conceptualize doing things for himself and also has no idea how to spend all his money he doesn't know what to do with#(this is suchh a vague modern au lmao like mqf is obv still a doctor#but i didn't write yqy as his boss here and am not sure what he does in this world or why he's rich now#and i have no idea who the fucking pet shop salesperson was either. i think it's sqh though)#don't worry about it okay? just enjoy the yuefang and the fruits of my and nik's agenda to make all our fave sect leaders fish owners#i personally see mqf as older than yqy! in this au he thinks he could be really into yqy#but he respects that yqy doesn't seem to be looking for a relationship (and that he has some shit going on that he hasn't seen fit to share#with mqf yet)#so he's content to stick to some mild flirting while enjoying their friendship#meanwhile yqy is totally divorced from the concept of attraction (directed at or coming from him)#so he panics every time mqf flirts with him but has no fucking idea that that's actually what's happening on either end#they would be so good together :)) mqf is going to be such a good fish co-parent :)) this fish is going to get these two together okay :)))#the betta is a black dragon/orchid; i couldn't decide so it's up to you#writing this was kinda funny bc the fish could and probably should have been a metaphor for sj#but i wanted to write smth yqy-centric that didn't directly allude to him even once#and i succeeded!!!#the entire reason i wrote this as modern au was bc i thought of mqf calling yqy 'yue-xiong' and went insane btw#OKAY SHUTTING UP NOW. THANK YOU AGAIN ANON!!!!!#asks#anonymous#my writing#svsss#yue qingyuan#mu qingfang#yuefang#yqy tag
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Anyway I was thinking about Chris a lot lately and I wanted to draw Brent today so why not draw both!
(Angel is Chris' daughter who is like. 6 or 7. And she very happily has announced she will marry Mr. Right when she grows up and Right is just like "yes exactly, see, Chris? One person loves me enough to marry me I love my future wife" and it drives Chris up a wall. Brent normally calls her Angel but sometimes he has to push the button.)
#my characters#also just bc i think its fun to say bc its really old art#the original art of chris was actually the time brent realized he thought right was cute#it was just right sitting on chris' desk laughing at whatever they were talking about and brent was like oh god#hes so cute when hes genuinely happy what ???#that was the first time i drew chris lmao was him getting rights beaming smile which i think is nice for him#he deserves that tbh hes just a dad who accidentally dads his coworkers#chris is also one of the only ocs i have that doesnt spend the entire plot pining lmao#hes just divorced and now in a poly relationship but his daughter is from the divorce not one of the two hes dating#but he just is like hello there please look at my cute girlfriend and boyfriend#and right has to ask hey uh are you really dating two people and do they know you are dating two people#chris is just yup they sure do know considering they are also dating each other there are poly relationships buddy#and for what its worth i have not drawn either of the people he is dating yet they have names#and also both brent and right hate the boyfriend while karen is normally neutral but is swayed to dislike easily w him#oops i fell in love
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k, m, n, t for pd and/or suck!!! >:33333
K - What character has your favorite development arc/the best development arc?
-> you know i gotta say wiwi. i have to. that character was Made For Me i swear to GOD . genuinely i cannot think about prime defenders season 2 episode 39 without feeling physically sick bc i love it so much. its the only one i havent relistened to since i heard it the first time. i KNOW its gonna make me cry again so i genuienly have not touched it even though theres things in there i need to hear again for character research. his arc is so like. narratively satisfying in a way that hits me so fucking deep to my core in an extremely personal way. and like. there were definitely some Decisions that i was REALLY ANNOYING about hating when they were brought up because im used to media with bad storytelling/creators that do not care about their characters but. looking back on it i would not change a single thing about it. i love you wiwi so much.
-> FOR SUCK.... its not over yet. so i cannot definitively say. campaign finale comes out tomorrow so my answer may change depending on that but for right now i think i gotta say arthur. i joke a lot about hating arthur for no real reason in particular but. man his story is just REALLY good. not going 2 give you suck spoilers (hehe) but i also really like how shilo has grown through the campaign. hes my little guy :]
M - Name a character that youâd like to have for a friend.
-> TIDE. TIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIDE TIDE TIDE I LOVE TIDE SO MUCH. thats my dad thats my best friend i love tide so much dude. every time he is mentioned or on screen i am just like :D HI TIDE I LOVE YOU TIDE
-> grefgore :] light of my life this is how i feel anytime i think about grefgore
N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice).
-> CHARACTER STUDIES. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. I LIKE A GOOD SHIPPING FIC AS MUCH AS THE NEXT GUY BUT PLEASE GOD WRITE THEM IN CHARACTER. EXPLORE THEIR THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS AND WHY THEY MAKE CERTAIN DECISIONS THE WAY THEY DO. this doesnt even go for just pd and suck this is like. true for every single fandom ive ever fucking been in. do you know how hard it is to find character studies in the danny phantom tag on ao3. nobody has even fucking watched the show how are they going to write character studies they just want (<< i cannot legally finish this sentence without getting in so much trouble) I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING MY FUCKING SELF AROUND HERE. ALL I EVER WRITE ARE CHARACTER STUDIES BC THATS THE WAY I THINK ABOUT CHARACTERS. I LOVE THEIR MOTIVATIONS I LOVE TO GET INSIDE THEIR BRAINS LIKE A LITTLE PARASITE AND IT IS ALWAYS SURPRISING TO ME WHEN OTHER PEOPLE DO NOT THINK LIKE THIS. (edit im just now reading through this and realized the question says three things. i did not process that. my three things are all more character studies please)
T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending?Â
-> oh dude i have so many hmmmmmmm how to choose just one. i have a LOT of feelings about wiwis original death and i might write something about that when i can get over my shrimp emotions about him. dakota cole audhd truther but that ones pretty much canon anyway so i dont think it counts. vyncent and his relationship with growing up in fantasy world and then being thrown into prime and how he adjusted to that. I think he really lies shitty syfy channel type horror movies that are so stupidly bad. and also plays a lot of video games but again i think thats mostly canon already. i think tide listens to dad rock but also like. ocean man by ween. you already know about my william and ashe being each others emotional support at concerts. i think william and ashe should hang out and do emo kid things more. i also have a lot of feelings about ashe and coping with the crippling loneliness of basically growing up alone and how the pd becoming like INSTANT best friends was so much for him in sooo many ways. you already know how i feel about mark i am in the middle of dissecting him like im in a high school biology class as we speak. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i know im gonna think of something really good after i hit the post button so stay tuned
#ive written like. maybe 2 shipping fics in recent years and one was while i was high on post-wisdom-teeth-surgery drugs#and the other has been in my wips for over a year bc i got to the quote unquote romantic part and ran out of all ideas#<< ive started working on this one again and instead of making them kiss i just went on for like . 4 more paragrapsh#about how the robot character finds it inconvenient to be in a body that visibly emotes. so that explains a lot i guess#the murderbot influence has hit me apparently#I DONT REALLY HAVE MANY SUCK HEADCANONS. as much as i loooove the suckening it doesnt like. grip me quite as hard as#pd and riptide do.#same with bitb! i fucking looooove bitb and i think about it so much but i dont necessarily have hcs for it because i like.#prefer the way canon is??? if that makes sense????#I DO HOWEVER love to say the phrase âarthur bennett is a beautiful name for a butch lesbianâ only bc i saw a piece of fanart with#that as the caption after like. epsiode 3. and it got stuck in my mind#oh also idk if ur here yet but arthur and deacon are also divorced father toxic exes in my mind. they totally fuck in a vampire style#(<< which is . ALSO a quote from a piece of fnaart that got stuck in my mind so fucking hard. they totally fuck in a vampire style.#i hate it here)#GODDD THANK U FOR LETTING ME RAMBLE. CAN YOU TELL IM NORMAL ABOUT THIS#asks#intertexts#friends!!!
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It's like.
Sharena is Alfonse and Lif's sister (complicated on Lif's end but roll w me here) but neither Alfonse/Lif would consider each other brothers because they're one and the same. I think something similar happened with Peony and Sharena, where they started out as two people but became so intertwined and entangled that they became each other. Alfonse is Sharena's brother, unshakable, by choice now. Nothing will change the fact that, at one point, Sharena stopped swapping with Peony. Nothing changes the fact that at one point, that's the Sharena he grew up with, that he knows as his sister now. And even before then, "What's mine is yours". Alfonse was Peony's brother, so Alfonse is Sharena's brother. Unbeknownst to him, he had two sisters. Up until A Point.
So, in a similar way that Sharena is a sister to both Alfonse and Lif but Alfonse and Lif aren't brothers, Peony is Alfonse's sister but not Sharena's sister. Fused (Sharena and Peony) or Died (Alfonse and Lif). What does this make Triandra to Sharena? Another estranged sibling essentially, just like Peony and Alfonse, especially by "What's mine is yours" rules. Triandra was Sharena's sister. So Triandra is Peony's sister. What does this make Alfonse and Triandra? Technically unrelated. If the divorce game is insane you can have Sibling A be halfsies with Sibling B (eg: shared dad different moms) and Sibling B can have a Sibling C (same mom different dads) and Siblings A and C are literally unrelated (no shared parents between them). To me I like to think of Alfonse and Triandra as distant cousins. That is not how that works in this example but this is my belief based on vibes alone.
And man don't even get me started on how Triandra and Peony feel like half-siblings despite being (presumably) full siblings but Freyja fucking took her sister in the divorce (sibling. Divorce. Well. At least they're not together.)
#feh#back on this fucking bullshit LMFAOOOOOOOOO#i don't think it's going anywhere but like. look into my mind boy. as i parse all this out#the fucking. took x thing in the divorce joke is so natural to me i legitimately didn't think twice#that. literally happens. parents do take siblings in the fuckinh divorce. like that literally fucking happens.#one thing that drives me insane is how divorce coded this entire fuckinh situation is#and yet. henriette and gustav are the most fascinating study into a loving marriage until death do us part like literally.#also like. might be playing w fire here but intsys started it. reading the sweet dream/nightmare split#caused by freyr and freyja as a divorce situation is also really fascinating. not like literally#more like. figuratively. but the effects are extremely similar. the divide between family is what i'm getting at here#and esp how freyja at least very much acts as a mother figure to the nightmare fairies#like again. intsys started it. i'm just working with what you gave me.#sharena#fe peony#fe alfonse#fe triandra
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Chapter 17
continuation of byakuya's no good very bad worst shit ass day of his life (so far)(!!!)
SEE HERE FOR GENERAL WARNINGS AND FIC SUMMARY
Some pre-chapter notes:
this chapter went a little different from how i originally planned bc I was going to make byakuya much more stupid. but. he needs to fly off the handle several times later so. we can't let loose all at once
to be very fair to makoto he did not want to do that. and yet. here we are
the king of kings!! @digitaldollsworld
Content warning tags: ableist language from various characters, Byakuya's panic spiral, mild self-harm reference
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Time seems to grind to a halt. His breath is still caught in his throat, halfway through a relieved sigh as he had been waiting - expecting - for Makoto to help him. To pull up some vague, hidden piece of evidence to clear him of any suspicion, to cleverly point out some irrefutable proof that had previously lay unseen.
But instead - his heartbeats feel too heavy. His breathing feels too light, deprived of any real oxygen. His head pounds in the same way it did when he was struck earlier, with a dull, pulsing ring that washes out everything around him.
He prided himself, once, on being able to read a personâs intent. To judge just when and why they might choose to abandon him, to cross him, to try and use him for their own intents. For that reason, he supposes, is why this sickly, sticky feeling of dread is so new to him. Heâs never known real betrayal before.
His eyes dart around the room, but the others donât seem to believe Makoto just yet. Even Owada seems taken aback, stock still and quiet. Only Kirigiri seems unsurprised - or maybe, he was only imagining it, the tranquil quality of her silence. As if she were merely observing it all, far out of their reach.
âSeriously??â Syoâs voice is a grating jeer. âYouâre telling me this whole time he had no idea what I looked like? No wonder he didnât fall for me at first sight!â
âIâŚdonât think thatâs the reason why,â Hagakure says, though he seems utterly bewildered. âBut, that canât be right, right? Iâve seen him reading loads of times. And he practically lives in the library, yâknow?â
âYeah, and he can do things just fine for himself.â Asahina says in agreement. âI mean, he does his own laundry and stuff, and he knows this place way better than me at least. I didnât even know where the A/V room was during the first motive, I just sorta followed him.â
âYes, this is sort ofâŚâ For the first time, Celeste sounds genuinely surprised, her usually unphased demeanor wavering, her accent slipping for a moment. âAhem. While I did note that he sometimes seemed a bitâŚeccentric, so to speak, nothing of his actions suggested that he was impaired.â
Their skepticism is a small relief. He nods jerkily, unable to unstick his tongue from the roof of his mouth to verbalize his agreement. But itâs a small, pathetic movement that goes unnoticed, hardly amounting to anything in this large courtroom.
And their disbelief only goes so far. Ogami speaks up now, for the first time since the trial began, her low voice immediately silencing the whispers.
âI performed a concussion test on him earlier,â She says, gruffly. âAs Kyoko had asked me to. He was lucid when answering my questions, and he didnât seem to exhibit any symptoms that couldnât be attributed to other reasons.â Thereâs a slight creak of wood, as she shifts her weight on the stand. âHowever, I did notice that his pupils wereâŚstrange.â
âMy- what?â He sputters now, too suddenly, too loudly. He reaches up to touch slightly-trembling fingers to a closed eye, feeling the smooth bump of the cornea twitching beneath the thin skin of his eyelid as if he might be able to identify the damage that way. Why hadnât she mentioned this earlier? Why bring it up now? âWhat do you mean, âstrangeâ?!â
Thereâs a slight, panicked edge to his voice that he hopes no one catches, but this was the first time he heard that there could be physical evidence to his affliction. âIt was a bit hard to test without the proper tools, but I noticed that they do not react much to changes in light.â Ogami explains. âThe shape is also slightlyâŚoff. If I had to describe it, I would say that there isâŚa warping around the edges.â
âAnd you didnât think to mention it?!â
âI assumed it was either due to the head injury, or, it was genetic.â Thereâs an apologetic note to her words. âGiven your usual behavior, IâŚdidnât think it was important.â
Not important. As if she could know what was important here.
âI. Am not. Blind.â He snarls stiffly. âObviously, I have never taken a close enough look at my own pupils to notice that deformation, but it has never affected my daily life. I am not disabled, nor have I ever been.â
âI find it hard to believe that you have never been aware of it.â Kyoko remarks, tone clipped. âI canât imagine someone of your status being ignorant of anything concerning your physical health.â
âThen you can rest easy knowing that I am perfectly healthy.â He snaps back, venom flying off his words.
Distantly, he knows that he is digging a pit for himself. That admitting to this would help clear him of any suspicion at all. But he doesnât care; he would rather die than suffer such indignity. That was what heâs always known, taught by his butler, and then reinforced by all his surroundings afterwards, his siblings, his father - better to perish and let your enemies cry with relief and count themselves lucky, than let them mock you as you dig your own grave.
âYou should just admit it already. You are drawing this out to be unnecessarily long, or would you rather doom us all?â
âI donât see why I should cooperate with someone who has been making mindless accusations at me all this while.â
Thereâs a tense, snappish tension between him and Kirigiri. A livewire current. A piece of elastic stretched taut. He glares, and to him, her blurred form looks like that of a reared snake.
âUmâŚâ Asahina speaks up, her hand tentatively raised. âIf Byakuyaâs really blind, canât we just test it?â
âExcuse me?â
âI-I mean! Not saying that you are blind, or anything,â She says this quickly, carefully, like soothing a spooked horse. âBut, weâre not going to get anywhere if you two just keep arguing back and forth, and itâll be really quick! Like, Sakura, can you hold up a few fingers?â She complies silently, one arm remaining crossed across her chest, the other raised to her side. âHow many is she holding up?â
He tries not to squint, but he has no idea. Two? Three? It's nothing more that a blurred, brown shape. âYou canât be serious.â He almost laughs, but the sound he makes is derisive and bitter.
âY-yes, this is-! Unfair!â Now itâs Yamada, speaking up again. âIn case no one else has noticed, Mister Togami is lacking his spectacles! Asking such a thing of himâŚitâs akin to bullying!â
Heâs oddly assertive about this, and Byakuya watches as he pushes his own glasses a little higher. For some reason, being considered something of an equal by Yamada irritates him further. âShut up.â Who asked for his help.
âYes, be still please,â Celeste sighs dismissively. âWe are playing a game with our lives. This is hardly the time to be discussing moralistic issues.â Thereâs a slight metallic tap as she raps her silver finger guards against her rings. âBut you do make a point. Byakuya does not have his glasses at the moment. It would be difficult to try and confirm anything without them.â
Thank goodness for those with common sense. He doesnât look to his side, where she was standing, but he swears that he can see her eyes glancing at him, the unnatural red of her pupils bright on her pale face. âYes,â he agrees, seizing upon it. âAnd they were broken earlier, thanks to Owada. Nearsightedness runs on my motherâs side, and the former Togami head was farsighted. I will admit that much, is that what you wanted? Kyoko?â
Heâs rambling. Heâs aware of it. But there are a few nods exchanged, and Asahina scratches at the back of her head awkwardly, as if embarrassed. Kirigiri, however, is still unmoved.
âNo. When I say you are blind, I do not mean without your glasses. Or there wouldnât have been a point in bringing it up in the first place.â Kirigiri shifts her weight slightly, the sway of her stance accompanied by the creak of wood. âEven without your glasses, you cannot do tasks such as reading. I imagine youâve managed everything else by means of careful practice, but this is the one thing you canât manage on your own.â
âHey, Kyoko-â Makoto looks nervous, unsure whether to face him or her. âThat-â
âAnd how do you plan to prove this?â Byakuya snarls. He feels a small flare of triumph, even despite everything, the looming threat of death. âAs we found before, I donât have my glasses. Did you happen to pick those up as well? Did you repair them for me while you were at it?â
Instead of offering a retort, or any sort of reply, she sighs. A soft, tired sound.
âMakoto.â She isnât facing the other boy, but her tone is firm as she addresses him, and a little exasperated. She doesnât say anything more, but Makoto seems to understand, and his hands drop to his sides.
âThere is a way to prove it.â His voice is quiet. Quiet, andâŚsad, somehow. Defeated. âByakuyaâŚplease show us your handbook.â
The realization sets in slowly. Heâs already been betrayed by Makoto twice now, but still, he finds himself stunned, slack-jawed. This one was the worst by far - not only was he actively helping Kirigiri, he was betraying Chihiro as well, risking revealing everything to that accursed bear. And after all the lengths Byakuya had gone through to protect this secret.
âWhat are you saying,â He says, and his voice has a humiliating tremor that matches how his hands shake, clutching at the rail. Surely, heâs heard wrong. Surely, Makoto would correct himself, take it back-
âYour handbook. Chihiro, heâŚhe put a program on it that lets you be able to do stuff like tell the time. It also reads stuff aloud. And he did it after the motives got revealed, that night when Celeste saw you guys leaving the bathhouse.â He sounds so somber, so sad and grieving. He wonât meet Byakuyaâs eyes. âHe did it in exchange for you teaching him how to be strong, and self-confident - which you did, by telling him to go around talking to everyone else today.â
Without really thinking about it, his hand goes to his inner jacket pocket, where his handbook sits. His fingers close around the little device, the hard edges of plastic and metal pressing into the creases of his palm. He feels a little like heâs been shot.
But he doesnât bring it out. He glares instead, furiously, hatefully, at the boy standing just meters away. He - and Kirigiri too, most likely, Byakuya suspected that Makoto had already revealed everything that that woman - knew perfectly well the importance of Alter Ego, and why it could not, under any circumstances, be revealed. And they knew Byakuya was aware of this too, and they were holding this fact hostage, over his head.
(I could, some sore, beaten part of him thinks with poisonous intent, try and claim responsibility for Chihiroâs murder. I could say that theyâre wrong. That I lured Chihiro to the bathhouse with the intent of making him less wary, easier to isolate. That he was so weak and trusting and stupid that killing him was a simple manner. That I mimicked Syoâs modus operandi to throw suspicion off of me.)
The mere thought was shameful, but it was his pride, wounded and bitter, that was seriously considering it, if only for some semblance of control. The barest reassurance that he had any real weight at all in this trial. And all he would need to do is open his mouth and say the words.
But instead, he bites down on his inner cheek, hard enough for blood to trickle out the corner of his mouth, hard enough for the pain to rival the buzzing in his temples. And tightens his grip momentarily, just enough to feel the faint, humming warmth of the handbook against his sweating palm, and exhales slowly.
â...Fine. Fine.â He spits, angry, defeated, exhausted. Heâs sick of this. He just wants it to be over. âYes. Iâm blind. I have been so since we first woke up in this school. Are you happy now?â
Makoto looks down, his face shadowed by his hair. Kirigiri tilts her head slightly, a motion thatâs not quite a nod but more of a bow.
âWait, so then-â Asahinaâs voice, confused and a little hesitant, pipes up. âIf youâve beenâŚyâknow, this whole time, but only after we got to this schoolâŚdoes that mean the Mastermind did this to you, somehow?â
âThatâs what I would like to know, myself.â He turns to look at Monokuma, and finds the bear lounging across its throne, a bucket of popcorn resting precariously on the armrest. The repugnant toy giggles, and swings itself upright, spilling a handful of white puffs all over.
âGosh, I wonder?â The thing taps at its chin, voice taking on a wondering tone. âOf course, I want this game to be fair and give you all a level playing field. I believe in equality after all! âŚThough this has made for so many entertaining developments, soâŚI figured Iâd leave it as is. Besides, youâve adapted quite well, havenât you Mister Togami?â It cackles, paws clutching at its belly. âGIven how well you did hiding it from everyone, I think itâs fine if we leave it like this, donât you think?â
He wants to cross the courtroom and throttle the stupid thing this instant. All he can do is glare murderously, lips twisted into a snarl.
Thereâs a sharp clap that has most people jumping. The source of the sound is Kirigiri, whose hands are raised, and pressed together. âLetâs move on.â Her voice is firm, with no room for arguing. âAll weâve done so far is clear one personâs innocence. We still need to identify the real killer.â
And that was it. The most disgusting moment of his life, over just like that, ended by her words. He knows that thereâs bound to be some kind of punishment in store for those who interrupt trials, but he briefly wonders if he can get his hands around her neck before Monokuma can react.
Owada jerks at Kirigiriâs words, startled out of his own stunned silence. âW-wait,â He sounds panicked now, and of course he would be. His scapegoat is gone. âThen, if itâs not Byakuya, then whoâŚ?â
âLetâs consider what we know. Given how itâs not clear where the murder took place, it would have to be someone who had access to cleaning supplies or water, and has no alibi that can be verified when the murder occurred. For the most part, everyone here has an alibi that can be supported by at least one other person, but there are some that do not.â Kirigiri lists these calmly, and Byakuya imagines her cold gaze, flitting between each person in the room. âMondo. Do you care to explain what you were doing prior to the bodyâs discovery?â
The effect is immediate. The other boy rears up, instantly furious. âThe fuck are you trying to say? That Iâm a murderer?!â He thunders. âLike I said earlier, I was taking care of my bro. You know that. Everyone knows that!â
âAs you said earlier, Taka is currently compromised. He canât give a testimony.â She shoots back without hesitation. âYour alibi is flawed.â
âYeah? Well - well soâs yours!â He sputters. âLike- Syo mightâve been the one to find you in the bathroom, but that was just before Chihiro was found. Toko canât say that you werenât there the whole time, a-and even if you were, maybe the bathroom was where Chihiro died anyways!â
Owada may be stupid, but credit where credit was due, he was surprisingly quick to retort and pick at Kirigiriâs excuse. âI could not have cleaned up a murder scene in the bathroom so spotlessly in the time between Chihiroâs last sighting and the body discovery. As Makoto described earlier, the sinks of the bathroom were all dry-â
âThere was that sheet, you couldâve used that before smashing Chihiroâs head over it. And thereâs water in the toilets, right? And the girlâs bathroom was right next door!â
â...Iâll commend you for recognizing my perseverance. But I did not kill Chihiro.â She shakes her head. âIf the only thing that will clear me is secondhand support to my alibi, then the only thing that needs to be done is to ask a witness. Toko?â
And she addresses Syo now, who just cocks her head for a moment, and shrugs. âI keep sayinâ to you guys, itâs lights out up there. Thereâs no telling when sheâll be back!â
Byakuya has had enough.
âToko,â He says first, his voice low and hissing. Then, louder, building into a shout: âTOKO. Come out, NOW!â
âI donât think it works like tha-â Syoâs words are cut off suddenly, and she collapses where she stands, like a puppet with her strings cut.
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#thpff#thpff chapters#danganronpa fanfiction#byakuya togami#byakuya mentally filing for a second naegami divorce#sorry this one took so long.....my frontal lobe. it is soup#combination filing taxes + applying for classes + applying for jobs + etc etc. it'll do it to ya#going to really really really try to get 18 up by sunday but if its delayed do u prommy not to be too mad at me. do you. pls pls pls#i jest tho. thank u to everyone who has been reading thus far i hope you continue to enjoy it or move on to other things#just knowing you were here even if just for a moment even if for the whole ride is enough for me#i hope this chapter is legible i cranked out the last half of it at 2 am on a half bottle of soju#also had to mentally go over everything twice bc ive been listening to His Dark Materials audiobooks and my writing was turning british#byakuya frothing furious angry defeated at the stand while kyoko is just. o<-< are we done yet. can we please talk about the murder#theyre both toxic here and making everyone bear witness to it#alright folks lets take bets now on who you think the killer is!!!
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ok i might need to force myself to not romance astarion bc i don't want to know what it says about me to turn down karlach, the woman of my dreams, the character made to cater me personally, like, if she was real i'd bring the moon and stars down for the chance to see her smile, she's everything i've hoped for in a rpg companion, what does it say about me if i turn that down for someone like astarion
#ngl karlach would be too good for me and i wouldnt deserve it#shed probably ask me stuff like 'what do you want?' upon which i would be paralyzed with fear my mind completely blank unable#to process why i can't answer a simple question#and she's so up front with her emotions which i absolutely adore but i could not reciprocate that#wait am i actually for real avoiding the karlach romance bc i feel like this fictional character from a video game is too good for me#a real human being. like. i think i would feel guilty about romancing her#which makes no sense bc i romance characters too good for anyone all of the time. but idk#in those cases ive always had like a strong character i play as who is very divorced from who i am#but playing as durge there is no past so idk who my tav is yet so all i can do is project so he feels very. personal#im v sleepy and also ive had brain fog all day so yea idk#i mean i do genuinely like astarion and his character but in his case i dont feel guilty bc i feel like i#i have no idea how to finish that sentence without it sounding like 'i can fix him'#bc i dont want to fix him i want to show him compassion and respect him and his boundaries so he'll be able to reclaim tje feeling of#being in control of his life#so he'll stop putting people down to feel like hes on a pedestal#like i get him and why he is like that but i just feel like being kind and caring towards him would feel so good#it wouldnt fix him and thats a good thing bc i dont want him to change who he is but i do think he needs support#also hes hot im so mad at myself for being so atteacted to him#we wouldnt b here if i didnt have a thing for voices#besides thag back to the main point of astarion its like. ugh! im so frustrated rn bc i dont have the words#to express my emotions toward him bc everything ive said lacks the nuance that im feelikg but idk how to put it in words#i guess i want to protect him? that such a terrible sentence and still not what om going for
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I need to stop turning every situation i am in into kaigami its actually rotting my brain
#yesterday i almost miss my bus stop on the way home bc i was thinking about them and today also on the bus there was a#cute couple in front of me and the guy was sleeping with his head on his gfs shoulder and they were holding hands and sharing headphones l#like the whole package of cuteness and i immediately thought about kaito and yagami in that exact situation orz#actually some time ago i was drawing something very similar but it was way above my skill set so there it sits unfinished forever#rant#not yakuza#i also do the same w kuwagami but i have yet to see a divorced couple argue irl
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Cherryfall, warrior of ThunderClan
#cherryfall#omen of the stars#a vision of shadows#the broken code#a starless clan#warriors#wc#warrior cats#she takes a lot after her dad i think#ok so here... i havent decided yet but shes a honeyberry kid or a poppyberry kid. cause i like the idea of both#im leaning towards honeyberry though. child of divorce. sorry. shes not coping well with it#idk what theyre doing making her this conservative lady in later books or whatever so im not really doing that here#buuuuut i do like the idea that shes a snob. shes girl berrynose and shes making it your problem#its partly just that shes acting out really but shes always acting kinda stuck up. just a brat. darling. shes so silly <3#shes also a little pink cause she deserves it#also most of the daisykin have folded ears
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i missed her dumb face sm
#ts4#sims 4#the sims 4#sims 4 blender#sims 4 render#blender#oc: charlotte#i decided to remove wren from her storyline#and debating if river will stay or not (probably bc river is MY baby i birthed him)#she is also divorced#so single charlotte once more aka my fav#i have also removed her pets from the storyline too besides her kitties#and now this new puppy who is nameless#anyways i have been itching to create a new oc so i think imma do that#or bring back scarlette idk yet#have an idea for a new one i just cant get her face right#im done rambling#see u in 5 months
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i see or hear alternative/punk rock content and arata screams at the top of his lungs to let him out
#sorry to be talking about yet another muse but i won't lie!! arata pops into my brain kinda often!!#i'm in my creating/revamping oc's era rn i guess asdf#bc maybe i could just kinda?? scratch all his original stuff and maybe the original stuff for all his bandmates too#refocus him a bit somehow#i'll always be attached to stand out!!'s original dynamic but i also think it'd be nice if i maybe left some of those connections open#for others to take? like you have a muse who would be the front man of a band?? or the drummer?? lead guitarist??#cool bc arata's a bassist!! play with him!! be his bandmate!!#also just thinking about him being the driving force behind the band -- he's the reason they get together#which was partially the concept before but not completely#i think this time i would want to focus more on the idea that arata pretty much loses stability at home once his parents divorce#his sister doesn't live with him anymore#so he's determined to build a new family even though he doesn't realize that's what he's doing#this band becomes his world not just bc he loves music but bc it's all that he feels he really has -- it keeps him sane#i dunno y'all asdfg i like the idea but should i bring our silly lil bassist back to bug everyone? am i doing too much :' )#also i'm back!! gonna try to get some things done now that it's quiet <3#get ready to ramble | ooc
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Hadestown can be something so personal
#which is to say im thinking AGAIN abt trigun#like basically all (or MOST) of the GHGs wind up dead i think rosario is no exception#however comma listening to this musical again im getting ideas#ergo his death being oh i dunno#something something orpheus turning around at the last minute to see eurydice#so im thinking he gets out to do SOMETHING idk quite what yet and he promises knives hell be back he PROMISES#he almost makes it back#almost#just in time for knives to see his body fall#AGAGAGAGA many thoughts head full#on the other more lighter note they also totally have that quasi-divorced vibe hades and persephone do#bird chirps.txt
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